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I Just Wanna ENCOURAGE Somebody · Black Girl Interrupted Podcast

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  What's up, y'all? What's what? What's up? What's up? Y'all
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  already know who it is? Man, y'all know it's y'all girl Ash bring
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  y'all. Another episode of Black Girl Interrupted anyways. But happy Wednesday, y'all.
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  It is hump day, y'all. We have made it. We halfway
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  through the week. Not like, y'all a lot to be excited, y'all,
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  lot to be happy about that, because damn, but I know I
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  am. I can't wait. Look, I'm already looking for Friday, like
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  Friday, where are you? I mean, I know it's Thursday, Eve,
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  but I'm ready for it to be Friday. But again, y'all,
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  welcome to another episode of Black Girl Interrupted. Y'all. Y'all have to forgive
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  me because last week, so check this out, y'all. So I was
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  trying to go live last week, right, I don't know what was going
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  on, Like, I don't know. I was having some technical issues and
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  I was just sitting up here talking and not even realizing y'all my microphone would
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  have been muted. So uh, I'm looking at it right now. I
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  did all my little sound checks and everything, so I made sure that my
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  microphone is not muted. All the sound is playing very well. So we're
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  gonna have a really great episode tonight. But I do want to let you
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  know this is not gonna be a super long episode. I just wanted to
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  do something a little different. I've never done this before where I just take
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  one episode out of the month and I just sit back and I just pour
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  into you, like I just get on here to encourage you, to love
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  on you, to push you, to encourage you to do better than where
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  you are, and just let you know that where it's not where you start,
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  but it's how you finish. But y'all already know how I start my
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  shows. Y'all already know I got to do my mental health check in.
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  So today is Wednesday. I guess I'll call it Wellness Wednesday. But drop
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  in a comments let me know how y'all are feeling. Like I say,
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  today is Wednesday, June the twenty first. Can y'all believe it? We
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  are six months into twenty twenty three, and before we blink, y'all,
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  we'll be rolling into twenty twenty four. So again, y'all know how I
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  do it. Y'all know I always play something encouraging. Y'all already know that
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  I play something empowering, but let me go ahead and do this, and
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  then I just want to jump into tonight's conversation. Like I said, it's
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  not gonna be a very super long episode, but I just felt the need.
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  I wanted to jump on here because I want to encourage somebody. I
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  want to let someone know that regardless of where you are, regardless of what
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  your past was, it doesn't define your future. So full time, y'all
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  already know I play something encouraging, inspiring, and then I just want to
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  jump into the nice conversation. So here we go. I want to encourage
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  somebody out there who's thinking about quitting and giving up, somebody who has been
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  praying for years for things to turn around. You're thinking about quitting, You're
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  thinking about giving up. You are folding, you are caving in. This
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  is for you. You're in this storm and you're down on your knees and
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  your cold, and you're weak, and you feel like it's just the end.
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  You have a choice to either give up or keep going, give up
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  or get up. Don't give up, don't give up, stay in it,
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  stay focused. When you fail, try again, and again and again.
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  You just take one step at a time. It's hard, but it's
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  worth fighting, is worth believing, it's worth mustering yourself up, standing up
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  inside yourself. It's worth fighting relentlessly, never giving up. I love the
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  sun, but things don't grow because of the sun. You have to have
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  some rain, and you've got to stop looking at rain in your life.
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  It's something bad. My greatest moments didn't come from my greatest moments. My
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  greatest moments came from my greatest defeats because it was doing my defeat and I
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  had to find a way to get back up. You thought for one minute
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  that you broke me, You got me twisted. I am not phenomenally skilled,
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  but phenomenally will I will not give up. I will not to render.
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  I will not quit. God stop, God stop, cod stop running
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  towards your dreams. Stay in courage, Stay in courage and keep your head
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  up, stick your chest out, continue to walk with Clyde and know if
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  it was easy, everybody would do it. It's not gonna be easy,
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  but we have what it takes. They are rough times are gonna come,
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  but they have not come to stay. They have come to pass. Don't
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  say i'm having a bad day, say I'm having a character building day.
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  Don't look at night at darkness, look at night as a new beginning.
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  Y'all have to understand, y'all. That video, I don't know what chokes
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  me up every time I watch it because that's something I play every morning before
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  when I get out of the bed and I get ready for work, even
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  though I just walk into the living room and log in. But like I
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  said, I want to start doing something different once a month, I want
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  to take the time out where I just where it's a day of just encouragement,
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  where it's just a day of empowering somebody. It's just a day of
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  uplifting someone because I know what it's like. I know what it's like to
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  have to show up and you have to put on this brave face even though
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  you're hurting and you're fighting. I get it, I understand. But if
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  you don't show up for you, who will. So again, tonight is
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  not going to be a super long episode. But again, I just want
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  to encourage somebody because I don't know what you're going through. You know,
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  y'all know my story, y'all know where I've been. Y'all know where I've
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  y'all know where I've come from. Y'all know how far I've made it.
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  And I get up and I show up every day. So I wanted to
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  take this time and this is all about y'all. It's not even about me,
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  but it's about y'all. And I just want to love on you for
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  just a moment. I just want to hug on you for a moment.
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  I just want to let you know that, regardless to who shows up for
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  you, you just keep showing up for yourself, regardless of people keep telling
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  you what you can and you can I do you continue to tell yourself what
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  you can do, because I'm here to tell you. I'm a testimony,
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  baby, I'm a living witness, and I'm here to tell you. The
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  more that I show up for myself, the more opportunities that continue to open
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  up for me. I've done three magazine interviews. Oh, y'all forgive me,
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  but anyway, I've done three magazine interviews already. I have another upcoming
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  interview with a magazine. I just got selected to be in a content's program
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  for Voyage Magazine here in Houston. So you cannot tell me what you can't
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  do, Yes, there were times, y'all. I'm telling you, my
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  journey has been rough. There are times that I gave up. There were
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  times that I threw in a towel, there were times that I walked away.
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  But I said, if I really want to get to the next destination,
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  I gotta get up and I gotta show up for me. So I'm
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  saying all that to anyone that's in the midst of the storm, someone who
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  is giving up, someone who feels like that they will never amount to anything.
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  You are everything. I think you are beautiful. I think you're phenomenal.
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  I think you are amazing, and you can do anything you set your
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  mind to as long as you keep God. Oh and I promised I wasn't
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  gonna cry tonight. I promise that what's not gonna get emotional. But as
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  long as you keep God in a situation, he's gonna always provide. He's
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  gonna always make a way for you, regardless of what man says, regardless
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  of what this person says, You'll keep going. Stop worrying about how many
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  people show up for you, as long as you show up for you,
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  because even though they may not be saying anything, people are watching you.
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  People are depending on you. People are counting on you. So I stay,
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  I say all of this, stand in the midst of that storm.
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  I promise you it's not gonna always rain. Yes, it's gonna get dark,
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  but please get up, Get up, no matter how many times you
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  fall down, keep trying, keep going, keep going till you get to
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  your destination. It's not easy. God never said any role when traveler is
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  gonna be easy. You gotta be able to roll with the punches. You
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  gotta be able to stand up and say, you know what, I got
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  this. You gotta keep saying that. You gotta speak positive over yourself.
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  And I say all that to say because the more you speak negative over yourself,
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  that's what the universe is gonna give you. Get up every day,
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  say your affirmations. Speak to the universe. What you won't talk it as
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  if it's already happened for you. Be specific with it. If you say
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  you want a brand new car, you're talking about what kind of car you
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  want, talk about it in details. Say I want a black car and
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  say whatever I want a black must say this bens clk whatever with peanut.
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  But the interview, you speaking like you are ready at got it? And
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  watch and see how God is gonna move for you. That's why I jumped
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  on here today and I say this imperative. I have to start doing this
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  once a month. I gotta get on here, and I gotta encourage y'all.
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  I gotta love y'all. You know what I'm saying. You may not
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  hear it if you haven't heard it today. I love you and I'm proud
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  of you. I'm watching you. I don't care what you did last week.
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  I don't care what you did two years ago. I don't care what
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  you did ten years ago. Every day you wake up, it's a day
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  for you to do something different. You get what I'm saying, Oh,
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  it is a day for you to get up and do better than what you
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  did the day before. It's a It's a moment for you to get up
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  and change who you were from yesterday, even if it's just minor adjustice.
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  Even if you get up and say, you know what, I want to
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  lose weight. So I'm gonna eat one one less slice a pizza to day,
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  or I'm gonna eat one less of this progress. Baby. It's a
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  slow race. For guess what A marathon is gonna always continue y'all gotta forgive
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  me. Y'all know how I get. Y'all know how I get. Y'all
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  know, I just when I'm going. Y'all know, y'all know, y'all
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  know, y'all know, y'all know, y'all know how much this means to
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  me, how much it means for me to show up for y'all because I
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  tell y'all what I'm gonna do, and y'all account on me to do that.
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  So I gotta show up for y'all. And once I show up for
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  y'all, then I know I can show up for me. So oh,
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  y'all drop in a comment. I'll let me know. What. Do you
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  need me to pray over you today? What? What are you struggling with
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  today? What did you struggle with yesterday? What did you struggle with last
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  week? Hey to my brother, I love you, baby, I miss
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  you. They're go, my girl, nad Heble, I love you,
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  They're go, my sis, Angela, I love you, Sissy. Um
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  let me pour into you for just a moment. Angela, me and you
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  are in the same boat. You lost your mother, I lost your father.
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  But just know it never gets easier. You just learn how to adjust
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  to their physical presence, no longer being here with you. But your Mama's
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  still here with you. I promise you. She is proud of you.
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  She's proud of those beautiful grand babies that you are loving on. She's proud
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  of the mother that you will become. She's proud of the grandmother, she's
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  prout, proud of the sister, the aunt, the cousin, the friend.
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  Your mama is proud of you. I promise you. She's watching you
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  and miss andres with you ever step it away. So I just wanted to
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  love on you. I just wanted to pour into I just want to encourage
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  you and just let you know that you were doing a great job. And
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  don't stop. Don't stop because somebody's watching you. Somebody's waiting on you to
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  fail, somebody's waiting on you to drown. But baby, let me tell
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  you something. To let him hold, tell him hold day breath, because
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  you're not gonna fall, You're not gonna fail, you're not gonna sink.
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  You're in it to win it. And I'm so proud of you. To
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  my son's nat girl, I'm proud of you. I see you back on
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  your Comcast trip regardless of where you are in life. I know you just
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  had a death. I'm not sure if it was last year, but I
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  know you had a death. But just know that it again. It gets
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  easier. I promise you it does. When I lost my father, I
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  thought that was the end of the world. I thought I just was not
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  gonna be able to get over the hump. But guess what, here I
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  am two years later, and I'm still standing. Although he may not be
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  here with me in the physical, my father is still here with me in
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  spirit. My father watches over me. My father encourages me and tells me
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  to keep going. So that is what I'm saying to you tonight. I'm
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  telling you keep going since regardless when you have those moments you cry, You'll
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  get what I'm saying. And you don't let nobody tell you how you're supposed
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  to breethe You grieve the way that is for you. But just whatever it
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  is, you don't lay in it. Get up, Get up, get
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  up, get up, get up, get up, get up, Because
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  I promise you, no one can celebrate with you in the dark. We
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  can only celebrate with you in the light. So I wanted to love on
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  you. I want to pour into I want to encourage you, and I
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  want to let you know you're doing a phenomenal job. You are a great
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  wife, you are a wonderful mother. I'm proud of you. Keep pouring,
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  keep pouring, keeping keeping. I see you, I see I see
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  everything that you do, and I love you. To my brother, Drake,
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  I love you, and I'm so proud of you and how far you
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  have come. You have been on your mental journey, you have been on
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  your physical journey, and I'm so proud of you. I see you,
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  brother. Even though I'm gonna call your mama, I'm gonna tell your mama
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  how patty you gets on Facebook. But just know I'm proud of you.
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  You have done it. You keep going, You keep reaching up the top,
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  and you are gonna get that brand new car. You got your house.
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  You spoke it, and you got your house. So I'm here to
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  pour into everybody. I'm here to love on you. I'm here to encourage
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  everybody. Angela. I love you too. You're welcome, baby. Like
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  I said, you don't have to thank me for loving on you. No
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  one has to thank me for pouring into you, because that's what my purpose
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  is. If I can take my journey and my and where I've been in
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  life and pouring encouraging to somebody else. That's what I'm gonna do. I'm
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  here to do that. God told me that's what I'm supposed to do.
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  So I'm gonna do this once a month. I'm gonna take my time and
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  I'm gonna dedicate just to y'all. I'm encouraging y'all. I'm pouring into y'all.
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  I'm loving on y'all. I'm here to support. I don't give a
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  damn ifet selling shoelaces. Send me a link. I want to buy your
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  pair. I want to buy ten pairs, whatever it costs. I don't
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  want to discount. I wanted at full price. Okay, So I'm here
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  to support. Pay since it to my sister, Jess. Let me tell
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  you something. I'm so proud of you and everything that you have done.
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  I have known you since yay hied to a grass top of it. I've
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  known you for years, and I'm gonna tell you something. Your proudest moment
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  is when you gave birth to your baby Dorian. Even though you have been
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  to the struggle in the battle with him, you have come out on top.
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  You are victorious. He is healthy, here are strong, he is
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  imployed, he is doing phenomenal and I love him and thank you so much
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  for sharing him with me and my son. H But I love you.
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  I'm proud of you. I see you and I see your switch jobs,
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  and I'm proud of you for that. Keep going, keep going, and
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  soon guess what, you're gonna be out of that apartment. You're gonna be
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  in that house that I see you speak about. Although I may not say
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  anything, but just know, y'all, I'm watching y'all. I watch y'all.
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  I may not say a lot of stuff, but I do watch y'all.
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  But I wanted to give you your flowers today. If the ain't nobody
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  gave you no roses, stay, I'm giving you your flowers today. No,
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  I don't want you to cry. I'm here to encourage you because I
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  understand. You know, although I don't have a special child, well the
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  little one, the verdict is still out on that little bit one soul,
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  but you have a special child. God gave you the greatest gift ever.
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  You understand what I'm saying, and I know it was hard for you.
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  I know it was a struggle for you because the world said your child was
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  not going to make it. They said he was not going to succeed.
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  And guess what, your son graduated. Him and my baby they both off
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  across that stage together. I'm gonna send you the picture because I still have
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  it in my phone from their graduation day in twenty nineteen. Do you hit
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  me? You have done a phenomenal job. You have done a great job
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  as a single mother. You get what I'm saying, a lot of people
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  don't understand that. Do you hear me? Everyone thinks that you're doing it
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  all by yourself, but it's a lot of fathers out here doing about themselves,
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  a lot of moms. But you have done a phenomenal job. I
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  love you. I love you. I love you, I love you.
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  I promise I do whatever it is that you're doing. You need me to
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  support you, need to promote baby. Give it to me because I got
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  you. I promise, I do. I swear to guard I do.
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  Oh my bar tagus. Let me say this to you, To you and
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  all the beautiful black men that have not only been friends, but have been
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  beautiful fathers. I want to say to you, you are takers. Thank
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  you for being who you are, for being a great husband, a great
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  father to, a great husband to your wife, and a great father to
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  your son. Because there's not many like you out here. You show up
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  and I see you all the time. Your post pictures of you and your
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  wife on vacation, you and your son. I see pictures of your son.
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  I love that. I love that, and I want us first.
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  I want to say this again. Stop saying black men don't show up for
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  their children. Because this man right here, y'all see this name right here
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  are take us hill. This one shows up for his children. Do you
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  hear me? He shows up for his son. He shows y'all that he
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  is more than a rapper, adult dealer. We could be anything, we
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  won't, but the media just won't allow us to be great. So I'm
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  giving you your flowers, and I want to say thank you for all that
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  you do for your for your son. I want to say thank you for
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  to your beautiful black queen for keeping you on your feet and encouraging you to
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  be the best that you can be. Because you know what I mean.
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  You go, we go back to our comcast. Died, but I appreciate
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  you. I love you, brother, God bless you, and I'm here
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  whatever support you need. I don't whatever your brand is. I'm here to
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  support. Like I say, I don't care if you're on the side of
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  the role selling water bottles. Ship. Let me buy a twelve pat and
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  I wanted at full price. I don't want it at a discount, because
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  that's the problem with us. We always want to We always want stuff at
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  a discount. We never want to support unless it's something in it for us.
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  Let me tell you something. Any support I give, y'all, I
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  don't never expect anything in return. I do this because that's what I choose
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  to do. I do it from the kindness of my heart. I do
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  it because that's what God told me to do. I'm again tonight. I'm
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  just here to encourage. I'm here to empower. I'm here to uplift.
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  I'm here to love on y'all. You know what I'm saying. I don't
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  know what your day was today. I don't know what your day was last
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  week. I don't know how Father's Day was or some of you for your
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  fathers, you know. So I just wanted to love on you. I
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  wanted to encourage you. I want to pour into you, and I want
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  to tell you I'm proud of you, and keep doing what the hell you're
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  doing. I don't give it, damn what man say, but Ashla telling
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  you that you're doing a great damn job. You're doing a phenomenal job.
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  I promise that's what you're doing. Oh, Sis, You're welcome. And
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  you know what. Like I said, I love you, and you cry
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  and you get up and you keep being the best damn mom that you know
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  you can be. You get what I'm saying. That's what you do.
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  You keep showing up. You keep showing up for you, you keep showing
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  up for your baby Dorian. That's what you do. You keep showing up.
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  Let them know and say it with your whole damn chest because you're superwoman.
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  Okay now now I said it you too, And if anybody says different,
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  you tell them I said that. I think you're a phenomenal. I
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  think you're great. I think you're fantastic, and I think you're a beautiful
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  black woman. So shout out to my beautiful black women, Shout out to
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  my gorgeous black men. I love y'all. I love y'all black men.
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  I do I love y'all, I promise I do artegus. It's always love.
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  It's always love. Baby. Let me tell you anything that's given,
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  I'm gonna always reciprocate. Again, I don't do this for kudos. I
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  don't do this for accolades. I don't do this for recognition. And I
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  do it because that's the person that I've grown into. Beat now. Five
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  ten years ago, Yeah, that would have been a little different. You'll
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  get what I'm saying. But the woman I am today is totally different.
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  I'm in a complete different mindset. I want to build a brand. I
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  want to pull everybody up with me because it's enough room at the table.
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  I'm not gate keeping no information. Anybody that wants to get into podcasting.
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  I can tell you how I got started. You know again, my story,
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  y'all know my journey. Y'all. Y'all see where I've been, y'all
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  see where I'm going and where I'm gonna keep going because God is gonna continue
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  to bless me because I keep tim in rotation. Do you get him?
• 21:38
  I sit down and I have a conversation with God every day, even though
• 21:42
  a lot of people like the old Ashley, because that's when they had the
• 21:45
  power over me. But I didn't like that. Old ash didn't. I
• 21:51
  didn't like that. I like this new Ashley. I like the woman that
• 21:53
  I'm becoming. I like the mother that I'm becoming. Uh. I'm getting
• 21:57
  better every day, and I think God every day that I'm able to get
• 22:00
  up open my eyes and my feet are are able to hit this floor.
• 22:03
  I thank God every day for that. I thank God that I'm able to
• 22:07
  get on here tonight and love on y'all. I thank God that I'm able
• 22:10
  to get up here and encourage y'all and tell y'all you can do it.
• 22:14
  I don't care what it is. If you want to get better at something,
• 22:18
  do it, step out on faith and do it. What's the worst
• 22:21
  that can happen? So I'll tell you know, but you've got this.
• 22:25
  Whatever it is that you're trying to do, you got this. I'm telling
• 22:29
  you you got it. It's not easy, so don't expect it to happen
• 22:33
  overnight. It's the process, but you gotta trust it. And the only
• 22:37
  way you can trust the process, you gotta believe in it, and you
• 22:40
  gotta let God have us way with you. If you feel like it's too
• 22:42
  much for you to step back let God start preparing these meals for you.
• 22:48
  That's what you do. You step back and you let God prepare these meals
• 22:51
  for you. Because see, if you notice, every time we put our
• 22:52
  hands in the pot, we mess it up, and then guess what,
• 22:56
  we get frustrated and we don't want to do it anymore. But put God
• 23:02
  in the midst of it and watch what he does. Watch Our God is
• 23:06
  gonna bless you. Take a step back, write down what you want to
• 23:11
  do, and mark off each accomplishment you make, even if it's a small
• 23:17
  one. See, we we worried so much about the big ones that we
• 23:22
  forget about the little ones that got us to the big ones. You know,
• 23:26
  when I first started doing my podcast, y'all, I was nervous because
• 23:33
  I said, who's gonna show up, who's gonna who's gonna tune in,
• 23:36
  who's gonna watch this and encourage me? But somebody told me, they said,
• 23:41
  actually, it doesn't matter how many people show up, you just show
• 23:44
  up for you. So I said okay, and I just kept going,
• 23:49
  and I kept going, and I kept going, and I've done three magazine
• 23:55
  interviews. Yeah, I actually just did my third fourth magazine interview. I'm
• 24:00
  so sorry for um. I actually have another interview in August with another podcast
• 24:07
  again. I just got accepted into Voyat Houston's content program where it's gonna help
• 24:12
  me to make better connections to help get my podcast on a bigger platform.
• 24:18
  Which that's my goal is to be able to walk away from corporate America and
• 24:22
  work for me and go and do conferences. But I don't want to do
• 24:26
  this for money. I want to do this because this is what I'm supposed
• 24:32
  to do. I'm supposed to get out here and I'm supposed to talk to
• 24:33
  you. I'm supposed to encourage people. I'm supposed to share my journey.
• 24:37
  I'm supposed to share my story and my struggles to encourage someone else. So
• 24:44
  this is that's what I want to do. That's my goal is to be
• 24:48
  on TV and build a brand and leave a legacy for my children and pull
• 24:53
  the people up with me because I want us all to win. I don't
• 25:00
  care. I want y'all to win. I want y'all to win. You
• 25:04
  got people that say, oh, I want you to win, but genuinely
• 25:08
  are wanting to see you fail. No, I want to see you when
• 25:11
  I want to see us as black people. I want to see us win.
• 25:14
  I want to see us make it because like y'all really don't understand the
• 25:18
  power that we as black men and black women whole. Y'all don't even understand
• 25:25
  it. And it's a beautiful thing. And support us free. It's free.
• 25:30
  I promise you. I love you two sets. I promise I do.
• 25:36
  Hey, fred Or and why you want hell? Let me tell you
• 25:41
  all those poems and those pieces of literature that you write. I need that
• 25:45
  in a book. I need to see that on Amazon. I need that
• 25:48
  to be sold in Barnes and Noble. But let me pour into you for
• 25:52
  a minute. Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for being my
• 25:57
  die hard ride or die rival in football. Thank you for all of that.
• 26:03
  Thank you for those posts that you've tagged me in. Thank you for
• 26:06
  those words that you've spoken to me to encourage me. I appreciate that.
• 26:11
  That doesn't go unnoticed. And wherever you are keep going, you got it.
• 26:17
  Because I promise I see your writings. That needs to be on Amazon,
• 26:22
  like I need you to compile all of that into a book because the
• 26:26
  world needs to see your writings. Y'all, This this this guy here is
• 26:30
  that's my dog, Louisiana dog. But his writing is so beautiful. It's
• 26:37
  phenomenal. Y'all need to check him out. I promise you so, Fredrick,
• 26:41
  this time next year, I need this on Amazon. Okay, I
• 26:45
  need these these beautiful words that you're right that you're given away for free.
• 26:51
  I need that in a book. Promise you put that on Amazon. Something
• 26:53
  you need to get with a publicist and you need to take all of that
• 26:57
  and you need to put that in writing. That needs to be in a
• 27:00
  book. And I'm let me be the first to say I would buy the
• 27:02
  damn book. Do you hit me at full price? Don't be trying to
• 27:06
  give it no damn discount. Y'a'll be trying to give me discount, and
• 27:07
  I don't want to discount. I don't. I just y'a'll be just trying
• 27:12
  to do things for the free, and I don't want it for the free.
• 27:15
  I don't want it for the low. I want it for whatever you're
• 27:18
  selling it for. Because if we can go into these gucca Stoles and Protostoles
• 27:22
  and spend money at full price, you could do that with Frederick or Jessica
• 27:26
  ar Tegus, Angela and whoever else is selling something. Full support, full
• 27:32
  support. But anyway, But tonight's episode, like I said, I just
• 27:34
  want to jump over here because I just wanted to encourage somebody. Tonight's episode
• 27:38
  it's about telling you don't give up. Don't give up. You fight.
• 27:44
  I know that you tried to do something and it didn't work. Maybe try
• 27:49
  to do it in another way. Maybe go back to the drawing board and
• 27:52
  maybe switch some things up, but don't give up. Everyone. Let me
• 27:56
  say this, every one has been blessed with a gift. It's just up
• 28:02
  to you to dig into yourself to find out what that gift is. Everyone
• 28:04
  has a gift. Everybody has a gift. Whether it's the gift a gap,
• 28:11
  I don't know, but everyone has a gift. I just really need
• 28:15
  y'all to really dig deep in yourself and pull that gift out and let the
• 28:21
  world see who you are. Shine. Stop dimming your own light, because
• 28:27
  that's the biggest problem that we have is because we're so afraid to fail that
• 28:33
  we don't want to get up and we don't want to try it again.
• 28:34
  But again, God never said it was gonna be easy. You know,
• 28:41
  I always use this analogy, y'all. So you notice, whenever you drive
• 28:48
  a car and you're the driver, you have to you can only look in
• 28:51
  one direction and that straight ahead, correct, So you miss out on what's
• 28:53
  to the left, what's on the right, and you miss out what's behind
• 28:57
  you. Even when you're in the passenger seat of the car, you're still
• 29:02
  missing out on stuff because guess what, you're too focus on a drive because
• 29:04
  you're trying to make sure the driver it's gonna get you where you're trying to
• 29:07
  go. But when you start allowing God to be the driver of your car
• 29:12
  and you get in the back seat, you get to enjoy the beauty.
• 29:17
  So sometimes you gotta step back and you just gotta let God have his wait.
• 29:22
  Sometimes you just have to say, you know what, God, I'm
• 29:25
  gonna let you have it. I'm gonna let you have it. And that's
• 29:27
  what I'm doing. So I'm giving that same advice to someone who might be
• 29:34
  in the midst of I can't even I can't even think of the word,
• 29:41
  in the midst of confusion, who feels like they have failed. Get up.
• 29:51
  I know it's easier sat than dumb, but get up. You can
• 29:55
  do it. You just have to believe in yourself. You have to speak
• 30:00
  positive over yourself because words are powerful. You speak negative, you're gonna get
• 30:07
  negative results. Start asking God to remove people out of your life. That
• 30:14
  means you're no good. Stop holding on the people that are wearing you're down.
• 30:19
  Baby, it's like a canceler. You gotta cut off the blood supply
• 30:23
  and let it just dying wither away, because as long as you've got people
• 30:29
  holding you down, you'll never make it to the top. That's something else
• 30:33
  I want to tell you. You know, just y'all gotta y'all, just
• 30:38
  you gotta stay encourage. You gotta stay incourage. I know, I know
• 30:44
  it's easy. It's ending done, y'all. I I know it sounds like
• 30:48
  I'm just repeating myself, but you got to you can't give up. You
• 30:56
  gotta look at what happened yesterday as a stepping stone to get you to the
• 31:02
  next level the next day. I get it. A lot of us are
• 31:07
  not where we are where we want to be in life, and that's okay.
• 31:17
  We just we all view each other as a competition, and that's that's
• 31:21
  an issue to me. Just because they made it to the finish line before
• 31:26
  you doesn't mean you're not gonna get there. Everybody's road is different, everybody's
• 31:34
  path is different, everybody struggles are different. But start surrounding yourself with people
• 31:41
  that made it, that could help you get to where you trying to go.
• 31:48
  Be receptive to criticism, Be receptive when someone says, try it this
• 31:53
  way. No one's trying to tell you not to do it your way,
• 31:59
  but they're trying to give you the tools and say, hey, if this
• 32:01
  one didn't work, try B. If Plan A didn't work, try plan
• 32:06
  and B because you gotta have a Plan A plant You gotta have a Plan
• 32:09
  A to Z because if A and B don't work, you got Plan C,
• 32:15
  you got Plan D, and so on and so forth. But you
• 32:19
  gotta encourage yourself. Surround yourself with like minded people. Surround yourself with people
• 32:23
  that want to win, because, let me tell yourself, when you surround
• 32:28
  yourself with losers, you're never gonna win because losers never want to see you
• 32:32
  win. You understand what I'm saying. I'm encouraging something by it to day.
• 32:37
  I'm letting you know because I've noticed that when I stopped talking to a
• 32:43
  lot of people that I remove myself out of certain circles. Opportunities started to
• 32:49
  come around for me. Doors started opening for me because God told me,
• 32:52
  as long as you are in a mess, I'm not gonna bless you.
• 32:57
  And I didn't understand that. I didn't understand what God meant. I felt
• 33:01
  like I needed to hold onto all these so called friends of mine. But
• 33:07
  really, no key they was playing. They was really praying for my downfall.
• 33:10
  So I don't trip about the people that I don't talk to anymore.
• 33:15
  I don't trip about the people that I don't hang with no more, because
• 33:19
  ever since I got rid of that dad and wait, so many doors have
• 33:22
  started to open for me. But you gotta stop trying to hold onto people
• 33:27
  that really don't mean you no good. Sometimes, then weed, in order
• 33:31
  for your flowers to grown, you gotta get rid of the weeds. Then
• 33:37
  we and you have to understand how did those weeds make your garden look?
• 33:42
  You understand what I'm saying. Those weeds make your garden look dirty and dusty.
• 33:47
  That's what then weeds do to your garden. Here you are this beautiful
• 33:51
  rolls surrounded by a bunch of weeds. Ain't no one can see your rolls
• 33:55
  because the weeds are blocking it. So you got to cut the cut the
• 34:00
  weeds out. You gotta cut the blood supply to that cancel. Everybody's not
• 34:06
  meant to go with you on your journey. And I'm okay with that.
• 34:09
  I'm cool with that. I'm cool that. God it's clearing the way for
• 34:15
  me because back then God told me it wasn't my time. But it's showtime
• 34:20
  now, it's showtime to shine baby. It's you're trying to cut that light
• 34:22
  up baby, and you're supposed to shine bright like a diamond. That's what
• 34:28
  you're supposed to do. Sometimes we get in our own way, that's what
• 34:32
  we do. We step on our own tools. We gotta we gotta love
• 34:42
  on us more than we love on anybody else. Because at the end of
• 34:46
  the day, when you go home, it's only you. When you're looking
• 34:52
  at mirror, it's only you. It ain't nobody else, it's only you.
• 34:55
  God is talking to you. God, it's not talking to nobody else.
• 34:59
  God is be can directly to you. So if you want to win,
• 35:01
  baby, you gotta get rid of in losers. You want your if
• 35:05
  you want your garden to grow, you gotta cut rid of the weeds.
• 35:07
  You gotta cut him out because you're a rose, you're a tulip, you're
• 35:13
  whatever flower, You're a chrysanthemum, you're a sunflower, you're whatever type of
• 35:16
  flower you are. But as long as you got them wheeze in your garden,
• 35:20
  you'll never grow. And I said it. I said it. A
• 35:25
  lot of people may feel like I'm speaking to them, but hey, taking
• 35:29
  how you want. But I've noticed. And when I cut them wheeze out
• 35:34
  of my garden, my roles started to grow. And all these opportunities are
• 35:40
  coming around for me. Because God wasn't gonna keep blessing me as long as
• 35:45
  I had the saffoolery over my head, he wasn't gonna bless me. So
• 35:52
  I had to sit down and I had to have a personal part, the
• 35:57
  hard conversation with God. And I had to ask God, God, why
• 35:59
  do you? Why are you? Why everybody doing this? And and I
• 36:02
  can't? God said, I never said you couldn't. You had to be
• 36:09
  mindful. But who really was for you and who was against you? And
• 36:15
  the people that are for me. I'm looking at y'all right, now go
• 36:22
  figure. I don't cry, I don't fret. I don't worry because God
• 36:27
  got me. My own family don't even show up for me. But that's
• 36:31
  cool because I'm still gonna grow. Now. How about that, hm,
• 36:39
  Because that's what we depend on, this family. When family don't show up
• 36:44
  for you, baby, you still gotta get up and show up for yourself.
• 36:46
  Trying to tell you just says so true. I cut so many people
• 36:52
  off and they call that petty girl. Let them let them call your petty
• 36:55
  because let me tell you something, you don't owe anybody. And that's the
• 37:00
  nation when you quit talking to him, because half the time they already know
• 37:02
  what they did to you. And a lot of times they quit talking to
• 37:06
  you them damn they damn self because they know what they've done. They know
• 37:12
  what they've done. See, if you're listen long enough, you'll hear.
• 37:15
  You'll hear a person's true intentions because the very same people that say they love
• 37:21
  you will turn around and stab you're right in the back. Trust me.
• 37:24
  I'm a living witness, Stuart, and here I am still standing. Now
• 37:29
  go figure. Oh oh, I got my sagittarist energy in here. Hey,
• 37:34
  my baby, I love you. I love you baby. Absolutely,
• 37:38
  you get along with yourself because guess what, Sometimes it's best to be by
• 37:44
  yourself because see, when you're by yourself, that's when you really sit down
• 37:46
  there. You take the time to get to know who you are. You
• 37:50
  get to know what you like and what you don't like. I love that.
• 37:55
  I love that me time, and I don't know. I don't owe
• 38:00
  in that body and explanation when I give myself that me time, because that's
• 38:07
  my time, baby, that's my time to decompress, that's my time to
• 38:12
  release, that's my time to rejuvenate myself. You get what I'm saying,
• 38:16
  that's my time. I don't owe you an explanation, and I'm not gonna
• 38:22
  give you one. Now. Let me tell you this because a lot of
• 38:25
  people say I've been acting funny, but I haven't been acting funny. I'm
• 38:30
  on the phone with people nineteen eleven, twelve thirteen hours a date. The
• 38:37
  last thing I want to do is sit on the phone and gossip. That's
• 38:40
  the last thing I want to do. If you're not calling me to check
• 38:45
  on me or to talk about how I could be elevated to the next level,
• 38:50
  I don't want a conversation with you. So let me go ahead and
• 38:52
  put that out there right now. I'm letting you know that right now.
• 38:54
  I'm letting you know that right now. If you're not calling to elevate me,
• 39:00
  or to give me something to empower or to encourage you to uplift me,
• 39:04
  I don't want the parts of the conversation. I'm putting it out there
• 39:06
  right now until you take it, however you won't. I wish you the
• 39:08
  best. I love you, God bless but I'm positive and I can't.
• 39:15
  No, baby, I'm not allowing no negativity to disturb my realm apiece.
• 39:17
  That's not what I'm gonna do. That's not what I'm doing for twenty twenty
• 39:22
  three. These last six months belong to me. These are mine, and
• 39:27
  I'm here to win, and I'm gonna win. Do you hear me?
• 39:30
  I'm not the one, I'm not the two nor the three. But this
• 39:34
  hill is personal. This is me, twenty twenty three, the remainder.
• 39:38
  It's about me. It's about the people in my circle. It's about the
• 39:44
  people that love me, the people that I'm loving, all the people that
• 39:47
  I'm encouraging, the people that I'm pouring into. It's about y'all. It
• 39:52
  is our winning season. Do you hit me. We didn't lost. We
• 39:54
  didn't took two many elves. Okay, the first six months of one twenty
• 40:00
  three we took els, Y'allso now it's time for the wist. So this
• 40:02
  one is mine. The remainder of twenty twenty three is mine. It's mine,
• 40:07
  and you can't have them. God said, it's mine, it belongs
• 40:09
  to me, and it's my time to win. I didn't took too many
• 40:13
  els, so now it's my time to win. And I thank God for
• 40:15
  that because I wouldn't be here if it weren't for the else. Because the
• 40:21
  els got me to my ws. Do you understand that by els got me
• 40:23
  to my I thank God for every trial and tribulation that he has taken me
• 40:29
  through, because I would not be the woman I am to day. I
• 40:30
  wouldn't be the mother that I am to day. I would still be sitting
• 40:35
  and victim blaming had I not taken the time to get to know who Ashley
• 40:39
  was. And I advise something of y'all to do the same. If you
• 40:42
  really want to win, don't be mad at them els, be because them
• 40:45
  el's got you the way to your wist. So I'm blessed. I'm highly
• 40:50
  favored, and I'm God's child. I'm covered. Can't nobody to take that
• 40:53
  from me. Nobody can't nobody to take that away from me. God gave
• 40:57
  it to me. A man can't take it away. Thank you, Okay,
• 41:00
  thank you. So tonight I'm encouraging. I'm uplifting, I'm empowering.
• 41:06
  That's what we're doing tonight. We're not talking about nothing else. I'm encouraging.
• 41:09
  I'm empowered. That's what I'm doing. That's what I'm doing right now,
• 41:15
  she says. Tsha, and Tsha, while you are here, let
• 41:17
  me say this to you. You are strong. You are resilient. You
• 41:25
  have stood in a lot of storms, but you didn't waiver. Your flower
• 41:32
  may have died, but you allowed it to be regrown. What you did
• 41:37
  was you took that flower when you planted somewhere else, and you allowed you
• 41:51
  allowed the universe to work for you. You took the time. You took
• 41:59
  the time the water your own garden. You're stepped away and you healed and
• 42:04
  you grow. And now look at you. You were in this beautiful,
• 42:07
  phenomenal place you thought you weren't gonna make it. I remember those late night
• 42:15
  conversations. I remember praying. I remember crying with you, and I remember
• 42:19
  you being so discouraged. I remember you being ready to give up what you
• 42:23
  said, but God, that's what you said. I remember those conversations.
• 42:31
  I remember and look at you. So I want to give you your roses
• 42:36
  today. I want to tell you how proud I am of you. Today.
• 42:39
  I want to tell you that God has a plan for you. God
• 42:45
  placed you in my life for a reason, not because we're both sagittarius,
• 42:52
  but he placed you in my life for a reason. I haven't quite figured
• 42:54
  out what that reason is. But he placed you in my life for a
• 42:57
  reason. I am of a great that God gave you to me. See
• 43:05
  a lot of us, as black women, we don't love on other black
• 43:07
  women, But I'm here to love on you. I'm here to encourage you.
• 43:14
  I'm here to empower you. I'm here to say you can do it.
• 43:17
  You made it, you did it. You're a phenomenal you are imperfectly
• 43:22
  perfect. God designed you the exact way that he felt like you should be
• 43:27
  for him. So God bless you. You have done a phenomenal job.
• 43:35
  You have raised three amazing children. You have been a great friend, you
• 43:43
  have been a phenomenal cousin sister, all of it you have been, all
• 43:47
  of that you've done, just that. I love you. I love you
• 43:59
  so much. I promise, y'all, I was not gonna get emotional.
• 44:02
  This was supposed to be a night where I'm just in power and I'm uplifting
• 44:08
  goodness, goodness, goodness. But sometimes when when you when God steps in,
• 44:17
  he shows up and he shows out. That's exactly what he does.
• 44:22
  He shows out, God, he does, and you're welcome, baby,
• 44:30
  Yes, ma'am, it is prune in season. Some walks we must walk
• 44:34
  along. We have to because everybody is again, is not meant to walk
• 44:38
  on the same journey in the same path as you. Not everybody is meant
• 44:42
  to be on that journey with you. Sometimes you have to treat people like
• 44:45
  bust bus rides. You drop him off at the next stop, at their
• 44:49
  final destination, and you keep going. Who forgive me, Father, God,
• 44:54
  forgive me, Father God. I promised I was not gonna get emotional
• 44:57
  of the night. I said, that's not what I was gonna do.
• 45:00
  But hey, here it is, I know it, and the one just
• 45:05
  says agreed. Teacher says, overflow. Oh my goodness, it is so
• 45:12
  many comments. Oh, I love you. I love you, I promise
• 45:15
  I do. Girl. Thank you for just allowing me every time that I
• 45:17
  would leave Bloxi, Mississippi and I would come our ten West. Thank you
• 45:22
  for opening your door to me. Thank you for always giving me a bed
• 45:25
  to sleep in, for fool to put in my stomach. You are great.
• 45:29
  I am grateful for that, and I love you for that. I
• 45:31
  am blessed. Y'all don't even understand how blessed I am and how many phenomenal
• 45:37
  people that I have around me, Like y'all just don't even understand the joy
• 45:42
  of these of these phenomenal people that show up for me, that love on
• 45:45
  me, that encourage me, that empower me. And I want to be
• 45:49
  that for somebody else. I want to pour into somebody else. I want
• 45:51
  to love on somebody else. I want to show up for you when you
• 45:54
  need me. Oh, y'all have to understand again, y'all, tonight is
• 45:59
  about encouragement. That is all we're talking about. I'm just hitting encourage.
• 46:04
  I'm just hit a love on y'all. I'm here to pour into you.
• 46:07
  Do you hit me? I am here for that, she says, My
• 46:10
  God, just says, take your time. Titiha say I gave up,
• 46:15
  y'all, she said, But God, yes, ma'am, thank you for
• 46:19
  being a friend like I told you. Thank you for always opening your door
• 46:22
  for me. You never turned your back on me, even when I had
• 46:24
  my dark days, even those days when I would Textion, I would tell
• 46:28
  you I was done, Even those days, said I would Textion, I
• 46:30
  would tell y'all, I was tired of living. And you would text me
• 46:32
  and you would say, after you gotta keep going, you gotta get up.
• 46:35
  You got this, you got this. So I'm pouring back into anyone
• 46:37
  that needs it tonight. I don't know where you are. I don't know
• 46:40
  where you're been, but I love you, and you got it. You
• 46:43
  are strong, I promise you. You are you are you are. Don't
• 46:46
  give up, Please don't get discourage. And it's it's oh. I know.
• 46:53
  I know it's difficult, y'all. I know it's hard. I know
• 46:57
  it's hard. I know something as you want to throw in the towel.
• 46:59
  I know some things you just want to give up. I know some days
• 47:00
  you want to walk away. I know some things you want to drink it
• 47:05
  away. I know some things you want to smoke it away. I know
• 47:07
  some things you want to whatever it is. I know some of y'all are
• 47:10
  a drive away, a pillaway, or drink away. I know that's where
• 47:14
  y'all are. But please don't give up. We need you. I need
• 47:15
  you here. There are people here that love you. There are people here
• 47:19
  that depend on you. There are people here. We need you. We
• 47:25
  love you. I promise I love you. Thank you so much for loving
• 47:30
  on me. Thank y'all for encouraging me. Thank y'all for empowering me.
• 47:35
  I thank y'all. I do it is so I appreciate I do. I
• 47:45
  appreciate it to my wonderful Oh, y'all gotta give me a moment. I
• 47:52
  just gotta I gotta breathe a little bit. Oh, there go my sister.
• 48:01
  There's my sister, Shana. I love you, and you are here.
• 48:06
  Let me pour into you, Let me love on you for a minute.
• 48:10
  When I moved to Biloxi and when I met you that day at Chick
• 48:15
  Filate, you stayed my friend continuously. You showed up for me when I
• 48:25
  didn't have. You loved on me, you opened your door for me.
• 48:39
  I'm grateful for that. Thank you for sharing your mom with me. Thank
• 48:46
  you for just being Shane, because people like you are rare. It doesn't
• 48:55
  matter how long we go without talking, we still pick up like ain't nothing,
• 49:01
  Like we ain't missed a beat. We still pick up like we ain't
• 49:07
  missed a beat. And I love you for that. I miss you.
• 49:13
  I missed talking to you, I miss seeing your face. I missed going
• 49:16
  us going to Applebee's and having our a happy hour margariders. I missed that.
• 49:22
  I missed that. I missed that, and I need to see you.
• 49:24
  I need to hug on you. I need to love on you because
• 49:28
  you have absolutely been a great friend, a sister. You've been all of
• 49:31
  that to me. We had some great times and Blosa girl, we did
• 49:37
  we did. You encourage me even when I was in that dull stale relationship.
• 49:43
  You love me regardless if I stayed or if I left, and I
• 49:46
  appreciate you for that, and I love you. I love you, and
• 49:53
  I can't wait for you to move to Houston. So I'm still gonna speak
• 49:57
  that into the universe. Titia says, you help me on my journey to
• 50:00
  peace. Yes, ma'am. Piece is the only way we could be right
• 50:02
  now. In this world of chaos. We need some peace. We need
• 50:07
  some peace, absolutely, And I cry, but they're always gonna be tears
• 50:13
  of joy. I'm never gonna allow the pain of my depressure and my anxiety
• 50:21
  to control my life again. I am off my anti all my medications except
• 50:27
  for one that's for my diabetes. But I take no other medications except for
• 50:31
  the medicine for my diabetes. I don't. I'm off my blood pressure medicine.
• 50:37
  My blood pressure is down. I'm finally, for the first time,
• 50:39
  y'all in thirteen years, I'm under one hundred and sixty pounds. But baby,
• 50:44
  that's God removing that weight off of me up and that dead weight,
• 50:47
  that that no good weight. Oh, I'm blessed. I am blessed.
• 50:54
  You're blessed, y'all are blessed. Heavenly Father, thank you so much for
• 51:00
  allowing me and giving me this platform to be able to pour up, encourage
• 51:02
  and powering up lift someone who's standing in the midst of the storm. Thank
• 51:06
  you, Lord for allowing me to let them know how great you are,
• 51:13
  how powerful you are, and how with you we can do anything, and
• 51:16
  how you've told me that no weapon formed against me is gonna prosper me.
• 51:20
  You told me they would form, but you told me they would never prosper,
• 51:22
  and I'm seeing it. I'm a living witness said that. I'm I'm
• 51:30
  attestinged to because I did it. I'm here, I made I made it.
• 51:37
  I made it, I made it, I made and I keep going.
• 51:42
  God gives me every opportunity to keep going. Then get to my beautiful
• 51:46
  sister. I love you. I love you. I love you, Shana,
• 51:50
  says Amen. Teacher says God's glory, No flesh can glory. Yes,
• 51:55
  ma'am, are taking says winner's like to see other winners. Whin we
• 52:02
  win in hashtag we win it, and we're gonna keep winning. We're gonna
• 52:07
  keep winning. Do you hit me? We're gonna keep winning regardless if anybody
• 52:09
  says we're losers. We're winners. Where winners. God says we're winners.
• 52:14
  You understand what I'm saying only God. Let me tell you something. I
• 52:16
  don't care what anybody in this world has to say about Ashley. But I
• 52:20
  know who Ashley was five years ago. I know who Ashley was ten years
• 52:23
  ago. That's not Ashley anymore. I'm here, y'all have to understand I'm
• 52:30
  here to encourage. I am so different. My mind frame is different.
• 52:35
  The way I move it's different. The people that I surround myself, it's
• 52:38
  different. You understand what I'm saying. I'm surrounding myself with positivity. You
• 52:43
  get what I'm saying because I've lived in those realms of peace. I've been
• 52:45
  around the negative people. I've lived the negative life. You understand what I'm
• 52:50
  saying. I'm a whole testimony. If you've watched Black Girl Interrupted from the
• 52:54
  beginning, You've seen my journey. You've seen me make it through depression.
• 53:00
  I was an alcoholic. You get what I'm saying. I was sleeping with
• 53:02
  all different types of men. I have three children, three different baby daddies.
• 53:07
  No I'm not married. No I'm not. But it doesn't matter because
• 53:12
  in God's eyes, I'm still perfect. You get what I'm saying. I'm
• 53:15
  in perfectly perfect, just the way you are. No sin is greater than
• 53:21
  the other. So anybody that system says, or Ashley, I remember when
• 53:23
  you were like this, Yes you remember when I was like that, But
• 53:27
  celebrate who I am to day. So that's what you tell somebody that wants
• 53:30
  to bring up who you were. Ask them, can they celebrate who you
• 53:34
  are to day? You get what I'm saying, Because I don't reside at
• 53:36
  that address that you're trying to send that letter to return to Cinder take it
• 53:39
  back. You get what I'm saying. That's that weapon excusement that God said
• 53:45
  was gonna form, but it didn't prosper. You get what I'm saying.
• 53:46
  Ask them, do they love the new you? Or do they still celebrate
• 53:51
  the old you? Because here's a lot of people that still love the old
• 53:53
  me. But I love the people that still that are celebrating the new me,
• 53:58
  that are celebrating the journey that I'm on, that are celebrating how far
• 54:00
  did I've come, that could see the change. You get what I'm saying.
• 54:04
  So I don't care how you feel about me and who I was five
• 54:07
  or six years ago, because guess what, I don't live at that address,
• 54:09
  So you could take your letter and your negativity back to that old address
• 54:14
  because I'm at a new address. Okay, somebody say a man, y'all
• 54:17
  forgive me for that. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to go to
• 54:20
  church on that part. But what you said our takers just man, because
• 54:25
  what you're saying we're winning. We are winning because it is our winning season,
• 54:30
  that's what it is. Because again we've taken too many else. Okay,
• 54:35
  now it's time for these wist So let me tell y'all these last six
• 54:38
  months or last five and a half months, it's us, It's it's ours.
• 54:44
  Okay. Again, you don't owe anybody nothing, So if you decide
• 54:46
  you want to cut people off, you don't even hold them in explanation.
• 54:50
  You just cut them off and you just keep moving. Because again, in
• 54:52
  order for you to get to the next level, sometimes you gotta cut off
• 54:55
  that dead weight and see that we want to hold on to it. But
• 54:59
  I don't I want that dead weight because that was that negative weight. That
• 55:02
  was that That was that weight that I used to glorify. That was the
• 55:07
  negativity that I used to reside in. You get what I'm saying. That's
• 55:10
  when I was going and I'm cussing people out and and I'm taking and weaponizing
• 55:16
  your personal issues that you told me and I'm using it against you. I
• 55:21
  don't want to be that person anymore, and I choose not to be that
• 55:22
  person anymore. You get what I'm saying. Like I said, my own
• 55:25
  family don't even show up for me. But it's cool. But I still
• 55:29
  love them. But guess what, I'm still gonna elevate, so it doesn't
• 55:31
  even matter. Again. I'm the rolls in the garden that was full of
• 55:35
  the weeds. But now that I've cut the weeds down, now my roses
• 55:37
  are starting to bloom. So again I'm winning. I'm winning and I'm gonna
• 55:43
  keep winning. So our takers thank you so much for that, because winners
• 55:46
  we love to see other people win. Again. When you when you can't
• 55:49
  put a negative in a positive together, because you know what happened, You're
• 55:52
  gonna get a negative. That's what happens. So when you put a negative
• 55:54
  in a positive again, you're never gonna get positive results. But once you
• 55:58
  start surrounding yourself winners and positive people, watch watch how your life changes,
• 56:02
  I'm telling you. And once you start talking to God, develop your personal
• 56:06
  relationship with God, and just watch how your life is gonna change. And
• 56:08
  just watch how God is gonna move for you. Watch how God is gonna
• 56:12
  move people out of your way. Watch how much your garden is gonna flourish.
• 56:15
  I'm telling you. You keep saying, oh, I got these weeds,
• 56:17
  and I gotta explain. You don't owe anybody in explanation. I'm no
• 56:21
  longer explaining who Ashley is in him or Okay, if you don't know who
• 56:24
  I am by now, then that's not my problem because I'm no longer gonna
• 56:29
  discuss who Ashley was five six, seven, eight, nineteen years ago.
• 56:31
  Yes I was that person, but talk about who I am today, okay,
• 56:35
  because I know you see it. I know you see it because a
• 56:38
  lot of people are standing on the side with their arms folded up and they
• 56:43
  face frowned up. Because I'm winning because God told me I'm gonna allow your
• 56:46
  enemies to be your footstool. So thank you God for elevating me to the
• 56:50
  next level. Thank my enemies for allowing me to build a table for winners.
• 56:53
  Thank you, thank you. I'm celebrating him. I'm giving him his
• 56:58
  glory. I'm giving him the grace because that's the same thing I'm doing for
• 57:01
  me, and I want you all to give that to yourself. I want
• 57:04
  you to give yourself the grace. I want you to give yourself the glory,
• 57:07
  and I want you to know that no matter how many times you'll fall
• 57:08
  down, baby, You'll get back up, dust their moms. I'll put
• 57:12
  your little knee, spurn them on their wounds, and get back up and
• 57:15
  keep going. Because God says you're a winner. You're a winner. That's
• 57:17
  who you are. You're a winner. That's who you are today, That's
• 57:22
  who you were yesterday, that's who you were last week. I don't care
• 57:24
  what you did two years ago, because every day that God gives you another
• 57:28
  chance to wake up, that's another chance for you to make a difference.
• 57:31
  That's for you, another chance for you to be different, for you to
• 57:34
  make a change. You get what I'm saying. That's for you to take
• 57:36
  that opportunity. And you're pouring to somebody else. Give God gave you three
• 57:39
  seats for your garden. You put one in yours and pass the other two
• 57:43
  back. And you encourage someone to allow their garden to grow. Tell them
• 57:45
  they need to cut those weeds out. You get what I'm saying again,
• 57:49
  You don't win anybody in an explanation. Why you quit talking to them?
• 57:52
  Let them call your names, but guess what them same people are gonna be
• 57:54
  the same person sitting across from you asking you for a job. Do you
• 57:58
  understand and That's what I had to tell my son. I'm telling you,
• 58:01
  I'm telling you that I'm encouraging you today. I'm uplifting you today. I'm
• 58:07
  empowering you today. That's what tonight's episode is about. And this is what
• 58:09
  I'm gonna start doing. Once a month. I'm gonna take one day out
• 58:13
  of the month and it's all gonna be about encouragement. It's gonna be all
• 58:15
  about empowering people. Do you understand that's what we have to do. You
• 58:20
  have to encourage somebody because you don't know what a person's going through in life
• 58:22
  right now. You don't know where a person is in their life right now.
• 58:25
  I might be talking to someone who may be getting a pink notice that
• 58:30
  they job tomorrow. I might be talking to somebody that just got any fiction
• 58:32
  notice soul they don't, but you pray in but God, because that's the
• 58:36
  only person that can make away. I'm telling you stop depending on man,
• 58:39
  Stop depending on your so called friends that only show up when they need you,
• 58:45
  but never show up when you need them. Okay, them the people
• 58:47
  that I had to cut off them and I don't know and I'm not apologizing
• 58:52
  for it. I did. I did I cut you all off and did,
• 58:55
  and I'm the happiest I've been in my life when I got rid of
• 58:59
  you negative ass people I did. I did. I guarantee you watch you
• 59:05
  change your life. Get rid it in people, I promise you. I
• 59:07
  get on here and I laugh and I joke that I played on Facebook,
• 59:10
  But in real life, I'm really wanting to go somewhere. I'm really wanting
• 59:16
  to make it to the top. But I'm willing to run the race till
• 59:22
  I get to the finish line, no matter how many times I fall down.
• 59:24
  So I want to say that to you, no matter how many times
• 59:27
  you fall down, get up, Get up. You had a bad day
• 59:30
  to day, Okay, that doesn't determine the rest of your life. You
• 59:35
  had a bad week, okay, who says next week is not gonna be
• 59:37
  better. Okay, you woke up and got bad news, But who's to
• 59:45
  say hours so later you're not gonna get good news. You have to stop
• 59:49
  letting your moods determine your day. Let that minor setback be your major comeback,
• 59:55
  because that's what I'm doing. I lost my father two years ago,
• 59:59
  y'all. When I tell y'all, I thought I was losing my mind.
• 1:00:00
  I thought the whole world was gonna end until I had to realize we're all
• 1:00:07
  gonna leave this earth. But I want to leave a mark when I leave.
• 1:00:13
  I want you to remember me, not remember who I used to be,
• 1:00:15
  remember who I am today. But I want you to give me my
• 1:00:21
  flowers today, not when my cast get closes. So that's why I did
• 1:00:23
  this tonight. Because I'm giving you your flowers. I'm not waiting to stand
• 1:00:28
  up at your service and talk about how great of a person you was when
• 1:00:30
  I could have told you why you were still here. So that's why I'm
• 1:00:34
  doing this. That's why I'm doing this. That's why I'm doing this because
• 1:00:39
  if no one has told you to day, I love you. If no
• 1:00:43
  one told you that, I'm proud of you. If no one told you,
• 1:00:46
  I see you, I see the moves you're making. I'm over here
• 1:00:50
  clapping for you. I'm giving you a round of applause because I've seen the
• 1:00:53
  els you've taken. So I'm glad to finally see you get a win hashtag
• 1:00:59
  we win and artagers put that on a shirt hashtag we win it. If
• 1:01:05
  no one has told you today, you got this. If no one told
• 1:01:10
  you today, tomorrow's gonna be better. I'm sorry if you had a bad
• 1:01:15
  day to day, but just know tomorrow's gonna be better. I know last
• 1:01:20
  week wasn't a good week, but I know this week has been better for
• 1:01:22
  you, and it's going to get even better for you. God is about
• 1:01:24
  to bless you not only financially, but he's gonna bless you mentally, emotionally,
• 1:01:29
  spiritually, mentally, He's gonna take care of you mentally. I know
• 1:01:34
  that I see this because I've been blessed when I tell you, I have
• 1:01:39
  a man that loves not only me but my children, who encourages me.
• 1:01:45
  I see some of you women and you men out here with partners that are
• 1:01:49
  cheering y'all own, baby, I love it for you. I'm loving to
• 1:01:52
  see y'all win. I love it. I'm here for it. I'm here
• 1:01:55
  for your glow up. I don't care how many ails you too. I
• 1:02:00
  don't care who you was five years ago. I don't care who you was
• 1:02:02
  last week. I still love you just the same. But just know that
• 1:02:09
  if you do me wrong, God's his time looks low, and I don't
• 1:02:14
  even have to tell him what I need him to do, because he's gonna
• 1:02:15
  automatically remove you out of my life. I don't even have to tell him
• 1:02:19
  that, because God knows what I'm trying to do. See, he's clearing
• 1:02:22
  my path, and I see a lot of y'all paths are being clear too,
• 1:02:24
  because I see a lot of people that we were mutual friends with we're
• 1:02:29
  no longer mutual friends with. Thank God for that. I love it.
• 1:02:34
  I love it. I love that God has pulled those weeds out of my
• 1:02:38
  garden. I love that y'all's gardens are blooming, y'all. I love it.
• 1:02:45
  I'm loving every move that y'all are making. Congratulations on that promotion you
• 1:02:49
  got at your job. Congratulations on you even going to a new job.
• 1:02:52
  If no one told you that today. I'm proud of you. I love
• 1:02:55
  you. I'm praying for you. Whatever ailment is you got over your body,
• 1:03:04
  it's healed. Whatever's gonna happen, it's done. God has you covered.
• 1:03:14
  He has you covered. You are blessed in highly favored baby you are.
• 1:03:19
  You are covered by a blood of God. Baby, by the blood
• 1:03:22
  of Jesus. You are covered. That's who you are. You're phenomenal.
• 1:03:29
  You are great, you are amazing, you are loved. Hashtag we win
• 1:03:38
  in ar Tagers. I need that on a shirt. That's right there.
• 1:03:44
  Put that that statement right here. Let me roll this back real quick.
• 1:03:46
  That right there, artagers, I need that on a T shirt. Come
• 1:03:51
  on now, put that on a T shirt. Go sell it, Go
• 1:03:57
  sell it, I promise you. Oh y'all like y'all. Just when I
• 1:04:03
  tell y'all when I decided to even do this tonight, I was like,
• 1:04:10
  again, I tried to do this last week, but y'all couldn't hear me
• 1:04:13
  and again didn't realize the microphone was muted. But maybe last week was not
• 1:04:19
  meant for me to do this episode. Maybe it was meant for me to
• 1:04:21
  do tonight because c tonight was a whole other topic. But I switched it
• 1:04:25
  around and say, no, I want to do this tonight. So here
• 1:04:29
  we are again. I'm encouraging t should say giving is no longer an option,
• 1:04:38
  Shane and say I lost my She said, I lose myself trying to
• 1:04:40
  make other people. And that's and that's and I'm glad you said that,
• 1:04:44
  because we do that, we lose who we are trying to help other people
• 1:04:48
  and we have to stop doing it. We have to stop pouring into people
• 1:04:54
  that are not pouring back into us because I'm tired of being thirsty. I'm
• 1:04:57
  tired of replenishing you, and I'm left the police eat it. I'm left
• 1:05:00
  thirsty, I'm left hungry. I'm tired, so I'm no longer pouring into
• 1:05:06
  people that no longer pour into me. Reciprocity is a big thing. Baby,
• 1:05:12
  if I'm if I'm poor, Hey, we gotta balance it out,
• 1:05:15
  baby, like we gotta, we gotta balance this out. T Sha say,
• 1:05:18
  were better together, she said, we are gonna keep partnering. Shanna.
• 1:05:24
  You know I appreciate you. T Sha says, we love you.
• 1:05:28
  Shana. Jess says, I was like this last week. My son got
• 1:05:33
  me through, she said, But this is a therapeutic session to be had.
• 1:05:38
  Let me tell you something I encourage and y'all know I advocate for mental
• 1:05:44
  health. Y'all know that this space Hill is gonna always be safe for everybody.
• 1:05:51
  We're not doing a disrespect. No, y'all know, we're not doing
• 1:05:55
  no disrespect. We're not doing All this here that we're doing is about love,
• 1:06:00
  empowerment, uplifting, encouragement. That's that's what it's about. That's what
• 1:06:05
  it's about right here on Black Girl Interrupted. Because guess what, we've dealt
• 1:06:11
  with so many interruptions that it's time for us to slowly back away from those
• 1:06:16
  interruptions that have kept us. It's time to free ourselves from this, from
• 1:06:20
  our own prison that we built for ourselves. You understand what I'm saying.
• 1:06:25
  That's what we have to do. We have to break free of our own
• 1:06:30
  jails that we've created for ourselves. We put our own, these these chains
• 1:06:33
  on ourselves. We've created a lot of these storms. But we wanted to
• 1:06:40
  blame everybody else. But sometimes I told y'all, we stand in our own
• 1:06:45
  way. We dem our own light. We down't play a lot of the
• 1:06:48
  things that we do. We don't we don't believe in ourselves, and that's
• 1:06:51
  not We gotta start doing that. You gotta start believing that you are worthy
• 1:06:57
  of every gift that God gives you. Gotta believe that you gotta open your
• 1:07:00
  hands and receive every God every gift that God gives you, and you have
• 1:07:04
  to believe that you are worthy to receive that. See, a lot of
• 1:07:08
  us don't feel like we are a lot of us question the things that God
• 1:07:11
  does for us. A lot of us say, well, why did God
• 1:07:14
  give it to me? And because he felt you were worthy. He felt
• 1:07:18
  you were worthy to get that new job, He felt you were worthy to
• 1:07:21
  get that new car. He felt like it was time for you to be
• 1:07:24
  in that house. Stop questioning the moves that God makes because he's doing it
• 1:07:30
  for our reason. I know we can't see it right now, but just
• 1:07:34
  no, God does things on his time. Everything we won't. I know,
• 1:07:40
  we want to hit the lot of we want to win a million dollars.
• 1:07:43
  Hell, I'm ready to be in a house. But maybe God says
• 1:07:47
  you're not ready just yet. So I'm gonna hold on to that. So
• 1:07:54
  maybe that's where you are right now. Maybe God just feels like he doesn't
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  feel like you're strong enough to withstand what he's about to give you, so
• 1:08:02
  he's gonna give you a little bit at a time. And I use this
• 1:08:04
  analogy, y'all. It's like a buffet. So we always say, oh
• 1:08:11
  God, God, I Oh God, Come bless me, Come bless me.
• 1:08:15
  But it's like when he blesses us, we're questioning why he did it,
• 1:08:19
  or we got our hands in the Pope now. So God says,
• 1:08:24
  if you want me to prepare a meal for you, I need you to
• 1:08:26
  get out of the kitchen because see, I've noticed that whenever we do it,
• 1:08:31
  we make ourselves sick. It's like when you go to a buffet.
• 1:08:35
  What's the first thing you do? When you go to a buffet? You
• 1:08:38
  try to eat everything? And that's on a buffet line. You go up
• 1:08:41
  there, you got one plate or you gotta trade, and you got two
• 1:08:44
  or three places, and you're trying to eat everything you didn't put on your
• 1:08:45
  table. You didn't eat everything. Now you're sick. But when God feeds
• 1:08:51
  you, you get to enjoy it because he God gives you on it a
• 1:08:56
  little bit at a time for you to enjoy. Because see, if God
• 1:09:00
  I gave us everything that we asked for, will we really be able to
• 1:09:01
  handle it? Honestly, I want to know if God whatever wherever, Okay,
• 1:09:08
  so let me ask you all this. Whatever God gives you, whatever
• 1:09:14
  it is that you want. So let's say somebody wants a brand new car,
• 1:09:17
  Say somebody wants some Mercedes. Would you be able to handle that Mercedes?
• 1:09:24
  If God gave you a million dollars right now? Would you be able
• 1:09:27
  to handle that million dollars that God gave you. Absolutely not, because the
• 1:09:31
  first thing that we want to do when we get this money or we get
• 1:09:34
  this brand new car, we want to go show off. Okay, that's
• 1:09:39
  the first thing we want to do. We don't even enjoy it. We
• 1:09:42
  don't even you know, we like, we don't relish in the gift because
• 1:09:45
  we want to go show everybody else what God gave us. When God says
• 1:09:48
  I want you to enjoy your first because see that's the first thing we try
• 1:09:53
  to do. We want to go, oh God, y'all, I hit
• 1:09:55
  the lotta I want a million dollars, and you want to go take care
• 1:09:58
  of everybody. And now that you've done it, now you broke. You
• 1:10:03
  didn't even get to enjoy it because you spent it all or you you did
• 1:10:09
  everything in two days. So that's why God didn't give it to you,
• 1:10:13
  because God says, you don't know how to handle that. So I'm not
• 1:10:15
  gonna give you everything at one time. I'm gonna give you a little bit
• 1:10:17
  out of time because I want you to enjoy it. I'm gonna give you
• 1:10:20
  a little bit of I'm gonna give you a little bit of this. I'm
• 1:10:21
  gonna give you a little bit of that because then we get to enjoy you.
• 1:10:26
  You understand what I'm saying. So when you when you fix your play
• 1:10:29
  of food, God is gonna give you one piece of chicken, a scoop
• 1:10:32
  of mashed potatoes with a little scoop of gravy so you can enjoy it.
• 1:10:38
  But see if God gave you two three pieces of chicken and the whole plate
• 1:10:41
  of mashed potatoes with your stream beans and the roll and your sweet tea and
• 1:10:44
  all that. Guess what, You're trying to eat everything on the plate,
• 1:10:46
  and now you sit and now you're sitting up begging for more because now you
• 1:10:50
  didn't eat it all. Use that with your guilt and understand that God is
• 1:10:58
  gonna bless you on his time, not your time. It's so many things
• 1:11:03
  that I won't that if God gave me everything right now that I asked for,
• 1:11:08
  y'all, I would fumble. I'm gonna be honest with you, I'm
• 1:11:12
  gonna fumble because I ain't never had nothing like that before. So God says,
• 1:11:15
  I want you to appreciate what I gave you. I want you to
• 1:11:18
  enjoy what I've provided for you. Shanea said, I was just saying that
• 1:11:25
  teachers say two of your freckles washed away. You know what, I think
• 1:11:28
  two more just popped up because he I gotta I got a new one that
• 1:11:30
  just popped right here. That's a new one. And then it's another one
• 1:11:34
  right there, and then another one just popped up right there. So God
• 1:11:38
  is God is kissing me. They say these are angel kisses, so or
• 1:11:42
  that's I'm just I'm being kissed and blessed. So I guess the higher I
• 1:11:45
  elevate, the most freckles I get. So I guess by the time I
• 1:11:48
  get to where God wants me to be, I'm gonna have a whole face
• 1:11:50
  full of freckles. But it's okay. I love them. I'm embracing them
• 1:11:55
  because God made me imperfectly perfect, just like He made y'all. I'm but
• 1:12:00
  y'all have to understand like tonight was needed. Titia says, I rebuked depression
• 1:12:08
  and anxiety and Jesus holding name Amen. Shanna says amen. J says Amen.
• 1:12:15
  Titia says Hallelujah. She say Hi, sag we winning y'all at so
• 1:12:18
  many comments. Hold on way he jes says absolutely Jess says, let them
• 1:12:23
  know. She say, who, Lord, you're saying a mouthful. Shana
• 1:12:27
  says, yes, preach sis, she said, Tesher say thank you God.
• 1:12:31
  Tesia says new grace, new mercy. Every day. I'm trying to
• 1:12:34
  tell you. Jess says delayed devotion. She say, box it out,
• 1:12:40
  okay. Shanna says, God be the glory. I'm getting my roses,
• 1:12:45
  yes, ma'am. Jess says, yes, ma'am. You want that dash
• 1:12:48
  to means something absolutely? Do you hit me absolutely? Shana says, yes,
• 1:12:54
  Lord, Amen, she gave me my flowers. So y'all are putting
• 1:12:57
  more flowers in my garden. And guess what I'm putting. I'm giving these
• 1:13:00
  seeds back to y'all for your garden to grow. Because I want to see
• 1:13:03
  y'all win. I can't wait to see y'all's table, Babe, Bat,
• 1:13:06
  I can't wait to see the table that guard is preparing for y'all. Some
• 1:13:10
  of y'all already sitting there and don't even know hmm, some of y'all don't
• 1:13:14
  even know. I love you too, Shane. I promise I do,
• 1:13:17
  and I'm proud of you. Thank you, I promise. Ah. Michael
• 1:13:23
  Gray says a man, Hey brother, Uh, it's almost football season,
• 1:13:27
  so I'm ready, y'all. I am ready. Shanna says true, just
• 1:13:30
  says that's the nature. But we have to learn from others. Absolutely,
• 1:13:34
  there's my brother. Let's get a ga. What's up, sists, I
• 1:13:38
  mean, what's up? Brother? I love you, love your love you.
• 1:13:41
  Uh while you are on healing me pouring to you for just a moment.
• 1:13:44
  I am proud of you. I'm proud of you getting out of your
• 1:13:45
  situation. I'm proud of everything that you do for your son. Congratulations to
• 1:13:50
  your son for elevating and going to the next level. I'm so proud of
• 1:13:53
  you and everything you're doing with your YouTube channel. Again, I cannot wait
• 1:13:58
  to see where you are in twenty twenty four. I promise you your table
• 1:14:02
  is being prepared. You just don't even know you're sitting at it, but
• 1:14:05
  just know you're about to be sitting at a table with a whole bunch of
• 1:14:08
  winners. Trust and believe that once that situation ends and God closes that don't
• 1:14:13
  for you, watch how He's gonna elevate you. I promise you, Watch
• 1:14:15
  how he's gonna put that person, your person in your path, but I
• 1:14:19
  can't wait for you to heal because Babe, at that heel version of you,
• 1:14:23
  people better watch out. I promise you. You may be down right
• 1:14:26
  now, but I guess what that w is coming. China. You're beautiful
• 1:14:30
  and I've always told you you're beautiful with your good country Mississippi itself. My
• 1:14:33
  girl, I love you, My brother, Drey says one hunted baby,
• 1:14:39
  one hunted. Like I told you, Dre, I'm proud of you.
• 1:14:41
  I'm proud of how you how far you've come mentally, because you've overcome a
• 1:14:46
  lot. I'm very proud of you. Congratulations on you getting that house that
• 1:14:50
  you spoke about. And I loved how you did it because you didn't let
• 1:14:54
  nobody know what you was doing. You didn't pop out to you got it
• 1:14:57
  and I'm proud of you. And that's the way you're supposed to do.
• 1:14:59
  You're supposed to pop out surprised because then people are gonna be wondering what you
• 1:15:02
  was doing and how you got it. I'm very proud of you, and
• 1:15:05
  you can keep that heat in Arizona. I love your brother, I promised
• 1:15:09
  I do. I love your two brother I promised I do. But again
• 1:15:14
  y'all. Tonight's episode was just about encouraging. That's all it was about.
• 1:15:18
  Tonight. We're not talking about what's going on in the world right now.
• 1:15:24
  I don't want to talk about the missing tyling All pill that's missing down at
• 1:15:27
  the bottom of the ocean, the people that was down there trying to go
• 1:15:30
  see the Titanic. I don't want to talk about that. I just want
• 1:15:32
  to keep talking about encouraging, encouraging somebody, because a lot of y'all don't
• 1:15:38
  even understand how much encouragement is needed. Encouragement is needed, you know what
• 1:15:44
  I'm saying. You don't know what a person is going through. I encourage
• 1:15:50
  and I challenge everyone. Send one person a text and just tell them I
• 1:15:55
  love you. That's all I want you to do. Just text them I
• 1:16:00
  love you, and that's it and just wait on the response. Just tell
• 1:16:05
  them I love you, or text them and say I'm proud of you.
• 1:16:10
  Something encouraging. Send that to somebody that who may need it, because you
• 1:16:15
  don't know, because no one gets on Facebook and says, oh, this
• 1:16:20
  is what I'm going through. Nobody does that. Text someone when you wake
• 1:16:26
  up in the morning, just say I love you or I'm proud of you,
• 1:16:30
  and watch how to change someone's day. We need to start doing that.
• 1:16:34
  It takes thirty seconds to sent a text, fifteen twenty thirty seconds to
• 1:16:38
  sent a text. Text somebody tomorrow and tell them I love you. Text
• 1:16:43
  somebody tomorrow and say I'm proud of you. Text someone tomorrow and say how
• 1:16:47
  can I support your brand? Text someone tomorrow and say how can I support
• 1:16:50
  your business? That's what you do. I challenge y'all to do that.
• 1:16:55
  I challenge you to do that. I'm asking you to do that. Send
• 1:17:00
  that, spread that positivity to someone who needs it. Because again you'll be
• 1:17:04
  surprised at the text messages that I get in the morning when people say good
• 1:17:10
  morning, I love you. It makes my day. It does it just
• 1:17:16
  it really really really makes my day to know that I'm thought about, to
• 1:17:23
  know that someone's proud of me, because that motivates me to keep going.
• 1:17:28
  That pushes me to keep going. That just makes me want to get up
• 1:17:31
  and grind even harder. Because I owe that to y'all. Yes, I
• 1:17:36
  owe that to y'all. And the reason I say I owe that to y'all
• 1:17:41
  is because I have a guilt that God gave me, and I'm utilizing my
• 1:17:45
  gift to give to others. That's my guilt. It's to pour into other
• 1:17:50
  people. That's my guilt. That's what God gave me. God didn't give
• 1:17:55
  me this big mouth for nothing. God says, I need you to use
• 1:17:58
  it for positive civity because you used it too long to be negative, Ashley.
• 1:18:03
  Now I need you to be positive. And I didn't know how to
• 1:18:06
  disciphle between the two because I've been so used to being negative. So now
• 1:18:12
  when I'm able to speak positive, it's overwhelming to me to be able to
• 1:18:20
  utilize my gift for something positive instead of something negative. When I get on
• 1:18:29
  here and I talk to y'all, it's a beautiful thing. When I get
• 1:18:34
  messages and people say I'm proud of you, it makes me feel some kind
• 1:18:45
  of way, not in a bad way, but that lets me know that
• 1:18:50
  I'm serving my purpose. I'm serving exactly why I'm here on this earth.
• 1:18:56
  Tonight. It was meant for me to get on here and and pour into
• 1:19:00
  you. It was God that wanted me to speak to you and tell you
• 1:19:06
  what He's what he wants you to do. That's why I did this tonight,
• 1:19:17
  because that was God's way. It's saying, Ashta, I need you
• 1:19:20
  to tell people how great of a person I am and what I can do,
• 1:19:25
  what I've done for you, that I can do for others because a
• 1:19:28
  lot of people don't believe, but I'm attestable. I have made it and
• 1:19:35
  I'm gonna keep going. And you have made it. Your table is being
• 1:19:40
  prepared for you, and you don't even know. Some of y'all are already
• 1:19:43
  sitting at your table. Some of you are already building your brand. Some
• 1:19:47
  of y'all are already leaving a legacy. It's being written right now as we
• 1:19:53
  speak, and a lot of y'all don't see it. But just know I
• 1:19:57
  see it. Just know that I want to be a part of your journey.
• 1:20:04
  I want to be a part of the role that you travel when you
• 1:20:10
  get to your final destination. I want to walk with you because I want
• 1:20:14
  you to know you're not by yourself. If we gotta laugh, if we
• 1:20:17
  gotta cry, if we gotta cust, if we gotta scream, I want
• 1:20:19
  to be able that journey with you. That's why I created Black Girl.
• 1:20:23
  Interrupted again, y'all didn't I don't care about monetary I see these podcasts and
• 1:20:30
  people are talking about a bunch of nothing. But I get on here and
• 1:20:34
  I want to talk about a lot of something. That's what I want to
• 1:20:38
  do. I want to talk about a lot of something, not a bunch
• 1:20:41
  of nothing. So keep writing, sit down, dig deep in find your
• 1:20:51
  gift because everyone is given a gift. I don't know what your gift is,
• 1:20:58
  but you have to show me what it is. Whether you're a good
• 1:21:01
  writer, whether you're a good speaker, whether you are a good artist.
• 1:21:05
  Everyone has a gift. God has given everyone a gift. It's just up
• 1:21:10
  to us to de deep and find it. You gotta givet y'all do stop
• 1:21:15
  playing it like y'all need to stop playing with yourself, stop playing with your
• 1:21:19
  potential. Do you hit me? It's people that are watching you. It's
• 1:21:25
  people that have told you you need to do this, you should do this.
• 1:21:28
  You're great at this, but y'all won't do it because you're afraid to
• 1:21:32
  fail. It's okay, you fail, Guess what, you get back up,
• 1:21:42
  try it again, like y'all. Just mhm, y'all just don't even
• 1:21:56
  know. My cup is still full. I have poured into each and every
• 1:22:08
  person tonight. Drey says, appreciate that, says love you too, And
• 1:22:15
  yeah, that's why I got the pool as well for those easy summers.
• 1:22:17
  Absolutely because you need it. Because I think it was what one hundred and
• 1:22:20
  twenty some degrees in Arizona and it was what one hundred and two here in
• 1:22:24
  Houston the other day. Yeah, be back, but t Sha, you
• 1:22:30
  know, I'm always sending that hard back to you. Y'all. Y'all got
• 1:22:33
  to wait. I mean, anyway, I'll pull some hearts or whatever come
• 1:22:38
  on your page and post all of that. Uh. Dray says, keep
• 1:22:44
  up a good word. T Sha says, I'm sending love in life.
• 1:22:46
  She said, what you have poured into us, we send back to you
• 1:22:49
  when I receive it. I receive it because one of the beautiful things is
• 1:22:54
  when you're pouring into people and people pour into your back, your cup stays
• 1:22:58
  full and you'll never go homeer and you'll never go through. And that's a
• 1:23:00
  beautiful thing about that cup. Baby. I have been dreamed. Absolutely.
• 1:23:11
  I think, y'all, this is my dad speaking through me. You know,
• 1:23:15
  my dad was a minister, and I really believe like that I he's
• 1:23:19
  speaking through me. I received that. If you know, I really received
• 1:23:24
  that, Jess. I love you too, and we have got to find
• 1:23:30
  a weekend that you're not busy where me and you just sit down and and
• 1:23:34
  you come over here, I come over there. It doesn't even matter.
• 1:23:38
  I know we're both introverted. Uh So, I don't know how that's gonna
• 1:23:42
  work, but we got to make it work some kind away, um where
• 1:23:45
  we do your vision board, because I see something in you that I would
• 1:23:50
  really love for you to do in love of your son. It's something that
• 1:23:59
  I really want you to do. And I already see the name for it.
• 1:24:05
  Drey says one hundred and six. Right now, y'all think it's something
• 1:24:10
  like that here in Houston, but just it's something and I see the name,
• 1:24:15
  and I see you doing some type of nonprofit for your son, Dorian,
• 1:24:21
  and it's called Dorian's Way or something along those lines. But that's something
• 1:24:28
  I see you doing, and let's get that into fruition. I want to
• 1:24:34
  really see that for you, brother. I really want you to get back
• 1:24:44
  into doing your podcast for mental health for men, because it's absolutely needed.
• 1:24:53
  There are so many black men out here that are suffering in silence and don't
• 1:24:57
  have a safe space to, So I really would love to see you get
• 1:25:04
  off and do that. I really would love to see you do that,
• 1:25:10
  I promise you. But just it's something I just I see you're doing something
• 1:25:17
  and it's called Dorian's way, uh, that you do for children that are
• 1:25:24
  artistic. Um. But I want to see that come into fruition for you.
• 1:25:29
  I really want you to sit down and do a vision board. That's
• 1:25:33
  that's really what I want you to do. Um. I want to see
• 1:25:38
  that. I want to see that, uh. And I know for a
• 1:25:44
  fact Dorian would absolutely be on board for you to do something like that,
• 1:25:48
  and I think he would even come up with a logo for it. So
• 1:25:53
  I really I want to see that for you. Let's let's let's let's bring
• 1:25:58
  that into fruition. U tsha mercadal baby. I want you to I need
• 1:26:06
  you to minister. I need you to pull some ladies together and I need
• 1:26:17
  you to minister. I need you to encourage. But I want you to
• 1:26:21
  go live on Facebook and do that. I need you to create a YouTube
• 1:26:27
  channel. I really want you to do that because you you do a lot,
• 1:26:36
  you pour into me and I really could see you're doing something where you're
• 1:26:46
  ministering to women, where you're sharing your story, your testimony, your trials
• 1:26:50
  and your tribulations and how far you've come. So I see that. But
• 1:26:58
  just I'm so serious, she says. I'm in her head. But I
• 1:27:03
  really want you something because I say that because we need something like that here
• 1:27:13
  in Houston. So I really need you to put pen to paper and and
• 1:27:19
  and and take your time doing it. No, so I don't I don't
• 1:27:23
  want you to feel like I'm rushing you, but just know that that's what
• 1:27:26
  I see. It's something Dorian Dorian's WAYE Dorian's something you know, um,
• 1:27:34
  black mothers. I got a name. I may need to inbox it to
• 1:27:42
  you, but I really need you to do something black children autism. You're
• 1:27:50
  a mom. I need you to put that on a vision board. I
• 1:27:56
  really truly need you to do that. I really see that. But T
• 1:28:00
  Shirt, I promise you. I really need you to sit down and I
• 1:28:03
  need you to do I need you to do some type of ministry and I
• 1:28:10
  need you to create a YouTube channel. And brother, I like I said
• 1:28:14
  tonight, I'm just encouraging. Yes, I need I really need you,
• 1:28:23
  brother, to get back into that space. I need you to help these
• 1:28:28
  black men that are struggling with their mental health. I need I need to
• 1:28:31
  see that. I just I need to see more of that. There's a
• 1:28:39
  there's not a lot of safe spaces for black men to go. So,
• 1:28:43
  brother, I know your work, I know you're juggling a whole lot,
• 1:28:46
  but I really I want you to get in that space please for me.
• 1:28:53
  But just I need you to do that for me. I really need you
• 1:28:56
  to do that because so many African American boys and girls are now being diagnosed
• 1:29:00
  with autism and other children of color um and parents don't have they don't have
• 1:29:14
  they don't have the resources, they don't have the people to talk to.
• 1:29:16
  Uh. So I really could honestly see you something in Houston. I need
• 1:29:24
  a Dorian's Day in Houston something. I need something along those lines. So
• 1:29:30
  please put that into Fruition. Uh please take that to suvest A Turner.
• 1:29:35
  Uh we need a day, we need a Dorian's Day and something. But
• 1:29:40
  we I just I don't know why I keep coming back to you, why
• 1:29:44
  I keep gravitating back to you, But that's what I see um in Fruition.
• 1:29:49
  I just I need to see that happen here in Houston. If everyone
• 1:29:53
  else can get a day, Um, we need to get a day and
• 1:29:57
  let that day count. So please get your vision boar together something. But
• 1:30:02
  I want to say this to you guys as I get ready to bring this
• 1:30:05
  episode to a close. I promised, I said I was not gonna do
• 1:30:09
  a super long episode, but here we are. But sometimes God just moves
• 1:30:12
  through you and you just you just go. Um. But I want to
• 1:30:16
  say teaching every person that tuned in with me tonight, I love y'all.
• 1:30:20
  I appreciate the support. I appreciate everything that y'all do. I appreciate the
• 1:30:29
  words that y'all give me I do. It does not go unnoticed. It's
• 1:30:35
  up. I'm trying not to cry again. It's appreciated, it absolutely is.
• 1:30:45
  It's needed because I have felt my energy kind of shifting a little bit.
• 1:30:50
  But again, I needed to come on here and I needed to pour
• 1:30:55
  into somebody. I needed to encourage y'all. I needed to love on y'all.
• 1:30:58
  I just needed to tell y'all that I love y'all. Needed to tell
• 1:31:00
  you that I'm proud of you and that I see everything that you do and
• 1:31:04
  that I want you to keep going and that whatever plans that you have put
• 1:31:08
  on the back burner because someone says you couldn't do. I need you to
• 1:31:12
  go back to that back burner. I need you to pick that pot back
• 1:31:14
  up, and I need you to start bad cooking again because guess what I'm
• 1:31:17
  here to support. I'm here to love on you. I'm here too,
• 1:31:21
  to promote your brand. That's what I want to do. I want to
• 1:31:26
  see us win. I'm tired of seeing us lose that. I'm ready to
• 1:31:30
  see us win. So I don't care how many else you took, but
• 1:31:33
  no, your w's are coming. So again, whatever idea you have shelved,
• 1:31:36
  whatever idea you have sad on, I need you to go ahead and
• 1:31:41
  put that into fruition. That's what I need you to do. So as
• 1:31:45
  I bring this show to a close, y'all already know, and then I'll
• 1:31:47
  go into my final thoughts. But who tonight was needed Like I don't even
• 1:31:54
  think y'all even understand like tonight was needed for me. It was needed for
• 1:32:00
  me. I really feel like this was needed for me. So I want
• 1:32:06
  to play this for y'all, and then we'll go into the final thoughts,
• 1:32:09
  and then we'll talk about Thursday night's episode and then some of the other upcoming
• 1:32:13
  episodes or a Black Girl interrupted. So this is for y'all. Give me
• 1:32:17
  one second. We'll be right back after this video, and then we'll go
• 1:32:21
  into the final thoughts and then we'll talk about next Thursday's episode and then next
• 1:32:27
  week's episode. If you can take it, you can make it. If
• 1:32:32
  you can just keep believing when nothing in you is working, when all your
• 1:32:41
  external forces have given way, if you can just manage to somehow keep hoping,
• 1:32:49
  you have a chance. You just can't become hopeless. If you can
• 1:32:56
  just keep hope alive, you can make it. Because if you keep hoping,
• 1:33:00
  it is really faith. You've just gotta transpose it into I hope this
• 1:33:05
  has happened to I believe this can happen. Life is like a grindstone.
• 1:33:11
  It can polish you or it can pulverize you, depending on how you position
• 1:33:16
  yourself. There's one side of pain, that's the suffering and the discomfort side
• 1:33:21
  of pain. But then there's another sidle of pain that's called effort. It's
• 1:33:26
  called glory, it's called of you can find a way to push through pain.
• 1:33:30
  There's something fret on the other side of it. Every time you find
• 1:33:34
  yourself saying that you can't do something, putting yourself down, being negative about
• 1:33:41
  you and the possibilities for you, you've got to literally catch yourself and you've
• 1:33:45
  got to affirm to yourself, hey, hey, no, no, no,
• 1:33:47
  I can make it. There's some way this can happen for me.
• 1:33:50
  You've got to remind yourself that you've got powers within you, talents within you
• 1:33:56
  that you haven't even reached for yet. That once you give yourself have an
• 1:34:00
  opportunity to try and experiment with your life to stretch, you'll find out you
• 1:34:03
  can do more than you can ever to get your match. I'm challenging you
• 1:34:08
  to change the way you talk to you. Cover your head, cover your
• 1:34:13
  fox, cover your imaginations, cover the words that are coming into your mind.
• 1:34:17
  Cover what you're saying to yourself. What you are saying to yourself determinents
• 1:34:23
  whether you wear to love. What you say to yourself have all the world
• 1:34:29
  to do with how far you get down now, what you're going through,
• 1:34:33
  Now, what's happening in your life, not what's going on in your home,
• 1:34:38
  not what's happening in your financial The blessing is on you. Don't give
• 1:34:42
  up all to who you are, become of how things are turning out.
• 1:34:46
  Because the blessing is all of who you are. You've got to say yes,
• 1:34:51
  yes to my dreams, yes to me, Yes I can. Doesn't
• 1:34:56
  matter how many failures I've made, doesn't matter how many miss thinks I didn't
• 1:35:00
  do it, doesn't matter about what I've done. I can make it.
• 1:35:03
  There's gonna be blessing. There's gonna be miracles, there's gonna be opportunities.
• 1:35:09
  Oh yeah, there's gonna be some struggles. Here's gonna be some challenges,
• 1:35:13
  there's gonna be some testing. But even the struggles are an opportunity for me
• 1:35:15
  to show off the victory if my mind can handle the change. If you
• 1:35:20
  can get your mind outs, you can get your money out, you can
• 1:35:25
  get your family out, you can get your job out, you can get
• 1:35:28
  your career out, you can get your health out, you can get your
• 1:35:30
  prosperity out. If you can get your mind out, No devil in hell,
• 1:35:35
  no weapon form to get you, no intimate that hates you can't stop
• 1:35:40
  you from being free. Grab yourself by the head and say we're coming out
• 1:35:44
  of there. I know it is to walk the floor, and you don't
• 1:35:45
  know how you're gonna make it when people don't want to believe in you,
• 1:35:48
  and you got to see yourself when you fail again it again, they tell
• 1:35:53
  you no. Sometimes the test, guys, it's possible when life knocked you
• 1:35:57
  down. Sometimes you have to take two steps bounds. It gonna folk when
• 1:36:00
  life's standing you the thing that I get you up on your knees, get
• 1:36:04
  your standing in the center the rain, and keep on fighting this. It's
• 1:36:08
  possible. If I just standing long enough, I can pull this off.
• 1:36:13
  I can't do. I'm putting it out here. I'm not gonna rest until
• 1:36:15
  I have it. It's necessary. I'm gonna do it. It's on me.
• 1:36:18
  No one's gonna make it happen for me. I get some help with
• 1:36:21
  assistance, but I know that it's on me. Well it be easy.
• 1:36:25
  No, it's gonna be harder. But it doesn't matter what it costs,
• 1:36:28
  because whatever you have to do, it's worth it because it's your life's purpose.
• 1:36:31
  And once you know that it is done, huh y'all. You know
• 1:36:53
  what? Like I say, I go through and I find these videos that
• 1:36:59
  I think are so in uraging and so empowering that I have to share them
• 1:37:03
  with y'all, because, like I said, I don't know what you're going
• 1:37:05
  through, Jess. You know, I know, and I know you've been
• 1:37:12
  discouraged, and I know you've fallen down, but I've also seen you get
• 1:37:17
  back up. Hey, Roah, I miss you the one. I miss
• 1:37:24
  you one. I miss you so much. Girl. But Shana says,
• 1:37:30
  A man just says, but God, But Shane, I know where you've
• 1:37:34
  been. I know what you're dealing with. But I also know where you
• 1:37:41
  where you're going. And I see your hustle. Baby, I see it,
• 1:37:45
  and I'm so proud of you. You keep doing what you do.
• 1:37:51
  Keep doing what you do. Girl. Just come to Houston. Just come
• 1:37:55
  home, move on to Houston. Okay, that's all I want you to
• 1:37:58
  do. One. I miss you so much and I'm proud of you.
• 1:38:02
  Let me pour into you real quick before I go into my final thoughts.
• 1:38:05
  Because me and you met in a weird place, and we met in jail,
• 1:38:12
  and here we are, old girl. How many years ago? That
• 1:38:15
  was? Oh god, what fourteen fifteen years ago? And here we are.
• 1:38:24
  You are a great friend, You're a great mother. I'm proud of
• 1:38:29
  every obstacle that you have encountered that you've gotten over and you have let nothing
• 1:38:34
  stand in your way. You are fist, you are resilient, ain't It's
• 1:38:40
  been a long time. Fifteen years, sixteen years, something like that,
• 1:38:45
  something like that, I don't know. Sixteen years, yeah, in old
• 1:38:49
  seven, six or seven or seventeen years maybe, But anyway, we've been
• 1:38:56
  on each other a long time. But I'm proud of you. You're strong,
• 1:38:59
  You're resilient, and keep up the good work. I promise you.
• 1:39:02
  I'm so proud of you. Channing, You're welcome, Sissy. I love
• 1:39:06
  y'all. Oh, I love y'all like y'all. Just don't know, like
• 1:39:09
  I missed y'all so much. I know I've been out of the loop,
• 1:39:13
  but y'all, I had my own personal struggles to deal with. And I'm
• 1:39:16
  better. I'm better than where I was six months ago. I will say
• 1:39:23
  that, and that's progress. So I will say six months I'm better than
• 1:39:27
  where I was six months ago. So I will say that. But I
• 1:39:30
  just want to say to you, ladies, I love y'all. I'm so
• 1:39:32
  proud of y'all. I can't wait to see what you guys have coming.
• 1:39:41
  Just don't forget I'm ready to see that's come into fruition. Yeah, and
• 1:39:48
  that's what I'm waiting on. So let me go into my final thoughts for
• 1:39:54
  tonight. So tonight, like I said, I wanted to do something different,
• 1:39:59
  and this is it's different. I've never done this before where I've just
• 1:40:01
  taken one where I've just dedicated an episode and I've said, you know what,
• 1:40:06
  let me just pour into y'all because y'all always come on here and y'all
• 1:40:12
  love on me, but I never give it back in return. So I
• 1:40:15
  said, I'm gonna start doing this. So every month, I'm gonna take
• 1:40:19
  a day out of the month where we're just talking about encouragement. That's it.
• 1:40:25
  I want to know where y'all are next month. I want to know
• 1:40:28
  where you where you're stuck at. I want to know where you're stumbling at.
• 1:40:30
  What can I do to help you get over that pump? What can
• 1:40:33
  I do to help you get out of writer's block? That's what I want
• 1:40:39
  to know. So I want to touch peace with y'all next month. We're
• 1:40:42
  gonna do this again next month because I want to know where y'all are.
• 1:40:45
  I want to know what has happened to you in thirty days. How do
• 1:40:50
  you feel mentally? How do you feel physically? Did you did you lose
• 1:40:55
  that three pounds that you said you wanted to lose? Did you get that
• 1:40:59
  new car to you said you want to tell about. Did you move into
• 1:41:01
  that new house that you I want to know all of it. Did you
• 1:41:03
  get the promotion, did you get the raise? I want to know all
• 1:41:08
  of that. But I also want to know what else I can do to
• 1:41:13
  help you get over that hump. That's what I want to know. I
• 1:41:15
  want to know that. I want to know how I can keep loving on
• 1:41:19
  you. I want to know how I can keep encouraging you. What do
• 1:41:21
  you need from me? What part of me? Do you need me to
• 1:41:26
  show up? Do you need me to text you every day and say good
• 1:41:29
  morning? What do you need from me? That's what I want to do.
• 1:41:31
  I want to show up. I want to reciprocate. I want to
• 1:41:36
  give to someone because someone's been giving to me. You'll get what I'm saying,
• 1:41:40
  So I want to pass it forward. I want to pay it forward
• 1:41:43
  and I'm not asking for anything in return, so don't feel like, oh
• 1:41:45
  my god, she's doing this for me. I gotta give up. No,
• 1:41:47
  y'all don't owe me anything. I'm doing this genuine from the kindness of
• 1:41:51
  my heart. I'm not expecting anything in return. So I want to see
• 1:41:55
  y'all next month. I want to meet up, same conversation. I want
• 1:42:00
  to pour into y'all again. I want to. I want to. I
• 1:42:02
  want to speak to your heart. I want to speak to your your mind.
• 1:42:04
  I want to speak spiritually to you. I want to let you know
• 1:42:10
  that no matter what, God is gonna always show up. Even when you
• 1:42:13
  don't show up. Baby, God gonna show up for you. And that's
• 1:42:15
  my final thought. I'm gonna leave it at that. Just know if you
• 1:42:19
  don't show up, God gonna show up. You just gotta believe. And
• 1:42:25
  that's it. That's it. That's all I'm gonna say with my final thoughts.
• 1:42:28
  That's it. That's it. God is gonna show up. No weapon
• 1:42:33
  formed against you. Shout prosper, he said their form, but they won't
• 1:42:39
  prosper. But just know that, remember that, huh? Just know that?
• 1:42:46
  All right? So we got the upcoming episodes for A Black Girl Into
• 1:42:50
  Bath anyway, So Thursday tomorrow night, I want to talk about cosmetic surgery
• 1:43:00
  embody dysmorphiel, What are the risks? And it's cosmetic surgery worth the risk
• 1:43:11
  of beauty? Is it worth dying? But I don't want to just talk
• 1:43:16
  about the celebrities. I want to talk about regular people, us women and
• 1:43:21
  how we want to go get nipped and tucked, but at what costs are
• 1:43:28
  we willing to do that? So that's tomorrow Knight. We're talking about cosmetic
• 1:43:30
  procedures and the risks. Are we willing to die to be beautiful? Because
• 1:43:36
  that's what seems to be happening. So that's tomorrow, Knight, And then
• 1:43:41
  next week I want to talk I want to address health black men and black
• 1:43:45
  women. I want to address health. I want to talk about our health
• 1:43:48
  and how imperative it is for us to go get these checkups. So I
• 1:43:55
  want to talk about that. I think I want to do that as a
• 1:43:57
  two day I think I want to do it Tuesday and Thursday. I want
• 1:43:59
  to split that up. I want to talk to the men because you men
• 1:44:02
  that are over the age of fifty or I'm sorry, over the age of
• 1:44:06
  forty five, y'all are not going to get your early cancer screenings with you're
• 1:44:11
  calling you know you're going to get your ball u the colon oscuppies and things
• 1:44:18
  like that, and then I want to talk to the women. So I
• 1:44:20
  think that's Tuesday and Threst that we're gonna we're gonna address health and I want
• 1:44:24
  to talk uh to the men and I want to address the women. Um
• 1:44:30
  and then well I'll surprise y'all for the end of them. Well, next
• 1:44:33
  week is the end of the month, so I want to end it where
• 1:44:38
  we talk about health, and then we're going to what we're gonna do for
• 1:44:40
  July. But I definitely want to address that. But tomorrow night, y'all,
• 1:44:44
  we're gonna be talking about cosmetic excuse me, cosmetic procedures and the risks.
• 1:44:49
  Is it worth dying for? Is it really worth us getting on that
• 1:44:54
  table and dying or why are we you know, the social media have a
• 1:44:58
  lot to do with that? Does uh do relationships have a lot to do
• 1:45:03
  with that? Like I want to I want to address that. I really
• 1:45:06
  do. We need to wake that conversation up, because that's not a conversation
• 1:45:11
  we're having. We're not talking about women that you know, going to get
• 1:45:15
  checked the cervical cancer. You have women that are not going to get that
• 1:45:20
  are not going to get pap smears. They're not going to get They're not
• 1:45:24
  you know, going and getting up mammograms and things if you're of age.
• 1:45:28
  So I want to talk about that next week. But again tomorrow night,
• 1:45:31
  I want to talk about cosmetic surgery and black women because too many of us,
• 1:45:36
  y'all, we're losing our lives to be beautiful. We're risking our lives.
• 1:45:43
  We're going to these countries. But what We'll pick up the conversation tomorrow
• 1:45:45
  because I don't want to get too far into it tonight. But um,
• 1:45:49
  I love you, I love you. I love you, uh jes.
• 1:45:53
  Like I said, somehow I'm gravitating back to you and I need you to.
• 1:46:00
  We need to work on that. Like I said, I know both
• 1:46:01
  of us so we're introverted. We gotta figure out how that's gonna work.
• 1:46:05
  Maybe we could FaceTime. I don't know, We just I don't know.
• 1:46:09
  We got to figure that out. Oh shout out to my brother black Mail
• 1:46:12
  podcast. Let me tell y'all, my brother is doing a damn thing over
• 1:46:15
  there on TikTok you. I'm up at three o'clock in the morning looking at
• 1:46:18
  your live and stuff like that. But I'm proud of you, brother.
• 1:46:20
  Shout out to Blackmail Podcasts, y'all. If you have a TikTok account,
• 1:46:25
  go check him out under blackmail. He is on TikTok, brother, Bi
• 1:46:30
  Bay you be. You'll be waking some stuff up on there, and I
• 1:46:35
  love it. I'm here for it. I'm here for the conversation. Jess
• 1:46:39
  says, I'm in prostate. There you go getting their prostates checked. They're
• 1:46:44
  not getting these colonoscar piece. Women are not getting colonoscarpies if they're of age.
• 1:46:47
  But that's gonna be next week. But again tomorrow night, cosmetic procedures
• 1:46:54
  and the wrists. Are we willing to die to be beautiful? Is that
• 1:46:57
  what we're doing now? Oh? Absolutely insecurity? So save that for tomorrow,
• 1:47:02
  knight, Shana, save that because we are definitely going to be waking
• 1:47:04
  a lot of that up tomorrow. You're welcome, brother, like I let
• 1:47:09
  me like, like I told you, let me, let me pour into
• 1:47:11
  you real quick, because I poured into everybody else. But tonight, brother,
• 1:47:15
  I did something different. Tonight was just about encouragement. It was about
• 1:47:18
  empowering, uplifting, and I'm just I was just pouring in. But I
• 1:47:21
  want to give you your flowers because you consistently show up for me, me
• 1:47:27
  and you weep. You've been my big brother for oh years, too many
• 1:47:30
  years for me to count. But I want to say to you, I'm
• 1:47:33
  proud of you. I'm proud of the moves you're making. Uh. And
• 1:47:36
  I just want to let you know I'm ready for Blackmail podcast to come back.
• 1:47:40
  Hello, I'm ready for that, like it's about time, like it's
• 1:47:44
  long overdue, Okay, But I want to say I'm proud of you.
• 1:47:48
  Salute to you in the moves you're making over there on TikTok. I'm so
• 1:47:51
  proud of you. I want to see you on TV. So like I
• 1:47:57
  need you to come on and get your black Mail podcast. I need you
• 1:48:00
  to move this on over the TV or something like. I need that to
• 1:48:04
  happen. Uh. But I want to give you your flowers, h because
• 1:48:10
  again, I don't want to be standing up at your service talking about the
• 1:48:14
  person you used to be when you were here right now, when I could
• 1:48:15
  tell you the person that you are to day. I love you. I'm
• 1:48:19
  proud of you. I see you, I watch you. You encourage me,
• 1:48:26
  you uplift me, you empower me. And you're one of the reasons
• 1:48:30
  why I keep going because I see you on TikTok and I see the things
• 1:48:35
  that you do. I see the conversations that you've partaken. So you encourage
• 1:48:40
  me, and I want to say thank you for that. Thank you for
• 1:48:44
  being patient with me, thank you for checking in on me, to making
• 1:48:47
  sure I'm good, thank you, thank you for allowing me to be in
• 1:48:51
  conversations with you, to be in spaces with you. I appreciate it,
• 1:48:55
  and thank you so much for being in spaces with me and I It's just
• 1:49:00
  it's I could go on and on about some of the beautiful things that you
• 1:49:02
  do, but I wanted to give you your flowers today because again I don't
• 1:49:06
  want to wait until that lid closes on your face and I can't give them
• 1:49:11
  to you why you could still see them. So salute to you. Thank
• 1:49:14
  you for being a great father, thank you for showing up for black men,
• 1:49:16
  thank you for showing the positive side of black men and not the narrative
• 1:49:20
  that they have painted of black men. Um and salute to you being a
• 1:49:27
  wonderful and phenomenal brandfather at that a pop home at that. Okay, thank
• 1:49:31
  you. I love you. Proud of you, h but I'm not gonna
• 1:49:35
  hold y'all hostage any longer. Y'all have we have We did it tonight,
• 1:49:41
  We really truly did h just tonight was imperative. Somebody needed the word.
• 1:49:48
  I hope I touched somebody. I hope I encourage somebody. I hope I
• 1:49:53
  inspired somebody to get up and get back to the drawing board and to allow
• 1:49:58
  whatever you had put on a back burner to allow it to come into fruition.
• 1:50:01
  Uh Shana, I really would love to see you do an online boutique,
• 1:50:05
  okay, instead of how you're operating on on Facebook. I would love
• 1:50:10
  to see that become a boutique. So I would love for you to look
• 1:50:13
  into that. Okay, thanks, great God blessed. So I'm I'm giving
• 1:50:16
  you the gift. I'm dropping gems. But um again, I love y'all,
• 1:50:24
  Um, I really do. UM. I just I just think,
• 1:50:30
  y'all, I do. I just I think y'all for allowing me to come
• 1:50:34
  on here to be who I am, for me to just show up and
• 1:50:40
  be transparent and y'all don't judge. So I definitely appreciate that. Um Again,
• 1:50:46
  anyone that wants to be a guest on the show. Let me move
• 1:50:49
  my fingers this way, or if you have any show ideas, send me
• 1:50:55
  an email black Girl Interrupted one at gmail dot com. Let me know if
• 1:51:00
  there's a topic you want me to talk about again when it comes to health
• 1:51:03
  of black men and black women. Shout out to mister Artigas Hill who shot
• 1:51:08
  me the idea and said, hey, I'm not telling you how to run
• 1:51:11
  your show, but I think you should. I appreciate it. And that's
• 1:51:15
  gonna be next week's conversation. We're gonna be addressing health black men and black
• 1:51:18
  women. But yes, if there's a conversation, if there's a story that
• 1:51:21
  you want me to bring to the forefront, y'all there we go. Send
• 1:51:27
  me an email black girl interrupted one at gmail dot com, and I can
• 1:51:30
  bring that topic to the forefront. But again, tomorrow night, we are
• 1:51:33
  gonna be talking about cosmetic surgery and the wrists and why are we dying to
• 1:51:40
  be beautiful? So on that note, I love y'all. I love love,
• 1:51:46
  love, love love love love y'all. Again. I appreciate y'all showing
• 1:51:49
  up for me tonight again. If you missed Alive againting you know you could
• 1:51:55
  always catch the replay on you Pat you too, I'm sorry. You could
• 1:52:00
  always castch the replay on Facebook, or you could catch the replays on any
• 1:52:03
  streaming platform. Just to let y'all know, I have now started streaming to
• 1:52:08
  Africa. Y'all. Oh my god, I'm so excited. Ah your girl,
• 1:52:11
  let's stream with the Africa. Yes, stop playing with me. I'm
• 1:52:15
  going to the next level. God say, I'm moving on up. But
• 1:52:17
  on that note, like I said, I love you guys again. I
• 1:52:20
  will see y'all tomorrow night, eight thirty pm Central Time, nine thirty pm
• 1:52:25
  Eastern Time, same time, same place. H yad bless y'all, and
• 1:52:30
  again Happy Wednesday. Uh. I hope to see y'all tomorrow night. Like
• 1:52:38
  I said, tomorrow is gonna be a bomb conversation. H Jess says,
• 1:52:44
  have a great night. Brothers and sisters up. Just simit email right now
• 1:52:47
  with your phone number. I need to get on the phone with you.
• 1:52:49
  I need to hear. I need to talk to you directly because I'm telling
• 1:52:54
  you something. It's I don't know it is, I just it's something.
• 1:53:00
  I gotta give you, this idea. I have to It's just something I
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  need you to do, and I can guarantee you. I could get so
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  many people behind you who are mothers of artistic children. I just, I
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  just, I really I gotta, I gotta, I gotta give this to
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  you. I really do. It's just, oh my heart, I have
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  to. I really have God to give it to you. Uh, thank
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  you, brother, you already no baby, love, peace and soul.
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  Oh yes, happy, happy, belated June Team. Hopefully next year they'll
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  let us be off for that day. We'll see. I know they'd be
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  struggling because they had to give us MLK. So y'all know we're pushing it.
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  Uh. The wine says, I'm sorry. Rochelle says, you are
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  doing great things. Keep up the good work. Since God bless you always.
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  I love you. Uh inbox me. Matter of fact, I'm about
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  to inbox you my phone number because my phone number has not changed. And
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  I don't even know why I haven't heard from you. I need to know
• 1:53:56
  why I haven't talked to you, and I know you're down here in Texas.
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  I know why I haven't seen your face. Everything. Uh so yes,
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  so happy, But late June Team. I should have did like a
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  June Team celebration but I didn't want them to block my video, block my
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  show. But I love y'all again. I know they were struggling to give
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  us mL okay, so I knew they wouldn't gonna give us jun team.
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  But maybe before fight hard enough, maybe they'll give it to us. Next
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  year. We'll see. I don't know. Fingers crossed. But on that
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  note, I love you guys again. God bless y'all. Happy Wednesday.
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  I hope you guys have a great rest of your night. I hope tomorrow
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  is a better day for you. I hope tonight. I hope that encouraged
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  somebody. I hope I was able to touch somebody. I hope I was
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  able to pour into somebody, And I hope that share this, share this
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  video, share this live with somebody, Let them know anybody that needs to
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  be encouraged, anybody that needs to be poured into. Share this live,
• 1:54:50
  share this video, like, share, comment, post, subscribe, whatever,
• 1:54:54
  do all of that. But I love you guys again. I'll see
• 1:54:57
  y'all tomorrow night, eight thirty pm Central Time. I'm again tomorrow night.
• 1:55:00
  We are talking about cosmetic procedures and the risk when it comes to black women.
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  But I love y'all. Y'all have a good night. Aye,