Latest / Billy The Kidd In The Morning / Dirty Little Secret:I Found My Kid I Gave Up For Adoption!

Transcript

Dirty Little Secret:I Found My Kid I Gave Up For Adoption! · Billy The Kidd In The Morning

• 0:01
  Speaker 1: Put it off your chest. We promise you'll feel better.
• 0:04
  Speaker 1: Welcome to Dirty Little Secret.
• 0:06
  Speaker 2: Mix 102.9. It's Bill and the Kid, Candace Lopez, producer Pooh.
• 0:10
  Speaker 2: $ 1, 000 coming up next if you want it, especially on
• 0:12
  Speaker 2: a Monday. Yeah. If you've had a morning like us,
• 0:15
  Speaker 2: you'll need this $ 1, 000. It could go towards fixing your AC.
• 0:19
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 0:19
  Speaker 2: Which is out in here. I don't know if they
• 0:20
  Speaker 2: have it fixed yet, but I will say it's down
• 0:23
  Speaker 2: to 81 because Pooh brought a fan in.
• 0:24
  Speaker 1: Thanks, Pooh.
• 0:25
  Speaker 2: Thanks, Pooh. You're welcome. What a hero. Not all heroes
• 0:28
  Speaker 2: wear capes. Nope, they don't. All right. If you've got
• 0:32
  Speaker 2: a secret, 833-787-1029. Confessing, you've got a big secret.
• 0:35
  Speaker 1: It is a big secret.
• 0:37
  Speaker 3: And I did tell my mom, but I honestly don't
• 0:40
  Speaker 3: think that I will ever tell anyone else ever again.
• 0:44
  Speaker 3: But long story short, so almost nine years.
• 0:48
  Speaker 1: Ago, I actually gave birth to a little girl. And
• 0:53
  Speaker 1: I did make a very hard decision to.
• 0:57
  Speaker 1: Give her up for adoption.
• 0:59
  Speaker 3: And yeah, it's a really long story, but yeah, it
• 1:05
  Speaker 3: was a very difficult decision and I don't really want
• 1:08
  Speaker 3: to get into that, but it was an anonymous adoption actually.
• 1:12
  Speaker 3: So it was arranged through someone that I trusted and
• 1:14
  Speaker 3: I never met the parents and.
• 1:16
  Speaker 1: That was how I wanted to do it. You know, I, I,
• 1:19
  Speaker 1: that was how I wanted to do it.
• 1:20
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 1:20
  Speaker 3: So, um, I, over the years, I have spent years
• 1:24
  Speaker 3: in therapy, uh, you know, dealing with it. And, and
• 1:28
  Speaker 3: some days I feel like I did the right thing
• 1:30
  Speaker 3: and other days, you know, it's, it, I regret it
• 1:33
  Speaker 3: almost like unbearably.
• 1:35
  Speaker 1: So, um, yeah, I, but it, I made my decision.
• 1:39
  Speaker 3: And I've lived with it and that's that, but so
• 1:41
  Speaker 3: here's where things get crazy. Um, so I've worked as
• 1:44
  Speaker 3: a nanny for several years And about six months ago,
• 1:50
  Speaker 3: someone that I knew had recommended this family to me
• 1:53
  Speaker 3: that they were looking for help with their kids, and
• 1:56
  Speaker 3: they have a son and a daughter. And I'm sure
• 1:59
  Speaker 3: you can see where this is going, but I swear
• 2:01
  Speaker 3: to you, the second that I saw the little girl, I.
• 2:05
  Speaker 1: Just almost fell to my knees.
• 2:07
  Speaker 3: I can't explain how, but I just— yeah no way
• 2:15
  Speaker 3: I'm like yes I know what she looked so much
• 2:19
  Speaker 3: like me when I was little and I don't know
• 2:23
  Speaker 3: there was a feeling that I just cannot even put
• 2:26
  Speaker 3: into words that something inside of me recognized her and.
• 2:32
  Speaker 2: It was for sure this is for sure your biological
• 2:36
  Speaker 2: daughter well.
• 2:37
  Speaker 3: So then I started you know, trying to put the
• 2:40
  Speaker 3: pieces together.
• 2:41
  Speaker 1: Right.
• 2:42
  Speaker 3: So I found out her age and she was eight
• 2:45
  Speaker 3: and just about to turn nine, which meant that the
• 2:47
  Speaker 3: dates completely matched up. And eventually through conversations with her parents, I.
• 2:53
  Speaker 1: Did find out that she was adopted. And I know,
• 2:58
  Speaker 1: I know. And it's weird. It's like crazy how the
• 3:02
  Speaker 1: universe works.
• 3:03
  Speaker 3: I mean, we don't live in a like some small
• 3:06
  Speaker 3: tiny town where everybody knows everybody. I mean, we're not
• 3:10
  Speaker 3: in like the most, the largest city ever either, but
• 3:13
  Speaker 3: what are the chances? You know, what are the chances?
• 3:17
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 3:18
  Speaker 4: Yeah.
• 3:18
  Speaker 3: And I guess my actual secret, my actual secret is,
• 3:24
  Speaker 3: so I've been taking care of my own biological daughter
• 3:28
  Speaker 3: for six months and her parents have absolutely no idea.
• 3:32
  Speaker 2: Oh, So you didn't actually, so I thought this could
• 3:37
  Speaker 2: go one of two ways. Like you said, okay, I
• 3:39
  Speaker 2: can't do this because here's why. But you didn't say
• 3:43
  Speaker 2: anything and you've never mentioned it to them once or anybody. Right. Right.
• 3:47
  Speaker 1: Well, no. Well, I told my mom.
• 3:50
  Speaker 3: And my mom at first thought I was absolutely crazy.
• 3:52
  Speaker 3: But then the more info that we got, you know,
• 3:56
  Speaker 3: the more she believes that it could be possible.
• 3:59
  Speaker 1: And I did almost tell the family in the beginning.
• 4:02
  Speaker 3: And I actually was almost going to quit because I
• 4:06
  Speaker 3: just didn't think that I could. you know, emotionally handle it.
• 4:09
  Speaker 3: But I just kept showing up. And now I can't
• 4:13
  Speaker 3: imagine not seeing her. I mean, part of me feels
• 4:16
  Speaker 3: like this is like God's way of bringing us back together.
• 4:19
  Speaker 1: And I don't know. She has an amazing life.
• 4:22
  Speaker 3: Her parents are wonderful people. And I can I'm so
• 4:26
  Speaker 3: grateful for everything that they've given her. But I would
• 4:28
  Speaker 3: be lying if I said that I wasn't jealous sometimes,
• 4:32
  Speaker 3: you know, like watching another woman be her mother and
• 4:36
  Speaker 3: hearing her call someone else mommy and.
• 4:39
  Speaker 1: It hurts, like, more than I can explain. I can't
• 4:44
  Speaker 1: even imagine. Yeah, yeah.
• 4:45
  Speaker 3: Sometimes I look at the two of us, I'm like,
• 4:47
  Speaker 3: how do other people not see that we look so
• 4:53
  Speaker 3: much alike? How are people not seeing this? And I
• 4:56
  Speaker 3: don't know, I feel like your listeners or people would
• 5:00
  Speaker 3: say that I need to tell her parents, but just
• 5:04
  Speaker 3: so they know where.
• 5:05
  Speaker 1: I'm coming from.
• 5:06
  Speaker 3: I'm terrified that the second I do that, that they
• 5:08
  Speaker 3: would fire me and I would never see her again.
• 5:10
  Speaker 1: And I don't know if I'm around long enough.
• 5:13
  Speaker 3: Maybe things would be different and maybe someday I would
• 5:16
  Speaker 3: tell them, but right now, you know, I don't plan.
• 5:18
  Speaker 1: On saying anything and maybe it's selfish.
• 5:21
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 5:21
  Speaker 1: Maybe it's selfish, but.
• 5:22
  Speaker 3: For the first time in like nine years, you know,
• 5:25
  Speaker 3: I get to be a part of my daughter's life.
• 5:27
  Speaker 1: Even if she has absolutely no idea who I really am.
• 5:30
  Speaker 2: Literally gave me the chills. I mean, because this is
• 5:34
  Speaker 2: I'm trying to think how I would react as a
• 5:36
  Speaker 2: parent if I was in the situation in their shoes,
• 5:38
  Speaker 2: because I don't know if I'd be comfortable with it.
• 5:42
  Speaker 1: Right.
• 5:42
  Speaker 2: And it's not to say anything bad about you or
• 5:45
  Speaker 2: the decision you made by any means. That's your choice,
• 5:48
  Speaker 2: your decision. there's so many, what ifs, what if, you know,
• 5:51
  Speaker 2: you get too emotionally tied and you can't let go
• 5:55
  Speaker 2: and you start to blur the lines. There's so many things.
• 5:57
  Speaker 2: I don't know. Candace is a mom. Yeah.
• 5:59
  Speaker 4: I'd be afraid that you guys would connect in a
• 6:01
  Speaker 4: way that would make her feel uncomfortable or question it,
• 6:04
  Speaker 4: or God forbid you said something. And then you, you know,
• 6:07
  Speaker 4: we couldn't have, we didn't have any words to say
• 6:09
  Speaker 4: about it at the time.
• 6:10
  Speaker 2: Right. We're not there. But I mean, I'm in putting
• 6:13
  Speaker 2: myself in your shoes. I can't imagine walking into a
• 6:15
  Speaker 2: room and you, you felt that connection instantly. You just knew.
• 6:19
  Speaker 3: Absolutely with really honestly in that second without a shadow
• 6:22
  Speaker 3: of a.
• 6:22
  Speaker 2: Doubt that is it that is such a powerful coincidence
• 6:27
  Speaker 2: yeah the positive part is at least she has an
• 6:29
  Speaker 2: amazing life yeah you know at least you yes you
• 6:33
  Speaker 2: get some kind of um closure if you needed it
• 6:36
  Speaker 2: or not but at least you see it's not a
• 6:38
  Speaker 2: situation where you're walking into the parents are awful and
• 6:40
  Speaker 2: it could be worse.
• 6:41
  Speaker 3: Yeah and i know it's a gift and it's also yeah.
• 6:45
  Speaker 2: It's crazy Well, keep us up to date. I really
• 6:49
  Speaker 2: appreciate you sharing that because I know it's pretty emotional,
• 6:51
  Speaker 2: but please let us know what happens and good luck
• 6:53
  Speaker 2: with everything.
• 6:54
  Speaker 1: I will. I will. Thanks for letting me chat it out.
• 6:58
  Speaker 2: Absolutely. I can't believe how many DMs I'm getting of
• 7:01
  Speaker 2: people saying I would never let her near my daughter. Right.
• 7:05
  Speaker 2: I don't trust her. Yeah. Which, it's not her fault
• 7:09
  Speaker 2: that this happened. I mean.
• 7:10
  Speaker 4: It's kind of sus.
• 7:12
  Speaker 2: Yes.
• 7:12
  Speaker 1: What are the odds?
• 7:13
  Speaker 2: Well, someone else said that. They're like, what are the
• 7:15
  Speaker 2: odds this is going to happen by chance? Some people
• 7:19
  Speaker 2: don't think it's by chance.
• 7:20
  Speaker 4: Right.
• 7:20
  Speaker 1: Which is terrifying.