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Rabbi Moshe Haber Path of the Just: Healthy Guilt: The Architecture of Spiritual Awareness 5.19.26 · Rabbi Moshe Haber - Daily Mussar/Weekly Perasha

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  A little more before we get to the recap.
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  All right, We'll do a little more on this chapter and then a
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  little more on the next two chapters, and then we'll get to
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  the recap. So this chapter is all about,
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  like I said, like we say fear, which sounds like a heavy topic
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  and it's been somewhat heavy. And we tried to lighten it with
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  the fact that the main idea of fear of our Shem and, you know,
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  the mood is based on overall awareness.
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  Now, he explains there are more details to this topic of fear in
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  489. It says when a person is aware
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  and therefore fearful that maybe I sent.
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  It's a a thought that should apply to what's happening right
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  now and a thought process that should mold your future as well.
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  One part is what's happening now and actually future those old
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  part of one side, and the other part is a person should
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  constantly be thinking about what I did in the past.
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  A person should be always conscious, what am I doing right
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  now? What am I about to do?
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  Maybe there's gonna be something in there that's wrong, or maybe
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  something will get involved into what you're doing that's wrong.
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  That's clear. A person who has fear of sin is
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  aware and therefore nervous. I don't want to do anything
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  wrong. And he's thinking, you know,
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  what am I about to do 'cause I don't like sin.
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  I know it's not the right thing. And therefore I watch what I
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  say. I watch what I do.
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  I watch what I see. I watch what the next step.
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  I look on my schedule. I try to make sure to avoid the
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  wrong thing. You know what?
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  It's a sin. A lot of things you don't know
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  is a sin, 100%. I read.
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  I do so many things wrong. It's amazing.
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  Yeah. He actually addresses that
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  himself, writes in his book. A part of the purpose of my book
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  is because there's so many things that people can do wrong.
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  So let me give in the simple fashion, in the clear fashion
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  that everyone can know you're right.
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  We don't know is know right from wrong.
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  We try. Now when it comes to fear of
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  sins in the past, why should we worry about the guilt?
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  Why should we think about yesterday, what we repent for?
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  That's why, Barbados, when it comes to what you've done in the
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  past. She Adam Hoshev, Tamida
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  Mashikvarasa. A person should constantly be
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  thinking about what he previously has done.
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  I should worry. Maybe I didn't even realize an
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  example from the camera where there was a rabbi who would
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  bring a Qurban every day on a maybe because maybe I had
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  something wrong. And EO after his meal, he would
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  say, maybe now you said what's the purpose?
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  So maybe repent. That might be the purpose.
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  Maybe to use your past as a guide for the future does not
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  matter. But the goal is of Jews should
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  always be in a certain sense. We don't like the feeling of
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  guilt. We hate guilt.
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  Any person that is told that, you know, yesterday you made a
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  mistake. It's an uncomfortable feeling to
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  have. It's true, but it is a feeling
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  that allows for cleansing. There's one feeling, which is
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  the awareness to the issue of sin repares you for the future,
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  and there's another one which is the awareness, the reflection on
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  the past that repairs you and cleanses you from mistakes you
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  might have made. These are the two ideas, the
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  current and future or the past, current and future is I'm clear,
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  I'm watching what I'm doing. I'm so careful, so careful
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  because I don't like sin and the past is that I have.
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  I'm a little nervous. Maybe I did something wrong.
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  You know, you have a walk away from conversation.
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  You don't feel so comfortable. You're not sure I did something
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  I shouldn't have said that. I should have said that, right?
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  That is guilt, and that's an OK feeling to have.
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  Guilt is OK because it helps you cleanse your past.
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  Awareness is great 'cause it helps you prepare your future.
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  These are the ideas that are in front of us when it comes to the
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  oil that Moshe use and pour on our own to anointing Chadenae
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  Margo a besar Adam Lisa Basuk says don't oil and don't anoint
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  a person and what she was told to do this and not on and they
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  were afraid that the oil of the Badami Das shouldn't we have
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  Basu telling us it shouldn't be used for these things and we
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  just use it to anoint our answer.
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  They were nervous about their past.
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  They were afraid maybe they did the wrong thing.
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  Zele Shanam. But the vazid daag mosheva
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  marshema alti bashema meshka. Maybe I used holy oil the wrong
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  way. That's a a sense in a reflection
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  of the past. Which means same way the duo
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  Henmon does not desecrate, so too the oil they use is not
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  desecrate. I don't like, I don't know.
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  So nervous. She had more.
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  She didn't do anything wrong, but I you see me the oil, I did
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  something wrong and the heavenly voice told her you're fine as
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  well. In fact, the pastor was, he
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  never told my name, Shevard Ahim Gamyahad, a hardon.
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  And Moshe, you just did a great thing.
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  So he have a scenario where Moshe was anointing A hardon
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  with oils of the better mitas of the mishkan for the sake of
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  making our own quanado and they were nervous.
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  Maybe they shouldn't have used that oil, totally oil and it
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  wasn't meant for this. If I did the wrong thing, Moshe
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  is nervous and his act pouring, Otto's nervous of his part of
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  receiving. And then they had to have
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  heavenly voices come out and tell them you're fine and you're
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  finding it right. So Messiah Shaheen, what are you
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  telling me from the story I'm telling you that that mindset
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  that they both had in the interim was a healthy mindset to
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  have that fear, that nervousness.
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  It's not OCD, it's not over guilt, it's not craziness, it's
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  not what are you thinking? What are you worried about?
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  Hashem told you to do it. It's proper and healthy and
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  effective nervousness. We don't like nerves.
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  We hate and feel very uncomfortable with guilt.
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  That's true. But there's a place for guilt
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  and there's a place for nerves and that is right here.
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  The place we guilt the nerves is that it helps you reflect.
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  When you reflect, you are able to cleanse what you've done and
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  build on that toward the future. It's actually a very powerful
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  tool because there are some people who are unable to accept
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  wrongdoing. They just can't.
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  And because of that, they never have a moment in their life they
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  did anything wrong, but they're always right.
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  What was there? Wrongdoing.
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  There was actually no wrongdoing, but there was
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  awareness and there was a nervousness of wrongdoing, which
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  he's telling you reflects the medal of great people.
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  They didn't actually do anything.
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  Wrong did he? Said the same thing when he
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  prepared himself. I called as a perfect example
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  and he doesn't bring this one and if he does, he should it's a
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  perfect example as well. I call Avini said the words
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  Katanti, Mikola, Kasadim. I I feel small from all of the
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  the the merit that God gave me. God gave me so much could and
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  therefore I feel diminished. My Zahud is diminished.
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  Why would he be diminished? Because I might have done
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  something that was wrong in my past that used up all my merit
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  to protect me. And therefore I'm not really in
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  a position and it says that Hasidim and great people are
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  always fearful that they might have sinned.
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  And this is a surprising concept.
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  They like an hour just by emotion.
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  I don't did not do anything wrong.
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  So what are they fearful about? Doesn't matter.
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  The potential was on my mind that might have was on their
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  mind. And that is something that's
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  actually very good for us to become.
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  Like I say, cleaner. Cleaner means.
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  I say him. He's supposed to have like, he's
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  supposed to say the scales are like even.
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  Every person says that I'm bombed should look at themselves
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  like the scale between my my good and my bad and my sins and
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  my misfort are 5050 and I'm always about to tip the scales.
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  That right there includes an awareness, correct all.
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  I must do something wrong to have an even scale.
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  And you're right. And this is building on that
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  same concept. Guilt is good, reflection is OK.
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  Being nervous, what I might have said, it's fine.
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  Don't make it slow you down, don't make it hold you back,
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  Understood. But use it to help you
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  constantly cleanse and cleanse the way things work.
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  When you take inventory, for example, right?
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  You take inventory once and you do it again.
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  And it gets better whenever you come in to clean your house, you
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  cleaned it once. You get rid of all the big stuff
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  and you cleaned it again and you get rid of all the small extra
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  stuff. That's how cleaning works.
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  And the same thing would be true with your actions.
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  If you have the power and you have the humility and the
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  strength and the courage to see mistakes, you're OK with that.
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  You don't think that you're the be all end all, never made a
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  mistake in your life. You're OK with making mistakes.
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  You're far better off because everyone makes mistakes.
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  The only difference is who knows it.
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  That's the whole point of telling you every single person
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  makes mistakes. The only difference is who
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  accepts the fact that made mistakes.
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  But Raham, right? He says that I'm ready to do
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  words first. How you do?
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  Even though Moshe and Arun were involved in a great act of
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  pouring oil and they didn't know Rome, he's still worried.
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  It was a potential of maybe something wrong.
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  SU has the Shalom. Maybe there's mixed in some
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  degree of a mistake. Oh my gosh, that's it.
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  Did they do anything wrong? No, but they were careful about
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  it. They were worried about it.
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  Now this is actually something so play into the time they went
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  in. This is something that prepares
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  matanzo, the basuk, says Hirata Hashem Hirozaro.
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  The fear of God is a storage house.
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  What does it mean? Storage house, Say the rabbis
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  you're about to be get a lot of You're about to receive the
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  whole Torah. And throughout your life you're
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  going to learn a lot Torah. That's great.
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  You need a storage house. You need somewhere to store it.
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  My mind, my body. Great.
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  You can only store the Torah if you are capable of being in the
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  proper place for the Torah. What does that mean?
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  I'm a human being. You give me a lot of Torah.
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  I'm capable. No.
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  You need to have Yira Tashem, you need to have fear of heaven
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  to be able to store the Torah. If a person is not God's
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  fearing, then the Torah comes in and it goes right out, it
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  spoils, it goes out. You need Yirat Shamayan.
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  What does that really mean? That means right here, this a
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  person who's both reflecting very well and aware very well,
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  and therefore he looks at his past, he fixes it, he looks at
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  his future, he fixes it because of that.
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  That's a good home for God's Torah.
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  That's the right place. This person is trying to be in
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  line and In Sync with God, with Hashem.
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  Once Hashem Torah, Hashem's word fits right in.
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  But if he's not interested in being In Sync 'cause he wants
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  to, just imagine, I'm always right.
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  I'm always right, I'm always right.
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  And he's not a person that can hold the Torah.
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  He may be a genius, he might have learned a lot, but it
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  doesn't stick. Why doesn't it stick?
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  Because he's not the right home and the person is unable to fix
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  himself. Both the reflection on
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  awareness. In other words, men in this ways
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  constantly. He's not the home for the time.
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  That's the idea. But it does take the ability to
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  be uncomfortable. We have to accept the fact that
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  I could have made a mistake. It's such an unbelievably
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  difficult feeling that people hate.
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  He will hate the feeling of guilt.
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  People hate the feeling of mistake.
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  People cannot stand the idea. Telling me I did something
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  wrong. Argue.
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  Personally, you can never tell me.
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  You always do this. I can handle.
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  Criticism, I can handle. Reflection I always can handle.
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  But someone tells me you always do this to me.
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  The last 10 years. Always do this, always do this,
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  right? Why does it get me nervous?
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  Why does it get me nervous? Because are you handing to the
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  fact that my last 10 years have had a mistake?
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  I can't accept that. I can't.
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  You ought to tell me A week ago. A month ago, 10 * 100 times.
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  I'm good. Just don't use the word always,
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  right. So we all don't like, we have
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  our own versions of guilt that we can't stand.
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  That's mine, all right. I'm sure you have yours.
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  And that is if I tell you something about you don't want
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  to hear that you don't want to hear.
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  People do not like criticism we don't like.
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  But again, there is a degree and a part of us that needs the
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  openness to reflect and to fix. If you don't, you won't build.
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  You'll have nothing to build on. And then you'll have notes with
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  our home because we said the the home of the Torah is irrad
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  Hashem. So it's the best thing to be
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  able to accept some degree of guilt and mistake.
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  Perfectly OK, perfectly healthy. Nothing's going to happen.
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  In fact, the only thing that's going to happen is you fix them,
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  you plug them and you're both on it.
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  The other guy is making the same mistakes.
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  Nobody's telling him what they want to tell him, and he'll
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  continue for the rest of his life.
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  That's different slab of this.