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He Put Her Diagnosis on Paper - Then Quietly Rewrote Her Life · Narcisist Psychology

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  Speaker 1: On the morning of December eleventh, twenty nineteen, a woman
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  Speaker 1: named Beverly Walsh walked through an unlocked side gate carrying
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  Speaker 1: a casserole dish. The house at Trellis Court was dark,
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  Speaker 1: the car was still in the garage and on the
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  Speaker 1: concrete floor. Half hidden beneath a work bench lay a
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  Speaker 1: composition notebook filled with the clinical records of a psychiatric
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  Speaker 1: patient who had never existed in her sixty one years.
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  Speaker 1: Pamela McCarthy had never been evaluated by a mental health clinician.
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  Speaker 1: The notebook described her in careful credentialed language, medication dosages,
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  Speaker 1: compliance notes, a diagnosis of late onset bipolar disorder with
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  Speaker 1: psychotic features. Every word of it was a lie, and
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  Speaker 1: every lie had been working on her quietly for nearly
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  Speaker 1: two years. This case asks a question that takes a
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  Speaker 1: long time to feel the full weight of not who
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  Speaker 1: did this? That answer came on December fourteenth. The question
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  Speaker 1: is how one person, methodically and without detection, rewrote another
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  Speaker 1: person's reality from the inside out. Pamela McCarthy had spent
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  Speaker 1: twenty two years as a billing coordinator at a regional
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  Speaker 1: medical practice in Harnett Falls, Ohio. She was precise by training,
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  Speaker 1: dependable by nature, and genuinely liked by the people around her.
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  Speaker 1: When she retired, she did not disappear into her house.
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  Speaker 1: She joined committees. She showed up for nine years. She
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  Speaker 1: attended a Thursday evening book club at the Harnet Falls
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  Speaker 1: Public Library. Her friend Connie Phelps, who had known her
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  Speaker 1: since twenty ten, described her as the person who remembered
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  Speaker 1: everyone's birthdays and always brought something home made. She sat
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  Speaker 1: on the hospitality committee at Redeemer Lutheran. She kept a calendar.
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  Speaker 1: She answered her phone. Her husband Tom died in early
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  Speaker 1: two thousand fifteen. The grief was real, and it was hard,
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  Speaker 1: and Pamela did not pretend otherwise. Her primary care physician,
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  Speaker 1: doctor Ellen Farrow, noticed her blood pressure climbing in the
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  Speaker 1: months that followed and suggested she try a grief support group.
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  Speaker 1: It was practical advice from a doctor who knew her well.
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  Speaker 1: Pamela followed it. She was sixty one years old. Her
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  Speaker 1: daughter Noel worked as a floor nurse at Lynden Creek Hospital,
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  Speaker 1: close enough to visit regularly. Her son Craig lived in Phoenix.
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  Speaker 1: The family stayed in contact. There were no fractures no estrangements,
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  Speaker 1: no silences that needed explaining. The grief group met at
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  Speaker 1: a community center near downtown Harnett Falls in spring two
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  Speaker 1: thousand sixteen. A man named Duane Rice was also attending.
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  Speaker 1: He was fifty five years old. He held a master's
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  Speaker 1: degree in counseling psychology from a university in Indiana, along
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  Speaker 1: with a limited councilor license. He was no longer using.
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  Speaker 1: He described himself as a wellness consultant. He had an
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  Speaker 1: office on Merriman Avenue and a website built around a
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  Speaker 1: stock photograph. Rice told the group he had lost his mother.
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  Speaker 1: The group's facilitator, Patrise Dodd, noticed something about Rice from
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  Speaker 1: the early sessions. He arrived before anyone else and stayed
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  Speaker 1: after everyone had left. He remembered the details other participants
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  Speaker 1: shared names, dates, specific losses with an accuracy that stood out.
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  Speaker 1: He remembered Pamela's details especially well. By summer two thousand sixteen,
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  Speaker 1: Rice and Pamela were dating. She introduced him to her
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  Speaker 1: circle gradually, the way a careful person does. He was attentive,
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  Speaker 1: He listened. He asked questions that made people feel their
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  Speaker 1: answers mattered. Connie Phelps met him that year. And found
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  Speaker 1: him warm, knowledgeable, easy in conversation. That fall, Pamela missed
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  Speaker 1: a Thursday book club for the first time any one
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  Speaker 1: could remember. Rice had planned a birthday trip for her
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  Speaker 1: to Columbus. It was a small thing, one missed, meeting
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  Speaker 1: people understood. What no one understood yet was that the
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  Speaker 1: composition notebook had not been written yet. That would come later.
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  Speaker 1: First came the relationship. First came the trust, and with
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  Speaker 1: the trust came access to everything that would follow her kitchen,
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  Speaker 1: her morning routine, her insurance card, her doctor's name, and
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  Speaker 1: the quiet accumulated faith in the people who loved her.
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  Speaker 1: The notebook's first entry was dated February twenty eighteen. Rice
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  Speaker 1: had moved into Pamela's home on Trellis Court one month earlier.
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  Speaker 1: That sequence matters. He did not begin documenting her condition
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  Speaker 1: and then move in. He moved in, settled into the
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  Speaker 1: rhythms of her kitchen and her mornings, and then he
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  Speaker 1: began to write. The composition book described in clinical language
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  Speaker 1: a woman with late onset bipolar disorder with psychonic features.
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  Speaker 1: It listed medication names, dosing schedules, compliance notes. It read
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  Speaker 1: like a record kept by someone trained to keep records.
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  Speaker 1: Eleven pages. The handwriting a forensic examiner would later confirm
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  Speaker 1: belonged to Dwayne Rice. Pamela McCarthy had never been evaluated
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  Speaker 1: by a mental health clinician in sixty one years of life.
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  Speaker 1: The medications listed in that notebook did not stay on
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  Speaker 1: the page. In March twenty eighteen, a prescription for quetiapine,
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  Speaker 1: an anti psychotic, was filled at the Walbreens on Burnham Street.
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  Speaker 1: The prescription was written under Pamela's name and billed against
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  Speaker 1: her insurance. The prescribing physician listed was doctor Anton Vickers,
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  Speaker 1: a physician whose office was located on Fletcher Drive at
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  Speaker 1: a medical arts building. When Detective Leu Ferraro of the
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  Speaker 1: Harnet Falls Police Department reached doctor Vickers, the doctor stated
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  Speaker 1: flatly that Pamela McCarthy had never been his patient. He
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  Speaker 1: did not recognize her name. The signature on the prescription
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  Speaker 1: did not match his. The prescription had been phoned in.
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  Speaker 1: A second fill followed in September two thousand eighteen, same pharmacy,
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  Speaker 1: same name, same forged physician. Someone had used Pamela's name,
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  Speaker 1: her insurance, and the physician's identity she had never met
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  Speaker 1: to obtain a controlled substance twice. The question the physical
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  Speaker 1: evidence raised was simple and devastating. Where did the medication go?
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  Speaker 1: Toxicological analysis answered that quetiapin residue was found in a
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  Speaker 1: supplement powder stored in Pamela's kitchen cabinet. The powder Rice
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  Speaker 1: added to her morning tea doses sub therapeutic by clinical standards,
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  Speaker 1: but sufficient for what a toxicologist described as sedation, cognitive blunting,
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  Speaker 1: and emotional flatness. Rice would later claim the drugging had
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  Speaker 1: been a single incident. Residue analysis contradicted him. The contamination
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  Speaker 1: pattern in the powder was not consistent with one introduction.
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  Speaker 1: It had been ongoing. Here is what that means in
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  Speaker 1: the body of a sixty one year old woman waking
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  Speaker 1: up each morning, drinking her tea and trying to understand
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  Speaker 1: why she cannot hold a thought the way she used to.
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  Speaker 1: The side effects of quitiappin at low doses include exactly
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  Speaker 1: what Pamela was experiencing. Sluggishness, difficulty concentrating, a sense of
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  Speaker 1: emotional remove, confusion about time and sequence. And Rice was
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  Speaker 1: writing those experiences down. He was documenting drug side effects
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  Speaker 1: as psychiatric symptoms. Then he was using those entries to
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  Speaker 1: tell people. In the summer of twenty eighteen, Rice placed
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  Speaker 1: a call from an unknown number to Pamela's daughter, Noel Barker.
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  Speaker 1: Noel was a floor nurse at Linden Creek. The call
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  Speaker 1: lasted eleven minutes. Rice made it while Pamela was at
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  Speaker 1: a dental appointment, a window in which he could be
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  Speaker 1: certain she would not walk through the door. He told
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  Speaker 1: Noel that her mother was showing signs consistent with bipolar
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  Speaker 1: spectrum disord. He used the clinical phrase precisely. He asked
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  Speaker 1: Noel not to tell Pamela about the conversation. Noel was
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  Speaker 1: a nurse. She visited her mother regularly. At no point
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  Speaker 1: in those visits had she observed symptoms consistent with bipolar disorder.
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  Speaker 1: But Rice had just used eleven minutes to plant a
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  Speaker 1: question in her mind, and the question stayed there for
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  Speaker 1: fourteen months. That is the architecture of what he built.
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  Speaker 1: A clinical record. No one else could read, a pharmacological
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  Speaker 1: substrate producing the exact symptoms the record described, and a
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  Speaker 1: network of doubt constructed one conversation at a time. He
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  Speaker 1: also contacted Pamela's pastor. Two of her siblings heard aversion
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  Speaker 1: of the concern. The circle of people who had quietly
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  Speaker 1: absorbed worry about Pamela's mental state grew, and none of
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  Speaker 1: them compared notes because each conversation had been offered in confidence. Meanwhile,
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  Speaker 1: something else was disappearing. In spring and fall of twenty seventeen,
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  Speaker 1: Pamela's attendants at the Thursday book club began dropping. By
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  Speaker 1: the time the membership lapsed entirely, no one in the
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  Speaker 1: group had a clear explanation they missed her. They assumed
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  Speaker 1: she was managing something private. That assumption, it turned out,
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  Speaker 1: had been carefully constructed. The e mail arrived on a Tuesday.
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  Speaker 1: The time stamp read seven fourteen in the evening. It
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  Speaker 1: came from Pamela's account and was addressed to Nora Taft,
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  Speaker 1: the book club's contact at the library. It cited health issues.
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  Speaker 1: It resigned her from the group. The book club met
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  Speaker 1: on Tuesday evenings from seven to nine. Pamela's phone, percell
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  Speaker 1: tower records, pinged a location near the library. At the
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  Speaker 1: time that e mail was sent, she was or had been,
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  Speaker 1: heading toward the meeting she was simultaneously resigning from. The
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  Speaker 1: e mail itself originated from a device connected to her
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  Speaker 1: home Wi Fi network. Pamela had no memory of sending it.
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  Speaker 1: She remembered wanting to go for fourteen months. Noel Barker
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  Speaker 1: held a private question she had not asked her mother.
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  Speaker 1: She was trained to read bodies, to catch what patience
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  Speaker 1: minimized or missed. She had watched her mother closely at
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  Speaker 1: every visit. She had not seen mania. She had not
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  Speaker 1: seen psychosis. She had not seen the volatility or the
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  Speaker 1: pressure of thought that bipolar disorder produces. What she had
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  Speaker 1: seen was fatigue, a slowness that felt wrong for sixty one,
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  Speaker 1: a flatness she had attributed over and over to grief
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  Speaker 1: that had not fully lifted after Tom MacCarthy's death. She
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  Speaker 1: had kept Rice's request. She had not told Pamela that
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  Speaker 1: silence was not weakness. It was the product of a
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  Speaker 1: seed planted with clinical precision in a woman who had
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  Speaker 1: every reason to take it seriously, a nurse who knew
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  Speaker 1: what she did not want to be wrong about. What
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  Speaker 1: finally moved Noel was not a revelation. It was a conversation.
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  Speaker 1: In late November two thousand nineteen, she asked her mother
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  Speaker 1: directly to describe what she had been feeling, not how
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  Speaker 1: she was doing. What she was feeling symptom. By symptom,
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  Speaker 1: Pamela described the fog, the heaviness, the sense of thoughts.
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  Speaker 1: Arriving late, Noel recognized it not as bipolar disorder, as
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  Speaker 1: medication side effects. She obtained pharmacy records. She found two
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  Speaker 1: quettiepine pills from Walgreens on Burnham Street, prescriptions Pamela had
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  Speaker 1: never mentioned. Because Pamela had no knowledge of them. She
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  Speaker 1: called doctor Ellen Farrow, Pamela's primary care physician, Pharaoh had
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  Speaker 1: prescribed nothing of the kind. On December third, two thousand nineteen,
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  Speaker 1: Noel called the police. Six days later, Detective Ferraro had
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  Speaker 1: confirmed the forged prescriptions, the toxicological findings, and the handwriting
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  Speaker 1: analem on the notebook. On December tenth, Rice returned to
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  Speaker 1: the house on Trellis Court. He attempted to remove items
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  Speaker 1: before the locks were changed. In the process, the composition
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  Speaker 1: notebook dropped to the garage floor. He left without it.
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  Speaker 1: The following day, Beverly Walsh came to the house with
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  Speaker 1: a casserole. The window was cracked, the car was in
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  Speaker 1: the garage, the house was dark. On the garage floor,
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  Speaker 1: she found the notebook. She brought it inside. She gave
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  Speaker 1: it to Pamela. Pamela read eleven pages describing her own
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  Speaker 1: mental illness, a condition she had never been told. She
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  Speaker 1: had attributed to a physician who had never seen her,
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  Speaker 1: documented in the handwriting of the man who had lived
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  Speaker 1: in her home and made her morning tea. That is
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  Speaker 1: what dismantlement looks like when it is complete. Not a confrontation,
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  Speaker 1: Not a dramatic moment, a woman standing in her own
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  Speaker 1: garage reading a document that had replaced her. The trial
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  Speaker 1: ran nine days in February two thousand to twenty one.
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  Speaker 1: Pamela McCarthy attended every one of them. Several things Rice
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  Speaker 1: could have argued collapsed before they were spoken. Picture the
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  Speaker 1: defense positing that Pamela had agreed to any of this.
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  Speaker 1: The notebook was in his handwriting, the prescriptions were in
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  Speaker 1: a forged physicians named and the residue was in a
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  Speaker 1: supplement powder she stored in her own cabinet with no
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  Speaker 1: knowledge it had been altered. The chain of custody on
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  Speaker 1: her reality had been broken without her consent at every point.
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  Speaker 1: Picture instead a version in which the drugging was accidental
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  Speaker 1: or isolated. One moment of poor judgment, not a sustained operation.
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  Speaker 1: That version does not survive the residue analysis. The contamination
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  Speaker 1: pattern in the supplement powder was not consistent with a
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  Speaker 1: single event. It was consistent with repetition, and the note
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  Speaker 1: book's entries ran from February through November, ten months of
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  Speaker 1: documented observations that Rice could only have made if the
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  Speaker 1: substance was active in her system long enough to produce
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  Speaker 1: effects worth recording. There was a third shape this story
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  Speaker 1: could have taken, and it is the one that re
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  Speaker 1: contextualizes everything that came before it. Consider what the notebook
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  Speaker 1: actually was. It was not a private journal, It was
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  Speaker 1: not an accidental record. It was a clinical dossier written
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  Speaker 1: in the language of a trained clinician, designed to be shown.
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  Speaker 1: Rice had shown versions of its contents to Noel, to
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  Speaker 1: Pamela's pastor to two of her siblings. The notebook was
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  Speaker 1: the instrument by which he converted what he was doing
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  Speaker 1: to her body into what other people believed about her mind.
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  Speaker 1: That realization changes the weight of every earlier detail. The
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  Speaker 1: grief group where he arrived first and left last. That
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  Speaker 1: was sourcing, the birthday trip to Columbus that caused the
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  Speaker 1: first missed book club meeting. That was the beginning of isolation.
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  Speaker 1: The eleven minute called to Noel from an unknown number
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  Speaker 1: that was in ACCI, placing doubt inside the person most
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  Speaker 1: likely to recognize the truth. The Tuesday email at seven
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  Speaker 1: fourteen that was erasure, removing her from the last community
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  Speaker 1: she attended independently, Each piece had a function in a
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  Speaker 1: sequence that moved in one direction. The jury convicted on
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  Speaker 1: all counts criminal poisoning, identity fraud, elder financial exploitation, and
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  Speaker 1: two counts of obtaining a controlled substance by misrepresentation. The
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  Speaker 1: sentence was fourteen years. Fourteen months after Rice's arrest, a
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  Speaker 1: woman named Patricia sund fifty eight years old from Terre Haute, Indiana,
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  Speaker 1: called the Harnett Falls Police Department. She had recognized Rice's
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  Speaker 1: photograph in a news report. She reported that in twenty eleven,
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  Speaker 1: during a relationship with him, her adult son had been
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  Speaker 1: told she was showing signs of early dementia. She believed
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  Speaker 1: she had been given an antihistamine without her consent. The
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  Speaker 1: Indiana Attorney General opened an investigation. Two women, two states,
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  Speaker 1: eight years apart. The same architecture. Pamela's name had been
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  Speaker 1: on a prescription she never signed for a medication she
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  Speaker 1: never knew she was taking to treat a condition she
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  Speaker 1: never had. The notebook documenting all of it was entered
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  Speaker 1: at trial as Exhibits seven. It is now part of
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  Speaker 1: a public record. She rejoined the Thursday Book Club in
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  Speaker 1: March twenty twenty. The quetea Pine had fully cleared her system.
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  Speaker 1: She sat down with the same women who had wondered
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  Speaker 1: about her absence, and she was present in the way
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  Speaker 1: she had not been able to be for years, clear,
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  Speaker 1: grounded herself. Whatever Dwayne Rice understood about the people he chose,
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  Speaker 1: he understood that the most effective way to make someone
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  Speaker 1: disappear is not to remove them from the room. It
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  Speaker 1: is to make the people who love them doubt what
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  Speaker 1: they are seeing. Pamela McCarthy is why that didn't work permanently.
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  Speaker 1: The trial lasted nine days. Pamela attended every one of them.
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  Speaker 1: She sat in the same courtroom where the notebook was
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  Speaker 1: entered into evidence Exhibits seven, a composition book in Rice's
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  Speaker 1: handwriting describing a psychiatric patient who had never existed and
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  Speaker 1: a disease that had never been diagnosed. The jury heard
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  Speaker 1: from Detective Leu Ferrorado, from the toxicologist who traced quatiepine
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  Speaker 1: residue in the supplement powder from doctor Anton Vickers, who
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  Speaker 1: confirmed under oath that he had never treated Pamela McCarthy
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  Speaker 1: and had never phoned in a prescription bearing his name.
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  Speaker 1: They heard from Noel, who described an eleven minute phone
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  Speaker 1: call she had received from an unknown number while her
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  Speaker 1: mother was at the dentist, a call in which Rice
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  Speaker 1: used the phrase bipolar spectrum and asked her not to
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  Speaker 1: mention it to Pamela. In February twenty twenty one, the
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  Speaker 1: jury convicted Duyanne Rice on all counts criminal poisoning, idea
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  Speaker 1: identity fraud, elder financial exploitation, two counts of obtaining a
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  Speaker 1: controlled substance by misrepresentation. The sentence was fourteen years. What
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  Speaker 1: the trial record established, piece by piece, was not just
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  Speaker 1: what Rice had done, but the sequence in which he
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  Speaker 1: had done it. He had moved in first, he had
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  Speaker 1: begun the notebook. One month later, he had filled prescriptions
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  Speaker 1: under a forged physician's name before most of Pamela's community
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  Speaker 1: had any reason to question her health. By the time
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  Speaker 1: Noel received that phone call, the architecture was already load bearing.
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  Speaker 1: Doubt had been seated in the person most qualified to
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  Speaker 1: see through it. That is the part of this case
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  Speaker 1: that does not let go. Rice did not need Pamela
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  Speaker 1: to disappear completely. He needed the people around her to hesitate.
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  Speaker 1: Noel hesitated for fourteen months. That is not a failure
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  Speaker 1: of her judgment. That is a measure of how precisely
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  Speaker 1: the system had been built. Fourteen months after Rice's arrectest,
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  Speaker 1: the Harnet Falls Police Department received a call from Terry Hate, Indiana.
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  Speaker 1: A woman named Patricia sund fifty eight years old, had
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  Speaker 1: seen Rice's photograph. In a news report. She reported that
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  Speaker 1: during a relationship with him in twenty eleven, her adult
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  Speaker 1: son had been told she was showing signs of early dementia.
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  Speaker 1: She believed she had been given an antihistamine without her consent.
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  Speaker 1: The Indiana Attorney General opened an investigation. No outcome has
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  Speaker 1: been confirmed in the public record. Two women, two states,
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  Speaker 1: eight years between them, the same phone call to a child,
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  Speaker 1: the same planted doubt, the same direction of travel. What
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  Speaker 1: the record cannot answer is how many calls were never made.
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  Speaker 1: Women who did not see the photograph, whose children still
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  Speaker 1: carry a version of events that Rice constructed for them.
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  Speaker 1: Pamela McCarthy spent years being described to the people she
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  Speaker 1: loved in a language she never recognized as herself. She
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  Speaker 1: was sixty one years old, a retired billing coordinator, a widow,
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  Speaker 1: a nine year member of a Thursday book club. She
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  Speaker 1: had joined a grief support group because her blood pressure
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  Speaker 1: was elevated and her doctor thought it might help. She
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  Speaker 1: walked into a room looking for something ordinary and human,
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  Speaker 1: and she walked out accompanied by someone who had already
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  Speaker 1: begun to study her. In March twenty twenty, after the
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  Speaker 1: quetiapine had fully cleared her system, she went back to
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  Speaker 1: the Thursday book club. She sat down with the same
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  Speaker 1: women who had received a resignation e mail. She had
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  Speaker 1: no memory of sending a message typed from her account.
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  Speaker 1: At seven fourteen on a Tuesday evening, while her phone
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  Speaker 1: was pinging a cell tower near the library where she
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  Speaker 1: had wanted to be, she was present clear herself. That
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  Speaker 1: is not a small thing. It is, in fact the
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  Speaker 1: whole point. The most precise instrument Dwayne Rice used was
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  Speaker 1: not the supplement powder, or the forged prescription or the
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  Speaker 1: composition notebook. It was the specific, targeted erosion of the
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  Speaker 1: trust between a woman and the people who knew her best.
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  Speaker 1: That is what fourteen years acknowledges, and that is what
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  Speaker 1: Pamela McCarthy walked back into a Thursday evening to answer,
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  Speaker 1: not with a statement, not with testimony, but simply by
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  Speaker 1: being in the room. This show is made by Obomedia.