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Who is God? | Ep. 4 · As A Man Awaketh Podshare

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SPEAKER_00: Who is God?
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, you know, I figured, hey, I'm making these videos.
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Might as well start with some lightweight questions that no one
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really thinks about these days.
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SPEAKER_00: It's just a side note to our existence.
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SPEAKER_00: Well,
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SPEAKER_00: as you know,
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SPEAKER_00: if you've been listening and watching my recent videos,
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SPEAKER_00: then you know that I don't really have a plan.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't have a script.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't have any notes in front of me, anything.
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SPEAKER_00: I just wait until the day of recording to...
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receive inspiration on what i should talk about and it's really
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not me i'm not
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trying to talk about it it's really me trying to surrender to
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one to what wants to
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SPEAKER_00: express itself through me so here we go who is god well
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SPEAKER_00: Obviously, I don't want to offend anybody.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't want to cause any religious infighting.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't want to trample on anyone else's beliefs.
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This is just my perspective and my observation as far as my
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journey goes up to this very moment.
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SPEAKER_00: And it may change, obviously.
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This journey is very dynamic and certainly the inner healing
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and growth that comes
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SPEAKER_00: with that is something that is always...
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unexpected and always something highly dynamic that often has
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humbled me greatly.
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SPEAKER_00: So over the last few years or so,
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SPEAKER_00: I have been focusing heavily on my own inner healing and primarily
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with the opening of the heart so if you listen to any of my
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previous videos you
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know that our fear our pain is like an armor around our heart
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and our fear our pain
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is basically all the stuff that is preventing us from accessing
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our heart and
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therefore accessing our true self our true essence our soul
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whatever you want to
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SPEAKER_00: call it but
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SPEAKER_00: That which we really are internally at the core level.
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So I've been working very heavily on my own healing and with
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that obviously comes
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SPEAKER_00: the,
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SPEAKER_00: I don't want to say destruction,
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SPEAKER_00: but the decomposition of the ego.
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And the ego is simply an artificial construct that has built
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itself upon the basis
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SPEAKER_00: of our pain and our fears and anxieties and doubts and all that stuff,
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SPEAKER_00: most of which we encountered during childhood.
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SPEAKER_00: So the ego wants to keep us safe.
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SPEAKER_00: The ego wants to keep us in the safe zone.
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SPEAKER_00: And therefore,
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SPEAKER_00: we're never going to,
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SPEAKER_00: at least to the ego's plans,
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we're never going to grow out of that zone and therefore never
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going to achieve our
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SPEAKER_00: highest potential.
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SPEAKER_00: You know,
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you hear it all the time when certain high-performing athletes
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or CEOs say,
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SPEAKER_00: you know,
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SPEAKER_00: your highest potential lies outside of the comfort zone.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's certainly true in my experience.
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SPEAKER_00: So...
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SPEAKER_00: From my perspective,
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SPEAKER_00: as I have undone a lot of these heavy,
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SPEAKER_00: thick layers of fear,
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SPEAKER_00: anxiety,
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SPEAKER_00: worry,
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SPEAKER_00: doubt,
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SPEAKER_00: low self-esteem,
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SPEAKER_00: those kinds of things,
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i am now in the process of getting closer to my core to my soul
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and being able to
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now very clearly distinguish between the voice of the ego and
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the voice of the
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heart now you have probably seen or read or heard about in many
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different cultures
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and many different religions they all talk about the importance
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of the human heart
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SPEAKER_00: right now brother yeshua
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SPEAKER_00: commonly known as Jesus, said that your heart is your access.
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SPEAKER_00: Your heart is the most important aspect of your human being.
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SPEAKER_00: Your heart is the portal to God.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm paraphrasing now, but that's certainly been my experience.
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SPEAKER_00: So as more of these layers of fear and pain have released,
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I'm now starting to open up my heart more and I am now in full
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agreement that the human heart
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once it's healed,
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is your direct portal to that which most people call God.
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And I understand that the word God may be triggering and
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certainly was triggering
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SPEAKER_00: for me for a long time.
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And that's a whole story for another video and certainly for
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other Substack posts
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SPEAKER_00: because it's a deep well.
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SPEAKER_00: But think about all the...
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tremendous atrocities and pain and suffering and misery that
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has been inflicted
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SPEAKER_00: upon our species,
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SPEAKER_00: on mankind,
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SPEAKER_00: under the name of God.
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SPEAKER_00: So now as this great awakening or the great remembering,
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SPEAKER_00: as I like to call it,
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SPEAKER_00: is starting to happen,
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SPEAKER_00: we see people connecting with that universal life force.
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SPEAKER_00: They feel it.
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SPEAKER_00: It's within them.
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SPEAKER_00: It's starting to express themselves through their being.
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SPEAKER_00: And so they're calling it all kinds of other names like source,
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SPEAKER_00: creator,
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SPEAKER_00: universe,
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SPEAKER_00: universal life force,
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SPEAKER_00: whatever you want to call it.
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what i have found out through my connection now with that force
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whatever you want
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to call it is they don't really care about names they don't
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care about labels they
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don't really care what we call them and now you might be
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wondering wait you're
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calling god them and they yes and that has nothing to do with
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you know the the
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SPEAKER_00: liberal bs that we're being exposed to now um in my experience
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SPEAKER_00: What I have found is that God is a family.
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It is our divine family from where we all come from,
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from where our souls come from.
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We have a divine father,
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we have a divine mother,
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and we have divine brothers and sisters.
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SPEAKER_00: So that is...
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SPEAKER_00: who God is to me.
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SPEAKER_00: That is how they have shown themselves to me.
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SPEAKER_00: And that, for me at least, put a lot of pieces together.
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SPEAKER_00: Because we know creation is both male and female.
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And the Bible tells us that we were created in the image and
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likeness of God.
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SPEAKER_00: So,
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SPEAKER_00: If that is true,
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SPEAKER_00: and if God was just a man,
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SPEAKER_00: as most people refer to him,
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SPEAKER_00: then we would only have men running around on this realm.
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But we have women,
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and we have brothers,
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and we have children,
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and we have families.
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SPEAKER_00: That is our species.
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SPEAKER_00: That is the expression of our species.
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SPEAKER_00: We have men, women, children, brothers and sisters.
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SPEAKER_00: We have families.
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SPEAKER_00: That's how we procreate.
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SPEAKER_00: That's how we create.
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That's how we bring forth the universal life force in the shape
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of a human,
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SPEAKER_00: of a man and a woman.
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SPEAKER_00: So there's a lot of talk about the Divine Mother coming back,
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and it depends on how far down you go some of these rabbit
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holes that the Divine
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Mother had been suppressed for a long time due to some very
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complex spiritual and
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SPEAKER_00: psychotechnological things that supposedly were going on for a long time.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm not going to go into that.
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SPEAKER_00: But we can see even in nature, right?
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SPEAKER_00: Obviously, there is male and female.
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SPEAKER_00: There is no expression of both within one, right?
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SPEAKER_00: So as some of these pains and fears have been released from my body...
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SPEAKER_00: Now there's a much less noise in the head because the ego,
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SPEAKER_00: like I said,
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SPEAKER_00: is based on the fear and the pain.
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SPEAKER_00: And so as long as there's fear and pain,
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there's going to be a lot of noise in the head that's trying to
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distract you from
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SPEAKER_00: the pain and the fear.
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So as I noticed that as more and more layers of fear and pain
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release from my body,
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SPEAKER_00: that the mind gets quieter.
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SPEAKER_00: Now, I'm not perfect.
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SPEAKER_00: The ego is still there.
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SPEAKER_00: Don't get me wrong.
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SPEAKER_00: It's a very stubborn sucker.
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SPEAKER_00: But almost every day I'm chipping away at it.
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So it was actually this morning when I was in my early
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meditation and prayer.
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And I had,
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again,
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at that moment,
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I had no idea what I was going to talk about.
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SPEAKER_00: But in my deep meditation and prayer, I connected with our divine family.
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SPEAKER_00: And then the topic of today's talk came to me.
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SPEAKER_00: And I was like...
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SPEAKER_00: Oh, really?
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SPEAKER_00: You want me to talk about that?
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SPEAKER_00: Okay.
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And then I felt a fear in my lower gut,
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sort of in the sacral chakra area.
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SPEAKER_00: Okay.
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SPEAKER_00: And it felt weird.
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SPEAKER_00: It felt foreign to me.
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SPEAKER_00: It didn't feel like a fear that was mine.
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SPEAKER_00: And so I went in there.
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SPEAKER_00: I dug deeper and tried to figure out, okay, what is it?
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SPEAKER_00: Where is it coming from?
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SPEAKER_00: And long story short,
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I discovered that it's the fear that I don't have the authority
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to speak about God.
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SPEAKER_00: And digging a little bit deeper into it,
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SPEAKER_00: I sort of got a flash memory of me.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't know how old I was.
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SPEAKER_00: I mean, two, three, four, five, six years old at the most.
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SPEAKER_00: I was in a Catholic church with my mom.
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SPEAKER_00: She was the only one I saw.
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SPEAKER_00: Maybe my dad was there too.
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SPEAKER_00: My dad is Muslim, so he probably didn't go.
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SPEAKER_00: So I was in this church, and I remember just being overwhelmed, like...
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SPEAKER_00: Wow, what's all this?
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And these sounds and this huge stage with all this crafty arts
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adornment and
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decorations and all this massive celebration and people in the
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rows of these
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SPEAKER_00: benches.
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SPEAKER_00: And so I got the impression that...
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SPEAKER_00: This is what you need if you want to talk about God.
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SPEAKER_00: You have to be a pastor,
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SPEAKER_00: you have to be a priest,
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SPEAKER_00: and you have to be on the stage,
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SPEAKER_00: and you have to go through a certain education,
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SPEAKER_00: and you have to have a church,
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SPEAKER_00: and you have to have all this stuff.
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SPEAKER_00: to talk about God.
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SPEAKER_00: And so,
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SPEAKER_00: you know,
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I don't know how or why I picked up this fear of I'm not good
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enough to speak about
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SPEAKER_00: God.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't have the authority.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't have the education to speak about God.
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SPEAKER_00: I need all this stuff.
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SPEAKER_00: And then maybe I'll be okay to talk about God.
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SPEAKER_00: When in fact...
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you anyone can talk about god your experience of god is within
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you it's in your
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heart all of us have access to it it's just that our pains and
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fears have blocked
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us from that access we don't really know how to get to the core
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heart of our being
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as long as there's fear and pain stopping us from it because
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really the the fear
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and the pain that we feel as children when we are exposed to
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traumatic events
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SPEAKER_00: We feel it in our heart first.
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SPEAKER_00: That's the center of our being.
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SPEAKER_00: This is the emotional center of our being.
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SPEAKER_00: That's where we feel the pain and the fear.
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And as children,
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we don't have any other defense mechanism except shutting it
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down.
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SPEAKER_00: to stop feeling that pain.
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SPEAKER_00: And over the past few weeks,
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I realized some of the things that I had done when I first went
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to elementary
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SPEAKER_00: school.
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I was bullied by the kids and reprimanded by the teachers
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because there was one day
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SPEAKER_00: where I just didn't go back into class.
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SPEAKER_00: I just didn't want to.
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I stood outside and I kept playing on this climbing thing,
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climbing structure.
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And my teacher had to come out and pull me back into class
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because I didn't want to.
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SPEAKER_00: School was so annoying to me.
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SPEAKER_00: And I had all this energy.
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SPEAKER_00: I wanted to express myself.
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SPEAKER_00: I wanted to play.
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SPEAKER_00: I wanted to just be myself.
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And then,
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of course,
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school just suppressed all that and then the bullying and
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stuff.
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SPEAKER_00: And so I remember there was this moment as a kid.
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SPEAKER_00: I think it was in first grade at some point, pretty early on.
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SPEAKER_00: And of course, there were other traumatic events up until that point.
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And I just remember sort of feeling like,
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why is this world so cruel to me?
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SPEAKER_00: What have I done to deserve all this meanness?
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SPEAKER_00: Why is everyone so mean to me?
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SPEAKER_00: And I'm just trying to be a kid.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm just trying to play with people, right?
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SPEAKER_00: And have fun.
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SPEAKER_00: But at that moment, I realized like...
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SPEAKER_00: okay,
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SPEAKER_00: well,
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SPEAKER_00: if everyone's going to be so mean to me,
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SPEAKER_00: you know,
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SPEAKER_00: home,
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SPEAKER_00: there's stress and worry and fear all the time.
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SPEAKER_00: My parents are fighting.
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And then here,
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now I go to school and I have class and I have other kids I
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want to play with.
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SPEAKER_00: But now there are these teachers who reprimand me for being a kid.
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SPEAKER_00: So I'm like, what is this world?
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SPEAKER_00: Why is it so mean to me?
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SPEAKER_00: Why is everyone on my case?
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SPEAKER_00: And why do I keep feeling all this pain from all these people?
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SPEAKER_00: Why do these people keep inflicting pain on me?
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SPEAKER_00: And so I shut down.
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SPEAKER_00: I shut down.
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SPEAKER_00: And then out of that came the drive to be the entertainer.
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SPEAKER_00: I became the class clown.
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SPEAKER_00: I wanted to make people laugh.
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SPEAKER_00: I wanted to be accepted.
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Okay,
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well,
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if I can't just be me and have people accept me for who I am...
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SPEAKER_00: then I'm going to make them laugh.
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SPEAKER_00: And maybe that is going to help me.
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When in fact,
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it was just a coping mechanism for me to express my feelings.
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SPEAKER_00: I thought, okay, well, I can't be myself.
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I can't be my full true self and express my feelings the way
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they are coming out of me.
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SPEAKER_00: I have to shape myself into something else to be...
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SPEAKER_00: accepted in class and accepted in society for expressing these feelings.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's why I had such a drive to be an entertainer.
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SPEAKER_00: So long story short, I wanted to be an actor.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's how I came to America first to be an acting student.
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And then I was also in music,
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I was in the electric guitar,
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and then later on I played drums.
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SPEAKER_00: But that's the whole story for another day.
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SPEAKER_00: All let's say is, let's get back to God.
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SPEAKER_00: And who is God?
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SPEAKER_00: Well, like I said, to me, God is a family.
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SPEAKER_00: We have a father, we have a mother, and we have brothers and sisters.
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SPEAKER_00: Every once in a while,
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SPEAKER_00: the big brothers and sisters,
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SPEAKER_00: they come down here and they try to remind us.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey,
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SPEAKER_00: you,
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just a gentle reminder that you're part of this divine family
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and you're here to
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SPEAKER_00: learn a specific lesson.
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SPEAKER_00: Now,
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SPEAKER_00: I know what my lesson is,
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SPEAKER_00: at least up to this point,
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SPEAKER_00: and I'm not going to get into it now because it's a long story.
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SPEAKER_00: But this is a school here.
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not a very comfortable one and there are certain aspects to it
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that you know if I
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SPEAKER_00: go into it now you would at least it helped me understand the world
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way it is and um but that's i'll save that for another video so
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for now i just
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wanted to share with you that god for me is a family we have a
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father we have a
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mother and we have brothers and sisters so if we were to accept
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that notion then we
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know that all the souls that are running around here with us on
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this realm are our
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SPEAKER_00: brothers and sisters
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SPEAKER_00: And so therefore, there's no need to argue with them.
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There's no need to fight with them about beliefs that we hold
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in our brain,
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SPEAKER_00: in our mind,
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SPEAKER_00: in our ego,
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SPEAKER_00: really.
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SPEAKER_00: Because all the fighting, all the conflict between humans, it's all ego.
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SPEAKER_00: It's all in the ego.
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It's perceived notions of doctrines and brainwashing and
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propaganda and you name it.
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SPEAKER_00: All of it.
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SPEAKER_00: It's all ego.
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SPEAKER_00: But once we start removing the ego,
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SPEAKER_00: once we start releasing the pain and the fears,
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SPEAKER_00: then we get closer to our hearts,
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then we get closer to really feeling life and experiencing life
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the way it's
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SPEAKER_00: supposed to be felt and supposed to be experienced.
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SPEAKER_00: And we remember that, wait a second, I am part of this divine family that
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and you know whether i have chosen to come to this realm or not
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i'm here to learn
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something and until i learn my lesson i'm probably not going to
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be readmitted into
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SPEAKER_00: the family upstairs if you know what i mean so in essence then
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SPEAKER_00: we are all part of that which we call God.
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And many mythical books and some religious texts even talk
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about that,
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although a bit cryptic.
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SPEAKER_00: But at the end of the day,
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SPEAKER_00: I mean,
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SPEAKER_00: there was even a CIA document that has,
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SPEAKER_00: I think last year was released,
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SPEAKER_00: Declassified,
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SPEAKER_00: where the CIA basically admits,
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SPEAKER_00: yep,
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SPEAKER_00: Humanity, everyone's God.
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SPEAKER_00: We're all God.
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SPEAKER_00: So there you go.
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SPEAKER_00: If you want to look that up,
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there was one guy on YouTube that I saw who did a deep dive on
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that document.
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SPEAKER_00: So if you want to go down that rabbit hole, you can.
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SPEAKER_00: So even the CIA has to admit that, yep, guys, everyone's God.
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SPEAKER_00: And so now then, if that is true, then everything else is a distraction.
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SPEAKER_00: Politics, business, finance, you name it, entertainment.
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All the stuff that keeps us busy in the head is all a
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distraction from keeping us
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SPEAKER_00: from going within,
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SPEAKER_00: from keeping us away from our own God connection,
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SPEAKER_00: to reconnect with our divine family.
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SPEAKER_00: Think about that.
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So we live in a world where the entire system is set up for you
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to keep spinning
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SPEAKER_00: your wheels and run on the hamster wheel,
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SPEAKER_00: so to speak,
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SPEAKER_00: right?
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SPEAKER_00: The rat race.
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SPEAKER_00: Never having enough time to inquire about yourself.
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SPEAKER_00: Who am I?
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SPEAKER_00: Why am I here?
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SPEAKER_00: Why am I feeling this?
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SPEAKER_00: What is this experience?
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SPEAKER_00: What is reality?
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SPEAKER_00: And
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SPEAKER_00: So that you don't get to realize your oneness with God.
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SPEAKER_00: That's how we come in here.
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SPEAKER_00: As babies, we're fully open, fully connected.
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We're sort of still in the between space between whatever the
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soul realm is and
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SPEAKER_00: this realm,
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SPEAKER_00: the physical 3D realm.
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SPEAKER_00: We're fully open.
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SPEAKER_00: There's no conscious mind.
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SPEAKER_00: There's no ego.
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SPEAKER_00: Our hearts are wide open.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's why we touch everything.
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SPEAKER_00: We explore everything.
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SPEAKER_00: Because we're curious.
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SPEAKER_00: What is this reality?
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SPEAKER_00: What is it?
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SPEAKER_00: And we're curious.
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We have this glow about our face and this awe and this wonder
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about what is this.
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SPEAKER_00: And we want to learn everything.
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SPEAKER_00: That is how we're supposed to feel.
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That magic of being a baby and being a toddler and coming into
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this world completely with...
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SPEAKER_00: unfettered, untethered curiosity about creation itself.
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SPEAKER_00: That is the magic of being a human.
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SPEAKER_00: That is the magic that we're supposed to be feeling.
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SPEAKER_00: And we can.
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SPEAKER_00: We absolutely can.
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SPEAKER_00: That is the hero's journey.
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SPEAKER_00: Your hero's journey begins once you start looking inside of yourself.
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SPEAKER_00: Once you start looking, okay, what am I afraid of?
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SPEAKER_00: Why am I afraid of it?
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SPEAKER_00: And where did I get it from?
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SPEAKER_00: And then you realize, oh, what's behind the fear?
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SPEAKER_00: Oh, there's a pain.
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Oh,
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when my mother did this and that when I was three years old,
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that hurt,
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right?
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SPEAKER_00: And then I shut down or whatever the case may be.
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SPEAKER_00: So, you know, this work is not easy, obviously.
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SPEAKER_00: It's not for the faint of heart, but you're going to survive.
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SPEAKER_00: I am living proof of that.
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And many of my other brothers and sisters who are walking this
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path with me are
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SPEAKER_00: living proof of that.
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And the more fear and pain you release,
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the more magical your life becomes.
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If you told me last year,
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hey,
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you're going to be making videos and talking about who God is.
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SPEAKER_00: I was like, wow.
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SPEAKER_00: Hold on a second.
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SPEAKER_00: No, no, no.
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Up until this morning,
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I still had that fear about talking about even saying the word
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God.
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So anyway,
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I hope this rant was entertaining,
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if not anything else,
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at least.
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SPEAKER_00: And I'm sure I'll be talking about this topic more as time goes on,
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SPEAKER_00: because obviously there's a lot more to explore.
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SPEAKER_00: So anyway, I hope this was helpful in one way or one shape or another.
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Oh,
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and one more thing I wanted to also say,
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not me,
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but that's coming through now,
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is that...
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SPEAKER_00: I was never fully on board with organized religion.
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SPEAKER_00: I always felt intuitively there's something off about it.
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SPEAKER_00: Something off.
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And like all these rules and regulations and you have to do
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this on that time of
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SPEAKER_00: day and this on that day of the week.
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And all these like mechanistic scheduled things you have to do
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during certain times
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SPEAKER_00: of the year,
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SPEAKER_00: during certain times of the day.
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SPEAKER_00: And now...
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now that I feel this connection none of that stuff matters it
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doesn't matter what
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matters is your own heart connection to that which you perceive
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to be God that's
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all that matters and there are many ways you can get there some
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people get there
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SPEAKER_00: through organized religion and that's perfectly fine if that's your path
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SPEAKER_00: That's awesome.
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SPEAKER_00: Go for it.
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SPEAKER_00: For me, that wasn't my path.
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SPEAKER_00: And, you know, my dad is Muslim.
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SPEAKER_00: My mom was raised Christian or Catholic, rather.
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But,
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you know,
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she abandoned the church because her parents were terribly
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abusive to her.
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SPEAKER_00: So, but anyway, it never sat right with me.
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SPEAKER_00: And I wanted to carve my own path towards God.
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SPEAKER_00: Even though, you know, during my teens I was rather...
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the opposite spectrum of faith and belief we'll talk about that
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some other day but
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I wanted to carve my own path I wanted to experience for myself
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what is God who is
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God and how do I get there where is it where is he or where is
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they right so I
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SPEAKER_00: carve my own path and I feel that I am at the beginning of
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SPEAKER_00: I don't want to even say understanding because understanding is mine.
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SPEAKER_00: But at the beginning of the knowing of what this mystery of God is.
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And I don't think we can ever understand really what it is or
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who it is or where
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SPEAKER_00: they're from or what this whole thing is.
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SPEAKER_00: But that's another hint at the mind will never understand.
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SPEAKER_00: The mind is limited for a reason.
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SPEAKER_00: So we will never understand God with our head.
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SPEAKER_00: And this is why I was like,
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SPEAKER_00: you know,
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SPEAKER_00: all this organized religion,
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it's all sort of trying to fit God into a box and make a bunch
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of rules about it.
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SPEAKER_00: And if you check off this list of things to do,
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SPEAKER_00: then maybe,
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SPEAKER_00: then maybe God will accept you,
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SPEAKER_00: right?
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But all that really matters is you feeling a direct heart
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connection to the
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SPEAKER_00: creator,
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SPEAKER_00: to the universe,
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SPEAKER_00: to God,
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SPEAKER_00: to the divine family,
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SPEAKER_00: whatever is most resonant with you.
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SPEAKER_00: That's what matters.
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I hope that you find it any way,
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shape or form on your journey in this mad world.
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SPEAKER_00: So anyway, thank you for watching.
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SPEAKER_00: I love you.
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Please let me know in the comments what you think is God or
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what you feel is God more so.
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SPEAKER_00: And thanks again for being on this journey with me.
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This is going to be some interesting stuff coming down the
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pipe,
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I have a feeling.
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SPEAKER_00: So anyway, thanks a lot and let me know.