Latest / Murder Files Unsealed / “I Ate Mom”: Man Found Guilty in Gruesome Murder and Cannibalism of His Mother
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- 0:00Speaker 1: I want you to picture just a quintessential American small town, Like,
- 0:06close your eyes for a second if you can, and
- 0:08just mentally walk down the main street.
- 0:09Speaker 2: Yeah, paint the picture for us.
- 0:10Speaker 1: Right, So we are talking about Big Lake, Minnesota. It
- 0:14is this community of about ten thousand people nestled right
- 0:18there on the Mississippi River chain. Picture lakeside homes with
- 0:21incredibly well kept lawns, family pontoon boats bobbing gently at
- 0:26the docks as the sun goes down. You know, Fourth
- 0:28of July parades with local marching bands and politicians tossing
- 0:33candy from the back of classic convertible.
- 0:35Speaker 2: The whole Americana vibe exactly.
- 0:37Speaker 1: It is the kind of place where local government doesn't
- 0:40run on like bitter, toxic partisan divides. It runs on coffee,
- 0:45donuts and consensus.
- 0:46Speaker 2: Right.
- 0:46Speaker 1: It's a place where neighbors genuinely wave hello over the fence,
- 0:49where the schools are a point of intense local pride,
- 0:52The parks are sprawling and family friendly. There's this overarching,
- 0:56almost tangible sense of safety, a protective bubble. You know,
- 1:00you know the exact kind of town I'm talking about.
- 1:01Speaker 2: Oh, absolutely, it is the exact kind of demographic and
- 1:05geographic space, people they actively seek out when they want
- 1:10to escape the chaos of the broader world. The entire
- 1:13sociological architecture of a town like Big Lake is built
- 1:16on the promise of stability. It's a place where the
- 1:19social contract is highly visible. Like you look out for
- 1:21my kids, I look out for yours.
- 1:23Speaker 1: Exactly stability, predictability. It's the promise that tomorrow will look
- 1:27pretty much exactly like today. But well, we are taking
- 1:30a deep dive today because that specific comforting bubble was
- 1:35shattered in a way that frankly defies almost all human comprehension.
- 1:39Speaker 2: It really does.
- 1:39Speaker 1: We're looking at a terrifying reality that unfolded in one
- 1:42of those quiet, picturesque lakeside homes in July of twenty twenty,
- 1:47a crime so brutal, so deeply unsettling, that it entirely
- 1:50strips away all of those comforting small town illusions and
- 1:54forces you to look at what happens behind closed doors.
- 1:57Speaker 2: Yeah, the contrast is just jarring.
- 1:59Speaker 1: It is. You're talking about an active matricide, the killing
- 2:02of a mother by her own son. But I mean,
- 2:06it wasn't just a sudden act of leadful violence. It
- 2:08escalated into something primitive dismemberment and pre mortem cannibalism.
- 2:14Speaker 2: God, those are concepts that you almost never hear strung
- 2:17together in the same sentence, let alone in the context
- 2:20of a community defined by its quiet normalcy. The juxtaposition
- 2:24between the setting, this idyllic lake town, and the sheer,
- 2:28visceral horror of the crime is incredibly jarring. It forces
- 2:31a complete cognitive dissonance, It really.
- 2:34Speaker 1: Does so today. Our mission in this deep dive is
- 2:37to guide you through the comprehensive records, the police timelines,
- 2:40the forensic evaluations, and the court filings that document this nightmare.
- 2:45But I want to be incredibly clear right up front,
- 2:47our goal here isn't just to recount a true crime
- 2:50tragedy for the sake of shock value. Treating this like
- 2:53a campfire ghost story would be doing a massive disservice
- 2:56to the victim, her family, and the community that is
- 2:59still reeling from it. Our mission is to fundamentally explore
- 3:03the extreme, terrifying limits of familial bonds when they are
- 3:07placed under the crushing weight of severe untreated psychosis. Right.
- 3:11Speaker 2: The psychological element is huge.
- 3:13Speaker 1: Here, yeah, and we want to understand the agonizing deeply
- 3:17philosophical complexities of the justice system as it tries to
- 3:21legally parse out the boundaries of human sanity. And ultimately,
- 3:25we want to look at how a community even begins
- 3:27the mechanics of healing when the absolute unthinkable happens right
- 3:31in their own backyard.
- 3:32Speaker 2: And you know, to fully grasp the gravity of this
- 3:35and why we are unpacking it right now, we need
- 3:37to firmly ground ourselves in the present timeline point, because
- 3:40today is April fourteenth, twenty twenty six. For nearly six years,
- 3:44this specific case has been a dark, suffocating cloud hanging
- 3:47over Big Lake.
- 3:48Speaker 1: Six years.
- 3:49Speaker 2: Yeah, six years. It's been a legal purgatory, delayed by
- 3:52years of agonizing medical and psychiatric evaluations. But just days ago,
- 3:56a massive legal milestone was finally reached. A guilt see
- 4:00verdict was handed down. The sheer length of time it
- 4:03took to get to this verdict, the agonizing weight for
- 4:06the family, and the horrific nature of the forensic details
- 4:09that have now been officially confirmed in court, they have
- 4:13completely reignited these fierce, complicated.
- 4:16Speaker 1: Debates, debates about accountability.
- 4:18Speaker 2: Exactly, debates about mental illness, about where we as a
- 4:22society draw the line on moral culpability and what the
- 4:25concept of justice actually looks like when a human mind
- 4:28entirely collapses in on itself.
- 4:30Speaker 1: Okay, let's unpack this, because to even begin to understand
- 4:34the sheer magnitude of this tragedy, we have to look
- 4:37past the blood stains and the shock value. We have
- 4:39to pivot sharply to the human elements. We have to
- 4:42understand the specific gravity of what was actually lost, and
- 4:45to do that well, we have to look at the stark,
- 4:47heartbreaking contrast between a vibrant public facade and a devastating
- 4:52private reality. We need to start with the life of
- 4:54the victim, Rosalie Ellen Johnson. To everyone in Big Lake,
- 4:58she was just Rose.
- 5:00Speaker 2: When you look at the trajectory of Rose's life and
- 5:02her footprint in this town, the word that consistently emerges
- 5:05is pillar. But I don't mean that in the cliche
- 5:09passive sense of someone who just donates to local charities.
- 5:13She was a structural pillar right. She was active, very active.
- 5:17She was born in an era and raised with a
- 5:19set of values that heavily emphasized hard work, direct civic duty,
- 5:23and proactive neighborly support. She was the absolute embodiment of
- 5:28that classic roll up your sleeves Minnesota ethos.
- 5:31Speaker 1: She really was. If you just look at her resume
- 5:33as civic engagement, it's exhausting in the best way possible.
- 5:37Speaker 2: Oh yeah.
- 5:37Speaker 1: In twenty eighteen, she ran in the local election for
- 5:40the Big Lake City Council. Now, she finished third in
- 5:43that race, but she didn't just pack up her signs
- 5:46and go home. She didn't let a minor electoral defeat
- 5:48stop her commitment to the town. By twenty nineteen, when
- 5:52a vacancy unexpectedly opened up on the city council, the
- 5:55town immediately looked to her and she was appointed to
- 5:57fill it.
- 5:58Speaker 2: That says a lot about her reputage.
- 6:00Speaker 1: It does, But she wasn't just sitting in a comfortable
- 6:02leather chair at a televised meeting once a month, bang
- 6:04in a gavel. She was actively in the trenches of
- 6:07local government right.
- 6:09Speaker 2: She gravitated toward the real, often unglamorous, highly technical work
- 6:14that keeps a municipality from falling apart, the invisible infrastructure
- 6:19of civilization.
- 6:20Speaker 1: Precisely, she served on the Big Lake Economic Development Authority,
- 6:24trying to bring jobs and businesses to the town. She
- 6:27was on the Personnel Committee, dealing with the human resources
- 6:30aspect of running a local government. She worked on road
- 6:33maintenance issues. I want you the listener, to think about
- 6:37that for a second. Road maintenance that is the literal
- 6:40definition of doing the groundwork for your community.
- 6:43Speaker 2: Yeah, nobody wants to deal with road maintenance exactly.
- 6:46Speaker 1: It's patholes at snowplow routes, it's drainage. It's the stuff
- 6:49no one notices until it's broken, and she was the
- 6:52one making sure it didn't break.
- 6:54Speaker 2: Wow.
- 6:54Speaker 1: She's also active in the Big Lake Community Lake Association, which,
- 6:58in a town geographically and culturally defined by its water,
- 7:01is crucial. And on top of all of that municial infrastructure,
- 7:05she served on the Big Lake School District's Community Education
- 7:08Advisory Board.
- 7:09Speaker 2: The recollections from her colleagues are incredibly revealing about her
- 7:12specific brand of leadership too. What do they say, Well,
- 7:16they didn't just respect her title. They fundamentally relied on
- 7:19her intellect. They consistently described her as brilliant. One colleague
- 7:24noted she was a voice of reason who helped weather storms.
- 7:27Speaker 1: That's a great compliment, it is.
- 7:29Speaker 2: Another council member specifically remembered her ability to bring humor
- 7:33into the room, like she could diffuse a tense, gridlocked
- 7:37meeting with a joke. But she never ever lost sight
- 7:41of tackling the serious local issues, whether that was zoning laws,
- 7:45infrastructure budgets, or advocating for youth programs.
- 7:50Speaker 1: And her focus on youth programs was a huge part
- 7:52of her identity. She worked closely with the Wave Youth
- 7:55Center in town, actively mentoring young people. She was constantly
- 7:58trying to channel community resources to help the next generation
- 8:01find their footing. A family member, speaking in the immediate,
- 8:05raw aftermath of her death, provided a quote that just
- 8:08stops you in your tracks. They said, she was the
- 8:10smartest person I ever met in my life and is
- 8:12the single person who has done the most good that
- 8:14I know.
- 8:15Speaker 2: That is a profound, incredibly heavy legacy to leave behind.
- 8:19It paints a picture of a woman who possessed an
- 8:21enormous capacity to carry the weight of others.
- 8:24Speaker 1: It does, but it also makes me think about the
- 8:26mechanics of how we perceive people like Rose. I'm thinking
- 8:29about this count of ten thousand people and how Rose
- 8:33functioned within it. Yeah, think of a sinkhole under a
- 8:36perfectly manicured, beautiful suburban lawn. On the surface, the grass
- 8:40is vibrant, green, The long word glides over it perfectly
- 8:43every Sunday. The neighbors admire it. But underneath that surface,
- 8:48out of sight, subterranean water is slowly, silently eroding the limestone.
- 8:53The structural integrity is hollowing out day by day, month
- 8:56by month, but the surface.
- 8:58Speaker 2: Holds until it doesn't.
- 9:00Speaker 1: It holds into the exact moment a cant anymore, and
- 9:02then the collapse is sudden, catastrophic and completely devastating to
- 9:06everything sitting on top of it.
- 9:07Speaker 2: Wow, that's a powerful analogy.
- 9:09Speaker 1: Rose was maintaining that perfect lawn for the entire town.
- 9:13She was holding up so much for Big Lake, projecting
- 9:16this incredible capability, all while balancing her public service with
- 9:20her home life with her husband Andrew Jordal and their
- 9:23twenty six year old son, Eric, who was living at home.
- 9:26Speaker 2: Which brings us to the profound, terrifying tragedy of this story,
- 9:30because while Rose was this incredibly visible stabilizing force for
- 9:34the entire community, while she was the one people called
- 9:37when the roads needed fixing or the youth center needed funding,
- 9:41there was a massive subcranean erosion happening in her own home. Yeah,
- 9:46that hidden erosion was the severe, escalating psychological struggle of
- 9:50her son, Eric Laife Jordal.
- 9:52Speaker 1: I want to try to map out what that struggle
- 9:54actually looked like. Yeah, what do we actually know about
- 9:57Eric's life before that night?
- 9:58Speaker 2: Well, the reality is that the public in legal footprint
- 10:00of Eric's life before the murder is incredibly constrained. We
- 10:04know the basic demographic facts he was twenty six years
- 10:07old and he lived in the basement bedroom of his
- 10:09parents' home. But the granular details of his existence, like
- 10:13his educational background, whether he was ever employed, what does
- 10:16social circle look like, or what is day to day
- 10:18routine entailed? Those details remain heavily shielded.
- 10:22Speaker 1: Why is that privacy laws?
- 10:23Speaker 2: Exactly? It's largely due to the strict federally mandated privacy
- 10:28protection surrounding mental health and medical records. But the core
- 10:32indisputable fact that forms the entire foundation of this tragedy
- 10:36is that Eric had a documented, severe, longstanding history of
- 10:40mental illness.
- 10:41Speaker 1: Okay, I have to stop here because if you're listening
- 10:43to this, you are probably screaming a question at your
- 10:45audio player right now. I know, I am, what's the
- 10:47question if Rose was this incredibly connected, resourceful, brilliant woman,
- 10:52someone who literally sat on boards to mentor youth and
- 10:55fixed complex unity problems for a living. How in the
- 10:59world did the terror struggles in her own basement go unaddressed?
- 11:03Speaker 2: Yeah, that's the big question, right.
- 11:05Speaker 1: How does a family living with a twenty six year
- 11:07old man experiencing severe, escalating mental illness not have alarms
- 11:11ringing for the whole community to hear? If she knew
- 11:15how to navigate municipal zoning, surely she knew how to
- 11:18navigate the mental health system.
- 11:19Speaker 2: You are hitting on the central, agonizing paradox of this
- 11:23entire case. It is the question that haunts every community
- 11:26when something like this happens. Right, But the reality of
- 11:30severe mental illness, particularly within tight knit, idyllic communities, is
- 11:35incredibly complex. Public vibrancy can and very often does, serve
- 11:40as a brilliant mask for intense private.
- 11:42Speaker 1: Battles because of the stigma.
- 11:43Speaker 2: Exactly you have to put yourself on the psychological shoes
- 11:47of a parent in that situation. First, there is the profound,
- 11:50lingering stigma of severe psychiatric disorders, even in a modern society.
- 11:55Admitting that your adult child's mind is fracturing, is terrifying.
- 11:59Speaker 1: Yeah, I can't even imagine.
- 12:00Speaker 2: Families often try to manage these crises entirely internally. They
- 12:04want to protect their loved one's privacy and dignity. They
- 12:07might firmly believe that with enough parental love, enough hypervigilance,
- 12:10or quiet private medical consultations, they can keep the situation managed.
- 12:15Speaker 1: They act as the shock absorbers for the illness. They
- 12:20try to contain the blast radius within the walls of
- 12:22their own home.
- 12:23Speaker 2: Precisely, they become the containment vessel. And there is a
- 12:27crucial systemic point to understand here. There was no public
- 12:31warning sign none at all. No, there is no evidence
- 12:34in the public records suggesting Eric had any prior criminal history.
- 12:38No assaults, no erratic public behavior that resulted in police calls.
- 12:42Speaker 1: Wow.
- 12:42Speaker 2: There was no documented substance abuse, no meth or fentanyl
- 12:46arrests that might have served as an obvious red flag
- 12:48to law enforcement or neighbors that a crisis was brewing.
- 12:52The focus has remained entirely on his long standing internal
- 12:55psychiatric struggle.
- 12:56Speaker 1: It means the system has no mechanism to intervene.
- 12:58Speaker 2: Exactly when you have an adult child living at home
- 13:01experiencing untreated, recurrent, or escalating mental illness. The family is
- 13:05incredibly isolated. If the individual is over eighteen, parents have
- 13:09very little legal leverage to force medication or hospitalization unless
- 13:13there is an imminent, demonstrable threat of violence, so their
- 13:17hands are tied pretty much. Without a precipitating criminal event
- 13:20or a public breakdown, the state doesn't intervene. The community
- 13:24remains completely unaware. The parents are left to try and
- 13:27hold the earth together above that growing sinkhole until the
- 13:30pressure finally catastrophically fractures the facade, and.
- 13:34Speaker 1: That fracture it brings us to the night of July
- 13:38twenty second into the early morning hours of July twenty third,
- 13:41twenty twenty.
- 13:42Speaker 2: Yeah, this is the turning point.
- 13:44Speaker 1: This is the moment with the tension between Eric's hidden
- 13:47escalating psychiatric illness and Roses stabilizing maternal presence ineviably and
- 13:52violently snapped. The court documents, specifically the judge's meticulous seventeen
- 13:57page verdict filing, provide a harrowing, minute by minute reconstruction
- 14:01of this attack. And I need to pause here and
- 14:03warn you the listener, that the sequence of events we
- 14:06are about to explore is deeply disturbing, very much so.
- 14:09It is gruesome, but it is absolutely essential to understanding
- 14:13the legal and psychological gravity of what the court had
- 14:16to evaluate. We cannot understand the six year legal battle
- 14:20without understanding exactly what happened in that basement.
- 14:23Speaker 2: The details are agonizing, yes, but it's vital to view
- 14:26this not as a piece of sensationalized horror, but as
- 14:30a forensic roadmap. We are looking at a calculated descent,
- 14:34a timeline of cognitive collapse that we must look at
- 14:38clearly to understand the profound questions of sanity and culpability
- 14:42that the judge ultimately had to weigh.
- 14:44Speaker 1: So let's walk through that timeline. Let's look at the escalation. Okay,
- 14:47Late at night, Rose is sleeping in her bedroom, which
- 14:50is located down in the basement of the house. Eric,
- 14:53whose bedroom is also in the basement, enters her room.
- 14:56Rose wakes up. She sees her twenty six year old
- 14:58son standing there in the dark, and she says something
- 15:01so incredibly mundane, so universally typically motherly. She doesn't scream,
- 15:05she doesn't panic. She simply tells him to go back
- 15:07to bed.
- 15:08Speaker 2: It's a simple protective boundary setting command. It is the
- 15:13exact phrase a mother uses to sue the toddler who
- 15:16has woken up from a nightmare, or to dismiss a
- 15:19teenager who is staying up too late. It is rooted
- 15:21entirely in normalcy.
- 15:23Speaker 1: But in this specific moment, to a mind that is
- 15:26actively fracturing, that simple mundane phrase triggers an absolute, frenzied
- 15:32explosion of violence. Yeah, Eric doesn't just argue back. He
- 15:35physically rrupts. He begins punching his mother repeatedly in the head,
- 15:39in the face. He grabs a fan that is sitting
- 15:42right there in the room and uses it as a
- 15:44blunt force weapon, striking her with it. Wow, he even
- 15:47bites her. The assault is incredibly personal, It is frenzied, chaotic,
- 15:51and it is entirely focused on her head and upper body.
- 15:54Speaker 2: And this exact moment, the end of this initial flurry
- 15:57of violence, is where the timeline of the night becomes
- 15:59the app most legally crucial element of the entire six
- 16:03year case. So because if you think about criminal law,
- 16:05if the attack had ended right there, or if that frantic,
- 16:08chaotic beating had resulted in her death in that immediate moment,
- 16:11the legal system would be looking at a completely different scenario.
- 16:14We would likely be looking at a heat of passion
- 16:16defense or a second degree murder charge, characterizing it as
- 16:21a spontaneous eruption of rage where the rational mind was
- 16:24temporarily bypassed.
- 16:25Speaker 1: But Eric is not satisfied the explosion of rage doesn't
- 16:29exhaust him. He stops the physical assault. He leaves his
- 16:33mother bleeding in the basement. He turns around, walks out
- 16:37of the room, and he walks all the way upstairs
- 16:39to the main level of the house.
- 16:41Speaker 2: This is the critical pause.
- 16:42Speaker 1: Right he goes into the kitchen, he actively searches for
- 16:46and retries a large butcher knife, and then, armed with
- 16:50that knife, he walks all the way back down the
- 16:52stairs to the basement, returning to the bedroom with the
- 16:55explicit conscious intent to kill his mother.
- 16:58Speaker 2: What you just describe is the exact legal fulcrum of
- 17:01the prosecution's case.
- 17:03Speaker 1: It's horrifying. It is the physical manifestation of crossing a
- 17:06psychological point of no return exactly. Think about the mechanics
- 17:10of what you just described. Is the difference between a sudden,
- 17:12blind explosion of uncontainable animalistic rage and a conscious deliberate
- 17:17choice to escalate to lethal violence. Walking up a flight
- 17:20of stairs in the dark, navigating a kitchen, opening a
- 17:24drawer or a knife block, selecting a butcher knife over
- 17:27a butter knife, gripping the handle, walking back to the
- 17:31top of the stairs, descending those stairs step by step,
- 17:34listening to the sounds of his injured mother below.
- 17:37Speaker 2: It's chilling.
- 17:38Speaker 1: It is That entire sequence takes time, It takes physical coordination,
- 17:42and most importantly, it takes swt. No matter how deeply distorted, sick,
- 17:47or delusionally driven that thought might be, the brain is
- 17:50actively engaged in a sequential process of planning and execution.
- 17:54Speaker 2: You have articulated the precise legal mechanism of premeditation. Okay,
- 17:58the law does not require pre medication to involve weeks
- 18:01of careful planning. With blueprints and alibis. Premeditation can be
- 18:04formed in minutes, sometimes even seconds, if there is a
- 18:07distinct period where the attacker has the opportunity to reflect
- 18:10on the choice to kill and then proceeds anyway.
- 18:12Speaker 1: And walking upstairs provides that.
- 18:14Speaker 2: Opportunity exactly the judge's seventeen page verdict filing zeros in
- 18:19heavily on this specific walk up and down the stairs.
- 18:21The violence was not instantaneous, it was prolonged by a pause.
- 18:25It was deliberate. Furthermore, Eric even admitted to police and
- 18:28subsequent interviews that he had consciously planned the fatal elements
- 18:32in that moment, and that he had actually harbored fleeting
- 18:35thoughts of harming his mother previously, though obviously never escalating
- 18:39to this degree.
- 18:40Speaker 1: But the premeditation, the cold calculation of retrieving the knife
- 18:44is really only the first layer of the horror.
- 18:46Speaker 2: Yeah, it gets worse.
- 18:47Speaker 1: Because the medical examiner's findings detail what happened when he
- 18:50returned to that basement bedroom, and it documents a descent
- 18:54into complete, unfathomable depravity. Right armed with the butcher knife,
- 18:58Eric stabbed his mother multiple times. But it didn't end
- 19:02with the physical act of ending her life. The violence
- 19:05escalated into severe mutilation. He skelped her, he completely severed
- 19:10her jaw from her face, and then the medical examiner
- 19:14confirmed the most chilling detail of all, he engaged in
- 19:17pre mortem cannibalism. He began cutting up and actively consuming
- 19:20parts of her body, including her brain, while she was
- 19:23still alone.
- 19:23Speaker 2: What's fascinating here is and I want to be very
- 19:25clear that I am using the word fascinating purely in
- 19:28a clinical, forensic, and sociological sense.
- 19:32Speaker 1: Right of course, when you look at the intersection of
- 19:34matricide and cannibalism, you are looking at an event that
- 19:37is statistically almost non existent in.
- 19:40Speaker 2: Human behavior, almost non existent.
- 19:42Speaker 1: Yes, matricide on its own accounts for a tiny, tiny
- 19:45fraction of all homicides globally. It is an incredibly rare crime.
- 19:49But when you introduce the element of cannibalism, the case
- 19:53completely leaves the realm of standard criminal pathology like anger, greed,
- 19:58or even typical sociationopathy and enters a highly specific, very
- 20:03narrow area studied intensely by forensic psychiatrists and evolutionary biologists.
- 20:09Speaker 2: I am trying to wrap my mind around this. What
- 20:11are those forensic psychiatrists actually looking for in a case
- 20:14like this? What possible mechanism in the human brain drives
- 20:18a biological organism to consume the very entity they gave
- 20:21birth to it. If I'm looking at this from a
- 20:22layman's perspective, I read a phrase like delusions of incorporation,
- 20:26which comes up in this field, and my initial thought
- 20:28is it sounds almost like a literal, terrifying interpretation of
- 20:32you are what you eat, Like.
- 20:34Speaker 1: His broken mind actually believed he could absorb her power
- 20:38or her authority by physically consuming her. Is that clinically
- 20:42what is happening in a shattered mind?
- 20:44Speaker 2: You are incredibly close to the clinical reality and it's
- 20:47a terrifying mechanism to explore. Forensic psychiatrists looking at a
- 20:52scene like this are searching for clues about the absolute
- 20:56deepest extremes of human cognitive collapse. They're looking for evidence
- 21:00of extreme dissociation, severe long term, untreated schizophrenia, or sometimes
- 21:06substance induced psychosis that completely breaks the brain's connection to reality.
- 21:10Speaker 1: But no substance abuse here.
- 21:12Speaker 2: Right, But remember in Eric's case, there is no public
- 21:15evidence of substance abuse. The drugs weren't doing this. So
- 21:18the clinical focus lands squarely on a profound organic psychotic
- 21:22break and nailed the terminology. In farensic psychology, this incredibly rare,
- 21:27specific type of behavior is often tied to what are
- 21:30termed delusions of incorporation.
- 21:32Speaker 1: Let's really dig into that. Delusions of incorporation, How does
- 21:35that actually work mechanically in the brain.
- 21:37Speaker 2: It is a profound, horrifying psychological drive that occurs when
- 21:42the ego, the part of the mind that separates self
- 21:45from other, completely dissolves. Wow, the individual begins to believe
- 21:50with absolute, unshakable certainty that by literally physically consuming the
- 21:56flesh of another person, they can achieve a psychological goal.
- 22:00Often they target someone they perceive as a profound existential threat,
- 22:05or conversely, they target a source of ultimate power.
- 22:08Speaker 1: And control, So it's about control or neutralization exactly.
- 22:12Speaker 2: The delusion tells them that by eating the victim, they
- 22:14can either become that person, absorb their essence and authority,
- 22:19or completely fundamentally, on a cellular level, eradicate the threat
- 22:23they believe that person poses. That is so dark It
- 22:26is not an act of hunger. It is a literal,
- 22:28physical manifestation of a completely shattered psyche trying to forcefully
- 22:33resolve a terrifying internal conflict that they can no longer
- 22:36manage through rational thought.
- 22:37Speaker 1: So if we apply that to the basement bedroom, in
- 22:40his completely fractured mind, she was no longer just his mother,
- 22:43rose standing in her pajamas telling him to go to sleep.
- 22:45His psychosis had completely overwritten her identity. She had become
- 22:49an entity, a symbol, of authority, or perhaps a perceived
- 22:52demonic threat that had to be entirely physically consumed in
- 22:56order to be neutralized.
- 22:57Speaker 2: Exactly the delusions or reality so severely, so completely that
- 23:03the fundamental evolutionary biological instinct to protect one's mother, the
- 23:08instinct that is hardwired into almost every mammal on earth,
- 23:12is entirely overwritten.
- 23:13Speaker 1: It's just gone.
- 23:14Speaker 2: Yes, it is replaced by this primal, deeply sick, fabricated
- 23:18drive to consume and eradicate. The brain's wiring completely misfires,
- 23:23turning the protector into the predator.
- 23:25Speaker 1: The violence in that basement finally ends, but the horror,
- 23:29the impact of that cognitive collapse, it doesn't end. It
- 23:32just expands outwards.
- 23:33Speaker 2: Yeah, the ripple effect begins immediately.
- 23:35Speaker 1: It waits in the quiet of the house until the
- 23:36outside world finally pierces the bubble of that crime scene.
- 23:39And the very first person to pierce that bubble, the
- 23:41person who has to absorb the immediate shockwave of this reality,
- 23:44is Eric's father, Rose's husband, Andrew Jordal.
- 23:47Speaker 2: It is genuinely impossible to overstate the profound, life altering
- 23:52trauma of what Andrew Jordan walked into that morning. The
- 23:55psychological toll of that moment is unfathomable.
- 23:59Speaker 1: I cannot begin to fathom it. Let's look at the
- 24:01timeline of the discovery. It's around nine am on the
- 24:04morning of July twenty third. Okay, the sun is up,
- 24:07the town of Big Lake is starting its day. Andrew
- 24:10Jordal comes home. The public records mentioned he was returning
- 24:13from a night shift or an early morning workshift. He
- 24:16pulls his vehicle up to his own house, his safe haven.
- 24:19He hits the button to open the garage door, and
- 24:21as that door slowly rises, he is greeted by a
- 24:24sight that no human being, let alone a father, should
- 24:28ever have to process. Oh man, his son Eric is
- 24:32standing right there in the garage. And Eric is completely
- 24:34covered in blood. And he's not just standing still, He's
- 24:37highly agitated. He is jumping around, waving his arms erradically
- 24:41in the air.
- 24:41Speaker 2: And the most chilling part is that Eric doesn't attempt
- 24:44to hide what he's done. He doesn't try to flee.
- 24:46He immediately issues an explicit, terrifyingly coherent confession to his father.
- 24:51The moment the garage door.
- 24:52Speaker 1: Opens, what does he say?
- 24:54Speaker 2: He pleads with his father, saying don't kill me. And
- 24:57then he delivers a line that defines the entire psychological
- 25:01landscape of this case. I'm a cannibal. The devil exists.
- 25:04It's in me an I eate mom.
- 25:06Speaker 1: The devil exists. It's in me an I eate mom. Yeah,
- 25:10think about hearing those words from your own child. Eric
- 25:14is explicitly framing his actions through the lens of possession.
- 25:18He is handing his father the narrative of demonic control
- 25:21right there in.
- 25:22Speaker 2: The driveway, and that specific phrasing is deeply clinically significant.
- 25:26So references to the devil, to demons, or to spiritual
- 25:30possession align perfectly with the religious or demonic delusions that
- 25:33are incredibly common symptoms in cases of severe untreated schizophrenia
- 25:38or schizoepfhective disorder.
- 25:40Speaker 1: Oh wow.
- 25:40Speaker 2: When the brain begins to generate terrifying auditory or visual hallucinations,
- 25:45when it starts giving the individual commands to commit violence,
- 25:48the conscious mind desperately tries to find an explanation for
- 25:51what is happening. It's looking for a reason exactly. The
- 25:54psychosis often latches onto deeply ingrained cultural or religious touchstones
- 26:00like angels, demons, or the devil. To explain the terrifying
- 26:04internal reality the person is experiencing, they blame an external
- 26:08supernatural force because the reality of their own brain betraying
- 26:13them is too abstract a process.
- 26:16Speaker 1: Andrew, trying to process this impossible, nightmarish statement, leads his
- 26:20son in the garage and rushes inside the house to
- 26:22find his wife. Yeah, and the scene he walks into, well,
- 26:25the police record is detail that almost immediately upon entering,
- 26:29right there, sitting on the kitchen counter is a human jaw,
- 26:32his wife severed jaw resting on the counter of their
- 26:35family kitchen.
- 26:36Speaker 2: It is the absolute worst nightmare imaginable, brought to vivid
- 26:39physical life in a space associated with family meals and
- 26:42domestic comfort.
- 26:43Speaker 1: It's beyond comprehension, it is.
- 26:45Speaker 2: But despite the overwhelming shock, Andrew somehow maintains enough presence
- 26:48of mind, enough adrenaline fueled focus to back out, instruct
- 26:52his son to lie down on the ground in the garage,
- 26:54and he calls nine to one one.
- 26:55Speaker 1: The Sherburn County Sheriff's Office deputies receive the call and
- 26:58arrive at the home in quickly. They find Eric still
- 27:02in the garage. They take him into custody without further incident.
- 27:05Speaker 2: Okay.
- 27:06Speaker 1: The initial police reports are incredibly detailed about Eric's physical state.
- 27:11They note that his clothing is completely saturated with blood, hair,
- 27:15and human tissue. A bloody butcher knife, completely matted with hair,
- 27:19is lying nearby in the garage. And then the officers
- 27:23have to do their job. They have to clear the
- 27:25house to ensure there are no other victims or threats.
- 27:28They have to walk through what the responding officers described
- 27:31as a crime scene of unimaginable gore.
- 27:34Speaker 2: The physical footprint of the violence was extensive. It wasn't
- 27:37contained to just one room.
- 27:39Speaker 1: Not at all. The officers track the chaos through the
- 27:42entire house. There is physical brain matter tracked through the hallways.
- 27:45On the main floor, Oh my god, there are bloody
- 27:47footprints criss crossing the hardwood. There are drag marks. Disturbingly,
- 27:53body parts are distributed across different areas, some on the
- 27:56kitchen table, some on the counter where Andrew found the jaw.
- 27:58Speaker 2: It's a complete house of horrors.
- 28:00Speaker 1: It really is. Finally, the officers navigate down the stairs
- 28:03to the basement bedroom and they find Rose's body. The
- 28:07scene is horrific. Her body is there, and her scalp
- 28:09is resting against a wall nearby.
- 28:11Speaker 2: The level of physical destruction inflicted on her body was
- 28:14so absolute, so complete, and frenzied that when the Midwest
- 28:18Medical Examiner's Office arrived to take custody of the remains,
- 28:21they couldn't even identify her visually.
- 28:23Speaker 1: Wait, really, not even visually.
- 28:25Speaker 2: No, let that sink in. They had to rely on
- 28:28dental records just to positively confirm the identity of this
- 28:31woman who just twenty four hours before was a beloved,
- 28:35highly recognizable, photographed community leader. That is just it's unbelievable.
- 28:41Speaker 1: That forensic detail alone speaks volumes about the sheer intensity,
- 28:45the primal frenzy, and the duration of the attack. It
- 28:47was an absolute obliteration of identity.
- 28:50Speaker 2: The physical crime, the actual act of kinetic violence, ends
- 28:53on that morning of July twenty three, twenty twenty. But
- 28:56the legal attempt, the psychiatric attempt, and really the broader
- 28:59societal attempt to process what happened that takes nearly six
- 29:03grueling years.
- 29:04Speaker 1: Yeah, a very long road. That timeline takes us right
- 29:07up to the present day, to April twenty twenty six.
- 29:10This brings us out of the basement and into the courtroom.
- 29:13We have to look at the mechanics of the justice
- 29:15system and the incredibly complex, often agonizing, intensely philosophical process
- 29:20of parsing out competency versus culpability.
- 29:24Speaker 2: And it's crucial to understand that those six years were
- 29:27not just empty bureaucratic delays or continuances. They were filled
- 29:32with intense, constantly shifting medical and legal maneuvering. Okay, Immediately
- 29:37following his arrest in July twenty twenty, the legal system
- 29:40collided head on with Eric's shattered mental state. By twenty
- 29:44twenty one, the court, relying on psychiatric evaluations, officially ruled
- 29:48that Eric was legally incompetent to stand trial.
- 29:51Speaker 1: Let's clarify that specific terminology for the listener, because people
- 29:54hear the word incompetent on the news and they very
- 29:57often confuse it with being found insane at the time
- 29:59of crime.
- 30:00Speaker 2: Yes, very common misconception.
- 30:02Speaker 1: Those are two vastly different legal concepts. YEA, if you're
- 30:04eating someone's brain, aren't you by definition insaying why is
- 30:08the court arguing about competency? First?
- 30:10Speaker 2: That is a vital distinction, and it's where a lot
- 30:13of public frustration with the legal system stemes from competency
- 30:16to stand. Trial is entirely forward looking.
- 30:19Speaker 1: Forward looking, yes, it only looks.
- 30:21Speaker 2: At the defendant's mental state in the present moment, as
- 30:23they sit in the courtroom. It asks two basic constitutional questions.
- 30:28Can this person understand the charges currently being brought against them?
- 30:32And can this person actively rationally assist their defense attorney
- 30:36in preparing a case right now?
- 30:38Speaker 1: Okay, that makes sense.
- 30:39Speaker 2: In twenty twenty one, Eric psychosis was still so profound,
- 30:42his mind was so deeply unwell, that the court looked
- 30:44at him and said, no, he cannot. He does not
- 30:47understand reality enough to participate in his own defense. Oh,
- 30:50they can't try him exactly. Therefore, under the US Constitution,
- 30:54you cannot legally put him on trial. He was indefinitely
- 30:58committed to the Minnesota Security Hospital, which is now operating
- 31:01under the name Forensic Mental Health Program down in Saint Peter.
- 31:04He was held securely under the specific legal designation of
- 31:08being mentally ill and dangerous.
- 31:10Speaker 1: So the gears of the justice system just grind to
- 31:13an absolute halt. The trial literally cannot happen until a
- 31:16doctor signs a piece of paper deeming him competent. Right,
- 31:20and the prosecutors, the judge, and most agonizingly, Rose's family
- 31:24just have to wait.
- 31:25Speaker 2: Yes, they had to wait for years of intense specialized
- 31:29psychiatric treatment. This involves massive regimens of antipsychotic medications, continuous
- 31:36behavioral observation, and essentially trying to artificially reconstruct his connection
- 31:41to reality.
- 31:41Speaker 1: Wow.
- 31:42Speaker 2: It is a slow, deeply uncertain process. It wasn't until
- 31:46extensive evaluations conducted in twenty twenty three and twenty twenty
- 31:49four that medical professionals finally determined that the medication and
- 31:52treatment had stabilized him enough that his competency had been
- 31:56restored to a baseline level where he could finally understand
- 31:59a courtroom proscus.
- 32:00Speaker 1: Okay, here's where it gets really interesting, and I mean
- 32:02philosophically legally fascinak. We finally get to the actual trial
- 32:06in January twenty twenty six. Yeah, Eric, now deemed competent,
- 32:10waives his right to a jury trial. This means he
- 32:13opts for a bench trial where a single individual judge,
- 32:15Karen Schalmer, will hear all the evidence and alone decide
- 32:18his ultimate fate. But it is not a normal, straightforward trial.
- 32:24His defense attorney officially files a notice for a mental
- 32:27illness defense, and in Minnesota, filing that specific defense triggers
- 32:31a highly unique procedural mechanism.
- 32:34Speaker 2: A bifurcated trial.
- 32:35Speaker 1: Yes, the bifurcated system is a highly specialized legal structure.
- 32:40A bifurcated trial literally means the trial is surgically split
- 32:43into two entirely distinct phases handles. Sequentially, Phase one focuses
- 32:48entirely exclusively on factual guilt. Did you, the defendant, commit
- 32:53the physical acts you were accused of? It ignores the.
- 32:55Speaker 2: Why so just the physical actions exactly.
- 32:58Speaker 1: Then Phase two, which only happens if guilt is established
- 33:01in Phase one, focuses entirely on the mental state at
- 33:04the exact moment of the crime. Were you legally saying
- 33:07when you committed those acts?
- 33:08Speaker 2: I have to push back on this concept because from
- 33:10a layman's perspective, trying to look at this logically, I
- 33:12asked myself, why artificially split it up? It's a fair question.
- 33:16Speaker 1: Doesn't severing the physical act of murder from the mental
- 33:20state of the murderer artificially separate two things that happened
- 33:24at the exact same precise millisecond in time.
- 33:27Speaker 2: Wow.
- 33:28Speaker 1: I try to imagine a judge sitting there during Phase one.
- 33:31How can a judge look at the forensic evidence that
- 33:33a man scalped his mother and ate her brain and
- 33:36just check a box that says, yes, he did the
- 33:38physical act without simultaneously acknowledging that his mind must have
- 33:42been completely irreparably broken to do it. It feels like
- 33:46asking someone to describe the wetness of water without mentioning
- 33:50the liquid.
- 33:51Speaker 2: It is a profound philosophical tension, and your pushback highlights
- 33:54exactly why the bifurcated system is so controversial among legal scholars.
- 33:58It feels unnatural, right, but the system is designed this
- 34:01way to address two completely different and sometimes fiercely competing
- 34:04societal needs. Phase one exists because society and the law
- 34:09demands a factual, indisputable accounting of reality. Okay, I see,
- 34:13we need a definitive legal record of what happened, who died,
- 34:17and whose hands caused it. During Phase one of Eric's trial,
- 34:21the prosecution presented an overwhelming mountain of physical evidence. They
- 34:25presented Eric's immediate confessions in the garage, the horrific forensic traces,
- 34:30the bloody footprints, the DNA and the premeditation, And crucially, yes,
- 34:35they presented the timeline the fact that he paused, walked upstairs,
- 34:38and retrieved the knife, which legally proves the physical act
- 34:42of premeditation. The defense attorney didn't even attempt to contest
- 34:45these physical acts. It was undeniable. So the court establishes,
- 34:49beyond the reasonable doubt, the cold hard physical reality of
- 34:52the crime.
- 34:53Speaker 1: Right. Phase one is strictly about establishing the what and
- 34:56the who. It locks in the timeline.
- 34:58Speaker 2: Exactly, it creates the factual bedrock. But then Phase two
- 35:01exists to address the much more complex, messy moral argument
- 35:05of the justice system. Yes, the law, historically, going back
- 35:09centuries in common law, requires not just a guilty act
- 35:13the actus rieus, but a guilty mind the mens rehea.
- 35:17If true, profound organic insanity completely erased a person's cognitive
- 35:21ability to understand the nature of their act or to
- 35:24understand that what they were doing was morally or legally wrong.
- 35:27The system argues that holding them morally culpable is wrong. Okay,
- 35:31punishing them as a malicious criminal rather than treating them
- 35:34as a deeply sick patient is viewed as fundamentally unjust.
- 35:38The bifurcated system tries to cleanly separate these two arguments.
- 35:42It tries to balance the community's visceral need for factual
- 35:45accountability with the legal and moral requirement to assess true
- 35:49cognitive culpability.
- 35:50Speaker 1: And that separation brings us to the breaking news element
- 35:52of this deep dive. Just days ago, or on April
- 35:55ninth or tenth of twenty twenty six, Judge Chummer delivered
- 35:58her verdict for Phase one. She did he looked at
- 36:00all the evidence of the physical act, and she found
- 36:03Eric Laife Jordal guilty of first degree premeditated murder in
- 36:07the state of Minnesota. That specific charge carries an automatic
- 36:10mandatory sentence of life in prison without the possibility of parole.
- 36:15She also found him guilty of two counts of second
- 36:17degree murder.
- 36:18Speaker 2: But the story and the legal jeopardy does not end
- 36:21with that guilty verdict on paper, because, as the legal
- 36:25documents dictate, Phase two, the mental illness defense phase began
- 36:29almost immediately after, around April thirteenth, twenty twenty six. This
- 36:33is the phase that is actively happening right now as
- 36:35we speak, Wow, right now, right now, and the stakes
- 36:38Phase two couldn't possibly be higher, the entire trajectory of
- 36:42his life hinges on it. If the defense is successful
- 36:45improving legal insanity during phase two, Eric will not go
- 36:48to prison.
- 36:49Speaker 1: Where does he go.
- 36:50Speaker 2: He will likely be confined indefinitely to a highly secure
- 36:53state psychiatric facility where the focus is containment and treatment,
- 36:57not penal punishment. But if the defense fails to meet
- 36:59the legal standard for insanity, that phase one verdict.
- 37:03Speaker 1: Locks in and he goes to prison.
- 37:05Speaker 2: He goes to a maximum security state prison for the
- 37:08rest of his natural life, with absolutely no chance of pearl.
- 37:12Speaker 1: While the courts in the county seat are dealing with
- 37:14the clinical mechanics of Eric's ultimate fate, we have to
- 37:17pull our focus back to the town of Big Lake.
- 37:19Speaker 2: Yes, definitely, Because a.
- 37:21Speaker 1: Guilty verdict printed on a piece of legal paper or
- 37:23a psychiatric commitment order doesn't somehow magically erase the void
- 37:28that was left by Rose Johnson. A community of ten
- 37:31thousand people is left to grapple with an emptiness, a
- 37:34profound absence that is incredibly hard to quantify or repair.
- 37:38Speaker 2: The sociological ripple effect of a crime of this magnitude,
- 37:42particularly in a small, interconnected town, is seismic it shatters
- 37:46the foundational trust. Yeah, But the public record details how
- 37:49just a few months after the murder, in the Crisp
- 37:52autumn of October twenty twenty, the community made a concerted
- 37:55effort to create a physical, tangible space to process their
- 37:58collective grief. Friends, family, and colleagues gathered to dedicate a
- 38:02memorial bench to Rose at Lakeside Park, right on the
- 38:05water she loved.
- 38:06Speaker 1: And the quotes from that dedication ceremony are so poignant
- 38:09they really highlight how the town was trying to heal.
- 38:13But Tina Potter, a close personal friend of Ros's, spoke
- 38:16at the dedication and actively encouraged people to use the
- 38:19bench to just sit, to look at the lake and.
- 38:22Speaker 2: To reflect that's beautiful it is.
- 38:24Speaker 1: Councilman Scott Zereval, who had worked alongside her in those
- 38:27crunches of local government, called it the perfect memorial, a
- 38:30place for conversation, reflection and relaxation.
- 38:34Speaker 2: What you were seeing in that dedication ceremony is a
- 38:36community deeply guided by victim advocates and her closest friends
- 38:41actively trying to construct a psychological counter narrative.
- 38:44Speaker 1: Counter narrative.
- 38:45Speaker 2: Yes, they are fiercely determined to emphasize Rose's life of service,
- 38:49her humor, her intellect, and her brilliance over the horrific, gory,
- 38:53sensationalized matter of her death right. They are essentially planting
- 38:57a flag in the ground, trying to assert that a
- 38:59lifetime sime building a community piece by piece cannot and
- 39:03will not be entirely eclipsed by one single night of
- 39:06incomprehensible darkness.
- 39:08Speaker 1: It is a beautiful effort to reclaim her memory, but
- 39:11the lingering trauma beneath that effort is undeniable. You have
- 39:16to think about Andrew Jordal, the husband who lost his
- 39:18wife to the hands of his son, the father who
- 39:20had to hear that confession in the garage, devastating the
- 39:24public records. Note he has not spoken publicly in detail,
- 39:27and understandably so his grief is entirely, profoundly private amid
- 39:32this massive media storm. And you also have to think
- 39:35about that physical house, that family home in Big Lake.
- 39:38Speaker 2: Oh yeah.
- 39:39Speaker 1: The reality is that a structure where something like this
- 39:41occurs rarely goes back to being a normal home. It
- 39:45likely stands empty, or perhaps he was quietly sold to
- 39:47someone unaware, but either way it serves as this silent, haunting,
- 39:51physical monument to the tragedy sitting right there in the
- 39:54middle of this perfectly manicured, picturesque town.
- 39:57Speaker 2: If we connect this highly specific, i verifying case to
- 40:01the bigger picture, it forces us to look hard at
- 40:03the broader implications for small town America and our approach
- 40:06to public health policy. Aw So, whenever a tragedy of
- 40:10this unimaginable scale occurs, there is an immediate, totally understandable,
- 40:15visceral public outcry for better community mental health resources. People
- 40:20demand a system that catches these individuals before they fall
- 40:23through the cracks. They want a stronger safety net. They
- 40:27want assurance that the sinkhole will be filled before it collapses, right.
- 40:30Speaker 1: It's human nature. People want a legislative fix. They want
- 40:33a policy that says, if we just allocate x amount
- 40:36of funding to this clinic, we can definitively prevent why
- 40:40tragedy from ever happening again. They wanted to re establish
- 40:43the illusion of control.
- 40:44Speaker 2: But the harsh, deeply unsettling reality that we have to
- 40:48confront when studying this case is that no single policy,
- 40:51no matter how well funded, how well intentioned, or how
- 40:53perfectly executed, could have definitively predicted or prevented this specific
- 40:58extreme iteration of horror.
- 41:00Speaker 1: That's a tough pill to swallow.
- 41:01Speaker 2: It is when severe mental illness manifests as sudden, profound,
- 41:05lethal violence in an individual who has absolutely no prior
- 41:09criminal history. This statistical predictability is almost zero. You cannot
- 41:13effectively legislate against a ghost. We are dealing with the absolute, chaotic,
- 41:18unpredictable extremes of human biology and psychology. It represents a
- 41:23terrifying blind spot in human civilization, which brings.
- 41:26Speaker 1: Us to the core takeaway from this incredibly heavy, demanding
- 41:30deep dive. We started this journey with the chilling phrase,
- 41:33I ate mom. Those three words spoken by a blood
- 41:37drenched son in a quiet suburban garage. They encapsulate the ultimate,
- 41:41unimaginable betrayal of the deepest biological bond we know as
- 41:45human beings. But the true story here, the complex narrative
- 41:48we've tried to unpack for you over the last hour,
- 41:50is so much larger and so much more tragic than
- 41:52those three sensationalized words. It is the story of a
- 41:55fractured family silently fighting a losing battle, hiding in place
- 42:00sight behind a perfect lawn. It is the story of
- 42:03a brilliant, dedicated public servant who spent her life holding
- 42:07her entire town together, but found herself unable to hold
- 42:10back the subterranean darkness swelling in her own home right.
- 42:15And it is the story of a justice system, incredibly
- 42:17human institution, painstakingly trying to parse out the invisible philosophical
- 42:22boundaries of human sanity and moral culpability over six long,
- 42:27agonizing years.
- 42:28Speaker 2: And as you walk away from this case, I want
- 42:30to leave you with one final, deeply provocative thought.
- 42:33Speaker 1: Okay, what is it?
- 42:33Speaker 2: It's a concept that isn't explicitly codified in the legal
- 42:37documents or the police reports, but it is the haunting
- 42:40existential question that underpins absolutely everything we've discussed today. We
- 42:44are watching a court right now, in real time try
- 42:47to carefully weigh the brutal, calculated physical reality of an
- 42:51act against the total invisible collapse of the perpetrator's mind.
- 42:54But if severe mental illness, if a literal chemical imbalance
- 42:58were a misfiring sinna can completely overwrite a child's fundamental
- 43:03biological instinct to love, revere, and protect the parent who
- 43:07gave them life. Wow, if faulty neurological wiring can turn
- 43:11a quiet sun into a literal, ravenous predator of his
- 43:14own mother. Then we are forced to ask ourselves a
- 43:17terrifying question. How much of our identity, our morality, and
- 43:21our deep capacity for love is truly us the soul
- 43:23we believe we possess, and how much of it is
- 43:26just fragile brain chemistry waiting for a single tragic misfire.
- 43:29Speaker 1: Thank you for joining us on this deep dive. I
- 43:31know we covered some incredibly dark territory today, but I
- 43:33want you to take that final thought. Maybe find a
- 43:35quiet park bench of your own by a lake, sit
- 43:38down and really sit with it for a while. We
- 43:40will see you next time.