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WAVE: Big Book Study with Corey Session Ten - We Agnostics Part 2 · The Daily Ripples Podcast

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  Hey guys, this is the Wave Book Study and uh, we are in we agnostics on page 52.
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  We just read last week, 44 through 52.
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  And for me, um, other people can break it up, however, but I really like 52 and my 1st sponsor.
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  Man, he made me read like 52 for that page for months, not a month, probably one month.
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  I'm an exaggerator.
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  Um, but you know, I'll tell you, you know, it's funny because when I went back out.
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  Um, this one page, I could recite.
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  I could recite this to you because it, it means a lot.
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  I mean, you know, and it, so, and what we, we've already read, um, the talking about the longshoreman last week and we read about the bedevilments, but, you know, I think the bedevilments deserve another, for me to talk about just one more time because like the bedevilments,
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  I don't have to be drunk.
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  For the bedevilments to be going on in my life.
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  No, I might have talked about this, who knows, but this is a new week.
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  Because different things in here, right?
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  Trouble with personal relationships.
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  Well, I sure can have trouble and personal relationships with just no alcohol.
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  Um, I was couldn't control my emotional natures.
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  I've done that without alcohol in my system as well.
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  Praying to misery and depression, done that.
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  Couldn't make a living.
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  See, I did all these things before I took a drink.
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  Um, And, you know, so when the alcohol came into my life,
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  Well, you know, I took a drink early on, I was 13 when I took my 1st drink, but, you know, couldn't make a living, right?
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  You know, well, my living at the time was going to school and I did not do that well.
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  But after I started drinking, you know, I didn't really care either that I didn't do well in school, um, pray to misery and depression.
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  Well, I wasn't I wasn't miserable and depressed.
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  Um, trouble with personal relationships.
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  They were great.
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  Um, full of fear.
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  didn't have much.
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  You know, so when, like when the alcohol, that was my solution to these things.
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  And these are...
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  I mean, These are the human problems.
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  I mean, in my, and, you know, it's really cool, the way this page, you know, I talked about it last week, but this page, and the promises, the 9th step promises.
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  These are the, the, the, the nice step promises are the, the promises to the bedevilments, and it's really cool how that aligns if you ever sit down and, you know, put a, put the promise and put the bedevilment beside it.
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  It's really cool because it all lines up.
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  Uh, But so we are on uh, 52.
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  At 2nd to last paragraph when it says, when we saw others solve their problems by simple reliance upon the spirit of the universe, we had to stop doubting the power of God.
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  Our ideas did not work, but the God idea did.
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  So I think like, you know, these are, I got these like, different places I come to and like, kind of thoughts, you know, but so are your ideas working, you know, what our mind right now and, um, and then, but does the guy idea work?
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  And in my life, I'll tell you, the gun idea does work.
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  God works with me, and I found that to stay true today, and um, if you're not at that crossroad, I mean, uh, we're going to get to that, you know, next week, but, you know, in the original manuscript, it says, you know, you come to this position, and it says, you know, reread this book or throw it away.
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  You know, and I, you come, I come down to all these crossroads in this book and I think, you know, while you, when you do, you got to ask yourselves, like, you know, is your ideas working?
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  Anyways, back to the text.
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  It says the Wright brother's almost childish faith that they could build a machine.
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  Which would fly was the mainspring of their accomplishment.
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  Without that, nothing could have happened.
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  We agnostics and atheists were sticking to the idea that self-sufficiency would solve our problems.
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  When others showed us that God's sufficiency worked, with them, we began to feel like those who had insisted the rights would never fly.
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  Logic is great stuff.
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  And, you know, and it's really cool.
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  So like, I highlight, I have a couple things highlighted through here and I'm just going to show you and do what you will, but logic is great stuff is highlighted in my book.
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  We liked it.
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  We still liked it.
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  It is not by chance we were given the, and I have power to reason, highlight it as well.
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  And we'll get to that why.
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  To examine the evidence of our senses and to draw conclusions.
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  This is one of man's magnificent attributes.
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  We agnostically acclined, would not feel satisfied with a proposal which does not lend itself to reasonable approach and interpretation.
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  Hence, we are at pains to tell why we think our present faith is reasonable, while we think it is more sane and logical to believe than not to believe.
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  While we say our former thinking was solved in most people, we threw up our hands and down and said, we don't know.
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  And that's not a bad position to say we don't know.
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  And I think that's like, so that's the agnostic, that's the whole, that's the whole definition of we agnostics.
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  We don't know.
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  But then, like, so this next paragraph I have highlighted in pink and this is a, uh, this is the 1st, I mean, this is, this is the 2nd step, right?
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  This is the 2nd part of the 2nd step.
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  It says, when we became alcoholic, crushed by self-imposed crisis.
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  We could not postpone or evade.
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  We had to fiercely, fearlessly face the proposition that either God is everything or else he is nothing.
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  God either is or he isn't.
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  What was our choice to be?
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  Well, I think about like, what's, you know, when I when did I become alcoholic?
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  Well, I became alcoholic.
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  On page 30.
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  And it says, when we learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost cells that we were alcoholics.
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  That's when I 1st, that's when I concede, and it's not when I got to that page, of course not.
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  I mean, you can be drunk and find out you're an alcoholic.
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  You don't have to be sitting here reading this book with me.
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  You're reading this book just in general to find out you're an alcoholic.
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  I mean, I probably could see it very early on.
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  Um, and my drinking, you know, it took, It took a main part of my life very early on as well, though.
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  Um, So, you know, and crushed by a self-imposed crisis, I could not postpone or evade this, right?
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  It's, and go back and you can mark in your book and you don't have to either, but on page 25.
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  We read this and it says, if you were seriously alcohol because we were, we believe there's no middle of the road solution.
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  We were in a position where life was becoming impossible.
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  And if we had passed into the region from which there is no return through human aid.
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  We had but 2 alternatives.
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  One was to go to the better end, botting out the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could.
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  So that's one of the, you know, options, right?
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  And the other was to accept spiritual help.
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  So that's with them self-imposed crisis.
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  I can't postpone Rev eight.
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  So now it says we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either God is everything or else he is nothing.
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  God either is or he isn't.
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  What was our choice to be?
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  So, I, um, you know, I, I, you can, I kind of look at this in so many different ways, um, My personal, my, uh, my experience was over time of, uh, before I came back in these rooms and started doing this stuff.
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  Um, I, uh, there was many nights, many days, many times in jails.
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  I said, man, I'm tired.
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  I'm tired of living this way.
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  I want to be soap.
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  And, um, and I prayed, and I prayed, you know, just forgot to watch over me and all these different things. And, you know, but what's really cool is like, I believe in that God is everything. And, you know, part, you know, it wasn't at the end of my drinking, but pretty close to the end of my drinking.
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  Um, the SWAT team came to my house.
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  And if you'd asked me that if that was God at that time, I would have thought you were crazy.
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  But God can, you know, if God's everything, God can form in different ways and come in different ways.
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  It's not going to usually be the way it's, you know, wrapped in a present and I get it.
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  I'm not going to like that wrapping paper, right?
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  It's not going to be neat enough for me.
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  It's not going to be the kind of wrapping paper I like.
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  But the present I got inside is indescribably wonderful.
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  I was reading this with a guy.
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  Probably about a year ago, and we were reading this part, and, you know, I came to this position, you know, he's got either everything or has got nothing.
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  And he goes, well, you know, he used to look at me and he goes, well, I believe, you know, the devil made me do that stuff. And I looked at him, and I said, well, do you think the devil made me?
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  Lie, cheat, steal, put my hands on different people and, you know, hurt people and put people in his harm's way and this and that and that he said, yes.
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  And then I looked at him and I asked him, I said, you know, do you think God is right here?
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  And he said, yeah, because this is good.
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  And I told him, and I said, well, everything that happened to me out there was for me to be right here.
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  And, um, uh, you know, so, and I don't believe you got to go do all that stuff to be a good person either, you know, that's just, this has been my path.
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  And, um, So, you know, do I believe God is everything or God's nothing?
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  I was just not a little bit for me and my wife and God becomes more and more, but this is just a proposition, right?
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  This is not, you know, come into this and, you know, if you don't want it to do that, that's cool too.
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  And I believe, you know, and people would argue the fact this with me, but you can just take this book at this and say, God's nothing.
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  And do this, but still do the work. And let's see what happens afterwards.
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  It says arriving at this point, we were squarely confronted with the question of faith.
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  We couldn't duct the issue.
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  Some of us have already walked far over the bridge of reason.
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  So, you know, the reason I had you highlight at the top, because it says power to reason, logic is great stuff, right?
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  to the toward the desired shore of faith.
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  You know, because I had to have some reasoning for this too.
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  And like, I think that's important to point out.
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  Like, you know, I, if God's everything, you know, God's and reason as well.
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  I mean, that makes sense to me.
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  The allies in the promise of the new land.
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  So if you look at, that's cool, right?
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  Because, like, Bridge of Reason and new land, you know, that's that's pointing out higher power, because it's capitalized in the middle of the sentence, had brought luster to tire eyes and fresh courage to flagging spirits.
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  Friendly hands had stretched out and welcomed.
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  We were grateful that reason had brought us so far, but somehow we couldn't quite step ashore.
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  Perhaps we had been leaning too heavily on a reason that last mile we did not like to lose our support.
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  And that's like, you know, that's important.
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  I got that highlighted right there because that's important, right?
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  Perhaps I've been leaning too heavily on a reason the last mile.
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  What about the 1st part of the mile?
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  What, you know, I got presented this opportunity and this and this and this, and now we're going to take the range, right?
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  Because I got this because my track record shows I got this.
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  and it really doesn't.
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  But that's just, you know, this is just how I'm kind of reading this out, but it's cool.
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  So back to the text, that was natural, but let us think a little more closely.
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  Without knowing it, we had not been brought to where we stood by a certain kind of faith.
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  For did we not believe in our own reasoning?
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  Did we not have confidence in our ability to think? What was that but a sort of faith?
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  Yes, we have been faithfully, objectively faithful, the God of reason.
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  And if you read that, like, if you're reading along, that objective, objectively is totally, right?
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  So it says, yes, we have been faithful, totally faithful to the God of reason.
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  So in one way or the other.
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  We discovered that faith had been involved in all the time.
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  So yeah, I mean, did I have faith in my own reasoning?
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  We found, too, that we've been worshipers.
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  What a state of mental goose flesh that used to bring on.
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  Had we not fearlessly worship people, sediment, things, money in ourselves?
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  And then with a better moment, uh, motive, had we not worshipably, fully beheld the sunset of the sea or a flower?
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  Who of us did not love something or somebody?
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  And I have all that capitalized.
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  I got a little star over there because, you know, I like to think about that.
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  Do I have faith that that check's going to hit every week, right?
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  Do I have faith in my employer is not going to go out of business and am I going to get that paycheck?
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  Do I have faith that the woman I love in acting, you know, like she says?
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  I mean, you know, and I come in.
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  I've done this for my whole life, right?
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  Do I have faith?
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  You're going to be there when I pull up? Or are you going to be late?
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  Right?
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  And so I come into these things, and you know, usually, and that's the thing of reason because you told me so.
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  So because you told me, now I have faith in you.
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  But how well is your track record too?
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  How well is mine?
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  And so like, you know, I look at this and I think, you know, well, maybe I have had some sort of faith my whole life, faith in people, faith in anything, right?
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  You know, faith in just let me wake up and or no, will not let me wake up.
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  Let me lay down on this bed and it be as comfortable as it was the night before.
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  Every day.
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  Um. So back to the text, and we're on page the page 54.
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  How much did these feelings, these loves, these worships have to do with pure reason?
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  Little or nothing, we saw at last.
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  Were not these things, the tissue out of which our lives were constructed?
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  Did not these feelings, so the feelings I have circled right here, because it's kind of, that's what we've been.
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  been basing my life off for a long time.
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  After all, determine the course of our existence.
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  It was impossible to say we had no capacity for faith or love or worship in one form or another.
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  We had been living by faith in little else.
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  Imagine life without face where nothing left but pure reason.
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  It wouldn't be life.
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  But we believed in life.
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  Of course we did.
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  We cannot prove life in the sense that you can prove a straight line in the shortest distance between 2 points, yet there it was.
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  Could we still say that the whole thing was nothing but a massive electrons?
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  created out of nothing, meaning nothing, whirling at the destiny and nothingness?
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  Of course we could.
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  The electrons themselves seem more intelligent than that, at least so the chemist says.
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  Hence, we saw that reason is in everything, how that highlighted.
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  Neither is reason, as most of us use it, entirely dependable, though the name made from our best minds.
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  What about people who prove that man could never fly?
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  Yet we have been seeing another kind of flight.
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  A spiritual liberation from this world, people who rose above their problems, they say that God made these things possible, and we only smiled.
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  We had seen spiritual release.
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  But like to ourselves it wasn't true.
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  So, you know, when I, man, when I go, you know, I think of greatest, you know, the greatest representation, a step two.
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  is when I walk into an alcoholics anonymous meeting for me.
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  Not all of them, of course, and that's kind of, you know, a downfall of AA, I guess, in some areas.
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  You know, but for the most part, when I go in, I find some guys that have recovered some from a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body.
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  So when I come into that position in step two, right, came to believe that a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity, well, that sanity, right, I had to know I was insane to get there.
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  If I know I'm insane, 1st step.
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  And I go to step two.
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  Well, I come to believe that this power that you people are talking about could restore me to sanity.
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  And I've been seeing that. And I see it day to day.
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  I don't even have to go there.
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  You know, I see it in the real world when I open my eyes a little bit.
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  Back to the text and we're on page 55.
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  Actually, actually, we were fooling ourselves for deep down in every man, woman and child is the fundamental idea God.
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  I have that highlighted and underlined.
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  That's important to me.
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  It may be obscured by calamity, by pump, by worship.
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  And I have those, because what we talked about on the pages before, right?
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  We talked about different things that, you know, can block me from that.
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  So here's some more calamity by pump, by worship, you know, disaster and ego, right?
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  That's what we're talking about here of other things.
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  I can worship my job, right?
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  I can worship a woman.
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  I can worship anything.
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  of other things, but in some form or the other, it is there, for faith and a power greater than ourselves, and a miraculous demonstration of that power and human lives are facts as old as man himself.
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  We finally saw that faith in some kind of God was a part of our makeup, just as much as the feeling we have for a friend.
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  And this is the rest of this paragraph I've kept, or highlighted in underline, because this is important when we get on a little, get on a little bit further through the work.
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  Says sometimes we had to search fearlessly, but he was there.
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  He was as much effect as we were.
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  We found a great reality deep down within us.
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  So that tells me where God is, deep down within me.
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  And that is the most important one of the most important statements in this book, right?
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  Because I want to look in every which place in books and churches and this and that and that, and then it's telling me right here that the great reality is deep down within me.
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  And that's important.
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  And that's really important. And I don't know, you know, I think it is, it's a good place to look at this.
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  It's really important to me.
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  That's deep down within me, and you can write this in your books, if you're, if you're just listening along, that's okay too. To write page 64 in here.
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  Because when I look at page 64,
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  It says right here it says, though our decision was a vital and crucial step, it could have little permanent effect unless followed by a strenuous effort to face and be read of the things in ourselves which have been blocking us. Well, blocking us from what?
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  God.
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  Well, if God's deep down within me.
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  And I'm getting the stuff out to block him.
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  And I got this other stuff that's deep down within me too, that I've been pushing down my whole life.
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  Anyway, so that's, you know, and I think that that's how that connects to me, and it's really important.
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  It says it back in the text on 55,
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  It says in the last analysis, it is only there that he may be found.
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  It was so with us.
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  We can only clear the ground a bit.
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  If our testimony helps sweep away prejudice, enables you to think honestly, encourage you to search diligently within yourself.
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  Then, if you wish, you can join us on the broad highway. And I have this whole paragraph highlighting and paint too.
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  Because it's a promise, right?
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  You can join us on this broad highway with this attitude.
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  You cannot fail.
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  The consciousness of your belief is sure to come to you.
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  And so we're about to, uh, talk about this guy and he's an important figure in the, uh, In the book and what's FitzMayo.
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  And so this example is about this guy, and so it says in this book, you will read the experience of a man who thought he was an atheist.
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  His story is so interesting that some of it should be told now.
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  His change of heart was dramatic, convincing, and moving.
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  And I think, you know, that word right there and dramatic is important because that's the difference in between spiritual experience and the spiritual awakening. And it's in the back of the book and talking about spiritual experience.
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  And, you know, but a spiritual experience is sudden and a spiritual awakening happens over a little bit in a time.
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  The way the book explains it.
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  Um, where that comes from, and it's really cool.
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  It comes from, uh,
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  Uh, what am I?
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  I drew a blank.
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  um, varieties of religious experience, this book and that this book kind of like, you know, brought into that.
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  But, you know, the way, and there's 2 words that I just can't think of the words for some reason.
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  Anyways, but the way old medicine worked was like, you know, so say you get a fever.
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  Well, so say that fever, they get the medicines and that fever breaks right away.
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  Well, there was a word for that, and there was a word for it broke over time. Because, you know, it was a big deal to get a fever then, right?
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  You died.
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  And you know, if we go back and this is an important connection to me, it says, like, you know, it talks a lot.
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  We talked a lot about the alcoholic die, death and all this stuff.
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  And we're talking about spiritual awakening, spiritual experience.
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  It says if on page 44.
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  When you honestly want to, you finally cannot quit entirely.
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  Or with drinking, you have little control over the map you take.
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  You're probably alcoholic.
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  If that be the case, you may be suffering from an illness, illness, which only a spiritual experience will conquer.
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  So this is important, right?
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  The old medicine, this, this.
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  And I just think, you know, the only thing we should be talking about today is how to help the newcomers, how the spiritual experience or spiritual awakening.
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  Because that solves my, that conquers this illness, right?
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  And I think what else are we doing here?
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  Anyways, on top of page 56.
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  Our friend was a minister's son.
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  He attended church school where he became rebellious at what he thought an overdose of religious education.
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  For years thereafter, he was dogged by trouble and frustration, business failure, insanity, fatal illness, suicide, these calamities, and his immediate embittered and depressed him.
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  Postwar disillusionment, even more serious alcoholism, impending mental and physical collapse, brought him to the point of self destruction.
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  One night confined in a hospital, he was approached, and I think you should underly an approach right there because it says, so that's saying that he was in the hospital and he was approached by an alcoholic.
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  So somebody went and approached him, and that's an important thing in this, and you'll find me raining about this this whole time, that we do not wait for people to come approach us.
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  We go approach them.
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  And this book gives countless times, different examples of how I approach an individual.
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  Um, so don't go sit back in the side lines and, you know, go get on the firing lines.
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  It says he was approached by an alcoholic who had not, who had not known a spiritual experience.
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  Our French gorge rose as he bitterly cried out.
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  If there is a God, he certainly hasn't done anything for me.
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  But later alone in his room, he asks himself this question.
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  Is it possible that all religious people I've known are wrong?
• 24:40
  While pondering the answer, I felt as though he lived in hell, then like a thunderbolt, a great thought came, crowded out all else.
• 24:49
  Who are you to say there is no God?
• 24:52
  And my friend that, you know, we started doing these recordings together, you know, I think he got posed with that same question.
• 25:00
  And that question is, you know, it's important because who am I to say there's no God?
• 25:05
  Am I God?
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  No.
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  Says this man or counts that he tumbled out of bed to his knees.
• 25:10
  In a few seconds, he was overwhelmed by conviction of the presence of God.
• 25:15
  It poured over him and threw him with the certainty and majesty of a great tide of flood.
• 25:20
  The barriers he had built through the years were swept away.
• 25:25
  He stood at the presence of infinite power and love.
• 25:29
  He had stepped from the bridge to the shore.
• 25:32
  For the 1st time he lived in the conscious companionship with his creator.
• 25:37
  Thus was our friend's cornerstone fixed in place.
• 25:41
  And man, I had that whole paragraph in pink and I got cornerstone right here.
• 25:47
  Because it says, you know, we talked about cornerstone, right?
• 25:50
  And that was on page 47.
• 25:52
  So, no, it says no later Vicitude is shaking it.
• 25:57
  His alcohol problem was taken away that very night years ago.
• 26:01
  It disappeared.
• 26:03
  And I had this highlighted right here.
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  save, save for a few brief moments of temptation.
• 26:11
  The thought of drink has never returned.
• 26:12
  This never returned.
• 26:14
  That's crazy.
• 26:15
  And at such times, a great revulsion has risen up in him.
• 26:19
  Seemingly, he could not drink in it even if he would.
• 26:23
  God had restored his sanity.
• 26:24
  So, you know, this is the very important part, you know, when we talk about like sanity and insanity.
• 26:30
  You know, you'll go into meetings and people like to be cute, right?
• 26:32
  And they'll be like, well, I'm still insane.
• 26:34
  We're not talking about that.
• 26:36
  You know, that's your human problems and whatever else that is.
• 26:39
  And you call yourself whatever you want to.
• 26:42
  But when we're talking about the drink.
• 26:44
  When I start drinking, I drink more.
• 26:49
  And after a certain amount of time, I usually drink.
• 26:51
  And God has removed that from me.
• 26:54
  And you know, and you kind of think about this, like it says he could not drink even if you would.
• 26:59
  Well, Corey in a sane mind.
• 27:03
  would not take a drink of alcohol because I'll tell you this, my mother, my birth mother, not my birth mother, my adopted mother, was not an alcoholic.
• 27:14
  If she had done 10 of the worst, one of the 10 of the worst things I've ever done in my life, she would never think about taking a sip of alcohol ever again in her life.
• 27:22
  Why would she?
• 27:24
  That's crazy.
• 27:24
  Because I'm not, you know, me drunk is not the crazy person, right?
• 27:30
  It's me when I'm dead sober and I take a drink of alcohol knowing everything that I've done in my life.
• 27:35
  That's the insanity.
• 27:38
  Back to the text on 57.
• 27:41
  What is this but a miracle of healing, yet it is elements are simple.
• 27:45
  Circumstances made him willing to believe, right?
• 27:48
  Because we came into that position.
• 27:49
  Circumstances made him willing to believe.
• 27:53
  And he says he humbly offered himself to his maker, then he knew.
• 27:57
  Even so, even so, I've got to restore us all to our right runs, that this man, the revelation was sudden.
• 28:03
  Some of us grow into it more slowly, but he has come to all those who have honestly sought him.
• 28:10
  When we drew near to him, he disclosed himself to us.
• 28:14
  Thank you guys, and we will be starting on next week.
• 28:19
  We will read 5859 and 60.
• 28:24
  So depending on how long that takes, you might get a short, short weekend there, but thank you guys for y'all's time, and, um, yeah, this is a, this is a privilege to be able to do this. If anybody listens, if not, that's cool too, because I'll, listen.
• 28:39
  I'll read the book to myself, to an aunt, by myself.
• 28:44
  It doesn't matter.
• 28:45
  You know, the cool thing is that I think people do listen to this and, uh, the ability and the privilege to be able to do that and to be a part of something bigger than me is is a really cool thing and I'm really grateful.
• 28:57
  Thank you guys for listening.