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When are #NARCISSISTS at their ABSOLUTE WORST? · The Mental Healness Podcast

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  What is going on beautiful people.
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  Today we're going to be talking about when narcissists are at
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  their worst. When is a narcissist at their
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  absolute worst? Like when are they treating you
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  to the worst? Like what is going on in their
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  life or whatever is going on? If you're new here, my name is
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  Lee Hammock. I'm a self aware narcissist and
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  welcome to another episode of the Narcissist Code.
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  Welcome back, folks. Yes, yes, yes, I love the theme
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  music. I'm back here.
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  I'll be back here dancing behind the scenes over on stream Yard
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  about narcissists, y'all. I'll be dancing about them doing
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  a little narc dance. It's like you ever seen a movie
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  Hitch? He's like, make the pizza, not
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  making the pizza. You keep it here, keep it here.
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  Just snap and snap. Oh, OK, Yeah, before we hop deep
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  into today's episode, y'all, if you haven't already, hit that
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  If not, thank you for watching anyway, I appreciate y'all Turn
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  on the notifications as well. Yes, y'all, when are narcissists
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  at their absolute worst? That's what we're talking about
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  today. I know a lot of people have a
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  lot of different, different, a lot of different point of views
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  on this right here because narcissists can be at their
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  worst in a lot of different ways.
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  But I feel as a diagnosed narcissist, most narcissists are
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  at their worst when they have no control or no access to their
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  target or their main source of validation is caffeine Belshaw,
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  their main source of validation. This is what happens.
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  This is what happens to a lot of people.
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  This is what goes on in a lot of people's lives when you're
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  dealing with toxic, narcissistic people.
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  Like they when they lose control would have no access.
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  When you go no contact is when they typically get to their
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  worst. Like when they can't reach out
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  to you, when they can't see you and they can't get it.
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  Like they don't know what you have going on.
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  When you're like, it's damn near like you vanish, like you miss.
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  Like they, they have a better chance of finding a milk carton
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  with your picture on it then finding you.
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  They hate that type of stuff. This loss of power, this loss of
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  control, this loss of all of the above, right?
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  You know, that's loss of everything that they have going
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  on. Absolute loss, absolute chaos,
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  absolute just, it's just foolishness.
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  Narcissistic people lose control of everything they do.
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  When they lose control of it, eventually they lose control of
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  everything. And when they do, they treat
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  everybody around them worse because they're doing internally
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  bad. Like when are they at their
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  worst? When they don't have any type of
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  control, when they're not getting any type of supply, when
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  there's main sources of validation are gone, right?
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  When their main sources of validation have vanished, they,
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  they can't reach out to anybody else.
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  They can't do a lot of different things like they have no power,
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  they have no control. They have nothing going on here
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  within this space. They they're losing it, right?
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  They're absolutely losing it. And this is what happens to a
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  lot of people. I posted a picture about, I
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  posted, I'm laughing. I posted a picture about
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  Facebook gal and I was like, your 39 is going well.
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  People are wishing me a happy birthday.
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  They're just like happy birthday, Leah.
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  Like, yeah, my birthday's in July.
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  Y'all don't even know me. It's August.
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  My birthday's in July. I'm just saying my 39th year on
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  earth is going well. But it's funny, it's not a
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  sidebar, but loss of control, loss of supply, loss of
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  validation. They lose it.
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  They start to treat everybody around them worse.
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  Everybody gets it worse. Everybody gets it bad, right?
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  This is a symptom of toxic narcissistic abuse.
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  This is a symptom of it right here.
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  A symptom is what happens right here within this space.
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  It, it, it really is y'all. So I'm, I'm, I'm trying to tell
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  y'all. If you cut off the source, if
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  you are, whatever type of validation they're getting from
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  you, whatever type of narcissistic supply that they're
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  getting from you, if you somehow successfully cut that off, like
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  cut off their access to it, they lose, you win.
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  Of course they're going to lose their minds.
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  Of course they will start going crazy and losing their minds,
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  but you win when it is a narcissist at their worst, when
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  they lose, when they're losing something, when they're losing
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  something. It's crazy y'all.
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  Like I feel like looking back at my life, just personal life, I
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  feel like I've been at my worst when I'm not achieving what I
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  when I'm not being who I thought I was supposed to be.
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  Like when I'm not living up to my goals and my dreams and
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  somebody else around me is doing better than me and, or doing
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  what I thought I should be doing better than I have, I lose my
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  mind, I lose it. You see what I'm saying?
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  I would just be at my worst, like not only emotionally, but
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  mentally, physically, I was falling to these like deep
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  depressions. Yes, I do I, I have clinical
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  depression as well, along with narcissistic personality
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  disorder, you know, but I would fall into these deep depressions
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  when people will be doing things that I knew I thought I should
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  be doing. Like super deep depressions,
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  just like jealousy, envy, call it what you will.
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  It would just drive me crazy. So if you have a narcissist or a
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  toxic person in your life that you're dealing with and there's
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  somebody in their life that is achieving their dreams, like
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  somebody like the narcissist has a dream.
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  Like they want to be a New York, NY, New York Times bestselling
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  author and they said all of a sudden they have a friend that
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  pops and writes a book. They might start treating you
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  worse because their friend wrote a damn book.
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  How crazy is that? How crazy is that type of
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  mindset right there? You know what I mean?
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  How insane is that? Like because their friend did
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  something that they set out to do, they lose their minds, they
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  get mad as hell, they get more aggressive and whatnot.
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  This is the dynamic that so many people face when you're dealing
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  with toxic, narcissistic people. It really is.
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  So that's why I try to warn a lot of people just say, hey,
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  look, this is what's going on. Like if they have somebody else
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  in their life that is more successful to them, that is
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  doing better than them, it's something that they themselves
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  think they're good at. Woof, watch out, look out, look,
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  look out below. Because everybody beneath them
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  in this mindset, everybody beneath them in this mentality
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  is going to get it right. They're absolutely going to get
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  it. If y'all follow me on Facebook,
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  my Facebook is still my, my mental illness page is still not
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  back under my control yet. So if you follow me on Facebook,
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  I'll be back soon. I will let you know.
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  I will let you know when I'm back.
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  I promise you I'm not back just yet.
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  But narcissistic people will absolutely treat other people
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  around now worse when they lose, like when they lose somebody
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  close to them as well. It's not just when they lose
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  supply, if they lose somebody close to them.
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  This is typical for I think for most people though.
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  Like if you have a, if you suffer a loss that's someone
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  that you love or care about or a pet or companion or something
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  like that friend or the family, a pet, an animal that you grew
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  up with or whatever you might be, act the same way.
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  So that's kind of here. No, neither here nor there was
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  it. But narcissistic people tend to
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  get a little bit more snappy, a little bit more.
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  They have a little bit more fire in there, a little, a little bit
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  more flame within them when they are behaving, when the things
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  are not going their way, so to speak, when they're not getting
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  what they think that they deserve, when they're not in the
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  that when they're like I said, not getting or somebody, they
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  lose somebody close to them and whatnot.
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  And this happens all the time. Like I said, that's what I was
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  just saying. Like if you deal with a
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  narcissist job, this is I'm not, this is kind of the life that
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  you're going to get right here. And it can be very sad to say
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  because they will treat you worse just because somebody else
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  is doing better, just because they have they've suffered a
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  loss. And very rarely, if ever, where
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  they offer you any type of sincere apology for their
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  horrible behaviors towards you, they'll blame it on everybody
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  else. Like, you know how you know, I
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  was going through some things and you know, I didn't know how
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  to react. And you know, you should have
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  left me alone. What?
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  Huh. I should have left you like,
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  damn, you can't apologize. You sworn at me.
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  You threw a, you threw a bottle of soy sauce at me and you can't
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  apologize. Damn.
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  But you slung that sweet Baby Ray's BBQ sauce towards my head,
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  and you can't apologize because you think I deserve it.
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  Yeah. Cut off the supply.
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  Cut off the access. You'll see who they really are.
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  You know, cut off. That's why I do a lot of videos
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  about blocking and going no contact.
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  Because this is this is when narcissists are at their worst.
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  Like another time. I'll.
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  I'll give you just one more moment right here.
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  Another time when narcissists are at their worst is when they
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  are bored with you, right? You're not.
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  You don't even have to cut off their supply.
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  Whatever supply that they're getting from you is not as
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  fulfilling as it used to be, right?
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  So they start to treat you differently because the supply
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  that they get from you is not the same.
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  It don't it don't have the same umph to it, right?
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  It doesn't have that same. They don't get the same level of
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  supply or validation that they normally get from you.
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  Whether you cut it off or not. It just runs low.
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  You know, whatever supply that they get from you is going to
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  run out or run low anyway. So it's not, it's not
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  necessarily a, a thing. That's just it, it happens to
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  everybody. You know, this is one of the
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  things I think everybody in a relationship with a narcissist
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  or a toxic person experiences like when the supply runs out or
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  runs low and whatnot. And then they started treating
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  you differently. They start this disconnecting
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  from you. Like they start they, they are
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  at their worst when they're about to discourage you, you
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  know, when they're about to change their relationship
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  status, when they're about to get rid of you, so to speak and
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  find a new supply, find somebody else to be with.
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  They will be at their worst a lot of times in these positions
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  just because of that scenario right there, just because they
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  feel like they don't deserve like they, they don't deserve to
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  be in this the the they don't deserve to be in the current
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  position that they're that they're in.
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  So they treat you badly. They have already they found a
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  new supply. And sometimes they, this is
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  going to sound crazy and ass backwards right here when you're
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  dealing with a toxic narcissistic person, right?
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  And they found a new supply, they can be at their worst
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  because they want, they don't want to be with you anymore and
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  they don't want, they don't know how to break up with you.
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  They try to be, they're trying to do the reverse discard where
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  you are the one that breaks up with them.
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  And they have the excuse to say, hey, look, I didn't, I didn't
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  bring it with their. Name.
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  They broke it with me. Like what do you want me to do?
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  What do you expect from me? Like I I did all I can do, but
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  guess what? I'm not going to sit around and
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  wait. I know what I'm not wanting.
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  I'm not going to sit around and wait.
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  I got a. New Boo already.
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  I'm about to go live where they married.
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  What they get to their worst when they're about to do the
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  reverse discard when they bought to be done with you.
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  And yes, I know people going to ask in the comment section,
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  well, if they discard you, is that the end?
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  Would they ever Hoover you again?
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  Yo Hoover? And like, they might try to come
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  back to you even if they have someone else, they feel a lot of
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  narcissist and toxic people feel entitled to you.
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  They feel like you belong to them.
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  So no matter what, even if they have someone else, they might
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  try to come back to you. They could be, I talked to a
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  woman this morning. She, her narcissistic partner,
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  got engaged in somebody and still reaching out to her.
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  Like literally engaged in somebody else.
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  He's trying to hide it and whatever, but he's still
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  reaching out to her. I miss you.
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  I love you. Hope things are going well for
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  you While he's actively just freshly engaged in someone else.
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  They still do this type of stuff, y'all.
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  They are nefarious, the nefarious narcissist.
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  The new newly nefarious narcissist has a new supply.
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  Listen, look at the alliteration right there.
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