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- Chapter eleven. I am, I think, I will, my hands, my spirit, my sky, my forest, this earth of mine. What must I say? Besides these are the words? This is the answer. I stand here on the summit of the mountain. I lift my head and I spread my arms. This my body and spirit. This is the end of the quest. I wish to know the meaning of things. I am the meaning. I wish to find a warrant for being. I need no warrant for being, and no word of sanction upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction. It is my eyes which see, and the sight of my eyes grants beauty to the earth. It is my ears which hear, and the hearing of my ears gives its song to the world. It is my mind which thinks, and the judgment of my mind is the only searchlight that confine the truth. It is my will which chooses, and the choice of my will is the only edict I must respect. Many words have been granted me, and some are wise and some are false, but only three are holy. I will it whatever road I take. The guiding star is within me. The guiding star and the lodestone which point the way they point in. But one direction they point to me. I know not if this earth on which I stand is the core of the universe, or if it is a speck of dust lost in eternity. I know not, and I care not, for I know what happiness is possible to me on earth, and my happiness needs no higher aim to vindicate it. My happiness is not the means to any end. It is the end. It is its own goal, it is its own purpose. Neither am I the means to any end others may wish to accomplish. I am not a tool for their use. I am not a servant of their needs. I am not a bandage for their wounds. I am not a sacrifice on their altars. I am a man. Miracle of me is mine to own and keep, and mine to guard, and mine to use, and mine to kneel before. I do not surrender my treasures, nor do I share them. The fortune of my spirit is not to be blown into coins of brass and flung to the winds as alms for the poor of the spirit. I guard my treasures, my thought, my will, my freedom, and the greatest of these is freedom. I owe nothing to my brothers, nor do I gather debts from them. I ask none to live for me, nor do I live for any others. I covet no man's soul, nor is my soul theirs to cove. I am neither foe nor friend to my brothers, but such as each of them shall deserve of me. And to earn my love, my brothers must do more than to have been born. I do not grant my love without reason, nor to any chance or by who may wish to claim it. I honor men with my love, but honor is a thing to be earned. I shall choose friends among men, but neither slave nor masters. And I shall choose only such as please me. And then I shall love and respect, but neither command nor obey. And we shall join our hands when we wish, or walk alone when we so desire. For in the temple of his spirit, each man is alone. Let each man keep his temple untouched and undefiled. Then let him join hands with others if he wishes, but only beyond his holy threshold. For the word we must never be spoken, save by one's choice, and as a second thought. This word must never be placed first within man's soul, else it becomes a monster. The root of all the evils on earth, the root of man's torture by men, and an unspeakable lie. The word we is as lime poured over men, which sets and hardens to stone and crushes all beneath it. And that which is white and that which is black are lost equally in the gray of it. And it is the word by which the depraved steal the virtue of the good, by which the weak steal the might of the strong, and by which the fools steal the wisdom of the sages. What is my joy if all hands, even the unclean, can reach into it? What is my wisdom? If even the fools can dictate to me? What is my freedom? If all creatures, even the botched and impotent, are my masters? What is my life? If I am but to bow, to agree, and to obey. But I am done with this creed of corruption. I am done with the monster of we, the word of serfdom of plunder, of misery and falsehood and shame. And now I see the face of God, and I raise this God over the earth, and this God whom men have sought since men came into being, This God who will grant them joy and peace and pride, this God, this one word. I end Chapter eleven.