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Kanye’s WSJ Apology: Can He Actually Undo the Damage? · The Mental Healness Podcast

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  So yay, Kanye West issued an apology for all his toxic
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  behaviors over the years, right? And that's the one diagnosed
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  with narcissistic personality disorder and it has had my own
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  struggles with it. Look, you can acknowledge that
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  Kanye West might have been struggling with mental health,
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  but you can also say to hell with you Kanye, right?
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  You can also say, Kanye, you don't done so much damage.
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  Get the hell out of here with this apology.
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  It was years too late. I found it right here on Reddit.
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  2 dose I've hurt. 25 years ago I was in a car accident and they
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  broke my jaw and caused injury to the right frontal lobe of my
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  brain. At the time the focus was on the
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  visible damage, the fracture, the swelling, and the immediate
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  physical trauma. Excuse me?
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  The deeper injury, the one inside my skull, went unnoticed
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  I think. I think we noticed it.
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  I think the world noticed it. You said went unnoticed.
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  The highest, the highest paid physicians, doctors, whatever,
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  it went unnoticed. Comprehensive scans were not
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  done, neurological exams were limited, and the possibility of
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  a frontal lobe injury was never raised.
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  It wasn't properly diagnosed until 2023.
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  That medical oversight caused serious damage to my mental
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  health and LED to my bipolar 1 diagnosis.
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  Bipolar disorder comes with its own defense system denial.
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  When you're manic, you don't think you're sick.
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  When everyone else is, Everyone else is overreacting.
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  You feel like you're the you're seeing the world more clearly
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  than ever, when in reality you're losing your grip
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  entirely. Which is true, right?
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  That's what you said. That's that's true.
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  Once people label you as crazy, you feel as if you cannot
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  contribute anything meaningful to the world.
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  It's easy for people to joke and laugh at all when in fact this
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  is a very serious debilitating disease you can pass away from.
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  According to World Hopeful Organization and Cambridge
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  University people bipolar disorder, her life expectancy
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  that are shortened to 10 to 15 years on average 2 to 3, two to
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  three times the higher all 'cause mortality rate than the
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  general population is on par with severe heart disease.
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  Duh, duh. So now it seems like you're
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  trying to make excuses. Yeah, all that can be true.
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  But look at there are so many other people with bipolar out
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  here that are not bringing up Schmatzys and not praising
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  Shitler and doing things like that, not writing songs to ruin
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  the and denigrating the entire demographics of people.
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  You know what I'm saying? It just seemed like these
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  attacks and stuff like this was so pointed.
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  They were so pointed at certain people, at your own race,
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  getting into politics, doing all this kind of crap, all this
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  shit, all of it. Like you can say Kanye, this is
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  a a well written apology, but you can also say fuck you at the
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  same time, right? You don't have to like an
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  apology. A true apology can be issued,
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  but the person that is apologizing understands that you
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  don't have to accept it, right? You don't have to accept it.
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  Listen, these mortality rates on here and stuff like that.
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  How is it? You know what I'm saying?
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  That seem Oh, people laugh and joke it off, right?
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  Wait, what do I say? OK, the scariest thing about
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  this disorder is how persuasive it is when it tells you you
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  don't need help. It makes you blind, but
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  convinced you have insight. You feel powerful, certain.
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  Unstoppable. Yeah, we saw that.
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  You kept saying it out loud, right?
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  I lost touch with reality. Things got worse the longer I
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  ignored the problem. I said and did things I deeply
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  regret. No.
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  So I haven't read a full apology yet.
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  Y'all going through this the first time with me as well.
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  Some of the people I loved the most I treated the worst.
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  You endured fear, confusion, humiliation and exhaustion of
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  trying to have someone who was at times unrecognizable.
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  Looking back. I became detached from my true
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  self looking back. Looking back you.
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  In that fracture state, I gravitated towards the most
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  destructive symbol I could find, the SWAT smatsy symbol, right.
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  Even so teasers bearing it. Yeah, you.
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  So you were monetizing it. You ran ads doing the Super Bowl
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  like that. What I'm saying, you can have
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  bipolar manic episodes right there and what not, right?
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  But it's just the extent of what he was doing.
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  Like you can apologize an issue, but the damage, you know, I know
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  that there is Kanye folks that can be watching this and do
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  mental health advocates like what he's doing the best you can
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  do. You got to go.
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  You have to put your money where your mouth is and try to undo
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  the shit you've done right? But come on now.
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  Like I said, I have narcissistic personality disorder.
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  If anybody knows who's to struggle with a disorder, it's I
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  do. I get it.
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  I can sympathize for this person and simply like hell no.
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  Just because you were drunk, just because you were high, just
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  because you in a manic state does not does, does not negate
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  the damage that you have done. You see what I'm saying?
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  It wasn't just the, the, the schmotzky stuff.
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  You were doing things in politics, wearing crazy ass
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  shirts, doing selling, doing something candid on it.
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  Like, man, yeah. So let let's do a sidebar.
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  Could people have taken advantage of him at the same
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  time? Yes.
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  There's a lot of people that were praying on Kanye West.
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  This is me coming from my empathetic side right here.
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  Yeah. All right.
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  There were absolutely people that were praying on Kanye West.
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  There absolutely was. Let's keep it real.
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  I'm keeping it real with you right now.
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  There are people that were praying on his downfall, using
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  it, weaponizing his mental health against him and using it
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  and gravitating was was he benefited from it as well?
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  Yes, they were having like symbiotic relationships, but
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  this is how when people know that you're suffering the mental
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  health stuff, some people who are evil and dark can also
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  attack you and take advantage of it from the side from that side
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  perspective right there, right, All right.
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  One of the most difficult aspects of having bipolar type
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  one are the disconnected moments, many of which I still
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  cannot recall. We can recall it.
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  It's online, it's documented. Go back and look if you want to,
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  if Kanye, if you really want to do the work, you got to go back
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  and look at that. That led to poor judgement and
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  reckless behavior that sometimes felt like an out of body
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  experience. I I regret and deeply mortified
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  by my actions in that state. If you do accountability, duh,
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  duh. It is not excused.
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  What I did, though. OK, there you go, there you go.
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  I am not a schmotzi or anti semite.
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  I dove OK to the black community which held me down through all
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  the highs and lows and the darkest times.
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  The black community is unquestionably the foundation
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  who I am. I'm so sorry to have let you all
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  down. I love us.
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  In early 22.5 I fell into a four month loan manic episode of
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  psychotic paranoid and can can, can those episodes last that
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  long? OK, I'm not an ex on bipolar.
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  As the situation became increasingly unsustainable,
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  there were times I didn't want to be here anymore.
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  OK, now Kanye, I didn't want to be here anymore.
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  That's when you kind of lost. Lose me right there.
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  Like I was talking about taking myself out of here but you
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  didn't know what you were doing but you thought about taking
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  yourself out of here. You see, having bipolar disorder
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  is notable state of constant in mental illness.
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  When you go into a manic episode you are ill at that point.
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  When you are not in an episode you are completely normal and
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  then have the wreckage to the from the illness hits the
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  hardest hitting right bottom. A few months ago my wife
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  encouraged me to finally go get help.
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  I have found comfort in Reddit forms of all places different
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  people speaking on their experiences.
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  So he going through Reddit forms and connecting with people
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  right? But experiencing symptoms of
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  wait hold on, it's not just me who ruined entire life in one
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  year despite taking meds every day and being told by so-called
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  best doctors in the world that I'm not bipolar but merely
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  experiencing symptoms of Who the hell told him he's experiencing
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  symptoms of autism? Like you got to sue them.
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  Autism. Autism LED.
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  Somebody said autism let you LED you to being a schmatzy and
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  throwing up the symbol and writing these crazy ass songs
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  and selling these shirts on. My worries as a leader in my
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  community have global impact and influence.
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  In my mania I lost complete sight of that as I find my new
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  baseline and new center through effective regime of medication
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  and therapy, exercise and clean living.
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  I have new found much needed clarity to pour my into my
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  energy. Meaningful art, music, clothes,
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  wait, meaningful art, music, clothes, design and other new
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  ideas to help the world. I'm not asking for sympathy or
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  free pass OK? Though I aspire to learn to earn
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  your forgiveness. I write today.
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  Simply ask for your patience and understanding that I find my way
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  home. Oh, yay, Yeezy Kanye.
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  You can't just you got to put a lot of work in, bro.
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  You just went on. I've never the people who was
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  associating with the people who he allowed to use his name and
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  his brand and his face to just not denigrate just black people,
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  but just Jewish people, other people.
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  He was just terrorizing people like you.
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  You got a lot of work to do, Kanye.
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  And this is just me as someone who's struggling, my own
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  personality disorder and mental illnesses, what mental, who have
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  my own struggles, my own personal struggles.
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  You have a lot of work to do. The damage that I've done in my
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  life is peanuts compared to the damage you've done.
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  Sir, you got a lot of shit to do.
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  You can't just work out and go to start a new clothing line.
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  Hell no, I'm going to work out and eat better.
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  And no, you need to go on a damn world tour and just make up for
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  the type of stuff you do. You need to sort of donate
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  money. You got to.
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  I know people going to say, well, Lee, you can't tell them
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  how to hear. Am I not allowed my own opinion
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  that someone who was a part of the group that he was targeted,
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  He said it Black people, I targeted you, my commuted.
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  I let you down. Yeah, big time.
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  Saying crazy ass shit just being it was a huge part of the
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  problem. Just out here, just just for
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  years. It was just two years.
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  It was years, years of yay losing his damn mind and making
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  us it just just doing shit. That was unnecessary, man.
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  It was just unnecessary shit that he was doing.
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  Bro. Go to therapy, find a good
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  therapist, get some medication right.
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  Go to the inpatient therapy, get offline.
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  I know you said a Reddit forms can help you, but sometimes you
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  can get a Reddit form. There's going to be some some
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  trolls in there thinking that you were in there.
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  They're going to start saying crazy shit to trying to
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  antagonize you, trying to entice you to just be bad.
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  Man, I do 100% want this person to get better.
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  If you are struggling with a mental illness or bipolar or
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  whatever, you're struggling with IA 100% understand that.
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  Like, but you still have to do the work.
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  You still have to get help. You still have to put the put
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  the time, effort and energy in. Because if you don't, what else
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  is there to do? You're just, you're just
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  existing in the space that just hurt people.
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  Just because you use your words to apologize, your actions have
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  to back it up. Your actions absolutely have to
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  back it up. You can't just say I'm sorry,
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  You have to have actions to back it up.
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  Going to the gym, eating better, clean diet?
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  Hell no. But what?
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  You got to put some work in, man.
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  Like I said, and I know people just like who the hell are you
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  to tell Kanye West he got to put work in?
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  Eat, eat ass. Get the fuck out of here.
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  Who are you? You question me?
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  You know what I'm saying? You can't tell me what I can and
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  can't do. I can't have an opinion.
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  If you are Kanye or Kanye West, eggplant eater, to hell with
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  you. You are one who who who's just
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  supported me through that. Yeah, Kanye.
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  Hell yeah. Go crazy.
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  HH What? Those fucking weird red pill?
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  Just, you know, just just weirdos, man.
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  People use his name. He was a symbol of hatred for so
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  long. He was a symbol of hatred and
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  just just ignorance and all kinds of stuff.
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  And hopefully now he can flip it to be a symbol of getting your
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  mental health out there and just being a spokesperson for this.
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  That's the type of stuff you need to do.
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  Make the changes. Be a spokesperson for be hey, I
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  have this and this is what I'm doing to work on it.
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  Don't just say I worked out and go to the gym and I'm eating
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  better clean living that What what do you say?
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  I found my new baseline center through medication, therapy,
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  exercise and clean living. OK, do that.
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  You know what I'm saying? Stay in therapy, but tell.
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  But you have to. You have the money and the
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  resources to to elicit positive change.
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  As much negativity you put out there, you got to listen.
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  More positive change, more resources, more stuff like that.
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  You a billionaire, wasn't he? Wasn't he a billionaire?
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  Yeah. You got money to make changes,
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  man. It just I saw, I saw that pop
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  up. I had I I'm going to do a
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  breakdown of his apology. I'm just going to read it as I
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  see it just from my mouth to y'all.
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  Just as a diagnosed. I always thought Kaya was
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  narcissistic. I always thought he was
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  narcissistic at minimum, right. The bipolar stuff makes sense,
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  but I hope he gets the help that he needs.
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  But that's just frustrating, man.
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  Like it's the stuff that he was saying the crazy ass stuff that
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  he was saying come on that man. I wish him the best.
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  I hope he gets better. I hope he stays on his new
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  pathway and I hope he denounces people that are playing his this
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  old that that stupid ass song that he made that is being
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  played in clubs in Miami and stuff like that by the weirdo
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  brigade. You got to denounce that you got
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  to denounce it. You can't just say no.
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  You got to denounce it if you already if you already if he
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  already has, sorry, I apologize for that Right It was y'all hit
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  the subscribe button. I'm out.
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  Peace.