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Mental Health Check In · Black Girl Interrupted Podcast

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Come on, all right, what's up y'all? Y'all know with sugar Ash
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checking in from Black Girl Interrupted. I just want to make sure everybody is
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going great. You know, the holidays are approaching, so I just want
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to go live for a moment tonight. Definitely, definitely, definitely want to
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say thank you guys for all the continued love and support that you guys continuously
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show me. But I want to just step in for a moment. I
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want to do a mental health check in. How's everybody feeling, how's everybody
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doing, what's been going on? You know, drop your comments, let
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me know how y'all doing. Yesterday was really not a good day for me.
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As many of you know, or some of you may not know,
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I do suffer from anxiety and depression, so yesterday was really really like not
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a good day for me. So I just want to do a mental health
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check in on all my supporters, my followers. Drop your comments, let
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me know how y'all feeling, what's going on? You know, if you
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need to talk, get me up, send me a message. You know
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what I'm saying, we can work through whatever it is you're going through together.
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When I let everybody know whatever struggles you're going through. You're not alone,
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You're not by yourself, So drop your comments. What's good everybody?
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How y'all doing? Is everybody ready for Christmas? Shoot? I'm just ready
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for this year to be over with really, to be honest with you.
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So, like I said, I'm just doing a mental health check in.
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I'm not gonna be all along tonight. But I don't know how everybody's doing
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tonight. Oh lord, y'all my eyelashes. I had to fix myself up
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so I didn't look like what I had been going through. But like I
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said, yesterday was really really a bad day for me. You know,
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I had a real bad anxiety attack. I had to reach out to my
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yesterday and talk to her, and she had a religious kind of taught me
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down. And y'all, this has definitely definitely been hard for me. I
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did see my Saints Louis yesterday. Well I didn't watch the game, but
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I did go back and see the highlights. But shout out to Jewel and
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Treaty. Thank y'all for calling and checking on me yesterday. You know,
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I really really really truly needed that a lot of people don't know that anxiety
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is definitely not an easy thing to deal with. I had my good days,
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I had my bad days, and sometimes the bad outweigh the good.
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And I knew yesterday, well, I knew Saturday night, Hey Tara artists,
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what's the boo? Good to see you to night. But I knew
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Saturday something was off with me. I knew maybe it. Prior to Saturday,
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my energy was not you know, I'm normally at a hundred and my
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energy was literally down to a twenty five. So it just I kept trying
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to push through. And so Saturday night, after I got home, I
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literally flipped out because I couldn't find the remote control to the TV. So
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like, I'm over here losing my mind, going crazy. I'm talking to
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my sister on the phone. We're having a conversation, and things in the
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conversation just really kind of triggered. It was almost like that was the ice
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and on the cake. So yesterday I sat in the dark all day.
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You know, I had the TV on, but I wasn't watching the TV.
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And I cried literally all day. I think I cried all Saturday night,
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half the day yesterday. Like I said, two people reached out to
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me yesterday, and you know, they really kind of helped me push through
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yesterday. So this is exactly why I'm doing a mental health check in,
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because I want to make sure everybody's good, you know. I want people
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to know that you don't suffer alone. Depression and anxiety is horrible. You
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know. I know a lot of people. Hey, Christy, I understand
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how you feeling today, How you doing today? You know. So I
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had to reach out to my other spiritual advisor and I had to go on
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too deep meditation today. I really had to because yesterday, like I said,
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yesterday, it just really was not good for me. I was,
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I was on the edge yesterday. I really truly was. I'm not ashamed
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to tell anybody that, you know, I'm not crazy. Oh you get
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like that too. Yeah. Saturday, like I literally flipped out because I
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couldn't find a remote control. I was like, fuck, I got the
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order of a whole other remote control. Like, I just just really went
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off the deep end and then woke up yesterday was in tears and just my
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mind was all over the place. And so today I cried a little bit.
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But you know, I had a couple of people that you know,
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checked on me today and I told him, I felt better today than what
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I did yesterday. Physically, I'm exhausted. Last night was the first night
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I had gotten literally eight hours of sleep, because when you're dealing with anxiety,
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although your body is trying to rest, your mind is still going a
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thousand miles a minute. You know, no matter what you try to do.
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I try to put on meditation music, I tried to take myself off
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to the beach and you know, in my mind just to really really really
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calm down, and I was just to the point of no return. So
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I had to reach out to my therapist yesterday and she really had to talk
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me down. Oh Christy, I'm glad you're feeling and I'm glad you're doing
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good. I'm happy. Oh hands around, what's up, le bro?
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What's good? What's good? My energy level is better today. But like
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I said, I had to step in. You know, I need to
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do a mental health check in with everybody. You know, whatever it is
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you're going through, talk to somebody about it. Talk to somebody you're not
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alone. Don't be ashamed, because the only way to get through whatever it
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is you're going through with to talk about it. Let somebody know. My
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inbox is always open. You know what I'm saying. If you need an
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ear and you just need you know, you need to vent with no judgment,
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nothing biased, hit hit me up. My inbox is always open,
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you know what I'm saying, Because maybe I could talk you down off that
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ledge. You know, we could work through the situation together, and like
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I said, dropping you know, jump in the comments, let me know
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how y'all feeling. Yeah, Ta, it's really not. And when I
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tell you, yesterday was absolutely not a good thing for me yesterday, it
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really truly was not. I just I literally shut down from the world yesterday
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literally, and for me not to tune in and watch football, you knew
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something was wrong, you know. But I had to have a conversation with
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people, you know, I had to get it out because it was just
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like I said, I was on the edge yesterday. Shout out to my
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BFL. Thank you friend for those encouraging words. You know. He told
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me, he was like, you know, I hate to see you down
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like that. He was like, you know, with the type of person
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you are, you could light up a room. And I needed to hear
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that, you know, because there are days that I don't see those things
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and maybe if somebody sees it more than I, so I appreciate that.
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I appreciate the love. You know, It's difficult to talk to people because
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when I when I tried to explain to people what anxiety is, it's almost
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like they think I'm crazy, and I'm not. It's just certain things.
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Just I overthink a lot. You know, I've got a deadline and I'm
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trying to rush and I'm trying to do this. I'm trying to do that,
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and it's just you know, it was hard, and I knew something
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was wrong. Like I said, I knew that it was coming because,
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like I said, my energy level was off. It was all I wasn't
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really in the mood to do anything trying to finish working on this logos so
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I can get it over to my guys so he could go ahead and start
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doing my shirts. I just was all over the place. I couldn't function.
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But I'm better today. I still am in a little fall, but
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I'm coming through it. I did meditate, like I said, I meditated
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today. Shout out to Miss Teresa for helping me today in regards to me
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meditating and me figuring out, you know, what I need to do.
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I just need to pull back. I need to just relax and I just
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need to let everything flow like it's gonna flow. And that's one of my
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triggers when it comes to my anxiety again, I overthink. I'm trying to
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end y'all to say I've over nail yesterday. But I mean, you know,
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whatever you're going through, don't be ashamed to talk to anybody. My
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declaration today going forward, I means to keep pushing you know whatever. Like
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I said, whatever you're going through, talk to somebody's it doesn't make you
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crazy. If you talked to a therapist, it does not make you crazy.
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So if somebody tells you, oh, just pray about it, I
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mean, you could pray all you want, but sometimes you need to out
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and sometimes you need the voice, you know, a ear to vent and
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just you know, get everything off your chests. So, like I said,
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the comments are open, drop your comments, let me know how y'all
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are doing. Like I said, I'm doing a mental health check in.
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Like I said, the holidays are rolling around. Holidays aren't good for a
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lot of people. A lot of people are you know, celebrating their first
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holiday without a loved one or or maybe this is the tenth year. You
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know, they celebrating without a loved one. But I definitely want to send
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an abundance of love and an abundance of prayers. Say everybody's holiday season.
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Whatever it is you're going through, keep pushing, you know, keep pushing,
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keep pushing, keep pushing. Don't give up, don't give up.
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No, oh, miss Denise, I'm sending love and prayers to you.
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She just posted and let me know her daughter was found hanging. So Miss
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Denise, I love you. My inbox is open if you want to talk
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about it, if you want to cry about it, we could cry together,
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although you know physically because of the pandemic. If I was there,
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I would definitely hug you. But I'm sending an abundance of love and an
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abundance of prayers to you and your family. And I pray your daughter made
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peace with her decision. I hope that doesn't sound too crass, because I
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want to make sure I say the right words. I definitely prayed for peace
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to come over your heart and understand it. So love to you, Miss
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Deniece. Everybody that's tuning in, please send some love to miss Deniece.
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She just lost her daughter recently lost her daughter, So I'm sending loving prayers
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to you again. My inbox is open if you were like our inboxing my
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phone. But we can talk, we can face time, we could cry
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together. Whatever you need, I'm here. But yeah, drop your comments,
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y'all. Let me know how y'all feeling. Let's do this checking,
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you know, reach out to somebody. You know, everybody that's smiling and
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looking good in the pictures. You don't know what's hide behind a smile.
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You don't know what's hiding behind those pitches. Do a checking. You know,
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you'll be surprised at what a phone call or a text could do for
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somebody. That could literally change somebody's whole day. Those two phone calls I
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got yesterday literally changed my day because they let me know somebody was thinking about
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me. Because I felt alone. The people that are closest to me,
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you know that, you know, my family, I can't talk to them
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because it's almost like they don't understand. So I shared a couple of posts
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on my page today to let you know what anxiety is. You know,
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people that suffer from bipolar, be patient with them. It's not like we
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can control this. It's not like it's not a life, which is not
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like we could cut it off and cut it on. We have to just
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go through, you know, we have to go through that motion until we
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come out of it. And it does leave us exhausted mentally, physically,
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emotionally. It does do that, It absolutely does. So again, I'm
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gonna continue to do my mental health checking. You know, I won't know
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how everybody's doing. You know, if you don't want to post it in
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the comments, send it to my inbox. Let me know how you're doing.
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If you need somebody talk to, what can I do to help you
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get through whatever it is that you're going Let me know, And I genuinely
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mean that from the bottom of my heart. Anybody that knows me, y'all
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know this. This ain't no game, This ain't no joke. I'm not
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doing this for fun. I'm doing this because I really truly want to help
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somebody, because somebody helped me. So again, we're gonna continue this mental
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health checking. You know, y'all let me know how y'all doing, how
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y'all feeling, how y'all been feeling? You know, are you scared,
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are you anxious? What's going on? Are you stressed. Is it financial?
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Is it because of the pandemic? Is it? Whatever it is,
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don't be afraid. I don't judge, as y'all see. I'm open,
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I'm raw, I'm vulnerable. I don't care what y'all feel about me or
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what you think about me. You just call me crazy. Some of y'all
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still find your things. But one thing I canna say. You can never
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throw my past in my face because I walk in my truth. Take eed
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to that, some of y'all. So anyhow, let's keep doing this mental
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health check in. Y'all check in. Let me know how you're doing.
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I think somebody. Oh hold on, wait a minute, I got to
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change this. There would go, there would go, all right, Hey
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Mo, love your sister, Steve. I'm I'm better today. I'm better
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today. I absolutely feel better than what I did yesterday. Yesterday was who
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I didn't want to do anything. I had to make myself eat yesterday.
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But I still hate the cheese cake blow. So but I'm good. I'm
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better today. I'm much better today, much much better today. Like I
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said, I had to get in my closet and I had to meditate.
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I had to go into my place of silence, and I had to have
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a real life conversation with myself. I had to let myself know that it's
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okay, and then I'm gonna be all right. I'm strong, I'm resilient.
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No regrets for twenty and twenty. Let me let me say that,
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no regrets for twenty twenty. I'm looking forward to twenty twenty one. I
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really truly am I. I know twenty twenty one is gonna be a better
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year for me. I took a lot of els this year, but through
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those elves came a lot of good stuff. You know. I was able
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to mend the broken relationship with my children and give in. I'm definitely gonna
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give y'all an update on that. Much better, much better with my children.
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I'm still working on me and my mom still working, but all is
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not lost on that. What else? What else can I tell y'all that's
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been good this year? I finally took that leap and launched my podcast that
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y'all could sleep. So for every l that I took, there was always
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a w behind, So no regrets. I lost a lot of people,
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but I gained a lot of people. So for the ones that I lost,
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they were replaced with good. So twenty twenty was good, twenty twenty
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one is gonna be even better because I'm coming for everything that I couldn't reach
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in twenty twenty. So twenty twenty one, be on a lookout for your
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girl, baby, because guess what, that's fark is back. I'm learning
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not to step on my own toes. I'm learning not to stand in my
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own way. I'm learning not to damn my own life. So I'm definitely
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proud of that. I'm definitely proud of the woman that I am evolving into.
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I fell down yesterday. I did, but I got back up,
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so I have to keep reminding myself. You know, we're in a full
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moon, so I'm manifesting everything that I want for twenty twenty one. I'm
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speaking like it's already happened. You know. I'm still here with y'all.
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All. We still doing this mental health checking, you know. But I
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want y'all to know that I love y'all. I really appreciate y'all. I
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think y'all for the continuous love, for the continuous support. I really appreciate
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that. And as you can see, I'm doing it by myself tonight,
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which is good for me too. So I'm I'm spreading my wings, you
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know, I'm coming out of that cage and I'm spread my wings and I'm
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flying. And I will admit it feels good. It feels really good,
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you know. Today, Like I said, A good a better day for
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me today, and I know tomorrow will be even better. And I'll keep
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going and keep going and keep going. And then you know, when I
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do have those episodes, y'all please check on check on. So if y'all
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see something that's kind of off, get your girl in box and let me
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know, you know, saying, hey, what's going on? Ash?
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You ain't you today? Because I may need that And I'm gonna start doing
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that, you know what teach never wanted. Y'all. How you doing so?
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Every day I want to do a mental health checking. How you doing?
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How y'all doing so? Another topic I want to get into tonight,
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as I stayed it. The holidays are rolling around. This is not the
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best year for everybody, you know, Like I say, people are celebrating
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holidays without loved ones. People are dealing with financial issues, People are dealing
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with the stress of possibly being evicted from their homes. On December thirty first,
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So how's everybody dealing with it? What are you guys doing? Let
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me know and maybe I can talk to you and give you ways to cope
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with the holiday blues. Like I say, I know, it's not easy
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this time of the year. It's hard. I'm really not a big Christmas
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person. My grandmother passed away the day after Christmas in nineteen ninety eight,
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so Christmas has not been the same and I see it a lot. You
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know, it's almost like when the grandmother passes away or mom is gone,
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the holidays are never really truly the same. So if you are going through
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some type of holiday blues that you want to talk about it, y'all know
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my inbox is voting. Hit your girl up. Let's talk about it.
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I'm not judging you, no judgment here. Whatever we talk about its confidential.
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Whatever you're talking about, whatever you discuss, it is between me and
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you. If you need me to cry with you, we're gonna cry.
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But let me take these eyelashes off first, or before we start crying.
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But I but how ways to beat the holiday blues? My tips and my
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advice. Get a journal or a tablet and write down your thoughts. How
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are you feeling, How are you feeling? Another tip? Reach out to
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somebody, because again you never know what they're going through. You don't know
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what they're going through, you know what I'm saying, Contact somebody, lest
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somebody know. Oh, Steve, I'm so late on these comments. Yes,
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but again I'm doing better. Absolutely. You know I'm a lifting wounds
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and you know I'm a bounce back. I can't stay in that. I
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can't stay in that whole too long. I just can't do it. It's
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it's I don't like being in that dark place. I hate it there.
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Whatever you're type, Steve, I can't see your comment, bro. But
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back to how to beat the holiday blues. Like I say, get a
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journal, a tablet, what a right, right, what you're feeling right,
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what you're feeling in it more. I know it's cold, take a
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walk, get out of your house, you know, move to another room
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in your house, reach out to your loved ones, talk to somebody another.
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And I'm trying to think of other ways to beat the holiday blues.
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And I go virtual. You know, with the pandemic, you know it's
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hard for families to get together. Virtual, do a zoom, you know,
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strain y'all do something, you know something, but just don't stay in
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there whole too long, you know, don't stay in for better days are
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coming. Better days are coming, you know. Like I say, we're
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still doing We're still doing our mental health checking, y'all. We're still doing
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it. We're still doing that mental health checking. I want to know how
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everybody's doing other ways. Let me see. Let me make your have my
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phone, y'all. Let me let me pull up some motips on how to
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beat the holiday blues. Give me one second and laugh, you know,
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look at stuff scull on Facebook, because baby, they it's been some FOOLI
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stuff on Facebook. Chib. Baby they didn't add me to this crazy group,
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uh baby, and they does too much. But you know what,
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it keeps my spirits up, so you know, laughter is good for the
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soul. Let me see, I'm trying to pull up some tips for everybody
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on how to beat the holiday blues. Give me one second, y'all.
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I should have had this all together, but I mean, you know,
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I'm just y'all know I don't never do nothing scripted. So a few of
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the ways to beat the holiday blues be realistic. Laugh at yourself like I
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say, pull up something on Facebook because you know, somebody always posted some
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kind of fooler real now getting some of these all crazy like me groups and
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just laugh, you know what I'm saying. Another tip that I pulled up
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is work with what you have. You know, I know everybody's trying to
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go all out, but just work with what you have. You know what
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I'm saying to me, Christmas is not all about gift giving, you know
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what I'm saying, So stop putting materialistic stuff. First. Be thankful for
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your health, you know, be thankful that you that God allows you to
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open your eyes today. For the ones that are still employed, be thankful
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that you're still employed at your job. Be thankful that you still have clothes
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on your back. Be thankful that you still got a roof over your head,
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because there are some people out here that don't. So another tip that
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I pointed out was help others. You know what I'm saying. Reach out
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for somebody because that may make you feel because you're helping somebody else. So
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that's another way to beat the holiday blues. I know a lot of churches
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are no longer faith face to face, but are virtual. Tune in get
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you some get you some type of church online, get some type of inspiration
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to help you beat those holiday blues again, be thankful for what you have
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and not what you don't have, and most importantly, take care of yourself.
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Get as much rest as you can, eat, drink plenty of water.
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Meditate, Meditate, definitely meditate to beat those holiday blues. I know
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it's easier said than done, but just know that you'll get through this just
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day by day, one day at a time, you know, like they
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say, one foot in front of the other, another one. If you've
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lost somebody, allow yourself time degree, Allow yourself time degree to get through
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the holiday blue. Allow yourself time degree. You know, remember the good
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times with a person that has passed on. Remember those times, you know,
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hold on to the good, the good times, and not the bad.
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Last but not least, love and forgive, so love heart, Forgive
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the people that have hurt you. Forgive yourself for hurting yourself. So those
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are definitely my tips on how to beat the holiday blue. So to anybody
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that I've hurt or anybody that has hurt me, I forgive you, and
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I hope you forgive me. You know, I need that for a sense
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of peace, and that's definitely what you need. We definitely want peace in
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these shrine times, you know, dealing with the pandemic and all the other
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political bullshit that we have going on in the world. We definitely need peace.
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So I pray and send an abundance of love and abundance of prayers to
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each and every person. I ask God to comfort your hearts whatever it is
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you're going through. God's gonna pull you through, whatever uncomfortable state you're sitting
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in. It's only temporary, it's not permanent. It's definitely not permanent.
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Again, we're still doing our mental health checking. We're still checking in.
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I wanna know how y'all doing. Talk to me, Like I said,
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my inbox is open. You wanna talk, you wanna laugh, you wanna
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cry? I got you. Just call me early in the morning. They
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look at how I look at the morning, baby, that's definitely something to
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laugh about, because I look eight. I mess when I wake up.
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But oh well, even I have to laugh at myself, you know.
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But but yeah, we're gonna continue to do that mental health checking. And
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if you feel, you know, suicidal, or you feel like you can't
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talk to anybody, let me go ahead and post that on the screen.
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That's the mental health that's the suicide prevention lifeline one eight hundred two seven three
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talk. Let me see. Can I try to make it. I should
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have did another picture to where you could really see it. But if you
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feel like you're on the edge and you're done all you can, please call
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it number. Please call that number. Y'all help somebody check on, check
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on your friends, your loved ones, the ones that you haven't been seeing,
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posting, the ones that you haven't talked to reach out to them because
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you don't know what they're going through. And like I say, one phone
29:57
call, one text could change your whole person's look outlook for the day because
30:04
at least they thought about you know what I'm saying, So definitely do that.
30:10
Like I say, we're still continuing on with our mental health check in.
30:15
Drop those comments. Let me know how y'all doing tonight. Let me
30:18
know what I could do to help you. I can't physically give your hug,
30:22
but if you need me to virtually give your hug, I'll send you
30:26
a virtual hug. I'll sing you something nice to your inbox. If you
30:30
don't want anybody to know that you're going through something. Hit my inbox up.
30:36
You know, Like I say, we're in this together. We own
30:40
this journey together. You're not alone, You're not walking this dark rule by
30:42
yourself. But again, you know, love for Gil so you can heal
30:48
it, so you could have some type of peace. And don't meditate,
30:52
y'all, meditate, take your mind to a happy place. You know.
30:57
Like I said, we're still doing. I meant to health checking. I
31:00
want to know how everybody's doing. I love y'all. I do like I
31:07
say, I'm I'm praying for everybody that's in a dark place. I'm praying
31:11
for you. I pray that God brings some type of peace to your life.
31:15
I really do. Again, Miss McClinton, I will contact you after
31:22
the show because I want to pray with you. You know, I want
31:29
you to know that you're not alone, that you're not by yourself, and
31:33
whatever whatever journey your own, let's walk it together. Again. I want
31:38
to ask everybody that's tuning in, that's tuned in, please send prayers to
31:44
Miss McClinton, Please send prayers to her. Her daughter passed away due to
31:49
a suicide. So I want you all to know that this is real.
31:56
This is real. So miss McClinton, I love you, and again I
32:00
will be contacting you after the show tonight. I definitely want to I definitely
32:07
want to pray with you. I want to talk to you. I want
32:10
to send my love to you. I want you to know you and I
32:15
buy yourself tonight, you know, and in the days after that, let's
32:20
get on this healing journey together, you know. And like I say,
32:25
we're still gonna keep this mental health checking. So if you start seeing in
32:30
boxes, come for me, it's gonna be something positive, you know.
32:34
Like I say, it's the holidays. Everybody's trying to beat the holiday blues.
32:40
Everybody's going through it. Like I say, there's my nephew, Hey
32:45
baby hat Twine love you, but yeah, help somebody get through these Help
32:54
somebody get through these trying times. You know, Like I say, what
32:58
everything we see on TV, you know, down to the pandemic. You
33:01
know, people losing their jobs, people are losing their home. People don't
33:06
know how they're gonna feed their children from day to day. People don't know
33:07
how this field is gonna get paid. Reach out for somebody, because you
33:13
never know, it could be you. It could definitely definitely be you.
33:21
Oh my baby, I love your sweeten. You never know it could definitely
33:25
be you. So reach out sending somebody as cinema tech, shoot them a
33:30
text and say hey, I'm thinking about you to day, or say I
33:34
love you something like I said yesterday, those two people I needed that.
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I'm sorry those three people, my apologies. My BFF and my two sisters,
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thank you. I'm for checking on me yesterday, because yesterday was real
33:52
hard. It was absolutely the most I won't say the most difficult day,
33:57
but it was a difficult day. And I don't know, like I said,
34:00
because my energy was off, had been off the last few days.
34:05
And like I said, I literally flipped out because I couldn't find a remote
34:07
control and I knew then. I was like, yeah, it comes into
34:10
anxiety attack. And it did, and when it comes, it sends me
34:15
right into a depressed state. So yeah, but like I said, I
34:22
meditated today. I cried. I cried a little bit today. I got
34:27
up and I put on my church music. I talked to my sister today,
34:32
I spoke with my other spiritual advisor today, and I meditated today.
34:37
So I was able to release a lot of that energy. But like I
34:42
say, the holiday blues, let's go, let's let's work through this together.
34:47
You know, like I say, let's still keep that mental health checking.
34:52
You know, it's it doesn't make you crazy because you're anxiety. Everybody's
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anxious now, so it don't make me. You're crazy. Means you're human,
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that's all. So don't let anybody tell you that you're crazy, because
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you're not. Like I said, I wasn't gonna hold everybody up tonight.
35:12
But my final thoughts, my final thoughts, final, final, final thoughts.
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Huh, let me say this. I love you, guys, I
35:25
appreciate all the love. Yeah, when I tell you antline, Oh,
35:38
I had a real I had a real bad anxiety attacked Saturday night Sunday morning,
35:44
and I just I cried all day, all day yesterday. It just
35:50
I mean the rain. It was raining here yesterday, so that really didn't
35:54
make it any better. It was just it was a real dark day for
35:58
me yesterday. But I did. I lit my candles today and I meditated.
36:07
I meditated, I got on, got in my group, I reached
36:13
out to my therapist. I wrote, and y'all know I'm not a writer.
36:17
I'm more hopeful to tell you what's going on with me versus writing down
36:22
my feelings. So journaline doesn't work for me, but it could possibly work
36:27
for somebody else. But I did. I meditated today. I got in
36:30
my closet and I went into my safe place. I went, you know,
36:37
I took myself in my mind. I took myself off to the beach
36:42
because water is so peaceful and relaxing to me. So I was able to
36:46
clear the brainfall that I was feeling. And not only was I able to
36:52
clear that brainfall, but I was actually able to gain some clarity. It
37:00
was able to understand that it's okay for me to have days like that,
37:02
just not staying and then reassurance, you know, affirmation. I'm gonna start
37:10
doing my affirmations again every morning and every night. I'm gonna continue to manifest
37:19
what I want for twenty twenty one and the remainder of twenty twenty. Although
37:23
we have what today is what the fourteenth, we have seventeen more days left
37:30
in the year. So I'm ready, you know, I'm so excited for
37:36
my journey. I have to just kind of let the journey go. I
37:39
have to just kind of pull myself back and stop trying to do everything on
37:44
my own and just let the universe put things away that they're supposed to be.
37:51
So anyway, all my final thoughts for tonight I really just as a
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thought. No, okay, I'm back. So my final thoughts for tonight.
38:06
Mental illness is real, y'all. It's real. Everybody you see on
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Facebook or out in public or on TV is going through something. You know,
38:20
Check on your friends, check on your loved ones, you know.
38:24
Send something to a stranger. You know, you don't have to personally know
38:29
the person, but send them something and let them know, Hey, I
38:31
hope you have a good day, or I'm thinking about you. Whatever it
38:35
is. Like I said that one phone called, at one text at one
38:37
message could change somebody's whole day. It really truly could. It makes a
38:43
difference. Another final thought, don't forget to join Black Girl Interrupted as well
38:52
as Keisha's Corner December thirty first, for our virtual New year' Z party with
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the pandemic and you know, with the possibility of things going back on lockdown
39:04
because these cases are constantly on the rise. Join us ten pm Central Time
39:09
eleven pm Eastern Time for our virtual New Year's Eve party. Come bring in
39:14
the new year with Black Girl Interrupted as well as Keisha's corner. Oh yeah,
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I'm sorry, And for all my gamers, let me go back,
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don't forget go on YouTube and check our terror artists for all four. For
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all my gamers subscribe. He is on YouTube, and I believe he's on
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Instagram, but I know for a fact he's on YouTube. Terror Artists Full
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four, don't forget to go get colored by Keish. I believe today is
39:53
the last day for the discount on all the lipsticks. Tonight, I am
39:59
wearing moka Is y'all, Cathie Love y'all, Mooka Kisses, and be on
40:09
the lookout for the rebrand and the relaunch of Black Girl Interrupted as well.
40:15
And that is January the fifth all new episodes, Freshman Topics. I am
40:23
looking to collab with anybody on a lot of the topics that we're gonna be
40:30
talking about for the new year. I actually have everything written out to like
40:34
May of next year, so I'm definitely looking looking to collab with anybody that
40:42
doesn't mind coming on talking being seen. We do stream to all the major
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platforms. We are available on all streaming platforms, Apple, Spotify, Google
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Podcasts, typing Black Girl Interrupted, typing Keisha's Corner, you'll be able to
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pull all of us up. Oh yeah, and if you are interested in
41:05
being a guest on Black Girl Interrupted, shoot me an email. It's Black
41:10
Girl Interrupted the number one at gmail dot com. Please give me twenty four
41:16
to forty eight hours to respond to let you know what the topics of the
41:21
balan see if there's something you're interested in, so let me know again,
41:25
you know, before I sign out for the night, I just want to
41:29
do another mental health check in. Drop your comments, let me know how
41:34
y'all are doing, you know. Like I said, if you don't feel
41:37
comfortable putting it in a comment, semel inbox, you know my my inbox
41:47
is always open. Also a PSA. When I say my inbox is open,
41:55
do not send me any unsolicited penis picks because I will post them on
42:00
Facebook. So f y, stay out of my inbox. If you are
42:07
trying to be nasty, because I will post you on Facebook. So that's
42:13
f y Okay, don't say anything unsolicited to my inbox anyway, another mental
42:21
health check in, Like I say, hit my inbox up, you know,
42:27
let me know how you're feeling. If you need to talk, let
42:29
me know. You know again, if you don't feel comfortable with sharing how
42:37
you're feeling in the comments, hit my inbox is open. I believe my
42:43
phone number is posted all my black Girl interrupted page. Shoot me a text,
42:50
see me a text, you know, let me know or baby,
42:59
and continue you to stay optimistic. You know those dark days, those hard
43:05
nights, those long mornings, they don't last long. I promise you,
43:09
they don't. I promise you they don't. They don't last long. I
43:15
promise you. I promise you they don't. So just one moment to health
43:22
check in. I hope, I want, and I hope, and I
43:27
pray. Let me not stay hope. I pray for peace to come into
43:32
your trouble hearts I pray for I send an abundance of love, I send
43:42
an abundance of prayers. I send an abundance of wealth to everybody. I'm
43:52
I speak and I manifest that whatever it is you're you're striving to get to,
43:58
it's already done in twenty twenty one. So I send that to everybody
44:06
again. I love you, guys. I definitely appreciate the continued support that
44:12
you guys give me. It means so much to me. Thank you guys
44:16
for following me on my journey, and I look forward to twenty twenty one
44:22
because bigger things are about to happen in twenty twenty one. I just can't
44:27
tell, y'all. You just have to pay attention and watch. But again,
44:31
be on the lookout for the relaunch and the rebrand of Black Girl interrupted
44:37
on January the fifth, for all new episodes, fresh topics. I will
44:45
be going live twice a week, so each episode will be broken down into
44:51
two parts, so Tuesdays and Thursdays, and I will be on time,
44:54
so eight pm Central Time, nine pm Eastern y'all. So I need to
45:02
update this because it will be every Tuesday and every Thursday. And again,
45:07
you guys can follow me on Facebook, I'm on Instagram, I'm on Twitter
45:13
for all my information, for all you know and upcoming events. I am
45:19
actually in the works, in the work, in the process. I'm sorry
45:22
for planning a big Black Girl interrupting event. I'm hoping we could do it
45:30
face to face. If not, it will be virtual and I would love
45:34
each and every last one of y'all to tune in. But again, last
45:40
mental health check in for the night. I love you guys, and again,
45:45
Miss McClinton, if you're still watching, I will be reaching out to
45:51
you, you know what I'm saying, and checking on you and making sure
45:58
that you're okay, all right. So again, check on your love when
46:05
y'all reach out to him, reach out to a friend. Love love,
46:09
love, love, love hard, because tomorrow is definitely not promise to anybody,
46:14
So remember that again, be thankful for what you have and not what
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you don't have. So again, I will see y'all December thirty first,
46:22
ten pm Central time eleven pm Eastern time for our virtual New Year's Eve for
46:28
it. So I love you guys, thank you, thank you, thank
46:30
you, and again thank you for the ones that checked in on me yesterday.
46:35
But I'm feeling absolutely better to me, So love y'all. And again,
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I know I keep saying the end, of the end, the end.
46:44
My inbox is open. So for the ones that don't feel comfortable with
46:49
letting me know what you got going on in your life, send me a
46:52
message, Send me a message and we can talk. Whatever it is you're
46:58
going through, let's talk about it, Let's work through it, Okay,
47:01
and again, do not send anything unsolicited to my inbox or I will post
47:07
it on Facebook. So if you send me anything unsolicited and it doesn't go
47:15
with what I'm what I'm asking, I will post you on Facebook with your
47:20
picture next to it. So though unsolicited peenis pictures nothing, if you want
47:28
a relationship, stay your ass out of my inbox. If why, I
47:34
so love you guys, and I will see y'all again December thirty first again
47:40
ten pm Central Time, eleven pm against each sometime for our virtual New Year's
47:45
Party. Wishing everybody a great holiday, whatever holiday it is that you celebrate.
47:52
Merry Christmas, happen honaka, Happy Kwanza. Be good, be good
47:58
to yourself y'all, Love all why