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When Private Pain Finds a Public Voice · Groove with Portia

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Speaker 1: greatest of all with grew a Porsche. One of the
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Speaker 1: things that I love about hosting this show is I
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Speaker 1: get to meet just some fantastic people. Most of the
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Speaker 1: time they're international, but every blue moon I get someone
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Speaker 1: who happens to be local. So first of all, shout
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Speaker 1: out to Daryl Scott, who's actually told me about this
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Speaker 1: wonderful individual who has been producing music for a short
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Speaker 1: period of time, but her lyrics are what drew me in.
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Speaker 1: So welcome to Greul Porsche, Miss Vita Shields. Vita. How's
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Speaker 1: it going today?
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Speaker 3: Ohing great? Every day on this side is great. Yeah,
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Speaker 3: thank you for having me.
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Speaker 1: I'm excited, Vida, It's an honor. Before we jump right
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Speaker 1: into your music, I'm curious, what are you grateful for today?
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Speaker 3: I am grateful for the basic things like I am alive.
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Speaker 3: I have food, clothing, shelter, which is not basic to everybody,
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Speaker 3: but I haven't and I'm here. I have a beautiful daughter,
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Speaker 3: I have family, friends. I got a lot to be grateful.
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Speaker 1: For, family, good food, and you're right the basics. You know,
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Speaker 1: the weather here has been a little bit on the
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Speaker 1: Arctic shows.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, well, okay, it's Cleveland, right.
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Speaker 1: I mean it's funny because I think about how we
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Speaker 1: have the steel meal right, and I think a lot
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Speaker 1: of us have been kind of conditioned to have that
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Speaker 1: steel meal mentality and wardrobe no pun intended, because of
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Speaker 1: the weather. So I feel it, Vita, I'm here.
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Speaker 3: You can make it anywhere on the weather. Nothing is
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Speaker 3: like this.
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Speaker 1: Right, nothing is off the charts. It's I mean, no
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Speaker 1: pun intended, a chill show every day, even during the summer.
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Speaker 1: Sometimes you never know. It's like a jack in the box.
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Speaker 1: You don't know what you're gonna get any day. Vita.
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Speaker 1: I'm curious when it comes to your singing and songwriting career.
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Speaker 1: You go by the name Vita Allergy. And when I
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Speaker 1: heard the name, to me, it sounds like a frequency,
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Speaker 1: and I'm curious for our audience, can you share with
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Speaker 1: us the meaning behind Vita Allergy and how this new
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Speaker 1: position that you're in to put yourself into the more
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Speaker 1: creative space, considering your background has not always been here.
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Speaker 1: How has you stepping into this part of your life
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Speaker 1: really giving you that ounce of freedom that maybe you've
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Speaker 1: kept under the rug.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, So, Vita, So my full names Vincentia and for
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Speaker 3: short nickname, my name is Vita. But vitaology. If you
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Speaker 3: think of like psychology, sociology, Vita means life and so
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Speaker 3: theology part is. I spelled it a little bit differently
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Speaker 3: because I believe Pearl Jam has Vitaology that they spelt
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Speaker 3: in a different you know, in a more formal like
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Speaker 3: psychology way. But I spelled it differently. One because it's
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Speaker 3: easier for me to copyright and trademark that, but also
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Speaker 3: because it's kind of like the study of life, not
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Speaker 3: just myself, but just the experiences that I've gone through
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Speaker 3: in life, and you know how I chose to write
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Speaker 3: about them. So that's why I named it that way.
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Speaker 3: And also I had several people at different points in
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Speaker 3: my life who did not know one another, say that
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Speaker 3: when I start to do my entrepreneur things or my
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Speaker 3: creative things, that I should call it vitaology, right, And
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Speaker 3: two different people said that, you know, and so it's stuck.
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Speaker 3: Basically at that point, it's like, yeah, let me just
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Speaker 3: make it my own and put its own meaning into it.
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Speaker 1: So, you know, I guess I was spot on when
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Speaker 1: I mentioned that it's a frequency. Right, here comes the
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Speaker 1: vitology vibes coming in. And I don't know, vide you're
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Speaker 1: one of those people that follows numbers. I can see
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Speaker 1: this being, of course, because I see where it definitely
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Speaker 1: came from. You got the three signs, the Pearl Damn song,
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Speaker 1: and you know, two different people they're like this, this
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Speaker 1: should be videology.
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Speaker 3: You know, yeah, yeah, yeah, And it's interesting, I like
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Speaker 3: you mentioned that I haven't been in this space obviously
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Speaker 3: from a professional standpoint. Throughout my career. By trade, I
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Speaker 3: am a leader in recruiting. I've been doing that literally
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Speaker 3: two decades. And I have always had, like had a
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Speaker 3: creative been like I've always been into music, and you know,
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Speaker 3: if sing in the choir, like everybody you know starts
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Speaker 3: off in the choir, it feels like a church. And
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Speaker 3: over the years, I would journal and I would write,
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Speaker 3: and probably over the past decade did more poems, and
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Speaker 3: really it just got fired up, I would say over
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Speaker 3: the past like five years, just going through personal life circumstances, trauma,
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Speaker 3: you know, experiences that how do I heal or how
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Speaker 3: do I talk about these things, you know, in a
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Speaker 3: way that doesn't keep the pain like present? And so
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Speaker 3: you know, most of the poetry and writing that I've
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Speaker 3: been doing lately has been more towards music, like more
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Speaker 3: towards songs, more towards like I'll hear the melody in
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Speaker 3: my mind as I'm like writing the poem, and if
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Speaker 3: the melody, I say, it feels sticky. But if it
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Speaker 3: feels sticky to me, like it stays and I can't
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Speaker 3: get it out of my mind. That's that's how I
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Speaker 3: know what I'm going to make into a song, And
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Speaker 3: that's kind of how the album came about.
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Speaker 1: Well, And I've heard a very similar kind of analogy
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Speaker 1: that you just brought up about when that word is
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Speaker 1: buzzing in your ear, you can't get rid of it
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Speaker 1: and it has to go somewhere right and for you,
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Speaker 1: you hear the melody. And I'm curious when I listen
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Speaker 1: to some of your music, Vida, I get R and
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Speaker 1: B jazz vibes, who were some of your inspirations growing
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Speaker 1: up as far as singers or musicians.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, so we listen to everything in our house growing up.
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Speaker 3: I literally just had this conversation with somebody anywhere from
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Speaker 3: like R and be heavy, I would say Motown heavy,
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Speaker 3: not that my music is heavy in that, but just
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Speaker 3: where I feel goodness. Like I remember sitting on the
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Speaker 3: couch with family and like sitting on my daddy's hip
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Speaker 3: and laying on the side on the couch with our
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Speaker 3: legs dangling over and us listening to like Motown, Anita Baker,
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Speaker 3: Marvin Gaye, you know the Teddy Pendergrass, you know, Michael
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Speaker 3: Jackson obviously, you know, all of all of the R
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Speaker 3: and B sort of more legendary side of things. But
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Speaker 3: then we also would listen to like Neil Diamond and
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Speaker 3: you know, Linda Bronstadt and you know, we have we'd
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Speaker 3: have this like other mix of you know, and and
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Speaker 3: it might be appropriate and not to say that, you know,
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Speaker 3: certain groups of people only listen to certain kinds of music.
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Speaker 3: But I'm biracial. My mom is Irish, scottis Slovenia, and
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Speaker 3: my dad is African American, right, so we have this
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Speaker 3: like blend of music in our home that crossed over
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Speaker 3: I think every genre minus probably metal, you know, and
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Speaker 3: in rap at the time, my dad was not into rap,
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Speaker 3: so he didn't he didn't let us. You know, this
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Speaker 3: is during like the nineties, is like Pozzi's on Broadway
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Speaker 3: and w A, Like my dad was not about that,
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Speaker 3: but you know everything else that included George Benson, Herb Albert,
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Speaker 3: you know, you know, there's just there's just a mix
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Speaker 3: of music in our home.
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Speaker 1: Legitly, you are a culmination of so many different exposures, Vita,
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Speaker 1: because I think sometimes artists are only exposed to one
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Speaker 1: thing where they're kind of pigeonholed into one avenue where
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Speaker 1: you were exposed to literally the whole piano keys of music.
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Speaker 1: And I'm curious too, Vita. When you're working on a song,
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Speaker 1: you mentioned that you hear the melody first, right, and
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Speaker 1: then kind of the words flow through.
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Speaker 3: Well, yeah, I'm sorry, go ahead.
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Speaker 1: I'm curious. How many songs do you currently have tucked
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Speaker 1: away that are a project in itself that you haven't
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Speaker 1: released just yet.
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Speaker 3: I got a couple albums worth, I mean, there's probably
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Speaker 3: thirty or forty. But I have so many more poems
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Speaker 3: honestly that countless. I haven't even like curated them yet,
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Speaker 3: you know, in terms of the number of poems and stuff.
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Speaker 3: But I have enough, I would say for a handful
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Speaker 3: of EPs. The boy several albums, but I really I
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Speaker 3: hear the I'll write down the poem first, like the
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Speaker 3: thoughts of like what the lyrics or I might have
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Speaker 3: a topic or something that I want to explore, and
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Speaker 3: I'll start to write based on that, and then how
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Speaker 3: the melodies come is that as I'm writing, if it's
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Speaker 3: really lyrical, like if there's rhymes to it and not
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Speaker 3: just like ABCD type rhymes, but it's just something in
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Speaker 3: it feels like it aligns. Then I will sing it
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Speaker 3: out loud and just see where the notes stick to me,
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Speaker 3: and you know, I'll record it. I'll basically just take
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Speaker 3: a voice recording and just record it and if that
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Speaker 3: feels like it's something that That's how the first album
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Speaker 3: came about. It's like I took voice recordings or I
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Speaker 3: took the poems and said, this really sounds like something melodic.
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Speaker 3: Me put it into an audio clip. Let me load
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Speaker 3: it into tools so I can hear actual instrumentals around it.
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Speaker 3: I'm working on my own voice in the second album,
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Speaker 3: like my own like I'm learning the production tools. Not
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Speaker 3: because I would love to collaborate with people. We got
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Speaker 3: people to collaborate with, but I honestly would like to
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Speaker 3: understand all of the flow of production. Like it's becoming
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Speaker 3: knowledgeable about the things so that when or if the
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Speaker 3: music reaches someone who maybe wants to adapt the song
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Speaker 3: or you know, another artist who wants to sing something,
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Speaker 3: I would love to write for other people that I
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Speaker 3: know how production works and I know how to use
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Speaker 3: the tools and know how to keep it true to
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Speaker 3: the melody. That I'm hearing, you know, so that's kind
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Speaker 3: of you know again, that's kind of how the first
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Speaker 3: project came about, but you know, working on different things,
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Speaker 3: I guess for the second project.
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Speaker 1: And Vita, I love the openness that you have to
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Speaker 1: learning not only your craft of the vocals, but also
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Speaker 1: the back end production, right because I think for years
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Speaker 1: a lot of artists have been again pigeonholed into one
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Speaker 1: area of genius of whatever instrument has been their primary
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Speaker 1: conversation piece in their music. Where you're taking the time
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Speaker 1: to utilize the tools to your advantage to not only
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Speaker 1: be empowered in your own voice, but also I think
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Speaker 1: encourage others to learn the business side of the music industry.
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Speaker 1: And I'm curious, Vita, how is that learning curve for you?
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Speaker 3: And also.
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Speaker 1: What's kind of your take with the influx of AI
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Speaker 1: and a lot of people talking about how there isn't
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Speaker 1: real art in it, how are you using that to
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Speaker 1: your that is, to change that narrative and see AI
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Speaker 1: for simply as a tool and not stealing away from
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Speaker 1: the creativity of artists.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, so that's a lot in that question. So
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Speaker 3: I'm just beginning right and learning the tools and I
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Speaker 3: think the learning curve is I mean things that took
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Speaker 3: people decades to learn or whatever. I'm not going to
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Speaker 3: pretend that overnight. I just like I'm a savant or
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Speaker 3: something where I just have it, you know, in my toolkit.
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Speaker 3: But I think the basics are there, like the human instrument, right,
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Speaker 3: So I have a voice, I have writing. Those are
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Speaker 3: two instruments, right, And I have a vision of how
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Speaker 3: I want something to sound or like in my mind,
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Speaker 3: I think in music videos, like if I were to
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Speaker 3: do music videos, I see music videos all day of
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Speaker 3: how I want something to look, and I know that
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Speaker 3: those are the unique things I need up front now
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Speaker 3: how I use technology or people how honestly, I am
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Speaker 3: a fan and then will always love live music, actual singing,
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Speaker 3: actual instruments, people playing a tool you know that they've
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Speaker 3: learned in a craft that they've studied. With the advent
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Speaker 3: of AI, we know that the world is changing, right,
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Speaker 3: Like we know that. First of all, AI has been
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Speaker 3: around for a while, Okay, Like I think the way
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Speaker 3: that it's being used now with like Suno and some
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Speaker 3: of these other apps, that is game changing type technology.
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Speaker 3: And it's also very controversial. Obviously, I don't know I'm
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Speaker 3: assuming that people that listen to your podcast watch understand it.
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Speaker 3: But I'm just going to like state what the controversy
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Speaker 3: is so that people who may not know what it is.
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Speaker 3: But the controversy is that AI has been trained on
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Speaker 3: vocals that have come from other artists or perhaps beads
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Speaker 3: to rhythms that have come from other artists, and so
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Speaker 3: Suno in particular, because I have utilized that them in particular,
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Speaker 3: they've been sued, right, They've gone to court over this,
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Speaker 3: and it's honestly hot and it's in the throws right now.
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Speaker 3: But they basically have come into a legal agreement with
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Speaker 3: Warner to do licensed use of trained voices. Right. So
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Speaker 3: what that means is that if you're Ariana Grunde or whoever,
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Speaker 3: you can actually purchase into having your your tonality utilized
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Speaker 3: in it, and you actually get paid from this. At
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Speaker 3: this standpoint, that is only part of the solution though, right,
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Speaker 3: because you know, you get rewarded as an artist, like
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Speaker 3: nobody's like stealing your stuff anymore. But it's still it's
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Speaker 3: not the it's not the voice of the person who
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Speaker 3: created it, you know. And so I think there's two
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Speaker 3: prongs of things happening here. There's the artists that really
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Speaker 3: should get their due, and there's the writers who are
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Speaker 3: songwriters who never get their due, right, And there's people
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Speaker 3: with voices who I'm blessed enough that I can sing
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Speaker 3: a little bit, like I can total note, right, Like
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Speaker 3: I can load it into an audio and actually hear
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Speaker 3: my own tonality in something you know that I use.
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Speaker 3: If I use like logic pro or something else, like
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Speaker 3: I can actually you know, I can sing into an
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Speaker 3: audio and you know, have it be worked in such
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Speaker 3: a way that I can actually use my own voice.
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Speaker 3: But not everybody can do that, right. So that's the argument,
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Speaker 3: and how I'm using it is ownership, right, Like your
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Speaker 3: voice is copyrightable, right, Like what you write and how
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Speaker 3: you sound is copyright about the melodies that you make
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Speaker 3: are copyrightable. Now, if I use ASUNO or some other
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Speaker 3: tool and I leverage the instrumentals, right, like I put
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Speaker 3: my melody in there, I sing my song, it's only
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Speaker 3: going to sound so much like you. Right. So that's
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Speaker 3: the point of me learning my own production is that
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Speaker 3: I want to I want to be fully me, right,
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Speaker 3: and nobody's going to think I'm Jazmine Sullivan. But the
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Speaker 3: lyrics are still going to be mine and the melody
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Speaker 3: will still be mine, and the instrument metals that I
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Speaker 3: place around it will be what what I've you know, felt,
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Speaker 3: imbbed with and whatever. And if I work with people,
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Speaker 3: obviously you can play instruments, it will be what I
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Speaker 3: have felt and convibed with and what they they bring
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Speaker 3: as a creation and vibe with. But you know, I
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Speaker 3: do think that the controversy I think that people I myself,
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Speaker 3: I feel like I have a respect for artists who
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Speaker 3: create of their own making and craft and learning. I
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Speaker 3: also have a respect for people who can't. You can't
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Speaker 3: make up trauma, okay, that's not okay? Like if I
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Speaker 3: put in a story in the lyrical form, and then
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Speaker 3: you know, if I am a person who's utilized some
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Speaker 3: sort of AI or whatever, what cannot be denied is
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Speaker 3: the power of the storytelling, right. And what people want
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Speaker 3: to say is that AI doesn't have a soul. Right,
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Speaker 3: of course, it doesn't have a soul. It was made
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Speaker 3: by people. But what has a soul is the word
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Speaker 3: behind it, right, and for people who are spiritual people.
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Speaker 3: And I A'm gonna get all preaching, but I will
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Speaker 3: use this as an example, because I feel as a
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Speaker 3: powerful example for those who read sacred text, you know,
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Speaker 3: the Bible, some who read the Koran or some other texts.
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Speaker 3: But I'll say the Bible because that's how I grew up.
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Speaker 3: We acknowledge that there's power in the word. What is
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Speaker 3: the word? Well, it's a presence that's so being. It's
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Speaker 3: not just the letters on the page. Right. So if
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Speaker 3: I'm putting lyrical content out there and I've used an
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Speaker 3: AI to put a voice to it, the voice is
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Speaker 3: not the sound of the pitch and the tone. The
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Speaker 3: voice is the story. It's the spirit behind the actual
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Speaker 3: words put in there. It is the experience that somebody
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Speaker 3: had to go through in order to even pen that lyric. Right.
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Speaker 3: And meanwhile we're all vibing to some jam like, oh
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Speaker 3: that was Cleo Soul said this or that and it
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Speaker 3: was wonderful. But we know what Cleo Soul went through
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Speaker 3: to even pen those lyrics, and we just catch it
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Speaker 3: as a vibe. But she caught that as a trauma
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Speaker 3: that she survived, or a lesson or a healing, you know.
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Speaker 3: And so that's where I think the argument around AI
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Speaker 3: is not adequate, right, And I do think that there's
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Speaker 3: a lot of stuff being put out that doesn't have
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Speaker 3: great content. I do think that they're mean subjective, but
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Speaker 3: I do think that there's a lot of AI stuff
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Speaker 3: being it's saturating right now, the air wins, and that's
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Speaker 3: not good. Like there needs to be I would advocate
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Speaker 3: for the ethical use of AI. You know, we have
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Speaker 3: some guidelines as to what makes it your ownership versus
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Speaker 3: any right just put a generic like write a love
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Speaker 3: story and just put it in there and then some
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Speaker 3: song comes out of it. It's like, this ain't your lyrics,
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Speaker 3: This ain't your mood. Does age your experience, your voice,
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Speaker 3: it's not your melody? Like, that's not ethical use in
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Speaker 3: my opinion, you know, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Speaker 1: And Vita, first, I thank you for showing both sides
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Speaker 1: of this, because I think there's some people who only
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Speaker 1: want to say that you're only a creative if every
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Speaker 1: piece is original, right from the lyrics, the instrumental arrangement,
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Speaker 1: whether you're shooting it in a studio, whatever. I think,
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Speaker 1: in my opinion, being able to have tools like Suno
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Speaker 1: or was it I think eleven Labs is another one.
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Speaker 1: Possibly whichever tools you utilize, I think gives more creative
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Speaker 1: power to the one who knows how to utilize it.
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Speaker 1: And eventually I'm not going to get too much into this,
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Speaker 1: but you know where I'm going with this. A lot
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Speaker 1: of artists don't own their music, right, So to me,
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Speaker 1: this gives you more access to get your music out
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Speaker 1: there on a quicker scale number two. Once you already
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Speaker 1: know the instrumental arrangement you want for a specific song.
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Speaker 1: So now if you do it in a live concert
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Speaker 1: form or if you you know, whatever you decide to do,
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Speaker 1: you don't have to worry about all the other stuff
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Speaker 1: because everything falls under beta alogy and the salt miners
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Speaker 1: bad right. So yeah, where I see that it breaks
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Speaker 1: down that if you want to call it gatekeeping, that
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Speaker 1: has always been in the music industry. So I to
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Speaker 1: see it from both ends of the spectrum. So, Vita,
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Speaker 1: I want to dive into one of your songs. One
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Speaker 1: of your songs that I listen to is called doing
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Speaker 1: You Proud. I miss you Mom, and I'm also someone
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Speaker 1: who had a mother transition four years ago, and I
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Speaker 1: want to talk about these specific lyrics in your song.
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Speaker 1: It says often misunderstood in life, I know you did
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Speaker 1: some good. This is a part of your legacy. I
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Speaker 1: hope you see me. Maybe God will let you peek
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Speaker 1: over the mezzanine with the cloud of witnesses. That really
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Speaker 1: stood out to me, Vita, because when I listened to
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Speaker 1: your song, I literally start crying because I could see
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Speaker 1: there was a poem behind it. It literally made me
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Speaker 1: cry because I said, wow, I could see that visual
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Speaker 1: and I remember when my mom transitioned, I wrote a
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Speaker 1: poem where I asked if God could let her come
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Speaker 1: down for a day to visit, and so it was
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Speaker 1: very similar. So that song really really spoke to me.
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Speaker 1: I appreciate that, Vita, And I'm curious, how do you
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Speaker 1: get signs from your mom to this day?
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Speaker 3: So that's an interesting question. So there were a lot
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Speaker 3: of conversations that I felt like I did not get
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Speaker 3: to have my mom. I'm in my forties and just
23:01
Speaker 3: I feel like maybe a little bit of a late bloomer,
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Speaker 3: just approaching, you know, womanhood in a way where it's
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Speaker 3: like there's some things I really would have loved to
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Speaker 3: have talked to her about, right, And I didn't get
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Speaker 3: to have a lot of those conversations. However, in hindsight,
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Speaker 3: there were many things that I'm like man, if I could
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Speaker 3: ask my mom this, I would absolutely have asked her this.
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Speaker 3: And what I have found is that I get the answers,
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Speaker 3: like the answers come to me in moments where they
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Speaker 3: were questions that only only the spirit would know that
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Speaker 3: this was a question I had on my mind right
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Speaker 3: And one of the things was these conversations I never
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Speaker 3: got to have with her anyways. After she passed, we
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Speaker 3: found all these like letters I would say, like therapy
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Speaker 3: letters that she probably was in a support group or
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Speaker 3: something that answered questions like who she was as a woman,
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Speaker 3: things that maybe she struggled with or you know whatever.
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Speaker 3: And I can feel I could feel her presence. And
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Speaker 3: when I say that, I'm not talking no weird saying
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Speaker 3: out type stuff, but I could feel the love and
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Speaker 3: the presence of my mom. In music. I can hear
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Speaker 3: her voice in certain songs, Like it's really interesting, like
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Speaker 3: there's a lullaby that my daughter that she just wants
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Speaker 3: to listen to it every time she goes to bed,
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Speaker 3: like that's what helps her fall slate. But it's like
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Speaker 3: a Billy Joel song. And I'm not necessarily a Billy Joel,
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Speaker 3: you know, listener. I mean I like some of his
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Speaker 3: stuff from back in the day. But every time I
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Speaker 3: hear this song, I can hear a specific lyric that
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Speaker 3: just it just the tonality of it, or something just
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Speaker 3: reminds me of her voice. So it's little things like that,
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Speaker 3: you know. It's reminders. It's I don't know if it's
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Speaker 3: like a syncreticity or I don't know what the appropriate
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Speaker 3: word is for, but it's moments like that. Or I'll
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Speaker 3: say something where I'm like, oh my gosh, that was
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Speaker 3: my mother, Like that didn't feel like me at all.
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Speaker 3: That was something she would say. You know. It's moments
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Speaker 3: like that, you know. And I'm really really perceptive. I'm
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Speaker 3: very like I'll see it might be a neuro divergence
24:58
Speaker 3: or something like I see things in minutia, like I'll
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Speaker 3: see it down to the little details, right, and or
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Speaker 3: I'll hear it down to the little details, like There'll
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Speaker 3: be something in a song that will be the smallest
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Speaker 3: like sound in a song, and that is what I
25:14
Speaker 3: will end up focusing on for the whole song, you know,
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Speaker 3: as opposed to like the actual you know, beats and
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Speaker 3: like whatever. So it's like that too with my mom.
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Speaker 3: And you know, kind of how I how I still
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Speaker 3: feel her at.
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Speaker 1: Times, Vida, I can relate. My mom was a big
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Speaker 1: jazz lover, and so one of her songs that I
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Speaker 1: often hear on Pandora if I'm cooking in the kitchen
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Speaker 1: is Summer Stroll by Huge Grooves, and that is there's
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Speaker 1: a specific part in that song where the saxophone the
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Speaker 1: huge Groove is playing has a different tone, and I
25:51
Speaker 1: notice it every time, and I'm like, that's my mom,
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Speaker 1: that's her. So I can relate.
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Speaker 3: It's so it's so powerful, because yeah, you can relate.
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Speaker 3: Because you can relate. People who never had that experience
26:05
Speaker 3: may not understand why that feels that way for us.
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Speaker 3: You know, it's just it's it does make you feel
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Speaker 3: like everything is a lot bigger. You know that it is,
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Speaker 3: you know, and they're not really gone. They're kind of
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Speaker 3: just like in the other room. You know.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, they're a lot closer than what we realize because
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Speaker 1: we're so used to having access to them because of
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Speaker 1: the physical we've never been really taught about that veil
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Speaker 1: that keeps us connected, whether it's through signs like numbers,
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Speaker 1: the animals finding feathers. For me, whenever it's my dad,
26:43
Speaker 1: I find lottery tickets. We're not gonna go there, Feta.
26:46
Speaker 1: First of all, this has been an amazing conversation. We're
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Speaker 1: going to be wrapping up here soon, but before we
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Speaker 1: conclude for today, if our audience wants to get your music,
26:58
Speaker 1: if you have an upcoming you know, poetry, slam or
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Speaker 1: anything like that, or if people can come see you
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Speaker 1: live sometime, how can they connect with you?
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Speaker 3: Vita, Yeah, you can follow on ig at vita ology,
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Speaker 3: vi I t A O l O g e e
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Speaker 3: at Vitaology. If you want to support me, you can
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Speaker 3: obviously pay me, go on band labor, band camp, excuse me,
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Speaker 3: and download the album. It's Vitaology, but it is streaming everywhere.
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Speaker 3: Most people have Spotify or Apple Music or something. Feel
27:30
Speaker 3: free to obviously go on there and download it. It's
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Speaker 3: a vibe in my opinion, but we'll let the folks
27:37
Speaker 3: that listen, you know, engage it and say what it
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Speaker 3: is so well everybody.
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Speaker 1: As Vita said, you can support her by purchasing the
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Speaker 1: album on band camp. It's on all the major platforms, Spotify,
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Speaker 1: wherever you stream music. You can follow her on Instagram
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Speaker 1: at vita allergy. If you forget, we'll put the information
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Speaker 1: in the show notes. You can also to lie as
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Speaker 1: Google as your friend. You can type it in and
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Speaker 1: I'm sure that it will populate well. Everybody that was
28:09
Speaker 1: miss Vita Shields also known as Vita Allergy that you
28:13
Speaker 1: heard from today on grew with Portia. And that concludes
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Speaker 1: our conversation for today and until next time, everybody. Peace
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Speaker 1: and hair grease everyone,