Latest / The Epstein Chronicles / Mega Edition: Billionaire Playboy's Club...A Memoir By Virginia Roberts (Volume 1) (6/5/26)
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- 0:00Speaker 1: What's up, everyone, and welcome to another episode of the
- 0:03Epstein Chronicles. I've had a lot of people ask me
- 0:06about Virginia's memoir, The Billionaire's Playboy Club, and it's certainly
- 0:11available out there as part of the court documents for
- 0:13anybody who wants to take a look. So I figure
- 0:17we might as well get this bad boy added to
- 0:19the catalog as well. That way you can hear from
- 0:22Virginia herself what she had to say. So I'll keep
- 0:25my ranting short and we'll just dive in The Billionaires
- 0:29Playboy Club by Virginia Roberts. To my true love Robbie,
- 0:34who believes in me every step of the way, and
- 0:36to all my children, you are my very inspirations. Chapter one.
- 0:42Every single person in this shared world together has a
- 0:45unique story of his or her own to tell. This
- 0:48one is mine. It was coming up on my third
- 0:52night camping out at Miami Beach in the summer of
- 0:54nineteen ninety seven. I was thirteen years old and hiding
- 0:58from a world full of hurt. Sitting on the shoreline
- 1:01for hours watching the sunset fall deeper into the horizon,
- 1:05my eyes were glazed over with tears, not from being
- 1:08wind whipped by the rough sea breeze, but from reflecting
- 1:12on the abuse I encountered as a young girl, and
- 1:14how everyone in my life who was supposed to be
- 1:16there for me had turned their backs on me in abandonment.
- 1:21My fears crept up, and the excitement of escaping all
- 1:24of them faded. Now realizing how alone I really was
- 1:28now and for the hunger that was painting my belly
- 1:32at this point, with nowhere to go and only time
- 1:35to waste, I wiped the tears from my eyes and
- 1:37set out to find an empathetic person that I could
- 1:40manage to get dinner money from. If not, it wouldn't
- 1:44have been the first time I had gone hungry for
- 1:46the night. I walked to the nearest bus stop and
- 1:49asked a handful of people for any spare change, none
- 1:52of whom that could help me. Sitting down on a
- 1:55nearby curb, disappointed in grief of my current state, I
- 1:58put my head into my knees and began to sob.
- 2:02Out of nowhere, it seemed, a black stretch limousine turned
- 2:05the corner and stopped in front of the curb where
- 2:07I had been hopelessly lost. The back door opened to
- 2:10reveal a heavy weight and balding old man with a big,
- 2:14cheesy smile. Neatly dressed in black trousers and a collared shirt.
- 2:18He was sitting next to a striking young blonde girl,
- 2:20dropped dead beautiful and dressed in a foxy red mini dress.
- 2:25She looked like a model just stepping off the runway.
- 2:28Their smiles greeted me warmly, and he kindly asked, what
- 2:32is such a sweet little girl like you doing sitting
- 2:35alone on the street, looking so upset. Shocked from this
- 2:38stranger's concern, I was hesitant in telling him the truth. Reluctantly,
- 2:43I decided to tell him that I was a runaway,
- 2:45not from around here, and really hungry, hoping at most
- 2:49I would get some money for food from him. He
- 2:52instantly displayed a chilling excitement and offered me to come
- 2:55into his car so we could talk some more. That
- 2:59should have been my first to get out of there quick,
- 3:01but with nowhere to go and so naive, I didn't
- 3:04realize how much worse it could get. Setting foot into
- 3:07that limo, I made my first entrance into a world
- 3:10that would entrap me for many years to come. He
- 3:13introduced himself immediately as Ron Eppinger, a businessman and owner
- 3:17of a successful modeling agency call Perfect ten, flaunting is
- 3:21oozing wealth by introducing one of his many girlfriends. The
- 3:24beauty next to him was Yanna, a supposed model from
- 3:27the Czech Republic who looked like she could be in
- 3:29her early twenties with the heavy load of makeup that
- 3:32she was wearing, but really was in her late teens.
- 3:35She kissed me on both cheeks and politely said hello
- 3:38in a thick check accent, making me feel a little
- 3:41more at ease. Convinced it couldn't be that bad. There
- 3:44was another girl in the car, right, I couldn't be
- 3:47more wrong. What he didn't tell me to begin with
- 3:50was that his modeling agency was only posting for an
- 3:53undercover trade. By the time I found out, I thought
- 3:56it was too late to run. His business was really
- 3:59in a lead immigrant trafficking ring of young women, mostly
- 4:03consisting of underage girls, that he was using his escorts
- 4:06to make them uber rich. Only available to a selective clientele,
- 4:11costing them anywhere from one thousand dollars and over per
- 4:15hour of erotic entertainment, the girls were trained to fulfill
- 4:18every sexual desire asked of them. No matter how bizarre
- 4:21the request might be, The high paid escorts for Ron's
- 4:24super rich clientele, such as Yana and many other charismatic beauties,
- 4:29would only benefit a fraction of their earnings for themselves,
- 4:33Ron reaping the majority of the financial rewards, and being
- 4:37they were all illegal immigrants, they were further trapped by
- 4:40his enslavement. I proceeded to introduce myself besides what he
- 4:44found out about me on the curb side, telling them
- 4:47my name and a little bit about how I ended
- 4:49up on the streets, explaining that I could take care
- 4:52of myself and didn't need my family or anyone to
- 4:55look after me anymore. Looking back later in life, I
- 4:58can now admit I was a terrible state, but being
- 5:01such a headstrong teenager, I refuse to give in. He
- 5:05asked my age, and I told him I was sixteen.
- 5:07At first, he coally replied, are you sure I think
- 5:10you could be telling me a fibb? How old are
- 5:13you really? I won't be mad. Being a terrible liar,
- 5:16I knew I had been caught and couldn't deny it
- 5:19any further. I told him the truth and he chuckled.
- 5:22Then paused and answered in a very serious tone, as
- 5:26long as you never lie to me again, I will
- 5:28take you in right away. I pondered to myself, what
- 5:31did he mean. He gave the driver the location of
- 5:34our destination and rolled the middle window back up to
- 5:38then tell me a story of how his daughter had
- 5:40passed away seven years ago from a horrific car accident
- 5:43in which four other teens were killed, and he has
- 5:46never gotten over it. And then unfortunately a bit of
- 5:49this is cut off here, so it picks back up
- 5:51right here. Of life was just mind blowing to me
- 5:56to even comprehend at first, with such a new outlook
- 5:59of the world, world to try and grasp at my
- 6:02young age. I was just listening to every word spoken
- 6:05to me with such attentiveness. I was going to try
- 6:07and model what I was observing from the girls. I
- 6:11justified their way of thinking in my head for now,
- 6:14thinking if all these girls seem happy enough, why couldn't
- 6:16I try to be? It was this or the streets
- 6:19for me. Ron came back for me not long after
- 6:22our conversation got out of hand and took me to
- 6:25the bathroom down the hall. He opened the tap and
- 6:28filled a small plastic cup with water and handed me
- 6:31two small blue oval pills, telling me to take them
- 6:34both as they would help me relax a little bit.
- 6:38I swallowed the pills, just following his orders. I put
- 6:41the cup on the countertop and turned back around to
- 6:43face them, Backing me up against the wall and now
- 6:46cornered by this large man, I felt slithering hands began
- 6:50to creep under my shirt, writhing my skin. I closed
- 6:54my eyes tightly and turned my head away from him,
- 6:57hoping that he would take my actions as a sign
- 7:00kind of being extremely uncomfortable. But that wouldn't bother him
- 7:04at all. He was half enjoying my reaction from the
- 7:07smug look on his face, and persisted through it, continuing
- 7:11to undress my clothes. He said he wanted to look
- 7:13me over and clean me up. It was so humiliating
- 7:16having to expose myself to this aging man, and now
- 7:19I knew he was going to end up with his
- 7:21hands and whatever else all over me all too soon.
- 7:25I hated to be right. As I stood naked before
- 7:27his widened eyes, he told me you're a hairy bugger.
- 7:30I'll have to shave you right up, young lady, And
- 7:33I didn't know he wasn't just talking about my legs.
- 7:36Standing with my legs wide apart while this man coaxed
- 7:40me through the entire ordeal of shaving his hands made
- 7:43me feel so dirty. Have I lost my mind? I
- 7:45thought to myself. But I had to play nice until
- 7:48I had an opportunity to get away. This was not
- 7:51as fun as the girls made it out to be.
- 7:53After all, this was utterly disgusting. I had no idea
- 7:56what was going to happen next with this guy, and
- 7:59due to whatever pharmaceuticals he gave me, I still don't
- 8:02know to this day. Waking up the next morning, my
- 8:05head was pounding and in an agonizing thumping pain, and
- 8:08I was so thirsty. The satin sheets thankfully covered my body,
- 8:12which was still nude from the night before, and I
- 8:15could hear hush voices standing over the bed where I
- 8:18was pretending to still be asleep, listening in on their conversations.
- 8:22I kept my eyes shut. I knew Ron's voice from
- 8:24two of the men, but not recognizing the other guys.
- 8:28I just stayed quiet, hoping he'd soon leave. Ron was
- 8:31telling the other man what atrocities he got up to
- 8:34the night before with me, and I heard him say,
- 8:36doesn't she even look like an angel the way she sleeps?
- 8:40She's my own little angel, he exclaimed proudly. I opened
- 8:43my eyes and rolled over to face them, both, having
- 8:46to wrap the sheets around my body, really not knowing
- 8:49what to say except good morning in a blushful tone.
- 8:52Ron introduced me to his business partner and told me
- 8:55to get dressed. He had my whole day planned out
- 8:57for me. Already looked in to get my hair colored
- 9:01a much lighter tintle blonde, and afterwards a day of
- 9:03shopping with the girls. I was becoming exactly what he
- 9:06wanted me to be, a carbon copy of the teenage Barbie,
- 9:10only I wasn't plastic and came with many benefits. Days
- 9:14turned into weeks being a servant to the sexual desires
- 9:18of this distorted pervert. I dreamt of escaping, But where
- 9:21would I go and how would I get away from Ron?
- 9:23With him controlling my every second of my day, separating
- 9:28myself from the other girls. Being so uncomfortable with enduring
- 9:31the everyday occurrences, I was longing for the solitude of
- 9:35the beach again. They were training me up to be
- 9:38an escort prodigy or something like that. Outrageous orgies were
- 9:42conducted as my lessons, with the girls teaching me all
- 9:45of their tricks in the game. It was for the
- 9:48sake of men's perverted fantasies. They didn't get anything from
- 9:51being sexually exploited and molesting each other except getting paid
- 9:54for it. Everything from oral sex to penetration with toys.
- 9:58I was expected to not only join in, but even
- 10:01perform ludicrous acts of hedonism. I was thirteen years old
- 10:06and had never heard the terminology of these sexual acts before,
- 10:09and definitely shouldn't have been learning them firsthand. Thrown into
- 10:13a world to chaos, I didn't know what to do
- 10:16except be as compliant as possible, even when asked to
- 10:18do the most degrading tasks. The excitement of the lifestyle
- 10:22he offered quickly diminished once I had to pay so
- 10:24dearly for it. The girls that subdued to this lifestyle
- 10:29and enjoyed it definitely put on a good act. But
- 10:31no little girl with hopes and dreams of their untainted
- 10:34future turns to our mother and says, one day, I
- 10:37dream of being a prostitute, passed around from man to man,
- 10:41only to grow older, regretting so much of my life.
- 10:45It was all part of an illusion that Ron painted
- 10:47for us that made it seem so alluring in the
- 10:49first place. Spending my days with Ron, he took advantage
- 10:55at every given chance, even in his convertible with the
- 10:58top down, I would be worse to go topless while
- 11:01he drove around when asked him. When I asked him
- 11:03why one day, it was supposedly so I could maintain
- 11:07an even suntan, but I knew it was his way
- 11:10of showing off his treasures. It was a far cry
- 11:13from the simple country life I had been raised in,
- 11:16wearing designer mini skirts and tops that always revealed too much.
- 11:19Of course, due to Ron and the girls determining everything
- 11:22I wore, ate, or spoke, we would spend our days
- 11:25at hair laser clinics, shopping, tanning beds, and eating as
- 11:29little as possible. Through the nights, we were expected to
- 11:34become party animals and greet Ron's clientele with the utmost
- 11:37flirtatious attention and doting as possible. Then, whether we were
- 11:42out for dinner, at a party or at a club,
- 11:45the men would choose his girl and take her home.
- 11:48Every girl had a different price, and so did the
- 11:50charges depending on the various clients, but Ron always kept
- 11:54me for himself. All right, folks, we're gonna wrap up
- 11:57part one of chapter one right here, and in the
- 12:00next episode discussing the topic, we're going to pick up
- 12:03where we left off. All of the information that goes
- 12:07with this episode can be found in the description box.
- 12:10What's up, everyone, and welcome to another episode of the
- 12:13Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're going to pick up
- 12:16where we left off with Virginia Robert's memoir The Billionaires
- 12:21Playboy Club. I would always dread the end of every night,
- 12:25fearing what new desires he had in store for the evening.
- 12:29Sometimes he would hurt me and tell me to try
- 12:31and enjoy it, then do it over and over again
- 12:34until I give him exactly what he wanted. I always
- 12:37resisted until I could not know more. He was too
- 12:41overpowering and relentless at getting the results that he wanted.
- 12:45At other times he could be so gentle and caress
- 12:47my skin, worshiping every inch of my body, all relying
- 12:51upon what mood he was in. Often, though, he liked
- 12:55to play the teacher role and instruct me on every
- 12:57motion and explain what would happen when I I did
- 13:00those certain things to him. No matter what he did
- 13:03to me, I was only disgusted with myself more and more.
- 13:06I still shudder at the thought of how he used
- 13:09my body. I turned fourteen in August that same year
- 13:12and was spending my birthday loaded on a concoction of
- 13:16pharmaceuticals and alcohol, being generously supplied by the very man
- 13:20who swore his devotion to caring for my every need.
- 13:24I didn't even know myself any longer, completely shying away
- 13:27from the girl I had grown up to be. Until
- 13:30this point. The apartment was empty except for me for
- 13:33the time being, and that was God's own little present
- 13:36for me, some solitude for once, I thought. Pouring myself
- 13:40another drink, I opened the sliding glass doors to the
- 13:42balcony and walked to the edge, looking down from the
- 13:45many stories where Ron's apartment was. I wished myself a
- 13:49happy birthday out loud, and wondered if my family even
- 13:52remembered the day's occurrence. Dwelling in my sadness for the
- 13:56fourteen years of suffering and loneliness I had already endured,
- 14:01the tears swelled up in my eyes trickling downwards down
- 14:04my cheeks. Inside, I felt so trapped, and I began
- 14:09to entertain the thought of jumping over the edge. It
- 14:12all seemed so much easier, and the simple blackness that
- 14:15death had to offer, rather than the tangled mess I
- 14:18was so tired of fighting to get out of seemed
- 14:20a much easier approach. Detached from wanting to feel anything,
- 14:24I became so numb towards my life's sown tragedies. I
- 14:27couldn't live like this any longer. I lifted my bare
- 14:30legs over the edge of the railing and sat looking
- 14:32at the ground beneath me, so close to even just
- 14:35slipping off the edge to my death. I couldn't think
- 14:38of any reason not to fall. I thought that I
- 14:41had made too many bad decisions to keep going on.
- 14:45But some force of a higher nature had other things
- 14:47in store for me. The sliding door slammed open with
- 14:50a burst of speed, and Ron screwed me up in
- 14:53his big arms and brought me inside of our bedroom,
- 14:56laying me down and seeing the look of despair in
- 14:59my eyes from my tear stained face, he went into
- 15:02the bathroom cupboard and returned with three pink pills forcing
- 15:06me to swallow them. Using the anger tone of his voice.
- 15:09He thought he was turning my sorrows into a distant dream.
- 15:13As I passed out in the bed, crying myself all
- 15:16the way to sleep, he didn't even ask me what
- 15:18was wrong, probably because he knew already soon enough, the
- 15:22crumbling of his vampire in the underworld of selling sex
- 15:25for his own advantage began with a single crack in
- 15:28his perfect scheme, and proudly it all started with me.
- 15:32Ron got a scare one day and rampage through his apartment,
- 15:35telling us girls to only pack our important belongings and
- 15:38some clothes as we had to leave right away. I
- 15:41didn't have much belonging to me, so I basically sat
- 15:44there watching everyone rush around frantically and was curious what
- 15:48could have gotten a man like Ron so scared. Once
- 15:51we were packed up and in the limo, he was
- 15:54trying to calm the frantic girls down after all the
- 15:56panic that spread through the apartment like wildfire. I was
- 16:00only one sitting there, half amused at the entire situation.
- 16:03He began assuring us that everything was going to be fine,
- 16:06as we were packed tightly in a limo that we
- 16:09were taking a long trip to Florida's countryside because someone
- 16:12had reported an anonymous tip to the missing persons unit
- 16:16at the local police station, identifying a very young girl
- 16:19as a possible victim of abuse. Living at his apartment.
- 16:23Ron knew what a landmine of trouble he had brought
- 16:26upon himself, making an exhibition out of me on the
- 16:28streets of Miami. I didn't pull off the older girl
- 16:31look like the other girls. I actually look younger than
- 16:34my age, with my blue eyes and freckles, always giving
- 16:37the impression of my youthful innocence. Now he had to
- 16:41do just whatever it took to ensure he stayed as
- 16:44far away from the authorities as possible. Arriving at a
- 16:47ranch in central Florida many hours later, I assumed it
- 16:50belonged to Ron, knowing never to ask him things like that.
- 16:54I knew my purpose and it wasn't prying into his
- 16:57personal life. Outside of the bedroom, there was a main house,
- 17:00a few cottages, some staff quarters, and paddocks where the
- 17:04horses were kept. I was in heaven, I thought, at first,
- 17:08finally something I could really enjoy. Riding was my passion,
- 17:11basically growing up on the backs of horses since I
- 17:14was able to walk. Not surprisingly, I began to despise
- 17:18Ron and all of the girls for the gross exploits
- 17:20they made me do with them, beginning to isolate myself
- 17:23from everyone. I'd rather spend my time sitting under a tree,
- 17:27watching horses, grays riding in my journal, or a painting,
- 17:30but mostly avoiding everyone possible unless Ron required me elsewhere.
- 17:35Nighttime was always a reoccurring nightmare for me, relived over
- 17:40and over again in many various ways. Ron would always
- 17:44start by making me some drinks and offering an assortment
- 17:47of pills before indulging himself by grotesquely putting his genitals
- 17:51in my mouth and tell me how to give them
- 17:53what he would call a first class blowjob. And I
- 17:56was being judged every minute of it, ordering me to
- 17:59slow down or speed up, or maintain a perfect rhythm.
- 18:03I was constantly being criticized for my efforts and pleasing them.
- 18:06I was eager when he actually gave me a compliment.
- 18:10The rest of the evening was always a surprise, left
- 18:12up to the moment's notice. Quite regularly, he would proceed
- 18:16with having the girls dress me up in a sexy
- 18:18outfit and loads of makeup, then entertain them with a
- 18:21lesbian reenactment revolving him at the center. Sometimes they would
- 18:26use dildos and other foreign sex toys where I'd like
- 18:29to see us hurt during sex, sometimes even penetrating me anally.
- 18:33But I always resisted and would try to redirect them
- 18:36with another sexual desire of his. But I had no
- 18:39excuses when it came to me having to use the
- 18:42sex toys on him. He told me men have g
- 18:45spots in the erectum and instructed me how to precisely
- 18:48penetrate them. These nights went on what seemed like an
- 18:51eternal sentence for the price of not living on the streets,
- 18:55where unfortunately for the one still there, I feared anew
- 18:59for my own personal experience could be much worse. Needing
- 19:03some contact with someone of my adolescent mentality, I called
- 19:06one of my school friends from the past, whom I
- 19:09won't name out of privacy, but I'll call him TJ.
- 19:12We were so close and I knew him very well,
- 19:14so well I had memorized his number a long time before.
- 19:18He was my first puppy love sprung from a childhood friendship,
- 19:21being my first crush. The summer before all of this happened.
- 19:26He was the only person I could think that would
- 19:28care enough to talk to me. In the middle of
- 19:30the day, the least busy time to be noticed, I
- 19:33snuck into one of the vacant guest rooms and used
- 19:35the phone to call my good friend. The sound of
- 19:38my voice radiated a chillin' him. It's you. Oh my god, Jenna,
- 19:43are you okay? He was so shocked to hear from me,
- 19:46and the sheer fact that I was still alive nearly
- 19:49three months now without a single word to my family
- 19:51or friends. Everyone doubted my return. My attempt to forge
- 19:55a happy voice when I spoke to him failed, and
- 19:58I absolutely crumbled. When he was at a loss for
- 20:01kind words for me, I told him of my current
- 20:04state of affairs, telling them of Ron and how I
- 20:07was terrified of him trying to escape in the middle
- 20:10of nowhere was useless. It was like being kept in
- 20:12a cage that I was enabled to break free from.
- 20:15Going on to dump my issues on TJ, I proceeded
- 20:19with how I longed to call my family and to
- 20:22be with them for good, but was too afraid they
- 20:25didn't want me, knowing I'd just be sent away somewhere
- 20:28else again, and to me, after all this time was
- 20:31like going from one cage to another. He had been
- 20:34called by them numerously and promised me that they were
- 20:38very worried and even hired private investigators to try and
- 20:41find me. Given I was eleven years old the first
- 20:44time I was sent away, my trust in their sincerity
- 20:46he spoke about was seriously doubted. I kept the conversation short,
- 20:51just in case my absence was being noticed, and I
- 20:54left on the note that I would speak to him
- 20:55again shortly. His attempts to get off the phone were
- 21:01nothing short of desperately to keep me on as long
- 21:03as possible. I thought he was just trying to help
- 21:06me in some way, giving him assurance in the fact
- 21:08I had survived this long obviously I can hold off
- 21:11a while longer. I gave him my love and told
- 21:14him I'd be in touch. Thinking I had slipped away unnoticed,
- 21:17I entered into the room that I shared with Ron,
- 21:20hoping I got away with my brief and very needed
- 21:23phone call. The place looked empty and everyone else seemed
- 21:26to be out and about, so I decided to have
- 21:29a bath in the spa and try to relax before
- 21:31the night's precautions. My body glided into the steamy water
- 21:35as I began to think about TJ and how good
- 21:38it felt just to hear for a friendly voice. My
- 21:41thoughts drifted to the days I missed when I felt
- 21:44I could be silly and childlike, and nearly forgot for
- 21:48a moment how grown up I was acting these days.
- 21:51My first glimpse at the image surrounding me when I
- 21:53resurfaced above the water was daunting. There was Ron standing
- 21:57over my tub, looking down at me with an eager
- 21:59display of his arousal. He began to undo his pants
- 22:03and take them down, and when he told me put
- 22:05your lips on my cock, I was too slow in
- 22:07responding to his request, so he grabbed me by the
- 22:10back of my head and forced me into his groin.
- 22:13I had tears streaming down my face as I looked
- 22:16up to him with the saddest blue eyes, hoping he
- 22:18would take pity and stop, but he never did. I
- 22:22was really hurt by this aggression, and he definitely knew
- 22:25it at the time, which I believe only made him
- 22:27more heated. I closed my eyes and began to count,
- 22:30using the time to keep my thoughts elsewhere, believing every
- 22:33number I counted only furthered me to the end of this.
- 22:38I just got over a hundred when he finished, and
- 22:41still half submerged in the deep bath, I was struggling
- 22:43to gain my bearings as Ron picked me up out
- 22:46of the bath and carried me to our bedroom, which
- 22:49was just outside the French adjoined doors, still damp from
- 22:52the hot water and the spa, I had goosebumps from
- 22:54the chill of the fresh air where he brought me
- 22:57to the bed and proceeded to deeply violate my every being. Eventually,
- 23:02his scars that he left were too deep to ever
- 23:04be healed, and would even carry on through the years
- 23:07to come. All right, we're going to wrap up right here,
- 23:10and in the next episode, we're going to pick up
- 23:12where we left off. All of the information that goes
- 23:15with this episode can be found in the description box.
- 23:19What's up, everyone, and welcome to another episode of the
- 23:21Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're going to pick up
- 23:25where we left off with the Billionaires Playboy Club, which
- 23:29is the Virginia Roberts memoir. Starting my day with a
- 23:33few of the supplied oxytocins and a bloody marry made
- 23:37by the live in house chef, having two celery sticks
- 23:40for my breakfast, I wanted to lie out by the
- 23:42pool and forget the world. Ron hated Tannline, so to
- 23:46be caught with a bikini top on was a big
- 23:48no no in his rule book. But after my cries
- 23:51to stop, we're so blatantly ignored last night, I was
- 23:53out to piss him off so I didn't have to
- 23:55remove my shirt, I put on my headphones, and before
- 23:58I knew it, I had fallen into a deep slumber
- 24:01from myself made therapeutic cocktail, the only way I knew
- 24:05how to cope with the emotional turmoil on the inside.
- 24:08Desperate to hear his voice, I called my friend TJ
- 24:11a few more times that week. I needed to feel
- 24:13like someone out there really knew me. Sometimes we could
- 24:16just chat like old friends with no cares in the world,
- 24:20and laugh at a distant memory from not too long ago.
- 24:23Then would come the goodbye part of the conversation and
- 24:26we would both get teary eyed, not knowing what would
- 24:29happen next or if this would be the last time
- 24:31that we ever spoke to each other again. My biggest
- 24:34fear came to reality when I was in our bedroom
- 24:36one afternoon, just lounging around out of boredom. Ron came
- 24:41bursting in through the door, right as a tomato. I
- 24:44couldn't help but feeling I was in big trouble. His
- 24:46face was distorted and raging towards me. I knew right
- 24:50away he must have found out that I was calling TJ.
- 24:52But how I had no idea. I had always tried
- 24:55to be an invisible as possible. Soon enough, it was
- 24:59all explained, are you trying to get me caught? You
- 25:02are nothing but a stupid girl. You know that. What
- 25:04am I supposed to do with you? Now? He was
- 25:06tearing up the room while his rants gave me something
- 25:09else to think about. What would he do with me
- 25:11if he had no use for me any longer. I
- 25:14wasn't even thinking about him being caught for soliciting illegal
- 25:17immigrants for the purpose of prostitution. I was more worried
- 25:20that he would be upset at the fact I was
- 25:22talking to another guy, maybe even jealous that he was
- 25:25at least my age. I replied with the simple sentences
- 25:29that I could manage to get out between all the shouting.
- 25:31I kept saying I'm sorry and putting my head down
- 25:34in shame. He picked me up by my throat, pinning
- 25:37me against the wall. You're going away, far, far away
- 25:41from me, and you better be nicer to the next
- 25:43man I send you to. I've heard he's not as
- 25:45nice as most would like. Are you fucking hearing me? Bitch?
- 25:49I slid down the wall, choking on the first air,
- 25:52entering my lungs, breathless and terrified. I never thought that
- 25:55Ron was a nice guy, but I had never seen
- 25:58him lose it this bad. Now I was being sent
- 26:01away to another stranger, another man. It only terrified me more.
- 26:07The girls came in to say they're goodbyes. All of
- 26:09them were crying and asking me in their best English
- 26:12languages why I had to call someone and lose everything.
- 26:15I was able to find out through the broken sobs
- 26:19off of them that the confession came from the housekeeper,
- 26:21who said she saw me using the room regularly but
- 26:25was never messed up. So Ron looked at the recent
- 26:28telephone bills and found the same number dialed from that
- 26:31room consecutively. He knew it was me right away, At
- 26:35least he didn't know it was another guy. I thought
- 26:37to myself, or I probably wouldn't have made it out
- 26:40of their alive. Ron came back to usher the girls
- 26:43out of my room and told me I had five
- 26:45minutes to pack my clothes, which he made clear were
- 26:48to be my only belongings to take with me. He
- 26:52washed his hands clean of me that night, or so
- 26:54he thought. The driver came knocking at my door just
- 26:57as Ron said, no longer than five minutes that he
- 27:00had offered me, and he took my single bag to
- 27:03the car. I didn't want all the jewelry, music, or
- 27:06books that he so caringly bought me as tokens of
- 27:09his twisted affection, only taking my clothes and a lot
- 27:12of one hundred dollars bills I had been saving. I
- 27:15slid a hole in my scrunchy, inserting my cash for
- 27:18a rainy day that I was more than sure was
- 27:20just around the corner. We drove for hours until I
- 27:24started seeing familiar surroundings. I couldn't believe my own eyes.
- 27:28I was back in Miami, but not on the beaches,
- 27:30somewhere in the CBD. This time. The driver delivered me
- 27:34to the front door with my one bag and waited
- 27:37at the door with me. Now I knew how it
- 27:39felt to be a puppy picked up from her litter,
- 27:42as you can only hope your next owner would treat
- 27:44you with some kind of kindness. Another balding man answered
- 27:47the door, but it wasn't so grotesquely fat like Ron,
- 27:51but still a new owner at that. He looked me
- 27:54up and down and seemed amused, and he snickered to himself.
- 27:58With one last look to the over my shoulder. It
- 28:01was almost an appeal for him for some way to
- 28:04help me. I knew he couldn't anyways, I was just hoping.
- 28:08He told me his name was Charlie, but didn't even
- 28:11bother asking me what mine was. I was sure Ron
- 28:14already filled him in on all my details when he
- 28:17arranged this. Charlie picked up my bag and led me
- 28:20into his bachelor pad townhouse. I was never given a
- 28:23welcoming tour of my new residence or made to feel comfortable.
- 28:27He walked me up the stairs and opened one of
- 28:30the doors in the small hallway, telling me this would
- 28:32be my new room. He showed me into it and
- 28:35told me to wait he would be back shortly. I
- 28:38sat on my bed, afraid to touch anything, and after
- 28:41the warning Ron gave me, I knew I had to
- 28:43watch my step around here. I put my head down
- 28:46onto the pillow my world was falling apart, and let
- 28:50my emotions downpour. Exhausted from the day's turmoil, I ended
- 28:54up falling asleep. I don't even know if he ever
- 28:57came in at all that night. The next morning I
- 29:00looked out the window to see my new surroundings. It
- 29:04was a beautiful sunny day outside, unlike the dreary cell
- 29:07I was locked away inside of feeling the sun warm
- 29:11up my face through the glass, it radiated a familiar
- 29:14sense of comfort from the days of the good parts
- 29:18of my childhood. I reminisced how it had used to
- 29:21be before all my life turned upside down, before all
- 29:24the fights with my family, before I had to look
- 29:27after myself, and before I was a slave to men.
- 29:30Those days were too long gone. Now, with too many
- 29:32hard times passing me by, it seems surreal to think
- 29:35that life had ever even existed in the first place.
- 29:39With that thought, I shook myself out of reminiscing that way.
- 29:43Whatever was going to happen was out of my control.
- 29:45Now I just had to give myself some hope that
- 29:48I would have the strength to get myself out of
- 29:50these circumstances before anything really bad happened. Chapter two, Part one.
- 29:57The house was quiet, so I just assumed that Charlie
- 29:59was still asleep. I decided to get cleaned up and
- 30:02have a shower. Not even a knock on the door
- 30:04when Charlie walked in with ease typical. I thought it
- 30:08was an easy way for Charlie to break the ice.
- 30:11You really are as beautiful as Ron said as he
- 30:14opened the curtain, watching me rinse myself off in the shower,
- 30:18and me knowing I had no way out of this
- 30:20except to go along with whatever you wanted. I just
- 30:24looked down at the mention of Ron's name, wondering what
- 30:26else he had told Charlie about me, realizing later that
- 30:30he wouldn't have said anything anyways, in fear I would
- 30:33have been damaged product that wouldn't make him the money
- 30:37that young girls go for. He just sat on the
- 30:40side of the vanity and continued to take observation of
- 30:43me standing submerged under the falling water. I avoided looking
- 30:47at him and let him do all the talking. After all,
- 30:50I knew that what I had to say was of
- 30:53no importance. That if he was anything like ron. Between
- 30:56the water beating down over my head, I could slightly
- 30:59hear him ramble on about some club and restaurant he
- 31:02owned in Fort Lauderdale. He said he was going to
- 31:05take me shopping for some club outfits and we would
- 31:07party together tonight. As if I was supposed to be
- 31:10excited over this so called treat of his, I looked
- 31:13up and gave him a quick smile, adding a compliant nod,
- 31:17and turned my attention to turning off the faucets and
- 31:20quickly grabbing my towel. I was falling so far from
- 31:24who I used to be, shying away from my outgoing
- 31:26personality to a quiet girl that didn't even recognize herself
- 31:30in the mirror anymore. I dried myself off and looked
- 31:33at the man standing between the doorway and me. He
- 31:36was still watching me with a sleezy look on his face.
- 31:39Now proceeded to move in my direction. Arms wide open,
- 31:43he embraced me, running his hands up and down my
- 31:45youthful curves, licking my neck in my ear lobes. Then
- 31:49his large, rough hands cut my small breasts and continued
- 31:53downward to feel in between my legs. I knew I
- 31:56had to get this over and done with as quick
- 31:58as possible, but I was dreading this moment from the
- 32:00second he greeted me at the door last night. I
- 32:03fell to my knees and gave in to his demented perversions. Thankfully,
- 32:07it didn't last too long before he climaxed and I
- 32:10was allowed to get myself dressed and ready to go out.
- 32:13I was nothing but money well spent. In his mind.
- 32:17This was another extremely wealthy man with a completely new
- 32:20set of wants and needs, asking a fourteen year old
- 32:23girl to affectionately dote on sexual desires to a man
- 32:26in his mid forties. I really hated myself these men,
- 32:30and just about everything in my life had boiled up
- 32:33to by this point. But I knew from a young
- 32:36age that to survive in this harsh world, I would
- 32:40have to do many things I would not willingly choose
- 32:42to do. At the shops, he decided that he would
- 32:45choose the clothes he paid for, which I might as
- 32:48well have been declared a teenage prostitute, just like Ron.
- 32:52He also liked it that way. The more degrading he
- 32:55was to me only proved his ownership of my body.
- 32:58He bought me tiny cocktail dresses and skimpy outfits, which
- 33:02I thought closely resembled the lingerie he'd also bought for
- 33:05me to wear for him. I noticed that day that
- 33:08he enjoyed parading me around the shopping mall and out
- 33:11for lunch at Hooters, even joking with the waitress that
- 33:14he'd like to buy her uniform because he thought he'd
- 33:16look sexy on his new girlfriend. We arrived at his
- 33:20two on one restaurant and club at around nine o'clock
- 33:22in the evening. It was a revolving tower called Hot
- 33:25Chocolates in downtown Fort Lauderdale. The food was delicious, and
- 33:29for the first time since being with Ron, I ordered
- 33:32a hefty meal with steak and mashed potatoes with a
- 33:35scrumptious gravy smothered on top. Charlie ordered strong cocktails for
- 33:39us both, and before I knew it, my head was
- 33:42spinning and we were on the dance floor together. The
- 33:44music blared in my head and the rhythm on my
- 33:47body took over completely, forgetting about even dancing with Charlie
- 33:51and letting the music take hold and work its magic.
- 33:55It didn't do me any justice, though, as Charlie watched me,
- 33:58imagining what pleasures lay in store for us later on,
- 34:01taking me home before the club had even closed, he
- 34:04just couldn't wait to indulge on exactly what he was
- 34:07fantasizing on beforehand. Once back at his townhouse, he led
- 34:11me upstairs into his bedroom and pushed me down in
- 34:14the middle of the bed. The motions from the wavy
- 34:18mattress made me dizzy and made me feel even drunker
- 34:21when he lay on top of me, coming at me
- 34:24like a hungered beast wanting to ravage his next meal.
- 34:27It was intimidating. As he entered into me with a
- 34:29forceful thrust, he moaned out in delectable heaves. I looked
- 34:33away while he self indulged his own gratifying needs, using
- 34:37my body as his instrumental pleasure. I only grew stronger
- 34:41in my head, letting the hatred for men desires intensify.
- 34:45All right, folks, we're gonna wrap up right here, and
- 34:47in the next episode, we're gonna pick up where we
- 34:49left off with chapter two. All of the information that
- 34:52goes with this episode can be found in the description
- 34:56box What's Up everyone, and welcome to another episode of
- 34:59the Epstein Crimenicles. In this episode, we're going to pick
- 35:02up where we left off with Virginia Robert's memoir The
- 35:06Billionaires Playboy Club. The next two weeks, I was expected
- 35:11to be at Charlie's beck and call, never allowed to
- 35:14leave his side, even making me sleep in his bed.
- 35:17From the second night onwards, I never even got the
- 35:20chance to call TJ again. It was too much of
- 35:23a risk anyway, thus pushing him further out of my memory,
- 35:26too afraid of the emotional repercussions. Our typical routine was
- 35:31to wake up, get showered and dressed, and I would
- 35:34put on my makeup while Charlie made his business calls
- 35:36for the day. We would leave the house mid afternoon
- 35:39and run his errands, do some shopping, sometimes meeting his
- 35:43friends or business partners for lunch. None of the men
- 35:46he introduced me to seemed defended at his choice of
- 35:49adolescent eye candy. They just continued to chat away as
- 35:54if it was normal to be in public with his
- 35:56arms draped over a girl young enough to be his granddaughter.
- 36:00Too shy by giving me a flirty tap on my
- 36:02bottom or even trying to kiss me. My last night
- 36:06was no different from every other night. We went shopping
- 36:09that day and out for lunch alone. Later, we headed
- 36:12to a club he called Iguana Joe's. We met up
- 36:15with his friend and set our helles. They both seemed
- 36:18so excited about the club, and Charlie was full of
- 36:21compliments all around. The club did have a line out
- 36:24the door, which looked a mile long coming in. Luckily
- 36:27we didn't have to use the front door. Charlie returned
- 36:30from the bar with two giant looking long Island dice teas,
- 36:34which were his favorite drink to start with, and then
- 36:37we just sat there for a while, watching people dancing,
- 36:40occasionally conversing about passing thoughts. We danced for a while,
- 36:45having a few more drinks, and after about two hours,
- 36:48Charlie said he was ready to go home. What a
- 36:50daunting time to look forward to. He always liked to
- 36:53have a brief sexual encounter before drifting off to sleep,
- 36:56with my naked body intertwined between his arms and legs.
- 37:00It was bad enough to have to entertain him at
- 37:02every given second of the day, but his grip on
- 37:04me was so stifling. I felt so choked I could
- 37:07hardly breathe much less sleep. Eventually, my overworked mind would
- 37:11drift in and out of a restless sleep, but constantly
- 37:14on edge. I thought many nights of escaping, But where
- 37:17would I go? Would one of Ron's ever so connected
- 37:21informants find me and turn me into something to be
- 37:23disposed of for good. I just prayed that I wouldn't
- 37:27be another missing person to add to the list of
- 37:29girls found in the local ditches, and I knew that
- 37:32was where I was headed if I screwed this up
- 37:34for Ron again, as if my guardian angel was here
- 37:38the whole time, listening to my secret prayers. My rescue
- 37:41came the next morning with an abrupt bursting through the
- 37:43bedroom door at about six am. Charlie and I were
- 37:47still lying in bed together and his grip on me
- 37:49was still tight. The men, dressed in all black military gear,
- 37:53had large guns and helmets on. It was so frightening
- 37:57that at first I couldn't even comprehend what was happening.
- 38:00So rapidly, I thought Charlie could have been in some
- 38:02kind of trouble with a business friend he had done
- 38:05wrong too. But then one of the men in black shouted, FBI,
- 38:09this is a raid, get down with your hands on
- 38:11your head. In too much shock to move, three of
- 38:14the men grabbed Charlie and threw them to the floor
- 38:16and cuffed them. I sat up in bed with the
- 38:18sheets covering my naked body and watched as they dragged
- 38:21Charlie from the room, still completely nude. He wasn't even
- 38:25allowed to get dressed. Another agent had come back into
- 38:28the room to find him a pair of shorts. I
- 38:30could hear him screaming at the top of his lungs
- 38:32all the way outside. He was screaming, and the last
- 38:35thing I heard him yell was if you say anything,
- 38:37you know who will find you. I could hear more
- 38:40threats being yelled at me, but I couldn't make out
- 38:43what it was that was being said. I was in
- 38:46total confusion and I couldn't believe what was happening. There
- 38:49were so many uniformed agents. I felt so small compared
- 38:52to all of them. But they were very kind and
- 38:55helped me out of bed, allowing me to remain covered
- 38:57up with the bed sheets so I could get dressed.
- 39:00The first decency I had been shown in a long time.
- 39:04It was an odd feeling to acknowledge. I knew the
- 39:07life that I had come accustomed to for the last
- 39:09six months was now over, and in so many ways,
- 39:12I was relieved, but I was also very nervous about
- 39:15what lay ahead of me. I excused myself to the
- 39:18bathroom to put on some clothes. Not having anything half
- 39:21decent like a normal pair of jeans and a T shirt.
- 39:24The best I could come up with was a metallic
- 39:26blue mini skirt and a tiny matching top that fell
- 39:29just below my breasts. Hardly clothing at all. It was
- 39:32more like scraps of cloth. Putting my hair up in
- 39:35a tight bun with the scrunchy that held my five
- 39:38hundred dollars bills, I was let out of Charlie's townhouse
- 39:41for the very last time, starting my life over again.
- 39:45I wanted to leave behind my every memory belonging to
- 39:48these horrid times, only taking a small sack containing my underwear,
- 39:52makeup bag, and journal with me. The agents led me
- 39:56down the staircase and my last vision a Charlie was
- 39:58bent over the hood and handcuffed. I slipped into the
- 40:02backseat of the car and was driven to Broward County
- 40:05Police Station, where the federal agents interviewed me about my
- 40:08entire whereabouts for the last six months. I was so
- 40:11scared of what Ron would do if I told the
- 40:14agents what really happened, but at the same time, I
- 40:17knew he'd most likely kill me anyways for being such
- 40:20a liability. Over the next few hours, I sat down
- 40:23and told the agents how Ron's business worked and what
- 40:26part I had to play. To them. I was able
- 40:29to ask how they found out I was at Charlie's house,
- 40:32and they informed me that I was being followed all
- 40:34the way from Okalla, Florida, where Ron had me stowed
- 40:37away for the last four months. TJ, my friend, called
- 40:41my parents after the first conversation, and ever since then
- 40:45the FBI were tapping the phone lines and recording every conversation,
- 40:49completely unaware of TJ's caring act of deceit. I was
- 40:53in shock that they had been tracking us for so long.
- 40:56I knew now with or without my help, the FBI
- 40:59had an enough to put Ron away for a very
- 41:02long time if they could catch him. That is, having
- 41:05so many crooked people working for you can be an
- 41:07advantage when you're in trouble, like having a pair of
- 41:10eyes in every city. Ron somehow was able to find
- 41:14out about Charlie's arrest and immediately deserted the country to
- 41:17avoid legal punishment. Ron had so many countless charges put
- 41:22up against him. Eventually, when the FBI were able to
- 41:24track him down, they were able to have him arrested
- 41:27in Yugoslavia and extradited back to Miami. He was finally
- 41:31held accountable for being a pedophile, soliciting women for prostitution,
- 41:35and running many illegitimate and illegal businesses. By the time
- 41:40the FBI caught up to him, he was in his
- 41:42mid seventies, and he died of old age, serving his
- 41:44second year in prison of a lengthy sentence. Coincidentally, I
- 41:48was told of his punishment and death many years later
- 41:51by one of the same FBI agents that had rescued
- 41:54me from Charlie's arms. I was taken out of interrogation
- 41:59after the interview was over and told to sit in
- 42:01one of the officer's desks while I was waiting for
- 42:04someone to come pick me up. Uncertain of who that
- 42:07someone would be, I assumed it would be someone from
- 42:09the Juvenile Delinquent Division to take me back to some
- 42:13state operated lockdown facility. Not the nicest place to call home,
- 42:17but I had no choice in this matter. Sitting back
- 42:20in the revolving chair, I was twirling out of boredom
- 42:23and listening to the roaming conversations within the office, I
- 42:26pondered in fearful anticipation of the dreadful places that lay
- 42:30in store for me, Having spent a lot of my
- 42:34adolescents in these kinds of places. For the sheer factor
- 42:37that my mother said I was out of control and
- 42:39unable to handle by eleven years old, there was plenty
- 42:44of just reasons for me to be scared of those places.
- 42:47What I knew lay in store for me were constant
- 42:50fights between the rough girls being settled with violent raids.
- 42:53Then out came the pepper spray, and then the strip searches,
- 42:57and worst of all, no sunlight. It didn't matter if
- 43:00you were quiet, shy girl that didn't belong there. When
- 43:03there was a fight, which could be like a few
- 43:05times a week, every person in the room was considered
- 43:08a threat and they were treated like a violent criminal.
- 43:11I hated those places and the memories they gave me.
- 43:15That's why I always ended up back out on the street.
- 43:18No child or juvenile should have to be subjected to
- 43:21such unreasonable force and neglect. Some of the girls were
- 43:24so used to being subdued to this kind of treatment
- 43:27their whole life, they ended up repeating the same attributes
- 43:31as the people who initially hurt them in the first place.
- 43:34One very sad girl I'll never forget had a father
- 43:38who had been a heroine junkie and decided to play
- 43:41Russian Roulette with some of his attic friends, and by
- 43:44fate or chance, took the bullet straight through his brain,
- 43:47killing him instantly. Her mother, being a heroin addict herself,
- 43:51spiraled downwards after his death and gave her four year
- 43:55old child to her agent grandmother that eventually had to
- 43:58put the twelve year old in the undire circumstance. I
- 44:02can only have the highest hopes for her today. But
- 44:05unfortunately for most girls that have been victimized by society,
- 44:09they aren't ever able to stop being a victim for
- 44:11the rest of their lives or go on to make
- 44:13other people victims themselves. A sad and unfortunate fate for
- 44:18so many innocent and it happens so much more than
- 44:21anyone would rather admit to. Instead of just trying to
- 44:24find a solution, all right, folks, we're gonna wrap up
- 44:27right there, and in the next episode dealing with the topic,
- 44:29we're gonna pick up where we left off, and that's
- 44:31with part one of chapter three. All of the information
- 44:35that goes with this episode can be found in the
- 44:38description box. What's up, everyone, and welcome to another episode
- 44:41of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're getting right
- 44:45back to the Billionaire's Playboy Club the memoir by Virginia Roberts,
- 44:50Chapter three. Hours later, I was still twirling myself in
- 44:54the same office chair when I spun around to see
- 44:56my father walking in my direction. I nearly fell off
- 45:00my seat at the sight of him gripping the chair's handles.
- 45:03I couldn't imagine what in the world I would say
- 45:05to the man I once used to call Daddy, but
- 45:08now hated for the abandonment and unforgiving wounds he instilled
- 45:12inside of me. He contemplated putting his arms out to
- 45:16hold me, but instead anger and shame took over, and
- 45:20he just shook his head. I never saw my dad
- 45:22cry until that day, and I have to say it
- 45:25made me feel young again and said that I had
- 45:28disappointed my parents again. The agents now standing beside us
- 45:34led both of us together back into the interrogation room
- 45:37to retell my journey to my father, who they said
- 45:40I had no choice to tell or they would have
- 45:42to tell him for me being I was underaged minor
- 45:45when Ron violated the statutory rape law, among many others
- 45:50when he took me back to his apartment and kept
- 45:52me as a sex slave. My dad couldn't believe what
- 45:55he was hearing, and, for his lack of a better
- 45:58choice of words, asked me to stopped talking. He was
- 46:01just happy to know I was alive. Like everyone I'd
- 46:04known in my life, they'd rather brush it under the
- 46:07carpet and not deal with the pain, rather than realizing
- 46:10sooner or later, it all comes out sometime in our life,
- 46:14even when it transgresses into our future, then becomes what
- 46:18we are willing to accept out of partners, work and
- 46:21people in general, simply saying in other ways, then with words,
- 46:25that our bad decisions befall our tragedies later on in life.
- 46:29The next discussion was led to where I would go
- 46:32from there. Before anyone could put his or her suggestion forward,
- 46:36I leapt in with my two bits and made it
- 46:39obviously clear to my dad that if I was sent
- 46:41away to another lockdown facility, and if you betrayed my
- 46:45trust again, he would never see me again. I would
- 46:48disappear for good this time and for all he would know.
- 46:51I could be dead in no time. On the streets,
- 46:54he looked at me for the first time of my life.
- 46:57He saw the many years I had grown up in
- 46:59the time I was on and heard the seriousness in
- 47:02my tone of my voice. When I made my vow
- 47:04to him, He put his head in his hands and
- 47:07told me the bad news. My mom didn't want me
- 47:10to come home, and she was making his life hell
- 47:12for even suggesting bringing me back into their lives. I,
- 47:16for some reason, threatened her lifestyle and drove her crazy.
- 47:20I'd been surprised about how a lot of things lately,
- 47:23but not that one. The last time I saw my mom,
- 47:26she ever so carefully lied to me and told me
- 47:29she was bringing me to an eye doctor for an infection. Instead,
- 47:32we walked into this tall blue building with people in
- 47:35uniforms holding clipboards and a few muscley guards. She ushered
- 47:39me inside and hurried to close the large auto lock
- 47:42doors behind her, leaving me there alone and imprisoned, which
- 47:46is what led to me recently living on the streets.
- 47:50My life was hell as long as she was in
- 47:52control of it. So when she didn't want me back
- 47:54at home, I was fine with that too, but there
- 47:57had to be somewhere else I could go. My dad
- 48:01said he had no choice but to put me back
- 48:03into the facility, but he made a sincere promise that
- 48:06he would not take any longer than a week to
- 48:08try to find a place for me to stay and
- 48:10to go to school. A week I could deal with,
- 48:13but I was still unsure if I could trust my
- 48:15father and hold him to his word. But yet again
- 48:18I had no choice. Being my legal guardian, he could
- 48:21send me anywhere he wanted, and there was nothing I
- 48:24could do except for keep running. I gave in, and
- 48:28before he left the officers to take me back to
- 48:31the last facility I had run from, I gave him
- 48:33one last hug and reminded him one week and I'm gone,
- 48:36nodding his head and squeezing his arm tighter around me.
- 48:39I could only hope he meant it, but he didn't
- 48:41look too optimistic. In the police car on the way
- 48:44back to the facility, they had to handcuff me in
- 48:47case I ran again, But I had no intentions anyway,
- 48:50I was going to give my dad The week before,
- 48:52I began to search for the right opportunity to jolt again.
- 48:56I was like a ghost come back, said so many
- 48:59of my girlfriends from the past, and there was now
- 49:02a lot of new faces there too. At night, we
- 49:05were all in bed and supposed to be sleeping, I'd
- 49:07be daydreaming of better days and imagine myself somewhere in
- 49:11a comfortable bed, actually enjoying my life for a change.
- 49:14A week went by in this facility, spending most of
- 49:17my days locked up in what they called the White Room,
- 49:20a bare room with a concrete floor, no toilet or
- 49:23even a chair to sit on. The only comfort I
- 49:26had was the blue sweater that was provided as part
- 49:29of the uniform, and my hairscrunchy filled with my stowed
- 49:32away cash that no one had found during the unpleasant
- 49:35strip searches. I would spend hours in the White Room
- 49:39for objecting to the conformity and unwilling to participate in
- 49:43their drilling regime. I didn't feel like I owed an
- 49:46explanation to these people, even when they brought a psychologist
- 49:49in to speak with me. What was the point when
- 49:52I would be gone any day now, and as if
- 49:55any of these people even cared in the first place.
- 49:57I was just another number in the system and they
- 49:59had a job to do. There was one megabitch female
- 50:03guard named Evelyn, and she used to either really like
- 50:05you or really hate you, and God forbid you were
- 50:08one of the unfortunates that she didn't like. She'd make
- 50:11your entire stay an agonizing nightmare, constantly picking on girls
- 50:15who were not strong enough to cope, whether her predicament
- 50:18or past issues. She'd stand them up and publicly humiliate them,
- 50:22and even when they begged her through their sobs to
- 50:25let them sit down, she'd only torment the worse, which
- 50:28only made the strong girl want to antagonize the fragile
- 50:31ones with more malicious intent. Luckily, when I had previously
- 50:35been there, she didn't take much notice of me, but
- 50:37I stayed out of harm's way with her just being
- 50:40quiet and observant. Being back here seemed like an eternity
- 50:44while I held my end of the bargain, but unfortunately
- 50:47my father didn't. The first chance I saw to run,
- 50:50I took it. I was being sent to get my blood,
- 50:53and you're intaken for drug and disease analysis. My driver
- 50:56would be a volunteer from the community, and it would
- 50:59be the perfect ghetto for me. I was brought from
- 51:02the white solitaire room and led into the bright sun,
- 51:05feeling like today would be a favorable day for my escape.
- 51:09We got to the doctor's office. My whereabouts told me
- 51:11I had plenty of ways to run, and I scouted
- 51:14out the best looking route. My plan was to barge
- 51:18through the volunteers in experienced grip and wriggle my way
- 51:21out if needed, then hit the asphalt, running until my
- 51:24legs couldn't carry me any further. Playing it out in
- 51:27my mind felt different to the anticipation that led up
- 51:30to actually doing it. The inner strength that I had
- 51:33was the only thing going to help me in this circumstance.
- 51:37We arrived in the parking lot and I hadn't said
- 51:39a word to him the entire drive. The small frame
- 51:42Spanish man tried to make pleasant conversation, but I couldn't
- 51:45see him as anything but a challenge, so I kept
- 51:47quiet instead, ignoring his humorous attempts to befriend me. The
- 51:52car pulled to a stop and he came around the
- 51:54side to unlock my door and that was it. Here
- 51:57we go, I told myself, and push past the volunteers.
- 52:00His arms grabbed out at me, but only caught me
- 52:03by my shirt. He didn't even put up much of
- 52:05a struggle. Like some of the other trained ones I've
- 52:08gotten away from before, they would put me on body
- 52:10locks of all sorts of types, but just tore up
- 52:13my collar of my shirt, letting me break free. I
- 52:17had done this many times before, so I knew I
- 52:19wasn't gone yet. I had to first get out of
- 52:22these clothes. The cops would be looking for someone of
- 52:25my description in the area with a blue shirt and
- 52:28khaki pants. So my first stop was a busy shopping complex.
- 52:31I took the money from my scrunchy and bought myself
- 52:34a pair of jeans, a shirt, and a sweater for disguise,
- 52:38and my next stop was Dunkin Donuts to get a
- 52:40chocolate iceed donut and a cup of coffee. I didn't
- 52:43have doubts about getting out of the facility, but I
- 52:46wasn't expecting it to be so easy this time. My
- 52:49past excursions all began with an abrupt struggle, sometimes ending
- 52:53in a brutal state of affairs after being pepper sprayed
- 52:56and fastened into some painful lock by forceful men times
- 53:00my size, then tossed into solitary until I saw my
- 53:03next chance to dessert. I got to know the guards
- 53:07real well, as I spent a lot of my time
- 53:09being dragged down to the white room by them. There
- 53:11was Jim, large black man who could have doubled for
- 53:14a Miami Dolphins defensive linebacker. John was another big man
- 53:18with a ponytail and a mustache and you look like
- 53:21someone who definitely owned a Harley. The last guy, Scott,
- 53:24was smaller build, but made up for it with his
- 53:27steroid injected muscles bulging out of his neck, and there
- 53:31was this added height from his curly fro. When they
- 53:34weren't restraining me and holding me captive in solitaire, they
- 53:37were actually pretty nice guys, not afraid to have to
- 53:40laugh after some explosive incident, and I held no contempt
- 53:43towards them either. They were just doing their jobs. It
- 53:47was deja vu all over again, free at last. But
- 53:51where would I go now? With ron scouts on the
- 53:53lookout for me, and now the authorities being notified I
- 53:56was a runaway again. I would have a lot of
- 53:58people searching for me, so I knew I had to
- 54:01be careful where I went. My last stop before leaving
- 54:05the shopping center was to use the payphone to call
- 54:08my parents. My dad answered, completely surprised to hear me
- 54:12on the other end. I wanted to sarcastically thank him
- 54:14for breaking his promise to me. I hope he is
- 54:17happy now. He just lost his daughter for good. I
- 54:20stopped to listen to what he was trying to say,
- 54:22and he told me I was getting you out in
- 54:24a few days. I found you somebody to stay with.
- 54:27She's a good person who's got teenagers your age. I
- 54:30was just trying to convince your mother to sign the
- 54:32papers to get you out of there. I was so
- 54:35outraged at her ability to put her own wants before
- 54:37the needs of her own flesh and blood daughter. I
- 54:40told him to come pick me up and bring me
- 54:42to the house so I could speak with her for
- 54:43the first time and over a year. But if I
- 54:46felt threatened for one second, I'll be on my way
- 54:48quicker than a blink of an eye, and for my
- 54:51own good. He wasn't overjoyed at my proposition, knowing what
- 54:54position this put him in as her husband. But as
- 54:57my father, he decided to put me first for one
- 55:00and take me home to confront my mother. I arrived
- 55:04at my house for the first time in a very
- 55:05long time, and everything looked different. My parents refurnished and
- 55:09renovated the house. I didn't even have a room anymore.
- 55:12My old belongings in bed were removed and it was
- 55:15now in office. Of course, my mom didn't meet me
- 55:18at the gate or the front door, like her long
- 55:21lost offspring reunited. No, Instead, she waited for me to
- 55:25come up and find her out back smoking cigarettes and
- 55:28having a beer. She stood up from her chair and
- 55:31squinted her eyes, loathing in hatred. She coldly slapped me
- 55:35hard in the face. The slap stung, but I matched
- 55:38her look with a familiar stone coldness that only she
- 55:41could understand. Immediately, we both started to cry, and we
- 55:44washed away our anguish and resentment through our tears and
- 55:47consolidated our feelings for the first time since the chaos
- 55:51first affected our lives. She didn't want to know how
- 55:55much of my whereabouts, and she still had a lot
- 55:58of anger to get over, but she asked me to
- 56:00stay home at least my little brother ran through the
- 56:03back door and hugged me so tight. I started to
- 56:05cry again and was saddened by how much time I
- 56:08had missed. The time I had lost just hanging out
- 56:11with my brothers, and it took me even longer to
- 56:13realize how precious time really is. We were never going
- 56:17to be the average Joe's next door, but at least
- 56:19this was better than nothing. I love being with my
- 56:22family again. We had barbecues and bonfires with each other,
- 56:26and life began to slowly piece back together. It was
- 56:29bizarre how normal it was when I first got home.
- 56:32I turned fifteen that year, and it was the exact
- 56:35cup of tea that I had needed to boost me
- 56:37up and get me on the right track. I decided
- 56:40to go to school and acquire my general education diploma
- 56:44or ged and got a summer job with my dad
- 56:46at Mara a Lago, Donald Trump's exclusive country club in
- 56:49Palm Beach, surrounded by lush acres of tropical landscapes, manicured gardens,
- 56:55and a mansion made into a beach club for the
- 56:57rich and famous. It's known as the Jewel upon Beach.
- 57:01I was in sheer awe at the gold arch ceilings
- 57:03and grandeur ballrooms. The spa where I worked was world class,
- 57:08not only oozing in style, but in the way each
- 57:12and every clientele was treated with the utmost service. My
- 57:16focus was now set on becoming a massage therapist and
- 57:19working my way into the luxurious spa like the one
- 57:22I worked for now only I was a locker room
- 57:24attendant there. I studied many books about the anatomy of
- 57:28the human body and how you can affect a person's
- 57:30well being and health for the better through a simple
- 57:33healing touch. It was amazing to me that the way
- 57:36the body responded to massage. I was more than just interested.
- 57:40I was determined to become a therapist. All right, folks,
- 57:44we're gonna wrap up right here, and in the next
- 57:46episode dealing with the topic, we're gonna pick up where
- 57:49we left off. All of the information that goes with
- 57:52this episode can be found in the description box. What's up, everyone,
- 57:56and welcome to another episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In
- 57:59the episode, we're going to pick up where we left
- 58:01off with Virginia Robert's memoir The Billionaire's Playboy Club. It
- 58:07was one of those anatomy books that I had my
- 58:08nose buried in one afternoon on a quiet Tuesday, and
- 58:12it could get pretty lonely in the locker room, so
- 58:14if I wasn't busy, I'd sit outside by the SPA's
- 58:17reception and read my books in the warmth of the
- 58:19Florida sun. A lovely looking woman in her late thirties
- 58:23who spoke with a proper English accent approached me. I
- 58:27assumed it was a general question, like where's the lady's
- 58:29room or was that the famous model from so and so?
- 58:34But she was more interested in the book I was reading,
- 58:37only believing at first we were just making small talk.
- 58:40She was really intrigued at my choice of reading. She
- 58:43then asked if I did massage on the side. I
- 58:46stated I was only reading the book and I had
- 58:48not yet begun to study, but one day I would
- 58:50love to practice massage therapy. She introduced herself as Glenn Maxwell.
- 58:55I would later find out that she was the daughter
- 58:58of the late prominent businessman in Disgrace newspaper tycoon Robert Maxwell.
- 59:03I told her my name is Jenna, pointing to my
- 59:05name tag on my shirt, and offered her a cold
- 59:08or hot beverage, as those were my instructed duties at work.
- 59:12She accepted a tea and went on to chat a
- 59:14bit about this rich guy that she worked for, and
- 59:17she knew offhand that he was looking for a massage therapist,
- 59:21just doing me a good deed out of the kindness
- 59:23of her heart. I'm sure she offered to introduce me
- 59:25to him. I declined her first proposition, thinking out loud,
- 59:30told her I didn't know the body well enough to
- 59:32even attempt an interview. She didn't seem worried at all
- 59:35about my fear of incompetence, saying that if he liked
- 59:39me enough, he would get me the best training in
- 59:41the industry. Glenne thought that I had a cheery persona
- 59:45and I fit the quota for what he was looking for, and,
- 59:49as she put it, an enthusiastic learner that she said
- 59:53she gathered from the sticky notes popping out of the
- 59:56various sections in my book. I accepted her a phone
- 59:59number and the house address and told her I will
- 1:00:02call her if I'm able to come over after work.
- 1:00:04I rushed over to the tennis court where my dad
- 1:00:07was working and told him of the news. We both
- 1:00:09thought this could be a wonderful opportunity to become a
- 1:00:12massage therapist. Seeing that it was a lady in her
- 1:00:15late thirties who came off as more of a nurturer
- 1:00:18rather than a procureur. Neither of us saw any reason
- 1:00:21to be hesitant. Chapter four, Part one. At around five pm,
- 1:00:26my dad drove me down to the bottom of Elbrio
- 1:00:28Away on the Palm Beach in her coastal We pulled
- 1:00:32into a short driveway beckoning a large bank mansion with
- 1:00:35a heavy wooden door. I was so excited about this
- 1:00:39chance and asked my dad to wish me luck. He
- 1:00:41gave me a big squeeze and wish me my best.
- 1:00:44He walked me to the front door and I rung
- 1:00:46the door chime. Moments later, we were greeted by an
- 1:00:49older gentleman dressed in a casual butler uniform. I told
- 1:00:53him I was here to meet Miss Maxwell for a
- 1:00:54massage trial, and he opened the doors for my father
- 1:00:57and I, telling us to wait in the entry as
- 1:01:00Miss Maxwell would be on her way any second. And
- 1:01:03she was down the stairs. She walked with a warm smile,
- 1:01:07her short black hair seeming very proper and elegant for now.
- 1:01:12She shook my father's hand and thanked them for bringing
- 1:01:14me and kissed us both on the cheeks. They spoke
- 1:01:17briefly about whom she worked for and about mar A Lago,
- 1:01:20where she worked. She was in a hurry, you could
- 1:01:23tell to end the conversation and say goodbye to my dad,
- 1:01:26which she did ever so pleasantly. She said the boss
- 1:01:30was upstairs and awaiting my arrival. So with that, I
- 1:01:33said my bye to my dad and began to follow
- 1:01:36Glane up the stairs. I was so nervous, but I
- 1:01:39didn't show it. I kept my reserve and demeanor cool
- 1:01:41as ice, trying to show maturity for the open position.
- 1:01:45We continued on to the massage room, passing by a
- 1:01:48grand crystal chandelier and a couple of lengthy wooden hall
- 1:01:51tables displaying a multitude of photos displaying young girls and
- 1:01:55beautiful women. Trying not to gawk at them. I didn't
- 1:01:57even notice that some of those girls were only wearing
- 1:02:00their smile. Gleayne asked me how my day at work was,
- 1:02:05and I told her that it was easy, peasy, as always,
- 1:02:08just trying to make simple conversation. There was a fork
- 1:02:11at the end of the staircase, and she led me
- 1:02:13to the right hand side. The lights were dimmed in
- 1:02:16the bedroom, but I could still see the king size
- 1:02:18bed in the middle of the room. We did a
- 1:02:20u turn around the bed, which led us into a
- 1:02:22massage room dripping in luxury. I could have definitely compared
- 1:02:26it to the renowned Mar A Lago spas. It had
- 1:02:29marble walls and a glass enclosed shower and a self
- 1:02:32automated steam room. At the very end of the burberry
- 1:02:35carpeted room. There was a very large mirror over a
- 1:02:38basin to the right of the room with an array
- 1:02:41of oils, ointments, soaps and lotions, and a small closed
- 1:02:44door which I assumed must be a closet. The only
- 1:02:48thing that struck awkward about this room was the naked
- 1:02:50man laying face down a top of the turquoise massage
- 1:02:53table in the center of it. I had to be
- 1:02:56prepared for this, I told myself. Massage was something I
- 1:03:00had never done before, so I quickly brushed away my
- 1:03:03thoughts of possible schemes, wanting to believe wholehearted that this
- 1:03:07was going to be legit. Glaine introduced us to each other,
- 1:03:10and I proceeded to make his acquaintance. Looking up from
- 1:03:14his downward position, he looked me over and gave a
- 1:03:16smile to Golayne, an obvious notion of his approval. He
- 1:03:20was Jeffrey Epstein, as she pronounced for him, as if
- 1:03:24I was supposed to recognize his name or something. He
- 1:03:26affirmed it was his pleasure and replied, just call him Jeffrey.
- 1:03:31No need for formalities, he answered, cleverly, putting me at ease.
- 1:03:35This man did not look like someone to be aware of.
- 1:03:38Both him and Golayne appeared to be very nice people
- 1:03:41and conscious of their health as their need for massages
- 1:03:44and spa visits. No alarm bells went off yet. I
- 1:03:48was prepped by Golaine to treat this as a lesson
- 1:03:50from her and follow her exact lead. If I did
- 1:03:53good tonight, then maybe I would become Jeffrey's traveling massuse,
- 1:03:57seeing the world and getting paid well for it. I
- 1:04:00was very hopeful a job like this could really make
- 1:04:03my dreams come true. I followed suit and wash my
- 1:04:06hands with warm water so the coldness would not shock
- 1:04:09Jeffrey's naked body, then lathered them in rich body butter.
- 1:04:13Glaine told me to always keep one hand on Jeffrey
- 1:04:16even when getting more lotion, so it didn't make him
- 1:04:19lose concentration on being relaxed. She gave me a tip
- 1:04:23and told me to keep a blob of lotion on
- 1:04:26my forearm, so it prevented me from having to keep
- 1:04:28going back for more and it was less disruptive to Jeffrey.
- 1:04:32This all seemed like real fun to begin with. I
- 1:04:35was being educated about the body and splitting Jeffrey's body
- 1:04:38with Glaine, mimicking her every motion. Starting with his feet,
- 1:04:41we began with his heels and the arches of his souls,
- 1:04:45pushing the blood up his calves in upward strokes to
- 1:04:48rejuvenate the body's blood supply, and being careful to mind
- 1:04:52his leg hair didn't pull. I was keeping up with
- 1:04:54her and enjoying the education. It was so interesting how
- 1:04:58the body worked, and I couldn't believe I was learning
- 1:05:00all of this for free. Once I got a bit
- 1:05:03of a groove following Glaine, they began asking me all
- 1:05:05sorts of questions about my past, and it didn't take
- 1:05:08long before the conversation led down the darker experiences of
- 1:05:11my young life. When they found out that I hadn't
- 1:05:14led much of a normal existence, they only probe me
- 1:05:17with more questions, which, being put on the spot, answered honestly.
- 1:05:22The funny thing is that they didn't seem appalled at
- 1:05:25all by my statements, rather entertained, if anything. Jeffrey called
- 1:05:29me a naughty girl with that wry smile of his,
- 1:05:32and half playful and half defensive. I answered, no, I'm not.
- 1:05:35I'm really a good girl, just always in the wrong places.
- 1:05:38He then replied, it's okay, I like naughty girls, and
- 1:05:41rolled over onto his front side to expose his complete
- 1:05:44nude self. He wasn't the first man to show me
- 1:05:47his penis, so I wasn't shocked at the appearance of
- 1:05:49his manhood, but I was incredibly shocked at his complete
- 1:05:52ease to present himself with an erection. I tried to
- 1:05:56ignore it, waiting to follow the next directions off of Glaine,
- 1:05:59who so now surprisingly stood behind me bare breasted. Before
- 1:06:03I had a chance to even think of replying hastily,
- 1:06:07she began to slowly undress me while Jeffrey started to
- 1:06:10stroke his manhood while watching us. She unbuttoned my blouse
- 1:06:13and removed my bra, revealing my bosom. Cupping them in
- 1:06:17her hands, she moved her lips across my nipples, licking
- 1:06:20and teasing them with her tongue, making them cold and stiff. Next,
- 1:06:24her hands moved down to my tiny white skirt, removing
- 1:06:27the final piece of my remaining uniform. She slid my
- 1:06:30skirt down my legs with these for a moment, keeping
- 1:06:33on my love heart panties so they could both take
- 1:06:36notice of my apparent youth. They even snickered to each
- 1:06:39other about how cute she still wears little girl panties,
- 1:06:42Jeffrey said, and Glanne joined in his laughter. Acting as
- 1:06:47my madam, she instructed me to start by licking his nipples,
- 1:06:50and after I had sufficiently pleasured both of them, then
- 1:06:53prompted me to go down on Jeffrey orally while she
- 1:06:56rubbed her breast along his body tantalizingly. She moved behind
- 1:06:59me again, this time to remove my panties and start
- 1:07:03fondling the delicate folds between my legs. I was still
- 1:07:06in shock from the initial degrading blow. I didn't even
- 1:07:09let the reality sink in. It was all too much
- 1:07:11for me to emotionally handle, so instead I hid behind
- 1:07:14my fears, which I told myself I wasn't ever going
- 1:07:17to be worthy of anything at all, and this would
- 1:07:21probably be as good as it gets for me. After all,
- 1:07:24I thought, what have I been trained up for until now?
- 1:07:27Nobody ever stopped to ask if it was comfortable or
- 1:07:29if I wanted to stop. No, Instead, Glaine only directed
- 1:07:33me to conclude the massage session by climbing up on
- 1:07:36the table to be fixated on Jeffrey, straddling him so
- 1:07:40he could penetrate me. When it was all said and
- 1:07:42done and over with, I was taken into the steam
- 1:07:45room with just Jeffrey to get further acquainted. As Glaine
- 1:07:48left the room to go get dressed, he asked me
- 1:07:51to grab his feet and rub them, not saying a
- 1:07:53word about what just happened, like it was all normal
- 1:07:56and accepted. I listened on to him ramble about his health,
- 1:08:00benefits of a sauna and the history of it, ignoring
- 1:08:03the fact of the matter of his pretentiousness to grading
- 1:08:06my spirit. I figured I had gone too far already.
- 1:08:10What would be the point thrown in the towel now
- 1:08:13after I had done exactly what these people wanted. Whilst
- 1:08:16we were sweating out our body's toxins and the steam
- 1:08:19was blasting my burning face, I listened to his lessons.
- 1:08:22Entertaining his ego, I let him become my teacher. He
- 1:08:25seemed to like that. He sounded like a very clever
- 1:08:28and intelligent man, though telling me a story of how
- 1:08:31he made himself an empire of billions from being a
- 1:08:34middle class professor to an elite financial advisor for clientele
- 1:08:38with only billions in their bank accounts, and through his
- 1:08:40so called lessons, he became my mentor and I emerged
- 1:08:44as his pupil, the teacher's pet. After the sauna, we
- 1:08:48went to the next glass door beside us, where the
- 1:08:51shower was. He turned tap outwards and stood underneath the
- 1:08:54water as I stood naked and cold from the temperature difference.
- 1:08:58Instead of asking me to join them under the warm stream,
- 1:09:01like I thought he was going to, he handed me
- 1:09:03a bar of soap and asked me to wash his
- 1:09:05body from top to toe. It didn't stop there. I
- 1:09:09had to massage the shampoo and condition her into his
- 1:09:11scalp as well. I was bewildered that someone would ask
- 1:09:15this of someone else. Wasn't it belittling enough having to
- 1:09:19endure the illicit massage from beforehand, but now this. The
- 1:09:22surprises kept coming that night as this was definitely not
- 1:09:27how I expected my interview to turn out, but that's
- 1:09:30what I had learned in my short time on this earth.
- 1:09:32Life was full of disappointments. I let everyone else take
- 1:09:37the power of authority from myself and use me in
- 1:09:40whatever way he or she wanted, instead of standing up
- 1:09:43and giving myself the respect I deserved, which in turn
- 1:09:46would have helped me get through life without all of
- 1:09:49the abuse I ended up copying, not given the belief
- 1:09:52in myself from an early age, I suppose affected my
- 1:09:56sense of control. Always letting the ones with power in
- 1:10:00strength reduced my inner self to shreds until I was
- 1:10:03cut so tiny in size I would be completely subdued,
- 1:10:06till only their wants and needs left, ignoring mine. The
- 1:10:09men I had encountered in my short experience with them
- 1:10:12only repeated their inflictions, convincing me that there was no
- 1:10:16running away from this sick world I lived in. Not
- 1:10:19yet understanding it all came down to the choices that
- 1:10:22I had made for myself. I needed some encouragement on
- 1:10:25the right words to unlock my very soul. Jeffrey told
- 1:10:29me the towels were on the heated rack just outside
- 1:10:31the shower and asked me to get one and pat
- 1:10:34him down again, putting himself first, as I sat there
- 1:10:38freezing while I compliantly padded down his body with a
- 1:10:41white fluffy towel until he was dried. I nearly expected
- 1:10:45him to ask me to dress him as well, but
- 1:10:47not surprisingly, that came later down the track too. I
- 1:10:52dried myself off and wiped the makeup from under my eyes,
- 1:10:55keeping quiet, not sure what to really say, and half
- 1:10:58embarrassed from the entire evening events that just took place,
- 1:11:02I just remained silent while we both got dressed, until
- 1:11:05he brought me downstairs, where Golaine was sitting at a
- 1:11:08desk holding his black leather Duffel bag. When she moved
- 1:11:12from the chair to let Jeffrey sit down, she passed
- 1:11:14him the bag and began to tell me that I
- 1:11:16had great potential to be a massage therapist. They really
- 1:11:19liked my style, and who knows where this could lead to.
- 1:11:23She asked to see me again tomorrow, same time after work.
- 1:11:26He opened the bag, revealing stacks of brand new hundred
- 1:11:28dollars bills, separated with rubber bands to count by the thousands.
- 1:11:33He grabbed one stack and took out two crisp notes,
- 1:11:35placing them in my hand. He laughed that it was
- 1:11:38nearly my whole week's wage at mar A Lago. Only
- 1:11:41here I didn't have to degrade myself as his new
- 1:11:44little toy. When I got home, my parents were anticipating
- 1:11:48my arrival. I kept it simple and sweet with my folks,
- 1:11:51only letting them know of the lessons about the body
- 1:11:54I had received and the future prospects in massage therapy
- 1:11:57that lie ahead. Nobody questioned I was working for, and
- 1:12:01complimented my ability to be a hard worker. I quickly
- 1:12:04got out of the conversation, afraid I might give away
- 1:12:07a hint of shame in my eyes, but no one
- 1:12:09caught on. I excuse myself to the bathroom to have
- 1:12:13a shower, and stared into the mirror for a moment,
- 1:12:15asking myself if I could really go through with this,
- 1:12:19only to mentally respond by reminding myself, this would be
- 1:12:22as good as it gets for a girl of my
- 1:12:24stature and limitations. I scrubbed myself rigidly in the shower,
- 1:12:29as if I could wash away the filthiness of the night,
- 1:12:32but it didn't help. I could still feel their hands
- 1:12:34in me and all over me and inside of me.
- 1:12:38Trying to sleep that night was nearly impossible, too, closing
- 1:12:41my eyes only to drift away to flashbacks of the
- 1:12:44moment I had to give myself to. Jeffrey and Epstein
- 1:12:48each replay an exploitation of my vulnerability. The next morning,
- 1:12:52I awoke feeling anxious about the day ahead, trying to
- 1:12:55push yesterday's memory from my thoughts. I was quiet for
- 1:12:59the whole trip to work with my dad. Before we
- 1:13:01got out of his car in the parking lot, he
- 1:13:03asked me if everything was okay. I lied for his
- 1:13:06sake of mind. My life was being transformed and I
- 1:13:10didn't even know it yet, but soon enough, I would
- 1:13:12be a brainwash tool, only used for the sexual pleasure
- 1:13:16of others. All right, folks, we're gonna wrap up right here,
- 1:13:19and in the next episode dealing with the topic, we're
- 1:13:21gonna pick up where we left off. All of the
- 1:13:24information that goes with this episode can be found in
- 1:13:27the description box. What's up, everyone, and welcome to another
- 1:13:30episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're gonna
- 1:13:34pick up where we left off with Virginia Robert's memoir
- 1:13:38The Billionaires Playboy Club, convincing myself in order to succeed,
- 1:13:43I had to step up from being a girly teenager
- 1:13:45and start thinking like a young woman. It would be
- 1:13:48my ticket to a great career and a fortunate in life,
- 1:13:51I told myself, So what if I had to bargain
- 1:13:54my body to these rich old geezers. Some girls get
- 1:13:56themselves through college by becoming a stripper and using their
- 1:14:00bodies to pay for degrees. Others go down even worse paths.
- 1:14:04I guess it was just another way to fathom the
- 1:14:06road I was going down. The effectiveness of the lies
- 1:14:09I forced myself to believe was working. As I continued
- 1:14:13to tell myself I had to make it any way
- 1:14:16I could, rather than ever letting myself sleep on the streets. Again,
- 1:14:20I was trading one shocking lifestyle for another, thinking I
- 1:14:23was choosing the right one. If I could go back
- 1:14:26in time to ever meet myself, I would choose this
- 1:14:29time in my life. I'd start with a good heard
- 1:14:31smack to the head to first shake some things up
- 1:14:34in there, and next I would tell that girl that
- 1:14:36she could actually make it on her own if she
- 1:14:39just worked hard at earning an honest wage. And built
- 1:14:42her life up slowly. There's no rush or time limit
- 1:14:45to ever stop reaching for achievement. Sadly enough, I probably
- 1:14:49wouldn't have even believed myself anyways. Learning my life's hard
- 1:14:53lessons through the experiences, I continued to suffer. I went
- 1:14:57to work at mar A Lago that day, trying hard
- 1:14:59not to think of what lay ahead in the afternoon
- 1:15:02to come. But the later the hour got, the more
- 1:15:05distinguished the nots became in my stomach. I spoke to
- 1:15:08no one of the details to my explicit interview, but
- 1:15:13told one girl how I was happy I was now
- 1:15:15officially studying massage therapy. Another lie. My friend was surprised
- 1:15:21and intrigued that these people, who could afford the best
- 1:15:24of the best of therapists in the world would choose
- 1:15:27an untrained fifteen year old girl to perform massage. She
- 1:15:31never said it in words, but her body language told
- 1:15:34me she knew exactly why they wanted to use me,
- 1:15:37and it wasn't for a therapeutic reason, And deep down
- 1:15:40inside I understood the rest of the afternoon slipped away quickly,
- 1:15:46and before I knew it, I was standing before those
- 1:15:49large wooden doors again, giving a moment's pause, but long
- 1:15:52enough to draw in my breath and exhale some of
- 1:15:54the anxiety before ringing the doorbell. One answered the door
- 1:15:58again and told me A Calayne would be down in
- 1:16:00a few moments and asked to follow him to the kitchen.
- 1:16:03There was a pleasant looking young girl with blonde spirals
- 1:16:06in her hair that glanced up from the mound to
- 1:16:09paperwork before Her shocking blue eyes and appealing English accent
- 1:16:14seemed delightful, and she introduced herself as Emmy, Golaine's personal assistant.
- 1:16:20I introduced myself as Jenna, which is what most people
- 1:16:22knew me as, and I told her I was on
- 1:16:25an employment trial to become Jeffrey's massage therapist. She had
- 1:16:29a cooie smile on her face that told me she
- 1:16:31knew exactly what I was on trial for, and something
- 1:16:34in my gut told me this wasn't the first time
- 1:16:36a young girl had been trialed for the same position
- 1:16:39I was about to fill. We were only chatting for
- 1:16:42a moment before Gulayne appeared and told me Jeffrey was
- 1:16:45ready for his massage. I was led through the extensively
- 1:16:48large house to the winding staircase that would lead me
- 1:16:51up to the same dreaded room where I would have
- 1:16:53to reenact last night's performance. I wasn't far away from wrong.
- 1:16:58I gave Jeffrey a massag with Glene leading the way again.
- 1:17:02This time, we surprisingly made it to the front of
- 1:17:04his body, and she continued to show me how to
- 1:17:07massage all the way up to his stomach, pushing my
- 1:17:10hands in a spiraling clockwise circle motion to not disrupt
- 1:17:13the bowels, and then we came up to his chest.
- 1:17:17He couldn't dare contain himself for one second longer, telling
- 1:17:20me to put my lips on his nipples and give
- 1:17:22them a kiss. Jeffrey moaned in pleasure, and Glaine started
- 1:17:25to undress me from behind. Within moments, I was completely
- 1:17:29naked and Golayne had her top off. She was cressing
- 1:17:33my body with her hands while Jeffrey moved his hands
- 1:17:36down to stroke his loins while he watched her and
- 1:17:39I kiss and touch each other. I didn't know if
- 1:17:42she was doing this for the sake of his eye candy,
- 1:17:44but she sure did act like she loved having the
- 1:17:47control over me, telling me what to do throughout the
- 1:17:49entire threesome. Jeffrey's climax was always the end of our sessions,
- 1:17:54and this time he wanted to have me make a
- 1:17:56morgasm orally. Afterwards, we went for the Ritualist sixteen room,
- 1:18:00this time with Glainne joining in with us for a conversation.
- 1:18:04She asked me to massage your feet this time while
- 1:18:07we were in the steam room, showing me that Jeffrey
- 1:18:09wasn't the only one I had to take care of.
- 1:18:12We all had a shower next, and then we all
- 1:18:15went downstairs to pay me and have Juan drop me
- 1:18:17off back home. The following afternoon, I received a call
- 1:18:21at work. Surprisingly, it was Glaine asking me to come
- 1:18:24over when I got off of work. Again, the compliance
- 1:18:27side of me took over, and I told her I
- 1:18:29look forward to meeting with them today instead of telling
- 1:18:32her to go screw herself for lying to me and
- 1:18:34making me degrade myself more each time I saw them.
- 1:18:38I finished work for the day and my dad brought
- 1:18:40me over to Albrioway again where the vultures were patiently
- 1:18:45waiting in their lair. He wished me well as I
- 1:18:48hopped off of his big truck, looking ever so much
- 1:18:51like his little girl again. I gave him a smile
- 1:18:55and a wave as he drove down the long driveway,
- 1:18:58waiting for him to suddenly turn back and not leave
- 1:19:00me alone to my task. I shook myself out of
- 1:19:04my calamity and put on my big girl's face. Juan
- 1:19:07brought me into the kitchen again and I waited for Golaine.
- 1:19:11He offered me a cold drink and some fruit on
- 1:19:12a platter. I accepted and was grateful for the rejuvenation
- 1:19:16before I went to work again. It wasn't long before
- 1:19:19Golaine approached me from behind with a cold, intense look
- 1:19:22in the eye. I jumped from my seat, feeling like
- 1:19:25maybe I shouldn't have been eating and drinking while on
- 1:19:28the job, as her demeanor seemed annoyed and temperamental. In
- 1:19:32the second that she appeared, she told me I would
- 1:19:35be on my own today and she had business to
- 1:19:36attend to, so make sure I remembered what she taught
- 1:19:39me as my child depended on it. Chapter five. I
- 1:19:45walked up the stairs by myself, this time taking in
- 1:19:48more of the decor noticing the more I looked around,
- 1:19:50the more I noticed a different girl and each photograph
- 1:19:53in his collection of half nude and topless girls on
- 1:19:56display around his mansion. I couldn't believe how many girls
- 1:19:59there were. It's not like Jeffrey was much to look at.
- 1:20:03He was an aging man in his early fifties, with
- 1:20:05shiny gray hair and characteristic lines drawn down his face,
- 1:20:09as if he had seen harder days, with no prospects
- 1:20:13of ever settling down or having a family of his own.
- 1:20:15Jeffrey treated us girls like a piece of clothing he
- 1:20:19could try on for the day and get rid of
- 1:20:21the next. So why were there so many girls in
- 1:20:24these photos? I wondered to myself if I would end
- 1:20:27up one of these girls among his collection of forgotten
- 1:20:30relationships and broken promises. I continued to make my way
- 1:20:35up the stairs, and as if all my senses were
- 1:20:38heightened from my bare nerves being exposed. I could smell
- 1:20:40the cleaning detergents recently used by the housekeepers, and my
- 1:20:44observations of shade of lighting through the concealed blinds as
- 1:20:48I entered Jeffrey's bedroom appeared golden, and the sound of stillness,
- 1:20:51except for the thud of my rapid heart beating, all
- 1:20:55made me more aware of how nervous I was to
- 1:20:57be on my own, not that Glaine was anything a comfort,
- 1:21:00but I didn't know what to expect or how I
- 1:21:03was going to lead myself end upholding my obligation in
- 1:21:06pleasing him. I would hope for the best, I thought,
- 1:21:09trying to uplift my confidence. As I opened the door
- 1:21:12to the massage room with a typical scene of Jeffrey
- 1:21:15laying naked, face down in the massage bed waiting for
- 1:21:18his entertainment. It was dejah vous all over again, repeating
- 1:21:23what Glen had taught me, with him commenting on what
- 1:21:26else I should be doing. Until it got to the end,
- 1:21:29I was expected to grant him all of his spoken desires.
- 1:21:33We finished up with the shower again and he seemed
- 1:21:35very pleased in my contribution of myself to him, giving
- 1:21:39in to his every request. He told me to go
- 1:21:42ask Juan to pay me, as he was lethargic after
- 1:21:45the massage an intimate affair between us, and now was
- 1:21:48going to have sleep. I walked back downstairs and told
- 1:21:51Juan that Jeffrey was asleep and said I had to
- 1:21:54ask him for my pay. He went to Jeffrey's desk
- 1:21:57and took out the exact amount I was owed without
- 1:21:59even asking, asking how much I normally get paid. He
- 1:22:02then drove me home, only for me to be back
- 1:22:05the next afternoon. The following week was a daily routine,
- 1:22:09providing Jeffrey with massages and continuously being groomed to fulfill
- 1:22:13all his needs, often joined by Miss Maxwell, and to
- 1:22:16assist an Emmy for sexual trysts of all kinds. I
- 1:22:19was mentally and physically exhausted from the week of working
- 1:22:22and having to keep up with Jeffrey's strenuous late night activity.
- 1:22:26I couldn't believe what I was doing, but it was
- 1:22:29all starting to sink in fast. Most nights, when I
- 1:22:31got home, I'd briefly say hi to Mom and Dad
- 1:22:34before heading straight to my bedroom. I couldn't even sleep
- 1:22:37well anymore. Closing my eyes at night, I would fight
- 1:22:40the inevitable flood of thoughts, replaying the moments of shame
- 1:22:43that ate away myself piece by piece. My only reasoning
- 1:22:47being I had just to keep telling myself it would
- 1:22:50all be worth it in the end. This afternoon, Golayne
- 1:22:54appeared to be in a much better mood. Instead of
- 1:22:56taking me straight up to Jeffrey, she took me to
- 1:22:59a yellow guest room where Emmy mostly stayed. It had
- 1:23:02a balcony where Emmy was already outside, reading a magazine
- 1:23:05and puffing on a cigarette. Colaine lit one up two
- 1:23:08and then offered me one. I hadn't smoked cigarettes much
- 1:23:11before besides trying to look cool in front of one
- 1:23:13of my friends, but never really took to them. So
- 1:23:16when I started to cough from the inholation of smoke,
- 1:23:20the girls began to laugh and joke about my inexperience.
- 1:23:23It was an icebreaker for all of us to laugh
- 1:23:25and poke fun at me. I was then able to
- 1:23:28give it back to them, saying I would rather be
- 1:23:30an inexperienced non smoker than an old lady with a
- 1:23:33raspy smoker's cough. I don't think Colaine was used to
- 1:23:36somebody giving it back to her, but she seemed to
- 1:23:38like it as long as she was able to have
- 1:23:41the last say. I knew my boundaries, and she liked
- 1:23:45that I wouldn't cross those invisible lines. All three of
- 1:23:48us chatted like friends, and it started to feel like
- 1:23:52some kind of strange relationship was budding. After about fifteen
- 1:23:56minutes of chatting away, Golaine instructed me to wash my
- 1:23:59hands thoroughly, as Jeffrey hated the smell of smokers, and
- 1:24:02to follow her down the hallway to the massage room,
- 1:24:05where he'll be expecting me shortly. I did what he
- 1:24:08asked and sprayed myself with the body spray that I
- 1:24:10always carried in my purse, and headed down the hallway
- 1:24:13to Jeffrey's room. When I opened the door to the
- 1:24:16massage room, surprisingly it was empty. I sat on the
- 1:24:19already made up massage table and was careful not to
- 1:24:22mess up the neatly folded towels on the end of
- 1:24:24the bed. It was a good fifteen more minutes before
- 1:24:28Jeffrey made his appearance. It was strange seeing him in
- 1:24:31clothes for the first time. He wasn't wearing what you
- 1:24:33would expect your typical billionaire attire to be. He was
- 1:24:36wearing a pair of sweatpants and a Harvard sweatshirt, which
- 1:24:39it began to remove immediately. This time, he wanted to
- 1:24:42commence our session in the steam room, so I began
- 1:24:46to undress as well. We went into the steam room
- 1:24:48and he pushed a few buttons and the steam began
- 1:24:51to pour from the marble. There was a bench coming
- 1:24:54out of the wall that also was made out of
- 1:24:57marble that went from either side of the room, and
- 1:25:00he had a step underneath it where I was instructed
- 1:25:02to sit on so that I could begin in and
- 1:25:03giving Jeffrey his massage. Our conversation started off about simple
- 1:25:07things like how was your day at work? And I
- 1:25:10asked Jeffrey how his day was. Lounging around just being
- 1:25:13poliged to each other. He was acting out of character,
- 1:25:16being a lot more attentive and conversing with me about
- 1:25:19other things than sex or massages. For once, starting with
- 1:25:22his heels, ankles, toes, and arches in the soles of
- 1:25:26his feet, I massaged all the way up to his calves.
- 1:25:29I took a lot more strength to massage in the
- 1:25:31steam room without oils or lotions and the constant blowing
- 1:25:34of steam in your face, making me twice as exerted.
- 1:25:37I was beginning to really start to heat up when
- 1:25:40the door to the room suddenly opened to reveal two
- 1:25:42naked women, Glen and Emmy. Acted as if they came
- 1:25:46in to join us for a steam bath, but my
- 1:25:48instincts were telling me otherwise. At least the coal burst
- 1:25:52of air and escape of steam revived me a bit,
- 1:25:56so there was Jeffrey and Glane sitting on top of
- 1:25:58this marble bench, each with the young girl at their feet.
- 1:26:01Emmy and I continued with the massage until they were
- 1:26:04ready to head into the shower. There were two shower
- 1:26:07heads that Gleain and Jeffrey both stood under while they
- 1:26:10were being lathered with soap and bubbles as we washed
- 1:26:13their bodies. After the shower at Golaine led us into
- 1:26:17Jeffrey's bed to finish today's session, with Emmy, Golaine and
- 1:26:20I performing lesbian axe aforeplay on each other while Jeffrey
- 1:26:24laid back and watched, stroking his manhood in much delight.
- 1:26:28He brought himself the climax and the session was over
- 1:26:31within moments. We all got dressed and went downstairs to
- 1:26:34the kitchen for some refreshments, like nothing happened at all.
- 1:26:38It was all so bizarre for me, the whole ordeal
- 1:26:40with them. Since this all began, I could understand why
- 1:26:43Golein and Jeffrey had such an openly intimate relationship but
- 1:26:47yet never regarded themselves as partners. They rarely kissed and
- 1:26:51never held hands or slept in the same bed. It
- 1:26:54was more like a sexual arrangement between the two of them.
- 1:26:57She brings in the girls for its peculiar taste, and
- 1:27:00he supplies the lavish lifestyle she was accustomed to before
- 1:27:03her family lost all of the fortune. I wasn't sure
- 1:27:06how to act or feel, always obliging to their needs,
- 1:27:10but reserved enough not to get attached, as if this
- 1:27:13was invisible hierarchy, and by instinct I knew my place.
- 1:27:17We all hung out in the kitchen for a while
- 1:27:19before I asked when Wan could bring me home as
- 1:27:22I had to work in the morning and was tired.
- 1:27:24They said no problem and called one on the intercom
- 1:27:27right away, but said we'd all have something to talk
- 1:27:29about tomorrow. I knew it had something to do with
- 1:27:32my employment trial, and from there and the way they
- 1:27:35were acting tonight, I could only assume I got the job.
- 1:27:38But you never know. With these types of people. There
- 1:27:42are friendships and partnerships can change like the weather. All right, folks,
- 1:27:47that's going to do it for this episode. In the
- 1:27:49next episode, dealing with the topic, we're gonna pick up
- 1:27:51where we left off. All of the information that goes
- 1:27:54with this episode can be found in the description box.
- 1:27:57What's up Everyone, and welcome to another episode of the
- 1:28:00Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're picking up where we
- 1:28:04left off with Virginia Roberts memoir The Billionaire's Playboy Club.
- 1:28:10I went home that night, still confused on how I
- 1:28:12could let myself sink so low. I had to put
- 1:28:15on an act like I enjoyed submitting my body and
- 1:28:18being their new subservient plaything, all for the fact I
- 1:28:21was making anywhere between two hundred and four hundred dollars
- 1:28:24just for a couple of hours. Then spent the rest
- 1:28:26of the night regressing on the entire event in my
- 1:28:30head over and over again. I battled those thoughts with
- 1:28:33the hope that I was receiving a profession out of
- 1:28:36this and making good money. In the meantime, all I
- 1:28:39had to do was keep lying to myself long enough
- 1:28:41until I eventually believed it. Arriving at Jeffreys on time
- 1:28:45the next afternoon, as I always did, understanding punctuality was
- 1:28:49a sign of respect, and I wanted them to feel
- 1:28:52as if they had my deepest appreciation for the once
- 1:28:55in a lifetime chance they had given to a girl
- 1:28:58of my history. This time, when Juan answered the door,
- 1:29:02he told me mister Epstein and miss Maxwell were waiting
- 1:29:04for me upstairs in the massage room. I began the
- 1:29:07hike up the familiar spiraling staircase and through the room
- 1:29:11where my arrival was being deeply anticipated. They were already
- 1:29:15in the steam room, oh waiting me to join them.
- 1:29:18I undressed out of my uniform and folded them in
- 1:29:20a neat pile, which I placed upon the marble basin,
- 1:29:24having one last look in the mirror before I exhaling
- 1:29:27a deep breath, as if I was plunging into deep water.
- 1:29:31I knew today was a big day. I either accepted
- 1:29:34their offer and trade my morals for opportunity, or I
- 1:29:37walk away with the prospect of one day, many years
- 1:29:40from now, trying to make it on my own, which
- 1:29:43I knew endowed hardships of their own. So confused about
- 1:29:47what decision to make, I just opened the door to
- 1:29:50the steam room and I let them do the talking.
- 1:29:53Used to the routine by now, I sat below Jeffrey
- 1:29:55and began to massage his feet and legs, and I
- 1:29:58listened in on their ongoing conversation about travel plans for
- 1:30:01the next few weeks. Glenn and Jeffrey turned their attention
- 1:30:04to me and asked me how I would like to
- 1:30:06go see the big city of Manhattan. I told them
- 1:30:08I had never visited New York before and it sounded
- 1:30:11like an adventure, but my job at mar A Lago
- 1:30:14was only a summer job and I wouldn't be able
- 1:30:16to get the time off, especially that summer was so
- 1:30:19busy anyway, Jeffrey then made his announcement that I should
- 1:30:22just quit my job at mar A Lago and become
- 1:30:25his permanent traveling massuse. He then further persuaded me with
- 1:30:29all the luxuries that came along with my acceptance. Rather
- 1:30:32than being paid nine dollars an hour at my current job,
- 1:30:35I could be earning two hundred dollars per massage, which
- 1:30:38even said could be a few times per day. Tomorrow,
- 1:30:42we could leave Palm Beach together in his private jet,
- 1:30:45first heading to his residence in the Upper East Side
- 1:30:47of Manhattan, also the largest mansion in New York, and
- 1:30:51would be offsetting to the Caribbean, where he owned a
- 1:30:54secluded island called Little Saint James for a little bit
- 1:30:57of relaxation. The temptation of his grandeur offer wasn't hard
- 1:31:01to give into. My vulnerability to be lured into his
- 1:31:04grasp seemed comforting at the time. The idea that females
- 1:31:08were nothing more than an empty shell of beauty bound
- 1:31:11by only a body to offer was a notion I
- 1:31:13had accepted a long time ago, well my first teacher Ron.
- 1:31:17My reaction had to be more than amusing for their egos.
- 1:31:20Even though I was excited to be traveling, I could
- 1:31:23have only imagined the likeness of having to be at
- 1:31:25their beckon and call as well. In my head, I
- 1:31:28just told myself, we all do what we have to
- 1:31:30do in our lives to succeed, no matter what it takes,
- 1:31:33and with no one knowing the truth, I had no
- 1:31:36one to talk me out of it. I accepted his
- 1:31:38offer and knew from here on out I would be
- 1:31:41a servant to his sexual desires until one day I
- 1:31:44would gain my credentials, and only then could I go
- 1:31:47out on my own and make it in this world
- 1:31:49that was so young and seemed so unconquerable. The night
- 1:31:54advanced into the usual grooming of his requirements for the
- 1:31:57next hour and a half, being exploited to seify Jeffrey's
- 1:32:01every sexual whim My mom cornered me that night, before
- 1:32:04I had a chance to avoid speaking to anyone heading
- 1:32:07to the shower than my bedroom like I had been
- 1:32:10the last week, she knocked at my door with a
- 1:32:12hostile look in her eye. Virginia, what exactly does an
- 1:32:15older couple want with a fifteen year old girl who
- 1:32:18has no credentials, with no experience in massage therapy? She
- 1:32:23used that stern voice that she's always had when I
- 1:32:26was in trouble. Thus, as impressionable as I was, my
- 1:32:29blue eyes batted their innocence in her direction, and I
- 1:32:32flashed her a girlish grin, selling her the pitch that
- 1:32:36I had been given earlier in that night, not mentioning
- 1:32:39the other side to the glamorous lifestyle I would soon
- 1:32:41be living in. I told her about the money I'd
- 1:32:44be earning, the places I'd be seeing, the people I
- 1:32:47could meet, and most of all, the trade I'd be learning.
- 1:32:50It all sounded so good, except it was a bunch
- 1:32:53of lies. I had to tell her and myself to
- 1:32:56otherwise convince us that this was a once in a
- 1:32:58lifetime opportunity and I had to take it. She asked
- 1:33:02when all of this would start, and I was shocking
- 1:33:06as it was to me. I told her I had
- 1:33:08to start packing. We're leaving the next morning to New York.
- 1:33:12At fifteen, most girls would be sucking up to their
- 1:33:15parents to go to high school dance or to go
- 1:33:17on a date to the movies with a nervous chap.
- 1:33:19But I wasn't even asking her. I was simply letting
- 1:33:22her know that I would be away for the next
- 1:33:24couple of weeks, maybe three, and I would be in
- 1:33:27contact when I got free time. Her daughter was lost
- 1:33:31a long time ago, and she just now realized it.
- 1:33:34Backing out of the bathroom with nothing she could say,
- 1:33:37she left me wondering to myself who I was becoming.
- 1:33:41Instead of driving me to work. The next morning, my
- 1:33:43dad dropped me off at Jeffrey's mansion. He told me
- 1:33:46not to worry about calling mar A Lago, that he
- 1:33:49take care of it for me. We said our goodbyes
- 1:33:53outside of the driveway, Jeffrey even coming outside to me
- 1:33:56with my father to shake his hand and to assure
- 1:33:58him his daughter will be more and looked after. I
- 1:34:01hugged my dad tightly, feeling like I was on the
- 1:34:04verge of a Steve cliff. Then he let go, so
- 1:34:07did the last of my innocence, wand drove Jeffrey, goln
- 1:34:10and I to Palm Beach private airport, and the luggage
- 1:34:14handlers escorted us all onto the tarmac, where we all
- 1:34:17boarded on Jeffrey's black jet. Larry was his main pilot.
- 1:34:22He had shiny gray hair and long, lanky legs, but
- 1:34:25a very sincere smile that instantly made me feel at ease.
- 1:34:29He greeted us at the staircase that led into the
- 1:34:32main cabin. It was as lavish as I imagined it
- 1:34:36would be. The seats were enveloped in the finest beige
- 1:34:39leather with a polish wood grain finish, and there was
- 1:34:42a kitchen in the back with an adjoining toilet. Jeffrey
- 1:34:46saw the amazement in my eyes, and to make it
- 1:34:48more thrilling, he brought me up to the cockpit and
- 1:34:51let me watch with a bird's eye view of the takeoff.
- 1:34:54I was on a natural high when I came back
- 1:34:56to the cabin and was instantly brought back down to
- 1:34:59Jeffjeffrey where he arrested his bare feet on top of
- 1:35:02the reclined seat and instructed me to get to work
- 1:35:05and start massaging him. My future was in his hands now,
- 1:35:09so he wanted something I wouldn't hesitate in giving it
- 1:35:12to him. Chapter six. Upon our arrival in New Jersey's airstrip,
- 1:35:18the driver Jojo met us. His name was most likely
- 1:35:21shortened from something of his Oriental descent. Jeffrey liked to
- 1:35:25shorten the names of even his multicultural staff in two
- 1:35:30American names. Even Juan and Maria were known as John
- 1:35:33and Mary. We arrived in the Upper East Side of Manhattan.
- 1:35:37His principal place of residence was the largest home in Manhattan,
- 1:35:40eight stories of opulence. It used to be a private
- 1:35:43school for boys many years ago until Les Wexner, Jeffrey's
- 1:35:47best friend and mentor, built it for him as a
- 1:35:50mysterious gift. There were two large Chinese gargoyles outside the entrance,
- 1:35:55and besides the heavy looking wooden doors, there was an
- 1:35:58intercom with a camera overlooking us. I walked up the
- 1:36:01concrete steps into a realm of wealth, glamour, and most
- 1:36:04of all, influence. My eyes glistened at the splendor of
- 1:36:08the place. Caramel colored marble tiles spread throughout the first floor,
- 1:36:13where his gourmet kitchen and dining hall were also located.
- 1:36:17Then I came to a sweeping staircase that curved into
- 1:36:20the next level, where Jeffrey and I went into his office.
- 1:36:25Even though it looked more like a museum exhibit, ancient
- 1:36:28draperies that told lascivious stories of their own covered parts
- 1:36:32of the elevated walls, and the remaining wall spaces were
- 1:36:35taken up by rows on top of rows of books.
- 1:36:38He loved to read, as he often found it hard
- 1:36:40to sleep and was comforted in the early morning hours
- 1:36:44with literature, or sometimes in other ways. I would come
- 1:36:47to find out. There was a mantelpiece and a sofa
- 1:36:50with two armchairs next to the grand piano that flaunted
- 1:36:53more of Jeffrey's beautiful conquests, young women posing insulacious pictures,
- 1:36:58suggesting I could be easily replaced next to one of
- 1:37:01those girls if I failed in keeping him satisfied. There
- 1:37:04were also pictures with recognizable political and royal figures, either
- 1:37:08shaking Jeffrey's hand or with an arm around each other,
- 1:37:11even one with Jeffrey with the Dali Lama. Although his
- 1:37:15church was the bank, he liked to use his power,
- 1:37:18wealth and money to manipulate everyone in his life. He
- 1:37:21made a phone call that sounded business like, and I
- 1:37:24didn't mind. I was quite enjoying taking it all in
- 1:37:27and the beauty around me. I was blinded by all
- 1:37:30of it. I was still waiting for him when Glene
- 1:37:32came in. She asked me what I thought of my
- 1:37:34trip to New York City. I knew she was talking
- 1:37:37about the house. She loved to gloat, even though none
- 1:37:39of it actually belonged to her. She wanted everyone to
- 1:37:42believe that it did. I complimented her on the medieval
- 1:37:46looking tapestries and a few other adornments, when she cut
- 1:37:50me off mid sentence to compliment it herself, telling me
- 1:37:53the history about one of the seventeenth century tapestries, which
- 1:37:56to an unsophisticated eye, looked to me like a rug
- 1:37:59on the way. Jeffrey hung up the phone and walked
- 1:38:02over to the sofa where we were sitting next to
- 1:38:05the mantelpiece, and took a seat on one of the armchairs.
- 1:38:09He didn't seem worried from the phone call, but his
- 1:38:11mind was definitely somewhere else from the hard look on
- 1:38:14his face. We all spoke for a few moments more
- 1:38:17about the splendid decor before Jeffrey had enough small talk
- 1:38:22and needed some of his own relaxation time. He told
- 1:38:25Golaine he was going to show me the massage room,
- 1:38:27and he took me back and he'd be back in
- 1:38:29a couple of hours. She agreed, he looked like he
- 1:38:32could use some time to unwind, and with a rye
- 1:38:35grin of hers she gave me a look that told
- 1:38:37me precisely how he was expecting to be relaxed. We
- 1:38:41left his office all together, Golayne going downstairs and Jeffrey
- 1:38:45showing me the lifts. The lift looked like its original
- 1:38:48that came with the school. It was made out of
- 1:38:50brass antique with archaa cuts throughout the arches at the top.
- 1:38:55It wasn't the only lift in the house, but certainly
- 1:38:57the most beautiful. We walked down a long hall carpeted
- 1:39:00in a royal red and golden trim, passing by a
- 1:39:03bronze pagan statue of the horny little goat God Pan
- 1:39:07How adequate I thought fit Jeffrey to a tea. We
- 1:39:11walked into his dimly lit room, another daunting chamber that
- 1:39:15looked like we had stepped back into time, to the
- 1:39:17dark ages. It took a second from my eyes to
- 1:39:20adjust to the darkness, and Jeffrey beckoned me to follow
- 1:39:23him through the room to the open adjoined shower, toilet
- 1:39:27and steam room. The room was in a black marble
- 1:39:30to accent the dreariness, and smaller than the one in
- 1:39:33Palm Beach, but it had its own witchery feel to it,
- 1:39:37another unseen side to this man I was coming to know.
- 1:39:41We both undressed and I followed Jeffrey into the steamroom. First.
- 1:39:44He loved feeling clean, teaching me that the steam would
- 1:39:47deplete the toxins from your skin, which was great during
- 1:39:50a massage when your blood flow was being replenished. I
- 1:39:53grabbed his foot out of instinct, knowing I had to
- 1:39:57be constantly on alert to keep this man satisfied. He
- 1:40:00looked down at me with a nod and reclimbed back
- 1:40:03against the wall as steam poured in. This was his
- 1:40:06idea of alleviation. I worked up to his calves, and
- 1:40:10within a few more moments he said he was ready
- 1:40:12for his massage on the bed. We got out and
- 1:40:15towel dried off, both still nude. He asked me to
- 1:40:18stay undressed and we headed to the massage bed in
- 1:40:21the middle of the room. He lay down on the
- 1:40:23bed and told me to turn on the CD player
- 1:40:25on the wall hutch where all of the oils and
- 1:40:27motions were set out. I had play and a collection
- 1:40:30of mixed classical symphonies began to fill in the silence.
- 1:40:34I could tell he wasn't in one of the moods
- 1:40:36to be uplifted with idle chat, so I remained silent,
- 1:40:39letting him enjoy my slow movements making my way up
- 1:40:42his body. My instincts told me I was right about
- 1:40:45his mood, as he seemed to appreciate the quietness of
- 1:40:48moments and the leisurely of the strokes I was using
- 1:40:52to massage em. When I got to his scalp, he
- 1:40:54turned over and grabbed my hand and put it on
- 1:40:57his erect manhood. No words spoken, yet I took the
- 1:41:00gesture and initiated what I had been taught over the
- 1:41:03last week. While pleasing my master, his hands groped over
- 1:41:06my young flesh, penetrating my insides with his fingers. He
- 1:41:10was only concerned with what he wanted, as if I
- 1:41:13was a new car out for a test drive and
- 1:41:15he was pressing his new gadgets His soft moans were
- 1:41:19soon brought to a louder heave of breath, and my
- 1:41:22job was done. No one to make kisses, no sweet
- 1:41:25pillow talk. He showed his appreciation with money, never attachment.
- 1:41:29We concluded with a shower, and he told me he
- 1:41:31had some business to conduct. He walked me to the
- 1:41:34lift and told me go to the next level in.
- 1:41:36My room was the first one on the right. It
- 1:41:39had an intercom in which I could contact him or
- 1:41:41he can contact me when needed. I hit number five
- 1:41:44on the lift and took his direction to my room.
- 1:41:47I opened the door to this massive loft, the size
- 1:41:50of an adequate house. I walked down the hall and
- 1:41:53my eyes took in the magnificence of my surroundings. It
- 1:41:56was a room fit for royalty, and later I would
- 1:41:59find out it had been stayed in by some The
- 1:42:02room was trimmed in gold paint and had another eerie
- 1:42:06tapestry on the main walls as a feature. There was
- 1:42:08a TV and a huge, king sized bed with goose
- 1:42:12feathered comforter and pillows. All of the glitter from Jeffrey's
- 1:42:16lifestyle he was offering me finally covered the last bit
- 1:42:19of sight I had left and I let go on
- 1:42:21my consciousness, excited about my enthralling day, not having anyone
- 1:42:25around to act reserved, I jumped into the soft bed
- 1:42:29and lay looking around, thinking about how quick life could
- 1:42:32change based upon one swift decision. Gazing into the artistry,
- 1:42:37the intercom buzzed on the telephone next to the bed,
- 1:42:39and it was the housemaid, letting me know Jeffrey wanted
- 1:42:42to see me in his office. Now already, I thought
- 1:42:45to myself, I was just getting settled in. I was
- 1:42:47worried I was going to get lost in this ancient museum,
- 1:42:50but I got myself back to his office with no trouble.
- 1:42:53It was kind of hard to miss. I knocked at
- 1:42:55the slightly jar door and Jeffrey called for me to enter.
- 1:42:59I walked over to his desk where he was just
- 1:43:01ending a phone call, and he opened his duffel bag
- 1:43:03full of money. I'll be at my other office for
- 1:43:06most of the day, so instead of being locked inside,
- 1:43:09I thought, you should go do some sight seeing for
- 1:43:10the day, since it's your first trip to the Big Apple.
- 1:43:13He didn't count how much he was giving me. He
- 1:43:16just handed me a bundle out of the banded one
- 1:43:18hundred dollars bills. He knew just how to pull the
- 1:43:20right strings, making me squool in delight and give him
- 1:43:23a kiss on the cheek. Since we were never really
- 1:43:25emotionally intimate, it would be odd to act in any
- 1:43:28other way, but he seemed to like it. All right.
- 1:43:31We're gonna wrap up right here. In the next episode,
- 1:43:34We're gonna pick up where we left off. All of
- 1:43:36the information that goes with this episode can be found
- 1:43:39in the description box. What's up, everyone, and welcome to
- 1:43:42another episode of the Epstein Chronicles. In this episode, we're
- 1:43:46picking up where we left off with the Virginia Roberts
- 1:43:49memoir The Billionaire's Playboy Club. I ran upstairs to get
- 1:43:53dressed for a city shopping and put my makeup on,
- 1:43:56then hit the streets of NYC looking for a place
- 1:43:58to start spending this little to cash. When I got
- 1:44:01to the end of seventy second Street on Fifth Avenue,
- 1:44:04I had no idea which way to turn left or right.
- 1:44:07I thought I'd just followed the lights past Central Park
- 1:44:10and see local sites on my way. My eyes were
- 1:44:12once again peeled back in splendor. I had never imagined
- 1:44:16the place so busy with the hustle and bustle of
- 1:44:18all the walks of life. My first stop was to
- 1:44:21buy a disposable camera, and I was off taking photos
- 1:44:25of every wonder that caught my attention. I didn't do
- 1:44:28much shopping as I had planned to. I was having
- 1:44:30too much fun exploring the Metropolitan. When it started to
- 1:44:35hit dusk, I began walking back to Jeffries, but not
- 1:44:37before stopping off to enjoy a giant slice of pepperoni pizza.
- 1:44:41It was the best I had ever had, and considering
- 1:44:43I was going back to Jeffreys chickpea and tofu salad
- 1:44:46or such, I really hated the healthy cuisine served by
- 1:44:50Jeffreys' personal chef. I was a naturally skinny girl, never
- 1:44:54watching what I had to eat, and to eat that food,
- 1:44:57I might as well have chewed on hey. I strolled
- 1:45:00back to Jeffreys and was missed. Gallaine scolded me, you
- 1:45:03should have been gone so long, young lady. We needed
- 1:45:05to know where you are at all times you were
- 1:45:08on call for Jeffrey. I started to apologize, feeling guilty.
- 1:45:12I didn't want them to think I didn't take my
- 1:45:13job with them seriously. She cut off my explanation with
- 1:45:17a short conclusion to this conversation, we will get you
- 1:45:20a cell phone tomorrow so we can always find you.
- 1:45:23I thanked her for a generosity, and she dismissed me
- 1:45:27to my room, so I wasn't even needed after all.
- 1:45:30It was just a way for her to place me
- 1:45:32deeper in their control. The next few days, I was
- 1:45:35on call, as Glaine said, I'd be venturing out of
- 1:45:38the city for only an hour or so at a time.
- 1:45:41I looked most forward to my outings. I would return
- 1:45:44to Jeffrey's mansion to attend to his sexual desires, and
- 1:45:48when he was finished with me, I'd be off on
- 1:45:50my adventures. On the day before we were to be
- 1:45:53heading back to Palm Beach, Jeffrey had a new proposition
- 1:45:56for me. I can make double the money I was
- 1:45:59making if I I would look for pretty girls and
- 1:46:01convince them to come back to Jeffreys to be further
- 1:46:03persuaded with money to engage and bisexual and sexual acts
- 1:46:07with Jeffrey and I. I asked him, how does one
- 1:46:09actually propose to do such a thing to a complete stranger. Well,
- 1:46:14he said, in a build up to another kind of lesson.
- 1:46:17If I were you, I would use your charm to
- 1:46:19entice them, and my money to bring them. I would
- 1:46:21tell them, you work for a multi billionaire who has
- 1:46:23a taste for young, beautiful girls, and with his contacts
- 1:46:26in the acting, modeling or rich husband world, your boss
- 1:46:30could help them. All they have to do is come
- 1:46:32and meet me first. If I wasn't so naive at
- 1:46:35the time, I would have seen what exactly he was
- 1:46:38doing with me. My prospects were massage credentials, but with
- 1:46:42too much pain for my past, I could only have hope.
- 1:46:45Not that I was a shy girl, but picking up
- 1:46:47girls for one reason alone, only to be endorsed for
- 1:46:50her body didn't sound like something I could do. But
- 1:46:53not wanting to displease my master, I told him I
- 1:46:56would give it a go. You could tell he was
- 1:46:58instantly excited. With my agree He started to reveal the
- 1:47:02politics of what kind of girls he was looking for.
- 1:47:05He wasn't into multicultural girls, a very chauvinistic perception. He
- 1:47:10said he had to be uniquely gorgeous to be accepted
- 1:47:13by him, but definitely no African American girls. He was
- 1:47:16racist against anything different to his kind, A very narrow
- 1:47:20minded way of thinking for such a supposed brilliant man.
- 1:47:23The list one on and on. No girls with tattoos
- 1:47:26or piercings, or gothics, or drug users or prostitutes. Basically,
- 1:47:32he wanted everyone's daughter that looked like the girl next
- 1:47:35door with blue eyes and blonde, curly ringlets. I just
- 1:47:38nodded and smiled, wanting this to be over and move
- 1:47:42on to another conversation, but so worked up from the
- 1:47:44previous talk. Instead, he persisted to show me what exactly
- 1:47:48I was good for to him. He took me up
- 1:47:51to the highest loft in his large mansion and he
- 1:47:54lay down on his large bed, expecting me to know
- 1:47:57exactly what he wanted done as alway as I can applied.
- 1:48:01Part of me hating him for having to degrade myself
- 1:48:04to be so subservient to his sexual whims, and another
- 1:48:07part of me telling myself to be grateful for the
- 1:48:10opportunities I was being given. The battles in my head
- 1:48:13were beginning to cause me too much anxiety. When we
- 1:48:16got back to Palm Beach, I asked my mom to
- 1:48:18take me to a doctor's appointment for some headaches that
- 1:48:21I'd been getting lately, so she wouldn't question me. I
- 1:48:24walked out of the doctor's office with a prescription of
- 1:48:27mine altering anxiety tablet called Xanax. Not only did it
- 1:48:31help with anxiety, but it also acted as a blanket
- 1:48:34over terrible memories. So when I had to perform degrading acts,
- 1:48:38I would take a few pills and forget what happened
- 1:48:41within the next hour and be able to become someone
- 1:48:44without a battling conscience. I spent my sweet sixteenth birthday
- 1:48:48on his island in the Caribbean, next to Saint James.
- 1:48:51He liked to call it Little Saint Jeff's. His ego
- 1:48:53was as as enormous as his appetite for fornicating. I
- 1:48:57was given birthday cake and a new collection of design
- 1:49:00her makeup from London. Glaanne made a joke after I
- 1:49:02blew out my array of candles and said I'd soon
- 1:49:05be getting too old for Jeffrey's taste and soon they'd
- 1:49:08after trade me in. She was only half joking in
- 1:49:11a sad reality, though. A few days after my birthday,
- 1:49:15a girl was flying out to the island to join
- 1:49:17us for a few days before flying back to NYC.
- 1:49:20I was introduced to a pretty girl a few years
- 1:49:23my senior name Sarah. She had long, ash blonde hair,
- 1:49:27and big brown eyes that hinted she had a cheeky nature.
- 1:49:31She had known Jeffrey before I had, and he was
- 1:49:34supposedly trying to help her getting acting jobs in LA.
- 1:49:37She was obviously accustomed to the lifestyle he provided her,
- 1:49:41making it ever so apparent with her prompt attention she
- 1:49:44lavished on him. She would do things like strip nude
- 1:49:47and bathe around the swimming pool, taunting them for sex.
- 1:49:50She was good at what she did, even putting me
- 1:49:53at ease with her cool persona and funny jokes. Jeffrey
- 1:49:56told me privately that she was one of his best,
- 1:49:59procuring young girls into her entrapment and delivering them to
- 1:50:03him when he was in town. And when it came
- 1:50:06to time in private chambers with Jeffrey, her and I,
- 1:50:09it wasn't hard to comprehend. She was devoted to the moment,
- 1:50:12giving Jeffrey every imaginable lustful desire he could fathom. On
- 1:50:16the last night there, we all took a trip over
- 1:50:19to Saint James to go for a stroll. Ought I
- 1:50:21thought it was past seven pm, and Jeffrey rarely stayed
- 1:50:25out past then unless it was some event or dinner party.
- 1:50:29While Glenn and him looked the average couple strolling arm
- 1:50:32in arm through the streets, he said to Sarah and I,
- 1:50:34why don't you two hit the night club here and
- 1:50:36see if there is anyone interesting to bring back for
- 1:50:38the evening. It was more of an order than a request,
- 1:50:41and I knew why we came out tonight and why
- 1:50:44Sarah was invited. Tonight was all about training, and Sarah
- 1:50:48was going to show me the ropes and picking up girls.
- 1:50:51Although there was no one too accustomed to Jeffrey's distinct
- 1:50:54taste to bring back, watching Sarah flirt from girl to
- 1:50:57girl like a floating butterfly gave me enough insight into
- 1:51:00what I was expected to do. Within months, I had
- 1:51:04become his handy little helper. Not only would I run
- 1:51:06to his beck and call, but I also aided Glaine
- 1:51:09in bringing in more girls to keep the appetite of
- 1:51:11our sexually starving chief from going hungry. I once asked
- 1:51:15Elaine why she did what she did for him instead
- 1:51:18of having a common monogamous relationship and getting jealous like
- 1:51:21a normal partner would. She replied, simply, it takes the
- 1:51:25pressure off of me having to do it. That's set
- 1:51:28at all. We were all under the shade of Jeffrey's
- 1:51:30money tree, and not even someone like her could escape
- 1:51:33from its lure. Just like Laye had trained me, it
- 1:51:36was now my job to reiterate that onto other girls,
- 1:51:39and thus the cycle of girls trying to climb the
- 1:51:41chain of hierarchy would start over each time I brought
- 1:51:44a new one. In the sessions rarely differed much. They
- 1:51:48would mostly start out with Jeffrey on top of the
- 1:51:50massage table already naked, and me leading a girl into
- 1:51:53massaging them until his instructions came to remove our clothing,
- 1:51:57and if they agreed to that, then Jeffrey knew he
- 1:51:59had them in his pocket and could do whatever else
- 1:52:01he wanted. He was never turned down in the many
- 1:52:04years I stayed with him, Never being shy, he would
- 1:52:07tell us to start kissing each other, or depending on
- 1:52:10what he wanted, we would perform erotic acts, sometimes with
- 1:52:13him fondling us or just masturbating while he watched. On
- 1:52:17explicit occasions, sex toys would be used on us girls,
- 1:52:20making it all the more exciting for him to observe,
- 1:52:23ending with a payment of two hundred dollars for the
- 1:52:25new girl and four hundred for me bringing her. He
- 1:52:28would then wait for us to leave before adding the events,
- 1:52:32details of names and payments in a little black diary
- 1:52:34he kept with him wherever he went, so if he
- 1:52:38were anyone of the city he's lived in, he would
- 1:52:40always have contacts for sex. So the little black book
- 1:52:44we always talk about. If you're looking for a list,
- 1:52:46that's it. I was slowly climbing the ladder as Jeffrey
- 1:52:50was happy taking me everywhere with them within the States.
- 1:52:53Merely at home, I distanced myself from my family altogether,
- 1:52:57and with Jeffrey renting me an apartment in Royal Pond
- 1:52:59be Each as well as a plush furnished apartment in NYC,
- 1:53:03there was hardly a need to see them. I just
- 1:53:06couldn't face everyone, thinking they all knew what I was
- 1:53:08really doing, traveling around with a man old enough to
- 1:53:11be my grandfather who supposedly only wanted me for massages,
- 1:53:16much further convincing myself of the lies I told myself.
- 1:53:19I took a liking to the xanax. I felt it
- 1:53:22was all a dream at times, even meeting up with
- 1:53:24my old contact from school years who experimented with drugs.
- 1:53:28I was flying around the country, seeing so many places
- 1:53:31in America I had only heard about movies and making
- 1:53:34more money than anyone at my age and loving it.
- 1:53:37My friends didn't believe the lies I told them about
- 1:53:40only being a massage therapist, some of them asking if
- 1:53:43they can meet Jeffrey too. At this point my life,
- 1:53:47my heart went missing for a while, and I stooped
- 1:53:50so low. I was even bringing my friends. I just
- 1:53:52saw them as easy commission. When I wasn't playing servant
- 1:53:56to my master. I was partying hard, eventually using ecstasy,
- 1:54:00acid in marijuana to disillusion. The times I would have
- 1:54:04spent away from Jeffrey to think about what I was
- 1:54:06actually doing with my life. I realized something one day
- 1:54:10while I was alone. Although I had Jeffrey to attend
- 1:54:13to sexually, it was not gratifying. I need someone to
- 1:54:16come home to, someone I could call my boyfriend, and
- 1:54:19that showed me emotion, not just a job to get done.
- 1:54:23All right, folks, We're going to wrap up that episode
- 1:54:25right there, and in the next episode we're gonna pick
- 1:54:27up where we left off. And that's with the start
- 1:54:30of chapter seven. All of the Information that goes with
- 1:54:33this episode can be found in the description box.