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- Resentment is easy to justify. Someone lied to you. Betrayed you. Let you down. Did something you believe they had no right to do. Maybe you’ve been carrying it for months. Maybe years. And maybe you’re right about what happened. But being right won’t make you free. In this episode, Gary gets underneath resentment and the part most people would rather not confront: your participation in keeping it alive. Resentment isn’t simply something you have. It’s something you can indulge. You replay the conversation. Revisit what happened. Tell the story again. Explain why you were right and they were wrong. Imagine what you should have said. Find someone else who agrees with you. Build the case. Prosecute it. Then prosecute it again. And there’s a payoff in that. There’s juice in righteousness. There’s energy in being the one who was wronged. There’s satisfaction in having someone confirm that what happened to you was terrible, unfair or unacceptable. But that juice comes at a price. Resentment diminishes you. It keeps you emotionally attached to the very person, event or experience you insist you want to be free from. You can spend years looking for peace while repeatedly feeding the thing that prevents you from having it. Even taking the “high road” can become another trap. If you’re the evolved one, the forgiving one, the bigger person, you’ve potentially just found a more sophisticated way to remain right. The resentment is still there. It’s simply wearing better clothes. Getting free requires something more confronting. Acceptance. Not approval. Not agreement. Not deciding that what happened was okay. Acceptance means stripping away everything you’ve attached to what happened until you can finally get to what actually happened. The right and wrong. The morality. The anger. The regret. The resentment. The meaning you gave it. What they should have done. What they shouldn’t have done. What you deserved. What they deserved. You’re normally trying to understand the event while swimming in all of that. So ask yourself: **What would I say happened if I had been observing it from a distance?** That question begins separating the event from everything you’ve attached to it. And this is where language matters. People say, “I don’t know how to let it go.” But “I don’t know how” is a cul-de-sac. Try: **“I haven’t figured that out yet.”** The circumstances haven’t changed, but your relationship to them has. One statement closes the inquiry. The other leaves a pathway. Now you can investigate. How am I indulging this resentment? When do I feed it? Who do I feed it with? What do I get from being right? What am I unwilling to surrender? What would I have to confront if I stopped telling this story the way I’ve been telling it? Every useful conversation eventually has to return to responsibility. Not blame. Responsibility. Where are you in this? What are you doing? What are you continuing? What are you feeding? You may not be responsible for what happened. But if you want to be free of your resentment, you’re going to have to confront your responsibility for what happens next.