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Capítulo 063: Spiritual Technology · Locatora Radio [A Radiophonic Novela]

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  Speaker 1: Local Radio Radio Radio Commies a Myth and Bullshit, a
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  Speaker 1: radio phonic novella. Local Radio, hosted by Malamnola Locomotive is
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  Speaker 1: welcome back to local Radio. Welcome back, Welcome back, This
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  Speaker 1: is my La and this is Theosa and we are
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  Speaker 1: Last Radio. Welcome to Season three of Local Radios. Because
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  Speaker 1: fem revenge has never sounded so sweet. Look a Radio
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  Speaker 1: is a radiophonic novella archiving the brilliant and legacies of
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  Speaker 1: women and fems of color. We are mommies of myth
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  Speaker 1: and bullshit and um you know radio, which is a
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  Speaker 1: radiophonic novella, which is a really really extra way of
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  Speaker 1: saying a podcast. Thank you for tuning in once again,
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  Speaker 1: Local Moore as we're so excited to be here. We're
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  Speaker 1: really excited for this episode. This is very cute. Yes, yes,
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  Speaker 1: we're gonna be talking about healing, ancestral knowledge, um love,
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  Speaker 1: all signs of things, de colonizing pleasure, colonizing pleasure in
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  Speaker 1: the next us in the second half of this So
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  Speaker 1: before we get into that, we just want to remind
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  Speaker 1: you all that we are in our fem tech quarter.
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  Speaker 1: So if you're a new listener and you haven't listened
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  Speaker 1: to eight. Yet that is where we lay the groundwork
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  Speaker 1: for what fem tech is and how we view from technology.
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  Speaker 1: And it's the term that we created. There have been
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  Speaker 1: other folks that have you know, created their own term,
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  Speaker 1: like La Loba Looka refers to Abolita knowledge and that's
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  Speaker 1: her the way she talks about fem tech. Kim Alan
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  Speaker 1: has talked about I think fem science. So there have
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  Speaker 1: been different women and fem's talking about these concept yeah,
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  Speaker 1: from different lenses. Yeah. And this is our our offering,
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  Speaker 1: our local perspective of fem tech. And we have two
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  Speaker 1: really amazing, dynamic, um fabulous guests, so we're gonna come
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  Speaker 1: and share with us from their lens and their perspective
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  Speaker 1: health technology factors into their work. So that's going to
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  Speaker 1: be in the second half. So before we do that,
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  Speaker 1: we do have some announcements, some housekeeping, some cheese mass,
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  Speaker 1: You know, I think I need a amazing Yeah, the
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  Speaker 1: our favorite Latina run, Latina owned makeup company. I'm wearing
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  Speaker 1: Viva right now, the pink nude the Killing which is
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  Speaker 1: one of my favorites. Yeah, that's been one of my
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  Speaker 1: want to say that we went from you know, not
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  Speaker 1: having any codes and product placement at all and now
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  Speaker 1: we have multiple and I love it because it's all
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  Speaker 1: Latina women of color like small businesses well, and it's
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  Speaker 1: also super on brand because one they're like sex toys,
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  Speaker 1: yep and hygiene care and then the other is makeup everything.
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  Speaker 1: We love? What else? Think? Yeah? Like really, wow? What
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  Speaker 1: else do we need in life? More money? More money? Oh,
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  Speaker 1: if there is an I p A brand out there,
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  Speaker 1: we'll accept a sponsorship. We love us some I p
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  Speaker 1: A s we really do. We drink it like it's
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  Speaker 1: water to our own the minds we shouldn't. We should
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  Speaker 1: We do it like it's a light beer, you know.
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  Speaker 1: I want to say that. I have been like talking
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  Speaker 1: about the hashtag fems who drink I p A. And
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  Speaker 1: last night I ordered a drink and the guy was like, oh,
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  Speaker 1: what are you going to order there? This one that's
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  Speaker 1: really light, and I was like, Nope, I'll take the
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  Speaker 1: I p A. Yes, me, underestimated me with the I
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  Speaker 1: p A. I think I can handle it. I act
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  Speaker 1: like I can handle it. I can. I can handle it.
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  Speaker 1: Maybe not the next day, but in the moment, I'm good.
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  Speaker 1: Like maybe I'll have a little hangover, but it's worth it.
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  Speaker 1: It's part of the process. It's part of the experience.
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  Speaker 1: Um also for our look on motives for our listeners
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  Speaker 1: the last three part of the three part series. The
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  Speaker 1: podcasting at sun Valley on May nine at five thirty pm.
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  Speaker 1: and then coming up the also is going to be
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  Speaker 1: participating in a really exciting event called Love Thyself Festival.
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  Speaker 1: Oh yes, yeah, So Love Myself Festival is put on
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  Speaker 1: by hippieca Arianna. She designed our logo for look at
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  Speaker 1: That our radio, and she's curating this like amazing mini
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  Speaker 1: festival all about elamor Propio, all about self love. I
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  Speaker 1: will be doing a workshop on a guide to Goddess Worship,
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  Speaker 1: which is something that Mala and I, um we have
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  Speaker 1: a la on that and we presented that at University
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  Speaker 1: of Oregon about over a year ago. So I'm going
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  Speaker 1: to be facilitating that at this festival. In addition, Yesica
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  Speaker 1: will be there, uh the amazing the Hood which is
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  Speaker 1: also going to be there, and the Hood which I'm
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  Speaker 1: sure that our listeners follow her. You know, Brie. She's
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  Speaker 1: actually based in Seattle, so it's not very often that
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  Speaker 1: she is out in l A. So the fact that
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  Speaker 1: Adrian booked her like he's incredible and like yeah, So
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  Speaker 1: it's just gonna be a full day of like selfie taking,
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  Speaker 1: opportunities of photo booth performances, workshop workshops. Hood Profit is
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  Speaker 1: going to be there, Tonna is gonna be there. Mad
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  Speaker 1: Love to Hood Profit, Mad Love to So Much Love
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  Speaker 1: for Hood Profit. Anthonna Antonna and there's gonna be vendors,
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  Speaker 1: there's gonna be food. It's gonna be amazing. So you
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  Speaker 1: can get your tickets on event Bright. It's Love Thyself
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  Speaker 1: Dot event Right. I'm sad I'm not going to be there.
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna be out of town. Yeah, that's the only
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  Speaker 1: reason mal I will not be there. She has an
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  Speaker 1: important date. It's it's it's a it's a reunion. Like
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  Speaker 1: it's a reunion. I'm going to for for school. So
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  Speaker 1: I'm excited to see my home girls who live out
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  Speaker 1: on the East Coast that I haven't seen in a while.
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  Speaker 1: You will be engaging in God's worship in your own way.
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  Speaker 1: This is this is true, So I'll be I'll be
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  Speaker 1: participating in spiritual yes. Yes. Another exciting thing that is
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  Speaker 1: participating in. Yeah. So We All Grow is a big
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  Speaker 1: conference that happens out here that's put on by hashtog
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  Speaker 1: We All Grow, and it's going to be at the
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  Speaker 1: Hotel Maya and Long Beach and I'm going to be
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  Speaker 1: on a panel curated by Mario La Rosario, who is
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  Speaker 1: the editor in chief at Hip Latina. So I'm really
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  Speaker 1: excited because Raguel, our homegirl, is going to be on
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  Speaker 1: the panels. She's going to be Intel, She's back, She's
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  Speaker 1: going to be back on the West Coast. Yes, um
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  Speaker 1: even actually she's a journalist. She also writes for Hip
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  Speaker 1: Latina and Camari Chelsea will also be on the panel.
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  Speaker 1: So it's going to be really amazing. And the name
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  Speaker 1: of the panel is let's get political how socially conscious
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  Speaker 1: content can build a brand. So I'm really excited to
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  Speaker 1: be on the panel. And I'm like really thankful that
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  Speaker 1: to Maria lad that reached out and you know, wanted
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  Speaker 1: to include me. So that's really cool because I'm like
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  Speaker 1: a baby journalist, Like I have like my little articles
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  Speaker 1: that I've done. I think I've done maybe five or
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  Speaker 1: six total. So have you talked about your articles on
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  Speaker 1: the podcast, but I don't think you have. You've shared
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  Speaker 1: on Instagram. I've shared on Instagram. I have like, um,
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  Speaker 1: I think maybe three articles with Hip Latina one one
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  Speaker 1: or on UM Fierce by me. So you can actually
• 10:16
  Speaker 1: head over to our website if you drop down and
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  Speaker 1: go to theosa my profile, you can find all my
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  Speaker 1: articles there if you want to read them. Some really
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  Speaker 1: good stuff. I really like the one about UM you
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  Speaker 1: did research into the products that are in feminine hygiene
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  Speaker 1: products into the ingredients, the chemicals. I should say yes,
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  Speaker 1: the chemicals because girls, ladies look at motive. If you
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  Speaker 1: have a volva, you know, however, you identify a vagina
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  Speaker 1: um and the tampons that you're using like have actual
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  Speaker 1: chemicals in them. They have chlorine. And I kept getting
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  Speaker 1: I wrote about this in an article. I kept getting
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  Speaker 1: a U T I like painful ones and my doctors
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  Speaker 1: were like, fucking just wipe, Like how are you wiping?
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  Speaker 1: Literally that's what they would ask me, like are you peeing?
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  Speaker 1: After said are you cleaning up? And actually ended up
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  Speaker 1: being the tampons that I was using their poisonous. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: it was horrible. I mean, toxic shock syndrome is a thing,
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  Speaker 1: and like you know the fact that that product can
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  Speaker 1: give that to you alone. It is like I recently
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  Speaker 1: switched over and started using a Diva cup. I started
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  Speaker 1: using a Diva cup and I'm I'm into it. I'm obsessed.
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  Speaker 1: It's my new thing. I'm not ready for the Diva
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  Speaker 1: cup I tried for. I tried it a while years ago. Um,
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  Speaker 1: maybe maybe now now that I'm having sex with a man,
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  Speaker 1: maybe I can do at the time I couldn't sure
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  Speaker 1: it's too much, but anyway, anyway, that's second. So tickets
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  Speaker 1: are actually sold out for that event, but I have
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  Speaker 1: heard that there will be a digital past for sale.
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  Speaker 1: So they are going to be streaming all of the workshops.
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  Speaker 1: Very cool, so I will post about it. Yeah, so
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  Speaker 1: I can't be there, you can stream. We are also
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  Speaker 1: going to be traveling again. I'm really excited for this
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  Speaker 1: one another university. We're going to be at Northwestern Northwestern
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  Speaker 1: University UM in Illinois in Chicago or Chicago and Jason
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  Speaker 1: outside of Chicago, but it's like thirty minutes from So
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  Speaker 1: that's so thank you to the students at Northwestern who
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  Speaker 1: have and it's been a while trying to plan this
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  Speaker 1: trip out, you know, it's this Yeah, it's been in
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  Speaker 1: the making for more than a couple of months and
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  Speaker 1: the students are so amazing because they actually fundraised to
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  Speaker 1: bring us out. I'm not sure if they got any
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  Speaker 1: like university grants, any like student funds like located, but
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  Speaker 1: I know for sure that they fundraise. Yeah, So we
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  Speaker 1: appreciate all the students who ever reach out to us
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  Speaker 1: and find funding or fundraise and book our flights and
• 12:40
  Speaker 1: get us out to your universities. It's really amazing. And
• 12:43
  Speaker 1: those gigs like are always really incredible for us, like
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  Speaker 1: meeting students and our listeners and you all are very inspiring.
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  Speaker 1: So it's just honestly a privilege to be there with
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  Speaker 1: you and to meet you. Yeah, it really is, like
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  Speaker 1: we really do not take it for granted that book us,
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  Speaker 1: that y'all want to that y'all come out for us,
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  Speaker 1: so y'all want to meet us, so you want to
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  Speaker 1: take pictures with us, Like we like really soaked that
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  Speaker 1: all up, We really do. We always leave inspired and motivated.
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  Speaker 1: So that's Mala has some really exciting news to share
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  Speaker 1: with us. Oh my god, I am living my best
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  Speaker 1: white women life right now, bitch. So the Wing here's
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  Speaker 1: the thing. The Wing is. Um. I feel like one
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  Speaker 1: day we had never heard of it. We lived our
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  Speaker 1: whole we had never heard of this place. Is very true,
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  Speaker 1: and then the next day all the women in our
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  Speaker 1: circle are involved with the Wing. Yeah it's wild. So
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  Speaker 1: for those of you who have never heard of the Wing,
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  Speaker 1: because I mean it's still new for us, you know
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  Speaker 1: what I mean. Also just opened in l A. So
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  Speaker 1: it's like literally new for us. I know, that there
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  Speaker 1: have been. There's other locations that have been opened for
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  Speaker 1: a while New York, in Chicago. I see Joanna from
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  Speaker 1: the Unapology, we see you with the Wing and Amy. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: they're always out there taking up space. Yes, well that
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  Speaker 1: has been. That was like one of my introductions to
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  Speaker 1: the Wing on the East coast side. And now they're
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  Speaker 1: in l A. So the West Hollywood location just opened
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  Speaker 1: up two weeks ago. So, UM, you know, it's like
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  Speaker 1: a women it's a women's club. It's a women's club
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  Speaker 1: and coworking space. It's kind of like a grown up sorority.
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  Speaker 1: UM but better, I'm gonna just say that. So the
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  Speaker 1: Wing just opened up here in West Hollywood, and you know,
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  Speaker 1: it's like a membership based UM club and a lot
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  Speaker 1: of women will use the space to work and hold meetings.
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  Speaker 1: UM and uh. They had a scholarship program that they
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  Speaker 1: were offering because it's kind of expensive to like be
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  Speaker 1: a member and to pay the monthly fees to be
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  Speaker 1: quite honest, But they had a scholarship program that they
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  Speaker 1: put out and I um received one of their scholarships.
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  Speaker 1: So they accepted me. They gave me a scholarship, So
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  Speaker 1: I am now a member at the Wing. Um, living
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  Speaker 1: my best white woman fantasy and it's really fun. Yesicas
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  Speaker 1: there chilling our girls. Zeila a word agency because like
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  Speaker 1: mol and I are a package. So like wherever she goes,
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  Speaker 1: I go and vice versa. So I'm just hello, I
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  Speaker 1: am also a member of the Wing. We're at the Wing.
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  Speaker 1: Like I'm also there. We're at the Wing and like
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  Speaker 1: they do workshops and I'm like R S V P
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  Speaker 1: Mala plus one. I'm the plus one. I love it
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  Speaker 1: is my forever plus one. So yeah, that's cute. That's
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  Speaker 1: cute stuff. So thank you. I'm really happy for you.
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  Speaker 1: It's a lot of fun. So thank you at the
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  Speaker 1: Wing for having me, for accepting me into your club. Um.
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  Speaker 1: That being said, we have a little a segment that
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  Speaker 1: we want to bring back that we don't do all
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  Speaker 1: the time. It just kind of depends on experience and
• 15:31
  Speaker 1: if we have a story. So this is weird things
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  Speaker 1: White women did this week? So what weird thing did
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  Speaker 1: white women do this week? Okay, well, at first I
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  Speaker 1: want to preface with preface it with, Um, we had
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  Speaker 1: two listeners come to our library workshop that we just
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  Speaker 1: had at Exposition Park Library in South l A. This
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  Speaker 1: past week, which was very fun. Workshop was so great.
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  Speaker 1: The library is beautiful and we had two listeners come,
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  Speaker 1: multiple listeners, but these two in particular are white women. Yes,
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  Speaker 1: and they were like you can tell that they're listeners
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  Speaker 1: when they came because they wanted to learn about how
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  Speaker 1: we did started our podcast because they also want to
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  Speaker 1: start our podcast. So then we started to think like, yeah, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: so we're being and you know, we're being a little
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  Speaker 1: bit facetious. This this pat this segment is is funny,
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  Speaker 1: you know what I mean? So like love to our
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  Speaker 1: white listeners do view her out there? And if y'all
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  Speaker 1: are like you're learning, you're learning. So if you're listening,
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  Speaker 1: you know we say all this it's all with love,
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  Speaker 1: but you know, you know, it's like, you know, you're
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  Speaker 1: making it when white women start showing up to your
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  Speaker 1: ship and with white women are tuning in and acknowledging
• 16:33
  Speaker 1: what they're doing. Not that we need and seek that approval,
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  Speaker 1: because we absolutely do not, but it's just like, oh, well,
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  Speaker 1: I guess maybe we're about to go somewhere we are
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  Speaker 1: doing some share, doing something where I'm thinking. Honestly, I
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  Speaker 1: had that thought when I heard a white girl once
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  Speaker 1: singing out loud Google's song Honda c RV. And I
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  Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, Google is going to be
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  Speaker 1: a superstar. A white girl is singing his song. Valid,
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  Speaker 1: he's gonna be He's going to be a mega superstar.
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  Speaker 1: And he is and now and and he is, and
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  Speaker 1: so I think we're on the same path. So thank
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  Speaker 1: you white women for acknowledging that we women. Yes, we
• 17:11
  Speaker 1: love some allies. We love some allies, And I think,
• 17:15
  Speaker 1: like the listening to podcast is obviously not the only
• 17:18
  Speaker 1: way to be an ally, but I think it's such
• 17:20
  Speaker 1: a great way to learn from experiences that are not
• 17:23
  Speaker 1: yours because you don't the people talking are not doing
• 17:27
  Speaker 1: additional labor to teach. You put the content out there,
• 17:31
  Speaker 1: and it's your responsibility to follow it, to listen to it,
• 17:34
  Speaker 1: and then follow up in terms of like I'm going
• 17:36
  Speaker 1: to look more into this. Oh I heard this, okay,
• 17:38
  Speaker 1: so now I'm going to research that absolutely now, as
• 17:41
  Speaker 1: opposed to like DM me them and being like, hey, um,
• 17:45
  Speaker 1: you know what's reversed racism exactly? People are being racist
• 17:50
  Speaker 1: to me but I'm white, you know what I mean.
• 17:51
  Speaker 1: Don't don't send don't you know, Like that's like I
• 17:54
  Speaker 1: feel like that's a good way to learn from people
• 17:57
  Speaker 1: without expecting additional labor. Yeah, listening is very important in
• 18:01
  Speaker 1: the learning process, you know, actively listening. Um, And I was,
• 18:05
  Speaker 1: you know, it's also like from pen to post kind
• 18:10
  Speaker 1: of a thing. This is a woman of color Latin
• 18:13
  Speaker 1: X production and project. And I think a lot of
• 18:16
  Speaker 1: white women may be the only time that white women
• 18:19
  Speaker 1: depending on your community and where you grew up and
• 18:21
  Speaker 1: where you live and where you work blah blah blah
• 18:22
  Speaker 1: blah blah, I think a lot of white women maybe
• 18:24
  Speaker 1: are only getting uh stories from people of color, Like
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: if it's like a diversity training or an inclusion training,
• 18:31
  Speaker 1: or you have a speaker, or you watch a documentary
• 18:34
  Speaker 1: like it's it's it's kind of isolated and it's sporadic
• 18:39
  Speaker 1: and there's not it's not as holistic with this. This
• 18:42
  Speaker 1: is like our whole lives. This is this is not
• 18:46
  Speaker 1: it's just a different approach to learning us and learning
• 18:48
  Speaker 1: about us. So yes, thank you, thank you white women.
• 18:53
  Speaker 1: So on onto onto other things. Okay, so um, a
• 18:57
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• 19:49
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  Speaker 1: into our song break, we are going to introduce our guests.
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: So excited for this, so excited for this. Um So
• 20:39
  Speaker 1: we have the honor, the privilege, the pleasure of welcoming
• 20:44
  Speaker 1: onto Look at our radio. Nonny Lamar and THEA Manier
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: of All Heart be All Heart Podcast. So All Heart
• 20:53
  Speaker 1: is the love child of Known Lamar and THEA Monier.
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: They are cultural healers and lifelong friends with lots of
• 21:00
  Speaker 1: receipts and laughs to fuel this joy centered podcast created
• 21:04
  Speaker 1: to infuse listeners with tools to increase and maintain joy
• 21:08
  Speaker 1: while encouraging them to access lots of pleasure. All Heart
• 21:12
  Speaker 1: Podcasts is the place listeners go to be pushed forward.
• 21:15
  Speaker 1: So you if you are interested in All Heart, you
• 21:19
  Speaker 1: wanna tune in you can join these two amazing black
• 21:22
  Speaker 1: women creatives as they use their voices to free minds
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: and other body parts with humor, authenticity, and of course heart. Yeah,
• 21:30
  Speaker 1: this conversation gets real. It's amazing. Vodkaster and all right
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: and we're back. Hello. Hello, we're so excited today to
• 22:23
  Speaker 1: have with us in studio at Espa Noni Lamar and
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: thea Monier of All Heart Podcast. Welcome to look. Thank
• 22:33
  Speaker 1: you so much for being here. Can you introduce yourselves
• 22:35
  Speaker 1: for our listeners. Yes, we're super excited. Were over your cheesing.
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: I'm so happy. We're super happy to be here. Yes,
• 22:43
  Speaker 1: my name is and I'm Knowny Lamar. Yeah, we do
• 22:48
  Speaker 1: a podcast. It's all about joy and pleasure. Yes, yeah,
• 22:53
  Speaker 1: we HiPE, we HiPE to be here like this is great.
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: It's usually just the two of us. It's like double
• 22:58
  Speaker 1: the trouble to love it. We like that excited. Um
• 23:04
  Speaker 1: So so as a reminder to our listeners, work currently
• 23:07
  Speaker 1: in our quarter of fem tech. So you know, we
• 23:09
  Speaker 1: want to talk about our framework of fem technology and
• 23:13
  Speaker 1: ingenuity behind women and fem's um and our labor and
• 23:17
  Speaker 1: our science, our technology that's not often viewed as stem
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: or steam, right, Um, so really honoring that and bringing
• 23:25
  Speaker 1: that to the forefront um and what you you all
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: do through your podcast A Hard and talking about de
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: colonizing pleasure and being joy centered. You know, we really
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: want you to talk about your project and how that
• 23:36
  Speaker 1: came to be and why you're doing the work that
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: you're doing. A Yeah. So really, both the and The
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: and I have been friends for a really long time.
• 23:45
  Speaker 1: We were actually in our rap group together. And you know,
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: it's a little known fact, so you heard it here
• 23:54
  Speaker 1: a group. Yeah, there may be videos. Yeah, I'm not
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: going to tell you the name of room because I'll
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: give you a little little clue. It's a little too much.
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: So we were in a band together. It was a
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: rock rap outfit, you know, all together, and we lived together,
• 24:11
  Speaker 1: and you know, on her way out the door, she
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: would bring her baby, who's now how old it's a teenager. Yeah,
• 24:19
  Speaker 1: she would bring her baby and lay her in my
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: bed so I could hold her till her you know,
• 24:23
  Speaker 1: mother in law came to watch her. So we were family.
• 24:27
  Speaker 1: You know, we've been family for a long time. And
• 24:29
  Speaker 1: we kind of floated apart and then came back together
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: and when we came back together, we were on the
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: same wave, and that wave we were on was definitely
• 24:38
  Speaker 1: both really wanting to focus on joy and pleasure, like
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: those were the two things that we were spiritually aligned.
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: But we were like, man, this world right now is
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: like all in their fields on a negative just a
• 24:50
  Speaker 1: total negative wave, and we wanted to like bring something
• 24:54
  Speaker 1: to the culture that was really healing. You know. That
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: was really like for me, like that was like I
• 25:00
  Speaker 1: to do a heart centered work. And you know, I'm
• 25:03
  Speaker 1: definitely we're both hippies, but I'm definitely the real crunchy
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: of the two of us. I realized I'm more an
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: island after you, like on an island vibe. I'm definitely
• 25:16
  Speaker 1: like I'm making my own potions. I'm the alchemist amazing tease. Yeah,
• 25:21
  Speaker 1: I'm such a hippie, you know. But like THEA made
• 25:26
  Speaker 1: me realize, like you can't just talk about flower and
• 25:32
  Speaker 1: birds and just like how great life is all the time,
• 25:35
  Speaker 1: like you had to process through your trauma's too, And
• 25:38
  Speaker 1: so our podcast really does both, like we're talking about
• 25:41
  Speaker 1: the barriers to join and pleasure, but we're also talking
• 25:44
  Speaker 1: about like diving deep and just talking about food for
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: a whole episode, or just talking about being cozy and
• 25:49
  Speaker 1: like how good it feels to just like put on
• 25:52
  Speaker 1: a sweater and sit next to a fire. You know. Yeah, No,
• 25:55
  Speaker 1: only definitely introduced Like NONI introduced me to a lot
• 25:58
  Speaker 1: of stuff that like, I'm probably conceptualizing, but she knows
• 26:02
  Speaker 1: the actual name for it. I haven't. I didn't know
• 26:06
  Speaker 1: that was a thing. I fly just kind of off
• 26:09
  Speaker 1: the seat of my pants about things that Donties were like,
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: we should probably have a plan for this, we should
• 26:14
  Speaker 1: probably sounds like I recognize that we should probably look
• 26:19
  Speaker 1: at the deeper. But I think some of our best
• 26:22
  Speaker 1: moments have come when we were both so full of
• 26:25
  Speaker 1: emotion from things that are going on and the world
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: around us that we just came in and were like,
• 26:30
  Speaker 1: this can't be like planned. We're gonna have to just
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: press record. And I found that us being willing to
• 26:36
  Speaker 1: open up and share how we still prioritize joy and
• 26:40
  Speaker 1: pleasure in the midst of this bullshit has been like
• 26:44
  Speaker 1: a thing that people are like gravitating too. So it's
• 26:46
  Speaker 1: not even just like giving the strategies, but it's like, listen,
• 26:49
  Speaker 1: it's tough for us too, and we're gonna trudge through
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: all these conversations and still at the end of it
• 26:56
  Speaker 1: claim our right in the marginalized space is and to
• 27:01
  Speaker 1: having an accessing joy and pleasure which is super important
• 27:04
  Speaker 1: to us. Like that's you're right, Yes, I wanted to say, like,
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: I think it's important when we're when we're thinking about
• 27:11
  Speaker 1: manifesting things, when we're thinking of starting things, how it
• 27:15
  Speaker 1: shows up in the body and that resonance that you're feeling.
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: To me, that's your greatest signal of something that will
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: have a longevity or a true impact in the life
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: of yourself. First, I'm always kind of focused on how
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: it's going to be for me, and then how that
• 27:29
  Speaker 1: impact is going to affect others. And when we were
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: talking about starting all Heart podcasts, we were in tears,
• 27:34
  Speaker 1: like we're talking on the phone thinking about the ability
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: that we both had the knowledge that we had massed
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: at that point, like spending all this time healing ourselves,
• 27:44
  Speaker 1: spending all this time studying, spending all this time diving
• 27:47
  Speaker 1: deep spiritually, emotionally, and then to have a platform to
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: do that, Like we were like crying out of joy,
• 27:54
  Speaker 1: like this is gonna be so dope, and and it's
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: really easy, organic natural. You two just said so much
• 28:03
  Speaker 1: in there. Then I think there are so many in
• 28:05
  Speaker 1: roads to what you were both just talking about to
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: fem technology. And I even think even just like you know,
• 28:11
  Speaker 1: the hippie stuff, the tinctures and the oils and the
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: homemade goodies, and we were talking about before we started recording,
• 28:17
  Speaker 1: the fact that there's so many women of color like online,
• 28:19
  Speaker 1: like brujas and healers and even healing and like these
• 28:23
  Speaker 1: indigenous spiritualities as a fem technology. I don't know if
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: you want to talk a little bit more about that.
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: Actually being the planner, I did text via a little
• 28:32
  Speaker 1: something before we got ready to let me tell you
• 28:36
  Speaker 1: what it said. We did not plan this beforehand, So
• 28:39
  Speaker 1: I said THEA, the definition of technology is actually the
• 28:43
  Speaker 1: application of scientific knowledge for practical purposes, especially in industry.
• 28:48
  Speaker 1: And I said, you know, I think we talk a
• 28:50
  Speaker 1: lot about tech, but we don't talk about spiritual technology.
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: And I feel like that's where women have, that's women
• 28:57
  Speaker 1: in films, that's where we live, boom, you know, that's
• 29:00
  Speaker 1: where we live. Like you know, my partner like he
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: has to do a lot of studying and I just
• 29:05
  Speaker 1: have to go to sleep. And have a dream and
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: wake up and be you know, I got the answers. Yeah,
• 29:11
  Speaker 1: like I got the answers, I got the herb, I
• 29:14
  Speaker 1: got the I got the revelation. Let me light this candle,
• 29:17
  Speaker 1: you know, I got I gotta don't don't worry. You
• 29:20
  Speaker 1: don't don't stress. You don't need to read all them books.
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: I mean we can read them too, but like I
• 29:25
  Speaker 1: have access to this whole other place that that comes
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: from being a woman, being fami, you know. And I
• 29:31
  Speaker 1: think that's why I like the conversation. So, you know,
• 29:35
  Speaker 1: I I really go hard on decolonizing mental health, decolonizing pleasure,
• 29:40
  Speaker 1: because I'm very clear that that is under attack, specifically
• 29:45
  Speaker 1: so that we do not access that spiritual technology, because
• 29:49
  Speaker 1: that's the technology required to absolutely revolutionize and shift everything
• 29:53
  Speaker 1: in this world in an instant right. I'm very clear
• 29:56
  Speaker 1: that that power lies in the sacred chakra of the
• 30:00
  Speaker 1: feminine right. And so it's very like clear to me
• 30:03
  Speaker 1: how that's under attack and why even though we'll will
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: be talking about joy and pleasure, it definitely for us
• 30:09
  Speaker 1: intersects as a social justice issue, like it's um systemically
• 30:13
  Speaker 1: and intentionally oppressed because at this point, I think other
• 30:17
  Speaker 1: people know the power of it even more so than
• 30:20
  Speaker 1: we do. So when I challenge the mental health field,
• 30:23
  Speaker 1: a lot of the reasons I'm doing it is because
• 30:25
  Speaker 1: it's the idea. The myth about it is, Oh, you
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: come into this place and I give you something to
• 30:33
  Speaker 1: heal yourself. And I'm very clear with my clients that's
• 30:35
  Speaker 1: not what's happening. What's happening as I am willing to
• 30:38
  Speaker 1: be a safe space for you to heal yourself because
• 30:41
  Speaker 1: you have access to the spiritual technology, to the knowledge
• 30:44
  Speaker 1: it's already there. And like this idea that we always
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: have to wait for someone to give us access to
• 30:50
  Speaker 1: what's already ours kisses me so much. Um that, Like
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: I think we're really clear on Like even when we
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: each podcast, we do like, and here's what you can do.
• 31:03
  Speaker 1: So it's not like is doing this like we're just
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: literally reminding you and yourselves on a cellular level of
• 31:12
  Speaker 1: what you can do. Yeah, I really reject, like I
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: reject the ideas of gurus, Like I reject the idea
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: guru keeps like I can't. I reject that that notion
• 31:28
  Speaker 1: that anyone even projects that on me, you know, like
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: I have spiritual information, I have spiritual knowledge. But I'm
• 31:34
  Speaker 1: only here as your mirror, right, Like I'm here to
• 31:37
  Speaker 1: reflect you and for you to know that, like we're
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: the same, but there's only to me. There's only one
• 31:42
  Speaker 1: person here on earth, There's only one of us, right, So,
• 31:45
  Speaker 1: like I'm a I'm a fan of Thea's work of
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: decolonization because I don't personally get that. I don't even
• 31:52
  Speaker 1: get riled up about colonization because I'm thinking about more
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: so the future too often, like where are we in
• 32:00
  Speaker 1: the future, Like where are we after after after she's
• 32:04
  Speaker 1: done decolonizing, Like where are we going to be? And
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: I'm trying to create that that place, Like you know,
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: I'm here to like shift the frequency of the planet,
• 32:15
  Speaker 1: So what do we want that frequency to feel? Like what? What? Where? Where? Where?
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: Where is that? Where will we be? You know, looking
• 32:22
  Speaker 1: towards the future. I'm wondering too if we can even
• 32:26
  Speaker 1: think about how these conversations happening in the podcast format
• 32:29
  Speaker 1: at all, Like there's so many women of color podcasters
• 32:32
  Speaker 1: now doing so many different types of content and like
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: healing work, like podcasting as a vehicle for all this
• 32:39
  Speaker 1: stuff completely, and I see it all the time because
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: so I'm on All Heart Was Known, and then I
• 32:45
  Speaker 1: do DIM Black mamas Um and so on both podcasts.
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: What's been interesting is energetically, I feel like we have
• 32:53
  Speaker 1: the same wavelength and ideas like and and being in
• 32:58
  Speaker 1: both it comes out into for an expressions. But I'm like,
• 33:01
  Speaker 1: I get the d M s look the same, right,
• 33:04
  Speaker 1: The d M s are like, wow, you know this.
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: I didn't. I thought I was the only one. It
• 33:09
  Speaker 1: may be a different type of person saying it, but
• 33:11
  Speaker 1: the message is clear, like you being out there means
• 33:13
  Speaker 1: I'm not alone, that I can identify with someone someone
• 33:17
  Speaker 1: identifies with me, And so I feel like, um, we're
• 33:21
  Speaker 1: definitely doing something beyond entertainment, like we're tapping into like
• 33:27
  Speaker 1: right now, this is podcasting is still it's like in
• 33:29
  Speaker 1: that space where it's like they haven't co opted it
• 33:32
  Speaker 1: yet kind of spoken word you know, we know how
• 33:35
  Speaker 1: that was, and then they got a hold too and
• 33:38
  Speaker 1: it started corporatizing it into right and so we're in
• 33:42
  Speaker 1: that space right now. It's still very much a tool
• 33:45
  Speaker 1: of the rebellions. It can still be that, and we're
• 33:49
  Speaker 1: really using it and can do it, and we're doing
• 33:52
  Speaker 1: it and I even prescribe them so I've prescribed several
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: students your podcast, like I've been like, you know, as
• 34:00
  Speaker 1: a therapeutic tool. I did, like, you know, no, you
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: need to check this out and they'll come back and
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: give me feedback. So I'm prescribing podcast at this point.
• 34:07
  Speaker 1: Like that's again a form of decolonizing health in the
• 34:11
  Speaker 1: tool cap. Yeah, as I really you said something I
• 34:13
  Speaker 1: was listening to you on another podcast when this girl
• 34:18
  Speaker 1: is dope, Like, but you were talking about like if
• 34:24
  Speaker 1: you're with the therapist and they leaving you in your pain, yeah,
• 34:26
  Speaker 1: leave them, leave them. They should. They should that they
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: don't take you to your joy, pimp in your pain.
• 34:32
  Speaker 1: You need to the full process. The whole point of
• 34:35
  Speaker 1: me going to a therapist is to get to my joy.
• 34:38
  Speaker 1: If I just if we're like, oh, I feel so
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: much better now that you explain that trauma. I'm glad
• 34:42
  Speaker 1: you feel better, but I still haven't regained access to
• 34:47
  Speaker 1: you know, post traumatic growth and my joy. But the
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: habit energy, right, I've been thinking a lot about that
• 34:53
  Speaker 1: this week, Like the habit energy of the habit energy
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: of sadness, the habit and g of darkness, the habit
• 35:02
  Speaker 1: energy of pain, you know, like that's what we can
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: even get into the habit energy of rebellion against this thing.
• 35:10
  Speaker 1: Like so, how how do we exist even outside of
• 35:15
  Speaker 1: our oppression? That's always my question. And like when we're
• 35:19
  Speaker 1: talking about fam technology, like to me, I'm using um herbs.
• 35:24
  Speaker 1: For instance, I started reading about mother work. I've never
• 35:26
  Speaker 1: used it mother word. Yeah, I've started reading about mother wark.
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: And I go through these relationships with plants where they
• 35:33
  Speaker 1: start to call me like, hey, no, over here. We
• 35:36
  Speaker 1: know you like nettles so much. We know you're in
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: You're in your season and nettle, but we want you
• 35:41
  Speaker 1: over here, right, We want wants you, you know, And
• 35:46
  Speaker 1: I'm like okay. So then this week mother ward started
• 35:49
  Speaker 1: just calling my name and my damn mother word? What
• 35:52
  Speaker 1: you go from? Me? I started researching mother wark and
• 35:55
  Speaker 1: it's like, all, it's like the earth giving you a hug.
• 35:59
  Speaker 1: Like I recently lost my grandmother and so it's like
• 36:04
  Speaker 1: your grandma's hugs. Basically that's what everyone. It takes you
• 36:07
  Speaker 1: out of anxiety, like all of these things. I cannot
• 36:09
  Speaker 1: wait to get that tincture. But it's bitter. It's a
• 36:14
  Speaker 1: super bitter herb. And I just start thinking about that,
• 36:17
  Speaker 1: like why is something that's so bitter trying to call
• 36:20
  Speaker 1: call me so I can experience that sweetness too, you know.
• 36:24
  Speaker 1: So I'm always kind of thinking about, like, what are
• 36:26
  Speaker 1: these these kind of physical things in in the earth,
• 36:32
  Speaker 1: these physical things in the earth that we can really
• 36:35
  Speaker 1: utilize to take us to that new place and live there,
• 36:39
  Speaker 1: because I don't want to go back and forth, you know,
• 36:42
  Speaker 1: I don't want to go back and forth. I'm depressed today,
• 36:45
  Speaker 1: I'm happy today, I'm depressed today. I want to live
• 36:48
  Speaker 1: in in peace. That's really draining to go up and down,
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: up and down with your mood and your energy, and
• 36:54
  Speaker 1: it can be. And you know though I always think, no,
• 36:57
  Speaker 1: like I'm really focused on the I'm really focused on
• 37:01
  Speaker 1: the ad because everything we know, even in looking at tantra,
• 37:04
  Speaker 1: which is another ancient science that technology utilizes the shadow,
• 37:11
  Speaker 1: there's no there's no So even like you know, decommisation
• 37:16
  Speaker 1: in the future, they're not there, and like it's like
• 37:18
  Speaker 1: it's not either or. And the same thing with the
• 37:21
  Speaker 1: darkness and the light. So like when I'm teaching my clients,
• 37:23
  Speaker 1: they have a new relationship with what they think of
• 37:25
  Speaker 1: as dark because for me, in those loads are where
• 37:29
  Speaker 1: I create some of my best ships, and the light
• 37:33
  Speaker 1: it reveals it. But honestly, if I was walking around
• 37:36
  Speaker 1: happy all the time, I probably I can enjoy what
• 37:40
  Speaker 1: I've created in the dark when I'm happy, you know
• 37:43
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying, but that it's all necessary and I'm
• 37:46
  Speaker 1: really learning to like just like I used to be
• 37:49
  Speaker 1: so hard on myself when I dipped, or like you
• 37:51
  Speaker 1: know better, you know the tools. You know, this is
• 37:53
  Speaker 1: an illusion, Like I used to do all that, and
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: it was that was draining in me. Like it's a
• 37:58
  Speaker 1: lot of matter, like invating yourself up as opposed to accepting.
• 38:02
  Speaker 1: Like the thing that we've ultimately learned is that it's
• 38:05
  Speaker 1: all a part of the process and it's all for
• 38:07
  Speaker 1: our good. So that means even those lows are producing something.
• 38:12
  Speaker 1: You know. It's that I'm saying. A good therapist will
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: teach you what those lows, will help you to come
• 38:18
  Speaker 1: to understand within yourself what that low came to teach you.
• 38:23
  Speaker 1: It won't leave you with just a like broken pieces
• 38:25
  Speaker 1: and like, oh we figured that out, it would be
• 38:27
  Speaker 1: like no, and that was so that you could elevate
• 38:30
  Speaker 1: this or yourself or whatever. You know. So I really
• 38:33
  Speaker 1: am really looking at how things compliment um and not
• 38:38
  Speaker 1: like not or I think that or is even a columnize.
• 38:42
  Speaker 1: It's a it's a polarity. It's a polarity instead of
• 38:46
  Speaker 1: like being because I realized recently, like the darkness of
• 38:49
  Speaker 1: grief is an initiation. Now if this is like okay,
• 38:53
  Speaker 1: I'm an initiation to put everything up to question because
• 38:57
  Speaker 1: I'm saying, okay, now this is done. Is part of
• 39:00
  Speaker 1: life is done? And I'm in this new place. Well,
• 39:03
  Speaker 1: well now everything's on the table. Why am I doing that?
• 39:06
  Speaker 1: Why why do I believe that? You know? Oh my gosh,
• 39:09
  Speaker 1: this is like so sad. But what you're saying right
• 39:11
  Speaker 1: now about grief and stuff is reminding me of what
• 39:13
  Speaker 1: Lauren London said at Nipsey Hustle's funeral about grief or
• 39:17
  Speaker 1: being the final act of love and just like the
• 39:20
  Speaker 1: way that she spoke about, you know, like loving him,
• 39:24
  Speaker 1: and the way I've seen his mom talk to about
• 39:27
  Speaker 1: like just accepting and preparing for debt and just the
• 39:31
  Speaker 1: lens through which they're coping with like this really tragic murder.
• 39:35
  Speaker 1: I don't know, it's just drawing connections for me right
• 39:37
  Speaker 1: now with what you're saying, because part of her lens
• 39:39
  Speaker 1: is as Afro science spiritual technology. Yet those words and
• 39:45
  Speaker 1: we were like, oh okay, and if you and someone
• 39:53
  Speaker 1: was writing about this, if you look at how the
• 39:56
  Speaker 1: community grieved, again, that wasn't awakening of ancestral technology. Because
• 40:01
  Speaker 1: no one told us to go put the candles there,
• 40:03
  Speaker 1: no one told us to bring the stage. No one
• 40:05
  Speaker 1: told And it was kind of like intuitively, you look
• 40:08
  Speaker 1: and there's like a huge shrine. Right, like we have
• 40:12
  Speaker 1: been told you don't do shrines anymore, right, like the
• 40:15
  Speaker 1: idea that like you only go to this church on
• 40:18
  Speaker 1: this thing, this thing, but here separately, we created one
• 40:22
  Speaker 1: big communal shrine. Even the way, even the way that
• 40:26
  Speaker 1: they traveled with him through the community was very That's
• 40:30
  Speaker 1: what our ancestors would have done, right, so that everybody
• 40:33
  Speaker 1: was a chance to like celebrate indigenous. To me, that
• 40:38
  Speaker 1: was something spiritually shifted, like you could see it like
• 40:43
  Speaker 1: in like, oh, we're doing things that we don't even
• 40:47
  Speaker 1: that we don't have to think about. Their intuit is happening.
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: And even like my mom was like, I want to
• 40:53
  Speaker 1: go she knows that practice ari, I wanta go to
• 40:55
  Speaker 1: your church. I don't have church. But right like going
• 41:00
  Speaker 1: on three years and she's never said that, right, so
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: after she saw awakening happening technology. That's interesting too, because
• 41:14
  Speaker 1: your mom got her initiative from another mother. It had
• 41:17
  Speaker 1: to be like mother, mother, I've been saying it. You know.
• 41:24
  Speaker 1: I had to think about have have like my own
• 41:26
  Speaker 1: internalized sexism when I was I was listening to y'all
• 41:29
  Speaker 1: talk about film tech and about building things and engineering,
• 41:33
  Speaker 1: and I realized I was like, yeah, but we all
• 41:36
  Speaker 1: we built the pyramids, like I've been to I've been
• 41:38
  Speaker 1: to the pyramids in Mexico and like I've been you know,
• 41:41
  Speaker 1: I haven't been to the pyramids in Egypt or ancient
• 41:43
  Speaker 1: Chemist yet. But I had to realize this whole time
• 41:46
  Speaker 1: in my mind there were men. In my mind, there
• 41:51
  Speaker 1: were men that built these things. I never even imagined that.
• 41:55
  Speaker 1: And then I was like, wait, wait, wait, wait, of
• 41:58
  Speaker 1: course women building. Wait look at the symmetry, like the
• 42:04
  Speaker 1: actual the pyramids in Egypt are set up as astrological structures,
• 42:11
  Speaker 1: like they're in alignment with serious and like other other
• 42:14
  Speaker 1: stars and constellations, like who are the astrologers now? And
• 42:19
  Speaker 1: if you watch Beyonce, you're like, of course, yeah, yeah,
• 42:26
  Speaker 1: She's like, we got to get the pyramids in that.
• 42:30
  Speaker 1: But I'm thinking about climbing the Pyramid of the Sun,
• 42:32
  Speaker 1: the Pyramid of the Moon, and being up there and
• 42:35
  Speaker 1: looking around and I was like, dang. Even as I
• 42:37
  Speaker 1: was climbing, I thought, oh these look at these men? Yeah,
• 42:42
  Speaker 1: what kind of you know to be like hey know
• 42:44
  Speaker 1: this it was us? Yeah, definitely, but it just yeah,
• 42:49
  Speaker 1: I mean, I think exactly what you're saying about that
• 42:52
  Speaker 1: internalized sexism, right, because if you're thinking about like who
• 42:55
  Speaker 1: the historians are, they are men, right, so there, if anything,
• 42:58
  Speaker 1: they're the ones that have been telling that that that
• 43:01
  Speaker 1: story or the knowledge. But actually we have been there,
• 43:04
  Speaker 1: we have been creating the things, whatever happening is. I mean,
• 43:08
  Speaker 1: And when I was like, I went to like Monte
• 43:10
  Speaker 1: alban too, and I like I saw my face like
• 43:13
  Speaker 1: on the sick like I was like, I was looking around.
• 43:15
  Speaker 1: I was like, guys, guys, I was like standing next
• 43:20
  Speaker 1: to it, like hello, hey, yo, like look at the
• 43:25
  Speaker 1: I mean, come on. But what's interesting to me is
• 43:28
  Speaker 1: the conspiracy theories you hear, like in particular about pyramids
• 43:31
  Speaker 1: and Latin America aliens. Na, it has to be nas.
• 43:37
  Speaker 1: Also the alien alias. It has to be the aliens
• 43:40
  Speaker 1: because people of color couldn't have thought about all of
• 43:42
  Speaker 1: this exactly exactly. There's no way we would rather believe
• 43:47
  Speaker 1: literally c right right right. It's so crazy. I know,
• 43:53
  Speaker 1: it's so thick, the denialist thing. So I'm wondering what
• 43:58
  Speaker 1: just thinking about the podcast us in all hard and
• 44:01
  Speaker 1: all these conversations that are being had. If you want
• 44:03
  Speaker 1: to share with us any like news updates, announcements for
• 44:07
  Speaker 1: our listeners about you know, what's coming up with the
• 44:10
  Speaker 1: podcast or with any of your individual work where they
• 44:13
  Speaker 1: can find you and listen to some of these really
• 44:15
  Speaker 1: important conversations. We I think together we've set a really
• 44:19
  Speaker 1: clear intention this year to really organically reach people, touch people,
• 44:27
  Speaker 1: meet with people. So you'll probably hear more about like, hey,
• 44:30
  Speaker 1: we are at such and such coffee shop. Come have
• 44:33
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• 44:37
  Speaker 1: we like to be, you know, we like to have
• 44:39
  Speaker 1: some freedom, but we also really like to connect um
• 44:43
  Speaker 1: so that and then we we we are weekly putting
• 44:47
  Speaker 1: out content. Every Wednesday, We're putting out content and just
• 44:51
  Speaker 1: kind of growing in that way. And then individually we
• 44:55
  Speaker 1: have a million projects follow all heart you could follow
• 44:59
  Speaker 1: us and see like the work that we're doing on
• 45:02
  Speaker 1: Our Heart definitely trickles into music and film and stuff
• 45:07
  Speaker 1: with known and then like working with decommizing mental health
• 45:11
  Speaker 1: and pleasure and sex therapy for me. So it's just
• 45:15
  Speaker 1: together we can we cover quite. Yeah, we're really into
• 45:21
  Speaker 1: spreading by word of mouth, like I love you know,
• 45:24
  Speaker 1: I love how great. I love Instagram and care about
• 45:27
  Speaker 1: and nobody said I love Instagram. It's my meditation, but
• 45:31
  Speaker 1: one of my meditations. Okay, I love Instagram. It's beautiful.
• 45:34
  Speaker 1: But I also I also love like the old school
• 45:38
  Speaker 1: technology of word of mouth. And this year we're so
• 45:42
  Speaker 1: focused on that, like we want you to tell somebody
• 45:45
  Speaker 1: about All Heart because on All Heart we are Our
• 45:48
  Speaker 1: most popular episode, which is like listen toimes like three
• 45:52
  Speaker 1: times more than every other episode, is our episode on forgiveness,
• 45:56
  Speaker 1: and people write to us saying that keep listening to
• 45:59
  Speaker 1: it over and over and over because when they start,
• 46:02
  Speaker 1: they don't want to forgive anybody, and they keep going.
• 46:05
  Speaker 1: But we know that that's is hard, but that's the
• 46:11
  Speaker 1: first you know, that's the first step. That's the first
• 46:14
  Speaker 1: step to your own personal freedom right, And so we
• 46:17
  Speaker 1: talk about that a lot. Yeah, I've been thinking about
• 46:19
  Speaker 1: that a lot actually, because I think in the past
• 46:21
  Speaker 1: week some like old traumas have come up. When we
• 46:23
  Speaker 1: were at a university talk um, some old stuff came up,
• 46:28
  Speaker 1: and so I've been thinking about that, like what I
• 46:30
  Speaker 1: thought the anger was behind me, and then I was retriggered.
• 46:34
  Speaker 1: So so now what you know, I don't want to
• 46:36
  Speaker 1: forgive anymore. Now I'm stuck in the anger again. So
• 46:39
  Speaker 1: how do I work through that? You know? I when
• 46:42
  Speaker 1: I work with clients one, I tell them sometimes you'll
• 46:45
  Speaker 1: get a trigger and it seems like the same trigger
• 46:48
  Speaker 1: or it brings it the same thing, but it's about
• 46:51
  Speaker 1: a different part of yourself. Right, So maybe we feeled
• 46:54
  Speaker 1: it emotionally but we haven't heard it's like a logic.
• 46:57
  Speaker 1: Maybehood it is like ologically, but we haven't thought about
• 46:59
  Speaker 1: it physically. Maybe we feel you know what I'm saying.
• 47:01
  Speaker 1: So usually it looks it's the same. It could be
• 47:03
  Speaker 1: the same trigger, but it's in a different place, It's
• 47:06
  Speaker 1: in a different part of you. One talking about spiritual technology,
• 47:10
  Speaker 1: boooo has on he has the herbs, I have the stones,
• 47:14
  Speaker 1: So teal floor right? Is my yes, mother, I want
• 47:22
  Speaker 1: to yeah, it's not right? Is my motherfucker? When it
• 47:27
  Speaker 1: comes to forgiveness and understanding. What that really means is
• 47:31
  Speaker 1: show me the mirror that this moment is holding up
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: and help me to see what it is so that
• 47:37
  Speaker 1: I can like make whatever adjustments I need to make.
• 47:41
  Speaker 1: And usually within a day of holding that thing close
• 47:45
  Speaker 1: to me, it's like, yeah, and it's sometimes not even
• 47:49
  Speaker 1: about what we thought it was about. Like sometimes we
• 47:51
  Speaker 1: thought it was about like the trauma itself. And I'm talking,
• 47:54
  Speaker 1: I'm doing a denim day at um Polypomona. Yeah, it's
• 47:58
  Speaker 1: so excited and we're gonna be talking about how to
• 48:02
  Speaker 1: hold a story um and learning how to hold a story.
• 48:05
  Speaker 1: And what I found is like a lot of trauma.
• 48:09
  Speaker 1: There's a trauma of the incident, but what really people
• 48:13
  Speaker 1: comes into my chair for is how their community held
• 48:16
  Speaker 1: their trauma after. If they had a community that was
• 48:20
  Speaker 1: like able and process with them the trauma, they wouldn't
• 48:23
  Speaker 1: be in my seat, they really wouldn't. But what happened
• 48:26
  Speaker 1: is the community kept ree traumatized and kept asking for evidence,
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: kept asking for X, Y and Z. And that is
• 48:34
  Speaker 1: really what they're talking about, and that's that's actually when
• 48:37
  Speaker 1: you're dealing with that, you can really rewrite that narrative
• 48:40
  Speaker 1: absolutely can reimagine that narrati lately. And another tool we've
• 48:44
  Speaker 1: talked about two on All Heart podcast is like tapping
• 48:47
  Speaker 1: e FT and really using e f T because you're
• 48:50
  Speaker 1: using these points in your body and our body is
• 48:54
  Speaker 1: storing this trauma, right, and so you're using these points
• 48:57
  Speaker 1: you're tapping and you're saying, like, even though this happened,
• 49:01
  Speaker 1: I totally and completely love and accept myself. You know,
• 49:05
  Speaker 1: it's all about self acceptance, self love and like and
• 49:08
  Speaker 1: saying even though this may be the truth, like I'm
• 49:11
  Speaker 1: building a new truth. Right. So that's another tool that
• 49:15
  Speaker 1: like I really find when I'm like in a bad place,
• 49:18
  Speaker 1: Like that's one of the things I go to because
• 49:19
  Speaker 1: I'm tapping on these meridians all of these places on
• 49:23
  Speaker 1: my body. And trauma has a way of like overshadowing
• 49:28
  Speaker 1: a lot of things, Like it begins to it's like
• 49:30
  Speaker 1: the blob. It kind of it's like everything begins to
• 49:34
  Speaker 1: go into it, and so when you're starting to do
• 49:37
  Speaker 1: the work and you're healing, it's the blob pulls back.
• 49:40
  Speaker 1: And so that's what I'm saying, Like we could be
• 49:42
  Speaker 1: triggered by something, but it could actually be related to
• 49:44
  Speaker 1: something that is not directly about the trauma, but more
• 49:47
  Speaker 1: so a person who was peripheral to it. It's really crazy,
• 49:53
  Speaker 1: but it will come up. But each time it comes up,
• 49:55
  Speaker 1: it's it's slightly different. That's the thing I would encourage
• 49:58
  Speaker 1: so because because I want people to feel like their
• 50:00
  Speaker 1: behind or like, oh I have the first thing it says,
• 50:02
  Speaker 1: I haven't done something. I thought I was doing the work.
• 50:05
  Speaker 1: I'm regressing. It's not that it's just a new it's
• 50:07
  Speaker 1: a it's new even though it's the same. Thank for them. Yeah,
• 50:10
  Speaker 1: there are a lot of external factors that impact like
• 50:13
  Speaker 1: how we internalize the trauma. Like I feel like to
• 50:16
  Speaker 1: what you're describing is when there's a lack of reception,
• 50:19
  Speaker 1: like positive reception to your pain, or when there's a
• 50:21
  Speaker 1: lack of justice there's a lack of action, it can
• 50:25
  Speaker 1: just make like overcoming it's so much worse. And you
• 50:27
  Speaker 1: bring up Denim day and the way that you and
• 50:29
  Speaker 1: I be a man in person was at cal State
• 50:32
  Speaker 1: l A like doing uh, you knowining training for sexual
• 50:36
  Speaker 1: assault advocacy and um, you know, I think that a
• 50:40
  Speaker 1: big part of that training was talking about how oftentimes
• 50:43
  Speaker 1: depending on your identity, especially for survivors of color, there
• 50:46
  Speaker 1: is a lack of justice. So how does that make
• 50:48
  Speaker 1: recovery from trauma even more difficult and already marginalized communities
• 50:52
  Speaker 1: or transgenerational trauma? Because because you know, even if, what
• 50:57
  Speaker 1: if you're a product group whose bodies were used to
• 51:01
  Speaker 1: just so called breed and to do all these different
• 51:04
  Speaker 1: like it's a lot or to be experimented on, or
• 51:06
  Speaker 1: like there's just a lot. And so a lot of
• 51:09
  Speaker 1: the work we're doing now is like your body is not.
• 51:12
  Speaker 1: Our bodies are not like the ground zero. We're not.
• 51:15
  Speaker 1: We can't, we can't. They actually house so much power.
• 51:19
  Speaker 1: We cannot continue to to run from them and associate
• 51:22
  Speaker 1: from them. We need to be in them to claim
• 51:25
  Speaker 1: what's rightfully. Hour. I was thinking about that this morning.
• 51:28
  Speaker 1: You know, some someone was asking, you know, my daughter's
• 51:31
  Speaker 1: hair was looking crazy, and then my auntie was asking
• 51:33
  Speaker 1: about her hair, and I said, well, let's ask her.
• 51:36
  Speaker 1: This is her body. Do you do you want her
• 51:38
  Speaker 1: to do your hair? Yes? And I said, okay, well
• 51:40
  Speaker 1: this is style I have in mind for you. You know,
• 51:42
  Speaker 1: talk about my favorite kind of technology is corn rows. Right,
• 51:46
  Speaker 1: So I can't do them, but I got dreams, I
• 51:49
  Speaker 1: got a visions like I finally met like who talk
• 51:55
  Speaker 1: about a scientist. I met a scientist. I mean this
• 51:57
  Speaker 1: woman Lisa Boom, Lisa's making me up. She's like, oh,
• 52:01
  Speaker 1: you got a little short piece, but let me let
• 52:03
  Speaker 1: me do something. She like start mixing up, this little mixing.
• 52:06
  Speaker 1: Start that. Next time I saw her that thing, I
• 52:08
  Speaker 1: grow like three, like what did you do in the
• 52:11
  Speaker 1: at Lisa? So I was like, I think she wants
• 52:13
  Speaker 1: you know, you want some break She's like, yeah, I
• 52:15
  Speaker 1: want some braids. I want that. Someone else came and
• 52:17
  Speaker 1: asked her, you know, do you like these shoes? And
• 52:20
  Speaker 1: she just kind of was like whatever, and like do
• 52:21
  Speaker 1: you want them? Should I keep keeping for her? And
• 52:24
  Speaker 1: I said, ask her like she is too. She knows
• 52:29
  Speaker 1: how to say yes and no. She knows how to
• 52:31
  Speaker 1: pick out what she likes. It's her body, it's her hair,
• 52:35
  Speaker 1: it's her clothes, it's her expression, that's her. Let her.
• 52:39
  Speaker 1: Let her be autonomous, you know, let her have that world,
• 52:42
  Speaker 1: you know that world she does. This is amazing. There's
• 52:47
  Speaker 1: because there's so much more to talk about, like even
• 52:49
  Speaker 1: just bringing up like black hair culture is technology. Oh
• 52:53
  Speaker 1: that's my favorite. Yeah, yes, you your hair always it's
• 52:59
  Speaker 1: amazing constantly, and she has lots of my hair. I'll
• 53:03
  Speaker 1: do braids, I'll do we've afro crochet. I won't purn
• 53:08
  Speaker 1: my hair. That's not that's but no, no, no, I'm
• 53:11
  Speaker 1: not going to that level. But I will I will
• 53:14
  Speaker 1: do like. I'm like a real like I want real like.
• 53:17
  Speaker 1: This is no because I haven't been doing No you
• 53:20
  Speaker 1: ustill have a fresh press. No particularly Sky. Yeah, this one,
• 53:25
  Speaker 1: I was like, did I to I can went to
• 53:28
  Speaker 1: somebody's shop. I mean black hair technology, black black hairstylists
• 53:33
  Speaker 1: are the most brilliant. And I wanted to say, you
• 53:37
  Speaker 1: guys used the word on want of your episodes. And
• 53:39
  Speaker 1: this is actually the focus of my work as a writer.
• 53:42
  Speaker 1: So I I write scripts to write, and I write music.
• 53:45
  Speaker 1: I write, I write anything you could write down. I'm
• 53:47
  Speaker 1: writing it. But I write about women with genius. You know.
• 53:52
  Speaker 1: We're working on a project together. And the reason I
• 53:54
  Speaker 1: was drawn to adapting one of Thea's novels was because
• 53:59
  Speaker 1: the woman was genius, and that because was the NONI was.
• 54:07
  Speaker 1: She caught me a genius and it hit like something
• 54:11
  Speaker 1: in my body and I was changed from that point off.
• 54:13
  Speaker 1: But she was the first person to say that, and
• 54:16
  Speaker 1: when you say it, always bring me back to that
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  Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, Nanny Lamar. Then, thank you so much.
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  Speaker 1: first time I really ever came into contact with Thea's
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  Speaker 1: work was Deaf Poetry Jam. I was like, what like fourteen,
• 56:26
  Speaker 1: watching women to women like I can relay not at all.
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  Speaker 1: I'm a child, but I feel it so deeply. It's
• 56:33
  Speaker 1: also called bitch Eye taught him. I feel like the
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  Speaker 1: public renamed it. So we're our outre. We're gonna play
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  Speaker 1: the woman to woman. Thank you once again for being here.
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  Speaker 1: I'm actuately glad that you were bold and brave enough
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  Speaker 1: to call my house so that we could discuss this
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  Speaker 1: woman to woman and trying to work somebody's things out,
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  Speaker 1: so we could compare notes on some dates in time
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  Speaker 1: and try to figure out some of his tired ass live.
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  Speaker 1: I'm actually glad to be hending from the lips and
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  Speaker 1: lift the lipstick on my man's collar, even though he
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  Speaker 1: told me he was working late, just trying to earn
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  Speaker 1: a couple at your dollars, and I loved and not
• 57:17
  Speaker 1: trusting him, so his bullshit I would swallow, even though
• 57:20
  Speaker 1: my intuition would never let me sleep. So I guess
• 57:24
  Speaker 1: the gaps in our relationship or where you thought you
• 57:26
  Speaker 1: would fit in just an insecure woman chasing after man
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  Speaker 1: who's already got a woman. But your puss is not
• 57:32
  Speaker 1: deep enough for a real man's fall in love with.
• 57:34
  Speaker 1: And that's we already know, because I see your third
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  Speaker 1: is so short that it already shows your best assets.
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  Speaker 1: So there's no point in wah time trying to figure
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  Speaker 1: out what you're thinking. After all, he is not fucking
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  Speaker 1: you for your mind and you're still younger hearts? Do
• 57:51
  Speaker 1: you think this is real? Cute telling your friends girl,
• 57:53
  Speaker 1: he's cheating on me because he really wants you when
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  Speaker 1: the reality is that we are nothing alike. When he
• 57:59
  Speaker 1: can't deal with all of me, he goes to you
• 58:01
  Speaker 1: to get me off of his mind, but it never works.
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  Speaker 1: Se he gets real still as he lays between the sheet,
• 58:05
  Speaker 1: says he's tuning you out. And now he's picture of
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  Speaker 1: me because you put up with that ship that I
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  Speaker 1: just won't deal with cause I'm strong and who I
• 58:11
  Speaker 1: asked and and he loves that. He loves that about me.
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  Speaker 1: It's just sometimes he can't stand the reality that he
• 58:17
  Speaker 1: doesn't deserve a woman like me. And when he feels
• 58:20
  Speaker 1: that way, well, hell, that's when he comes calling me
• 58:22
  Speaker 1: your dirty sheet. And just like a child, you thought
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  Speaker 1: you would call me to share, calling me to disclose
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  Speaker 1: to me the color of my man's underwear, and you
• 58:31
  Speaker 1: tell me like I don't already know. Hell, I wollt
• 58:33
  Speaker 1: him trying to tell me about how my man sucks. Bitch,
• 58:37
  Speaker 1: I taught him, so, so why don't you do why
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  Speaker 1: don't you do me a favorite? And when he comes
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  Speaker 1: over tonight, and he's coming and you're coming, and you're
• 58:55
  Speaker 1: both coming. At last year, simply lean back his head
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  Speaker 1: and look him deep in his eyes.