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Random Heathen Ramblings: S4, EP16 - Inspiring Our Communities (feat. Patrick Walsh) · Random Heathen Ramblings

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  Hello everyone and welcome to the random Heathen ramblings
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  podcast, where we discuss all sorts of things Germanic,
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  Heathen re related. My name is Jessie.
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  I am your host. Let's get into it.
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  Hail, hail and welcome. Welcome back everybody.
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  To the random Heathen ramblings podcast, brought to you by me
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  Thank you, thank you for joining.
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  Not just me today. Thank you for joining us going
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  to be bringing in a friend of mine who has been on this
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  podcast, a couple of times and our friendship started.
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  Long distance over, you know, over social media, I believe
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  he's actually you know, one of the very first real big
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  supporters of midgard musings, the channel and everything.
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  And you know, we connected that way and have been friends, you
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  know, pretty much ever since. So Patrick Walsh is going to be
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  joining us. We're going to be going to be
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  talking a bit today about you know, how we Can Inspire our
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  communities. And what that means about being
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  Inspirations because Patrick's, in a bit of a unique situation
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  himself, we're in a unique position, putting it like he's
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  in a situation. Sounds like there's something
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  something funny going on or there's something that you know,
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  blink twice. If you're in danger kind of
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  thing, no nothing like that. He is a he is in a position of
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  being able to inspire and it's not something that I think a lot
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  of us ever, you know, expect to find ourselves in when we do
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  find ourselves in those places of being able to be an
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  inspiration to other people. So we're going to go ahead and
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  welcome in my good friend Patrick Walsh and we're going to
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  talk about it. Here we go.
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  All right, folks. Well, as I mentioned Patrick,
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  Walsh has returned to for now. What is this, buddy?
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  The third, third or fourth. Yeah.
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  Things got to be the third. Maybe, yeah, yeah, yep.
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  So this is your, this is your What a call the trilogy right?
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  When you got, you have the original and then you have this
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  the sequel and then what's this one?
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  After the sequel, right? The the trilogy becomes a
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  Trilogy. So yeah.
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  We're working on. We're working on a series of
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  episodes. Yeah.
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  At this point. So yeah, great to have you back
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  and yeah, kind of short notice tube.
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  And you know, a lot of people may think I have like this
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  really organized Fashion on how episodes get Get released and
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  produced the it and it's sometimes there's there's some
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  of that but it is the name of the podcast is fitting because
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  it's random Heathen, randomly ramblings and the stuff that
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  comes up half the time is so random and it's, and it starts
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  from just almost nothing. Like, I don't have, like, a
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  backlog of episodes. I'm trying to finish.
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  It's like, well, whatever happens happens.
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  So it is it's so Random at times and like today, I didn't this
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  week I should say I didn't have an episode topic really plan,
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  then you and I were talking this about stuff privately like over
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  messenger and I'm like hey you want to come on the podcast this
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  week? I'll always take any
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  opportunity, especially, you know, you've helped me a lot
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  with the group, join a couple of my life so to leave.
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  Ah /. Yeah.
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  Yeah. And I thought, you know how
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  random is that like how random is it too?
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  Just like, I didn't even know what to tell you.
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  We were going to be talking about you and you had asked me.
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  Is there a topic? I'm like, not really, but we, we
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  ended up finding one and that's it kind of segues from intern to
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  what you had started saying about the Highland group joining
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  some of the live streams that you helped orchestrate there.
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  And you know how you have become, whether you realize it
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  or not or whether you ever plan for it to be, you're not how you
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  kind of became an influencer in somebody who can be inspiring to
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  a community and a pretty think culturally diverse communities,
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  you know, and how much of a responsibility that holds and
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  what a blessing that can be. It's really a truly, an honor
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  and I'm always very happy to be an inspiration or any kind of a
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  Beacon of Hope or just a person who can relate and understand on
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  a various different things. And also, it means a lot to me.
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  Especially when I said to get down on myself and I kind of
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  often neglect the special and incredible things that have
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  happened for the things that I do, you know?
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  Like, even though I just saw hi log last, Chicago.
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  It is day-to-day life has a way of chipping away at what was
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  once very sacred and special. It discount, you know, becomes
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  not so noticeable. And we get transfixed on the
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  things that are not really going our way.
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  It just kind of get lost in the day-to-day grind, you know?
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  So it's really starts to have a reminder more especially with
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  someone like point something out to me, rather than me trying to
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  Seek praise or whatever. Oh yeah, for sure.
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  I mean, you know, so for well we're going to come around back
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  to it in just because in case people that are listening and
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  watching for the first time that ever like Patrick you say he's
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  back for the third time, this is my first time seeing him, you
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  know if you wouldn't mind just kind of give a bit of background
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  on what we're talking about, because we both just mentioned
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  the Highland group, would you mind just kind of sharing with
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  everybody? What that is where it is.
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  So, Going back to the beginning of high one group, I mean, you
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  can you can yeah, yeah. I kind of alluded in the
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  beginning with the people that, you know, you and I have known
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  each other since almost, the very beginning of midgard
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  musings, you were one of the very few like part of the
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  alumni, you know? I mean like the oh jeez, the
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  original class of Now, the way they do things, but yeah, long
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  story short basically. Yeah, you know, I hear one of
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  the first people that I took very seriously on my search as
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  Norse, Pagan, and he, and on YouTube because it just seemed
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  like the right way to go because I struggle with reading.
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  So watching something helps tremendously but anyways.
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  Yeah I ever watch one of your videos and like this guy this
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  guy this guy right here man he's down on Earth the people person
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  and he's To relate to. So then you know, started
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  following your content very closely and logged in started to
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  believe, I was friends with Matthew Petrie first and then we
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  became mutual's shortly thereafter and then you know
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  what, thing led to another and then we start becoming a pretty
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  good friends then came to visit you and it was actually a surely
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  before I visit you for the first time was when I saw High lung my
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  third. Hopefully not last time.
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  Anyone who knows me as a person like a time.
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  They take verse to describe me, high long typically tends to be
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  one of those things. And I look for me, has been
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  nothing short, but blessing and a chapter of my life that I'll
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  never forget and has, you know, open the door.
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  Some very lasting friendships. Incredible experiences.
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  It's just things I never expected for Following a simple
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  musical group and I kind of hate calling him a ban because they
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  kind of transcend that they go to be healthy known as a tribe.
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  But I'll yeah, it was after seeing them my last time,
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  Chicago and hanging out and spending time with them after
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  the ritual for the show that I was actually discussing this,
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  with my friends last night is, you know, you kind of ask me,
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  you know, why started the group in when I was hanging out with
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  time. Looking and there are the idea
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  that I was one of the admins of a Highland spiritual group
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  community that I follow on Facebook.
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  Now, I've been there. A very long time, but I'm not an
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  actual, you know, AB man or moderator.
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  So like for like how about I 30 minutes, I'm sitting there
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  thinking to myself like man, I can't live a lie.
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  I told one of the members who was vouching for me I'll let
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  Mike. Hey I gotta tell you Martin like
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  I'm not a nap and I'm just a very Avid supporter and you
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  know, I do my best to contribute do what I can for the community.
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  He says I got, that's okay, that's okay.
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  I my boss won't let you guys. No, not trying to fucking lie to
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  you or anything but you know, just being upfront and honest
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  and I didn't want it to ruin something like the relationship
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  that I do have, but most of the members and you know what, to be
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  misrepresented, exactly. I want to be honest and, you
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  know, myself as possible because that's something that I cherish
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  myself when dealing with people, whether they be friends family
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  or just coworkers, or just random pacifiers.
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  But yeah. So when I came back home from
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  that experience, Since I'm like you know what I really want to
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  create a community my own. Now I want to build something
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  from the ground up and give credit where credit's due for
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  anyone watching. I'm not sure if you could put a
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  link or anything but the Facebook group dive first
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  started following when I first started you know filing how long
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  has the hilum spiritual Community?
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  It's well yeah. The reasons why I had the
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  opportunities that I did and have the friendships that I do.
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  Cliff clippard, one of my really good friends.
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  We became friends through that group and, you know, he's
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  someone else that I visited a few times.
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  I usually never travel outside my state, but you know, when I
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  started following highly, I have more reason to go outside my
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  comfort zone, and then I'm meeting Cliff, you know, travel
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  three hours to go. Go see him and then you surely
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  after, you know, saying hi log out, drove five hours, that was
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  probably the longest side driven by myself and got the
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  shenanigans to put with that. Out the spiritual awareness.
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  And that's something that I feel like is somewhat misrepresented
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  sometimes because I feel like a lot of groups and I don't know,
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  any specific ones offhand, if I did want to point them out
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  because I don't want to talk trash or anything, but I think a
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  lot of its material or like oriented, like, they're just
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  trying to push selling their products and whatnot, or
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  discharge y'all trying to get fame and fortune or anything
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  like that. Yeah, I'm just About helping
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  other people and helping myself in the process.
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  So that's when I started the group and it's been growing ever
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  since we were at. I want to say 800 members right
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  now which I never dreamed that to get to that.
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  Number, if we get over 1,000, I'll be elated and very excited.
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  There's some things that are gonna happen on my channel.
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  For my, my page. I'm not going to specify too
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  much of some very cool things might happen.
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  Soon and I'm very excited that I love, I love little teasers, you
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  know what I mean? I love stuff that kind of wets
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  people's appetite and gets them interested to support something,
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  you know? So that's that's nice.
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  I can't tell you now what it is but it's gonna be something.
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  I like that. I'll just a very special, how do
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  I say this without saying too much?
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  Especially that. All right, important people.
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  All right, that's pretty good. Teaser I like I think so and you
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  and we we all heard it here first.
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  I mean, I didn't hear it anywhere else.
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  That's not that I, you know, see everything.
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  But when I say, Newborn child born recently, and
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  he did something else called the weight and date.
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  Try to predict how much or how put the way the child is going
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  to be. And when they're going to be
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  born and we did a an amazing rattle that it crafted as a
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  prize and I was pretty cool. And then we have a contest right
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  now. We wanted to do kind of like a
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  cosplay, so to speak, you know, a home loan member or high load
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  Warrior to Sakai anal the engagement.
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  I think that's imperative as you all know their content on your
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  page is engagement is key. You know the more we have people
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  want to you know partake and stuff makes it a more special
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  meal pool page to be part of and something to support.
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  Port. Yeah well there's so much when
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  you know you can have like a you know a group that's in the you
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  know, thousands hundreds tens of thousands whatever.
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  And if there's you know there's there's a lot of things that can
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  be going on at any one given point in time in a group that
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  size or it can be that it's just a dead group with a bunch of
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  faces on it, you know, so you gotta like just to kill time
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  like, you know me. Yeah.
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  Kids are like other various things to.
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  Yeah, and I like, how the group that you, you know, the Highland
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  Group, which by the way, you write, you talked earlier about
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  links, right? Like everything will be linked.
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  So awesome down in the description and in the show
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  notes to this podcast and for all you listeners at want to
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  check it out, they will be linked.
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  Their point of fact, that I want to make on that is, you know,
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  Patrick here who started this has him and some other
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  moderators and Co admins I guess of the group, right?
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  Right. That at that, do a really great
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  job with moderating it, you know what I mean?
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  Just keeping keeping things interesting.
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  Keeping things engaging, and keeping things friendly and
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  making sure that it's a safe space and part of that process
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  involves, you know, when you want to check out the group, you
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  know there's going to be a list of questions and then check
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  points that you have to pass. Thank you so much for mentioning
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  that because this very infuriating that's cut you off
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  or anything. He says it's amazing how many
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  people Look I overlooked something so simple.
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  Like literally the questions I asked I don't remember them up
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  the top half of basically it's like do you agree to the rules?
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  Yes. And then very simple questions.
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  Like you know what's your favorite High long song /
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  virtual? Something very basic, not it.
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  They too technical, right? It'll just answer?
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  Yes, I agree to the roles of my. All right, you're good to go but
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  if you don't bother answer the questions.
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  I'm like I don't bother to approve your submission.
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  Now, there's only very rarely Are exceptions to that rule is
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  if anyone who joins my group, they came from a high look,
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  spiritual community group. The original group that I was
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  part of that. I'm like, okay, well they know
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  they're doing their kind of like I'm tasting a lot of my
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  experience from that group. It's a group, you know, because
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  learning a lot of technical lessons.
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  Also, there's been some people who, you know, Russell some
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  feathers and that's kind of the tedious and challenge part of
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  having a group. ASA, mental health, because we
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  like, it's what they to deny a post on, like, your average, you
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  know, page. But when it's mental, help
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  people have a tendency to be, you know, maybe a little
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  overdramatic sometimes and I'm not trying to say I'm a bad way
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  either, is this, you know, you have rejection sensitivity, you
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  have depression, you know, all these other mental aspects that
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  can make it tricky to navigate sometimes, but, you know, it's
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  like I always tell my app into moderators like as long as hi
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  lover. A that and also mental health
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  related, you really can't go wrong, but you'd be surprised,
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  you know, we had an incident occurred today.
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  We're somebody shared an activity that there are
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  partaking up that I'll just say, is not recreational and every
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  state yet. Yeah.
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  So, hey, recreational are Missouri, Kick-Ass, rock and
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  roll. Am I going to spark up a doobie
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  right here? No, yeah, it cost over it and
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  yeah, exactly. They could be like a
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  sixteen-year-old watching this or someone who's way to
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  impressionable or too sensitive and the list could go on and on
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  and on and on as to why that's a bad idea.
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  But that's just one example. Yeah.
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  So there, you know, and I think that's just with any any
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  anything that you have a responsibility to and in hand in
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  trying to control or maintain it as a certain image, a certain
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  environment, you know, I mean you're going to have to
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  occasionally take the trash out and weed the garden.
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  You know, it's just part of the process but the necessary
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  process to it's actually a preaching to knowing that, you
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  know what, overall, what am I at?
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  Pins. Her name is Rose, incredible
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  person, and kind of like the mama bear of the group.
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  Yeah. Super visual that I have
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  sometimes because you know, again, I started this group as I
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  want to see hobby but it is a hobby.
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  If I, if you could think of a better word, please let me know,
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  but it's just it's something I do on my free time.
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  Which, you know, I have a lot of, but sometimes I spent it all
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  otherwise, like, going on Hikes, or, you know, doing whatever.
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  And sometimes, I don't invest a lot of time into the group
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  mainly because, you know, it was like I tell some people, I don't
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  listen to highlight every day and they're like, what really
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  might, you know, understand if I was not highlight every darn
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  day, eventually I'm just getting.
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  I'm sick of hearing him. Yeah, I want that to happen.
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  So I listened to us Really, you know, I wrote a very long period
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  of time. We're like almost like two
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  years, we're legit every day. I've listened to it and they've
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  just it sprayed all this awesome energy and just experiences but
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  now it's like, you know. Okay, okay, that's cool.
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  But let's let's do it in moderation and that's also
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  another for unless not just music, but anything you partake
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  up to it in moderation, whether it be drinking smoking, hell,
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  even working do that. Moderation, don't don't work
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  yourself to death. No, because then you're going
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  back. I can't stand my life and you're
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  just going to - headspace even want to be that.
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  You only did that. Yeah, that's a that's a really
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  good. You know, point in to make I
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  think that you know there's so much going on in the world at
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  any given point in time. It's like we're being over
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  stimulated more often than we're not and because you know, if
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  it's not, you know, the radio in your car or the TV in your
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  house, it's, you know, the apps on your phone that were
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  scrolling through and then, you know, we're out doing various
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  things. Or whatever.
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  There's just there's so much going on at any given point in
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  time that you do you feel like just feeling like it, you know,
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  if I stay busy it'll it'll drown out the noise and then you end
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  up like you say, becoming so burnt out on the thing that you
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  thought would clear your head or keep you away from the
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  distractions, becomes a distraction itself, it, your
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  quality of life goes down, you know, there's Consequences.
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  You know. But again physically mentally
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  spiritually life, just all of them, all of those aspects are
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  impacted by it, you know. So it's a good point, you know,
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  everything in moderation. It's, there's nothing that you
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  really can't or shouldn't enjoy as long as you're not hurting
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  other people. And, and as long as they're
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  being enjoyed in in moderation. Exactly.
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  And that's something that I think I am that you need before
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  to is like One. One of which being like my
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  alcohol consumption. I see drink everyday.
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  Now what I say every day, I'm not talking like wake up.
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  Yeah, that's, that's too much. I know people.
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  That's right. You what you weren't scooping up
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  your Cheerios out of Bud Light or something.
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  Birthday was just a couple days ago so my eye.
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  Let's go crazy, you know, but yeah.
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  Yeah, you know, so now I drink typically two or three nights a
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  week, like I said every week, separate there might be a bad
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  week or I've decided life is really tricky right now and I
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  need to numb the pain. I'm not saying that's an excuse,
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  I'm not condoning it for my behavior, I'm just explaining,
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  you know. Yeah, yeah.
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  Hey we all there man. I mean, dude, it's is I said at
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  one point in my life I'm surprised.
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  And again this is not a, this isn't a brag, right?
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  It isn't like. Something you should be like,
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  huh? But I have one point I was like,
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  I am Surprised that I am not drinking more than I am.
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  Given things that we're going on in my life, you know like I'm
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  surprised that I'm only drinking as much and at that time dude I
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  was drinking a lot. I was going through, probably
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  two liters of scotch a week. And you know, that's too much.
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  No. Yeah 22.
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  Yeah. 22 to leaders. Like so to half gallons.
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  Yeah. Gal gal has got you.
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  You know, you need a. You need to dial it back a
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  little bit more than just a little bit.
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  Matter of fact, I had to go, I had a basically, like, go
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  abstinent of all things, like any kind of stimulants, no
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  alcohol, no, no, no, nicotine, so no vaping right for like, 21
• 23:57
  days straight. just to kind of like, Do a hard reset.
• 24:02
  Yeah, basically like detox. You know.
• 24:04
  Not that I was, I wasn't feeling dependent on it.
• 24:07
  I was just at a point where I'm like, I'm in control of this and
• 24:10
  I can stop this and I need to get back in control before I
• 24:13
  start going out of control because that, you know, when and
• 24:18
  that's kind of why I wanted to, you know, have the topic of
• 24:21
  discussion be inspiring our communities, you know, it's I
• 24:25
  think it's a little bit different for folks like us when
• 24:28
  we are not, when we're more than just who we are on our
• 24:32
  day-to-day lives. You know what I mean?
• 24:34
  Like, we have An online presence, we have a
• 24:38
  responsibility to some degree varying degrees.
• 24:42
  Different people would say, you know, different levels of
• 24:45
  responsibility, but there is a responsibility.
• 24:48
  Whenever you're doing something like, what you and I are doing,
• 24:50
  you know, you with a group that is focused on mental health, and
• 24:53
  wellness, and spiritual well-being.
• 24:55
  And, you know, I have a podcast and a channel that is, you know,
• 25:00
  putting myself in front of an audience as well.
• 25:04
  You start going out of started, spiraling out of control and
• 25:06
  being irresponsible and doing things to excess people.
• 25:12
  See that and in how inspiring are we at that point?
• 25:15
  Or are we being inspirational in negative ways?
• 25:19
  In our, we get down that rabbit hole.
• 25:25
  It's really difficult not to touch off again, terrible
• 25:31
  Tennessee, to do that. But I'll You're fine.
• 25:35
  I used to be addicted to opiates for the sake of trigger
• 25:40
  warnings. I'll mocha specific but I'll
• 25:42
  just say that, you know, I came very close, not just one time,
• 25:46
  but I've a couple times were. I could have died one time in
• 25:52
  particular, was my when I overdosed back in October 27th,
• 25:58
  I think it was 26th 27th of October 17.
• 26:04
  So, like, I'll try to make this short, but it's also a very
• 26:08
  important story for myself, but also, I feel like anyone who
• 26:11
  might be watching, might be suffering from substance abuse.
• 26:14
  You should know that any minute to be your last minute, but I'll
• 26:18
  there's one day that I woke up and I was texting my guy I'm
• 26:23
  like, hey man, I want something. He's like okay cool.
• 26:28
  And that day, I remember it was very, very beautiful outside
• 26:31
  like this. Crazy.
• 26:33
  I'm like wow, cool. We're always watching The
• 26:36
  Sopranos have morning. There's one episode those
• 26:38
  playing games. It's like anytime I watched this
• 26:40
  episode like Taste of back to this experience but like so I
• 26:44
  woke up and I wait to get my check at work and like all right
• 26:47
  we're gonna get my check from to do my thing when I've got my
• 26:50
  check no issues and what the Walmart of the street.
• 26:54
  All right, here's my check cash it.
• 26:56
  Sorry, we can't cash. It systems offline.
• 26:58
  I'm like ah that sucks whatever. Went down the other way to the
• 27:02
  other Walmart. Sorry.
• 27:04
  Your systems are down. You know, you can't you check to
• 27:07
  Mike, huh? That's two times now.
• 27:11
  Because kind of like a red flag or like an early.
• 27:14
  Yeah, yeah. Tell you something.
• 27:17
  Exactly. And I was helping on ignoring it
• 27:20
  and I pay the price. But so I went to this one place.
• 27:25
  I got a loan one time and I'm like hey can you cash this or I
• 27:29
  guess heard you. I'll do it.
• 27:31
  And then I went out to my guy and then he's like, hey careful,
• 27:35
  this stuff's really potent to my cup out of uses trying to Hype
• 27:37
  it up and just try to boost sales and all that crap.
• 27:41
  No, he wasn't lying. I like I'm not trying to get too
• 27:46
  graphic here. So I did that the substance.
• 27:50
  And I was going to my friends house shortly thereafter.
• 27:56
  I would mention specific streets but do no justice because none
• 27:59
  of you guys live in my neck of the woods if you do.
• 28:02
  Okay? But it is what it is.
• 28:03
  But I love going the opposite direction.
• 28:07
  And then this is the part that baffles me that blows my mind
• 28:12
  is. I somehow managed to drive my
• 28:15
  vehicle for over 15 minutes. Without being aware of it, I
• 28:21
  blacked out and somehow managed to drive towards my house
• 28:27
  without running into anybody without going all throughout
• 28:30
  just yet. Well right now else for running
• 28:33
  to any other vehicles on the road and I end up finding a
• 28:37
  guard rail car flipped over three times.
• 28:40
  The gas tank started leaking and I one day I'm going to share a
• 28:46
  picture. I'm if I have it already sure.
• 28:48
  Appreciate the you but that's Truck is like pretty much
• 28:50
  smooshed like a sandwich. There is like two or three
• 28:53
  times. I remember coming to
• 28:54
  Consciousness and then passing out again, but it wasn't
• 28:57
  installed to me. But let's head to the hospital
• 29:00
  or Mike what happened. You're a year overdosed.
• 29:02
  And I'm like, am I such and such place like Oh no, you're over
• 29:06
  here. I'm like oh shit.
• 29:08
  My house. The truck died.
• 29:09
  Oh no that bad cool going on. Yeah and I'll tell you what
• 29:15
  though that was a tough road in a very difficult time.
• 29:18
  Indeed. You know, coming off the
• 29:20
  substance and then the damage you did put the not just
• 29:25
  financially but spiritually and with my family my friends too
• 29:31
  because they could trust me. Why should they?
• 29:34
  Because the specific substance that I was addicted to all I was
• 29:39
  focused on when I woke up. Like, how am I gonna get money?
• 29:41
  Okay, I got the money. How am I gonna get a ride?
• 29:44
  How am I gonna get to stop basis?
• 29:46
  That's messed. The, the three things you deal
• 29:48
  with. Every day and then if you're not
• 29:50
  feel that could be like, oh crap, I got withdrawals or Bono
• 29:54
  L dislike Raps. Like, yeah, anyone who's
• 29:57
  watching if you're having substance issued problems, it's
• 30:02
  okay to seek help. Actually, it's imperative that
• 30:05
  you seek help you're not alone. You, there's so many people who
• 30:10
  have the same strong will battle every day.
• 30:13
  It's not a defeat. When you're seeking help, its
• 30:15
  defeat when you're Six Feet Under, This is the feet when
• 30:18
  you're in jail. With its defeat when you're a
• 30:20
  rehab unwillingly. So, when you have that
• 30:23
  opportunity season before suit too late, because that's
• 30:27
  something you do, you don't want to mess around.
• 30:31
  So I kind of come out there. That's that, that mean, and
• 30:36
  that's kind of what I, you know, was that, that's what it's about
• 30:38
  here, man. I mean, the people know that,
• 30:40
  listen, you know, that's what this is about.
• 30:42
  It's, you know, there's a topic but it's more of a guideline,
• 30:46
  you know, it's not a hard thing that we're going to stick to.
• 30:48
  We're going to talk around it. We're going to talk about it.
• 30:49
  We're gonna course go off Trail. We're going to climb some trees.
• 30:52
  We're going to go in some caves. We're going to come out the
• 30:56
  other side and then we're going to go back through and maybe
• 31:00
  find some other holes to dig around in.
• 31:02
  But you know, that's, you know, had you had you not gone through
• 31:06
  those things and I was looking through some stuff earlier today
• 31:09
  and just like reminiscing and came across a post about how in
• 31:17
  we actually did an episode on this, you and I did about how
• 31:21
  building were through adversity, Yep.
• 31:25
  And how when, when it comes now to like this topic about
• 31:28
  inspiring our communities and actually being someone who no
• 31:32
  matter how big or small is I mean, looked at in an admirable
• 31:39
  way or looked up to or, you know, Seen as someone of
• 31:44
  importance and and how had we not endured the challenges and
• 31:51
  had not gone through the adversities and or deals that
• 31:54
  we've gone through. We wouldn't be that person who
• 31:59
  is so inspirational or whatever today and it's really like
• 32:04
  people can tell I'm talking around like talking through it
• 32:07
  but it's like choppy because it's hard for me even to just
• 32:10
  say like yeah I've been in spirit because it sounds so
• 32:12
  conceited coming from me but I want to talk about the reality
• 32:15
  of it is that you know, people do give you credit Patrick like
• 32:19
  they I mean people say great things about you and I mean I do
• 32:23
  too, it's a you know, it's been wonderful to develop a
• 32:26
  friendship. Ship and a bond with you.
• 32:27
  Over the years that started from a long distance, social media
• 32:32
  interaction, you know, you followed my work and supported
• 32:36
  me and now we're supporting each other.
• 32:39
  And I'm on your lives and your over here on the podcast.
• 32:41
  And it's, you know, the cycle continues of the, you know, it
• 32:45
  goes on and we can talk about those things and we can say,
• 32:48
  yeah man, you're inspiring to me.
• 32:50
  Well, guess what? I'm inspiring to you to, you
• 32:51
  know, like there's this back before.
• 32:54
  So, yeah. You know, I mean, and there's
• 32:56
  other I know that are inspired by you and they not say it
• 33:02
  directly or may not have the opportunity or whatever to say
• 33:05
  it, but I know they feel it because look at the communities
• 33:08
  built. You know, you started off with
• 33:10
  an idea and a dream and something that inspired you and
• 33:17
  now you've got 800, some people that find a safe space and what
• 33:23
  you've created, you know, you've given them a place where they
• 33:26
  can Sort of let their hair down and be themselves a bit and then
• 33:30
  know that there's not going to be any sort of repercussion or -
• 33:36
  laughs, you know, lash back or whatever about it, you know, and
• 33:40
  that's that's got to be that's got to be a great feeling and,
• 33:44
  you know, had you not gone through the things you gone
• 33:46
  through. To appreciate what you have and
• 33:50
  be inspired to want to do it with that.
• 33:53
  Even would your group even be here?
• 33:55
  Would with the hilum group that you're talking, you know, that
• 33:57
  you which at Highland was it mental health and spiritual
• 34:00
  Community? Or is that what it's called, or
• 34:01
  what is it? The name Yeager, specifically.
• 34:06
  It's terrible to say, but All the lovely things have a lovely
• 34:12
  way of making forget the simplest things but yes it's the
• 34:16
  high, look spiritual and mental health group.
• 34:20
  It's like you said, it's going to be posted down below, but I'm
• 34:23
  really glad you touched that to is.
• 34:26
  Again going to the discussion. I have one of my members last
• 34:29
  night. This is Hearing him say all
• 34:33
  these wonderful things. Like the group has helped them
• 34:35
  so much and just like even as a spectator, when I'm looking
• 34:38
  through some of our posts and I see people interacting with each
• 34:42
  other and saying, wonderful things about my group.
• 34:44
  It's like it's surreal because I know it's my group, but like the
• 34:50
  group has taken a life of its own.
• 34:52
  It's kind of funny to in some ways is a, my admins and
• 34:56
  moderators. Create this group chat, not me
• 34:59
  they created it. Am I?
• 35:00
  Alright, if you would like to return in time, I'm just like
• 35:02
  sitting off to the side. Like oh wow, interesting.
• 35:05
  These guys got this going on my that's cool.
• 35:08
  It's it's really help. Really fascinating enough.
• 35:13
  You know, it really makes me happy to see that going off or
• 35:16
  something that I created and I'm a very not very egocentric, all
• 35:22
  kind of person. I'm very you know modest in a
• 35:25
  lot of ways. Like anytime I do something
• 35:27
  that's really cool. I don't boast about it very
• 35:30
  often like for example, my drawings like SpongeBob and all
• 35:34
  those. Yeah their ties right after I
• 35:37
  got the do something or drawing. I'm like looking at this to
• 35:40
  Mike. All right, all right, that's not
• 35:44
  talking about right there, you know, but I'll be out like I
• 35:48
  said to steal does for the fields that I I like to chase
• 35:51
  after is to you know, and I'll talk to you watching anyone
• 35:55
  who's watching. You know, there's few Felix in
• 35:57
  the world that can really measure up to this but knowing
• 36:00
  that, you make an impact and help someone and it could be a
• 36:04
  variety of different ways. It could be very, very simple
• 36:08
  things that and it's important to remember.
• 36:11
  The, you may not see how it may possibly affect somebody.
• 36:16
  For example, like, you know, there's some days where I'm
• 36:20
  having a bad day and someone gives me a very warm smile.
• 36:24
  Even if it only lasts for a couple hours, I was in a good
• 36:26
  mood, Mike. Hey, that's something or just,
• 36:30
  you know, something open up the door for your big things, like a
• 36:34
  member of one of my groups comes out, takes time out of their day
• 36:38
  to say, hey, I really appreciate what you're doing or Sorry I was
• 36:46
  really emotional. Is a when my cat eye bar was
• 36:50
  dog. Not doing too good and they do
• 36:53
  post about it on Facebook and Maria friends actually commented
• 37:00
  on that post saying, you know, sending healing energy to Ivar.
• 37:03
  I'm just like Wow, it's just what people take time out of
• 37:09
  their days. Do something like that is,
• 37:10
  especially High long, no less. It's just further really
• 37:14
  reinforces why I have the love and passion that I do for this
• 37:18
  tribe and why I create it, what I did.
• 37:21
  But also, you know, that's an example of something you could
• 37:25
  do, you know, I'm not saying damn member of hi long.
• 37:27
  Time to say, you know, say nice things, you know, and hearing
• 37:33
  what's important. As I preach this very His
• 37:36
  intentions intentions intentions, you know, like for
• 37:40
  example, going back to intentions is what do you think
• 37:42
  about? Like, if you don't have an
• 37:45
  altar, that you can set up in the privacy of your own
• 37:48
  residence? Hey, you know what, even if the
• 37:51
  altars in your mind, that's good enough.
• 37:53
  Mike? And the gods will see that, you
• 37:55
  know, you don't have a lot of money to spend on things.
• 37:59
  Hey, you know what, maybe you could craft something like, you
• 38:02
  know, Papa does or a clip does or Matthew, you know anything
• 38:08
  it's just you've got a bear, your true intentions of hey you
• 38:12
  know what, I really want to venerate my ancestors, my family
• 38:16
  and my gods. I really want to do something.
• 38:19
  What you have that in your heart, I feel like you're
• 38:22
  already on the right path. You can't go wrong.
• 38:25
  Yeah. Me credit to be a little tricky.
• 38:26
  When you start to over, complicate these like I do, like
• 38:29
  I'm like, oh crap. I'm gonna do like, last night, I
• 38:32
  want to celebrate, you know. Festivities I'm like, oh crap
• 38:37
  you how am I going to do this perfectly?
• 38:39
  How about it is perfectly? Hey that's okay.
• 38:41
  This, let it play out and more often not just read that it, you
• 38:46
  know, pretty to this is more often.
• 38:48
  That is the spiritual and amazing experiences that we
• 38:51
  encounter happen at the most random times they did something
• 38:55
  you plan on. It's just that the truth is,
• 39:00
  this happens. It's the right, it's the
• 39:03
  randomness of it and you know sure there are there are
• 39:07
  definitely times I think that you know planning something out
• 39:10
  for specific event especially if it's a major holy tight or
• 39:13
  whatever, you know like plan it out do something of a bit of a
• 39:16
  spectacular Nature's to whatever degree you can you know like
• 39:19
  course but but if Ike you know, so you know, today is the second
• 39:26
  at the time you like we're filming this on the second.
• 39:30
  When this airs, it's going to be the fourth. and, So the day
• 39:37
  before today, like it was, you know, first of May and and
• 39:40
  everyone is we see all these posts about belting and and and
• 39:45
  stuck in my wife is more collect than I am.
• 39:47
  In terms of my the holy tides that I observe.
• 39:50
  But hey, you know if it's a holy tight to her and we want to
• 39:53
  celebrate, then I'm all about celebrations.
• 39:55
  You know? I mean, that's the thing about
• 39:56
  us, pagans is if it calls for celebration, when where they
• 39:59
  are, you know what I mean? But yeah, so she wanted to do
• 40:05
  something and it was very It was it was not a long plan because
• 40:11
  again you know we didn't like well in a week from now, let's
• 40:13
  do this thing. Then the other for belting it
• 40:15
  was just what she said. I'm going to make this for
• 40:18
  dinner. I'm going to have this for
• 40:19
  dessert and I want to get some wine and then we'll have a fire
• 40:22
  and then the gift at the fire. I'm going to actually post a
• 40:25
  picture. If you seen it yet that I said,
• 40:29
  did I showed it to you? Right, you might have.
• 40:32
  I don't remember if I did but if you have to check it out, if you
• 40:36
  haven't, I will show you but for everyone listening and watching,
• 40:40
  it's going to be pumped, it's going to be right up here on
• 40:42
  this on this, on the screen. I'm going to put a an image
• 40:46
  right here so you can see what she did.
• 40:48
  But it was like, the most beautiful arrangement of the
• 40:52
  simplest things that we just had laying around not laying around
• 40:56
  in the sense of like junk. But it was like, we have a peace
• 41:00
  lily plant in the house. You know, so it was one of the,
• 41:03
  it was one of the flowers, the petals from the peace lily.
• 41:06
  She also has an orchid plant and there was, you know, some petals
• 41:10
  from the Orchid and then grains and seeds and fruits and incense
• 41:17
  and obsidian like just various things that were all like
• 41:21
  arranged in such a way. That just looks so pretty, you
• 41:26
  know? And I'm like I call for a vote
• 41:29
  that for fall future. Clearly folk tribal functions
• 41:32
  that involve ritual that that she be henceforth and forever.
• 41:37
  The, the ritual Arrangement arranger, whoever.
• 41:41
  I don't know why I have to come up with the name or whatever you
• 41:44
  know, the people that put like flower arrangements and stuff
• 41:46
  and Florist. Like she's that for the tribe,
• 41:49
  like that's her in like and every was like, yep, we're we
• 41:52
  see Second that I'm like it you can't argue.
• 41:54
  Look at this like look at how beautiful it is and say yeah you
• 41:57
  know, but again the point being like you say the intention was
• 42:02
  to do something genuine, the purpose was for, you know what,
• 42:07
  the Beltane time of the year, you know what belting means for
• 42:11
  her. So there was already purpose,
• 42:14
  our intentions that went into it were of Weren't, you know, we
• 42:17
  didn't take a very long time to plan for this, but we're going
• 42:20
  to give something of meaning, no matter how small it may be.
• 42:23
  And, you know, so maybe not everybody has a plant laying
• 42:26
  around or or let's say laying around like careless.
• 42:29
  But you know what I mean? It's, you know, not everybody
• 42:31
  has a houseplant, but the point of it is, is, you know, it can
• 42:34
  be something. Just that simple, you know, we
• 42:37
  have some herbs. Some grains.
• 42:39
  You know what, your intentions intention and purpose.
• 42:44
  It's like, what? UK?
• 42:45
  They got to go hand in hand. And you got to know why your is
• 42:48
  why it is that you're doing it. And then the intentions behind
• 42:52
  that that carry it, otherwise, it'd be unnecessarily chaotic
• 42:56
  and, you know, you just well, yeah, reflect you're really
• 43:00
  trying to so so to speak right? You know, I knew a guy one time,
• 43:06
  you know, talking about intentions, I know a guy one
• 43:07
  time and he's like well you know I just had this Red Bowl in the
• 43:10
  fridge and that was my gift to the gods.
• 43:11
  I'm like dude you can do better than a Red Bull.
• 43:15
  Come on. Like take take this seriously,
• 43:19
  take this somewhat seriously freaking Rebel, like the gods
• 43:24
  don't need to be given Wings. They are like, you know, they're
• 43:28
  already sacred beings anyway. Like come on get with the
• 43:31
  program here and take this somewhat seriously, you know, it
• 43:36
  kind of reminds me of when offering that I managed to get
• 43:42
  yesterday was a So I saw clip has this really cool flak about
• 43:49
  the Norse holidays and one of them yesterday's holiday.
• 43:54
  I'll butcher if I try to pronounce it but um basically
• 43:57
  one of the things that was made as offerings was Bread Butter,
• 44:01
  honey. Mike.
• 44:02
  That's simple enough. but then I'm like, well, I have some
• 44:06
  extra money to spend, so, Let's do something.
• 44:09
  So I went to the local local grocery store and I found this,
• 44:13
  I don't want to get your average size brag because that just
• 44:16
  seemed like an install personally like not know.
• 44:19
  So what's the bakery section of the store schnooks?
• 44:21
  Anyone who's familiar with them and then Onyx?
• 44:24
  Yep, shoots and I got this, take it back.
• 44:29
  I think his photos called is like, it looked like his already
• 44:32
  fix that. I guess it wasn't.
• 44:33
  So you just take it. Home need to thank her for like
• 44:36
  seven to ten minutes and then I didn't realize how hard it was
• 44:42
  to slice. I mean, it's funny today, I want
• 44:45
  to get sliced bread. But I wanted to slice it
• 44:48
  afterwards that that made. Yeah, seem like it'd be more
• 44:51
  meaningful but like then I got some Irish butter and then some
• 44:55
  some honey, some local honey. My what I did is I tried to
• 45:00
  slice up this brag, but I tell you what, he was a pain in the
• 45:03
  butt and like squishing the phrase, I'm trying to slice it
• 45:07
  like, damn it. You have a good knife or what
• 45:10
  you over there, like, trying to cut it with a spoon, or what's
• 45:12
  the deal? Oh no, no, no, I need to get you
• 45:14
  a knife, Patrick. Do I need to do?
• 45:16
  I need to come over there and sharpen your Sorry, I think you
• 45:18
  might just have to jamming. It's a loaf of bread, buddy.
• 45:21
  Let's get let's get. Let's get her signature here.
• 45:23
  I'll take it. You know, but no.
• 45:26
  Yeah. The bread, I had literally I cut
• 45:29
  it like five minutes after I begged it.
• 45:32
  I don't know if that has something to do with that.
• 45:33
  Are supposed to text your sourdough.
• 45:35
  I'm not springy. Yes, springy.
• 45:44
  You know this is becoming get this guy's stick now likes you
• 45:49
  gotta it's almost like you got a whip out the Husqvarna, man.
• 45:52
  You gotta, you gotta go back there and rev up the the old
• 45:56
  steel chain saw, you know, Today, we're at the headdress
• 46:29
  and use the drum that I got. Those are two things.
• 46:32
  Hmm, I'll tell you what. I'll so the drug from Papa all
• 46:36
  upset, I knew was going to come in a ride that much.
• 46:39
  I was sure of but Natalie what? When I saw you and we hung out
• 46:44
  and I heard your job and just anything that Papa makes it's
• 46:48
  just I could sing his Praises all day and it wouldn't be
• 46:51
  enough. This is he's the true master of
• 46:53
  his craft and a true inspiration as well as you are, you know, I
• 46:57
  just You too. I see you guys do what you do,
• 46:59
  you know, going back to helping the community and that's what
• 47:02
  being a little shout out. I'm going to give out to these
• 47:05
  two gentlemen, is pop all of scent and then Jesse here.
• 47:07
  Since these two men, my days for, I don't feel that
• 47:11
  spiritually president for Motivated at since I watched it
• 47:15
  two men, I'm just like, man, this is what I Aspire.
• 47:18
  What I want to embody and ride practices, and I'm not going to
• 47:23
  do it specifically as they do because that would just be
• 47:26
  copying. But I'm going to Apply it at my
• 47:28
  own ways that I can to my life. But that's something that they
• 47:31
  inspire me to do. And that's kind of ties into
• 47:34
  what we're discussing in this. This podcast is when you think
• 47:38
  when you could become someone like that, that's really a
• 47:42
  remarkable feat but it's also very imperative.
• 47:44
  As we mentioned earlier, in the podcast is not to get too
• 47:48
  egotistical about it. It's okay to give your pump out
• 47:51
  of the backpack, Kick-Ass, rock and roll.
• 47:53
  Really making a name for myself but don't Not that anyone's
• 47:57
  gonna do this but you know, speaking properly though there
• 48:01
  are times we abused that privilege for reviews that, you
• 48:04
  know, influence to attain things that may not entirely be
• 48:08
  wholesome and this is all very hypothetical and theoretical but
• 48:13
  I'm just saying, you know, it's sorry, go ahead.
• 48:17
  No. I mean what I was, you know, I'm
• 48:19
  agreeing with everything that you're saying in the sense that
• 48:22
  and that was one of the things I wanted to because I keyed in on
• 48:25
  What you were saying earlier and I wanted to come back to and
• 48:29
  it's a good point right now is the ego, you know, because you
• 48:32
  had said something earlier like I'm not I'm not too much of a,
• 48:35
  I'm not too much into my ego or egotistic.
• 48:38
  So and I'm like you got to be a little.
• 48:42
  Yeah you have to be so you have to be aware that.
• 48:44
  First of all, the egos, not all bad.
• 48:49
  You know what I mean? Like there there's aspects and
• 48:52
  parts that you know, Need to be kept in check and and through
• 48:57
  the right through the through the right methods and through
• 49:01
  the right practice and yeah methods you know there's there's
• 49:06
  times when you know ego death is necessary but it's not it's not
• 49:10
  like extinguishing it's putting something to rest and allowing
• 49:14
  the multifaceted. aspects of us of ourselves as As a creature as
• 49:23
  a species you know as Humanity to embrace our ego and and and
• 49:30
  keep in keep it in check at the same time, you know?
• 49:33
  So you we have to be as people that I mean dude, if you were to
• 49:36
  tell me and say that you're not egotistical it's not a bad
• 49:39
  thing. If you are just a little bit
• 49:41
  because you have to have a bit of an ego to want to sit in
• 49:43
  front of a camera and talk to people like this or do live
• 49:46
  streams or engage with people, you know what I mean?
• 49:49
  Like they're it, you have to have that it otherwise You'd be
• 49:54
  like, nope, never going to do that.
• 49:56
  Somebody else can do it, you know.
• 49:57
  There's there's there's plenty of people like that and I know
• 50:00
  like there's been people who have got called in to the
• 50:03
  podcast or written into the podcast and it was like, you
• 50:06
  know, I was sitting on this for a long time and even really want
• 50:08
  to do it because of, you know, their personal reasons and which
• 50:11
  they're entitled to feel. And then that's okay, there's
• 50:14
  nothing wrong with it. But what I mean is is, you know,
• 50:15
  there are gender are genuinely people just not built for this,
• 50:19
  not that. It's a hard thing to do, but
• 50:20
  it's not a part of their character, it's not a part of
• 50:22
  their ego. Know that that part of the ego,
• 50:24
  doesn't. Exist for them.
• 50:28
  But to that point, you know, what you were saying is, you
• 50:30
  know, it is something that can run away with itself and there
• 50:34
  are people that have let it do so, you know, there's there's
• 50:36
  there's there's people out here that have abused this, you know,
• 50:42
  they're they're they're five minutes of fame or whatever you
• 50:44
  know. And I mean and they become
• 50:48
  Charlatans and and just bar - not genuine about the
• 50:59
  inspiration and then that was, that was the second part of what
• 51:02
  I was wanting to address right now.
• 51:04
  Was that, you know, look at look at kind of the pattern.
• 51:07
  Look at, look at the flow of things, you know.
• 51:09
  You know, I started doing this stuff like YouTube videos and
• 51:15
  then, you know, podcast later on I started Doing this because I
• 51:21
  was looking for something in my area.
• 51:24
  I didn't really find anything that was quite liked what I was
• 51:28
  doing. And I started searching online
• 51:30
  about, you know, Heathen kindred's are starting heating
• 51:33
  Caterers and I found a video on YouTube by Eric Sherman are
• 51:36
  Edward. Weaver shervin on the Ravens
• 51:37
  call and it was talking about heathen meetups and I'm like,
• 51:41
  who's this guy? You know and then Eric is those
• 51:46
  is the source of my inspiration. Starting that guard, musings.
• 51:50
  He's channels was a little bit started before mine and you
• 51:55
  know, he was my my source of inspiration.
• 51:58
  I didn't do the same thing that he was doing.
• 52:00
  I originally started the channel to be.
• 52:03
  Well, he was musings of the of the Hub mall I was, I was
• 52:06
  reciting stanzas from the Harbour Mall and kind of just
• 52:10
  dissecting them a bit and talking about stuff and then,
• 52:15
  you know days, go into months, go into years down the road.
• 52:18
  The road and then you know here you are inspired by by myself
• 52:22
  and then you mentioned, Papa Olufsen fee, all the tier
• 52:26
  workshop, being an inspiration. And and and now you've done
• 52:30
  things and are doing things, that who knows who's going to be
• 52:34
  inspired by you and who's going to do something that Patrick
• 52:39
  Walsh did and the instant what? Yeah, so exactly what I'm trying
• 52:44
  to say is like the in the genuine desire to inspire fire.
• 52:50
  Desire to inspire is is it transfers through to genuine
• 52:59
  people that want to continue that flame?
• 53:03
  You know, and keep that flame lit?
• 53:05
  It's like without even knowing it.
• 53:07
  You know, Eric inspired I'm sure he's inspired other people.
• 53:10
  I mean I can't be the only one but here I am because of Eric
• 53:14
  and now here you are because of me or Papa or both.
• 53:19
  You know and then what's to come for those that said, they're
• 53:21
  there because of Patrick Walsh, you know, and so on and so
• 53:24
  forth. So there's this, there's this
• 53:26
  continuity, it keeps going and if it's in genuine or
• 53:31
  disingenuine, I should say, you know, I mean like if it's if
• 53:33
  it's not in genuine, right? So if it's not from the heart,
• 53:38
  it's not pure. It'll, it'll turn to crap.
• 53:43
  I feel like in that also, you know, consternation that to
• 53:46
  accept, thank you for not being genuine.
• 53:48
  It'll find its way this carving itself and you'll lose what
• 53:54
  you're trying to gain. And I think that's beautiful
• 53:57
  because like, you know, Just what topic, I kind of want to
• 54:02
  press on before I forget what that HD.
• 54:04
  But I'll meet the someone who suffers from That might sound
• 54:10
  Bleak but it is what it is though, it is suffering is for
• 54:13
  my physical deformity before the way I and then having doing what
• 54:20
  I'm doing, you know, via YouTube Facebook, what have you is?
• 54:26
  You know, again I told you before to privately and through
• 54:30
  a stream is, I personally a lot of times, I can't stand hearing
• 54:36
  my voice feel like you know, right now talking I have no
• 54:38
  claws. No issues, no problems at all
• 54:41
  like afterwards. When I watch this, they can't
• 54:44
  take this. It provides me.
• 54:48
  An opportunity to boost my ego. Again pretty slow worth
• 54:53
  discussing is like that's something I struggle with very
• 54:56
  greatly is loving myself. Holy because right now is partly
• 55:01
  and I just want to my goal is to be a real fully accepting in
• 55:07
  appreciate my flaws and my you know, my perks and my, my
• 55:12
  benefits and such but I'll yeah they so bored in my situation I
• 55:17
  almost feel I don't to say obligate but obligated and y'all
• 55:22
  just to inspire anyone else, who might be suffering from a
• 55:26
  physical flexion, or even eventual pushing because I
• 55:29
  remember you made up for a podcast, I found was what
• 55:34
  specific one that was, but it was a before or after.
• 55:39
  The fatir the lamp is here. Uh-huh.
• 55:43
  Yes, we're talking about, you know mental afflictions and how
• 55:46
  you really could relate to a lot of that and in like what I was
• 55:50
  watching that podcast like, well I can relate a lot to that and I
• 55:54
  think it's really important to do what I'm doing to let other
• 55:57
  people know whether it be mental or physical, that you're not
• 56:01
  alone, and you have the strength and courage to overcome those
• 56:05
  issues. It's funny because there's a lot
• 56:08
  of times when I'm like, wow, Watching or scrolling, something
• 56:11
  I hear someone say that my God, that's cheesy as shit.
• 56:14
  But then again, pardon the French but it's just It's
• 56:20
  amazing how much of an impact those words can have and how
• 56:25
  that reassurance because I think the ultimate goal is to find
• 56:30
  that one person like me or you or anyone who's going through a
• 56:35
  messed-up time and they see that and it just hits them at the
• 56:39
  right moment. Even took this one person or
• 56:44
  1,000 people, you know you're right.
• 56:50
  It's something that cannot. be like, Trying to find the words
• 56:56
  again. Darn it.
• 56:57
  Yeah. I mean God you can't you can't
• 57:01
  you can't it is it's a hard thing to to verbalize.
• 57:04
  It's a hard thing to to explain but you know with with you man
• 57:08
  like to your point, you know? Because I I strive to be
• 57:13
  transparent without oversharing. But to let people know like hey
• 57:16
  you know there while I understand and fully realize the
• 57:20
  importance of you know mental health awareness and all these
• 57:23
  things I literally Don't. Live with these conditions, you
• 57:28
  know what I mean? I live with someone who has
• 57:31
  those, not maybe all the same but has, you know, suffers from
• 57:35
  mental health conditions and so I can only empathize You know, I
• 57:41
  can't sympathize because I don't go through it.
• 57:44
  So when you've got someone like yourself who is open and honest
• 57:47
  and transparent to the point of not feeling shame because of it,
• 57:52
  you know, to talk opening like, yeah, you know what, I'm and
• 57:57
  don't take this the wrong way, but I'm a hot mess and it's okay
• 58:00
  if you are too, right, it's, it's that kind of self awareness
• 58:04
  and acceptance and putting yourself out here in the public
• 58:08
  eye that That you know on the same scale.
• 58:12
  But I was watching this documentary about The Judds so
• 58:21
  country music women, the the mother and daughter Naomi and
• 58:25
  Wynonna Judd who paved the way for female country music
• 58:32
  performers. They are legends and the in the
• 58:37
  country music scene. But when when Naomi the mother
• 58:41
  passed away because of suicide. No, trigger warning, sorry
• 58:47
  there, you know, wyona took that Carry the torch.
• 58:54
  And then she did all these things and she wanted to do it.
• 58:57
  And the reason why I'm bringing this up is I should do.
• 58:59
  She talked about, you know, if, if the world sees and if people
• 59:03
  see and, you know, again realizing the kind of influence
• 59:07
  that these ladies have had in the following, they've had since
• 59:10
  the 80s, you know, their their world-famous, if y know, wyona,
• 59:15
  Wenonah Wynonna, Judd wyona, Judd, I keep saying, wyona,
• 59:20
  Judd, if she could do it, Right? If she could go out and perform
• 59:24
  these shows and honor her mother's Legacy and talk about
• 59:28
  these things having just lost her mother to Suicide, right?
• 59:33
  And it her thing, was it that if I can show the world, that if I
• 59:36
  can do it, anyone can do it. Exactly.
• 59:40
  You know, in this is the type of stuff that we're talking about
• 59:43
  inspiring our communities, if we can do things and even you know
• 59:47
  everybody struggles, everybody has their bad days.
• 59:50
  Everybody has some days, you know, Some people's bad days are
• 59:54
  worse than others, people's bad days, but we're all having bad
• 59:59
  days. We're all going through some
• 1:00:00
  stuff, man. You know, I received I received
• 1:00:06
  a message from someone. Either earlier today or
• 1:00:10
  yesterday saying I don't really know this person I just recently
• 1:00:15
  connected to them through or that I get a mutual friend on
• 1:00:18
  social media, right? and, You know, they were talking
• 1:00:23
  about. You know, the last week's
• 1:00:26
  podcast and you know, that you meeting me came back from from
• 1:00:34
  your, you know, traveling for the death of my father, and came
• 1:00:38
  back and put out quality content.
• 1:00:41
  And that, then those were their words, not mine.
• 1:00:43
  They they said, you know, you came back from such a thing and
• 1:00:45
  put out quality content, you know, you realize how much that,
• 1:00:49
  like, just tugs at my heart because, Quite, honestly,
• 1:00:53
  there's a lot of times that I feel like the quality that I put
• 1:00:55
  out, isn't up to speed and it's not up to part of like, I could
• 1:00:58
  do so much better. If I really, if I had more time,
• 1:01:00
  if I had more equipment, if you know, I find out, I find all
• 1:01:06
  these reasons why I think it could be better.
• 1:01:10
  And then I hear like the, you know, the comment like that or
• 1:01:12
  the message like that. And I'm like, man, I I made an
• 1:01:17
  impact, you know, this I impacted somebody and they took
• 1:01:20
  time out of their day to tell me as such, you know, and it just
• 1:01:25
  no matter what, no matter where this podcast goes, no matter
• 1:01:28
  where your head, your Highland group goes, you know, I feel
• 1:01:31
  like I can speak for the both of us in that, you know, anytime we
• 1:01:35
  get those types of comments or messages, it really inspires us
• 1:01:41
  to keep doing these things. You know, from just that one
• 1:01:44
  person. Yeah.
• 1:01:46
  Y'all to really put that more its practice and to also as as
• 1:01:51
  here met you too, you know, I could have done this better.
• 1:01:54
  I can it's okay, it's healthy to have those aspirations to do
• 1:01:57
  better, right? But what counts in the form of
• 1:02:00
  negative criticism, like how Jesus Christ, what are you?
• 1:02:03
  What are you doing? Well, don't say talk.
• 1:02:10
  You know what? This podcast, didn't meet
• 1:02:12
  expectations but you know what? Next time it's gonna be dark to.
• 1:02:18
  Yeah, really cool. I'm try my best not to curse
• 1:02:21
  right now. It's like the second at this
• 1:02:24
  point. It's all right.
• 1:02:25
  I mean, we're this PG-13. We already we got past the, the
• 1:02:28
  R rating game. I'll tell you what.
• 1:02:34
  Yeah, try to go back on track. When I was thinking, though is
• 1:02:40
  again, I imagine I'm very sure that I'm certain that this
• 1:02:46
  podcast will be shared with my group and I imagine a few of
• 1:02:52
  them will be watching in a case that situation.
• 1:02:55
  I just want to tell my viewers them, you know, my my group that
• 1:02:59
  I appreciate and love you guys very much for doing what you do,
• 1:03:03
  whether it's the simplest waking up.
• 1:03:05
  Mike. Hey, you know what I want to
• 1:03:06
  like or share comment on this post or I want to take time to
• 1:03:11
  let someone know. They're going to be okay, like,
• 1:03:14
  what am I members? I'll really hit hard.
• 1:03:17
  What happened to her as she lost one of her pets.
• 1:03:20
  A cat know. no less, and that just It's had to put on the
• 1:03:26
  rest, and I'm like, you know what?
• 1:03:27
  I was in your shoes, literally last year, or last summer and
• 1:03:30
  just, it's not an easy thing to do.
• 1:03:33
  But just knowing that, I made this group at made a safe space
• 1:03:37
  for her to express and to really feel okay with not being, okay?
• 1:03:42
  And being in a messed up situation like that whether it
• 1:03:44
  be natural and natural, you know, you're here, you're okay,
• 1:03:47
  you're going to be all right, you know, and such an example,
• 1:03:52
  losing your pet, you know, just know that.
• 1:03:54
  It's not gonna last forever or if you're recovering from
• 1:03:58
  substance, you know, addiction or battling, you know your
• 1:04:05
  depression wherever is your Afflicted bit it's not going to
• 1:04:08
  last forever, there's gonna be good days but also it's
• 1:04:12
  important to ground yourself. And remember like oh yeah,
• 1:04:15
  there's gonna be some bad days. There's going to be some days
• 1:04:18
  right? To hell with this crap.
• 1:04:20
  I've done Yeah, but tomorrow. Tomorrow's another day.
• 1:04:25
  Open the door, you know, know what you're going to walk
• 1:04:27
  through, but it could be great, you know, could be, you want to
• 1:04:31
  be here to see it either way? Exactly.
• 1:04:35
  Yeah, I had a, something interesting happened, the other
• 1:04:38
  night too. You talked about earlier, the
• 1:04:43
  you know, festivity celebrations belting we talked about with
• 1:04:47
  what my wife did and a lot of people have similar existences
• 1:04:52
  or similar family situations where there's Multiple things
• 1:04:56
  going on. So you're going to do your nor
• 1:04:59
  stuff, then you're going to do, you're more, I don't know.
• 1:05:02
  Whatever. Celtic stuff, your eclectic.
• 1:05:03
  Whatever you like it's multi-faceted.
• 1:05:06
  There's a lot of things going on a lot of people's houses.
• 1:05:08
  So it's relatively relatable, right.
• 1:05:11
  And again, the randomness of it all, you know, like I had no
• 1:05:17
  plans of Putting myself into a ritual state to to do something,
• 1:05:25
  you know? So I'm like my wife's like, you
• 1:05:26
  know, you know, you need to give something you need to do
• 1:05:28
  something for this for this gift and then you need to recite the
• 1:05:34
  blessing or the prayer, the Chan or whatever it is.
• 1:05:36
  And I'm like, but I didn't have time to prepare for this you
• 1:05:39
  know, I'm like I didn't write anything down.
• 1:05:41
  What the hell am I doing here? I don't know what this is about.
• 1:05:44
  Like, you know, again, it was like one of those things I get
• 1:05:45
  put on the spot but I said, no. Okay.
• 1:05:48
  You know, she declared it. And so, I was like right, well
• 1:05:52
  she started showing me what it was and then I got the the the
• 1:05:55
  items that I contributed to the to the gift.
• 1:05:58
  And in that moment, you know, just just standing there by the
• 1:06:05
  fire and having a moment to sort of Put my put my mind in a place
• 1:06:12
  of consideration for what the belting holiday means, you know,
• 1:06:19
  and and what it is represented for for a lot of pagans.
• 1:06:24
  And and you know, the thing that came to my mind to say was May
• 1:06:33
  the gifts that we are about to give.
• 1:06:37
  B. the forget, the exact words but it was made that made the
• 1:06:41
  gifts that we are giving or about to give Be the start of
• 1:06:52
  new growth in desolate soil or something along those lines.
• 1:06:58
  Again, it was, it was, it was like a one-time like a one-liner
• 1:07:02
  sort of deal. Like, it wasn't a long
• 1:07:04
  paragraph, it wasn't a long ritual, but that was my prayer.
• 1:07:06
  That was my be that was money. That was my my my prayer, you
• 1:07:10
  know, my my chant as it were and so that I sent it as such and
• 1:07:14
  you want to know something, man, I stood there at by that fire
• 1:07:19
  after the Us were given. And I just sort of kind of got
• 1:07:22
  into, like a trance. Meditative trance, just from
• 1:07:28
  music. Just from a beat, you know, that
• 1:07:32
  Rhythm. And I was telling my wife
• 1:07:35
  afterwards, I said, you know, I felt like I was being like
• 1:07:42
  pulled downward and also at one point stretched upward like up
• 1:07:50
  and down at the same time like being anchored first and then
• 1:07:54
  being stretched. Like I felt like my arms were
• 1:07:56
  stretched so far like I was like your watch those like old
• 1:07:59
  Stretch Armstrong commercials where dudes like all rubber
• 1:08:03
  elastic getting just dancing all day.
• 1:08:06
  That's what I felt like. like it was I felt like I was so
• 1:08:09
  anchored in the ground and yet pulled up high that I couldn't
• 1:08:14
  be uprooted but I had to first kind of really sink in deep.
• 1:08:20
  Yeah, and that was just from that.
• 1:08:24
  Again that random sort of off the cuff, unplanned.
• 1:08:30
  Ritual, so where our inspiration comes from, you know, inspiring
• 1:08:36
  our communities. I like to think that it can come
• 1:08:39
  at the most randomest of times and talking about it sharing.
• 1:08:45
  It doesn't, it's not a bad thing.
• 1:08:48
  No, you know, we can, we can genuinely maybe Inspire others
• 1:08:53
  to just realize that this is real.
• 1:08:55
  This is, at least it was real for a must for me, in the
• 1:08:57
  moment. You know.
• 1:08:58
  I'm not saying that. Well, if you do this, that thing
• 1:08:59
  in the other, you're going to get the same results as me, or
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  none of us are doing that. I feel like, you know, we're not
• 1:09:04
  saying that our experience is the experience that you should
• 1:09:07
  expect for your experience. But I think that our experiences
• 1:09:13
  can be a form of inspiration as well.
• 1:09:15
  And maybe give people the feel-good endorphins to pursue
• 1:09:23
  and do things of their own, you know, it's a portal, really?
• 1:09:27
  Sorry. It's a to provide and yourself
• 1:09:32
  the opportunity to have those moments while they may or may
• 1:09:35
  not happen. It's important to give yourself
• 1:09:38
  that that chance. Yeah.
• 1:09:40
  Because you're not going to be able to have that moment unless
• 1:09:44
  you give yourself the opportunity and who knows?
• 1:09:47
  Maybe after you have all this watching this video and you know
• 1:09:49
  what, all right, I'm gonna pause stop the route Setter.
• 1:09:53
  Oh, you know what, I'm gonna go for that nature, walk Barefoot
• 1:09:56
  but you know what? I'm going to purchase that
• 1:09:57
  drawback of Maine to get All takes us that little boost a
• 1:10:02
  little. Hey, you know, what do it, you
• 1:10:05
  live, what's you know that one little spark and that's what
• 1:10:09
  that's what inspiration is and inspiration is the spark.
• 1:10:14
  That ignites the fire because the fire continues, then carried
• 1:10:18
  on by something else and then it's carried on by something
• 1:10:21
  else and it continues, its that torch, it's that can cause you
• 1:10:25
  know that that that Illuminating sort of Beacon when you trade up
• 1:10:31
  towards the Heart of Darkness, you're going to be that Beacon
• 1:10:34
  of Hope and that's what again, check myself.
• 1:10:37
  But I know I need to practice the ego.
• 1:10:40
  Be part of my ego, is this, you know what?
• 1:10:42
  It's great to feel. Feel to be that source of
• 1:10:46
  inspiration. Whether it just be for like five
• 1:10:49
  people or 800, people or thousands of people, you know,
• 1:10:54
  put on yeah. Even just one person exactly it.
• 1:10:59
  That's, that's all that really matters and that's also like
• 1:11:02
  we're saying releases intentions don't intend.
• 1:11:06
  To say, oh, I'm gonna get a bunch of people, a phone my
• 1:11:08
  butt, and we're just going to be the most spectacular thing on
• 1:11:11
  the Block as like, no, no, no, no.
• 1:11:13
  I'll be humble and be grounded when practicing or, you know,
• 1:11:18
  doing something like that because you don't want to set
• 1:11:20
  the bar too high and then pulled out what ways might know you're
• 1:11:24
  overlooking the whole experience then you gotta come at it like
• 1:11:28
  but that's the thing that was like people will do what they do
• 1:11:31
  but like I believe that it's important to, you know, carry
• 1:11:34
  your intentions and go. the way like, you know what, if it
• 1:11:38
  doesn't work out, hey, I tried, you know, it's just like like
• 1:11:42
  you're trying to find a date or you're trying to plan something
• 1:11:47
  like a bachelor party for your friend or an assignment that
• 1:11:53
  you're working on in college or the the situation scenarios can
• 1:11:58
  vary tremendously but you know yes this have a back-up plan, it
• 1:12:03
  just now if it doesn't work out, you know, if there's always Next
• 1:12:06
  time. But that doesn't well, I was
• 1:12:09
  like to think that it has to do with our.
• 1:12:11
  Yeah. I always like to think that has
• 1:12:12
  to do with the ear, you know, again, intention frame of mind.
• 1:12:16
  I forget, which it's a, it's a line from one of the one of the
• 1:12:20
  Icelandic sagas I believe. But it's I think it's go
• 1:12:22
  something on the lines of like the Bold succeed where so ever
• 1:12:24
  they go, you know, be bold. Yeah.
• 1:12:30
  And that's the thing about it is, you know, especially I think
• 1:12:33
  in Heathen re is so much of this.
• 1:12:40
  I don't know. What do you call it?
• 1:12:41
  Like, the, the brochure true types, like the Macho.
• 1:12:45
  I'm the Viking. This, whatever that.
• 1:12:47
  No. Yeah, you know, there that's,
• 1:12:49
  that's cartoony. That that's Looney Tunes.
• 1:12:51
  Right? That not what we're talking
• 1:12:53
  about. How about being?
• 1:12:54
  We're talking about being bold, we're talking about being can,
• 1:12:58
  you know, remaining steadfast in our convictions and that's what
• 1:13:03
  that's what I'm talking about when I say like the be bold and
• 1:13:06
  you will succeed, don't be a jerk, you know, don't be
• 1:13:10
  insensitive and don't don't be So, so absorbed in yourself that
• 1:13:17
  you don't realize what purpose, you actually should be serving,
• 1:13:21
  you know, but be bold about it and be convicted in what we're
• 1:13:24
  doing and the genuine nature of it all is going to, you know,
• 1:13:29
  we're kind recognizes kind. You're going to see the types of
• 1:13:32
  people who are doing this for the right reasons.
• 1:13:36
  And you're going to link with them and you're going to line
• 1:13:38
  with that more. So, you know, I think that
• 1:13:41
  that's why folks like you and pop all of sin and Eric and
• 1:13:45
  others. You know, that's why we've
• 1:13:47
  connected in the way we have is because we stand on their
• 1:13:50
  children, understand that similar intentions of what we're
• 1:13:54
  trying to do. And that's also, I also not take
• 1:13:57
  away from what you're saying, but also to add is I also feel
• 1:14:00
  like it's necessary. Yeah, that important to have the
• 1:14:04
  the outside, the Spectrum. Like, it's like there's one what
• 1:14:09
  time are few times I share with you.
• 1:14:10
  There's this one gentleman who has this little Tick Tock page
• 1:14:15
  and like he so Frost REO all the things you're talking about.
• 1:14:19
  Like this guy straight up head, like his eyes are painted, like
• 1:14:23
  Robin from Batman Robin. And he had this like this whole
• 1:14:26
  Viking, get up like the whole armor and then playing rap in
• 1:14:30
  the background. Like big, hey, but you'd like to
• 1:14:34
  spock out there alone, like share, share, share at this
• 1:14:37
  really going above and beyond like being absurd, obnoxious.
• 1:14:41
  And just like, you know, saying he's a viking and all that crap
• 1:14:44
  might no, no, no, no damn it. No, that's not.
• 1:14:48
  No. Yeah, that's okay.
• 1:14:50
  It's it's nice to have a point of reference as to what to
• 1:14:53
  followed by but also to what not to practice, you know?
• 1:14:58
  It's just that's what's beautiful about the world that
• 1:15:01
  we live in and And necessary as well, you know, it's kind of
• 1:15:04
  like, but the Personalities in general, you know, there's going
• 1:15:07
  to be no. Yeah, by putting people you just
• 1:15:10
  can't stand to have shirts Mutual in a lot of cases but and
• 1:15:14
  that's kind of thing about like our path in our practice.
• 1:15:16
  It's act like a support week, you discuss not discuss.
• 1:15:20
  As you know, I've will take pride in knowing that I love and
• 1:15:24
  appreciate most beliefs and practices as long as they carry,
• 1:15:28
  you know, the intentions and knowing this not going to hurt
• 1:15:31
  anyone. Between consenting people, it's
• 1:15:34
  not forced upon them. That's cool.
• 1:15:37
  You know, if you find praise and great Tidings and awesome
• 1:15:42
  moments with Jesus or Buddha or whatever you decide to believe
• 1:15:46
  it. Kickass Rock Roll, I'll be right
• 1:15:48
  behind you like hey you know what, cool, I support what you
• 1:15:51
  do. I mean, I've practiced what you
• 1:15:53
  do, but I think that's special if it helps people keep doing
• 1:15:56
  it, you know? But there are past practices
• 1:16:00
  that I will not abide by when Not fall for the obvious of
• 1:16:03
  reasons. But yeah, crazy people who will
• 1:16:06
  support that. You know, you thought the Branch
• 1:16:08
  Davidians, who did all that crazy stuff have like a Muslim
• 1:16:13
  extremists and I'm just using examples here.
• 1:16:15
  I'm not trying to yes, those, right.
• 1:16:18
  Right down to say there's this example.
• 1:16:20
  Oh yeah, there's there's there's that apples in every bunch, you
• 1:16:23
  know. But also that goes into you'll
• 1:16:24
  not be too egocentric and also knowing that you know, not
• 1:16:28
  abusing that that power the you could possess one day in the
• 1:16:31
  future, you know? Who knows?
• 1:16:32
  Jessie maybe like five years from now, you could have a giant
• 1:16:36
  platform. It just find yourself in
• 1:16:38
  position to really use the tier advantage in a lot of bad ways
• 1:16:42
  but you just you know they don't pick our Mazda also.
• 1:16:48
  This is kind of like random but also appropriate it sells on
• 1:16:52
  Tick Tock and I watch the video. I'm going to share with you
• 1:16:55
  after this explaining, you know, The purpose of Q going to Mugen
• 1:17:02
  for Odin and it's not word for word obviously.
• 1:17:05
  But you know, it's just what really hit me is this, you know,
• 1:17:09
  those are owns Ravens going about, you know, checking out
• 1:17:13
  all of us and see what we do, will were given.
• 1:17:17
  And there were times that I was giving something special and I
• 1:17:22
  might have botched that opportunity and it really makes
• 1:17:25
  you really consider that when you have that opportunity.
• 1:17:29
  And again to see something special, you know, to go about
• 1:17:32
  it in a different way, they can know what I got a little too
• 1:17:35
  selfish that time or, you know what, I got a little to those
• 1:17:39
  who comment or maybe I wasn't confident enough.
• 1:17:42
  I should have seized that opportunity.
• 1:17:43
  Like, oh, that cute. Girl, at the restaurant, I
• 1:17:46
  should have asked for her number or you know what that race?
• 1:17:49
  I was afraid to ask for, I should have asked for inactive,
• 1:17:51
  it could be applied to various ways, but also I think that's, I
• 1:17:55
  think that's proper though to have that figure in our lives.
• 1:17:59
  Vic. Hey, is he really utilizing what
• 1:18:00
  he's given? If he's not then he can't get
• 1:18:04
  upset or pissed off too much without making the necessary
• 1:18:07
  changes to, you know, make that happen.
• 1:18:09
  You can't, you can't wake up every day in a bad mood, expect
• 1:18:13
  for a good day. You're just setting yourself up
• 1:18:15
  for failure. You gotta wake up with the best
• 1:18:17
  of intentions and Outlook and that's what's tricky though.
• 1:18:21
  There are days where I wake up. Again, know what I do.
• 1:18:24
  Positive affirmations, a lot. Like you know what?
• 1:18:26
  It's gonna be a good day. And man I'll tell you what the
• 1:18:30
  world's like oh really now. Oh you think so huh?
• 1:18:36
  Here you go. That's so yeah.
• 1:18:40
  Right. Salsify don't be discouraged if
• 1:18:44
  you have a bad day or two or shriek about days, guess what?
• 1:18:48
  That's badass day, Cults. It's going to be all the more
• 1:18:51
  special and that kind of ties in towards discussing earlier is
• 1:18:54
  moderation. You know, if you abstain from
• 1:18:59
  doing, you know, whether it be wacky tabacky or you know,
• 1:19:04
  certain positions you really love to hear listen to or your
• 1:19:07
  special beverage see, like to partake of every not going when
• 1:19:10
  you have stayed and you go back to it after were like, oh man,
• 1:19:13
  yes this is cool to Savers right, what's the next?
• 1:19:17
  It all the more meaningful and all the more you know special.
• 1:19:22
  yeah, the Man, there's so many things that I was thinking about
• 1:19:27
  when you were talking that I'm like, I'm going to come back to
• 1:19:29
  this. I want to come back to that.
• 1:19:31
  I'm gonna come back. Sort of, but she's going to get
• 1:19:37
  off this bike should talk about this, but I think like one of
• 1:19:43
  the, one of the first things that comes to mind is, is gone
• 1:19:46
  back to a little while ago, where you're talking about
• 1:19:48
  people's beliefs and who they believe in and, you know, as you
• 1:19:52
  know I'll be right there, kind of behind you to back you up
• 1:19:54
  that sort of thing. I you know I remember this,
• 1:19:59
  what's this one episode of Little House on the Prairie.
• 1:20:03
  And I shared a clip of it on my social media one time because my
• 1:20:06
  wife sent it to me, because I was going through some stuff
• 1:20:09
  with with kind of, like, my side of the family, or whatever.
• 1:20:13
  And it was a clip where, you know, Michael Landon was, was,
• 1:20:18
  was PAW, you know, and the Angels were the Little girls
• 1:20:22
  little are and whoever Ingalls Wilder.
• 1:20:24
  So the the line was like this, I forget which which of the
• 1:20:29
  daughters? It was met them.
• 1:20:30
  It may been one of the daughters was talking about the indigenous
• 1:20:33
  people of the country, all right?
• 1:20:36
  So the native indigenous folks talking about how they're,
• 1:20:40
  they're all bunch of heathens, you know?
• 1:20:43
  And, and, and Michael Landon's response was, you know, they may
• 1:20:47
  not worship God the same way we do.
• 1:20:51
  Or read the same Bible but they are all his children just the
• 1:20:55
  same. Exactly.
• 1:20:58
  And you can put that phrase over any, you can layer that phrase
• 1:21:04
  over any religious. Outlook that you have, you can
• 1:21:11
  you can look at your higher Powers, right?
• 1:21:13
  You can look at your sacred deities, whether they be the
• 1:21:17
  Norse gods, the Celtic gods, the Romans the Greeks, the
• 1:21:22
  Indo-European, the yeah whatever.
• 1:21:25
  I mean it you know a labels just a label.
• 1:21:28
  You can put that phrase over anything and the sentiment the
• 1:21:33
  spirit of that phrase. I think just still resonates.
• 1:21:35
  It's you know they may not do it the same way we do it.
• 1:21:37
  But they are all part of that creation.
• 1:21:41
  They are all part of his, you know, greater plan, whatever.
• 1:21:43
  And but you know, At the end of the day, what are we doing
• 1:21:50
  locally? What are we doing here to
• 1:21:52
  inspire communities is talk about stuff like this?
• 1:21:54
  Is that it doesn't really matter.
• 1:21:58
  We have these local meetups and and events and stuff in our area
• 1:22:02
  and I see some people commenting.
• 1:22:03
  Wow. That sounds pretty Norse.
• 1:22:06
  Are all paths, welcome and II see those things.
• 1:22:11
  Exactly of course right we would say that we would think that but
• 1:22:15
  for someone to ask that question tells me that in the past they
• 1:22:19
  have had an experience that has made them.
• 1:22:22
  Not feel. Welcome.
• 1:22:24
  Exactly. Right.
• 1:22:24
  You know, I think a lot of that might have to do with previous
• 1:22:28
  beliefs. I'm not greet.
• 1:22:30
  Ya could be previous beliefs or it could just be that they may
• 1:22:34
  be had. Association with a grouper or or
• 1:22:38
  person at one point in time that made them feel like there were
• 1:22:43
  very hard lines between what was accepted and what wasn't, you
• 1:22:48
  know, and that sorry. It's that kind of what really
• 1:22:53
  goes back into the Highland thing is it was familiar with
• 1:22:58
  the introduction of the out, the ceremonies like, you know, We
• 1:23:02
  are all Brothers all people and those words resonate with me
• 1:23:07
  very closely and I think that's what makes them very special.
• 1:23:10
  And another point of bringing up shortly after is about one of
• 1:23:12
  your things that you say in your podcast, though is just, you
• 1:23:15
  know, Modern humans and modern times, you know, we're not
• 1:23:20
  living back in the early days, you know, when vikings were real
• 1:23:25
  thing and all that, you know, sis, we're not condemning
• 1:23:29
  Christians or Catholics because of what they did or, you know,
• 1:23:34
  hangout people who had like, people who like had ancestors or
• 1:23:38
  slave owners like, does that make us slave?
• 1:23:40
  Owners know, right? Catholics and Christians, I
• 1:23:43
  condemn pagans know. If we should agree that Grudge,
• 1:23:48
  we should be all right. These are Nu times, Dux options,
• 1:23:52
  new days. We need to be a more Broad and
• 1:23:55
  accept again. Again, each person dances to the
• 1:24:00
  tune of their own special song. But for what I'm seeing is
• 1:24:03
  believing, I believe that, you know, we should all except Joe
• 1:24:07
  now. Sure, we'd all fall each other.
• 1:24:09
  That would be very confusing. Very disordered.
• 1:24:11
  Yeah. Yes, it's important like, you
• 1:24:14
  were mentioning You know. It's just the have that proper
• 1:24:20
  intentions and knowing that they're coming from a place of
• 1:24:22
  love and concern right on you may not agree with it but let
• 1:24:27
  them do their own thing. Don't crush supplement, make
• 1:24:29
  someone feel special unless it's hurting someone or yeah, causing
• 1:24:33
  some very unnecessary drama or whatever the hell, you know.
• 1:24:36
  Yes. I mean it's like, you know, look
• 1:24:38
  like yes. Are there certain things that
• 1:24:40
  are just are a certain way? Yes, and that's where a lot of
• 1:24:44
  people in this think. Especially in today's day and
• 1:24:47
  age. people get offended when Unequivocal truth is shared,
• 1:25:00
  they're like well, you know, that doesn't align with my
• 1:25:03
  personal feelings. Well it doesn't have to and it's
• 1:25:05
  not supposed to and you're nothing special to think that it
• 1:25:08
  should be. Other other than that, whether
• 1:25:29
  it's, you know, cultural or Regional or Traditions, that
• 1:25:33
  that kind of aligned with a certain practice on things like
• 1:25:36
  I'm I got a I got a comment on a video not all that long ago.
• 1:25:40
  In this this this also kind of ties into just how we can be
• 1:25:44
  inspiring to people you know, watching what we say, being
• 1:25:48
  careful of how we say it. Because people see everything
• 1:25:51
  that us as content creators and and whatnot.
• 1:25:55
  Share. You know, you're going to go
• 1:25:58
  tell me that something that I was doing on a video was was
• 1:26:02
  cultural appropriation because sweat lodges was not a Norse
• 1:26:07
  thing and right. So but yeah, I guess, but the
• 1:26:13
  point is, that, no sweat lodges actually existed in Finland.
• 1:26:20
  You know, I mean, like, there is actual evidence if you want to
• 1:26:23
  and there will be people that say that well, Finland, or Part
• 1:26:26
  of the Nordic people's, they are not Nordic people there, they're
• 1:26:31
  in, do some Indo-European, they're not they're not, you
• 1:26:35
  know, semantics at that point, I'm not going to get into them,
• 1:26:37
  not going to get into the semantics of it.
• 1:26:39
  But the point was is that they were saying this is cultural
• 1:26:43
  appropriation, because you're sweating in a you're doing a
• 1:26:46
  sweat lodge and I go number one, do you know the the tribe that
• 1:26:52
  the person who I was doing this with is affiliated with who
• 1:26:55
  their ancestors? Our number one, number two, do
• 1:26:57
  you know, the the nation, the, the indigenous nation, that that
• 1:27:01
  I am affiliated with? And do you know who my answer
• 1:27:04
  is? Our ancestors, are all of which,
• 1:27:06
  you know, the answers are. No, and no, and hell, no, you
• 1:27:10
  know, because how would they rhyme?
• 1:27:12
  But yet, they'll just, you know, people just go out there and
• 1:27:15
  just fire away at stuff and, you know, make these outrageous
• 1:27:19
  claims like, you know, you're doing all these things that it's
• 1:27:22
  cultural appropriation, well, based off of what?
• 1:27:24
  I'm not, I'm not appropriating any culture if anything.
• 1:27:26
  Living the culture that is tied to my ancestry.
• 1:27:31
  So let me be in. You find a nice hobby that makes
• 1:27:36
  you happy and quit trying to tear people down for finding the
• 1:27:41
  same for themselves. You know, actually, I only talk
• 1:27:46
  to yourself something very important, the emotion in her
• 1:27:48
  previous video, if you don't mind, be discussing his
• 1:27:51
  pressure. When you're trying to Build
• 1:27:54
  Frisch's with some family members that may not exactly
• 1:27:58
  agree with their, your life choices.
• 1:28:02
  You know, it's to guard your Hall so to speak.
• 1:28:07
  But make sure your phrase that you use the previous stream
• 1:28:10
  though is this, you know? I'm all about accepting various
• 1:28:14
  walks of life and do what you want to do.
• 1:28:17
  But there are going to be people that just want to have nothing
• 1:28:21
  to do with you. You could come in with the best
• 1:28:25
  of intentions and the pure so heart but sometimes they're just
• 1:28:32
  so people you can't reach no matter how much you love them or
• 1:28:35
  how about you want to say goodbye them, it just won't work
• 1:28:38
  out and that's okay, you know, it sucks.
• 1:28:42
  But it's important to realize that when they're trying to win
• 1:28:46
  about this, clearly not of value to be undertaken.
• 1:28:49
  This is Yes, you got to know it's like Kenny Rogers said,
• 1:28:54
  man, you gotta know when to hold them.
• 1:28:56
  Now we've got em know when to fold em, you know, and there's
• 1:29:04
  that, you know. Yeah, to your point.
• 1:29:10
  That was it that was it. That was a situation where I
• 1:29:12
  learned that this was a hand that I had to fold.
• 1:29:17
  You know, but it's also very Noble of you specifically
• 1:29:21
  mentioning to that point of view to, you know, bury the hatchet
• 1:29:25
  and some respects. And I'm not asking you to get
• 1:29:27
  too specific and to the deals that you are.
• 1:29:31
  Yeah. But you know I'm just saying
• 1:29:34
  what I heard that podcast? Yes, it really reached very
• 1:29:37
  close to home. It's like, you know, for the
• 1:29:39
  very beginning of my attack. As you know, specifically is
• 1:29:43
  like, you know, I'll be very I want to say the word scared, but
• 1:29:47
  I'm very hesitant of sharing guarded things to my timeline
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  but artists right, I'll retired, I've come to the point now.
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  But, you know what? This path has helped me
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  tremendously, mentally and spiritually, and just in every
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  aspect that I even imagined being touched and it was a, you
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  know what? My family can't handle it.
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  Sorry. Not sorry.
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  You know, I mean, I can't expect everybody to be open-minded
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  like, my father and my mother, and they're not.
• 1:30:23
  Yeah, not everybody is, that's something I'm very grateful for
• 1:30:27
  to this day, especially He flipped, but you've dealt with
• 1:30:30
  like I just thinking about my father and my mother and my
• 1:30:32
  brother just they all. Do they follow heathenism?
• 1:30:36
  Absolutely. Not will damage future.
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  Absolutely not if they did, my jaw is on the floor, but on.
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  But yeah, it's just that's the thing though is I will add to
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  reciprocate that. Also, a my Catholic know, am I
• 1:30:53
  going from the Catholic again? Probably not, you know, future
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  is a crazy thing. No one knows anything but I'm
• 1:30:59
  pretty fucking sorry, pretty great that that's not going to
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  happen but it's just that kind of feel full thing that we
• 1:31:07
  share, what some people, some may not.
• 1:31:10
  This is the have that Mutual understanding and I think that's
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  one of the beautiful things about Who we are, what we are as
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  human since I had that to be capable of that experience.
• 1:31:22
  And I feel like, right? So we could also put into
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  practice and because I am very guilty about to, you know, like
• 1:31:28
  sometimes I hear someone saying something.
• 1:31:29
  I don't agree with my chi, you're full of crap.
• 1:31:31
  I'll get the heck out of here, but then sometimes I'm like, you
• 1:31:35
  know what? This really helps that person
• 1:31:38
  that's really cool. It's taken from a different
• 1:31:40
  approach. Flip the script.
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  Like, you know what, I don't agree with that but that's
• 1:31:43
  really cool that, you know, there's fired to do.
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  Something I'd never done before you know whether it be starting
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  a business or any other thing that you could even think of no.
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  Yeah and and and that was a big that was a big thing for me.
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  It was you know just because I don't agree. and just because
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  I'm a, Be convicted and or have a conviction to think.
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  Look, I don't think what you're doing is right.
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  And I have to tell you why, I don't think what you're doing is
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  right. But do I do we do you really
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  have to tell people that into end and what the thing that I
• 1:32:22
  learned was that especially with what I was facing was, you know,
• 1:32:27
  I violated one of the very cardinal Rules.
• 1:32:32
  I don't have to, you know, not Cardinals.
• 1:32:34
  I get it, okay, it's a terminology.
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  I'm just saying, you know, it wasn't that serious but I'm
• 1:32:39
  saying, like, I violated one of the very things that I stand.
• 1:32:44
  Very staunch Ali Bhai. And that is, you know, Hearth
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  home, everyone's hearts and homes, their separate homes is
• 1:32:54
  sacred and its Sovereign, right? And it's not to be infringed
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  upon by anybody. And I did that one thing without
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  even realizing without even realizing it in the moment.
• 1:33:07
  But 2020, you know, hindsight being 20/20.
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  I realize that. Yeah, I sure shit did.
• 1:33:16
  I broke my own Rule and I confronted My Tribe about that
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  and I said, look, guys, you know, I mean, I didn't realize
• 1:33:22
  it at the time but I broke the very thing that I said, I would
• 1:33:26
  swore to You know, defend and uphold.
• 1:33:30
  And that was a moment of a harsh lesson.
• 1:33:36
  You know, to be learned and but a lesson was learned and that's
• 1:33:40
  that's what it is about. You know, that that's that's
• 1:33:45
  part of inspiration to is is being adult enough and being
• 1:33:50
  aware enough, it doesn't even necessarily maturity maturity.
• 1:33:53
  Probably does have a lot to do with that.
• 1:33:54
  I would say because there's plenty of people that are are,
• 1:33:57
  like, just bold-faced given the facts and they're like, nah, you
• 1:34:02
  know, because they're young and dumb and full of, you know what?
• 1:34:05
  Yeah, they, you know, they don't want to hear it.
• 1:34:08
  We've all been there. I mean, that's, that's, that's
• 1:34:10
  nothing new. So, yeah, there was a There's a
• 1:34:12
  level of maturity to realize not just realize it, but accept it.
• 1:34:19
  And and and realize that, hey, I'm out here talking about all
• 1:34:22
  kinds of stuff that a lot of people would agree with and when
• 1:34:26
  I mess up, when I make a mistake, I am. willing to accept
• 1:34:33
  it when I've been faced with that, you know what I mean, and
• 1:34:39
  go about the steps of making that corrective action to not
• 1:34:42
  make that the same mistake twice, you know, maybe what did
• 1:34:48
  Michael Scott say? He said fool me once shame on
• 1:34:53
  me, but fool me twice, strike three or something like that
• 1:34:58
  easily, like a dumb, I'm not superstitious but I'm a little
• 1:35:02
  stiff. People.
• 1:35:05
  I don't want people to love me to fear me.
• 1:35:08
  I want people to be afraid of how much they love me.
• 1:35:15
  But yeah. All right.
• 1:35:18
  Yeah, we just went off into the office.
• 1:35:22
  But, yeah. Hey, you know what random So
• 1:35:25
  Random. Could you give me just a few
• 1:35:28
  moments? I got to step off the camera.
• 1:35:30
  Yeah, yeah. I'm gonna, I'm a filibuster for
• 1:35:33
  those that don't realize, What filibuster means filibuster was
• 1:35:37
  a term. You can do your thing.
• 1:35:38
  I'm going to find out later because filibuster, you know,
• 1:35:42
  all those people that wanted Patrick.
• 1:35:45
  So enthralled and enthused about what filibuster means that he's
• 1:35:48
  willing to sacrifice his off-camera.
• 1:35:51
  Time to know what filibuster means will, filibuster is, is
• 1:35:56
  just filling in the Gap, so you gotta, you gotta fill in, fill
• 1:35:59
  in the gaps and do stuff that talks about.
• 1:36:05
  Anything. So for those that are willing to
• 1:36:07
  hear about a thing, this this podcast episode is being aired
• 1:36:11
  the weekend of the Feast of femoral tear here in
• 1:36:15
  Murfreesboro Tennessee. So the case in Trailhead Park
• 1:36:21
  and we're looking at some really nice weather this weekend.
• 1:36:23
  My go, the old is going to team up with Greg Strong, the
• 1:36:28
  chieftain a raven, Moon hearth And those two guys are going to
• 1:36:32
  be kind of leading this lesson about Odin.
• 1:36:35
  I'm being told that there's going to be some sort of ritual
• 1:36:38
  thing. It's a potluck sort of event.
• 1:36:40
  So the event details will be in the description and in the show
• 1:36:43
  notes of this podcast. So definitely be sure to check
• 1:36:48
  that out. If you're in the area, want to
• 1:36:49
  come down for that. That's just literally here in a
• 1:36:51
  couple of days and then the following weekend which is the
• 1:36:54
  weekend 12th, 13th and 14th. Of May is feasts of the Fallen,
• 1:37:01
  my wife and I will be there. Like I like for everybody that's
• 1:37:09
  that's you know listen and stuff up to this past week, you know
• 1:37:13
  my father just passed away and May 13th is his birth date.
• 1:37:19
  So I will be doing, you know, I will be vending doing Rune
• 1:37:24
  readings camping and partaking in ritual for feast of the fall
• 1:37:29
  and with Raven Moon Hearth on on my father's birthday.
• 1:37:33
  So, That's going to be an interesting experience.
• 1:37:39
  I I'm doing the best that I can to kind of mentally prepare for
• 1:37:44
  that, but, you know, having never gone through anything,
• 1:37:49
  quite like this to know what to expect would be.
• 1:37:53
  Would be, would be unfair to say.
• 1:37:56
  So, and here he is, here, he is, he's a man, that's the thing
• 1:38:05
  about nature, you know, the sea is always, right.
• 1:38:12
  The the forest is always right, the river is always right.
• 1:38:15
  The mountains are always right nature.
• 1:38:19
  Is always right? There's no law.
• 1:38:25
  Now, you know, talked about that a bit last week to because of
• 1:38:30
  the the inner outer Dynamic, you know. yeah, I I don't know.
• 1:38:40
  I feel I feel like so much of what we can talk about in this
• 1:38:45
  episode and when I re-watch it and when people come back and
• 1:38:49
  watch this, there's going to be things that that pop back up at
• 1:38:53
  different points in time for different people.
• 1:38:55
  You and I included that are going to further Inspire us and
• 1:39:01
  continue to hopefully Inspire others.
• 1:39:03
  You know, it's a, it's kind of one of those things where,
• 1:39:07
  again, I was looking back on memories today.
• 1:39:09
  I'm like, wow, that thing was inspiring to me or to someone,
• 1:39:13
  you know, years ago. And then I think about it, a
• 1:39:15
  random thought Pops in my head. And I look back and I say, yeah,
• 1:39:17
  that was that's a now, it's inspiring to me again.
• 1:39:23
  The kind of topic 82 touches on that continue continuity.
• 1:39:28
  Of the flame, you know, that that spark that ignites that
• 1:39:32
  illuminates. That is carried that that goes
• 1:39:36
  on and on and on. I think I have something else
• 1:39:41
  thinking I was out not say we're towards the amethyst qasimi if
• 1:39:46
  we are we are but something I'd like for everyone to do who's
• 1:39:48
  watching something to you know do At the end of this podcast,
• 1:39:55
  when the opportunity presents itself, a note, someone there
• 1:40:00
  might have been someone in your mind right now that has inspired
• 1:40:04
  you tremendously. Now, if that person is still
• 1:40:07
  alive, I say, take this opportunity to let them know
• 1:40:13
  that, you know, I think you would go a long ways.
• 1:40:17
  Now, if that person has passed, hey, you know what?
• 1:40:20
  A lot of candle Sit by the again.
• 1:40:22
  I'll make you know what? Thank you, for example, me, my
• 1:40:26
  grandmother or my, can I bar, thank you.
• 1:40:30
  I bar for being a reason to know the each day.
• 1:40:35
  Here's a blessing. Whether it be simple, as you
• 1:40:38
  know, waking up and be able to face the day.
• 1:40:43
  We're just having a companion at the time.
• 1:40:45
  Who love me for me and something else rather than food?
• 1:40:51
  And yeah, you know what cats do? But seriously though take this
• 1:40:58
  time or would like I said, well that moment presents itself to
• 1:41:02
  let them know. We're getting be a boss that his
• 1:41:05
  going through really crappy time right now.
• 1:41:07
  There's just a twit sang and he see the stress night.
• 1:41:11
  Hey, you know what? That change him in the office is
• 1:41:14
  really cool or hey, you know what, bad haircut?
• 1:41:18
  Looks pretty spiffy anything just as long It's meaningful and
• 1:41:25
  you know, carry something special I did that it really can
• 1:41:28
  go a long way because you'd be amazed what something so simple.
• 1:41:33
  As kind of gestures can do and also like we're mentioning get
• 1:41:36
  we had to give it credit to each other at this entire podcast and
• 1:41:40
  I can't be more thankful enough to have stumbled across, make
• 1:41:45
  our musings and just to have this opportunity even now.
• 1:41:50
  To be talking to all you you know well this video get like a
• 1:41:54
  thousand likes or whatever. Who knows why people hate on,
• 1:41:59
  what I appreciate what these guys were doing, you know?
• 1:42:03
  That's that's awesome. That's really cool and find it
• 1:42:06
  very special and that's also one of the many things that I love
• 1:42:10
  about these guys that I follow especially High long, you know,
• 1:42:13
  Isis. Again, creating opportunities
• 1:42:16
  meaningful experiences and meaningful friendships, who
• 1:42:19
  knows? You know you might stumble
• 1:42:20
  across a person in the comment section, I Ki approved.
• 1:42:24
  You said man this guy's right, you know, you guys have to come
• 1:42:26
  friends. Who knows?
• 1:42:28
  YouTube is an amazing platform record, while Ron that's how big
• 1:42:31
  is. That's where I had a lot of
• 1:42:34
  meaningful interactions as YouTube.
• 1:42:36
  Not so much with the what is it Spotify?
• 1:42:41
  Because they don't really have found in sections, which I like
• 1:42:43
  is I said you Barry. Caramel to a lot of Engagement
• 1:42:46
  and not because because like you know when you don't have a
• 1:42:48
  conversation here I go. Alright.
• 1:42:53
  Yeah. Well, at the end of every of at
• 1:42:57
  the end of all my episodes are in all of my episodes on
• 1:43:01
  Spotify, there's always an area for you to answer a question and
• 1:43:07
  it might be just, you know, what did you think of this podcast?
• 1:43:09
  Or it might be something a bit more specific related to the
• 1:43:13
  topics of the podcast, you know, sir for those that do.
• 1:43:17
  Actually watch and listen. Because Spotify does as a
• 1:43:20
  mention, this is a video podcast on Spotify.
• 1:43:25
  So, you know, you can always answer the question and I have,
• 1:43:29
  you know, I have all the contact information.
• 1:43:31
  You know, you guys follow me on my socials, you can DM me on
• 1:43:34
  Twitter, you can DM me on Facebook.
• 1:43:37
  I don't get instant messages on Instagram because I don't really
• 1:43:40
  keep track of that platform although you can follow me on
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  Instagram and Email midgard, musings Tian at gmail.com, you
• 1:43:51
  can call in to the podcast and leave a voicemail.
• 1:43:54
  And that number six, one, five, six, seven one. 98 32.
• 1:44:00
  And you can leave a voicemail, your voice can be heard on the
• 1:44:03
  podcast, you can remain anonymous.
• 1:44:05
  You know, that's another big thing that I'm about is a lot of
• 1:44:07
  people may want to say something and they just don't want to have
• 1:44:11
  their name or anything attached to it.
• 1:44:12
  You don't have to say who you are.
• 1:44:14
  You can just you can make up a name and your voice can be can
• 1:44:19
  be shared on the podcast. I would love to hear what
• 1:44:22
  people's thoughts are, what people's reactions are.
• 1:44:24
  I would love to just share that. I would love that to be a
• 1:44:26
  feature on the podcast where people, hey, you know, we have a
• 1:44:29
  segment member how those old like, I don't know Patrick, if
• 1:44:31
  you remember if I'm like, you know, radio shows and stuff back
• 1:44:36
  in the day. You know, they would have these
• 1:44:37
  like segments where you know, callers would call in and they
• 1:44:40
  would have voicemails or something left questions.
• 1:44:43
  And the host of the show would would answer those questions and
• 1:44:45
  stuff and that's, you know, that's what I always plug, you
• 1:44:49
  know, that's what I would love to hear.
• 1:44:50
  People have ideas topics, Just Thoughts, comments, whatever,
• 1:44:53
  you know, if you want to hear something on the podcast, you
• 1:44:55
  want to have a rap about it or have us talk about it, you know.
• 1:45:00
  Let us know who knows, maybe after, so many types of living
• 1:45:03
  an anonymous tip that you're finally built enough confidence
• 1:45:07
  to feature yourself as a person. Hey, you know what to anyone who
• 1:45:12
  is thinking, man, I do not want my voice heard or my name given
• 1:45:16
  hey, and they're done that for longest time, but I know capture
• 1:45:21
  of social anxiety. I'm like, you know what?
• 1:45:23
  This is Patrick, this is me here, my hands.
• 1:45:25
  You know what? Oh, all that know, screw it.
• 1:45:29
  Here's my yeah, I'm damn proud of it, too, because, you know
• 1:45:34
  how many of you guys get to say? Oh, here's your shoe, your job,
• 1:45:37
  then here we are. You are pretty dexterous with
• 1:45:41
  those member. We were walking along the
• 1:45:42
  greenway in those. Those those giant.
• 1:45:45
  I'll be have Edge apples. Those hedge apples hedge apples.
• 1:45:49
  People in the South know, what hedge apples are.
• 1:45:51
  Yeah, they're like the size of softballs.
• 1:45:53
  And he's over here, he's over here like freaking like George
• 1:45:57
  of the Jungle just Just chucking them with his foot and I'm
• 1:46:01
  likely this guy. I can't do that, you know, I'll
• 1:46:05
  do worry. If I drop the soap I'll just say
• 1:46:07
  that you got that part figured out that live but yeah.
• 1:46:29
  The group that Jesse will beat also linked to the high load,
• 1:46:32
  spiritual mental, health Community, but also have
• 1:46:35
  available on Facebook. And I recently just free.
• 1:46:40
  Download it Instagram. I usually use Instagram for a.
• 1:46:46
  I followed another page, completely unrelated to this,
• 1:46:48
  but it's out The Sopranos group, as Jesse knows, that I'm a very
• 1:46:52
  young sad and Scott Porter, but if you want to reach out to Me,
• 1:46:59
  I'm more than willing to talk to you and mostly any hour of the
• 1:47:03
  day, but, you know, like I do in my group.
• 1:47:06
  If you join my group with decides to join, please answer
• 1:47:10
  the questions, and it's not that hard, not a scammer.
• 1:47:20
  Again, this is a safe place that I'm providing as well as Jesse
• 1:47:23
  and anyone else do more. Give this.
• 1:47:26
  We want to make sure that you have the optimal experience.
• 1:47:29
  It's the last why we're getting creative, my group and to having
• 1:47:32
  you know, Raffles or contest. You know, it's only going to get
• 1:47:36
  better. I was talking flip-flop this all
• 1:47:38
  the time like you know what we first started this life things
• 1:47:41
  on my group. He's like you know right now
• 1:47:44
  we're just messing around but eventually it's going to grow
• 1:47:47
  and mature a lot like Jesse's channel from back in the early
• 1:47:50
  days were like you're like when you're from the first video I
• 1:47:53
  saw you have this you know, white background with like a
• 1:47:56
  staff here and like the sound was like really You know a ten
• 1:47:59
  terrible it was. Yeah, I'm super critical of
• 1:48:05
  myself, dude. Look, my ego is not so big where
• 1:48:07
  I can't say what when my own content I'm like why did anybody
• 1:48:11
  subscribe to me back then? It sounds like I'm talking to a
• 1:48:17
  sounds like I'm talking to a Dixie cup, you know, but that's
• 1:48:21
  what he know. We got the right followers,
• 1:48:22
  though, who look past all that. They're learning for.
• 1:48:26
  Yeah, that's the stage that my group is in right now.
• 1:48:29
  And that also makes me humble and appreciate you from the very
• 1:48:34
  start of what you're doing. I'm like, I even saw that too.
• 1:48:37
  When I first watched your video, He's doing his thing to note
• 1:48:42
  that the first key or how to perform a basic Heathen ritual
• 1:48:47
  opposed to that link a few times.
• 1:48:49
  But I say share away because you know, I've watched a lot
• 1:48:53
  tutorials and they getting of my journey.
• 1:48:56
  A lot of them, participatory either in Practical hard to
• 1:48:58
  follow or whatever. But just you know if you find
• 1:49:02
  someone that you could resonate with, I highly suggest that you
• 1:49:05
  follow. And yeah, anyways I guess be
• 1:49:10
  really happy to have you guys join my group and just now that,
• 1:49:13
  you know, you're more than welcome to join and you know,
• 1:49:16
  would be a very happy to have you here anyways?
• 1:49:19
  Yeah, yeah. And then that's, you know,
• 1:49:22
  that's, that's a i echo or whatever your comment there.
• 1:49:26
  Patrick is just having known you for as long as I have and
• 1:49:32
  interacted with you in person as well as over the podcast like
• 1:49:36
  this. You know, this is solid guy
• 1:49:39
  here, guys. And he's doing it.
• 1:49:42
  He's doing good stuff. And you know again you never
• 1:49:45
  know what your what Your interactions might lead to or
• 1:49:53
  Blossom into, you know, so right now it's the Facebook group, all
• 1:49:57
  that stuff's going to be linked down below or in the podcast
• 1:50:00
  show notes. So, wherever it is that you're
• 1:50:03
  listening or watching, where have all that information is
• 1:50:06
  wherever it lands. Check it out because it's going
• 1:50:08
  to be on there. And I'm sure, you know, this is
• 1:50:11
  again this is the third time now that you've been on this podcast
• 1:50:14
  and it's not the last, I think so, because the last was the
• 1:50:19
  last one was on when you were here right now.
• 1:50:22
  Correct. Yes in person.
• 1:50:23
  Yep. And then there was one before
• 1:50:26
  that and I want to say, you probably been on the channel.
• 1:50:29
  I don't like a livestream. Put forward to more than once.
• 1:50:32
  We did strictly just video chat without my picture here.
• 1:50:37
  Yeah, that was the first one. Yes.
• 1:50:39
  And then there's this one. Yeah, you know, get my nose.
• 1:50:44
  I'd have to look back on this. I'm probably going to do it out.
• 1:50:47
  The this Nick. Oh yeah.
• 1:50:52
  Do, you know, we gotta go back and edit this whole thing,
• 1:50:54
  right? Yes, that's what's.
• 1:51:00
  That's what's cool about this channel, do you know random
• 1:51:02
  healing wranglings? Like gonna be more accurate.
• 1:51:05
  If a title not a good clip on here one time, you know?
• 1:51:08
  Oh he be more than willing. Yeah, he I can't speak for him
• 1:51:12
  but I will stay for having a baby.
• 1:51:14
  He's a right guy. Also.
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  Yes he is following very closely the steps of polyps and to, as
• 1:51:20
  far as crafting, you know, I showed up Since I have the
• 1:51:23
  opportunity, I'll share with you guys.
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  This is a rattle that Cliff made me from a deer bone or dear
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  jogger. Dear Jawbone.
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  Yeah. Yeah.
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  Pretty incredible craftsmanship. The probably could see if
• 1:51:37
  there's a, the ruin algaas on there.
• 1:51:39
  Which anyone? Who knows me as a person knows
• 1:51:41
  that? That's my Rune.
• 1:51:43
  And also, again, Jesse, forgive me if I don't want sure, two
• 1:51:46
  more things. My headdress and then Papa.
• 1:51:49
  Yeah, please. So this headdress Funny story
• 1:51:55
  about this house that AR Viking Festival.
• 1:51:58
  So about this Festival. So there's one day, I knew
• 1:52:01
  they're gonna be in Festus Missouri which is like about an
• 1:52:06
  hour drive from where I'm at. And one day Depression was take
• 1:52:10
  a little hard like you know what, I don't feel like doing
• 1:52:12
  anything today and then my dad's girlfriends like hey you want
• 1:52:15
  packages is Viking Festival. Going on like yeah, but it's an
• 1:52:19
  hour drive and that doesn't it up, which goes bald if I Things
• 1:52:24
  feel that way when they're rating or do whatever they're
• 1:52:27
  doing? Yeah.
• 1:52:29
  Damn, you got me. You know, where do you want to
• 1:52:33
  go to raid? England today Mom, right?
• 1:52:36
  Yeah. Anyways.
• 1:53:04
  And then deer antlers. I mean just you know by my
• 1:53:10
  connection with dear. Yeah, I know.
• 1:53:13
  So the whole so the whole fur thing is coyote from the back
• 1:53:18
  from from the Head trip like to the down to the back, right?
• 1:53:21
  Yes. Okay.
• 1:53:23
  So coyote pelt and deer antler whitetail.
• 1:53:26
  Deer sure. Yeah.
• 1:53:27
  Yes. Which I absolutely cannot get
• 1:53:31
  over this headdress. I, yeah.
• 1:53:38
  Absolutely. Yeah, the cream.
• 1:53:47
  Yeah. All right, and the artwork on
• 1:53:53
  this drum. Yeah I'm going to actually put
• 1:53:57
  a, I'm going to put a picture up here of the drum for people to
• 1:54:01
  see because oh yeah it's a Phenom, it's a phenomenal piece
• 1:54:05
  and I'm so glad that you ended up with it because when I saw it
• 1:54:07
  I was like damn that's like a whole less story being told and
• 1:54:11
  then when I heard and when I heard you got it I was like
• 1:54:14
  that's that's what's up. So yeah this thing right here
• 1:54:18
  people that sits on the screen. Or you can go to the, the
• 1:54:23
  Highland group on Facebook where Patrick he was playing it, but
• 1:54:27
  yeah, it's beautiful. The audio may not come through.
• 1:54:36
  I said the audio may not come through, but what I'll do if
• 1:54:39
  it's all right with you is is if you can send me the video of you
• 1:54:44
  playing it like last night. Yeah I'll let it as a b because
• 1:54:50
  B clip or b-roll to this to this podcast.
• 1:54:54
  So stick around to the end people and you'll hear it so it
• 1:54:58
  does. It sounds amazing and and tell
• 1:55:00
  everybody what is it? Is that elk go?
• 1:55:02
  What? It's the scary.
• 1:55:05
  Oh, that's out skin. Elk skin drum.
• 1:55:09
  Yes, 20 inches. And it's definitely a pretty
• 1:55:14
  penny, I'm making payments because I've actually it's a
• 1:55:17
  brilliant way to purchase that because you know me.
• 1:55:20
  Do I have that much on ham? Probably not but yeah, anyone
• 1:55:23
  who's interested, I posted this in my group to assist anything
• 1:55:29
  Papa Olsen makes you can rest assured that knowing that it's
• 1:55:34
  genuine quality. With the best protect its this
• 1:55:38
  attention to detail is Paramount to what he does.
• 1:55:40
  Like again looking to The our work done on the Trump and more
• 1:55:44
  specifically. As before I purchase the drama,
• 1:55:47
  like, hey, does it come with a mallet?
• 1:55:49
  He goes well it can and he crafted this amazing Mount right
• 1:55:53
  here. Hmm.
• 1:55:55
  Which is deer bone, right? Yes.
• 1:55:57
  That's correct again. More meaningful and he made it
• 1:56:02
  in such a way that was friendly to my hand and look my, you
• 1:56:07
  know, condition, whatnot. And that just made it all the
• 1:56:10
  more special and more badass exist.
• 1:56:12
  Yeah, man. It's just I couldn't have more
• 1:56:16
  ask for more better job for a birthday gift and ended up
• 1:56:19
  falling on yesterday which I thought was cop appropriate,
• 1:56:22
  really cool, really special. So again, you know, the best of
• 1:56:26
  things happen when you least expect it.
• 1:56:28
  I can't see a damn thing. So I'm going to put these back
• 1:56:31
  on but yeah, Jesse, where'd you go?
• 1:56:35
  Yeah, you like talking away from the camera looking at the wall
• 1:56:38
  behind, you know? Yeah.
• 1:56:44
  But yeah, just those four, thank you for an awesome stream and to
• 1:56:49
  some podcast has been a great thing to be part of this
• 1:56:52
  evening. Yeah, absolutely.
• 1:56:55
  Yeah. Well we'll wrap it up real quick
• 1:56:57
  because I know it's getting late for us but yeah.
• 1:57:01
  So you know I appreciate you first of all just because again
• 1:57:06
  it was a random question. How you want to do it and you
• 1:57:08
  delivered and I appreciate that. I do.
• 1:57:11
  It was not expected. Not not, you know, you weren't
• 1:57:14
  obligated to in any way but I genuinely always appreciate when
• 1:57:19
  you can come on here and Rat with me for however long.
• 1:57:24
  So this has been a fun episode and I hope that everybody who's
• 1:57:27
  listen and watch this, you know, made it this far whether you're
• 1:57:29
  watching it all in one sitting or coming back and watching it
• 1:57:32
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• 1:57:56
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• 1:58:10
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• 1:58:20
  So I think that pretty much wraps it up hatching if you want
• 1:58:23
  just hang tight real quick while we say goodbye to the folks, all
• 1:58:26
  they do a fair for a farewell here in just a moment.
• 1:58:29
  But anything else that you want to say that the people before we
• 1:58:34
  do our official sign off? Yeah.
• 1:58:36
  One thing or two things whatever.
• 1:58:41
  People be weird and stay frosty. Be bold, be weird and stay
• 1:58:49
  frosty not necessarily in that order.
• 1:58:53
  But all of those things I can abide that.
• 1:59:00
  So in addition to that thank you all so much for tuning in and
• 1:59:04
  watching listening to this week's episode.
• 1:59:07
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• 1:59:12
  can't thank you enough for all the support that you've been
• 1:59:14
  given this channel in this podcast or over the year.
• 1:59:16
  So until We all see each other. Again, May the gods continue to
• 1:59:21
  notice you and may your ancestors smile upon you.