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56: PART 2 - Raw & Real Confessions/Lessons After 1 Year of Podcasting · The Oreaganic Podcast

• 0:00
  SPEAKER_01: Part two.
• 0:01
  SPEAKER_01: Welcome back, you guys, to the two-part series of Happy Birthday to the podcast.
• 0:06
  SPEAKER_01: I'm sharing everything that I've learned in the past year and just reflecting on my whole experience with just everything that podcasting has been for me as just, you know, a normal, normal, normal gal who's just traversing through this world trying to share my purpose and mission with everyone else.
• 0:24
  SPEAKER_01: So here we are.
• 0:25
  SPEAKER_01: But today's episode is a continuation of last week because I just have so much to say about the podcast, and I went on a crazy rant about speaking, sharing authentically, and getting past the fear of if you feel like your market is oversaturated, like why should I bother starting?
• 0:43
  SPEAKER_01: Why should I bother trying?
• 0:44
  SPEAKER_01: Because so many other people already do this thing.
• 0:47
  SPEAKER_01: You need to go listen to last week's episode.
• 0:50
  SPEAKER_01: Like, you need to listen right now because the message that I shared was very potent and very clear.
• 0:56
  SPEAKER_01: So hopefully this episode is just gonna be another down-to-earth, relatable, honest, behind the scenes of making this podcast and just everything that has gone into it, everything I've learned.
• 1:08
  SPEAKER_01: So let's get into it.
• 1:09
  SPEAKER_01: Welcome to the organic podcast.
• 1:11
  SPEAKER_01: I'm your host, Reagan, mechanical engineer, lifelong athlete, and recovered overachiever, here to empower you to pursue your highest potential and live freely as your happiest, most organic self.
• 1:21
  SPEAKER_01: Every week we'll dive into topics ranging from personal growth, mindset hacks, psychology, and a blend of science and spirituality to give you all the tools you need to stop living on autopilot and start creating a life of freedom, meaning, and fulfillment as your most organic self.
• 1:35
  SPEAKER_01: If you're ready to become a good thing, welcome back again, my friends.
• 1:50
  SPEAKER_01: More thoughts on podcasting.
• 1:52
  SPEAKER_01: I'm thinking about this, and I really do think that as a listener, I would genuinely be really curious about what it is like to have a podcast.
• 2:03
  SPEAKER_01: Like the things that you think about, just the small things, the big things, the everything.
• 2:08
  SPEAKER_01: I don't know.
• 2:09
  SPEAKER_01: I'm nosy and I would just want to know.
• 2:10
  SPEAKER_01: So I'm gonna cater the rest of this episode and this two-part series towards more of the stuff that like a nosy person would want to know.
• 2:21
  SPEAKER_01: I already shared a bit in the last episode about like I don't know, sharing the podcast with the people closest to me and my fears and having global listeners and just feeling a little weird about like how I don't really know who's listening, and I'm kind of just talking in a void and and hoping that it lands, but knowing that it lands too.
• 2:41
  SPEAKER_01: So beyond those things, if you're curious and haven't listened to the last episode, I encourage you to go listen because this as I said before, I especially fucking went off.
• 2:51
  SPEAKER_01: So you will know if you are meant to hear that episode.
• 2:54
  SPEAKER_01: But moving forwards with my honest reflections, it it's it's so interesting how this podcast, like so many other things in life, has just been a mirror.
• 3:07
  SPEAKER_01: Like a mirror for my capacity, a mirror for where I still don't feel completely comfortable or safe to be like going super hard, all at it, grinding, like pushing this podcast out times a thousand and clipping it and whatever, blah blah blah blah blah.
• 3:25
  SPEAKER_01: Like mmm, mmm, reaching an edge, something about the limit of like just I don't want to say again I haven't put effort in because I've definitely put a lot of effort into this show, but it's that weird situation where I know and feel like I can always do more, but like I could really do more here if I wanted to actually share this podcast on a brighter scale, brighter, wow, broader, wider scale.
• 3:52
  SPEAKER_01: But I don't know, something things are just things take time, and I think that I've really adjusted to where I'm at now to the point where like growing more might feel a little bit less scary.
• 4:06
  SPEAKER_01: I don't know, guys.
• 4:07
  SPEAKER_01: Really weird.
• 4:08
  SPEAKER_01: Another thing I'd be curious about is guest episodes and how those have gone.
• 4:13
  SPEAKER_01: So in case you guys are wondering how guest episodes work for podcasts, I mean, it seems pretty straightforward.
• 4:20
  SPEAKER_01: Like I before I had a podcast, I would have just expected, you know, you reach out to someone, you say, Hey, bestie, I know you.
• 4:27
  SPEAKER_01: Like, do you want to do a podcast on this?
• 4:29
  SPEAKER_01: They say, Okay, great.
• 4:30
  SPEAKER_01: You do a podcast, you sit down, you prepare, you do this, blah, blah, blah, and then you send it off into the ether.
• 4:36
  SPEAKER_01: My experience with the very first guest we had on this podcast, Jody Scott, shout out queen, was her actually reaching out to me, like finding my email, which I think just happens through the podcast directories.
• 4:50
  SPEAKER_01: Like the I'm sure that the directory that I use to upload these episodes to just has a log, and I'm sure other people have some, I don't even know how much freaking data and information it's just out in the ether.
• 5:02
  SPEAKER_01: But she actually reached out to me via email to you know express interest in coming on the podcast and everything.
• 5:09
  SPEAKER_01: And if I'm being honest with you guys, I'm someone who like the way that I work, the way that my energy works, I tend to feel resistance to something when I know that it's going to expand me, but I also know that it's like not within my comfort zone, obviously, but like maybe more intensely than other people.
• 5:29
  SPEAKER_01: Like, I I don't know.
• 5:30
  SPEAKER_01: There's just there's a resistance that I have to putting in like extra effort to be like, okay, well, now it it was like a weird turning point for my show because up until my first guest episode, obviously, it was just me.
• 5:44
  SPEAKER_01: And these episodes, like what I'm recording right now, I'd say they're they're pretty chill for me.
• 5:49
  SPEAKER_01: Like, I can do it whenever I want on my own time.
• 5:52
  SPEAKER_01: I can be in fucking sweatpants and pajamas, or sitting on my couch or my bed, or at my freaking kitchen bar stool chairs.
• 6:01
  SPEAKER_01: Like, I could be sitting anywhere, I could be on top of a fucking hill like I was two weeks ago.
• 6:05
  SPEAKER_01: Like, I could be anywhere.
• 6:07
  SPEAKER_01: And that level of flexibility feels like a sense of freedom.
• 6:12
  SPEAKER_01: And if you are new to the show and don't know this about me, freedom is my number one value for others, for the world, for myself.
• 6:23
  SPEAKER_01: Like freedom to be authentic, freedom to be expressed, like freedom to just utilize your free will in the best interest of yourself and the highest good of all others, like only for good, obviously.
• 6:35
  SPEAKER_01: Like free will only for good.
• 6:37
  SPEAKER_01: But the weird thing is that like I mmm mmm.
• 6:42
  SPEAKER_01: So when something like a guest episode feels like it comes with a little bit more weight to the structure and almost this pressure where I felt like, oh, I have to like not put on this performance, but like really kind of get my shit together to make it, you know, as presentable as possible.
• 7:01
  SPEAKER_01: The to make it seem like I have this professional front and I'm not just like this random girl who decided to start a podcast, like kind of being the more like official face of the brand rather than someone who's kind of just been like going about things on the fly, like creating things as I feel called, but not so it's so hard so hard to explain.
• 7:25
  SPEAKER_01: So I'm sorry if I'm saying this a little convoluted, but that first guest episode was definitely a turning point for my brand and for me, even though it doesn't really seem like it, but that just felt like almost almost like a big test for me to be like, okay, am I actually taking this seriously?
• 7:43
  SPEAKER_01: Like, is this gonna be me being a proper professional face of the brand and bringing someone onto this podcast to uphold this kind of sacred brand reputation that I'm trying to build and create for myself?
• 7:56
  SPEAKER_01: Like taking that more seriously felt like something where at first it almost feels like a chore, it almost feels like a weight, it almost feels like it's taking away my freedom from like an ego perspective.
• 8:08
  SPEAKER_01: And when those emotions come into play, I can sometimes have a really hard time actually like really staying devoted to that thing that feels like a lot of resistance around it.
• 8:19
  SPEAKER_01: But as soon as I recorded that episode and finished it, oh my god, I felt so good, I felt so happy to share that episode, to have such a good conversation with someone to like bring the information that we talked about to the podcast.
• 8:36
  SPEAKER_01: Like it feels so good, it felt so good, and I felt that exact same way with mads too.
• 8:41
  SPEAKER_01: Except I mads I was super excited to have on, which not to say I wasn't for the first guest, like I was excited, but that was just definitely like the big turning point for me, just from like a brand perspective.
• 8:53
  SPEAKER_01: It had nothing to do with Jodi or her brand or anything like that.
• 8:56
  SPEAKER_01: Like, that was an incredible episode.
• 8:58
  SPEAKER_01: But I hope you guys get what I'm saying.
• 9:00
  SPEAKER_01: Like, that was definitely a point where I was like, oh shit, I really have to like make sure that I cross my T's and you know, dot the I's and make sure I look all pristine, professional, whatever, even though of course I take this seriously, of course I put effort into this, but it's like what I can summarize it as is the fact that I really don't like things that feel performative, and I really struggle to feel motivated by things that feel like they're coming from external pressure.
• 9:29
  SPEAKER_01: And up until that point, it didn't feel like any part of the podcast was coming from some external pressure, some expectation that existed outside of me, because again, I was just like recording on a week-to-week basis, just in my own space, in my own little sphere, whenever I wanted to.
• 9:46
  SPEAKER_01: And it didn't feel like this massive pressure to be like, okay, now someone's watching you, someone's looking at you, you have a reputation to uphold, you have a brand to uphold, like you have to be the face of it, the the proper one.
• 9:58
  SPEAKER_01: You have to schedule this at this time and make sure your communication says this and your email signature says the organic podcast, like host of the organic podcast, like such small details like that.
• 10:08
  SPEAKER_01: I was not challenged to really bring that level of authority, I guess, to the podcast until I welcomed on that first guest.
• 10:19
  SPEAKER_01: So that was definitely an interesting experience.
• 10:21
  SPEAKER_01: I think a lot of people, if you are freedom-oriented like me, you can definitely relate to the experience of like not having the easiest time feeling motivated to do something when it feels like it comes from external pressure.
• 10:34
  SPEAKER_01: And this is not saying, Oh, I just don't like doing things that I don't want to do.
• 10:38
  SPEAKER_01: Like, obviously, we have to do hard shit sometimes, we have to do things that are not what we want to do, and it really didn't feel like that.
• 10:46
  SPEAKER_01: It just it was just a really interesting point of tension within my internal systems that I could notice, and I thought that was really interesting.
• 10:54
  SPEAKER_01: But I have loved, I loved having Jody and Mads on, and I'm like, I'm very excited to think about the future of the podcast and like just the relationships that I have with people who are other business owners, online creators, like people who are so skilled at what they do, who I've had the privilege of learning from, like those are people who I would love to have on the podcast, and like if I had to guess, 99% chance I probably will have on the podcast at some point.
• 11:20
  SPEAKER_01: Like my queens, oh my god, just just you wait.
• 11:23
  SPEAKER_01: If you hear me right now and you're happening to be listening to this, intuitively calling you, like just now, just know the invitation will be coming at some point.
• 11:32
  SPEAKER_01: And I have in fact improved my my perspective on you know the the brand reputation and the pressure to to be this proper, perfect, outward-facing person.
• 11:42
  SPEAKER_01: Like, I don't feel that kind of way anymore.
• 11:46
  SPEAKER_01: And as I said, with like the first guest, it really was just this tension point of figuring out like, okay, is this just something that I want to do entirely on my own standards, or am I really gonna say no to a guest just because it feels uncomfortable and new and different?
• 12:03
  SPEAKER_01: No, if there's one thing that I can say about myself, it is that I have, I always have and I always will challenge myself to do things that feel uncomfortable, and I will say yes to things, even if I know inside a part of me is like, oh, that's really scary, oh, this feels uncomfortable, oh I don't really want to do this, blah blah blah blah, because I know that those are just fake, like, like those are just not real reasons to not do something.
• 12:30
  SPEAKER_01: Like, I think if you justify not doing something that you know would be good for you, that you know the end result is something that would expand you and allow you to grow, if you say no to that just because it feels a little icky or challenges you in some way, like I think that's kind of a dumb reason to say no, respectfully.
• 12:52
  SPEAKER_01: So that's my my experience with guests, obviously not crazy extensive, you know.
• 12:56
  SPEAKER_01: I've only had three on the show, but I am excited to continue doing that.
• 13:02
  SPEAKER_01: I'm excited to see where it goes into the next year and years to come.
• 13:07
  SPEAKER_01: And there's only improvement to come from here.
• 13:10
  SPEAKER_01: So, and if you haven't listened to those two guest episodes with Jody Scott and Mads, especially.
• 13:15
  SPEAKER_01: Oh my god, Mads and I had such a good conversation.
• 13:19
  SPEAKER_01: Jody and I did too, like we got into such good stuff, guys.
• 13:21
  SPEAKER_01: Like, beyond just like Jody's family's brand called Green Goo, or like just like Mads and I, oh my god, I love Mads.
• 13:29
  SPEAKER_01: I love Mads the way she talks about things, just like speaks to a part of my soul that like speaks that language.
• 13:36
  SPEAKER_01: It's like the thing I was talking about in the last episode.
• 13:38
  SPEAKER_01: Certain people just speak your language, and she speaks my language when it comes to things that seem more esoteric and spiritual, yes, but like they are things that are deeply meaningful and impactful for your day-to-day life.
• 13:51
  SPEAKER_01: So, shout out to my guest, Queens, you guys slay.
• 13:55
  SPEAKER_01: Moving on from guests.
• 13:57
  SPEAKER_01: If you guys have ever wondered what it actually takes to like create the podcast, like to actually broadcast it, it is really not as hard or complicated as you might think it is.
• 14:09
  SPEAKER_01: I personally use Buzzprout as my like podcast directory, so I have like a one-stop shop basically, where I upload my audio file and then it distributes my podcast to all the different platforms so you can get the organic podcast on.
• 14:24
  SPEAKER_01: This is what a lot of different companies use, like different kinds of directories like this to widespread put out their podcasts.
• 14:32
  SPEAKER_01: Otherwise, I could just create like individual podcast episodes, I think, on like Spotify for creators or something.
• 14:38
  SPEAKER_01: But otherwise, guys, literally, if you want to create a podcast right now, all you need is a mean of recording an audio file with like a decent high-quality mic, and then putting that like you could literally upload just the audio file alone with like cover art and a shot, like you could make a podcast in like with very minimal effort, IMO, depending obviously on how hard you're trying to go with like quality of production.
• 15:06
  SPEAKER_01: But I don't know when I was researching like starting the podcast, it took me I don't want to say it took me so long because I think I started the podcast exactly when I was meant to, but I did do some research for the podcast that I don't know, I just thought it was like way more in depth of a process, and it turns out for me that like it really was not that complicated, like it was not that deep, it is not that hard.
• 15:30
  SPEAKER_01: As with most things in life, it is really not that complicated, and it's not easy, but like it's very simple.
• 15:38
  SPEAKER_01: Am I Michael Smoke right now?
• 15:40
  SPEAKER_01: Higher up wellness, but seriously, it's it's very simple, even though it might not seem like the easiest thing, because of so many other like aspects of figuring out what you want your show to be about, or I don't know, the cover art, the intro, the music, just blah blah blah blah, all of this stuff.
• 15:56
  SPEAKER_01: But if you're interested in starting a podcast, and the only thing that's keeping you from that is this thought of like, oh, I feel like it's really complicated.
• 16:05
  SPEAKER_01: Girl slash man, I promise you, I prom I just sounded like freaking goofy.
• 16:10
  SPEAKER_01: I promise you that it's not so highly recommend.
• 16:14
  SPEAKER_01: And on that note, with thinking about like what you want your podcast to be about, guys.
• 16:20
  SPEAKER_01: I am genuinely struggling.
• 16:21
  SPEAKER_01: No, I'm not struggling.
• 16:22
  SPEAKER_01: I do not claim that.
• 16:24
  SPEAKER_01: I have wanted clarity surrounding my brand for a long time, and I feel like I've always had a level of clarity centered around, you know, being your most organic self, coming back to your most, your most authentic state in every area of your life, like mind, body, soul.
• 16:41
  SPEAKER_01: When we are most in alignment with our natural rhythms and our natural way of being, our natural selves, like our lives are infinitely better.
• 16:49
  SPEAKER_01: The earth is way better off for it when we are living with the natural rhythms and cycles, because then we are naturally synced to the earth, we naturally have more respect for her and a deeper relationship with her.
• 17:01
  SPEAKER_01: So obviously, I would hope that that encourages people to not be so disconnected from Mother Earth and damaging it, like the widespread ripple effect that comes from bringing yourself back to an authentic state of being across every area of your life, like that positive ripple effect is massive.
• 17:21
  SPEAKER_01: So that has always been like the core of the brand.
• 17:24
  SPEAKER_01: But to be honest, I I just I don't know, guys.
• 17:29
  SPEAKER_01: There's I feel like other people have such a clear picture for their brand when it comes to like main three pillars and like their content pillars and blah blah blah blah, all these things that they talk about.
• 17:40
  SPEAKER_01: My problem is hold has always felt like I have such broad interests.
• 17:45
  SPEAKER_01: Like what I just explained with authenticity applies to so many different areas of life, and I also feel this moral obligation to only really go deep on things that I feel like I have mastered, and I don't think that I have really fully mastered one particular thing where I should like really go all in on that, except maybe like not caring what other people think of you.
• 18:09
  SPEAKER_01: Like, I'm I'm I'm pretty fucking strong in that, I would say.
• 18:14
  SPEAKER_01: But when it comes to like teaching about mindset, the subconscious, like even your nervous system, these are things that I have a lot of knowledge from or knowledge on, just from kind of my own process of researching and learning and listening and kind of secondhand information.
• 18:30
  SPEAKER_01: Then again, all information is kind of secondhand, but that sort of understanding comes from like, yes, my lived experience, but also just kind of years of like I don't know, deconditioning from being constantly stressed out and like coming back into myself, being more aware of my mindset and catching myself in negative thought loops and everything.
• 18:51
  SPEAKER_01: Like it has been a gradual process of expansion, and there hasn't really been one singular thing, one singular method where I've been like, oh, this is my niche.
• 19:01
  SPEAKER_01: This is what I can teach people, this is what I can go deep and like super hardcore, like all out on for my brand as like a branch of being your most authentic self.
• 19:11
  SPEAKER_01: It hasn't really felt like I've fully 100% mastered that to the point where I feel like it's ethical or comfortable for me to be like fully 100% going all in on one thing.
• 19:21
  SPEAKER_01: Like I definitely have plenty of experience and knowledge to share with the world when it comes to just my lived experiences, my lessons, so many things that are kind of more widespread, no less valuable, I would say, than someone who's like, you know, super niche on one thing.
• 19:37
  SPEAKER_01: But it's like that has made it feel a little difficult for me to kind of sift through what's actually most important for me to talk about on a widespread scale and uh an issue that I feel I have.
• 19:49
  SPEAKER_01: No, I don't want to claim that either, but a common trait of me is that I have kind of scattered energy, and I feel like that kind of scattered energy has created some unrest and like made me feel unsettled when I am creating because I want this clear vision, I want this clear goal, and I want these clear markers of kind of like the areas to concentrate my energy, but it's like it's just so spread out across everything, which makes it so easy to get kind of distracted or feel like I'm not having as potent of a an impact on people, and that kind of friction between that desire for certainty, but also the lack of dialing in on just like a two or three things has definitely been a challenge to work through.
• 20:32
  SPEAKER_01: I don't know if other other creators can relate to this.
• 20:35
  SPEAKER_01: I feel like some people probably definitely can, but I it's just a really interesting thing to to express and work through.
• 20:43
  SPEAKER_01: And even with my social media, like recording the part one of this podcast series had like that little just that tiny little like tangent rant that I went on that literally was like being fully channeled through me.
• 20:58
  SPEAKER_01: That woke up a part of me creatively that I have felt has been dormant for months, like a long time.
• 21:08
  SPEAKER_01: Like I can tell, and anyone else, I'm sure you guys can tell the difference in my energy when I am just creating from a flow state, when I am channeling, when I am just fully being like completely authentic, versus when I'm trying to like force something to talk about or force myself to post or thinking, I just have to be consistent.
• 21:28
  SPEAKER_01: Oh my god, consistency every single day is what builds the blah blah blah blah.
• 21:32
  SPEAKER_01: Like, yes, it's true, consistency is what builds and grows, and like you need to be consistent in order to grow like that and to show commitment.
• 21:39
  SPEAKER_01: But like, if I don't have something to say, and there's nothing inside of me that's like super awake for me to like talk about that's really sparking a fire inside of me, it just I think it just feels so icky and gross and gray and just bleh for me to like force myself to share.
• 21:58
  SPEAKER_01: That's specifically with Instagram.
• 22:00
  SPEAKER_01: But I feel like that's what's really caused a kind of intentional dry spell in my content.
• 22:07
  SPEAKER_01: And it's been interesting.
• 22:08
  SPEAKER_01: But even just feeling the spark of life inside of my body, like in my voice and everything, just from recording that part of the podcast.
• 22:17
  SPEAKER_01: Because I'm recording both of these on the same night.
• 22:19
  SPEAKER_01: But just from recording that part of the podcast, like I don't know.
• 22:22
  SPEAKER_01: I feel like that is a giant energy center inside of me that's like waking up for lack of a better way to put it.
• 22:30
  SPEAKER_01: And I'm just curious to see where it goes.
• 22:33
  SPEAKER_01: I feel like a lot of us we have these experiences where like you think you have an idea of where your future wants to go, where your life wants to go, and then things turn out like way different than you thought they could, but usually like way for the better.
• 22:50
  SPEAKER_01: Like that happened with my living situation, that happened with my job.
• 22:53
  SPEAKER_01: Like that that's happened with plenty of situations in my life where I thought I knew exactly what I wanted.
• 22:58
  SPEAKER_01: I thought I knew, like, I don't know, the place I wanted to be at, the place I wanted to work, and I I thought I found the perfect thing.
• 23:05
  SPEAKER_01: And then turns out I actually had no idea that like way, way, way, way, way better, something way better was coming along for me, and it like exceeded all of my expectations in every way possible.
• 23:18
  SPEAKER_01: Thank you, God.
• 23:19
  SPEAKER_01: Shout out.
• 23:20
  SPEAKER_01: I feel like that is currently what's happening with like my socials and kind of just behind the scenes of the brand and the content and like where I want to head with everything.
• 23:31
  SPEAKER_01: Like, I think I have an idea of where I want to go, but at the same time, I almost feel like I I just don't really have that full sense of clear picture.
• 23:42
  SPEAKER_01: But I also know that like clarity comes from action, like confidence comes from action.
• 23:46
  SPEAKER_01: You don't get the clarity before you take the action.
• 23:49
  SPEAKER_01: So I don't know, maybe I do need to just keep experimenting more or starting with new things or whatever on socials, but I also really do know myself and I know that the most potent content that I create, the most potent messages that I have to share, come through when I'm putting the least amount of effort into creating them.
• 24:07
  SPEAKER_01: And that's because they are just coming in a flow state naturally as they're supposed to through the path of least resistance.
• 24:14
  SPEAKER_01: And sometimes I just can't tell if I am actually creating the resistance within myself that's making it hard for those messages to kind of come through and for that part of myself to come alive, or if I truly am meant to just be sitting in a season of rest right now.
• 24:28
  SPEAKER_01: So maybe you can apply that to your life, just in whatever season that you are in, when it comes to if you feel like sharing, if you feel way more social right now, if you feel, I don't know, just way more alive, lit up, or if you feel a little more introspective, introverted, hermit crab, like all of these seasons share one thing in common, which is that like they all are happening for a purpose, like a very divine reason.
• 24:54
  SPEAKER_01: And just because someone else is in a season of like building, expanding, growing, like whatever that looks like, like something that's very outward-facing, just because you're going through more internal shifts does not mean you're not doing just as much work as that person is.
• 25:09
  SPEAKER_01: You just can't see it, it looks different, but both of them are equally as important.
• 25:14
  SPEAKER_01: It's like one person building the roots versus one person like already having planted the seed before, and now they are like growing and sprouting out of the ground.
• 25:24
  SPEAKER_01: Like you guys are both growing, you are just germinating beneath the surface of the soil, and like your roots are growing and you're building a foundation, and all of that internal work obviously happens inside where you can't actually see it necessarily in like the physical reality.
• 25:41
  SPEAKER_01: But obviously, once you sprout and you break through the surface, like everything just suddenly starts happening so quickly, but it's only because you took that time to be in that introspective season, that hermit crab mode, so that you could grow so much in the next season of life.
• 25:55
  SPEAKER_01: So there's always trust the season that you are in.
• 25:58
  SPEAKER_01: And if you are in a point where you're like, I'm not even really sure where I end up right now, and you're feeling a little in between, or you feel like something big is coming, but you don't really know what that looks like.
• 26:08
  SPEAKER_01: Me too, bestie, me too.
• 26:10
  SPEAKER_01: That's where we're at right now.
• 26:12
  SPEAKER_01: Like, don't really know what's coming, but I just know that it's going to be beautiful and marvelous, and I'm excited.
• 26:20
  SPEAKER_01: I think this next year of the podcast obviously is gonna be the biggest year yet, guys.
• 26:24
  SPEAKER_01: I would hope that it's gonna be bigger than last year, so I'm just gonna say biggest year yet.
• 26:29
  SPEAKER_01: And I don't know, it's just it's definitely been an interesting experience, something I am extremely proud of myself for.
• 26:39
  SPEAKER_01: Like, I don't really say that, I don't really admit that because I feel like, yeah, this is just what I decided to do, this is what I'm supposed to do.
• 26:45
  SPEAKER_01: So if I didn't do it, like then obviously, like, there's no option besides for me to keep with this because that's what I decided to do, that's what I want to do, the end.
• 26:55
  SPEAKER_01: But I think it's important to also have some reflection time to be like, you know what?
• 26:59
  SPEAKER_01: I have put a lot of work in.
• 27:00
  SPEAKER_01: Has it always been perfect?
• 27:01
  SPEAKER_01: No.
• 27:02
  SPEAKER_01: Have I still showed up every single week?
• 27:04
  SPEAKER_01: Yes.
• 27:05
  SPEAKER_01: So, do I have a reason to be proud of myself?
• 27:08
  SPEAKER_01: Yes.
• 27:09
  SPEAKER_01: Yes, I do.
• 27:10
  SPEAKER_01: And if you're someone who's hard on yourself, as I have religiously been in the past, just know that you are always doing better than what you probably give yourself credit for.
• 27:21
  SPEAKER_01: And until you actually can think of yourself from like an outside perspective, I feel like it's really easy to be in these thought spirals of like, I need to be doing more, I should be doing more, blah blah blah blah.
• 27:33
  SPEAKER_01: But that's when comparing yourself to other people can almost be helpful in a way, where it's like there are people who have probably like one sixteenth of the drive that you do, and you are still being so hard on yourself after you have done all of this stuff, created all of these things.
• 27:49
  SPEAKER_01: My cat is currently climbing on me, so my mic might shift.
• 27:52
  SPEAKER_00: Hi, Nyla.
• 27:53
  SPEAKER_00: Hello.
• 27:55
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, she's so cute.
• 27:56
  SPEAKER_00: Do you want to say hi to the podcast?
• 28:02
  SPEAKER_01: She sniffed the mic.
• 28:04
  SPEAKER_01: But, anyways, when you look at like the average person, most people, unfortunately, are living in a very numbed out state, and they are very much so on autopilot.
• 28:16
  SPEAKER_01: And hence in the intro of this episode, like you are hopefully listening to this because you are not someone, you are someone who does not want to be living on autopilot.
• 28:24
  SPEAKER_01: You do not want to just be living a watered-down version of life, like you don't want to just accept things as they are.
• 28:29
  SPEAKER_01: And if you're already aware enough to be doing that and to be choosing a different path through yourself, then I think you need to give yourself a lot more credit than what you're probably giving yourself right now because most people don't have that kind of awareness and or desire to create a life for themselves that is not just the status quo, because we unfortunately are not given the widespread awareness and resources to understand that like we are more than capable of changing our lives and creating completely new circumstances for ourselves, and the only thing that we need to understand is just how powerful our minds are, and also obviously the only thing we need to understand there's a lot to understand about it, but if you know the basics of like how your mind works, how to work with it, understanding it, utilizing mindset work, and also mixing that with like nervous system regulation, somatic healing, like feeling through your emotions, you're basically golden.
• 29:22
  SPEAKER_01: Like the reason that people stay stuck in that survival mode, in that numbness, is because they don't know anything else is available for them.
• 29:29
  SPEAKER_01: And if you are already someone who knows that there's a different option available for you, to me, you're already winning, and all you need to do is just keep going.
• 29:36
  SPEAKER_01: So be proud on yourself and stop being so fucking hard on yourself.
• 29:40
  SPEAKER_01: You really don't need to be.
• 29:41
  SPEAKER_01: So, all that to say that I I will say it, I will admit, truth be told, I am proud of myself for all the work I've put into this, all the hours that I've put in, just getting out of my comfort zone, and I think I'm just very excited for seeing all that's to come.
• 29:58
  SPEAKER_01: So I'm gonna leave this two-part series here.
• 30:00
  SPEAKER_01: I hope that you guys liked hearing some of the behind the scenes of this podcasting world.
• 30:04
  SPEAKER_01: Let me know if you guys want more behind the scenes.
• 30:06
  SPEAKER_01: Oh my god, my fucking cat is attacking me.
• 30:09
  SPEAKER_01: Stop! She's falling off my lap.
• 30:12
  SPEAKER_01: But anyways, stop.
• 30:13
  SPEAKER_01: Can you stop?
• 30:15
  SPEAKER_01: Just stop! She fucking why are you like this?
• 30:18
  SPEAKER_01: Anyways, I'm not editing this out, lol.
• 30:21
  SPEAKER_01: Welcome to my living room at 11 49 p.m.
• 30:24
  SPEAKER_01: on a Tuesday.
• 30:25
  SPEAKER_01: But, anyways, I hope that you all are having an absolutely splendid week or day.
• 30:31
  SPEAKER_01: Please let me know if you guys want more behind the scenes because I'll be happy to oblige.
• 30:35
  SPEAKER_01: Obviously, like with podcasting, with anything else.
• 30:39
  SPEAKER_01: Um, something I want to focus on with growing for this next year is actually building more of a relationship with my community, like talking to you guys and creating more opportunities for me to be posting things like clips or I don't know, just more opportunities for engagement as a listener of the podcast.
• 30:57
  SPEAKER_01: If you don't already follow me, my Instagram is linked below.
• 31:00
  SPEAKER_01: So follow me on there, check it out.
• 31:02
  SPEAKER_01: Become a part of our little growing community, my kings and queens, and not kings and queens.
• 31:10
  SPEAKER_01: Um anyways, I'm gonna stop rambling now.
• 31:13
  SPEAKER_01: Thank you guys for being here.
• 31:14
  SPEAKER_01: I hope you guys like this episode.
• 31:16
  SPEAKER_01: Go for your most organic selves, and I will see you in the next one.