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If I Weren't Afraid.... · We Talk Back

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  Speaker 1: Welcome to We Talk Back Podcast, the production of iHeartRadio
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  Speaker 1: and the Black Effect Network.
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  Speaker 2: We're just two unapologetically black women with an opinion who talks.
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  Speaker 1: What's up y'all? Is your girl? AJ? Holiday? What's up? DAYA?
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  Speaker 2: Damn?
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  Speaker 1: Hey, y'all? I love y'all so very much. How you doing, AJ?
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  Speaker 1: I'm doing. I'm doing fine. How was your weekend? Girl?
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  Speaker 1: Was supposed to storm and all the stuff. So I've
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  Speaker 1: been waiting for rain all fucking weekend. It didn't happen.
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  Speaker 1: I know storms they were threatened using about, but shit uneventful.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah it did rain. It did rain for us.
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  Speaker 2: We did get some weather, but it wasn't like what
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  Speaker 2: I was hoping for. I was hoping to be like
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  Speaker 2: rain ding and watching scary movies.
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  Speaker 1: God, have you seen that movie Him yet? No?
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  Speaker 2: I wanted to go see it just came out. I
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  Speaker 2: heard it was like really mynic Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: So I saw when I saw the trailer on Instagram,
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  Speaker 1: I commented and I said, you gotta know what you're
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  Speaker 1: looking at when you see it, and like all these
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  Speaker 1: people was commenting, like some people was like on calling
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  Speaker 1: me just from that small line, like I'm a super
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  Speaker 1: conspiracy theorist. From the trailer, I could see hell of shit,
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  Speaker 1: like I know what that movie is about without watching
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  Speaker 1: a movie, and it's real shit. People think they can't
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  Speaker 1: be touched by stuff just because they don't believe in it.
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  Speaker 1: That is not true. I do feel like they be
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  Speaker 1: putting bullshit in these movies, Like I turn shit off
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  Speaker 1: and I hear too much chanting and Latin and shit
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  Speaker 1: like that. I fast forward because what the fuck are
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  Speaker 1: y'all and what you're saying? Yeah? Yeah, And until I
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  Speaker 1: learned Latin, I wanted to talk to me.
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  Speaker 2: I wanted to go see that movie, and I wanted
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  Speaker 2: to see Strangers too.
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  Speaker 1: I didn't see the first one and me neither. You're
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  Speaker 1: gonna skip. I saw the trailer for that too, Like
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  Speaker 1: I can't skip. I gotta watch the other one first.
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  Speaker 2: You know. That's what That was my assignment to watch
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  Speaker 2: the first one before we went to the movies. But
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  Speaker 2: we didn't go to the movie, so I got time.
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  Speaker 2: So I've never seen the first one.
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  Speaker 1: I think I have. We hope y'all had better weekends, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: because our ship was uneventful.
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  Speaker 2: But I do have a date coming up next week
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  Speaker 2: where I'm going I know and hopefully I won't be
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  Speaker 2: sleep because I just feel tired for next week already.
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  Speaker 2: Like it's a movie in the a scary movie in
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  Speaker 2: the park, So that's gonna be cute outside it's is
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  Speaker 2: it a big It's not like it's a it's outside,
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  Speaker 2: but it's kind of lazy. It's a kiddie movie, kind
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  Speaker 2: of it's Halloween Town.
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  Speaker 1: What if? Like, girl, you know what if? Yo? I
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  Speaker 1: used to be terrified. I love scary movies. I love
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  Speaker 1: scary movies so much. What is wrong with you? Though? Like?
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  Speaker 2: Why are you watching this crazy shit? Like I guess
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  Speaker 2: I just want to feel scared.
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  Speaker 1: I like it too. I'm a scary movie a fiend.
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  Speaker 1: I love.
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  Speaker 2: This is my season right here, Like this is my season.
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  Speaker 2: I want to see all the scary movies. I only
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  Speaker 2: want to see it with a man.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm like scarce. So shit actually fucking happen? Shit
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  Speaker 1: really jump off? I'muld turn into somebody different carry out.
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  Speaker 1: I think I might turn into what's the girl off
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  Speaker 1: for the Walking day with the dreads? Oh Miche Michelle
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  Speaker 1: bitchall turns to macheone so quick, girl. I literally was
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  Speaker 1: just saying today, like I need one more pistol.
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  Speaker 2: You know, people be having all these guns, but if
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  Speaker 2: you single, like it's only one person, only got two hands,
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  Speaker 2: you really can't use all of the guns, right, But
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  Speaker 2: I need one like the lions got, you know.
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  Speaker 1: Like the the uh. Get a three D printer.
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  Speaker 2: A little modification on it. What do they call it?
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  Speaker 2: They call it a not a clapper, No.
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  Speaker 1: Old bitch clapper, it's a switch.
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  Speaker 2: I don't want to switch necessarily, all right, Maybe I'll
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  Speaker 2: get like a uh uh.
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  Speaker 1: I was researching online.
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  Speaker 2: Apparently the AR fifteen they have like a pistol like
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  Speaker 2: AR fifteen, Like maybe.
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  Speaker 1: You could fold it up and ship fold it. It's crazy.
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  Speaker 1: Get you just get you a three D printer. You
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  Speaker 1: can have anything you want and go to jail. Bitch,
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  Speaker 1: you can't be at the house printing guns. And this
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  Speaker 1: is Charles America.
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  Speaker 2: We do what we went around here, apparently not you're
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  Speaker 2: stole a nigga.
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  Speaker 1: Let's getting the sens. What were y'all going on this week?
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  Speaker 2: Y'all?
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  Speaker 1: I want to start off by giving a super big
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  Speaker 1: rest in peace to a Sada Chakour. She made it
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  Speaker 1: off this hell realm unscathed a little bit because she
• 5:14
  Speaker 1: definitely was skied at some point, but they haven't been
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  Speaker 1: able to touch her since the seventies. Thank god.
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  Speaker 2: She became a citizen of Cuba never came back to
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  Speaker 2: the United States. You know, there's a she has a
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  Speaker 2: book that my best friend swears by, and she's been
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  Speaker 2: telling me to read it for years, and now that
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  Speaker 2: she's passed, it's just you know, prompted me to go
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  Speaker 2: ahead and get that book and read it because that
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  Speaker 2: is my birth about.
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  Speaker 1: To be sold out on the Amazon I bet order tonight.
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  Speaker 1: Why you're thinking about it, right.
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  Speaker 2: Because I want to read her story because she was
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  Speaker 2: a black abolitionist, freedom fighter for all things black and
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  Speaker 2: killed a New Jersey officer.
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  Speaker 1: She didn't kill anybody. That was all a lie. So
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  Speaker 1: this is why she's you know, aside asylum in in
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  Speaker 1: in Cuba, she was not guilty of anything. Actually, they
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  Speaker 1: were under attack by New Jersey police. So I know
• 6:12
  Speaker 1: the Youngins may not know Assad of Shakur, but that's
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  Speaker 1: who Tupac changed. Chose his name after you. No, she's
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  Speaker 1: actually his step dad's sister, right, but his their last
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  Speaker 1: name was not was it his last name originally? That's
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  Speaker 1: not her real name either. Yeah, exactly that's the name
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  Speaker 1: that Yeah, so that was her, that's the name they
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  Speaker 1: took on. But it wasn't that he, you know, acquired
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  Speaker 1: that name from her, like it was just family black
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  Speaker 1: panther ship. Oh, I thought it was her that he
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  Speaker 1: chose the name behind. No, So her real name is
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  Speaker 1: I can't pronounce. Her last name is chess Mard. I
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  Speaker 1: believe it's Chess and mar Joan chess Mard. So astat
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  Speaker 1: As was wanted by the FBI and other law enforcement
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  Speaker 1: agencies for her for her involvement in a nineteen seventy
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  Speaker 1: three shootout that killed in New Jersey state trooper Warner Forrester.
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  Speaker 1: She was convicted of murder and they senced her to
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  Speaker 1: life in prison. Three armed men rolled up in the
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  Speaker 1: women's facility and broke her out, and she resurfaced in Cuba. Cuba, Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: under Fidel caused Castro.
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  Speaker 2: And she label her as a domestic terrorist.
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  Speaker 1: Most wanted since the seventies. She actually they they tried
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  Speaker 1: to kill her the day that you know, they got
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  Speaker 1: into the shootout with the police like they show first
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  Speaker 1: to foolie show first. She was shot twice in the
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  Speaker 1: back and they literally was like standing over her I
• 7:38
  Speaker 1: watched it like a documentary ones. They literally was just
• 7:41
  Speaker 1: standing over her like, is this bitch dad yet? And
• 7:45
  Speaker 1: then they took her, you know, to the hospital, and
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  Speaker 1: then she actually got sentenced to life in prison. She's
• 7:51
  Speaker 1: been minding her business in Cuba and every president has
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  Speaker 1: been going after her since the seventies. They have been
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  Speaker 1: trying to get extraded her back to the United States.
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  Speaker 1: The name and they weren't going for it, Nope. So
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  Speaker 1: I'm glad. I'm glad.
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  Speaker 2: I heard her name was Tupac and a Tupac song.
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  Speaker 2: I can't put my finger on the song right now,
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  Speaker 2: but he was really uh huh, he said, saw the
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  Speaker 2: she car Moon, Bougie Moon and all the really o
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  Speaker 2: gz we out.
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  Speaker 1: What song was that? Y'all tell me what song was that?
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  Speaker 1: He said that.
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  Speaker 2: But that's the first time I heard that name. I
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  Speaker 2: was a little girl. Yep, all right, so.
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  Speaker 1: You even not a little one. Tupac went out, cut
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  Speaker 1: it out, girl got murdered. Was that high school? In
• 8:34
  Speaker 1: middle school? When Tupac got murdered? Middle Okay? Yeah, for me,
• 8:41
  Speaker 1: I was welling out in middle school.
• 8:43
  Speaker 2: So also over the weekend, they released a statue memorializing
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  Speaker 2: the queen of rock and roll, Tina Turner.
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  Speaker 1: Herself hated at Brownsville, Tennessee.
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  Speaker 2: H y'all listen that wig that they gave Like, all right,
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  Speaker 2: Tina didn't love some big hair, I'll give it to her.
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  Speaker 2: But they really tried it with that piece of hair
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  Speaker 2: on the That shit looked like what's that doctor suits book?
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  Speaker 1: God damn, I was so bad. If they ever want
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  Speaker 1: to give me a statue, don't just put or just
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  Speaker 1: why couldn't they just do like a I'm pretty sure
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  Speaker 1: that the plenty of wax museums of her, but who asked,
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  Speaker 1: Like when it was together, there's somebody like everybody looked
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  Speaker 1: that was like that's the one.
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  Speaker 2: Like they didn't like have a conversation first, the same
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  Speaker 2: Niggaho did Dwaye Wade?
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  Speaker 1: She did this one. I bet did they not consult
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  Speaker 1: with her family members, her sons, Like nobody it is
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  Speaker 1: ten foot tall at that, this is a big statue
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  Speaker 1: and three feet a hair. Don't play with Tina like that. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: she could have. I was about to say she could
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  Speaker 1: live without that. She can live it out that shit.
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  Speaker 1: We could live without that shit. Okay, Tina would not
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  Speaker 1: be happy if she were to see this big ass
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  Speaker 1: the hair, Hey, guys, metal hair, the.
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  Speaker 2: Same Dwayne Wade's statue. The last couple of statues came
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  Speaker 2: out was fucked this one. The Wayne Waye's in that
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  Speaker 2: statue of get that get out nigga, and he was
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  Speaker 2: in the sucker's place on the statue. What about that
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  Speaker 2: fat one in the damn New York Times statue.
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  Speaker 1: Let's let statues go.
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  Speaker 2: They I feel like they're trying to pay us back
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  Speaker 2: for taking down all of got that World War two
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  Speaker 2: criminals right from around the country. I feel like they're
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  Speaker 2: trying to pay us back. So he is resurrecting all
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  Speaker 2: his bullshit. Nobody's asking for give us the money.
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  Speaker 1: Right. That's that black girl at the time. Score.
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  Speaker 2: They ain't even put her in a qute outfit like
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  Speaker 2: leaving McDonald's.
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  Speaker 1: Like I feel like her belly was hanging out a
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  Speaker 1: little bit with her T shirt. Yeah, it was like
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  Speaker 1: the real disrespectful and love with that girl her girls.
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  Speaker 1: If you don't a statue can go to hell. So
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  Speaker 1: that's statue got on my damn nerves, y'all. Soo young
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  Speaker 1: thug is one hundred percent fulfilling his duties right because
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  Speaker 1: under his release. Yeah, under his release, and like his
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  Speaker 1: what is my brain? What's going on today?
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  Speaker 2: His his plea deal, his plea bargain. Right, there's certain things,
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  Speaker 2: certain things he has to do.
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  Speaker 1: So one of them was like, you know, community service
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  Speaker 1: and also like speaking to the youth and stuff like that.
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  Speaker 1: So he put on a concert this weekend in front
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  Speaker 1: of the Atlanta Courthouse. Okay, So Young Thug performs a
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  Speaker 1: surprise concert in front of the full courthouse. Yeah, free
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  Speaker 1: for his fans on Sunday. The rapper, who was previously
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  Speaker 1: banned from Atlanta due to the terms of his probation
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  Speaker 1: until condition was amended in December, announced the the surprise
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  Speaker 1: show on Sunday, September twenty eight. So yeah, So he
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  Speaker 1: tweeted a picture of the album cover. I'm trying to
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  Speaker 1: figure out why he lights kin on the album cover?
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  Speaker 2: What was that about? That's what I was confused. I
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  Speaker 2: thought that was someone just poking fun of him, but
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  Speaker 2: he did that himself.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know. Then he posted pictures of everybody
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  Speaker 1: else white too. I was confused. Wonder maybe he like,
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  Speaker 1: if we was white, would this happened to us?
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  Speaker 2: I don't know, had a reason with bullshit all the time.
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  Speaker 1: So I don't know why he was light skinned anyway.
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  Speaker 1: You know, because when you see some shit real quick
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  Speaker 1: on social media, like did I see that? You gotta
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  Speaker 1: go back like who's that?
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  Speaker 2: It just made me think about Sammy Sosa ViBe's carteil.
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  Speaker 2: Wasn't that Vibe Carteil? Like they're real white?
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  Speaker 1: Yes it is, so this says On the cover of Uy, Scottie,
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  Speaker 1: thug brightened his skin and gave himself blue eyes and
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  Speaker 1: a move that threw listeners off guard. After the project
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  Speaker 1: went live, Thugger posted a carousel of photos of guest
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  Speaker 1: artists who appear on the album, including a little baby, Quavo,
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  Speaker 1: Sexy Red Timagine reimagined in a sandwich style, Yeah, excuse
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  Speaker 1: me re imaged simular stop reimagined Beggar Thugger. Thugger captioned
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  Speaker 1: the post my new friends the oh because he ain't
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  Speaker 1: supposed to be around niggas.
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  Speaker 2: So not everybody white, that's what it is. Yeah, because
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  Speaker 2: they abanded them from Atlanta. But you know Atlanta.
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  Speaker 1: When we think about Atlanta is Atlanta is literally just
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  Speaker 1: a metro area, right, but you got all the other
• 13:32
  Speaker 1: you know, counties, areas, outside of Atlanta Metro Atlanta, so
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  Speaker 1: you do not actually have to. But it's not right exactly,
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  Speaker 1: So he's probably in Smyrna or I don't know, are
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  Speaker 1: actually being Brookhaven, which is Buckhead essentially. So yeah, so
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  Speaker 1: Thug hasn't given a concrete reason for the skin lightning.
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  Speaker 1: The only clue comes from an Instagram post that went
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  Speaker 1: live a few hours before the album's release, and it says,
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  Speaker 1: if you want to be the biggest go white.
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  Speaker 2: I told you I'm good. I'm good at making reason,
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  Speaker 2: making a reasonable Uh, I don't know out of bullshit?
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  Speaker 1: Again, did he not run it by nobody? Or like
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  Speaker 1: was just like is this gonna hit? You know? Like
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  Speaker 1: he his own man. You know another thing I saw
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  Speaker 1: about him today he was doing an interview with somebody
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  Speaker 1: I didn't care to go look and see. I'm sorry
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  Speaker 1: who it was, who show it was, But he basically
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  Speaker 1: said if mariot As scientists needed to go see a therapist,
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  Speaker 1: he has failed as a man, because why you need
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  Speaker 1: to go talk to somebody else? What? What? Literally? Bro, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: you're probably sent her to a therapist, right, all of this?
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  Speaker 2: Definitely she told to somebody out side of you y'all
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  Speaker 2: doing enough talking as far as I'm concerned, y'all need
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  Speaker 2: to talk to other people.
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  Speaker 1: I'll talk to damn much. But that's kind of controlling,
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  Speaker 1: like you don't want her seeking anybody, you know, because
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  Speaker 1: I think that some people who haven't actually been to
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  Speaker 1: theory meant to therapy, have a different idea about what
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  Speaker 1: therapy even is.
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  Speaker 2: Like, they really don't give you no answers. It's not
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  Speaker 2: like somebody's gonna tell her how to act or how
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  Speaker 2: to be.
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  Speaker 1: Are to think? They try to. They try to make you,
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  Speaker 1: like lead into your own resolutions.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, So it's not like somebody's gonna say, hey, you
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  Speaker 2: shouldn't be fucking with thugger.
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  Speaker 1: It's not a good man. He's been in prison, he
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  Speaker 1: has several children. We gonna do that. The therapist ain't
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  Speaker 1: gonna do that. Though, you are safe with this girl
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  Speaker 1: going to therapy, right, it might make your relationship better
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  Speaker 1: so or she might get the fuck about it here
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  Speaker 1: right anyway, it's all better. Well, what are we talking today?
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  Speaker 1: It's spooky season and we're talking about fear, not fear.
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  Speaker 1: Ghosts and goblins and ghoules are they could be one
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  Speaker 1: of your fears too, lions, right, But we're talking about
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  Speaker 1: not being afraid. If I weren't afraid, all the things.
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  Speaker 2: I could do, So let's talk about that after this
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  Speaker 2: commercial break.
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  Speaker 1: All right, y'all, we're back now. I have a question
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  Speaker 1: for you. What would you do if fear didn't exist,
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  Speaker 1: no limits, no judgment, just pure action. What would you do? So? See,
• 16:33
  Speaker 1: this is like I understand the question, but it should
• 16:38
  Speaker 1: actually read if prison didn't exist, what would you do?
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  Speaker 2: It was bitch a whole lot of shit? Okay, I'm
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  Speaker 2: afraid to go to jail. I just got a shit
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  Speaker 2: for real. The last year consequence I used to have.
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  Speaker 2: I can tell you my number one fears, and I've
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  Speaker 2: already met both. I used to always say, I'm afraid
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  Speaker 2: of God and I'm afraid of ever being homeless. Those
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  Speaker 2: were always my fears.
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  Speaker 1: And when y'all started, don't you gotta re imagine? You
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  Speaker 1: gotta reimage? You can't like when you when you create
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  Speaker 1: those things in your mind, like deep fears, you can
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  Speaker 1: and manifest them. Right, So maybe if you like, if
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  Speaker 1: you create the fear, create a solution for it at
• 17:31
  Speaker 1: the same motherfucking time. It's what I'm trying to say, right,
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  Speaker 1: so those two things I have already met and conquered
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  Speaker 1: in life. Essentially, you listen to everybody. Everybody.
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  Speaker 2: Level of homelessness is different. Okay, at your mama house,
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  Speaker 2: it's homelessness, bitch. I'm at my mama house right now,
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  Speaker 2: and I don't feel homeless.
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  Speaker 1: Bitch. I felt homeless at my mama's house. I just
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  Speaker 1: wear to god, I do.
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  Speaker 2: I'm ready for my own space again, like I've been
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  Speaker 2: here since I broke my foot, and I'm ready be already, Like,
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  Speaker 2: but I'm gonna give it till the beginning of the
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  Speaker 2: year before I jump into anything else.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, for reasons, but I get it. Homelessness is a
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  Speaker 1: great I think that's a fear across the board for Americans,
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  Speaker 1: and I don't think it was really Okay. I've never
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  Speaker 1: been homeless. Okay, Okay, as long as my mom is breathing,
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  Speaker 1: I'll never be homeless, right, But there is something freeing
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  Speaker 1: right about not having to like pay to live life
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  Speaker 1: for real. You could just go so wherever, Like I've
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: never lived any place for free, including my mama's house,
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  Speaker 1: okay September, but I was able to pick up and
• 18:41
  Speaker 1: go and do what the fuck I want. I feel
• 18:43
  Speaker 1: like everybody should backpack in life at some point.
• 18:46
  Speaker 2: This yeah, this last year, all right, So September is
• 18:49
  Speaker 2: the first month that I haven't paid rent, and that
• 18:53
  Speaker 2: shit felt good. I ain't gonna hold that shit felt nice.
• 18:56
  Speaker 2: I'm like, I don't owe anybody thousands of dollars.
• 19:00
  Speaker 1: Before the right look at God, that shit was.
• 19:04
  Speaker 2: But I also cannot smoke weed or walk around and
• 19:11
  Speaker 2: naked with a man, So there's that.
• 19:14
  Speaker 1: So there is a trade off. Yeah, man, I just
• 19:18
  Speaker 1: like those were my biggest fears, and since being past
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: those things, I've had other fears. Right, I would say
• 19:27
  Speaker 1: one of one of my biggest fears that I've had
• 19:31
  Speaker 1: to overcome to move forward is literally just asking people
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: for help when you need it. That has always been
• 19:42
  Speaker 1: one of my biggest fears. Now I'm always the person
• 19:44
  Speaker 1: anybody can come to. I don't know it's because of
• 19:46
  Speaker 1: I don't know. I make it comfortable. It's just like,
• 19:48
  Speaker 1: I just know for a fact that people don't ask
• 19:50
  Speaker 1: people for shit that they think gonna say no.
• 19:53
  Speaker 2: So every once in a while, shock the motherfucker a while,
• 19:56
  Speaker 2: be like no, you wasn't you wasn't you wasn't thinking
• 19:59
  Speaker 2: I was gonna.
• 20:00
  Speaker 1: Say no this time. Yes, sometimes I will say no.
• 20:02
  Speaker 1: But I've always been the person people can come to.
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: But I can't think of anybody that I can go
• 20:07
  Speaker 1: to a lot of the times, like who ain't more
• 20:11
  Speaker 1: fucked up than me? And sometimes help is not always monetary,
• 20:15
  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. It's just like needing help
• 20:17
  Speaker 1: with a project or something like that, like finding somebody
• 20:20
  Speaker 1: who's gonna, I don't know, barter some services off. Just
• 20:23
  Speaker 1: asking somebody else for help has always been a big
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: struggle for me. I got some friends that really know
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: how to how to give work to other people, Like
• 20:34
  Speaker 1: what is the word I'm looking for? How to delegate? Really? Well,
• 20:39
  Speaker 1: that's me. I'm a delicate but I don't have a
• 20:42
  Speaker 1: problem with it.
• 20:43
  Speaker 2: But I had to learn it too, because I found
• 20:45
  Speaker 2: myself in a hallway carrying a bunch of shit crying
• 20:48
  Speaker 2: somebody else's shit, crying because I was so overwhelmed with life,
• 20:53
  Speaker 2: like I'm over extending myself to other people so much
• 20:57
  Speaker 2: that I'm gonna I'm about to make myself sick. And
• 21:00
  Speaker 2: then after that, Babe, some shit changed, and now are
• 21:04
  Speaker 2: like when people come to me for shit, I'll help
• 21:07
  Speaker 2: them navigate all the other options.
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: We can sit down and talk about all the other options.
• 21:13
  Speaker 2: Un let's see if we've exhausted those. And if we
• 21:15
  Speaker 2: have exhausted all of those, then I'll help.
• 21:20
  Speaker 1: Like money is the easiest thing for me to help with,
• 21:22
  Speaker 1: right because some people I just know, like, I'm gonna
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: get this money back, probably not from this person, but
• 21:29
  Speaker 1: I will get that money back before they would ever
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: see it, before they could ever pay me back. I'll
• 21:34
  Speaker 1: already have that money back. I just can make money
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: quicker than them, right. I know that about some people,
• 21:41
  Speaker 1: but my time, that's one thing I really like stend
• 21:44
  Speaker 1: you with nowadays because I would literally do shit for
• 21:47
  Speaker 1: people I don know, I feel like fucking doing now
• 21:49
  Speaker 1: know what's complete statement? My mom told me I was selfish,
• 21:53
  Speaker 1: and I'm like, you don't even really know me for real, right,
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: because nobody, none of my friends would say that Ashley
• 22:01
  Speaker 1: is selfish. Nobody would say that, right, But if you
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: want help her, cut grass girl, you selfish, Like, I'll
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: pay for somebody to come do it. But that is
• 22:09
  Speaker 1: not what I want to do with my Saturday. Sorry, right,
• 22:13
  Speaker 1: Like you're doing that ship for a workout, I'm gonna
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: go to the gym. We're air conditioning, but time. Like,
• 22:19
  Speaker 1: if somebody pick you up from the airport on time
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: or help you move like, they really love you. Like
• 22:23
  Speaker 1: I will do those things any airport.
• 22:25
  Speaker 2: Pick if they pick you up from the airport, they
• 22:27
  Speaker 2: fuck with you for real heavy.
• 22:30
  Speaker 1: Or take you want? Help you move, bitch. If somebody
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: come and help you move or pass, they really love you.
• 22:38
  Speaker 2: And if someone clean your house for you, they love you.
• 22:41
  Speaker 2: Huh what to clean my friends houses? Really, I haven't
• 22:46
  Speaker 2: done it in a long time, though, I'll think about it.
• 22:49
  Speaker 2: But I definitely have friends where I come in and
• 22:52
  Speaker 2: clean their whole house for them.
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: Now, I have cleaned the space i'm ana being in
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: someone's house. But to say I'm coming into another grown
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: woman's house and cleaning it. No, Now, if I come
• 23:02
  Speaker 1: and the bathroom is not to my liking, Like, don't
• 23:05
  Speaker 1: even worry about a baby, I'm cleaning. I'm cleaning the
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: area i'm ana being, but the whole house? Are you
• 23:10
  Speaker 1: a good friend? Job I have? I've definitely cleaned. I'm
• 23:13
  Speaker 1: talking shit, I'm like, why is this like that? Why
• 23:16
  Speaker 1: how long this spend? Like that house? Yeah, I've done it.
• 23:23
  Speaker 1: Hit they just do when they try to get a
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: guy to fall in love with them. They be over
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: there cooking and cleaning. The cooking and cleaning and near
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: your house not cleaning. That's bad. Okay, So now you
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: clean your friend's south, I will clean the nigga's house.
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna spend a lot of time over it, and I'm
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: just really just trying to make it comfortable for me.
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: It's not even for him. Still, it's not for you.
• 23:48
  Speaker 1: This dude I used to fuck with. If you're listening,
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: it was months year, a whole year in between us
• 23:58
  Speaker 1: seeing each other, And when I got to his place,
• 24:01
  Speaker 1: it's like nobody had touched that bathroom since I left
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: a year ago, because I would clean the bathroom all
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: the time. And when I got that, I'm like, who
• 24:12
  Speaker 1: is letting you fuck them with this bathroom? Like this?
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: Who letting you fuck them? I had let him fuck me,
• 24:22
  Speaker 1: but just one time because I was already there. But
• 24:29
  Speaker 1: who playing you fucking the regular? What this like? They're
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: not uthom when they come right that part.
• 24:36
  Speaker 2: Jesus Like, if you go to a manhouse and you
• 24:39
  Speaker 2: feel like you gotta hover up all of his toilet
• 24:41
  Speaker 2: to use it, you probably shouldn't have sex on him.
• 24:44
  Speaker 1: Hell don't know. And I'm pissing on your floor.
• 24:46
  Speaker 2: Okay, I'm pissing all over your toilet. See, I'm just
• 24:50
  Speaker 2: treating your ship like you do. I'm pissing all over
• 24:53
  Speaker 2: this shit.
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: Guad station. This is sphinx bathroom. Bitch. This is no
• 25:01
  Speaker 1: fucking nigger of mine. Did you hear that?
• 25:04
  Speaker 2: Er?
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: This is no nigger of mine? That are crazy? All right?
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: What's one of my fears. I'm gonna share it with y'all.
• 25:13
  Speaker 2: And this is hard for me to say, and it's
• 25:15
  Speaker 2: probably reflected in my social media. I fear look here ugly.
• 25:24
  Speaker 1: I far it like.
• 25:26
  Speaker 2: So I'm like, I'm so self conscious about how I
• 25:28
  Speaker 2: look on social media that I don't I end up
• 25:30
  Speaker 2: not posting nothing.
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: I'll take a picture, I'd be.
• 25:32
  Speaker 2: Like, that's cute, and then I'll analyze it seventeen thousand
• 25:35
  Speaker 2: different ways, and then I'll be like, I'm not posting that.
• 25:39
  Speaker 2: I would take outfit picks and I swear I'm the
• 25:41
  Speaker 2: baddest bitch in my outfit and feel like the baddest
• 25:43
  Speaker 2: bitch out in my outfit, and then I look at
• 25:45
  Speaker 2: myself in the picture and I'll be like, yours.
• 25:48
  Speaker 1: Not you, girl, it's the fucking iPhone camera. I already
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: told you that shit. They fucking with our perception, so
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: we use these stupid ass filters. I know I look
• 25:58
  Speaker 1: bad in person than I do on the Internet.
• 26:00
  Speaker 2: Yes, Internet, I'm too much finer than the Internet. And
• 26:04
  Speaker 2: then when I think videos. All right, so, y'all, I
• 26:07
  Speaker 2: got a nice smile, but these two bottom teeth, they
• 26:10
  Speaker 2: like the wisdoms tooth start growing in and they started shifting.
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: And I feel like, curry b I'll be wearing low shirts.
• 26:16
  Speaker 2: So you don't look at my bottom teeth because they cricketies.
• 26:21
  Speaker 1: There, cut it out.
• 26:23
  Speaker 2: They still looking at your face, girl, the face. They
• 26:26
  Speaker 2: looking at your smile, and don't nobody see them fucking teeth. Okay, no, no,
• 26:32
  Speaker 2: we we stole hard on that stuff.
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: No I can. I can say I have sort of
• 26:36
  Speaker 1: the same fear. Right. First of all, I don't like
• 26:38
  Speaker 1: people my fucking life for real. But recently I saw
• 26:42
  Speaker 1: this girl's Instagram and she was big, honey, pretty face, okay,
• 26:47
  Speaker 1: big pretty, but stomach out Kuchie cut is on. She
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: in the drive through, in the driveway in her house.
• 26:53
  Speaker 1: She's like, fuck y'all, bitches, y'all just mad. Then I
• 26:56
  Speaker 1: don't give a funk.
• 26:57
  Speaker 2: Y'all mad because I can get on here, look like
• 27:00
  Speaker 2: I'm looking and not give a damn. Had hell of
• 27:03
  Speaker 2: followers and people like authenticity, right, So of course if
• 27:09
  Speaker 2: we could just wake up and get on live, shit
• 27:12
  Speaker 2: would be lit.
• 27:13
  Speaker 1: And not give a fuck. That's why I aspired to
• 27:15
  Speaker 1: you for I don't want to.
• 27:18
  Speaker 2: I do I want to, I want to not. I
• 27:19
  Speaker 2: want to get online. I want to get on my
• 27:21
  Speaker 2: I g lap and not give a single solitary fuck.
• 27:25
  Speaker 1: I want that, but I can't. It's so difficult. What's
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: unpack that a little bit? Because I feel like I
• 27:34
  Speaker 1: just you know how people be talking shit about women
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: wearing hair and make up all the shit, Like, bitch,
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna look like I'm going to a wedding every
• 27:41
  Speaker 1: fucking day, the same shit y'all natural bitches do y'all
• 27:43
  Speaker 1: when y'all gotta go to a wedding, y'all go, get
• 27:45
  Speaker 1: y'all a bus down, y'all, putash on top of y'all, dredge, y'all,
• 27:49
  Speaker 1: putsh on top of y'all, uh low cuts, Like I
• 27:52
  Speaker 1: want to look like that every day? What's wrong with that?
• 27:56
  Speaker 1: What's wrong with that? Nothing? I want to I want
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: to present my best every day, and I feel like
• 28:01
  Speaker 1: even like in relationships, like I remember my ex telling
• 28:04
  Speaker 1: me basically basically like not to wear my wigs. He
• 28:09
  Speaker 1: just want me to be comfortable. I'm comfortable like this.
• 28:11
  Speaker 2: I'm not gonna be comfortable walking around with this shit,
• 28:14
  Speaker 2: this untreated ass fucking here.
• 28:17
  Speaker 1: Okay, this shit as little as a motherfucker. I mean
• 28:20
  Speaker 1: it's stretches, but as little as I'm not comfortable. Yes,
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be comfortable like that. So what you
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: really think you're gonna do is like you think you
• 28:30
  Speaker 1: can take my swag. That's the cutting of the wig,
• 28:33
  Speaker 1: right he thought he was like taking my swag, No, bitch, like,
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: I'm still mean with without the fucking wig. I just
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: feel better when I look like I'm going to a
• 28:43
  Speaker 1: fucking wedding. And why would you not want your bitch
• 28:46
  Speaker 1: to feel good about yourself right at all times?
• 28:50
  Speaker 2: But I think they want us to feel good about ourselves.
• 28:54
  Speaker 2: And it's full authenticity without weave, without lashes, without makeup, without.
• 29:00
  Speaker 1: If all black women started pulling up just like that,
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: these niggas would definitely be leaving the community and droves
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: even more than they are now. That ain't with y'all.
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: Don't want y'all mama. It's your mama up under this wig. Nigga.
• 29:16
  Speaker 1: You don't want your mama. You want a bad bitch.
• 29:19
  Speaker 1: And all my ninge on my hinge.
• 29:23
  Speaker 2: I like, I was courageous, right, And I was like,
• 29:25
  Speaker 2: I need these niggas to see me how.
• 29:27
  Speaker 1: I am right?
• 29:29
  Speaker 2: So I put one picture of myself of me in
• 29:32
  Speaker 2: a robe. It was you couldn't see all the robe, right,
• 29:35
  Speaker 2: but it was no, it was like you all these dates, bitch.
• 29:38
  Speaker 1: It was my top, just the top, not even but
• 29:41
  Speaker 1: you could see the top of my rope.
• 29:43
  Speaker 2: And I have on a bonnet and it's okay, And
• 29:47
  Speaker 2: like my edges is nappy and gray coming out in
• 29:50
  Speaker 2: front of the bonnet.
• 29:52
  Speaker 1: And when I tell you, the niggas is on that picture, No,
• 29:54
  Speaker 1: nigga's definitely like an ugly bitch, okay. And I'm saying ugly,
• 29:57
  Speaker 1: Like how weed are feeling ugly? No?
• 30:00
  Speaker 2: How you don't like when you know when you look
• 30:02
  Speaker 2: not looking the best and niggas be on you like
• 30:05
  Speaker 2: target so much. Picture, Yeah, and I'm surprised, like that
• 30:09
  Speaker 2: surprised me because I'm like, damn, that is just me,
• 30:11
  Speaker 2: like literally, in my mind, the most basic looking version
• 30:18
  Speaker 2: of myself, and it's all kinds of fishures in me
• 30:20
  Speaker 2: and workout gear and like looking you know, the dresses
• 30:24
  Speaker 2: on there and the one with me just in a
• 30:26
  Speaker 2: bonnet is like getting all the love.
• 30:28
  Speaker 1: I'm like, oh shit, well.
• 30:29
  Speaker 2: Maybe it ain't that bad out here when you got
• 30:31
  Speaker 2: like a mama and that one probably you just look
• 30:34
  Speaker 2: like you ready to be a wife.
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: Wife. I feel like, why should not be walking around
• 30:38
  Speaker 1: all day with bond ands on? Okay?
• 30:41
  Speaker 2: Men like you gotta feel, yes, you gotta bitch. If
• 30:46
  Speaker 2: you don't make it a fantasy for your nigga, he
• 30:48
  Speaker 2: can go look for one so and make sure make
• 30:50
  Speaker 2: sure you remain a fantasy. Men should na see all
• 30:53
  Speaker 2: the things? Why this nigga this weekend? He was like,
• 30:56
  Speaker 2: he was like, I almost.
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: Saw your hair today, bitch.
• 30:59
  Speaker 2: When I tell you I took that bonnet off and
• 31:01
  Speaker 2: put my hat weg on so quick, I mean you
• 31:04
  Speaker 2: missed it. And I was like, you wouldn't have seen
• 31:06
  Speaker 2: it anyway because I got a stocking cap or talking.
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: You don't let them see your hair, not if it's
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: not first first of all. Like, right now, what I've
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: been doing is just slicking my shit back in the
• 31:16
  Speaker 1: point you tell it. I should not even like braided.
• 31:18
  Speaker 1: It's just like real rough right now. I am looking
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: for like somebody who specialized not your hairshit is cool,
• 31:26
  Speaker 1: but you do have to take care of your hair.
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: You do have to get treatments and stuff like that,
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: and I just haven't been. I haven't been taking care
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: of my hair. So I'm looking for somebody that I
• 31:36
  Speaker 1: can start a regimen with and take care of my
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: actual hair. But right now, it's no shape. It's just
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: bit you you know, you know what time it is,
• 31:47
  Speaker 1: so you sleep in your wing or you take it
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: off and just put on the hell no about it.
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: Oh no, that is miserable. No, I'm past that part, Lie.
• 31:54
  Speaker 1: Especially if we listen to list when I was like
• 31:58
  Speaker 1: just wags off.
• 31:59
  Speaker 2: We would have man for the first time. And I
• 32:01
  Speaker 2: have them I'm wearing a wig. I let them know,
• 32:03
  Speaker 2: like when I come out the bathroom, my wig is
• 32:07
  Speaker 2: gonna stay in there, and I'm gonna put on a
• 32:10
  Speaker 2: bonnet or I might not. I want you to treat
• 32:15
  Speaker 2: my bonnet like a crown. Okay, that's what it is.
• 32:19
  Speaker 2: And don't be alarmed by the hair hanging up in there.
• 32:22
  Speaker 2: It's the long you're gonna be on my fucking head
• 32:23
  Speaker 2: because I cannot sleep like that. Yeah, but I don't
• 32:27
  Speaker 2: want to have sex without my hair though, Yeah.
• 32:30
  Speaker 1: Bitch, because who ain't in there like a porn star
• 32:33
  Speaker 1: like flipping that shit. And don't pull it too hard,
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: but pull it. Yeah, we will barrow this pussy in
• 32:37
  Speaker 1: his hair, thank you.
• 32:39
  Speaker 2: But I remember my last boyfriend. He used to do
• 32:42
  Speaker 2: it on purpose. He used to piss me off, like
• 32:43
  Speaker 2: when we were having sex, like dogy style, he'd take
• 32:47
  Speaker 2: my wig off and put it on his head. Stop
• 32:52
  Speaker 2: gay back my fucking hair ruining it for me?
• 32:56
  Speaker 1: Let me find out you be wearing my shit when
• 32:57
  Speaker 1: I'm home. Look cute on you though, Stop, I remember
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: somebody's pulling my hair so hard, Like Okay, I'll glue
• 33:04
  Speaker 1: my wigs down sometimes and sometimes I don't, and I
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: have my shit blue down and nigga yanked me. Are
• 33:14
  Speaker 1: are you well?
• 33:14
  Speaker 2: I don't know, wags, you're a bitch at the house
• 33:16
  Speaker 2: where But why are you pulling my hair hard like that?
• 33:19
  Speaker 1: Like it's attached to my scalp? So like days where
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: I actually blew my shit down. Of course, I might
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: have to wear it to bed, like I wore my
• 33:28
  Speaker 1: hair to bed last night because I had shit to
• 33:29
  Speaker 1: do today. But on a regular day, no, I'm taking
• 33:32
  Speaker 1: that shit off. Have you ever remember I do having
• 33:35
  Speaker 1: a bonnet? Have you ever missed an opportunity because of
• 33:38
  Speaker 1: fear or delayed the goal or you know what? I
• 33:43
  Speaker 1: as an adult, I feel like I you know, I,
• 33:46
  Speaker 1: I definitely don't execute on all opportunities. And it's not
• 33:50
  Speaker 1: out of fear, though, it's out of fucking procrastination and laziness.
• 33:53
  Speaker 1: That's what I'm fighting more than fear every fucking day.
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: But I can remember as a child, and I recently
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: I was saying as how adults are really just dream killers.
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I remember like things I
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: wanted to do as a kid, and I was talked
• 34:05
  Speaker 1: out of doing it because of somebody else's fear. It
• 34:09
  Speaker 1: was never my fear, bitch. I've been a big personality.
• 34:12
  Speaker 1: So that's why if you don't have a parent to
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: cultivate that, you know, because of their fears not sharing
• 34:19
  Speaker 1: all your goals. Yeah, now you grow up, Yeah, that.
• 34:23
  Speaker 2: People will unlock a new fear for you that you
• 34:26
  Speaker 2: didn't even have just by you sharing your dreams with them. Right, Okay,
• 34:30
  Speaker 2: new fear a lot.
• 34:32
  Speaker 1: Right. I was talking to my homegirl today because she's
• 34:34
  Speaker 1: a whole fucking psychologist. Bitch. If you listening, sometimes I
• 34:37
  Speaker 1: have to be like, hey, because this bitch want map out.
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: She will map out her whole entire life. Like I'm
• 34:42
  Speaker 1: not like, I'm kind of like, go with the flow, bitch,
• 34:45
  Speaker 1: you figure it out. We got some time, She got
• 34:48
  Speaker 1: a whole I'm like, listen, I don't have all the
• 34:51
  Speaker 1: answers right now that you're asking me, like you're trying
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: to force me to map out the next nine fucking
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: ten months while I'm driving on the highway. I don't
• 35:00
  Speaker 1: got it. Don't ask me. Shit, I don't know what's
• 35:04
  Speaker 1: gonna happen, but it'll be figured out when it needs
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: to be. I have some procrastinations, my problem.
• 35:15
  Speaker 2: I have some fears that I'm gonna share that are
• 35:17
  Speaker 2: gonna go. It's a little deeper, y'all, but we family
• 35:21
  Speaker 2: all here, and I'm gonna tell y'all my truth. This
• 35:23
  Speaker 2: is what this space is for. I fear.
• 35:27
  Speaker 1: I'm afraid to be a mother, and I'm afraid not
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: to be a mother. Mm. Interesting, I'm not afraid to
• 35:36
  Speaker 1: like raise a child.
• 35:38
  Speaker 2: I'm afraid of trying to have a child, like actually
• 35:42
  Speaker 2: the physical part of just because of my experience with
• 35:45
  Speaker 2: it before.
• 35:46
  Speaker 1: That scares me.
• 35:47
  Speaker 2: Then I'm afraid of picking a bad partner. M That
• 35:52
  Speaker 2: scares the shit out of me. But then I'm also
• 35:56
  Speaker 2: scared that what if I I'm like, I'm getting older,
• 36:00
  Speaker 2: what if I never become a mom? So those are
• 36:03
  Speaker 2: real life fears for me. What if you get a
• 36:05
  Speaker 2: serial killer? I mean you just never fucking know what She's.
• 36:09
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you're just gonna have to go with with God.
• 36:15
  Speaker 2: Because I mean, like when we're thinking about the simple oldfairs,
• 36:17
  Speaker 2: like shit could get worse.
• 36:19
  Speaker 1: That's why, Like it'd be like the little things that
• 36:21
  Speaker 1: harass me. It's not ever like the big things. I
• 36:25
  Speaker 1: don't think. Okay, I've been past the fear of not
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: having children because I've had two tuber pregnancies years ago. Right,
• 36:33
  Speaker 1: I'm forty one now, and it's like that's just the reality.
• 36:37
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna get this bag though. I got two nieces
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: and a nephew, and I want to see them very,
• 36:43
  Speaker 1: very happy. Right, So if that's the way I gotta go.
• 36:47
  Speaker 1: I gotta go that route. I don't think it's Also,
• 36:49
  Speaker 1: it's not selfish for like say Frans is either one
• 36:52
  Speaker 1: or like I don't want to kids, this's over with.
• 36:53
  Speaker 1: I don't even fuck it. It's not selfish. It's not selfish
• 36:56
  Speaker 1: to not want to be responsible for somebody else for
• 36:58
  Speaker 1: the rest of your life, like your fucking life changes.
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: And without having had a kid yet, like I'm a
• 37:05
  Speaker 1: mother at heart, I'm a mom, like, so it.
• 37:08
  Speaker 2: Doesn't scare me to actually have to have a kid.
• 37:11
  Speaker 2: And and but they don't stay little. You know, you're
• 37:15
  Speaker 2: gonna add with a teenager.
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: I've always wanted a seven year old though, so I
• 37:19
  Speaker 1: can stay. My mama said, like, that's all I want.
• 37:24
  Speaker 1: My little girl will be saying, Well, my mama said, it's.
• 37:27
  Speaker 2: Not the raising the kid that it's the physical part
• 37:30
  Speaker 2: of trying to push a kid into the world.
• 37:32
  Speaker 1: I can't wait.
• 37:33
  Speaker 2: That's security because I just my experience with it was
• 37:37
  Speaker 2: just not a healthy one, you know.
• 37:38
  Speaker 1: So yeah, I can't wait. And I'm gonna do it
• 37:41
  Speaker 1: in the house in the pool. You're a bad bitch,
• 37:44
  Speaker 1: epidual me right now. Give me all Martyn medicine and drugs,
• 37:49
  Speaker 1: and you know, because I've had a tuer pregnancy and
• 37:51
  Speaker 1: I've actually been cut before, like the doctors will now
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: be inclined to like try to make me do like
• 37:57
  Speaker 1: a C section if I were to have a kid,
• 37:59
  Speaker 1: like I want to push not having no sea section
• 38:01
  Speaker 1: unless than my fucking stepping out this coochie feet first
• 38:04
  Speaker 1: like I did my mama. Okay, then I'll do a
• 38:06
  Speaker 1: sea section if they like breached or something like that.
• 38:09
  Speaker 1: You're not about to do a sea section around your
• 38:12
  Speaker 1: schedule because you got vacation is to I don't know
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: Italy next month, and that's what they be doing, scheduling
• 38:19
  Speaker 1: your child's birth around in their life, right the other
• 38:23
  Speaker 1: way around. Yeah, what else? I fear picking the wrong partner.
• 38:29
  Speaker 2: I don't pick nobody, and then you just gotta pick
• 38:33
  Speaker 2: him in it. If it's not right, you just do
• 38:35
  Speaker 2: it again.
• 38:37
  Speaker 1: I just can't pick. I just struggle with picking.
• 38:40
  Speaker 2: So I'm always like dating people who are I'm always
• 38:45
  Speaker 2: entertaining people who I don't see future with. Like I'll
• 38:49
  Speaker 2: be like, oh, he's so young, this is fun. We'll
• 38:51
  Speaker 2: do that, but he's too young to be serious about
• 38:54
  Speaker 2: or he's cool, he's.
• 38:56
  Speaker 1: Not talking keep talking so you can hear you bullshit.
• 38:59
  Speaker 1: Keep talking.
• 38:59
  Speaker 2: I'm going I'm being honest right now, I'm being right. Yeah,
• 39:04
  Speaker 2: But I like my shit, you know my shit. My
• 39:07
  Speaker 2: fear is when it comes to relationships. I just I've
• 39:10
  Speaker 2: never been in a relationship where I wasn't forced. You
• 39:14
  Speaker 2: don't that, so I have to here with relationships. But
• 39:19
  Speaker 2: then I'm also afraid to get alone by myself. Yeah,
• 39:23
  Speaker 2: it's just so stupid, and it's so contradictory and so dumb.
• 39:27
  Speaker 1: I just fear of picking the wrong partner. So I mean,
• 39:31
  Speaker 1: I guess I'm past that because I did that shit
• 39:33
  Speaker 1: a lot. Why not at another you know what I'm saying.
• 39:36
  Speaker 1: That's really how I be feeling. Boy Like, I love
• 39:39
  Speaker 1: love like. I'm never afraid to do it again. I
• 39:42
  Speaker 1: am never I will love like I've never been hurt before,
• 39:45
  Speaker 1: and I'm gonna keep doing it. I don't give a
• 39:47
  Speaker 1: fuck if I'm one hundred bitch, if I'm unhappy in
• 39:49
  Speaker 1: this marriage, I'm getting a fuck up out of there. Recently,
• 39:51
  Speaker 1: one hundred year old man or ninety something year old
• 39:54
  Speaker 1: man divorced his He's ninety six or something. His wife
• 39:58
  Speaker 1: is like ninety two and he divorced her because he.
• 40:00
  Speaker 2: Found out that she cheated thirty or sixty years in
• 40:04
  Speaker 2: the fucking past.
• 40:07
  Speaker 1: That'll be me. I'm not happy here. I'm one hundred
• 40:10
  Speaker 1: cave or walk cootie dry.
• 40:12
  Speaker 2: I'm out of there. Yeah, I'm gonna start again, and
• 40:15
  Speaker 2: I think I can get me another nigga.
• 40:16
  Speaker 1: Like I've been past that fear of standing in situations.
• 40:20
  Speaker 1: I don't even get you fucking long. I'm so scared.
• 40:22
  Speaker 1: I don't even get in this situation.
• 40:24
  Speaker 2: Like if something about stay that, I won't even go
• 40:27
  Speaker 2: in that motherfucker try one.
• 40:30
  Speaker 1: Just just pick go on and see what happens.
• 40:32
  Speaker 2: I'm like, all right, So the movie guy, mm hm
• 40:36
  Speaker 2: sentia there, Okay, he yeah, there's potential there, so we'll see.
• 40:42
  Speaker 2: And I just watched that Boaz and Roof and y'all,
• 40:44
  Speaker 2: y'all need to watch that. I cried so hard watching
• 40:47
  Speaker 2: that movie because I was like, yeah, I want to
• 40:49
  Speaker 2: be in I'm like that it was so beautiful and
• 40:52
  Speaker 2: that man, it's so fine.
• 40:54
  Speaker 1: And what's her name? I don't even know the movie.
• 40:58
  Speaker 1: You mentioned it to me today and I hadn't even It's.
• 41:02
  Speaker 2: Like soyah soriah her she's so beautiful and Tyre.
• 41:07
  Speaker 1: Lepley is just a god. He's in there and he
• 41:11
  Speaker 1: plays bowl ass.
• 41:14
  Speaker 2: And I'm like, oh, yes, yes, send me that guy,
• 41:20
  Speaker 2: And that would just make you want to pray and
• 41:22
  Speaker 2: just be very you know, sincere about what you want
• 41:27
  Speaker 2: from a partner and who you want to be as
• 41:29
  Speaker 2: a partner. You know who you want to show up as,
• 41:31
  Speaker 2: so you know that.
• 41:33
  Speaker 1: You got to be what you want. Right. So we
• 41:35
  Speaker 1: be having all these demands as women and you suck
• 41:38
  Speaker 1: run and run into somebody right that you wrote down.
• 41:40
  Speaker 1: If you want all these things out of them and
• 41:42
  Speaker 1: you're not ready as a woman for that type of man,
• 41:45
  Speaker 1: you gotta make sure you're ready for that type of man. Also, yep,
• 41:49
  Speaker 1: because that type of nigga comes like, ah, this bit stupid,
• 41:53
  Speaker 1: Like but don't know what you want, don't I don't
• 41:58
  Speaker 1: know what You gotta be sure you be decisive. You
• 42:01
  Speaker 1: know that part? Yeah, man. So that's something that's my fears.
• 42:04
  Speaker 1: That's like and.
• 42:07
  Speaker 2: Another one that I'm really gonna share with y'all. I'll
• 42:12
  Speaker 2: be scared of like getting sick or being really sick.
• 42:19
  Speaker 2: That's a fear, like I'm sure everybody's scared to get
• 42:21
  Speaker 2: sick and be really sick and be. I don't want
• 42:24
  Speaker 2: to be It's the word I'm looking for.
• 42:28
  Speaker 1: Burden. Yes, you took it right over my tongue. I
• 42:31
  Speaker 1: don't want to be a burden. Mm hmm. That's a
• 42:34
  Speaker 1: fear of mine. So I don't want to be alive
• 42:38
  Speaker 1: and sick. I'm not afraid to die, and I feel
• 42:40
  Speaker 1: like once you conquered the fair of death, you can
• 42:44
  Speaker 1: do anything on this planet. Okay, I'm more afraid of
• 42:47
  Speaker 1: prison than death. So it's my time to get the
• 42:50
  Speaker 1: fuck up out of here. I'm out of here. But
• 42:52
  Speaker 1: I do not want that's a fear of mine, to
• 42:55
  Speaker 1: be alive and sick, not to be sick, because I
• 42:58
  Speaker 1: feel like my body's gonna always fight me to have to, like, yes,
• 43:02
  Speaker 1: be a burden heard at somebody else, especially having children
• 43:05
  Speaker 1: and stuff like that, you know, like you know, just
• 43:08
  Speaker 1: I look at my parents. My my mama is in
• 43:11
  Speaker 1: pretty good health for her age, though she doesn't think
• 43:14
  Speaker 1: she is. She's in really good health. My stepdad not
• 43:20
  Speaker 1: so much, my daddy not so much, and my daddy
• 43:22
  Speaker 1: wife like shit, she's our age. Okay, I'm so grateful
• 43:26
  Speaker 1: that she exists because she could take care of him,
• 43:30
  Speaker 1: I wouldn't have to, but I think, uh, I wouldn't
• 43:36
  Speaker 1: want my kids to have to take care of me.
• 43:38
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't want nobody. I don't want anybody to
• 43:41
  Speaker 2: slow anybody's life down because they taking care of me.
• 43:45
  Speaker 1: That's a fear, you know. Yeah, that's a real fear. Mm.
• 43:50
  Speaker 2: But nonetheless, I just be out here living like I'm fearless. Though,
• 43:56
  Speaker 2: But what else do you do?
• 43:57
  Speaker 1: You know?
• 43:58
  Speaker 2: But when it comes to that social media shit, y'all,
• 44:01
  Speaker 2: I just gotta lock it again because I know I
• 44:05
  Speaker 2: like both of us, we should both have at least
• 44:08
  Speaker 2: one hundred thousand followers by now.
• 44:11
  Speaker 1: We should. We just want the money though. I'm gonna
• 44:14
  Speaker 1: tell y'all, I'm gonna be honest with y'all. Be honest,
• 44:17
  Speaker 1: be honest, fucking honest. I want to have enough money
• 44:24
  Speaker 1: so motherfuckers can't see me. I don't want like that
• 44:29
  Speaker 1: is not like this, And I know that's where we're
• 44:31
  Speaker 1: headed at with like AI and you know, getting rid
• 44:34
  Speaker 1: of actual jobs, Like you're going to literally be a
• 44:36
  Speaker 1: job now, right, so you're gonna have to figure out
• 44:38
  Speaker 1: a way to sell yourself to make money. That is
• 44:42
  Speaker 1: where we are with the social media, and not the
• 44:44
  Speaker 1: way you used to do it, like right used to shit, bitch,
• 44:50
  Speaker 1: I just tell them a loved one girl.
• 44:53
  Speaker 2: Get each white of them niggas you fucking on to
• 44:55
  Speaker 2: give you a hundred dollars at least?
• 44:57
  Speaker 1: That ain't even no money. I challenge that, bitch. I
• 45:00
  Speaker 1: love you girl, I challenged her. I said, listen, dollars,
• 45:05
  Speaker 1: there ain't no fucking money. Remember one year they had
• 45:08
  Speaker 1: a winter cold challenge. They have bitches hitting up the
• 45:11
  Speaker 1: nigga ain't fucking asking for on winter. Niggas was really
• 45:13
  Speaker 1: curving bitches by the winter cold. And you are in
• 45:17
  Speaker 1: the winter. A lot of y'all bitches fear asking niggas
• 45:20
  Speaker 1: for money. And that's where y'all got me fucked up
• 45:23
  Speaker 1: at now. I'm not I don't really ask men for money,
• 45:26
  Speaker 1: But I'm not fucking with somebody I know wouldn't give
• 45:28
  Speaker 1: me money if I need it. Okay, that's a difference.
• 45:32
  Speaker 1: I'm not fucking with. I'm not fucking with somebody who
• 45:33
  Speaker 1: can't at least take care of themselves, and I'm not
• 45:36
  Speaker 1: fucking with somebody who doesn't have the means if I
• 45:39
  Speaker 1: happen to need something, because I don't have a fear
• 45:41
  Speaker 1: of asking. I just don't because I feel like you
• 45:44
  Speaker 1: should just do because yeah, but they're gonna ask us
• 45:48
  Speaker 1: for anything they want without fear, without record, so I
• 45:51
  Speaker 1: don't have. You're gonna put like a little weird laugh
• 45:55
  Speaker 1: behind its. Yeah, and I'm mouth and your ears and
• 46:01
  Speaker 1: your fucking knows if they wanted you want to ask
• 46:03
  Speaker 1: for it. So stop having fear of the energy your youth.
• 46:09
  Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, they were, so I don't have no fear
• 46:13
  Speaker 2: of asking, and I'll be real.
• 46:18
  Speaker 1: How you doing? Tell me just how to ask for money? Tim, Hey, baby,
• 46:24
  Speaker 1: how are your day? And that's good? That's good. M
• 46:29
  Speaker 1: Did you had fun last night? I had such a
• 46:32
  Speaker 1: good time. Yeah. I want to ask you something. Remember
• 46:39
  Speaker 1: I told you about that thing I needed. I really
• 46:43
  Speaker 1: really would appreciate it if you could help me with that. Now.
• 46:47
  Speaker 2: If you can't, it's fine, but if you could, it
• 46:50
  Speaker 2: would make me really really happy.
• 46:53
  Speaker 1: Okay, thank you, I really appreciate me. And listen, don't
• 46:58
  Speaker 1: text people asking them money. You call them. You verbally
• 47:02
  Speaker 1: call And as I don't like somebody texting me about money,
• 47:05
  Speaker 1: I need you to call me and ask me verbally
• 47:08
  Speaker 1: for my damn money. I'm not gonna ask you what for.
• 47:10
  Speaker 1: I have no extra questions. If I can do it,
• 47:12
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna do it. If I can, I can't. If
• 47:14
  Speaker 1: you need some money from that man, you gotta get
• 47:17
  Speaker 1: him at face to face, all over the phone, FaceTime
• 47:20
  Speaker 1: or something. He gonna have to tell you no to
• 47:22
  Speaker 1: your face, girl, and I will always gonna be hard.
• 47:24
  Speaker 1: I didn't really mention what I want before I ask
• 47:27
  Speaker 1: him for it too. Mm hm, Like what like, I
• 47:34
  Speaker 1: don't know, Like something you saw that you want to
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: want to buy? It's this class I want to take.
• 47:39
  Speaker 2: I like, yeah, it's this class, and I think it
• 47:41
  Speaker 2: would really help me with what I'm trying to do.
• 47:44
  Speaker 1: Blah blah blah. But it's five thousand dollars. Man, it
• 47:48
  Speaker 1: is crazy. Yeah, it's crazy. But if you do, if
• 47:52
  Speaker 1: you know ten niggas, you do that to each one
• 47:54
  Speaker 1: of them, you could at least you could fundraise amongst
• 47:57
  Speaker 1: your contacts in your cell phone, crowd sharing with your niggas.
• 48:03
  Speaker 1: It's fundraising. Go fund me, yeah, fund me. But I
• 48:10
  Speaker 1: ain't like people have the time for that many people
• 48:16
  Speaker 1: I'm talking, I feel like, I don't know why. I
• 48:18
  Speaker 1: just feel like most of the people who listen to
• 48:20
  Speaker 1: the podcast, are like younger, yeah, so, and I know
• 48:23
  Speaker 1: they are afraid to ask h men for money. It
• 48:27
  Speaker 1: was a time I might have been afraid, but then
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: you realize that, like Damn said, they don't give a
• 48:32
  Speaker 1: god damn, they are asking you for whatever it is
• 48:34
  Speaker 1: they want. Hold chest out and yeah, and then guess
• 48:40
  Speaker 1: what if he say no, you could just lock the list.
• 48:44
  Speaker 1: Now you got to deal with him. I definitely ask
• 48:46
  Speaker 1: niggas for money when I get want to get rid
• 48:47
  Speaker 1: of it. I won't leave a nigga. I won't leave
• 48:49
  Speaker 1: a nigga alone.
• 48:50
  Speaker 2: If he say no for a good reason, if he
• 48:53
  Speaker 2: has a good reason why he can't, well, if he
• 48:55
  Speaker 2: don't just don't want to, then you got.
• 49:00
  Speaker 1: I remember one time I asked this dude I used
• 49:03
  Speaker 1: to fuck with. I was in college at the time,
• 49:05
  Speaker 1: but you know Meastionnari and Vonder living in an apartment together,
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: and I asked him for the pet fee, if he
• 49:13
  Speaker 1: would pay my pet fee for my dog and he
• 49:16
  Speaker 1: told me no. He was like, dang, some shit, I
• 49:20
  Speaker 1: want to spend money on. No, this is very important
• 49:24
  Speaker 1: to me. It's my dog. I just stopped talking to him.
• 49:27
  Speaker 1: And this is somebody I haven't talking to for years, Like, no,
• 49:31
  Speaker 1: what do you mean? I'm confused And it ain't even
• 49:33
  Speaker 1: that much. Yes, I'm asking you for like three hundred
• 49:36
  Speaker 1: and fifty dollars.
• 49:38
  Speaker 2: Okay, hold out in college, that was a lot. This
• 49:42
  Speaker 2: was a grown man. This is not a college student.
• 49:45
  Speaker 2: Oh okay, this is somebody's father. Oh okay, daddy.
• 49:49
  Speaker 1: If you don't pay for this, yeah yeah, pay for this.
• 49:52
  Speaker 1: Like what do you I mean? Yeah, that's the quickest way.
• 49:55
  Speaker 1: And I mean if you don't like a guy anymore,
• 49:57
  Speaker 1: that is also, like I said, the quickest way to
• 49:59
  Speaker 1: get rid of him, ask him from some outlandish amount
• 50:02
  Speaker 1: of money like ten grand or something like that. Man,
• 50:04
  Speaker 1: that nigga ain't never calling you again. You're he might
• 50:07
  Speaker 1: call you in a year, lady, like like, hopefully you
• 50:10
  Speaker 1: forgot about Yeah you forgot that. I ask for it again,
• 50:14
  Speaker 1: stilling it. I still need that land and getting the
• 50:19
  Speaker 1: handlob like stitched up the heavy earrings weird. And that's
• 50:22
  Speaker 1: only like three hundred five hundred dollars. You could get
• 50:24
  Speaker 1: that done quick. I need the whole blue ear nigga
• 50:27
  Speaker 1: ten thousand, because I said no, I can't hear no
• 50:32
  Speaker 1: what Shay. I'm trying to think if I have any
• 50:35
  Speaker 1: other like super fear. I used to be afraid of
• 50:37
  Speaker 1: the dark. I used to be afraid to sleep on
• 50:39
  Speaker 1: my back. I have conquered all those things. Like I said,
• 50:42
  Speaker 1: I was afraid of the dark, and I was afraid
• 50:43
  Speaker 1: to sleep on my back because I was afraid of
• 50:45
  Speaker 1: death and laying on my back felt like a coffin.
• 50:49
  Speaker 1: But now I intentionally sleep on my back because it's
• 50:51
  Speaker 1: good for your health and it's good to make sure
• 50:54
  Speaker 1: your body is aligned as much as possible in the
• 50:56
  Speaker 1: soft ass fucking mattresses, on soft mattresses. I'd be too,
• 51:01
  Speaker 1: I'll be like I would prefer that, not yet though,
• 51:06
  Speaker 1: Like that's how.
• 51:06
  Speaker 2: I want it at ninety eight, not not in nineteen
• 51:09
  Speaker 2: ninety eight, you know, at ninety.
• 51:12
  Speaker 1: Eight, so on nine to twenty eight exactly, see you.
• 51:17
  Speaker 2: No, I don't want that. I just want I don't
• 51:19
  Speaker 2: want to die in my sleep yet. That's a fear
• 51:21
  Speaker 2: that's been a fear.
• 51:22
  Speaker 1: Of mine, dying young. Like you know, I don't yeah
• 51:28
  Speaker 1: all of that. Yeah, I'm still trying to figure out
• 51:31
  Speaker 1: what happened with my homegirl. And it's just like her
• 51:34
  Speaker 1: mom just says she was. She came home and she
• 51:37
  Speaker 1: was in the recliner. And you know, one thing that
• 51:42
  Speaker 1: makes me so sad about that is that she didn't
• 51:44
  Speaker 1: have like a peace of mind before leaving the planet.
• 51:46
  Speaker 1: Like she was struggling and she was trying to get
• 51:48
  Speaker 1: out of her mom's house. You know what I'm saying, Like,
• 51:51
  Speaker 1: depression can really set in when you end up back
• 51:54
  Speaker 1: in the place you're raised in, Okay, so you really
• 51:57
  Speaker 1: got to go in with a plan to get the
• 52:00
  Speaker 1: fuck up on out of there. And she just it
• 52:03
  Speaker 1: just you know, she was just piling up. It was
• 52:05
  Speaker 1: just piling up. I just knew. I almost feel like
• 52:07
  Speaker 1: she just let go, you know what I'm saying, Like,
• 52:11
  Speaker 1: I just feel like she just was like, let me
• 52:12
  Speaker 1: get the fuck up out of here. Yeah.
• 52:15
  Speaker 2: And it's but I mean I try. I'm like, at
• 52:19
  Speaker 2: this stage of my life, I'm trying to It's the
• 52:22
  Speaker 2: fear of the unknown, right because we know, we know
• 52:26
  Speaker 2: that we gotta die, all of us, right, But it's
• 52:30
  Speaker 2: just not knowing what's next. And so I just tried
• 52:34
  Speaker 2: to always visualize that what's next is better than what's now.
• 52:38
  Speaker 2: And it's hard because you just don't know. You all
• 52:42
  Speaker 2: these stories about heaven and hell and the places you
• 52:44
  Speaker 2: can go. And you know, I mean, nobody wants to
• 52:49
  Speaker 2: go and burn.
• 52:51
  Speaker 1: You remember when Tie passed, how you went to school
• 52:53
  Speaker 1: with us, went to Benedict, finally got murdered. Yes, So
• 52:57
  Speaker 1: the week before Ty passed, one week to the day
• 53:00
  Speaker 1: that he passed, he had posted a picture of him.
• 53:03
  Speaker 1: I forgot the guy who was in the picture with him,
• 53:05
  Speaker 1: somebody from Benedict too, but he posted a picture he
• 53:08
  Speaker 1: and it said live because we did a lot longer.
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  Speaker 1: And I commented and I said, do we really know that?
• 53:16
  Speaker 1: And he commented back, was like I think we do.
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  Speaker 1: One week later he was out of here and I
• 53:21
  Speaker 1: went back and I commented. I was like, you know,
• 53:24
  Speaker 1: rest in peace to whatever one of us now gets
• 53:27
  Speaker 1: to experience the unknown, because I don't think this is it.
• 53:30
  Speaker 1: And that's why like this, like this is not this
• 53:33
  Speaker 1: the way this world that we live in is set
• 53:35
  Speaker 1: up where children are abused, murdered, kidnapped. It's just a
• 53:41
  Speaker 1: hell realm. It's nothing good about this place, you know
• 53:43
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Like evil prevails around it Like no,
• 53:47
  Speaker 1: I don't know if not, Like I just it's listen,
• 53:51
  Speaker 1: a new Earth is coming right, So things are starting
• 53:53
  Speaker 1: to be unveiled. But it takes it takes a lot
• 53:56
  Speaker 1: of people to be aware of the evil that actually exists,
• 53:59
  Speaker 1: because people don't think that these things are actually happening
• 54:02
  Speaker 1: in this world. No, I know they they don't think
• 54:04
  Speaker 1: it's a three four hundred thousand black women missing in
• 54:08
  Speaker 1: America annually, teenage girls like this ship is fucking happening.
• 54:13
  Speaker 1: This is not a good place, so there has to
• 54:16
  Speaker 1: be a better place than this. I ain't coming back.
• 54:21
  Speaker 1: I just I'm lif fath number nine bitches over with
• 54:24
  Speaker 1: for me. I just hope that there's coffee at the
• 54:27
  Speaker 1: next place. You're a vampire. You love coffee. Vampires drink
• 54:32
  Speaker 1: coffee so they don't eat drink blood. They don't have
• 54:34
  Speaker 1: to urge to drink blood. Get you, some macha, bitch.
• 54:38
  Speaker 1: Not you hope there's coffee. A different type of meat.
• 54:42
  Speaker 1: You said, some proper ship, and then I was like,
• 54:44
  Speaker 1: ohe they got coffee a chickenweed. You know you want
• 54:48
  Speaker 1: a different meat. You want to what I want?
• 54:52
  Speaker 2: Some shit tie down the same old meat.
• 54:58
  Speaker 1: They just break some blue meat. That be great, though,
• 55:01
  Speaker 1: like a new meat that takes meat you ever had before.
• 55:05
  Speaker 1: I eat this veggie meat from the factory and Rowley
• 55:09
  Speaker 1: chickpea burger. It is so good. Remember those little nuggets
• 55:13
  Speaker 1: from Whole Foods. Somebody used to get those, order them? Yeah,
• 55:17
  Speaker 1: I ordered those, that's veggie. I ordered those directly from
• 55:19
  Speaker 1: the factory. Now, like that is a good protein. What
• 55:24
  Speaker 1: the fuck was that you had to these little nicely
• 55:27
  Speaker 1: seasoned cardboard done? Yet this she used to be busting
• 55:33
  Speaker 1: your last busting her last laugh About fear, Ah, nothing
• 55:39
  Speaker 1: fear is fear but fear itself. Nothing fierce fear but fears.
• 55:43
  Speaker 1: He like, don't fear, listen, just do everything trembling and
• 55:48
  Speaker 1: fear and and fear. Just still do it, though, push
• 55:51
  Speaker 1: through because once you push through that fair the other
• 55:54
  Speaker 1: side is so fucking miraculous, amazing eggs. So one another.
• 56:01
  Speaker 1: Fair is public speaking? Right? And I have actually done
• 56:05
  Speaker 1: a couple, yes, And isn't that weird? I have done
• 56:10
  Speaker 1: not like not like public speaking while I'm just getting
• 56:12
  Speaker 1: up there talking shit. I mean like in a professional setting,
• 56:15
  Speaker 1: public speaking type thing, right where I have to really
• 56:20
  Speaker 1: uh articulate for the niggas in the room, Like, I mean,
• 56:25
  Speaker 1: one thing, you just gotta know what the fuck it
• 56:27
  Speaker 1: is that you're talking about. You're talking about. Yeah, I've
• 56:30
  Speaker 1: done toast masters several times, and I have not kicked
• 56:37
  Speaker 1: the fear of public speaking. I haven't. I start sweating,
• 56:40
  Speaker 1: Like once I get up there and start talking, I'm cool,
• 56:43
  Speaker 1: but I'm gonna stutter. I'm gonna farnt. I'm gonna sweat
• 56:46
  Speaker 1: far up there. Far. You really got to imagine to
• 56:49
  Speaker 1: hope the mic ain't like these condense ther mics. Okay,
• 56:52
  Speaker 1: I hope you don't pick up everything, because yes, I'm
• 56:54
  Speaker 1: a farnt too, and I'm gonna be sweat. But do it,
• 56:57
  Speaker 1: my still't do it? Yeah? Do it?
• 56:59
  Speaker 2: Fear a disease, you guys, don't let it into your
• 57:03
  Speaker 2: spirit the best you can. And if you encourages not
• 57:07
  Speaker 2: being without fear, courage is doing it in that spite
• 57:11
  Speaker 2: of fear.
• 57:12
  Speaker 1: Exactly, be courageous in all things. I challenge you all, listening.
• 57:17
  Speaker 2: To the sound of our voices, to pick one thing
• 57:21
  Speaker 2: that brings you fear in your life right now, and
• 57:24
  Speaker 2: I want you to attack that fear with all the
• 57:27
  Speaker 2: ferocity you have in your body. Just one thing this
• 57:30
  Speaker 2: week that makes you afraid, that makes you scared. I
• 57:34
  Speaker 2: want you to attack that thing even.
• 57:37
  Speaker 1: If it's that nigga, don't be putting his hands on you.
• 57:41
  Speaker 1: Pull me over there. We could double team him together.
• 57:44
  Speaker 1: Whoever it is.
• 57:45
  Speaker 2: Fear him, attack that thing, y'all, because there's somebody listening
• 57:50
  Speaker 2: getting the ass beat.
• 57:51
  Speaker 1: It's just inevitable. Oh yeah, that's at least abody. Yeah,
• 57:55
  Speaker 1: call me. I'll pistol whoop your nigga for you. I
• 57:58
  Speaker 1: promise you will, because on that one, I'm not fighting.
• 58:04
  Speaker 1: I'm patting like once I broke my foot.
• 58:06
  Speaker 2: The all the fight that I had in me left
• 58:09
  Speaker 2: that for three him your friend that will call the
• 58:11
  Speaker 2: police for you, I doubt fast shame.
• 58:16
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• 58:34
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