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J.D. Lewis joins the show! · Day Drinking With Dog

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  Drinking with Dog. And this snowy Tuesday evening, it's hoping to avoid it.
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  This winter book. I couldn't. I couldn't do it, couldn't stay
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  in Florida long enough. I got my good friend j D Lewis in house
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  today. JD, how you doing well? I'm doing well, man.
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  It's it was an interesting day. You know. I showed up to work.
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  I was the only one there. Nobody else can make it with the
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  snow. Yeah, so it was. It was definitely some sort of day,
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  let's put it that way. Thanks for having me, Yeah, no,
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  thank you for coming, especially in the snow. Actually was really was.
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  I mean, I'm honestly, I live three minutes from here, so
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  we're good. Absolutely. Uh. So you've reached out to me sometime in
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  January you were starting your own podcast, Yeah, called up Untamed Discussions on
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  Top Conversations Conversations, Yep. Few seconds in I batched No. I mean
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  I had written down too, but it was on my phone. It's you
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  know, Tara and my wife got me a little set up for Christmas and
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  she's like, listen, I know you wanted to talk about this for you
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  know, a long time and really do this. And I've always been like,
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  you know what, maybe I'll do it, maybe I won't. Who's
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  gonna listen? And uh, you know, I just said, you know
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  what, fuck it, let's uh, let's go for it and took that
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  chance. And it seems like it's going well. So I mean, yeah,
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  I saw, I listened to a couple today. I listened to the
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  first two when you put them out. They were very deep. Yeah,
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  that was for sure. It was something I was a little nervous about.
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  I didn't know how people were going to react to really seeing I guess you
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  can call it the real meet. But it seems like it's been pretty positive.
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  So you know, I'm hoping to be able to help some more people
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  out would then listen in to my conversations. So let's go back to the
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  very first one. Uh, you talked about your upgrooming, upbringing baseball right
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  also, so just kind of you kind of touched on a lot of things
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  in the fifteen minutes you were talking about. Yeah, I mean, what
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  I wanted to do was really just give everybody more of a I guess you
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  can say, just let everybody know what I'm gonna talk about, what it's
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  going to be about. You know, my upbringing, I was a very
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  good athlete. Uh. You know, we have a lot of friends in
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  common that you know, we played sports together. You know. I played
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  baseball, played football, tried like you were like Letterman, I was into
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  mural I was I was good, you know, and that was I think
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  that just comes from you know, like I said in the episode of My
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  father, he was very tough when it when it came to growing up and
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  playing sports, it was literally just push, push, push, you need
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  to do this, you need to do that. I think. You know,
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  I'm sure a lot of people know how that is. You know,
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  can JD come out and hang out with us and it's like, no,
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  he needs to practice first and then and then you can come you know,
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  then you can go play a lot of my friends like that. It Uh,
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  I guess you could say it was a blessing, but also at the
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  same time, it was kind of like, Okay, what did I miss
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  out on? You know, I made it far after high school I did
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  not go to college. I did online college, I had scholarships. My
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  parents got divorced, so it kind of it kind of fucked everything up.
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  Yeah. I always joked with my dad over the years because my dad was
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  an avid golfer. But I didn't live with my father either, Okay,
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  you know my parents were of course, yep, yep, four and a
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  half. I was used to joke with him, like I think I kind
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  of probably put a club in my hand at the first time when I was
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  sixteen years old, okay, and he's just like showed me a swing and
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  he's, wow, it's you know, pretty good. And I said,
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  well, if you've fucking done this when I was three, you'd be the
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  next Tiger right now, like Tiger was rest in peace, Dave. Yeah,
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  but yeah, And I always just say, because we've watched a lot
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  of golf together, especially the Tiger years, and I was just messing it
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  to him. You know, he started me younger. I'm too old.
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  I started drinking at eighteen. You know. It was over look at John
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  Daily. I mean you he's like an alien. Yeah, It's that's insane
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  to me. But it's like for me when it was growing up playing baseball
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  and football. You know, obviously I went to Foreign played high school baseball,
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  football did well. I stopped playing for a little bit, and then
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  I played some legion baseball and whatnot. And then one year, believe it
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  or not, I went to Maryland. I went to visit my aunt and
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  she set me up for a tryout with the Buie Bay Sox, which is
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  one of the I believe it's the single Orioles. I made the team and
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  I played for a month and decided to leave. Yeah, that was it.
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  Just I never it was a girl. I met a girl. Oh
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  fucking women, man, and uh you know, I mean for me it
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  was. I also didn't think I was good enough to play. I mean,
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  you know, I didn't go to college. I thought that I have
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  a lot of friends that I went to high school with. Were you a
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  pitcher? I was a pitcher, yeah, and I threw hard. But
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  also at the same time, I had friends that may in the pros.
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  You know. One played for the Mariners, one played for the Diamondbacks.
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  I have another friend. You might have heard of him. He still plays
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  now. I think he plays for the Giants. Kirkasally we played travel ball
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  together, but he's a catcher. So he's been he's been in the league
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  for one of those backup journeymans. I mean he started it, he started
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  some games, but I think he's I think he's been in the league for
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  twelve years. Wow, So I mean it's just pension games. Yeah,
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  that's five ten. Yeah. I mean I played with a lot of talent,
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  and I think at some point, and I think we all go through
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  this, he just you think, you know what, you're not good enough.
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  It's just it's time. And I left for the girl and uh it
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  didn't work out, but oh the girl was back home. Yeah. Oh
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  I'm even more upset. Yeah, yeah, I know. You know.
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  It's obviously not your wife we're talking about. But the way I see it
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  now is if I didn't leave, and let's say psychodeically I made it started
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  playing, I wouldn't have my daughter. I wouldn't have my wife. I
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  want to be in the spot I am now. Hey, can't have any
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  regrets about it, but no regrets. But some times I feel like,
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  and I think we've all gone through this. I feel like certain people in
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  my family were expecting me to be their retirement plan. Yeah, you know,
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  so it was like, oh, listen. If JD makes it,
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  I don't have to work anymore. Yeah, yeah, I think you know.
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  That's why I tell my dad, you know, you could have retired
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  early with me with my golf skills. That literally I went to golf Haven
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  the other day, you know what that is so devon. Out of the
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  five of us that played, I was easily the worst, and Braden,
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  who's thirteen, outperformed me. I couldn't get the ball off the fucking tea.
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  It was just one of those things. I don't if I was too
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  hungover or something. I'm like, I can't do the indoor shit, I
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  gotta be outdoors. And I just sucked so bad. And now I'm like,
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  now we got snow in the ground, so I can't even go to
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  a driving range and correct it yet. But sorry, didn't I listen?
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  Man? I love golf. I mean I'm not very good at all.
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  Yeah. And you know my cousin pat him all the time. Yeah,
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  he's good. Yeah, so it's hard to play with him. Like I
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  like playing with people that are good. It's it depends. Like for my
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  bachelor party in the Dominican we played, Yeah, we played. In Aruba,
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  we played, we played on some good golf courses, and each course
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  I only made nine holes. I had to get on the golf garden drive
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  because I was tired and I just wanted to drink. Yeah, I need
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  to start at the orchards. You know, urches is great. I got
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  married at Oak Lane. I have a free foursome still there. I need
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  to eventually use it. I just don't feel like i'm good enough to play
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  there. Oh no, it's not that bad. You're gonna play with me.
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  What we'll get you me all other people. The first hole is a
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  doozy. After that, you settle right in. I think golf would be
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  a great relaxation moment for me. Well, you know, we'll get into
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  anxiety in a second. But uh yeah, like I just the you know,
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  I'm gonna say the six hours i'm out there, so my girlfriend thinks
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  I'm actually out there for six hours. Uh the six hours I'm out there.
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  It's just I feel like I'm not anywhere, you know what I mean.
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  Yeah, yeah, Like I played Great River a lot, and I'm
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  never on that side of town, and the river's right there, and it's
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  just like I just feel like I'm in another country sometimes, you know,
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  And then we come to the clubhouse and you see fucking thirty people we know,
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  but like, yeah, but while you're out there, yeah, you
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  know, it's like it's just so relaxing. Even if I play bad,
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  I don't care, Yeah, because I always say, what are the rich
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  people doing right now? They're fucking working? Yeah, I mean it.
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  And that's I know, that feeling what you're saying, Like when you're doing
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  something and you just feel like you're so relaxed and you're just in a spot
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  where it's like, you know what, I'm not worried about anything, right,
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  no stress. That's the best feeling. Yeah. I need to find
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  something to do that because right now for me, it's just literally watching my
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  daughter play softball. That's like my go do. That's my really, hey,
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  that's a good release. But I need something for me too, you
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  know. I need to be able to go out, you know when she's
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  with you know, her mom or her stepmom and just be like, you
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  know what, let me call some of my boys, Let's go play golf,
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  Let's do something relaxing. Yeah, you know, it's a it's a
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  great outlet for me. I mean, I wish I got out more,
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  but well, it is. I mean it is, like you know,
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  it does consume a lot of time with just Connecticut, whether I'm sure we
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  can and yeah, and ninety percent of the time I'm I'm probably drinking.
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  Well, if you take nine out of every ten times I go golfing,
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  what I would say, what I start working nine? The orchards opening?
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  What six? Seven? Yeah? Probably, so we could probably honestly play
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  it. You know, we could play that course right, go home,
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  I could shower and then still make it to work, right, I think,
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  will you say we no? Me, No, I'm just gonna go
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  at noon. I'm up honestly. For me, I'm up at four thirty
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  every morning, four thirty. By five thirty, I'm at the gym.
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  You know, that's just I got to be at the gym before before I
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  go. All right, So I listened to one of your shows speaking of
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  the gym. Yeah, and your show started out talking about addiction. Again,
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  this is uncame conversations you can find on Apple and Spotify, right,
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  yeah, yep, uh, you talked about addiction. And I was kind
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  of listening to the beginning and I, you know, we know each other
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  pretty well, but I don't know, like when was we ever really like
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  hung out and went out in the town and talked life. I didn't know
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  where this was going. Yeah, so your addiction was the gym and the
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  supplements you took that I take that is that right about that time? So
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  again I don't mind saying it. I think most people who know me,
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  I put in the hard work. But I did UH call him supplement.
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  I did some steroids. I'm not gonna lie. But at the time again
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  still no kids that do steroids. Yes, but at the time when I
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  took them, they were legal, you could buy them over the counter.
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  Did I know they were bad for you? Absolutely? I did, all
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  right, you know, especially for me. I have one working kidney,
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  so that's kind of oh jeez, Yeah, I had uh. When I
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  was born. I was five months premature, so I only have one working
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  kidney. You were five months premature when I was born. The doctor told
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  my parents I was supposed to be five foot three and never play sports my
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  whole life. And now I'm five eleven, two sixty five. So I
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  did something right. Holy shit. Yeah, I wasn't supposed to be who
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  I am today. I don't think you were supposed to be alive. You're
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  right. Well, honestly, I'm I don't really study that stuff. But
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  no, it's uh, five months you're developed enough to be born. Yeah,
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  and I was in I was an incubator for quite some time. And
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  like when my dad helped me for the first time. I get a little
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  emotional about this. From his fingertip to his wrist, that's how big is.
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  Look at me now, I'm like, you know what, so I
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  think a big part of me that I can't get over that. A lot
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  of people say that when they see me now, and they're like, what
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  the hell. I'm like, yeah, you know, well I don't really
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  look at anybody and see yeah, say, way, what did you look
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  like? Now? You know, I feel like, and I'm not the
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  most religious person in the world, but I feel like got out a plan
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  for me. So I'm gonna you know, I'm gonna go with that.
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  But kind of to get back to what you were saying, you kind of
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  have to be a little religious. Were going to use that. Yeah,
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  No, I go to church. I believe in God, trust me.
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  But when it comes to you know, addiction, you know, when it
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  came to the gym, it was my senior year of high school, junior
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  year. I so you went every day right, junior year. So I'm
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  gonna get right there. I left school at a hundred and eighty two pounds.
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  That summer, I was going to the gym three times a day,
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  taking steroids. I was, I was taking steroids. I went from one
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  to eighty two. I came back senior year at two thirty. Holy fuck
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  all muscle, Oh muscle. Yeah. I was fast, I was uh,
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  I was quick. The problem was I was getting I got hurt often
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  because I was stiff. Did you play football? I did, yeah,
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  and it wasn't good for baseball, right, I mean, so luckily for
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  me when I graduated, I got off and I was playing legion ball.
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  And that's how it was throwing hard because I let the muscle kind of disappear
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  a little bit. Yeah, at the end of the day, it's gonna
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  say, you don't have a picture's arm. No, I did pictures legs.
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  Yeah, pictures are you know? But I was taken and I have
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  no problem saying it. At the time, it was legal. Like I
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  said, I was taking super drawl at the time, yeah, which almost
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  me. Every one of my friends, I mean, anybody you asked,
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  I'd been in the gym or anything like that. They're gonna tell you.
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  You know what, I've taken that at one point in my life. Yeah,
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  it's a drug where you can put on thirty pounds of muscle in two
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  and a half months. Yeah, and if you work out, it's gonna
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  be great. If you don't and you just eat, you're gonna get fat.
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  Right, But I what do they say? Most of that stuff kind
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  of really affects your heart. And it's believe it or not, it's not
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  even your heart. It's more your kidneys and me, fucking asshole one kidney,
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  right, I went through a scare now having one sided, having one
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  kidney. Do you get you have to get a checked up a lot like
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  Yeah, like I normally two weeks ago I went to the doctor. Yeah,
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  I just to make sure, like your creatine's fine and your I think
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  it's called gfry. I forget what it's called. But normal kidney, normal
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  kidney function is fifty and above. You know mine has always been at sixty
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  percent. It's good, it works fine, you know, I take certain
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  things for that. But at the same time, when I did the steroids,
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  I was just I was a whole other person though. Yeah, I
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  mean when I say that, I mean like roid rage. And you know
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  what, I'm glad you said that because I want to get into that.
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  Okay, absolutely false. Anybody who's done steroids, and they might contradict that
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  and say I'm wrong. If you have roid rage, that just means you
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  were an asshole before. I never had roid rage. I never grabbed somebody
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  and tried to fight them for no reason. Did I get in fights.
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  Absolutely, because we know the same people. And I'm sure you've heard stories.
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  Roid rage is a it's in your mind. You think you're mad,
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  you think you're pissed off. I never had that. Yeah, you know
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  any anytime I I think I've seen it, I'm sure you have. I
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  mean I I went to the University New Haven and I lived with all the
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  football players. Yeah, yep, and I knew I watched them take steroids.
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  Well, anybody's seen the show, the movie the program, Oh yeah,
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  he saw that was our That was our fucking theme movie when I was
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  in college ninety two to ninety six. A lot of mere right, yeah,
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  Altimer, Yeah, that is something that maybe some people have, but
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  for me, I had a couple buddies. Man, they literally like he
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  actually picked me up and threw me through a wall, and it was like
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  if alcohol was involved in all other shit, and yeah he's kind of a
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  meathead whatever. Yeah, but I knew I saw this shit in his eyes.
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  And I wasn't even like talking shit. I wasn't saying anything. We're
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  just in a dorm room playing cards and he just got up, smashed a
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  chair, picked me up. He would have picked anyone up. He wasn't
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  singling me out. Yeah, he just fucking picked me up, Like when
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  I say, throw me through a wall, like you know, went through
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  that fucking sheet rock. Nothing crazy, But I just saw his everything.
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  Yeah, every that was nuts about him. I'm like, WHOA. So
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  I think that probably depended and you know what, I'm not saying you're wrong,
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  because it probably depends on what you're taking. I agree with, like
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  what kind of person you may be. I have never put a needle in
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  my arm or my ass. I am terrified of needles. So what I
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  took, and this is the reason I think it was a little bit better
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  for me and I didn't get as sick because I did have issues, right,
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  But I took an orl steroid, taking my mouth oorl is worse for
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  the liver when you inject it, it's worse for your heart. Yeah.
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  I'm still to this day terrified of needles. So I took oorls, which
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  weren't the best, but you know, my liver, my liver had some
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  issues but we we got passed. But it was an addiction to me the
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  way some people drink the way some people. I don't want to call weed
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  an addiction because I feel like everybody smokes weed. Well, coffee can be
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  an addiction, you know, like this, it's you can be addicted to
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  fast like like yeah, yeah. But for me it was at that time.
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  If I didn't get you know, my friends will call me, Hey,
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  you want to hang out, I'm like, no, absolutely not.
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  Just I need to go to the gym for the third time, you know,
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  I need to take my pre work out for the fourth time. I
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  mean, we're talking four hundred milligrams of caffeine four times a day, and
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  that was not a bad day. I mean, on a good day,
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  I'm taking up the five thousand milligrams of caffeine. I will say this looking
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  at me. You know, I was never a gym rat, but when
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  I was younger, I was out. I was, I was, I
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  was, I had gym memberships, used to go to the edge a lot
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  in Milford. Just it's for me. It's one of those things like probably
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  like a lot of people is. You know, you start, you make
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  your things, you start thinking, you go, all right, let's go
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  back to the gym, just get in shape. Absolutely, the first like
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  three months for me, I'm like fucking dedicated. If I don't call these
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  four or five days a week, I'm mad at myself. Absolutely, And
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  then fucking holidays well around yeah, and it's like, all right, well
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  I just missed like fucking twenty of the days of December, going to Florida
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  for three weeks. Hard to get back and do it. It's just so
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  hard to get back. And after my fall, I fucked up my shoulder
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  yeap. Like I don't think if I went back to the gym, I
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  couldn't lift weights, There's no way. Yeah, I mean, but I
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  could do cardio. I could do There's nothing wrong with that. I mean,
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  you know, I went from being a meathead to when I had my
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  daughter to becoming a dad bod, which now to what I am now.
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  And I think I think you've seen the pictures I posted on Facebook. I
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  lost forty pounds, like I feel great, But the gym is not my
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  life anymore, like this morning. Normally I'd go to the gym every morning.
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  Like I said, my daughter said, hey, you know, she
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  woke up early before school, which she ended up getting canceled. Anyways,
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  right, you want to watch a movie? It was like six thirty.
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  What am I gonna say? No, No, I lay on the couch.
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  We made pancakes and we watched a movie. Right, you live.
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  You know, the gym is not dad life. Yeah, exactly. And
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  I and I love that. I mean, obviously I called is she now?
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  She's nine? Oh wow? And I think most people who are probably
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  listening year and also who have listened to mine, know that I am divorced,
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  so you know, I split custody. So when I get my daughter,
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  y, we're fifty to fifty, so I get her all the time.
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  And then even if like my ex wife will say can you take her
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  immediately? Like we have a they were at my wedding. We're all best
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  friends. We have like a Brady Bunch thing, right, But when I
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  get her, I make sure to make the most of it. Nine years
• 18:18
  old, she's not getting any younger. Yeah, I saw a picture of
• 18:22
  day and she was two years old. I'm like, what the hell,
• 18:25
  man, where'd the time go? Yeah? When I when I first met
• 18:27
  Nicole, her son was eight Braden and he's gonna be fourteen this month or
• 18:33
  next month. And I'm just I looked at her the other night and I'm
• 18:34
  like, it's two years he's driving our asses back from the fucking fuck downtown.
• 18:38
  Exactly funny because two our years hopefull, he's fucking out of here.
• 18:42
  Like when Tar met Hannah, she was she was two right, turned in
• 18:47
  two and a half, and now she's nine. It's like, what the
• 18:49
  hell mean, where did the time go? It's it's it's nuts. And
• 18:52
  I always say that, like like my brother's kids, Like he lives far
• 18:56
  enough away where you know, I used to see him all the time at
• 18:57
  the holidays, and you know, he had three and I blink and I
• 19:02
  and like the youngest is like twenty seven. Now you know, they all
• 19:07
  one of them lives close to the other t who live in North Carolina.
• 19:08
  It's like, I don't know, sometimes I feel cheated, like I never
• 19:11
  really got to know them, know them. But that's life. Everyone's got
• 19:15
  life, and you know that they didn't live in town, it was,
• 19:18
  they weren't close. Yeah, and man, that actually hits me right in
• 19:22
  the fields. It's funny you said that, because I get that. My
• 19:26
  thing is my mom's Italian, my dad's Irish, and I'm also a little
• 19:30
  bit of Cypress, which I didn't know what that was. That's probably probably
• 19:33
  caused the early prematureness. I realized that we were always such a tight knit
• 19:40
  family, but then people moved away. Yeah. And then also once my
• 19:42
  grandmother died, you know, they my grandfather, They say, once what's
• 19:47
  the hierarchy of the family passes away? Yeah, everything goes to shit.
• 19:52
  So, like you were just saying, they kind of feel cheated. I
• 19:53
  don't see my family anymore, right, you know. I see my sister,
• 19:56
  my nephews, and like that little group and that's it. And I
• 20:00
  was kind of the one that flew the coop. You know. We were
• 20:03
  all Western mass Springfield, Northampton's Outh, Deerfield. Okay, I played baseball,
• 20:07
  yes, but so my you know, parents were divorced when I was
• 20:11
  young, and mom was just you know, one of those ladies that was
• 20:14
  mostly single. I had a couple of boyfriends. But we bounced around from
• 20:18
  Philadelphia and we ended up landing in Connecticut, and so she was an actual
• 20:22
  mom, like oh yeah, yeah, yeah, why did she joked with
• 20:25
  her? I was a latch key kid. But I really was a latch
• 20:26
  key kid because my brother lived with my father and I live with my mother,
• 20:30
  so I was like the only child. I mean, she spoiled the
• 20:33
  shit out of me, obviously, But you know, I didn't see each
• 20:36
  other a lot your brother and you or was he? Yes, well we
• 20:38
  see each other. No, But we've gotten in and this is before my
• 20:41
  father died. We have gotten into. I feel like our relationship is the
• 20:45
  best that's been good, and that's before he passed away. And now obviously
• 20:48
  we talk every day because we've got a lot of stuff to deal with.
• 20:51
  But yeah, I think maybe this podcast had something to do with it,
• 20:55
  because he's listened to every fucking show and he was he'll send me a text.
• 20:59
  He actually wants me to make a sign that is over my head that
• 21:03
  the that the uh that my guests can look at and it says like if
• 21:07
  you say one three times, you a dollar to a jar, you know,
• 21:11
  And what was the other one that like or like I had somebody on
• 21:15
  and I think said like correct or annoys them for whatever reason. But I
• 21:22
  told you I had somebody on there said a lot. Yeah, it's hard.
• 21:26
  Patrick Mahomes says it every other sentence. So I just said, I've
• 21:33
  learned to pause, like gather my thought. And I've learned that from like
• 21:38
  not actually not watching podcasts, but watching some certain people on TV that have
• 21:41
  their own shows where they're kind of just in front of a camera, maybe
• 21:45
  have a producer they talk to, but mostly you know, And I realized
• 21:48
  how they just okay, do that, you know, and it's it's actually
• 21:52
  easier to listen to than that. Patrick Mahomes talking breathing techniques sometimes, like
• 21:56
  I'll you'll hear on my on my show, like we're I'll talk and neither
• 22:00
  a pause from me, But that's just me going YEA, take a deep
• 22:03
  breath and then I'm ready to rock you. I mean, but just to
• 22:06
  kind of finish up what we were saying in the beginning about the addiction,
• 22:11
  I think you you can probably attested this. I have a lot of friends
• 22:12
  that I have gone through addiction. You know, we've lost a lot of
• 22:18
  friends. I mean, I would say within your time in my time,
• 22:22
  Yep, it's actually absolutely and I take this very seriously and that's why I'm
• 22:26
  gonna when I finish up with that where it's very difficult for me. I
• 22:30
  feel like these are people that could have been helped. And that's why I'm
• 22:33
  bringing up to myself sometimes where I think, what could I have done maybe
• 22:37
  differently to say, you know, maybe invite them over my house one more
• 22:41
  than one, you know what I mean, and maybe help somebody. But
• 22:44
  you know, kind of what's your point of view on that, because I
• 22:45
  just feel like you, between you and I and everybody else listening, we've
• 22:49
  had so many friends pass away. Yeah, some friends that are still alive
• 22:56
  that I've try to help, and it's frustrating and unfortunately they're there's I mean
• 23:07
  not unfortunately that fortunately they're still with us. But at the same time,
• 23:10
  I don't think they've beaten all their demons, and you know, some of
• 23:15
  them like they're they're they're too far away from me, you know, they
• 23:18
  live too far away, and it's it's hard because you know, one of
• 23:23
  them, you know, I met at college and we were you know,
• 23:26
  instant friends, both Boston fans. Went through the whole Tom Brady ride together,
• 23:33
  you know, via text, or you go down to Florida or whatever,
• 23:36
  and uh, he's gone. I mean he's he's still alive, but
• 23:41
  he's gone. And you're right that that to me is worse. Like I
• 23:45
  feel like there are a lot of people that we've lost over the years that
• 23:49
  you know, I like, unless I really know you and I and I
• 23:52
  know what you're doing. Like a lot of them are so functioning, like
• 23:57
  a functioning alcoholic that well, like I don't go home with them at the
• 24:02
  end of the night, so I don't know what outside of drinking, but
• 24:04
  like I don't know what they're doing. Ye, And it's different than seeing
• 24:08
  you where you where you are, Like you're you know, you're slinging drinks,
• 24:12
  you're doing this, you're doing that. It's different seeing them that night
• 24:15
  to what's happening two days later. You know, it's I'm gonna say it,
• 24:21
  and I don't think my wife's gonna have an issue with it. She
• 24:22
  she had a cousin who it's very sad. I feel very bad that I
• 24:27
  didn't get to meet him. We've been together six years now. He passed
• 24:30
  away three months before we met he was doing some things. He was addicted
• 24:37
  to, you know, some drugs and this and that, and he was
• 24:40
  going to rehab. He was doing better, came back and I guess,
• 24:45
  you know, he was dating some girl and he was, you know,
• 24:51
  long story short, he was taking narking or whatever it is that you take
• 24:56
  when you're recovering from your methadone. Yes, and he took her dose instead
• 25:02
  of his, and he never woke up. And that's hard for me to
• 25:07
  say because even though I didn't get to meet him, I see the pain
• 25:11
  in my wife's eyes every time she talks about it, and just seeing your
• 25:14
  eyes right now too, when you were talking about your friend who was still
• 25:17
  alive. I had a best friend I grew up. We played baseball,
• 25:21
  football. We were best friends, Jeremy, when I tell you, best
• 25:22
  friends through high school and everything. If I had a party, he was
• 25:26
  there my mom's birthday, he was there, his mom's birthday. I was
• 25:30
  there. He had three, four or five scholarships for baseball. Every single
• 25:36
  time he unfortunately turned to drugs and I was always there for him. But
• 25:40
  the final straw was he came to my house and he asked for money.
• 25:47
  I gave it. To him, you know, because I just just who
• 25:49
  I am. I can't turn them away. He's got kids, he's got
• 25:52
  this. Gave him the money, and two weeks later he called me and
• 25:57
  asked me for I just had them off that. So when it comes to
• 26:02
  addiction, I think that you understand. I understand. I think a lot
• 26:04
  of people out there listening understand that we're not judging anybody. Trust me,
• 26:10
  nobody's perfect. I fucked up. I'm sure you've done your fuck ups.
• 26:12
  We've all fucked up. It's just bourbon, beer, whiskey, you know
• 26:18
  anything. When you and I are drinking it, we know when we could
• 26:21
  say, you know what, there's no reason to have any more tonight.
• 26:23
  You know, debatable, but let's put it this way. If my daughter's
• 26:30
  at my house, I have a couple of whiskey. I do actually amongst
• 26:33
  my friends, yeah, they all know. I'm the one that Kaiser sosays.
• 26:37
  Everybody like when it's time to go, they like, where' jeried go?
• 26:38
  I'm already home exactly. Like, even if I don't want to use
• 26:44
  everything, excuse but yeah, even if my daughter's not with me, I
• 26:47
  know for a fact, Like day the Super Bowl, I had one drink.
• 26:49
  I said, you know what, I'm not doing this. But then
• 26:52
  again, that was because we had twelve bottles of wine, like I told
• 26:53
  you that before, and we were fucked up, but I was responsible.
• 26:57
  I told Tar, I'm like, listen, you know you always drive.
• 27:02
  I just think addiction is something that he's heard a rampant, especially in Milford.
• 27:06
  But I feel like you get swept under a rug way too much because
• 27:08
  government doesn't give a shit. You are not wrong. I think it's they.
• 27:14
  Actually, this is a theory I heard. I'm not going to tell
• 27:17
  you who told me this, but it's it's I don't know if I've mentioned
• 27:22
  this on air before. I was walking into work and somebody that works there
• 27:29
  was walking in with me, and he said to me that his friend just
• 27:33
  died of a fentanyl overdose. And I said, oh man, I'm so
• 27:38
  sorry. He's like, you know, she was, you know, a
• 27:41
  drug addict and it sucks blah blah blah blah. So I said to him,
• 27:45
  I said, I don't get it. I go, why do drug
• 27:49
  dealers lace their drugs with fentanyl and killing off their their clientele? Exactly exactly?
• 27:59
  And he said to me, you're looking at it all wrong. The
• 28:02
  government doesn't want these people feeding off of them anymore, and pay the dealers
• 28:08
  to do this. Let's get rid of people. Yep. So a lot
• 28:14
  of these drug addicts are just getting, you know, checks from the government
• 28:17
  every week, feeding off the government. Teat I don't listen. I am
• 28:22
  not saying this is my listen. I'm the same way. I don't know.
• 28:26
  I don't know, but it made a fuck ton of sense because the
• 28:30
  other option doesn't. The fact is that I've talked to people in the nineteen
• 28:33
  eighties. I was born in eighty eight, So I say, the eighties,
• 28:36
  early eighties, you do a cocaine you're coming home right, twenty twenty
• 28:40
  three, twenty four, you do anything, you do a cocaine net or
• 28:42
  anything, you know what I mean? Like, I real quick, I'm
• 28:45
  not even gonna lie. I get uber eat. Sometimes I'm a psycho.
• 28:48
  I'll dump out my coke. I'll drink and i'll dump it out. I'll
• 28:52
  get my own coke and I'll just get the food. I'm a psycho.
• 28:55
  I'm like, you know, what if somebody put something in my drink,
• 28:56
  that's just who I am. It is. What if they sprinkled fucking pixie
• 29:00
  dust on your wings red, but no for you know, to be able
• 29:07
  to tell people honestly though about addiction and what I did. And again,
• 29:11
  anybody hears this, it knows what I did already. It's not like I
• 29:15
  hit it. I just sorry mom and dad, because my mom has listened
• 29:18
  to your podcast. Oh nice, Hi Mom, Yeah she has, she
• 29:23
  knows what I did. My parents were just kind of in denial about it.
• 29:26
  But my dad's like, oh yeah, he just worked out hard.
• 29:29
  Yes, I trust me, and I'm gonna end with that. Where steroids
• 29:33
  are not, you gotta work your fucking ass off. Right. You do
• 29:36
  steroids, you don't work out, You're gonna get fat, right. I
• 29:37
  did three workouts today for three months. What were you benched the most,
• 29:42
  believe it or not? Or squatting? Which was at twenty three years old,
• 29:48
  my max bench was four sixty fucking and my MAXI squad was five oh
• 29:52
  five. Come on, but five oh five and I was only weighing two
• 29:55
  hundred pounds. I'm just kidding. No, I know that. I think
• 29:59
  my I I maxed out on bench at probably twenty years old in college at
• 30:06
  probably two oh five, And that's great. Literally that was like one with
• 30:10
  three spotters screaming to get the fucking dig up, like that's some fucking jock.
• 30:15
  I was. I impressed. I don't know if I impressed or scared
• 30:19
  everybody at the gym. I was at the edge and I did I put
• 30:22
  three fifteen on the three plates on each side, and I first bench shit
• 30:25
  like this, oh really for eight and everybody's like what the fuck? Man?
• 30:29
  I think that's when everybody realized that I wasn't. Yeah, yeah,
• 30:33
  but I have a buddy, you know, Mark Kreutcher. Yeah, yep,
• 30:36
  Okay, so back when I was going to the gym, yep,
• 30:38
  he's he still goes there. He played Football Universe in New Haven, and
• 30:41
  he was not the one I was talking about. Okay, just to clear
• 30:45
  that up as well, Yeah, he wasn't the Ladimer. So we're at
• 30:49
  like where the freeway dumbbells are. So I would just go over do like
• 30:53
  you know these kind of yeahs, right yep, probably twenty five pounds on
• 30:57
  each side, curls for the girls. Yeah, he fucking comes over,
• 31:00
  doesn't even see me, like I think there were ninety five pounds each,
• 31:04
  and he's just like ripping him like this and I'm like, I need two
• 31:07
  hands to pick that fucking thing up. It's uh, how fast like when
• 31:11
  you were really like in your main workout stage, you know, do whatever
• 31:15
  you're doing there three days a night, Like, how quickly did your weights
• 31:21
  go up? You know what I mean? Like when did you get from
• 31:25
  the three hundred pounds or the four hundred pounds? So my problem was I
• 31:30
  didn't do the let's call it a conventional lifting. Yeah, I would put
• 31:33
  it on even if I couldn't do it, I would still try to lift
• 31:36
  it right. So I always had a spot. So what you learn when
• 31:40
  you're lifting is let's say I put three fifteen on, but I was benching
• 31:41
  to eighty five the day before and I couldn't do it. Even if you
• 31:45
  can get it up half an inch, he's gonna build strength. So the
• 31:48
  next day I do it again and again. It's repetitive. So for me,
• 31:52
  my strength went up crazy to say this, probably seventy percent within two
• 32:00
  and a half months. Wow, you just have to be dedicated. And
• 32:04
  again I was very dedicated, but at the same time, I was dying
• 32:07
  at the same time. And I bring that up real quick just to say
• 32:09
  that when I was at my peak of my strongest, the biggest I've ever
• 32:15
  been. I went to the doctors and they told me, your kidney function
• 32:16
  is very low. Yeah. Your creatine, which normal creating, is one
• 32:21
  point three and if it's hired, there's a problem. My creating was two
• 32:24
  point six in my kidneys. My urine was all fucked up. Yeah.
• 32:28
  And that's when I realized, you know, what is really being this big
• 32:30
  and being this strong worth dying. And that's where I changed my mindset.
• 32:35
  And that's where when it comes to addiction, a lot of people can't do
• 32:37
  that. I figured out, do I want to die? Do I want
• 32:42
  my family to deal with this? Do I want my nieces and nephews to
• 32:44
  deal with this? Absolutely not. Do I look like I did ten years
• 32:47
  ago? No, but I don't care. Now. When you came to
• 32:52
  this moment of clarity with this, did you have another outlet? No?
• 33:00
  You didn't hit the bottle harder? Or I actually uh? Or you just
• 33:04
  I take that back. I did, though. I guess going to depression
• 33:07
  is another outlet I was. My doctor prescribed me adavan and generic for people
• 33:15
  who take it le razapam. Basically, what it does is you take it
• 33:17
  and it knocks you to fuck out. I used to take that, yeah,
• 33:21
  and I I still have it now I don't, won't give it to
• 33:23
  him anymore. I love my doctor. He listens to these two like.
• 33:27
  I can't get shipped from him. No, I don't take it much.
• 33:30
  But if let's say I'm having a panic attack, text me, I'll take
• 33:35
  point five milligrams and I'm good. Yeah, but I turned to antidepressants.
• 33:39
  I guess you could say, so you know what, maybe it wasn't the
• 33:43
  best. And in my mind, I'm like, maybe you should just stayed
• 33:45
  fucked up instead of being depressed and nah that No, it just well,
• 33:50
  I mean depression. I don't I have anxiety. I don't. I don't.
• 33:52
  I don't have to. I think everything's kind of labeled a different thing.
• 33:57
  But like they gave me lerazapam for anxiety was what they labeled me,
• 34:00
  and yes, it helped me sleep. Now I take he does give me
• 34:04
  ambient and I love it. Yeah, except for that first hour when you
• 34:09
  wake up, it's fun. You're hungover almost not a not a liquor hungover,
• 34:14
  just a groggy can't focus on everything, So I'll just lay in bed
• 34:17
  for an hour playing on my phone and fill o, fucking it's time to
• 34:20
  get up and get the day going. The problem with me is and but
• 34:22
  it puts me right the fuck out. No, you're right. And uh
• 34:29
  talking about addiction, Oh yeah, I'm getting a little. Uh we can
• 34:37
  No, I want to talk about it. I want, I want.
• 34:37
  You can go right to the super Bowl if you want. My wife knows
• 34:43
  and maybe a few other people that when I was on that out of in,
• 34:45
  uh probably seven years ago. So I was going through a rough time
• 34:51
  and I think I took two, three, maybe four out of in drank
• 34:53
  half a bottle of whiskey. That's not good. I went through that.
• 34:58
  Yeah, and obviously I'm not you know, any listening is not stupid.
• 35:02
  You know what that means. It wasn't planning out waking up. My doctor
• 35:07
  said to me the next day, because I went to the emergency room.
• 35:09
  He's like, if you weren't the weight you are, I was like two
• 35:13
  seventy at the time. If you didn't work out the way you did and
• 35:15
  this and that and your body, he goes, he would have been dead.
• 35:17
  And yes, my daughter was two and a half. I didn't I
• 35:23
  didn't think at that time that it would ruin anybody's life, and you know,
• 35:29
  obviously whoever's listening, it makes me sound kind of shitty, like,
• 35:31
  oh, you're a fucked up dad. Your daughter was two and a half,
• 35:34
  Like what the fuck? A lot of people judge us, you know
• 35:37
  that. Yeah, well, yeah, I think the stigma's changed though,
• 35:44
  because when we were younger and we knew someone that killed themselves, it was
• 35:47
  always, oh, he was selfish, he was you know he let you
• 35:52
  know, my one of my good friends, Brent from the Seven Seas,
• 35:54
  that Brent Smith Garrett Garrett's brother, right, was that Ricky Ricky's Yeah,
• 36:01
  Ricky's brother. Yes. And I remember the stories going around the bar,
• 36:06
  like, you know, he had his mental issues obviously, and everyone's like,
• 36:14
  oh my god, you know he's got a son and leave him behind
• 36:16
  the bar, and you know, what a selfish thing to do. And
• 36:20
  I probably said the same fucking thing. This is like almost ten years ago,
• 36:22
  But now I think there's a better awareness of Listen, you don't know
• 36:28
  what was going inside his head. They had, he had demons his whole
• 36:31
  life, and yes, is it a little bit selfish to take your life
• 36:37
  and leave your son behind? I can't argue with that, but I knew
• 36:42
  I didn't. Some of my friends knew Brent Way better than I did,
• 36:45
  but I knew him pretty well. And when I heard about it, I
• 36:50
  wasn't like stunned, you know what I mean? But I just don't think
• 36:54
  there was anything. And everyone that worked that night feels guilty, you know.
• 37:00
  And God, I haven't talked about Bran in a long time. There's
• 37:02
  a sticker right there, BMS and uh, you make me because I'm gonna
• 37:08
  when you're gonna get there ship, you know what it's. Everybody's already heard
• 37:21
  anything, so I'm gonna say it. I dell And you've listened to my
• 37:24
  episodes. I have del with a lot of trauma in my life, and
• 37:29
  uh, episode two shocked me trying to kill myself with people call me selfish.
• 37:38
  I didn't want to leave my daughter with no dad. I just didn't
• 37:42
  see an outlet I didn't see until I met my until I met Tar,
• 37:45
  which you've met Tara. A lot of people I know for not Tar.
• 37:49
  Her parents live in town. Everybody knows her. I didn't know what I
• 37:53
  was gonna do. That was my outlet. It wasn't to do that I
• 38:00
  guess you could say because my daughter does not deserve to have no father,
• 38:05
  but I didn't know what to do. I was in such a fucking dark
• 38:07
  place, Jeremy, that you probably thought she'd be better off without you.
• 38:12
  Jeremy. I hit a telephone pole. And this was not on purpose,
• 38:16
  but this just is what showed me that I think God needs me here.
• 38:21
  I hit a telephone pole in Shelton when I was twenty four or so,
• 38:24
  during all this shit going one hundred miles an hour, and I didn't mean
• 38:29
  to hit it. I literally looked down to grab a CD. I looked
• 38:31
  up the telephone poles right there. I flew through the windshield. Oh rolled
• 38:36
  fifty feet, fifty yards, fifty yards. There you go, and I
• 38:38
  didn't get hurt. Somebody was looking out for me. Yeah. Am I
• 38:44
  perfect? No? Am I ever gonna be perfect? Absolutely fucking not.
• 38:46
  But the addiction thing is it is very hard to talk about. And I'm
• 38:52
  glad that you brought it up. And like you said, you've listened to
• 38:54
  my episodes, if you don't mind, I love to get into a little
• 39:00
  deeper the second of what you listen to, we're gonna kind of go off
• 39:02
  to addiction and maybe how it all started. Everybody that hasn't kind of you
• 39:08
  know, whoever listened to Jeremys and hasn't really listened to mine yet, I'd
• 39:13
  love for you to, you know, at least listen to it and see
• 39:15
  where I'm coming from right now, when I was young, and this is
• 39:19
  always hard to talk about, and it makes me very sensitive to the topic,
• 39:25
  but it happens. I feel like it happens way too often, and
• 39:29
  people just kind of shove it off. And I'll get to why I say
• 39:31
  that I was sexually molested as a kid. And if you see me now,
• 39:39
  like if you become a new friend of mine, you see me now,
• 39:42
  and you didn't know nobody would ever know that. I mean, I
• 39:44
  don't ever play it off as that I don't look like it. And you
• 39:46
  know, I take that out. I don't. I don't know, you
• 39:49
  don't know me. You look like that. I don't mean. How old
• 39:52
  was I I was? And I said it I believe, so you know
• 39:55
  what, I actually take that back. I Uh, it's crazy you said
• 39:59
  that I tattooed it. I'm my wrist. It was nineteen ninety nine when
• 40:01
  it happened, and that's crazy by the way, just around there. Yeah.
• 40:08
  I tattooed it on my wrist, by the way, so that every
• 40:10
  time I look at it, I realized, you know what, I'm stronger.
• 40:13
  I beat this. You knew it was a neighbor three streets down,
• 40:17
  and it wasn't an adult. It was a kid who was probably five years
• 40:22
  old, so he was fifteen. But in my life and at that time,
• 40:25
  I thought it was normal. I didn't know, right, budd,
• 40:30
  it was. It was fucked up. And I'm not going to say the
• 40:32
  name because I'm sent by a nice person and they live in Milford, so
• 40:37
  I won't do that because to this day I still see them all the time.
• 40:42
  And I think you've known me a long time. There is I don't
• 40:46
  know what's stopping me from doing what I want to do. But at the
• 40:51
  same time, it's not proven. Have you ever mentioned it to him?
• 40:57
  Oh? Yeah, okay, So it's funny, real funny story. Two
• 41:00
  years ago, I was at the movie theaters. I was with tar,
• 41:02
  I was with my daughter. He showed up. He was with somebody and
• 41:06
  he came up to me and dapped me up. He tried to give me
• 41:07
  a high five, and I just I kind of gave him a fist bumb
• 41:09
  like, what's up, man, and he walked away, and then I
• 41:13
  started crying me and I started crying, and Tar was like, what's wrong.
• 41:15
  I'm like nothing, I'm good. Hannah. My daughter gave me a
• 41:20
  big hug. She's like, what's wrong, Dad. I'm like, oh,
• 41:21
  nothing, I just I pinched my finger in the drawer. They went
• 41:23
  to their seats, his girlfriend went through her seat. He was walking in
• 41:29
  and I grabbed him by the arm and I said listen. He's like,
• 41:30
  what's up, man. I'm like, don't ever fucking talk to me again.
• 41:34
  I said, don't you dare And he's like, oh, I see
• 41:36
  you have a daughter. And I said don't don't And I swear to you,
• 41:39
  Jeremy, and you know whatever. I said, don't you ever look
• 41:43
  at my daughter. Don't look at my wife. I said, if I
• 41:45
  ever hear that you talk to somebody about my family, I said, We're
• 41:51
  gonna beat a whole nother place. And I think everybody's heard the Joe Rogan
• 41:53
  podcast where he was just he watched that video of the kid who was passing
• 41:58
  out flyers and that guy grabbed the kid and threw him to the ground and
• 42:00
  Joe Rogan was like, if that was my child, that I would have
• 42:01
  killed him. I'm not trying to look for attention, I'm not looking for
• 42:07
  sympathy. I would have fucking killed him the fact, and for me,
• 42:09
  the fact that he didn't, the fact that he saw my daughter was bad
• 42:14
  enough for me. The fucking arrogance to come up and dap you up.
• 42:19
  Honestly, I think that he thought that because we were so young, that
• 42:21
  it was over with, and obviously clearly you can see and everybody else can
• 42:24
  see. It still bothers me to this day, of course, But since
• 42:28
  I came out with my podcast and I started telling people and told the world,
• 42:34
  I used to get drunk. Jeremy and I used to try. I
• 42:37
  used to call thirty people on my phone and swear to them, I kid
• 42:39
  you not and I'm sorry mom. I used to call my mom when I
• 42:43
  was drunk and say, this is your fault. You fucking did this.
• 42:45
  You weren't there for me. After I finally let everybody know what happened,
• 42:52
  I'm like a new person though, But yeah, it was. It was
• 42:55
  a shitty time, So you know, I'm just glad I got it out.
• 43:00
  There and everybody knows, and all your listeners. I'm glad. I
• 43:04
  just want everybody to know that's out there that listens to Jeremy's podcast, and
• 43:07
  anybody who comes in talk, it's okay. If that happened to you,
• 43:10
  I promise you. We are all here for you're You're not the bad person.
• 43:15
  It's not your fault. It's it's not your I say this. It's
• 43:21
  not your parents fault either. If they didn't know, they didn't know what
• 43:24
  I learned. And I think, Jeremy, you can probably jump in here.
• 43:30
  My mother and father told me this as when they were kids that was
• 43:34
  normal. And I hate to say this in a weird way, but my
• 43:36
  mom was like, oh yeah, my uncle would hug me and like touch
• 43:39
  me in a weird way. And like they said that when you were back
• 43:43
  in the day, like in the seventies eight, like that was a normal
• 43:45
  thing. I guess, like, and it wasn't frowned upon. What the
• 43:52
  fuck dude not frowned upon? Yeah, if somebody told me tomorrow, if
• 43:57
  Hannah told me, hey, dad, uncle so and so touched me,
• 44:02
  I know we're on here. I don't give a fuck man. I would
• 44:05
  put a bullet in their head, Like what do you what? How is
• 44:08
  that normal? And I think you understand what I was saying, Yeah it
• 44:14
  was, but you looked you looked beyond it, right, Yes, I
• 44:17
  mean you could. There was so much ship back in the day, not
• 44:21
  just that, you know, like you know, it just funny, you
• 44:23
  know, being at my father's house and me and my brother going through all
• 44:25
  these pictures. Yeah, and there's you know that one you might even see
• 44:29
  a meme on online. It's we're all sitting around the dinner table. My
• 44:32
  mom's got a cigarette, my dad's got a cigarette. Fucking you know,
• 44:36
  I got a bud light in front of me. I'm probably for you know,
• 44:37
  like it's just I mean, this has nothing to do with sexual assault
• 44:42
  but my malestation. But like, you know, it's just like it was
• 44:45
  a different time back then, and I don't think people understood like what that
• 44:52
  meant. I don't think people understood what was in these people's minds to even
• 44:55
  attempt to do something to that person and how far did they Oh, and
• 45:00
  then the victim doesn't even know, like you said, what the fuck's going
• 45:04
  on? So it does get swept under the rug. And then when the
• 45:07
  victim gets older, They're like, wait a second, what so and so
• 45:09
  did to me? Yeah, holy shit, And that's and that's you've listened,
• 45:14
  and you you know what I'm saying, Like, that's he said.
• 45:15
  She said, that's where he said ship, That's where I became a fucking
• 45:19
  animal, And that's where And I think you've and I don't mind saying it.
• 45:22
  When my mother heard the episode, I think it was the second one.
• 45:25
  Correct, When you said you listened to about me be molested, I
• 45:31
  had one hundred and fifty percent positivity. I had negative one percent from my
• 45:36
  mother. She called me and again I said, my mom listens. I'm
• 45:39
  sorry, Mom, I love you. She goes that how she goes,
• 45:44
  you're blaming me. I said, no, I'm not blaming you. I
• 45:47
  said, but I fucking told you. What the fuck man? I told
• 45:52
  you it happened, and you said he didn't. Now we're at odds.
• 45:59
  I had full disclosure. We're at the grocery store the other day, and
• 46:02
  I don't really go to the grocery store much. I always uber eats her
• 46:06
  instant art whatever. Well, that's the way to make the grocery store even
• 46:07
  more expensive. By the way, yes, I know, I know,
• 46:12
  but we're at the grocery store. I'm pushing hand on around whatever. She's
• 46:15
  nine, but she likes to sit in the cart still, who cares.
• 46:17
  Somebody came up to her, Oh, she your daughter is so cute and
• 46:21
  like grab their face, like and I and listen. I'm sure it was
• 46:24
  innocent, but because of who I am, I said, please don't touch
• 46:29
  my daughter's face. And the lady, I swear to god, the lady's
• 46:30
  like, oh, whoa, what's the big deal. She's like, I'm
• 46:34
  just she's cute. I'm like, don't touch your face. And then the
• 46:37
  lady's like, oh, you're fucking insane. I swear to god. She
• 46:40
  goes, you're fucking insane. I'm like, okay, Tara was there,
• 46:45
  and Tar's you've met Tar. My wife's great. She sticks up from me
• 46:50
  all the time. She looks at the lady. She goes, listen,
• 46:52
  he doesn't want you touching her. He's not fucking insane. Just please don't
• 46:54
  touch our daughter. And then she apologized. I know not everybody's bad,
• 47:00
  right, but in my mind now I'm sorry. I'm sorry, you're bad.
• 47:05
  Everyone's on, and everyone's on a heighten awareness about everything. I think
• 47:08
  it's like almost the gall of the lady, like like you could just say,
• 47:10
  hey, you're such a cute daughter. I think touching anyone at this
• 47:15
  point in a social setting in a grocery store is crossing the line. And
• 47:21
  I'm not saying it's crossing a no you deserve to get punched in the face.
• 47:23
  Line. But yeah, I mean, I don't know what the fuck's
• 47:25
  on your hands either. Don't touch my daughter. And again I'm not am
• 47:30
  I getting crucified for this. I'm not a COVID freak. It's not what
• 47:32
  I'm talking about. But I don't know what's on your hand. No,
• 47:36
  you're on the right show for that, don't worry. Like, for the
• 47:38
  record, I did the Johnson and Johnson one time, knock on Wood.
• 47:42
  I had COVID four times now, I've been Okay, it is what it
• 47:45
  is. I'm not listen. We all know a lot of people died.
• 47:49
  I'm not saying they didn't. My mom had it and she has she has
• 47:52
  one lung, and she lived with fucking one lung on what you like,
• 47:58
  the fucking one organ. We're all fun, Holy Christ, but that's honestly,
• 48:05
  just what's wrong with your Dad, he's gotta be missing something. He's
• 48:07
  got an in large heart. Okay, there you go. So you know
• 48:12
  where the duck pond is in Milford? Obviously? Which one like over here,
• 48:15
  like the one downtown with the bridge with the bridge. Yeah, so
• 48:21
  West Rover Street, that nice house with the big house and it's got the
• 48:24
  pond in the background. I forgot the address of the one in the middle
• 48:29
  on all four corners. So if you're if you're standing going over the bridge
• 48:32
  to go into Governory's app for intersection, the house that are right, that
• 48:37
  big, big itself. Yeah, my grandfather built that house. The owners,
• 48:40
  that's my favorite. The it's Colleen and John. No, No,
• 48:45
  the lawyers who owned it first, in the house next to it. No,
• 48:49
  this one's on its own, you know where like the triangle is.
• 48:52
  I know that one, but whatever, I'll say the name the Bertram's the
• 48:55
  lawyers. They owned that house. My grandfather built it. So I'm trying
• 49:01
  to think what we were getting out here. We were saying Miford every wine.
• 49:06
  I'm not even drinking fuck. All right, Well, anyways, you
• 49:09
  know what, No, I forget that. We'll talk about it some other
• 49:12
  time because I don't evenmember what we were saying, Well, we're talking about
• 49:15
  your mom and organs and oh, yes, that's right. My grandfather built
• 49:22
  that house on West River Street and we're talking about organs and like fucked up
• 49:24
  life. My dad had it in large heart. My grandfather who I never
• 49:29
  got to meet, rest in peace. I heard he was the best guy
• 49:31
  ever had it in large heart. My great grandfather in large heart. Everybody.
• 49:36
  So I always go to the doctors because I have anxiety. My heart's
• 49:38
  normal. I don't fucking understand how the fuck does seven generations of my family
• 49:44
  have an in large heart and mind's normal because you were five months premature.
• 49:49
  That's We've talked about some anxiety, and I think that we got we got
• 49:54
  to the head of it. And yeah, I've talked about some friends and
• 49:59
  whatnot. What have we got, man? I mean, it's a it's
• 50:01
  a great conversation. I always love to have it. Uh, Like I
• 50:07
  could talk for days about it, you know. I was on the show
• 50:10
  that talk and and and it's funny like I'll talk with somebody that actually is
• 50:15
  like a psychiatrist or a psychologist or whatever, and like after the show,
• 50:21
  like you realize they fucking struggle too, just because they're sitting on that couch
• 50:25
  from the other side of you, you know. And that's why I love
• 50:29
  doing this, because I don't have to spend the money gonna go sit on
• 50:31
  a couch. And you know, like I could talk to someone like you
• 50:35
  who has you know, similar similar stuff in our past and a similar circle
• 50:38
  of friends and similar tragedies and and fun times, and you know, it's
• 50:44
  it's it is a small fucking world, you know, it is, and
• 50:47
  and and again, like you said, I know we don't hang out enough,
• 50:50
  right, but at the same time, I feel like you and me
• 50:52
  are those people that, let's see, I see it the break, I
• 50:55
  see you a lot. But if we went let's say six months and I
• 50:59
  saw it's like we never to be. Yeah, you know, because yes,
• 51:00
  we might not hang out enough. But if you texted me one night
• 51:04
  and said, JD I need you. Something's happening regardless, I would beat
• 51:07
  there like that's just who I am, and that's who you are. Yeah.
• 51:10
  If I text you said, Jeremy, listen, I need help,
• 51:15
  you know you weren't even asked, what's trump Listen, here's my address.
• 51:16
  I live five minutes away. I need you here now, I'll give you
• 51:19
  my kidney brother exactly. Well, I appreciate that. I hope God forbid
• 51:23
  I never need one. But all right, well that was the heavy part
• 51:27
  of the show, only forty five minutes there. I might have to fucking
• 51:30
  have a whiskey in a little bit, christ It's all Obviously, Sunday was
• 51:35
  the big game. Uh, I hit I bet KC. So I hit
• 51:40
  that, and then I did ten ten dollars stupid, fucking, wacky,
• 51:45
  fucking profits. It didn't hit one of them. It was actually for a
• 51:49
  better It was one of the unless you you know, bet k C in
• 51:52
  the under which a lot of people did. Vegas made out because none of
• 51:55
  those props came out like Kelsey didn't get a touchdown CMC did, but like
• 52:00
  like the they do our first last score, like who had Hardeman scoring the
• 52:05
  last touchdown? So when it was what it was forty seven and a half
• 52:09
  time rhea and ended at forty sixty seven. Yeah, twenty five to twenty
• 52:15
  two, fucking ridiculous. Uh. Kind of my biggest takeaways from the game
• 52:21
  is, you know, as as a Patriot fan, I think I'm starting
• 52:23
  to realize why people hated that so much and me as a giant fan,
• 52:27
  which not to cut you off, but but at least you've got him.
• 52:30
  We did beat Tom Brady twice. But at the end of the day,
• 52:35
  what I'm gonna throw in there is as you as a Patriots fan, people
• 52:38
  might have hated you, but you were we were able to deal with you.
• 52:42
  The Chiefs are different. Like the Chiefs are hard to deal with.
• 52:45
  Their cocky, they're arrogant. They are as what you guys are ridiculous.
• 52:51
  The dynasty you guys had is insane. Like I saw on ESPN this morning,
• 52:54
  I think you probably saw it. Who's better a Ronk Kelsey? And
• 52:58
  they did the comparison. Yeah, nobody's touching grounk No, I'm sorry.
• 53:01
  Kelsey always wide open and can't block. He's a wide receiver, was one
• 53:06
  of the best blockers in the NFL. Talking about tight ends, Hittle never
• 53:09
  showed up. I don't know what happened there either, because the wide receivers
• 53:13
  weren't getting separation, so I don't know why he didn't get at least ten
• 53:15
  targets. What happened to Kittle, I don't know. It was more of
• 53:20
  a and real quick not to throw off the tight ends. But did you
• 53:23
  see what happened at green Law? Yeah, he stepped in the field and
• 53:27
  tore his achilles. Reminded me, I don't know if I don't know if
• 53:30
  you're too young for this. But Martine Gramatica, Yeah, I was at
• 53:34
  the game. You're at that game. It's funny, Martin. He jumps
• 53:37
  up my dad and I I was. I was four years old. My
• 53:42
  dad took me to that game. It was snowing. There was twelve inches
• 53:45
  of snow. It was the Cardinals. Worth's a giant. It's so funny
• 53:47
  you said that. Yeah, I was so cold, my dad. It
• 53:52
  was the first Giants game I've ever been to in my life. He jumped
• 53:55
  up in the air to cellar. Thing's just a wind turnbine in there.
• 53:58
  I can't stay in that stadium. I the new ones the same way.
• 54:02
  If you crab, you fucking spend. Come on, you like going to
• 54:06
  Giants Stadium or met No, No, it's awful. I just like,
• 54:09
  just real quick, it's not football but Yankee Stadium. Oh another one?
• 54:13
  You know you want to go to your Boston fan obviously, Yeah, yeah,
• 54:15
  yeah, So I mean I have to drive to everything us. You
• 54:17
  could take the train. But one thing I have been told, even though
• 54:21
  I'm a Yankees fan, that I need to go to Fenway because I was
• 54:23
  told my my cousin told me that even if you're a diehard Yankees fan,
• 54:28
  Fenway, you need to go to so Just so you know, the Viva
• 54:31
  Seltzers are proud sponsors of the Boston Red Sox. Really, yes, the
• 54:35
  official Hot Seltzer Boston Red Sox. Funny story in there. I say funny,
• 54:40
  but it's not really funny. The Boston bombing, that's not funny.
• 54:44
  That's not what I'm talking about. But the first time I've ever I was
• 54:49
  ever supposed to go to the Red Sox stadium. I had tickets. Oh
• 54:52
  yeah, they have the early game too, it's like eleven am. And
• 54:54
  I chose not to go. I had something else with my cousin. Yeah,
• 54:58
  cousin Pat's brother Jimmy. I think you've at Jimmy kind of looks like
• 55:01
  me, but a big beard. I believe you met him. He was
• 55:05
  there during that bombing. He wasn't even have the stadium yet, he was
• 55:08
  three blocks from the ball. My friends, I haven't been to that game
• 55:12
  ever, but they all sit and watch the Racers Cross greasy crazy and just
• 55:16
  seeing what he went through. And it's like everybody tells me, Jack,
• 55:20
  you just need to go to you need to go to Boston. Just one
• 55:22
  time. I've been to Boston, but they said you need to be a
• 55:27
  take seriously, like going this summer, don't go in August, going like
• 55:30
  June, go for a weekend. Is it weird that my favorite baseball player
• 55:35
  in history I have two Mickey panel Can I guess the other one? David
• 55:38
  Artis. I was gonna let you gats but David Danel you didn't see him
• 55:44
  play. That was my number growing up whole life seven because I'm Mickey Manto
• 55:51
  and that was also my dad's favorite player in my So I'm completely throwing us
• 55:54
  off here and we're going in a different direction. But I saw the time
• 55:58
  we're talking about No, no, we're talking We're no, We're gonna talk
• 56:00
  about the super Bowl and the draft. At the end of the day before
• 56:06
  the super Bowl, start the day the day, who did you think was
• 56:08
  gonna win? And regard regards to your beds and the money and this and
• 56:13
  that, who did you think had better talent? And who did you think
• 56:15
  was gonna take it. It's hard because I was rooting for San Fran and
• 56:22
  my betting mind was betting on Kansas City because I just figured. I knew
• 56:29
  when that game went to overtime it was over, like it should have been
• 56:32
  over before that. I can't believe case was six seconds left at the five
• 56:36
  yard line didn't try one more quick pass at the end of regulation to win
• 56:38
  that game, because it was it was nine seconds left before that, and
• 56:44
  they threw it took three seconds. I'm like, dude, you gotta think
• 56:45
  one more quick shot in that situation. The Niners should have put that game
• 56:49
  away. Then I just blew it. The muff punt was the was the
• 56:52
  most pivotal moment. I don't blame I'm not blamingan No, I blame him
• 56:55
  for a fucking even though your father ruined RG three's career. What we're gonna
• 57:01
  talk about, all right? What about this? This is one? This
• 57:04
  is one I really haven't heard yet, and I was thinking it at the
• 57:06
  time. So it's third down and four and no, sorry, it's yeah,
• 57:12
  third down and four at not in overtime, the end of regulation,
• 57:15
  just under two minutes left, and the guy Casey makes a good play.
• 57:19
  They rush them. Now it's fourth and four. Moody kicks the long field
• 57:22
  goal case goes downfield right, rewind, it's fourth and four. Okay.
• 57:30
  If you get a first down there and you're trying to beat uh a dynasty,
• 57:35
  right, you're time thrown. What is gonna be one of the greatest
• 57:37
  dynasties that was before. So now they don't they right? If they did
• 57:45
  and got the first down, they could pretty much wind that block down almost
• 57:49
  kicked the field goal. I mean that would have been a little nerve wracking
• 57:52
  with Moody kicking a field goal. But that's how you beat these teams in
• 57:55
  these situations. You don't just like go up three and thinking, oh,
• 57:59
  our defense is gonna hold him. Yeah, green Law was out like you
• 58:01
  said, which was which was insane by the way that he just slipped and
• 58:05
  toys Achilles. It's all the scripts. Are you are you a conspiracy there?
• 58:08
  Or did you think going in that? Oh yeah, you're again,
• 58:12
  you're on the right Yoh yeah. There is no way they would let the
• 58:15
  Chiefs lose. Uh yeah, yeah. I mean I think this is it
• 58:20
  for them though, And what I mean by that is like I witnessed it
• 58:22
  with the Patriots, they won their third. They kind of had a couple
• 58:27
  of seasons a lot. I mean, people are gonna leave. Chris Jones
• 58:29
  leaves a free agency six though, right correct, Patriots six and one more
• 58:34
  with Tampa Tampa. Yeah, so, I but he went he got his
• 58:38
  three in his first five seasons. Then he went ten years obviously lost to
• 58:44
  the Giants twice. Yeah, made it to two and went zero and two,
• 58:47
  and then the end of his career he made it to five more and
• 58:51
  one three. That's just like fucking insane. And that's why and like that
• 58:55
  he's not gonna last that long, Mahomes. But that's why I think at
• 58:58
  the end of the day, like you, you don't say people are oh
• 59:00
  so and so and this is the goat bredy years ago. Just like when
• 59:05
  it comes to I don't really watch basketball much. You have Jordan is one,
• 59:08
  yep, Kobe is two. Lebron hagars out there or Lebron lovers whatever.
• 59:15
  I don't have Lebron to like four. I take Kobe as two.
• 59:19
  He's in my top three. Who's your three? And so who's your top
• 59:22
  five? All right? My top five is Jordan obviously, yep. Larry
• 59:28
  Bird, Yes, two, Bird two, Kobe three, Chamberlain. See,
• 59:31
  I don't I think like you Bill Russell and Chamberlain and Kareem those three
• 59:36
  guys. I almost feel they got a different category because it's like the best
• 59:39
  centers of all time, like I don't think should be related to because they
• 59:43
  didn't they could shoot free throws, they could rebound the hell of it is
• 59:46
  Kobe. And I'm asking this because I think not a lot of people say
• 59:50
  this. Jordan played against the bad boys in Detroit, Bill Lambert, Isaiah
• 59:55
  Thomas, Kobe. Yeah, of course, So there you go. So
• 1:00:00
  Jordan one, Kobe two. I know, I know against them. Maybe
• 1:00:05
  you're right. So I'm gonna put Bird and Kobe two or three. There
• 1:00:08
  you go. But you have to have Jordan at one. I think five
• 1:00:12
  would have. I mean just from like my days of growing up, like
• 1:00:14
  Magic, Magic, so many dag anybody who played against Detroit you have to
• 1:00:19
  put because nowadays this basketball like Draymond Green, but everybody hates on him.
• 1:00:23
  I love this fucking guy. I love you know what, But you know
• 1:00:27
  why I love him, punches. He's a guy you want on your team.
• 1:00:30
  Yes, yes, but look at try to look at a Lebron playing
• 1:00:34
  against Bill Lambier. He'd punched you in the face. Absolutely not. Jordan
• 1:00:39
  can handle it, Bird can handle it. Lebron would fucking flop and fucking
• 1:00:44
  cry. But I'm not, like I said, I'm not a huge fan
• 1:00:47
  of basketball. I don't know basketball much. But you know, I think
• 1:00:54
  the Super Bowl was it is what it is. Uh did you hear that
• 1:00:58
  Taylor Swift at Kanye kicked out of the game. Did you read that today?
• 1:01:01
  Is that for real? I mean, I don't know if it's for
• 1:01:04
  real, but I saw it in three different news sites. Well, I
• 1:01:07
  was told this morning that Odell Beckham is dating Kim Kardashian, So I did
• 1:01:09
  hear that? So his career is over. She has been around the block.
• 1:01:16
  The fact is Chloe was dating Beckham at one point too. They just
• 1:01:20
  share, you know what, though. They're rich for a reason. Their
• 1:01:22
  mother is Moore's the one that married Uh lamar, yeah, Chloe, Okay,
• 1:01:28
  and then he went to a brothel and fucked everything up, and yeah,
• 1:01:31
  lamar. Odom University Rhode Island products, Yes, And I have a
• 1:01:36
  buddy that went to University Road Island. Then he played for the Diamondbacks.
• 1:01:38
  Nice, he's from real for you, Eric Smith, he's probably by site.
• 1:01:45
  He played well from that and now he owns a baseball company and I
• 1:01:47
  believe Texas. Not sure if I'm wrong, Sorry, whatever, but here's
• 1:01:52
  another wacky one. Mahomes was on Uh this, this made me laugh.
• 1:01:57
  Mahomes was on ship with The Fox's Pat McAfee show today. I love so
• 1:02:01
  you know how they kicked off Daron Rodgers, you know, for his shit
• 1:02:07
  about Jimmy Kimmel or all the bullshit. They probably all added up, you
• 1:02:09
  know, by the way, I love McAfee because I'm a diehard fan.
• 1:02:14
  So today they had Mahomes on and they're doing the whole interview and talking and
• 1:02:17
  talking, and none of them guys on the studio are case fans, so
• 1:02:21
  they're kind of going back and forth, you know, banter of course.
• 1:02:23
  And then but right before the end of the fucking conversation, Pat mcviee goes,
• 1:02:28
  hey, do you think the lunar moon landing was real? And Mahomes,
• 1:02:32
  without hesitation, goes, nah, that ship wasn't real. And then
• 1:02:36
  like the look on McAfee's face, he's like, fuck, I just started
• 1:02:38
  another ship storm here. With fucking conspiracy theories at Oh my gosh, that's
• 1:02:44
  funny because ESPN. I uh, funny story, if you know what me
• 1:02:47
  saying. I sold a car to one ESPN's Dan Patrick. Oh yeah,
• 1:02:52
  he sat in that chair. I know he did. When I worked at
• 1:02:57
  Toyota at Colonial Toyota by the way, Colonial Toyota. Uh no, I
• 1:03:00
  don't remember the address, but I worked at them post Road. Yeah,
• 1:03:04
  I worked there for ten years. Go to them, They'll hook you up.
• 1:03:07
  Bobby Crabtree, says Crabtree. I see his face every Dan. He
• 1:03:10
  was a great man. Dan Patrick, buddy h F Chack cruiser from US.
• 1:03:15
  I brought it to his house. I delivered it firsthand. And the
• 1:03:20
  nicest guy in the world. He might not remember me now, but he
• 1:03:23
  bought a car from but he bought a car from US. He was a
• 1:03:28
  great guy. And I just wanted to say that. No, Dan was
• 1:03:32
  Dan was great on the show, uh afterwards. Whatever it is, what
• 1:03:37
  it is. He works a lot harder in radio than I do. I
• 1:03:39
  will give him that. He's fair enough. He's on air every day three
• 1:03:43
  hours, probably there every day for eight Yeah, but Jimmy, we're gonna
• 1:03:45
  get there. That's what we are going to get there, man. And
• 1:03:47
  even if what I what I thought about in the future, we're gonna call
• 1:03:51
  it untamed day drinking. You you had your show, I had mine.
• 1:03:54
  We should do more collabs. We talked about some anxiety, depression, addiction,
• 1:04:01
  the super Bowl? What else? You know, anything else you want
• 1:04:03
  to talk about? Like what the super Bowl? They repeat? You think,
• 1:04:08
  No, I think it's impossible, not at all. I don't think
• 1:04:11
  they're gonna Football's at one sport where you need so many bounces of the ball
• 1:04:14
  there is. I think Vegas is done with the ship. That's why.
• 1:04:17
  That's why I laugh. And when says it's scripted, like, dude,
• 1:04:20
  you know you think players are making millions of dollars a years ago out there
• 1:04:25
  and risk their bodies because it's not. It's not. Teams get there every
• 1:04:30
  year. That's the problem. It looks like it. Some of it doesn't
• 1:04:32
  look But you can script an NBA game way much better than you can script
• 1:04:36
  an NFL game. So are you a are you a Boston Red Sox fan?
• 1:04:40
  Yeah? Actually, okay, So let's real quick. Let's say,
• 1:04:44
  even if it's to end it, let's talk about the Yankees real quick.
• 1:04:45
  Okay, I was watching their Hot Stove report last night. You take Stroman?
• 1:04:53
  Is he a number one? Whoa who's number two? And three?
• 1:04:57
  To tell me their starters? So you got Cortes, you have Stroman,
• 1:05:01
  and then Rodan Rodn? Yeah he's healthy, right, he got here.
• 1:05:05
  But I think Stroman should be the two Stroman unless you want to go right
• 1:05:13
  left right. You put Stroman two, you put Rodn three, and you
• 1:05:15
  put Nestor Cortez four, and then who else we get? I don't know.
• 1:05:19
  I follow these card breaks. Cortes is in them all the time,
• 1:05:24
  and he literally like buys his own boxes for these guys to rip open.
• 1:05:28
  He spends so much money on it. So this is I'm gonna throw you
• 1:05:31
  completely off. Are you a wrestling fan at all? I used to be
• 1:05:34
  huge. I kind of just flip around, dabble and I see what like
• 1:05:38
  Michael Russo posts. So I'm just gonna throw this out there because I am
• 1:05:41
  a diehard w W f W E w c W fan since I was a
• 1:05:45
  child. How do we feel about Logan Pol? Wree uh? How do
• 1:05:51
  we feel about Logan Pol in general? So I'm gonna throw this out there.
• 1:05:56
  I think His podcast is good because they do get a lot of really
• 1:05:59
  good guys. All know, Mike, Yeah, great guy. But I
• 1:06:05
  don't know how I feel about him in wrestling. I will say I haven't
• 1:06:09
  really watched much of his ship, but he did do one thing where he
• 1:06:12
  ran across he jumped on the tap room and it was him and I,
• 1:06:16
  Oh, my gosh, that was pretty fucking impressive. He's nasty, he
• 1:06:20
  is. But my problem with him is everybody else has to go through the
• 1:06:25
  ranks to get there, and he got there. Well we could, we
• 1:06:28
  can go back in history and talk about that. Kurt Angle, what did
• 1:06:31
  he do? Yeah, but I'm saying, but w he just came on
• 1:06:36
  and he was a but he thought he was going to be a good guy.
• 1:06:39
  He was a heel right off the back. But you were an Olympic
• 1:06:41
  gold medalist. Yeah, but I'm saying, well, that's like, I
• 1:06:45
  get it, but it's not the same fucking thing. YEP. I agree.
• 1:06:48
  I just think that at the end of the day, Cody Rhodes,
• 1:06:53
  he's gonna beat Roman Reigns at WrestleMania. Who's the other one, uh that
• 1:06:58
  just got kicked out? He came in out of nowhere. Vinvic Man's fault,
• 1:07:03
  brock Lesnar So, I don't know if you can say it might get
• 1:07:06
  you in trouble. I'm sorry. Vin tick Man supposedly shot on someone's head.
• 1:07:12
  Yeah, I read that's fucked up, dude, that they said that
• 1:07:15
  about Ronald Reagan too, But you're right, yeah, Brock supposed how do
• 1:07:19
  you get lumped into all that. Supposedly you've seen the one of them,
• 1:07:21
  one of them banging the show. Supposedly Vin sent him this woman and he
• 1:07:27
  said, no, they never met this and that because Vin brock Lesler is
• 1:07:30
  married disabled from back in the day Sable Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
• 1:07:33
  yeah. Her music was and she was a cat great. I literally
• 1:07:39
  am a w freaky And this is why I think some other times we can
• 1:07:42
  actually do a whole episode on it, but it have to be from like
• 1:07:44
  the early two thousand. Is why we should get me you Zach, Zach,
• 1:07:49
  Yeah, I said it. We're all die hard wrestling fans. We
• 1:07:53
  should be on here. We'll talk about wrestling. But at the end of
• 1:07:57
  the day, man, I you know, I appreciate you. I thank
• 1:08:00
  you for letting me be on the show. Of course, you know we've
• 1:08:02
  talked about you know, wrestling, football, anxiety, fucking childhood addiction in
• 1:08:11
  childhood. Yeah, I mean it's uh, it was quite the Jeopardy fans
• 1:08:15
  would say, it's Popoi yeah, topics, Oh god, yes, this
• 1:08:19
  is uh, this has been great. And I mean, of course,
• 1:08:21
  everybody, who's your favorite wrestler now to this, well not even now,
• 1:08:26
  just to no matter what if your new or old, stone Cold is my
• 1:08:29
  favorite wrestler and that's just a given. And nowadays, let me see everybody,
• 1:08:36
  I'm gonna go with Cody Rose. Yeah, yeah, because I love
• 1:08:39
  Dusty Rhodes and I love gold Dust his brother. So yeah, you know
• 1:08:44
  those are my and at the end of the day, I mean one of
• 1:08:45
  my favorites of ball ever to do it the best there is, best,
• 1:08:49
  there was, best there ever will be. Brett Hart he got screwed.
• 1:08:55
  He screwed, you know, but Sean Michael said he never knew it is
• 1:08:59
  what it is. But I would love to get you know, a couple
• 1:09:01
  other people on here and talk about wrestling. Yeah, you know, I
• 1:09:04
  think it'd be fun. I was Hogan growing up because I grew up in
• 1:09:08
  that era. Yep. Uh, I want to say, kind of like
• 1:09:12
  my early adult life actually, actually my second favorite was Cocobeware. I don't
• 1:09:16
  know if you yeah, yeah, because because we used to go to the
• 1:09:18
  shows in New Haven all the time when I was a kid. Yeah,
• 1:09:21
  yeah, yeah. My cousin used to be the security there when I was
• 1:09:25
  five years old to probably twelve, because I think it shut down after that.
• 1:09:30
  Yeah, I had free wrestling tickets all the time. Nice. Yeah,
• 1:09:34
  Siri just picked up that whole conversation. He says, hey, sirih,
• 1:09:39
  everybody want to go Cody Rhodes. And then kind of later in life,
• 1:09:44
  I was a big rock guy. Of course, I was at Hartford
• 1:09:47
  Second Row Raw and he did his old thing and he ripped off his elbow
• 1:09:54
  pat and he whipped it. He brought it, came right at me and
• 1:09:57
  my buddy with me like went for an eldowed me in the head and we
• 1:10:00
  couldn't find it. We couldn't find it. We're like, fuck, it
• 1:10:02
  must have been someone behind us. And we get in the car on the
• 1:10:04
  way home and he pulls out his pocket because I got it. I'm like,
• 1:10:06
  you're fucking cracking up. So when the restlers used to come to Milford
• 1:10:11
  to go to Bob's for the signees. Yeah. Yeah, I met Triple
• 1:10:15
  H. I met The Rock, I met Stone Cold, I met The
• 1:10:16
  Undertaker, I met Yoko Zuna. My aunt was the manager at Bob's in
• 1:10:21
  Milford, and I met all of them. Wants dat me, Hunter?
• 1:10:28
  Did you know what happened in Triple H? Right, he almost died two
• 1:10:32
  years ago. You're he doesn't wrestle anymore. He got a call from the
• 1:10:36
  doctor and they said, you need to go to Yale, and he goes,
• 1:10:40
  well, I'm in Greenwich. They go, don't go to Greenwich.
• 1:10:42
  They're gonna You're gonna go to Greenwich and they're gonna take you to Yale.
• 1:10:45
  His GFR or not GFR. I'm sorry his uh, what are your heart
• 1:10:51
  supposed to be? Long story short? His heart levels twelve percent oxygen levels
• 1:10:59
  in it maybe something like that. That's why he can't wrestle anymore. He
• 1:11:00
  went to Yale. They fixed it. Well, he probably did a few
• 1:11:02
  drills back in the day. Yeah, he probably has a similar j D
• 1:11:05
  story. His great grandfather, grandfather, father all died from the same thing.
• 1:11:12
  Man hereditary. Yeah, and they caught it in time, which thank
• 1:11:14
  god. Yeah, but yeah, this is uh. I saw him in
• 1:11:16
  Tampa. I was walking to the Marriotte Hotel and the tour bus was there
• 1:11:23
  and he just got out. I said, Yo, what up, It's
• 1:11:25
  just me. That was a little little bombed up you know what up?
• 1:11:28
  Triple Edge he goes a man A couple of show to night. I'm like,
• 1:11:30
  yeah, I'll be fucking little chest Doug and I just kept walking and
• 1:11:32
  I met him. He's a good dude. Russo is in the room.
• 1:11:34
  I'm like, yo, I just met Triple h and he was like,
• 1:11:36
  He's like, he's like you. He's like the biggest fucking wrestling fan ever.
• 1:11:39
  And he was just like what. I'm like, sorry, man,
• 1:11:41
  wrong place, at the right place, right time. It's fucking awesome.
• 1:11:44
  But no, I mean this has been good man. I mean we talked
• 1:11:46
  about anxiety, depression, we talked about we had a lot of bases today
• 1:11:51
  for the first again. No, I'm coming on your show next, so
• 1:11:56
  you let me know when you want me appreciate you. Yeah, I think
• 1:11:58
  we nailed it. Bro. If I'm allowed in the man cave, I'll
• 1:12:00
  wear a mask if you need me to what you want in my house.
• 1:12:03
  You are good. But I appreciate you letting me on all right, thanks
• 1:12:08
  so much pal. So next week I have the one and only Ray Cruciani
• 1:12:12
  on because there's something coming to Bridgeport that we're giving away tickets to. And
• 1:12:15
  he called me when I was in Florida and he said, jare I got
• 1:12:17
  a show for you. I said, what have we got? Right?
• 1:12:19
  He goes the PBRs coming to Bridgeport and I said the beer. He said,
• 1:12:25
  no, the bull riding, fucking idiot and I said, oh,
• 1:12:30
  okay, he goes. I got really good tickets, really good seats.
• 1:12:31
  I think it'd be a good giveaway for the show. I'm like, all
• 1:12:34
  right, but unfortunately the riders are in and out like that. I was
• 1:12:40
  like, oh, come, you get a rider to come on and talk
• 1:12:42
  about it like I got to reach. I don't watch this ship so yeah.
• 1:12:44
  I mean I've seen it before, but I don't sit in front watching
• 1:12:45
  cowboys. Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, uh yeah
• 1:12:53
  Urban Cowboy watch Matthew McConaughey where he rides horses. But he got eight Oh
• 1:12:59
  that was uh? And what's his name? Played a tranny? Yes?
• 1:13:02
  Enough from uh? I remember though, from uh, what the hell is
• 1:13:05
  name? Jared Leto played for tranny. I can't whoever's listens probably said,
• 1:13:10
  oh, I know, all right, we'll let us know that time.
• 1:13:13
  So hey, thanks again, buddy, I'll hang out after the show.
• 1:13:15
  I might even have to have one of those after that deep conversation. Check
• 1:13:17
  out Untanned Conversations with j D Lewis on your base most major platforms. Correct,
• 1:13:23
  yes, Spotify podcast or you don't have any kind of schedule yet,
• 1:13:27
  do you just kind of winging? No? No, no, every every
• 1:13:29
  Thursday morning, every Thursday morning, every Thursday morning, every listening episode.
• 1:13:32
  I have a Facebook following too. I send it out to a lot of
• 1:13:35
  people. If you're not friends with me on Facebook, it's j D Lewis,
• 1:13:39
  you know, follow me. I'll send you the invite. I appreciate
• 1:13:42
  everybody, and uh fuck, let's listen. Man. At the end of
• 1:13:45
  the day, my podcast is, you know, just like Jeremi's, but
• 1:13:49
  we're talking about real world shit. You got something to talk about, let's
• 1:13:53
  go and what's what's good too? I think and ended on this is that
• 1:13:59
  you know, you're getting through these early episodes and you're getting through stuff that
• 1:14:03
  you won't necessarily have to talk about at length again, but it'll be definitely
• 1:14:09
  prevalent and with the guests you're talking to. I said it like, if
• 1:14:12
  if I don't know someone, if I don't have something, I know someone
• 1:14:15
  that does. And yeah, real quick, my father was I'll explain to
• 1:14:19
  you later. But my father was scammed and I'm just uncovering the big scam.
• 1:14:25
  And uh I am. I am planning on, hopefully with the help
• 1:14:29
  of my brother and some local authorities, planning on a like I'm a mission
• 1:14:33
  to make it awareness, an awareness mission on the elderly being scammed by people.
• 1:14:39
  Yep, and uh, I'll in the coming probably a couple of months,
• 1:14:44
  I'll be announcing that whole thing. And again it's it's listen my podcast.
• 1:14:48
  Jeremy's listened to it. It's not all depressing. It's just my first
• 1:14:53
  couple episodes are telling me. The one with Justin, you guys are talking
• 1:14:56
  about fucking State Puff marshmallow Man parties. It's about my life. No drugs
• 1:15:01
  there. Yes, I met Mary Zito and uh Tim lips As. I
• 1:15:05
  love the Mark Philly party. But I appreciate everybody, and thank you Jeremy
• 1:15:10
  for letting me on the show. And you've got a product can't wait to
• 1:15:13
  come on. Yours of course man. We'll see you guys soon, see
• 1:15:15
  you next week later bro please