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Strange & Vivid Dreams | The Christian Reeve Podcast #170 · The Christian Reeve Podcast

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Hello and welcome back to the Christian Reef podcast.
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I'm going to start treating this like a show.
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Now it we've gotten we've gotten past two years with this show
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and I've been listening to a lot of different podcasts from a
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realm realm range of different Industries and everything from
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wrestling to just radio related content, you name it.
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And you know, I've always done that.
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I've always been into different types.
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Of podcasts. I mean, I think it's kind of
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like a two-fold thing for me in the sense that on one hand.
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I just enjoy listening to podcasts but also I always find
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it quite inspiring and it gives me ideas and I know I kept
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banging on and on and on about, you know, doing more discussion
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based content. But for some reason, something
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was holding me back. And I think what it was was this
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kind of like, fear of If doing this kind of content, I felt
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like, for some time, you know, I might need to like get someone
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else on the show. Just to kind of Quasi interview
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me or discuss the topic and hey, I've not completely thrown out
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that idea. I think that it's a very viable
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idea and there's a lot of people that have been on the show
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before hand that I'd love to have back on and to discuss
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various topics and what not But and I've also tried to have a
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co-host in the past and just unfortunately didn't work out
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but yeah I just thought like is it interesting enough to have a
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show where it's just one person speaking?
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I don't know because there is shows that I'm aware of podcasts
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that I'm aware of that are successful where it's just one
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person speaking. But I personally don't like to
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listen to those sorts of shows. I just feel more interested in
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conversations and I kind of feel like, I mean, I don't want to
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like, predict this from my own episodes, but I kind of feel
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like logically Any episodes I do with people?
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Will perform better than episodes that I've done on my
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own but I don't know because you know I released an episode
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recently quiet, quitting your job which was just a random
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topic that I saw online that I found quite interesting.
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So I released it as a bonus episode.
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And you know, I still did research but I did research on
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the day and it was very kind of thrown together, like okay,
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here's something, let's see if this interests, people gets
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people thinking and, you know, I think it's a hot button topic.
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It's you know, whenever you're talking about workplaces and
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stuff that's going to get people, you know, interested
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talking for better or worse, but In general, doing discussion
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episodes. I found the.
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They do seem to actually have good numbers on YouTube Spotify
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or whatever the case may be comparatively.
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So even sometimes better than some of my episodes where I'm
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speaking with people. So, I think, I guess my
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long-winded way of getting to the point here because as you
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know, it takes me a while sometimes and I try my best not
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to get it to just kind of like, talk insane, you know, nonsense.
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Clay. But I kind of feel like, maybe
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if I'm gonna do a podcast or continued to keep doing a
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podcast, then I have to be able to get better at just talking
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randomly about whatever, but also trying to keep it
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structured to some extent because I listen to a lot of
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shows that don't have that structure.
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And it's just a bit of a mess and it's kind of infuriating to
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follow us or like it's you you have to have that structure in
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any podcast that you do. You have to have that structure.
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Don't worry. What I will get to the topic
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very soon for today's show and I'll break down what I'm going
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to talk to you about. But I just wanted to kind of
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highlight this at the beginning and I think this will be
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probably the last time I actually talked about like, oh
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hey guess what I'm doing, another discussion episode.
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And now I'm going to spend the next five or 10 minutes
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explaining why I think that this is risky or why I'm afraid of
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it. Whatever.
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But yet to tell you the truth, the reason I'm afraid of it is
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because I just feel like I'm boring.
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I feel like if it's just me, that's not interesting, but
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they're not, I don't know. I really don't know.
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The numbers. Suggest something else.
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The numbers for the discussion episodes, suggest that maybe
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these episodes are interesting and if that's the case, I'm more
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than happy to do them. Because one really, really good
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thing about these discussion episodes is that they kind of
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give me an out. If I have an instance where a
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guest drops out or I just don't have a guest or something, then
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I don't have to rely on Desperately Seeking guests.
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I can also, you know, explore a topic research, a topic and go
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at length of it and you know, former podcast based on that
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recently. I've started doing freelance
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writing again I never Stopped, you know, I don't I was always
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doing I've always been doing freelance copy writing and
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writing in general since 2018 but recently I had a shift I was
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doing freelance sales and then I shifted in the space of a month
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right back to writing articles again.
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But the reason I bring this up is that every article that I
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write, I do extensive research for and it kind of reminded me a
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lot. Of how I structure a podcast to
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be honest. It's a similar structure and I
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find that really interesting because when you're building an
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article or at least the way I build it is, I don't necessarily
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go from top to bottom. I kind of like, find a bunch of
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headlines that make sense throughout that article and kind
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of piece it together slowly. And once I've got the basic
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structure of what I want to write, then I start writing, you
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know, and that's you know, Article was pieced together
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differently but that's essentially the same way that I
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approach it each and every time. And the way I approach a podcast
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is kind of similar, you know, I'll sit down.
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I think like, what's the point of this particular podcast?
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What is the point of this episode?
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And sometimes I struggle with that, I found recently that
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sometimes, and this happens to me in general conversations,
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well, I'll have moments where I kind of lose my point.
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I lose track. Track of what I'm trying to
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achieve and that's why it helps to have notes and stuff like
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that. You know, always have something
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that helps to guide you you know keep you back on track and
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sometimes it even happens when I have a guest on the show and I
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ask them a question but in the middle of building up the
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question and giving it some context I lose myself.
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Or I lose the question that I'm trying to present to the person
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it happened with one of my guests Arnold or Nord since
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Paul. I was just off that day.
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It was a really, really hot day. I was stressed about different
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things. Maybe I should have rescheduled.
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I wasn't at my best unfortunately and I still you
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know I still think it's a good show and I still put it out
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regardless, but I just felt like I let myself down here.
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I need to do better next time, you know, I need to be on it all
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times, but basically my point is I'm trying to avoid doing that
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losing myself like tryna stay. As focused as possible and not
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deviate Too Much. From the point I'm trying to
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make or lose myself because while it might be good to Lose
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Yourself, sometimes in a topic at the end of the day, you know,
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you don't you don't want to completely lose it and then
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you're just rambling and that's kind of my point.
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I don't want to ramble and I guess this is just like an intro
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to this this episode where I have been ironically rambling.
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But I just wanted to give you some context about why I'm going
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to sort of start doing more and more of these discussion
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episodes and that leads me to well, the beginning of a new
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series, really. I've been planning this dream
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series. I don't know how many parts this
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going to be, but I've already got some topics in mind and out
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of all of them. This one is a topic that is a
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bit more fun. Fun.
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Not to say that the others won't be fun, but they're a bit more
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serious and a bit more scientific.
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Whereas, this one is just kind of I don't know how to put this.
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Random maybe if I explain some of it, some of the topics that
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I'm going through. So today's topic is strange and
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vivid dreams, weird, and unusual dreams.
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That I've had throughout my life ones in particular.
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That I recall, because I don't know when it comes to dreams,
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sometimes I remember them, but most of the time, I forget them
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but these dreams. I've remembered one of the
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dreams I had recently actually, but we'll get to that at the
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end. But most of these dreams I've
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held onto for one reason or another, and I thought it might
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be interesting to share them with you, but to also maybe kind
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of discuss what the point behind the might be as well.
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Because I know that was one idea I had for a dreams topic was to
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kind of explore the meanings of dreams and I think I might do
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that in. In some shape or capacity, I
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don't know if I've mentioned it before, but I suffer from sleep
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paralysis and to, or acute extent, also sleep apnea.
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So that will be one of the topics that will be coming up in
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this dream series, or sleeping dream series.
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I think I'm going to call it. And then this, this is the first
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part in a strange and vivid dreams.
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And then I can't remember off the top of my head, I got it
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written down behind me, but I'm going to go behind me.
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There's two other parts to it. Maybe more, I don't know.
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Depends, if you have questions, things that you want to send in
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by all means send them in and maybe I can make a show out that
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as well. But in any case I thought having
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structure on top of structure might help.
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So obviously I'm always going to have a structure for each and
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every show that I do that's just how I roll.
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I'll Panic otherwise I'll just lose myself and helps me to
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guide myself and keeping you keep on the on the right track.
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But I thought I would do this because it's stuff that's kind
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of close to me, close to my to my heart stuff that I'm dealing
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with and have dealt with, throughout my life.
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And that's kind of always been a theme with every topic that I've
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done. I try to explore it from like a
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general perspective, maybe a scientific perspective, if
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there's that angle on it. And also my personal
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perspective, anything that I can share an opinion on the, I've
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personally dealt With or have experiences of I feel like that
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makes for a more interesting show, but that's just my
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opinion. What do I know?
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But this is the first part strange and vivid dreams.
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So why don't we just jump straight into it because of what
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rambled on now, for 12 minutes wasted enough time, if you
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haven't left me already, then thank you very much for getting
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up to this point and yeah, here we go.
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So one of the first dreams that I remember and I can't remember
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when I had this. I think I had this Sometime
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around my early twenties. Maybe the dream is basically
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when I, when I was younger I used to go to a lot of skate
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parks. I did skateboarding for about
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seven or eight years started. When I was 11 years old and I
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think I stopped around 17 18 picked up briefly when I was at
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Uni again. But basically it was a thing
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that I did in my teenage years. Anyway there are particular
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skateparks that I went to Near where I lived.
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And also up in London, where I grew up and I suppose it's
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inevitable that, you know, you spend enough time in certain
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places they're going to become part of your dreams.
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I mean that's happened in plenty of other dreams.
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I've had where I've kind of been in a building or seen a building
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or a house or something that has remnants Of things from real
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life. Or it feels like somewhere I'm
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familiar with but it's not. There's been other times when
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I've been in a place where I'm absolutely certain that it's a
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place that I've been before within the dream and sometimes
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in the dream I'll recognize like oh this is such and such place
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and I'll actually maybe even realize in the dream that hey,
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I'm Dreaming. This is from The Real World and
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I'm actually in dream state. What will happen more often than
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not is I'll be in the building or in the ASA, wherever it is.
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And I'll be like, oh, that's not quite right?
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And that's different and that doesn't look quite right.
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Anyway, this particular dream was about a skatepark that I
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used to go to. That was quite close to
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somewhere that I lived actually at one point and for the most
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part, the skatepark resembled in the dream, what it looks like in
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real life or at least at the time.
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But the gaping difference, From buildings perspective, was that
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in the far right corner. There was this random building
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and of course in real life, it's just a skate park with just a
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like, a sort of a high medium level fence, around it, a few
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ramps here and there. It's all metal ramps and that's
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it, not really much else to say. But this building in the corner,
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just kind of sits, then it's one of those flat level.
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Obviously type buildings. It kind of reminded me for the
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UK listeners of this show, you may recall when you were growing
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up. There was those temporary
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buildings that they always said we're temporary.
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But now they've been there for like 20, 30 odd years so they
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were actually just cheap buildings that they never
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intended to create maybe at one time.
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They actually planned to replace that spot with a real building
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and that was actually just a temporary fix.
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But in any case those Temporary buildings.
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Weren't each and every single School seemingly because many
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primary school kids and even secondary school kids have
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spoken about having memories of temporary buildings that it
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makes me laugh because it's like, oh, okay, so that's just
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something they had everywhere then I guess.
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All right, then but anyway, this building in this dream, sort of
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resembled that. And it was kind of like the
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Doctor Who Tardis in the sense that it's bigger on the inside,
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looks like a small tiny square like building.
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But It's much bigger on the inside but we'll get there.
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The skatepark looked different in real life.
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It's a metal skate park. I do remember when I was a kid
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actually that sometimes in the middle of summer, if you fell
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down on the ramp and obviously some metals which attracts the
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heat it would hurt so much, your arms would literally burn if you
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want it. And of course, we would all have
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our shirts off and staff wearing shorts.
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So we would burn I'm more so fun times and I remember you know
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falling on on metal ramps hurts quite a bit.
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Hello siren ruining my podcast. I'd have no luck.
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I live right next to a main road so I just have to deal with it.
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There you go. It probably won't sound as loud
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for you but for me it's deafeningly loud anyway.
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I remember the pain of falling on these ramps, wasn't that bad?
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You get used to it but, you know, it was painful enough.
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In this dream. However, all the ramps were made
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of wood and, you know, falling on wood is not as painful as
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falling on metal in real life. But in the dream, obviously, it
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had that kind of experience of, you know, when nothing hurts.
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I find this happens a lot in dreams, there's several tropes
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that happen happen in dreams. Some of them include inability
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to run or running really slowly. Or you know you're trying to get
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away from the monster or whatever.
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And you just can't All it will be time moving differently or
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just things in the real world that work.
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In the way that they work. Do not apply in dreams
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seemingly. And so I remember in the dream
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instead of being on skateboards and bicycles and stuff like that
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we were all on like children's bicycles.
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Like tricycle that you know those little things that
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toddlers to cycle on we were all riding on those. for some
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reason, and I seem to be the only one falling over I think
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but no one cared. No it wasn't embarrassing or
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anything like that. I do remember in the dream being
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worried of that but then I immediately realized it didn't
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matter because my bigger fear of falling over and hurting myself
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was was, you know, is why wasn't wasn't something to be to be
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scared off because it just didn't happen.
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So I'm just kind of like, okay. All right, then this is odd.
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I don't think in the dream I'd realized.
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The dream. So I was just sitting there
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like, what's going on? What is this?
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Anyway, I sort of throw the the bicycle way and walk over to the
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building. I don't know what my rationale
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was. I guess I'm just kind of like
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what's going on. I want to explore.
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What's in this building. I've always been like that as a
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person too curious for my own good.
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I always just want to know. Nosy maybe is the word anyway
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and walk into the building and I recalled that it was just a
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series of various different hallways, with massive windows,
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and it just went forever, just keep walking around.
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Remember that was kind of like blue carpets.
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Those awful blue carpets that you sometimes got in those
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school buildings. It just looked like school
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buildings, like the connecting school buildings that look a
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senior score primary school or something like that.
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Not bad or terrible in any way, just unimaginative and You know,
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it's just boring, corridors, I guess but then suddenly I walk
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out of a particular door and lo and behold, I'm in the middle of
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the ocean and I look up and there's a huge mountain.
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So this is where the big cliche comes.
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So I'm looking at this mountain and then at some point I attempt
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to start climbing it. And I think I got about a
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quarter of the way up and then boom.
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I wake up the naturally and I've Didn't the meaning of that, but
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I assume that the meaning is supposed to be something along
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the lines of, you know, I have this obstacle in my life that I
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need to overcome. And, you know, that the Journey
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of a Thousand Miles begins with a single step, you know, that
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kind of stuff. But I never really looked into
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it but I just figured it was something like that or maybe
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just a really, really odd dream. You know, sometimes you just get
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our dreams. But one thing that's interesting
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and I've seen this with dreams, like, you know, losing your
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teeth, because I have a lot of Dreams.
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Actually, that's reminded me because I'd forgotten about
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this. I have so many dreams where I
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lose teeth. It's bizarre, and it feels so
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real as well. I know, they'll always be a part
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of the dream, where I sort of walk into a bathroom and
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desperately try and like, put all the teeth back in my mouth,
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fix it. And then, the weird thing about
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it is in the dream, it will fix it.
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Self and I'll suddenly become again and then I'll wake up
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weird. But my point with that is that
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when I looked into the interpretations of why, what it
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means to lose your teeth within a dream, there was like, a
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hundred different interpretations.
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So I don't know when it comes to interpreting dreams and maybe
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that's something we can look up. One day as a topic for this
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series. I don't know, let me know your
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thoughts on that. I don't know where to begin, you
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know because some of them sound plausible, some of them sound
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kind of outlandish and some of them conflict with each other
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and they say the opposite of each other.
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So it's really Hard to tell like where you stand with that stuff.
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Anyway, let's move on. I've had a lot of dreams, like
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horrible dreams, and that's going to form to the rest of
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this podcast. This is a very short dream.
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I had a dream about a I guess like a serial killer or
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something like that and they're running around with it like a
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knife or something like that. It looks like a large dagger and
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they're trying to kill Kill me, but the thing is normally in a
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dream like that you'd be terrified.
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I wasn't scared at all. I remember being a bit weirded
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out by the freakiness of this, you know, killer.
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But at the same time, I wasn't concerned at all.
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I didn't have that impending doom like feeling that you
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sometimes, get in those dreams where you feel like, I don't
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know, don't catch me. Like, if you catch me, you going
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to kill me, you know, that kind of fear.
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I didn't have. and I distinctly remember, there's a really weird
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part of the dream where we're in, like, a massive I don't
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know, like one of those old style School gyms or something
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like that. You know, the ones that are like
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built in the probably in the 70s or whatever and they've never
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changed. They've just always looked the
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same. And for some reason, there was a
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piano in the far corner of one of them and I chose to run and
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hide behind the piano. And then the killer I sort of
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look up at one point, The Killers walking towards me and
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the next day, you know, turn it's like a horror movie.
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I turn look to my left and the Killer's looking at me smiling.
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And and then I wake up, I think and I wasn't scared even when I
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woke up. I was just like, what was that
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about but what was the point of that?
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What's and that's kind of the frustrating thing is, I always
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wake up from these dreams thinking that what is the
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purpose of this? What does this mean?
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I would love to know. What this means because it means
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nothing. Maybe it's just a wild ride and
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it's fun. But I kid you not some of these
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dreams feel very, very real disturbingly.
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So sometimes they weird me out for a long time.
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They freaked me out and this next dream.
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Is the worst dream I've ever had in my life.
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I remember it vividly and I think the main reason other than
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the dark horrible themes the main reason why I remember it is
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because it feels like the plot of a horror movie.
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And I sleep for sometime, I thought about maybe turning this
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into a bucket actual screenplay for for a horror movie but I'm
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just sharing it on this podcast. If someone wants to make it into
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a movie, go right ahead. But I don't know.
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Let me know in the comments. What you, what?
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You think of this. So, I had this horrible dream
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where I'm walking in some Woods, very, very tall trees.
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It's one of those kind of forests, you could kind of lose
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yourself in, and I appear to be with school friends.
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Friends. And one thing I just want to say
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on a side note, is a lot of the time in my experience.
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When I've had people, I know in dreams, it will never be done.
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Never quite look like how they look in real life.
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Sometimes they'll be exactly how how they look in real life, but
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like, maybe their personalities different or something like
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that. I, they never just their actual
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selves. In this dream.
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It was more or less spot on one of them was someone.
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I recognize the other one. I couldn't really distinguish
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but I understood in the dream that okay.
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These are people that I go to school with us or something like
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that. And I remember that it was three
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of us and they were walking slightly ahead of me and I
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remember feeling a sense of like fear and doom like we shouldn't
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be walking into this Forest. Like this is dodgy.
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We should keep going. But it was literally like a
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horror movie like and like think about how many horror movie pots
25:13
of your scene where there's like three characters or four
25:16
characters and there's one person saying no no, we
25:18
shouldn't go there man. Like what if this happens is
25:21
exactly like that but like I felt like a deep kind of Pending
25:28
dread within the dream and I recall that we got to something
25:33
looking like a wooden cabin, which had these like glass panel
25:40
there, like a big, huge window, glass panel, see-through door.
25:46
And I remember looking at it and instantly saying, to the friends
25:49
in the dream, like we shouldn't go near this, this is dangerous.
25:53
We should head back and they were kind of like, mocking me in
25:56
a kind of friendly. Leeway like oh ha ha.
25:58
Don't be such a fraidy. Cat.
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There's nothing to be scared of excetera but I remember thinking
26:03
like in the dream. No, no, no, this is serious.
26:06
This is real. We need to get away from this.
26:10
Anyway. We eventually woke up to the
26:13
cabin, they kind of run inside and before I can actually I tell
26:18
a lie so there was no that window that I just explained the
26:22
window. Door thing.
26:23
Wasn't actually the entrance there was even an Open Door.
26:27
All I could just open space that you can walk in like a.
26:30
I think it was just pitch black actually, but when I walked into
26:33
the house, that was it, then I saw that window pane see-through
26:38
door thing and Italy. There was like a switch, you
26:43
know, like how sometimes in Dreams, they're stuck.
26:45
A kind of It doesn't move like a, like, a normal story or
26:50
normal life works, you know, it's like a shift almost and now
26:55
there's another shift that occurs in this dream, but in
26:57
this particular moment, it goes from me being concerned to them
27:02
behind that window, pane glass dorm my friends and the dream
27:06
screaming. Same how power powered like
27:09
please help us. You know, and I'm desperately
27:11
trying to get to them and I can't get to them and In the
27:16
dream, it sort of implies, I can't see them but it implies
27:19
that there's like Killers behind them trying to get them and I
27:23
can't get to them then another shift occurs.
27:26
So we go from that. It's almost like skipping a
27:29
scene in a movie. You know what just happened.
27:32
I then skip to what looks like a Old 18th century school or
27:39
something like that? Like a, it's like a period drama
27:44
almost. And it looks like it's an
27:46
all-girls school for like maybe young girls between the ages of
27:52
like 11:15, something like that, and they're all standing on like
27:57
american-style bleaches, and it kind of looks like a class photo
28:02
something like that. and, But then it kind of also looks like
28:08
maybe like an assembly like a serious assembly by immediately
28:13
in the dream. Link it to the events that just
28:16
happened before. I'm like hang on.
28:18
There's a connection here like something terrible has happened
28:22
and from what I understand of the dream it kind of implies
28:25
that that Cabin in the Woods, maybe has been back home to
28:32
terrible deeds and it's connected with this Like Girls
28:34
School. and, Like when I remember looking at the faces of
28:41
the girls, in the crowd on the bleachers, some of them had
28:45
like, Samba looking faces, like to suggest that like dark and
28:49
terrible. Things have happened.
28:51
And I remember there was like a pint Thor, you know, like those
28:55
things that you get in commencement speeches or
28:59
whatever, when people were speaking a stand it was one of
29:02
them and there's like a teacher who's talking about the events.
29:05
By can't quite hear what they're saying that they're not really.
29:09
Making any sense that just saying like terrible, something
29:12
Terrible's happened at a. Then I wake up, which is very
29:17
frustrating because I was like, well, I wanted to know more.
29:19
I want to investigate the dream, you know, if this were a movie,
29:23
this would feel like the beginning of the movie.
29:25
So, I'm just wondering what's going on, but in all
29:29
seriousness, like I had a very disturbing feeling.
29:32
When I woke up, it felt very real.
29:36
Surreal would be a better word and every now and again I'll
29:41
have a dream like that and normally I've noticed a
29:45
connection between having those types of dreams and then things
29:51
I've sort of done for them from the night before.
29:53
So, for example, if I didn't I went to bed at a weird time.
29:58
Then I'm more likely to have a nightmare like that if I was
30:02
drinking the night before, I'm more likely to have nightmares
30:06
whenever my pattern is interfered not Pat, sleeping
30:10
pattern is interfered with. That's when I have those dreams
30:14
and I always seem to dream or at least it feels like I'm dreaming
30:19
in the morning. That's the thing, the dream,
30:23
prolongs. And it feels like it's most
30:26
realistic point just, before I wake up there, maybe that's not
30:30
true. I don't know, but that's how it
30:31
feels. And that connects me to a dream.
30:36
I had last night as I record this And I think this is kind of
30:42
the motivation behind me doing this this particular episode and
30:46
sort of prompted me to push forward, this dream series.
30:50
As I mentioned at the beginning of this show, I suffer from
30:53
sleep paralysis and sleep apnea. And I will, at one point.
31:00
Do an extensive episode on both of those topics and tell you
31:04
about all my experiences with regards to that.
31:08
But the reason why I wanted to bring it up in this episode is
31:13
to kind of illustrate that I've had some days here and there in
31:17
more recent times in more recent years, where it's kind of been
31:22
You know, quite quite prevalent, quite distressing.
31:27
But it's kind of slow down and I'll go into more detail in that
31:33
episode. Let me know if you want to hear
31:35
it but suffice to say it's sort of calm down a little bit.
31:41
But last night was one of the worst bounce.
31:45
I've had in quite a few years. because normally when it happens
31:52
I'm able to sort of calm myself down like I'm consciously aware
31:56
that it's happening but The in this instance it is, you know I
32:02
remember really like jolting myself and really trying to
32:06
force myself to wake up and it was not working and I really
32:08
felt like I was suffocating at one point and in connection to
32:16
that. I also had this dream last night
32:19
which I don't remember, the majority of the dream but this
32:22
is what I do remember and I've written it down here so I didn't
32:26
forget anything. I was sitting at a table
32:29
Surrounded by a few other men. Seems like we were working for
32:35
someone like, there's a manager there that can't quite see, but
32:39
they're there and they're either angry or that this don't like
32:45
us. They don't treat us with any
32:46
respect and wood. I'm just kind of sitting there
32:52
like kind of downtrodden I suppose.
32:55
And this manager basically froze, like a severance package
33:00
in the form of a pay packet at the guy beside me.
33:05
It's like one of those old pay packets that you get with, like,
33:08
cash in it and they've written on it, laters, implying that the
33:14
manager is basically serving this as a severance package
33:17
like, Yeah, by claa you're fired.
33:19
Here's your final pay kind. A very kind of that distasteful
33:22
way of firing someone and I looked at that and then look
33:26
back at the table and then the boss throws, one at me and I
33:31
looked down at it and then I sort of look to the guy next to
33:35
me and he kind of goes. Yep.
33:37
Like, you know, guess you're fired too kind of thing then I
33:41
wake up, although I didn't wake up.
33:44
Normally did I, I experienced that bout of sleep, paralysis
33:49
and sleep apnea. yeah, and it sucked but hey it prompted me to
33:57
do this episode and You know. I don't know that we'll ever
34:06
really know the definite, the point of Dreams, especially our
34:11
strangest and most vivid dreams, but I like to think that Whether
34:17
they have a point or not, they do demonstrate that the mind is
34:22
always working and processing things.
34:26
And whether that's subconsciously or consciously I
34:29
can only be a good thing, you know, I read recently as do some
34:35
research with regards to dreams and I read something that said
34:38
that one of the ways that you can help yourself with sleeping
34:42
is to write things down on a piece of paper that you're To
34:47
figure out in your mind, the problem, basically, doing if
34:50
you've got problems that you need to solve the best thing you
34:53
can do before. Going to sleep, is to write down
34:57
either some thoughts or an answer or something to those
35:00
problems on a piece of paper. And then put it down and then go
35:05
to sleep. Because then your brain will
35:08
essentially like stop trying to solve the problem, which in turn
35:14
will prevent you from staying awake because that's always a
35:17
danger, isn't it? When you're when you're up at
35:19
night and your brain is still racing and you just can't stop
35:24
thinking and it's, it's great. Sometimes if you're a creative,
35:28
you know, you can use that to your advantage, but sometimes
35:30
it's just not useful at all. Sometimes, it's Very distressing
35:35
and it's I don't know. You just sit in there and you're
35:38
just thinking about things that happened years and years and
35:41
years ago or you thinking about things that you're dealing with
35:44
in your life at that point in time and you can't change them.
35:48
So you just sit in there with your thoughts, getting anxious
35:52
getting worried and concerned because you can't sleep
35:55
properly. And you're just like, what do I
35:58
do with this? I don't know what I'm supposed
36:01
to do and we I would like to think that you're supposed to
36:05
try and address those problems if at all possible.
36:08
It seems very logical, doesn't it?
36:10
And certainly all the information online about dreams
36:14
seems to suggest that The more anxious dreams we have or the
36:20
more stressful dreams. We have, they're supposed to
36:24
represent things, they're supposed to be like messages
36:26
telling us like, hey, you need to do something about this thing
36:30
that you're worried about concerned about or, you know,
36:34
whatever the case may be. But then it also seems to be as
36:37
I mentioned before a response to physical physiological changes.
36:42
So if you drastically change your sleeping, Typing pattern,
36:46
or if you find yourself drinking for to lay or your stay up past
36:51
your bedtime or something like that, then it can just escalate
36:54
into completely messing your sleeping pad and then causing
36:57
you to have nightmares. It's weird.
37:02
You know? I mean, I don't really have
37:04
nightmares such. I have these like weird dreams,
37:07
but I never really wake up feeling scared.
37:11
There's only one instance I've had of that, which I'll cover in
37:15
the sleep paralysis. / sleep, apnea Episode.
37:19
So, you'll have to wait to see that to listen to that, but As I
37:26
recall, that's the only instance that I can think of where it's
37:29
actually happened. I've woken up yet sweating and
37:33
stuff like that, but not really in relation to nightmares.
37:36
It's just a lot of the time. The only time I've ever really
37:39
like, woken up scared is whenever I've had a bout of
37:42
sleep paralysis and that's not because of the dream that the
37:46
concern for me, is, you know, waking up not being able to wake
37:50
up like having something stunting, my ability to wake up.
37:55
It's terrifying to be honest. Then again, what will cover it
38:01
in more detail in more detail more detail.
38:04
I never know how to pronounce things properly when we get
38:08
there to that episode. But you know, let me know your
38:12
thoughts on on this episode. I know it was a shorter episode
38:16
and I kind of feel like, maybe it's not as good as I thought it
38:21
would be. I thought I could share a lot of
38:22
dreams and be like, hey, this is really interesting, isn't it?
38:25
But now I'm listening back to it and I'm like, It's the ramblings
38:29
of a Madman. But I don't know.
38:33
Everyone has different opinions. These are just my thoughts and
38:35
feelings on these dreams. Let me know your thoughts and
38:38
feelings. Let me know.
38:38
If you have any questions related to this topic.
38:43
As I said I've got a few ideas in mind for this dream series
38:47
very excited to continue doing these discussion-based episodes
38:52
and continue. Moving forward with you know
38:54
different style of content, just going back to that.
38:59
Feel free to send me ideas for things that you'd like me to
39:02
cover, you know, where that stuff that's going on in the
39:05
world right now, or just general topics that I can work around.
39:09
I mean, depending on what the topic is, I might be able to
39:11
find a personal angle to it as well, and be able to share some
39:15
personal Insight or experiences or whatever the case may be.
39:18
Because I feel like that is, is when and topic is really, really
39:22
interesting. When you get personal Insight
39:23
stories experiences things, you can You know, a real that the
39:29
person is sharing about their own life and experiences that
39:32
feels much more interesting than just listening to like I don't
39:35
know. Basic facts but then again, I
39:38
don't know. Maybe that's your thing.
39:39
You know, if you're into basic fact-based style podcast then
39:44
that would be ideal. When can you tell I'm rambling
39:48
yet? It's time to close it down.
39:52
Got one down Christian come on time to end the episode.
39:55
Thank you so much for listening and watching I hope you're
39:58
enjoying the show as much as I am.
40:00
I hope that you enjoy these these discussion-based episodes.
40:04
Let me know if you do let me know.
40:06
If you don't, just let me know. Thank you so much for listening.
40:10
Be safe, be well, and I'll see you in the next one.