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155. trying to become "HER" again... finding motivation & rebuilding old/new habits · Hot Girl Energy Podcast

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  Speaker 1: Hello you guys, Welcome back to another episode of the
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  Speaker 1: Hawkgirl Energy Podcast. I'm your host, Kaylee, and this is
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  Speaker 1: your weekly reminder that it's a new day, a new week,
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  Speaker 1: a new mindset, and another day for you to become
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  Speaker 1: the hawk Gral energy you want to attract. Hello you guys,
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  Speaker 1: Happy Wednesday. Welcome back to another episode. I took a
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  Speaker 1: bit of a mental health break last week. I have
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  Speaker 1: been going through just a little something.
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  Speaker 2: You know.
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  Speaker 1: I'm really trying to navigate this journey that I'm going through,
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  Speaker 1: and that is dealing with my injury and dealing with
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  Speaker 1: winter blues, and I think it's a really interesting time
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  Speaker 1: in my life and it's not how I really imagine
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  Speaker 1: twenty twenty six was going to start. But I'd rather
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  Speaker 1: be real and raw with you guys than almost like
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  Speaker 1: fake that everything's okay and that I'm having this amazing
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  Speaker 1: motivation and that I'm having this amazing routine that I
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  Speaker 1: typically have. And I'd rather be honest and share why
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  Speaker 1: I wasn't present last week and why I wasn't feeling
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  Speaker 1: motivated to record an episode, and that's because I was
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  Speaker 1: having a very emotional week last week.
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  Speaker 2: I think it was just kind of like one of.
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  Speaker 1: Those weeks where I just got back for my trip
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  Speaker 1: and you know, I thought there was progress with my back.
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  Speaker 2: To be honest, I.
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  Speaker 1: Thought I was seeing like the light at the end
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  Speaker 1: of the tunnel because there was so much progress in
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  Speaker 1: Costa Rica where I felt like my back was like
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  Speaker 1: in a really, really good spot. But it's because I
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  Speaker 1: wasn't doing like the typical things that I do like
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  Speaker 1: at home. Right, Like, one thing that's actually causing the
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  Speaker 1: biggest issue with my back is being on a computer
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  Speaker 1: and being on my phone, which obviously plays a huge
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  Speaker 1: impact to my job, and so I had to order
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  Speaker 1: a standing desk. I have to now basically take forty
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  Speaker 1: five to sixty minute breaks. So every forty five to
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  Speaker 1: sixty minutes, I need to get off my computer do
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  Speaker 1: some standing stretches for my back for my posture until
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  Speaker 1: we can kind of just like rebuild the muscle strength
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  Speaker 1: in my back. So the point is is that I'm
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  Speaker 1: having to adjust so much into my routine that I
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  Speaker 1: don't typically do, so I'm creating new habits for myself.
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  Speaker 1: I'm trying to strengthen this muscle in my back for myself. Obviously,
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  Speaker 1: it's just like not a fun injury to go through,
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  Speaker 1: but I wanted to chat about it in today's episode
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  Speaker 1: and just kind of talk about how I'm trying to
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  Speaker 1: become this version of myself again because I feel like
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  Speaker 1: I have lost a bit of my motivation. I'm trying
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  Speaker 1: to rebuild myself and kind of create new habits for
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  Speaker 1: myself to better myself and get in a better mental
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  Speaker 1: state and just kind of feel myself again, because if
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  Speaker 1: I look at myself, you know, six to seven months ago,
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  Speaker 1: I felt like I had my shit together. You know,
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  Speaker 1: things were great. I was in a good workout routine.
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  Speaker 1: And I think you also realize, you know, how grateful
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  Speaker 1: you are for those little things, like I always write
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  Speaker 1: how great I am to be able to move my
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  Speaker 1: body and wake up to get a workout in and
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  Speaker 1: to wake up early and to go outside for a
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  Speaker 1: walk all that. Like, you don't realize how much those
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  Speaker 1: things mean to you until they're almost taken away from you,
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  Speaker 1: and then you realize how much you actually love and
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  Speaker 1: enjoy moving your body or being outside or you know,
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  Speaker 1: not dealing.
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  Speaker 2: With an injury. Right.
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  Speaker 1: And I don't mean to make this like my whole personality,
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  Speaker 1: like this is what I'm currently going through in my life,
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  Speaker 1: and like, I like to share moments in my life
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  Speaker 1: that I'm going through with you guys, because I want
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  Speaker 1: to make sure that there's someone else out there like
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  Speaker 1: me that might be going through a very similar situation.
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  Speaker 1: And I posted about my back injury, and I think
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  Speaker 1: I had like twenty to twenty five dms about people
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  Speaker 1: going through something very similar where they're going through an injury,
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  Speaker 1: or they're going through a hard time with the winter
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  Speaker 1: season and having a hard time kind of finding themselves again.
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  Speaker 1: So it felt really nice knowing that I wasn't alone
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  Speaker 1: and that there's other people going through it, and also
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  Speaker 1: like getting you know, that positive boost and motivation from
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  Speaker 1: you guys, you know, commenting on my videos saying, hey,
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  Speaker 1: you're going to get through this. I can see the
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  Speaker 1: light at the end of the tunnel, like giving me
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  Speaker 1: the motivation that I need to. So this is why
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  Speaker 1: I love social media, is having such an amazing community
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  Speaker 1: being there to support you and help you through those
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  Speaker 1: hard times. And I'm going through a hard time right
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  Speaker 1: now mentally and clearly physically, and you know, I'm I'm
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  Speaker 1: seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, like
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  Speaker 1: I'm really trying to see the positives during this healing journey,
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  Speaker 1: and I kind of wanted to chat about things that
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  Speaker 1: I have taken into this week specifically, like I'm kind
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  Speaker 1: of creating a fresh start going into this week of
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  Speaker 1: things that I can change and things that I can
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  Speaker 1: do for myself to put me in a better mindset
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  Speaker 1: going into spring, thinking about spring energy, how exciting it
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  Speaker 1: is that there's, you know, a new month happening next week.
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  Speaker 1: And I feel like March is really the month where
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  Speaker 1: we get excited about spring. The snow starts to melt,
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  Speaker 1: the weather starts to get nicer, we want to get outside,
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  Speaker 1: So there's lots of excitement to come in March and I.
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  Speaker 2: Love that month. I love March. I love April.
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  Speaker 1: April's my birthday month, So there's a lot to look
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  Speaker 1: forward to that I'm excited about that I'm excited to
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  Speaker 1: share throughout the podcast. And last week I just needed
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  Speaker 1: a bit of a break, and I think that's okay.
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  Speaker 1: It's good to take breaks, and I'd rather be more
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  Speaker 1: positive on the MIC than negative. But I wanted to
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  Speaker 1: share things that I'm doing to kind of get myself
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  Speaker 1: back to where I want to be, so I think
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  Speaker 1: the first thing that's really important, especially if you're going
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  Speaker 1: through something similar like me, where you're kind of dealing
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  Speaker 1: with a situation where you feel lost or you feel
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  Speaker 1: like you're just like not feeling yourself. Let's think about
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  Speaker 1: what has happened that's different in the past three to
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  Speaker 1: four months. So think about, okay, three months ago, what happened.
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  Speaker 1: Has there been a shift, Has there been a change
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  Speaker 1: in something that has maybe made you feel this way? Right?
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  Speaker 1: So for me, obviously three to four months ago, winter started,
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  Speaker 1: you know, fall ended, winter started, which no one loves winter.
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  Speaker 1: Let's be honest. I like winter for Christmas Day and
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  Speaker 1: that's about it. Soon as January for.
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  Speaker 2: Hits, I'm like, okay, summer can come back. I miss it.
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  Speaker 1: I don't want the snow anymore. So I think winter
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  Speaker 1: has definitely taken a turn for a lot of us.
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  Speaker 1: You know, winter blues is a thing, Winter depression is
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  Speaker 1: a thing, and I think it's kind of left us
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  Speaker 1: feeling trapped inside our homes because we don't want to
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  Speaker 1: leave the house because it's so cold outside. You know,
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  Speaker 1: definitely there's a lack of motivation. Usually around this time
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  Speaker 1: of the year, it's harder to get outside, you know,
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  Speaker 1: go to workout.
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  Speaker 2: Classes, go to the gym. Because it's cold out, nobody
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  Speaker 2: wants to leave their house.
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  Speaker 1: Everybody wants to stay inside, you know, the lack of
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  Speaker 1: fresh air. It's harder to get outside and go for
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  Speaker 1: longer walks when it is very cold out. I'm going
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  Speaker 1: out for like ten to fifty minute walks with my
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  Speaker 1: dog and that's really it. You know, it is getting
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  Speaker 1: nice right now, which is nice to the walks have
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  Speaker 1: been a little bit longer, but not like a forty
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  Speaker 1: five to fifty minute walk that they would typically do
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  Speaker 1: in the summer. And then also just a lack of
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  Speaker 1: social interaction. I think it's very common around this time
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  Speaker 1: of the year where you kind of see your friends less.
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  Speaker 1: At least I'm going through that where, you know, the
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  Speaker 1: odd time we see each other, it's for something that's
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  Speaker 1: happening in someone's life, whether it's you know, a birthday
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  Speaker 1: party or an engagement party, or a baby shower, whatever
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  Speaker 1: the case may be. Like that's kind of the only
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  Speaker 1: thing that's really forcing us to get together because in
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  Speaker 1: the winter, nobody really wants to leave their house.
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  Speaker 2: Like in the summer, we're doing cottage weekends.
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  Speaker 1: You know, we're going out to the restaurant to have
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  Speaker 1: some drinks, or we're going golfing, doing hobbies together. Like
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  Speaker 1: it's a very different situation in the summer, whereas in
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  Speaker 1: the winter it's really like the odd time where we
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  Speaker 1: get together and see each other.
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  Speaker 2: And then another thing that's really changed for me personally
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  Speaker 2: is my back injury.
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  Speaker 1: I injured my back four months ago now, and you know,
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  Speaker 1: it's been a interesting journey in the sense where I
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  Speaker 1: feel like it's been a rollercoaster of progress. So I
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  Speaker 1: feel like I'll come up to the top where I'm like,
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  Speaker 1: oh my god, I'm feeling so good, like I'm seeing progress,
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  Speaker 1: and then eventually, you know, I go down to drop
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  Speaker 1: and it's like, oh, just kidding. It got worse again,
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  Speaker 1: and it's really bad and it's painful, and I need
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  Speaker 1: to do something about it. So I'm kind of going
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  Speaker 1: through waves of this healing journey. But you know, this week,
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  Speaker 1: I'm seeing a lot more positive things because I've made
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  Speaker 1: a lot of adjustments.
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  Speaker 2: Into my routine to accommodate my injury.
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  Speaker 1: Whereas I feel like before I was just kind of
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  Speaker 1: like doing the stretches in the morning and that's about it.
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  Speaker 1: So I've kind of figured out what's triggering the issue,
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  Speaker 1: which is great because I think that's always a hard
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  Speaker 1: one to figure out what's triggering it. So what's triggering
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  Speaker 1: the issue? I now know what can I do to
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  Speaker 1: kind of relieve the muscle from feeling as tight as
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  Speaker 1: it is, and what are treatments that I can do,
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  Speaker 1: you know, physio, sports, massage, therapy, whatever the case may
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  Speaker 1: be to kind of help the muscle out. And then
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  Speaker 1: obviously my routine has changed. Obviously, three to four months ago,
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  Speaker 1: i was waking up early every single morning going to
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  Speaker 1: my pilates classes, getting a good workout in, Whereas now.
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  Speaker 2: I'm not leaving the house, I'm not doing a workout.
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  Speaker 1: And I've had to adapt a new routine to kind
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  Speaker 1: of figure out what is going to work for myself
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  Speaker 1: with this current impact that is kind of controlling my
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  Speaker 1: life essentially, And so obviously, with this injury and with
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  Speaker 1: the changes of my routine, I'm dealing with a lot
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  Speaker 1: of negative thoughts and I'm dealing with a lot of
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  Speaker 1: emotion that's kind of taken over me mentally, and I
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  Speaker 1: feel like I'm losing that positive mindset that I once
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  Speaker 1: had and I'm like, Okay, how do I get that back?
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  Speaker 1: How do I get that positive mindset that I always
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  Speaker 1: want for myself? And a lot of that has to
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  Speaker 1: do with getting back into journaling and to be fully transparent.
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  Speaker 2: I stop that.
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  Speaker 1: I don't know why, maybe because again my emotions and
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  Speaker 1: my thoughts have been taken over me and for some
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  Speaker 1: reason I put important habits aside and didn't think it was.
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  Speaker 2: Important because I thought, oh, I got to fix this
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  Speaker 2: back injury.
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  Speaker 1: But sometimes like you have to think about those small
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  Speaker 1: things that make an impact that can't actually help your
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  Speaker 1: mental health, and I need to get linked.
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  Speaker 2: Back into that.
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  Speaker 1: So this is kind of the phase where now I'm
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  Speaker 1: trying to rediscover how to rebuild.
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  Speaker 2: My identity again.
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  Speaker 1: So what am I going to do to kind of
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  Speaker 1: rebuild this person that I'm trying to become again? So
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  Speaker 1: kind of writing out some promises to yourself. What are
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  Speaker 1: things that you want to adjust into your routine or
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  Speaker 1: into your lifestyle to become that person that you want
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  Speaker 1: to be? Come again, Like, who is that person that
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  Speaker 1: you want to become? Are you the person that wants
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  Speaker 1: to wake up earlier? Are you that person that wants
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  Speaker 1: to eat better?
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  Speaker 2: You know, maybe you've.
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  Speaker 1: Been lacking in your meals and you really want to
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  Speaker 1: try and eat more healthy food again. Maybe it's you
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  Speaker 1: were a gym girl or a pilates girl, and you
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  Speaker 1: were moving your body every single day and now you're not.
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  Speaker 1: Maybe you're not feeling inspired lately because you're not doing
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  Speaker 1: hobbies or you're not following people on social media that
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  Speaker 1: might inspire you anymore, and you just have been feeling
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  Speaker 1: lost and you don't really know how to reinspire yourself.
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  Speaker 1: And maybe you stop journaling and you're feeling lazy and
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  Speaker 1: you stop doing that one little task that might be
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  Speaker 1: bothering you. Those are some things right there that probably
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  Speaker 1: define myself to be fully transparent. And I think these
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  Speaker 1: things are things that I let go because I got
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  Speaker 1: too fixated of just trying to focus on my back,
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  Speaker 1: you know, do the stretches all that, and not focus
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  Speaker 1: on the things that actually bring me joy. And I
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  Speaker 1: need to go back to that and also, you know,
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  Speaker 1: make my back in your focus by getting it better.
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  Speaker 1: So I think kind of creating new promises for myself
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  Speaker 1: where it's like, Okay, what are things that I'm going
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  Speaker 1: to do moving forward to create this new routine for
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  Speaker 1: myself that will work for me?
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  Speaker 2: Now, Like, what can we do that's going to work
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  Speaker 2: with my situation?
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  Speaker 1: How can I make myself better and still do these
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  Speaker 1: things in some shape or form, but in a different
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  Speaker 1: way to adapt to my current situation. So it's kind
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  Speaker 1: of like creating a back to Me series. So I
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  Speaker 1: want to create a thirty day challenge for myself where
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to challenge myself every single day to get
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  Speaker 1: back into doing these habits, whether it's moving my body
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  Speaker 1: every single day in some small way, whether it's walking
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  Speaker 1: or doing a fifteen minute matt workout. You know, I
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  Speaker 1: can't really lift dumbells right now, so I'm trying to
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  Speaker 1: just do like low impact body movement just so that
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  Speaker 1: my body is still getting some movement in. And I
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  Speaker 1: actually found that form Sammy Clark's platform, which.
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  Speaker 2: I've definitely talked about in the past.
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  Speaker 1: I've been using for years, and I didn't realize that
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  Speaker 1: they actually had an injury section that was low impact movement.
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  Speaker 1: So every day I pick like a fifteen to twenty
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  Speaker 1: minute workout that I'll do after my walk, no weights,
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  Speaker 1: and it's all body weight.
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  Speaker 2: And it's actually been really nice.
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  Speaker 1: There's obviously been certain things where I'll feel a little
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  Speaker 1: bit discomfort and I'm like, yeah, nope, can't do that.
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  Speaker 1: So I'll try and find a modification or I'll just
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  Speaker 1: you know, wait till the next exercise. I'm a very
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  Speaker 1: competitive person, so for me, I hate when I go
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  Speaker 1: through a workout and it's like, oh, I can't do that,
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  Speaker 1: Like okay, I'm just gonna have to sit and watch
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  Speaker 1: and wait till I can do a movement. So I
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  Speaker 1: think that's been pretty difficult. It is just kind of
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  Speaker 1: like not like giving up, but it feels like you're
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  Speaker 1: kind of like giving up on something. But I'm trying
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  Speaker 1: to be kind to myself and tell myself that like,
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  Speaker 1: this is the journey of healing, is that you're gonna
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  Speaker 1: have to say no to certain things that are going
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  Speaker 1: to obviously aggravate or upset the injury. So just again,
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  Speaker 1: this is something very new that I just started this
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  Speaker 1: week that I'm trying to adapt into somewhat of a
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  Speaker 1: routine for myself. Another thing that I want to do
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  Speaker 1: is I want to wake up early again. I think
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  Speaker 1: the struggle for me is that I usually book a
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  Speaker 1: workout class, so it kind of forces me to get
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  Speaker 1: up early. And get out of the house, and I
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  Speaker 1: love it, but I unfortunately don't have that luxury right
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  Speaker 1: now of doing that. So I think I get a
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  Speaker 1: little too comfortable of knowing that, Okay, well, I'm not
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  Speaker 1: rushing anywhere. I can, you know, sleep in a little
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  Speaker 1: bit and take my time going downstairs to do a
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  Speaker 1: workout or a walk, but it.
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  Speaker 2: Does take longer my routine.
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  Speaker 1: So like I'm doing like twenty minutes stretching, forty minute walk,
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  Speaker 1: twenty minute workout, Like that's almost like two hours right
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  Speaker 1: there of my time. So then I look at the
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  Speaker 1: time and I'm like, oh my godess, like I need
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  Speaker 1: to have breakfast, I need to start my workday. Like
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  Speaker 1: I feel all rushed. So it is still important for
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  Speaker 1: me to wake up early and get these things done
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  Speaker 1: before I start my workday. So I'm trying to make
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  Speaker 1: it a priority to get back into my six thirty
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  Speaker 1: wake up call and get downstairs by seven, Whereas right
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  Speaker 1: now I'm like waking up at seven and I'm not
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  Speaker 1: getting downstairs till like seven thirty, which is just the
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  Speaker 1: reality right now.
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  Speaker 2: But we're trying to.
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  Speaker 1: Identify changes and how we can make things better. I
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  Speaker 1: want to get back into my journaling routine, track my
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  Speaker 1: progress of my injury, because I think tracking the progress
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  Speaker 1: allows myself to see the positivities out of the injury,
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  Speaker 1: Like even if it is a small step to the injury,
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  Speaker 1: it makes me feel good and it's almost like a
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  Speaker 1: small win that I can see and kind of creates a.
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  Speaker 2: Positive mindset for myself.
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  Speaker 1: And I think it's a small thing that I can
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  Speaker 1: track that will bring back that positive mindset that I
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  Speaker 1: want for myself.
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  Speaker 2: So realizing how important journaling is.
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  Speaker 1: And how doing that every single day will really help
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  Speaker 1: my mindset that's currently going through a tough time and
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  Speaker 1: bringing in that positive energy by tracking my progress of
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  Speaker 1: my injury, sharing my experience through journaling and kind of
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  Speaker 1: like reflecting on it and seeing how much progress I've
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  Speaker 1: actually made from you know, last week versus this week,
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  Speaker 1: and then you know, forcing myself to get outside more
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  Speaker 1: and just like try to enjoy and embrace the winter goal.
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  Speaker 1: But also like booking coffee dates with my girlfriends, Like
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  Speaker 1: I texted to my girlfriends this week wanting to catch
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  Speaker 1: up and you know, just have a coffee date together.
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  Speaker 1: So I have two coffee dates booked, So I'm really
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  Speaker 1: happy about that and I also decided that I want
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  Speaker 1: to go to home Sense this week and start doing
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  Speaker 1: some spring purchasing for spring home decor, just kind of
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  Speaker 1: like make the home feel a little bit more spring vibes,
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  Speaker 1: bring in some color.
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  Speaker 2: Into the house.
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  Speaker 1: So I thought I could go on a little date,
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  Speaker 1: a little solo date with myself and go to home
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  Speaker 1: Sense and just start thinking of things that I can
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  Speaker 1: add to my home just to kind of bring spring
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  Speaker 1: into my home. And of course, a lot of our
• 15:40
  Speaker 1: favorite clothing brands like Aritzia, Reformation Revolve Airy, like all
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  Speaker 1: the brands that you can think of, a lot of
• 15:47
  Speaker 1: them have released a lot of cute spring collections and
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  Speaker 1: spring clothing pieces, and I try my best not to
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  Speaker 1: go crazy on that.
• 15:56
  Speaker 2: Type of stuff.
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  Speaker 1: But I did splurge and get myself a little workout
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  Speaker 1: set from a Ritz Yeah in this beautiful baby blue
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  Speaker 1: color that I'm obsessed with, And I'm really happy I
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  Speaker 1: got that for myself because it really motivated me to
• 16:06
  Speaker 1: kind of, yeah, we're the workout set, get a workout
• 16:09
  Speaker 1: in kind of find myself again in that sense. So
• 16:12
  Speaker 1: sometimes retail therapy is always a good idea, even if
• 16:15
  Speaker 1: it is just getting a new workout set for yourself.
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  Speaker 1: But yeah, I'm starting to kind of look into spring,
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  Speaker 1: get excited about you know, spring jackets in spring clothing.
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  Speaker 1: So yeah, I'm trying to feel reinspired with my style
• 16:27
  Speaker 1: as well with going into a new season. I'll definitely
• 16:30
  Speaker 1: chat a lot more about Spring, probably in the next episode,
• 16:33
  Speaker 1: just we'll do like a little Spring reset episode of
• 16:35
  Speaker 1: things that you can do to kind of get yourself
• 16:37
  Speaker 1: in the spring mood. But those are two things that
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  Speaker 1: I'm doing this week to kind of get myself into
• 16:42
  Speaker 1: that spring mindset and create again excitement getting out of
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  Speaker 1: the house, doing things that kind of change my mindset.
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  Speaker 1: And instead of focusing on winter, I'm trying to focus
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  Speaker 1: on the new season and the excitement around a new
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  Speaker 1: season as well. So I'm really just trying to find
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  Speaker 1: ways to change my mindset and doing the these little
• 17:00
  Speaker 1: things that are kind of like my back to Me series,
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  Speaker 1: I think is really going to help me mentally. So,
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  Speaker 1: you know, telling myself that I can build a routine
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  Speaker 1: even if I do have a back injury, like finding
• 17:12
  Speaker 1: some type of structure in my day to day life
• 17:15
  Speaker 1: to create something for myself that I can do every
• 17:17
  Speaker 1: single morning. And it's very different, right it's very different
• 17:21
  Speaker 1: than what I'm used to, and that's okay. I think
• 17:23
  Speaker 1: it's okay to make changes. And I think that's actually
• 17:26
  Speaker 1: going to always be the case where I am going
• 17:28
  Speaker 1: to have to prioritize stretching a lot more than I
• 17:31
  Speaker 1: used to because of this injury and how much it's
• 17:33
  Speaker 1: impacted my day to day life.
• 17:35
  Speaker 2: Like I think I'm gonna have to.
• 17:37
  Speaker 1: Wake up probably twenty minutes earlier than I typically would
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  Speaker 1: and stretch for twenty minutes before I go to a
• 17:43
  Speaker 1: pilates class or before I go to a workout class,
• 17:46
  Speaker 1: because I don't ever want this muscle to you know,
• 17:50
  Speaker 1: act up ever again. And it's made me realize how
• 17:53
  Speaker 1: important stretching is and how it's not something that we
• 17:56
  Speaker 1: should really fuck around with. Excuse my language, but like
• 17:59
  Speaker 1: it's it really is an eye opening experience of when
• 18:02
  Speaker 1: you get injured, you just realize how important it is
• 18:05
  Speaker 1: to stretch your body or you know, go to yoga
• 18:08
  Speaker 1: classes and just like relax your body and get those
• 18:11
  Speaker 1: massages and all that. Like it truly does make a
• 18:14
  Speaker 1: huge difference when you are going through it. I will
• 18:17
  Speaker 1: say I got a sports injury massage this past weekend
• 18:20
  Speaker 1: and that was insane. I was not expecting it to
• 18:24
  Speaker 1: be as painful as it was. But I will say
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: I feel way less tight, and I'm so grateful that
• 18:30
  Speaker 1: I pushed through that pain because I literally was biting
• 18:32
  Speaker 1: the inside of my cheek and I was like bleeding
• 18:34
  Speaker 1: because I was in so much discomfort. But the girl
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: was really good. She was talking me through it, and
• 18:39
  Speaker 1: she's like, I promise you, Like, I know it's really
• 18:41
  Speaker 1: painful right now, you're going to be in pain for
• 18:42
  Speaker 1: probably two days after two just like I felt like
• 18:45
  Speaker 1: there was like bruises on my back from the massage
• 18:49
  Speaker 1: after the past few days. But I'm like, I think
• 18:51
  Speaker 1: four or five days since I got the massage, and
• 18:55
  Speaker 1: I honestly feel way less tighter. So I'm like this
• 18:59
  Speaker 1: was so needed. So I'm actually really happy that I
• 19:01
  Speaker 1: did it. I will be going back one hundred percent,
• 19:05
  Speaker 1: probably not for another two weeks, because she did say
• 19:07
  Speaker 1: to space it out a bit, just because obviously it
• 19:08
  Speaker 1: is a very aggressive massage. It is not relaxing whatsoever.
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  Speaker 1: But I didn't do any research before because I knew
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  Speaker 1: I would have probably chickened out if I did too
• 19:18
  Speaker 1: much research. So I'm very happy that I kind of
• 19:20
  Speaker 1: just went in with the mindset of just kind of like,
• 19:22
  Speaker 1: let's just figure out how to deal with this injury
• 19:25
  Speaker 1: and how we can make it better. And I do
• 19:27
  Speaker 1: think this was something that really really helped it out.
• 19:30
  Speaker 1: And then another thing that I'm doing to change my
• 19:32
  Speaker 1: mindset is again finding a way to wake up earlier
• 19:35
  Speaker 1: again by motivating myself to find a routine of getting
• 19:39
  Speaker 1: my butt out of bed by six point thirty instead
• 19:42
  Speaker 1: of seven, and like creating that routine for myself to
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: do that way it doesn't impact my workday. And getting
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: back on Pinterest, feeling more inspired again, finding things that
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: you know, inspire me, whether it's trying new foods, whether
• 19:56
  Speaker 1: it's following people for their style or home style all that. Like,
• 20:00
  Speaker 1: you guys know how much I love Pinterest and how
• 20:02
  Speaker 1: much I think it's such an amazing app And so
• 20:04
  Speaker 1: getting back on there and really just like using it
• 20:08
  Speaker 1: to my advantage of feeling inspired again and getting back
• 20:12
  Speaker 1: into a journaling routine is really just things that I
• 20:15
  Speaker 1: want to focus on, as I said, just writing the
• 20:17
  Speaker 1: small wins of each day and checking things off and
• 20:20
  Speaker 1: feeling good about what I accomplish each day to bring
• 20:23
  Speaker 1: that positive mindset back into my life, and so that's
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: kind of things that I'm doing to kind of define
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: myself as becoming her again, of that person that I
• 20:33
  Speaker 1: want to become. You know, one thing that I realized
• 20:37
  Speaker 1: that I really need to make a priority, and this
• 20:40
  Speaker 1: was actually one of my big goals for twenty twenty
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: six is trying to learn patience. And I think with
• 20:48
  Speaker 1: an injury, you have to understand that injuries do not
• 20:52
  Speaker 1: just get resolved in two weeks like maybe it would
• 20:55
  Speaker 1: have seven years ago when I was like twenty one
• 20:58
  Speaker 1: or twenty two. I still think that I'm that young
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  Speaker 1: and that I can get over an injury like that
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  Speaker 1: because I grew up playing a lot of competitive sports,
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  Speaker 1: and you know, I would get injured and not gonna lie.
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: I'd go maybe to one or two physio sessions, you know,
• 21:14
  Speaker 1: kind of force myself to get back on the ice
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  Speaker 1: or back on the soccer field, and it would kind
• 21:18
  Speaker 1: of recover and I'd be good.
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  Speaker 2: I'd be like, Okay, great.
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  Speaker 1: That's the exact mindset that I would have as a
• 21:23
  Speaker 1: younger kid. And so I think when I had this
• 21:27
  Speaker 1: back injury, when I got it, I think I was
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: in that mindset where I'm like, oh, yeah, I'm young.
• 21:30
  Speaker 2: It's easy whenever.
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: Like, I'm just gonna keep doing pilates and I'm just
• 21:33
  Speaker 1: gonna kind of ignore it and I'll do the odds
• 21:35
  Speaker 1: stretching here and there. But you know, it's gonna resolve itself,
• 21:38
  Speaker 1: so I'll just keep doing it and just yeah, hope
• 21:41
  Speaker 1: that it will resolve like it typically does.
• 21:43
  Speaker 2: Right, Like the typical.
• 21:43
  Speaker 1: Injuries that I had when I was younger, it will
• 21:45
  Speaker 1: just resolve and everything will be back to normal. That
• 21:47
  Speaker 1: was obviously not the case, and I had to completely
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: stop working out and now completely adapt new things into
• 21:55
  Speaker 1: my day to day life to accommodate this injury. And
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: that was like the biggest was realizing, oh, I'm.
• 22:03
  Speaker 2: Not as young as I used to be, and I
• 22:05
  Speaker 2: can't get over an injury as you know I used
• 22:08
  Speaker 2: to do.
• 22:08
  Speaker 1: Right, So it's really like adapting and understanding that injuries
• 22:12
  Speaker 1: take time and that it's all about a healing journey
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: and that you have to be patient and patient in
• 22:19
  Speaker 1: things in life as well. And that's something that I'm
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: working on right Like if I have a fight with
• 22:24
  Speaker 1: my sister or a fight with my husband, like, you know,
• 22:27
  Speaker 1: I need to be patient when we have those arguments,
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: they don't always get solved immediately. It could take you
• 22:32
  Speaker 1: know a few hours for us to like actually want
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: to sit down and talk about what happened, you know,
• 22:37
  Speaker 1: or my injury can't be healed immediately.
• 22:39
  Speaker 2: Like I'm just kind of.
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: Throwing out random examples of like what I could work
• 22:42
  Speaker 1: on for patients. But I think that's something that I'm
• 22:45
  Speaker 1: really trying to work on this year and trying to
• 22:49
  Speaker 1: adapt it into you know, anything in life right now
• 22:53
  Speaker 1: is focusing on that. And so yeah, and then right now,
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: I guess things that I'm trying to motivate myself to
• 23:01
  Speaker 1: do right now is create a routine for myself that
• 23:04
  Speaker 1: makes me motivated and excited to get out of bed
• 23:07
  Speaker 1: thinking about spring and how a spring is literally around
• 23:10
  Speaker 1: the corner.
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  Speaker 2: I'm starting Spring this week.
• 23:13
  Speaker 1: I don't care what anyone says March is next week
• 23:15
  Speaker 1: that in my head spring starts now.
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  Speaker 2: I love shopping in a new season. It gets me motivated,
• 23:20
  Speaker 2: it gets me excited.
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: And then creating this like thirty day challenge for myself
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: where I'm telling myself that I'm going to become this
• 23:28
  Speaker 1: version of myself again by creating a new routine and
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: trying new habits to get myself in a better mindset
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: and to get my injury in a better place so
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: I can get back to you know, workouts and doing.
• 23:41
  Speaker 2: Things that bring me joy again.
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: So anyways, I just kind of wanted to share a
• 23:45
  Speaker 1: quick episode on this because this is kind of like
• 23:47
  Speaker 1: what I'm currently going through, and I know there might
• 23:50
  Speaker 1: be someone out there that might be feeling very similar
• 23:52
  Speaker 1: where they don't know how to navigate this loss or
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: this feeling that you might have that you feel like
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: you're losing yourself, and so I wanted to create an
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: episode on things that I'm doing to kind of help myself.
• 24:06
  Speaker 2: Through this you know, mental challenge that.
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: I'm going through, and I'm really hoping these things will help.
• 24:11
  Speaker 2: I'm already feeling really good, honestly, just two to three
• 24:14
  Speaker 2: days in.
• 24:15
  Speaker 1: I started this week, so you know, obviously it's very fresh,
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: but I definitely feel like I'm really making changes to
• 24:24
  Speaker 1: get back to my old self and or my new
• 24:27
  Speaker 1: self essentially in a way that I want to see
• 24:30
  Speaker 1: myself and become this better version of myself.
• 24:33
  Speaker 2: And I'm excited. I'm excited to feel the motivation again.
• 24:36
  Speaker 1: I'm excited to feel that spark again that I've been
• 24:38
  Speaker 1: missing and that energy that I want, and again, I'd
• 24:41
  Speaker 1: rather just be real and honest with you guys of
• 24:43
  Speaker 1: what I'm currently going through and be able to maybe
• 24:46
  Speaker 1: relate to one of you guys who might be currently
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: also going through something similar. So anyways, I hope you
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: guys enjoyed this episode. If you're new, definitely make sure
• 24:55
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• 24:59
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• 25:02
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• 25:06
  Speaker 1: But I'd love you guys all so much. Thank you
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: guys again for listening to another episode, and I will
• 25:10
  Speaker 2: See you guys in next week's episode.