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Brett Keane Show Live /w @kingdomrage7204 Satanic Ritual Abuse Survivor · Brett Keane and Eve Show

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  will. Well, hello ladies and
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  gentlemen, my name is Brett Keene and you're watching and
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  listening to GOD TV Radio and with me I have Kingdom Rage.
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  Hi Kingdom Rage, how's your day been?
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  Awesome. It's been a great morning.
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  How are you doing? I've been doing pretty good,
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  looking forward to talking with you.
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  Watched a lot of your videos and you're very interesting person,
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  very peaceful tone and I think that your words need to be heard
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  to like a a bigger crowd and audience.
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  There's a lot of people out there.
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  They could really use some of the lessons you teach in your
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  videos. Thank you, I've been praying for
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  direction in my life right now and I'm I'm seeing the direction
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  so you were. You were gone for about 6 months
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  it looks like over on your channel.
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  Did anything happen? Are you OK?
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  No, I was OK. I basically have done that.
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  Like, you know, had months and months in between.
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  If I felt I needed to say something or explain something,
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  I would. I This last time, this this
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  recently though, when I looked at it, it just exploded.
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  I was just like, I couldn't believe it.
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  I mean the the views and the subscribers.
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  So I just found out I was. Wow.
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  OK, maybe this is something I'm supposed to be doing more
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  consistently. So yeah, I'm really excited
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  about it. So let's talk a little bit about
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  some of the material that you discuss in your videos.
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  I believe that you use the term Satanic ritual abuse.
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  Can you tell us a little bit about that?
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  Yes. So on my dad's side of the
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  family, my I had a couple uncles that were involved and possibly
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  my grandfather, not quite sure. But I have a lot of memories
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  from I have some memories as a small child, but most of my
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  memories are from when I was a teenager.
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  I was sent to live with an uncle in another state.
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  My parents were abusive. I'm not quite sure that, you
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  know, they present well. My father was abused and so, but
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  I really believe that my father was not directly involved with
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  that. But I'm not quite sure.
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  My memories from when I was a child are real sporadic.
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  When my memories came in, they came in very keenly as a
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  teenager. So my my uncle was involved in
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  Satanism and I believe my other uncle who had died when I was 12
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  was also involved in that and had had abused me as a child as
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  well. So as a result of the abuse, I
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  realized later in life, when I was 27, the memories became
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  started to flood back and I realized I had had dissociative
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  identity disorder. So I had eight active
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  personalities of which I am now one personality I integrated.
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  So it's just been a lifetime of working through that and where
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  we are in this world right now, it's becoming a lot more known
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  that this is more common, a lot more common than people thought.
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  And I thought it was really important to finally tell my
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  story. I, I, I'm seeing others also
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  tell their stories. This is so prevalent in society,
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  it's, it's shocking. But I think it's important for
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  people to understand what is going on, to put a stop to it.
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  So. So the abuse that these family
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  members did, was this out of their religious beliefs and
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  Satan? Or were they just naturally mean
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  and abusive, if you understand where I'm getting at?
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  Well, you know, my, the uncle, the uncle as a teenager, he was
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  involved in I, what, what I believe was to be the
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  Illuminati, because in my memories and, and where I was
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  with him, there were very, very wealthy people, very wealthy
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  people in mansions. And the rituals were clearly
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  satanic. I, I had had always wondered how
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  I'd survive that or what, Why wasn't, you know, why wasn't I
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  killed? And I don't, I don't know to
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  this day, but I do know that there's no way I could have
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  survived this without Jesus. No way.
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  So it's been a, it's been a very long journey, but, and I've come
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  a long way, yeah. So.
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  Do you know if they were a satanic theist or satanic
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  atheist? I don't know what that means.
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  A Satanic theist is a person who actually believes in an actual
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  devil and also believes that God is his enemy or a villain of
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  some sort. An atheist Satanist to someone
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  who lacks a belief in God but yet uses Satanism as kind of a
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  prop. I, I, I, I think that they, they
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  believed, I think this was very specific so that they, I don't
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  know if that they gained power from or I don't know, because
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  their rituals were so detailed, so important to them.
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  And I believe that my uncle was kind of like a minion of theirs
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  because years later he just disappeared.
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  He just completely disappeared. He walked out the door, never
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  came back, and nobody ever found.
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  Him. So, and I was able to speak to
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  my cousins and, and I, you know, they, they understood what he
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  was. So not everybody gets
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  confirmation from their memories, but I did.
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  So that was really important. I was really blessed to have
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  that so. So you ended up moving in with
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  the uncle because the parents were treating you really bad and
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  all that. Were you ever able to find peace
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  with your parents later on in your life or is that a no no?
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  Well, I I don't have much to do with my parents anymore.
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  I, I love my parents. I, I don't know why they allowed
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  certain things, but I was the scapegoat in the family.
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  I have three brothers and no sisters and I was the scapegoat.
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  So, but I was also the one who spoke up and my brothers did
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  what they were told always. And you know, so I was the
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  troublemaker, I guess, the black sheep.
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  So they, they, everything was dumped on me.
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  And how I came about to stay with my uncle was I was just a
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  typical teenager. I mean, just I got in trouble
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  like any other teenager, you know, messing around with boys
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  and, you know, experimenting with, you know, smoking weed and
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  all that kind of stuff. But my parents sat me down.
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  Both of them sat me down and said to me that they were tired
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  of me and that that I was too much trouble for them and that
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  they were going to send me to a home, that they just were going
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  to get rid of me. And that was devastating in
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  itself. But what they ended up doing was
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  sending me to live with my uncle and his family, which he which
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  they look like a nice family, nice wealthy family in Texas.
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  And he had three girls versus my three brothers.
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  I was thrilled to go actually 'cause I had no idea what I was
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  getting involved in. And he, you know, when I got
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  there, he was permissive, whereas my parents were very
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  controlling. I didn't, we didn't grow up with
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  religion, but they were extremely controlling and
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  narcissistic. And so with my uncle, he let me
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  smoke. I was allowed to drink in
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  moderation. And he paid attention to me.
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  And I didn't know that he was grooming me.
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  And I thought it was odd that my aunt was very, very passive.
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  Never said a word. I mean, he's been an incredible
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  amount of time with me and it seemed, it seemed like my
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  cousins didn't like him at all. So but he, he gave me a Satanic
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  Bible and he gave me a book on witchcraft.
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  He immediately started to teach me astral projection.
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  He, he for fun and games, he would hypnotize me.
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  So and then over time it, it became psychological games that
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  I couldn't get out of. And you know, like he, he would
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  say he had like this big bar in the living room and you know,
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  you open the doors and there's all the liquor there and he's
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  like you, you're, you can drink whatever you want.
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  Just don't drink an entire bottle.
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  Well, I ended up drinking the rest of 1 bottle.
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  There wasn't that much left. And in the Dallas area, you
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  can't just go get liquor wherever you want.
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  And so I told him, I said, well, I'll replace it.
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  And he, he, he was completely unreasonable about it.
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  And, and he said, well, you can't do that.
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  You have to, you can't, you can't go and replace it, but you
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  have to fix it. And I'm like, well, how do I fix
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  it? But there was no way to fix it.
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  And we were, we played these psychological games and then he
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  would take away the cigarettes and then take away my privileges
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  and, you know, make me, he blocked me in my room.
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  So, and those are things that I do remember a lot.
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  I didn't remember. I stayed there for one year and
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  came back home, went back home to Detroit.
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  And that's where I'm from. And so I didn't, I, I knew
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  something really bad happened, but I didn't remember.
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  I didn't remember the plane ride home.
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  So, and there was evidence of what had happened just because,
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  and this is just really wild out there.
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  When I came back home, I didn't want to stay with my parents.
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  So I couch surfed and there was a party house where the adults
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  let the, you know, let us teenagers come and party.
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  So after I came back in this particular house there there
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  started to be be poltergeist spirits in there.
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  And so the there the things would move on the wall.
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  Certain behaviors were happening where people were had
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  supernatural strength and pulling doors off the hinges and
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  you know, coming against each other, beating, beating on each.
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  I mean, it's just crazy. The doors would open and close
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  by themselves. You'd hear water running through
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  the walls. I didn't realize at the time,
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  but I must have brought that with me there.
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  But I realized that later so because I was 16 at that time.
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  Why did you believe that you brought that?
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  Why don't you think it was already there?
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  There was no signs of that already there and whether it was
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  there or not, whatever I brought with me, I, I believe connected
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  to that, if that that's the case, but because it wasn't
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  until after I came back, so and plus also that followed me.
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  Those kinds of things followed me wherever I lived to some
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  degree or another until, until I, when I, when I was 19, I
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  became born again. It was really a profound
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  experience becoming born again where I met the Holy Spirit.
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  I was scared but but relieved at the same time.
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  And I always had supernatural things happen, like for
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  instance, when I first got saved, I, I would, I would pray
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  and I would get a scripture in my head and that would be the
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  answer. I, I hadn't read the Bible and
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  my Christian friends, they, they were saying, Oh, that doesn't
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  happen. And I, I had thought I was like,
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  well, I thought that happens with all Christians when you
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  become born again, you know, so, but then, you know, I showed
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  them and they were like, wow, we don't know why that's happening
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  with you. So, and my, my relationship with
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  Jesus was very visceral, very like conversations back and
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  forth. So, and I can give you a, for
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  instance, you know of a scripture I got when I asked a
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  question when I, I was pregnant with my second child.
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  I, I, I believe it's because of damage within me.
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  But with my children, they, my first child came early and with
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  my second and third child, I was on strict bed rest the last
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  couple of months because they wanted to come early.
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  So I would like, be in labor all the time.
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  And I never knew whether to take my bag to the hospital.
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  Is it going to happen today? Is it, you know?
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  And so I had, I said, OK, I had Braxton Hicks contractions
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  again. And I said, OK, Jesus, should I
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  bring my bag today? Is today the day or should I
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  just leave it at home? And he gave me Haggai 218 and
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  19. And it's really kind of comical.
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  Now, mind you, at this at this time, I was three weeks into my
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  9th month. So that's why I was like, it's
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  really close. So you know, is it, is it today
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  or is it not? And I got Haggai 219, which says
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  from this day on, from the 24th day of the ninth month, give
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  careful thought to the day when the foundation of the Lord's
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  temple was laid. Give careful thought.
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  Is there yet any seed left in the barn?
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  Until now, the vine and the fig tree, the pomegranate and the
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  olive tree have not borne fruit. From this day on, I will bless
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  you. And so I was like, OK, I'm to
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  take my bag. So.
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  And Jesus, Jesus built trust with me over much time, because
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  it wasn't time yet. I didn't remember what happened
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  to me. I knew something really bad had
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  happened, and I knew there was a darkness around me that I
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  couldn't explain. But later on, when I was 27, I
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  began to remember. And because of that trust in
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  Jesus, I was able to really profoundly heal.
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  I had two psychiatrists say that I was a walking miracle because
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  from what I went through I was I was healing quite, quite
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  quickly, doing very well. How did you, well, you said at
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  19 you would become a Christian and you were dealing with all
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  these satanic family members. How did you find the opportunity
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  to be able to transition over into Jesus while dealing with,
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  you know, a Satanist? Because you would suspect,
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  right, that they would probably clown on somebody for believing
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  differently than themselves, right?
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  OK, but but so my uncle that lived in the other state, we we
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  didn't, he lived in another state.
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  So we visit and he was in Incognito.
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  So, you know, he presented as a as a normal family and I didn't
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  he didn't have access to me other than when I was smaller.
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  I can't remember when he moved to Texas.
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  And my other uncle, he died when I was 12.
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  And I don't remember anything that was represented, you know,
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  Satanism with him. But I do remember being sexually
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  abused by him. And it's like I said, he died
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  when I was 12. So and then my grandfather died
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  when I was six. And, and I do have a memory of
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  being at the Funeral Home with my brothers in a side room.
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  And I remember feeling like I'm so glad he's gone.
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  So, and I was only 6. So like I said, most of my
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  memories and their, their really horrific memories are from when
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  I went to stay with my uncle for that year.
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  So I had a really difficult time believing that I had DID,
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  because usually that's something that happens when you're under
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  7, because at that, when you're under seven, you don't have
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  coping skills. So I was really concerned about
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  that. I was like, OK, so how do I, you
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  know, But apparently there were some things that happened when I
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  was younger and now I'm, I'm, I'm beginning to wonder as well
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  if I split because of my mother. My mother was she, she seemed to
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  hate me. She seemed to look for every
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  opportunity to hurt me when I was young.
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  And one of the things that would that had happened when I was
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  younger was I got kidney infections, quite often severe
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  kidney infections, which today doctors would say if a child has
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  severe kidney infections over and over again, they are they're
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  being molested. They're probably being molested.
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  But when I would have a flare up, my temperature would go up
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  to 105. So you'd think that after the
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  first time or even the second time that my mother would just
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  take me straight away to the hospital.
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  But it seemed like she couldn't wait to get me in that that bath
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  of ice water. And I'm wondering if I split at
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  that time because my youngest personality was four.
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  And generally, whatever age or personalities are, something
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  significant happened at those ages.
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  Do you think that? And if I'm wrong, you can
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  correct me, but do you think that the mother might have done
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  the ice water because you were running a fever?
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  Well, yeah, of course, but repeatedly, you know, to, to
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  repeatedly do that over and over again, just it's a very
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  traumatic thing to do. It's not like she didn't see
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  that my my temperature was going up to take me to the hospital.
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  But, and it wasn't just because of that.
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  It was like other things as well that she was extremely
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  physically abusive and verbally and emotionally abusive and
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  humiliation was the thing in our home.
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  So for instance, I peed the bed a lot because of my kidney
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  infections and she would act like it was a new thing and I
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  just did it to make her mad. Like she didn't know I had
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  kidney infections or kidney issues or why.
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  So like I remember I think I was 7:00 or 8:00 and I had peed the
• 27:28
  bed and my brother had a had it scheduled that he was going to
• 27:31
  have a friend spend the night. And so she before the friend
• 27:36
  came over, she put a dish towel on me with diaper pins and made
• 27:41
  me parade around while his friend was there.
• 27:47
  Oh, that's awful. That is terrible.
• 27:50
  The. The question that I was asking
• 27:53
  you is basically with all these family and all these people
• 27:57
  doing this to you, I find it miraculous that you were able to
• 28:01
  find Jesus and find God in your life, which is wonderful.
• 28:05
  But did somebody come to you and say, hey, you should try out
• 28:09
  church or check out the Bible or something like that?
• 28:12
  How did this happen? What was this part?
• 28:16
  When I, when I was 18, I moved with my boyfriend to Boise, ID
• 28:26
  and took my daughter there. And he, he was abusive and he
• 28:33
  would just like leave for like two or three weeks at a time or
• 28:36
  a month at a time and he'd be off doing drugs.
• 28:39
  And I, I, I hadn't worked so, but when I turned 18, when I
• 28:46
  first turned 18 in Michigan, I became a stripper.
• 28:50
  And so to take care of my daughter, to have enough money
• 28:53
  to take care of my daughter. So when I moved there, I ended
• 28:58
  up having to do that, trying to find some work doing that, but
• 29:02
  they didn't have, it was very conservative state.
• 29:05
  And so I worked for a, a private company doing stripograms or you
• 29:09
  know, things like that. And so that was how I was trying
• 29:14
  to survive. And so my I lived in a big
• 29:18
  Victorian house with that was split up into apartments.
• 29:21
  And my neighbor said to me, hey, I'm going to go to church this
• 29:25
  Sunday, would you like to go? And I was just like, well, I
• 29:29
  guess that's something to do because I didn't learn to drive
• 29:32
  till I was 23. So I didn't drive.
• 29:36
  I was like, OK, well, yeah, I'll go.
• 29:38
  And when I went, it was more like a Pentecostal church and I
• 29:45
  felt the Holy Spirit. I mean, I was like, what is
• 29:48
  that? And it literally, it scared me.
• 29:51
  And I mid mid church service, I went outside because I was
• 29:56
  trying to figure out what that was that I was feeling.
• 29:59
  It was very visceral. It was a pulling, you know, kind
• 30:06
  of like a, a drawing, but it was very loving.
• 30:09
  And I didn't know what to do with that kind of love, I guess,
• 30:12
  you know, at that time. But I went, when I went home, I
• 30:17
  asked to go again. I said, can I come with you to
• 30:21
  church next week? And they were like, yeah.
• 30:23
  And so when I went and then I really paid attention and, you
• 30:28
  know, gave my life over to, to Jesus.
• 30:32
  And it was like the most amazing thing to to feel that love, to
• 30:40
  feel wanted. It was just amazing.
• 30:44
  I mean, I went in full, full force into who is this Jesus and
• 30:48
  you know that loves me and what is that so?
• 30:54
  And I think, you know, that was necessary to prepare for when
• 30:57
  the time came for me to start remembering the things that had
• 31:01
  happened in the past do. You think God was preparing you
• 31:06
  for healing? I think he was preparing me for
• 31:09
  healing, but I also think that he was preparing me for such a
• 31:13
  time as this now because, because at that time when I was
• 31:20
  27, that was like late 90s, early 2000s people, you couldn't
• 31:28
  talk about this stuff and people would say that you were lying.
• 31:31
  And, you know, they had the, the false memory syndrome thing they
• 31:35
  put out there, which is so ridiculous.
• 31:38
  I mean, it's so obvious that, that, you know, there was just
• 31:41
  too many people who all over the world who were telling the same
• 31:44
  stories. And so, you know, anyways, so,
• 31:51
  and I was quite ashamed of having these issues 'cause my,
• 31:55
  my husband at the time was ashamed of me for, for this
• 32:00
  having come up, you know, and how it reflected on him and our
• 32:05
  family. Why were they ashamed of before?
• 32:09
  That that this was happening to me.
• 32:11
  He didn't believe me. He thought I was making it up.
• 32:14
  And then he married. Yes.
• 32:17
  And how and how it made him look.
• 32:21
  I mean, he, he wanted, you know, I, I, I was a trophy wife, you
• 32:27
  know, and to have these issues was embarrassing to him for me
• 32:31
  to have these issues. So, you know, he wasn't very
• 32:35
  supportive emotionally. It was basically he like, you
• 32:39
  know, here's the money, go get better.
• 32:42
  So, and, and we had five children all together 'cause I
• 32:46
  had two. This is my second husband.
• 32:49
  I'm sorry, this is my second husband.
• 32:50
  I had gotten divorced in Idaho. So my second husband I was
• 32:54
  married to for 13 years, but with for about 20.
• 32:58
  But so you know, I had my two, he adopted my two, he had two
• 33:03
  from a previous marriage and we had one together.
• 33:06
  So we had five children all together.
• 33:10
  So, but he was not supportive and so, but I was very willing
• 33:17
  to do whatever it took to get better and to figure out what
• 33:22
  happened and, and all that stuff.
• 33:24
  So. Earlier in the conversation you
• 33:31
  had stated that you believe that you're some of these family
• 33:35
  members you got involved with were in the Satanism.
• 33:39
  What made you believe that they were actually in Satanism?
• 33:42
  Did they do rituals you also meant and grooming?
• 33:47
  Yes. So one of the memories, and this
• 33:50
  was my very first memory that came.
• 33:52
  And in the memory I'm, I, I'm seeing myself from the ceiling
• 33:56
  down and I'm in a bed and my, my hands are like this.
• 34:01
  And it almost seems like I'm in a casket, but in my memory it's
• 34:06
  a bed. And on the four posts were black
• 34:08
  candles and there were flowers around me.
• 34:13
  Now I, I, I don't know if that's just what I'm, what I viewed or
• 34:19
  if it was just, I needed to see something a little bit
• 34:22
  different, but apparently I had. And they call this a fragment
• 34:28
  because I, I was stuck at the ceiling looking down at myself.
• 34:31
  Whatever happened to me there caused me to leave my body.
• 34:36
  So, so I was looking down at that.
• 34:40
  Another memory was I'm in a, my, my uncle had some property with
• 34:48
  some horses and some, you know, greenery.
• 34:52
  And so I knew I was there and I was in the grass and I saw fire.
• 34:59
  I don't know if they were holding torches or what.
• 35:01
  There was just, there was fire around me and I, something's
• 35:06
  beat someone's in in between my legs pulling something from me.
• 35:10
  And it's like one moment it looks like an umbilical cord,
• 35:13
  another moment it looks like a snake.
• 35:17
  So you know, I, I'm, I'm assuming they drugged me.
• 35:22
  I don't know, but in another memory a a a very tall table
• 35:28
  covered in a black cloth and there are black.
• 35:32
  Candles. And there everybody has a black
• 35:36
  cloak on with a hood, and someone is standing behind me
• 35:40
  holding an ornate knife in my hand, and I have to go stab a
• 35:45
  baby and I can. I can hear the pop in the belly.
• 35:50
  I. Can hear the pop?
• 35:52
  That's another memory. Another memory is of being in
• 35:58
  this very fancy mansion and there is an area where it, it
• 36:04
  seems to be custom built, made for for these kinds of rituals.
• 36:10
  And in this ritual, there's everyone's naked, there's many
• 36:15
  of us and everyone's naked and there's blood everywhere.
• 36:18
  We're completely soaked in blood and had the ritual had to do
• 36:22
  something with the blood and everybody's rubbing up against
• 36:26
  each other and there's just blood being thrown everywhere.
• 36:30
  So I remembered that one. And there's, there's, I mean,
• 36:33
  there's a few others, but that's clearly satanic.
• 36:37
  They have High holidays, you know, and where they do certain
• 36:41
  things for certain reasons to bring about a certain outcome.
• 36:48
  You had said earlier. That you, I, I don't know if it
• 36:52
  would be called a condition where you have personalities.
• 36:56
  Can you tell me a little bit about that?
• 36:58
  Yeah. Dissociative identity disorder,
• 37:01
  which used to be called multiple personality disorder.
• 37:04
  So I had, I had come to understand I had eight active
• 37:08
  personalities. The youngest was 4.
• 37:13
  And her name was. Dorothy she.
• 37:15
  She thought that she was Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz, and so
• 37:22
  she rarely came out. But if she came out, she had to
• 37:24
  see if she had her Ruby slippers.
• 37:27
  And if she didn't, I don't know why she would see whether she
• 37:32
  had them or not. But you know, because apparently
• 37:35
  I'm not wearing Ruby slippers. But if she thought she didn't
• 37:38
  have them, she was. She would just cry and become
• 37:41
  hysterical because she was afraid of the flying monkeys.
• 37:46
  So to me. The flying monkeys represented
• 37:49
  the demonic. I don't know if you knew.
• 37:53
  This from watching my videos, but I'm really into philosophy
• 37:58
  and discussions of the consciousness and all that and
• 38:01
  what I've researched on personalities.
• 38:04
  They usually come about whenever someone's trying to protect
• 38:07
  their mind. It sounds like.
• 38:10
  You can correct me if you think I'm wrong, but it sounds like it
• 38:13
  was an inner child trying to come out and trying to get the
• 38:17
  shoes in order to escape the location they're in.
• 38:20
  That's what Dorothy originally wanted to do.
• 38:24
  Oh, absolutely. Absolutely.
• 38:26
  And so I also had a personality named Diva and she, I don't know
• 38:32
  how old she was, but she was like a dominatrix type character
• 38:39
  and. She, she was.
• 38:40
  The only personality that the children were afraid of.
• 38:45
  And so. Later I I had I had realized
• 38:48
  that there was the demonic attached to diva that needed to
• 38:52
  be. I needed deliverance from that
• 38:57
  need to be unattached. So, but you know, it's, it's
• 39:04
  interesting because my relationship with Jesus was so.
• 39:09
  Complete. That I I trusted Jesus
• 39:13
  implicitly. And many times in.
• 39:16
  When I was in church, when we would I?
• 39:20
  I would get completely lost. In worship, which I believe is a
• 39:24
  form of meditation. And I would have visions and he
• 39:28
  would show me things and he would show me things.
• 39:33
  That had, you know. Meaning for my future.
• 39:36
  So I mean even moving. To Arizona that you know, I, I
• 39:41
  had, we lived in Detroit, born and raised both my, my, my
• 39:45
  second husband and I and with the kids and I'm going through
• 39:48
  all this and he's embarrassed by me and you know, he didn't take
• 39:52
  me seriously in any way, shape or form, but I had come to
• 39:55
  Arizona for a a. International.
• 40:00
  Conference, Christian Conference and while I was.
• 40:03
  Here. Jesus told me to move, to move
• 40:06
  here, and I'm just like, my husband's not gonna just move
• 40:10
  here because I said that, but lo.
• 40:13
  And behold. Six months later we were living
• 40:16
  in Arizona. So, you know, I had come here
• 40:20
  1st and then somehow or another Jesus brought us here.
• 40:24
  So, you know, I, I believe in consciousness and I believe in,
• 40:29
  you know. What I believe is.
• 40:32
  That you know. Jesus became the Christ.
• 40:37
  And Christ is a consciousness, it's a higher consciousness.
• 40:41
  And he, he showed us the way he showed.
• 40:44
  Us the way to a higher. Consciousness and you know, so
• 40:50
  you know, we're all in our. Place.
• 40:53
  You know that what happened to me didn't.
• 40:55
  It's not, it's not that Jesus wanted that to happen to me.
• 40:58
  It's not that, you know, God, the universe wanted that to
• 41:02
  happen to me. But I believe that it was gonna
• 41:06
  happen and there was a way to make it through and.
• 41:11
  You know I'm here. I'm.
• 41:12
  Here as with a purpose to to help people understand that this
• 41:18
  does happen so that we can come to a higher consciousness and
• 41:23
  not allow this to happen anymore.
• 41:25
  It's very tied to the sex trade, which is so out of hand in this
• 41:29
  world right now, and many people don't understand what's been
• 41:33
  happening right under their noses.
• 41:36
  So you know my part. And I believe my story, it's not
• 41:40
  for everyone, but there's a a tribe out there that needs to
• 41:44
  hear my story. And there are people out there
• 41:46
  who who are going through their healing, having come come out of
• 41:51
  this and you know, need to support and need to know that
• 41:55
  there are others that have gone through this.
• 41:58
  So as far as support. Goes it sounds like from a young
• 42:07
  age you've had a very difficult time being able to have
• 42:10
  relationships with people that you could trust, who they seem
• 42:13
  to take advantage and hurt you and all that.
• 42:16
  Nowadays though, do you have people that you you can count
• 42:20
  on, that you can rely on, that you do trust good friends and
• 42:24
  such I. I.
• 42:27
  To be honest. With you, I've been very
• 42:30
  isolated, extremely isolated and not much help from.
• 42:36
  I hadn't had much help from my family, but in different ways.
• 42:39
  So for instance, and this is miraculous.
• 42:43
  So. I got divorced in 2013 and my
• 42:49
  ex, my ex-husband lives in in Florida.
• 42:54
  I. I.
• 42:56
  Remained here in. Arizona up until two years ago,
• 42:59
  and I I went to Michigan. For a year A.
• 43:04
  New life and I ended. Up in a.
• 43:08
  Bad situation and it was coming to Christmas and my son lives in
• 43:13
  in, in Michigan and I have a great relationship with my son.
• 43:18
  He's my youngest, he's 26. But everybody was gonna be
• 43:23
  gathering at my son's and my ex-husband happened to be
• 43:28
  working for four months in Michigan.
• 43:31
  And so he was like, Oh well, I'll bring your mom.
• 43:34
  And so he came to get me and he saw the bad situation I was in,
• 43:37
  was not living somewhere safe. And he basically rescued me.
• 43:43
  He basically. Said I'm.
• 43:44
  Not, you know, we're going to get you out of there.
• 43:47
  And he put. Me up in.
• 43:50
  An apartment and paid my rent. So a.
• 43:55
  Year later, I didn't have much support over there and I wanted
• 43:59
  to come back to Arizona 'cause my daughter's here with my
• 44:02
  grandkids. And he he paid for me to come
• 44:06
  out here and is paying my rent, has been paying my rent for the
• 44:09
  past year and told me that until I am am able to to take care of
• 44:17
  myself or if I marry or whatever he as long as he has money he
• 44:22
  will help me. Have you ever been in?
• 44:26
  A podcast like this before no. This is my first time, I mean
• 44:32
  even with it, even with my my YouTube channel, like I don't
• 44:35
  understand how to put a link on there or anything like that.
• 44:38
  I I've had a really difficult time with it with just knowing
• 44:42
  how things work and but YouTube has changed also, so I'm very
• 44:46
  new at this well. If you like.
• 44:49
  Sometime you can watch some of my tutorial videos.
• 44:52
  I run into a lot of people on my show who are in the same issue
• 44:56
  where they're just not technically savvy on the YouTube
• 45:00
  stuff. And so I make the tutorial
• 45:02
  videos to try to help folks and I keep it simple.
• 45:05
  I don't talk all that Chinese language at people.
• 45:08
  What I was going to tell you is if you look to the right of your
• 45:10
  screen, you're going to see something called private chat.
• 45:13
  You see the button? No, you don't see something to.
• 45:20
  It it's either on the far right of your screen or the left,
• 45:24
  it'll say private chat. No, I did well it.
• 45:28
  Says chat on the bottom. You see nothing.
• 45:32
  On the side, no I don't. All right.
• 45:36
  Are you able to see? The comments section.
• 45:40
  No, I'll tell you what. I'll just.
• 45:42
  E-mail you what I put in there in the private chat, I said if
• 45:47
  you ever need somebody to talk to and stuff, that's the same
• 45:50
  e-mail that you got on me and I also gave the phone number.
• 45:53
  If you ever need somebody to talk to, I hate to hear that
• 45:56
  you're kind of isolated and don't have somebody to talk to.
• 46:00
  Well, here's. The thing?
• 46:02
  I, I, when I got divorced, I kind of went on the wild side
• 46:08
  because I'd always had children and I'd always been dealing with
• 46:11
  psychological issues. And I, I got myself into a
• 46:15
  little bit of trouble, went a little too far.
• 46:17
  And so I have not had a license and cannot, cannot get a
• 46:22
  license, cannot apply for a license for another four years.
• 46:26
  And it's been six years. So that, that has helped to
• 46:30
  isolate me. I don't drive, you know, so and
• 46:35
  I also. Don't hang.
• 46:36
  Out with the people I used to hang out with so.
• 46:40
  It's. Difficult to figure out where to
• 46:42
  go to meet friends of like mind where I'm at right now so.
• 46:47
  Because I've I've done a. Lot of growing so that's that's
• 46:52
  also why I've been isolated. Well, I do a.
• 46:56
  As. You can see with my intro, I
• 46:59
  call my show Brett Keene Show, but it's also my radio's called
• 47:03
  GOD TV Radio. And usually on Fridays I let
• 47:07
  people come in and hang out and talk and all that.
• 47:10
  And that might be while you're waiting to get the license back
• 47:15
  or whatever. You would be able to meet new
• 47:16
  people, make friends, all that kind of stuff.
• 47:19
  I try to keep out all the the mean ones.
• 47:23
  We get some of them every once in a while though.
• 47:28
  Yeah, that would be great. That would be really great.
• 47:31
  Someone had suggested to me to try and connect with people
• 47:34
  online. I just I have a difficult time
• 47:37
  my my phone. But I have met a friend.
• 47:42
  'Cause the Lord told me to, to, to step out and, and not be so
• 47:47
  afraid because I went through a dark night of the soul and I'm
• 47:50
  coming out of that now. And so I started going to a
• 47:53
  church nearby. I had gotten a ride and met a
• 47:58
  friend. And so I just made friends with
• 48:01
  a, a wonderful lady who's just been really, I just really think
• 48:05
  it's a divine connection. So and she's a little bit more
• 48:09
  savvy on on the. On a computer.
• 48:13
  So maybe she. Can help me with some?
• 48:14
  Things, but I that's good to know that you have tutorials.
• 48:19
  I did not even know that so I will definitely be checking
• 48:21
  those out because I I feel like it's time for me to do more on
• 48:26
  the YouTube channel so and be more consistent.
• 48:30
  Well, something you might. Enjoy doing is live streaming.
• 48:33
  You'd be able to talk directly to your audience in real time,
• 48:36
  and if you thought some of them were cool, you could actually
• 48:40
  invite a men to chat with you and get on camera like we're
• 48:43
  doing now. You like those?
• 48:45
  Pretty neat, ain't it? I like it, yeah.
• 48:47
  I really like it. It's great to have be.
• 48:52
  Able to have, you know, the back and forth conversations and
• 48:56
  yeah. Yeah, I.
• 48:58
  Enjoy it, I enjoy it for sure. So are you still going to a
• 49:02
  Pentecostal church or is it a change to nominate?
• 49:07
  No. I I.
• 49:09
  I picked, I chose a Unity Church because it was really close by.
• 49:12
  It's extremely small, maybe like 20 people, mostly older people.
• 49:17
  It's just a way to get out, you know, because there's, and
• 49:20
  especially right now I'm, I'm in Arizona in the Phoenix area and
• 49:24
  it's like 118° outside. So you can't, you're literally
• 49:27
  shut in. I mean, you just, unless you
• 49:29
  have a car to go somewhere, you know, but I've been meeting some
• 49:32
  of the neighbors. So, you know, but, and, and like
• 49:37
  I said, you know, I just met that my friend, a really good
• 49:40
  friend and I just went up with her.
• 49:42
  It was her birthday weekend and she invited me to go to
• 49:45
  Flagstaff. So I just spent the weekend in
• 49:47
  Flagstaff where it was 80°. Thank God.
• 49:51
  It was a nice break. I heard in one of your videos.
• 49:55
  You mentioned that you have a collection of cards.
• 49:58
  Is it the kind of cards you play poker with, or tarot cards?
• 50:02
  Or what is it Oracle cards? Here I'll show you.
• 50:09
  I kind of got to have. Them all stacked up This is my
• 50:11
  card table so yeah I I read cards that's an issue for some
• 50:19
  Christians, but I. Believe that you.
• 50:23
  Know God can talk through anything, anything you don't so.
• 50:31
  Right and. So it's all about.
• 50:32
  Intention, you know, and we have to use our discernment, you
• 50:37
  know. So when I was in some trouble
• 50:42
  and making some very poor decisions and got hurt by the
• 50:45
  church, I I had left Christianity for about four
• 50:50
  years and. Being getting myself.
• 50:55
  In trouble I had called on God again and re established a
• 51:00
  relationship. But one of the things that was.
• 51:03
  Getting me through 'cause I was homeless.
• 51:06
  So, and so one of the things that got me through somehow,
• 51:09
  someway, I just came across a deck of cards somehow and got
• 51:13
  the deck. And then it was like little
• 51:16
  miraculous moments here and there where God would bring me
• 51:19
  another deck. And it was my, it was my way of
• 51:22
  staying connected physically to God as I was working my way out
• 51:26
  of my mess, you know, And so I had collected quite a few of
• 51:31
  them. So I do readings for people and
• 51:35
  they're always encouraging, they're always very loving.
• 51:39
  You know, there's a solution to everything, you know, and it's
• 51:42
  not about trying to figure out someone's future or anything
• 51:45
  like that. I just read the energy, read the
• 51:48
  energy around what, what may be going on, you know?
• 51:51
  If they have a. Question.
• 51:54
  And I always remind people that, you know, there, it doesn't tell
• 51:58
  you what to do, it just points you in the right direction.
• 52:03
  What would you do? If you were reading Terrets for
• 52:06
  someone and you got connected with their energy and had this
• 52:11
  feeling of some sort, I've I've had some friends who got
• 52:14
  involved in this, but you have a feeling that something bad is
• 52:18
  going to happen to somebody, would you tell them or would you
• 52:22
  be afraid that they would be unhappy by hearing that?
• 52:29
  I That's never happened. But it's not like there isn't
• 52:33
  the way it comes across when and the way I read the energy is if
• 52:37
  there's something, there's a warning involved, you know you
• 52:40
  have to you like for instance. I'm trying to think of something
• 52:46
  that. Would you know?
• 52:49
  So my my friend. Had a dream and in her dreams
• 52:54
  she kept seeing a stop sign over and over again OK and she was
• 52:59
  about to take a trip and so you know that that can be concerning
• 53:05
  and she said what do you think that means I just go inside and
• 53:09
  ask, you know ask ask the Lord I you know OK well what what does
• 53:12
  that mean because you some things are metaphorical, some
• 53:15
  things are literal but there's no need to go into fear
• 53:18
  immediately you ask first you know and so.
• 53:23
  She, she went. She.
• 53:24
  Went into fear. She went into fear that maybe
• 53:27
  she was going to get into a car accident.
• 53:29
  And I said, well, you. Know discern.
• 53:32
  I said, I don't discern like that kind of a warning.
• 53:37
  I, I don't discern it, I said, but because she wanted me to do
• 53:41
  a reading, you know, and so I said, I explained to her because
• 53:45
  she wants to get some cards. I explained to her, I said, you
• 53:48
  know, if you, if you, if you approach God, if you approach,
• 53:54
  you have to stay calm because your, your panicky energy will
• 53:59
  influence the outcome. So.
• 54:02
  It's like you have to just, you have to.
• 54:07
  Quiet yourself and then ask what does it mean and.
• 54:11
  For her it meant. Something different than, you
• 54:14
  know, warning for a car accident.
• 54:16
  That doesn't mean that that might not come up for someone,
• 54:18
  but for her, that's not what it was.
• 54:21
  And she she went on her trip and it was perfectly fine.
• 54:25
  But that's what I had. Told her, I said we, we.
• 54:28
  Some things you have to just discern.
• 54:32
  You can't assume what they mean and you can't go into a panic.
• 54:35
  You're not going to hear from God if you're in a panic, you're
• 54:37
  not going to hear properly. So you calm.
• 54:40
  Yourself. First take a few breaths and
• 54:43
  then ask your question, you know and if one.
• 54:48
  Has faith in. God, then they shouldn't let
• 54:51
  fear get into them either. Know that God will protect them,
• 54:55
  right, Right and. If there's any.
• 54:58
  If there's anything like a warning, there's there's.
• 55:02
  No need to. Panic, there's always a
• 55:04
  solution. There's always a, a, a truth
• 55:06
  behind it. Like, OK, well, you know, why is
• 55:09
  why is the need for the warning? Well, maybe maybe you're not
• 55:13
  realizing, I don't know, It could be anything hanging out
• 55:17
  with the wrong person or, you know, usually when I do readings
• 55:21
  for people, it, it, it resonates with them.
• 55:23
  It's something that they're like, Oh, I knew that inside,
• 55:26
  but I wasn't paying attention. And, and with the reading,
• 55:30
  there's always a solution, you know, take a closer look at your
• 55:35
  friends or take a take a closer look at where you're, you've
• 55:38
  been hanging out or whatever it is, It's always, it always goes
• 55:42
  unto positive, always. So that's.
• 55:47
  How I it works with me anyway? Would you want to read?
• 55:53
  Me. Would I want to read you like?
• 55:56
  Do a card reading. Sure.
• 55:58
  OK, OK. I mean, you just turned the.
• 56:01
  Camera for a moment I've seen a big old stack of cards over
• 56:05
  there. Seems a big annoyment.
• 56:08
  OK, so. I think we'll do for you.
• 56:12
  We'll do Archangel Michael cards.
• 56:15
  All right, that sounds. Cool.
• 56:18
  So. I clear my cards with.
• 56:25
  A tuning fork, so. So I'm just clearing it of any.
• 56:30
  Old energy excuse. Me what does?
• 56:34
  The tuning fork. Do for it.
• 56:37
  Well, this. Particular one is 4096 Hertz or
• 56:42
  vibration. It's a it clears some people.
• 56:47
  I clear. I used to clear my cards with
• 56:49
  oh. My gosh.
• 56:54
  Sage. But it's a bit strong.
• 56:57
  It's a bit strong and I can't always, you know, some people
• 56:59
  don't like the smell of it. So I had found this tuning fork
• 57:03
  that clears energy. And you you hit it on a.
• 57:06
  Crystal so I have a crystal and so I use that to to clear the
• 57:11
  energy of the cards. You know, if I've used them with
• 57:14
  somebody else, it clears the energy from that so that you get
• 57:17
  a fresh reading you. Were saying that.
• 57:21
  Some religious people have given you issue over cards right
• 57:25
  because they say that. You know, in the Bible it says
• 57:27
  that that's bad. That you know any divination.
• 57:30
  Is bad, and only if they're speaking to.
• 57:34
  Familiar evil spirits. The Bible.
• 57:37
  Says. God says that you can actually
• 57:40
  look upon the Mazzaroth, which is the 12 signs of the Zodiac
• 57:44
  and be able to see signs of people's lives and all that
• 57:47
  that's in the book of Job. So these these folks might want
• 57:50
  to read their Bible a little better before they get on to
• 57:52
  you, right? And there's a Are you familiar
• 57:57
  with the story of Balaam in the Bible?
• 58:00
  Yes, but you. Can go ahead and tell us about
• 58:02
  it anyway 'cause I think it's really.
• 58:05
  Funny, so Balaam was a prophet of God, and God was trying to
• 58:09
  talk to him and he wasn't listening.
• 58:11
  And so he talked, he used his donkey to talk to him.
• 58:17
  And so I I've heard this said before, and I repeat it.
• 58:21
  If God can talk to Balaam's ass, he can talk to yours.
• 58:25
  It's funny that you say. That cause ironically, whenever
• 58:28
  I get sometimes get bad visitors into my show and they say, so
• 58:33
  you believe in talking animals in the Bible and I said, well,
• 58:36
  you believe you are a talking animal.
• 58:37
  You believe you evolved right? And boy oh boy am I terrible.
• 58:46
  Well, I think you know I. Mean most I'm I'm.
• 58:50
  I'm surprised I hear a lot of. People talk about negative.
• 58:54
  Negative comments and and. I get some and I get some people
• 58:58
  who, you know, they see the cards and that's all I want to
• 59:01
  say. They want just want to say, oh,
• 59:03
  you need Jesus or, you know, you don't understand or, you know,
• 59:06
  and that's that's her opinion. And but most people have been
• 59:09
  pretty kind, pretty kind about it.
• 59:11
  And we all have our different views on things, and that's OK,
• 59:16
  you know? But most people are just really
• 59:19
  kind so far. That's cool.
• 59:23
  Yeah. So let's see.
• 59:29
  So your first card, we're going to do three.
• 59:34
  I always do things in threes. I don't.
• 59:37
  Really. Use winning the Lotto.
• 59:39
  If this plays a part in there, you could really use what?
• 59:43
  Winning the Lotto. Would be very nice, I know I
• 59:47
  keep asking. Myself but no go.
• 59:50
  Yet, well am I abundant. My abundance is.
• 59:54
  Here and ever. Coming.
• 59:57
  OK, so your very first card is regain your focus.
• 1:00:03
  Trivial matters are distracting. You from your goals.
• 1:00:07
  Archangel Metatron. And I are here to help you stay
• 1:00:10
  grounded. So maybe you may have been
• 1:00:12
  dealing with some things that are annoying or irritating that
• 1:00:17
  we all have to deal with and sometimes it takes us off track.
• 1:00:21
  So maybe you need to come back to your center and refocus on
• 1:00:25
  what's the most important it. Definitely sounds like.
• 1:00:28
  Some good advice it's you had it right on the head with that one
• 1:00:32
  for sure. Yeah, and then you've.
• 1:00:36
  Got embrace this magical moment and it says you are the perfect.
• 1:00:41
  You're in the perfect energetic space for manifesting miracles.
• 1:00:44
  Allow your wishes to be fulfilled and this is actually
• 1:00:48
  goes along with something that I believe that we are in a time
• 1:00:50
  and an unprecedented time and that whatever we intend we can
• 1:00:56
  manifest quickly. And so I think that's what
• 1:00:59
  that's saying, is to remember that, you know, you're a
• 1:01:03
  powerful man and. And in this time.
• 1:01:08
  And space of history. You can manifest much quickly,
• 1:01:13
  much more quickly, what you want, what you desire.
• 1:01:18
  For for your benefit. And for the benefit of all.
• 1:01:22
  That sounds really. Really impactful.
• 1:01:24
  Is there any way I'd be able to take a look at those cards?
• 1:01:28
  Can you hold them up? Because it looked really neat to
• 1:01:30
  one with the sword. OK, so that was the 1st.
• 1:01:34
  One that looks really cool. Yeah.
• 1:01:37
  So that's like. Archangel Michael's sword and
• 1:01:41
  but the but the symbol there is the symbol of Metatron.
• 1:01:47
  So can you. Explain the.
• 1:01:52
  Metatron. Metatron.
• 1:01:53
  OK, so I'm not I'm not exactly sure, but usually.
• 1:02:00
  So Metatron is the connection from the divine to the earth,
• 1:02:06
  and then I. Think it's Archangel.
• 1:02:07
  Uriel, that's from the earth up. To our humanness.
• 1:02:12
  From what I've. From what I've learned.
• 1:02:14
  From what I've understood, so regaining your focus is like
• 1:02:18
  this is more focused on the divine.
• 1:02:24
  So I think this has. To do with what you do because
• 1:02:27
  what you do. Helps the world I I just looked.
• 1:02:34
  It up on Google and there's quite a few different
• 1:02:37
  definitions of it but the most popular one is that it's an
• 1:02:41
  Archangel of Judaism and Christianity and Islam really.
• 1:02:47
  I did know and. Supposedly possesses partly the
• 1:02:52
  Book of Life, as you probably heard in Revelation.
• 1:02:55
  That's what it says. Yeah, it's pretty, pretty neat.
• 1:03:04
  And then embrace this magical moment and I'm not.
• 1:03:07
  Quite sure. What the hell?
• 1:03:09
  It looks like a Oh, that's what it is.
• 1:03:11
  It's looks like a water fountain with money.
• 1:03:16
  Hey, there you go with money going.
• 1:03:19
  Into it. Yeah.
• 1:03:23
  So if that's what you're. Needing you can manifest that so
• 1:03:27
  so. Far I need to focus on more
• 1:03:29
  important things and not trivial stuff I'm manifesting some
• 1:03:34
  miracles and gonna have an impact on people that sounds
• 1:03:38
  great that is one of the things that I seek to do let's see and
• 1:03:42
  and we've got a water pump money right so.
• 1:03:46
  So what? It is.
• 1:03:47
  Basically is as you regain your focus, you can manifest what you
• 1:03:52
  want, right? And then and then your third
• 1:03:56
  card is make a decision. And it says are you?
• 1:04:01
  Choosing to prioritize yourself or another in this situation
• 1:04:05
  except divine guidance pointing you towards your own joy.
• 1:04:07
  You deserve it. And in the picture, see, you've
• 1:04:11
  got, you've got the scales right?
• 1:04:13
  So balance. And then there's the feather,
• 1:04:16
  which represents the angelic. And then there's Archangel's
• 1:04:20
  Michael's sword. And then there's your heart.
• 1:04:24
  You know so. Make a decision.
• 1:04:27
  Is it something, is it something that you need to make a decision
• 1:04:31
  on that has to do with your heart or you know, does it have
• 1:04:34
  to do with the divine? You know, maybe something that
• 1:04:37
  you need to know that Archangel Michael can help you with.
• 1:04:42
  Yeah, make a balanced decision. Know know what you need.
• 1:04:50
  Yeah, it's one of my. Issues, and that probably goes
• 1:04:53
  in with the first card and the trivial.
• 1:04:56
  I usually spend a lot of time concentrating on what I can do
• 1:04:59
  for others as opposed to myself. Even when I pray, I don't
• 1:05:03
  usually pray for myself, I pray for the well-being of others.
• 1:05:07
  Right. Right.
• 1:05:08
  And I think as empathetic people, we, we have a tendency
• 1:05:12
  to do that and we understand the urgency of the day.
• 1:05:15
  But but you know, God's always showing me that there's such
• 1:05:20
  great power when I when I love my when I become gain an
• 1:05:27
  understanding of how to love myself first, that whatever I
• 1:05:31
  from from that love that I give out how, whatever.
• 1:05:35
  I give out is. That much more powerful, that
• 1:05:39
  much more helpful. So yeah, we got.
• 1:05:44
  To take care of ourselves so. Got some more cards or is that
• 1:05:52
  the reading? That was the reading.
• 1:05:54
  I just, I usually do things in threes.
• 1:05:56
  I mean, I didn't know how long of a reading you wanted.
• 1:05:59
  I mean, you know, 3-6 or nine, but.
• 1:06:04
  But bottom of the. Deck is usually overall energy
• 1:06:08
  over all of the the message messages, and the bottom of the
• 1:06:11
  deck for you is pray from the heart.
• 1:06:14
  Prayer really can move mountains, reach out to the
• 1:06:16
  divine with your heart's concerns and watch miracles
• 1:06:18
  unfold. So you know that that can just
• 1:06:21
  mean that you need to take some time to yourself and really go
• 1:06:25
  into your heart and see what you're really needing to to
• 1:06:28
  specifically pray for. Maybe you've.
• 1:06:32
  Been distracted from some things, so yeah, yeah.
• 1:06:39
  Because I mean, that goes in with make a decision.
• 1:06:42
  You know, sometimes we get so busy with things or get wrapped
• 1:06:47
  up in an issue that's come up that maybe lasts a while that we
• 1:06:51
  kind of get off our center and don't realize it.
• 1:06:54
  And that we have to be more, more intentional and centered on
• 1:06:59
  what it is that we need and where we need the help with that
• 1:07:02
  or what we need to come in to accomplish, you know, our
• 1:07:05
  purpose. So yeah.
• 1:07:11
  I can definitely. Relate with a lot of that.
• 1:07:14
  I've definitely been dealing with some big decisions that
• 1:07:16
  need to get made right you. Know and I just I feel a.
• 1:07:21
  Shift right now you know, I, I feel things.
• 1:07:24
  I see things. I, I, I.
• 1:07:27
  I. Know some things and so you
• 1:07:30
  know, we go. From shift to.
• 1:07:31
  Shift to shift, you know, energetically, spiritually,
• 1:07:35
  because the world, the world is changing rapidly, you know, and
• 1:07:40
  it seems like to me, it seems like things.
• 1:07:45
  Just look so. Disordered and just dark.
• 1:07:51
  But you know, when I go to prayer, I, I really feel like
• 1:07:54
  the the Lord is telling me that. That you know it's.
• 1:07:59
  Because everything is coming up to be dealt with.
• 1:08:01
  There's a purging that's been going on and it's going from,
• 1:08:05
  you know, one level to another to another.
• 1:08:07
  And so. You know so.
• 1:08:10
  And that we're and I've always known that we're my whole life.
• 1:08:15
  You know. Like your whole life, my whole
• 1:08:18
  life, everything that has happened has been bringing us to
• 1:08:22
  this moment, this moment in time and that there's another shift
• 1:08:27
  happening. And so, you know, there's a
• 1:08:30
  reason why you do radio, there's a reason why I did my YouTube
• 1:08:35
  channel. There's a reason why I'm
• 1:08:37
  realizing that I need to connect more, you know, with others of
• 1:08:42
  like mind because you know, the, the, the brighter we shine, you
• 1:08:48
  know the when we shine bright, we shine, we shine unto the
• 1:08:53
  darkness and we shine light unto it.
• 1:08:55
  So the brighter our shine, the more that's revealed, you know,
• 1:09:00
  for. Ourselves and.
• 1:09:01
  For all SO. It's important for us.
• 1:09:04
  To do our inner work and that's. What I've been working on I.
• 1:09:08
  Think that's why I've been so isolated.
• 1:09:11
  Because you know. If, you know, God's been keeping
• 1:09:14
  all the distractions out, I can't get away.
• 1:09:17
  I have to do my work. I go around the mountain again,
• 1:09:19
  you know. Because what?
• 1:09:22
  What happened? To you for about.
• 1:09:24
  Six months there, because it was a while back when I left the
• 1:09:27
  invitation for you and you didn't seem to.
• 1:09:32
  I did, I just hadn't looked. Again, you know, I just got had
• 1:09:35
  gotten busy. I just moved.
• 1:09:37
  I moved from a, a, a very tiny little studio to a one bedroom,
• 1:09:42
  but I just got distracted and I had made a decision to start
• 1:09:46
  stepping out. And that's when I started going
• 1:09:48
  to that church and kind of being out, out, out around.
• 1:09:53
  Other people I. Started started making friends
• 1:09:55
  in the neighborhood and I, I just hadn't looked, you know, I
• 1:09:58
  just been focusing. I got a cat, you know, I had
• 1:10:02
  one. I've been wanting a cat for so
• 1:10:03
  long and I got a cat and was focusing on, you know.
• 1:10:08
  Stepping out and. Because you know when you're
• 1:10:10
  isolated and you don't drive and you, you know, and you're at
• 1:10:13
  home all the time, when you start getting around, out of and
• 1:10:17
  around people, it feels a little weird.
• 1:10:19
  It feels a little uncomfortable. You know, I had to get my.
• 1:10:23
  Center back, you know, 'cause I'm a people person and I love
• 1:10:26
  people, so I was just enjoying my cat and, you know, stepping
• 1:10:32
  out and just hadn't paid attention for a while.
• 1:10:38
  So all right. I got a.
• 1:10:40
  Hypothetical question for you. If tomorrow you were given the
• 1:10:44
  opportunity, you were given a billion dollar budget and you
• 1:10:49
  could write a script for a movie, what would it be about?
• 1:10:53
  Oh, a billion dollar budget? For and what kind of scripted
• 1:10:58
  for a movie? Oh wow.
• 1:11:06
  Well, you know what? I've always.
• 1:11:07
  Wanted to do because I have. These really creative.
• 1:11:11
  Ideas I'm an artist so but kind of like in in a in a comical way
• 1:11:23
  show our how we. Do.
• 1:11:27
  Things and not realize it how we've gotten into these patterns
• 1:11:34
  that have. Come from being.
• 1:11:36
  Basically brainwashed from TV and from news and all that kind
• 1:11:39
  of stuff. And I think it's difficult for
• 1:11:41
  people to see how that's happened.
• 1:11:44
  And so I think kind of like kind of.
• 1:11:48
  Like a. Script that was a little
• 1:11:50
  comical, but also showed like behind the scenes, what's
• 1:11:53
  happening in the in the thoughts and in the head, you know, and,
• 1:11:57
  and, and I don't know if that makes any sense to you, but you
• 1:12:00
  know what I'm saying? Like to see behind the words?
• 1:12:04
  That we say. To see.
• 1:12:06
  Behind the acts that. We do and maybe kind of show
• 1:12:10
  like where that programming may have come from to give a clear
• 1:12:14
  picture of how we've been duped into thinking a certain way that
• 1:12:19
  has not been helpful to us or humanity.
• 1:12:24
  I've noticed a lot of. People out there on both sides
• 1:12:27
  of the aisle that seem to be going through exactly what
• 1:12:30
  you're talking about. That could be a very important
• 1:12:32
  movie for folks. Yeah.
• 1:12:35
  Yeah, so I think so you're. You said you're.
• 1:12:40
  Artistic. What exactly do you do?
• 1:12:43
  Tell me about that. Well.
• 1:12:46
  So I used to make Victorian gowns.
• 1:12:51
  I I had. This.
• 1:12:53
  Love of the Victorian, you know, theme of everything there was.
• 1:12:59
  A festival in. Michigan that we used to go to
• 1:13:01
  every year. And so I would, I would create a
• 1:13:03
  dress and wear it and pass my card out.
• 1:13:07
  And four years later, I I had quite a business of making
• 1:13:10
  costumes for the parade, for families and for ladies.
• 1:13:17
  Very. Extravagant.
• 1:13:19
  I'd made the hoops that went underneath them as well.
• 1:13:21
  Just beautiful, beautiful fabric.
• 1:13:24
  Really, really love the Victorian era.
• 1:13:29
  I also. Sculpted in paper clay.
• 1:13:33
  I had an obsession with creating babies because of my past.
• 1:13:38
  There was, you know, when I ended up having my multiple
• 1:13:41
  personalities, I I would be driving down the road and I
• 1:13:45
  could swear I hear a baby crying in the back of the car.
• 1:13:48
  So much so that I would have to pull over and check to make sure
• 1:13:52
  there was no baby there. And I think it was just an issue
• 1:13:56
  with the my guilt. But but what I would do is I
• 1:13:59
  would make all kinds of baby dolls.
• 1:14:02
  So whether they were porcelain or create the mouth and the eyes
• 1:14:08
  with stitches and whatnot. Fashion type dolls.
• 1:14:12
  Dolls. That had.
• 1:14:13
  Hinges. I was really.
• 1:14:16
  Good at it. So I did those kinds of things.
• 1:14:22
  Pretty much anything I. Put my mind to us quilting.
• 1:14:27
  I did the early 1900s white work like the baptismal gowns,
• 1:14:31
  beautiful Baptiste baptismal gowns so but thing you created
• 1:14:36
  on hand. That you'd be able to show me I.
• 1:14:39
  I when. I went through my homeless time.
• 1:14:42
  I lost everything, even my machines.
• 1:14:45
  I lost. I was.
• 1:14:47
  Yeah, I was stripped of. Everything.
• 1:14:49
  It was a very. Difficult time.
• 1:14:53
  You know, especially in reconnecting, you know, with
• 1:14:56
  God, like what is happening to me, you know, like what you
• 1:14:59
  know, but so now I'm, I'm asking in my creative arena, you know,
• 1:15:07
  what I can do now, like for instance, this right here.
• 1:15:11
  I just, you know, whatever I can get my hands on.
• 1:15:13
  So like this is just stuff from the dollar store.
• 1:15:17
  I don't know if you can see that.
• 1:15:19
  It's got my crystals on it. I just made that from wood wood
• 1:15:23
  pieces. Pretty much anything I can get.
• 1:15:26
  My hands on that I can create something from, you know, 'cause
• 1:15:32
  I it it that keeps me centered, you know, creating something
• 1:15:37
  'cause I love to paint like wood.
• 1:15:38
  Oh, and I also made like I found I found.
• 1:15:42
  In the dumpster. A brand new dresser that had
• 1:15:46
  slots for six drawers, but it that there were only four
• 1:15:49
  drawers and it was brand spanking new and somebody was
• 1:15:51
  throwing it away. And so I took the four drawers,
• 1:15:54
  took all the, took all the stuff off of it and made a bookcase
• 1:15:58
  out of it. So that was.
• 1:16:02
  Fun. But I just think.
• 1:16:06
  It's important to stay creative, you know, Keep your creative
• 1:16:09
  mind going because the creativity connects us to the
• 1:16:13
  divine. I believe so.
• 1:16:16
  Yeah, well, one thing that you. Could possibly do that may be
• 1:16:20
  enjoyable for you is if you get around to figuring out how to
• 1:16:25
  live stream, and I can help you do that.
• 1:16:27
  And what you could do during your live streams is you could
• 1:16:30
  do tarot readings or you could actually work on something that
• 1:16:34
  you're creating in front of an audience.
• 1:16:37
  And if you do that while you're talking, 'cause you got a really
• 1:16:40
  cool voice and all that and a lot of good stuff to say, I
• 1:16:43
  think that that would definitely blow you up.
• 1:16:46
  Yeah, my. Son told.
• 1:16:47
  Me, he said. I think you should get on right
• 1:16:50
  away, Mom. So.
• 1:16:54
  I'm like OK. I think I'm going.
• 1:16:56
  To step out and do this, but yeah, if you could help me with
• 1:16:58
  the live stream, I don't. I just get confused easily and
• 1:17:01
  when I run into a problem. But if I've got someone to kind
• 1:17:04
  of be a support and help me figure it out, yeah, I'm, I'm so
• 1:17:09
  down for that. And I have.
• 1:17:11
  What I'm using right now would be.
• 1:17:13
  Pretty pretty easy. It's you would go into I don't
• 1:17:17
  know if you see over in the corner.
• 1:17:19
  Do you see a duck head? Do you see a duck with
• 1:17:22
  headphones? Oh, I think.
• 1:17:26
  So. Yes, yes, I do see that this.
• 1:17:30
  Is called stream yards and what you would do is you would go to
• 1:17:33
  streamyard.com the links up there and then you just simply
• 1:17:38
  connect this to your YouTube channel you're able to actually
• 1:17:42
  stream other people's live shows you'll put a name in the
• 1:17:46
  information and then you can schedule things or do it right
• 1:17:49
  away whenever you feel like it and you'll see a big old button
• 1:17:52
  that says go live and voila there you go you'll be able to
• 1:17:56
  go live to your channel so so. Is it pretty?
• 1:18:00
  Self-explanatory when I go to streamier.com.
• 1:18:05
  Well, if it. Isn't.
• 1:18:07
  If you feel at all that you're confused about it, I'd be more
• 1:18:10
  than happy to pull you into something like this and to the
• 1:18:13
  environment and discuss it and show you on the screen how to do
• 1:18:17
  it. OK.
• 1:18:19
  And I'll check out your your tutorials for sure.
• 1:18:23
  Yeah, but if you. Need real time and talk and
• 1:18:26
  everything like that. I'd be more than happy to help
• 1:18:28
  you. All you got to do is e-mail me
• 1:18:29
  and say all right man, I need your help, all right?
• 1:18:33
  Thank you I. Appreciate that SO.
• 1:18:37
  There you've. Mentioned a few times about
• 1:18:39
  personalities. When's the last time that you
• 1:18:42
  felt as though there was some kind of result from it?
• 1:18:45
  Or does it feel like it's went away since you start getting
• 1:18:48
  involved in Christianity? Well, OK.
• 1:18:51
  So for me. When I when I had my.
• 1:18:57
  I had a wonderful therapist who let the Holy Spirit lead in our
• 1:19:00
  in our therapy sessions. So my friend would pick me up to
• 1:19:04
  take me because I would switch a lot in my in my therapy
• 1:19:09
  sessions, which would be for two hours.
• 1:19:12
  And I wouldn't I. Couldn't drive home so but she
• 1:19:17
  would you know, we would pray and she also, you know, she's a
• 1:19:20
  therapist and she would use. I forgot what that's called when
• 1:19:24
  they do this. But anyway, so usually like for
• 1:19:30
  instance, the the fragment that was at at the ceiling looking
• 1:19:33
  down that was a fragment wasn't a full on personality.
• 1:19:36
  It was just a fragment that was stuck there.
• 1:19:39
  So that had come up in in a therapy session and what would
• 1:19:44
  happen was and this is how Jesus worked with me, I.
• 1:19:50
  It's like I. Could see it as a movie.
• 1:19:52
  OK, so I saw Jesus come in the room where I was stuck at the
• 1:19:58
  ceiling and he brought with him Wonder Woman and she had her
• 1:20:02
  golden lasso of truth. And so she threw up her her
• 1:20:08
  golden lasso of truth to gently bring me down.
• 1:20:11
  And while she was doing that, Jesus got a chair for me because
• 1:20:14
  he said I needed to sit for a minute.
• 1:20:16
  I had been stuck up there for a very long time.
• 1:20:19
  And so. I I.
• 1:20:20
  You know, she brought me down gently and I sat in the chair
• 1:20:23
  and he put his, he put his hand on my shoulder and it just felt
• 1:20:27
  healing go through me. And then?
• 1:20:30
  He. Said come here, I want to show
• 1:20:32
  you something. And he took me to this table.
• 1:20:34
  This is all a vision happening. He took me to.
• 1:20:37
  This table it looked. Like a work table and it had a
• 1:20:39
  bunch of tools on it and it had like a a casing and in the
• 1:20:43
  casing was a diamond, a cut diamond probably about this big
• 1:20:47
  and it was on its side and it looked like someone set a bomb
• 1:20:52
  off inside it and there. Was a Shard.
• 1:20:55
  On the table and he picked up the Shard and it was
• 1:20:58
  representative of my you know who I, you know The Who.
• 1:21:04
  I was that stuck at the ceiling. He said this is you and he, he
• 1:21:07
  knew exactly where it went and he put it somewhere and it just
• 1:21:11
  melded in with the diamond and he told me that he was going to
• 1:21:16
  help me put all my pieces back together again.
• 1:21:19
  So. That's how he would work with
• 1:21:22
  me. You know, a memory would come up
• 1:21:25
  and he would rescue me. And after after that, after he
• 1:21:30
  would rescue me, I could remember the memory but.
• 1:21:36
  It wasn't traumatic. Like it was before, it was like
• 1:21:39
  I got rescued. It was like he changed time, He
• 1:21:42
  changed what happened in time and that so my memory, my
• 1:21:46
  emotions lined up with that it was.
• 1:21:49
  Very, very healing. It was really beautiful.
• 1:21:53
  In the past. Whenever a personality became
• 1:21:57
  dominant, were you in control, or could you stop it?
• 1:22:02
  Or were you even aware that it was happening well?
• 1:22:06
  I was what they. Called Co conscious so I didn't
• 1:22:11
  have a. Complete.
• 1:22:12
  Amnesiac barrier in between all my personalities.
• 1:22:16
  So for instance, this is this is how well, like for instance,
• 1:22:19
  I'll tell you it's an incident that happened.
• 1:22:21
  So my daughter. Was a teenager.
• 1:22:24
  And she was in her room with a couple friends, and they were
• 1:22:26
  getting ready to go to the mall. Well, I had just finished up the
• 1:22:29
  laundry and I was bringing a basket up to put in her room so
• 1:22:34
  she could put it away. So I had walked in and watching
• 1:22:38
  them, you know, print for the mall, a teenager who wanted to
• 1:22:43
  come out because you know, And so I apparently I laid on my
• 1:22:48
  daughter told me she said you laid on the bed.
• 1:22:50
  Now I do remember fuzzily, you know, because if you tell me
• 1:22:55
  like, I may forget something because the personality became
• 1:22:57
  dominant. But if you tell me the details,
• 1:23:00
  I may start to remember a little bit of it.
• 1:23:03
  So I I. Laid down on.
• 1:23:06
  The bed and I said I want to go to the mall too.
• 1:23:10
  And my daughter. She knew what was going on.
• 1:23:13
  She was really embarrassed, but she, she knew what to do.
• 1:23:15
  And she came over and she looked straight into my eyes and she
• 1:23:17
  said, Mom, hey. Mom.
• 1:23:21
  You can't go to the mall with us 'cause you're mom.
• 1:23:24
  And I started to come back. So it was like there was the
• 1:23:28
  teenager and there was the grown up me, the host there at the
• 1:23:32
  same time. So I got up to leave, 'cause mom
• 1:23:37
  doesn't belong doing that, you know?
• 1:23:39
  But at the same time there were tears coming down my eyes
• 1:23:42
  because I felt rejected. The teenager felt rejected.
• 1:23:45
  So I had to go and fully come back to myself before I could
• 1:23:51
  refunction again. Why is it?
• 1:23:54
  That you're not allowed? Why isn't it that the mom
• 1:23:56
  doesn't get to go to the mall? I don't get it.
• 1:23:59
  The teenager. And me wanted to go to the mall,
• 1:24:02
  but I'm not a teenager. I'm her mom.
• 1:24:04
  They're going to the mall. It wasn't appropriate, but
• 1:24:07
  there's nothing wrong with a. Mom or dad going to the mall
• 1:24:09
  with their kids though, right? But I was in.
• 1:24:12
  Teenager. Mode I wasn't.
• 1:24:14
  In mom mode. I get.
• 1:24:17
  You I get you see what I'm saying?
• 1:24:18
  I needed to come back to mom mode because I was supposed to
• 1:24:21
  take them to the mall. You know, I was, I needed to
• 1:24:23
  come back to my, you know, the. The you know 'cause the.
• 1:24:27
  Teenager wanted to hang out with them and and they didn't.
• 1:24:29
  They didn't want to hang out with me like that, like a
• 1:24:32
  teenager, you know, so right. I've.
• 1:24:36
  I've had. A few people in the past in my
• 1:24:39
  room who've talked about how they've had personalities.
• 1:24:43
  You mind if I ask you a It might be a strange question, but for a
• 1:24:48
  person who has these different identities or these different
• 1:24:52
  fragments of consciousness, how do you know for sure which one
• 1:24:57
  is the real you? If that makes sense.
• 1:25:00
  Oh, that is a great. Question I.
• 1:25:07
  So the host was the. Main presenter, The host is the
• 1:25:10
  main presenter, you know. But to be honest with you, when
• 1:25:15
  I integrated and I integrated spontaneously so.
• 1:25:23
  Jesus. It was just another vision,
• 1:25:27
  Jesus. Kind of like.
• 1:25:30
  Brought them all in a room and you know, and play poker
• 1:25:39
  basically and he got the royal flush so he won't happening.
• 1:25:43
  When these events are happening, you're actually able to see a a
• 1:25:47
  visual of the personas, yes. Yes.
• 1:25:53
  Yeah. For instance.
• 1:25:55
  Jade was 8 and Jade, she I can see her in my mind's eye even
• 1:26:00
  now. She she had matted brown hair,
• 1:26:04
  just a mess. She looked like a feral child.
• 1:26:07
  She looked like a child that had been out in the woods and, you
• 1:26:10
  know, hadn't been parented. So her hair was all matted and
• 1:26:13
  she was dirty and she wore it looked like a potato sack and it
• 1:26:20
  was dirty. And.
• 1:26:23
  Later I I came to realize who how Jade came to.
• 1:26:27
  Be. Jade was a child that was killed
• 1:26:30
  and that's how I kept her alive. Is that I?
• 1:26:33
  Created a. Personality that was her is all
• 1:26:36
  of your. Personalities a female
• 1:26:39
  restricted or do you have any male personalities?
• 1:26:43
  I had one male. Personality, but he wasn't
• 1:26:47
  active. He wasn't an active personality.
• 1:26:50
  So I had eight active personalities and then I also
• 1:26:53
  had eight that that came like towards the end that were more
• 1:26:58
  hidden. So I didn't deal with them for a
• 1:27:02
  long time, but there. Was.
• 1:27:04
  One male. Yeah, so.
• 1:27:09
  So the. Personalities.
• 1:27:10
  Do you believe that they were result of going through trauma
• 1:27:16
  in your life or do you feel like it was just something that you
• 1:27:19
  inherited from a family or something?
• 1:27:24
  I think that. From what I've learned, when
• 1:27:27
  there are multiple generations where there has been severe
• 1:27:32
  trauma, you become. Easily.
• 1:27:35
  Susceptible to to split and there.
• 1:27:40
  Are groups out? There including Satanists that
• 1:27:42
  do this on purpose. They split you on purpose
• 1:27:45
  because they want to use your personalities for their for
• 1:27:49
  their bidding and they don't want you to remember part.
• 1:27:52
  Part and maybe this. And I, I'm not sure, but I'm,
• 1:27:55
  I'm thinking that maybe they couldn't use me in, in some
• 1:27:59
  arenas because I was so conscious, because there wasn't
• 1:28:02
  not a complete amnesiac barrier between my, my altars.
• 1:28:09
  So maybe they couldn't. Use me to.
• 1:28:11
  Go do things. And and then not remember.
• 1:28:15
  So I watched the video. By you where you said something
• 1:28:18
  to the effect you were talking about the grooming issues, but
• 1:28:22
  you also said something about I I don't remember which relative,
• 1:28:27
  but you were said that someone that you trusted tried to turn
• 1:28:32
  you into AI believe the word was kitten that you used sex kitten.
• 1:28:37
  Yeah. I, I had I, I believe that I was
• 1:28:40
  being groomed to be a sex kitten because.
• 1:28:44
  I'm a sensual person. To begin with, you know, I just
• 1:28:48
  it's just my personality, but there were.
• 1:28:55
  I had an ability. That I came to to to realize
• 1:28:59
  when I was a stripper and I had wondered about for a long time.
• 1:29:03
  So, and then it kind of made sense later.
• 1:29:08
  So I believe I was being groomed for that.
• 1:29:10
  And what they do is they'll, this is like some deep stuff,
• 1:29:13
  Illuminati type stuff, OK. They, what they do is they,
• 1:29:17
  they, they groom you from families.
• 1:29:20
  They know how susceptible you are to split and they start when
• 1:29:23
  you're a small child and so so. I I'm not positive.
• 1:29:34
  OK, 'cause I don't know, but I had wondered if maybe that's
• 1:29:39
  what I was being groomed for and that you know, I and I had
• 1:29:43
  wondered for a while there, 'cause my mother is the one who
• 1:29:45
  took me to my uncle. You know, I had wondered, well,
• 1:29:48
  if does is my was my mom involved in this?
• 1:29:51
  You know, I don't know. I have no idea if she was
• 1:29:55
  innocent to what she was sending me to in the.
• 1:29:58
  Video. That you did and it's it's an
• 1:30:01
  older one. So I don't know if if your view
• 1:30:04
  or things have changed since then aren't it, but you said
• 1:30:07
  something to the effect of using you in order to try to blackmail
• 1:30:12
  somebody I think, right. OK, so so.
• 1:30:15
  What they do is they, they split you when you're young and then
• 1:30:19
  they train your altars, OK, and they create triggers for certain
• 1:30:24
  altars to come out OK. And then when you become an
• 1:30:27
  adult, they, they, you, you go live your life and it could be a
• 1:30:32
  phone call or something where they trigger you and then you go
• 1:30:36
  do a job for them, which may be to blackmail somebody with
• 1:30:40
  pictures or whatever, a honeypot, you know, sex kitten.
• 1:30:45
  And then you, and then you would go back into your regular
• 1:30:49
  personality and they do it a certain way.
• 1:30:50
  And you go home and you don't even know what you did.
• 1:30:52
  You don't even know that you went and did that.
• 1:30:54
  And if you took a lie detector detector test, you would pass it
• 1:30:59
  because you don't know what you did.
• 1:31:01
  And that's how they use people. That's how they.
• 1:31:07
  You know, use people. Without getting caught one way I
• 1:31:11
  could see. How that could be a issue even
• 1:31:13
  if even if you don't remember, but you see like pieces of it,
• 1:31:17
  it would be like just looking into a dream.
• 1:31:20
  And you're not going to lie about reality if it just seemed
• 1:31:23
  like a dream, right? Right.
• 1:31:27
  So because I didn't understand like how I could be involved in
• 1:31:31
  that and what how come I didn't die?
• 1:31:34
  How come, how come Jade died and I didn't, you know what I felt I
• 1:31:40
  held a lot of guilt for a very long time over the baby and over
• 1:31:44
  Jade. But beyond that year, I would, I
• 1:31:51
  wasn't involved in that anymore. And then?
• 1:31:54
  It was some of your. Some of your.
• 1:31:56
  Personalities were based upon real people that actually
• 1:31:59
  existed. Yeah, Jade.
• 1:32:01
  So from what I understand, and this is what I've been told, and
• 1:32:04
  this was a while back, and I'm sure there's a lot more research
• 1:32:07
  on this. I don't know how what, how it's,
• 1:32:10
  you know, people go through healing today, but.
• 1:32:16
  I lost my train of. Thought what was your?
• 1:32:18
  Question. I was asking.
• 1:32:21
  You about some of your personalities appear to be based
• 1:32:25
  upon real people because you're saying that you have a
• 1:32:28
  personality of jade. This is the one with the matted
• 1:32:31
  hair, right? Right, right.
• 1:32:34
  So they they from what I've been told that when someone has DID,
• 1:32:40
  it's a form of genius. Basically it helped it we, we,
• 1:32:45
  every person has a different system that works a different
• 1:32:48
  way within them and you have protector personalities.
• 1:32:52
  And sometimes, like, I knew I knew a woman because I went to a
• 1:32:55
  hospital that they used to have in Michigan for this very thing,
• 1:33:00
  but she had a protector personality that would burn her.
• 1:33:06
  Which didn't make sense. But it was a protective
• 1:33:08
  personality. So she was going in a direction
• 1:33:11
  that that personality thought there was going to be danger
• 1:33:15
  where there was a trigger it. That personally would come out
• 1:33:19
  and. Burn her with cigarettes so she
• 1:33:21
  wouldn't go there. So, you know, it's we all
• 1:33:26
  create, each person creates a system that works for them.
• 1:33:31
  And so and you're not and and as the host and that means how
• 1:33:35
  you're presenting most of the time doesn't know about those
• 1:33:39
  personalities. And once they're found out?
• 1:33:42
  And that's how it worked with me once.
• 1:33:44
  Once the personalities are found out, now it's all
• 1:33:47
  discombobulated. It's not.
• 1:33:49
  Working. The way it was working, now
• 1:33:52
  they're found out. So you have to create
• 1:33:55
  cooperation. But apparently I had felt so
• 1:34:00
  horrible for that child that died and it was so traumatic
• 1:34:04
  because I was, I was there when it happened.
• 1:34:08
  I created a personality, you know, to keep her alive.
• 1:34:15
  So did you feel at all like? That was helping you while you
• 1:34:21
  were going through it. I don't.
• 1:34:24
  I don't. Remember while I was going
• 1:34:25
  through it, but I mean, from what I understood, once I
• 1:34:28
  remember, once they, I was aware of my personalities and aware of
• 1:34:31
  these memories. And as I dug through and I, as I
• 1:34:34
  could see, like I would have a place in my head.
• 1:34:37
  The, the psychiatrist would say you need to create a room in
• 1:34:40
  your mind to meet with all your personalities.
• 1:34:45
  And so for me, I created a kitchen.
• 1:34:49
  And so I could go to that kitchen in my mind at any time
• 1:34:53
  and call all the personalities in there so that we could have a
• 1:34:56
  discussion. I sounds, it sounds ridiculous,
• 1:34:59
  I know, but it worked, you know, and, and so we would talk about,
• 1:35:03
  you know, for instance, one of the things that would happen was
• 1:35:07
  I'd be, I'd be driving on the freeway and all of a sudden I
• 1:35:10
  would feel like I don't know how to drive and I don't know where
• 1:35:14
  I'm at. And so I would have to pull over
• 1:35:17
  and I would have to call my friend, you know, and, and she
• 1:35:20
  would, you know, she would help me.
• 1:35:22
  She would say, OK, look at the sign.
• 1:35:24
  You know, what does the sign say?
• 1:35:25
  You know? And So what was happening was
• 1:35:28
  the children were coming out. And that was the wrong time for.
• 1:35:32
  The children to come out so there was another personality
• 1:35:37
  that. Was assigned.
• 1:35:41
  To watch over the children inside my mind.
• 1:35:44
  And so they were not. The children were not allowed to
• 1:35:46
  come out, you know. They they there was a.
• 1:35:49
  Block there. Now there's a cooperation
• 1:35:52
  because what if I was driving? I could get into an accident.
• 1:35:57
  So you know, there was. A cooperation that I had to gain
• 1:36:00
  with them. You.
• 1:36:02
  Know and. So basically you.
• 1:36:04
  Had to create this kind of mental image of a kitchen in
• 1:36:08
  order to. It doesn't sound crazy, it just
• 1:36:11
  sounds like you were. You taught yourself how to
• 1:36:15
  connect with all of it, so you'd be able to reason out the
• 1:36:19
  choices that are being made, right?
• 1:36:23
  Right, so. You.
• 1:36:25
  Know but everybody's system. 'S different so my system, my
• 1:36:30
  system cooperated cooperated pretty well.
• 1:36:32
  Other people's systems don't necessarily cooperate very well.
• 1:36:36
  Also there are other people who, you know, when I was in the
• 1:36:39
  hospital there was a girl there. She, she had a complete amnesiac
• 1:36:43
  barrier in between her personalities and she, I mean,
• 1:36:46
  she, Can you imagine? She said, You know, she, she's.
• 1:36:50
  Somewhere. Right, she's at home and then
• 1:36:52
  she, she's. She all of a sudden.
• 1:36:55
  She's gone and she comes back and it seems like a minute to
• 1:36:58
  her and she had been gone for six weeks.
• 1:37:03
  She had no idea where she was or what she had done for six weeks.
• 1:37:08
  But that poor woman. You have you been able?
• 1:37:10
  To control this. This hasn't been When was the
• 1:37:14
  last time this happened to you where you lost control 2011?
• 1:37:21
  Jesus. I was in a bit of a circumstance
• 1:37:24
  and Jesus, I it was just miraculous.
• 1:37:28
  It was. Spontaneous.
• 1:37:30
  And it would just happen like that where he played poker.
• 1:37:33
  He, he asked these personalities to, to come with him.
• 1:37:37
  Some of them said yes, some of them said no.
• 1:37:40
  And he said, well, why don't we play poker?
• 1:37:42
  And if I win, you come with me. And if, if you win, you can
• 1:37:44
  stay. And he won.
• 1:37:47
  And he had a royal flush. So they they went with him,
• 1:37:51
  which was devastating. Devastating in the sense of
• 1:37:55
  this. Once they were gone, I had no
• 1:37:58
  more chatter in my head. I had lived my entire life with
• 1:38:01
  chatter in my head. It was a deafening silence.
• 1:38:06
  It was very uncomfortable. I also had to deal with
• 1:38:11
  emotional things head on and I didn't know how because.
• 1:38:14
  Normally I would just switch. You know, all the time.
• 1:38:17
  And so it was very difficult. I had to.
• 1:38:21
  Relearn. How to do things, certain
• 1:38:24
  things, How to re handle things but but yeah, so but.
• 1:38:32
  Yeah, 2011. And then see, and after that,
• 1:38:34
  after it integrated, I could see aspects of myself that were like
• 1:38:40
  the personalities, because they're all me to begin with,
• 1:38:43
  you know what I'm saying? They were just separated, more
• 1:38:45
  separated. And so I could see, I could, I
• 1:38:50
  could feel and see, oh, that's how Marta would have, you know,
• 1:38:54
  reacted or that's how you know what I mean.
• 1:38:56
  And so, and we all have an inner child, you know, we all have to
• 1:39:00
  parent an inner child within us, you know, and those are just the
• 1:39:03
  aspects of us that feel like we can't handle things, you know,
• 1:39:08
  that feel helpless, you know, and, and when I'm in that mode
• 1:39:13
  now, it's not a separate personality.
• 1:39:15
  It's just I, I think in my, in my mind, I have to parent
• 1:39:19
  myself, 'cause I'm grown up now. I'm a grown woman, you know, I'm
• 1:39:23
  52 years old and I can handle this.
• 1:39:26
  And if I feel like I can, I can call on help, you know, I can
• 1:39:29
  call on my, you know, my angels or Jesus to help me.
• 1:39:33
  And so I have to remind myself that.
• 1:39:35
  And I think, 'cause sometimes I think that that little girl in
• 1:39:40
  me forgets, you know, that we're grown up now.
• 1:39:46
  You know, but it's not, it's. Not like a complete separated
• 1:39:48
  separation anymore. It's just, it's just a an
• 1:39:52
  emotion that comes up. It's just a state of being that
• 1:39:55
  sometimes I have to remind myself where I'm at in the
• 1:39:57
  present moment. It's interesting how.
• 1:40:01
  The different personalities, how they they come into
• 1:40:05
  representation, 1 being a child who wants to escape with red
• 1:40:10
  Ruby slippers and the other one of guilt and what is left in the
• 1:40:14
  past. And then the diva you mentioned,
• 1:40:16
  which I suspect that's probably the strong side wanting to say,
• 1:40:21
  hey, I got it all covered, everything's in.
• 1:40:24
  Control in control. But also if you think about it,
• 1:40:29
  you know, with the, the sex kitten type stuff that, you
• 1:40:32
  know, maybe that's what she was trying 'cause she was like a
• 1:40:35
  dominatrix. She was like, you know, I had, I
• 1:40:39
  would find dominatrix boots in my closet and not remember how I
• 1:40:44
  got them and then find my receipt and then start to
• 1:40:47
  remember being in this particular store, you know?
• 1:40:51
  So. As I gained cooperation with
• 1:40:55
  with my altars and also learn to have.
• 1:41:01
  Learn to be more. Present I would remember and I
• 1:41:04
  could then I could take control. I could, you know, as the host,
• 1:41:07
  I could take more control. I'd be like, oh, Marta wants to
• 1:41:10
  come out. Is it appropriate right now?
• 1:41:12
  You know, and I could take control and say not right now,
• 1:41:16
  whereas before they could just come out so.
• 1:41:21
  Here's another. Hypothetical for you, if you
• 1:41:24
  could go back in time and actually be able to talk to your
• 1:41:27
  younger self, what would you tell them?
• 1:41:31
  Wow. To be aware of Jesus because
• 1:41:37
  he's right there. You know to to.
• 1:41:44
  Believe Jesus because he's trustworthy.
• 1:41:48
  You know and. That he's going to bring him to
• 1:41:51
  safety, you know, and that they're loved, they're greatly
• 1:41:58
  loved and that it's not OK what's happening and that.
• 1:42:03
  That Jesus. Is going to make a way out.
• 1:42:09
  Got one more? Hypothetical for you and then
• 1:42:11
  we'll get back into normal talk. OK, so it's 5 minutes before the
• 1:42:17
  end of the world and you're standing at a podium with a
• 1:42:19
  microphone. Everybody can hear you.
• 1:42:21
  What would the last words be? That you make the humanity?
• 1:42:26
  It's the end of the world. Yeah, let's just say a.
• 1:42:30
  Meteorite's on the way and in about 5 minutes it's all going
• 1:42:34
  to be over. You have just 5 minutes to go
• 1:42:36
  say your piece to all of humanity. 5 minutes before.
• 1:42:46
  We're all gone. I hope you all chose chose.
• 1:42:50
  Well. That's a good start for sure.
• 1:43:00
  Yeah, I mean, what? Can you say with five minutes
• 1:43:02
  left, you know, I hope you all chose well.
• 1:43:07
  You know, oh, shoot. You know, and I, I guess I don't
• 1:43:10
  believe quite the religious way, you know, I don't think that
• 1:43:16
  there's a hell, I think. That we create.
• 1:43:19
  Hell. I think we create hell.
• 1:43:22
  On Earth, you sound like you kind of share.
• 1:43:26
  The same view as I do. Have you ever heard of the term
• 1:43:29
  annihilationism? No, I haven't.
• 1:43:33
  It. Basically means that.
• 1:43:34
  Whenever a person dies and they've got negative energy
• 1:43:38
  around them, their soul is annihilated.
• 1:43:41
  It's destroyed eternally where it'll never be repaired or go
• 1:43:45
  anywhere. So you sound kind of like an
• 1:43:47
  annihilationist a little bit. Well, I believe.
• 1:43:51
  That see, this is where I had discrepancies with other
• 1:43:55
  Christians 'cause I'm like, unconditional love is
• 1:43:59
  unconditional love. So you know, it's not if I'm
• 1:44:02
  bad, I go to hell, you know, it's you know, and this is where
• 1:44:07
  I believe that humanity is coming to into higher
• 1:44:10
  consciousness and, and the Christ consciousness is
• 1:44:12
  unconditional love and non judgment.
• 1:44:15
  Starting with ourselves and. Then I agree with that as well.
• 1:44:19
  I think that the reason why people's soul ends up getting
• 1:44:22
  obliterated though is for the same reason.
• 1:44:25
  If I can give you an analogy real quick and.
• 1:44:28
  Boy, oh boy. Non.
• 1:44:29
  Believers hate this, but it's a choice of the person, just as
• 1:44:33
  you mentioned in that five minute conversation with the end
• 1:44:35
  of the world. If Jesus says I love you and I
• 1:44:39
  want you to be with me, but the person says I don't want to be
• 1:44:42
  with you, I'm not going with you.
• 1:44:44
  I I don't want to have anything to do with you, then what else
• 1:44:48
  can happen? If there is no God, then there's
• 1:44:51
  no longer life and that person ends.
• 1:44:54
  Mm hmm. Yeah, I really.
• 1:44:57
  You know, I don't know about that.
• 1:44:59
  And I, I'm one of those people. I just put things in files, you
• 1:45:02
  know, in the back of my head, you know, and keep an open mind
• 1:45:06
  because I've, I have changed my mind on so many things as I've
• 1:45:11
  grown and as I've learned and as I've healed.
• 1:45:14
  So, you know, but I just, I believe that.
• 1:45:19
  You know there's. No, there's no guy in the sky
• 1:45:22
  that's saying, you know, if you do too many bad things, you're
• 1:45:24
  gonna, you're gonna go to this eternally flaming horrible
• 1:45:28
  place. I think that, you know, if you
• 1:45:33
  don't, if you really don't want to be with Jesus and you really
• 1:45:36
  don't, you know, maybe that's what happens.
• 1:45:38
  You know, I don't know. And I think sometimes people can
• 1:45:42
  be turned around because I, one of my visions that I had had
• 1:45:46
  was. I could.
• 1:45:49
  I could. See, I could see my my foot.
• 1:45:53
  My foot with my sandal on my flip flop.
• 1:45:56
  And in the. On my right foot, yeah.
• 1:46:00
  And and in between my last two toes there was a Pearl.
• 1:46:05
  And I pulled the Pearl. Out and and and I heard Pearl of
• 1:46:08
  great price and then I remembered that Jesus is the
• 1:46:11
  Pearl of great price right and then all of a sudden I could see
• 1:46:15
  I could see his his right foot with his sandal on and he pulled
• 1:46:19
  the Pearl out of his the last two toes and he said that that
• 1:46:25
  we were both pearls of great price and.
• 1:46:28
  And he? Took he took me to this area and
• 1:46:31
  there was a black curtain. There's a long black curtain.
• 1:46:35
  And he said, and he, he always had these piercing eyes that,
• 1:46:38
  you know, could see right through me.
• 1:46:39
  He knew everything. And so he looked at me and then
• 1:46:42
  he opened the curtain. And when he opened the curtain,
• 1:46:46
  there was there was people in there who were ritually abusing
• 1:46:50
  people. And he said to me with those
• 1:46:57
  piercing eyes, he said, would you go in there and help me get
• 1:47:01
  them? And he meant the abusers.
• 1:47:04
  I mean, it was like a given with the rest.
• 1:47:06
  But you know what he meant the abusers.
• 1:47:07
  Would you go in there and get them with me?
• 1:47:10
  Would you go in there, you know, like to give, to draw them to
• 1:47:14
  him, to bring healing to them too.
• 1:47:17
  So I believe that there are people trapped.
• 1:47:21
  There are people trapped. In situations that are so far
• 1:47:24
  gone that. But they can still be saved.
• 1:47:31
  There are some some people that it seems like they can't, but
• 1:47:34
  Jesus knows. Jesus knows there's a way with.
• 1:47:38
  Them and what it's going to take, you know.
• 1:47:43
  So that's. Why we're not to judge, you
• 1:47:46
  know, and that's why we don't know everything.
• 1:47:49
  We don't know diddly we have to ask, you know what I'm saying?
• 1:47:54
  It's not a matter of. Judging or condemning it's if.
• 1:47:58
  I'll use you as an example. You seem very sweet and kind and
• 1:48:03
  and good to people and all that. If you're doing all that and
• 1:48:06
  then a person says they're still not happy and that they're not
• 1:48:10
  going to go along with anything that you say, well, they're
• 1:48:14
  making the choice themselves. And if you were?
• 1:48:18
  Yeah, I agree with you 100%. You see what I mean?
• 1:48:21
  Right. But I also think.
• 1:48:22
  That there are some people in those situations that their
• 1:48:26
  minds are so trapped that they don't have, they haven't had
• 1:48:31
  that choice, and Jesus knows that had if they were given the
• 1:48:35
  choice, what they would choose. And that's what I mean by.
• 1:48:39
  Not judging, course we have to judge.
• 1:48:41
  We have to discern right and and we have to deal with what's
• 1:48:44
  right in front of us. But I think his point, his point
• 1:48:47
  in that vision to me is, is that sometimes we don't know what the
• 1:48:51
  case is with every single person, but he does you.
• 1:48:55
  Know and. So it takes trusting, trusting
• 1:49:00
  that Jesus knows better than us, you know, sometimes you know,
• 1:49:05
  and would be, would be, would we be willing to in blind faith do
• 1:49:09
  something? He says cuz see, I know, I know.
• 1:49:13
  It's there's a scripture. That says that I I know my
• 1:49:17
  father's voice. That's an energy.
• 1:49:21
  Like. It's got like it.
• 1:49:25
  Like if you were married for 40 years, you know, and you were
• 1:49:28
  laying in your bed and your spouse was coming down the hall,
• 1:49:31
  but they were gone and you felt them because you know their
• 1:49:34
  energy so well. That's what it is with like with
• 1:49:37
  Jesus with me. Like, I know, I know.
• 1:49:41
  I know my, I know my Father's voice.
• 1:49:44
  I know Jesus's energy like I know.
• 1:49:47
  That I know that I. Know and so I'm very secure in
• 1:49:51
  my trust with him. And so when he was showing me
• 1:49:56
  that, I felt like he was saying there may be times I'm asking
• 1:49:59
  you to trust me and you know, you know, when I'm talking to
• 1:50:02
  you and to not judge, you know. So I think that's what that
• 1:50:10
  represented. You know.
• 1:50:14
  'Cause he wishes. All.
• 1:50:15
  He wishes all that would be saved.
• 1:50:17
  But I think that if people outright say Nope, then that's
• 1:50:20
  their choice, you know? And then you don't.
• 1:50:24
  You just say, OK, you know, 'cause we, we have free will.
• 1:50:30
  So I hear you there. We all have the choice, right?
• 1:50:38
  So how long you been? Doing.
• 1:50:39
  Cards. What got you into that?
• 1:50:42
  Well, no. I've been doing.
• 1:50:43
  Cards since I first became homeless and I had gotten a
• 1:50:48
  deck. Somehow I had gotten a deck and
• 1:50:51
  I can't even remember how I got my first deck.
• 1:50:54
  But like I said it. It was something that I could
• 1:50:57
  hang on to that represented Jesus, 'cause I, I, I stepped
• 1:51:01
  away from Jesus for a few years. I went and partied and had a
• 1:51:05
  hard, I had a high old time. I had been through so much with,
• 1:51:10
  with everything and I wanted to be, I think, I think really
• 1:51:16
  ultimately what it came down to is that I didn't get it.
• 1:51:18
  I didn't get the chance to be a young adult, you know, because
• 1:51:22
  I, I, I had so many issues happen and you learn things when
• 1:51:26
  you're a young adult, you know, like young adults used to go to
• 1:51:29
  college and that, you know, they, you learn things.
• 1:51:32
  And so I kind of like had my chance to go and not have be
• 1:51:35
  bogged down with the personalities and
• 1:51:40
  responsibilities. And so I kind of went and
• 1:51:44
  partied for a while and just. Can't went too far with it.
• 1:51:50
  You know, and stepped away from Jesus and ended up with a, a
• 1:51:53
  boyfriend who was abusive. He was on drugs, you know, and
• 1:51:57
  then I was on drugs with him. And so, you know, and then some
• 1:52:03
  things happen and everything's starting to get stripped away
• 1:52:06
  from me 'cause I remember being in a moment where I was standing
• 1:52:10
  in front of my boyfriend and. I kind of got off subject
• 1:52:16
  didn't. I could you ask me about the
• 1:52:17
  cards? But but yeah, I'm sorry.
• 1:52:23
  Just kind of because throughout that time, you know what what
• 1:52:27
  I'm saying is that this is how I started to come back to Jesus.
• 1:52:30
  And then the cards came in and it was like my physical
• 1:52:33
  connection because I had been away for for a while.
• 1:52:36
  I lost. I lost my faith, you know, I
• 1:52:39
  had. Lost.
• 1:52:40
  My I thought I lost my connection with Jesus, but I was
• 1:52:44
  just unsure. It was always there.
• 1:52:47
  I was just unsure because I had I had a guilt for stepping away
• 1:52:50
  from him. So the.
• 1:52:52
  Cards gave me. Like a a physical connection,
• 1:52:55
  you know, to remind me that you know, that connection can never
• 1:52:59
  be taken from me, you know, no matter what the circumstances
• 1:53:02
  that is there. I just need to believe and
• 1:53:05
  remember so. How did you learn how to?
• 1:53:09
  Be able to read the cards. I would suspect that you can't
• 1:53:13
  just pick them up and do it, you have to have a special knowledge
• 1:53:16
  of it. Well, you.
• 1:53:18
  Know for. Me and I think, I think
• 1:53:22
  sometimes I don't know for me, I just think that sometimes it's
• 1:53:25
  the world calls it psychic and the church calls it prophetic,
• 1:53:30
  but it's. Basically.
• 1:53:31
  The same thing, you know, And so I've always had had an ability
• 1:53:36
  to connect, you know, with energy and, you know, so when I
• 1:53:41
  got the cards, I just was like, I, I looked up on YouTube.
• 1:53:44
  I was like, OK, so how do you do this?
• 1:53:46
  You know, I'm trying to figure out how to use them.
• 1:53:48
  And when I would lay them out, I would ask a question and lay
• 1:53:51
  them out. I got direct answers and I was
• 1:53:54
  just like what? I got like direct answers.
• 1:53:59
  Through the through the cards. And so, you know, that was
• 1:54:04
  really exciting and I didn't feel so alone.
• 1:54:07
  I felt like oh. You know, Jesus is with me and
• 1:54:10
  the angels are with me and my guides are with me.
• 1:54:12
  Whoever those are, you know, I don't know, maybe those are the
• 1:54:15
  angels. But I, I felt like I wasn't
• 1:54:18
  alone when I would do a reading and ask a question for myself
• 1:54:23
  and I would get direction because I was trying to get out
• 1:54:25
  of my situation as well. And I had to learn through the
• 1:54:30
  cards about things like cycles. You know, it's kind of like we
• 1:54:34
  have a vortex, right? And if we spend months or years
• 1:54:38
  putting garbage in that vortex, garbage ways of thinking, poor
• 1:54:43
  choices, you know? It takes a.
• 1:54:46
  While to come out of that, you have to start filling that up
• 1:54:50
  with good choices and better and a better attitude maybe, and a
• 1:54:54
  better outlook or a willingness to see things a different way.
• 1:54:57
  And then you go through a better cycle, you know?
• 1:55:01
  And so I had to learn that through the cards, you know?
• 1:55:05
  Because I wanted. I wanted out of my situation
• 1:55:08
  immediately and I couldn't. Understand.
• 1:55:10
  Why? I couldn't have that, you know,
• 1:55:12
  And so I had to learn that I was responsible for my choices.
• 1:55:18
  You know, and but that. There's grace and there's help.
• 1:55:23
  So it just took a while for. Me to change my mind so which
• 1:55:28
  each with each deck you know I I learned something new so.
• 1:55:37
  Yeah, one of the last. Videos that I watched from you,
• 1:55:41
  you, it's called Nature changes your Frequency.
• 1:55:44
  It looks like a short. You want to talk a little bit
• 1:55:47
  about that? You feel like nature has a a
• 1:55:50
  frequency and algorithm to it? Oh yeah, that was in camp.
• 1:55:54
  Verde Yeah. Beautiful area up north in here
• 1:55:57
  in Arizona. But yeah, so, you know,
• 1:56:01
  everything has an everything's energetic, everything.
• 1:56:04
  This table, you, me, we have different a different frequency.
• 1:56:08
  It's kind of like our own song, right?
• 1:56:11
  And so does nature. You know, I believe that the
• 1:56:14
  world, the world, the physical world is changing as well.
• 1:56:18
  We're changing. We are becoming we.
• 1:56:20
  We are learning. Our we're.
• 1:56:23
  Remembering who we are, that we have the capacity to create what
• 1:56:29
  we want personally and collectively.
• 1:56:31
  And so I believe that, you know, the physical earth is, is it's
• 1:56:36
  alive, it's an energy it, it's here to support us.
• 1:56:40
  And, and, and she's also going through a change.
• 1:56:43
  She's also upgrading, you know, because I, I, I believe
• 1:56:49
  personally that enough of us have have made the the choice to
• 1:56:56
  whether we know it or not, but enough of us on the.
• 1:56:59
  Planet have decided. To create a new world.
• 1:57:03
  And so we're going through what we need to go through.
• 1:57:07
  To expose. The darkness and start making
• 1:57:12
  start creating something better and start start starting to
• 1:57:15
  address these things starting to shine our light on it and
• 1:57:19
  understanding how powerful we are we're powerful got you know
• 1:57:23
  Jesus said that we would do all that he did in greater right so.
• 1:57:28
  He. He ascended, right?
• 1:57:30
  And we're ascending. And so it's, it's, it's the I
• 1:57:36
  believe that the responsibility we have individually is to do
• 1:57:39
  our own inner work and, you know, heal our traumas, you
• 1:57:43
  know, and be aware of our self, be mindful and work with the
• 1:57:48
  divine work with Jesus to, to heal and to come into our power
• 1:57:55
  and we can. Change the world.
• 1:57:59
  We can. Change we can.
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  Make this world what it ought to have been to begin with, before
• 1:58:04
  we were hijacked. So.
• 1:58:09
  How do? You.
• 1:58:10
  What's your? Interpretation.
• 1:58:12
  Whenever you say hijacked, well. I.
• 1:58:15
  Just believe that you know there.
• 1:58:18
  Was a plan. You know, and that we came here
• 1:58:22
  like, I believe, like before I came here and was born as a
• 1:58:26
  baby, there was a plan, you know?
• 1:58:29
  And for? Me.
• 1:58:30
  I think that, you know, I knew I knew what was going to happen on
• 1:58:35
  this world and I knew that there were children who were going to
• 1:58:39
  be abused because of, you know, the way things are.
• 1:58:43
  And so I chose to come here and be one of the ones to go through
• 1:58:48
  that because I had I would, I would overcome, I would have the
• 1:58:51
  ability to overcome. I would be have the strength.
• 1:58:55
  So it wasn't that God put me through this, it was that I I
• 1:59:00
  took a place that I knew I would be able to overcome.
• 1:59:03
  And maybe. In place of.
• 1:59:04
  Another being that maybe couldn't or would have a tougher
• 1:59:09
  time with, I don't know. I mean that's that's why how I
• 1:59:12
  kind of look at it. But do you believe in pre
• 1:59:17
  existence? Yes, and and and I believe.
• 1:59:22
  That we, you know, I believe that we, we come here and forget
• 1:59:25
  who we are so that we can learn some things, so that we can grow
• 1:59:29
  in character even after we've come out of here.
• 1:59:33
  Somehow we learn more experiencing being a human, you
• 1:59:39
  know? Because if you're a.
• 1:59:41
  Being that just already if you're a being.
• 1:59:44
  That already. Knows things.
• 1:59:46
  How do you learn? It's the contrast, right?
• 1:59:49
  The light and the dark, the the yin and the Yang.
• 1:59:51
  You know. How do you know what is
• 1:59:55
  wonderful unless you know what is terrible?
• 1:59:58
  You know what? I.
• 1:59:59
  Mean. And so I think that we choose to
• 2:00:02
  come here to learn these things. But I think in the midst of
• 2:00:05
  this, you know, this thing that we do, we were hijacked.
• 2:00:09
  You know, I don't know who Satan or Lucifer is, you know, but but
• 2:00:15
  kind of came in and ruined the plan, you know, and God allowed
• 2:00:19
  it for a purpose and for a time, you know, but it wasn't supposed
• 2:00:24
  to be like this. The contrast wasn't supposed to
• 2:00:27
  be this contrasted you. Know and because.
• 2:00:31
  We have free will, you know, really, we've allowed this to
• 2:00:35
  happen. We all have a responsibility in
• 2:00:37
  what's happened in this world, every single one of us, you
• 2:00:41
  know, so, so I think we're at a time now where enough of us are
• 2:00:46
  awake or, or aware or willing, you know.
• 2:00:52
  To that. Now it's it's kind of like the
• 2:00:54
  end times. And now we can.
• 2:00:56
  We can become what what God intended in the 1st place for
• 2:00:59
  the world to be like. Like.
• 2:01:02
  Jesus, you know fully in our power, you know fully able to be
• 2:01:07
  responsible to to each. Other to ourselves.
• 2:01:11
  And to each other. I mean, that's just what I how
• 2:01:14
  I. See it?
• 2:01:17
  I understand. If we're all frequencies, and so
• 2:01:19
  is nature, gotta be some point where we'll develop soon enough
• 2:01:24
  to be able to connect not only with other people's energy, but
• 2:01:28
  with nature itself, right? So that's why.
• 2:01:31
  It's important that we ground ourselves, you know, that we
• 2:01:34
  connect with nature. So every day I just do a little
• 2:01:38
  meditation where I, I picture roots growing from my feet down
• 2:01:42
  into the earth. And I kind of, I try and hear,
• 2:01:46
  you know, like the crackle of like if, if, if the.
• 2:01:49
  Roots were like. Going through the soil and going
• 2:01:51
  through the rock. I try and hear that and, and I
• 2:01:54
  picture it going to the middle of the earth.
• 2:01:56
  Earth, which I don't know what's in the middle of the earth, but
• 2:01:58
  I just kind of picture a ball in the middle of the earth and my
• 2:02:02
  roots wrap around that and then come back up.
• 2:02:05
  Now the energy of earth is coming back up through my legs
• 2:02:09
  to support me, through my body to support me, you know, and
• 2:02:15
  that we can draw on the earth and its energy to help us stay
• 2:02:18
  grounded, you know, and to help us.
• 2:02:21
  And and then also from the divine, you know, I picture
• 2:02:24
  golden light coming through this way and both anchor in my heart.
• 2:02:29
  So. So that I want to make sure that
• 2:02:32
  every day I'm staying connected to God and I'm staying or the
• 2:02:35
  universe or however you want to call it, Jesus, and that I'm
• 2:02:39
  also staying connected to the earth.
• 2:02:42
  You know, because I'm here for a.
• 2:02:43
  Purpose, you know, so does it bring you?
• 2:02:50
  Happiness. Whenever you make videos and
• 2:02:52
  talk about some of these things, Yeah, it does.
• 2:02:56
  Because you know, I don't know everything and you know, I'm,
• 2:03:00
  we're ever on our journey, right?
• 2:03:02
  We're ever learning and growing. But I, I, I am aware that I
• 2:03:06
  through my major mistakes, that I, I, I, I, I tend to be the one
• 2:03:11
  that needs to learn thoroughly. So I make lots of mistakes or
• 2:03:15
  the same mistakes over and over again.
• 2:03:17
  So whatever. I have gained.
• 2:03:20
  Through that, whatever wisdom I've gained, whatever love I've
• 2:03:24
  I've cultivated in my heart, I want to give that to people and
• 2:03:28
  I want to help people, 'cause you.
• 2:03:30
  Know you know my heart. Is mostly for the underdog.
• 2:03:33
  My heart is mostly for the ones that nobody cares about.
• 2:03:37
  You know, the ones that seem to be too much trouble.
• 2:03:40
  You know the. Ones that are.
• 2:03:42
  Most cast aside one group of people would be like the
• 2:03:45
  homeless, you know, the ones no one cares about or or or lots of
• 2:03:51
  people don't, you know, So I just I.
• 2:03:56
  Believe. There's a lot of people out
• 2:03:58
  there who feel that way or you know, and so.
• 2:04:03
  Whatever. That's what I've come from.
• 2:04:04
  I believe so. Whatever.
• 2:04:07
  I've gained in my. Healing all these years,
• 2:04:10
  Whatever. Things that I've used.
• 2:04:11
  That have been helpful or maybe not been so helpful you know I
• 2:04:15
  just want to share that with people and if I can help just
• 2:04:19
  one person feel loved today, if I can help one person say, you
• 2:04:25
  know feel like that if I could overcome, you know something
• 2:04:28
  that they can overcome whatever they're going through that is my
• 2:04:31
  bliss that is my absolute bliss so.
• 2:04:36
  And I and I feel called. To that, so you know, it's just
• 2:04:44
  it's the most wonderful feeling to feel.
• 2:04:48
  A sense of purpose. You know, feel a sense of
• 2:04:50
  purpose and put a smile on somebody's face or make them
• 2:04:54
  feel more supported through my story or, you know, feel
• 2:04:58
  validated, you know, even, or to help them say, Oh yeah, you know
• 2:05:03
  what? I 'cause I used to question, did
• 2:05:05
  these things happen to me? Am I making this up?
• 2:05:07
  You know, am I? You know, am I just crazy you?
• 2:05:12
  Know I I didn't feel so. Stable because I was, I had so
• 2:05:15
  many questions, you know, but through through the years I got
• 2:05:19
  a lot of those questions answered.
• 2:05:22
  So you know. Maybe if somebody else is.
• 2:05:25
  Going through that, there's no greater bliss to me.
• 2:05:28
  There's no greater thing I could possibly do.
• 2:05:32
  So one of the things I've learned.
• 2:05:35
  In order to be able to help some people, sometimes it's not so
• 2:05:40
  important to talk and give advice and suggestions.
• 2:05:43
  Sometimes the best way to show someone that you care about them
• 2:05:46
  is just by listening and actually caring about what
• 2:05:49
  they're talking about. Absolutely, yeah.
• 2:05:53
  Absolutely. I agree absolutely.
• 2:05:57
  You got some people out. Here in comments.
• 2:05:59
  I don't know if you've been noticing them, but somebody said
• 2:06:04
  as an adult she's coping with her ordeal in a spiritual manner
• 2:06:09
  and then somebody mentioned Freemason brainwashing coping
• 2:06:13
  mechanism. What's your thoughts?
• 2:06:16
  Oh yeah. Definitely OK.
• 2:06:20
  So can you help me? Here, 'cause I don't see
• 2:06:22
  anything except for I like, I see our video and then
• 2:06:26
  underneath there's a smaller video of me and it just says
• 2:06:29
  you're in the show, everyone can see and hear you, but there's no
• 2:06:33
  is there something I need to click on in order to, to see the
• 2:06:38
  to see the comments? I don't know why you're not.
• 2:06:43
  Able to see them. Let me check my settings and and
• 2:06:46
  see. I think it says.
• 2:06:48
  Chat. It says chat.
• 2:06:49
  I mean, you don't see. Anybody.
• 2:06:52
  Typing anything at you? No, no, not the.
• 2:06:55
  Whole time so I don't I don't know what I should click on.
• 2:06:59
  Let me try chat. Let me see.
• 2:07:03
  No, that's the private. OK, that was the private chat
• 2:07:06
  down there, but it just says Mike can chat more.
• 2:07:11
  So I'm guess I'm just not connected to the.
• 2:07:17
  You don't see a tab that. Says comments no.
• 2:07:21
  No. There's been.
• 2:07:27
  Times in the past where there's been some folks who tried to
• 2:07:31
  what is called troll raid and unfortunately it bothers some
• 2:07:36
  people during the live show. Sometimes I turn it off so they
• 2:07:40
  don't get affected by it. Unfortunately.
• 2:07:44
  Because I do radio and talk about God and Christianity,
• 2:07:49
  there's some people who aren't, so how shall I say, thrilled
• 2:07:52
  with the belief in God. And they, they take that as a
• 2:07:56
  justification that, you know, be nasty.
• 2:07:59
  Oh yeah. OK, so.
• 2:08:04
  What what did you say were some of the comments?
• 2:08:05
  What was the first one you had mentioned?
• 2:08:07
  You're able to see the screen. With us right, you can see the
• 2:08:11
  screen. And I think a couple times there
• 2:08:13
  was like a bubble that came up. Oh, there we go.
• 2:08:17
  OK. When you when you go live, it
• 2:08:19
  makes the day more cheerful. God bless Brett.
• 2:08:22
  When you go live. It makes the so I can see that
• 2:08:24
  one that pops up or another. As an adult, she is coping with
• 2:08:29
  her ordeal as a spiritual in a in a spiritual manner.
• 2:08:33
  Yeah, absolutely. Yeah, it's worked for me.
• 2:08:36
  Put up the. I can put up the.
• 2:08:37
  Comments for you every now and then.
• 2:08:39
  I just didn't want to break your concentration while you were
• 2:08:43
  talking. Oh.
• 2:08:47
  But I can't see. Like the whole thing.
• 2:08:49
  So I didn't know if that's what you had meant before.
• 2:08:51
  So if you want to, if you want to.
• 2:08:54
  Later after the show you get a the link that I gave you.
• 2:08:59
  I gave you one to get inside and one's on the outside.
• 2:09:02
  You'd be able to read all the comments later if you want.
• 2:09:06
  Everybody. Seems very nice and they're
• 2:09:08
  being respectful out there. I didn't have to pull out the
• 2:09:11
  broom or anything on anybody. Yeah, I.
• 2:09:16
  Mean. Most of on my on my YouTube
• 2:09:18
  videos, most of the comments are very nice, you know, but and and
• 2:09:23
  I haven't gotten anything that's been like outright mean or
• 2:09:25
  trolley, but but just some people, it's like they.
• 2:09:30
  They say things like. You.
• 2:09:33
  Need Jesus you. Know or something like that, you
• 2:09:36
  know, and I, I've commented back and said, you know, oh, is that
• 2:09:39
  that's what you have to say after watching my video.
• 2:09:42
  You need Jesus, you know, like, you know, how about making a
• 2:09:45
  comment about the video? And then there's people who are
• 2:09:48
  really respectful and they, they kindly explain what they mean or
• 2:09:53
  what they, you know, and we may disagree, but they're, they're
• 2:09:56
  being really kind about it, you know, 'cause we don't all see
• 2:10:00
  things the same. You know one thing I've learned?
• 2:10:04
  Is that people who are usually the most self-righteous are
• 2:10:08
  usually the nastiest sinners in reality.
• 2:10:11
  Oh yeah, absolutely. But one of the other visions
• 2:10:14
  that did did. Jesus showed me one time which
• 2:10:17
  taught me about different perceptions is he took me to a
• 2:10:22
  room and it was just this gigantic, I mean gigantic cut
• 2:10:27
  diamond. And all around the diamond were
• 2:10:30
  a number of chairs. And he took me to one chair and
• 2:10:33
  he had me sit down and you could see in the side of the the
• 2:10:36
  diamond. And he said, what do you see?
• 2:10:39
  And I said, well, I see these colors and I see these angles.
• 2:10:42
  And then he took me to another chair on the other side and
• 2:10:46
  said, now what do you see? Well, I saw different colors and
• 2:10:49
  different angles. And for each chair I went to, it
• 2:10:52
  was a little different. And he said, that's how it,
• 2:10:55
  that's how it is. You're all looking at a diamond,
• 2:10:58
  but you all see different, different colors and angles.
• 2:11:01
  You all have different perceptions and ways of looking
• 2:11:03
  at things. And that that's OK.
• 2:11:07
  We're all. On different.
• 2:11:08
  Parts of our journey so. I don't know if you noticed.
• 2:11:15
  I don't know if you noticed, but right before I did the show, I
• 2:11:18
  did edit the title I made made it to where it links, like the
• 2:11:22
  title itself links directly to your YouTube channel.
• 2:11:26
  So I do want to encourage people subscribe to her and all that
• 2:11:30
  and any of my haters to stay away from her.
• 2:11:33
  She's too sweet for you, so leave it alone.
• 2:11:40
  I just won't come to you. I I.
• 2:11:42
  I'm enjoying my conversation with you, but I'm curious, do
• 2:11:45
  you have any questions for me? Did you get a chance to see some
• 2:11:48
  of the junk I put on YouTube? I did.
• 2:11:51
  I did. Have a chance?
• 2:11:52
  To look and I was like, wow, so I just didn't know.
• 2:11:55
  I had never, I had never heard of you before.
• 2:11:58
  So, but I was, I was impressed with your site and I was like,
• 2:12:02
  oh, he knows what he's doing here.
• 2:12:05
  And you know, and I listened to you.
• 2:12:08
  You think you're very polite. You're just a very kind person
• 2:12:13
  in how you handle talking to people and you know.
• 2:12:17
  So I was. Encouraged by that, you know,
• 2:12:21
  but, and I was just really looking forward.
• 2:12:24
  I was feeling kind of comfortable with this, a little
• 2:12:26
  nervous because I've never done a podcast before, but after
• 2:12:29
  watching some of your stuff I felt safe so.
• 2:12:35
  That's the Bible, Yeah, that's the.
• 2:12:36
  Bible if you ever feel in the future.
• 2:12:38
  That you want to do one with me and stuff, you know, do some Co
• 2:12:41
  host but let me know. I'd be more than happy to.
• 2:12:45
  Oh yeah, absolutely. Absolutely for some.
• 2:12:49
  Reason. People are liking what I have to
• 2:12:53
  say. So I think that you know, and
• 2:12:54
  like I said, I was praying because I, I believe in putting
• 2:12:58
  a time limit. You know, whenever I ask God for
• 2:13:01
  something, He answers me. He may not answer me
• 2:13:04
  immediately, but I'm I'm on the lookout because He will answer
• 2:13:07
  me and in a timely manner manner and I also get confirmations.
• 2:13:11
  So I had been. Asking.
• 2:13:14
  All all of June. May and June.
• 2:13:18
  I said by July I I need a direction to go in.
• 2:13:21
  It's time for I I'm feeling it and feeling like it's time to go
• 2:13:25
  in a specific direction and I need to know whether I need to
• 2:13:28
  just go find a job or you know, like close by or try, which I
• 2:13:32
  don't want to do. I don't I didn't want to do
• 2:13:36
  that. I wanted to head in a more more.
• 2:13:43
  More in the direction of this type.
• 2:13:45
  Of thing, but you know, there's a timing for everything.
• 2:13:48
  There's a divine timing for everything.
• 2:13:49
  And I understand that. And so I just didn't, you know,
• 2:13:52
  I felt like my cycle was changing, like I was coming to
• 2:13:54
  the end of this cycle, which is more like a dark night of the
• 2:13:58
  soul and that it was time to take what I've learned in this
• 2:14:01
  cycle and start a new one. But I didn't know exactly the
• 2:14:05
  timing of it. So I, this is like a
• 2:14:11
  confirmation. The fact that we're doing this
• 2:14:13
  right now that I'm doing my first podcast and the fact that
• 2:14:16
  I got over 1000 subscribers, you know, and the fact that so many
• 2:14:20
  people have, you know, I feel like that's God's sign to me.
• 2:14:23
  Go in this direction. I got your back, you know,
• 2:14:28
  because let me tell you, I haven't worked.
• 2:14:31
  I haven't worked in quite a while, actually.
• 2:14:33
  I haven't worked in eight months and I.
• 2:14:36
  Do not go without. Not without.
• 2:14:39
  Anything. I in so many different ways, God
• 2:14:43
  provides for me and, and, and I've heard him say to me over
• 2:14:47
  and over again, if you stay on your path, you're taken.
• 2:14:50
  Care of. Just stay on your path, the path
• 2:14:52
  that you, you, you, you know that you're supposed to be on.
• 2:14:57
  So. That path has been coming into
• 2:15:00
  alignment for healing, further healing, coming into alignment
• 2:15:05
  for learning a new way of being, a new way of thinking, training,
• 2:15:09
  training, you know, re reprogramming my, my patterns,
• 2:15:13
  my negative patterns. So you know, it it, it was
• 2:15:17
  important that I worked on that and not be distracted by
• 2:15:20
  anything else because that's a daily grind.
• 2:15:23
  That is, you know, you. You have to work on it.
• 2:15:26
  Like sometimes moment by moment. You know, because.
• 2:15:31
  It took us a long time to get here.
• 2:15:35
  You know, for a lot of us in. Negative, negative way of seeing
• 2:15:39
  things. It takes a lot of work and
• 2:15:42
  effort and you know in every moment to begin to become aware
• 2:15:48
  how you're thinking and how to shift that.
• 2:15:52
  So you mind if I suggest? Something for you, sure.
• 2:15:58
  When you're doing your. Videos and all that.
• 2:16:01
  You should be more specific about what the videos are about
• 2:16:05
  and your title and your tags. If you do that, you'll reach an
• 2:16:08
  even greater and bigger audience.
• 2:16:11
  Like for instance, you in one of your titles, you put S and RA
• 2:16:17
  Survivor. Well, unfortunately some people,
• 2:16:20
  they wouldn't know what that means.
• 2:16:22
  They'd look at the title and go, huh, what is that?
• 2:16:26
  It'd be best to spell it all the way out whenever you're doing
• 2:16:29
  that, and if you plan a lot. Do like a.
• 2:16:33
  A series, but survival episode one and then put that and then
• 2:16:39
  put like a kind of a conjunction of what it is that you will be
• 2:16:43
  talking about in this particular video.
• 2:16:46
  That'll help you big time. You start getting thousands.
• 2:16:50
  Yeah, thank. You for the advice.
• 2:16:51
  I really appreciate it. Yeah, I, I I was just when I
• 2:16:56
  first started it because I started my channel three years
• 2:16:59
  ago. Is it 3?
• 2:17:02
  Or four years ago 3. Years ago, four years ago, I
• 2:17:04
  don't know, but I was super like my first video, which actually
• 2:17:09
  has the most views. I say every 5 seconds.
• 2:17:14
  I was just like I was. So Nervous was the first video I
• 2:17:17
  ever did so well, No, it wasn't the 1st, but the first first of
• 2:17:22
  telling my story. But but yeah, that's really good
• 2:17:25
  advice. So I know I have to do things a
• 2:17:27
  little bit differently. I tried to number them but I
• 2:17:30
  still wasn't really, you know. Expanding on.
• 2:17:34
  What they were about so. Well, they the reason why.
• 2:17:38
  I found is what happened was as I was doing some research some
• 2:17:44
  months back, I was, I started to interviewing some Satanists and
• 2:17:48
  all that on my show. And what I did was wanted to
• 2:17:52
  find out more about what they were claiming that they believed
• 2:17:55
  in. So I looked on YouTube and what
• 2:17:57
  and your videos started popping up.
• 2:17:59
  So your videos are actually popping up in the category of
• 2:18:02
  Satanism. I don't know if you know that,
• 2:18:05
  but that's how I found ya. Oh, OK.
• 2:18:10
  So yeah, yeah, I'll have to just be.
• 2:18:16
  More expounding on my videos. Yeah, you would probably.
• 2:18:20
  Want to put in your tags things like tarot cards, energy,
• 2:18:24
  nature, frequency, the kind of things that you enjoy talking
• 2:18:28
  about? Make sure you tag them up like
• 2:18:29
  that because those tags are for people like me, where if I'm
• 2:18:33
  looking for something, that's how I'm going to find you.
• 2:18:36
  You get it right? But I.
• 2:18:38
  See, that's where I ran into trouble because I'm so
• 2:18:41
  illiterate when it comes to this stuff.
• 2:18:43
  I was like, well, did you just put hashtag on there?
• 2:18:46
  I mean, some of some of the other ones I see like it's in
• 2:18:48
  blue. It's like a, it's like links.
• 2:18:50
  And I was like, is it supposed to be linked or do I just put it
• 2:18:54
  on there or, you know, 'cause I and I didn't, couldn't figure
• 2:18:57
  out how to link something, you know, put a link on there, you
• 2:19:00
  know, And so I just didn't know how it works.
• 2:19:06
  I'll give you an. Example of.
• 2:19:07
  Something, let's say that you're watching a video of a tarot card
• 2:19:11
  reader and you'd like to make a video to them, put the at sign
• 2:19:15
  and then their YouTube name in it and you'll see a list drop
• 2:19:18
  down where it says, are you talking about this person?
• 2:19:21
  Because unfortunately there's so many people on YouTube who have
• 2:19:24
  like the same kind of nickname, but numbers in it.
• 2:19:27
  So you pick the right one and you make the title to them.
• 2:19:31
  Like if you're making a video response, the hashtags, those
• 2:19:35
  only are useful if it's like a topic in the here and now.
• 2:19:40
  Like if you're talking about something to do with Satanism,
• 2:19:42
  then you want to put #Satanism #Anton Lavey or something like
• 2:19:48
  that. And that'll it'll definitely put
• 2:19:50
  you in the category of that, OK. So that's for categories.
• 2:19:55
  OK. So the first one you were
• 2:19:56
  explaining, can you say that again?
• 2:19:58
  I'm just kind of like for links? Is that what you meant for?
• 2:20:03
  For a link. To somebody's.
• 2:20:05
  YouTube channel like let's say you're making a video to me,
• 2:20:08
  you'd put hello at Brett Keene at symbol Brett Keene and then
• 2:20:14
  I'll also drop down to make sure that you're actually responding
• 2:20:19
  directly to me. Well, you most likely obviously
• 2:20:22
  will, but it's going to say are you talking to this Brett Keene
• 2:20:25
  or this person or blah, blah, blah, you get it.
• 2:20:27
  Oh, OK, I see. And.
• 2:20:28
  That will create the link yeah. And then it.
• 2:20:31
  Turns blue, like what I did with the title.
• 2:20:33
  I've got your and you know the rage, Yeah.
• 2:20:40
  The Kingdom rage. That was actually the name of my
• 2:20:44
  company, 'cause I made T-shirts. I made Christian T-shirts too,
• 2:20:47
  for a while. But yeah, Kingdom rage.
• 2:20:53
  And then on the back of my business card, it said, what was
• 2:20:56
  that quote, the famous quote that Oh my gosh, I'm drawing a
• 2:21:03
  blank. I can't because it was a long
• 2:21:06
  time ago. Well, I was.
• 2:21:09
  Meaning to. Ask you what made you come up
• 2:21:11
  with Kingdom Rage? I think.
• 2:21:16
  I think. I think it was just.
• 2:21:23
  Because the Kingdom had to do with the Kingdom of God and that
• 2:21:26
  we needed to be, I felt like there was a need to be more
• 2:21:30
  assertive with that, you know, and more.
• 2:21:34
  I don't know, it just kind of. Went together, you know, Kingdom
• 2:21:37
  rage like. And and maybe.
• 2:21:41
  Maybe a little poor choice of a word for that, you know, because
• 2:21:45
  rage seems the opposite of the Kingdom, you know, but kind of
• 2:21:48
  like, you know, to 100%, you know, like 100%.
• 2:21:52
  Come on, Kingdom rage, let's go. You know, committed.
• 2:21:57
  Yeah. Right.
• 2:21:58
  Right. You know, that's what I meant by
• 2:22:01
  it. So yeah.
• 2:22:03
  That's. A cool name, it's a.
• 2:22:06
  Cool name. Yeah, so team talks with.
• 2:22:11
  Kingdom Rage I. Think that sounds really cool
• 2:22:21
  so. Yeah.
• 2:22:24
  So what's your ideas? For creative stuff in the
• 2:22:27
  future, you got your mind on anything.
• 2:22:32
  Well. I'm.
• 2:22:34
  Kind of. Not sure like in the creative
• 2:22:36
  arena, like which, which, which way to go.
• 2:22:39
  I've been calling in a sewing machine so, you know, to get
• 2:22:43
  rolling 'cause I always enjoyed sewing.
• 2:22:46
  But but I've had this like visual, you know, like a, a
• 2:22:50
  vision that I like. If I had all the money in the
• 2:22:54
  world and I didn't have no blocks and I didn't have to
• 2:22:56
  worry about it, what would I do? You know, I would love to create
• 2:23:04
  a community, you know, like a, a, a, a house.
• 2:23:08
  Or or. A place of business, but more
• 2:23:10
  like a homey type place. Or maybe it would be my home.
• 2:23:14
  I don't know. I'm not sure.
• 2:23:15
  But I always see that, you know, on one section of it, we would
• 2:23:21
  have a garden, a gigantic garden that would be, you know, good
• 2:23:25
  food, you know, non-GMO, not no pesticides, good food that,
• 2:23:32
  that, you know, I could share with the community, you know.
• 2:23:37
  Or or create. Something.
• 2:23:38
  Where people can, you know, whether I give it away or
• 2:23:41
  whether people buy it, but it's, it's not like ridiculously
• 2:23:44
  priced, you know, but good food. And then on the other side would
• 2:23:49
  be a a flower garden, but like. Kind of like a.
• 2:23:54
  Mystical place with fun things in it, like like fairy doors
• 2:23:59
  and, you know, just a mystical place where people could go and,
• 2:24:03
  and be in nature and then the beauty of nature and meditate or
• 2:24:07
  just spend time with God or just time to be quiet, you know, And
• 2:24:11
  then I would picture I pictured in the back, there would be an
• 2:24:15
  area that huge gigantic area for bonfires, for connecting, for
• 2:24:20
  music, for you know, that that sort of thing.
• 2:24:24
  And then in in the house would be where we would have classes,
• 2:24:30
  you know, like maybe if somebody's overcoming, maybe if
• 2:24:34
  somebody. 'S overcoming.
• 2:24:35
  Some kind of trauma or something, you know, it would be
• 2:24:39
  like groups that maybe could come together that went through
• 2:24:44
  the same thing and they could be a support to one another and
• 2:24:47
  maybe somebody who's come through and overcome to be a
• 2:24:51
  support in that and, and help with ideas of what can be
• 2:24:55
  helpful or you know, or learning.
• 2:24:58
  Learning. Things you know, learning new
• 2:25:00
  things. All kinds of different classes.
• 2:25:05
  Like maybe some people want to learn about astrology or some
• 2:25:09
  people want to learn how to do cards or, you know, that sort of
• 2:25:13
  thing. But it would be like this huge
• 2:25:15
  place that was for the community, you know?
• 2:25:19
  What I'm saying? I guess.
• 2:25:21
  That's what I. I would dream of.
• 2:25:25
  Yeah, flowers. Going on and.
• 2:25:27
  All this, but I kept on thinking to myself, you said earlier,
• 2:25:30
  it's 118° out there. It's it's right.
• 2:25:33
  It would. Survive.
• 2:25:36
  Right, it wouldn't be. Here that would that wouldn't
• 2:25:40
  work here, but that's what that's what's in my heart.
• 2:25:42
  So, you know, if that's to be, you know, and I think that I can
• 2:25:46
  create that, but it's all about the divine timing and whatever
• 2:25:49
  I'm supposed to be doing now, you know, or whatever, you know,
• 2:25:52
  but that, you know, maybe in a different place, I can, I can
• 2:25:56
  create that. You know, like I was in
• 2:25:58
  Flagstaff for the weekend and the high was 80° and I'm like.
• 2:26:03
  This is the perfect place. Because there's lots of trees
• 2:26:05
  and greenery and it's just beautiful.
• 2:26:09
  You know, that would be a great place for that.
• 2:26:14
  So are you the type person? That likes to hike.
• 2:26:17
  You said you were hanging out in nature out in Michigan or
• 2:26:21
  something. Do you like hiking and walking
• 2:26:24
  around in it a little bit? Not I'm not.
• 2:26:26
  Like one of those people that goes and hikes halfway around
• 2:26:29
  the mountain or anything like that.
• 2:26:31
  But I do like to, I like to hike, you know, I like to.
• 2:26:38
  You know, I like to be. I like.
• 2:26:39
  To sit in the grass, you know, I like to put my feet in the
• 2:26:42
  grass, you know I. I like to go visit like we.
• 2:26:47
  Were in Flagstaff that's just up north here and there was a you
• 2:26:54
  can tell I'm. From the Midwest.
• 2:26:55
  'Cause I'm, I say Creek, she's like, no, it's Creek.
• 2:26:59
  And I'm like, no, it's Creek. But there was a beautiful Creek.
• 2:27:02
  And so we went in, we went and sat down in it and it was just
• 2:27:06
  felt wonderful. And the water was nice and cool
• 2:27:08
  and I just felt really connected.
• 2:27:10
  You know, I feel, I feel stable when I'm in nature.
• 2:27:16
  You know, it stables me. It makes me feel more stable
• 2:27:19
  physically and mentally and emotionally.
• 2:27:22
  I settle. I settle when I'm in nature, so.
• 2:27:26
  Yeah, the way you describe all. This, it kind of sounds like a
• 2:27:32
  hybrid between Christianity and paganism.
• 2:27:36
  Paganism vary into nature, Yeah, I think.
• 2:27:39
  So too. You know, 'cause I, I had
• 2:27:42
  shifted, you know, there was a lot of Christianity that
• 2:27:46
  bothered, you know, the, the, the of the way people acted or
• 2:27:49
  the way, you know, a lot of people.
• 2:27:52
  Didn't practice what they. Preached or didn't make sense
• 2:27:56
  and and just just the very act of questioning was a bother to
• 2:28:00
  to a lot of people. And and then I watched patterns.
• 2:28:04
  I watched patterns where there would, you know, there, it's
• 2:28:10
  like there would be a lot of a group would come together as a
• 2:28:13
  ministry or a church and you know, there'd be lots of people
• 2:28:19
  flocking. There and there would be.
• 2:28:20
  Good things happening and people getting excited and then the
• 2:28:25
  leadership. Would.
• 2:28:26
  Somehow go downhill and turn it into something that it never
• 2:28:31
  should be, and then people were hurt or disappointed and then it
• 2:28:35
  would just die out. I've watched this over many.
• 2:28:38
  Years in my life, you know, But so I just didn't.
• 2:28:44
  Agree with certain. Things I remember saying to
• 2:28:46
  Jesus. You know, there's a lot.
• 2:28:50
  Of I, I would say to him, you know, some of your people are
• 2:28:54
  just not, they're not. Nice people.
• 2:28:58
  And he said they're not all my people.
• 2:29:01
  He said just because they come to church.
• 2:29:03
  Doesn't mean they're my people. So I.
• 2:29:07
  You know. And I was like, yeah, I.
• 2:29:08
  Guess that makes sense, you know, and so, but you know, so
• 2:29:12
  when I got really hurt and I, I stepped away and that was
• 2:29:16
  terrible. I stepped away from the church,
• 2:29:18
  but I, I also stepped away from Jesus.
• 2:29:25
  What was that? It looked like you disconnected.
• 2:29:27
  For a moment there you're back, though.
• 2:29:28
  Oh, oh, I. Don't know what happened.
• 2:29:32
  It's all good. You were, you were saying about
• 2:29:35
  Jesus and the conversation, right And so.
• 2:29:39
  You know I had. Stepped away from.
• 2:29:43
  From Jesus for a while. You know which that's you know I
• 2:29:48
  didn't. Need to do that.
• 2:29:50
  But I did but but I came. Back around and.
• 2:29:54
  When I came back around, it was just different for me, you know,
• 2:29:57
  I, I, I was learning some new things and, and I had to make a
• 2:30:01
  decision also with the cards, 'cause, you know, when the cards
• 2:30:03
  came my way, they were such a blessing.
• 2:30:05
  But at first I felt weird about it and I was like, is this
• 2:30:08
  really OK, you know, and why you know?
• 2:30:12
  And. Like I said, I always get an
• 2:30:14
  answer and I you know the God said.
• 2:30:18
  That's fine. Like I, I, I can, I can talk
• 2:30:21
  through anything, you know, just make sure that your heart's
• 2:30:24
  intention's right. If you're, if you're gonna read
• 2:30:26
  for other people, you know, make sure you're, you're in a place
• 2:30:29
  of love, you know, and, and, and, and and intention for their
• 2:30:34
  highest good, you know, so, you know, but then, you know,
• 2:30:39
  there's just some people. I just can't, I can't do church
• 2:30:42
  anymore, just can't, I can't sit still.
• 2:30:45
  I can't sit there, You know, I guess.
• 2:30:48
  I guess if I could find one that was close enough or that I had a
• 2:30:52
  ride to that where I could worship freely, 'cause that's my
• 2:30:55
  favorite part is the worship. I.
• 2:30:59
  Get lost in it and I used. To be able to be in the aisles
• 2:31:01
  and, you know, or go up front or, you know, dance if I wanted
• 2:31:06
  to, you know, I, I prefer that that freer type church, you
• 2:31:11
  know, well. One thing.
• 2:31:13
  I always say because I'm not a big churchgoer myself, I prefer
• 2:31:18
  if I'm going to listen to somebody.
• 2:31:20
  I prefer being able to have the choice of clicking on a video
• 2:31:23
  and listening to somebody or something on the radio.
• 2:31:26
  But I don't want to go someplace where you're kind of stuck there
• 2:31:30
  and then you guys can pretend as though you're enjoying yourself
• 2:31:33
  on adaptation. You know.
• 2:31:36
  What I mean, Yeah, I I agree. I so.
• 2:31:39
  Totally agree. So one thing I say to people,
• 2:31:43
  one. Thing I say to.
• 2:31:45
  People is, oh, I don't mind church.
• 2:31:47
  It's the people in it that that make it enjoyable.
• 2:31:52
  Yeah. Yeah, but at the same time, it's
• 2:31:56
  like, you know, I, I do believe in, you know, gathering together
• 2:32:00
  with people of like mind, you know, so, but I just have to
• 2:32:04
  trust for me at this time, I have to trust that, you know, as
• 2:32:08
  things have been opening up, I don't have to force it.
• 2:32:12
  I don't have to, you know, be all worked up about trying to
• 2:32:16
  stay connected into a, you know, create a community or, or
• 2:32:19
  connect to a community 'cause I think I used to be more panicky
• 2:32:22
  about that, you know, thinking I was going to be all alone in my
• 2:32:26
  home forever, you know, but, but like I said, I've learned that
• 2:32:31
  there's a, there's a divine timing for everything, you know,
• 2:32:34
  and, and that, you know, you have not if you, if you ask not,
• 2:32:38
  you know, and so, you know, I've.
• 2:32:41
  Learned to ask. And, and sometimes the answer is
• 2:32:44
  be patient. It's coming, you know, or, or
• 2:32:48
  you know. Whatever, but you know to.
• 2:32:51
  Learn to have peace in whatever moment I'm in.
• 2:32:55
  Try. That's one of the things I've
• 2:32:56
  been working on, is not too deep like you've already.
• 2:33:00
  Got a big old answer. You realize at this point there
• 2:33:03
  on YouTube, even though you're just figuring things out, you've
• 2:33:08
  got more people listening and watching you than probably
• 2:33:12
  several churches combined in your area.
• 2:33:15
  You realize that, right? Oh, really?
• 2:33:16
  No, I didn't. I didn't know that.
• 2:33:19
  Well, I mean. For example, you mentioned the
• 2:33:22
  local church that you went to 20 people.
• 2:33:25
  Well, that point that. Preacher has 20.
• 2:33:28
  People listening them you have 1000 people listening to you
• 2:33:32
  you've been given some great, great power and responsibility.
• 2:33:37
  You know what I mean, right? Right.
• 2:33:38
  And. Oh, my gosh, OK, I can't believe
• 2:33:41
  you just said that because I was just talking about that with my
• 2:33:44
  friend Maria and that 'cause I said.
• 2:33:50
  Maybe this? Isolation time was on purpose
• 2:33:54
  because because I have an intensity to me, OK, I do, I
• 2:33:59
  have an intensity and I'm aware of it.
• 2:34:03
  And so it's really important. And, and I and I there's power
• 2:34:07
  in that. And so, you know, I could tear
• 2:34:11
  someone like, it's kind of like I could tear someone up with my
• 2:34:14
  eyes, you know what I'm saying? It's like that frequency I'm in,
• 2:34:17
  you know, And so maybe it was really important for me to be
• 2:34:22
  alone for a while so that I could learn to take
• 2:34:24
  responsibility for what I. Carry or.
• 2:34:27
  What I've carried with me to this lifetime, you know, and so
• 2:34:31
  because there, there is an intensity to me that that can
• 2:34:35
  come out, you know, and, and I've had to learn to temper
• 2:34:40
  myself even when I'm have no intention.
• 2:34:43
  I don't mean anger. I just mean.
• 2:34:47
  You have to. Read People.
• 2:34:49
  You know, and sometimes it's a bit much, something I may say to
• 2:34:52
  someone that that may be really interested and wants to hear
• 2:34:56
  more and somebody else is like, oh, this is too much.
• 2:34:59
  You know what I'm? Saying and and.
• 2:35:01
  What is my purpose in that moment?
• 2:35:03
  You know it. It may be my purpose is to reach
• 2:35:05
  the person who wants to hear or maybe.
• 2:35:08
  It's something. Else, you know, and so just to
• 2:35:10
  be aware of people and be sensitive to other people
• 2:35:14
  depending on what I'm doing or what my intention is, you know.
• 2:35:18
  'Cause I can be a bit overwhelming.
• 2:35:20
  Sometimes. You know, I think.
• 2:35:23
  It's like a don't come off that way to me.
• 2:35:26
  I enjoy listening to you and watching your videos.
• 2:35:28
  You seem like a really cool person to me.
• 2:35:31
  Yeah, well. I mean when?
• 2:35:32
  It comes to things that aren't right.
• 2:35:36
  You know, I can be. Really.
• 2:35:37
  Intense or, or if I'm sharing a little bit of my story, you
• 2:35:41
  know, it's there's just an appropriate time to to share so
• 2:35:44
  much and not an appropriate time.
• 2:35:47
  You have to know who you're standing in front of and see
• 2:35:50
  their body language and be aware.
• 2:35:52
  Not just self aware, but aware. Your channel, it's about you.
• 2:35:56
  It's all about whenever you feel.
• 2:35:58
  Oh yeah, on my channel. Yeah, I just met.
• 2:36:01
  I met. I've learned that about myself,
• 2:36:04
  you know, in my life and. So.
• 2:36:08
  To be because to be when you're self aware and you have
• 2:36:11
  emotional intelligence with people and you then.
• 2:36:15
  And your. Discernment is up you.
• 2:36:18
  Can reach more people. That way, you know, you, you
• 2:36:21
  can, you know when people feel heard or seen or respected or,
• 2:36:29
  you know, loved or, you know, and it's not the, it's not the
• 2:36:32
  same for everybody. You know, we're all on different
• 2:36:36
  modes. Of being or on our.
• 2:36:37
  Path, you know, but on my channel, yeah, no, that's my
• 2:36:39
  channel. You if you don't like it, you
• 2:36:41
  can go somewhere else. So.
• 2:36:45
  Yeah, I've just kind of been a little aimless with my channel.
• 2:36:48
  Not quite sure where to go with that because, you know, mostly
• 2:36:52
  I've been just sharing about what I'm experiencing, you know,
• 2:36:56
  and what's maybe working for me or not working for me.
• 2:37:00
  So. Because.
• 2:37:01
  Maybe. Maybe.
• 2:37:04
  Later you rewatch this video cause some of the things that
• 2:37:07
  you brought up, I can tell you right now are very interesting
• 2:37:11
  topics that you could kind of just go off of.
• 2:37:14
  Basically use your own stream as a a podium.
• 2:37:19
  Like for instance, talking about guilt of the past or talking
• 2:37:23
  about how someone what dreams mean to you and how it is that
• 2:37:28
  you think people get the frequency to be able to have
• 2:37:32
  more vivid visions, things like that.
• 2:37:36
  Oh. Yeah, absolutely, absolutely.
• 2:37:39
  Yeah. So yeah, there's.
• 2:37:42
  Just so many arenas. To go in, you know that I've
• 2:37:47
  that. I'd love to talk.
• 2:37:48
  About and seeing just kind of see where other people are at,
• 2:37:52
  you know, like for instance, the one thing with my friend, it was
• 2:37:54
  like, you know, when you have dreams.
• 2:37:57
  That it's not literal. You're, you can't take them and
• 2:38:01
  look at them from a 3D stance. They're puzzles.
• 2:38:04
  They're spiritual puzzles. You know that because we don't,
• 2:38:08
  we don't have that full understanding because we live in
• 2:38:10
  the 3D, right? And so you can't take your
• 2:38:12
  dreams literally unless, unless that's specifically being told
• 2:38:17
  to you. And there will be confirmation
• 2:38:19
  for that, you know, but that's rare.
• 2:38:21
  Most of the time our, our dreams are for us to write down what we
• 2:38:26
  remember and then, you know, begin to work on figuring out
• 2:38:31
  what, what is this saying to me? How does this apply to me?
• 2:38:35
  You know, so for instance, oh, I got to tell you this, this is
• 2:38:40
  really great. I think people will relate.
• 2:38:43
  So when I was beginning my journey to heal, finding out
• 2:38:48
  that I had multiple personalities and all that kind
• 2:38:50
  of stuff, and what happened to me?
• 2:38:53
  I had had a. Dream and it was completely
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  vivid and I remembered every detail of it when I woke up
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  because most of the time when we dream, we forget almost
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  immediately when we wake up. So you have to set an intention.
• 2:39:06
  So for you know, you have to set a notebook next to your bed with
• 2:39:10
  a pen with the intention and then you'll you'll remember, but
• 2:39:14
  you got to write it down right away.
• 2:39:15
  But anyways, this dream I remembered every detail.
• 2:39:17
  And in the dream I'm in a restaurant slash bar, but the
• 2:39:23
  focus was on the restaurant, not the bar.
• 2:39:25
  And these 3 old men, I was sitting at A at a table, a round
• 2:39:29
  table. And these 3 old men came to the
• 2:39:31
  door and walked in and they were wearing these very sharp silk
• 2:39:35
  Italian suits, but they all had white hair.
• 2:39:38
  And so that I watched them come in and they went to a table and
• 2:39:42
  they sat and one of them looked really familiar to me.
• 2:39:44
  So this is the dream. One of them looked really
• 2:39:47
  familiar to me and I'm just bold.
• 2:39:50
  So I went to the table and I tapped him on the shoulder and I
• 2:39:53
  said, Hey, do I know you from anywhere?
• 2:39:55
  And boom, all of a sudden there's Jesus in front of me
• 2:39:59
  and, and, and we're in a castle and it's like dark and it's
• 2:40:03
  shadowy. And he, he said, can I have your
• 2:40:07
  face? And so I just immediately cut my
• 2:40:11
  face off, pulled it off and gave it to him.
• 2:40:13
  And he said well you're going to have to stay here for about 3
• 2:40:16
  months till you till you heal. And so he said, you're welcome
• 2:40:21
  to look in any, any nook and cranny.
• 2:40:23
  And it was like kind of a scary place.
• 2:40:26
  And then one day I was, I was sitting in on a on a cot and I
• 2:40:30
  just felt like there was something underneath it.
• 2:40:32
  And I looked under and there I was, my old face, you know,
• 2:40:38
  laying there like as if an in a casket.
• 2:40:41
  And it scared me. And boom, now I'm back in the
• 2:40:44
  restaurant, standing next to this man that I just tapped on
• 2:40:47
  the shoulder and said, do I know you from anywhere?
• 2:40:49
  And he just smiled at me and it kind of freaked me out.
• 2:40:52
  So I go back to my seat, the three of them get up, go to the
• 2:40:55
  door, the one that I recognized. And another one left.
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  And then another one went to the bar, turned to me and said, come
• 2:41:04
  here. And so I go to the bar.
• 2:41:07
  I go to the bar and. He's he's got this lawyer's bag
• 2:41:10
  and he says that man that you recognize knows you and he was
• 2:41:15
  writing me out a check for $700 million.
• 2:41:19
  That was for me. And then I woke up, Right.
• 2:41:23
  So the meaning of the dream, basically, you know, the rest.
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  I was in the restaurant. The three men that came in were
• 2:41:28
  Father, Son, Holy Spirit. The one I recognized was Jesus,
• 2:41:32
  you know, the castle, you know, represented the the dark things
• 2:41:38
  that I was going to have to take a look at in order to heal.
• 2:41:41
  OK. And when he asked me for my
• 2:41:43
  face, what he was asking for was my identity and.
• 2:41:47
  You know, after I had. Spent spent some time there
• 2:41:50
  looking at these dark things and processing them.
• 2:41:54
  The the the the me underneath the bed with the old face was
• 2:41:58
  the old me because I was leaving there as someone new and.
• 2:42:02
  You know the the. Guy at the bar, you know, with
• 2:42:05
  the $700 million was the Holy Spirit and that's, you know,
• 2:42:08
  that's the, the rewards that we get for, with being willing to
• 2:42:13
  walk our path and to, to live our purpose out.
• 2:42:18
  So, you know, there's a lot. Of symbology and dreams and you
• 2:42:22
  know, that's what we have to search out.
• 2:42:24
  A lot of people don't have a dream and you know, if there's a
• 2:42:26
  monkey in it, then they think they're going to get a monkey or
• 2:42:28
  they're going to come across a monkey.
• 2:42:29
  And if that's what does the monkey represent, you know, it's
• 2:42:32
  symbols. It's symbols.
• 2:42:34
  There's messages, great messages.
• 2:42:37
  And if you take the time to seek the treasure out of the message,
• 2:42:41
  you know there's a blessing in that, you know so.
• 2:42:47
  I don't know, sometimes I ramble.
• 2:42:51
  I also thought it was. Interesting in the dream that
• 2:42:53
  she had about the 700 million. Not for the money, but for the
• 2:42:57
  symbolic. The number seven is mentioned a
• 2:43:00
  lot in Revelation. Yeah, 7:00.
• 2:43:07
  And seven's usually a lucky number.
• 2:43:10
  Yep. I believe.
• 2:43:12
  It's the number of God. So you.
• 2:43:16
  Know which confirms to me that I, I am, you know, I have
• 2:43:21
  purpose. I'm here for a very specific
• 2:43:23
  reason. I have a job to do here, you
• 2:43:26
  know, I think we all do, you know, but not everybody can be
• 2:43:28
  president, you know what I mean? And so it's like you just have
• 2:43:32
  to find out what what you came here to do and do that with your
• 2:43:35
  whole heart, you know? And who you are.
• 2:43:41
  Because if you don't know who you are, you don't know what's
• 2:43:43
  backing you up and you won't take the risks.
• 2:43:47
  So would you like a? Copy of this video for your own
• 2:43:52
  channel. I would love that.
• 2:43:54
  That would be great. Yeah.
• 2:43:56
  Thank you. Yeah, let me give.
• 2:43:58
  You something here? Do you know how to download the
• 2:44:01
  videos? I.
• 2:44:06
  Not the. Way do what I do do it?
• 2:44:08
  Do I do it the same way I would on?
• 2:44:12
  I don't know like I know I know when I do a video on my YouTube
• 2:44:17
  I I know how to download it but like how how?
• 2:44:21
  Would I do that with you giving? That to me, so I'm going to give
• 2:44:24
  you a. A web page that has a box and
• 2:44:28
  then you copy the link. I'll send you the link of the
• 2:44:30
  video, you copy that, you post it into the box and the browser,
• 2:44:36
  and then it will say, do you want to save it?
• 2:44:38
  And then make sure you save it somewhere where you know you can
• 2:44:41
  find it quickly. And then you have a copy of it.
• 2:44:44
  You can just upload it on your channel OK?
• 2:44:48
  Do I do that on a? Computer or on my phone?
• 2:44:51
  Do you have a do? You have a computer, right?
• 2:44:54
  I do have a. Computer, but I never use it
• 2:44:55
  because I don't know. How?
• 2:44:59
  Oh well, I I don't know if it would.
• 2:45:01
  I don't know how to do it to the phone.
• 2:45:03
  I usually use APC when I do things.
• 2:45:07
  OK, so. I I.
• 2:45:08
  I you know what help is on its way so and maybe you can help me
• 2:45:13
  with that. I mean just step by step, no so
• 2:45:16
  I think. We'll 'cause we.
• 2:45:17
  Know what, once I once I do something, you know, like once
• 2:45:20
  or twice, then I got it. You know, it's just not knowing
• 2:45:24
  and then running into problems that come up.
• 2:45:26
  You know that I get all nerve wrecked so well just imagine
• 2:45:31
  this. Imagine that whenever you open
• 2:45:33
  the browser, you're simply when you post what they call an Earl,
• 2:45:37
  Imagine it's just posting a phone number into your phone to
• 2:45:41
  take you to where you want to go.
• 2:45:43
  And once the page opens, it's going to have a big old box that
• 2:45:46
  says what do you want to download?
• 2:45:48
  And you post the link and hit convert, and then it'll ask you
• 2:45:52
  where do you want to save it? And that's it.
• 2:45:54
  Then all you got to do is wait a moment for it to download save.
• 2:45:58
  OK. All right.
• 2:46:00
  All right, I'll give you. Directions in the e-mail and all
• 2:46:04
  that. Unfortunately, my daughter is
• 2:46:07
  getting ready to, She's wanting to get through here and stuff.
• 2:46:11
  She's got something to take care of.
• 2:46:13
  So I'm going to end up having to shut down soon.
• 2:46:17
  Hold on one second reply. Goodness.
• 2:46:25
  All right, thank you. We had to move the microphone
• 2:46:30
  around because she she's getting something.
• 2:46:35
  All right. Well, looks like we could we
• 2:46:39
  could talk for a little bit longer if you're up for it.
• 2:46:41
  Do you have any questions for me?
• 2:46:46
  I'm not. Quite sure.
• 2:46:52
  How long have you been doing this often on on.
• 2:46:56
  YouTube, for probably 15 years, I've done a lot of designing of
• 2:47:03
  websites, written some books, did the radio thing, and for a
• 2:47:07
  while there, when I was a young man, this is what I'm known for
• 2:47:10
  too. Is used to do music and play
• 2:47:13
  with my brother. Now my brother goes out and does
• 2:47:17
  concerts and everything. He's in a band called Black,
• 2:47:23
  Yeah. Spooky.
• 2:47:24
  Name Spooky. Language.
• 2:47:28
  But So what instrument? Do you play well?
• 2:47:32
  I. Myself is what?
• 2:47:33
  You call musically inclined I guitar, drums, bass, keyboard.
• 2:47:39
  Keyboard's my favorite though 'cause you get all kinds of
• 2:47:42
  different sound effects. Used to attempt to sing, but now
• 2:47:46
  that I'm an older man I notice that it sounds a lot like the
• 2:47:49
  death and destruction of a pile of cats, so I try to stay away.
• 2:47:55
  Yeah, I my 3:00. My three brothers were musically
• 2:47:58
  inclined, so one played the bass, one played the drums and
• 2:48:01
  one played the guitar. And they had a band back in the
• 2:48:05
  80s when we were just kids. I think it was called Witch
• 2:48:08
  Hazel. They're actually.
• 2:48:10
  Pretty good. But people used to ask me, well,
• 2:48:13
  what do you play? And I'd have to say they're
• 2:48:15
  radio. So.
• 2:48:17
  I just never learned to play an instrument, but my son plays
• 2:48:22
  guitar and he's very good at it so and he really enjoys that and
• 2:48:27
  he's learned the whole digital. I don't know what you call that.
• 2:48:32
  But where you create, you know, sounds from instruments on
• 2:48:35
  digitally and he composes music doing that.
• 2:48:38
  So yeah, nowadays, nowadays. Musicians have the, in my
• 2:48:45
  perspective, a lot better. Back in the day, you had to sign
• 2:48:49
  on to a record company and then get robbed for the rest of your
• 2:48:52
  life. But now any young person that's
• 2:48:55
  got any talent whatsoever might be a prodigy, can come to
• 2:48:58
  something like YouTube or Rumble, record and play, and
• 2:49:03
  then suddenly find themselves with a million Subs.
• 2:49:05
  That's the way to go, I think. Yeah, absolutely.
• 2:49:09
  There's. A lot more opportunity that way.
• 2:49:11
  Yeah, so. Yeah, and then my.
• 2:49:15
  Stepdaughter. She sings.
• 2:49:17
  She's excellent. She sang at Trump's inaugural
• 2:49:21
  ball. So she got to.
• 2:49:24
  Hang out with. Trump.
• 2:49:26
  Yeah. She's a very good singer, but
• 2:49:31
  but she never wanted to be up at the beginning with.
• 2:49:33
  Trump and Biden. That was terrible, wasn't it?
• 2:49:37
  Oh lordy. It's like a big circus out.
• 2:49:42
  There, you know, yeah. Yeah, I'm not trying to.
• 2:49:48
  I'm not usually a mean person, but I really think that about 10
• 2:49:52
  years ago, Biden should have probably found himself in a
• 2:49:55
  nursing home eating soft jello or something.
• 2:49:58
  He shouldn't be president. Yeah, no, not.
• 2:50:01
  No, not at all. But he's just a, he's just a bad
• 2:50:04
  representation of of the powers that be that think they're going
• 2:50:07
  to stay in control, but they're not.
• 2:50:11
  See here. Here comes my.
• 2:50:13
  Intensity, it kind of reminds. Me of that.
• 2:50:16
  I don't know if you ever seen the movie Weekend at Bernie's,
• 2:50:19
  but that's what he reminds me of.
• 2:50:21
  Yeah, yeah. Exactly.
• 2:50:23
  They just kind of prop him up. And then get, you know, get what
• 2:50:27
  they need out of him. That's all.
• 2:50:28
  I think they're. I think they're throwing them
• 2:50:32
  under the bus now though 'cause they got some, they got some
• 2:50:35
  other plan. But they're trying.
• 2:50:38
  To they have to I, I. Think they planned on putting
• 2:50:41
  him out there on stage and then camera?
• 2:50:44
  Oh yeah, somebody else they knew.
• 2:50:46
  They knew. What was going to happen?
• 2:50:50
  Yeah, it's called. Old people abuse, I think yes.
• 2:50:54
  Yes. Yeah, so now remember in the.
• 2:51:00
  Future, if you ever want to talk or do a live broadcast, just let
• 2:51:04
  me know. I I used to do a whole lot of
• 2:51:07
  things where I brought in tons of people, but that can get
• 2:51:11
  rough. People get to arguing with each
• 2:51:13
  other and all that. And I'm more of a laid back type
• 2:51:15
  person. I just enjoy listening to folks
• 2:51:18
  and having a good discussion. Yeah.
• 2:51:21
  Yeah, I don't like the arguing. You know, it's like there's no,
• 2:51:25
  that's why I think it's important that we do our inner
• 2:51:27
  work. And you know, we can't just be
• 2:51:30
  self oriented. We have to be others oriented as
• 2:51:32
  well. You know, we have to think of,
• 2:51:34
  we have to think it out outside of ourselves as well, you know,
• 2:51:38
  and so, you know, what's the point?
• 2:51:42
  You know what? Point do you have to?
• 2:51:43
  Make so much that you have to argue, you know, and what does
• 2:51:46
  anybody get out of that? So you know when I come.
• 2:51:50
  Across people who have such a different view and feel strongly
• 2:51:53
  about it. I just I just I don't I don't go
• 2:51:59
  there anymore. I don't argue.
• 2:52:00
  I don't OK, you know, bless you. That's what you believe.
• 2:52:03
  You know, I don't want to discuss it, you know, so I.
• 2:52:07
  Think that works out a. Lot better just in rather than
• 2:52:11
  getting in a heated argument trying to defend, you know,
• 2:52:15
  like. You know.
• 2:52:17
  There's no need for me to. Defend myself one other.
• 2:52:21
  One other suggestion for you, 'cause I really do believe that
• 2:52:24
  if you stay committed and you keep making videos, I think you
• 2:52:28
  got a great personality, you got a good voice and stuff.
• 2:52:31
  And I think that you're probably going to climb on YouTube, but
• 2:52:35
  the issue is you're going to start getting people coming out
• 2:52:38
  of the woodwork wanting to invite you to stuff like this.
• 2:52:42
  Make sure you exactly what you did with me with them.
• 2:52:46
  Look into what they're doing first before you go on their
• 2:52:49
  show cause some of these hell. Yeah, look, I think I.
• 2:52:54
  Saw, I think I saw, I can't remember what video it was and I
• 2:52:58
  was like, I'm not quite. Sure who this guy is.
• 2:53:01
  Yeah, better look at some of his other stuff, you know?
• 2:53:03
  And then I was like, oh, OK, I see what the, you know, 'cause I
• 2:53:06
  think maybe it was one of the Satanists that you were, you
• 2:53:08
  know, talking to. But.
• 2:53:10
  But then I, you know, I just looked at more.
• 2:53:13
  But yeah, thank you for that advice.
• 2:53:15
  Yeah. I don't want to.
• 2:53:17
  End up on some of the Satanists they.
• 2:53:18
  Don't want to come into the room anymore because their leader, I
• 2:53:22
  guess he said he goes, Brett, you seem like you're really
• 2:53:26
  cool. What do you think about joining
• 2:53:29
  up with us? And I said, I'm not into that.
• 2:53:31
  I'm into Jesus and God. I'm into the winning team, you
• 2:53:35
  know? He thought that he was going to.
• 2:53:38
  Get me to join or something. And I said no, but we can have
• 2:53:43
  nice conversations. And since then, they don't seem
• 2:53:46
  to want to talk anymore, now that they know that I'm not some
• 2:53:49
  sheep that'll just go off somewhere with them, right?
• 2:53:53
  Right, right. Hey, it took me a long time to
• 2:53:56
  understand my my. Sovereignty and my.
• 2:54:01
  Authority when it comes to the. The dark side of.
• 2:54:07
  Spiritual life, you know, it took me a long time, and once I
• 2:54:13
  understood it, you know, I was. Left alone.
• 2:54:16
  'Cause I won't have it. And maybe and that's that's a
• 2:54:19
  good place for my intensity. You know.
• 2:54:23
  But, and I'm, you know, I, I, I have be very discerning.
• 2:54:31
  So I hope you keep on rocking. And I hope that you know, health
• 2:54:35
  keeps treating you well and keep making some videos.
• 2:54:38
  You got some really good stuff. And I think that you're your
• 2:54:42
  material actually it, it is very different than a lot of the
• 2:54:45
  other stuff out there. I feel like when I'm watching
• 2:54:48
  you, I'm watching a real person who actually cares about what
• 2:54:51
  they're talking about, not doing it for some kind of ego or
• 2:54:54
  narcissism. A lot of these other people are
• 2:54:57
  just like they, they seem like they're just paid puppets or
• 2:55:01
  something yapping, you know what I mean?
• 2:55:03
  It's a great. Compliment.
• 2:55:06
  Thank you. I really.
• 2:55:08
  I really. Care, you know, I really care
• 2:55:10
  about people and I really care about what's going on, you know,
• 2:55:14
  for humanity and I and I believe, and I believe in those,
• 2:55:19
  you know, that there's a lot of us out here that that are of
• 2:55:25
  like mind, you know, and we need to support one another and you.
• 2:55:31
  Know and talk about these. Things.
• 2:55:33
  So yeah. I agree I since.
• 2:55:39
  Said about you. Yeah, and.
• 2:55:43
  Come together because, you know, it was it was really rough
• 2:55:47
  feeling so isolated. And you know, I understand that,
• 2:55:51
  you know, people who do spiritual work, you know, if
• 2:55:53
  they're making a living that way, you know, they need to
• 2:55:56
  charge for things. But it just seemed to me that.
• 2:56:02
  Things are just so. Incredibly expensive.
• 2:56:04
  It was like, here I here I'm one that's trying to better myself
• 2:56:09
  and, you know, can't. Pay a. $1000 for help, you know,
• 2:56:15
  or can't, you know, I can come up with some money, but I mean
• 2:56:18
  that, you know, and it just seemed like everything I came
• 2:56:20
  across or most things, you know, I came across were just so
• 2:56:25
  incredibly expensive. It was like, oh, I guess if
• 2:56:28
  unless you have money you don't deserve, you know, it's like a
• 2:56:32
  message that says you don't deserve, you know, help.
• 2:56:36
  So. You know, and, and I think, you
• 2:56:42
  know, maybe, you know, I've seen some people who, who do some
• 2:56:45
  things for free or, or they have different prices, you know, for
• 2:56:49
  things, you know, and I think that's great, you know, 'cause
• 2:56:52
  everybody should be included in, you know, getting some help or,
• 2:56:56
  or. You know, whatever it is that
• 2:57:00
  they. You know.
• 2:57:02
  We should all be included. You know, so I never want to be
• 2:57:06
  that person, you know? So 'cause I think.
• 2:57:10
  Some people are. It's not the money.
• 2:57:13
  About what people go for, that bothers me.
• 2:57:15
  People got to live, we got to pay our bills and all that,
• 2:57:18
  right? I get that I.
• 2:57:19
  Get that? It's the fake people.
• 2:57:22
  It's fake people that are the turn off for me, right?
• 2:57:28
  Yeah. You had mentioned.
• 2:57:32
  Something to go back to some of our earlier conversation.
• 2:57:37
  You had mentioned the Illuminati a couple times.
• 2:57:40
  What got you into that process? Well, you know.
• 2:57:44
  It's it was just. That's what I assumed.
• 2:57:49
  You know that my uncle was involved in because.
• 2:57:54
  You know, because. What I was involved in when, you
• 2:57:58
  know, with other people, with him, it was always the wealthy
• 2:58:01
  and I, I, I don't know who, but I knew there was very important
• 2:58:04
  people there, like people, you know, I don't know who, but I, I
• 2:58:08
  have that sense of a. Memory.
• 2:58:12
  It's not a. Specific memory, but there were
• 2:58:13
  very important people there. So, and then I've heard other
• 2:58:17
  testimonies of people, you know, that have talked about, you
• 2:58:20
  know, judges, police, you know, police involved or, you know,
• 2:58:23
  the, the people that we think we can trust in society.
• 2:58:26
  And so being that it was a, a very, very wealthy place that I
• 2:58:30
  was at and having that sense, that's generally the Illuminati.
• 2:58:35
  That's generally, you know, the, the, the Freemasons, you know,
• 2:58:39
  and you know, a mixture, you know, of things.
• 2:58:45
  And that's what that's how they hide is that they have innocent
• 2:58:47
  people involved in things that don't know what they're doing,
• 2:58:50
  you know, 'cause not all people who are into Freemasonry
• 2:58:54
  understand what they're involved in.
• 2:58:56
  You know, I that's my belief anyway.
• 2:58:59
  But but. Yeah.
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  So I just. Assumed that that's what that he
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  was a part of. You know, because.
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  That's what they do and it's. Generally the wealthy, you know,
• 2:59:13
  and the people in society. That make decisions for society
• 2:59:18
  yeah, and they. Lead us and we.
• 2:59:19
  We vote for them, you know, and you know, so you know a lot.
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  Of. Most people don't know that, you
• 2:59:27
  know, a lot of our government is involved in this, you know, and.
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  It's just a fact, I'm not really sure.
• 2:59:37
  That at least nowadays I've I've had this sense in the last 1520
• 2:59:42
  years that we're not actually voting for these people at all.
• 2:59:46
  They're giving us the illusion that we have where they're and
• 2:59:50
  as. Though we've given.
• 2:59:51
  We've been given a choice, but I really don't believe a lot of
• 2:59:54
  these people got actual human votes to be where they are.
• 2:59:59
  I don't believe. I believe the.
• 3:00:00
  Same as you. And I think that we threw a, we
• 3:00:03
  threw a ringer in there because someone got in that they had no
• 3:00:07
  intention of getting in and didn't think he would get in.
• 3:00:11
  You know. You know, Trump to me, I, you
• 3:00:15
  know, it's, it's, you know, he's not a perfect person, you know,
• 3:00:19
  but facts are facts. And we know how things went when
• 3:00:22
  he was running things, you know, and that's, that's what I look
• 3:00:25
  at. You know, we're not going to
• 3:00:27
  like every personality, you know?
• 3:00:30
  But they didn't. They had no idea they were going
• 3:00:32
  to lose control like that, you know?
• 3:00:34
  They were shocked. So they've they've spent.
• 3:00:38
  All their time trying to make sure that never happens again.
• 3:00:40
  But you know, the cat's out of the bag now and people are
• 3:00:43
  wiser, so. And they and they're.
• 3:00:47
  They've become so obvious, so you know that's.
• 3:00:53
  Where we're treating things. Yeah.
• 3:00:58
  So what you going to do? After you let me go.
• 3:01:01
  I. Might go to the.
• 3:01:03
  Pool because it's not so bad today like it doesn't feel it's
• 3:01:07
  feels more humid out there, but it's not as hot as it's been.
• 3:01:10
  So I might go to the pool and it's a little bit overcast.
• 3:01:14
  Well, do. Me a better.
• 3:01:16
  Plug your. YouTube channel, let people know
• 3:01:19
  where they can find you. I have a link in the title and
• 3:01:22
  I'll definitely put in the description, but tell people
• 3:01:25
  about what they should expect coming to your channel because
• 3:01:29
  also I'm gonna. I'm gonna just start.
• 3:01:32
  Apparently I can monetize my channel now 'cause I have 1000
• 3:01:35
  subscribers, so you have to go into your video.
• 3:01:39
  Manager and click on Earn on the left and then you can set it all
• 3:01:43
  up there. If you need any help, just
• 3:01:45
  e-mail me and I'll let you know how.
• 3:01:48
  Yeah. Yeah, 'cause when I went to the.
• 3:01:51
  Screen. It said that you can apply for
• 3:01:53
  that, so I figured, OK, I'll just do that and follow the
• 3:01:56
  prompts. But I was waiting till after
• 3:01:58
  this so I can really take a look and I'm also looking into how to
• 3:02:03
  edit and all that kind of stuff. I'm in a different place now.
• 3:02:07
  I've learned a lot of things. So I thought, well, I'll just
• 3:02:09
  retry and whatever help I need. Thank you for offering.
• 3:02:13
  You know, I'll have some support for that.
• 3:02:15
  You know, God will bring me that.
• 3:02:16
  So because I really, I want to start doing a lot more videos,
• 3:02:22
  you know, because it's just, I feel like it's time.
• 3:02:24
  So yeah. And I would love to.
• 3:02:27
  Do this again with you, that this has been wonderful.
• 3:02:30
  It's not. An immediate thing, you'll send
• 3:02:33
  it in and it'll take them a couple months before they do
• 3:02:36
  that. But if you do require some, like
• 3:02:41
  some money or some support or whatever, what you could do is,
• 3:02:44
  since you use a phone for most of your stuff, set yourself up
• 3:02:48
  for a cash app and then let people, Yeah, I have a.
• 3:02:54
  Yeah, I have a cash. App and I put it on my but I
• 3:02:57
  think I need to rearrange some things 'cause I just didn't
• 3:02:59
  understand how to. So I think I gotta rearrange how
• 3:03:04
  I do that so 'cause I've never gotten a cash app so but of
• 3:03:09
  course I don't go. I haven't gone on consistently
• 3:03:11
  so but I but for I have made the decision that I'm going to be
• 3:03:16
  more involved with my YouTube channel.
• 3:03:19
  When you're talking just. Simply at the beginning of your
• 3:03:22
  videos introduce yourself and at the end say if any up buddy out
• 3:03:26
  there wants to support me or you, I would love it if you
• 3:03:29
  leave some comments about how you felt about the video.
• 3:03:33
  Always say things like that. Believe it or not some people
• 3:03:36
  need to be reminded. I always put a big old stamp
• 3:03:38
  right on the front of my videos that says please subscribe,
• 3:03:42
  comment and write. OK, That'd be nice if they did
• 3:03:46
  that, yeah. OK.
• 3:03:51
  It's good things to know. Well, anything else you want.
• 3:03:55
  To know before I throw on the outro, not.
• 3:04:00
  That I can think of at the. Moment.
• 3:04:03
  All right, if you come up. With anything you have my e-mail
• 3:04:06
  and remember you can contact me anytime you like and you also
• 3:04:10
  I'll send you a phone number and you can call if you ever need to
• 3:04:14
  talk. All right.
• 3:04:15
  Thank you so much. I really.
• 3:04:16
  Appreciate you. It's all good.
• 3:04:19
  I. Appreciate you coming into.
• 3:04:21
  You're an awesome person. Thank you.
• 3:04:32
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