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Sensuality Is a Woman’s Creative Power · Becoming Flame: Where Sensuality, Sovereignty, and Sacred Power Ignite

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We believe that women who sit deeply in their bodies, in their erotic intelligence and sovereignty, become powerful creators of their lives and the environments around them. Our products are initiations into that coherence. Luxury in experience. Devotional in use. Transformational in effect. Get yours now at phenxx.com That's P-H-E-N. Hello welcome to another episode of Becoming Flame Podcast. ⁓ I your host, Kate Trogensa, ⁓ and left you with an epically long story about receiving ⁓ a business. xx.com I started highlighting the conceptualization of how to unpack and unwind from competition. And the reason that that's important to this story in terms of receiving a business that you are going to nurture and grow and birth is because in natural time, natural, in harmonic resonance with the earth in harmonic resonance. there is no urgency, there is no timeline or set date by which you need to have something done, completed, created and when we used to create in femininity as the creators and that's that's the most important thing to really understand here is that the natural laws the natural order of things is that feminine creates the feminine is the creator of life she holds the life force she holds the vitality she holds the eros and that as her in her body in her exuberance and her vitality for life and her connection to her body and the bridge that she is between all that is and that what could be in material form she acts as that conduit that translator that vessel that connector creator between these the the the infinity of all that is the realm of possibility and potentiality into the manifest form of physical. And part of why Eros and sensuality is so important is because the energy points within the female body, all bodies, but specifically the female body, where creation exists is in those lower places within the body. It's not in the head and and don't get me wrong like the heart is very important it's a frequency signal it is the emission of who you be it is your compass it is your connecting to it's your connector not your creator. So you don't create from the heart, you connect from the heart and so your connection in heart to others, to the togetherness, to the community, to the earth, to all, to this realm of potentiality and infinity is so vital and so important but you don't create from there. And if you don't know what I'm talking about just have a think about people who you know ⁓ They tend to be more spiritual people or maybe more religious people who are really connected into the heart. They're very charitable. They're very beautiful, open-hearted people. They're warm, they're mothering, they're nurturing. They're all of those things, which is so important for the postpartum period of your creation. So you create something and you need to nurture it. You need to grow it. You need to expand it. You take a seed, you plant that. and you nurture that into a seedling, a, know, sapling, a, until it's a full-blown grown tree. And that nurturing and that heart energy is what we identify as mother energy, as nurturer, as love. And that is so important and we're not discounting that in this conversation. But you don't create from your heart. You emit, you nurture, you connect. Where you create from is the base of your body, the basin, the womb, the pelvis, the root, the sacral. And that is where your eros is. That is where your sensuality is, your sexuality. That is the zone of you. which you might receive something via your heart but if it stays in your heart and you don't bring it down into your body into your creation center then you will be a well wishing person wishing for the world to be different and Part of the reason why we have the world that we have is that the majority of, if not all, women for many centuries, millennia, have been... told to operate as low as their heart center. So their role was to nurture and to love, to be kind and to be gentle and to be forgiving and compassionate and see the world through these mother eyes. The feminine is not a singular and narrow aspect of reality of femininity. True feminine embodiment requires a precision of feeling all. and the precision of taking all the emotional existence into a singular body form and alchemizing that and moving that in the way that you require. Okay. So I'm talking in generalities and people will get ⁓ lost in that. So let's talk about what do I mean? In order for you to live a pleasurable and joyful and true and coherent existence, you need to be comfortable in feeling the opposite polarity, which is pain, which is wrath, which is rage, which is anger, which is decimation of self, which is the complete... Pain threshold. So the more pain that you can feel, the more pleasure that you can feel. And the more pleasure that you can feel, the more pain that you can feel and withhold and transmute and transform. And so this exists on a polarity as does the feminine. But if you are raised and brainwashed to believe that these emotions cannot be felt, seen, known or heard of in a woman and the kind of woman that has rage is a shameful woman is a temptress or is hysterical. A woman who feels emotion that is not just love and light is hysterical. And how many women did we both burn? incarcerate, institutionalize for her ability to feel all that exists on this planet. Because a woman in her body feels the pain of what's happening and it doesn't need to be local, geographically local or local to her community. Injustice is injustice and a woman's body is wired to feel it. Why? Because she's the creator. Because she's here and she has the alchemical, innate alchemical capacity to shift the world from as it is with the injustice, with the pain, with the war, with... the competition, with the decimation of each other, with the inability to hold extreme in the world and still find love and still find equilibrium and still find equanimity. All this can exist and she can still be her. And as women lost this skill, this art, this craft, this alchemy over very precise programs of obliterating this skill so that a system of control and a system of corruption and a system of power, artificial power, could be installed upon that. The sustained campaign required that women don't feel the wrath, the eros, the injustice. All of these extremely potent and deep centers of catalytic change. Because the moment a woman brings that into her body and feels it and doesn't collapse, under that because she is powerful because she knows that the feeling of this extremity opens up the feeling of this extremity because it's a polarity and it's on the same pole and the alchemical capacity is within the body it is innate but it is forgotten it can be remembered And when she receives that extra training again, and when she comes back into her knowing, when she comes back into her fullness of her power and her knowing of who she is, that has been 100 % the propaganda campaign to forget that. Then she can transmute, she can transform, she can create by destroying that and creating on top of it. And so if you only ever come to the heart center, where you can only have compassion and the focus is on joy, the focus is on ⁓ living a peaceful life, then you are doing it primarily in a performative way or in a way that requires you to make mental concessions that the joy that you get to experience is at the expense of others. or it's at the expense of including all. And so that is actually outside of the feminine. That is actually outside of the matriarchal system of equality and fairness that is built in honeycomb hexagonal coherence and or circular spherical inclusion models. So when... you as yourself and this is not about white privilege or ⁓ privilege of any kind and yet it is. What privilege actually means is that I have bought into the patriarchal system of abuse and normalised that or accepted that or believed that I wasn't capable of making a significant change to the way that the world works? That I only have two hands in one mouth? What could I do? The other part that has distorted this a lot over even the recent times I'm talking about, just modern, when women have come online and they've said, I know that it is going to be women who change this world. It is going to be the fact that I get into my body, into my divine feminine, into the self that I be. And from there, I open to a creation of different manifestation for this world. And then you have people like... I'm deciding whether to name. You have people who, men, you have men, who have been propagating. for women how they need to be in their divine feminine. while simultaneously abusing women, manipulating women, impregnating women, creating cults, creating distortion, creating performative divine femininity in a way that continues to serve male patriarchy. Where divine femininity remains at this heart and above. where it is about loving, softness, kindness, ever forgiveness, ever compassion, that you don't call out your abuser, that you don't call out abuse, you don't name it, you don't shame it, you don't call for injustice and you don't call for change. There's this distortion around how the divine feminine has been continued. to be, it's like we got to this point where like we can't ignore it. Women are waking up. They want to come into the divine feminine. Let's make sure that their definition of the divine feminine, of the sacred feminine, the, you know, whole, you know, holistic femininity of tantric feminine of whatever word and sect you want to go into means that she's all about love and light, that she's all about forgiveness, she's about compassion, she's about mother love and Mary and let's just continue to tell her that sensuality and sexuality will still be Mary Magdalene and the Mary Magdalene of the church, not the truth. So women are waking up, they're trying to find that connection point, thinking that these gurus, these experts, these people that just are really good at marketing. could teach them. And what has that done? It has set an entire generation of women into the reinforcement that somebody else can teach me about my divinity. And not only just somebody else, but a man can teach me about being a feminine creator. He has no capacity to ever feel anywhere near what you can feel and the fear of the feminine and the power she holds. The least powerful woman is far more powerful than any man. The most powerful man can never be as powerful as her because she sources from all. Her innate biology connects her to the source of creation. And her biology is wired to create. So why do we have an extractive? Why do we have an... over culture and why has it been so targeted towards women? Why have all of these other minority groups in the world received their power and received their due? Normalized equality or normalized fairness or normalized the recalibration of how systems and societies are run, cultures are looking at race, sexuality, gender, all before they look at the power and the capacity to equalize the world for women. Because your race doesn't create your power. It never has. It was always a distraction. The melanoma, the melanin in your skin, sorry, the pigment of your skin. doesn't change your biological capacity to create, to be in power or to equalize the world, to restructure the world, to shift the axis of this earth. So yeah sure let's do, let's focus on that then. You guys, you guys want some some rights there? Fine. There will always be a new minority created, lifted up and equalized under a patriarchal control system before anyone gives women rights to exist, to create and to have feminine embodied power. Because women with feminine embodied power, if we had four billion people who had feminine embodied power, we would not have a patriarchy, we would not have war, and we would not. If we had four billion women who knew how to create from their body, who knew how to hold the emotional polarity of all that exists on this planet and rise up to their personal assignment to transmute and alchemize that specific part of this world. We would no longer live in a patriarchal control system. We would no longer live outside of human nature. We would no longer live outside of nature. We would no longer extract. We would no longer rape, pillage or pummel. Because a woman in her power, in her infinite power of the biotechnology is innately connected to nature. That's where she sources her power. That's her support system. That's her feedback loop. She is naturally coherent to truth, to true power and to the knowledge of how creation exists. in connection to the realm of infinity and potentiality. you wouldn't be able to live in the way that we live now because you wouldn't have a hierarchy, not only a hierarchy within human species. but you wouldn't have a hierarchy that would exist that puts you above the plant kingdom, that puts you above the animal kingdom, because it is deep ego, ignorance, and false creation of power and control that has ever led people in general to believe that we have more intelligence. that we have more power, that we have more to offer this earth. And that comes from a system that is so disconnected, not only from their own bodies, but from the earth, from its ecosystem and its functionality. and win. ⁓ You have a system and a culture that creates illegal access to plants and their medicinal and healing properties when you have a system that makes it illegal to live in nature, to live where you need, where you cannot access. ⁓ clean drinking water and clean food and you are reliant upon a lab created petrochemical based pharmaceutical system that ⁓ gives you lists of side effects and complications from taking that over the propagation of and the promotion of holistic plants medicine that brings you into unity and coherence because of the codes that are within those plants and within those botanicals then It is all designed to ensure that a woman remains out, people, but women remain outside of their embodied state. And so this is all the background to... I'm hearing all the time, you know, how to build a feminine business in five steps. Well, is the first step to unwind yourself and disentangle yourself. from a system built on competition, built on hierarchy, built on one, therefore not the other, built on we can't all win here. Because when there's a system that suggests that one is the winner and one is the loser, and that the loser just didn't have what it took in order to create that. How are you going to build a five-step business that is in line with true embodied feminine power while still upholding, promoting and benefiting from a system of extraction, a system of competition and a system where there are winners and losers? where the role of creator is being outsourced to an artificial. machine that nobody yet truly understands what is or what will come from it. Where the innate intelligence of humanity is not sourced from within the biotechnology system, where the innate source of your own intelligence, of your own coordinates, of the thread that you are in the tapestry of all that is here on this earth. is now meaningless. And we've come to pray at the feet of this God that can give you reams and reams and reams of text, of ideas, of collated and coalesced information. that which already exists and that which has already been produced and nothing of it is original and nothing of it is of the frequency matched to you but that it was done fast and so there are two things to to consider in that way either you are doing nothing in terms of creating work. Like the way that you wake up in the morning is to push a mouse across a stream to type some buttons to be in service to a employer or a company that has none of your specific creativity, none of your specific signature and you're not needed as a human and as a creator, as an intelligence, as a coordinate that you are adding to this company. You are replaceable and you are not seen, known, felt or appreciated and therefore the artificial capacity to implement that into your work is no different. It's faster, it's easier, it's cheaper because the codes that you are here to share with the world aren't being shared in this job anyway. and therefore your humanity and your humanness isn't being felt, isn't being received, isn't being asked for and therefore yeah an artificial ⁓ substitute is identical and if you're being triggered by that, if you're being really like ruffled by that, good. Because you're not here to push a mouse across a screen and tap some little buttons. You're not here to put numbers in a spreadsheet or make 20 % extra sales on things that people don't need. And you're going to say they do need what we do know them fine, but it's not your company. And if you're replaceable by another person or by AI, you're not living the truth of the creation you are here to share. You're not in your body sharing the wisdom that you have lived, that you have come here. to experience, share, and put back into the earth. Are you truly, hand on heart, taking one of the biggest problems that we have on this earth, feeling the fullness of it, bringing that into your body, alchemizing it, and then creating a new solution, a shift, a change, an ultimate change of reality that will ultimately serve It doesn't matter how many people, but it will serve the planet, will serve the animal kingdom, it serve the plant kingdom, it will serve and your life will have meant something. Are you living in a passionate, desirous, sensuous state? Because if you are, AI cannot take your job and nobody else can either. You are irreplaceable and you are completely and utterly who you are here to be. And then the second step of this is... if you are being in that sensuous, desirous... ⁓ human, female role on this planet. And you employ AI to do some very basic things around that. Not your thinking, not your creation, not your infinity, not your receiver ship. But like sending out an invoice. Sure. Okay. It's fine. Whatever. That's what you want to do. but what is the world that you're then accepting? That's the part that our frequency, that what we stand for, that's where our eros and our desire and our embodiment of that is the passion of what we're here. A couple of weeks ago, when we ended 2025, we were coming, 2025 was the year of the snake, and we're coming in now to the fire horse year. The week of that transition, well, a couple of weeks prior to that transition, I saw three pythons, house pythons. And then the week of the transition from snake to horse, I saw three red-bellied black snakes. Not like in the distance, as in within a meter of me. And... what's amazing about a red-bellied black snake and what's amazing about Aboriginal medicine or Australis medicine. is so distinct from everything else that exists in the world. So red-bellied black snake, ⁓ it is a venomous snake, but it's a very timid snake. So... It's also very common. So if you do ever have a problem or if you're attacking it and then it attacks you back and you are bitten, there's always an anti-venom. As long as you get to the hospital in time, you'll be fine. I mean, nobody wants to be bitten by a snake, but they're timid and they're majestic and they, like all snakes and animals, understand who you are and nobody needs to attack someone That's not attacking them. That's a patriarchal belief. Oh, this is different to me. I don't know about this. I'm ignorant about this. Let me attack. That doesn't exist. It's a human-made thing. If you have peace in your heart, and you mean no harm, and you move through the animal kingdom, whether that animal is dangerous... Because all animals are dangerous, they all have the capacity to fight for themselves in the same way that all humans are dangerous. They all have the capacity to fight and survive. But only in a triggered survival state. Only in a place where they are triggered to do that. You don't walk into the shops and see another human and then go, ⁓ my god, like, I've got to be on guard. No, you're not a threat. They're not a threat. You do your shopping. And the same way saw three red belly blacks. And it was the most beautiful medicine that I could have received at the end of that that year and it's tying into what I'm talking about here, which is the black of the snake represents the journeying into the underworld, the capacity to be deep within those shadows, deep within that side of you that journeys that deepens, creates opportunity to feel, to know, to journey, discover. It represents the underworld, it represents the darkness, it represents the shadow. And then the red represents the passion and the Eros and the sensuality. It's being a snake, right, as well. So it's connected to sensuality, into energy, into life force, into creation, into all of this. And the red-bellied black snake is the ability or the message of the medicine is the totem is Merge your passion or make sure your passion and your eros and your gift and your medicine to the world is informed by and never... ⁓ fueled by running from your shadow. Instead, it's about being your shadow. Wearing your shadow in your underworld and you're journeying into that shadow. Wear that on your side. That is what people see. That you are someone who is walking side by side with your shadows. They're not hidden in a cupboard anywhere. You're walking alongside. It's a very similar ⁓ medicine to what you can find in North American belief systems around walk down the street with your wolves, make sure that they are fed, but make sure everybody knows that you have tamed them. You are the power, not the shadows. You're not going to be triggered off here and there. You are going to be the kind of woman that says, yes, bring the shame to me for I know how to alchemize it. And I alchemize that into the passionate erotic life force energy that this world needs for me to hold. And so as I went through that deep 2025, for me 2025 started in 2024 for a lot of us it did. And I felt that snake and I felt that shedding and I felt that letting go and I felt that journeying into the deepest walk of the underworld that I have ever gone through. And when 2026 came along, I was like, no, don't let me out. I love it here. There's all the answers to the entire world. in my underworld. I don't want to leave it. I don't want to stop living here. I don't want to have to come up to the surface because the underworld is where the power is. It's where my power is. It's where my passion is. It's who I now am. I'm an alchemist. I'm a transformer. I'm a creatrix. I'm a woman in my body and I'm no longer scared of anything that can come because these triggers information, their data and it takes me deeper and then I get that and I want to live in the depths of me. I'm not a shallow water person. I'm a deep ocean dweller. I don't want to live here." And these three snakes came and three is obviously the sign of the feminine. You know, it's a feminine number. And it's also like a spiritual number in the sense that, you know, once is wow, twice is a coincidence, three is a message. It's for you. And that really said to me, You don't need to leave the underworld. You don't need to leave the ability to alchemize the depth of the emotion of the world that we're all feeling. But you need to bring that into your erotic creation now. So it's not just about destroying and destroying and destroying and unbreaking and shedding and getting rid of and clearing out. Now use that which you know and create into new. Create life. Create the shift. Create the new. And that was really powerful and potent medicine. And it's very similar to basically how Phoenix came to be and came to be in the world. You cannot create from a place that is full of something else. You cannot create in and amongst the buildings of a system that doesn't serve women, of a system that doesn't serve children, of a system that doesn't serve each and every single human on this planet as equal or as a being of love. And so the shift is not Come into your feminine embodiment and have great sex. Because you coming into your feminine embodiment for the purpose of having great sex and not seeing and not taking responsibility and not fighting in the feminine way for more. And what's the feminine way of fighting? You hold the frequency of that, you be, you bring that into your body and that's your signal. And your signal now sparks. the codes of change in each and every person that you pass by. I mean what's fascinating to me is that I have a scent company right and part of the reason is the feminine embodiment leaves a scent. She leaves a trail. She leaves a path to follow. And if you look at this in the animal kingdom, they follow the scent of the most powerful leader. And what is powerful in animal kingdom? That which is in the leader. The leader is not exerting over. The leader is. The lioness is. She knows where she's going. The phoenix knows. how to get there. The dragon knows the pathway forward. There's no requirement to go into war. ⁓ To lead is to embody so deeply and strongly in self that nobody ever can bring you out of that access within yourself. That is strong, that is undeniably true, it is coherent and it is harmonic. And in togetherness, a woman acting alone is not yet fully embodied. because women are coherent in community, in togetherness. The old adage, takes a village to raise a child, it's not because she doesn't have the energy sources, it's that that child... is so much better off with the codes of love, creation and connection from a village where all people around say this child is ours and we will love her or him. And this mother is ours and we will shelter her and support her and lift her and nourish her and hold her and birth with her and raise with her these children or this child. And so a solitary woman can only be solitary in the moment that she leaves the falseness and the artificial and then the signal of the feminine coherence that she carries within her, bees to a honey pot. when she is the queen bee, when she is holding the signal of mother, of creator, of feminine embodied knowing, that is when the tribe assembles around her. That is when the connection points. into togetherness, the way in which the constellations merge together, the honeycomb slitting in to make each one of those individual hexagons stronger and more coherent and more congruent, linking in the way in which they build something that is bigger and all beings are taken care of. So when we talk about shifting to a matriarchal world or shifting to a feminine embodiment and the world in which that then births. It is not a world that some have and some have not. It is not a world where if you have this color skin or these resources or this way of thinking or being, you are included and otherwise excluded. That's patriarchy and patriarchy is not patriarchy inverted. It is about looking at structures of humanity in a completely different way. We eradicate triangles and and we implement circular, holistic and fully integrated community systems. And sometimes our cities of 6 million, 10 million, 20 million people are too big to create that from. And so you have micro communities, micro villages, tribes that connect with each other naturally and holistically. And they may or may not be biologically related, but they are coherent. And they are all on the same desirous pathway. And sensuality starts to take on a much more embodied form. It's not about sexuality, sex or the outcome of orgasm. Sensuous living and a sensuous woman is one that can hold those around her and be held by them as well. It is not a one-way street. It is bi-directional and is multi-directional. We are receiving and we are giving. We are receiving what we need and we are ex... we are expelling that which is a multiplic... multiplic... and we are ex... we are exporting that which is multiplied by that. we get out of the transaction of I give you this and you get this. It is very much around how can we all come together here and think of a bigger and better vision. So you have one partner and then all of a sudden you're holding the dream of what could be. you're tapping into a much bigger infinite potentiality than your mind could ever come up with. And then that person adds with their embodied form a connection to an even bigger vision and an even bigger one and an even bigger one. And yet somehow... The extraordinary nature of that dream, of that vision, of that reality that could be created can be created in very simple, easy step by steps because of the embodiment and the holding of that frequency signal and working with the resonance of that earth that everything shifts to the synchronistic, spontaneous creation of that. floating head trying to think of it into the world and trying to create something from your effort where you becoming the exception to the rule is now celebrated and you are now put on a pedestal. Sometimes we sometimes we slip for a reason. Sometimes we slip for a reason. Because when you are put on a pedestal, where are you getting your energy from? When you are in an extractive system, you don't have a connection into an infinite energy source. But you know that children do. Are you really surprised about what's happening? Are you really surprised that this continues? We've known about these pedophile rings, these human traffickers who are involved in powering up a corrupt artificial structure outside of nature, women and children. ⁓ There is no need to ever close your eyes to this anymore. And if you do... and you don't know how to create from your innate biology, which is the embodied feminine. And you don't know how to do that. The simple act of asking out loud, going to trees, going to the nature, just sitting with yourself in the mirror is the entire blueprint requirement. You will get the answers. But going to him, going to him, going to him, going to him and saying, I need this, I need this, I need this, I need this, you are outside. You're not functioning in yourself anymore. And anywhere that women believe that they need someone else to get them into their connection to self and to the infinite possibilities of their own feminine embodiment is keeping them outside of it. One doesn't equal a pathway back home. You not knowing how to do this and you not knowing the first step or all of the steps. You not knowing how do I... I've never orgasmed, I've never been loved, I don't love myself, I don't love how I look, I don't feel good in my body. The attempt to shortcut that and to insert answers from somebody else's biology, from somebody else's blueprint, from somebody else's guru status will get you further away from yourself than ever it would get you closer. And so if you don't know how to do this and you don't know what I'm talking about but there's something stirring within you because you're not You're not even listening to my words, you're feeling what I'm saying and you can feel it within you. That's already the first step. That's already the opening, that's already the invitation and that is the wisdom and intelligence of your body. Your body will give you the signals, yes here, follow here, follow here, follow here. So you need stillness, you need silence and you need a willingness to listen and to respond when and only when your body speaks. Not your mind, not your doubt, not your fear and definitely not some dude claiming to be your guru. Because all those dude gurus just ended up on a list molesting trafficking and worse women and young girls, women and children. He's not your guru and he never was. And even if he was good and pious and amazing, he's not your guru and he never was and he never will be. And neither is any woman. And a truly embodied woman will not give you a step-by-step guide to finding your own sense of connection to your own embodied self. She will give you the codes. She will give you an activation point. She will hold a signal strong enough for you to feel it and for you to be able to find that activation point within you. But anyone, woman or man, ⁓ Who is telling you, come into my course and I'm going to teach you how to be yourself? ⁓ What does that woman know about you? Even if you get one on ones, you've been the expert in you for as long as you've known yourself. And which version of you do you want to learn about? Because you've been many versions of you. And you still are. And so which reality point do you want to assimilate into? The version of you that needs someone else to tell you who you are? Or the reality of you, the identity of you that already knows, that's already activated and fully aligned, fully in this body, fully creating that which she is here to create? What do you need somebody else for? The biggest change for me was when I started working with plants. Because I couldn't find a teacher to hold me in this anymore. I couldn't find a guide or a mentor. They kept trying to diminish me. They kept trying to put me into their model. Their five step plan, their 10 step plan. So here's the multi-dimensionality of me. existing in multiple dimensions, multiple realities, multiple lifetimes just even in this body where I am complex and I am contradictory and I am woman. I am transitioning into all of this that I am in the full embodiment of me and I'm trying to hold someone who wants to put me in their structure. When I started working with the plant codes and the intelligence of plants, they don't want me to change. They don't want me to be less than. They don't want me to be diminished, diluted, or categorized. What they did say was, here are some codes that we can activate within you. Here is... That which is dormant within you that you haven't been able to access through human and or any of your experiences so far. This is how you integrate it. You have raw sexuality of your raw sensuality of your raw rage and passion and desire and all of these things but it's not refined, it's not held, it's not contained, it's not usable. You're raw. You're triggered. You're in your Chaos. We need women who have raw femininity and know how to use it. Know what that chi is. And it's no longer about defining yourself as a woman who is capable and with capacity. We're beyond that. We're no longer in the world of trying to... convince the patriarchy and the systems of that world that women have power. We're not fighting for equal pay anymore. We're not fighting for a seat at the table. We don't want that table. That table leads us to having a place in a world that is so unfeminine, that is so constrictive, that you can never create there, that you can never be your fullness there. And so the plants... now believe that there are enough women on this planet who have done enough to activate the raw, crude, unrefined elements of femininity and they are coming online. to help us refine it, to unlock the codes of sensuality, of femininity and of opportunistic creation for all from a place that is far more refined and far more divine than our heads, than even just our bodies can create. But our bodies need to be receivership vessels. We needed to do the work in the womb, in the body, in the receiving, in the femininity, in the holding, the sensuality, in the sexuality, and in the creation of us that they could activate those codes with refinement and precision. It's the precision now that women need. So there are lots of women that are still on their embodiment journey and they're still right at the start and that's fine. But the... who I'm talking to is these women who have been doing this work for 10, 20 years and still going, why are the results not here? And the information I received from working with the plant botanicals that we work with and the reason why they asked me to go into sensual feminine embodiment is because it's not about creating in that old world anymore. And you will not succeed there if you are a woman like this. It's about saying, I'm so deeply in my body. I know I am the creatrix. I know that I have all of this to offer. This is not ego anymore, this is deep knowing. Intuitive guidance is in me, it's all I listen to. My head, my heart, my pussy, we're all connected. But there's something about my physical manifestation or the ability for me to maintain this coherence day in and day out when I'm bombarded by all that's outside of me. And the codes that are contained within our oils and our spedurics, that for me was the more transformative thing than I've ever had with working with somebody. Because working with somebody, you're picking up on their stuff. And they might need to be an activator for you. They might need to activate the opportunity. but they don't hold you all the way through. Because now you're getting too... ⁓ if you're getting too... influenced by their energetic structure you come out of yours. And so what I found was because I am a person who believes in togetherness and believes in the cross-pollination of our codes and our gifts and our talents and the ability for us to download or activate that which in us which is active in another It was to open my field in some ways to be able to work one-on-one with someone or even in a group setting with someone. And so I needed to dip in and out. Okay, I'll work with you for this and I'll I will activate the codes which are active in you. I can feel that because my my body intelligence is alive and open and online. But I can't go too deep into you because your shadow self is not my shadow self and your activated self is not my All I needed was the activation of the code that I know I need to activate. But where is the container to hold me as I do it? And I couldn't find that in a person. But I found it in plants. I found it in the plant kingdom, in the botanicals and in the way in which they came to me to talk to me about the medicine that they were available to give. was this is a container space. We have this intelligence and we can hold you in it and we can activate that within you quickly or with time. And as you come more and more and more online, that is how we will support you. And as I... ⁓ As I worked with them, I watched my desires. around how I live my life change naturally and without force. I watched that I wanted to be a woman who dressed in a particular way now or I wanted to live in a really passionate way about ⁓ certain things. I received more pleasure and I took time. deep time with myself in nature. I... had more energy, had more vitality, I had more life force. I created more. I received and then I alchemized into creation. I spent more time in deep presence with my child as a mother in deep unconditional love. And I let days and weeks of mothering take the lead. And I naturally stopped thinking, I've got to sit at my computer, I've got to do these kinds of things, ⁓ push push push push. The timelines and the urgency fell away but the output increased. So as my body relaxed, as it became a receiver, as it became open to sensuous and sensual living based in pleasure, based in desire, based in love, I was becoming a very different manifestation of what societally I should have been or I was being asked to be as a single mother. As a mother in general. So mothers aren't supposed to be sensual or feel pleasure or feel desire or be happy, be vital, have energy, play with their children. They're not meant to do that and as I worked more and more and more with and taking this Bajuric daily and using the oil and becoming the the woman I knew in my heart to be, not because I was doing identity work or trying to shift or trying to change, just because the activation of the codes within me was shifting my ⁓ embodied, refined femininity. And so my feminine was no longer... ⁓ ⁓ raging storm or a loving Mary. It was all of it in wholeness, in containment and I think we have a lot of belief that in order to be feminine you need to have this very strong masculine container. And the thing is that all women who have grown up in patriarchy and in capitalism do have a strong masculine container. You know how to get up to go to work. You know how to find a house to live in. You know how to drive a car. You know how to ⁓ hunt by going to the supermarket or growing food or whatever it is that you do to nourish your body. So there's a very big difference between knowing how to do these things in the world and doing them in a way that doesn't going to work can be done in a feminine way, it can be done in a masculine way. How are you getting up? Are you getting up with urgency, with stress, with ⁓ we've got to go, we've got to go, let's get out. This stress and this magnitude of stress and the propagation of stress in your life. Or are you taking slow mornings, reveling in yourself? And slow by the way doesn't need to mean hours of time. It can just mean without that urgency, without that fear of I'm going to be late or I have to do this or I have to get this done. It can mean waking up rested, rejuvenated, feeling great for the day. It can wake up feeling your body, gentle, slow movements, just to activate, just to bring you online. It can be waking up and cuddling, kissing, feeling yourself. It can mean all of this pleasurous, sensuous, sensuous... micro movements of change that bring you online in a different way. It can mean massaging your body. It can mean not putting toxic chemicals and endocrine disruptors on your skin, hair, nails and feet. It can mean adoring yourself and adorning yourself as a result. It can mean this natural shift into changing how you dress and how you feel and how you put yourself together. Not for anyone, but because you feel that this is the expression of you that wants to be seen, known and heard. can mean shifting your center of gravity from here to down into your pelvis into your womb. It can mean just throughout the day, one, two, three minutes, you're connecting into your womb space. It can mean that you might open up and activate your sexuality, but your sexuality might not mean sex or orgasm or something like that, but it also might. And it can mean that as a woman, who is supposed to be beyond her prime in the patriarchal, masculine and misogynistic version of womanhood that you are reclaiming your erotic life force, vital energy and creating the life, the love, the body, the connection, the business, the book, the painting, the art, whatever it is from a place of embodiment within you and as you naturally become more and more embodied you you are overflowing and the creation of something into the world So as you are overflowing, your creation and your desire to create something into the world naturally arises, naturally is created. It's not a push any longer. It's a following of the synchronistic, spontaneous urge to create that is coming from your body, that is coming up from within you and out. And even that hand gesture that I did, it might be different for you. It might be coming down and out. And so when I found that... different aspects of my femininity want to be expressed differently. Sometimes it is through that heart space or through the voice. This podcast is an expression of my feminine embodiment. And as I continue to come ⁓ and overcome the trauma and the PTSD that I've been through and I use the codes of sensuality and sexuality within my femininity and embody that and bring that into my body, the more that my voice opens, the more that I want to speak. And as my womb powers up, so too does my voice, so too does my expression into the world. And so this for me is a natural expression point. However, when I created Phenxx and the business and the oils came to me and I can talk to that in a different episode. Just tune into that. go deep into how that all happens and the way I received it. That was a downward motion. That was a birthing motion. So coming deep into the, to the, you know, receiving that through my body down and birthing it out of me. And so we have, And then there are some times when I'm in feminine flow and it's more like there's nothing coming into the body necessarily. It's me moving into the flow of that which is outside and external, the synchronicities and the resources and the help and all of this that comes through as if I'm flowing down water. And that's the other thing about femininity and the embodiment of feminine. It will start very... deeply connecting with water in a different way. Working with that water and the energy of water in a way that maybe you cannot if you're outside of your body or if you're in a patriarchal or capitalist or misogynistic ⁓ viewpoint of yourself. Because not only is it that we are made of water and we are water beings ⁓ and that we have flesh covered water, but the water of women We are the water bearers. We are the activators of waters and the receivers of waters. We carry our children in water. We work so deeply with water at a subconscious level, even when we're asleep, that once we wake up and once we embody, The way and the connection point into water becomes a creation mechanism and an ally in creation as well. An ally in identity shifting and opportunistic ways of working with the quantum field is via our connection and our innate beingness in water. ⁓ For many women who have had lifetimes in ⁓ bodies of water in this lifetime, or like a different planet of water and connection, ⁓ they often feel that and can connect into that really, really easily. There were certain points that I wanted to make in this podcast. There were certain points that I wanted to make in this podcast. Look it's so hard when you sit down to try to do this kind of thing from the head. what comes out of my mouth and what comes out to be shared. just have to trust the transmission and I have to trust that this is what you were here for. There was a lot of different themes in this particular ⁓ podcast. This episode was a little meandering, but sometimes it's the meandering and sometimes it's the connecting of subjects that don't normally get spoken about together. They can activate a different aspect of you and a different way of thinking and being. However, think what's most important in listening to this episode and any episode where you are listening to someone who is defining the feminine and moving into the feminine landscape more and more and into the creation space and this creation of this new earth and this new reality for women and for all beings. is it so much less about the words and so much more about the field that they are coming from and the frequency that they are emitting. And if you connect to that person, they have something for you. They're not your guru and they're not your savior and they're not going to change your life, but they have an opportunity to activate for you. In my case, I I very strongly don't want to work with women to activate them in any particular way around coaching or masterminds or ⁓ helping them to believe that they are what they're not. ⁓ For me it is around offering the portal to that and to the codes that have transformed my life via the plant medicine that has helped me more than anything else. And so if you would like to check that out there is a discount code in the show notes below and you can ⁓ look at the Fenex website and see which oil designed to activate various different parts of the feminine archetypal spectrum might be most attractive to you at this time. Yeah. Well thank you for joining me on that meandering journey and hopefully, hopefully you weren't lost in the process and you got something very valuable out of it. Have an amazing day and See you for the next episode.