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How to End Drama in Life and Relationships. · Council of Kings

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  There's a Zen proverb that says,
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  if you understand,
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  things are as they are.
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  SPEAKER_01: If you don't understand, things are as they are.
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  SPEAKER_01: Remembering that one today, I'm feeling a few mixed emotions today.
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  I've been going through some interpersonal challenges in recent
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  days with...
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  SPEAKER_01: couple people in my life and just holding space for that,
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  holding compassionate space as best I can and also just
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  noticing that things are as
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  SPEAKER_01: they are.
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  SPEAKER_01: Life is as it is.
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  The mind can have a tendency to want to create a dramatic story
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  about things that
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  SPEAKER_01: are happening and can try to fixate on that story.
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  There are parts of ourselves and parts of our minds that often
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  feed upon drama and
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  SPEAKER_01: try to use drama as a way of perpetuating their existence.
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  SPEAKER_01: Eckhart Tolle has spoken about the pain body,
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  SPEAKER_01: the kind of swampy,
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  SPEAKER_01: coagulated,
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  SPEAKER_01: wounded parts of ourselves that are in need of deep healing,
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  SPEAKER_01: deep loving presence.
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  yet which often have almost an autonomous will to kind of
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  persist in their current form.
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  And these pain body aspects of us can really hijack the mind
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  and hook into the mind
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  SPEAKER_01: when they get triggered and create a kind of dark symbiosis,
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  SPEAKER_01: a dark feedback loop where
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  the mind is being hijacked by inner wounded parts and driven to
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  create and fixate
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  SPEAKER_01: on over-dramatized narratives.
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  And then the over-dramatized narratives in turn are kind of fed
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  upon by those
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  SPEAKER_01: wounded parts of us that
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  SPEAKER_01: almost want drama on some level,
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  SPEAKER_01: want to feel bad,
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  SPEAKER_01: want to have a reason for kind of perpetuating a sense of separation or
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  SPEAKER_01: perpetuating certain,
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  SPEAKER_01: um,
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  other feelings of tension or rejection or unworthiness or shame
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  or whatever it is.
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  SPEAKER_01: So
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  SPEAKER_01: These dynamics can be really,
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  SPEAKER_01: really subtle,
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  SPEAKER_01: really difficult to notice,
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  especially when you're in the heat of the moment with things
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  coming up with people
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  SPEAKER_01: in your life.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's always valuable to get outside,
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  SPEAKER_01: get in nature,
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  SPEAKER_01: put your bare feet on the earth as I'm doing here and
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  SPEAKER_01: Just ground,
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  SPEAKER_01: reconnect,
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  SPEAKER_01: connect to a sense of spaciousness,
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  focus your attention on the vividness and lusciousness that are
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  ever present in
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  SPEAKER_01: boundless quantities.
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  SPEAKER_01: There's literally an ever present big bang,
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  SPEAKER_01: an ever present flash of pure artistry going on all around us.
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  SPEAKER_01: And when we get hooked into drama,
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  SPEAKER_01: mental stories,
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  we can very easily narrow in on that and to the exclusion of
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  everything else.
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  SPEAKER_01: So it's very helpful to just,
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  SPEAKER_01: you know,
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  SPEAKER_01: look at a tree,
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  SPEAKER_01: look at some leaves,
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  SPEAKER_01: look at the sky and realize that
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  SPEAKER_01: Those are equally valid emanations of your present experience.
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  SPEAKER_01: Emanations,
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  shinings forth within your present experience as whatever
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  mental story is being
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  SPEAKER_01: locked into.
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  And no matter what's happening behind it all,
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  there is this,
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  there is this silence.
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  SPEAKER_01: There is this wholeness.
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  SPEAKER_01: There is this quality of rest that can be felt, can be tapped into.
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  SPEAKER_01: And this is part of the power of accessing this type of portal.
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  SPEAKER_01: When we're not in deep drama,
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  if we playfully practice in day-to-day life to access this
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  portal of now-ness,
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  SPEAKER_01: really drop all stories,
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  SPEAKER_01: ideas,
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  SPEAKER_01: opinions,
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  SPEAKER_01: beliefs,
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  SPEAKER_01: identities as deeply as possible,
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  and just come into this clarity and this finality that now is
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  all we've ever
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  SPEAKER_01: experienced
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  SPEAKER_01: No one's ever found the past or the future.
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  SPEAKER_01: Now is all that we have.
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  SPEAKER_01: Now is what this is.
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  SPEAKER_01: And you can't really say what now is, but it's here.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's a fullness.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's omnipresent.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's flowing.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's oceanic.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's vivid.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's textured.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's many-dimensional.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's unpricable.
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  unquantifiably juicy effulgent rich and when we practice to
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  access that type of
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  portal in daily life when we're in a more calm and not
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  emotionally triggered space
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  SPEAKER_01: it can then make it a lot easier to
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  access that portal when we are experiencing some kind of
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  trigger or some kind of
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  SPEAKER_01: drama in relation to people in our lives.
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  SPEAKER_01: And really,
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  SPEAKER_01: not only can we access it,
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  SPEAKER_01: but the more that you've accessed this portal of nowness,
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  SPEAKER_01: the more that you playfully let yourself abide as pure freshness now,
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  SPEAKER_01: abide as something that is
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  SPEAKER_01: far beyond human,
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  SPEAKER_01: to be frank,
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  SPEAKER_01: far beyond the body,
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  SPEAKER_01: the human identity,
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  far beyond your name and all the stories you tell yourself
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  about yourself.
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  SPEAKER_01: There is this literal vividness of infinite artistry all around us.
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  And the more that we have playfully accessed that portal in
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  day-to-day life,
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  SPEAKER_01: It is cumulative.
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  It accumulates over time and it shifts the foundational center
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  of gravity of your
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  SPEAKER_01: being such that you abide more fully and intrinsically as this nowness.
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  You are rooted in and as this nowness and there is this
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  increasingly indestructible
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  background knowingness and an embodied energetic tactile
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  knowingness that this is
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  SPEAKER_01: always here this is always it this is wholeness now we are held
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  SPEAKER_01: There's a deep experiential flavor to this that this is home.
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  SPEAKER_01: We can trust this.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is love.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's okay.
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  SPEAKER_01: Any emotion is okay.
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  SPEAKER_01: No emotion is wrong.
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  Even the most seemingly heavy or fiery or spicy or swampy or
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  gloppy or coagulated
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  SPEAKER_01: emotional textures.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's just another texture on the kaleidoscope.
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  SPEAKER_01: Another color on the color wheel.
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  SPEAKER_01: Another way that this
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  infinitely differentiated continuum of bandwidths can shine
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  forth in any given
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  moment this too shall pass everything is actually
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  instantaneously passing if we
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  look very closely it's almost like a uh an instantaneous
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  refresh rate you've never
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  seen the same moment twice you've never seen the same person
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  twice you've never
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  SPEAKER_01: felt the same
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  SPEAKER_01: Emotion twice.
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  SPEAKER_01: You've never seen yourself the same way twice.
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  SPEAKER_01: And these are,
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  these are statements not to be latched onto and turned into
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  beliefs or kind of
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  SPEAKER_01: black and white thinking.
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  SPEAKER_01: They're, they're just pointers to freshness, pointers to notice.
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  SPEAKER_01: Wait, this nowness is always fresh.
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  SPEAKER_01: I've never experienced this before.
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  SPEAKER_01: I fundamentally don't know what this is in a deep sense.
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  SPEAKER_01: And this is a fresh, boundless mystery to me.
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  SPEAKER_01: So yeah,
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  SPEAKER_01: the more that we playfully,
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  SPEAKER_01: playfully penetrate that portal of preciousness in daily life,
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  SPEAKER_01: the more that it really like sinks into
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  SPEAKER_01: into our bones,
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  SPEAKER_01: our cartilage,
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  SPEAKER_01: it transfigures,
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  SPEAKER_01: it alchemizes the fundamental material of our being in a certain sense.
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  SPEAKER_01: There's a deep alchemy that takes place
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  on earth as it is in heaven this this heavenly light that we're
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  opening to which
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  experientially texturally is what it can really feel like when
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  you relinquish
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  identities ideas opinions past future body mind relationships
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  the external world
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  SPEAKER_01: when you let it all go and you just open to what is here and
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  SPEAKER_01: it can feel like you're opening to a heavenly light,
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  SPEAKER_01: a heavenly effulgence that is in a,
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  SPEAKER_01: in a conditionless condition of utter repose and all embracing love.
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  And that light tends to begin to be accessed first up here
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  through the crown.
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  SPEAKER_01: And then over time it can, it can,
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  SPEAKER_01: experientially seem to sink down more and more.
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  SPEAKER_01: And then it hits the heart and the heart, the heart can blow wide open.
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  You know,
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  I've had many just pure weeping heart openings the last few
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  years.
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  And then it can continue to sink down from there into the belly
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  and the root.
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  SPEAKER_01: And the belly and the root is where many teachings and traditions exist.
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  SPEAKER_01: And my own experience suggests that a lot of our most coagulated,
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  SPEAKER_01: swampy,
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  SPEAKER_01: murky,
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  SPEAKER_01: gloppy karma is stored.
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  SPEAKER_01: Everything related to sex,
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  SPEAKER_01: money,
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  SPEAKER_01: death,
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  SPEAKER_01: tribe,
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  SPEAKER_01: belonging,
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  SPEAKER_01: fear,
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  SPEAKER_01: shame is often stored in this area.
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  SPEAKER_01: So that's,
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  SPEAKER_01: in a sense,
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  SPEAKER_01: the densest lead that is gradually alchemized into gold,
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  SPEAKER_01: alchemized into this luminous light of pure beingness.
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  And I've recently been experiencing some quite deep shifts in
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  the belly and root
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  SPEAKER_01: area with a couple of entheogenic journeys that I've...
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  SPEAKER_01: engaged in,
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  SPEAKER_01: in recent months,
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  SPEAKER_01: very deep,
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  highly intentional healing ceremonies with a very deep
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  intention and really working
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  SPEAKER_01: with,
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  SPEAKER_01: uh,
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  SPEAKER_01: the Christ energy.
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  The Christ energy for me is very powerful in those types of
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  healing portals,
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  SPEAKER_01: especially,
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  SPEAKER_01: um,
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  SPEAKER_01: the mysterious Christ energy,
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  SPEAKER_01: which is another mysterious emanation of this unpinned downable vastness,
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  SPEAKER_01: this suprapersonal
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  SPEAKER_01: trans definable vastness that we seem to be,
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  SPEAKER_01: uh,
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  SPEAKER_01: that we seem to be sojourning through and as,
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  SPEAKER_01: as,
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  SPEAKER_01: as waves on the ocean.
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  SPEAKER_01: Christ is another depiction, another depiction,
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  apparition of that infinite field of flavorfulness that we seem
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  to be part of.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, and I don't mean apparition in a sense of being unreal.
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  SPEAKER_01: What this is, is beyond real or unreal, like way beyond that.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's, it just, it just can't be said.
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  SPEAKER_01: I mean, I generally lean more in the language I use.
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  SPEAKER_01: I lean more toward calling it real and reality than
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  um because it's the realest thing we've ever known it's the
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  realest thing there is
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  uh that we have access to and yet you know even words like real
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  and reality cannot
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  SPEAKER_01: capture this cannot pin it down and
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  SPEAKER_01: Apparition is just a way of pointing toward the etheric,
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  SPEAKER_01: kind of dreamlike,
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  SPEAKER_01: vaporous,
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  SPEAKER_01: evanescent,
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  SPEAKER_01: ever flickering,
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  SPEAKER_01: impermanent,
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  SPEAKER_01: dynamic,
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  SPEAKER_01: fluid,
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  SPEAKER_01: almost liquid.
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  SPEAKER_01: Like...
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  nature of this this river of being when you when you open to it
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  uh very deeply and
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  intimately that is the kind of experiential texture that it
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  takes on that can be
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  revealed and so yeah this super personal ocean has many faces
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  many emanations many
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  SPEAKER_01: apparitions
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  What seems to be Jordan Bates speaking to you right now is one
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  such apparition,
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  SPEAKER_01: one such emanation.
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  SPEAKER_01: And in deep spaces of mystical insight,
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  SPEAKER_01: healing,
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  SPEAKER_01: or revelation,
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  SPEAKER_01: there can be emanations and apparitions of saints and sages and avatars.
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  And it can be incredibly powerful to work with these personal
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  and super personal
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  SPEAKER_01: revelatory emanations,
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  SPEAKER_01: avataric emanations who...
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  crystallize a sense of the most primal the most beautiful
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  qualities of divinity
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  crystallized in a form that is deeply resonant with the
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  sacramental human journey
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  and intelligible to the sacramental human journey and
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  translates the primal
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  qualities of divinity skillfully into a north star human
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  incarnation that can be um
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  SPEAKER_01: that can be resonated with,
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  SPEAKER_01: that can be deeply welcomed in,
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  SPEAKER_01: that can literally seem to perform open heart surgery on your being.
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  SPEAKER_01: I mean, these are living presences as far as I'm concerned.
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  SPEAKER_01: As far as my experience goes,
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  Jesus Christ is a living presence who is with us just as much
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  as I'm with you right
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  SPEAKER_01: now or my daughter is with me when I'm holding her in my arms.
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  And I've had similar experiences with many other types of
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  discarnate intelligences
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  SPEAKER_01: and beings,
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  SPEAKER_01: Indian saints and sages,
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  SPEAKER_01: Anandamai Ma,
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  SPEAKER_01: and many of these experiences have occurred while
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  sober or maybe drinking coffee and then a whole lot more have
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  occurred uh in deep
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  entheogenic states where there have been a whole vaster
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  spectrum of of entities and
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  and discarnate beings encountered um on a wider spectrum of
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  apparent benevolence
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  SPEAKER_01: versus malevolence versus gray area tricksterness um
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  SPEAKER_01: Yeah, so it's weird out here.
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  SPEAKER_01: Long story short, it's weird and wavy out here.
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  SPEAKER_01: But back to the point that I was making,
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  SPEAKER_01: these mushroom journeys,
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  Christ-healing mushroom journeys have felt deeply connected to
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  allowing this
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  SPEAKER_01: experiential quality of omnipresent heavenly light,
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  SPEAKER_01: the omnipresent sunlight of pure being to sink further down
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  SPEAKER_01: further into the solar plexus,
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  SPEAKER_01: further into the belly,
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  SPEAKER_01: the sacral,
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  SPEAKER_01: the dantien,
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  SPEAKER_01: the root,
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  SPEAKER_01: the groin.
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  SPEAKER_01: And there's been a deep sense of like things thawing out down there,
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  SPEAKER_01: a sense of numbness,
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  SPEAKER_01: abating,
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  certain numbnesses that I didn't even really realize were there
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  because those parts
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  SPEAKER_01: were numb,
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  SPEAKER_01: kind of thawing out.
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  SPEAKER_01: And a lot of the embodied healing and awakening process
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  SPEAKER_01: is deeply akin to a thawing out.
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  The body has been kind of frozen in a state of numbness as a
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  defense mechanism,
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  SPEAKER_01: a protective mechanism,
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  SPEAKER_01: because we're living in a civilization that's been steeped in war,
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  SPEAKER_01: violence,
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  SPEAKER_01: and abuse for millennia,
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  SPEAKER_01: and most of our ancestors were traumatized in one way or another,
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  SPEAKER_01: and we've been born into a civilization that
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  SPEAKER_01: in many ways,
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  resembles a factory farm where we've been kind of shipped
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  through this factory-like
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  education system where we were conditioned and the system
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  attempted to shape us
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  SPEAKER_01: into,
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  SPEAKER_01: to put it in a dystopian sense,
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  SPEAKER_01: to shape us into drone-like automatons who would
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  SPEAKER_01: be able to perform the task that the master has given me um you know just
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  performing repetitive repetitive drudge work all day sitting in
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  desks as children
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  for eight hours a day as the the drill master tells us the next
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  uh the next
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  SPEAKER_01: required regurgitation of memorized information um
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  Yeah,
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  anywho,
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  bringing up memories of my complex relationship with what is
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  known as school.
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  SPEAKER_01: But yeah, it's not too surprising that our deeply sensitive, soft...
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  animal bodies like closed off to a lot of that especially as we
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  were taught that it
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  wasn't really safe and okay to be our full spectrum embodied
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  rainbow unicorn selves
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  and let it all hang out and wear our heart on our sleeve and be
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  us and sing and
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  dance and be fruity and wavy and wacky and weird and childlike
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  and you know that's
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  SPEAKER_00: not allowed here young man straighten yourself out there dear boy
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  SPEAKER_01: You know, obviously kind of caricaturing things right here.
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  SPEAKER_01: But,
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  SPEAKER_01: you know,
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  SPEAKER_01: of course,
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  caricature and comedy can be useful for accessing and
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  illuminating deep shadows.
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  So anywho,
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  it's not surprising that a lot of us are in a state of like
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  almost permanent...
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  fight or flight deep kind of or freeze and there's kind of a
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  deep frozen rigidity
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  our true full embodied sensitization to life and our innate
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  organic suppleness and
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  fluidity tends to be quite restricted in this civilization and
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  culture at this
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  juncture and so a lot of the embodied healing and awakening
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  process is akin to this
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  SPEAKER_01: heavenly light
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  entering through the crown and there can also be a sense of
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  light coming up from
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  the earth as well so you know it's not exactly linear and any
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  model is gonna is
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  gonna miss the mark because it's a it's a non-linear and
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  multi-dimensional process
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  and there are simultaneous elements of kind of ascending and
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  descending energy and
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  But I do find some resonance with this idea that the energy is
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  more able to start
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  SPEAKER_01: pooling up here in the crown area.
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  SPEAKER_01: This area where the thinking mind often seems to reside, seems to be more
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  naturally etheric more porous to this type of energy and then
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  over time it sinks
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  more fully into the heart um which yeah maybe somewhat less
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  porous than the mind
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  and there can be these deep heart openings and then least
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  porous and most dense
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  SPEAKER_01: seems to be you know what we've got going on down here with with the
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  SPEAKER_01: the solar plexus,
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  SPEAKER_01: the belly,
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  SPEAKER_01: the sacral,
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  SPEAKER_01: and the root,
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  there can be a lot of very swamp-like coagulated karma and
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  frozen trauma there.
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  And we can be very thankful for our brilliantly intelligent
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  bodies that they have
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  these inbuilt mechanisms that they were able to create these
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  shields and freeze and
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  kind of numb as a way of protecting us when we were young
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  because we didn't know
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  SPEAKER_01: how to process the level of
• 23:22
  the level of pain or rejection or abandonment or abuse or
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  violence that in many
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  SPEAKER_01: cases was being afflicted upon us.
• 23:34
  SPEAKER_01: You know, I'm very lucky.
• 23:38
  SPEAKER_01: I don't feel like I, you know, my parents are amazing.
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  SPEAKER_01: They love me very much and I feel very blessed in that respect.
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  SPEAKER_01: So I'm not trying to imply that I came from any sort of,
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  abusive family or something but the yeah our our culture has
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  unconscious forms of
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  SPEAKER_01: abuse and violence baked into it that are not
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  normally noticed and i'm not trying to be hyperbolic with these
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  terms but but
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  really i mean if you if you really look at it like baby boys
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  are born and the first
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  thing they experience in many cases in this world is they're
• 24:27
  snatched from their
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  SPEAKER_01: mothers taken from their mothers and they're uh
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  SPEAKER_01: a large chunk of their penis is cut off.
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  SPEAKER_01: A large chunk of their most sensitive,
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  SPEAKER_01: most personal appendage is just amputated in a display of very strangely
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  SPEAKER_01: medicalized violence.
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  SPEAKER_01: A lot of baby boys in our civilization,
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  SPEAKER_01: like myself,
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  SPEAKER_01: were not breastfed because the culture convinced our mothers that
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  SPEAKER_01: And breast milk was not necessary and formula would work just fine.
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  A lot of our mothers had to go back to work six to eight weeks
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  after we were born.
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  SPEAKER_01: My mother had to go back to work six weeks after I was born.
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  SPEAKER_01: So I started going to daycare.
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  at that time and you know i've accessed deep memories of
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  feeling deeply separated
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  deeply rejected and abandoned and just crying sobbing as an
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  infant so even things
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  like that are leave very deep imprints and we don't often
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  understand the level of
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  SPEAKER_01: violence that is there and then
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  and then you know the way our civilization feels that it needs
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  to like in a sense
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  break children down and discipline them and kind of shape them
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  into things that
• 25:52
  will be useful to the machine of the civilization which is
• 25:57
  largely designed as kind
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  of a pyramid scheme that harvests the life force energy of the
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  masses and directs
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  SPEAKER_01: it toward a small uh
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  a small group of people at the top who have a vastly
• 26:10
  disproportionate amount of the
• 26:12
  SPEAKER_01: life force energy of the civilization stagnantly pooled in their,
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  SPEAKER_01: in their bank accounts.
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  Um,
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  and the civilization has this deep prioritization of profit
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  over everything.
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  SPEAKER_01: And there are many dehumanizing and undignifying and abusive people
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  things that are occurring in the name of,
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  in the name of prophet,
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  um,
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  in this civilization.
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  SPEAKER_01: So,
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  SPEAKER_01: you know,
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  SPEAKER_01: and,
• 26:45
  SPEAKER_01: and a lot of the,
• 26:46
  SPEAKER_01: a lot of the classical modes of schooling fall into that category.
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  SPEAKER_01: So a lot of us went through that.
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  A lot of us went through some of the dysfunctions of organized
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  religion being made
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  to feel like we're inherently sinful boys and girls who are
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  going to burn in hell
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  SPEAKER_01: if we
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  burn in hell for all of eternity if we step out of line if we
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  spank the monkey or
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  you know clean the pipes um and and other missteps things of
• 27:20
  that nature you know
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  it was normalized for a long time in our culture to to spank
• 27:28
  children to just hit
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  SPEAKER_01: children to to teach them lessons um
• 27:35
  SPEAKER_01: I saw this when I taught English in South Korea,
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  it was it was still normalized there to sometimes just take the
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  elementary school
• 27:41
  SPEAKER_01: kids out in the hallway and hit them with a stick.
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  SPEAKER_01: And so yeah, a lot of this stuff is like
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  It's normalized and people assume like,
• 27:51
  oh yeah,
• 27:52
  it's kind of always how things have been done.
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  But as you unfreeze a lot of this karma and trauma and you
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  resensitize and you
• 28:02
  SPEAKER_01: start to see the shadows of the culture and civilization and the deep
• 28:07
  unconsciousness and non-sanity that creates a deep sense of of
• 28:12
  numbness and
• 28:13
  separation among people which then propagates itself later on
• 28:19
  as further dynamics
• 28:22
  of separation tribal violence in the form of political warfare
• 28:27
  information warfare
• 28:28
  SPEAKER_01: and
• 28:29
  SPEAKER_01: actual physical warfare with bodies being murdered,
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  SPEAKER_01: desensitization to,
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  SPEAKER_01: to the cruelty toward animals and toward children,
• 28:37
  SPEAKER_01: you know,
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  SPEAKER_01: situations of ongoing slavery,
• 28:39
  SPEAKER_01: human trafficking,
• 28:41
  SPEAKER_01: um,
• 28:43
  SPEAKER_01: rape,
• 28:44
  SPEAKER_01: mistreatment of,
• 28:46
  SPEAKER_01: of many people.
• 28:47
  SPEAKER_01: Um, and yeah, war, our, our species murdered a hundred million people.
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  SPEAKER_01: of its own kind in the 20th century alone.
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  And that's pretty much the only historical fact you need to
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  know to be able to
• 29:07
  recognize that our species on the whole is in a condition of
• 29:12
  deep non-sanity,
• 29:14
  SPEAKER_01: non-lucidity,
• 29:15
  SPEAKER_01: separation,
• 29:17
  and a literal insane loop of karmically roundhouse kicking
• 29:24
  itself in the face for
• 29:26
  SPEAKER_01: century after century.
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  for for thousands of years so that's what we've been born into
• 29:32
  welcome to earth
• 29:33
  ladies and gentlemen and you know to balance things out you
• 29:37
  know look at this place
• 29:39
  place is gorgeous and as i as i am always saying in my videos
• 29:43
  the now moment is
• 29:44
  truly this exquisite refreshment of pure artistry if we're able
• 29:50
  to actually go to
• 29:51
  SPEAKER_01: the immediate beingness the immediate textural detail
• 29:55
  and not live within these cages of small mental narratives
• 29:59
  where we've defined
• 30:00
  SPEAKER_01: ourselves as these small helpless beings,
• 30:04
  SPEAKER_01: you know,
• 30:05
  SPEAKER_01: we can open to an infinity,
• 30:07
  SPEAKER_01: an ever-present infinity of vastness that goes far beyond our human self.
• 30:16
  SPEAKER_01: It fully includes these sacramental human journeys.
• 30:19
  SPEAKER_01: It doesn't have to negate anything.
• 30:22
  SPEAKER_01: You can have your cake and eat it too in that sense.
• 30:25
  I am not in agreement with the enlightenment teachings that
• 30:29
  make it sound like you
• 30:30
  need to cast aside your entire human life and everything that's
• 30:35
  precious to you and
• 30:36
  SPEAKER_01: throw it all in a dumpster fire in order to realize enlightenment.
• 30:41
  SPEAKER_01: You know, it's much more like a
• 30:45
  SPEAKER_01: continual never-ending opening and enlightening and awakening where this
• 30:53
  omnipresent light of being is allowed to permeate and suffuse
• 31:00
  and open our bodies
• 31:02
  on every multi-dimensional level which goes far beyond just the
• 31:05
  physical body and
• 31:06
  SPEAKER_01: has
• 31:08
  SPEAKER_01: All these dimensions of subtlety and energy and subtle vibes.
• 31:12
  SPEAKER_01: And we are gradually,
• 31:16
  literally reawakened like cells and senses that have been
• 31:20
  dormant or slumbering or
• 31:22
  SPEAKER_01: numb or frozen are resensitized,
• 31:25
  SPEAKER_01: reawakened,
• 31:26
  SPEAKER_01: reopened.
• 31:28
  the frozenness is dissolved and once again we're able to sense
• 31:32
  and feel and be this
• 31:34
  SPEAKER_01: intrinsic fluidity,
• 31:35
  SPEAKER_01: this intrinsic at-homeness,
• 31:37
  SPEAKER_01: this intrinsic flavor of repose,
• 31:41
  SPEAKER_01: rest,
• 31:41
  SPEAKER_01: trust,
• 31:42
  SPEAKER_01: and all-embracingness that experientially feels,
• 31:47
  SPEAKER_01: as you open to this process,
• 31:49
  SPEAKER_01: feels like it is deeply inherent in the heart of reality,
• 31:52
  SPEAKER_01: in the heart of what this is.
• 31:53
  SPEAKER_01: It feels like coming home, although there's no need to
• 31:58
  reify it as a new belief system you don't have to turn it into
• 32:01
  a new dogma and that
• 32:03
  has been one of the great historic traps of humanity is to to
• 32:08
  take the pointers of
• 32:09
  great sages mystics avatars who are pointing at this infinity
• 32:13
  now and concretize it
• 32:17
  grasp onto it turn it into a new dogma that then becomes
• 32:22
  another basis for
• 32:23
  SPEAKER_01: separation and another basis for
• 32:25
  demonizing and killing those other people over there who
• 32:28
  believe a different dogma
• 32:29
  than me you know so anywho um welcome to earth much love to you
• 32:41
  you have uh you
• 32:43
  have taken on or been spontaneously emanated as a rather
• 32:48
  strange and dense karmic
• 32:50
  SPEAKER_01: assignment we seem to be in a
• 32:53
  gloppy cauldron of jambalaya in a certain sense uh here on the
• 32:58
  earth plane at this
• 33:00
  time our work is cut out for us we are being invited to
• 33:05
  alchemize and transfigure
• 33:07
  and redirect the momentum of literal centuries and millennia of
• 33:13
  warfare and um
• 33:16
  overt and covert forms of violence abuse domination separation
• 33:22
  etc etc etc
• 33:24
  SPEAKER_01: And meanwhile,
• 33:28
  SPEAKER_01: texturally,
• 33:29
  SPEAKER_01: experientially,
• 33:30
  SPEAKER_01: if you open to the now moment,
• 33:32
  if you playfully engage and allow yourself to access this
• 33:40
  ever-present portal of
• 33:41
  SPEAKER_01: nowness,
• 33:42
  you can open to what experientially really feels like
• 33:46
  omnipresent God nature,
• 33:48
  SPEAKER_01: omnipresent divinity,
• 33:50
  SPEAKER_01: that this entire earthly plane is
• 33:55
  SPEAKER_01: an emanation of is,
• 33:57
  SPEAKER_01: in a certain sense,
• 33:58
  SPEAKER_01: one small dimension of an infinite dimensional artistry.
• 34:05
  SPEAKER_01: All the stories of what's going on on earth,
• 34:08
  there's literally an infinity of additional detail and
• 34:12
  vibration and strangeness
• 34:14
  present in every moment that we don't have words for and that
• 34:17
  are far beyond what
• 34:18
  SPEAKER_01: is earthly and what is human.
• 34:22
  SPEAKER_01: And that can sound pretty abstract and ungrounded,
• 34:24
  SPEAKER_01: but it shows up in something as simple as like staring at a bush.
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  Like there's a lot going on with what we normally would call a
• 34:32
  bush that goes way
• 34:34
  SPEAKER_01: beyond our stories of what is human and what is earthly.
• 34:37
  SPEAKER_01: Like what actually is the color green?
• 34:41
  SPEAKER_01: What actually are these shapes that are effulging themselves upon...
• 34:49
  consciousness what is what is perceiving this right now what is
• 34:53
  what is this
• 34:53
  etheric pensive like substance of lucidity that this unknown
• 35:03
  shape-shifting uh
• 35:05
  being that we're just simply calling a bush seems to be uh
• 35:11
  morphing through and
• 35:12
  SPEAKER_01: presenting itself through and and how is it able to appear to
• 35:17
  instantaneously in this flash of nowness in total lucidity
• 35:21
  total clarity no lag
• 35:22
  time high definition never looking the same moment to moment
• 35:27
  everything subtly
• 35:28
  shifting and morphing at every moment you know so god is in the
• 35:33
  details as they say
• 35:35
  SPEAKER_01: when we start attuning to
• 35:37
  the actual astonishing textural infinite detail of our
• 35:42
  immediate naked experience
• 35:45
  SPEAKER_01: bare feet on the earth.
• 35:46
  SPEAKER_01: Once again,
• 35:47
  SPEAKER_01: very helpful way of,
• 35:49
  SPEAKER_01: of resensitizing and tuning in and receiving healing energy from Gaia.
• 35:57
  SPEAKER_01: This, this emanation that, that seems like as well, a living,
• 36:03
  super personal mythopoetic presence that has many gifts to
• 36:08
  bestow on us and is
• 36:10
  attempting to wrangle her children who have gone a little off
• 36:15
  the rocker here at
• 36:16
  least the hominid monkey race the youngsters that are much
• 36:22
  younger and less wise
• 36:23
  than these mighty ancient trees for example who don't kill each
• 36:30
  other but just
• 36:31
  SPEAKER_01: abide in
• 36:34
  SPEAKER_01: grace, rest, harmony, repose, stillness.
• 36:41
  SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
• 36:41
  SPEAKER_01: So we can, we can connect to Gaia.
• 36:43
  We can connect to what seems to be an infinite omnipresence of
• 36:49
  radiance here now,
• 36:51
  SPEAKER_01: ever present,
• 36:52
  SPEAKER_01: always available.
• 36:55
  SPEAKER_01: So that's the good news.
• 36:57
  SPEAKER_01: That's the good news.
• 36:58
  SPEAKER_01: And
• 37:00
  SPEAKER_01: Further good news is that experientially,
• 37:02
  the more that you allow yourself to go into this nowness and to
• 37:05
  be seduced by this
• 37:10
  SPEAKER_01: all-present flash of textural artistry,
• 37:12
  this utterly immersive hyper-tapestry that you are fully
• 37:18
  embedded in and as,
• 37:20
  SPEAKER_01: it's not even embedded,
• 37:21
  SPEAKER_01: you are the tapestry,
• 37:22
  SPEAKER_01: you are the ocean,
• 37:24
  SPEAKER_01: full contact sensory aliveness,
• 37:26
  SPEAKER_01: we are
• 37:28
  souls without skin out here it's it's oh it's we are this the
• 37:35
  more you the more you
• 37:36
  go into that allow yourself to feel that relinquish all ideas
• 37:41
  beliefs opinions
• 37:42
  stories sense of ownership past future sense of right and wrong
• 37:49
  essentially
• 37:49
  relinquish all the most subtle ideas you've ever had about what
• 37:54
  this was because
• 37:55
  SPEAKER_01: those are the fundamental
• 37:57
  concretizations that actually block us from opening to this all
• 38:00
  present light,
• 38:03
  the more you playfully practice to relinquish those and find
• 38:09
  these personal access
• 38:11
  points to this portal of nowness that allows for this deep
• 38:15
  sinking in of majesty,
• 38:19
  SPEAKER_01: of all present deliciousness,
• 38:23
  SPEAKER_01: gorgeousness,
• 38:26
  SPEAKER_01: There really,
• 38:27
  there is a dawning experiential sense that this now-ness and
• 38:33
  this voluptuousness
• 38:34
  SPEAKER_01: that is here,
• 38:35
  SPEAKER_01: this richness,
• 38:36
  SPEAKER_01: this lusciousness,
• 38:37
  SPEAKER_01: this living poetry,
• 38:39
  SPEAKER_01: this,
• 38:41
  SPEAKER_01: in a sense,
• 38:42
  SPEAKER_01: rock-solid presence of now,
• 38:47
  SPEAKER_01: the only place we've ever been,
• 38:50
  SPEAKER_01: this repose,
• 38:50
  SPEAKER_01: this all-embracingness,
• 38:53
  SPEAKER_01: this sense of being at home,
• 38:55
  SPEAKER_01: there's this daunting sense that that feels vastly more real,
• 38:59
  SPEAKER_01: more fundamental,
• 39:00
  SPEAKER_01: more foundational,
• 39:01
  SPEAKER_01: more central to what we truly are.
• 39:03
  There's a sense that it's literally confirming to you that it
• 39:06
  is vastly more real
• 39:07
  SPEAKER_01: in a deep sense because it's showing you,
• 39:09
  SPEAKER_01: yes,
• 39:10
  SPEAKER_01: Welcome home, child.
• 39:11
  SPEAKER_01: This feels good, child.
• 39:13
  SPEAKER_01: Yes, you're getting it now.
• 39:14
  SPEAKER_01: You're remembering.
• 39:16
  SPEAKER_01: You're remembering.
• 39:17
  SPEAKER_01: You've been lost in a story of separation.
• 39:20
  SPEAKER_01: You're remembering now.
• 39:21
  SPEAKER_01: You're coming home.
• 39:22
  SPEAKER_01: That is the experiential textural quality of it.
• 39:25
  SPEAKER_01: Again, it doesn't need to be concretized as a dogma or a belief system.
• 39:30
  SPEAKER_01: You can just feel that.
• 39:33
  SPEAKER_01: And that gives you this deep sense that what this is
• 39:42
  SPEAKER_01: here and now is vastly more real,
• 39:45
  SPEAKER_01: vastly more foundational,
• 39:46
  vastly more important in a sense than all of the stories of
• 39:53
  what's going on out
• 39:54
  SPEAKER_01: there,
• 39:54
  SPEAKER_01: all of the afflictive,
• 39:57
  SPEAKER_01: polarizing,
• 40:00
  tribal squabbling and information warfare and all that giant
• 40:06
  conglomeration of
• 40:08
  SPEAKER_01: stuff about everything going on out there
• 40:13
  can just feel less and less foundational,
• 40:20
  less and less imperative to pay attention to.
• 40:23
  SPEAKER_01: Your attention can return to nowness.
• 40:26
  SPEAKER_01: And then,
• 40:27
  SPEAKER_01: paradoxically,
• 40:27
  SPEAKER_01: you actually become much more available,
• 40:31
  SPEAKER_01: much more spacious,
• 40:32
  SPEAKER_01: much more able to be of service to truly resolving the nots
• 40:40
  SPEAKER_01: And the karmic momentum truly being of service to the end of that endless
• 40:49
  SPEAKER_01: squabbling warfare that seems to be going on out there.
• 40:52
  SPEAKER_01: Because you end the warfare within yourself.
• 40:56
  SPEAKER_01: So you then become...
• 40:58
  SPEAKER_01: a beacon,
• 40:59
  SPEAKER_01: a lantern of possibility of a different way of existing on this planet,
• 41:04
  a different way of existing that we are being invited to
• 41:09
  remember in every moment.
• 41:10
  SPEAKER_01: There is an ever-present invitation,
• 41:13
  a literal flashing billboard of infinite artistry continuously
• 41:17
  walloping us in the
• 41:18
  SPEAKER_01: face saying,
• 41:19
  SPEAKER_01: hey,
• 41:20
  SPEAKER_01: I'm here.
• 41:21
  SPEAKER_01: Remember now.
• 41:22
  SPEAKER_01: Remember now.
• 41:23
  SPEAKER_01: Root yourself now.
• 41:24
  SPEAKER_01: You've never seen anything other than now.
• 41:25
  SPEAKER_01: You've never been anywhere other than
• 41:29
  now so anywho this stuff is can be difficult to put into words
• 41:39
  but that's my
• 41:40
  attempt for today that feels yeah that feels complete for now I
• 41:49
  hope you've
• 41:49
  received hope you received something something helpful
• 41:53
  something valuable there
• 41:54
  SPEAKER_01: yeah
• 42:00
  SPEAKER_01: Essential message,
• 42:01
  SPEAKER_01: return to nowness,
• 42:03
  SPEAKER_01: experience nowness,
• 42:04
  SPEAKER_01: feel the radiance of now,
• 42:07
  SPEAKER_01: feel the texture and artistry of now,
• 42:10
  SPEAKER_01: allow the wholeness of now,
• 42:12
  the light of now to permeate and saturate your being and body
• 42:16
  on all levels.
• 42:17
  SPEAKER_01: All burdens can be offered up to the nowness,
• 42:20
  SPEAKER_01: can be given to the fire of nowness,
• 42:21
  SPEAKER_01: can be burned away,
• 42:23
  SPEAKER_01: transfigured,
• 42:23
  SPEAKER_01: transmuted,
• 42:24
  SPEAKER_01: integrated in the fires of nowness,
• 42:27
  which in a deep sense have already integrated everything and
• 42:30
  already contain all
• 42:32
  SPEAKER_01: wisdom and all love.
• 42:35
  SPEAKER_01: All love,
• 42:36
  SPEAKER_01: all peace,
• 42:38
  all possibility of the deepest and most beautiful things our
• 42:41
  hearts long for is
• 42:42
  SPEAKER_01: contained here now.
• 42:44
  SPEAKER_01: All those possibilities are inherent in this nowness.
• 42:47
  All the qualities of life that make life worth living are here
• 42:50
  now and inherent in
• 42:52
  SPEAKER_01: this nowness and accessible.
• 42:54
  SPEAKER_01: If we are willing and able to do the very courageous thing of starting to
• 43:03
  question our beliefs and on a deeper level or a more
• 43:07
  accelerated level literally
• 43:08
  burn down all beliefs relinquish all beliefs opinions sense of
• 43:14
  ownership sense of
• 43:16
  grasping and craving and and past and future and identity burn
• 43:21
  down all those
• 43:22
  layers most notably stop believing that you already know what
• 43:27
  life is and let
• 43:29
  SPEAKER_01: nowness freshly reveal itself to you as a
• 43:32
  SPEAKER_01: an unknown miracle that is dancing itself in utter repose,
• 43:40
  SPEAKER_01: um,
• 43:41
  SPEAKER_01: clarity and harmony with,
• 43:43
  SPEAKER_01: with no maintenance required in a profound sense.
• 43:46
  SPEAKER_01: So that's the message for today.
• 43:51
  SPEAKER_01: Much love to you,
• 43:53
  SPEAKER_01: much love,
• 43:53
  SPEAKER_01: trust life,
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  SPEAKER_01: trust divinity,
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  SPEAKER_01: be well,
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  SPEAKER_01: God bless you and your children.
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  SPEAKER_01: and all beings, all the days of your lives.
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  For the highest good of all,
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  may we go forth in peace to love and serve the whole.
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  SPEAKER_01: Thanks be to God.
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  SPEAKER_01: Amen.