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Episode #182: The Ebb and Flow of Giving and Receiving: Navigating the Tides of Self-Worth · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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Hey, everybody, welcome to tea time with Amy and BEV. Good day,
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good day, good day everything. Oh good. What's on your mind?
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What's on my mind? You know what's been on. What's come up
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a lot this past week is giving and receiving. So I did a presentation
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for a group that I'm a part of and talked about this giving and receiving.
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And then I officiated a wedding yesterday and two ladies were standing there.
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I was standing off to the side, but two ladies were talking, and
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one of them was handing out the wedding program and everybody she gave a program
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to, or as people were approaching, she would compliment them everyone. And
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the other lady acknowledged that. She's like, you give you compliment everybody,
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or you say something nice to everybody, and she's like, well, just
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I want them to feel good, you know, And I was like And
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then they proceeded to talk about how it's easy for them to give compliments but
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not receive them, and of course I was like kind of perked up,
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like I can move in here and have a little conversation with these two.
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But as it turned out, wasn't the good time for it, which was
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fine and no worries on that part, but just the idea and it's women
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then that's just keeps coming up, and the idea that we are not comfortable
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with receiving even a compliment. It isn't that interesting, Like we can give
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them out all day long, but to receive one is like doesn't feel good.
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So what do your thought? I hear you before that, And I
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have another soul sister that she's came into my life, got through my gym,
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and she compliments everybody, and then she's she's received the compliments too,
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So it's just it's been a wonderful thing. She's actually created more of a
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family environment. I know more about people now and it's not like anything gossipy.
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It's from a loving awareness and making connections with more people that I've been
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seeing their faces for so long, didn't even have their names, never stopped
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and probably wouldn't have remembered them anyways, but you know, being in that
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space of and it goes along with the giving and receiving, and the more
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that she's given compliments out, the more that these people have opened up and
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shared their story about how they came to be who they are right now,
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and it's been very phenomenal. But also she had made a comment justice past
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week because we were working out together and she said she was going to go
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pick up her daughter. And then she comes right back in and she says,
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can you take me to go pick up my daughter? I couldn't,
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she couldn't get her car to start, and I said yeah. And then
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later on the conversation was you know, the next day was she's like,
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oh my gosh, thatd I say thank you, and she says, and
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she said it was it's not always easy for me to come in and ask
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for that help, right to ask, and so which kind of goes hand
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in hand. I feel like with the receiving of the compause, that's that
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giving and receiving, and it's used to being the giver. You know,
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she's got she's got her children and her family, so she's always giving to
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them, always moving them around, running around her inner. You know,
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I'm my boards are not creating what I want to create, but she's not.
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She's been doing a lot for a lot of other people, but not
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allowing, not receiving. And then when she received that, she was like,
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oh my gosh. Then she's like second guessing did I say thank you
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and that you know, dah da da da dada. She's going through the
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process and realizing that it's it was all about just giving and receiving. That's
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what it's all about. It's being able to be in that receiving side,
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because even if we were giving all the time, at some point we want
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to have money or we want to have, you know, something to help
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facilitate our lives. Well, we're here having this human experience on planet Earth.
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So it's we've got to there's got to be an allowing of that energy
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to flow in instead of that trickle of that energy to come in. So
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and that goes hand in hand with giving and receiving. It's it's got to
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be in that ebb and flow the Infinity sign. It's it's got to be
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a constant ebvanflow of giving and receiving. I say, it's scotty, but
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it's in balance. It's in balance and harmony while we're here. Yeah,
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what was interesting becauys I was given the presentation. I asked, how are
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you in receiving and a few of the people said, well, it depends
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on who it comes from. And then do what I said, trying to
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control right now, they're trying to keep control how they're receiving. Yeah,
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and so there was a pause, and of course I was like, can
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you please explain that? And they said, wow, it's hard to receive
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from people who I know don't aren't as fortunate as I am. And one
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of them said, as an example of my kids, like, I know
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that they're you know, they're getting by, but they don't have a lot,
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and so when they give me a gift, it's uncomfortable. I was
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like, isn't that interesting, So just getting their perspectives, and of course
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the question is, well, why do you give? Well, I give
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because it feels good. And then as through this conversation, I said,
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then we're having a contradictory conversation because you give because you want to feel good,
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but you don't want other people giving you. So we're basically we're saying
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they can't feel good interesting negatting the gifts. And then that goes back to
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the conversation we've had in our last video of war having a war, you're
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having a war within the side because you're holding you're holding on two ends of
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a stick and nothing can happen and that's that's amazing. So just bringing to
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light the way we think. And my biggest point in that conversation was we
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do things for other others because it raises our oxytocin and it's a feel good
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hormone that we produce naturally that helps our body heal, it helps our body
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feel good. And so if you're not if you even a compliment, if
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somebody gives you a compliment and you negate that that compliment. So if I
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said, oh my gosh, Bev, I just love the way your hair
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looks, and then you're like, oh my gosh, I didn't even watch
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it, right, dating my compliment, you're negating my viewpoint. You're negating
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just that feel good moment. So you're not allowing yourself to allow the oxytocin
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in your body either. And you're controlling that conversation by saying putting that hand
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up and like, no, I'm not worthy of this compliment. I don't
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deserve this compliment. I don't want you seeing me right, I don't want
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you acknowledging me. And so yeah, just having this conversation with these ladies
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was enlightening because this isn't the type of they're very they're all what you would
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call majority of them, like ninety eight percent of them are like those apes
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personalities and controlling and leaders and uh spotlights, you know. And so to
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bring that to their awareness, like, oh, so it's okay that you
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feel good, but it's not okay if somebody else feels good by doing something
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for you and we're creating, so it's the same. So using that as
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a compliment. When I when I'm at the gym and I've done this so
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I know I'm negating it, They'll say, oh my god, you look
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like you're so tight and all this stuff, and it's like, oh,
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well, you haven't seen me naked or you know what I mean. I
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might make it and not hopefully Hopefully this keeps us on the on the channel
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because sometimes you can't say those kind of words. But anyways, but it's
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like saying something like that and I'm automatically negating it, but I'm also creating
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from the space that I'm just negated. I'm creating. What's something I don't
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want to create. I'm being given a compliment of what someone else is visually
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seeing about myself, whether I see it or not, and I can take
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that I can receive that and be like, oh, yeah, things are
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changing. I am getting stronger, I am getting instead of breaking ourselves down.
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And because that's what I was doing, I've been doing that for so
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long, even when I was gosh, one hundred and thirty pounds, you
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know, and I was just all muscled. I was just nothing but muscle,
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and even at getting it back then, even like oh, talking about
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like aging skinners, I'm using that as an example because there's there's all the
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stuff going on, and when someone says, oh gosh, your face looks
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so good today, it's not like, because what will happen? You stand
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back and is like get defensive, right, And but that's something I have
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been letting go of that whole process and seeing that because it's that's not how
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it's coming across. And if it is, it doesn't happen anything to do
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with me at all. That's someone else's And that's the other thing you recognize.
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We feel things, and so sometimes us receiving from someone else, we
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might be feeling that other person's stuff instead of just receiving the gift, thank
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you, And then you start feeling into the whole thing. Well, this
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person feels like maybe they're not doing maybe they have other intentions or whatever.
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I could go down the list of things and that might not even be true.
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It might be how they're feeling about life in general, and now you're
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perceiving it is that's how they are, and that's not even necessary. You
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know, I'm bringing in extra stuff with the feeling stuff because it kind of
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can get confusing. But it can get confusing because you're trying to perceive someone
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else how they're feeling through your own filter, and they have their own filter.
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So however you're perceiving it, it's not necessarily one hundred per cent true
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and accurate compared to what the other person's offering up. And they're just dealing
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with things that you might be sensing or feeling. So it's like this whole
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process. So it's like just getting into that space and not dipping into the
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energy. It's just simple thank you. I remember my stepdad, you know,
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coming by and our relationship. What didn't always feel that way. It
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always felt like if I was giving a given a gift, there was something
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that was wanted to return massage or come clean my weeds, go with me,
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whatever, whatever, because there was all that's how it was. But
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it was simply one time that he had put one hundred dollars bill underneath the
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windshill weggber on my truck and he had said, hey, I left a
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gift on your truck. And from that moment, without having to even process
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all the other history that there was there, I said thank you. I
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appreciated that because it was at a time that I, you know, I
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was in felt like I was in a need of that at that time and
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that and I didn't ask, but it was brought and it was delivered.
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It was awesome, and I didn't bring in all the past stuff at that
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time. I just simply said thank you. Of course I might have thrown
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on the end of it. You didn't have to, you know, And
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that's almost like the say no, they didn't have to wanted to. So
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it's like not even putting anything negative up about the whole situation. So it's
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just the whole process and it's and I remember also feeling like, you know,
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it could have came from anybody else, and because it came from him,
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so I had to go through the process and then I am God.
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That was probably seven years ago, and you know what I mean, so
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there's been a lot of and I've had a lot of change, and I
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can see it now. It was just simply a thank you was great just
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having that appreciation, which is what I do now. It's just being in
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that form of appreciation. I put two tires on my truck recently, and
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you know, I've been wanting a newer vehicle, but it's like I haven't
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really found something that I'm one hundred percent locked into that I want, and
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I got the tires on my truck and I have been enjoy I'm like,
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oh my god, this is so amazing. And then I come home the
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other day and then Frama is like, what's going on in the back of
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your truck right here? Well, someone had either gotten under my vehicle,
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it doesn't matter what happened, but something had damaged it and had stripped had
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broken the wires away from me being able to tow. And then as we
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were sitting here, I'm processing that, Well, then that means maybe it's
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not time for me to do any moves because I wouldn't be able to attract
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a trailer to do the moving right now until that's prepared. So it's like
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it's not initially I was upset. It's like, oh, here's three hundred
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dollars apart. Right the other side of that, it's like, hmm,
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is that really a bad thing? Maybe it's just a message for me that
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now it's not the time for me to move it's not the time for me
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to move forward from the truck. It's just to appreciate this struck. Where
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I'm at right now, not a big deal at all. But then it
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changed the whole perspective. Then it felt different. So I take it back
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to the fielding part again. And and that's part of the giving and receiving
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thing, because if you're not allowing giving and receiving, you're not allowing yourself
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to feel things. You're like totally blocking yourself off from so much beautiful experiences
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in your life, so much flow in your life, so much appreciation,
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being able to give more because you have more coming in, because you're receiving
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more. It's just it's, like I said, it goes hand in hand
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and you and it's a process too, because if you're if you're wanting to
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feel good and somebody comes along and gives you a compliment with the intention of
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a compliment, is the intention of helping you feel good, and then you
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negate it and push away. Then it's like we go into the co creation
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with the universe, and that signal is it's like the signal to the universe
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like I'm not ready to receive or I'm not ready to feel good and that
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interest. So it's like it's a it's a I want it, but I
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want it. But yes, and people, we are all messengers for each
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other. So it's no different than than your stepdad giving you one hundred dollars.
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You're like, okay. You were probably internally asking I need some money
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for you know, to pay this bill or buy groceries or whatever their circumstances
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were, and then this one hundred dollars shows up. Now you could have
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said, oh no, uh, you know you keep that, you don't,
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you don't have to give that to me. I'm okay, No,
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You're like, thank you, because I've been asking and this is gonna help
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me and and you know, and it doesn't matter to me. It doesn't
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matter if if you repay that hundred bucks to him or you go and do
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something later for another person to help somebody out. That I'm just like the
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whole pay it forward yes, it's like, if I help somebody out,
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I know I'm gonna I'm gonna put this way. I'm going to believe that
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at some point in their life they're gonna be able to help somebody out.
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And it doesn't have to be me, right, but we what we tend
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to do though with that is getting to the store. Oh he gave me
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one hundred dollars, Now I need to do something for them. And and
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then that's still not allowing yourself to receive. There's only two words we need
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to know and say, and this is thank you. That is it.
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The universe delivered. I asked, the universe delivered thank you. I'm not
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kidding you. I My husband shares kind of you know. It's one of
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those things where it's like if he just moves in the right way, it's
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just gonna crumble. I'm like thinking, I was thinking, Oh, I'm
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just gonna you know, this is something we can do for Christmas. Like
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Christmas, we'll just get him a recliner or whatever, get him a new
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recliner. So I go to this event. They have a drawing. It's
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for a new recliner. Who guess who wins? I was so excited.
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I'm like, are you kidding me? Right now? It's fantastic, And
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so I was just like, that's amazing, awesome, right, yes,
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because you're in the you're in the allowing to receive the difference. Yes.
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And then so in this same uh, same organization, I just did this
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whole presentation about giving and receiving, talking about giving overgiving, you know,
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giving from an empty cup, uh, which really we can't do, and
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then receiving and you know, being okay with that and saying thank You're like
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it was whole presentation, like's thirty minutes long. So then we do a
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fifty to fifty drawing and we have a guest and I already know that this
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guest, not because I know her, but because I know her energy.
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This guest is not good with receiving. She is an overgiver. She won
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the fifty to fifty, which was like eighteen bucks and donated it back immediately.
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I was like, isn't that interesting? Even after sitting here and listening
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and saying, you know, going through this hole, I did this whole
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exercise with them about I'm open to receive and you know, saying thank you.
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Like we did this whole thing, and not two minutes later she wins
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fifth to fifty donates right back. It's like, wow, okay, here's
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my card, Come see me make it up. Not really, I didn't
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say that, but you know, it's just like, isn't that interesting?
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So allowing yourself the ability to just say thank you without condition, like,
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because you know, sometimes you go to lunch with somebody and they pay the
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bill and immediately you start thinking, oh my gosh, I gotta take them
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lunch. Next time we go out, I'll buy lunch. We go into
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that whole story of well, I got to do this next time, right,
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And so instead of just embracing the moment, what if there's not next
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time, What if you go out and get hit by a car and you
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die, there's not next time, And so just be in that moment of
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receiving and just being okay with that. I mean, we've been programmed,
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especially women, that it's not okay to receive. That we're not supposed to
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have abundance, We're not supposed to be prosperous or whatever that story was.
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It wasn't demonstrated in the healthy way that women could be abundant of goodness,
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that we are to give. We're to take care of the husband, the
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spouse, the children, the house, all the stuff, the grocery shopping,
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the bookkeeping, all of it. And that's just the way it is.
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And we come last. And it's you know, it comes back to
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to me. Receiving is that feminine energy. It's raising that feminine energy,
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and get better and better with receiving helps collectively with the feminine energy. So
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just open yourself up and graciously say thank you. It's true. And when
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you were talking about that how women have been a lot in the past with
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a lot of us giving and stuff like that, it almost creates, well,
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it most frequently creates a codependency. So realizing that it's out of balance,
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that's all of that. It's letting you know at that particular time,
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is out of balance. Yeah, this we're not. We're not in harmony
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at all with with our giving and receiving. And so that's important too,
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because I was spend One of my big deals too is to I want Mike.
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We don't know how long we're here, and I don't know who's going
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to go first, it doesn't matter, but it's like appreciating everything that's here
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while I'm here, and it's being in that appreciation for allowing that receiving even
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if I know that, like you were having that conversation about, uh,
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you know, their child giving them something and that's pretty that's a pretty big
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deal. But appreciate it, appreciating it because it puts some in that space
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of feel good, right, And when we're feeling good, it doesn't matter
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that they gave from what you might consider an empty cup, not you,
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but the person you know that we're referring to, or myself. It's not
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it doesn't matter about that stuff because then we're negating it again. But when
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we're in that place of receiving it, we're we're also allowing them to learn
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how to give, because not always if we're the ones that we're always giving,
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they haven't learned how to give. So they're learning how to give themselves
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and then learning how to receive. If they've watched if my kids watched me
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growing up, and I always made sure that they had all the best stuff
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and I didn't have stuff, you know, I didn't have the new clothes
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and everything else. I'm teaching them to only you know, I'm teaching them
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the same thing that I'm doing right now just to be givers and never allowing
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for receiving. So it's even being able to give to ourselves, allowing ourselves
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to receive from self and not feel guilty about that. But also, like
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you said, it's even allowing that child when they're giving you something like that,
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to appreciate. It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter how they managed to
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do it. They did it and they feel proud about it, and it's
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not changing it the feeling for them that they were able to do that for
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you. I've got such amazing gifts that so thoughtful things that my kids have
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given to me. And I could have assumed that they were in a space
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to be giving in that space and probably have not. Probably, So you
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know when I say probably have I have, I have been in that space
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thinking gosh that I know they didn't. They shouldn't have done that because they
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didn't have anything to give right now. But it changes the vibrational frequency.
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It's the whole thing that we've talked about in the last video. It's about
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being happy, and to be in that space of happy is for us to
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be able to get to others and to be able to receive and the other
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person needed to give to you, so that you've got to be thankful about
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that receiving because that helps them too. It's a big, huge ripple in
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the pond. And we create the story for the other people too, So
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you don't know, maybe they have a lottery ticket one ten thousand dollars,
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maybe they got a bonus from work five thousand dollars, right, and they're
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like, oh, we got a little extra money. We can do something
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nice for my mom, or do something nice for this person. But we
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in our head, we create the story for them that they don't have enough.
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And then also what you're saying about, you know, buying them new
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things, that was also demonstration demonstration of worthiness, of the fact that other
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people deserve better than you. Yeah, that we were unworthy you get bringing
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new clothes, but I'm going to go goodwill and go shopping, right,
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Yes, just that demonstration of that other people are more worthy of valuable or
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new or fresh stuff, and I come last or I come second, and
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so whatever is left over is what I get to do for myself. And
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a lot of people will just put themselves on the back burner and never do
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for themselves because they don't want the attention because they don't feel like they're good
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enough, they're not worthy enough, they're not valuable enough. They don't want
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to be seen because all the stories right be seen and not heard. And
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how we're changing that, Yeah, not fun side, it's it's yeah,
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which they changes the whole experience to be here right, Honestly, what I
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hear Sonaya so Susann Eeseman Snaia was talking had come through at one time,
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and she was talking about saying how people don't want to come back, I'm
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never coming back, and then never. The whole crowd laughed and she says,
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yes, we laughed as well because we know that's not true. It's
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that that maybe how we feel here. But it's like we're in a space
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now where I don't feel that way more I have been for a long time.
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I'm like, I'm coming back. I'll come back if if if I
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can change things, if I change is not the right word. If I
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can do and be for the greater good of all while I'm here, I'm
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coming back. I'm coming back. And it's it's not because I'm excited about
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it now. I'm excited about it because I'm getting excited about life and it
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doesn't feel like it's a prison. It doesn't feel like it's a I don't
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need to bring into the negativity to demonstrate. But it feels free. It
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feels like I have my life. It feels like I can do anything anything,
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And that can get kind of scary for a lot of people too,
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because then it's so open ended, like I can do anything. What do
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I want to do? Right? And then we go back to the whole
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conversations. It's following your path, it's following your happiness. It's following whatever
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you feel like as a desire for you that you're you're gravitating towards. If
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there's certain books that you hear about, you want to read about those more
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because it's got a calling for you. It's letting me know, hey,
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come this way, come this way. And it's such a gentle path.
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We haven't talked about the intuition for a long time, but it's like it
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gets louder and louder. And I will tell you something. Last night I
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found this quite interesting. I was I woke up like around three o'clock.
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This happens a lot. See, I'm creating for the future. So anyways,
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recently I had woke up around three o'clock and I'm having these thoughts and
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then I hear something. I heard somebody say Bev like what are you what
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do you what? Are you really asking her something weird? And then I
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thought, wait a minute, this felt weird to me. It didn't feel
26:06
like it. I'm bringing it up because it was kind of an odd thing.
26:07
It didn't feel like it was from my guardian or my It didn't feel
26:14
positive because I can't remember the exact words how it was used. And I
26:18
thought, well, it's not interesting. That's an interesting because I heard someone
26:22
say bad and I heard him saying something to me, and it, like
26:25
I said, it didn't feel good, and I'm like, this isn't from
26:29
my team, because from my team it would have been because my team knows
26:30
me, they know what I want. So it's like it was almost like
26:36
as if they were saying, we don't even know what you want. And
26:37
it's like, that's not even true, that's not I don't feel like that's
26:41
true at all. They have a better idea of what I want more than
26:42
anything, because I don't. You're not wrapped up in you know, everybody's
26:48
energy that's on the planet or emotions or any that kind of stuff. So
26:52
I probably am not being very clear about it. But it was just an
26:55
odd It was odd, And it goes back to the intuition, listening to
26:59
that, recognizing how does it feel, because when our intuition comes to us,
27:03
it's more neutral, it's more loving, or I can say more loving,
27:06
because when it comes from spirit, it doesn't it's not coming from a
27:10
negative place. And when I had received that information last night, it was
27:12
like a negative I'm like, oh, well that's interesting, okay, Archangel
27:17
Michael, surround me, help me uplift my energy, help me maintain my
27:22
energy, and keep me protected. And it was that simple, and I
27:26
felt like a shift. But it was that simple that something came through.
27:29
And I don't even understand really why what dipped because it was in the middle
27:33
of the night, right, But a lot of times when I wake up
27:36
like that, that's when thoughts, well, if my mind is on an
27:41
old disc, an old flying disc that I visited way too long, that
27:45
it might be in my experience again to let me know, hey, this
27:48
isn't really where you want to spend your time, and reminding me to get
27:51
back on that happy trail, right, so it was just like I said,
27:55
it was interesting. It was interesting, but it was also demonstrating where
27:57
I was at right at that moment. It was mirroring to me, even
28:00
though I didn't have really anybody in that experience at that particular time to mirror
28:04
to me except for this this boys coming through and talking to me. So
28:15
have you been asking for for clarity or anything like that recently? I'm just
28:19
curious as to Oh as far as no, not that I not that I
28:25
can think of. But doesn't mean that we don't have it asking when we
28:27
haven't experienced, you know what I mean, Because we set out rockets of
28:30
desire if we want to if we want to go to that route. So
28:33
that's possible too. But it's but I did recognize I used to always ask
28:38
for that. I haven't asked for that for a long time. For clarity,
28:42
it's been a while. Yeah, But I understand where you're going with
28:47
that, because that would be another way of identifying. But I just recognized
28:51
how it felt, and it just didn't it like cop It's like what like
28:55
someone's talking to me like I'm in a group and then someone's sopping. I
28:56
was like, no, that's not what I No, that doesn't sound right
29:00
at all. But so it's just to be in that awareness. So I
29:03
don't know, I don't know why. That's why I'm bringing it forward right
29:07
now, but it's just a share thing for some of someone who ever hears
29:11
yeah, maybe don't have an experience too. And it's not to be afraid
29:14
of. It's not something to be fearful of. I wasn't in fear.
29:18
I was just like, no, that's not right, that doesn't sound right,
29:21
that doesn't feel right. Yeah, it's good. Lord. If anyone
29:23
knows this, it's our guardian angel, it's it's our universal team. They
29:27
see us from a totally different perspective. Yeah, and they co create with
29:34
us based on where we're at with ourselves and what we're focused on, and
29:41
so it comes back right, whatever we're focused on is what we're going to
29:44
receive. And if we're focused on wanting goodness and goodness comes to us,
29:51
that's up to us to receive. So it's kind of interesting because I feel
29:56
like it was almost like a test. Now that we're having it feels like
29:59
a test. It almost felt like it was like letting me know, like
30:02
to be aware that this stuff could come forward, but as to recognize that's
30:06
not how that's not how it flows through. It can because I've like I've
30:10
I've talked about different channelers. There's so many different channelers I've listened to.
30:14
Some are super high, like over exuberanged and you know, just really much,
30:19
and then there's some that are very thoughtful and they're bringing forward information that's
30:26
very like I've talked about, like scientific or more about where they're at and
30:30
what we can do. And I'm always about For me, from my perspective,
30:33
it's always about possibility. Everything is always a possibility of positive and amazing
30:38
things, the miracles that could happen. So for me, it was recognizing
30:44
even if I if I was Doe channeling, even if I'm if I'm going
30:47
to do communication with spirit, if I wanted to be the be the bridge
30:51
to the medium ship, recognizing that not there's other things that can come through
30:56
sometimes, other energies that can come through sometimes recognizing what that is. So
31:02
it's almost like I was like being I was having a little school rumors last
31:06
night, three o'clock in the morning probably you know, usually that's between three
31:11
and four, two thirty to four, So they're like they're like classes in
31:17
session now at three am. That's right, And I don't okay with that.
31:22
Gosh, before, when I was younger, that would have blown my
31:26
That would have irritated that. It would not have made me happy. Let's
31:30
just put it to you that way, because it wouldn't allow the sleep to
31:33
continue all night long. And now I recognize, well, again, isn't
31:37
that interesting how this is showing up for us? You know, isn't it
31:41
interesting? Even getting my tires done and getting things fixed on it and then
31:44
something else happens to it. I could have looked at it like oh,
31:47
and I did initially like like, oh, here we go again. You
31:49
know something else. This reminds me of my forward, you know, trying
31:52
to fix my forward up and things weren't going that on the path. And
31:56
it's like, nope, I'm looking at it from a different perspective. I'm
32:00
not looking at it from that. Even though I initially had decided to step
32:02
on that disc and then I thought, no, this is not working for
32:06
me. Yeah, because it doesn't feel good, because it definitely doesn't feel
32:08
good if I gotta make up a story like well, maybe a uniform was
32:13
flying unner of a truck and it cotton on accident. I don't know,
32:17
but it makes it more fun, and it's more fun brings us into laughter,
32:22
right, and laughter brings into us into a higher vibrational frequency. So
32:25
and then I know things are always going to work out. I know I'm
32:28
being supported, i know I'm being taken care of. So it's like,
32:30
what what do I get to learn from these things? Not to take freaking
32:35
shit? So seriously, it's not that serious, not that serious. Yeah,
32:40
just I remember how serious I used to be in good gosh, I
32:47
was exhausting me too exhausting. Wow. Yeah, you know, to be
32:55
light and laugh and laugh at myself. I mean, first of all,
32:59
I just laugh at myself. And you know, here's the thing. I
33:04
just want to say this. You know, this could take us on a
33:07
whole nother conversation, but I just want to say that if if you're already
33:14
laughing at yourself for what you see as a flaw, and you think other
33:19
people are judging you for it, that if if somebody else brings it up,
33:22
so like, for example, in a heavy way, is a bully,
33:25
if if you're afraid of bully is going to point that flaw out.
33:30
If you're already laughing about it, they can't. There's nothing for them to
33:36
hurt you with, right, So it's just like anything else anywhere else in
33:42
life, in the workplace, in your relationships, if you already have flaws
33:46
that you're aware of that you might see as flaws. To me, I'm
33:52
just like, it's just part of who I am. Whatever. But if
33:57
you're seeing them as flaws and you're afraid somebody else is judging you for it,
34:00
if you're already laughing about it, there's no there's no judgement there.
34:07
They can't judge you on it. They won't even give attention to it because
34:10
you're already laughing about it. You're already bringing it up and talking. That's
34:15
what comedians do. Comedians talk about themselves on stage and they point out the
34:21
crap that they do and they laugh about it. Well, if they're already
34:22
doing it, nobody else can point the finger at them and laugh at them
34:27
in a judgment mental way is trying to put them down or control them or
34:31
anything. So it's pretty interesting, is it is. And it's different perspectives
34:39
of different ways of looking at things, and it does change things. And
34:45
also recognizing when someone is judging you, because it's been in my experience even
34:49
recently. And there was a couple of girls that had come up to talk
34:52
to me and they were giving me compliments, but they were like like faces
34:55
weren't matching the compliments and looking me up and down and stuff like that,
35:00
and I wasn't paying attention to a lot of that stuff. And then one
35:04
of my daughters had noticed, and it's like she's like, you know,
35:07
getting like upset about and it's like, that's not my that's not about me.
35:14
It has nothing to do with me. That's about them because they're judging
35:16
themselves. And then when they're looking at me like that because they're harshly judge
35:21
themselves, and that's okay. It's it's being in that space again of recognizing
35:27
this isn't about me, even if they're trying to make it about me,
35:30
it wasn't about me. They're appreciating me from the way that they can appreciate,
35:36
you know, just different conversations that we've had before. But it's it's
35:40
it's the same. I mean, when we talk about people judging and stuff,
35:44
it's it's the or even us judging another. It's really it's the judgment
35:49
we have on ourselves, and when we're looking at someone else, we think
35:52
you can think that you're judging someone else, but you're judging another aspect of
35:54
yourself. I have a butterfly flying around the windows, like, yeah,
35:58
transformation right over here, it's happening. You're interesting that you and your daughter
36:04
stand there and you're lined up with the compliment and your daughter's lined up with
36:07
the attitude or the facial expressions. Well, and she was a little bit
36:12
distant from it, and it's like yeah then I'm like, well yeah,
36:15
but yeah, so it was. But again, like you're saying, it's
36:19
because that's where we're resonating at. What what are we're what we're gonna see
36:22
is what we resonate at, you know what I mean, what we're asking
36:25
more or more of, and how we can look at things and remember,
36:30
these are kids. These are just little kids that have probably got judged by
36:34
their parents and and you know, or or heard their mom judging themselves all
36:37
the time and not being satisfied with the way where they were at or how
36:40
they looked. And how many times, how many times have we looked back
36:45
at pictures of ourselves and seeing ourselves and thought I didn't look that bad because
36:49
we create this fricken story in our head, and then that story gets bigger
36:52
and bigger and bigger, and then you look back at something you're like,
36:57
my way was fine? What was wrong? Why do I think there was
37:00
something wrong with that? I wouldn't go to the lake because I thought I
37:02
shouldn't go to that, shouldn't be outside in the public eye. So many
37:07
things like it's just crazy. But again, it's the stories, right,
37:09
It's the judgments, and it's recognizing that if we catch ourselves judging someone else
37:15
or judging a situation, it's just because we've been doing it for ourselves,
37:19
thinking that it should have been something different instead of it letting it be what
37:22
it was. Because we're creating right that moment, we're creating from that space
37:25
when we're having those conversations and we're reliving these experiences that we've blown so out
37:31
of proportion or could have blown out of proportion, And a lot of times
37:36
I would say that that's quite the factor. We've changed the way it looked
37:40
because he got onto that victim marry go around, and it just got bigger
37:44
and bigger and bigger. Yeah, and I use the example in that presentation
37:49
I did about giving him receiving was homeless people, and especially the one sitting
37:58
there with the signs you know, hungry, need money, need gas,
38:02
whatever. And I was being judgmental about that because of the things that I
38:10
had heard, like they're making more money standing on the corner, you know,
38:15
asking for money where I'm working and I'm paying all these bills and I'm
38:22
trying to get by, and so I would be judgmental about that, And
38:29
that was first of all, judging them for what they were doing. Well,
38:36
really, you got to be vulnerable to be in that kind of space
38:38
to stand on a corner with a sign right asking for help. At the
38:44
time, I wasn't in a space to ask for help. I was like,
38:46
I'll figure this out my own. I can do it. And the
38:52
other thing, you know, in giving two people who are standing there with
39:00
a sign, you give because it's to feel good, to feel good about
39:06
yourself and to help others feel good. Now, there is giving without condition
39:12
and there's giving with condition. And I couldn't. I wanted to give to
39:17
feel good, however, and to help them out. However, the condition
39:22
was, oh, I bet they're just going to go buy alcohol or cigarettes
39:25
or something stupid like that. They're not even buy food. They're probably they
39:30
really probably don't even need gas. So right, so I go with this
39:35
whole story. So now there's condition with me giving money, and so I
39:37
wouldn't give money. And then it was changing, not necessarily the people standing
39:46
there on the street with the signs, but just homeless people changing my perspective
39:53
because I had heard this from another teacher, was their representation of freedom.
40:01
They they have no house payment, no mortgage payment, no car payment,
40:06
no insurance payment like they they have they have they have complete freedom. And
40:15
my judgment was that's what I wanted. I wanted freedom, freedom from the
40:21
debts that I had incurred, and now I got to work, you know,
40:24
work harder to pay them off. And so the envy and jealousy of
40:31
that, like interesting enough comparing myself to a homeless person. Right, So
40:38
when I changed it to well, they're just they're just demonstrating freedom to me.
40:45
So freedom is possible, and if I chose, I could be right
40:52
there by side by side with them. But that's not what I choose,
40:54
right, So, so I really had to go through a mindset shift I
40:59
had to do some internal work and the giving without condition. So I'm giving
41:07
because it feels good. I'm giving because I have the means to do it.
41:09
I'm giving to help them out. Now, if they decide to walk
41:14
into the circle k and purchase a you know, a big can of beer
41:22
or pack of cigarettes, that's them. That's totally their decision, and that
41:28
may be what they need in that moment to survive. That just might be
41:31
their coping mechanism. And that is not for me to judge. That is
41:37
not for me to say it's okay or not. So that in itself is
41:40
a huge piece of giving and receiving. It's like if you're giving, you
41:49
know, especially parents, and you know your children are maybe struggling financially,
41:53
and you give them some money to help them get by, and then they
41:55
go buy a brand new TV. You can get really upset about that,
42:04
or you know what. I give them the money to help them out and
42:07
to feel good about helping them out. What they choose to do with it,
42:10
it's their business. Now. If I don't agree with what they purchase,
42:15
then that means, you know what, I'm going to be a little
42:19
bit more mindful about how I give to them or what I give to them,
42:23
and maybe they're struggling with paying their utilities. Great, then go pay
42:28
the utility. Don't give the money to them to think that they're going to
42:31
go pay the utilities. So there's there's ways to do things and still feel
42:37
good about it. We just got to remember the conditions, putting those conditions
42:43
on the giving and even giving. We'll use a story about giving to the
42:50
homeless. It's when you're giving that and you're in the space of happy,
42:54
it doesn't matter what they're going to do with it. Is whatever makes them
42:58
happy. That's right. Excuse me, That's what's important. It doesn't matter
43:04
if they're going to go buy if a cigarette makes them happy. Okay,
43:07
like you, you've kind of said that too. I'm just giving a little
43:10
bit of a a different yeah, kind of feel to as it is because
43:15
I've done this, I have thought the same thing, and then now it's
43:19
like, if I feel compelled to give soon money, I don't, I
43:21
just give it to him. I don't question it, I just do it.
43:22
It doesn't I don't care what they do with it. It's not for
43:24
me to judge. Because I was that person that would get upset. Excuse
43:30
me, we get upset when someone give me something and then having it,
43:34
you know, have an attachment show like how I'm supposed to use that gift,
43:37
give me a new stereo, and if I decided that I wanted to
43:38
trade it for something else or whatever, it's like gave it away and if
43:43
I choose to use it or not use it, it's up to me.
43:45
It's that there. It is supposed to be unconditional when you give, so
43:50
it's recognizing that too. And I and I totally hear you for even for
43:55
me, like when I when I had extra money, it was like I
43:59
went and paid, I put money, I paid down, paid one of
44:01
my daughter's cars off because it was whatever it was, and I paid that
44:05
same amount on my other daughter's car, so it took her payment way down.
44:07
So you know, just doing what you can do in those situations,
44:12
and that was that was joy for me. I was able to do that,
44:15
that was awesome. So I loved. I loved that I had that
44:17
experience, and I didn't really like you just said, it's like you can
44:22
there's many different ways you can do it. So I just automatically put right
44:24
onto their account. I put it right onto their vehicle. So and in
44:30
that situation I was able to do that. It was awesome, It felt
44:34
great, and it felt great for them too. So then it changed the
44:37
whole vibrational frequency of wherever we were at at that moment. Yep. And
44:42
then there's there's those moments of giving out of obligation that doesn't feel good to
44:46
you, and you're not the energy of that gift is not going to be
44:52
good. No, it doesn't feel good. The whole process doesn't feel good.
44:59
Yeah, And that are usually giving out of obligation means you feel guilty.
45:05
You're feeling guilty about something, and nobody can make you feel guilty about
45:07
anything like you at the moment. We can do that to ourselves. Oh
45:15
goodness, we are such fascinating beings. You say that. I probably say
45:19
that lead because we are so fascinating. We have a lot to learn about
45:25
ourselves. Oh and you know, it would be very beneficial if people would
45:30
give more time and energy and focus into learning about themselves and how they operate
45:37
then giving so much attention to others. It's true, So then they can
45:43
determine do they still want to go on that same path as the way they've
45:45
been handling or processing your experience while you're here. Yeah, just in your
45:52
perspective changes on everything, just like we've talked about before, talking about how
45:55
our perspectives change as we've matured, ripened, however you want to look at
46:04
it. It's awesome we've grown with our our time here on school room Earth.
46:09
We've grown and changed, our perspectives have changed and everything else, and
46:15
or once the needs are totally different from what they would have been before.
46:17
And that's we wouldn't have known that without checking in with ourselves and then checking
46:23
in with our saying does that is that? Is that new vehicle really going
46:28
to give me that happiness? Probably for a little bit, but then you're
46:32
on to the next thing. So again, I was having conversations with someone
46:36
recently, and it's just we got it. It's being in a space of
46:38
a re appreciation for whatever we have right now, whatever we have right now,
46:45
it's easy to get wrapped up into the other stuff. It is because
46:50
that's the old patterns. Once she's changed shift all that, it's not so
46:53
easy to be in that space anymore because it doesn't feel good, which we
46:58
talked about all the time. And I like that. You said that that
47:02
when I check in with myself, How often do people check in with themselves?
47:07
How does this really feel? Yeah, not very often. They'll they'll
47:14
just let it take them on. They'll let them feel like write that platform
47:17
for the whole rest of the days, not even pay attention to where you're
47:21
at. And you could have changed it at any given moment to feel better.
47:23
And even if you did it all the way along, you can still
47:25
change it at any given moment. It doesn't have to stay in that space.
47:30
But typically what happens, though, is they do something that doesn't feel
47:37
good, they recognize it, and then they have that going on, right,
47:39
that story going on within themselves of whatever. It's not focused on this
47:45
doesn't feel good, but it does focus on the heavier emotion around it,
47:52
and then the majority of their day like everything doesn't feel good, things go
48:00
wrong, or you know, it's just a full day of craps momentum throughout
48:09
the whole day. Whatever we're giving our energy to. Yeah, so because
48:15
that's where you're focused on, right, That's where your energy is focused on,
48:17
and that's the message you're sending to the universe, and the universe like,
48:21
oh, they want more of that. Okay, here we go,
48:23
until we check in and say this doesn't feel good. Redirect our attention to
48:30
something that does feel better doesn't mean you're going from one end of the spectrum
48:35
to the other end. It's just feeling a little better. So it's like
48:38
turning away from what's not feeling good to something that feels good and doing more
48:45
of that. And then the universe says, oh, she wants more of
48:49
that. Okay, here you go. But then it comes to the receiving.
48:54
Right, well, now I'm receiving all this goodness and it just seems
48:58
too much because I don't I'm not quite in alignment with feeling like I'm worthy
49:02
of this. So now I'm going to go back to the not feeling.
49:06
So we just play this back and forth or this hamster wheel, and so
49:12
I'm like, yeah, you know what, it felt good to win that
49:14
recliner because that means I didn't have to put out the whatever two three,
49:17
four hundred dollars, right, that felt good, Thank you, Universe.
49:22
I want more of that. Yeah, And you weren't trying to control the
49:25
outcome of how that was going to happen. And look how it floats.
49:28
You's the that's the amazingness. We don't have to know. It doesn't have
49:31
to be from the lottery, it doesn't have to be from your employment,
49:36
It doesn't have I mean, it doesn't have to be from any of these
49:37
things that we think that things. Our abundance flows to us, It close
49:42
to us in so many different directions. But again we're going back to that
49:45
whole given receiving. If we're not if we're not allowing receiving, we're not
49:49
allowing receiving of any sort. So it's like you restrict yourself from everything.
49:52
So accept the compliments, you know, thank you, like you said,
49:57
appreciation when when it comes to you, it doesn't matter where it came from.
50:01
I say that it doesn't matter where it come from, but I guess
50:04
at some point maybe it might. But typically if you've been an asking what's
50:07
inside of you and you're coming from a higher vibrational frequency, it's always going
50:13
to come from a higher vibrational frequency. It's just that that's just the match,
50:17
because it's a match of whatever you're putting out, whatever we're creating.
50:22
And again I'm reminding myself, you know, being careful, I say,
50:27
being careful of how I'm creating and what I'm saying in my words even as
50:30
I'm presenting it to you, guys, whoever's listening to this now, because
50:35
there's things that I don't want to create. And it's so my pattern has
50:37
been to bring up the things my experiences that I've had, which has always
50:43
been not always been a good experience, and then I'm only perpetuating We've had
50:46
great conversations, and after our conversations, I get off the phone, I'm
50:50
like, I might feel a little bit down or lower sometimes not always do
50:53
I feel high. And it's like, that is not because of you,
50:57
That is because of the words that I've been using during that conversation. And
51:00
how am I bringing forward this information? And sometimes I'm bringing it forward from
51:06
negative experience is what I might perceive is negative experiences. And then I'm like
51:09
throughout the day like wondering, what why is that happening? It's because I
51:14
haven't chosen my words too in the in the way that I'm creating. It's
51:17
like, if you're an artist and I'm painting a picture, I'm not going
51:21
to dip my brush into any just any paint. I'm going to be aware
51:25
of the paint that I'm dipping it into because now I'm going to be aware
51:29
of or in placing it on my canvas, where am I going to put
51:31
that on? Because I'm not going to put the water up in the sky.
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I mean I could, but it's like that's not that that would be
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without awareness. So it's being in that awareness of what I'm what am I
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creating. So I'm I'm practicing that awareness of what am I creating because I
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want to create feel good stuff. I want to be happy. Why because
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I've got my two grandkids in pictures right too, of my grandkids in pictures
51:54
that all my desk stared at me right now. And that's why. That's
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the reason why, Because if I'm going if I want them to be happy
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and have a great life, then they're going to be creating from whatever they're
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learning around them. I want them to create from what I'm learning to create
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from the positive experiences. Not because I'm ignoring the negative experiences, but because
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I don't perceive them as negative. I perceive them as growth. I perceive
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them as why is it showing up for me? Or how can I learn
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from this? It's totally different. Our perspective everything changes, and it's recognizing
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too. I mean, we talk about I bring up stuff in the past
52:30
because I want people to understand that I've been through this stuff and I understand
52:36
it, and I understand the heaviness of it. But they also as long
52:39
as they continue to watch the video, they see me laugh, they see
52:44
me smile, even though I'm talking about the past, right because now,
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whether you're here or in a classroom or in a coaching session, I'm sharing
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from experience, and from sharing is the key word there. I'm sharing about
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the experience. Whereas before I was in the experience and in the heaviness and
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still a victim to my circumstances and hanging on to all of that. And
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when I would share, then those emotions of anger and shame and guilt and
53:20
resentment and all that stuff would ball up inside me and maybe I would cry,
53:23
maybe I would physically show that anger. Like I talk about my stuff
53:30
now, and I don't. If any of that does come up and surface,
53:35
if I get emotional something, I make a mental note. There's still
53:38
some healing pieces here, There's still some stuff here to give some attention to,
53:44
to do some healing around, because I'm still pretty emotional about it.
53:47
So there is times to share life experiences so people can learn from your experience,
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and there's times where if you're sharing from a victim point of view,
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that's when those emotions will arise. That's how I know the difference. And
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so even like in the Chakra class, I'm like, listen, I'm gonna
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share my my some stuff about me, and I'm gonna laugh about it because
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that's where I'm at. I'm sharing. I'm not a victim to my life
54:28
experiences anymore, or for the most part, let's put it this way.
54:31
I'm not gonna say anymore. I'm gonna say for the most part, because
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every once in a while, I still get those little twinges that show up
54:37
of heavy emotion. I'm like, ooh, ooh, gotta look at that.
54:43
Need some do some journaling around that one. And it's all okay.
54:52
So yeah, because I did have I did have one of the students in
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the Chakra class asset. They're like, well, do you ever get over
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this heaviness this? Do you ever get past the anger? Do you know?
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I'm just like, if you knew me, like thirty years ago,
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that was a completely different person like way on the other side of the spectrum.
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So yes, it is possible, right, and to be able to
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demonstrate that, to demonstrate I can talk about my experiences and not get caught
55:28
up in all the emotion of it. I can demonstrate my or talk about
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my experiences and not expect empathy from somebody or expect somebody to like if I'm
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talking about my experiences and beds like, oh my gosh, Amy, you're
55:39
completely right that guy was such a jerk, and no looking for that.
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I'm sharing my experiences to help people learn and grow from them from what I've
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been through and the path that we took to heal. The books, the
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teachers, the podcasts, whatever it was. There's so many resources. So
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I'm just here to share now, and that feels good to me to be
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able to share. It feels good now, and this first time I've probably
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said this, it feels good to be able to share my experiences of my
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earlier days and all the shit I've been through to help other people. That
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feels good now. It didn't feel good in the beginning. It just sucks.
56:30
It feels good now. Nice. Yeah, And with whatever people do
56:38
with it, that's their business, not my business. They they're asking.
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They're so here's it, here's where it is. They're asking for a path
56:51
of healing in whatever way they're asking. So they're asking to receive, and
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I am there to give, and how they receive is up to them.
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True, right, It's just I'm like, here you go, So I
57:08
hand it over. I hand over the information. I'm out. I gave
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you. I gave you the tools, I gave you the path, I
57:16
gave you the resources. I gave you, give you everything. I've got
57:21
what you do with your business. So you've asked and you have received.
57:24
I showed up as the giver. I did my part. I also on
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the opposite side of that is I like to give different perspectives on it,
57:37
and I know you do too, different perspectives on the same situation. They
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might be perceiving as a horrible situation or a negative or being in the space
57:47
of the net or the victim as well. So without because I have always
57:53
used my experiences, I have been doing that for a long time, but
57:55
I also recognized that just recently, it's like I don't have to create from
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that space. I don't have to bring forward that information because I can still
58:04
give a different perspective from my perspective, a different way of them looking at
58:08
something, and it's like, it's always nice because there's whoever needed to hear
58:13
that, or whoever was in that vicinity gets to offer a different perspective of
58:16
it as well. So it's just interesting and we'll see how it goes because
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I'm I'm creating. This is the space where I'm creating from now, and
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I'll see if it's different from where I've been creating from by sharing my all
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my experiences because I have shared my a lot of my experiences too, really
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on a regular that has been one of my go tos. But it's just
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I'm just recognizing just for myself how I'm creating. And it's not even when
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I'm talking about my story, that's not I don't it's not with the emotions,
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certainly from the emotions that I ever had before with those certain situations,
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because more more more often than not, I'm neutral of those spaces. But
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just seeing him from a different perspective, well, that's just kind of one
59:07
of the things that I've been kind of working towards because it just feels different
59:10
for me and it's definitely new grounds. And then there's the idea none of
59:16
it would have happened. We you and I probably wouldn't be here having these
59:20
conversations. You and there's actually you, we kind of me and a couple
59:27
of other friends that I have that I'm very close with. We wouldn't because
59:30
if we would have met each other ten years ago or twenty years ago,
59:35
we would have been in our where we were at at that time, you
59:38
know, Yeah, tendencies or whatever it was at the time. So it's
59:43
like being I know that things things happen for a reason, but it's like
59:47
I that's that's that's my old story. That's like an old chapter that I
59:53
have, And that's just from my perspective that I'm bringing forward an old chapter
59:57
again. And it's so I'm just learning different perspectives or different ways to kind
1:00:01
of shift through some of the stuff. Yeah, it's pretty it's all fascinating
1:00:08
to me. It is. I'd say it's a foreign ground. And I
1:00:13
can't tell you that everything works for everybody else the same way that it might
1:00:16
work for you, or how it might work for myself. It just depends
1:00:20
on where we're at and how we're really perceiving it. And one of the
1:00:23
best things that I had learned. I can't remember the guy's name right now.
1:00:29
He would he would actually teach you to be hav an awareness of yourself,
1:00:34
So be aware of like see step outside of yourself and watch yourself as
1:00:37
you're responding to these things and how you're talking and what you're bringing forward and
1:00:42
stuff like that. To see yourself from that perspective. And when you do
1:00:45
that, things totally shift you. You some things just like fall if it
1:00:51
just seems like it, things fall away really quickly, and it's but it's
1:00:53
unfamiliar ground in a lot of ways because then it's like, Okay, what
1:00:57
if I do in the next what's the next move. It's just like we've
1:01:00
learned, it's just listening to whatever the guidances that we're receiving, paying attention
1:01:06
to that guidance, seeing how it feels. The word is listen to saying
1:01:13
we gotta listen. It's true, it's true, and our ego doesn't let
1:01:21
us listen sometimes. So it's it's learning quiet, quiet the ego down a
1:01:24
little bit so that you can hear your intuition. You can hear those conversations
1:01:29
with spirit or your angels or guides or bood or whoever. And that's a
1:01:37
practice. Everything we talked about the practice. Yeah, but do you notice
1:01:42
the more place, when you get into more of a peaceful place, that
1:01:45
ego is relaxed. That's chilled. The mind is relaxed, that's chilled.
1:01:49
It doesn't feel like it has to achieve anything or approve anything. I always
1:01:53
tell people the truth doesn't have to argue for itself. It just it is.
1:01:58
So it just changes, it just is, and it just changes the
1:02:01
whole dynamics of everything. Yeah. So then ego is not like something to
1:02:07
be pushed away, because again we go back to that whole light and the
1:02:09
dark stuff. It's it's not something to be pushed away. It's something to
1:02:13
be embraced. That child's been pushed away millions of times. That's why it
1:02:16
keeps rearing its head. So if embrace it and show it to light,
1:02:21
right, because it is quite down. Yeah, And I was gonna say,
1:02:25
the ego when you're when you're take, when you're quieting the ego down.
1:02:31
It's in the beginning. It's like the two year old having a temper
1:02:37
tantrum. It wants to be heard, right, and so it stays there,
1:02:43
and it just keeps talking to you and and and then you think,
1:02:47
well, I can't do this. I can't quiet my mind. They can't.
1:02:52
No, you can. We just got to nurture that two year old
1:02:55
who's having the temper tantrum. We got to nurture that ego to let it
1:02:59
know, oh, it's okay that we're sit here and just be still and
1:03:02
just be with ourselves, and that we're safe and we can be quiet for
1:03:07
a moment. And and and notice like that spirit energy comes in, which
1:03:14
is is your spirit? Is that nurturing side. The nurturing side is like
1:03:20
that calming voice that says, we're safe, we're okay, we can sit
1:03:23
here, we can be still, We're okay. Right. We just keep
1:03:29
saying that over and over, and then the ego starts to go, oh,
1:03:31
oh, it's okay that our mind's not going one hundred miles an hour,
1:03:36
and it's okay that we're not beating ourselves up every second that we get
1:03:39
the opportunity to do that, and we're not we're not hanging on to that
1:03:44
anger and shame and guilt and all the crap. It's okay that we are
1:03:46
not doing that right And so it's that spirit energy that says we're okay,
1:03:52
we're safe, we can be calm, we can be still, and that
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might take a practice three. Yeah, it's like seeing if you see your
1:04:01
ego as like your best friend, and you're taking your best friend's hand,
1:04:05
and it's not like you're shoving them aside where I'm sorry, I can't talk
1:04:09
right now, you're bringing them forward and it's like, hey, let's go
1:04:11
sit and look at the stars. Let's go watch let's go see the stars.
1:04:15
Oh did you see that falling star right there? I call them falling
1:04:17
stars because sometimes they look like falling stars instead of shooting stars. And and
1:04:21
that's being in that space because it's because now you're in you're you're you're you're
1:04:28
bringing that masculine and feminine sights together, You're bringing that light in the dark
1:04:31
together. You're you're embracing all of you and not trying to judge any part
1:04:36
of you at all. It's just another part of you that you know,
1:04:41
just like us when we were kids, we just need to be seen and
1:04:43
heard. And that's the same thing. That's the same way I perceived my
1:04:46
my ego or my what I would say, my inner child, because my
1:04:49
inner child has like to throwing tamper tantrums, and sometimes starting a tantrum is
1:04:54
quite fun actually, And then when you're done, you're done, it's okay.
1:04:59
Then you can cut back out and play. But it is it's like,
1:05:02
it's like bringing them together with you. It's not like trying to prove
1:05:06
for me. It's not like trying to make them believe something. It's just
1:05:10
like, hey, let's go look at this together. Let's go do this
1:05:12
together. Hey, you want to go play, Let's go play. Let's
1:05:15
go run through the puddles. Let's go chase the dog. Let's go cause
1:05:17
I chase the dog. Sometimes, Let's go find a worm, let's go
1:05:21
find some let's go catch a grasshopper. So it's like bringing them along the
1:05:25
whole way, and then you're just having a good time and you're in the
1:05:28
moment, you're right now. Well, and people think I used to think
1:05:32
this, and I know it's not true, like the ego is a bad
1:05:35
thing. The ego is part of us. It's just part of our human
1:05:39
space, our human being, and it is part of us. So I
1:05:45
love that saying grab it by the hand and let's go do this together.
1:05:50
You're doing it with your spirit, You're doing it with your ego, You're
1:05:54
doing it with your feminine energy, you're doing it with your masculine energy.
1:05:57
It's like a whole container full of stuff and we all and and when I
1:06:00
say we, I mean me and in all of this, get to do
1:06:04
this together and what that experience we have. Yeah, hundred percent. So,
1:06:13
include your ego, include your spirit, include all of you. I
1:06:18
love how you put that into words. I really do, because that's exactly
1:06:23
sometimes. I mean, that's exactly how I would perceive it, because it's
1:06:27
like it's including and everything because I've been that. I've been that friend that
1:06:30
had been not included in things, right, Right, I've been in that
1:06:34
space, and it's like now it's it's me, me and my ego.
1:06:39
We hang out together all the time, having a blast. So I really
1:06:45
like it. I really liked how you said that because because it is all
1:06:47
encompassed in this one container. Yeah. And then just by us doing this
1:06:50
creates a ripple and that you want collaboration, yeah, and so and love
1:07:00
fighting right the battle, that's where we come back to the battle within.
1:07:04
No, we want to bring harmony to all of it and there's nothing wrong.
1:07:12
Flow together because everybody has an opinion, right and it doesn't just because
1:07:16
it doesn't agree with yours, it doesn't mean it's not good or bad.
1:07:19
It's just you have different perspectives. So it's like that's the same thing inside
1:07:23
the container. It's it's all. It's it's wonderful. It is wonderful.
1:07:29
I think we should end with that, it is all wonderful. You're all
1:07:32
wonderful. Amend any of the final words or you want to end with that,
1:07:43
it's all wonderful. Looking in with that, that's perfect. Great.
1:07:49
Thank you for hanging out with us. See sign with Amy and Bev.
1:07:51
We appreciate you, your time, your energy, any if you got anything
1:07:57
from this, we hope that you would implement it for your own wellbeing and
1:08:01
just to help you do and be better within yourself and then show up in
1:08:05
this world by being and doing better externally as well, so contributing to that
1:08:15
lighter vibrational frequency of the collective consciousness. And if you find that or feel
1:08:25
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1:08:29
share us with them and let people know we're here. I mean, Bev
1:08:34
and I have these conversations every week so that we can share them with others
1:08:40
and not just keep it between us like a secret. We're not a secret.
1:08:45
None of this is a secret. We're just figuring it out. That's
1:08:51
right, it's true, and it's feeling better and better, so hey,
1:08:56
I got to say something that's right. All right, my friends, make
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it an amazing day, and we'll see you next time. Good Bye.