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FORGIVE THEM IF YOU WANT TO BE FREE · Blind But Now I See

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  Speaker 1: Back at it for another episode of the Blonde Bynos
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  Speaker 1: Damn blow Seatshell, I am your host, fob sent up
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  Speaker 1: official blond step of the Voice of the Sables. We
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  Speaker 1: ain't cut nothing out. We're showing the fuck ups and
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  Speaker 1: everything that episode. I'm in the studio. It's eighty five
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  Speaker 1: a voice, come in, lock in and maybe you would
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  Speaker 1: be like Blonde Poppy. But we got my boy Wolf
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  Speaker 1: in the studio. You know it. How are you feeling today, man,
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  Speaker 1: I'm feeling good man.
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  Speaker 2: I'm trying to go to the beach before you just
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  Speaker 2: ship it all my dreams and shit talking about how
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  Speaker 2: dirty the fucking beach is.
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  Speaker 1: Like, I want to go to the beach. Gang dirty, dirty,
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  Speaker 1: dirty fuck with the beach. Take a flight to Puerto Rico. Man,
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  Speaker 1: it's right there. Two or three hours.
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  Speaker 2: I'll go to Puerto Rico when I could take one
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  Speaker 2: hour to go to Fall Rock.
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  Speaker 1: Man. I'm just saying that dirty water swimming with chicken
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  Speaker 1: bowls and pampas and all that no chicken bows in there.
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  Speaker 1: It's not the it's not the hoods bro. Just good
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  Speaker 1: enough enough, good enough. See, that's that Texas shit. You'll
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  Speaker 1: know how New York word. I'm trying to get out
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  Speaker 1: of this nature. I'm trying to look alive, you know
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  Speaker 1: how that shit go. But today we got a good
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  Speaker 1: episode today. You know, we've been doing our work, We've
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  Speaker 1: been doing a lot of shit, and one day, you know,
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  Speaker 1: I just woke up and just text wuff and just say,
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  Speaker 1: you know, let's do a podcast about forgiveness, like what
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  Speaker 1: do forgiveness look like? And if you home, you could
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  Speaker 1: email blind Bince NYC at gmail dot com and you
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  Speaker 1: can tell me what do forgiveness look like to you?
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  Speaker 1: But in this episode, it's different levels of forgiveness. I
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  Speaker 1: feel I feel like it's different shades, different scenarios of forgiveness.
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm gonna throw out a couple of forgiveness
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  Speaker 1: and I'm gonna see if you in that same boat too, well,
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  Speaker 1: like have you forgave somebody? And what didn't take? For sure?
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  Speaker 1: Before we even get to the big forgiveness or should
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  Speaker 1: we start off with the fucking big giveness fuck it
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  Speaker 1: FOBC No the Hood Ray Charles Blond Poppy, if you
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  Speaker 1: fucked that, Christopher forgives the nigga that shot me, and
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  Speaker 1: I ain't gonna like it. Took a lot out of
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  Speaker 1: me to forgive that shit, because it's like the nigga
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  Speaker 1: took a lot away from me. He killed relationships, he
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  Speaker 1: killed my personality for not well, let me let me
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  Speaker 1: take that back. He had my personality, he didn't kill it.
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  Speaker 1: I'm always gonna be seen, No, but he he had me.
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  Speaker 1: I ain't gonna like he had me, like he stepped
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  Speaker 1: on me and had me down for a long ass time,
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  Speaker 1: nine ten years. I was fucked up. I forgive you
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  Speaker 1: why I could look with you. It was a gifting,
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  Speaker 1: the curse. I'm I'm I'm flourished. I'm a flower. They
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  Speaker 1: call me brother some flower. I'm at peace now. The
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  Speaker 1: Blambanaci Podcast Doing Good. I met people that I probably
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  Speaker 1: wouldn't never if I wasn't in a dark like Wolf
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  Speaker 1: and DJ Chris and Big Will d Rock and the
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  Speaker 1: rest of the gang. Like so you you helped me
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  Speaker 1: out by helping me grow I was so mad at
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  Speaker 1: you for the simple fact that I just got accepted
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  Speaker 1: to the EMT. So it's like I was pumped up.
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  Speaker 1: I was eager, Like I got in trouble with the
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  Speaker 1: law and I was on popation shot. They put me
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  Speaker 1: through hell just to become an EMT. I had to
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  Speaker 1: go get paper signed. They denied me. But shout out
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  Speaker 1: to the Commissioner and the lieutenants and everybody over there
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  Speaker 1: that pushed forward for me to lock in and take
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  Speaker 1: that test. I'm the first person that was on probation
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  Speaker 1: that took the FDNY test, passed it and became a
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  Speaker 1: certified EMT. Nobody did that shit before me, so I
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  Speaker 1: was I was ready for that shit. I was motivated.
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, damn, I'm saving lives. Like before you lock
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  Speaker 1: in with the EMT, you had to do rotations, so
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  Speaker 1: it's like you had to go out with real EMTs
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  Speaker 1: and see how the job, like how the job really is,
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  Speaker 1: to see if you can fuck with it and just
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  Speaker 1: helping people. I set this. Damn this shit is for me.
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  Speaker 1: I start changing my life. I was always fighting. I
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  Speaker 1: was doing a lot of bullshit, but then when I
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  Speaker 1: got shot, I gave up on everything, because it's like, damn,
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  Speaker 1: I really put my best foot forward for this shit
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  Speaker 1: and then I get shot. But then I gotta look
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  Speaker 1: at it like I forgive you because I'm not touching
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  Speaker 1: people in New York City. I'm touching people across the world.
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  Speaker 1: So you didn't You didn't kill me. You just made
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  Speaker 1: me stronger. You ain't knocked me down. I just stumbled.
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  Speaker 1: And it's like, now I just realized that shit, and
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  Speaker 1: I say, say, I forgive you for the simple fact
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  Speaker 1: you might be fucked up today. You might be in jail.
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  Speaker 1: Who knows, you might be dead, who knows you might
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  Speaker 1: be miserable, You might be fucked up, you might be
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  Speaker 1: at your lowest for trying to knock me down. But
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  Speaker 1: I'm still here, and my stephen a voice, I'm not
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  Speaker 1: going nowhere. This ship is just the beginning. So this
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  Speaker 1: episode we be getting into this forgiveness shit. Have you
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  Speaker 1: ever been in a a fucked position where you felt like, damn,
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  Speaker 1: how can a nigga did this to me? Or how
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  Speaker 1: did this girl play me? And you went back and
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  Speaker 1: you forgave them Wolf?
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  Speaker 2: Absolutely absolutely, But first of all, I want to I
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  Speaker 2: want to ask you a couple more questions. Yeah, I
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  Speaker 2: want to ask you a couple more questions. Hold on
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  Speaker 2: one second, I'm gonna cut this part out, okay, boom. So, obviously,
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  Speaker 2: the experience that you went through is beyond traumatic and
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  Speaker 2: it's crazy because majority of the time when people are
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  Speaker 2: thinking about like forgiving somebody, they they holding a grudge
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  Speaker 2: against them over shit that's not even as complicated or
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  Speaker 2: as severe as what it is that you went through,
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  Speaker 2: not even as severe like niggas trying to forgive niggas
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  Speaker 2: for like stealing five dollars from them, And the whole time,
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  Speaker 2: it's like, now you really went toe to toe with
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  Speaker 2: some shit that could have took your life definitely, and
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  Speaker 2: somehow somewhere you in a place where you've chosen to
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  Speaker 2: forgive this person.
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  Speaker 1: Mm hmm, somehow, some way.
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  Speaker 2: And so my question to you is as a person
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  Speaker 2: who then did it, like you're not just theorizing all like, oh, forgiveness,
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  Speaker 2: it's like a good thing to practice, or like you done,
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  Speaker 2: really did it? You really let go of the trauma
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  Speaker 2: that some people some of that trauma burn people life up.
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  Speaker 2: But like it's forgiveness a form of empowerment or is
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  Speaker 2: it a sign of weakness. I think the reason why
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  Speaker 2: people struggle with it so much is because they think
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  Speaker 2: if I forgive somebody, then they make me weak or
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  Speaker 2: make me less, will make me not as strong.
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  Speaker 1: So from your opinion, is it is it empowerment or
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  Speaker 1: is it weakness? Forgiven somebody is empowerment. I feel like
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  Speaker 1: you take your power back forgiving a person. I feel
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  Speaker 1: like you're not forgiving a person that you stuck on
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  Speaker 1: that shit. Your life is gonna be arvolved around that shit.
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  Speaker 1: You're gonna be moping, You're gonna be beating yourself up.
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  Speaker 1: You ain't gonna really see the power that you have
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  Speaker 1: by just forgiving that person and just moving on with
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  Speaker 1: your life. I feel like me not forgiving it, wanted
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  Speaker 1: a hurt that person back the way they hurt me
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  Speaker 1: so bad, put a like a stopper all my life.
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  Speaker 1: For eight years, nine years, I was fucked up. I
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  Speaker 1: didn't really see my worth. I fucked relationships up, I
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  Speaker 1: pushed people away. I didn't see the real in the
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  Speaker 1: like the definition line to this to this dog shit
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  Speaker 1: that I was really in. I didn't embrace the dog.
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  Speaker 1: Now I embraced that shit. I felt like I'm the
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  Speaker 1: voice that the disabled people was missing, but I couldn't
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  Speaker 1: see that shit why because I was not. I couldn't
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  Speaker 1: forgive that person that shot me. I wanted to get back.
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  Speaker 1: I wanted to suffer the way I suffer. But then
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  Speaker 1: I look at it, like, why why I'm giving this
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  Speaker 1: nigga so much power? All my life? I was fucked up,
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  Speaker 1: I'm on pills, I'm drinking, I'm not happy, I got
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  Speaker 1: suicide thoughts, and it's like, I'm giving this nigga that
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  Speaker 1: much power over me. I forgot who I was. I'm
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  Speaker 1: questioning myself like is this really supposed to be my life?
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  Speaker 1: Every day I'm waking like, damn, I don't want to
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  Speaker 1: wake up today, Like why is the sun shining on me? Like,
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  Speaker 1: and the crazy thing about it is when I hit
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  Speaker 1: you up about this episode, I'm like, damn, it's dark
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  Speaker 1: in here. Like people coming to me, I'm like, yo,
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  Speaker 1: today is for like a dark day. I even text
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  Speaker 1: you today, it's like a dark day to day. They're like, wow,
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  Speaker 1: I feel like no enough shunshine is coming through this
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  Speaker 1: window on me. It feel dark. I got up. I'm
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  Speaker 1: moving around the house. I'm trying to figure shit out
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  Speaker 1: and playing music like Damn. Why today is so dark?
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  Speaker 1: Why because I'm sent up here and I'm hoping off
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  Speaker 1: For damn, how would life be if I could see again?
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  Speaker 1: But then when I sit down and I go through
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  Speaker 1: my moments, and then I hear my son come out
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  Speaker 1: there and say farther, I'm hungry, I snap back and
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  Speaker 1: I say, nigga, I ain't gonna let you have this
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  Speaker 1: power over my life. When niggas called me like, yo,
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  Speaker 1: see know what's up with this flyer. I ain't gonna
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  Speaker 1: let this nigga have power over my life. When I'm
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  Speaker 1: sitting it there and I'm reading these the comments and
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  Speaker 1: these d ms and everything else, and there like people
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  Speaker 1: appreciate me. Nigga, you ain't gonna have this power on
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  Speaker 1: my life. So by me forgiving him, I took my
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  Speaker 1: power back. Like for the first eight years he had me,
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  Speaker 1: I was beat down. The nigga was in my dreams,
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  Speaker 1: and what nigga, you know, dreaming about a nigga like
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  Speaker 1: that nigga was in my dreams. He had me. He
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  Speaker 1: had me like with a rope around my neck. I
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  Speaker 1: wasn't going nowhere, Nah, I cut that shit off. I
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  Speaker 1: cut that noose off my neck. I got, I got
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  Speaker 1: my power back. So it's nothing wrong with forgiving a person.
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  Speaker 1: You don't got to fuck with a person, but to
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  Speaker 1: forgive him. Like perfect example, I sagn Cash a guy
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  Speaker 1: shot a couple of years ago and him, you know,
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  Speaker 1: he was talking whatever and he he called me one
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  Speaker 1: day and I'm like, bro, what's wrong with you? Why
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  Speaker 1: you sound like that? And he was like, yo, I
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  Speaker 1: feel pussy, bro? I said why, he said, yo, the
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  Speaker 1: person that shot me. I was in a I was
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  Speaker 1: in a spot where the lounge and he said, for
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  Speaker 1: that moment, I just wanted to go get it. I'm
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  Speaker 1: saying it then, I'm just listening, he said. But you
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  Speaker 1: know he apologized, boy apologized and every thing, and you
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  Speaker 1: left it like that. I said, Bro, you shouldn't feel
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  Speaker 1: sorry or bad. You shouldn't feel pussy behind that. I said, nigga,
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  Speaker 1: you lived to see another day. Bro. You got two businesses, bro,
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  Speaker 1: and you shaking and you grinding in the clubs with
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  Speaker 1: me on top of your business. You ain't trusted overnight,
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  Speaker 1: I said, you would have had that gun and you
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  Speaker 1: would have reacted. Now, you trick yourself out of your
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  Speaker 1: own life because now your daughter depend on you. Your
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  Speaker 1: mother depend on you, your nephew depend on you. You're the
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  Speaker 1: head of the family. So you're gonna let this nigga
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  Speaker 1: right here trick you out of your life. It's hard,
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  Speaker 1: don't get me wrong. It's definitely hard because I don't
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  Speaker 1: know what I would do if I was in front
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  Speaker 1: of the person that shot me and tried to take
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  Speaker 1: away my life. So I can't say and say that.
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  Speaker 1: I might walk to him and say, Yo, nigga, thank
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  Speaker 1: you for helping me see my potential, thank you for
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  Speaker 1: helping me see I'm bigger than what I really was.
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  Speaker 1: So it's like, Nigga, don't let that nigga trick you
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  Speaker 1: out of your life. Nigga, keep flourishing, Nigga, keep grinding,
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  Speaker 1: keep going. Nigga, you cast or it's only one of you,
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  Speaker 1: you living, you living? Your daughter could call you and
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  Speaker 1: then he like what no one knows. I always call
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  Speaker 1: you for that motivation. Thank you, bro wow, because I'm
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  Speaker 1: not gonna tell my nigga yo, go go and get
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  Speaker 1: it in and come back and for white then I'll
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  Speaker 1: be Then it's like, can you forgive me that I
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  Speaker 1: gave you this dumb ass advice to go to jail?
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  Speaker 1: Can you forgive me that your mother and them out
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  Speaker 1: here fucked up? Nah? Sometimes a lot of this shit
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  Speaker 1: is not worth it. To be honest, I'm living, I'm breathing.
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  Speaker 1: I just can't see the walk still is The walk's
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  Speaker 1: still the same. So it's like, why is I'm tripping
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  Speaker 1: over that? And I forgive you, bro? Like I slept,
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  Speaker 1: I sleep better that night knowing that I don't got
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  Speaker 1: you on my mind and you you're not heavy on
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  Speaker 1: my heart no more. I got other things to think about.
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  Speaker 1: My mom is clear. To be honest, it's like, like
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  Speaker 1: like I said at the beginning, it's different different forms
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  Speaker 1: in different situations of forgiveness. Like I forgave the nigga
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  Speaker 1: that shot, I forget gave my father, I forgave females,
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  Speaker 1: I forgave friends. Doesn't mean I gotta fux with you
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  Speaker 1: like that. I can fuck with you to a distance. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: that's a fact. I think.
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  Speaker 2: I think that's some people don't think about enough. Like
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  Speaker 2: just because you forgive somebody don't mean you gotta continue
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  Speaker 2: to be around them and let them mistreat you.
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  Speaker 1: Mm hmm. Look at it like this, right, somebody that
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  Speaker 1: did you wrong, you ain't forgive them. Every time a
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  Speaker 1: situation come up similar, the first thing that you do,
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  Speaker 1: you go back to that person that fucked you over,
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  Speaker 1: And the only thing you're gonna keep saying this, I
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  Speaker 1: will never let another person do this to me. I
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  Speaker 1: will never give this shit a chance. The whole time,
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  Speaker 1: you can be missing out on your opportunity. You don't
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  Speaker 1: know if this person really liked that last person. So
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  Speaker 1: it's like, what's wrong with just jumping out there to
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  Speaker 1: see where it's gonna go? Do you think I base
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  Speaker 1: my life off of that? I won't be fucking with
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  Speaker 1: a lot of people. Do you think I give anybody
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  Speaker 1: own opportunity to see if they're gonna float with me
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  Speaker 1: or you're gonna burn and get the fuck out of
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  Speaker 1: my way? You gotta separate to everybody. Not the same.
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  Speaker 1: I came in with trusting, like, let me see how
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  Speaker 1: far I can trust you. I came in just so
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  Speaker 1: for you taking initiative, running in the whole way. When
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  Speaker 1: I'm leaving you this, that and the third, I'm like, damn,
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  Speaker 1: I trust you man. You never been through no serious shit,
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  Speaker 1: but just your energy, your vibe, your order. I trust you.
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  Speaker 1: Now we're gonna go like what like I tell you
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  Speaker 1: can call me for anything. Nigga be locked in? Why
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  Speaker 1: not do you think that?
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  Speaker 2: Do you think that holding on to a grudge makes
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  Speaker 2: you better?
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, one thousand percent. Holding on a grudge gonna hurt
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  Speaker 1: you more for the simple fact you can't never see
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  Speaker 1: what's in front of you because you're worrying about what
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  Speaker 1: the person did to you yesterday. That shit gonna hunt you.
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  Speaker 1: It's gonna burn you whole time. You You might be
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  Speaker 1: walking past goal and cash and everything else, but you
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  Speaker 1: better off of what this person undid to you. You
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  Speaker 1: gotta live your life. Sometimes you gotta just forgive a
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  Speaker 1: person and just walk forward. That person ain't killing you,
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  Speaker 1: the person ain't hurting you. That person ain't stopping you.
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  Speaker 1: A person ain't stopping your emotion, So why are you
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  Speaker 1: gonna give that person your power? And it's like, I
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  Speaker 1: feel like a lot of people do that shit. Like
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  Speaker 1: I love my sister to death, but I feel like
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  Speaker 1: she's one of them. Shout out to her, I praise her.
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  Speaker 1: PhD is coming, but it's some things she gotta let
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  Speaker 1: go of how life was with her and her father,
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  Speaker 1: Like we don't know our father's situations of how they
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  Speaker 1: was raised or how they was growing up and all that.
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  Speaker 1: So it's like we can't expect them to be perfect.
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  Speaker 1: My father was not perfect. I had oh I forgave him.
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  Speaker 1: Though I love him to a distance. I love him.
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  Speaker 1: It's my father. I hold respect for him. By the
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  Speaker 1: end of the day, I'm not gonna disrespect him another
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  Speaker 1: of that shit. I just don't want to deal with him.
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  Speaker 1: If I don't want to deal with them, Nah, I'm
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  Speaker 1: gonna respect you because then you're a man. You're my father,
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  Speaker 1: and you the reason that I got life here today.
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  Speaker 1: You feel me. So it's like, while I'm tripping over
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  Speaker 1: that for if you're still holding on that grudge to
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  Speaker 1: your father not being there or being the best father
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  Speaker 1: to you, the best thing I can sit and tell
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  Speaker 1: you is let go. Maybe a conversation is due. Maybe
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  Speaker 1: you need to sit down with your father and asks
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  Speaker 1: him why, because you never know what going Sometimes we
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  Speaker 1: got fucked up baby mothers that'll tell you anything about
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  Speaker 1: your father, and that's why your father not there. Sometimes
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  Speaker 1: your father may not know how to love you the
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  Speaker 1: way you want it to be loved. But nobody never
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  Speaker 1: sit down with that man and tell that man, I
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  Speaker 1: want to be loved like this. I want this, I
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  Speaker 1: miss this, I never had this? Can you give me this?
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  Speaker 1: Sometimes allude simple conversation can help out. And on top
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  Speaker 1: of that, we never know what our father's been through.
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  Speaker 1: Some of our fathers was raised on their own, so
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  Speaker 1: they don't They don't even know how to love one way.
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  Speaker 1: They never had that love for their mother, They never
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  Speaker 1: have that love for their father, So how can we
• 15:52
  Speaker 1: hold them responsible to loving us the way people want
• 15:54
  Speaker 1: to be loved. Sometimes the mother is more powerful for
• 15:59
  Speaker 1: the simple fact that that they had their mother their father,
• 16:01
  Speaker 1: so they know how to be loved. They know how
• 16:05
  Speaker 1: like you feel me. They get the hugs for the
• 16:08
  Speaker 1: good knights and the kisses and do good in school
• 16:11
  Speaker 1: and being there. Our father's probably never had that shit,
• 16:13
  Speaker 1: so how can they give it to us? So that's
• 16:16
  Speaker 1: why I learned to forgive, because like even talking to
• 16:19
  Speaker 1: my father and telling me his father wasn't shit. His
• 16:21
  Speaker 1: father didn't do this, he did and it's like, all right, cool,
• 16:24
  Speaker 1: I understand now. It's like you maybe you followed in
• 16:28
  Speaker 1: his footsteps, not knowing that you did that because this
• 16:31
  Speaker 1: is all you knew. This is the only path that
• 16:33
  Speaker 1: you've seen your father go down, so you took it too.
• 16:36
  Speaker 1: I was just the one that break the curve. I
• 16:38
  Speaker 1: was the one that just broke the curse. Cause it's
• 16:40
  Speaker 1: like if you was hurt by your father and I
• 16:43
  Speaker 1: was hurt by my father, my son would not say
• 16:45
  Speaker 1: I'm hurt by my father. It's a curse. I feel
• 16:48
  Speaker 1: like sometimes it's just that conversation that people just don't
• 16:51
  Speaker 1: have because they pride is in a way. Got to
• 16:54
  Speaker 1: gotta come out of that pride shit and sit down
• 16:56
  Speaker 1: and tell people how you feel because life is short.
• 16:59
  Speaker 1: You met, you might not never be able to sit
• 17:01
  Speaker 1: down and have that conversation. If they're gone, you'll never know.
• 17:04
  Speaker 1: There's a lot of answers that won't be questioned, Like
• 17:06
  Speaker 1: you gotta gotta get that shit off your chest. I
• 17:08
  Speaker 1: feel like you can't forgive until you get closure. What
• 17:13
  Speaker 1: is closure? Closure give me mean anything to how you
• 17:17
  Speaker 1: feel like? My closure is I'm not going something and
• 17:21
  Speaker 1: my father had the restaurant. I'm going in there. He
• 17:23
  Speaker 1: sat there here, tell me, oh, I love you, or
• 17:27
  Speaker 1: I took care everybody else feel me before yours and
• 17:30
  Speaker 1: before mine's. And I want to do right by you.
• 17:32
  Speaker 1: I want to do this. I want to do that.
• 17:34
  Speaker 1: It's like, I see, like you really didn't know no better.
• 17:40
  Speaker 1: So it's like just you looking at me being a
• 17:43
  Speaker 1: father that I am. That's my closure. It's like I'm
• 17:47
  Speaker 1: teaching you how to be a father when you're supposed
• 17:50
  Speaker 1: to been teaching me how to be a father. Of
• 17:52
  Speaker 1: him deaf, I don't hold nothing against him. I still
• 17:55
  Speaker 1: text my father. I'm just checking up on you, man,
• 17:57
  Speaker 1: making sure you got it. Why I feel like I
• 18:00
  Speaker 1: got the power now when it's like you know, growing up, yo,
• 18:05
  Speaker 1: you you hear your father and your father say something
• 18:07
  Speaker 1: that's like them words. You value those words because it's
• 18:10
  Speaker 1: coming from your father. You cherish them words because it's
• 18:13
  Speaker 1: coming from your father. Now, when my father hear me
• 18:15
  Speaker 1: speaker's like he cherished that shit, I'm showing him something. Boy.
• 18:21
  Speaker 1: It gets no better than that, bro. I mean, you
• 18:23
  Speaker 1: can't never forgive a person until you get closure. So
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: what you mean you got to let go everything that's
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: inside of your heart. You gotta put it on the
• 18:31
  Speaker 1: table for order for you to sit and say I
• 18:34
  Speaker 1: forgive you. So if you still mad at your father
• 18:36
  Speaker 1: did not come to your third, your first grade graduation,
• 18:40
  Speaker 1: you gotta put it on the table to really move
• 18:43
  Speaker 1: on in life. If you mad that your father didn't
• 18:45
  Speaker 1: buy those sneakers, or you mad that your father left
• 18:47
  Speaker 1: you on that stoop and then pick you up and
• 18:49
  Speaker 1: you just send them, man, you gotta let that shit
• 18:51
  Speaker 1: go to order to sit and say I forgive you.
• 18:55
  Speaker 1: Like me, my father wasn't there for the first seventeen
• 18:57
  Speaker 1: years of my life, but I put that past as
• 19:00
  Speaker 1: him and I accept whatever type of love he gives me.
• 19:03
  Speaker 1: Now I forget for him. I'm not tripping. I'm not
• 19:07
  Speaker 1: tripping over nothing. I'm thirty four years old. I'll be
• 19:10
  Speaker 1: thirty four years old. What I look like still harping? Oh,
• 19:12
  Speaker 1: he wasn't there. He didn't teach me my first back shoot,
• 19:15
  Speaker 1: how to shoot my first basketball. He wasn't there when
• 19:18
  Speaker 1: I had this play and all that. Nah, I forgive you, bro,
• 19:22
  Speaker 1: I let it go. I forgive you. How can we
• 19:24
  Speaker 1: make history? Now? That's what I feel like more people
• 19:27
  Speaker 1: should be thinking about. How can we let go the pass,
• 19:31
  Speaker 1: put it on the table, get it out the way,
• 19:33
  Speaker 1: clear to dust, clear the air, and how can we
• 19:36
  Speaker 1: create more history like history that we both is in,
• 19:41
  Speaker 1: not shit that I'm hearing the people talk about you
• 19:43
  Speaker 1: over here and you hearing about what people talk about.
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: Let's career history together. And I feel like a lot
• 19:48
  Speaker 1: of people don't have closure because they can't let go.
• 19:51
  Speaker 1: They're still stuck on it. And then don't say it.
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: Say you forgive a person, but then when you get mad,
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: you bringing that shit back up. That means you didn't
• 19:56
  Speaker 1: forget if And a lot of people say, do that shit, bro,
• 20:01
  Speaker 1: I witnessed that shit. It's like, you forgive me, but
• 20:04
  Speaker 1: you're still bringing up the ship that I did to you.
• 20:07
  Speaker 1: You forgive me, but you still mentioning that I didn't
• 20:09
  Speaker 1: show up. I wasn't there for you, So you don't
• 20:12
  Speaker 1: forgive me, don't forgive me your words like it's coming
• 20:15
  Speaker 1: out to your mouth. Oh I forgive you, but do
• 20:17
  Speaker 1: your heart really forgive me? Can you let go? I
• 20:22
  Speaker 1: feel like a lot of people hold onto ship like that,
• 20:23
  Speaker 1: And I forgive you for what you did, but you
• 20:25
  Speaker 1: don't show it. Your words is not acting your actions.
• 20:28
  Speaker 1: So how you don't forgive me? It sound good? But
• 20:32
  Speaker 1: sure do the work. I feel like a lot of
• 20:35
  Speaker 1: shite be bullshit, bro, You really forgive a person trust
• 20:39
  Speaker 1: and believe it's not gonna be on your mind? What
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: they did to you is not gonna like Nigga that
• 20:43
  Speaker 1: shot me. I forgive him. He's not on my mind
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: no more. I'm having fun doing what I'm doing. I
• 20:51
  Speaker 1: I'd be a damn fool if I sit there and
• 20:54
  Speaker 1: keep talking about this man that shot me. I mean,
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: I ain't forgive you, bro, I mean it's still hurting.
• 20:59
  Speaker 1: This sign. I don't hurt me no more. I don't
• 21:02
  Speaker 1: cry my child. I cried enough that I could start
• 21:04
  Speaker 1: my own river. I could create my own ocean that
• 21:06
  Speaker 1: you could swim in if you want to. But it's like, nah,
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: I forgive you. If I could forgive the man that
• 21:13
  Speaker 1: shot me three times, left me there to die, then
• 21:17
  Speaker 1: you could be able to forgive anything that's moving in
• 21:19
  Speaker 1: this world. It's like it's not that serious. More people
• 21:23
  Speaker 1: going through serious shit out here and holding onto ship.
• 21:26
  Speaker 1: This man almost took me away from my child. This
• 21:29
  Speaker 1: man almost took me away from my mother. This man
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: always took me away from my siblings, my dream. He
• 21:34
  Speaker 1: almost took my life, and I forgave him. And you
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: can't forgive your father, you can't forgive your sister, You
• 21:40
  Speaker 1: can't forgive your best friend over dumb shit. It's like,
• 21:43
  Speaker 1: come on, we gotta do better. People they'll do better, Like,
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: come on, I feel like he snatched everything away from
• 21:52
  Speaker 1: me and I forgave him. Still, it's like nobody we
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: could go on the streets with a microphone in the camp. Well,
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: let's see. I mean, people can forgive people still holding
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: on shit that happened first, second, third grade and these niggas,
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: God damn sixty, What did you do?
• 22:10
  Speaker 2: What did you have to do to get to a
• 22:12
  Speaker 2: place to forgive somebody who did something so crazy to you?
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: What did I have to do? I had to do
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: the work on myself, That's what I had to do.
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: I had to do the work on myself. It's like
• 22:22
  Speaker 1: I was so busy worrying about him, I lost I
• 22:26
  Speaker 1: forgot who I was. So once I started doing the work.
• 22:30
  Speaker 1: When I say doing the work, meaning I started enjoying
• 22:33
  Speaker 1: my life again, I started laughing, I started joking. I
• 22:36
  Speaker 1: like I was fucked up. I was fucked a dad.
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: But once I started taking that control of my life
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: and not laying to somebody else, leader like, it was
• 22:46
  Speaker 1: no blind Poppy, it was no Voice of the Disables.
• 22:49
  Speaker 1: I was crystalpher in that wrong waiting to go. But
• 22:53
  Speaker 1: once I started doing the work on myself and I
• 22:55
  Speaker 1: start smiling more and realize the sun always going and
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: shine even when you're in the dark. Man, night couldn't
• 23:03
  Speaker 1: stop me. Nothing couldn't stop me. No, Lie, I couldn't
• 23:07
  Speaker 1: let my past determine my future. I couldn't. I couldn't
• 23:12
  Speaker 1: let the destruct. No, sometimes you gotta destruct, like self
• 23:16
  Speaker 1: destruct before you rise. I feel like when he shot me,
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: I self destruct just to get rebuilded. Like I rebuilt
• 23:25
  Speaker 1: myself and that's why I am today. So it's like,
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: and it's never that serious to you. Hold it on
• 23:33
  Speaker 1: sithn I forgive a nigga that tried to take my life.
• 23:36
  Speaker 1: You can't forgive over somebody that stole out of your purse.
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: You can't forgive that somebody that stowed your men or
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: stole your woman. Man, that shit don't be serious. You
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: can forgive, you just don't got to fuck with them.
• 23:46
  Speaker 1: Doesn't mean a person that shot me me and him
• 23:47
  Speaker 1: will be in a club drinking together. He won't never
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: do that. Doesn't mean I'm like, yo, bro, take my number.
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: We could talk about it now. We ain't gonna never
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: do that either. He don't owe me no conversation. I
• 23:59
  Speaker 1: don't owe him no conversation. All that I'm saying say, Bro,
• 24:03
  Speaker 1: you tried it, You tried it, You wasn't successful, Brom.
• 24:09
  Speaker 1: Themb bullets went through my soul. It just rebuilt me.
• 24:12
  Speaker 1: And I can move on. I could turn my back
• 24:14
  Speaker 1: on me and walk away. You could try. I can't die.
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: I can die. I won't die, because not for nothing.
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: The day my eyes closed, my words still live on.
• 24:24
  Speaker 1: They could go to that blind and I see YouTube.
• 24:27
  Speaker 1: They could go to my Instagram. They could go to
• 24:29
  Speaker 1: videos and me and the clubs people got a lot
• 24:31
  Speaker 1: of videos out of hit me out here. My voice
• 24:33
  Speaker 1: gonna always live on while I'm tripping over you. Now,
• 24:38
  Speaker 1: I know what it is. People are bigger when you
• 24:41
  Speaker 1: keep talking about it. So if I keep talking about
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: him and I keep expressing my frustration, he only gonna
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: get bigger. But if my voice is silent by him,
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: and I'm using my voice for science positive, nigga, just
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: a mouse to me. Hurt people, hurt people. Yeah, I
• 24:59
  Speaker 1: don't know how that means was raised. I don't know
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: what that man was going through that day. I ain't
• 25:04
  Speaker 1: making no excuses about it, but hurt people hurt people.
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: He hurt me. I could have came at that hospital
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: and retaliated. Now it's like he hurt my family. I
• 25:14
  Speaker 1: heard his family. We even and then a cycle just
• 25:16
  Speaker 1: gonna keep going. People gonna end up in jail, people
• 25:19
  Speaker 1: gonna end up dad. Nah, I broke that cycle. Why
• 25:23
  Speaker 1: I could pick up and call any one of my friends,
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: Like I stopped my friends from jumping out the window.
• 25:29
  Speaker 1: Like my right hand man, he was with me when
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: I got shot, and it killed him every time that
• 25:34
  Speaker 1: he came across that block and he just wanted to
• 25:37
  Speaker 1: jump out the window. And I'm just like, yo, bro,
• 25:39
  Speaker 1: it ain't worth it. Got kids, Bro, what can I
• 25:42
  Speaker 1: What can I tell your kids if you were in
• 25:43
  Speaker 1: jail for jumping out the window. For me, a person
• 25:46
  Speaker 1: that's alive, the person that's breathing and moving, I got motion.
• 25:49
  Speaker 1: I'm with my child. It ain't worth it, bro. Now
• 25:52
  Speaker 1: we're gonna kill people with conness. We're gonna kill people.
• 25:55
  Speaker 1: What the shit we doing with motion? Nah? I started
• 25:58
  Speaker 1: the podcast. I'm quite sure they probably be like, damn, bro,
• 26:01
  Speaker 1: we tried. That's the same nigga. We probably shot by motion.
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: So hurt people, hurt people, don't then we gotta break
• 26:08
  Speaker 1: that ship. Hurt people. If a person hurts you, man,
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: just rise, just grow, just like don't don't have the mentality.
• 26:18
  Speaker 1: I gotta hurt back, cause this shit is gonna keep going.
• 26:21
  Speaker 1: It's like like like play. Ain't like cats and mice
• 26:25
  Speaker 1: they bouncing back and forth. Man, that shit is corny.
• 26:28
  Speaker 1: Now we older. Now we're trying to be pushing peace.
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: I'm pushing peace like that. That's how I look at it.
• 26:35
  Speaker 1: Ass Like, Man, if I ain't beefing with nobody, the
• 26:38
  Speaker 1: only person I'm beefing with is myself. Every day I'm
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: laying on that couch and I'm not doing what I'm
• 26:42
  Speaker 1: supposed to do. I'm beefing with myself when I'm slacking
• 26:46
  Speaker 1: off of what I'm supposed to be doing, or I'm
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: not bucking studio time and all that shit. Man, I'm
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: beefing with myself. So it's like, why would I put
• 26:54
  Speaker 1: my loved ones in and rest to try to get
• 26:56
  Speaker 1: back to you? And and another thing too, her people
• 27:00
  Speaker 1: hurt people. Right now, I would have went back and
• 27:02
  Speaker 1: hurd him. It wouldn't have give me back my vision.
• 27:07
  Speaker 1: So what did it solve? Now we're on the investigation.
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: Now I'm in jail because I'm guilty by association. Right now,
• 27:17
  Speaker 1: my son got to come see me on that visiting floor.
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: No hell, No, I refuse for my son to see
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: me and stay green. I refused for my son to
• 27:26
  Speaker 1: be talking to a tombstone. I broke the cycle. I'm
• 27:30
  Speaker 1: pushing peace. Call me positive city. No now like because
• 27:35
  Speaker 1: back then, no Lie, I wanted to get back. I
• 27:39
  Speaker 1: wanted to feed every every shell and a gun to him.
• 27:42
  Speaker 1: I did, and if he died, I wanted to dig
• 27:45
  Speaker 1: him up and feed him most shells. I didn't care
• 27:48
  Speaker 1: because you hurt me bad. But what would I got
• 27:52
  Speaker 1: out of it? Because I still want to be to
• 27:53
  Speaker 1: see that dark clouds still would have been over me.
• 27:58
  Speaker 1: Why because I still when it felt like I still
• 28:01
  Speaker 1: feel like shit. Because I'm an adult now, I'm the
• 28:04
  Speaker 1: king of the shit. Like I told you before, I'm
• 28:06
  Speaker 1: the king of the dog who can move like me,
• 28:09
  Speaker 1: not Rach Chearl, not Stevie Wonder. I feel like my
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: story is bigger than this. They had medical complications. My
• 28:18
  Speaker 1: shit got snatched away from me, and I made the
• 28:19
  Speaker 1: best out of it. Nah hurt people, He could hurt
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: all the people he wanted, he tried, he hurt me,
• 28:27
  Speaker 1: he blessed me. You will never be free until you
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: let go what they did to you. No matter what
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: it is, mentally, physically abuse you, it doesn't matter. Just
• 28:39
  Speaker 1: let that shit go and gain your freedom, because right
• 28:43
  Speaker 1: now they got you locked in that closet, they got
• 28:46
  Speaker 1: the lights off, They got the power because you didn't forgive.
• 28:50
  Speaker 1: Take your power back and be free. That's all I
• 28:54
  Speaker 1: can sit and really to sit and tell y'all, because
• 28:57
  Speaker 1: they ain't nobody in this world that can sit and
• 29:01
  Speaker 1: say they got the power. We see you know I'm free.
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: I ain't mad at nothing, I ain't tripping over nothing.
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: I'm always stepping. So be free. Man, be free, man,
• 29:14
  Speaker 1: be free. Free, Let go of it. Wake up in
• 29:17
  Speaker 1: the morning. You look at that phone, you look at
• 29:19
  Speaker 1: that contact, Text that person, say I forgive you, but
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: don't text the man unless you really mean it, Unless
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: you really mean it. I forgive you that man that
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: cheated on you. I forgive you, that man that puts
• 29:32
  Speaker 1: his hands on you. I forget you. It takes a lot,
• 29:37
  Speaker 1: but you want to grow. Gotta forgive. Your father wasn't there.
• 29:43
  Speaker 1: I forgive you. Your mother was on drugs, your parents.
• 29:46
  Speaker 1: I forgive you. You feel like a person that showup
• 29:49
  Speaker 1: when you needed them the most. I forgive you, and
• 29:53
  Speaker 1: I'm not forgiving you for you. I'm forgiving you for myself.
• 29:57
  Speaker 1: I gotta grow.
• 29:58
  Speaker 2: That's the pain, that's the part, bro, Like for I'm
• 30:01
  Speaker 2: not forgiving you for you, I'm forgiving you for myself,
• 30:04
  Speaker 2: for giving you for myself. It's so it's so fucking weird.
• 30:07
  Speaker 2: How like holding on to the grudge of what somebody
• 30:10
  Speaker 2: did to you. It's only fucking your shit up. It
• 30:12
  Speaker 2: don't got shit to do with them.
• 30:13
  Speaker 1: Really, not real shit, Because like relationships, a person hurts
• 30:17
  Speaker 1: you so bad, you're gonna go into your next relationship
• 30:18
  Speaker 1: with the same mentality. Oh my god, this nigga hurt me,
• 30:21
  Speaker 1: This woman hurt me, cheated. So how can you see
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: the potential of your new lover if you don't let go,
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: if you don't forgive, you're just carrying that you don't forgive.
• 30:33
  Speaker 1: How can you really see the like nobody's perfect, But
• 30:37
  Speaker 1: how can you pick out the perfect moments and like
• 30:41
  Speaker 1: potential in your parents if you don't give them, If
• 30:44
  Speaker 1: you just don't forgive the ship that they did to you?
• 30:46
  Speaker 1: Oh my God, I forgive my father. My father is
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: a great ass cook the restaurant, to know her head
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: and everything else. It's like his words say it. I
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: want to believe it. It's just he just don't like
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: I believe his words. I just feel like he just
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: gotta do. He gotta just make the actions work with it. Actions,
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: make the actions work, and then when your actions start working,
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: it's gonna match up to your words. So we locked
• 31:10
  Speaker 1: in and then he'll forgive himself instead of beating himself
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: over he not being there for me. God, do the work.
• 31:18
  Speaker 1: Gotta forgive. I mean every time I like, even in relationships,
• 31:23
  Speaker 1: a man get loud, you was in domestic violence doesn't
• 31:27
  Speaker 1: mean he gonna put his hands on You're just having
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: a little altercation. Forgive you your past relationship, trust and
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: believe you're gonna be okay. You're gonna be okay. We
• 31:36
  Speaker 1: just forgiven, like no lie a man like me. I
• 31:41
  Speaker 1: hit people up and we had conversations. I told him
• 31:44
  Speaker 1: how I feel like my right hand man. My right
• 31:47
  Speaker 1: hand man, we bump has a lot over a lot
• 31:49
  Speaker 1: of ship. He didn't agree with what I did. I
• 31:50
  Speaker 1: didn't agree with what he did. What we be taught
• 31:52
  Speaker 1: I forgive you. That just make our relationship even stronger.
• 31:56
  Speaker 1: Sometimes you got to be vulnerable. I feel like a
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: lot of people have a hard I'm being that bro. Yeah,
• 32:01
  Speaker 1: for sure.
• 32:01
  Speaker 2: Vulnerability is like not easy because and again it's they
• 32:05
  Speaker 2: scared to be vulnerable because they're still holding on to
• 32:07
  Speaker 2: the fear of what happens, Like I can't let it
• 32:09
  Speaker 2: happen again, can't let it happen again.
• 32:11
  Speaker 1: I don't want to feel stupid or not a sign
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: of weakness. It's not a sign of weakness, it's not
• 32:18
  Speaker 1: Sometimes not being vulnerable, you could definitely lose the biggest
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: like love of your life. The like, just just be vulnerable,
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  Speaker 1: because sometimes being vulnerable the best conversations coming out of it,
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  Speaker 1: the solutions be solved. So it's like, man, this don't
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  Speaker 1: trip over it. Man forgive. That's the word of the day.
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  Speaker 1: Man forgive you wake up this morning, just take your
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  Speaker 1: time and say, all right, this person stole from me,
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  Speaker 1: but I don't know why she stole. That person might
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  Speaker 1: being hungry, but they just we was scared to tell you.
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  Speaker 1: You can text them, I forgive. Oh why did you still?
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  Speaker 1: Like conversations? Forget? Like all that should come together. Man,
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  Speaker 1: just forget. It's forgive. I forgive. I forgive the nigga
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  Speaker 1: that shot me. I forgive my father. I forgave relationships,
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  Speaker 1: I forgave family members. I just forgive because why who
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  Speaker 1: won't stop me? And I refuse for what they did
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  Speaker 1: to me? Stop me? I forgive a like a lifting
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  Speaker 1: off your shelters. I'll tell you this podcast shit is
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  Speaker 1: like therapy. You can't talk about shit like this to people.
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  Speaker 1: They look like they did. They'd judge you with being
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  Speaker 1: in front of the cameras and the mic and all that.
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  Speaker 1: That shit makes me feel good, man, I forget.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, Man, that's a great that's a great topic. Great strubject.
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  Speaker 2: I think you killed it bro real.
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  Speaker 1: Like sending your like moments that you've been in that
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  Speaker 1: you had to forgive, or send little like send a
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  Speaker 1: voice note. I want to hear y'all voices to the
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  Speaker 1: d ms on the block and I see and maybe
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  Speaker 1: we've played on the episode and see how can we forget?
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  Speaker 1: Help you forgive that person or or something, whatever the
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  Speaker 1: case may be. But another episode was another one bro,
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  Speaker 1: Thank you bro. Another one in the books. But until
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  Speaker 1: next week, I am FOBC not the official Blonde Stepper,
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  Speaker 1: the forgiven. The work took a long time to happen,
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  Speaker 1: but I did it, and I'm the voice of the disables.
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  Speaker 1: I'm always gonna step big intil next week. Blonde Stepper,
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