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We’re All Starving for Real Connection · Cannabis School

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  I'm Brandon. And I'm Jesse, we're cannabis.
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  School having cannabis infused conversations with everyday
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  people, cannabis companies. Celebrities.
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  And your mom? Welcome.
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  To the sash. So today's sash is just gonna be
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  a little fun. We're gonna pop in on some
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  career today. So good this is a really.
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  Today's one of my kids birthdays and my mom just stopped by to
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  drop off a birthday gift for her and I have been making balm and
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  not that my mom uses but I have never had her smell bud until
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  this morning that was the first time.
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  I know dude, that was so funny. He just did it like, this is
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  what I do all the time. And then you gave it to her and
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  she's. Like how are you?
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  And I'm like, great, I've just been smoking some bud this.
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  How are you? How are you?
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  I'm so glad I had that lemon juice because I could feel it.
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  Heard the end. I'm like, OK, yeah, I'm not
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  rambling anymore. All right, we got to go.
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  I was just like that last strain, dude.
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  It got me a little bit. San Fernando Valley OG from
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  Firestar out in Nevada. That's good.
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  It's it's really good. I still got a tube of it.
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  So yeah, you got to I. Was impressed with that.
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  It's very nice. It's very nice.
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  I got to bring the ice cream cake we should do.
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  I mean, we did ice cream cake a long time ago, but.
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  Return of the cakes. Return of the cakes.
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  Return the cakes. Return Oh cake.
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  Cake would fit out of there. Return of the cake.
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  I don't even know what that guy says.
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  Return. Of the back.
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  Yeah, the return of the he just, I always think of like when I
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  hear it, I think of like a Muppet doing that.
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  Yeah, 'cause like the guy looks like a Muppet.
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  There's so many mumble people and mumble rap.
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  Oh my God, that's the worst. My what are you guys even like?
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  I get rap and I love the beats and stuff and I've listened to
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  rap for a long time, but. Here's a random mumble.
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  Rap. This just came ahead when you're
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  talking about mumble rap. I saw this crazy video of this,
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  like city worker or something. Guy has like a reflective vest
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  and he's shooting at this guy with his pistol at the car.
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  What the? Yeah, and the guy backs up and
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  then he's going around with the gun and then they're all get out
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  of the way. And you see this dude rutted
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  this guy with a black T-shirt. And then the guy with the
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  reflective vest sees it and starts running.
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  And this guy has like one of those like a snow removal.
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  Like a snow plow. Yeah, but it's like the one
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  that's curved underneath like this, and it kind of kicks it
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  up. So it has like kind of a blade
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  in front. OK.
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  Fucking hit this dude and I was like that's all I was thinking
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  like I don't know why that's just randomly popped.
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  That is a random thought. Fucking crazy.
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  Wow. Yeah, that'd be terrifying.
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  Could you imagine getting chased down by like a giant ass
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  snowballow? Hey, but if you're shooting at
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  somebody and you miss them, yeah, sorry, yeah, you lose.
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  If they have a snowplace, like you've got to stop them.
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  How many rounds? Yeah, dude, this is.
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  Like extraordinary, like people doing that shit.
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  Like, have you ever seen this one?
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  I don't know what country it's in, it's either China or Japan
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  or something, but there's this dude who's got like a knife.
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  OK, I've got knives. To a woman's throat.
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  Oh, not like. That and the cop like pulls it
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  away from like this Chinese cut what whatever guy you know he's
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  he's he grabs him and pulls a straight up like the coolest jiu
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  jitsu. He does a flying arm bar.
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  So a flying arm bar is from standing, you're holding the arm
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  and then you jump while they're still standing.
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  But when he did it, he was moving so quickly.
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  The guy flipped with him and they landed and he disarmed him.
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  That's insane. That was cool.
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  Yeah, that's. Holy shit.
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  Ninja skills right there. Fuck yeah, that's crazy.
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  Oh man, Yeah, I don't have that flexibility for that skill set.
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  You know, I thought like my friend Amanda, she she has
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  scoliosis, but it was really bad.
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  She has titanium rods and screws this lung to hold those rods
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  into place so she can't bend over.
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  Very far, I had learned. So when I got my X-rays done for
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  my back, I learned that most humans have some mild form of
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  scoliosis in some form or the other.
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  That most people's spines aren't perfectly straight the way
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  they're supposed to be. Mine has this weird I think it's
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  from my hips but it's almost like it's curved slightly as it
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  goes up. So I've also got this weird
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  scoliosis with my cracked disk and that.
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  But like like I said, I think almost every human has some some
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  form of mild scoliosis and some form in the other.
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  Yeah, well, I mean, it's just the overtime.
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  I mean, you've got gravity, you've got degeneration, cause
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  how? We sit how we walk like how we
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  hold our muscles like do we stretch and fix things when they
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  do get tight or? Yeah, we don't like, we don't do
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  like a lot of people you see back in the day we're they were
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  normally standing more often than not, or they do a lot of
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  squatting, right? Just squatting down on your
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  feet. That's something that you should
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  be doing anyways. Apparently like just like in a
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  squatting position on the ground, just sitting because you
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  can gain balance and and a lot of like helping your pelvic
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  floor to go down, which helps you with everything else
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  apparently like. Interesting.
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  And so it's, it's kind of cool, like, you know, just thinking
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  about the basic things that little kids do keeps you
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  healthy, but they're flexible as hell.
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  Well, it's like when I went to China, every morning we would go
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  out and play basketball. And while Alec and I were
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  playing basketball, there were these huge group of Asian people
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  there that would go out on the tennis courts and basketball
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  courts and they would practice Tai chi or whatever it is.
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  And like, it's interesting because I don't see a lot of
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  older people in the Western civilization going out and
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  stretching and moving, but they're also not able to move
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  the same as I see these 8090 year old Asians who are all like
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  hops moving around. I'm like, holy shit, like you
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  got a lot going on for you. Dude, it the way I look at Tai
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  chi, like, you know, a lot of people want to look at it like a
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  martial art. And yeah, maybe you could use it
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  as a martial art if somebody was very participating in it, you
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  know, like they're like, hey, look, I'm going to hurt you, but
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  I'm going to do it in an exact movement and I will tell you
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  where it's coming from, OK. And like.
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  Yeah, she just seems like it's a meditative yoga of sorts.
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  That's why I was gonna say it's like, it's like kinetic yoga
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  where it's not, you know, stabilizing and stuff.
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  It's, it's very difficult. It's not easy.
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  I I learned in high school, even.
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  Yoga where I do it and I'm all thinking, oh, this shit's easy.
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  I'm like, Oh no, actually some of these positions, holding it
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  for 30 seconds is a pain. And then switching from that one
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  into another one, holding that one for 30 seconds and
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  switching. And you're just like, they're
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  not always as easy as as we like to think.
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  Like, oh, it's yoga that's easy shit.
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  And it's like, oh. Oh, no, man.
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  I mean, it's like what you're learning with the movement.
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  You're going through each one when you're going like this,
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  Like you're stretching the back of your arm and you're pushing.
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  You're feeling it in your traps and then you're going this way.
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  I mean, I remember like learning a lot of these men in high
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  school, 'cause I, I, well, I was such a.
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  Part of high school was. All of high school I was doing
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  martial arts and Wing Chun and. Is that part?
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  Is Tai chi part of that? Oh no, no, it was like really
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  cool. Like there was a teacher in my
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  school 'cause I did Wing Chun and I did a couple other martial
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  arts and we had a substitute for our our psychology class and he
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  brought in Jackie Chan movies from China for us to watch.
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  And I was like, oh, I've seen this one.
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  And he's like, no, you haven't. I'm like, yeah, I said, this is
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  Drunken Master 2. And he's like, oh, do you know
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  martial arts? So we started talking and he's
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  like, I learned Tai chi in Beijing under a professor.
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  And so he's like, that's cool. And he's like, well, how good
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  are you? And I'm like, well, I'm OK.
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  And he throws a punch at me. And then we get into this little
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  skirmish right in front of all the other students.
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  And everybody just went and roll.
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  And I was like, it was cool because he had learned
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  underneath the style. He did wushu as well, which just
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  means like, kind of like martial arts.
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  But wushu is like the cool, like, like the Hong Kong movies
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  he's back in the day, like the fighting, like Jet Li, that's
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  all wushu. And so he learned that and he
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  learned Tai chi and he started teaching me Tai chi.
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  Like after school, we'd get together in the gym and he was
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  teaching me Tai chi and I was showing him what I knew of Wing
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  Chun. And he was like, oh, this is so
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  cool. Like it was, it was it was so
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  much fun. I would love to do like a Wing
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  Chun like, and this is the problem with martial arts for me
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  is that martial arts is like a lot like religion.
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  We're right, you're wrong. There's a dogma.
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  And you can't just be there to share ideas.
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  It's I'm better than you instead of going, what can I learn from
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  you? And I've always had that
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  mentality because I did Wing Chun and then I did Muay Thai,
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  but before then I did Kempo and Taekwondo.
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  And I mean, ever since I was really young.
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  And then when the MMA thing started to come out, it was
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  really young. They, it was more of seen as
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  just like cock fighting. And I remember I saw one in
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  Boise. Boise.
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  Fuck. I don't know.
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  You guys can correct me. Here he goes.
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  It's not that it's not tomato. It's tomato.
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  Tomato. Yeah, that's.
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  But dude, martial arts over the years, it's just like, it
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  doesn't even have that air about it.
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  It's just like, oh, do you do martial arts?
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  It's just like, oh, UFC, I'm just like, well, there's and
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  they're like, oh, nothing as good as that one.
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  I don't know. I've seen some guys who do this
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  system I've always wanted to learn called Kyochin Karate.
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  And it's like a hard body style where you can find videos of
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  dudes breaking river rock with the edge of their hand one after
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  another. Like they just put it over there
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  and they go, you know, when the guys break bricks, I'm like, and
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  it's impressive. This is river rock.
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  This is ancient stone. And bricks have holes in their
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  porous and it's a whole different thing to break that
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  then, yeah. And they're just like bam, bam,
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  bam. And then one guy the the guy who
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  created it, he chops the top of the bottle off of a beer bottle
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  with his hand like a clean break.
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  Holy shit. He hit they'll they'll like do
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  these kicks where they'll have these thick blocks of ice.
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  They stack on top. There's like 9 of them and the
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  guy hits it from the top and it's still like the way that
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  they can control. I mean, that's where when you
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  see shit like that, that's like energy, like it's beyond the
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  physical. And I was always.
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  Into mastery like and and this this is just my perspective.
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  I'm not in that area. I feel like you get into the
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  MMA, the UFC, it like you said, it's cock fighting.
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  MMM. Dangerous dudes 100% yeah,
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  they're fucking dangerous. But I look at the other ones as
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  more of like art. It's a different float, the
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  moves it looks different it almost.
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  I can imagine it would feel different even practicing that
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  too. Yeah.
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  But the problem with it today I see in in traditional martial
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  arts and why they're so looked down upon is that they have
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  neutered these systems to the point of lawyers just thirsting
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  to fuck somebody up if they get hurt at one of these things.
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  That's part of it. Like when I learned it was
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  during a time where, yeah, you would see another martial artist
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  as a competitor, but you would want to see if they were worth
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  their salt. Could you really use it?
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  And it was open, and I trained on concrete floors, no pads, no
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  cups. And you learned.
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  Were people sue happy and your day growing up?
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  No. See, I don't remember hearing
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  about a lot of sewing, but I remember growing up and my
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  parents are like, Oh no, we can't get a trampoline because
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  people are sue happy. We don't want like it's a high
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  risk liability for that and so we never had a trampoline till I
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  was like 16. It was typically like in your
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  middle income to higher income individuals that were worried
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  about SU happy people. But where I grew up in a very
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  poor community, it wasn't like that.
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  Nobody cared. Like the only thing that you
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  knew that it was going to happen was I have to take care of this.
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  Nobody else can take care of this but me, right?
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  And it and it was just because of the circumstance.
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  I never knew that that's all I grew up in until until we went
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  down to Mexico and that and I was like, holy shit, there's
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  like real poverty in this world. Not just what I've seen on TV.
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  Yeah. And that's like not even like
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  India poverty, you know what I mean?
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  Like there's a guy in my in my neighborhood and he has half of,
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  he's got 1/4 of his employees that are based out of India.
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  Yeah. And he goes there once a quarter
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  to make sure that things are going well for them.
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  He's a really stand up guy, Andrew Civilly, he's the CEO of
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  e-learning Brothers. Such a cool guy.
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  And he's like, you've never seen poverty as disgusting as it
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  could be down there and how people still treat one another
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  from ancient systems of casts. And it's really, you know, it,
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  it truly is like that. I've never seen, I've seen, I've
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  seen poverty in many different levels.
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  But Tijuana when I went like 14 wasn't bad.
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  Tijuana was like, oh, this is like poor, but it was still
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  civilized to an extent. Like, and then it wasn't until I
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  went, I was 16, I did my Eagle project down in Mexico and we
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  went out to these orphanages that were outside of Mexico City
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  in these really small towns. And they're horrendously
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  disgusting. Like it's not kept up.
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  It's not very clean. The kids bathe in their drinking
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  water, they play in their drinking water like it's
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  everything is. So we went down and we brought
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  school supplies and clothes and painted and cleaned their school
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  and helped clean their kitchen and stuff so that the place that
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  they were in was better than it was.
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  But to see that and like how they were living and heading to,
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  there were just like homes made out of plywood or cardboard or a
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  piece of sheet metal and stuff. And like, it wasn't anything I
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  ever would have considered a home.
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  And I was like, holy shit, like this is a whole different
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  reality than anything I ever imagined.
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  And that was like one of the best experiences of my life was
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  going down to these orphanages. We went to two different ones
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  and just realizing how much I had taken for granted and, and
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  still do, like every day going like this little kid still
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  sticks with me every day like I go down.
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  We were walking him through this line.
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  We'd help him pick out like school supplies and clothes and,
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  and they got only so much. And then they'd, you know, we'd
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  get another kid and walk them through because there was a ton
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  of kids. And this one kid comes with me
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  and I walk him through. And then after I walk him
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  through, he wants to go show me. He's like dominoes, dominoes.
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  And I walk with him and, and he walks me over and he's got this
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  little hole in the dirt in the ground over on their property
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  somewhere. And he's hit another little
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  stack of clothes that he got like, look, Oh my God, I got 2
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  sets. And I'm like, this kid is just
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  so ecstatic because he's got 2 pencils or, or like 4 pencils
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  and two notebooks and, and like just two sets of it.
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  And I was like, this is nothing like truly, this was nothing.
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  And this kid is just over the moon with like what's in front
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  of him, what he's been presented with.
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  And he was just so happy and they, and I'd never seen that.
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  And I was like, how selfish am I with all of my day-to-day shit
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  where it's but it's the world that we've known where it's
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  like, oh, I need this or I need this and and I'll be happy once
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  I have this. And these kids were so
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  incredibly happy and they had nothing, absolutely nothing.
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  Yeah, it's kind of funny too, because mental illness in that
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  in that type of society is extremely low and and a lot of
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  it, man. I mean, I, I get what you're
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  saying right there. You know, I want to, I hear you.
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  I hear you man, how that feels like, where inside you're like,
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  well, how am I deserving of this life?
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  Yeah, what the hell did I do? Then, and that's the thing, it's
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  to always remember that that you, it's not that you should be
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  appreciative, is that just know that you are.
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  And when there's times of any type of thing that you can do
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  for someone else anytime, no matter what small things, you
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  know, spreading that goodness perpetuates it in a way that's
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  so much more powerful than any negative approach in society,
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  right? Like the one thing that I know
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  that I true, I, I, I try to have every single day is thinking
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  about not just being grateful for him, but knowing that I
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  should serve others just because.
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  Just because it feels good, right?
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  It did. There was nothing that kid would
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  ever do for me or could ever do. Nor should it be that.
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  But it was this thing of like I get to help this person who
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  didn't ask for it. He had no no way of going, hey,
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  I need these are going. This would make a difference in
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  my life. He had no idea, 'cause like I
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  said, there's no mental illness like the mental illness down
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  there is way left because it's they are happy with what they
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  have. I was just Alec.
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  I was talking to Alec. He went to Seattle just for work
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  recently and he was riding next to this lady.
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  And I think he said he would, She was from Zimbabwe.
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  Oh, cool. And he was asking her how long
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  she'd been out here and what had been like.
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  And, and then he asked her if she was happy out there.
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  Like what, what she noticed here.
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  And she's like, you know, what I noticed coming to the US is how
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  incredibly unhappy you guys are with so much.
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  You guys have so much space, so much stuff in all your space.
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  You guys have so many things just surrounding you all the
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  time. And you guys are miserable.
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  Yep. And Alec was like, were you more
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  happy in Zimbabwe? And she's like, yeah, there was
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  nothing around, but nothing mattered.
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  Like none of those things mattered.
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  It didn't equate to happiness. Tomorrow was a good day, you
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  know what I mean? Like it's the concept of that.
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  It's like, you know when you it's not surviving because it's
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  not what you think survival is right now people go survival is
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  I make my own food, right? I have to make my like, you hear
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  that? I have to make my own food.
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  Now what? Yeah.
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  Right, Wait a minute. I mean, you can do really basic
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  stuff with just patience and time and you can make extremely
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  healthy meals, right, But it's exactly what you stated there.
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  It's you know, that story is perfect of being able to say
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  that we're unhappy because we've been taught that tomorrow is too
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  far away and you you'll never get there.
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  Or that tomorrow is what you're living for.
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  Yeah, and working for. But you'll never get to there.
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  Yeah, you'll never get there because it's just like, well, it
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  doesn't matter what do tomorrow because I have to do it again
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  the next day. And you wake up again today, and
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  it's still today. You never wake up again and it's
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  tomorrow. So now you insert your story,
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  right? You went to serve to serve.
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  At first it was just like, OK, this is going to be an
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  experience, but you're never prepared for the feeling that
• 19:03
  you will. It will last you forever.
• 19:06
  It will be unshaken. You will remember every detail
• 19:09
  of it till the last time your brain can or until you stop
• 19:13
  breathing, right? And in that memory, you think
• 19:16
  about that, what that impact does to that person because for
• 19:20
  them, they realize that giving is so much more.
• 19:23
  And what cool thing is, is it that kid didn't once say no, no,
• 19:28
  no, I don't deserve this. And I think that what why we do
• 19:32
  that in our first world problems is because subconsciously we
• 19:36
  feel guilty because we know we haven't done enough of this.
• 19:40
  We're never when I how. Often are we giving help that we
• 19:43
  fill just because for help dude. Like I, I got a friend, he's got
• 19:48
  this new company he's trying to build and he's kind of, he's
• 19:53
  kind of fucked himself with his name.
• 19:55
  And so he's just got this really great product that can help him.
• 19:59
  And he's like, I don't know how I can get this going.
• 20:02
  And he's freaking out and I'm like, well, I'll help you.
• 20:04
  I'm like, I'll just make phone calls for it.
• 20:06
  I said I can't do a ton of them as I'll give you like 20 a week.
• 20:09
  But if it sells as easily as you say it, well, I mean, I, I have
• 20:13
  No Fear of calling people. I'm down with that.
• 20:15
  I'll interrupt them. And he's like, OK, and I'm like
• 20:19
  your app ready to go. And he's like, Yep, it's soon to
• 20:21
  be ready. I'm like OK.
• 20:23
  Let me know. And he's just like, I, I can't
• 20:25
  pay you right now. And I'm like, I don't care.
• 20:28
  You know, what if somebody believed in your dream so much
• 20:33
  that they say, I don't care what it's going to take.
• 20:35
  I don't care if there's money made right now.
• 20:38
  But I I do this because I want you to feel the kindness that
• 20:43
  you should share with others because then now you have more
• 20:47
  to live for. Because that feeling of
• 20:51
  happiness is the best way to describe it with words.
• 20:55
  But that feeling is like it, it really is, dude.
• 20:58
  It feels like you got like a nuclear power plant.
• 21:00
  Inside you gonna say? I think that's probably one of
• 21:03
  the first times I experienced true joy.
• 21:06
  But you could do that every day. 100% And but like before, when I
• 21:10
  was serving, it was always like, oh, this is a service project.
• 21:13
  This is for this, this is this. We're going out as young men in
• 21:16
  the ward to go help this person. We're doing this because of a
• 21:19
  reward is gonna come. It was great.
• 21:21
  Like it, it still feels good to help someone.
• 21:23
  But yeah, that was a whole different first thing of like, I
• 21:28
  never saw it the same. And that moment, like you said,
• 21:31
  it sticks with you. It ingrains in your mind and
• 21:34
  sense it. I'm like, I would love to go
• 21:36
  back to places like that to do things like that.
• 21:39
  Not because I have to, but because I, I can, because I want
• 21:43
  to help another person, another human who doesn't know or need
• 21:48
  or or ask or like they live in this world of such bliss and
• 21:52
  ignorance that they are happy and where they're at the the
• 21:55
  state that they're in is all they need.
• 21:58
  Not thinking they need anything more because they're not,
• 22:01
  they're not Western civilization.
• 22:03
  They don't have this. Totally.
• 22:05
  Life that they've grown up in. If I, if I can propose something
• 22:08
  else though as well, please. Pebble in a pawn, my friend.
• 22:12
  Follow the ripples. What can we do here?
• 22:15
  And then how's that impact? Maybe a listener somewhere else
• 22:19
  where we have all these pebbles being dropped and we're being
• 22:23
  able to hit more square footage and then being able to do the
• 22:27
  exact same thing because you understand that selflessness can
• 22:30
  be exactly where you are. That helps to perpetuate other
• 22:34
  people to do this. Travel the world to do it, and
• 22:37
  that's what I realized is but. You can do that and travel the
• 22:40
  world too, because that example, like I feel the same way, you
• 22:44
  know, I do. I'm like, dude, I've been so
• 22:46
  blessed in my life to feel that to what I experience as as the
• 22:52
  hand of God in my life because other people are serving me for
• 22:56
  no reason whatsoever. They're not doing it to get
• 22:58
  other good things. And you can tell that, right?
• 23:01
  If somebody shows up to your house with the plate of cookies
• 23:03
  just because you moved into the neighborhood and that's the last
• 23:05
  time you saw him two years ago, they were doing that out of
• 23:08
  guilt because I am doing this for a reward because this is
• 23:12
  what I've been told to do instead of what I feel that God
• 23:17
  taught us is that you do these things not to be close to me,
• 23:21
  but to be like me because I share the same love with you.
• 23:25
  And the only way that we can get this is this travels across
• 23:28
  dimensions and time. I don't feel like you know, like
• 23:31
  how you know, and, and I'll say something here.
• 23:34
  It probably could get me in trouble, but who gives a shit it
• 23:37
  in this little trouble? Fuck off.
• 23:40
  But you know what I mean? It's I don't believe in this
• 23:43
  veil between me and what is to come.
• 23:47
  This is a an experience and and my life is better and your life
• 23:51
  is better. When we exchange love with
• 23:54
  others unconditionally, we hold very ill will towards people to
• 23:59
  a minimum. And if we do, we know what that
• 24:02
  anger is. It's our guilt of being angry
• 24:05
  with them, judging them and just going fuck it, got to let it go.
• 24:09
  It's cool and is that is a joyous time.
• 24:13
  That's that feeling that you're talking about.
• 24:15
  I want to feel that every day. And it is hard in our world
• 24:18
  because for other places it's a roaring fire of community for
• 24:22
  us. We're like in a dark cave with
• 24:25
  fucking two rocks and just trying to get these sparks going
• 24:29
  off. Well, we all feel alone.
• 24:31
  We all feel like stranded in our own islands of stress and
• 24:35
  despair and anxiety going fuck, I can't confide in my partner,
• 24:41
  my friend, whatever with this because I am so encompassed,
• 24:45
  overwhelmed with this that I know they can't handle this as
• 24:48
  well. This is going to be too much.
• 24:50
  And we all just sit in our own little private hell.
• 24:54
  Yeah, and that's how I'm like it's, it's been interesting
• 24:58
  because the further I've gotten from religion, the the concept
• 25:02
  of hell and heaven, I'm like those are all internal inside
• 25:04
  us. I think we put ourselves to our
• 25:07
  own Gethsemane through our own like eternal bliss moments of.
• 25:11
  The thing that most of the time we forget is that was said is
• 25:15
  that the Kingdom of God is in with us.
• 25:18
  So the only thing that we have and and what does that mean?
• 25:22
  Unfiltered, unregulated love. That's it.
• 25:26
  Just love. You know, when you have love,
• 25:29
  you don't have rules. You have an understanding.
• 25:32
  When you have love, you don't have opposition, you have you
• 25:37
  have understand. I just I don't know that many of
• 25:40
  us grew up with real love. No, I we can change that. 100% I
• 25:46
  was talking with my mom yesterday because she's like,
• 25:48
  oh, you should come to this business lunch with me.
• 25:50
  And I'm like, sure, I've got time.
• 25:51
  Yeah, I'll go business lunch with you.
• 25:53
  And so I went and it was fucking freezing.
• 25:56
  So we went and sat in her car and just chatted, but we were
• 26:00
  talking about a lot of that. And she was like, oh, you know,
• 26:03
  I, I think I became a shell of myself as soon as I got married
• 26:06
  and this started happening and, and I never found out who I was.
• 26:10
  And I'm sorry for like all these moments where I saw this and I
• 26:14
  wasn't there. And I was like, you know, what
• 26:15
  I've realized is I know through life way more of who you guys
• 26:19
  were and where you came from and what you were dealing with and
• 26:23
  navigating and, and as a person and as a parent, I have a lot
• 26:27
  more empathy and understanding for where you were in that time.
• 26:31
  I don't hold that against you at all for being young and getting
• 26:36
  married and having kids right away going, hey, well, I have no
• 26:39
  idea who I am. I still have no idea anything
• 26:41
  about me. Now I'm married and trying to
• 26:43
  figure out someone else's emotions that I don't truly know
• 26:46
  where I know how to understand. I know I brought someone else in
• 26:49
  this world and oh shit, now I'm trying to navigate all that in
• 26:52
  here and like there's no time that anyone has taken to go.
• 26:55
  Hey, all right, let me figure out me.
• 26:57
  Let me figure out my traumas. Let me figure out how to
• 26:59
  navigate this so I can do this in an effective way moving
• 27:02
  forward. It's just like, oh shit, this is
• 27:05
  life and here we go. So buckle up.
• 27:07
  Better Cup? Isn't that funny though?
• 27:09
  Because before, like long time ago, like when you had a child,
• 27:14
  the community had a child, right?
• 27:16
  And so now we're in these isolated bubbles of anxiety and
• 27:20
  fear and stress because it's all on us, feeling alone 100%, you
• 27:24
  know, to judge. I mean, you know, the sins of
• 27:26
  the past are only remembered by those who remember them.
• 27:29
  And when we as people can let go of our own transgressions
• 27:33
  because that holds us back a lot, right?
• 27:35
  If we can let go of that, then we don't judge others as much.
• 27:39
  I noticed that the more I forgave myself, the more I just,
• 27:43
  you know, like there's a, there's people in your life that
• 27:46
  will do shitty things. They'll do shitty things to you
• 27:48
  and others around you. But the shittiest thing that I
• 27:52
  can do is treat them the same and just going, hey, you're
• 27:56
  hurt. That's OK.
• 27:58
  And it's even harder to think like, well, like I just, I don't
• 28:02
  know why I bring this up, but it's just like, you know, where
• 28:04
  people will say like, well, if there's a God that wires all
• 28:06
  their suffering, why is all this going on?
• 28:09
  And it's a hard answer. And the only thing I can think
• 28:12
  about right now is what I've been pondering through, and
• 28:14
  that's the book of Job. And how fucked up is this story
• 28:18
  where God and Satan make a bet about Job, but Job stays
• 28:23
  faithful to God despite what is happening because you can't have
• 28:29
  rented faith. And by that is what a lot of
• 28:31
  people have because that's what they've been taught and and
• 28:35
  rented faith is, is that I only do these good things because I
• 28:38
  am promised something and my life will be fruitful because I
• 28:41
  do these good things. But when is not?
• 28:44
  Yes, but in those moments, and I think that's where we miss out
• 28:49
  is like that story is like, oh, only goodwill happen to me If
• 28:54
  this that's that's the Idiocracy.
• 28:58
  There is like, oh, only goodwill happen if I'm good.
• 29:01
  No, no, life is hard. Life is changed.
• 29:04
  There was a hair. I got a quote on the top of my
• 29:08
  tea and it said the only constant in life is change.
• 29:12
  And that's the quote by her Cletus, I believe.
• 29:15
  And I was like, you know, that's true.
• 29:17
  And yet we're so afraid of change.
• 29:18
  We fight change constantly, and yet change is the only constant
• 29:23
  that we know. Dude, that's that's why memento
• 29:27
  Mori is so important. For tomorrow we die.
• 29:30
  Yeah, who cares? It's like it doesn't matter.
• 29:33
  Who the fuck cares? We're going to be dead tomorrow.
• 29:36
  Let's go. Let's go.
• 29:37
  Today is the only time we have and tell that person you love
• 29:41
  them. Give them a hug.
• 29:42
  Like whatever it is, today is the day.
• 29:45
  Yeah, it's exactly that. And then, you know, it's, it's
• 29:48
  awesome because I'm feeling that energy now, right, You know?
• 29:51
  Thanks. Jack Rare.
• 29:52
  Yeah, this is this is bad ass. But I'm also feeling like, you
• 29:55
  know, in this room with us, it's like, you know, we hold on to
• 29:59
  these tensions in our life that make us feel like we're alone
• 30:02
  and more alone and more alone. But sometimes the best way to be
• 30:05
  able to help others just to share.
• 30:08
  And that's the cool part. And in not in a way where it
• 30:11
  feels like, you know, you're confessing, you know, the, the,
• 30:16
  the act of confession has been turned into something where you
• 30:19
  did bad and now you need to atone for it.
• 30:22
  But that's not what confession is, not even close.
• 30:25
  It is just an acknowledgement that you want to change.
• 30:29
  That's it. Well, and I think with sorry, I
• 30:31
  read this book called Educated by Tara Westover the last couple
• 30:36
  days and it was just interesting to hear like through the book
• 30:41
  just kind of how she has approached being honest or open,
• 30:44
  even with family or friends or having real conversations.
• 30:48
  It just about what's really going on.
• 30:50
  And it kind of made me think about it in that comment as well
• 30:53
  of like, we don't really allow that relationship to grow if we
• 30:57
  don't really share the emotion, the hardship, the struggle, the
• 31:01
  whatever. If we're only surface level
• 31:03
  deep, if it's, oh, you know, how's the weather, how's this,
• 31:06
  you know, good life. It's there's nothing below the
• 31:09
  surface of like this is what's actually going on.
• 31:11
  These are my struggles. And then it allows them to feel
• 31:14
  your pain and connect and go, all right, you shared something
• 31:16
  vulnerable with me. Let me let me open up and share
• 31:20
  something more about me and that allows that relationship to
• 31:24
  build and connect and grow and deepen and like that's what
• 31:27
  we're all wanting, but also afraid of at the same time of
• 31:30
  like, well, if I. I don't want you to see me.
• 31:32
  Yeah. But I think it's because so much
• 31:35
  of our lives, we've been told that whatever version we thought
• 31:38
  we were or wanted to be or were in that moment, our parent, our
• 31:42
  friend, our sibling or whatever partner, whoever was like, oh,
• 31:46
  don't do that or you can't act that way or oh, that's in
• 31:49
  whatever it was. It was annoying, it was dumb.
• 31:51
  It was, you know, us that we felt we were was not lovable
• 31:56
  basically in that moment. And I think it sucks because
• 32:00
  it's all of us really want to feel just truly lovable as who
• 32:04
  we are as a person, not whatever actions we're doing at that
• 32:08
  moment, but truly just the deep down person of just being seen.
• 32:12
  It's like, Hey, you know, and I think not many of us truly get
• 32:16
  that or have got that a lot through our lives.
• 32:19
  And it's just wondering, you know, what that must feel like.
• 32:22
  But it's it has that fear attached with it.
• 32:25
  Like, oh, well, there's this friend or this person and I
• 32:27
  really, really want to share this.
• 32:29
  But like, I've been shown all of this conditional or whatever
• 32:33
  love that was like, well, I love this version of you.
• 32:36
  I don't love this version. I I love this version of you.
• 32:39
  I don't love this version. And it's like, OK, so, so this
• 32:43
  version of me is lovable, but this version isn't lovable.
• 32:47
  So I can't be this version of me.
• 32:49
  I have to be this version to be lovable.
• 32:52
  And that becomes this really shitty fear that, you know,
• 32:55
  follows us through our whole life of like, man, I, I can't be
• 32:59
  me because my friends, my family, whoever showed me that
• 33:04
  that person isn't lovable. So I had to become whatever
• 33:09
  version was acceptable or lovable or like, oh, I can
• 33:12
  tolerate you now like. But you should you know that The
• 33:16
  thing is, it's so hard. I I get that.
• 33:19
  And I know you grew up in such a different world than I did.
• 33:22
  And yet we grew up only cities away and.
• 33:26
  Kind of the same city at the same time.
• 33:28
  Yeah, exactly. Like and it it just see what I
• 33:31
  experienced was it, I knew all of that when I was younger.
• 33:35
  Like this is all performative. This is all performative.
• 33:38
  This isn't real connection and yet it was all manufactured.
• 33:42
  I I didn't have good experiences in this in the LDS church when I
• 33:46
  was younger. Not at all.
• 33:48
  I got I, I was bullied a lot because of my my race, which is
• 33:52
  just weird because I'm white. Yeah, you look white as shit.
• 33:55
  Yeah, you know, but because I had a Hispanic last name and I
• 33:59
  was a lot darker at the time because I'm older, I don't get
• 34:01
  out in the sun as much, you know, It's, you know, I got
• 34:04
  picked on a lot. And it was not because they,
• 34:08
  this was a place of God. This was a place of judgement
• 34:12
  for those of just had already sat on that seat and condemned
• 34:16
  me and my family. And that was the thing that I
• 34:21
  knew right away. I didn't know this bliss that
• 34:24
  all these other and I, I mean I hate to say it like that, but it
• 34:27
  was just all the white kids knew how it was.
• 34:30
  I was 1/2 breed and I stuck out like a sore thumb.
• 34:32
  Well, it was Utah. That's all there was was a
• 34:35
  handful of people who weren't white.
• 34:37
  Exactly. And it was different, but at the
• 34:39
  same time, I didn't hate them because I was always taught to
• 34:42
  just be cool with them anyways. Like don't worry about them.
• 34:45
  And if they push that line, that's where all the martial
• 34:47
  arts came in. Like that's why I got into it.
• 34:50
  I got beat up by a Tongan kid when I was like in first grade.
• 34:53
  Oh my God. And my dad's like, you know, all
• 34:56
  of his immigrant must. I mean, that guy was, he was
• 35:00
  bad. He had, he worked three jobs
• 35:02
  just to keep us afloat when we were kids.
• 35:04
  Like he would literally like sleep 3 or 4 hours a night
• 35:06
  maybe. And then he would go to one part
• 35:09
  time job to another part time job, to a full time job.
• 35:11
  And then he went to school too, to learn English while he was
• 35:15
  doing that. That's got to be such a weight
• 35:18
  on his shoulders to think I've got to do this and I've got to
• 35:21
  do this and I've got to do this. Like just to provide and try and
• 35:25
  learn to fit in with where he's at so we can understand better.
• 35:29
  And people didn't like you because of who you were.
• 35:32
  Yeah. Oh, you're that is the most
• 35:34
  like. I have never understood that.
• 35:36
  Well, I understand it totally because it's different and when
• 35:40
  and it's because a lot of the the, the mentality of judgement.
• 35:44
  I mean, but it's just like a difference of hey.
• 35:46
  Well, we understand. Where that came from here in
• 35:48
  Utah and to me, I've never comprehended like that aspect of
• 35:53
  it because I'm like, I don't feel like they're any different
• 35:56
  than me than you, than the person next door.
• 35:59
  Like I don't give a shit what color like.
• 36:02
  Good, that's Grandma. Yeah, 100%.
• 36:04
  I mean, Grandpa, he was, he was funny when he would say things
• 36:09
  and, and the Negroes over here and I was just like, Oh my gosh.
• 36:13
  Yeah, Grandma's. I and grandma never trusted
• 36:16
  anybody who was dark skinned. We I went to Cafe Rio.
• 36:21
  I went to Cafe Rio with Grandma Holt and my parents and she gets
• 36:27
  in line with and she's ordering her food.
• 36:30
  And she was like, oh, I'll have the black beans.
• 36:33
  And I'm like, Grandma, you can't say that.
• 36:34
  We call them colored beans. Now.
• 36:36
  She's like, oh, I'll have the colored beans.
• 36:38
  It's like, because I would always fuck with Grandma and I'd
• 36:43
  be talking about something. She's like, what did you say?
• 36:45
  I'm like, I can't tell you. And she's like, what?
• 36:47
  I'm like, I'll tell you when you're older.
• 36:48
  But you know, it's funny though, you know, we could look at that
• 36:51
  time and going fucking racist motherfuckers.
• 36:54
  But then all you have to say is just like, you know what?
• 36:57
  They were doing whatever was being perpetually taught at that
• 37:00
  time. It's just passed down and and
• 37:02
  while it's shitty, it's no, but it's been passed down.
• 37:06
  But it's, it's a, it's a good thing though, because if we've
• 37:09
  gone through that, then we know what not to do.
• 37:13
  As long as we can learn from our mistakes. 100% and and The thing
• 37:17
  is, is that what creates more divide is entertainment, right?
• 37:22
  Give them the circus and bread and the circus and bread in our
• 37:25
  time is social media. 100% right?
• 37:28
  We perpetuate hate A. 100%. We perpetuate hate.
• 37:32
  We celebrate hate. You know what we do to celebrate
• 37:35
  our hate? We we, we burn.
• 37:36
  We burn buildings down. We find a vision instead of just
• 37:41
  going. All the comments too, yeah.
• 37:43
  Like there's so much just. Anger, right?
• 37:45
  And and that is that is manufactured, right.
• 37:50
  I, I don't judge other people what I've loved and I'll shut
• 37:53
  up. One of the greatest things that
• 37:55
  I got to experience at, at this what I call shape matching,
• 37:58
  everybody let go of their identity when they were there.
• 38:01
  There wasn't. I can't talk to this race or
• 38:04
  that race. I can just be my shape.
• 38:07
  Coolest thing happened. This guy, he's an Octagon.
• 38:11
  He looks like he's probably from the Philippines or something.
• 38:13
  I don't know, Maybe Korea. I couldn't tell.
• 38:15
  It was a lot of people and it's a bar and he was.
• 38:18
  OK, I couldn't. I'm not great at telling where
• 38:20
  people are from. Yeah, no, I'm like, hey, where
• 38:23
  are you from? I don't want to guess.
• 38:24
  Just fucking tell me. Well, and this other girl, she
• 38:26
  looked like she either grown up here on the East Coast.
• 38:29
  Yeah, this white, white woman over here.
• 38:32
  This is the most unlikely match that society would say this
• 38:35
  would work. But they met there based on the
• 38:37
  shape. And when I told him to do, and I
• 38:39
  said, here's your profile and this tells about a couple things
• 38:42
  about you. And on the back, here's some
• 38:44
  things that other people can ask about you.
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  And I want you to trade profiles.
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  And they would trade them. And then this woman read on
• 38:51
  there that he's a really good listener and she tested it and
• 38:55
  she got so excited. She was telling us on the
• 38:57
  microphone at the end of the night.
• 38:59
  So I was so excited because it was so accurate.
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  He was listening to me. And then I knew when he would be
• 39:06
  excited about things and what to ask.
• 39:09
  It was like I fast forwarded like a month of a first date.
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  Of shitty dating experiences to a.
• 39:14
  Really good connection and the coolest thing, brother, they
• 39:17
  were just like they were staring at each other.
• 39:20
  You know that look when people are in love and they are just
• 39:24
  staring at each other like. A tractor.
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  I think it's because they actually, in that moment, felt
• 39:29
  seen. Yes, that's a common saying.
• 39:32
  And that's what that is. I've heard that you see me if.
• 39:35
  You feel seen. It's that little kid going holy
• 39:37
  shit, I wasn't told I couldn't do this.
• 39:39
  I wasn't told, hey, you have to change to be this version.
• 39:42
  Hey, only this side is lovable. It was like, holy shit, no, I'm
• 39:46
  OK. Just like me.
• 39:48
  Yeah, I can be me. Well, dude, it's like when we're
• 39:51
  little kids like a called sand a sandcastle theory where what you
• 39:55
  can do is you put two kids in in and give them buckets and just
• 39:58
  say make a sandcastle, nothing's going to be wrong.
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  Yeah, because we're just here. When they just create as kids.
• 40:05
  That and you can shape it and move it anywhere you want.
• 40:07
  It doesn't have to be set in stone.
• 40:10
  And as they start doing this, they don't judge each other.
• 40:12
  It's the kid with the blue pail and the kid with the red pail.
• 40:15
  But we're the same. Yeah.
• 40:17
  And when you took what? I took their names away and I
• 40:20
  gave them the shapes. They were just engaging on that.
• 40:24
  But that couple. And then I saw another couple
• 40:27
  and I told the woman, I said, you're going to want to talk to
• 40:29
  this kind of guy. And I said, you're going to want
• 40:31
  to talk to this type of woman. I said, I don't want you to see
• 40:34
  this or this. I just want you to see the
• 40:37
  shape. And when you feel the
• 40:39
  connection, then you'll know if all this works for you, too.
• 40:42
  And if that does, I just speed up three months of connection
• 40:48
  where I allowed you to take away who you are, what gets in your
• 40:51
  way in your head of why I can't connect with other people, why I
• 40:54
  can't make friends with other people, Right.
• 40:57
  You're good with it. I'm good with it.
• 40:59
  A lot of other people out there are not good with it.
• 41:02
  Really not good with. It see, I always feel like I'm a
• 41:05
  very quiet introverted person. And then Emily or my kids are
• 41:10
  like, Dad, you talk to everybody, you're always talk.
• 41:12
  And I'm like, I, I don't feel like I.
• 41:14
  Remember when you first came networking?
• 41:16
  With me, me too. You were like and then it got
• 41:18
  kind of businessy, but then the other ones I kept bringing you
• 41:22
  and I'm like, this is what I do and you're just like, you mean
• 41:25
  just be me? Yeah, I much rather be me.
• 41:28
  I hate going cuz it's like going out selling.
• 41:31
  I can sell just fine if I can be me, yeah.
• 41:36
  If I have to go and be someone else, I can't.
• 41:38
  I can't do that. I can do accents so it depends
• 41:41
  on what it, but that's usually. Still trying to do that, so it's
• 41:44
  just. Me fucking around because I'm
• 41:46
  like, oh, I'm having fun with this, I'm just enjoying this and
• 41:49
  to me I'm just playing. See, and that's what it should
• 41:51
  be. I mean, again, you're a kid, you
• 41:54
  know, and other people want to be kids too.
• 41:56
  And when you allow them to be like, hey, I'm going to remove
• 41:59
  the stigma of class, class or money or whatever that means it
• 42:04
  doesn't, it doesn't really mean anything, right?
• 42:06
  If I have copious amounts of money and I'm in a Society of
• 42:11
  need, who am I to continue to keep that?
• 42:14
  I get, I get where other rich people are talking like that's
• 42:17
  mine. I made it and I get it.
• 42:19
  But what greater impact? I mean, what wealth can you
• 42:22
  obtain by just asking others to help others too and show that
• 42:27
  you can do it? It begins to not be, hey, we're
• 42:30
  over here serving people. We just want to know how awesome
• 42:34
  we are. We got money from all you
• 42:36
  fuckers to give it to these people, but we're only giving
• 42:39
  this much, but we're keeping the rest.
• 42:41
  Anyways, let's get into it. And like I've told you, I'm
• 42:43
  like, as soon as we can, we start going out, we start doing
• 42:46
  servitude. We're not recording this shit,
• 42:48
  you know, because we're, we really want to be able to do
• 42:50
  that. And, and the only reason is not
• 42:52
  because I'm a Jesus freak. It's because man, the best
• 42:56
  feeling ever is serving others when they don't expect it.
• 43:00
  And the amount of gratitude what you do, you are making a bigger
• 43:06
  impact in this world than any hateful thing, any any
• 43:09
  disparaging thing you could think of.
• 43:11
  When you do this, you are helping to create a better
• 43:15
  world. You want peace?
• 43:17
  Start doing things like this. You want less racism?
• 43:20
  Start doing things like this. You want to start being upset
• 43:23
  about who thinks they're what and who comes.
• 43:26
  It doesn't matter. This is a meat skin.
• 43:30
  This is a sleeve. It's a meat suit.
• 43:32
  Yeah, I don't care because it will go away someday.
• 43:35
  It's falling apart every day. But I care about this connection
• 43:40
  that I have with other people. And that was just like, man, it
• 43:44
  was so cool because what we're talking about right now, like it
• 43:47
  really just strips away this identity that we think we have
• 43:51
  to have. What I call the ego.
• 43:53
  Yeah, right. The ego, Ego.
• 43:55
  That's where I didn't understand ego death with like psilocybin
• 43:59
  and all that other stuff until I let understood what it was.
• 44:03
  And the ego is the personality that we go out and share with
• 44:06
  the world. We try to be the tough.
• 44:09
  Guy thing we hold on to of. Like, well, who doesn't want to
• 44:12
  be the hero? Like, I was at this event and
• 44:15
  there was these guys and they're like, Oh, yeah, I'm.
• 44:17
  I'm just like you. No, I'm on the microphone.
• 44:20
  You haven't, you haven't even tried to go out there.
• 44:23
  You've been standing in the corner.
• 44:24
  You are not that. And that's OK.
• 44:27
  But not everybody is a hero. Everybody's a part of what what
• 44:31
  McClain would love me saying. We're a part of this DND party.
• 44:35
  Everybody there has an ability and a skill that contributes to
• 44:40
  the greater good. That's what I love about that
• 44:42
  nerdy world. That's so cool.
• 44:44
  It's like, oh, you're a wizard or I'm a barbarian.
• 44:46
  It's the community, yeah. Or a family that trucks
• 44:50
  together, you know? And it's like finding those
• 44:52
  commonalities and similarities versus like, oh, the
• 44:55
  differences. Yeah.
• 44:56
  It's like, Oh no, we're all, everyone's fucking weird.
• 45:00
  Yeah. But in their own way.
• 45:01
  But then shift it now instead of differences, their superpowers.
• 45:05
  What is your super? If I look at you as I know your
• 45:08
  abilities like Brandon is astute to time and order and making
• 45:14
  sure things get done when they need to be done.
• 45:17
  Like you are the heart of an engine.
• 45:20
  You make things go, you really do.
• 45:23
  And I know that your superpower, now you could tell me all of
• 45:26
  your iniquities, all of the shit that you've done, all the things
• 45:29
  that you think badly about yourself.
• 45:31
  But I know that you're the heart of the engine.
• 45:33
  Your superpower is to know things and how they work.
• 45:37
  And you do that so well. But the things that we pile on
• 45:41
  top is that, well, I need to do this and I need to know you
• 45:44
  don't. You focus on what you do and
• 45:48
  that will take you further than anything else.
• 45:51
  Just like you said, like I get to be me.
• 45:53
  Do that though, completely and everything and just saying,
• 45:56
  yeah, I'm going to do. I am victim of that recently
• 45:59
  just kind of looking and like, why am I not performing the way
• 46:02
  I need to perform? Like I sound like I'd be a
• 46:04
  pretty great sales person, right?
• 46:06
  And I'm fucking up. Why?
• 46:07
  Because I'm trying to be somebody else.
• 46:10
  And I, you know, and it's at a real like hard push time, but
• 46:14
  I've been doing it more. I've just been like, hey, I'm
• 46:17
  here to joke around. I'm going to have a good time
• 46:19
  with you and I don't care. I don't care.
• 46:23
  I'm I'm not worried about I'm more worried that I don't make a
• 46:26
  connection. It would hurt me more to know
• 46:29
  that I made you, not made you feel salesy, but worse would be
• 46:33
  to make you feel like connecting with other humans is just maybe
• 46:37
  not for you. Yeah, that's my responsibility
• 46:40
  when I interact with somebody. And so I'm doing that in behalf
• 46:43
  of the next person that they meet.
• 46:44
  Not the human race, just the next person they meet so they
• 46:47
  can see the good in other people as well.
• 46:49
  That's like the be kind. Just pass it on.
• 46:52
  Yeah, exactly. You know, and and doing it
• 46:54
  without the the promise of getting things.
• 46:57
  Yeah, so love you man. Love you to you bro.
• 47:00
  We love you guys. Love you guys.
• 47:02
  Yeah, Turn in next week. I think we'll have a guest next
• 47:05
  week. Okay, yeah, if not, I also
• 47:09
  should talk to President so. Yes, yeah.
• 47:12
  Yes, we'll see. See you next week.