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42: what if the opposite is true? · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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You are love and you are loved and love is unfolding for you.
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Community is unfolding for you.
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Creativity is unfolding for you.
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What you seek is seeking you.
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I promise you that.
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What you desire is desiring you.
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And you are so whole and you are so loved
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and you are so precious and divine and we need you as you are
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and we also need you in your true and in your power.
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You've lived the story, you've lived for a reason,
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the stories you've lived, let me not reduce you.
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You are irreducible, you are divine
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and you are forever part of the collective
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and the collective is forever part of you.
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Hello, divine being.
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Hello, soul sibling.
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Hello, sunshine.
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Welcome or welcome back to the soul, Salon.
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I am so excited to be with you, settle in, settle down,
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whatever you're doing.
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I'm grateful to be doing it with you today.
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I want to speak to all my fellow worst case scenario thinkers.
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Okay, feelers, dreamers, the people who we are always trying
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to protect ourselves by picturing the worst
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and imagining that that's exactly what's going to happen.
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And then living our lives accordingly
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to try and sort of paradoxically protect ourselves.
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The reason why it's a paradox is because we're living
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in the worst case scenario, we don't allow ourselves
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to take action in alignment with the best case scenario,
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which is also always and already possible.
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If we think of the infinite timelines
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that are available in the quantum field,
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what could go right is just as possible, okay,
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in so many ways.
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When we think of our dreams, when we think of our friendships,
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we want to create the communities, we want to foster the things
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we want to create, it's so important to remember
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and to bring in the frequency of what is possible.
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And so what I really want to focus on today is a question
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that I often ask myself whenever I am trapped
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in this worst case scenario mindset, you know what I mean?
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And what I ask myself when I'm saying,
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okay, what if everyone is going to hate me
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or what if everyone's going to cancel me?
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What if this person doesn't want me as a friend?
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I pause, I breathe and I say to myself,
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what if the opposite is true?
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And what I love about this question
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is if you really contemplate what the actual opposite is,
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not a kind of close thing that could be the literal opposite.
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So for example, when you're thinking to yourself,
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oh, if I share myself online, I'm going to get canceled.
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You say to yourself, what if the opposite is true?
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Not if, what if I don't get canceled?
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No, babes, let's go more opposite.
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What if people love me?
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You know, what if people shower me
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with deep compassion, gratitude and love?
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And in turn, I continue to do that towards them.
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If you are thinking and you're in public,
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this happens to me all the time and maybe you see someone
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and you're like, oh, I kind of want to say hello,
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but then I'm going to get rejected
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or they don't want me to go up to them or look,
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they're on their phone, they're busy,
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you convince yourself, oh, they don't want to talk to me,
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I'd be annoying them.
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What if the opposite is true?
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What if they secretly want to say hi to you?
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I'm certain that in the universe of possibilities,
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I just wonder how many times this has happened,
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where there's been people in public
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who have had eyes on each other,
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but just neither has been brave enough to say hello,
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and I totally empathize with that,
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given how risky it can feel
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and how isolated we tend to be from one another.
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Another example is I have this theory
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that there are so many friends in the universe in the world
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who are secretly in love with each other,
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but neither is brave enough to confess to the other.
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Oh my goodness, this would be such a good documentary.
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I'm telling you, and so the one friend is thinking,
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oh no, if I confess my love or romantic love for this person,
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I mean, friendship is a form of romantic love in my mind.
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I have podcast episodes on this
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that you can go listen to and watch,
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and it is a topic that I'll continue to revisit,
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but what I mean to say is they're seeking
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a sexual romantic relationship if they are sexual people,
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and they are scared that it's going to ruin the friendship
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and they don't confess they love and so they don't,
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but what if it's not that this person was gonna reject you,
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but they were also going to be like,
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I'm also in love with you.
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I bet that would happen so much more in the world
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if we made it safer to just express different forms
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of love towards each other.
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Anyways, what I wanna really let settle in,
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sink in, seep into our consciousness,
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because we have the collective consciousness
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that we are a part of, that is a part of us, right?
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The consciousness pulsating through us, between us,
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and what I want to let sink into that is this idea that
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sometimes this worst-case scenario
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that we are so certain is going to unfold,
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it's actually that certainty
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that's also contributing to the unfolding.
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What do I mean by that?
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When you act as though bad things are going to happen,
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what kind of energy do you put into the universe?
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What kind of risks do you refuse to take?
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What kind of actions do you refuse to take?
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Because you're convinced it's gonna go wrong.
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Let's say you've dreamed of posting on TikTok,
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you feel like, oh, I'm definitely going to get dragged,
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humiliated or ridiculed.
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So then maybe you do post on TikTok,
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but you post something safe, right?
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You post something that you feel like
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is non-controversial, and then what happens?
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It's not something that deeply resonates with people,
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because you're not giving you all to it.
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You're not embodying someone who literally thinks,
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no, people want to hear what I have to say.
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People care about my stories.
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People care about the random thought I had on a Tuesday,
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because that's how so many videos that do well,
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that's what they are.
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It's someone saying, you know what?
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Someone might care about this,
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and then sharing that truth,
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and then a lot of people often resonating with that truth.
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So we need to understand that we carry an energy
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in accordance with the future that we see
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for ourselves and for each other.
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So for example, if we as a collective are like,
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oh, it's not possible for us to improve the world,
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or to change the world, or it's futile.
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It's just like, what is even the point?
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So much is going wrong in the world,
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and I do empathize with that again.
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There's so much heartbreak that we are all witnessing
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and experiencing and living at this exact moment
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with Palestine, with Congo, with Sudan,
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and also just with the global world order,
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and with climate change, and with racism,
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and all the things, capitalism, and all the things.
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And at the same time, if we collectively don't believe
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it's possible to improve things,
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and we just say, well, it's already a lost cause,
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then we'll never act as though we think it's possible
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to improve things.
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And I love it.
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It's one of those quotes that just will always be with me.
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I learned it very young, and I'll never forget it
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is the Nelson Mandela quotes.
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It always seems impossible until it's done.
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And so I have a whole sole session on possibility.
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But what this sole session is really intended to invite us
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into is a question, an intervention that we can use
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in our day-to-day lives.
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When we are stuck in this worst case scenario thinking,
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you could even do a journal exercise.
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We're on the left hand side, you write all the things
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you think are going to go wrong, and then you say,
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okay, what if the opposite is true?
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And then you write all the things that could go right,
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or all the ways that the assumptions you are making
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may actually not be the case.
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Because it's not only about possibility,
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but it's also about assumptions that we are making
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about even projects we're embarking on.
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So for example, the idea that it has to be perfect,
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that's an assumption we make.
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And Rick Ruben's book speaks about how we accept
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all these implicit rules from culture, from our craft,
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from the mediums that we create on.
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But what if the opposite is true?
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He has a chapter on that that's very short
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on the creative version of this.
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So let's say if you say, oh, I have to make
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a 45-minute podcast episode.
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You say, what if the opposite is true?
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What if I need to make a two-minute episode?
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You know what I mean?
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Oh, no, I have to do interviews and yet they stress me out.
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What if the opposite is true?
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And actually it's okay to have solo episodes.
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That was my experience.
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I thought, okay, to have a podcast meant I had to do interviews,
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I didn't have the space to do them yet.
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And I still don't, and I'm excited to,
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I'm just honoring the phase that I'm in,
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but I am looking forward to that phase.
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But essentially I was like, what if the opposite is true?
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What if I could just chat?
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You know what I mean?
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And people might vibe with that too.
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So I want to read you a list that I wrote
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of moments or experiences that I could come up with
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that speak to this idea of when we sometimes assume
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kind of the opposite of what is actually possible.
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So this is the list.
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Let me go grab it for you.
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Okay, so the first one is when you're in a public place
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and you want to go up to someone, but you think to yourself,
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they probably don't want to be interrupted or greeted.
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They could be even in a group.
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They probably don't want me to infiltrate their group.
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What if the opposite is true?
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What if they've actually just had a conversation
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about how much they're looking to make new friends?
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But it's so difficult in the city.
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Everyone says that whatever city they're from.
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And so there's always that possibility
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that what you seek is seeking you.
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That's the exact energy that we're talking about.
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It's that it's not one sided.
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Sometimes we are part of a bigger chorus
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that we think we are a lone voice within.
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Oh, powerful.
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Okay, the second example has really been part of my life.
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So I started creating on TikTok three years ago.
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And this has been my biggest teacher
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in terms of what if the opposite is true?
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Because I had this fixated in my mind
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that everything was going to go wrong.
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I was inevitably going to be canceled, dragged, ridiculed.
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And everyone was going to be laughing at me
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both offline and online.
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And what is unfolded, the opposite has unfolded.
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I've received so much love and support and connection
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and just community.
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And it's been so wonderful to have my best friends.
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I've met through TikTok.
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And so it's been like the literal opposite.
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And I think that is why I feel so passionately about this idea
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because I'm living the opposite.
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And that's not to say I'll never be canceled
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or ridiculed or dragged, but so much love has happened
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that even if that does happen,
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it would still be worth it to me.
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I mean, it's hard to say that because there's uncertainty.
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I don't actually know how my future self will feel about this.
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I don't want to claim to know that.
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But I guess where I am right now
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in my current understanding and perspective
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is that I've just loved the way that I have received love
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from my community, from my audience, from you listening.
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And I feel so fulfilled and so lit up
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that I feel the complete opposite of what I was imagining
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would happen, like I was imagining the hate comments
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and the hate ratings and the hate this.
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But actually it's been so loving.
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And so I think that's why I care so much about this idea
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is like if I really hadn't allowed myself to be like,
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you know what, I am afraid of this happening
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but I'm still gonna do it anyway.
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I wouldn't be living in the reality that I'm living now
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with respect to creating and sharing myself
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and building a community.
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So that's why I wanna offer that to you.
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I wanna give a sub example of this
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that is also really resonant for me.
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I think part of the vulnerability or fear of sharing
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yourself online is that you're also facing people
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in your real life, whether you are still in touch
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with them or not judging you as well.
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So like people you went to school with and so on.
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And so one big limiting belief I had was that
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what if everyone in my life who knows me,
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that's not my close, close, close friend, is laughing at me?
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I think we all feel that resonant image
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of just like a bunch of kids laughing at us
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and saying, look how cringe you are,
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look how embarrassing you are,
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look how few things of importance you have to say
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or whatever your insecurities are,
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you kind of project that onto what you think
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people are thinking of you.
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And so I had this real fear about like people that I did know
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even leading me to create a separate Instagram account
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separate from the account where I, you know,
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that I grew up with, right?
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I'm really glad I did that but at the same time,
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whenever I have that feeling of cringe of like,
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oh, what if someone I see, I know sees this
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and they're like judging me for it?
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I think, you know what, what if they're inspired
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by what I'm doing?
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And that's what I mean by the opposite.
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Don't say, what if they're not judging me?
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That's too un-the-nose-visty.
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We're gonna take it a step further.
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Not what if they're not judging me.
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What if they're inspired by what I'm doing?
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What if they feel more encouraged to share themselves
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because of how I'm sharing myself?
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What if they feel more encouraged to be bold?
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What if they enjoy just listening to me?
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You know, I've received messages from people in my life
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that I had no idea, listen to my podcast
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or watch my videos and they're like,
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thank you so much for this.
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Or someone I went to college with
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who I haven't spoken to in years is like,
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it's so nice to see you sharing yourself like this
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and I learned so much from you
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and it honestly gives me chills
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because I didn't think that was possible.
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All I assumed was the worst.
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So again, I have made a video once about how
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we don't only hold limiting beliefs about ourselves.
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We also hold limiting beliefs about each other.
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We always assume the worst in each other.
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We always say they're judging me, they hate me.
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They're not gonna, like what I have to say,
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they're gonna ridicule me and that's really unfair.
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It's unfair to the collective
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because we also are all kind of looking
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for people to support and to love.
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Like there's so much love on the internet.
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I know there's so much hate as well,
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but there's also so much love
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and that is this frequency that I'm trying to bring in.
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So when we're stuck in the mindset of like,
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what if everyone is laughing at me?
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And I know this does indeed happen.
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I'm not trying to say these negative things don't happen.
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But what if we just allow ourselves
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to just play with the idea?
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Like no, what if I become someone who in my community,
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people are like, oh, you know, partially because of them,
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I actually took this step in my life
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and I'm so grateful.
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Maybe even at the time I judged them,
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I was jealous of them or I criticized them.
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But as I did some deeper work, I was like,
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oh my word, the reason I'm judging them
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is because I want to do what they're doing.
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I want to invite myself into allowing myself
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to be a beginner at something,
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to try at something, to get 100 views on something.
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Like that's brave, you know?
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Obviously I'm coming from a perspective
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of sharing yourself online,
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but whatever you're doing,
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if you want to be a dancer and you take dance classes,
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I have a friend who's embarking on that journey
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and she's just like going to these dance classes
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and it's hard and she feels like, oh, my word,
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it's overwhelming because she's a beginner
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and everyone in the class is maybe more advanced
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but how inspiring is that?
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That's so wonderful.
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It's so inspiring to allow yourself to be a beginner
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and I'm learning from her and she's encouraging me
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just in these actions she's taken
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to have a more beginner's mindset of like,
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what am I not allowing myself to try?
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What am I not allowing myself to do?
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So anyways, that's an example of allowing ourselves to try
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and we don't even know the impact
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that that will have on other people.
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Like she doesn't know that her learning to dance
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is inspiring me to learn to do things
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and just like practice things and try things
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and so we don't know our impact.
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Often before I post a TikTok or a podcast episode,
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I'm like, people are gonna hate this,
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people are gonna criticize this at minute 17.
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I said this and they're gonna drag me for it
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and then they're like, oh, my word,
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thank you so much for this episode.
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It really spoke to me like keep going
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and I'm like, oh, my goodness.
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What if the opposite is true?
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What if people are not secretly looking
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to criticize every word you say?
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What if they actually are seeking voices to support
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and they're grateful to have found you as one of them?
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You know what I mean?
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Like it's possible.
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I've had so many TikToks where I was like,
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I could swear they were gonna go negatively viral
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and then they did not.
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Okay, let's take it offline.
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Let's take it away from the space of online content creation
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and into the real world.
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So what are more examples of when the opposite can be true
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and when this question can be supportive to us?
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The next example is with respect to texting culture
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because I know we all are waiting for someone
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to text us back or feeling bad
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that we haven't texted someone back and both
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and neither whatever it is.
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So one of them is like, they're mad at me
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or they're ignoring me for not texting me back.
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I know this can be very painful
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and this is a whole larger conversation
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but what if the opposite is true?
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What if they're not mad at you or ignoring you?
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What if they feel so kind of secure
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in the friendship you have?
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This is like you're the new, new best friend.
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Yes, I am.
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What if they feel so much security in the friendship
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that you share that they actually feel safe
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in taking their time to respond from a place of abundance
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when they are more ready to
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because life gets busy and so on
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than responding from this place of obligation and pressure?
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That is a possibility.
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Or what if they're not mad at you at all?
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What if they're busy and it has nothing to do with you?
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That's another way you could use the opposite.
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What if it's like not about you at all?
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What if they're going through something completely different?
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So many what ifs could be possible
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that we can invite ourselves into
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when we feel like we're not being responded back to,
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what if this is an invitation to just send another text?
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Even if we may feel like, oh, I don't want to double
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or triple text, I know this is a painful conversation
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so I'm not going to do it justice right now
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but just an invitation to maybe ask yourself,
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what if I'm centering myself
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and it's actually not fair to them
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because it's maybe not even about me?
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Another related one that I think is so fascinating.
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So I had a podcast interview lined up
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and I'm really excited for this guest to come on
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but I was behind in reading the book.
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So I had to kind of cram to read the book
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so I had it on my schedule
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but it was really stressing me out.
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I was like, this is not really the energy
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that I would like to read this book in
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and I was feeling like, I mean, icon cancel
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we've had this on the schedule for like four months
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and so I was feeling like, oh, like,
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I really would prefer to do this in another time
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but I feel like this guest is very busy.
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They specifically requested a time
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for the out in the year versus I reached out to them last year
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and I was like, well, I just have to read this book this week
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and then that Monday morning
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who sends me an email the guest saying,
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I'm feeling so overwhelmed.
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Can we please reschedule this meeting too further in the year?
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And so it was such a beautiful example.
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She was apologizing and stuff and I was like,
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you know what, this is such an amazing example
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of how we feel so bad to cancel
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but what if that person actually would love to have
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the time that they would gain back?
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And I think often we're so apologetic,
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I'm so sorry to cancel this call or this meeting
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and then sometimes we don't realize that that person
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may also feel they also wanted to cancel in a way
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and they feel a certain kind of relief
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that they get to have that time
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and that you can reschedule.
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This is also part of a bigger conversation
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because I do think that there comes a time
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when it can be really hurtful when someone is always
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they call it like flaking on you or cancelling or rescheduling.
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I understand that perfectly.
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I think that's really true.
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It's a nuanced conversation
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but there are those select moments
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where we're not able to show up the way we want to show up
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or life got in the way, life got busy
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and we need the space to cancel
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and what if the person's not going to be mad at us
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or resentful but instead relieved?
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I always respond this.
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I always say thank you for honoring your boundaries
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because in turn you've allowed me
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and invited me to undermine.
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And I think that's so true.
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We're role modeling for each other was possible
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and someone says I'm feeling unwell
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like can we please reschedule
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and the other person might also be feeling unwell
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and felt like they didn't have the rights
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or the space to reschedule.
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So that's an example, again, bigger conversation
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but I wanted to just invite you into that again.
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A next example is the assumption that conflict will tear us apart.
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If I bring this up, if I have the difficult conversation,
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something will be broken, something will be ruptured between us.
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And as we know what if the opposite is true,
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what if this conflict brings us closer together,
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brings us into deeper alignment, intimacy and integrity?
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What if I learn something about them through sharing my truth
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because I also get to learn theirs?
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What if I learn something about myself
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and why actually this means so much to me?
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Like what is this actually about?
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What am I valuing?
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What do I feel is kind of out of alignment
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so that I can come into deeper truth
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and honestly with myself as well as with this person?
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So that reframe from this conflict will break us up
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to this conflict will bring us together
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or even bring us into a deeper truth.
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So some friendships and relationships really must end.
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You know, as in it has come the time.
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So if I bring this conflict up,
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maybe the more loving possibility will unfold.
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But I think the direct opposite is just that often
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we think conflict is something that ruptures a relationship.
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And we don't realize that if we're able to hold
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conscious conflict, loving conflict,
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then it can actually bring us into a very deep
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and juicy intimacy.
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I think about this a lot, conflict,
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the way we only have conflict with people that we are close with,
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that has to be a symbol, that sign,
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that conflict and relationship are intertwined
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that we fortify our closeness to one another
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by being truthful about the experiences we have
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with each other that do rub us the wrong way
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or feel hurtful or feel like our boundaries
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have been encroached out in some way
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or we feel out of alignment with.
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So conflict meaning that,
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conflict meaning with confidant,
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confidence, conjunction.
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So I think that there's this special thing where
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we need to realize that it's only twigs that are close
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that are going to have a little fire between them.
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You know what I mean?
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So yes, conflict can bring us closer to each other.
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The next one of the opposite is true is,
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I want to reach out to them,
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but it's been so long they don't want to hear from me.
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Babes, what if they miss you too?
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You know what I mean?
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What if they miss you in ways they don't even realize
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and when they read your text, they'll be like,
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oh my goodness, wow,
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and they may even have just been thinking about you.
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That happened so often.
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I had a friend who I hadn't spoken to in years
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reached out to me.
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She was like, I was just thinking of you,
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I miss you, let's catch up.
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And there's a world in which she was like,
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oh no, she doesn't want to hear from me.
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I was loving, I'm trying to stop saying dying.
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I was loving to hear from her.
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It was wonderful.
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It was wonderful.
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That's because I feel like words carry energetic frequency
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and I just don't want to bring that into my world.
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And so I'm trying to remove death kind of language.
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Like, oh my god, I'm dying.
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I'm dying to hear this or I'm dying to see you.
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I can't wait to see you.
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I'm trying to, you know, words have power in the universe.
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And so I want to be in a divine and sensual
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and beautiful relationship with the words that I use.
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And so I want to stop using language like that.
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But I'm loving to, I'm excited to reconnect with her
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and I'm so glad that she believed it was possible
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that I did want to hear from her
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and I did feel the same.
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Ah, sexy, beautiful, wonderful, perfect, okay?
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The next one is, it's just always gonna be this hard.
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This is so hard, this is so tough.
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I'm having so, I'm struggling so much
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and this is just how it's always gonna be.
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I often tell myself, nothing is permanent.
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This tool pass and what if the opposite is true?
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Like, what if this is temporary?
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What if I even look back on this experience
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is like, wow, you know, even though it was painful,
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I needed to go through this in order to learn that.
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I don't want to glorify suffering.
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I don't want us to suffer so I don't always think
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that's the right lesson to draw.
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But I do think there are these experiences
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where we just, we take what we can from them
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and we also recognize that they are temporary.
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Have two left.
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The one is, even when we're in a conversation,
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maybe you're in a group conversation,
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you're struggling to get a word in.
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It's one of those conversations where it's just difficult.
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You maybe have something you wanna say,
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but you silence yourself.
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Maybe you're more of a listener, you say to yourself,
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you know what, like I'm just gonna be more
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in a passive role in this conversation
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and listen to these people have this conversation without me.
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And we think to ourselves, no one values what I have to say.
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And inviting ourselves into the opposite view
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of like people value my voice and perspective
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and also I value my voice and perspective.
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So I deserve to be heard.
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With respect to that, something I think about a lot
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is how different cultures and families
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have different relationships to conversation.
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So I get really annoyed, honestly,
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when someone in conversation just speaks and speaks
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and speaks or in a group just speaks and speaks
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and speaks for what I've invited myself into seeing
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is like some people grew up in homes
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where they were so used to,
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oh, if you have something to say, you'll interrupt me.
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And they were also so used to having to fight to speak.
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So they speak and they kind of are clinging to that airtime
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because they're so used to someone cutting in
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and speaking over them.
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I have a lot more compassion now for that behavior.
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That might not even be someone's truth,
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but it just took me from a hyperjudgmental hyper like,
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why would anyone take up so much space in a conversation
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to, oh, okay, maybe we have some different cultural conditioning
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or stories around how a conversation is supposed to go.
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Another nuanced conversation because we do need
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to make space for each other,
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but it's just helped me be less in a hypercritical
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and therefore also just that negative energy
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that I then feel because I'm now resenting them.
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And then now I'm kind of more at peace with it.
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I'm like, you know, not necessarily that my way is the way.
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It's just how I've been taught to converse
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and how I prefer to converse, which is also fine.
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I don't have to find a line-minute conversation with everyone.
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The final and final example that I have for you
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and I wonder they must be so much more out there
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that I wanted to share is,
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is the feeling that I'm not good enough
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or I'm not prepared enough?
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Like I'm not qualified enough.
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And what if the opposite is true in that?
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What if my whole life has prepared me for this moment?
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What if I'm the exact voice that this idea needs to speak it?
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What if I'm the exact hands that this creation needs to craft it?
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So just inviting yourself to actually not see yourself
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through the lens of institutions and frameworks
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and oh, I'm not old enough or wise enough,
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or beautiful enough for all of these things
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that is placed on us by these toxic systems.
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And just say like, what if it's me, not only me,
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because it's also us,
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but what if I feel core to this for a reason
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and I am prepared enough and I am good enough
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and actually my feeling of not being good enough
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might even allow me to create
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with more truthfulness and resonance
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because I can always bring that perspective into what I'm creating.
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We can always make space to name the shame we feel,
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the inadequacy we feel, the self-doubt we feel.
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And that's also why we are the right person to do it
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because of the authenticity and the honesty
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and the integrity that we can bring to that creation,
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the truthfulness and the rawness that we can bring.
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So I hope that this episode was supportive to you.
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I hope that you can ask yourself more frequently
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what if the opposite is true?
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What if I am basing my entire actions
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and orientation towards this project, idea, friendship,
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relationship, reality in a way that's so rooted
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in a very narrow conception of what could happen,
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hyperfixated on what could go wrong,
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therefore aligning my actions, aligning my energy
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to that outcome and therefore also making that outcome
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more probable.
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What if it's actually possible that the people I think
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hate me actually admire me?
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What if it's possible that this thing that I feel
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has to be a certain way I could invite myself
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to be literally the opposite?
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I hope this was supportive to you.
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I love you so dearly and I hope you'll solve
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the feelings, the warmth, the love, the wisdom
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of this sole session.
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We will be back and I cannot wait to be with you again
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in co-presence and co-community
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and I guess that's what co-community means.
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So I love you so dearly, you are love and you are loved
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and love is unfolding for you.
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Community is unfolding for you.
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Creativity is unfolding for you.
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What you seek is seeking you.
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I promise you that.
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What you desire is desiring you and you are so whole
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and you are so loved and you are so precious
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and divine and we need you as you are
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and we also need you in your true and in your power.
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You've lived the story, you've lived for a reason,
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the stories you've lived, let me not reduce you.
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You are irreducible, you are divine
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and you are forever part of the collective
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and the collective is forever part of you.
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I'll see you in the next sole session.
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Love you so dearly, thank you so much.
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