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SEASON 2 DA CREW PODCAST_ EPISODE _181_ HOST TRIVEDA HARRIS · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: All Things and Where did All the Blue Sky's Book?
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  Speaker 2: Sweet, Good evening and welcome to Believe in the Journey
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  Speaker 2: podcast where I am your host Trevita Harris, and I
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  Speaker 2: have a very special guest with me tonight. It is
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  Speaker 2: author Reshana Rashana Gold and she is born and raised
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  Speaker 2: in Washington, d C. She is also a nominee for
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  Speaker 2: the Distinguished Guild Author Awards that is coming up on
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  Speaker 2: November the tenth. Now, this is my third or fourth
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  Speaker 2: author that I'm interviewing tonight, that is part of this
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  Speaker 2: very prestigious distinguished authors. I want to say it's not
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  Speaker 2: necessarily a group, but it is a family of authors
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  Speaker 2: that showcase one another. And I'm just honored and grateful
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  Speaker 2: to be able to have these authors come and share
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  Speaker 2: their journeys to what led them to sharing their stories
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  Speaker 2: and their journeys with the world. She's the author of
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  Speaker 2: the Adventures of Jonny and Juliet, and we're gonna hear
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  Speaker 2: more about her story. But before we do anything, we
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  Speaker 2: have to go to God in prayer. Dear Heavenly Father,
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  Speaker 2: thank you for bringing us together tonight, as you do
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  Speaker 2: each and every time we're in front of you. Let
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  Speaker 2: the words of my mouth hit the ears that need
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  Speaker 2: to hear. Let what we talk about tonight touch someone
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  Speaker 2: in a way that they need to be touched. Allow
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  Speaker 2: what we say to fill the hearts and the minds
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  Speaker 2: of those that are listening in that's taking out the
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  Speaker 2: time to be with us tonight. You provide each and
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  Speaker 2: everything that we need, even and when we don't know
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  Speaker 2: what we're standing in need of. We honor you, and
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  Speaker 2: we thank you and your precious and holy name. We
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  Speaker 2: pray Amen, And now we're gonna bring up my guests.
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  Speaker 2: Hey girl, Hellen, how are you?
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  Speaker 4: I am doing well, trying to adjust to this changing weather.
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  Speaker 2: What I know. Listen, you gotta have a jacket on
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  Speaker 2: in the morning and all your way you got to
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  Speaker 2: turn the heat up on the way into work. By
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  Speaker 2: the afternoon you're coming out those layers and clothing, and
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  Speaker 2: then by the time you're getting ready to go home,
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  Speaker 2: you got to put that jacket back on and turn
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  Speaker 2: the heat back up. It's just a mess. So if
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  Speaker 2: you if you ain't doing all of that, because you're
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  Speaker 2: gonna have all three seasons, you know all at least
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  Speaker 2: it's four seasons, but you're gonna have all of them
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  Speaker 2: and one day that is yeah, you have them all
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  Speaker 2: in one day. But I want to thank you for
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  Speaker 2: being here tonight and taking the opportunity to speak with
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  Speaker 2: me about your book. And I want the first question
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  Speaker 2: that I want to ask is what made you get
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  Speaker 2: into writing?
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  Speaker 5: Wow, that is a loaded question.
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  Speaker 4: Actually, my book, which you can see here, The Adventures
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  Speaker 4: of Johnny and Juliette, It started out as a passion project, okay,
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  Speaker 4: to cope with the process and grieve my mother and
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  Speaker 4: my aunt.
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  Speaker 5: I had lost my mom and my aunt in.
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  Speaker 4: Death, and I was having a tough just a tough
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  Speaker 4: time getting through it, and so I sought therapy and
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  Speaker 4: my therapist.
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  Speaker 5: My therapist had a great She had a great idea.
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  Speaker 4: She said, rather than focusing on what makes you feel sad,
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  Speaker 4: on what makes you feel glad about your mother. I
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  Speaker 4: had told my mother was my biggest cheerleader, and so
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  Speaker 4: every every I'm I'm a.
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  Speaker 5: Graphic designer by profession, so.
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  Speaker 4: I was always I was always drawing and combining writing anyway,
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  Speaker 4: but my mom was always behind me, do this, do this,
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  Speaker 4: do this.
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  Speaker 5: So I thought about her and I was.
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  Speaker 4: Like, you know, I want to do something in honor
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  Speaker 4: of her. And at the same time, well, my mother
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  Speaker 4: died ten years ago, but.
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  Speaker 5: Due to.
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  Speaker 4: Just life, you know, I kept I kept putting the
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  Speaker 4: idea on pause. And my aunt died two years ago,
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  Speaker 4: and so it.
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  Speaker 5: Was just a combination of life.
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  Speaker 4: However, in between that gap, in between that gap, I
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  Speaker 4: myself had a hymoro magic stroke, you know, and life
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  Speaker 4: just completely stopped.
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  Speaker 5: So I couldn't complete my grieving.
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  Speaker 4: Process by writing because I became sick, so that I
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  Speaker 4: had to focus on healing myself and getting myself better
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  Speaker 4: so that I can fulfill the honor to my mother
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  Speaker 4: and my aunt.
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  Speaker 5: So it's been, it was, it's been a process. It's
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  Speaker 5: it's been. It's been a process.
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  Speaker 4: It Like I said, it started out as a way
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  Speaker 4: to heal from grieving, but I ended up evolving. You know,
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  Speaker 4: I've always liked to write, Like when I was when
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  Speaker 4: I was younger, I'm impathed, you know, so I feel everything, yes,
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  Speaker 4: but I don't like confrontation, so I would write it.
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  Speaker 5: I would write down how I feel rather than I
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  Speaker 5: don't want to tell you, but.
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  Speaker 2: Write it down and there's no interruption, and you can
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  Speaker 2: read it when you're ready to read it, and then
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  Speaker 2: we might be able to have a conversation about it.
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  Speaker 2: So I feel you completely.
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  Speaker 4: On that exactly. So that's like I said, I've always
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  Speaker 4: liked to write. It's just when my mother and my
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  Speaker 4: aunt passed away, I got more sisterious, I got more
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  Speaker 4: serious about it, and I actually started asking the questions
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  Speaker 4: to guide me to the people who can help me. Okay,
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  Speaker 4: because you know how, you know how you're in a
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  Speaker 4: conversation like this, I'm telling you, Oh, Trevida, I've got
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  Speaker 4: a life story that that could be a book, and
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  Speaker 4: you say, girl, you should write the book.
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  Speaker 5: My next question is who do I go to to
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  Speaker 5: write that book? How do I do that? Because yeah, I.
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  Speaker 4: Can write on a piece of paper, but if it
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  Speaker 4: doesn't go anywhere from off my.
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  Speaker 5: Desk, right, what are we gonna do?
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  Speaker 2: You know? Yeah?
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  Speaker 4: So, like I just you know, I became after I
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  Speaker 4: wrote this story, cute little children's story m hm that
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  Speaker 4: incorporated snippets of my mom's personality, on my aunt's personality. Okay,
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  Speaker 4: I decided to actually look into and research how do
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  Speaker 4: I get to the right people mm hmm to help
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  Speaker 4: me make this an actual product?
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  Speaker 2: Okay, yeah, yeah, Well listen, like I told you before
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  Speaker 2: the show, we have a lot of things in common,
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  Speaker 2: and the stroke being one of them. I lost my
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  Speaker 2: mother two years ago and so it's been a process
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  Speaker 2: of grieving her. And she got to see and experience
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  Speaker 2: the podcast when I was just beginning, and so this
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  Speaker 2: became one of our special things together. And my mentor
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  Speaker 2: also gave my mom a she made her an honorary
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  Speaker 2: host and then gave her a episode of her own,
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  Speaker 2: and it was it was a joy and a pleasure
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  Speaker 2: with sharing that with her and also sharing seeing I
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  Speaker 2: think it was more for her seeing me outside of
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  Speaker 2: just being by myself, because she was so surprised that
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  Speaker 2: I actually interacted with people. I'm usually by myself or
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  Speaker 2: with my kids and now my grandkids, so outside of that,
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  Speaker 2: she was just really shocked that I had other people
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  Speaker 2: to talk to and right with. And so you would
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  Speaker 2: always say, I would always make sure that I had
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  Speaker 2: my laptop and include her and our little meetings and
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  Speaker 2: training sessions. And also I'm just thinking about the prayer
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  Speaker 2: my mom did when she first met them, and oh
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  Speaker 2: my god, it was hilarious. But anyway, I understand that
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  Speaker 2: grieving process and how it takes you to deal with
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  Speaker 2: feelings and emotions that you're not quite sure where to
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  Speaker 2: put or how to confine them, or how to express them.
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  Speaker 2: And writing is a good form of being able to
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  Speaker 2: express those feelings and those emotions. And then life took
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  Speaker 2: you on a different journey for just a little while,
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  Speaker 2: and that time gave you the opportunity to number one,
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  Speaker 2: heel to figure out where we're going to go with
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  Speaker 2: what you had in side, and also being able to
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  Speaker 2: honor them in a way that's lasting. That also gives
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  Speaker 2: other people a way of, especially children, a way of
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  Speaker 2: finding joy and finding laughter and being able to experience
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  Speaker 2: literature in a way that they probably never thought that
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  Speaker 2: they could. Was that one of your goals when you
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  Speaker 2: were writing the book to be able to bring the
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  Speaker 2: joy of what you had with your mom to younger people.
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  Speaker 5: Yes, my mother was a okay, and she loved kids,
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  Speaker 5: and kids loved her. Like absolutely.
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  Speaker 4: We had so many kids come through our house. I
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  Speaker 4: thought it was a daycare. I'm like, hello, mom, I'm.
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  Speaker 5: Your real hotel. But they loved her, they gravitated with her.
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  Speaker 4: However, as as time passed, you know, I will say
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  Speaker 4: it's it's like a two part answer because I will say, however,
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  Speaker 4: as time passed and as I grew, uh, my family,
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  Speaker 4: by nature would take trips. Okay, I'm going off on
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  Speaker 4: a tangent here, but but this is my family. My
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  Speaker 4: my dad would take us on a family trip every year. Okay,
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  Speaker 4: that was we always knew we were going somewhere. I
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  Speaker 4: thought I thought this was normal, Okay, But as I
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  Speaker 4: grew older, I met lots of little children that never
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  Speaker 4: left their neighborhood.
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  Speaker 5: Ever, yeah they didn't.
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  Speaker 4: They were at Grandma's house like with which was five
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  Speaker 4: or ten miles away. Yeah, they never passed Grandma's house.
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  Speaker 4: They never got to go to a different state, they
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  Speaker 4: never got to go to a different country, never got
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  Speaker 4: to experience what was outside of their natural environment.
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  Speaker 5: And then I met I met.
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  Speaker 4: Adults who once worth these children, who were in the
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  Speaker 4: same plight. Yeah, basically they were adults that never got
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  Speaker 4: to really see. So that expanded the meaning and the
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  Speaker 4: goal of my story. My story may be a children's book,
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  Speaker 4: but on a broader level, I want to share it
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  Speaker 4: with people because I want to generate the want or
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  Speaker 4: the desire to want to see more of what's outside
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  Speaker 4: of our community. Know, statistic statistics, excuse me, They show
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  Speaker 4: that eighty percent of our children don't get to leave
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  Speaker 4: their neighborhoods. So socially, this causes an awkwardness that you know,
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  Speaker 4: there's an uncomfortability when it comes to knowing what's outside
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  Speaker 4: of what you know, right.
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  Speaker 5: And that causes us to you know, that causes them.
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  Speaker 4: To grow up to have you know, a lack of
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  Speaker 4: social skills, a lack of culture, a lack of you know,
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  Speaker 4: which causes a lack of empathy, a lack of knowledge
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  Speaker 4: of what's around us, and so I want to change that.
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  Speaker 5: I want to change that with Joany and Julieta. So
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  Speaker 5: it's about these.
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  Speaker 4: Two amazing sisters that just have the imagination and the
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  Speaker 4: desire and the want to anywhere they want to and
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  Speaker 4: you know, through the use of their special pajamas, they
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  Speaker 4: can do that.
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  Speaker 5: You know, they can.
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  Speaker 4: They got their own plane and everything goes. The goal
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  Speaker 4: is to create a cultural awareness of of other places
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  Speaker 4: and and other cultures, other ethnicities, so that so that
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  Speaker 4: we can have a better understanding of who we are,
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  Speaker 4: you know, as a people. And so that's that's my goal,
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  Speaker 4: you know, to want to to want to change that
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  Speaker 4: and perhaps have these children grow up where they can
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  Speaker 4: afford a trip and they can go places and they
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  Speaker 4: can you know.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, So it's basically where they're not they're able to
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  Speaker 2: expand in reality and not just in a mindset. To
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  Speaker 2: give kids the tools to understand that they can actually
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  Speaker 2: be venturous, adventurous and venture outside of their common circle
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  Speaker 2: and what's familiar to them, because I think there's a
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  Speaker 2: misconception that being complacent is okay, and it's really not okay.
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  Speaker 2: There's so much more and you can outgrow people and
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  Speaker 2: you can outgrow spaces. And I try to explain it
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  Speaker 2: to kids when I'm talking to them that when you
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  Speaker 2: outgrow your clothing, you buy bigger clothing. So when you
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  Speaker 2: outgrow where you are, you can expand to bigger surroundings
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  Speaker 2: and bigger groups of people who can have a diverse
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  Speaker 2: conversation and a different perspective on what it is that
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  Speaker 2: you want to learn about. And don't be afraid to
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  Speaker 2: venture out and step away from from what you're familiar
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  Speaker 2: with to be uncomfortable for a season, because being uncomfortable
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  Speaker 2: for a season leads you to a wide variety of possibilities.
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  Speaker 2: Next question I want to ask you is about your
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  Speaker 2: healing journey when you found out you had a stroke.
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  Speaker 2: How did that process go for you?
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  Speaker 5: Wow?
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  Speaker 6: It that's another loaded question.
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  Speaker 2: Trust me, I know I've been there.
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  Speaker 5: I know it's crazy how it happened, because for.
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  Speaker 2: You, weren't hard headed, were you?
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  Speaker 5: No? No, I didn't know.
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  Speaker 4: I didn't even know what was wrong with me because
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  Speaker 4: for about three months prior okay, I started it feeling bad. Okay,
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  Speaker 4: I started Uh, I was very tired. I was extremely
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  Speaker 4: tired and just dragging just my my body was just
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  Speaker 4: just out of it. You know, I thought I needed
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  Speaker 4: a vacation. I was working.
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  Speaker 5: I was working very hard.
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  Speaker 4: I was working over time, and I kept telling myself,
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  Speaker 4: if I can just get through this, I'm getting my
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  Speaker 4: time off and you know.
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  Speaker 5: And take that vacation because I needed goodness. I need
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  Speaker 5: a drinking a bit. I need what I need. That's
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  Speaker 5: what I thought, you know, right, But I just, you know,
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  Speaker 5: from the fatigue.
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  Speaker 4: I would I would be sitting at my desk and
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  Speaker 4: I noticed my hand would shake just uncontrollably. I would
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  Speaker 4: hold it, but it's still was shit. I'm like, oh,
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  Speaker 4: oh that's it.
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  Speaker 2: That ain't good, right.
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  Speaker 5: I was like that, but I just I need some rest.
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  Speaker 5: I'm tired.
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  Speaker 4: I'm just I've just been working to go, I'm tired.
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  Speaker 4: I the shaking wouldn't stop. So I said, this is
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  Speaker 4: this is neurological, you know. I didn't there's some nerves
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  Speaker 4: going on something. But I made an appointment with the
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  Speaker 4: doctor too late. I never had a neurosurgeon because I
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  Speaker 4: didn't have anything wrong with my brain. But you know
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  Speaker 4: how you have when you get a new doctor, they
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  Speaker 4: make you wait for months.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, that was that was my situation.
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  Speaker 4: But I'm just gonna wait, wait, wait, make a long
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  Speaker 4: story short. I did you know. I had to wait
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  Speaker 4: about two months to get an appointment. However, the doctor
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  Speaker 4: didn't want to really examine me because of my insurance.
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  Speaker 5: He didn't like I thought I had great assurance.
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  Speaker 4: It worked for me everywhere else, but he didn't like
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  Speaker 4: my insurance. So he gave me a really hard time
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  Speaker 4: and I broke down crying. I almost held his ankles.
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  Speaker 4: I was like, something is wrong with me, because by
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  Speaker 4: the time I saw him, my left side was literally dragging.
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  Speaker 4: My leg was dragging, my arm was I did not
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  Speaker 4: know what was going on, but my left side of
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  Speaker 4: my body was just not working.
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  Speaker 5: And that was scary. That was yeah. So I just
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  Speaker 5: broke down and cried, you know, and cried.
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  Speaker 4: And I guess I appealed to something because he did
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  Speaker 4: run some tests, but I had I had a stroke.
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  Speaker 4: The very next day I saw I went to get
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  Speaker 4: myself something to eat and I saw one that that
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  Speaker 4: attends my place of worship and she was like, he said,
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  Speaker 4: I haven't seen you in a while. You know, I
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  Speaker 4: look forward to seeing you tomorrow. And I was like, yeah,
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  Speaker 4: I look forward to seeing you too. So that Sunday morning.
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  Speaker 4: I did not feel like getting out of bed. My body,
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  Speaker 4: my body was done. And but I thought about what
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  Speaker 4: she said. I was like I have in the Bible.
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  Speaker 4: It says that you're yes, me, yes, and you're no no.
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  Speaker 5: Even though I didn't want to go, I told her
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  Speaker 5: that I would see her. So I dragged myself out
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  Speaker 5: of the bed.
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  Speaker 4: My left side was completely limp, so I'm holding onto
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  Speaker 4: things to get out of my house. I make it
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  Speaker 4: and it's the left side, so I'm okay. I can
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  Speaker 4: drive with my right flick my right hand.
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  Speaker 5: But I made it.
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  Speaker 2: You sound like me in so many ways with me.
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  Speaker 4: Oh my god, I'm determined.
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  Speaker 5: I'm determined. I made it there. I made it there.
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  Speaker 4: I got out of the car and I'm literally holding
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  Speaker 4: on to the wall to walk myself.
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  Speaker 5: In the building.
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  Speaker 2: Okay.
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  Speaker 4: And there was there was an usher at the door
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  Speaker 4: and he was like, hi, sister Gold. You don't look
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  Speaker 4: like you're feeling too good. Are you feeling I said, no, brother,
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  Speaker 4: I'm not feeling that well. And he was like, well,
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  Speaker 4: let me help you inside. Let me let me help
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  Speaker 4: you in.
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  Speaker 5: So he helped me in, He helped sit me down.
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  Speaker 4: He said, would you like somebody to sit next to you,
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  Speaker 4: so I said, yes, please. So he found another sister
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  Speaker 4: to help me, uh, just to sit next to me
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  Speaker 4: who happened to be a nurse and to read.
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  Speaker 5: I kid you not. God was there.
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  Speaker 4: God was there because I had a I had two
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  Speaker 4: or three I don't quite remember, two or three seizures
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  Speaker 4: in her lap at that moment. She was one that
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  Speaker 4: kept me together. I promise you that this was God.
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  Speaker 4: She instructed someone to call nine to one one.
• 25:29
  Speaker 5: But she kept me alive and alert.
• 25:34
  Speaker 4: I had three of her lap I had after the
• 25:39
  Speaker 4: ambulance came and took me. I had two more and
• 25:42
  Speaker 4: then the stroke. So I have five seizures and a
• 25:47
  Speaker 4: stroke in less than one hour.
• 25:50
  Speaker 2: Wow, Listen, I am speechless in this moment, but I
• 25:59
  Speaker 2: know that it was all God's work and God's blessing.
• 26:05
  Speaker 2: And you pulling yourself up to get to the church
• 26:10
  Speaker 2: pretty much is what saved you in a matter of
• 26:18
  Speaker 2: an hour, because had you chose to just give in too,
• 26:24
  Speaker 2: I don't feel like getting up. My body is tired,
• 26:28
  Speaker 2: and I'm just gonna stay here, we wouldn't be having
• 26:32
  Speaker 2: this conversation today. We would not be having this conversation today.
• 26:38
  Speaker 5: We would We would not.
• 26:41
  Speaker 2: But I your stroke was on the left. My stroke
• 26:44
  Speaker 2: was on the left. That's why I'm telling yeah and yeah.
• 26:50
  Speaker 2: I went to the I went to work, like mine happened.
• 26:54
  Speaker 2: I was not feeling well. I thought that I had
• 26:58
  Speaker 2: hurt my back and I was having an allergic action
• 27:00
  Speaker 2: to the medicine that they had given me for my back.
• 27:03
  Speaker 2: So I'm not thinking of it. I'm just like, Okay,
• 27:06
  Speaker 2: well I've worked twelve hours today. I'm tired. I'm just
• 27:09
  Speaker 2: you know whatever. So I got off work. I took
• 27:13
  Speaker 2: my kids to Walmart so they can pick out a movie.
• 27:15
  Speaker 2: While we're at Walmart, my arm goes numb and I
• 27:19
  Speaker 2: dropped my purse off my shoulder and I don't think
• 27:23
  Speaker 2: anything of it. My sister's like, what's wrong. You dropped
• 27:26
  Speaker 2: your purse, and I'm like, I'm just tired, y'all, hurry
• 27:28
  Speaker 2: up and pick your movie. Let's go home. So we
• 27:31
  Speaker 2: go home. I get in the shower, my arm is
• 27:34
  Speaker 2: still kind of it felt like it was a sleep
• 27:37
  Speaker 2: to me, and so I'm like, okay, I'm not sure
• 27:43
  Speaker 2: what this is. So i go to bed. I'm like,
• 27:46
  Speaker 2: it's not a problem. I'm just gonna you know, sleep
• 27:49
  Speaker 2: it off. It'll be better in the morning. So six
• 27:51
  Speaker 2: o'clock I get up and I'm like, okay, I'm gonna
• 27:54
  Speaker 2: stop at Chickile, get me in breakfast, and then I'm
• 27:58
  Speaker 2: gonna go on into work because we had early morning
• 28:02
  Speaker 2: meetings at seven o'clock at the eye place where I
• 28:05
  Speaker 2: was working. And so I get there and that's where
• 28:07
  Speaker 2: we are going through the meeting and where they're talking
• 28:10
  Speaker 2: and everything. I'm noticing that I have no feeling on
• 28:14
  Speaker 2: the left side in my arm. So I'm just sitting
• 28:16
  Speaker 2: there doing this, like pinching my arm and I can't
• 28:19
  Speaker 2: feel anything. And I'm like, okay, So I tell my boss.
• 28:22
  Speaker 2: I'm like, listen, there's something wrong. I need to go
• 28:26
  Speaker 2: to the doctor. So I went back to the little
• 28:28
  Speaker 2: urgent care that I had gone to earlier in the week,
• 28:30
  Speaker 2: and so I'm like, I don't know what's going on,
• 28:35
  Speaker 2: but this arm doesn't feel right. So he's like, well,
• 28:39
  Speaker 2: tell me when did this start. I said, well, it
• 28:41
  Speaker 2: started last night, but you know not it should be fine.
• 28:45
  Speaker 2: What's going on? He was like, I don't want to
• 28:47
  Speaker 2: frighten you, but it sounds as if you may have
• 28:50
  Speaker 2: had a stroke. And I'm gonna go ahead and call
• 28:52
  Speaker 2: that an ambulance and have them come and pick you up.
• 28:56
  Speaker 2: Now me, this is why I asked the question, are
• 28:58
  Speaker 2: you stubborn? Where you stubborn? I was like, yeah, you're
• 29:01
  Speaker 2: not calling the ambulance. I'm going to drive myself to
• 29:03
  Speaker 2: the hospital because I'm not leaving my car. I'm not
• 29:06
  Speaker 2: not I don't want that bill also, so he was like,
• 29:09
  Speaker 2: I don't really advise you on doing it. I said,
• 29:11
  Speaker 2: I don't care. I'm going to drive to the hospital.
• 29:14
  Speaker 2: Now I'm on one side of town. I got to
• 29:17
  Speaker 2: go to the other side of town to the hospital.
• 29:20
  Speaker 2: So I drive myself to the hospital. By the time
• 29:25
  Speaker 2: I get to the hospital, I cannot feel my left leg.
• 29:30
  Speaker 2: So from warm all the way down, I could not
• 29:34
  Speaker 2: feel anything. So the receptionist is reading what the doctor
• 29:38
  Speaker 2: put in the envelope for me to give to them,
• 29:41
  Speaker 2: and she's reading it and she's like, do you know
• 29:44
  Speaker 2: what this paper says? I said, yes, ma'am. She says,
• 29:46
  Speaker 2: you're a little too young to be having a stroke.
• 29:48
  Speaker 2: I said, ma'am, I understand that, I said, but right
• 29:51
  Speaker 2: now you and I both are wasting precious time. So
• 29:55
  Speaker 2: can you please get me to the back, and so
• 29:59
  Speaker 2: they get me to the back and they're asking all
• 30:03
  Speaker 2: the neurological questions like my face never drooped, my speech
• 30:07
  Speaker 2: never faltered or anything. I just could not feel the
• 30:11
  Speaker 2: left side of my body. So they send me the CT,
• 30:15
  Speaker 2: they do the MRI, they do a cat skin, they
• 30:20
  Speaker 2: do X ray, they do all of this stuff. And
• 30:22
  Speaker 2: then she comes back and she says, miss Brown, you're
• 30:28
  Speaker 2: not going home. You are having a stroke right now.
• 30:32
  Speaker 2: We are preparing a room for you upstairs. And I'm like,
• 30:37
  Speaker 2: you have got to be kidding me. And yeah, and
• 30:42
  Speaker 2: I'm like, no, I said, I got I gotta get
• 30:45
  Speaker 2: home to the kids. She said, well, you're not going
• 30:48
  Speaker 2: home tonight. We have a room for you upstairs, so
• 30:54
  Speaker 2: I'll come see you up there. But you, she said,
• 30:56
  Speaker 2: and also, I heard something that they said you drove
• 31:00
  Speaker 2: yourself here. Yep, yes, ma'am, I did. I did. I'm sorry,
• 31:05
  Speaker 2: why would you do that? Well? Number one, I'm hard
• 31:07
  Speaker 2: headed and I'm stubborn, and I didn't think that it
• 31:10
  Speaker 2: was that serious. She said, well, now you're gonna be
• 31:12
  Speaker 2: here for a couple of days because you weren't supposed
• 31:16
  Speaker 2: to do this.
• 31:16
  Speaker 4: So so now, oh my goodness, did I.
• 31:23
  Speaker 2: Have a stroke. I was also diagnosed with a brain
• 31:27
  Speaker 2: aneurysm that they found while doing all of the other testing.
• 31:32
  Speaker 2: Then I also found out that I have a brain
• 31:35
  Speaker 2: condition called Kori malformation. So all of these things happened
• 31:40
  Speaker 2: at one time. So I say that my stroke was
• 31:43
  Speaker 2: a blessing and a curse at the same time, because
• 31:46
  Speaker 2: had I not had the stroke, I would never have
• 31:48
  Speaker 2: known that I have Krii malformation. And in the midst
• 31:53
  Speaker 2: of all of that, in twenty thirteen, I lost my speech,
• 31:56
  Speaker 2: my ability to speak. I had to learn how to
• 31:59
  Speaker 2: walk and and talk again with yes. So that's why
• 32:05
  Speaker 2: I said, this was not a coincidence. This is God's design,
• 32:09
  Speaker 2: why we're supposed to be having this conversation in this moment,
• 32:14
  Speaker 2: to show just how good God is and how powerful
• 32:17
  Speaker 2: his coverage is when he has his children to proclaim
• 32:23
  Speaker 2: and send out his message and be the vessel that
• 32:26
  Speaker 2: He needs us to be. Had it not been for him,
• 32:30
  Speaker 2: had it not been for these circumstances, we would not
• 32:33
  Speaker 2: be able to share the goodness of what God has
• 32:36
  Speaker 2: done for us and to bring us to this moment
• 32:39
  Speaker 2: right now. So this is God's dude, This ain't got
• 32:43
  Speaker 2: nothing to do with anything. So when I told you,
• 32:48
  Speaker 2: I was reading this and I saw that, and I
• 32:50
  Speaker 2: was like, God, this is you. This ain't got none
• 32:54
  Speaker 2: to do with me at all. This was your plan.
• 32:57
  Speaker 2: This was in It was written years ago when we
• 33:00
  Speaker 2: were still little kids playing on the playground with our
• 33:03
  Speaker 2: little friends. This was already written. It's just coming to
• 33:06
  Speaker 2: pass right now. So we have we're bonded now. So
• 33:27
  Speaker 2: it's an honor. It's a greatness to know that what
• 33:32
  Speaker 2: you went through and what you've been able to overcome,
• 33:36
  Speaker 2: and you to be able to write the book, to
• 33:40
  Speaker 2: share the adventure, to give people a different insight, to
• 33:44
  Speaker 2: know that they don't have to be confined to where
• 33:47
  Speaker 2: they are if they are willing to look beyond what
• 33:51
  Speaker 2: they see. That book about adventure covers so many aspects
• 33:57
  Speaker 2: of life and the journey of life. And you have
• 34:02
  Speaker 2: the opportunity to look beyond what you're going through, even
• 34:07
  Speaker 2: when it's hard, even when time seem uncertain, to be adventurous,
• 34:12
  Speaker 2: to look outside of what feels comfortable and just be
• 34:16
  Speaker 2: uncomfortable for just a small amount of time. Look at
• 34:20
  Speaker 2: what God has on the other side of that uncomfortable space.
• 34:24
  Speaker 2: Look at what God has for you outside of the
• 34:27
  Speaker 2: people that you feel comfortable with.
• 34:30
  Speaker 7: Look at what God can give you if you just
• 34:33
  Speaker 7: be open to receiving what it is. Oh, God is
• 34:45
  Speaker 7: amazing and God is more than sometimes we even understand
• 34:52
  Speaker 7: what He's capable of and what He's able to do
• 34:56
  Speaker 7: beyond what we see. Like I said, the best is
• 34:58
  Speaker 7: yet to come for or whatever He has in store
• 35:02
  Speaker 7: for you. I don't know what all of that is,
• 35:04
  Speaker 7: but I know that it's only the beginning for that
• 35:08
  Speaker 7: that it was. That is this book the only book
• 35:11
  Speaker 7: you've written so far?
• 35:12
  Speaker 4: Yes, it is, but it's kind of kind of fueled
• 35:16
  Speaker 4: me for me. Yeah, you know, got bidden by the bug.
• 35:22
  Speaker 4: But it's interesting you said that because I was in
• 35:25
  Speaker 4: the I was in the hospital hospital for I was
• 35:31
  Speaker 4: in the ICU for two weeks, okay, and then they
• 35:35
  Speaker 4: moved me to a floor and I was there for
• 35:39
  Speaker 4: maybe two more weeks, and then they moved me to
• 35:42
  Speaker 4: a rehab hospital. So I don't I didn't see home
• 35:45
  Speaker 4: for a long time, you know, right. But while I
• 35:49
  Speaker 4: was in you know, while.
• 35:50
  Speaker 5: I have some downtime mm hmm.
• 35:53
  Speaker 4: And they treated me very well in the hospital. But
• 35:57
  Speaker 4: when I had some downtime, there's a lot of praying, prayer.
• 36:00
  Speaker 5: Prayer potential.
• 36:02
  Speaker 4: I had a lot of converse, private conversations with God
• 36:07
  Speaker 4: and it was it was eye opener for me. Yeah,
• 36:13
  Speaker 4: I realized I had to readjust some things in my
• 36:17
  Speaker 4: life that if I had a second chance, he would
• 36:22
  Speaker 4: definitely see that all praises go to him.
• 36:26
  Speaker 5: Yes, you know, because that second chance is all him. Yes,
• 36:32
  Speaker 5: it was all Him. So definitely I've readjusted some things
• 36:39
  Speaker 5: in my life.
• 36:40
  Speaker 4: The with the the writing of the book is uh
• 36:45
  Speaker 4: a a celebration of all of the milestones that I
• 36:51
  Speaker 4: had overcome because I too couldn't speak.
• 36:54
  Speaker 5: I couldn't hold a pen. I couldn't.
• 36:56
  Speaker 2: I couldn't either couldn't hold a brand, can hold it,
• 37:01
  Speaker 2: could hold it.
• 37:06
  Speaker 4: I was in I was in a wheelchair for for
• 37:08
  Speaker 4: like a month. Then I could rested to a walker.
• 37:13
  Speaker 4: But all of these, you know, all of these things
• 37:17
  Speaker 4: came from hard work through prayer. I would I would
• 37:22
  Speaker 4: ask God to give me the strength, the courage and
• 37:24
  Speaker 4: the endurance to get through my situation. And if he
• 37:32
  Speaker 4: did that, I would give him my everything. I kept
• 37:38
  Speaker 4: my promise because I'm doing more volunteer work.
• 37:42
  Speaker 5: Uh.
• 37:43
  Speaker 4: That is Bible related and and like I said, my
• 37:48
  Speaker 4: book is only the celebration of what God has allowed
• 37:53
  Speaker 4: me to do, you know, And I am so so grateful,
• 37:59
  Speaker 4: so thankful. I'm so grateful every single day. I don't know,
• 38:04
  Speaker 4: I do not forget what I went through. And I
• 38:08
  Speaker 4: shared it with with who I can because I believe.
• 38:12
  Speaker 5: My story can help somebody.
• 38:14
  Speaker 4: People don't know, they don't know this much about me
• 38:18
  Speaker 4: because they have to get to know me in order
• 38:23
  Speaker 4: to know this. Like, yeah, I don't I don't volunteer,
• 38:27
  Speaker 4: but but once, once we get into the meat of things,
• 38:32
  Speaker 4: we can swap some stories.
• 38:35
  Speaker 2: Yes, that you said, And then then the reason it
• 38:39
  Speaker 2: has me crying is because those three words strength, courage,
• 38:44
  Speaker 2: and endurance or my signature after I had my strug,
• 38:53
  Speaker 2: that's what I prayed every day to give me the strength,
• 38:58
  Speaker 2: the courage and endurance to endure it all because I
• 39:03
  Speaker 2: did not know what tomorrow was gonna bring.
• 39:10
  Speaker 5: And so.
• 39:17
  Speaker 2: It was a moment when you can't speak, you can't
• 39:22
  Speaker 2: say anything, and doctor's not really knowing what the cause was.
• 39:27
  Speaker 2: How to get you back to speaking. I did a
• 39:32
  Speaker 2: lot of research and it was like, Okay, how do
• 39:38
  Speaker 2: I how do I keep my voice? How do I
• 39:41
  Speaker 2: get it back because I'm having to write things down
• 39:44
  Speaker 2: just to communicate. And it was frustrating to me because
• 39:48
  Speaker 2: it's like, I'm not used to not being able to talk.
• 39:52
  Speaker 2: I'm not used to it. So praying and asking God
• 39:55
  Speaker 2: and then doing research, I found out that when you sing,
• 39:59
  Speaker 2: you use different parts of your vocal cards, and that
• 40:03
  Speaker 2: is what helped me to get my speech back. And
• 40:06
  Speaker 2: so it was like, Okay, I'm slowly getting this back.
• 40:11
  Speaker 2: I'm slowly being able to do what it is that
• 40:15
  Speaker 2: I'm supposed to be doing. God, I still don't know
• 40:17
  Speaker 2: what that is. I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
• 40:20
  Speaker 2: But if you get me to this space and I'm
• 40:23
  Speaker 2: able to get out of this bed and I'm able
• 40:25
  Speaker 2: to drive again, I'm able to do. I will do
• 40:29
  Speaker 2: whatever it is that you instruct me to do, no
• 40:31
  Speaker 2: matter how uncomfortable it is, no matter if I don't
• 40:34
  Speaker 2: know what it is and I don't understand why you're
• 40:37
  Speaker 2: pushing me to these spaces, I still will be obedient
• 40:41
  Speaker 2: to what you're telling me to do.
• 40:43
  Speaker 5: And so.
• 40:45
  Speaker 2: I've been obedient. I've been I've been a little hard
• 40:48
  Speaker 2: headed at times with doing it all the way. I
• 40:55
  Speaker 2: will be honest, because I be like, God, I don't
• 40:58
  Speaker 2: think you sending that visit to the right person. I
• 41:01
  Speaker 2: think it's delivered to the wrong address. I need you
• 41:04
  Speaker 2: to take that to who I actually belongs to, and
• 41:08
  Speaker 2: he'll come right back and be like, no, it's at
• 41:11
  Speaker 2: the right address. I just need you to do what
• 41:14
  Speaker 2: it is I'm telling you to do. And what looked uncomfortable,
• 41:18
  Speaker 2: what felt uncomfortable, was only him moving me to where
• 41:23
  Speaker 2: I'm supposed to be. And I know some days I
• 41:28
  Speaker 2: call on him and I talk to him, and I
• 41:30
  Speaker 2: know he's like, look, child, I don't talk to you
• 41:32
  Speaker 2: twelve times today. Already. Give me a break. You on
• 41:35
  Speaker 2: hold for at least three hours right now because I
• 41:39
  Speaker 2: don't need to talk to you. You don't talk to me
• 41:41
  Speaker 2: since your eyes open this morning. I need a break.
• 41:44
  Speaker 2: And I'm like, okay, but I still got some questions
• 41:47
  Speaker 2: about the rest of this day, and I will call
• 41:49
  Speaker 2: on him throughout the day. I'm like, God, I don't
• 41:51
  Speaker 2: know what your children do in today, but I need
• 41:54
  Speaker 2: you to help me to help them because I don't
• 41:57
  Speaker 2: know what this is because I work in healthcare, and
• 41:59
  Speaker 2: so you don't know what you want to get You
• 42:03
  Speaker 2: know it's gonna be then, you know, here and there,
• 42:06
  Speaker 2: and it's like, God, I need you to help me,
• 42:10
  Speaker 2: to help your children because today they act in a
• 42:13
  Speaker 2: way that I don't even know how to help them.
• 42:15
  Speaker 2: And I'm trying because this ain't it. But oh my gosh,
• 42:25
  Speaker 2: this is such a overwhelming sense of gratitude. Being able
• 42:34
  Speaker 2: to share the goodness of God in a way that
• 42:39
  Speaker 2: not everybody is able to relate to, being able to
• 42:42
  Speaker 2: come from where you've come from, to have that stroke
• 42:46
  Speaker 2: to relearn and to rebuild that relationship with God. And
• 42:50
  Speaker 2: when you know that it was no one but God
• 42:53
  Speaker 2: that brought you out, because there was a man that
• 42:57
  Speaker 2: could done, could have done what he's done to put
• 43:00
  Speaker 2: you in a space and an opportunity to connect with
• 43:04
  Speaker 2: the people that are necessary for what He has for you.
• 43:12
  Speaker 2: I'm just I'm overwhelmed right now.
• 43:15
  Speaker 5: You mean both, can you believe? So? I was so scared.
• 43:19
  Speaker 5: I was super nervous about why I'm shy.
• 43:25
  Speaker 4: Normally I'm very shy, and I'm.
• 43:32
  Speaker 5: Kind of introverted, you know, so so I like being
• 43:37
  Speaker 5: in the background.
• 43:38
  Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
• 43:39
  Speaker 4: I can I can, you know, write a book, but
• 43:41
  Speaker 4: can somebody else show it?
• 43:42
  Speaker 5: For me.
• 43:43
  Speaker 4: I can draw a picture, but I just wanted to
• 43:47
  Speaker 4: hang it up and run away, you know.
• 43:49
  Speaker 5: But I'm learning, you know. I'm just like you.
• 43:53
  Speaker 4: Mentioned, I have to step out of my comfort zone.
• 43:59
  Speaker 4: I have a voice and I want to I want
• 44:03
  Speaker 4: to use it. I want to use it to show
• 44:05
  Speaker 4: how God is helping me. I wanted to show how
• 44:09
  Speaker 4: God is helping others, and I want to.
• 44:13
  Speaker 5: Share my book.
• 44:15
  Speaker 4: Yes, but but but God is at the forefront of
• 44:22
  Speaker 4: all of this. Yes, he is what is helping me
• 44:27
  Speaker 4: to grow. He is what is helping me to reach
• 44:33
  Speaker 4: potentials I never knew that I was.
• 44:35
  Speaker 5: Able to read. He is helping me.
• 44:40
  Speaker 4: With things I don't even know that are going to
• 44:42
  Speaker 4: happen yet, right, which is what this whole platform is about.
• 44:47
  Speaker 4: I have the idea what my future brings, but I
• 44:51
  Speaker 4: know with God in it, it's going to be.
• 44:55
  Speaker 5: It's going to be something.
• 44:57
  Speaker 2: That's why I said the best is yet to come.
• 45:00
  Speaker 2: There's so much more ahead. And it's like you didn't
• 45:06
  Speaker 2: know what you had in you until you had to
• 45:09
  Speaker 2: dig deep. God is already instilled in us everything that
• 45:12
  Speaker 2: we are gonna need throughout our lifetime. But he puts
• 45:17
  Speaker 2: us in places and situations to dig deep within to
• 45:21
  Speaker 2: know that what He's instilled in us. And it's never
• 45:24
  Speaker 2: that he puts so much on us that we're not
• 45:27
  Speaker 2: able to bear it. It's just knowing when to go
• 45:31
  Speaker 2: to him for the guidance to use what he's given
• 45:35
  Speaker 2: us already, because he says, I've given you all of
• 45:41
  Speaker 2: the tools that you need. I just need you to
• 45:43
  Speaker 2: dig deep and trust me through this process because I'm
• 45:47
  Speaker 2: gonna get you where you need to go. He'll never
• 45:51
  Speaker 2: look at what your finances look like. He'll never look
• 45:54
  Speaker 2: at what you live in, what car you drive, He
• 45:57
  Speaker 2: doesn't look at any of that. He looks at how
• 46:00
  Speaker 2: much do you have faith and trust in what He's
• 46:04
  Speaker 2: about to do for you and in your life. And
• 46:07
  Speaker 2: we also have to learn that when God says let
• 46:10
  Speaker 2: something go, to let it go, because He's not gonna
• 46:13
  Speaker 2: make you let go of something that he's not going
• 46:16
  Speaker 2: to replace with something greater and better than what it was.
• 46:20
  Speaker 2: And sometimes we stand in limbo trying to hold on
• 46:23
  Speaker 2: to both doors and because we like what we have
• 46:27
  Speaker 2: on the other end of this door, but God is like,
• 46:30
  Speaker 2: I need you to let that go, because what I
• 46:32
  Speaker 2: have is going to be greater ten times greater. But
• 46:35
  Speaker 2: do you trust me? And you can pray a prayer
• 46:39
  Speaker 2: and you're like, God, I need an increase in this.
• 46:41
  Speaker 2: But then you suck at having patience and you want
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  Speaker 2: him to bless you right then and there. But he'll
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  Speaker 2: take you through some things because he knows that you're
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  Speaker 2: not ready. And so patience is the thing that you
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  Speaker 2: need to learn. And so when you're asking God, this
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  Speaker 2: is one thing that I have learned. When you're asking
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  Speaker 2: God for something, please be very specific. And that is
• 47:06
  Speaker 2: why that I had said, I learned the hard way.
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  Speaker 2: When I was praying and asking God, I was like God,
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  Speaker 2: I am tired. I need a break. I need, you know,
• 47:19
  Speaker 2: a vacation. I need to rest. He gave me rest,
• 47:25
  Speaker 2: and in twenty thirteen, he gave me a break. He
• 47:28
  Speaker 2: gave me a He gave me a two year break
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  Speaker 2: in that process. Because I didn't I wasn't specific. I
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  Speaker 2: just asked for a break. I said, I'm tired, I
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  Speaker 2: need I don't want to go to work, I don't
• 47:40
  Speaker 2: want to do anything. And that is the moment that
• 47:43
  Speaker 2: I had a major flare up with my condition and
• 47:46
  Speaker 2: they didn't know if it was another stroke. They couldn't
• 47:49
  Speaker 2: tell what it was. They kept trying to say that
• 47:51
  Speaker 2: it was complex migrains and so on and so forth.
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  Speaker 2: And I went from speaking like this to my trembling
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  Speaker 2: to basically having to write down all in a matter
• 48:05
  Speaker 2: of three days. Wow. It was like, Okay, I'm going
• 48:10
  Speaker 2: from hospital to hospital, doctor, the doctor, neurologists and neurologists,
• 48:15
  Speaker 2: and no one can tell me what's wrong. And I'm like,
• 48:19
  Speaker 2: this is not normal, this is not just a typical migraine.
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  Speaker 2: Something is wrong. And so during that time, it's like, God,
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  Speaker 2: I need you more than I need myself. I need
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  Speaker 2: you to help me to get through this. I have
• 48:32
  Speaker 2: three kids I gotta take care of and I need
• 48:36
  Speaker 2: to know how I'm supposed to maneuver through all of this,
• 48:40
  Speaker 2: and I didn't know. I had no clue. And God
• 48:45
  Speaker 2: was everything to me during that time, and he helped
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  Speaker 2: me to know that when I can't lean on anybody else,
• 48:52
  Speaker 2: I can always lean on him and he will provide
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  Speaker 2: everything that I need. And when I tell you, he
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  Speaker 2: provided everything that I needed. I did not want for anything,
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  Speaker 2: neither that my children. We were cared for and provided for.
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  Speaker 2: And He sent the people who needed to help me.
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  Speaker 2: Get through. And I struggle with asking for help, and
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  Speaker 2: people think that the pride thing, and it has absolutely
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  Speaker 2: nothing to do with pride. It's not an ego thing,
• 49:24
  Speaker 2: is it has nothing to do with either one of
• 49:26
  Speaker 2: those things. I just struggle with asking for help and
• 49:30
  Speaker 2: assistance because as a child, I've grown up with asking
• 49:36
  Speaker 2: for help and still not getting it and not receiving it.
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  Speaker 2: So I just learned to not ask and just figure
• 49:45
  Speaker 2: it out on my own. But I learned that I
• 49:47
  Speaker 2: didn't have to ask anyone but God because he would
• 49:50
  Speaker 2: always provide, and so that's what I do. And so
• 49:54
  Speaker 2: people are like, well, you can still ask, being I'm like,
• 49:58
  Speaker 2: you're right, I could, but mm hmm. That's the main
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  Speaker 2: one that I know will always provide. I just have
• 50:05
  Speaker 2: to be patient and letting him do it on his
• 50:09
  Speaker 2: time and not mine. So God is good. God is amazing.
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  Speaker 2: And I'm gonna keep saying that over and over again
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  Speaker 2: before we get out of here, because we will definitely
• 50:22
  Speaker 2: continue this conversation long before, long after this, So we're
• 50:27
  Speaker 2: gonna exchange numbers and everything. So we're gonna do all
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  Speaker 2: of that.
• 50:32
  Speaker 5: But is there.
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  Speaker 2: Anything you want the listeners tonight to know about you,
• 50:39
  Speaker 2: and to take from this conversation tonight that we didn't cover.
• 50:44
  Speaker 5: Well, I definitely you know from my from.
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  Speaker 4: My experiences in life and dealing with my health and
• 50:53
  Speaker 4: the death of my mom and my aunt. The one
• 50:56
  Speaker 4: thing I've learned is to not take life for granted.
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  Speaker 4: And I love to tell people you can get fired
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  Speaker 4: from a job, but you can't get fired from your gift.
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  Speaker 4: So you take care of yourself and to share that
• 51:16
  Speaker 4: gift with others. Yes, yes, and I just want to,
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  Speaker 4: you know again, show my book.
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  Speaker 5: Yes, and I have some little friends with me too
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  Speaker 5: that I know your granddaughter would thank you. Yes, they are.
• 51:44
  Speaker 5: I'm working on getting more made.
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  Speaker 4: But be cute my book. My book is on Amazon,
• 51:54
  Speaker 4: and but you can get a signed copy from my
• 51:59
  Speaker 4: web wrights R I. T. E. S. That's where you
• 52:09
  Speaker 4: can get us signed copy of Okay.
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  Speaker 2: Well, I'm definitely gonna be doing that because and I
• 52:17
  Speaker 2: need those two little dolls as well for a green movie.
• 52:21
  Speaker 2: So yeah, it has been truly an honor and a
• 52:25
  Speaker 2: privilege to talk with you tonight. We are bunded now
• 52:29
  Speaker 2: for life, so yes, we are just get used to
• 52:33
  Speaker 2: it because me and you must never part. So we
• 52:39
  Speaker 2: are sisters, because God created us that way and it
• 52:44
  Speaker 2: took us going through the motions to get here for
• 52:48
  Speaker 2: this moment. So I'm grateful, honored, and privileged to have
• 52:53
  Speaker 2: the opportunity to meet you, to get to know you,
• 52:56
  Speaker 2: and it's going to continue. But I want to thank
• 53:00
  Speaker 2: everybody for tuning in tonight. And you know, I cannot
• 53:04
  Speaker 2: end this show without saying the thing that I say
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  Speaker 2: all the time, and that is stay out of God's business.
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  Speaker 2: The only thing he needs you to do is be
• 53:13
  Speaker 2: obedient to what he's called you to do. So until
• 53:16
  Speaker 2: next time, I'll see you guys next month.
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  Speaker 5: Bye bye.