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Episode #199: The Art of Discernment-Tuning into Your Body's Wisdom · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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Okay, Hi, welcome to Tea Time with Amy and Bev. Good day,
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Good morning, Hello, good day. How's it going? Oh so
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good? I think I'm catching up on my sleep after last weekend, so
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we're actually after the last like three weeks. Really it's been a lot,
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but I'm just getting the rest and and uh yeah, I'm doing okay,
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so very awesome. Right, how about you? I'm doing okay. All
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right, We're all doing okay. So there you have it. Thanks for
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joining us. That's right, Thanks for joining us. It's tea Time with's
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Amy and Bev, and have a nice day. I've been like, like,
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it just seems like there's a lot of stuff going on. You haven't
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been to the office lately, but or maybe you have, but I've it's
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changed so since the last time you were there, I've moved around a lot
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of stuff. Okay, thanks for that depth. It feels it felt a
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lot better for me. Yeah. No, I would just say there's been
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some some questionable times where I watched I sat and watched this video because i
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used to listen to this scowl a while ago. And I'm not going to
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say her name because it just didn't feel good. And I really don't want
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to share that with a bunch of other people. But the energy didn't feel
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good. And I'm listening to her and she was was a in it's Nott
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Doream virtue, but she was really on board. She was a medium and
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she was channeling and doing all these things. And I used to watch her
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early on, it was probably like three years ago. But as she was
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progressing, it just I wasn't resonating with her. So I'm not going to
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say it was good or bad. It I just it wasn't. We weren't
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in resonance with each other at all. And then this video comes across and
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she's no longer doing the other stuff basically, and it's recognizing when we hear
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these things like how it shows up, and sometimes we can't discern what we're
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receiving because because we're using our own filtration system on someone else's energy, what
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they've got going on. And then we start having bringing out all this stuff.
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So for instance, I'm listening to the scal it's nighttime and I go
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to walk over to the cat house and it's it's you know, it's dark,
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and it's not like right, it's not a few steps you know,
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I have to walk a little bit of a distance to go over to the
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house to take care of the cats, and I'm walking over there as I'm
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listening to this, and I feel like there's really seriously something uncomfortable following me,
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like right behind me, and I'm like, uh ah, so I
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just called on Archangel Michael. But I was listening to a lot of her
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stuff, and she's like talking about and this is where we It's really a
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discernment and even the progress that I've made already, which is good because spirits
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talking to me right now. But even the progress I've made already has been
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huge, it really really has. But for my process from where I'm at,
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it doesn't feel like it is that much. But I'm I'm learning to
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discern. And so by listening to her, I hear some of the things
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that she's saying. Why she quit doing that she couldn't discern whether well I
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thought I was talking to my higher self this whole time. But in the
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same statement she made comments about these energies being needy, needing her to do
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things for them. You know, all these things which don't they're not in
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alignment with our soul. They're not in alignment with Creator as far as I'm
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concerned. But watching all this stuff really left me in a place of I
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don't know who I am, where I'm going if what she was saying means
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that I have no contact with any of my loved ones, basically on the
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other side, because now it could be always evil. And it just took
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me down the same path that a lot of other people have talked about,
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like this is bad and all these things, and it's like that's their intention,
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And to me, I could use some of Doreen virtue stuff, like
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she totally took this turn, just like this scal did. And I've never
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listened to her reasoning or whatever, but my mind sees it as there was
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nothing wrong with those cards. But then I heard that she burned. I
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don't know whether that's true or not. That was the rumors right, that
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she is destroying all this stuff because it was against what she now believes to
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be as God. And I thought, how crazy is that because in that
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moment, in those intentions, it was always for the greatest good of all.
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It was never anything negative or bad. So it's like, how can
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you negate something that was never intended to be negative? In the first place,
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and then have to burn it. I can understand the shift and understand
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that you're seeing things differently, but I don't see the reason behind destroying something.
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If it was if I'm in a good place, I don't need to
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do anything with that stuff back there. I don't need to destroy it.
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So all this stuff has happened, and it's really made me ask a lot
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of questions about why am I here? What do I believe? And it's
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like, so now I'm just going on this process and I'm really being a
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little bit more well, I'm being more cognizant. I'm being the awareness is
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a lot higher and what am I creating? And I'm also noticing the last
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few days. So I'm going through a shift. And I know that I
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am because then I changed the stuff around the office. I'm I went to
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the office next door to ours because I brought my grandson in there so you
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could see some of the reptiles and stuff. And I'm standing in there and
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all of a sudden, I get like a glimmering or a shimmering something in
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my eyes. It's home. It's not the same thing as it like dizziness,
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like you're going to pass out. But it was almost like that because
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where I had to step back, I was like, oh, and I
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stepped back from them, and it like continued for a few minutes and there
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or a few seconds. It wasn't minutes, it was probably under a minute,
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and then all of a sudden, it's like everything was fine. I
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thought, what's like, there's so much stuff it seems to be going on
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right now, so it's going to be interesting to see how it plays out.
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But I've since this has all happened, I'm recognizing when my body starts
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to fold forward. And I think people pay attention to this kind of things
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because if I'm not all in perfect alignment, I'm not receiving I'm not If
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I'm not in perfect alignment, to me, that means my chokers are like
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all in different directions and they're not aligned, not in balance. And so
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when I'm having that experience, I'm recognizing when I'm in negative thoughts or I
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shouldn't say negative thoughts, thoughts that aren't making me feel good and feel aligned.
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I find myself like been over at the ways and leaning forward, and
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then all of a sudden, my thoughts are coming into my awareness and I'm
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catching my thoughts and I'm like, oh, that's a weird thought to think,
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and then as soon as I switch what I'm thinking, I automatically straighten
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up. So it's just interesting because I've been looking at things more from a
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even pulling away, more from a victim perspective, because even though we think
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we've walked away from all that stuff, we still have times that it shows
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up in our situations. So now I'm seeing it like it's all it is.
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It just means there's an imbalance in that chakra, and it's like I
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can put attention on it, and I'm already giving it attention that it's already
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caught my attention, right, I'm already in focus of it, and now
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I can just send love and light to that. I can ask what questions
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that I want to ask, or just see how I feel us just if
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I give it an attention, I'm noticing it now does the feelings just go
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away? And a lot of times that's what happens. But so like what's
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going on, there's like so many things that you you help me to stop
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and process and put it into words, because if we didn't stop and have
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these weekly things a lot of the stuff I wouldn't put into wards because you
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could sit down and write down like, Okay, this is what I experienced,
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this is what I did, and this is how it helped, and
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you could exploires that to somebody else. Me, I'm like, I don't
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know, I just went through some changes, you know, I just stuff.
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Shit happens. And now on the other side, I said, just
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feel it's like awesome. But it's like in the in that process, I'm
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not noticing what's affecting the other until now because I'm I'm having an awareness of
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it. But because I've had the asking, I feel like Spirit, my
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team whatever is actually bringing that stuff, making, you know, making me
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more aware of it. But I've asked for them to be very loud because
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I'm because I'm learning. And then when I start kind of pushing the voice
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aside a little bit, like I hear someone say, you know, Holy
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Spirit's telling you to go do this, and it's like then you stop all
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of a sudden and you don't go do it. So then what happens,
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Well, we've talked about that before. What happens is that you just learned
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how to ignore it a little bit more. You just ignored that little child,
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and now you'll just won't hear them again the next time until you really
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stop and look at them and focus on them, putting your attention, your
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attention and your awareness in that being in the now with that whatever's going on
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in front of you. So it's like there's been so much stuff, so
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much stuff. It's like how we started out was like what could I do?
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I need? I need some days where I'm not doing anything, where
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I don't have to go do anything. I don't have to go anywhere I'm
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not there's no there's nothing just for me just to be. I just want
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to just be. Now. Can I just be at any moment I can?
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But right now I just feel like I got to catch my breast.
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That's how it feels. And so, well, how do I honor myself?
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Oh, whichever way I want to? Like however it looks through all
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the day. But it's sitting in the sun, putting my feet in the
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dirt, all the above, going for a walk, taking some deep breaths
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outside, you know, whatever it takes. So it's just honoring that.
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So that's here I am. That's all you got today. I know.
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It seems like a lot, and then getting the feelings of not reading the
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stuff that I've been reading. So after listening to that, gallas not maybe
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not listening so much to the things any of the stuff I've been listening to,
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maybe gaining my own experiences. And I'm also realizing and in which I
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have discussed from some of the stuff, but not discussing so much other people's
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stuff all the time, and then recognizing what's mine. You know, what
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are my experiences. It's great that people are having these experiences, but they're
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theirs, They're not mine. So if I'm going to continue with these conversations,
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it's having my own experiences. Yeah. I think discernment is a huge
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word. It's huge because discernment shows up not only in our self awareness,
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it shows up in our ability to tune in and listen to those messages that
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are coming through. And that discernment is well even just what you're seeing on
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social media or if you're listening to the news or the conversations you're having,
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that discernment is does this feel good or does this not feel good? And
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at that point we get to make a decision. If it feels good,
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then okay, I've got to continue doing this. It's no different than you
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know, just doing massage feel good to you. And I'm going to say,
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I'm going to answer this for you as an example, is yes,
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it does. Because I get to spend time with somebody, I get to
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affect their life. I get to help them make some shifts within their body,
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hopefully in the avenue of feeling better. We have conversations, we have
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deep conversations that's helped for healing. Like today, I'm going to go do
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an energy clearing at a home and that feels good to me because it's clearing
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some energy from you know, to help them feel more comfortable in their home.
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And the coach that I do and the card readings I like, it
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all is in the highest good of helping people feel better or feel good.
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Right, That is my intention. It's always my intention. And even though
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I might have that intention, I can't control what their belief system is or
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what they're focused on. So if for an energy clearing, as an example,
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if I'm like, okay, well, focus on love. You have
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to maintain and hold that vision and focus of having love. Only love is
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welcome in your home, and anything else must go, like it needs to
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leave but if they're stuck in the fear of there's something negative in my house
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and they can't let that go. I can't control that. I can only
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do what I can do. But my intention is I'm coming in from a
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space of love and filling this home with love and doing what I can do.
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But also takes effort on their part to do what they can do because
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they're living there every day. I'm not so. And and so discernment is
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is this person in doing something from a space of help, contributing to the
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growth and expansion of feeling good, better, love, whatever terms you want
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to use. And then there are those people who you get near and they
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don't even need to say word, like they don't even need a word,
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does not need to come out of their mouth, and you're just like,
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I don't want to be around this person. Right, So discernment is such
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a huge word. And the thing is from even my mentor said it.
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I've thought about it very deeply, and it's like, you cannot teach discernment.
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Your guides can, right, Your guides can teach it to you,
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and you have to go through the progression of however slower or fast it's going
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to be for you to learn it right. But it's such a wide it
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encompasses so many things. Yeah, and you and and it's up to you
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to recognize right what feels good and what doesn't feel good, because your body
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will tell you that. Your body tells you this isn't good energy, don't
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hang out with this person, or don't hang out in this facility, or
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don't make that right turn, go left instead, Like you're having to tune
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into your body and the sensations that you might get as far as what feels
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good and what doesn't feel good is different from what I might feel. They
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maybe they're similar, but they're not going to be the same. And so
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that's just having a huge awareness of yourself. And then you know, as
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the big C word that we say every single week, I don't know that
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there's been a week that we have not said this said this is we always
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have a choice, and I know I had so many times, and this
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is how we learn. This is how we learn. So give yourself some
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ease and grace talking to the audiences, there were there have been so many
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times in my past where my inner self was saying, this isn't a good
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person, don't hang out with them, don't get wrapped up in the affairs
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with them. Don't this is gonna be an unhealthy relationship, like it was
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telling me, and they're all the red flags were there. But because I'm
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such a person of giving people the benefit of the doubt until they prove themselves
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differently than things didn't work out well. And then I had the opportunity to
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beat myself up because I failed, because I made the wrong decisions, because
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I did it anyway. Whereas, of course that narrative has changed. It's
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not the fail. It's not that I was wrong, it was that's how
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I learned. So now I got very I had more of an understanding of
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what that I didn't know. It was called discernment at the time. That
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was something that was that was learned over several years. But it gave me
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all those situations, all those people gave me the opportunity to go, oh,
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that's what my body was telling me, or oh that's what that intuitive
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information was all about. Oh, now I get it. So now when
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I get around people like that, it's like I have more of awareness,
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Like I'm tuned into that, I understand it more. And you don't know
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what you don't know. So until you're on that path of learning and listening
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and growing within that space of intuition and discernment and listening to your body self
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awareness, you're not going to know. And then you just keeping you keep
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getting in those psyches of unhealthy relationships or uncomfortable situations because you're not learning and
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growing along the way, you're just there it. Well, see, there
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you go. Life sucks and I'm just meant to have a suck life.
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Whereas that's just keeping you stuck in a victim state of your experiences instead of
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learning and growing with it. We can't. I mean, I just can't
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teach people how to do that. I can bring their awareness to it,
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but I can't teach them how to do it. And either way, like
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you said, it's a choice, and either way, you're still on the
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right path. You're still learning no matter what, you're still learning. So
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even for me, I intuitively didn't feel comfortable listening to the person, but
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because of who sent it to me, I decided to listen to the whole
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full message right even though it didn't feel comfortable. And on the other side
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of that, sure I could say, oh well I could I should have
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just not listened to it. But on the other side of that, because
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I listened to it, because I got into that space, I recognized my
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inner So I learned discernment. I learned more discerning ways. I learned that
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this wasn't my energy that I was spelling. I learned that these feelings that
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I was feeling was what I picked up from somebody else. And then from
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my interpretation from my filtration system, how I was seeing her like she's hiding,
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she's running from something, she's afraid of something. There's fear there.
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And to me, all that stuff puts you into an alignment with anything that
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matches that frequency. And so it's not good or bad. It's all a
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learning experience, right. But I don't have to spend the time that I
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used to spend in those places. I don't have to beat myself up anymore
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because it because I have well, I haven't had the time to sit and
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beat myself up on that line about it. But recognizing it, I feel
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like I gained so much more from it just by listening to it, even
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though it wasn't comfortable. And so before when I first started going through all
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the spiritual stuff, anything that came up. That was like uncomfortable or whatever.
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It's like I had my cross out my cruise picks. I was like,
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get away from me, you demon. Is it water? That's right,
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throwing it? People are talking to me and I'm throwing water in there
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and not really, but I mean in my mind, yes, But it
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was like that because it's like I could. I felt like early on,
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I felt like I couldn't be in those spaces, and really early on those
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were me learning how to have boundaries because I couldn't. At that time,
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I could not be in those spaces and be able to stay in my own
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energy. But I can now it's a choice, just like you said,
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So I can choose to go in there willy neely into a celebration, family,
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family celebration or something, and I say, willy nilly instead of sitting
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my intentions that I'm going to have a great time. We're gonna have a
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blast, We're gonna laugh a lot, I'm gonna get home in a decent
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time. My animals are going to be so happy that I'm like, I
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can go through this whole process of how it can look to get to that
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place. But it's it's I've got to take the time for it. It's
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up to me or not, and it's not. There's nothing wrong with it
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if I didn't, because guess what, it's still a learning experience. I
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still get to learn from that whole process, which I know you know all
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this stuff already, but a lot of our audience doesn't. They don't know,
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and they just because we look like we got our shit to get there
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and we're at a party managing everything doesn't mean that we don't have an occasional
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quick little like catch us off guard for a second. But we're able to
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spin that real quick and then see how it worked for us and then carry
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on and not look at it as oh my god, this stuff's all happening
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to me instead of how oh that's happening for me that oh she dubbed that.
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So in order to get by attention for this over here or whatever,
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it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter how the process goes, and it's and
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I think it's a lot has a lot to do with how our energy is
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put into those situations, how we perceive it, so we're more light about
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it. Things are just lighter. It's like it just kind of it's like
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water off a duck's back right, Just doest that shoulder off. It's you're
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just dust and all that dirt off. You're all good. Everything's perfectly fine.
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We're moving along, guys, we're learning. I just want to a
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couple of things that come up for me while you're talking. And one was
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like, wait, what so one is you know, I've listened to lots
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and lots of podcast episodes and when something, you know, I find like,
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oh, this is great information, you know, and so and so
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it would probably get something out of it too, And I'll share that podcast
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with them, I'll send them the link. What But what came to me
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was that was it listening to continuing even though it didn't really feel good to
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you, that you continued to listen to it because of the person who shared
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it with you, who suggested it, Like, because because of the rapport
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you have with them. So what what came to me was people pleasing and
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even though you weren't in there, in there with them, like in person,
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it was like, wow, they said too, So I'm just gonna
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listen to it and see what even though I know this doesn't feel good,
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does that make sense? Like that's kind of came up but I could see
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it that way too, one hundred percent, and would I consider myself doing
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that Maybe a little bit, but because we live together, but it's like,
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because you recommend it, I know there's always nuggets, and so there's
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nuggets and stuff. So then I had to gather the nuggets and perspective,
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and it was an opportunity when I looked at it from his perspective, it
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was an opportunity for me to fill everything that was going on in the situation
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and what was my interpretation. So it was actually kind of like, here's
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your work book for today. I want you to go ahead and listen to
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this, and then I want you to take in whatever everything you're taking in.
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So to me, that's how it felt instead of the opposite. But
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I would say initially yeah, because I would have continued listening to it.
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But I also used to like to listen to this girl until I felt like
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she went not that she went too far. It didn't have to do with
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her. She started talking the trees and stuff like that. I think that's
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all possible. I think everything you know. We I have a friend that's
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dative American, and she talks about how the people always knew how to communicate
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with the animals, the land, with spirit like all these things that they
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lost touch with themselves. And it's like it's the same for all of us.
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It's the same for all of us, and it's being being in that
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space of awareness. So with all that being said, it's just like it's
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just helped me to stop and kind of check things out, like take it
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for a moment and be it. Be it like I'm in the classroom and
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absorb this information. But I didn't have to take it on, you know
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what I mean. So it's recognizing that I'm doing that too. There's so
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much. There's so much to that because now it's for you, Like for
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me, it's really controlled, Like my clients are controlled, right even if
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if I if I don't get a good vibe off of a client, I'm
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not seeing the client. And it's like in the space that you work at
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and work with your job, you kind of have to approach things a little
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bit differently. You have to be just in a high vibration all the time
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and know that whoever comes, if you're setting your intentions, no matter if
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that person has bet had a bad rapport with anybody else in your office.
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You know that you're gonna you're gonna communicate, you're gonna understand, You're gona
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be able to facilitate and help exactly what they need because you're listening whatever,
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Like things are going to be different for you. But from the space that
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I was coming from before, I wasn't always in that space. So and
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then then that's where the victim would come out. So on the same side
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of it, my victim didn't come out, not one hundred percent. But
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when I was in that space where I feel like something's after me, then
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I could identify that. I mean, that was that was a huge opportunity
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because it's like, first of all, it wasn't mine. What am I
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going to do if I encounter that? Okay, because because we could.
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I could be in a bad space and want to read for somebody you know,
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or or have a sitter or whatever the situation is. But I want
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to always honor and be in my space. And if I can't be in
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that high space, then maybe today's not the day to do or to do
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a reading on a person or to you know what I mean, Today's a
23:52
day cancel your ap clients and honor self. So it's all of us is
23:56
like that, we're like the topic today's discernment all of us. This kind
24:00
of like helps me discern where am I at right now? What do I
24:03
really need? And then when we satisfy those things, now I can ask
24:08
what can I do for Amy? Or how can I show up and be
24:11
better in my relationships? And that's something else. That's what we going on
24:15
and take another turn relationships. We didn't learn very good relationships skills. Most
24:21
of us didn't from our parents, from the people that were around us.
24:23
Most of us didn't have that. We didn't And so here I am.
24:29
I'm in this relationship. It's a great relationship, wonderful. He's amazing,
24:33
really supportive, and it's like I'm gone all the time. I'm hardly ever
24:37
home and it's like, how did how did I manage a relationship? Because
24:42
I thought it was a relationship with my husband for twenty seven years? But
24:48
like when you think about that where you're working forty plus hours a week each
24:51
and then you're coming home and you're maintaining the house and the yard and doing
24:55
all these things, and it's like you're it's like you're cohabiting, but you're
24:57
not, but what we really relationship really did you have? You know what
25:00
I mean? We had times that we would sit and talk and he was
25:03
my best friend for many many years, like we were just like best friends.
25:07
We just could discussed everything. So but it was it's it's when I
25:11
look back at all that stuff, I'm like, we were never prepared for
25:14
relationships. We don't even know. We really don't know. I and I
25:18
say we so, you know, just throwing it around willy nilly, But
25:22
it's it's not all of us. A lot of us do understand relationships,
25:26
but a lot of us didn't have those relationships. Our relationships with our family
25:30
members were maybe strained or not strained, like there was always animosity between you
25:34
know, my dad loved his son or my stepdad loved his son the best
25:40
way that he knew how but from the outside looking in it, and it's
25:41
like we could find all the problems right right, I'll find all the flaws
25:45
with everything and then see that he wasn't really feeling the love or he was
25:51
continually looking for love outside of himself. We can sit and look at all
25:52
that stuff, or I can recognize this whole time, it was all that
25:56
stuff was guiding me back into myself to have this relationship ship with myself so
26:00
that now I can feel how it feels to love and honor myself and support
26:04
myself, and then now I can do the same for others. That's where
26:08
it comes into play when they say, you know, show up in the
26:11
world how you want you want to show up exactly how you want the world
26:14
to treat you a hundred percent, not show up, and it's like,
26:18
oh that eye for an eye, I oh, that person just cut out
26:19
in front of me. I'm gonna get in front of him and put my
26:22
brakes on. I used to do that kind of shit. I have graduated
26:26
from different versions of myself. It's quite hilarious, by the way. I'm
26:30
like, who is that? Who was that person? She was kind of
26:33
she was kind of funny. Yeah, it's kind of silly. But you
26:38
know, I look at it all that stuff. So I'm just saying all
26:41
this stuff because we're growing through so many growth and so many patterns and so
26:44
many like I feel like I'm being bombarded lately with all this information because I'm
26:48
recognizing the relationships and then I'm seeing how am I showing up with my grandkids
26:52
and stuff like that, and it's not always great, but I showed up,
26:56
so it's still But is it not always great? It's still great,
26:59
so you know what I mean. So it's like if I maybe I should
27:02
look at it, because I'm always telling people this stuff, I'll look at
27:03
all the great things that happen in that day instead of them leaving and they're
27:07
like trying to take each other's heads off. The two babies, you know,
27:11
they I feel like they're siblings sometimes because they're pretty much raised that way.
27:15
But I swear those two and they're traumas right they're coming. And I
27:19
say that because they're coming together from their own traumas, from traumas that I
27:23
created, pass down to the kids so they can share it with everybody round
27:27
to the Pluz. I should have been did my best and it really carried
27:32
on well. But now it's just the opportunities to change things. And that's
27:36
what I've been telling people. Go home and play with things. Go home.
27:40
Think what someone tells me. Yesterday. You know, I heard someone
27:42
say, just if you're feeling threatened, or you're feeling nervous or anxious about
27:48
something, sit there and imagine that you're in this shower or stand there and
27:52
you've got this white light coming down on you, and I'm thinking, well,
27:55
you have this special light just washing over you. Doesn't matter, see
27:57
it washing over you, and I'll walk into the space. Listen to the
28:00
music that you like to listen to. People have forgotten, They for have
28:03
forgotten to find the tunes and stuff like that, because when we hear music
28:07
a lot of times when you're doing stuff, it makes you want to move
28:10
and stuff like that. That shifts so many things inside of our bodies and
28:14
it makes us feel good. But for some reason, we like to keep
28:15
ourselves in these struggles. And you're not supposed to have a good time or
28:18
something when you're doing all these other things, so we don't do a lot
28:22
of that stuff. I ask people, when's the last time you sat and
28:25
listen to music? Oh? God, probably, like I don't know,
28:29
maybe ten or fifteen years ago. Like what seriously, it's like, oh,
28:33
well, turn it on. When's the last time you homed a tune
28:36
or something? And maybe they didn't pay attention to it, right, I
28:38
don't know. I just kind of these days, I'm just kind of pointing
28:41
things out. Oh you don't have you you don't know what your passions are
28:45
because someone else told me, Oh, you don't know what your passions are.
28:47
You're not happy to get home from a trip and get into your own
28:49
bed and get into your own house and drink your own water. And yeah,
28:52
you have lots of passions. You just gotta have to identify them and
28:56
then you start. Then it's just like listening to your intuition. Right.
29:00
The voice gets stronger and stronger and stronger, and it gets louder and you're
29:03
just more apt to hear it than you're going to hear anything else. And
29:07
that's when I think is that's when I feel like life is magnificent, when
29:11
you're just in that space and you're in that flow. Yeah, relationships are
29:18
interesting, aren't they. Yeah, And we didn't we didn't have good role
29:22
models. We had role models of of unhealthy or just hard work. Right.
29:33
Maybe their devotion was into the work. My mom worked three jobs,
29:36
so that's kind of where I learned that stuff. You know, relationship wasn't
29:38
good. It with slamming doors and kicking holes in doors and you know,
29:41
yelling and screaming and yeah, yeah, yeah, so and survival, I
29:48
mean we talked about that a lot. It's just they were all also in
29:52
survival. So but we also have to understand when you go backwards generations,
30:00
how that trickled down from generation to generation. As you know, it goes
30:03
from your parents to your grandparents, great grandparents and beyond like infinite amount of
30:11
generations where the information has come. And now here we are today having these
30:15
different conversations that we didn't have when we were younger. We had to learn
30:19
all this stuff. We had to discern all this information for ourselves to be
30:23
able to have these conversations. And so you know, just speaking to people
30:30
who are you know, beating themselves up for being in unhealthy relationships or having
30:36
had experienced them, give yourselves some mease and grace because you're just doing what
30:40
you knew how to do based on what was demonstrated right from the people that
30:47
the significant people in your life who raised you. And it doesn't mean it
30:51
was your parents. It could have been your grandparents, their uncles, the
30:53
neighbors, the teachers, could have been anybody where. Maybe TV, which
31:03
seems to be a big influence even more so now, or social media.
31:07
So following quote unquote reality TV, which isn't reality TV. A lot of
31:14
it's it's still scripted because it's based on drama so that they can keep the
31:18
audience's attention, so it it's not like full reality TV just just not just
31:30
tell you. So having m utilizing the information that you've gained from past relationships
31:45
also helps you understand more of what you don't like, which we're really good
31:49
about. You can ask somebody what do you want? And majority of the
31:55
people they don't know how to answer that. But when you say, what
31:59
do you don't want? And they got a whole laundry list of things they
32:02
don't want. So that's what all relationships give you the opportunity to do in
32:08
each and every person, what do I like about this person? What is
32:12
it I don't like about this person? And then it's information, and that
32:19
information is huge because whatever it is you don't like about somebody is like,
32:24
well, I ask myself when I see people with unhealthy behavior, I go,
32:31
I'm like, ooh does that show up in me? Do I do
32:34
that? Do I treat people like that? Because that's an immediate awareness of
32:40
if I am I need to change that right now? Like right there's not
32:45
an option I need to change that right now, because I know what it's
32:46
like to be on the receiving end of somebody else's unhealthy behavior. And so
32:53
if anything that can help you, just be and do better within yourself by
32:59
being observed. Don't take on their stuff. It's just recognizing, Oh yeah,
33:04
I have a tendency to be short with people for no reason. I
33:07
have a tendency to snap at people. I have a tendency to not be
33:15
fully present when they're talking to me because I'm multitasking, because I have so
33:17
many other important things that need to get done. So when somebody is multitasking
33:24
and having a conversation with me, I will stop talking. If I don't
33:29
have their full attention, I stop. I'll just sit there. And then
33:36
when somebody comes to me and I'm in the middle of something and they start
33:39
talking, I will literally put my hand up and go point your fingers out,
33:45
ex give me a second, let me finish the stought, and I'll
33:47
give you my undivided attention. And they're like, oh okay, and they
33:52
patiently wait, And when I get done, I'm like, okay, what
33:55
can I help you with? And they have my full attention. So how
34:00
do you want to be really, you know, everything around you gives you
34:02
opportunity to decipher how do you want to be? And you can show up
34:12
as the biggest bitch on the planet, or you can show up as the
34:14
most loving person on the planet, or somewhere in between. I don't It
34:17
doesn't matter to me how you show up. But I know how I want
34:21
to show up, and I know what feels good to me because I've learned
34:23
that discernment, right, I've learned that having that self awareness, and I
34:30
am the only person I'm responsible for. I'm met. So if if I'm
34:39
showing up in a way that doesn't feel good, I have to change that.
34:44
That is my responsibility. It's not somebody else's responsibility. It's for me
34:49
to get the help, the guidance, read the books, read you know,
34:53
join a healing group, doesn't whatever the modality is doesn't matter. It
35:00
is for me to take responsibility for me. And if anybody like myself has
35:06
tried to change other people so that we can be happier, yeah, it's
35:09
exhausting. It doesn't work, and it just takes you down to the path
35:15
of still not feeling good enough, unloved, unaccepted, and the fact is
35:22
is that you're giving too much time and attention and energy to something outside of
35:27
yourself instead of bringing it inward, which is where that recognize that, Yeah,
35:35
that's been a lot. I think that's been in my face a lot
35:37
lately. Too. Is this risk so you get write on it. It's
35:40
it really is and it's and it's being in that awareness. Even when you
35:45
were saying when you and I liked it when you said that, as soon
35:47
as someone says something, it's like, oh what you know, you didn't
35:51
like, Oh, what's going on over there? It's like, oh,
35:52
and you totally checked in with yourself, like do I treat people that way?
35:57
And then the other thing that hit me was do I treat me that
35:59
way? Because a lot of times I treated me that way? There's a
36:01
separation withinside self. You want you want unity outside of yourself, which we've
36:06
talked about, then there has to be unity within self because otherwise it's showing
36:09
what's what's inside of you. That's how it's that's how we create. That's
36:15
one of the one of the ways that we've created or how we can see
36:17
how we've created around us. And it doesn't have to we don't have to
36:21
be in that space. It can be whatever we wanted to be, whenever
36:22
we wanted to be, And it's okay. You want to explore being in
36:25
a struggle for your whole life, that's okay too. Explore it, like,
36:30
know every part of it, know every aspect of it. That was
36:32
something someone I heard someone say recently. If you're in a space of lack,
36:37
explore it completely, you know, know it, know it inside and
36:42
out. Because by knowing it now you've become neutral. You don't have to
36:45
there's nothing more to learn from it. It's it just doesn't it doesn't have
36:49
to be in your experience anymore. But I've noticed, like even when I
36:52
had that, when I listened to that person and it triggered so many stuff,
36:54
and she was talking about the Bible and stuff like that, and I
36:57
was like, I'm not going to go read the Bible. And it's like,
37:00
as soon as I heard my response to it, I was like,
37:02
Oh, it wasn't that interesting that that kind of triggered you a little bit.
37:07
What's up with that? What's going on? So I started asking questions
37:09
to get to, you know, the root of all of this stuff,
37:13
because a lot of stuff we've carried. We have these these feelings and beliefs
37:16
about things because someone else had these feelings of beliefs about them so long ago
37:21
that we don't we've taken it on a long time ago. We don't even
37:23
remember where it came from. And then when we went and then I catched
37:27
myself doing this too, like when something comes up and it's like I trace
37:30
it all the way back. Oh my mom wanted to run all the time.
37:31
Okay, well that was me again looking at the problem but not looking
37:35
for the solution, you know. Okay, Well that's great. Now we
37:37
know where that's you know, stemmed from, right in this experience. It
37:40
doesn't mean that it wasn't going on forever before that, But now I have
37:44
an opportunity right now to grow from that, and I don't have to stay
37:46
in it. Or I can let it come come around the next time and
37:50
maybe I won't be as reactive, I'll be a little bit less reactive,
37:52
and then the next time I'll be even a little bit more or less reactive.
37:55
Right, Or I can be like I don't I don't need to carry
37:59
that. I don't need that in my experience anymore. I don't have to
38:02
that doesn't have to be a motivational factor for me anymore. It's it's really
38:07
looking at how we tick, why we chick? You know, what's driving?
38:09
What's our driving force? Why are you angry? Like it's really being
38:15
what's the solution to that? Like I've heard some of the conversation in my
38:19
head and it's like Jesus, Mary and Joseph that I pick up a freaking
38:22
you know, it's easy to pass the buck to something else, but did
38:24
I pick up a demon or something? This little mother is like hanging on
38:29
for dear life. So then I stopped for a second. I'm like,
38:30
well, if you're there, I'm going to send you so much love.
38:32
And I sit there and next thing you know, it's gone. Anyways,
38:38
I don't know if it helped. It helped me, So it's like it's
38:42
it's all good. It's just but it's being in those places. And that's
38:45
why I say it's good to honor self because if you don't have the time,
38:50
if you don't feel like you have the time. And we've talked about
38:52
it, and I've listened to Suzanne Eastman again recently. It's like three minutes
38:57
sneak out for three minutes. I used to people used to always take cigarette
39:00
breaks. I don't know if they still take cigarette breaks from work, but
39:04
when I was going, you know, when I used to smoke, that
39:06
was my cigarette break, and that might take you like a couple of minutes,
39:08
but that was a what are you doing? When you're doing that,
39:10
You're taking deep breaths and you're you might be talking to someone, so you're
39:15
probably releasing some stuff talking to someone, but even at the same time,
39:17
you're breathing in something and you're excelling something that you can see, and it's
39:22
like, well, if you're going to do it, utilize it. Do
39:23
you know what I mean? If you're breathing, I'm breathing in all this
39:25
good air, even though you're not breathing whatever, but anyways, you're breathing
39:29
in this air. And then when he excels like I'm letting go of all
39:31
these things that don't serve me in, this puff of smoke goes out and
39:34
it's like, oh, that's cool. I can see it leaving me right
39:36
now. If you're not very visual, but you know, just another way,
39:40
just another perspective of looking at things. We just take things too seriously.
39:45
And it's really much simpler. And the more that we can be in
39:49
these spaces and even have these conversations, we can be lighter about things,
39:52
and we don't carry stuff with us, and it helps our movement forward.
39:57
It's so effortless. It is with grace ease, and then we have the
40:00
better idea of where we're going or what we're doing. It's for me,
40:06
it's like a lot of us learning not to have so much of the labels
40:07
and kind of go with the flow and see where it takes me. It
40:09
doesn't have to I'm starting to ketch some symptoms of this that I've already got
40:15
a label on. Okay, we're on this, we're on the stourning,
40:16
this is where we're going. Then all of a sudden, I get thrown
40:19
the curveball and now we're going this direction. I'm like, oh, okay,
40:22
Well, so it's not it's for us to be open and flowing and
40:24
not for me to grab a hold of one thing and hold on to that
40:30
rail for life, you know, holding on to it and then let go
40:31
and you're just right, You're just you're just like an inch above the ground
40:35
or whatever. Oh, some thing's good. I can keep moving forward.
40:38
Life is easy. Yes, it is. It really is. It really
40:45
is. It's just complicated. That's true because if we just looked at it
40:51
as just an experience or just something to grow from, or something for discernment,
40:55
or something for me to figure out. Oh that was the thought that
40:58
I'm thinking. Oh no, I just rep this information. It's teaching us
41:02
so many things. Yeah, I mean you brought up Well, I'm not
41:08
gonna specify anyway. Being around people, it's pretty easy for me to recognize
41:19
the things they're hanging on to and the stories they're telling themselves and where their
41:23
inner difficulties are. But when we're in a conversation and they say something and
41:34
I asked them, you know, would you like some input? Because I've
41:37
learned to ask, would you like some input about this? Or would you
41:43
like to hear my perspective about it? Some people were like, oh,
41:47
yeah, I know, I do that, okay, But yeah, they
41:52
keep down that same path and keep doing it. There's no desire to make
41:58
a shift, or they desire it. But just like the person who's whatever
42:02
fifty or one hundred pounds overweight, they want to take a magic pill and
42:07
it's all be gone in the next by the next day, people don't want
42:12
to do that inner reflection or inner work, so they just keep showing up
42:19
the way they're showing up, and their life is miserable and they are not
42:22
choosing to do anything different. They might go to I know some a couple
42:30
people who I have conversations with. They go to other energy healers, which
42:36
is great, whatever's working, But I also watch them in between their sessions
42:43
and they're still They're doing the exact same thing. In between sessions. I
42:47
don't see any behavioral changes. Oh well, because of my life, this
42:53
is why I drink. Oh but I have an appointment on this day for
42:58
this energy session. Okay, it's not a judgment on my part. It's
43:05
what they're doing. It's what they choose to do. However, they're still
43:09
not happy, and an energy healer or a person who does massage or a
43:15
person who does emotional resiliency coaching, we can't fix that. We can give
43:20
you the information and tools, we can't make you do anything different. And
43:25
when you're going for an energy session because for a massage because it just helps
43:30
you feel good in that moment, or a coaching session because you're feeling the
43:36
energy of the healer, of the coach, and that's what contributes to you
43:40
feeling good in that moment. That's okay, and that may be what you
43:45
need in that moment. But when you leave that coach or healer or energy
43:51
worker and you go about the rest of your day and weeks or days in
43:57
between sessions, what are you doing? What are you doing different Because you're
44:05
seeing these people. You're seeing a coach, you're seeing a massage service,
44:08
you're seeing an energy worker. You're seeing them for a reason. You want
44:13
to feel good, you want to feel better. You want to be in
44:15
that space of like I know, Bev and I we bring that loving energy
44:19
and people are gravitate towards it and they absolutely love it. But when we
44:24
are not in your presence, when you are out in your life, what
44:29
are you doing differently? And that's where the responsibility comes. We can't do
44:37
that for you, not me, not Bev, not any not any healer
44:42
or energy worker on this planet can do that for you. You have to
44:46
take responsibility to make the changes that you desire, and you have to do
44:52
it for yourself because nobody can do that for you. And it doesn't matter
44:55
how much stuff is happening outside of you, with your your coworkers, your
45:00
family, your friends, anybody you come in contact with. Doesn't matter what
45:05
they're doing, because really it's not your business. It's not your business.
45:10
What they're doing is they're doing what they know how to do based on their
45:15
own upbringing and programming and all the stuff. However, their subconscious mind is
45:23
filled with all that information. They're operating from that, and you can't change
45:29
that for them. You can't. You can suggest it. You can say,
45:32
oh, I listened to this, or I watched this, or I
45:35
read this book, but you can't make them do it. But you're hoping
45:38
that they will change so that your life can be better. Your life is
45:43
going to be better when you change within yourself, and then those relationships shift,
45:46
meaning either the energy they'll pick up on the energy and they will start
45:52
shifting with you, or actually they'll start moving on in in a different direction
45:57
because you no longer resonate with each other. It's true, you know,
46:05
and if it and I do believe that we can help shift them in that
46:10
moment, But you still walk out with yourself. There's nothing more like it.
46:15
Like you were saying, is there's nothing more you can do. And
46:17
I remember, I remember, like my stepdad called me up and like when
46:22
you guys need to come over here and cheer me up, make me happy.
46:25
And we would, you know, because we knew that we could.
46:29
Honestly, I always have known that we could. But it's not it's it's
46:32
not that it's not our job to do it, but there's now we're creating
46:37
a codependent relationship and we're not creating the independence the realization that we have connection
46:45
to everything, but it's all from within sight of ourselves. And to me,
46:49
that's a huge blessing because before it used to be always outside of myself,
46:52
at least that's how it felt, and so I was always constantly searching.
46:57
I was never satisfied. How could I possibly be ever satisfied because it
47:00
was always on. It was never in a space of appreciating where I was
47:05
at that moment, for sure. But you know, it's stop and take
47:09
a look at your life. You can kind of see how it's kind of
47:13
reflecting back to you and I have we've talked about that before too. It's
47:17
like I could, I could be the person on the run. If I
47:20
can't deal with the stuff, I can be on the run, and there's
47:22
nothing wrong with that either. You know, sometimes we can't deal with something
47:25
in the situation right now. That's why I tell people, is it bad
47:29
that we compartmentalize and put all this stuff in boxes inside of us? Sometimes
47:32
we can't deal with it in that moment, so it's set aside for when
47:36
we can deal with it. Right Grieving has patients, all the patience in
47:40
the world. It will show up when it needs to, and it's always
47:44
for our benefit, for our growth, and if we look at it.
47:46
I look at it that way now from my previous experiences, you know,
47:52
from what I've already experienced, not what may come for me in the future.
47:55
Who knows. I know that my processes will be a little bit differently,
48:00
and then hopefully if I do have any of those experiences, I kind
48:04
of catch on or I jump back on my own platform right my frequency to
48:12
kind of be in the space that I want to be in where I'm always
48:15
connected with everything and not creating a separation from everything, because to me,
48:19
it goes back to the same thing with unity, it's creating separateness from within
48:23
ourselves. I've listened to Susan this morning and she's saying, it's no different
48:29
from me having a conversation with you here right now than me tuning into spirit
48:35
around me, the angels around me, God, Jesus, whatever. It's
48:38
like, it's we have all these opportunities of everything around us, and it's
48:43
the same thing. It's just whatever you want to put your attention on.
48:45
If you had ever asked me fifteen years ago, Bev, you're gonna see
48:51
Jesus and Mother Mary is gonna come to you and all these other things,
48:54
I would have been like, you're out of your mind. That is not
48:57
my realm. I don't believe in the in religions, you know, I
49:00
don't believe in being any It's not that I don't believe in them. I
49:04
don't believe in some of the the tactics or the I don't anything that feels
49:09
negative. If you're trying to guide me through negativity and fear, it doesn't
49:15
resonate with me. It's automatic. I'm like close that door. It's like
49:17
I don't need to talk to that person, and I'm onto the next thing.
49:22
So it's like that's not going to get my attention. We've talked about
49:24
that before with cells. When they say oh, this is the end of
49:28
the world. You need to listen to this. And that's probably the last
49:30
thing I will ever listen to because it's because it's coming across that way and
49:35
that's me. But I'm not the masses, right, and we're trying to
49:38
get masses in get their attention so you can give them this awakening because it's
49:44
a new process. It's a new way of looking at life. So it's
49:46
like it's it has something. It's just like war, it's just like presidential
49:52
elections. It's just like like all these things. You know, it's how
49:58
are we going to show up in a situation? And it's there to either
50:01
teach you something, and if you've already learned from it, it just falls
50:05
out of your experience. It doesn't there's no longer a need or desire for
50:08
it to be there, so it won't. So I like to grow through
50:13
things, and I like to look at this stuff and have a realization that
50:15
when I when I'm solving or when I'm well solving, because when I'm finding
50:21
the solutions within myself for my history, the way I've shown up in a
50:23
lot of ways, it automatically is creating solutions for my family without saying anything,
50:30
and that right there is a good enough driving force for me. Yeah,
50:37
nice, and you gotta do it feels good to you. You do,
50:45
you gotta do it feels good to you. I gotta do it feels
50:47
good to me. My husband asks to feel good to do it feels good
50:52
to him. It's true, and as them as as an observer when and
51:04
I'm just going to use this as an example that people are doing things that
51:13
quote unquote feel good to them in the moment. That is really just a
51:27
way to suppress things. Distraction, right, yeah, distractions. And I
51:32
speak from that because that's what I did in my days when Jose Cuervo and
51:38
I had a good time. So I was it felt good in the moment
51:43
because I could relax and have fun, but it was just a band aid
51:47
for what was really going on within myself. And until I could recognize that,
51:53
and until I did something different, I would have kept doing it.
51:58
And I one hundred percent guarantee you, you and I would not be here
52:01
doing this having this conversation, right because I wouldn't be on this path.
52:07
So I knew, I knew it was something for me. It was a
52:12
coping mechanism. It was something for me to do in the moment to feel
52:15
good. But I also knew it wasn't the answer. I did have that
52:20
awareness at the time, but I didn't know what else to do differently,
52:24
and so the having that desire within myself and then the answer starts showing up.
52:30
The answer was meditation. Of course, I said, no, not
52:34
doing that. I did that for probably about five years, like I ain't
52:39
meditating out of your mind, right, but something kept putting it in,
52:45
you know, it just kept showing up and showing up and showing up.
52:47
And then finally I said, fine, fine, I'll do it, and
52:52
guess what, it's pretty amazing. But though but again just having that self
53:04
awareness, I knew, I knew what I was doing. I knew it
53:07
wasn't healthy. I knew it could I couldn't sustain that or my body couldn't
53:10
sustain that. I knew I wanted something different. I didn't know what it
53:15
was, but I just kept having that internal I didn't know was awareness at
53:22
self awareness at the time. I didn't have that type of terminology in my
53:27
in my vocabulary, but I did have self awareness and I wanted something different.
53:37
I just didn't have the answers, but because I had the desire,
53:40
the answers showed up. That's the way it works. Nice, and that's
53:49
true because I felt like that's been the same for myself. Yeah. So,
53:58
and I mean, my life is one thousand percent better than it was,
54:04
you know, thirty years ago, forty years ago. And there's still
54:08
things that show up that I don't care for, but there you go.
54:14
It's up to me to change. It's up to me to shift. It's
54:17
my responsibility to change my focus, to focus on what I want, to
54:23
have a different perspective to you know, express gratitude, to show up from
54:32
a loving space. So all of that is my responsibility. If I don't
54:37
like something that's happening around me, and I don't have control over what's happening
54:43
around me, I have control of how I'm perceiving it, how I internalize
54:46
it, and then shifting in me the energy that I'm feeling in my body.
54:54
So that is my container. My body, my mind, my mind,
55:00
my emotions, my thoughts. That's all in my control, and I
55:06
get to change that if I want to. Isn't that exciting though? Yeah?
55:12
To me, that that's exciting it's empowering. It's not leaving it up
55:16
to somebody else to make a decision your happiness, doesn't you know, You
55:20
don't have to wait till the other person gets happy to be happy. To
55:23
me, there's so many things that go along with that, and it's recognizing
55:28
even that person that we're meeting that wants to stay and what we would refer
55:30
to as a struggle is they're still okay, everything's fine. There's nothing for
55:35
us to I mean, if we look at it really from a sole perspective,
55:37
there's nothing for us to fix. Oh, look at them having their
55:39
life experience. Look at them how they're deciding to have this experience while they're
55:45
here. So I mean, so that's all it is. And it's like
55:47
we're here when someone decides they want to talk about something different, they want
55:52
to explore some other options, they want a different perspective, Right, we're
55:55
here for all that stuff. We're here for you guys, like one hundred
55:59
percent yeah, and you're ready. And it's not a good thing or a
56:05
bad thing. It's just like me listening to that girl wasn't a good thing
56:07
or a bad thing for for sure, was a learning thing and that's how
56:10
if we looked at if I looked at every single thing that way, life
56:13
would have been so much easier. Oh my gosh, But here we are
56:16
and still on the other side of that. I still gained so much information.
56:22
I heard someone saying the other day, Oh, you wasted this much
56:24
time of your life, and it's like none of our life was ever wasted.
56:28
I don't feel like but that's my perspective, right. That doesn't mean
56:30
that that person is wrong and doesn't mean that I'm right. It just means
56:35
well, for me, my perspective, that this is what feels right to
56:37
me, And that's that's what matters. It doesn't matter if I disagree with
56:42
someone else. We get so caught up and wanting to be you know,
56:45
have the same answers as someone else and wanting to I have compared myself pretty
56:52
much my whole life, and I caught myself doing it again. And now
56:54
that we've talked about it, who knows? You know what I mean?
56:58
Because that's when we start talking about that stuff that it comes to your awareness
57:00
and then it's up to me during when that exposes itself to me again,
57:04
how do I want to perceive it? How do I want to move through
57:06
it. It's totally up to me. All of it's up to me.
57:13
It's that's free. Just so you know, going from your house over to
57:16
take care of the cats, you could have went into a complete space of
57:22
fear, or take the avenue you sick. Right, He's like, oh
57:27
wait, hold on, time out. I don't have to do this.
57:32
If we've all had that filling, like walking down the hallway. It's dark
57:36
at night, and sometimes I would be fine. And it's been a long
57:38
time since I've even had these feelings because I had a night light in my
57:43
bed. My bed was a very nice bed. It was probably like four
57:45
or seven thousand dollars whatever it was. I was eight probably for the whole
57:49
set. And the bed was this nice carved wood in the base of it
57:52
lit up. So I flipped the switch on my side of the bed.
57:54
There was a switch on each side of the headboard, and it would it
57:59
would light up. It would illuminate the floor, so it wouldn't be so
58:00
wouldn't be so bad for the person that's still sleeping when you flip on the
58:05
light switch, right, Because I was freaking afraid. That's why all the
58:08
time there was that there was an energy around me that I could feel,
58:13
and so I got a touch of that just that evening, and it's like
58:17
I've got I have tools and I'm not alone. And that was that was
58:22
big and that gave me goosebumps just saying that. So and I like that.
58:25
And then it's like even listening to like remembering we each have our own
58:30
gauges in our system, and for me, it's goosebumps that that's an easy
58:34
that's an easy one to let me know that we're I'm on the right track.
58:37
And so the stuff I was hearing or listening to, and I'd be
58:40
like, is that true? I wasn't having a reaction of goosebumps. I
58:44
wasn't. Those are the things to pay attention to. So that's the only
58:46
reason I'm putting it out there. I listened to the information, and so
58:50
now if I'm listening to it. First, I was listening to it thinking,
58:52
is he thinking that I need to be doing something different? You know,
58:54
because everything is about me, right? Is he thinking I'm supposed to
58:59
be doing something different? And I asked him, like, am I supposed
59:00
to be getting something out of this for my own space? You know,
59:04
start throwing out all these questions because why am I listening to this? Right?
59:07
So, but once I and it wasn't an answer that he could give
59:10
me, just listen to it, and then for me I could discern,
59:15
Okay, this was like me being in a I'm going into a room right
59:20
now and I'm gonna have a scenario play out in front of me. How
59:22
am I gonna? You know, how am I going to navigate through this?
59:24
And so I learned to navigate through it and guess what that it didn't
59:30
actually dealt with some heaviness for like probably like two or three days, because
59:35
it because of the questions right when you when it when it feels like someone
59:38
you got all these beliefs in your mind and all of a sudden someone yanks
59:40
a rug and it's like, wait a minute. Now I'm on the floor
59:44
and I'm looking up and it's like, man, do those beliefs look the
59:45
same? Are they totally different? Now? So it's and I like to
59:50
process it because I like it when something I like it when something shakes that
59:53
stuff up within me because it makes me ask more questions so I can find
59:58
out what's real and true for me, not what's real and true for somebody
1:00:01
else, what's real and true for me? Yeah, And that's how we
1:00:06
honor ourselves, right, That's how we do That's how we honor ourselves.
1:00:09
That's how we find our passions. It's not because I've been living for everybody
1:00:13
else's passions. What do they want? What are their desires? They want
1:00:15
to they want to have the brand new vehicle. Oh, I want to
1:00:19
have a brand new vehicle too. It's easy to get hooked onto that same
1:00:22
energy, it's to be in that same space, but there's so much stuff
1:00:25
in between. There's so much growing and I and I'm choosing the growing.
1:00:29
I like to I like to grow past the stuff and realize that I'm not
1:00:32
a prisoner to these thoughts and beliefs. I'm not even if even me thinking
1:00:37
that we have God withinside of us. That could change too, you know,
1:00:42
even my mindset. And I'm not saying that it could change a million
1:00:45
more times before I end up leaving this physical body. And I'm okay with
1:00:49
that because this is my experiences. I'm going on my journey. This is
1:00:52
my journey. I'm not going on everybody else's journey. I've been doing that
1:00:55
my whole life. I don't have to do that anymore. I get to
1:00:59
look at what do I want? Well, it's evolution. It's like evolution
1:01:05
within yourself. What felt good twenty years ago to help me take this step
1:01:10
on the path of changing my unhealthy behaviors. Some of that may not resonate
1:01:19
with me today. So some of that's changed. And I speak differently,
1:01:23
and I use different words and language and and it's called evolving. Our spirit
1:01:30
are our human self. We're evolving. And does it feel good? That's
1:01:37
always the discernment. Does it feel good? So yes or no? Question
1:01:45
is what I what I am doing right now? Does this feel good?
1:01:50
Absolutely? Because I love having these conversations. Yeah, when I what I've
1:01:55
recognized, Like you know, I enjoy going to the bar and doing line
1:02:01
dancing. I also have a big old picture of water and that feels good
1:02:07
to me. To go and just sit at a bar just sit there doesn't
1:02:13
feel good to me. I don't want to do that. It's not exciting.
1:02:15
I'm like, I don't want to be here. So, you know,
1:02:21
do I want to hang out with this person? Yes, if it
1:02:23
feels good, No if it doesn't feel good. So if it doesn't feel
1:02:27
good, I'm not interested. I'm going to go do something else. So
1:02:30
still, it just always comes back to discernment, does it feel good?
1:02:34
Does it not feel good? It's a yes or no question. Yeah,
1:02:39
it's a hell yes or no. Simple because that way, because sometimes I
1:02:44
feel like I have gotten to a space as like I don't know, I'm
1:02:49
not sure. But then it's like when you say, is it a hell
1:02:51
yeah, Well in that instance, no, it's not a hellya, because
1:02:53
I'm having a trouble discerning. You know, I'm not discerning, but you
1:02:57
know, kind of deciding on how which direction I want to go or whatever.
1:03:00
And that's to me, that's an that's an easy that's a no brainer.
1:03:05
When you hear it that way, it's a no brainer because if it
1:03:07
didn't feel like, yes, I'm gonna go do it, then you probably
1:03:09
don't want to do it. Then you're trying to figure out how to talk
1:03:12
yourself into doing something to people pleasing to whatever. Thinking you know, back
1:03:16
to it, this is the only way I can do anything right is if
1:03:19
I just do this. I have to do what they want me to do,
1:03:21
because then it makes them happy, and I know it doesn't it doesn't
1:03:25
work that way because eventually we figure out when am I going to be happy?
1:03:30
Yeah, it's life is interesting and it just keeps staying interesting, so
1:03:37
we can we can play with it and have fun, or we can think.
1:03:44
I mean, it's like, that's the only word that comes to me,
1:03:45
is like, what do you want to do with it? Yeah,
1:03:50
because you're still gonna have a view, even if it's from the bottom,
1:03:52
you still have a view up right the carpet out from my end of the
1:03:57
year, You're still going to have a view. Yeah, I had to
1:03:59
do. We have the view looking up at the sailing. It's like,
1:04:01
well, then now I'm no longer looking down right, I can only look
1:04:03
up. So hey, it wasn't that. It's not a bad thing.
1:04:08
I mean, if you just listen, I love these conversations. Just I
1:04:12
don't know, stand on your head or just bend over and look at life
1:04:16
upside down. See it's old perspective. Yeah, I love it. Yeah,
1:04:25
conversations are good. And Bev and I do this because it's our own
1:04:28
therapy. We get to talk things out, we get to share, we
1:04:30
get to open up, we get to bounce things off of each other.
1:04:34
Sometimes it feels good. Sometimes it doesn't, being a receiving mode of something
1:04:40
you don't want to hear. But then it also even in those moments moments
1:04:45
gives us opportunity to process something else. So we just we show up for
1:04:50
us. It's it's selfish and it's wonderful and I love it, and it's
1:04:56
a relationship. We have a relationship, and now we get to show other
1:04:59
people to be in a relationship. And sometimes we could trigger each other,
1:05:02
and sometimes most of the time we don't. You know, most of the
1:05:05
time it's we're exploring through that. But it's also during those moments there are
1:05:11
exactly the way they're supposed to be for someone else's growth as well, not
1:05:14
just ours. So it's like to me, I feel like it's if you're
1:05:16
listening, awesome, you get a bonus from it. If you have a
1:05:19
different perspective, even more awesome, share it with us, Share your perspectives
1:05:24
with us, because just we have our own perspectives and we're always open for
1:05:28
new information always and that and and spirit moves through us that way. That's
1:05:33
how like if you're if you're listening to us and you feel like, oh
1:05:36
well, what about this, that spirit talking through you. Now it's your
1:05:40
opportunity to listen to that intuition and keep allowing that voice to get louder and
1:05:45
louder and be heard all the time. Or you can just go ahead and
1:05:46
ignore it like you have in the past and push it aside like I used
1:05:50
to always do. Now I'm a lot better with that. Why Because I
1:05:57
matter. I matter to me finally, and a lot of practice, lots
1:06:04
of practice, lots of practice. All right, my friends, we thank
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having the conversations that you're you're not only with yourself, but with other people
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I'm like, oh, that's cool, that's thirty people. But really,
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those thirty people could equal thousands of people that are being affected from this
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conversation, and so that's what matters to me. Percent conversations, that's awesome
1:07:02
and that's true. I feel I one hundred percent agree. I concur you,
1:07:06
Concur. I love that way, Concur. Hi, my friends,
1:07:14
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we'll see you next time. Bye,