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The right people, attraction, the right attention, learning, and positive feedback// Could this be all it takes? · The Horsehuman Connection Matrix

• 0:00
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Hi this is Ishi Abel with the Horse Human Connection I'm going to talk about all kinds of random things that seem rather unrelated but I think by the end of the podcast you'll see how maybe they loosely tie together.
• 0:13
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Today is Valentine's Day.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Valentine's Day to me is all about love and I have spent the entire day by myself fully enjoying my own company and doing all kinds of fun things like Cleaning the house with lots of joy, going to the river with my dog, going out for a hamburger and fries to celebrate losing a few pounds.
• 0:35
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Things that might not make sense to you, but they make sense to me.
• 0:41
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: What a lot of you probably don't know, because I don't talk about it, Some of my background is in natural building, natural building as in building mud houses, mud ovens, mud benches, and when I say mud, I mean sand, clay, and straw in a combination called cob.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: That's cob with one b c o b.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I had a teacher of this, Yonto Evans, and his lovely wife, Linda Evans, had rediscovered How to make this natural building material that was used to build houses.
• 1:18
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Oh back, I think maybe in the 15 and 17 hundreds in Great Britain.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And people in the 1970s, a repopularity of these type of homes, and they began to get sold even the very old ones, because this type of building can last.
• 1:36
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: 300, 500 years, but it may fall into some disrepair.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So this man, Yonto Evans, decided to, right here in Oregon, he was a, an architectural professor at the U of O, I believe figure out how to reinvent this building material.
• 1:53
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: He was a Welshman and he wanted to be able to.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Recreate and teach people to repair these old homes because he thought they were so, so beautiful.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And the original Cobb homes, if you know Reuben Kincaid as an artist, is like these well lit little cottages by streams with thatched roofs.
• 2:11
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: A lot of those were Cobb houses.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So they have very thick walls, which allows the light to come in quite softly.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And they're super charming.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: They're akin to adobe, but they're sculpted, not brick.
• 2:25
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And they often have a plaster on them.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Anyway, I'm making this really long, but it might be important.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So I went to go study and I studied there with Yanto and Yanto is also a gardener, had a half acre garden that would feed all the people that came to the workshops.
• 2:43
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And we were in the garden one day and he was showing me some things.
• 2:47
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I remarked that I thought the plants were doing well.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera-2: No doubt because of his attention and care.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And he looked at me and he said, yes, and so are you because of my attention.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I got the feeling that Yanto didn't necessarily like everybody, but he, he taught.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And, and I felt, I felt special that he recognized that I asked a lot of questions and was very, very focused on learning.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And what he said.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: was so true and so important.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And so I went home and decided to build a cob house.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: They said, start small, build an oven or a bench.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I didn't hear that part.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I just heard the part that when we left, we were ready to build.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So I started to build a house.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It was a rather large house for a cob house, but a rather small house for a conventional home.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I'm not going to go into that whole story.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Maybe that's another podcast.
• 3:47
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: One of the people I met in the journey of building this cub house, which ended up taking me ten summers was a man who was a mason.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I don't remember, I think, but one of, either his first name or his last name was Irwin, I think.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: He was about 10 years older than me, maybe a little bit more.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I had found his website.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: He did all of these incredibly artistic chimneys and buildings and whole homes.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And he was a master Mason.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Anyways, he'd retired here in Oregon and.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: He would work sometimes.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So he came out to take a look at my project and decided he could take the job and that I might be able to work with him or one of my kids might be able to work with him we decided he would come out and he would start this building and I watched.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I watched him and after one of my kids tried and another one of my friends tried, he said, why don't you give it a try?
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So I got in there and I learned how to lay stone.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Which is some serious work, but I loved it.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I absolutely loved it.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And with this man's gentle attention, his conversation and the disciplined hours that he kept.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And the discipline of the work, now mind you, we were working in the sun, there was an oak tree nearby which we were able to sit under to eat our lunch every day, but we started at 7, we stopped for lunch at noon, we went back to work at 1, and we worked until 3.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: 30.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And there were, you know, the rocks weigh a bit, and we're picking up these rocks, they're all spread out where we're making this, this foundation, stem wall, and it was amazing.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: the things that he taught me, like how to use the level, how to make the mix of the mortar, how to make sure the mortar was right, how to keep the mortar so it would last the longest, how to tell when it was too old, how to pick the stones, how to lay the stones out, and like doing a jigsaw puzzle where you become familiar with all the pieces and near the end of the puzzle you Your mind without thinking about it or knowing knows where the next right piece is.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It was like that with the stones.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: After a little while you knew which one was going to fit perfectly into the space you had just built for it.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Anyways.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It was some of the best three of my life.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I think back at that time, I needed the hard work, I needed the discipline, I needed somebody to show me that I could do this, that I could build a house.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I didn't know how to build a house.
• 6:32
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Sure, I'd been to Ianto's workshop for two weeks, and I thought I knew how to build a house.
• 6:39
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Ten years later, I knew how to build a house.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But those three weeks, I learned how to lay stone.
• 6:47
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And that was the beginning.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And you know, a foundation is a good beginning to anything, whether it's course training or a new relationship or your home.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I have so much gratitude for that man, those teachings, and that three weeks of my life.
• 7:06
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And it was hot.
• 7:07
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It was the beginning of August.
• 7:09
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And here in Southern Oregon, the beginning of August is often 95 to 105.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And so we weren't just like working in the sun.
• 7:16
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: We were working in the sun.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And, and, and sweating and.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But it was fabulous.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It was absolutely fabulous.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Oh, at some point, I remember either reading part of, or hearing, hearing someone else talk about it, or perhaps I read a summary of it, or maybe it was a talk show about Dr.
• 7:43
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Wayne Dyer.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And, yeah.
• 7:46
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: In this, I know he's written a lot of books, he said a lot of wise things, but this one thing that sticks in my head is he was doing this experiment and living in Hawaii and the experiment was to greet everybody with the warmest hello and smile he could for a year and see how it changed things for him.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I think he wrote a book about it.
• 8:12
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I'm not, I'm not even sure.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But I remember at the time thinking, wow, that's a lot of work.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Like people have to be ready to take on that kind of thing.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Because not all of us are in a good mood all of the time.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But we can get there and.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Even when I heard that, I thought, what a lovely thing to aspire to.
• 8:34
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And of course it's going to come back to you in many, many shades.
• 8:37
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And of course it's easier to do when you're in Hawaii, where it's sunny every day and everybody's open and friendly, but it's something to aspire to.
• 8:48
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I bring it up because.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Like everybody, we've all been through some stuff in our lives.
• 8:55
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: We've all been through some traumas, and bad times, and good times, and sad times, and people dying in grief, and at some point, it shifts and changes.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And Dr.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Dyer's experiment can get to a place where it's not just an experiment, it's your life.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And it's not an effort.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It just happens.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I don't know if my life is going to be like this forever, but right now, it's probably the best it's ever been.
• 9:32
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I've been through some, I've been through some pretty rough things in the last four years.
• 9:36
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I'm not going to talk about all that.
• 9:38
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I'm going to talk about the good stuff and the people that have affected me in really positive ways.
• 9:43
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So, my very first therapist she's probably deceased by now.
• 9:48
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But she might not be.
• 9:49
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Her name was Barbara and she was wonderful.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: After the therapy was done, we still kept in touch.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I actually worked for her as a cook for a while.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: She decided to go and leave the San Francisco Bay Area and the Stanford, near Stanford, where her husband was a professor, and go to Montana, where her daughter had horses.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And way back then, she said to me, she wasn't a rider, and I didn't really understand, but she said to me, I just like to be around them, to brush them, to sit in the stall with them.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I'm thinking, man, Montana gets cold.
• 10:26
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: You must really like those horses a lot.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Like it must be fulfilling her in some way that I did not understand.
• 10:32
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I'm talking, this is like probably just before 1990.
• 10:37
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So I don't think there was a lot of horse therapy going on.
• 10:40
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I don't think there was, Linda Kohav had written her wonderful book, The Tao of Equus, that seemed to be like, She seems to be the grandmother of equine assisted practices to me.
• 10:51
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I mean, maybe I, maybe there's something I don't know.
• 10:54
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But there was definitely something I didn't know back then that Barbara did, and that's that horses soothed her soul.
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  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: She was a wonderful influence on me, and, and probably really saved me.
• 11:06
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Many, many more years of painful experiences by, by seeing her in my early 20s.
• 11:12
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And she did a lot of Santre and Jungian work.
• 11:15
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So I mentioned that because it kind of comes full circle.
• 11:18
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So not that long ago, my current therapist told me she was leaving the office.
• 11:23
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: We're not done with the EMDR.
• 11:25
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I panicked.
• 11:26
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: She's like, she's leaving.
• 11:27
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I'm like, Oh no.
• 11:28
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I didn't tell you yet.
• 11:30
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I said, no.
• 11:31
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Well, she has been a big fan of my podcasts my new therapist.
• 11:35
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Turns out that all of this talking about horses has inspired her to go to a different office where she has the opportunity to work as the therapist part of a horse horse professional therapist team in.
• 11:49
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: serious equine therapy.
• 11:51
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I just, I can't help but note like the full circle there, first therapist, hopefully last therapist, and and how they're both leaving at the end of, of my treatment to go and be with horses.
• 12:07
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So people that have helped me, right?
• 12:10
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: That's the subject here.
• 12:11
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: How we can help each other.
• 12:13
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: The impact we sometimes make on people without really realizing it.
• 12:19
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So recently, I started chatting with somebody and I got a little bit of attention.
• 12:25
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And it's not like I never get attention.
• 12:27
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It's not like that at all.
• 12:29
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I, I, I enjoy attention from the opposite sex here and there.
• 12:34
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Including my second ex husband, and I have people tell me that I'm beautiful, whether I am or not, doesn't really matter.
• 12:41
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I don't think of myself that way, but I've been wondering why.
• 12:48
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It is very odd for me at my age, my advanced age of 62, to be admired physically because I don't feel attractive physically necessarily.
• 12:58
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I've kind of been hiding in men's clothes and doing ranch chores in muck boots with no makeup and beanie caps for several years now.
• 13:09
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Not thinking too much about makeup or shoes or any of those things.
• 13:14
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And when I do get recognized, it's for things like this podcast.
• 13:18
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Or my skill sets in building that I learned in Cobb.
• 13:22
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Or, you know, driving a tractor well.
• 13:26
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Or just kind of being smart.
• 13:28
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Because I think I'm a little bit of that.
• 13:31
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But not for physical beauty.
• 13:33
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: That's, that's an odd thing.
• 13:35
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And so most of the time I dismiss that, like, Oh, what's not real or somebody saying that because they want something.
• 13:42
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Somehow, this attention landed in a place that woke me up in a way that I wanted to respond where I hadn't before.
• 13:55
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And reminded me reminded it isn't a strong enough word.
• 14:01
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: When you've so completely forgotten that you ever felt like a woman, to be reminded is a big deal.
• 14:12
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So, it's, it's true that with the help of My massage therapist, who is an awakened, joyful person, my therapist that I'm doing EMDR with, that I'm almost finished with, and other people in my life, lots of good friends and family, that I'm, I'm at a cusp where blossoming again, that I'm at a cusp where blossoming again.
• 14:43
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It was ripe, but to, to be able to pay attention to without understanding why something is, but when we have attractions, sometimes it's God or spirit or however you think of that, the God of your understanding, letting you know to pay attention.
• 15:01
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Sometimes I think attractions with people are about coveting qualities that they have.
• 15:07
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I mean, I think about some of the people I've been attracted to.
• 15:11
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Or that have been attracted to me.
• 15:12
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I think it's not so much me, it's something that I, it's a quality that I possess that they would like to have and vice versa.
• 15:23
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Whatever all of that is, or whatever, whatever wakes people up and makes them pay attention, whatever spark happens between two people, not knowing what the reason is ever.
• 15:36
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But knowing how we can open each other's hearts and inspire each other to the umpteenth degree.
• 15:46
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I am enjoying girly things again, like makeup and high heels, and I've gone back to dance classes, even though, you know, I talked about them a little bit in the podcast.
• 15:58
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I really was thinking, well, I probably won't do that again.
• 16:01
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I'm, you know, I'm 62.
• 16:03
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Do I really need to be in a dance class?
• 16:05
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: But I'm loving it.
• 16:06
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I don't want to perform.
• 16:07
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: You know, I don't want the pressure of all that you know, in a recital or what have you, but I love being in the dance class with other women and the exercise and the challenge of it.
• 16:17
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I am putting myself out in public more, and COVID affected a lot of us very, very deeply.
• 16:27
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I am just now getting to the place where.
• 16:33
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I can be out again around larger groups of people or in a city or driving at night.
• 16:40
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: These things that I've been inspired to do all because of some attention.
• 16:46
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Like it boggles my mind, but I'm growing as a person.
• 16:51
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I'm happy.
• 16:53
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So here's the thing that I did.
• 16:54
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I don't talk about that much.
• 16:55
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I'm not really going to go into it, but some of the dark things.
• 17:01
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: In the last few years, I'm just going to list some of them.
• 17:06
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I had two car accidents.
• 17:07
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: They weren't, they weren't major, but they were inconvenient.
• 17:11
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I had a very bad computer virus on my phone and my computer.
• 17:16
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Had to have that taken care of.
• 17:18
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I had an identity theft.
• 17:20
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: That's kind of a lot in one year for most people, right?
• 17:26
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I also had, had bought a house.
• 17:30
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: that was full of mold that I didn't know about that had to be torn down.
• 17:35
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I lost almost all of my personal belongings.
• 17:38
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I lived in a garage and then thankfully in a garage in a yurt for two years.
• 17:46
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And my son died.
• 17:50
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: There were a lot of things that spiraled me into a really dark place.
• 17:55
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So the mere fact that I Wake up with joy in my heart every day is a miracle.
• 18:03
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: The fact that I'm open again to having new experiences and moving past the trauma is a miracle.
• 18:16
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: The fact that I somehow managed to pull a podcast together with very low tech skills, very, very low.
• 18:21
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I've mentioned Buzzsprout before and they have been wonderful.
• 18:25
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So my question with these stories, Is, and it's rather in the title, can the right attention, can somebody giving you loving attention and holding space and teaching you a skill and imbuing a time in your life with discipline and positive feedback for what you're learning?
• 18:58
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Could that be all that we're really after?
• 19:01
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Could that be the secret to happiness and joy?
• 19:07
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It's probably a little more complicated than that, but what I don't want to do is underestimate those things.
• 19:15
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And certainly parents, good parents, even mediocre parents do those things for their kids.
• 19:25
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And horse trainers and horse lovers and horse owners and horse keepers do those things for their horses.
• 19:33
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And those things are love.
• 19:38
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And it's Valentine's Day.
• 19:42
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: So all of that just seems so appropriate.
• 19:47
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: To be joyous, happy, and free.
• 19:50
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: I think that's what we all want.
• 19:52
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And I know those things mean different things to different people, but I feel that way today.
• 20:00
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Much more so than I did four months ago.
• 20:04
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And then I felt it much more than I had a year ago.
• 20:07
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: And when I look at the dark time, and then I look at people that have come back into my life and come into my life, even for brief periods, the impact.
• 20:19
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: That we have on each other when we have open hearts, when we have love for each other, when we slow down and pay attention, give attention, give positive feedback and teach and teach with discipline.
• 20:36
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: It is true magic.
• 20:38
  MacBook Air Microphone & FaceTime HD Camera: Happy Valentine's day.