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How Rachael Blumberg Chiprut Built PlateFit—and Reinvented Herself Along the Way · The Iconic Midlife with Roxy Manning

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  Pulled
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  into
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  her
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  house
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  and
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  it
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  was
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  this
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  huge
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  mansion
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  on
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  the
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  beach.
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  I
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  was
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  like,
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  we're
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  in.
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  I
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  walked
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  into
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  this
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  gorgeous
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  workout
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  room
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  and
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  there
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  was
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  a
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  power
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  plate
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  there.
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  And
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  then
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  15
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  minutes
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  later,
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  Cher
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  walks
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  down
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  and
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  I'm
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  like,
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  oh,
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  wow,
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  there
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  she
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  is.
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  There's
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  my
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  first
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  client.
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  I
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  was
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  slowly
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  dying
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  inside,
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  unbecoming
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  everything
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  that
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  I
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  just
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  wasn't
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  myself.
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  And
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  on
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  the
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  outside
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  it
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  looked
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  incredible.
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  And
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  I
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  had
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  no
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  idea
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  that
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  I
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  was
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  incomplete
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  and
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  100%
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  burnout.
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  And
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  I
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  woke
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  up
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  at
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  42
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  years
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  old,
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  had
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  multiple
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  drinks
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  the
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  night
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  before,
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  my
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  kids
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  were
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  in
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  bed
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  with
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  me
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  and
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  I
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  woke
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  up
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  at
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  six
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  in
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  the
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  morning
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  and
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  I
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  was
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  just
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  like,
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  I
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  am
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  unwilling
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  to
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  not
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  be
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  happy
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  anymore.
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  So
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  how
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  did
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  you
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  know
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  that
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  that
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  was
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  the
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  way
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  to
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  go
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  as
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  opposed
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  to,
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  you
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  know,
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  doing
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  something
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  external
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  and
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  kind
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  of
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  changing
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  everything
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  around
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  you?
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  Because
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  I
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  was
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  at
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  the
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  center
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  of
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  everything
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  that
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  was
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  going
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  wrong.
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  I
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  was
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  at
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  the
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  center
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  of
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  all
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  of
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  my
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  self
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  hatred.
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  I
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  was
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  like,
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  I'm
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  the
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  common
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  denominator
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  and
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  if
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  I
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  was
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  the
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  common
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  denominator,
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  then
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  I
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  need
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  a
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  defects
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  be.
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  Who
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  are
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  you
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  going
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  to
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  be
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  this
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  next
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  half
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  of
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  your
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  life?
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  Are
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  you
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  going
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  to
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  be
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  what
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  everybody
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  else
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  wants
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  you
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  to
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  be?
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  Are
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  you
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  going
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  to
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  be
• 1:05
  you?
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  Today
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  on
• 1:09
  the
• 1:10
  Iconic
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  Midlife,
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  I'm
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  sitting
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  down
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  with
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  Rachel
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  Blumberg
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  Chipret,
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  founder
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  of
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  CEO
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  and
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  platefit,
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  a
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  vibration
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  based
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  fitness
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  and
• 1:18
  wellness
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  studio
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  in
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  Los
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  Angeles,
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  and
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  someone
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  who
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  spent
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  over
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  two
• 1:22
  decades
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  building,
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  evolving,
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  and
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  at
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  times
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  completely
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  rebuilding
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  both
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  her
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  business
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  and
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  herself.
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  With
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  25
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  years
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  in
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  the
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  CEO
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  seat
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  and
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  more
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  than
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  16
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  years
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  working
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  closely
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  with
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  clients,
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  Rachel's
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  work
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  today
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  centers
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  around
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  what
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  she
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  calls
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  radical
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  authenticity.
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  Helping
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  people
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  step
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  out
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  of
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  the
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  roles
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  they've
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  been
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  performing
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  and
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  start
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  living
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  in
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  a
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  way
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  that
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  actually
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  feels
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  aligned
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  with
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  who
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  they
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  are
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  now.
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  But
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  this
• 1:48
  conversation
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  isn't
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  just
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  about
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  wellness
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  trends
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  or
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  entrepreneurship.
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  It's
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  about
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  what
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  happens
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  when
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  the
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  life
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  you've
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  built
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  no
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  longer
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  feels
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  like
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  a
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  fit.
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  And
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  how
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  that
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  realization
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  shows
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  up
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  in
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  your
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  relationships,
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  your
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  body,
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  and
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  your
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  day
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  to
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  day
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  experience.
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  We
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  also
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  talk
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  about
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  what
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  she's
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  building
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  now,
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  from
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  expanding
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  platefoot's
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  programming
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  to
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  stepping
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  more
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  fully
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  into
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  her
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  role
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  as
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  a
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  mentor
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  and
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  a
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  speaker.
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  And
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  what
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  it
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  really
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  takes
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  to
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  move
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  into
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  a
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  new
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  chapter
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  without
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  losing
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  yourself
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  in
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  the
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  process.
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  Here's
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  my
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  conversation
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  with
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  Rachel.
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  Welcome
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  to
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  the
• 2:23
  Iconic
• 2:23
  Midlife.
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  Rachel,
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  how
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  are
• 2:24
  you
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  today?
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  I'm
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  good.
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  Thank
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  you
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  for
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  having
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  me.
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  I'm
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  so
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  excited.
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  We
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  share
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  so
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  many
• 2:29
  common
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  friends,
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  which
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  is
• 2:31
  so
• 2:31
  fun.
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  I
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  know.
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  I
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  love
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  that.
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  I
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  love
• 2:34
  that.
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  I
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  guess
• 2:35
  we're
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  like
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  LA
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  girls,
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  huh?
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  Yeah.
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  Not
• 2:39
  from
• 2:39
  LA.
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  I
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  moved
• 2:40
  here
• 2:40
  when
• 2:40
  I
• 2:41
  was
• 2:41
  26
• 2:42
  years
• 2:42
  old,
• 2:42
  but
• 2:43
  I'm
• 2:43
  46,
• 2:43
  so
• 2:44
  it's
• 2:44
  20.
• 2:44
  20
• 2:44
  years
• 2:45
  in
• 2:45
  LA
• 2:45
  and
• 2:45
  I
• 2:45
  feel
• 2:46
  like
• 2:46
  this
• 2:46
  is
• 2:46
  my
• 2:46
  home
• 2:47
  now,
• 2:47
  but
• 2:47
  totally.
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  Where
• 2:48
  are
• 2:48
  you
• 2:48
  from
• 2:48
  originally?
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  I'm
• 2:50
  from
• 2:50
  a
• 2:50
  little
• 2:50
  town
• 2:51
  called
• 2:51
  Brentwood,
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  which
• 2:52
  is
• 2:52
  in
• 2:52
  Northern
• 2:53
  California.
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  There's
• 2:54
  one
• 2:54
  here
• 2:54
  that
• 2:55
  I
• 2:55
  actually
• 2:55
  currently
• 2:55
  live
• 2:56
  in,
• 2:56
  but
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  I
• 2:57
  live.
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  Yeah,
• 2:58
  from.
• 2:58
  From
• 2:59
  up
• 2:59
  there.
• 2:59
  I
• 2:59
  know
• 2:59
  I'm
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  a
• 3:00
  Texas
• 3:00
  girl
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  originally,
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  so
• 3:01
  I
• 3:02
  hear
• 3:02
  you.
• 3:03
  I
• 3:03
  know
• 3:03
  what
• 3:03
  it's
• 3:04
  like
• 3:04
  to
• 3:04
  be
• 3:04
  a
• 3:04
  transplant
• 3:05
  here,
• 3:05
  you
• 3:05
  know,
• 3:06
  I
• 3:06
  mean,
• 3:06
  for
• 3:07
  some
• 3:07
  reason
• 3:07
  we
• 3:07
  just
• 3:07
  keep
• 3:08
  staying,
• 3:08
  don't
• 3:08
  we?
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  Yep.
• 3:09
  My
• 3:09
  husband's
• 3:10
  actually
• 3:10
  from
• 3:10
  Temple,
• 3:11
  Texas.
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  Oh,
• 3:11
  you're
• 3:12
  kidding.
• 3:12
  Oh,
• 3:13
  wow.
• 3:13
  Born
• 3:13
  there
• 3:14
  and
• 3:14
  then
• 3:14
  moved
• 3:14
  here,
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  like,
• 3:15
  shortly
• 3:15
  after.
• 3:15
  But
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  once
• 3:16
  a
• 3:16
  Texan,
• 3:17
  always
• 3:17
  a
• 3:17
  Texan,.
• 3:18
  So
• 3:18
  always
• 3:18
  a
• 3:18
  Texan.
• 3:19
  Do
• 3:19
  you
• 3:19
  go
• 3:19
  back.
• 3:19
  Do
• 3:19
  you
• 3:19
  visit
• 3:20
  Texas?
• 3:20
  No,
• 3:21
  never.
• 3:21
  I
• 3:22
  mean,
• 3:22
  I
• 3:22
  love
• 3:22
  Texas.
• 3:23
  I
• 3:23
  love
• 3:23
  Texas.
• 3:23
  I
• 3:24
  was
• 3:24
  going
• 3:24
  to
• 3:24
  open
• 3:24
  some
• 3:24
  studios
• 3:25
  there
• 3:25
  during
• 3:25
  the
• 3:25
  pandemic
• 3:26
  and.
• 3:27
  But
• 3:28
  I
• 3:28
  do.
• 3:28
  I
• 3:28
  love
• 3:28
  it
• 3:28
  there.
• 3:29
  It's
• 3:29
  a.
• 3:29
  But,
• 3:29
  no,
• 3:29
  we
• 3:30
  don't
• 3:30
  visit
• 3:30
  very
• 3:31
  often.
• 3:31
  It's
• 3:31
  a
• 3:31
  great
• 3:32
  place
• 3:32
  and
• 3:32
  actually
• 3:32
  a
• 3:32
  great
• 3:33
  place
• 3:33
  for
• 3:33
  your
• 3:33
  studio
• 3:34
  too,
• 3:34
  which.
• 3:36
  Yes.
• 3:36
  I'm
• 3:37
  so
• 3:37
  glad
• 3:37
  you
• 3:38
  mentioned
• 3:38
  your
• 3:38
  studio
• 3:38
  because
• 3:39
  I
• 3:39
  loved
• 3:39
  it.
• 3:39
  I
• 3:40
  fell
• 3:40
  in
• 3:40
  love
• 3:40
  with
• 3:40
  Plate
• 3:41
  Fit
• 3:41
  probably
• 3:42
  right
• 3:42
  before,
• 3:43
  like,
• 3:43
  the
• 3:43
  pandemic,
• 3:44
  like
• 3:44
  in
• 3:44
  those
• 3:44
  kind
• 3:45
  of,
• 3:45
  like,
• 3:45
  couple
• 3:45
  years
• 3:45
  leading
• 3:46
  up.
• 3:47
  Such
• 3:47
  a
• 3:47
  great
• 3:47
  workout.
• 3:49
  Amazing,
• 3:49
  really.
• 3:50
  It's
• 3:50
  based
• 3:51
  on
• 3:51
  a
• 3:51
  vibration
• 3:51
  plate
• 3:52
  for
• 3:52
  those
• 3:53
  maybe
• 3:53
  that
• 3:53
  are
• 3:53
  listening,
• 3:54
  that
• 3:54
  don't
• 3:54
  know.
• 3:56
  So
• 3:56
  what
• 3:56
  was,
• 3:57
  like
• 3:57
  when
• 3:57
  you
• 3:57
  were
• 3:58
  coming
• 3:58
  up
• 3:58
  with
• 3:59
  the
• 3:59
  concept
• 3:59
  and
• 3:59
  everything?
• 3:59
  What
• 4:00
  was
• 4:00
  your
• 4:00
  original
• 4:00
  vision
• 4:01
  for
• 4:01
  Plate
• 4:02
  Fit?
• 4:02
  Like,
• 4:03
  what
• 4:03
  was
• 4:03
  kind
• 4:04
  of
• 4:04
  the
• 4:04
  process
• 4:04
  for
• 4:05
  you?
• 4:05
  So
• 4:06
  my
• 4:06
  original
• 4:06
  vision
• 4:07
  was
• 4:07
  I
• 4:07
  was
• 4:07
  working.
• 4:08
  So
• 4:08
  I'll
• 4:08
  just
• 4:08
  tell
• 4:08
  you
• 4:09
  a
• 4:09
  quick
• 4:09
  story.
• 4:09
  Working
• 4:09
  at
• 4:10
  MySpace.
• 4:11
  When
• 4:11
  MySpace
• 4:12
  before
• 4:12
  Facebook?
• 4:13
  Yes.
• 4:14
  Oh,
• 4:14
  my.
• 4:15
  Is
• 4:16
  to
• 4:16
  work
• 4:16
  for
• 4:16
  MySpace,
• 4:17
  when
• 4:17
  it
• 4:17
  was,
• 4:17
  like,
• 4:17
  happening.
• 4:18
  And
• 4:18
  a
• 4:19
  friend
• 4:19
  of
• 4:19
  mine
• 4:19
  invited
• 4:20
  me
• 4:20
  to
• 4:20
  a
• 4:20
  local
• 4:20
  gym
• 4:21
  and
• 4:21
  I
• 4:21
  went
• 4:21
  to
• 4:21
  that
• 4:21
  local
• 4:22
  gym
• 4:22
  and
• 4:22
  I
• 4:23
  had
• 4:23
  been.
• 4:23
  I
• 4:23
  was
• 4:23
  a
• 4:24
  Division
• 4:24
  1
• 4:24
  water
• 4:24
  polo
• 4:25
  player
• 4:25
  and
• 4:26
  a
• 4:26
  college
• 4:27
  athlete.
• 4:27
  I
• 4:27
  played
• 4:28
  nationally.
• 4:28
  And
• 4:29
  so
• 4:29
  I
• 4:29
  mentioned
• 4:30
  that
• 4:30
  because
• 4:30
  I
• 4:30
  had
• 4:31
  done
• 4:31
  every
• 4:31
  workout,
• 4:32
  been
• 4:32
  in
• 4:32
  every
• 4:33
  gym.
• 4:33
  I
• 4:34
  had
• 4:34
  done
• 4:34
  all
• 4:34
  the
• 4:34
  things.
• 4:35
  And
• 4:35
  there
• 4:35
  was
• 4:35
  this
• 4:35
  machine
• 4:36
  in
• 4:36
  this
• 4:36
  gym
• 4:37
  that
• 4:37
  she
• 4:37
  invited
• 4:37
  me
• 4:38
  to,
• 4:38
  and
• 4:39
  it
• 4:39
  was.
• 4:39
  It
• 4:39
  felt
• 4:39
  like
• 4:39
  it
• 4:39
  was
• 4:40
  like
• 4:40
  the
• 4:40
  coat
• 4:40
  rack
• 4:40
  for
• 4:41
  the
• 4:41
  gym.
• 4:41
  It
• 4:41
  had
• 4:41
  yoga
• 4:42
  mats
• 4:42
  and
• 4:42
  weights
• 4:42
  on
• 4:42
  it.
• 4:43
  And
• 4:43
  I
• 4:44
  asked
• 4:44
  the
• 4:44
  woman
• 4:44
  at
• 4:44
  the
• 4:44
  front
• 4:45
  desk
• 4:45
  what
• 4:45
  it
• 4:45
  was
• 4:45
  and
• 4:45
  she
• 4:45
  said,
• 4:46
  oh,
• 4:46
  it's
• 4:46
  just
• 4:46
  a
• 4:46
  vibrational
• 4:47
  plate.
• 4:47
  No
• 4:47
  one
• 4:48
  uses
• 4:48
  it.
• 4:48
  No
• 4:48
  one
• 4:48
  knows
• 4:48
  what
• 4:49
  to
• 4:49
  do
• 4:49
  with
• 4:49
  it.
• 4:49
  And
• 4:49
  I
• 4:49
  was
• 4:50
  like,
• 4:50
  well,
• 4:51
  I'm
• 4:51
  going
• 4:51
  to
• 4:51
  go
• 4:51
  see
• 4:51
  what
• 4:51
  it's
• 4:52
  about.
• 4:52
  So
• 4:52
  I
• 4:52
  jumped
• 4:53
  on
• 4:53
  and
• 4:53
  this
• 4:54
  vibration
• 4:54
  I
• 4:55
  felt
• 4:55
  in
• 4:56
  my
• 4:56
  knees,
• 4:58
  in
• 4:58
  my
• 4:58
  elbows,
• 4:59
  I
• 4:59
  felt
• 5:00
  it
• 5:00
  in
• 5:00
  my
• 5:00
  tummy.
• 5:01
  Like,
• 5:01
  I
• 5:01
  just
• 5:02
  felt
• 5:02
  this
• 5:03
  he
• 5:04
  healing
• 5:04
  prop.
• 5:05
  I
• 5:05
  felt
• 5:05
  the
• 5:05
  healing
• 5:06
  properties.
• 5:06
  I
• 5:06
  didn't
• 5:06
  know
• 5:07
  what
• 5:07
  it
• 5:07
  was
• 5:07
  then.
• 5:08
  Now,
• 5:08
  20
• 5:08
  years
• 5:09
  later,
• 5:09
  looking
• 5:09
  back,
• 5:10
  it
• 5:11
  is
• 5:11
  a.
• 5:11
  It's
• 5:11
  like
• 5:12
  a
• 5:12
  lifelong
• 5:12
  longevity
• 5:13
  hack.
• 5:13
  It's
• 5:14
  incredible
• 5:14
  for
• 5:14
  bones,
• 5:15
  incredible
• 5:15
  for
• 5:15
  circulation,
• 5:16
  lymphatic
• 5:17
  system,
• 5:17
  all
• 5:17
  of
• 5:17
  it.
• 5:18
  And
• 5:19
  I
• 5:19
  was
• 5:19
  like,
• 5:20
  it.
• 5:20
  I
• 5:20
  became
• 5:21
  obsessed
• 5:21
  with
• 5:21
  it.
• 5:21
  Like,
• 5:22
  after
• 5:22
  I
• 5:22
  got
• 5:22
  on
• 5:22
  for
• 5:22
  30
• 5:23
  seconds,
• 5:23
  I
• 5:23
  was
• 5:23
  like,
• 5:24
  it
• 5:25
  felt
• 5:25
  so
• 5:25
  good
• 5:25
  in
• 5:26
  my
• 5:26
  body,
• 5:26
  being
• 5:26
  an
• 5:26
  athlete,
• 5:27
  that
• 5:28
  I
• 5:28
  was
• 5:28
  like,
• 5:28
  I
• 5:28
  need
• 5:28
  to
• 5:28
  know
• 5:29
  everything
• 5:29
  there
• 5:29
  is
• 5:29
  to
• 5:30
  know
• 5:30
  about
• 5:30
  it.
• 5:30
  And
• 5:30
  I
• 5:30
  had
• 5:31
  this
• 5:31
  vision
• 5:32
  of,
• 5:32
  you
• 5:33
  know,
• 5:33
  making
• 5:33
  a
• 5:34
  studio
• 5:34
  where
• 5:34
  people
• 5:35
  could
• 5:35
  come
• 5:35
  use
• 5:35
  these
• 5:36
  very,
• 5:36
  very
• 5:36
  expensive
• 5:37
  plates
• 5:37
  that
• 5:38
  retailed
• 5:38
  at
• 5:38
  the
• 5:38
  time
• 5:39
  for
• 5:39
  $15,000.
• 5:41
  And
• 5:42
  that's
• 5:42
  what
• 5:42
  I
• 5:42
  kind
• 5:42
  of
• 5:43
  set
• 5:43
  out
• 5:43
  to
• 5:43
  do.
• 5:44
  Okay,
• 5:44
  and
• 5:45
  you
• 5:45
  definitely
• 5:45
  did
• 5:46
  it.
• 5:46
  I
• 5:46
  mean.
• 5:46
  And
• 5:46
  you
• 5:46
  know
• 5:47
  what
• 5:47
  I
• 5:47
  love
• 5:47
  so
• 5:47
  much,
• 5:48
  too,
• 5:48
  about
• 5:48
  the
• 5:48
  workout?
• 5:49
  I
• 5:49
  can
• 5:49
  literally
• 5:50
  come
• 5:50
  in
• 5:50
  and,
• 5:50
  like,
• 5:51
  be
• 5:51
  done
• 5:51
  in,
• 5:52
  like,
• 5:52
  half
• 5:52
  an
• 5:52
  hour,
• 5:53
  but
• 5:53
  get
• 5:54
  such
• 5:54
  an
• 5:54
  intense
• 5:55
  workout.
• 5:55
  It's
• 5:55
  amazing.
• 5:57
  So
• 5:57
  we
• 5:58
  see,
• 5:58
  obviously,
• 5:59
  like,
• 5:59
  on
• 5:59
  the
• 5:59
  outside,
• 6:00
  you
• 6:00
  know,
• 6:00
  the
• 6:00
  finished
• 6:01
  product
• 6:01
  and
• 6:01
  how
• 6:02
  great
• 6:02
  it
• 6:02
  was.
• 6:03
  But
• 6:03
  for
• 6:04
  you,
• 6:04
  like,
• 6:05
  inside,
• 6:06
  what
• 6:06
  did
• 6:06
  that
• 6:07
  look
• 6:07
  like?
• 6:07
  Like,
• 6:07
  did
• 6:08
  the
• 6:08
  inside
• 6:08
  match
• 6:09
  up
• 6:09
  with
• 6:09
  the
• 6:09
  outside?
• 6:10
  Like,
• 6:10
  you
• 6:10
  had
• 6:11
  this
• 6:11
  really
• 6:11
  successful
• 6:12
  studio
• 6:12
  and
• 6:13
  obviously
• 6:13
  all
• 6:13
  these
• 6:14
  amazing
• 6:14
  things,
• 6:15
  but,
• 6:15
  like,
• 6:15
  the
• 6:16
  inside
• 6:16
  process,
• 6:17
  like,
• 6:17
  what
• 6:17
  was
• 6:17
  going
• 6:18
  on
• 6:18
  with
• 6:18
  you?
• 6:18
  Like,
• 6:19
  did
• 6:19
  it
• 6:19
  match,
• 6:20
  like
• 6:20
  the
• 6:20
  outside?
• 6:21
  Yeah.
• 6:22
  You
• 6:22
  know,
• 6:22
  it's
• 6:22
  interesting.
• 6:23
  At
• 6:23
  26
• 6:23
  years
• 6:24
  old,
• 6:25
  I
• 6:25
  was
• 6:25
  on
• 6:26
  fire,
• 6:26
  and
• 6:27
  I
• 6:28
  was
• 6:28
  following
• 6:29
  this
• 6:29
  really
• 6:30
  deep
• 6:30
  intuition
• 6:31
  in
• 6:31
  my
• 6:31
  heart,
• 6:32
  and
• 6:33
  I
• 6:33
  knew.
• 6:35
  I
• 6:35
  knew
• 6:35
  that
• 6:35
  it
• 6:36
  was
• 6:36
  something.
• 6:36
  And
• 6:37
  everybody
• 6:37
  told
• 6:37
  me
• 6:38
  I
• 6:38
  was
• 6:38
  out
• 6:38
  of
• 6:38
  my
• 6:38
  mind.
• 6:39
  And
• 6:39
  I
• 6:39
  think
• 6:39
  I
• 6:39
  was.
• 6:40
  I
• 6:40
  think
• 6:40
  I
• 6:40
  was
• 6:40
  delusional
• 6:41
  with
• 6:41
  this
• 6:41
  idea.
• 6:42
  And
• 6:42
  I
• 6:42
  think
• 6:43
  in
• 6:43
  order
• 6:43
  to
• 6:43
  create
• 6:44
  something,
• 6:44
  sometimes
• 6:44
  we
• 6:45
  have
• 6:45
  to
• 6:45
  be
• 6:45
  delusional
• 6:45
  about
• 6:46
  that
• 6:46
  idea.
• 6:46
  And
• 6:47
  I
• 6:47
  went
• 6:48
  out
• 6:48
  to
• 6:48
  do
• 6:48
  it,
• 6:48
  and
• 6:49
  I.
• 6:50
  I
• 6:50
  quit
• 6:50
  my
• 6:51
  job.
• 6:51
  I
• 6:51
  packed
• 6:51
  up
• 6:52
  my.
• 6:52
  My
• 6:52
  entire
• 6:53
  apartment
• 6:54
  on
• 6:54
  the
• 6:54
  Wilshire
• 6:54
  corridor.
• 6:55
  I
• 6:56
  started
• 6:56
  living
• 6:56
  with
• 6:57
  her
• 6:57
  on
• 6:57
  a
• 6:57
  friend's
• 6:57
  couch.
• 6:58
  And
• 6:58
  I
• 6:59
  called
• 6:59
  power
• 6:59
  plate
• 6:59
  and
• 7:00
  asked
• 7:00
  them
• 7:00
  to
• 7:00
  send
• 7:00
  me
• 7:01
  to
• 7:01
  people
• 7:01
  that
• 7:02
  own
• 7:02
  these.
• 7:02
  And
• 7:03
  so
• 7:03
  they
• 7:04
  sent
• 7:04
  me
• 7:04
  up
• 7:04
  to
• 7:04
  a
• 7:05
  woman's
• 7:05
  house
• 7:05
  in
• 7:05
  Malibu.
• 7:07
  Pulled
• 7:07
  into
• 7:07
  her
• 7:08
  house,
• 7:08
  and
• 7:08
  it
• 7:08
  was
• 7:08
  this
• 7:08
  huge
• 7:09
  mansion
• 7:09
  on
• 7:09
  the
• 7:09
  beach.
• 7:10
  And
• 7:10
  I
• 7:11
  was
• 7:11
  like,
• 7:11
  where
• 7:11
  am
• 7:12
  I?
• 7:12
  And
• 7:12
  I
• 7:12
  walked
• 7:13
  down
• 7:13
  to
• 7:13
  this
• 7:13
  gorgeous
• 7:13
  workout
• 7:14
  room,
• 7:14
  and
• 7:14
  there
• 7:14
  was
• 7:15
  a
• 7:15
  power
• 7:15
  plate
• 7:15
  there.
• 7:15
  And
• 7:16
  then
• 7:16
  15
• 7:16
  minutes
• 7:17
  later,
• 7:17
  Cher
• 7:17
  walks
• 7:18
  down,
• 7:19
  and
• 7:19
  I'm
• 7:19
  like,
• 7:19
  oh,
• 7:20
  wow.
• 7:21
  Ow.
• 7:22
  Yeah,
• 7:23
  there
• 7:23
  she
• 7:23
  is.
• 7:24
  There
• 7:25
  was
• 7:25
  my
• 7:25
  first
• 7:25
  client,
• 7:27
  and
• 7:27
  I
• 7:28
  was.
• 7:28
  This
• 7:28
  is
• 7:29
  exactly
• 7:30
  what
• 7:30
  I
• 7:30
  should
• 7:30
  be
• 7:31
  doing.
• 7:31
  Even
• 7:32
  everybody
• 7:32
  told
• 7:33
  me
• 7:33
  I
• 7:33
  wasn't.
• 7:33
  So
• 7:34
  I
• 7:34
  was
• 7:34
  super
• 7:34
  aligned
• 7:35
  on
• 7:35
  the
• 7:35
  inside.
• 7:36
  In
• 7:36
  the
• 7:36
  beginning,
• 7:37
  super
• 7:37
  aligned.
• 7:38
  Okay.
• 7:39
  I
• 7:39
  had
• 7:39
  this.
• 7:39
  I
• 7:40
  had
• 7:40
  this
• 7:40
  inner
• 7:41
  knowing
• 7:41
  that
• 7:41
  I
• 7:42
  was
• 7:42
  doing
• 7:42
  what
• 7:42
  I
• 7:42
  needed
• 7:43
  to
• 7:43
  be
• 7:43
  doing,
• 7:43
  even
• 7:43
  though
• 7:44
  everybody
• 7:44
  was
• 7:44
  telling
• 7:44
  me
• 7:45
  I
• 7:45
  wasn't.
• 7:46
  And
• 7:46
  then
• 7:46
  I
• 7:46
  went
• 7:47
  into.
• 7:47
  I
• 7:48
  mean,
• 7:48
  the
• 7:48
  story
• 7:48
  is,
• 7:48
  is
• 7:48
  that
• 7:49
  we
• 7:49
  opened
• 7:49
  a
• 7:49
  studio
• 7:49
  together
• 7:50
  six
• 7:51
  to
• 7:51
  seven
• 7:51
  months
• 7:51
  later.
• 7:52
  We
• 7:52
  ended
• 7:52
  up
• 7:52
  closing
• 7:53
  that
• 7:53
  studio
• 7:54
  a
• 7:54
  year
• 7:54
  after
• 7:54
  because
• 7:55
  she
• 7:55
  got
• 7:55
  her
• 7:55
  show
• 7:56
  in
• 7:56
  Vegas,
• 7:56
  I
• 7:57
  moved
• 7:57
  down
• 7:57
  to
• 7:58
  a
• 7:58
  little
• 7:58
  gym
• 7:59
  down
• 7:59
  the
• 7:59
  street.
• 7:59
  And
• 7:59
  for
• 8:00
  eight
• 8:00
  years,
• 8:01
  I
• 8:01
  was
• 8:01
  just
• 8:02
  pushing
• 8:02
  and
• 8:03
  pushing
• 8:03
  and
• 8:03
  pushing.
• 8:04
  My
• 8:04
  nervous
• 8:05
  system
• 8:05
  was
• 8:05
  out
• 8:05
  of
• 8:05
  whack.
• 8:06
  My
• 8:06
  inner.
• 8:07
  I
• 8:07
  was.
• 8:07
  I
• 8:07
  was
• 8:08
  slightly
• 8:08
  overweight.
• 8:09
  I
• 8:09
  was
• 8:09
  like.
• 8:09
  I.
• 8:09
  My.
• 8:10
  My
• 8:10
  body
• 8:11
  was
• 8:11
  just
• 8:11
  screaming
• 8:12
  to
• 8:12
  stop,
• 8:12
  and
• 8:13
  I
• 8:13
  was
• 8:13
  just
• 8:13
  working
• 8:14
  as
• 8:14
  hard
• 8:14
  as
• 8:14
  I
• 8:14
  could,
• 8:15
  and
• 8:15
  I
• 8:15
  was
• 8:15
  doing
• 8:15
  everything.
• 8:16
  I
• 8:17
  don't
• 8:17
  recommend
• 8:17
  that
• 8:18
  for.
• 8:18
  For
• 8:18
  people,
• 8:19
  but
• 8:19
  it's
• 8:19
  just
• 8:19
  with
• 8:19
  my
• 8:20
  story
• 8:20
  and
• 8:21
  what
• 8:21
  ultimately
• 8:21
  happened
• 8:22
  is
• 8:22
  my
• 8:22
  husband
• 8:22
  walked
• 8:23
  into
• 8:23
  the
• 8:23
  gym
• 8:24
  he's
• 8:24
  working
• 8:25
  at
• 8:26
  and
• 8:27
  with
• 8:27
  a
• 8:27
  personal
• 8:27
  trainer
• 8:28
  because
• 8:28
  I
• 8:28
  rented
• 8:28
  space.
• 8:29
  And
• 8:30
  we
• 8:30
  have
• 8:30
  a
• 8:31
  quick
• 8:31
  love
• 8:31
  story
• 8:31
  and
• 8:31
  ended
• 8:32
  up
• 8:32
  falling
• 8:33
  in
• 8:33
  love,
• 8:33
  getting
• 8:33
  pregnant
• 8:34
  really
• 8:34
  fast,
• 8:34
  and
• 8:35
  added
• 8:35
  necessity,
• 8:36
  opening
• 8:36
  Plate
• 8:37
  Fit.
• 8:38
  And
• 8:38
  so
• 8:38
  when
• 8:38
  I
• 8:38
  opened
• 8:39
  Plate
• 8:39
  Fit,
• 8:40
  it
• 8:40
  had
• 8:40
  already
• 8:40
  been
• 8:41
  backed
• 8:41
  by
• 8:42
  nine
• 8:42
  to
• 8:42
  ten
• 8:42
  years
• 8:43
  of
• 8:43
  research.
• 8:43
  So
• 8:44
  I
• 8:44
  had,
• 8:44
  like,
• 8:44
  done
• 8:44
  all
• 8:44
  this
• 8:45
  development
• 8:46
  to
• 8:46
  get
• 8:46
  plate
• 8:47
  fit
• 8:47
  to
• 8:47
  where
• 8:47
  it
• 8:47
  was.
• 8:47
  And
• 8:48
  we
• 8:48
  just
• 8:48
  needed,
• 8:48
  like,
• 8:48
  a
• 8:49
  brand.
• 8:49
  And
• 8:50
  he
• 8:50
  builds
• 8:50
  things
• 8:51
  for
• 8:51
  a
• 8:51
  living.
• 8:51
  I
• 8:51
  don't.
• 8:52
  He
• 8:52
  builds
• 8:52
  supermarkets,
• 8:53
  Air1.
• 8:54
  He
• 8:54
  builds
• 8:55
  all
• 8:55
  the.
• 8:55
  The
• 8:55
  air
• 8:55
  ones.
• 8:56
  And
• 8:56
  so
• 8:56
  he
• 8:56
  was
• 8:56
  like,
• 8:57
  I'll
• 8:57
  build
• 8:57
  you
• 8:57
  a
• 8:57
  tiny
• 8:58
  little,
• 8:58
  you
• 8:58
  know,
• 8:58
  studio,
• 8:59
  and
• 8:59
  let's
• 8:59
  see
• 8:59
  how
• 8:59
  it
• 8:59
  goes.
• 9:00
  And
• 9:01
  I
• 9:01
  was
• 9:01
  pregnant,
• 9:02
  opening
• 9:03
  studios.
• 9:04
  And
• 9:05
  it
• 9:05
  was
• 9:06
  born
• 9:06
  in
• 9:06
  this
• 9:06
  time
• 9:07
  where
• 9:08
  I
• 9:09
  was
• 9:09
  on
• 9:09
  fire,
• 9:10
  but
• 9:10
  also
• 9:10
  like
• 9:11
  a
• 9:11
  new
• 9:11
  mom.
• 9:13
  And
• 9:14
  I
• 9:15
  was
• 9:15
  opening
• 9:15
  studios.
• 9:16
  I
• 9:16
  was
• 9:16
  pregnant.
• 9:17
  I
• 9:17
  had
• 9:17
  a
• 9:17
  baby.
• 9:18
  I
• 9:18
  opened
• 9:19
  another
• 9:19
  studio.
• 9:19
  I
• 9:20
  got
• 9:20
  pregnant
• 9:20
  again,
• 9:21
  opened
• 9:21
  another
• 9:22
  studio.
• 9:22
  So
• 9:22
  I
• 9:23
  was
• 9:23
  just
• 9:23
  in
• 9:23
  this
• 9:23
  forward
• 9:24
  momentum,
• 9:26
  the
• 9:26
  process
• 9:26
  of
• 9:27
  becoming
• 9:27
  a
• 9:27
  new
• 9:27
  mom
• 9:28
  and
• 9:28
  having
• 9:29
  this
• 9:29
  beautiful,
• 9:30
  incredible
• 9:31
  business
• 9:31
  that
• 9:32
  was
• 9:32
  on
• 9:32
  fire
• 9:33
  and
• 9:33
  making
• 9:33
  money.
• 9:34
  And,
• 9:34
  like,
• 9:34
  people
• 9:35
  were
• 9:35
  asking
• 9:35
  me
• 9:35
  to
• 9:35
  invest
• 9:36
  in
• 9:36
  it.
• 9:37
  I
• 9:37
  was
• 9:37
  slowly
• 9:38
  dying
• 9:38
  inside,
• 9:39
  like,
• 9:39
  slowly,
• 9:39
  like,
• 9:41
  unbecoming
• 9:42
  everything
• 9:42
  that
• 9:42
  I
• 9:43
  just
• 9:43
  wasn't
• 9:44
  myself.
• 9:45
  And
• 9:45
  I
• 9:45
  out
• 9:46
  and
• 9:46
  I
• 9:46
  was
• 9:46
  partying
• 9:47
  and
• 9:47
  I
• 9:47
  was.
• 9:47
  I
• 9:48
  was
• 9:48
  per
• 9:48
  se,
• 9:48
  living
• 9:49
  the
• 9:49
  life.
• 9:51
  And
• 9:51
  on
• 9:51
  the
• 9:51
  outside,
• 9:52
  it
• 9:52
  looked
• 9:52
  incredible.
• 9:53
  Right?
• 9:54
  It
• 9:54
  looked
• 9:54
  incredible.
• 9:55
  And
• 9:55
  I.
• 9:55
  And
• 9:55
  I
• 9:55
  felt
• 9:55
  like
• 9:56
  it.
• 9:56
  It
• 9:56
  should
• 9:56
  have
• 9:56
  been
• 9:57
  incredible.
• 9:58
  And
• 9:58
  I
• 9:58
  had
• 9:58
  no
• 9:58
  idea
• 9:59
  that
• 9:59
  I
• 9:59
  was
• 10:00
  incomplete
• 10:00
  and
• 10:01
  100%
• 10:01
  burnout.
• 10:02
  And
• 10:03
  I
• 10:03
  was
• 10:03
  misaligned.
• 10:05
  Even
• 10:05
  though
• 10:05
  I
• 10:05
  started
• 10:06
  aligned
• 10:07
  with
• 10:07
  who
• 10:07
  I
• 10:07
  was,
• 10:08
  authentically
• 10:10
  became
• 10:10
  everything
• 10:11
  I
• 10:11
  thought
• 10:11
  I
• 10:11
  should
• 10:12
  be
• 10:12
  in
• 10:12
  order
• 10:13
  to,
• 10:13
  like,
• 10:13
  produce.
• 10:14
  I
• 10:15
  was
• 10:15
  just
• 10:15
  this,
• 10:15
  like,
• 10:16
  machine.
• 10:16
  I
• 10:16
  was.
• 10:16
  I
• 10:17
  was
• 10:17
  kind
• 10:17
  of
• 10:17
  a
• 10:17
  machine.
• 10:18
  Yeah.
• 10:18
  Yeah.
• 10:19
  You
• 10:19
  just
• 10:19
  have
• 10:19
  no
• 10:19
  off
• 10:20
  switch
• 10:20
  almost.
• 10:20
  It's
• 10:21
  like,
• 10:21
  forward
• 10:22
  on
• 10:23
  like,
• 10:23
  must
• 10:24
  do.
• 10:24
  And
• 10:25
  it's
• 10:25
  not
• 10:25
  even
• 10:25
  like
• 10:25
  really
• 10:26
  about
• 10:26
  you
• 10:26
  anymore.
• 10:27
  It's
• 10:27
  like
• 10:28
  you're
• 10:28
  just
• 10:28
  like
• 10:28
  going,
• 10:28
  going,
• 10:29
  going
• 10:29
  on
• 10:29
  this,
• 10:30
  like,
• 10:30
  rat
• 10:30
  race.
• 10:31
  Right.
• 10:31
  So
• 10:32
  what
• 10:32
  was
• 10:33
  like
• 10:33
  the
• 10:33
  turning
• 10:34
  point
• 10:34
  for
• 10:34
  you?
• 10:34
  Like,
• 10:34
  what
• 10:35
  was
• 10:35
  like
• 10:35
  the
• 10:35
  thing
• 10:35
  that,
• 10:36
  you
• 10:36
  know,
• 10:37
  came
• 10:37
  up
• 10:37
  or
• 10:37
  happened
• 10:38
  that
• 10:38
  really
• 10:38
  made
• 10:39
  you
• 10:39
  rethink?
• 10:39
  Like,
• 10:40
  is
• 10:40
  this
• 10:40
  right?
• 10:42
  So
• 10:42
  usually
• 10:43
  what
• 10:43
  I
• 10:43
  find
• 10:43
  in
• 10:44
  most
• 10:44
  people
• 10:44
  and
• 10:45
  clients
• 10:45
  that
• 10:45
  I
• 10:45
  work
• 10:45
  with
• 10:46
  now
• 10:46
  is.
• 10:47
  And
• 10:47
  I
• 10:47
  just.
• 10:48
  It's
• 10:48
  from
• 10:48
  my
• 10:48
  really.
• 10:48
  It's
• 10:49
  just
• 10:49
  from
• 10:49
  my
• 10:49
  deep
• 10:49
  lived
• 10:50
  experience
• 10:51
  is
• 10:51
  that
• 10:51
  something
• 10:52
  happens
• 10:53
  that
• 10:54
  wakes
• 10:54
  you
• 10:54
  up.
• 10:55
  And
• 10:55
  whether
• 10:55
  it's
• 10:56
  sickness
• 10:56
  or
• 10:57
  death
• 10:57
  or.
• 10:57
  For
• 10:58
  me,
• 10:58
  it
• 10:58
  was
• 10:58
  Covid.
• 10:59
  For
• 11:00
  me,
• 11:00
  the
• 11:00
  inability
• 11:01
  to
• 11:02
  run
• 11:02
  a
• 11:02
  business
• 11:02
  and
• 11:03
  make
• 11:03
  money,
• 11:04
  it.
• 11:05
  It
• 11:05
  was
• 11:05
  my
• 11:05
  inability
• 11:06
  to
• 11:06
  stay
• 11:07
  in
• 11:07
  forward
• 11:07
  motion.
• 11:08
  And
• 11:08
  I.
• 11:09
  When.
• 11:09
  When
• 11:10
  Covid
• 11:10
  happened.
• 11:11
  What
• 11:11
  happened?
• 11:11
  I
• 11:11
  mean,
• 11:11
  I've
• 11:11
  had
• 11:12
  many
• 11:12
  of
• 11:12
  these
• 11:12
  things
• 11:12
  happen
• 11:13
  in
• 11:13
  my
• 11:13
  life,
• 11:13
  but
• 11:13
  when
• 11:14
  Covid
• 11:14
  happened,
• 11:14
  I
• 11:15
  just
• 11:15
  went
• 11:15
  into,
• 11:16
  honestly,
• 11:17
  inner
• 11:17
  rage,
• 11:18
  anger.
• 11:20
  I
• 11:20
  was
• 11:20
  terrified
• 11:22
  around
• 11:23
  my
• 11:23
  business.
• 11:23
  I
• 11:23
  couldn't
• 11:24
  run
• 11:24
  my
• 11:24
  business.
• 11:25
  I
• 11:25
  was
• 11:25
  like,
• 11:25
  we're
• 11:25
  going
• 11:25
  to
• 11:26
  go
• 11:26
  into
• 11:26
  debt,
• 11:26
  which
• 11:26
  we
• 11:27
  did.
• 11:27
  Like,
• 11:27
  I
• 11:27
  don't
• 11:27
  know
• 11:28
  how
• 11:28
  I'm
• 11:28
  going
• 11:28
  to
• 11:28
  pay
• 11:28
  my
• 11:28
  land.
• 11:29
  I
• 11:29
  mean,
• 11:29
  the
• 11:29
  fear
• 11:30
  was
• 11:30
  just
• 11:31
  really
• 11:31
  incredible.
• 11:32
  And
• 11:33
  it
• 11:33
  sent
• 11:33
  me
• 11:34
  into
• 11:35
  more
• 11:36
  of
• 11:37
  like
• 11:37
  an
• 11:38
  unwillingness
• 11:38
  to
• 11:39
  kind
• 11:39
  of
• 11:39
  look
• 11:39
  at
• 11:39
  myself.
• 11:40
  And
• 11:40
  I
• 11:40
  did
• 11:41
  just
• 11:41
  a
• 11:41
  deep
• 11:42
  downward
• 11:42
  spiral
• 11:43
  for
• 11:43
  about
• 11:43
  two
• 11:43
  years.
• 11:44
  And
• 11:45
  I
• 11:46
  woke
• 11:46
  up
• 11:46
  at
• 11:46
  42
• 11:47
  years.
• 11:47
  Old,.
• 11:49
  Had
• 11:50
  had
• 11:50
  multiple
• 11:51
  drinks
• 11:51
  the
• 11:52
  night
• 11:52
  before.
• 11:52
  My
• 11:53
  kids
• 11:53
  were
• 11:53
  in
• 11:53
  bed
• 11:54
  with
• 11:54
  me,
• 11:54
  and
• 11:54
  I
• 11:54
  woke
• 11:54
  up
• 11:54
  at
• 11:55
  six
• 11:55
  in
• 11:55
  the
• 11:55
  morning
• 11:55
  and
• 11:56
  I
• 11:56
  was
• 11:56
  just
• 11:56
  like,
• 11:56
  I
• 11:57
  am
• 11:58
  unwilling
• 11:59
  to
• 12:00
  not
• 12:00
  be
• 12:00
  happy
• 12:00
  anymore.
• 12:01
  I
• 12:01
  am
• 12:01
  unwilling
• 12:02
  to
• 12:02
  live
• 12:02
  like
• 12:02
  this.
• 12:03
  I
• 12:03
  knew
• 12:03
  I
• 12:03
  wasn't
• 12:04
  me.
• 12:05
  I
• 12:05
  knew
• 12:05
  I
• 12:05
  was
• 12:06
  living
• 12:06
  for
• 12:06
  everybody
• 12:07
  else.
• 12:07
  I
• 12:07
  knew
• 12:07
  that
• 12:08
  I
• 12:08
  was
• 12:08
  resentful
• 12:09
  and
• 12:09
  sad
• 12:10
  and
• 12:10
  rageful.
• 12:11
  And
• 12:11
  I
• 12:11
  knew
• 12:11
  I
• 12:11
  was
• 12:11
  my
• 12:12
  only
• 12:12
  solution.
• 12:12
  I
• 12:13
  knew
• 12:13
  that
• 12:13
  it,
• 12:13
  like,
• 12:13
  I
• 12:14
  had
• 12:14
  to
• 12:14
  stop
• 12:14
  pointing
• 12:15
  the
• 12:15
  finger
• 12:15
  outward.
• 12:18
  I
• 12:18
  literally
• 12:19
  was
• 12:19
  like,
• 12:19
  I'm
• 12:19
  going
• 12:19
  to
• 12:19
  change
• 12:20
  my
• 12:20
  life.
• 12:21
  I
• 12:21
  said
• 12:21
  it
• 12:21
  that
• 12:22
  morning
• 12:23
  and
• 12:23
  my
• 12:23
  husband
• 12:24
  looked
• 12:24
  at
• 12:24
  me
• 12:24
  and
• 12:24
  he
• 12:24
  said,
• 12:25
  you're
• 12:25
  so
• 12:25
  much
• 12:25
  smarter
• 12:26
  than
• 12:26
  this.
• 12:26
  You're
• 12:27
  so
• 12:27
  much
• 12:27
  wiser
• 12:28
  than
• 12:28
  this.
• 12:28
  And
• 12:29
  I
• 12:29
  knew
• 12:29
  it
• 12:29
  was
• 12:29
  true.
• 12:30
  And
• 12:30
  I
• 12:30
  was
• 12:30
  like,
• 12:30
  okay,
• 12:31
  I'm
• 12:31
  willing.
• 12:31
  I'm
• 12:32
  willing
• 12:32
  to
• 12:32
  do
• 12:32
  whatever
• 12:32
  it
• 12:33
  takes
• 12:34
  to
• 12:34
  just
• 12:35
  like.
• 12:35
  I
• 12:35
  just
• 12:35
  wanted
• 12:36
  to,
• 12:36
  like,
• 12:36
  be
• 12:36
  safe
• 12:37
  in
• 12:37
  my
• 12:37
  body.
• 12:38
  I
• 12:38
  just
• 12:38
  wanted
• 12:38
  to
• 12:39
  feel
• 12:39
  better,
• 12:40
  and
• 12:40
  I
• 12:40
  just
• 12:40
  wanted
• 12:40
  to
• 12:41
  be
• 12:41
  the
• 12:41
  woman
• 12:42
  that
• 12:42
  I
• 12:42
  knew
• 12:42
  I
• 12:42
  could
• 12:43
  be.
• 12:43
  And
• 12:43
  I
• 12:43
  was
• 12:43
  so
• 12:43
  out
• 12:44
  of
• 12:44
  touch
• 12:44
  with
• 12:44
  her.
• 12:46
  Was
• 12:46
  that.
• 12:47
  Do
• 12:47
  you.
• 12:48
  Because
• 12:48
  you
• 12:48
  stopped
• 12:49
  drinking,
• 12:49
  drinking,
• 12:49
  and
• 12:50
  that
• 12:50
  was
• 12:50
  the
• 12:50
  morning
• 12:51
  that
• 12:51
  you
• 12:51
  kind
• 12:51
  of
• 12:51
  like
• 12:52
  went
• 12:52
  into
• 12:52
  that
• 12:53
  moment
• 12:54
  was
• 12:54
  like,.
• 12:55
  Drinking
• 12:55
  is
• 12:56
  not
• 12:56
  for
• 12:56
  me.
• 12:57
  I
• 12:57
  knew
• 12:57
  that,
• 12:57
  like,
• 12:58
  drinking
• 12:58
  was
• 12:58
  a
• 12:59
  piece
• 12:59
  of,
• 12:59
  of
• 12:59
  the
• 12:59
  puzzle.
• 13:00
  Okay,
• 13:00
  I.
• 13:01
  It
• 13:01
  was
• 13:01
  just
• 13:02
  a
• 13:02
  tiny
• 13:02
  little
• 13:02
  piece
• 13:03
  of,
• 13:03
  like,
• 13:03
  there's
• 13:04
  this
• 13:04
  thing
• 13:05
  that
• 13:05
  is
• 13:06
  not
• 13:07
  allowing
• 13:07
  me
• 13:07
  to
• 13:08
  really
• 13:08
  look
• 13:08
  at
• 13:08
  what
• 13:08
  I
• 13:09
  need
• 13:09
  to
• 13:09
  look
• 13:09
  at.
• 13:11
  And
• 13:11
  so
• 13:11
  I
• 13:11
  just
• 13:12
  became
• 13:12
  willing
• 13:12
  that
• 13:13
  morning
• 13:13
  to
• 13:13
  take
• 13:14
  that
• 13:14
  piece
• 13:14
  out.
• 13:15
  And
• 13:16
  that
• 13:16
  was
• 13:16
  really
• 13:16
  scary
• 13:17
  because
• 13:17
  my
• 13:17
  whole
• 13:17
  entire
• 13:18
  life
• 13:18
  was
• 13:18
  centered
• 13:18
  around
• 13:19
  it.
• 13:19
  A
• 13:19
  lot
• 13:19
  of.
• 13:19
  A
• 13:20
  lot
• 13:20
  of
• 13:20
  our
• 13:20
  lives
• 13:20
  are
• 13:21
  centered
• 13:21
  around
• 13:21
  going
• 13:22
  out
• 13:22
  and
• 13:23
  going
• 13:23
  to
• 13:23
  dinners
• 13:24
  and
• 13:24
  having
• 13:24
  a
• 13:24
  drink
• 13:25
  and
• 13:25
  going
• 13:25
  to
• 13:25
  drinks
• 13:25
  with
• 13:26
  friends
• 13:26
  and
• 13:27
  going
• 13:27
  on
• 13:27
  vacation
• 13:28
  and
• 13:28
  having.
• 13:28
  I
• 13:29
  mean,
• 13:29
  it's
• 13:29
  just.
• 13:29
  It's
• 13:30
  a
• 13:30
  whole
• 13:30
  lifestyle
• 13:30
  and
• 13:31
  my
• 13:31
  whole
• 13:31
  life
• 13:32
  was
• 13:32
  set.
• 13:32
  My
• 13:33
  whole
• 13:33
  social
• 13:33
  life
• 13:34
  was
• 13:34
  set
• 13:34
  up
• 13:34
  around
• 13:34
  that,
• 13:35
  and
• 13:35
  I
• 13:35
  felt
• 13:35
  like
• 13:36
  I
• 13:36
  was
• 13:36
  committing
• 13:37
  social
• 13:37
  suicide.
• 13:38
  Yeah.
• 13:39
  Was.
• 13:39
  Were
• 13:39
  you
• 13:40
  scared
• 13:40
  when
• 13:40
  you
• 13:41
  thought.
• 13:41
  I
• 13:41
  mean.
• 13:42
  Yeah,
• 13:42
  of
• 13:42
  course.
• 13:43
  Like,
• 13:43
  I
• 13:43
  don't
• 13:43
  know
• 13:43
  how
• 13:43
  I'm
• 13:44
  gonna.
• 13:44
  I
• 13:44
  don't
• 13:44
  know
• 13:44
  how
• 13:44
  I'm
• 13:44
  gonna
• 13:45
  do
• 13:45
  this.
• 13:45
  I
• 13:46
  don't
• 13:46
  know
• 13:46
  what
• 13:46
  my
• 13:46
  life
• 13:47
  is
• 13:47
  going
• 13:47
  to
• 13:47
  look
• 13:47
  like
• 13:47
  without
• 13:48
  this.
• 13:49
  But
• 13:49
  my
• 13:49
  desire
• 13:50
  to.
• 13:50
  To
• 13:50
  feel
• 13:51
  better
• 13:51
  far
• 13:51
  outweighed
• 13:52
  my
• 13:52
  desire
• 13:53
  to
• 13:53
  be
• 13:53
  liked
• 13:54
  and
• 13:54
  far
• 13:54
  outweighed
• 13:55
  my
• 13:55
  desire
• 13:56
  to.
• 13:56
  To.
• 13:57
  To
• 13:57
  live
• 13:57
  inauthentically
• 13:58
  anymore.
• 13:59
  I
• 13:59
  was
• 13:59
  like.
• 13:59
  I
• 13:59
  just.
• 14:00
  I
• 14:00
  wanted
• 14:01
  to.
• 14:02
  I
• 14:02
  just
• 14:02
  was
• 14:02
  like,
• 14:02
  I
• 14:03
  need.
• 14:03
  I
• 14:03
  need
• 14:03
  to
• 14:03
  start
• 14:04
  living
• 14:04
  in
• 14:04
  more
• 14:04
  alignment.
• 14:05
  I
• 14:05
  need
• 14:05
  to,
• 14:05
  like,
• 14:06
  heal
• 14:06
  my
• 14:06
  body.
• 14:07
  I
• 14:07
  need.
• 14:07
  My
• 14:07
  nervous
• 14:08
  system
• 14:08
  deserves
• 14:09
  a
• 14:09
  break.
• 14:10
  So
• 14:11
  I
• 14:11
  did
• 14:11
  it,
• 14:12
  and
• 14:12
  I.
• 14:12
  And
• 14:13
  I
• 14:13
  went
• 14:13
  on
• 14:14
  a
• 14:14
  quest.
• 14:14
  I
• 14:15
  tell
• 14:15
  people
• 14:15
  it
• 14:16
  was
• 14:16
  a
• 14:16
  quest,
• 14:16
  and
• 14:16
  it
• 14:17
  was
• 14:17
  the
• 14:17
  quest
• 14:17
  of
• 14:18
  a
• 14:18
  lifetime.
• 14:19
  And
• 14:19
  that's
• 14:20
  the
• 14:20
  quest.
• 14:20
  I
• 14:20
  help
• 14:20
  people,
• 14:21
  women,
• 14:22
  you
• 14:22
  know,
• 14:22
  on
• 14:22
  right
• 14:23
  now.
• 14:23
  It's
• 14:23
  like
• 14:24
  when
• 14:24
  you
• 14:24
  wake
• 14:24
  up
• 14:25
  in
• 14:25
  the
• 14:25
  middle
• 14:25
  of
• 14:25
  this
• 14:26
  beautiful,
• 14:26
  gorgeous
• 14:27
  life
• 14:27
  that's
• 14:27
  supposed
• 14:28
  to
• 14:28
  feel
• 14:28
  amazing
• 14:29
  and
• 14:29
  you
• 14:30
  feel
• 14:30
  dead.
• 14:31
  Yeah.
• 14:32
  And
• 14:32
  I'm
• 14:32
  like,
• 14:33
  I
• 14:33
  have
• 14:33
  an
• 14:33
  incredible
• 14:34
  husband.
• 14:34
  My
• 14:35
  story
• 14:35
  is
• 14:35
  not
• 14:35
  that
• 14:36
  I
• 14:36
  got
• 14:36
  divorced.
• 14:36
  It's
• 14:37
  not
• 14:37
  that
• 14:37
  I
• 14:37
  needed
• 14:37
  to
• 14:37
  blow
• 14:38
  up
• 14:38
  my
• 14:38
  entire
• 14:38
  life
• 14:40
  or
• 14:40
  to
• 14:40
  find
• 14:40
  happiness.
• 14:41
  And
• 14:41
  I
• 14:42
  know
• 14:42
  that
• 14:42
  some
• 14:42
  people
• 14:43
  do,
• 14:43
  and
• 14:43
  that's
• 14:44
  amazing.
• 14:44
  But
• 14:44
  mine
• 14:45
  was
• 14:45
  like,
• 14:45
  I
• 14:45
  needed
• 14:45
  to
• 14:45
  find
• 14:46
  happiness
• 14:46
  and
• 14:46
  peace
• 14:47
  within
• 14:47
  my
• 14:48
  marriage,
• 14:48
  within
• 14:49
  this
• 14:49
  beautiful
• 14:50
  life
• 14:50
  that
• 14:50
  I
• 14:50
  already
• 14:50
  had,
• 14:51
  within
• 14:52
  my
• 14:52
  gorgeous
• 14:53
  kids
• 14:53
  and
• 14:53
  my.
• 14:54
  It's
• 14:54
  like
• 14:54
  I
• 14:54
  needed
• 14:54
  to
• 14:55
  find
• 14:56
  myself
• 14:56
  within
• 14:57
  that,
• 14:57
  within
• 14:58
  my
• 14:58
  life
• 14:58
  again.
• 14:59
  That's
• 14:59
  an
• 14:59
  interesting
• 15:00
  way
• 15:00
  to
• 15:00
  put
• 15:00
  it
• 15:00
  because
• 15:01
  I
• 15:01
  do
• 15:01
  think
• 15:01
  that,
• 15:01
  you
• 15:02
  know,
• 15:02
  a
• 15:02
  lot
• 15:02
  of
• 15:02
  times
• 15:02
  you
• 15:03
  think,
• 15:03
  okay,
• 15:03
  I
• 15:03
  need
• 15:03
  a
• 15:04
  full
• 15:04
  change.
• 15:04
  Like,
• 15:04
  I
• 15:05
  need
• 15:05
  to,
• 15:05
  like,
• 15:05
  you
• 15:06
  know,
• 15:06
  divorce,
• 15:07
  stop
• 15:08
  drinking,
• 15:08
  like,
• 15:09
  you
• 15:09
  know,
• 15:09
  change
• 15:09
  jobs,
• 15:10
  like,
• 15:10
  do
• 15:10
  whatever
• 15:11
  that
• 15:11
  is,
• 15:12
  whatever
• 15:12
  that
• 15:12
  looks
• 15:12
  like.
• 15:13
  But
• 15:13
  that's
• 15:13
  really
• 15:13
  interesting
• 15:14
  that
• 15:14
  you
• 15:14
  looked
• 15:15
  inward
• 15:15
  for
• 15:16
  the
• 15:16
  change
• 15:17
  and,
• 15:18
  like,
• 15:18
  in
• 15:18
  your
• 15:19
  immediate
• 15:19
  surroundings.
• 15:21
  So
• 15:21
  how
• 15:21
  did
• 15:21
  you
• 15:22
  know
• 15:22
  that
• 15:22
  that
• 15:22
  was
• 15:23
  the
• 15:23
  way
• 15:23
  to
• 15:23
  go
• 15:23
  as
• 15:23
  opposed
• 15:24
  to,
• 15:24
  you
• 15:25
  know,
• 15:25
  doing
• 15:25
  something
• 15:25
  external
• 15:26
  and
• 15:26
  kind
• 15:26
  of
• 15:26
  changing
• 15:27
  around
• 15:28
  you?
• 15:29
  Because
• 15:29
  I
• 15:29
  was
• 15:29
  at
• 15:29
  the
• 15:30
  center
• 15:30
  of
• 15:30
  everything
• 15:31
  that
• 15:31
  was
• 15:31
  going
• 15:32
  wrong.
• 15:32
  I
• 15:32
  was
• 15:32
  at
• 15:32
  the
• 15:33
  center
• 15:33
  of
• 15:33
  all
• 15:33
  of
• 15:33
  my
• 15:34
  resentments.
• 15:34
  I
• 15:34
  was
• 15:35
  at
• 15:35
  the
• 15:35
  center
• 15:35
  of
• 15:35
  all
• 15:35
  of
• 15:36
  my.
• 15:36
  Of
• 15:37
  my
• 15:37
  self
• 15:37
  hatred.
• 15:37
  I
• 15:38
  was
• 15:38
  at
• 15:38
  the
• 15:38
  center
• 15:38
  of
• 15:39
  like
• 15:39
  all
• 15:39
  the.
• 15:40
  I
• 15:40
  was
• 15:40
  like,
• 15:40
  I'm
• 15:40
  the
• 15:40
  common
• 15:41
  denominator.
• 15:42
  And
• 15:42
  if
• 15:43
  I
• 15:43
  was
• 15:43
  the
• 15:43
  common
• 15:43
  denominator,
• 15:44
  then
• 15:44
  I.
• 15:45
  Then
• 15:45
  I
• 15:45
  needed
• 15:46
  to
• 15:46
  fix
• 15:46
  me.
• 15:47
  And
• 15:47
  so
• 15:48
  I
• 15:48
  literally
• 15:48
  launched.
• 15:49
  I,
• 15:49
  like,
• 15:49
  pulled
• 15:50
  up
• 15:50
  the
• 15:50
  website
• 15:50
  and
• 15:51
  I
• 15:51
  said
• 15:51
  how
• 15:51
  to
• 15:51
  heal
• 15:52
  my
• 15:52
  nervous
• 15:52
  system
• 15:52
  on
• 15:53
  YouTube,
• 15:54
  where
• 15:54
  I
• 15:55
  started,
• 15:55
  I
• 15:55
  was
• 15:56
  like,
• 15:56
  I
• 15:56
  just
• 15:56
  want.
• 15:56
  I
• 15:57
  want
• 15:57
  a
• 15:57
  little
• 15:57
  bit
• 15:57
  of
• 15:57
  peace.
• 15:58
  I
• 15:58
  want
• 15:58
  to
• 15:58
  be
• 15:58
  able
• 15:58
  to
• 15:58
  breathe
• 15:59
  because
• 15:59
  I
• 15:59
  was
• 15:59
  in
• 16:00
  so
• 16:00
  much
• 16:00
  fear.
• 16:01
  And
• 16:02
  then
• 16:02
  this.
• 16:02
  This
• 16:02
  Yoga
• 16:03
  Nidra
• 16:03
  popped
• 16:04
  up.
• 16:04
  And
• 16:05
  Yoga
• 16:05
  Nidra
• 16:06
  is
• 16:06
  shavasana
• 16:07
  of
• 16:07
  yoga.
• 16:08
  It's
• 16:08
  the
• 16:08
  most
• 16:08
  ancient
• 16:09
  practice
• 16:09
  of
• 16:10
  all
• 16:10
  the
• 16:10
  yogas.
• 16:10
  It's
• 16:11
  what
• 16:11
  everybody
• 16:11
  is
• 16:11
  like.
• 16:12
  And
• 16:12
  this
• 16:13
  woman
• 16:13
  who.
• 16:14
  I
• 16:14
  can
• 16:14
  send
• 16:15
  you
• 16:15
  the
• 16:15
  website
• 16:16
  and
• 16:16
  it's
• 16:17
  free,
• 16:17
  by
• 16:17
  the
• 16:17
  way,
• 16:18
  so
• 16:18
  everybody
• 16:18
  pays
• 16:18
  all
• 16:19
  this
• 16:19
  money
• 16:19
  for
• 16:19
  all
• 16:19
  these
• 16:20
  apps
• 16:21
  for.
• 16:21
  For
• 16:22
  essentially
• 16:22
  it's
• 16:23
  called
• 16:23
  Non
• 16:23
  Sleep
• 16:23
  Deep
• 16:24
  Rest
• 16:25
  and
• 16:25
  It's
• 16:25
  free
• 16:25
  on
• 16:26
  YouTube.
• 16:26
  It's
• 16:27
  amazing.
• 16:27
  And
• 16:28
  I
• 16:28
  give
• 16:28
  it
• 16:29
  to
• 16:29
  all
• 16:29
  of
• 16:29
  my
• 16:29
  clients.
• 16:30
  I
• 16:30
  practice
• 16:30
  it
• 16:31
  every
• 16:31
  single
• 16:31
  day,
• 16:32
  still
• 16:32
  four
• 16:33
  years
• 16:33
  later.
• 16:34
  And
• 16:35
  it.
• 16:35
  I
• 16:36
  put
• 16:36
  on
• 16:36
  the.
• 16:37
  My
• 16:37
  headphones,
• 16:38
  I
• 16:38
  closed
• 16:39
  my
• 16:39
  eyes
• 16:39
  with
• 16:39
  an
• 16:40
  eye
• 16:40
  mask,
• 16:40
  and
• 16:40
  I
• 16:41
  felt
• 16:41
  like
• 16:41
  it
• 16:41
  was
• 16:41
  the
• 16:41
  first
• 16:42
  time
• 16:42
  I
• 16:42
  had
• 16:42
  taken
• 16:42
  a
• 16:42
  breath
• 16:43
  in
• 16:43
  like
• 16:43
  seven
• 16:43
  or
• 16:44
  eight
• 16:44
  years.
• 16:45
  Wow.
• 16:46
  Wow.
• 16:46
  Like.
• 16:47
  Like,
• 16:47
  I,
• 16:48
  like,
• 16:48
  I
• 16:48
  literally.
• 16:48
  It
• 16:49
  passed
• 16:49
  out.
• 16:51
  It
• 16:51
  knocked
• 16:52
  me
• 16:52
  out
• 16:52
  and
• 16:52
  I.
• 16:53
  I,
• 16:53
  like,
• 16:53
  slept,
• 16:53
  but
• 16:54
  I
• 16:54
  also.
• 16:54
  I
• 16:54
  just
• 16:55
  like,
• 16:55
  woke
• 16:55
  up
• 16:55
  and
• 16:55
  I
• 16:55
  was
• 16:56
  like,
• 16:56
  oh,
• 16:56
  my
• 16:56
  God.
• 16:56
  Like,
• 16:57
  there's
• 16:57
  space.
• 16:59
  There's
• 17:00
  space
• 17:00
  in
• 17:00
  my
• 17:00
  body.
• 17:01
  I
• 17:02
  can.
• 17:02
  A
• 17:02
  little
• 17:02
  bit
• 17:03
  differently.
• 17:04
  Yeah.
• 17:04
  That's
• 17:05
  amazing.
• 17:05
  Wow.
• 17:06
  I
• 17:06
  know.
• 17:06
  And
• 17:07
  breath.
• 17:07
  And
• 17:07
  there's
• 17:07
  like
• 17:08
  a
• 17:08
  breath
• 17:08
  work
• 17:09
  component.
• 17:09
  Right.
• 17:10
  Which
• 17:10
  is
• 17:10
  so
• 17:10
  important.
• 17:11
  Like,
• 17:11
  sometimes
• 17:11
  you
• 17:12
  get
• 17:12
  so
• 17:12
  emotional
• 17:14
  doing
• 17:14
  breath
• 17:14
  work.
• 17:14
  Like,
• 17:15
  I've
• 17:15
  had
• 17:15
  tears
• 17:16
  before,
• 17:16
  you
• 17:17
  know,
• 17:17
  it's.
• 17:18
  Yeah.
• 17:18
  Energy.
• 17:19
  It's
• 17:19
  energy,
• 17:20
  right.
• 17:21
  And
• 17:21
  you
• 17:21
  don't
• 17:22
  realize
• 17:22
  how
• 17:22
  much
• 17:22
  you
• 17:23
  need
• 17:23
  it
• 17:23
  until
• 17:24
  you
• 17:24
  actually
• 17:24
  do
• 17:25
  it.
• 17:25
  It's
• 17:25
  one
• 17:25
  of
• 17:25
  those
• 17:26
  things.
• 17:26
  I
• 17:26
  feel
• 17:26
  like.
• 17:27
  Yeah,
• 17:27
  I
• 17:27
  mean,
• 17:27
  we
• 17:28
  all
• 17:28
  need
• 17:28
  to
• 17:28
  breathe,
• 17:28
  right?
• 17:29
  We're
• 17:30
  all
• 17:30
  holding
• 17:30
  our
• 17:31
  breath,
• 17:31
  right?
• 17:31
  We're
• 17:32
  all
• 17:32
  holding
• 17:32
  our
• 17:32
  breath.
• 17:33
  We're
• 17:33
  all.
• 17:34
  Especially
• 17:34
  in
• 17:35
  midlife,
• 17:35
  you
• 17:36
  know,
• 17:36
  I
• 17:36
  mean,
• 17:36
  this
• 17:36
  is
• 17:37
  like,
• 17:38
  this
• 17:38
  time
• 17:38
  is
• 17:39
  just
• 17:39
  so
• 17:39
  crazy,
• 17:39
  crazy
• 17:40
  for
• 17:40
  people.
• 17:40
  You
• 17:41
  know,
• 17:41
  I
• 17:41
  feel
• 17:41
  like
• 17:42
  there's
• 17:42
  change,
• 17:42
  but
• 17:43
  then
• 17:43
  there's
• 17:43
  also,
• 17:43
  like,
• 17:44
  there's
• 17:44
  like,
• 17:44
  change
• 17:44
  within
• 17:45
  our
• 17:45
  bodies,
• 17:45
  you
• 17:46
  know,
• 17:46
  biological
• 17:47
  change
• 17:47
  and
• 17:47
  then
• 17:48
  emotional
• 17:48
  change.
• 17:49
  And
• 17:49
  the
• 17:49
  kids
• 17:49
  are
• 17:50
  getting
• 17:50
  older
• 17:50
  if
• 17:50
  we
• 17:51
  have
• 17:51
  them.
• 17:51
  And,
• 17:51
  you
• 17:51
  know,
• 17:52
  dynamics,
• 17:52
  like
• 17:53
  relationship
• 17:53
  dynamics
• 17:54
  are,
• 17:54
  you
• 17:55
  know,
• 17:55
  happening
• 17:55
  with
• 17:55
  our
• 17:56
  spouses
• 17:56
  and
• 17:56
  partners
• 17:57
  and
• 17:57
  things
• 17:57
  like
• 17:58
  that.
• 17:58
  So
• 17:59
  it
• 17:59
  is
• 17:59
  such
• 17:59
  a
• 18:00
  Valuable
• 18:00
  tool.
• 18:00
  And
• 18:01
  I'm
• 18:01
  so
• 18:01
  interested
• 18:03
  to
• 18:03
  hear
• 18:03
  about
• 18:04
  what
• 18:04
  your
• 18:04
  husband,
• 18:05
  like,
• 18:05
  what
• 18:06
  was
• 18:06
  his
• 18:06
  reaction
• 18:07
  to
• 18:07
  all
• 18:07
  of
• 18:07
  this?
• 18:08
  Like,
• 18:08
  was
• 18:08
  this
• 18:08
  like
• 18:09
  a
• 18:09
  conversation
• 18:09
  you
• 18:09
  were
• 18:10
  having
• 18:10
  with
• 18:10
  him
• 18:10
  about,
• 18:11
  you
• 18:11
  know,
• 18:11
  I'm
• 18:11
  thinking
• 18:11
  about
• 18:12
  doing
• 18:12
  this
• 18:12
  or
• 18:13
  how
• 18:13
  did
• 18:13
  that.
• 18:13
  Look,
• 18:14
  I
• 18:14
  just
• 18:14
  told
• 18:14
  him
• 18:15
  that
• 18:15
  I
• 18:15
  was
• 18:15
  going
• 18:15
  to,
• 18:15
  I
• 18:16
  was,
• 18:16
  I
• 18:16
  was
• 18:16
  go,
• 18:16
  I
• 18:17
  was
• 18:17
  launching
• 18:17
  out.
• 18:17
  I
• 18:17
  said,
• 18:18
  I
• 18:18
  just,
• 18:18
  I'm,
• 18:18
  I'm
• 18:19
  going
• 18:19
  to
• 18:19
  heal
• 18:19
  myself
• 18:20
  and
• 18:21
  like,
• 18:21
  I'm
• 18:21
  here
• 18:21
  for
• 18:21
  it.
• 18:22
  And
• 18:23
  you
• 18:23
  know,
• 18:23
  it's
• 18:23
  interesting,
• 18:24
  I
• 18:24
  always,
• 18:25
  I
• 18:25
  always
• 18:25
  say,
• 18:25
  like,
• 18:26
  if
• 18:26
  you
• 18:26
  want
• 18:26
  more
• 18:26
  love
• 18:27
  in
• 18:27
  your
• 18:27
  life,
• 18:27
  you
• 18:28
  want
• 18:28
  more
• 18:29
  compassion,
• 18:29
  you
• 18:30
  want
• 18:30
  more
• 18:30
  affection,
• 18:31
  you
• 18:31
  want
• 18:31
  all
• 18:31
  of
• 18:31
  that.
• 18:32
  It's
• 18:32
  like
• 18:32
  you
• 18:32
  have
• 18:32
  to
• 18:32
  be
• 18:33
  that
• 18:33
  thing
• 18:34
  in
• 18:34
  order
• 18:34
  to
• 18:34
  receive
• 18:35
  it.
• 18:35
  And
• 18:35
  what
• 18:36
  ultimately
• 18:36
  happened
• 18:37
  in
• 18:37
  my
• 18:37
  relationship
• 18:37
  was
• 18:38
  me
• 18:38
  healing
• 18:39
  myself,
• 18:40
  learning
• 18:40
  how
• 18:40
  to
• 18:41
  love
• 18:41
  myself,
• 18:41
  learning
• 18:42
  how
• 18:42
  to
• 18:42
  kind
• 18:42
  of
• 18:43
  go
• 18:43
  first.
• 18:44
  He
• 18:45
  softened
• 18:45
  him.
• 18:46
  Like,
• 18:47
  it
• 18:47
  healed
• 18:47
  my
• 18:48
  relationship.
• 18:48
  And
• 18:49
  so
• 18:49
  I
• 18:49
  wanted
• 18:50
  more
• 18:50
  affection,
• 18:50
  I
• 18:50
  wanted
• 18:51
  more
• 18:51
  understanding,
• 18:51
  I
• 18:52
  wanted
• 18:52
  to
• 18:52
  be,
• 18:52
  I
• 18:52
  wanted
• 18:53
  to
• 18:53
  be
• 18:53
  heard.
• 18:54
  And
• 18:54
  so
• 18:54
  in
• 18:54
  order
• 18:54
  to
• 18:55
  have
• 18:55
  all
• 18:55
  of
• 18:55
  that
• 18:55
  happen,
• 18:55
  I
• 18:56
  needed
• 18:56
  to
• 18:56
  listen,
• 18:58
  I
• 18:58
  needed
• 18:58
  to
• 18:59
  say
• 18:59
  I
• 18:59
  love
• 19:00
  you,
• 19:00
  I
• 19:00
  needed
• 19:00
  to
• 19:01
  soften,
• 19:01
  I
• 19:01
  needed
• 19:02
  to,
• 19:02
  like,
• 19:02
  not
• 19:03
  expect
• 19:03
  it
• 19:04
  to
• 19:04
  come
• 19:04
  in.
• 19:04
  It
• 19:05
  just
• 19:05
  be
• 19:05
  the
• 19:05
  thing
• 19:06
  that
• 19:06
  I,
• 19:06
  like,
• 19:07
  desired.
• 19:07
  And
• 19:08
  so
• 19:08
  all
• 19:08
  of
• 19:09
  this,
• 19:09
  the
• 19:09
  change
• 19:10
  actually
• 19:10
  happened
• 19:10
  in
• 19:10
  so
• 19:11
  many
• 19:11
  different
• 19:11
  ways.
• 19:11
  It
• 19:11
  was
• 19:11
  the
• 19:11
  yoga
• 19:12
  nature
• 19:12
  started
• 19:13
  it,
• 19:13
  the
• 19:13
  breath
• 19:13
  work,
• 19:14
  the,
• 19:15
  the,
• 19:15
  like,
• 19:15
  the
• 19:16
  deep
• 19:16
  inner
• 19:16
  work,
• 19:16
  the
• 19:17
  asking
• 19:17
  of
• 19:17
  questions,
• 19:18
  the
• 19:18
  Byron
• 19:19
  Katie,
• 19:19
  the
• 19:20
  11
• 19:20
  Joe
• 19:20
  Dispenza
• 19:21
  retreats
• 19:21
  that
• 19:21
  I
• 19:22
  on
• 19:23
  ayahuasca
• 19:24
  journeys,
• 19:24
  the
• 19:24
  mushrooms.
• 19:25
  I
• 19:25
  mean,
• 19:25
  I,
• 19:26
  like,
• 19:26
  I
• 19:26
  went
• 19:27
  down
• 19:28
  this
• 19:28
  healing
• 19:29
  path
• 19:29
  like
• 19:29
  my
• 19:29
  life
• 19:30
  depended
• 19:30
  on
• 19:31
  it,
• 19:31
  because
• 19:31
  it
• 19:31
  did.
• 19:32
  Okay?
• 19:33
  And,
• 19:34
  and
• 19:34
  so
• 19:34
  when
• 19:34
  you
• 19:35
  start
• 19:35
  to
• 19:35
  wake
• 19:35
  up
• 19:35
  and
• 19:36
  live
• 19:36
  your
• 19:36
  own
• 19:36
  life
• 19:37
  and
• 19:37
  you
• 19:38
  realize
• 19:38
  that
• 19:38
  nothing
• 19:39
  needs
• 19:39
  to
• 19:39
  change
• 19:39
  externally
• 19:40
  in
• 19:40
  order
• 19:41
  for
• 19:41
  you
• 19:41
  to
• 19:42
  get
• 19:42
  the
• 19:42
  thing
• 19:42
  that
• 19:43
  you
• 19:43
  desire,
• 19:44
  then,
• 19:44
  like,
• 19:45
  it
• 19:45
  becomes
• 19:46
  addictive.
• 19:47
  Like,
• 19:47
  feeling
• 19:47
  well
• 19:48
  becomes
• 19:49
  addictive.
• 19:50
  Like,
• 19:50
  and,
• 19:51
  and
• 19:51
  the
• 19:51
  power
• 19:51
  doesn't,
• 19:52
  is
• 19:52
  not
• 19:52
  outside
• 19:53
  of
• 19:53
  me.
• 19:53
  So,
• 19:53
  like,
• 19:53
  I
• 19:54
  want
• 19:54
  a
• 19:54
  different
• 19:54
  relationship,
• 19:55
  then
• 19:55
  I
• 19:55
  need
• 19:55
  to
• 19:55
  show
• 19:56
  up
• 19:56
  different
• 19:56
  inside.
• 19:56
  My
• 19:57
  relationship
• 19:58
  absolutely
• 19:59
  started
• 20:00
  to
• 20:00
  show
• 20:00
  up
• 20:00
  differently
• 20:01
  in
• 20:01
  all
• 20:01
  of
• 20:02
  my
• 20:02
  relationships.
• 20:03
  All
• 20:03
  of
• 20:03
  my
• 20:03
  relationships
• 20:04
  changed
• 20:04
  for
• 20:05
  the
• 20:05
  better.
• 20:06
  And
• 20:06
  the
• 20:06
  crazy
• 20:07
  part
• 20:07
  is
• 20:07
  that
• 20:07
  some
• 20:08
  of
• 20:08
  them
• 20:08
  just
• 20:08
  fell
• 20:09
  away.
• 20:10
  Like
• 20:10
  the
• 20:10
  ones
• 20:10
  that
• 20:10
  weren't
• 20:11
  supposed
• 20:11
  to
• 20:11
  be
• 20:11
  there,
• 20:11
  right
• 20:12
  after
• 20:13
  kind
• 20:13
  of
• 20:14
  going
• 20:14
  through
• 20:14
  all
• 20:14
  of
• 20:14
  these
• 20:14
  things,
• 20:15
  right?
• 20:15
  Like,
• 20:16
  how
• 20:17
  were
• 20:18
  you
• 20:18
  sad
• 20:18
  to
• 20:18
  see
• 20:19
  some
• 20:19
  of
• 20:19
  those
• 20:19
  go?
• 20:20
  Or
• 20:20
  were
• 20:20
  you
• 20:20
  okay
• 20:21
  with
• 20:21
  it?
• 20:21
  Of
• 20:21
  course,
• 20:22
  friendship
• 20:22
  breakups
• 20:23
  are
• 20:23
  really
• 20:23
  hard.
• 20:23
  And
• 20:23
  nothing
• 20:24
  was,
• 20:25
  and
• 20:25
  nothing
• 20:25
  was
• 20:25
  crazy.
• 20:27
  But
• 20:27
  also.
• 20:28
  So
• 20:28
  that
• 20:28
  was
• 20:28
  four
• 20:28
  years
• 20:29
  ago,
• 20:29
  and
• 20:29
  then
• 20:29
  recently
• 20:30
  about
• 20:30
  a
• 20:30
  year
• 20:30
  and
• 20:31
  a
• 20:31
  half
• 20:31
  ago,
• 20:31
  I,
• 20:32
  I,
• 20:33
  I
• 20:33
  live,
• 20:33
  I'm
• 20:34
  a
• 20:34
  very,
• 20:34
  I'm
• 20:34
  a,
• 20:34
  I
• 20:35
  don't
• 20:35
  know
• 20:35
  if
• 20:35
  you
• 20:35
  know,
• 20:35
  Human
• 20:35
  design.
• 20:36
  But
• 20:36
  I'm
• 20:36
  a
• 20:36
  projector,
• 20:37
  and
• 20:38
  projectors
• 20:39
  tend
• 20:39
  to
• 20:39
  be
• 20:39
  somewhat
• 20:40
  intense
• 20:42
  when
• 20:42
  I.
• 20:42
  When
• 20:43
  I
• 20:43
  make
• 20:43
  these
• 20:43
  massive
• 20:44
  commitments
• 20:44
  to,
• 20:44
  like,
• 20:45
  up.
• 20:45
  Uproot
• 20:46
  my
• 20:46
  whole
• 20:46
  entire
• 20:46
  existence
• 20:47
  and,
• 20:47
  like,
• 20:47
  be
• 20:47
  a
• 20:47
  different
• 20:48
  person.
• 20:48
  Like,
• 20:48
  I
• 20:48
  do
• 20:49
  very
• 20:49
  intense
• 20:49
  things.
• 20:49
  And
• 20:50
  so
• 20:51
  about
• 20:51
  a
• 20:51
  year
• 20:51
  and
• 20:51
  a
• 20:51
  half
• 20:51
  ago,
• 20:52
  I
• 20:52
  was.
• 20:52
  I,
• 20:53
  through
• 20:54
  a
• 20:54
  lot
• 20:54
  of
• 20:54
  work,
• 20:54
  realized
• 20:55
  that
• 20:55
  I
• 20:55
  was
• 20:56
  very
• 20:56
  afraid
• 20:56
  to
• 20:57
  be
• 20:57
  seen.
• 20:58
  But
• 20:58
  I
• 20:59
  also
• 20:59
  have
• 20:59
  this,
• 20:59
  like,
• 21:00
  deep
• 21:00
  inner
• 21:00
  wisdom.
• 21:01
  I
• 21:01
  have
• 21:03
  an
• 21:03
  internal
• 21:03
  gift
• 21:04
  of
• 21:05
  helping
• 21:05
  women
• 21:06
  find
• 21:06
  the
• 21:06
  truth
• 21:07
  about
• 21:08
  what
• 21:08
  they're
• 21:08
  up
• 21:08
  to,
• 21:09
  and
• 21:09
  also,
• 21:09
  like,
• 21:09
  a
• 21:10
  really
• 21:10
  incredible
• 21:11
  gift
• 21:12
  of
• 21:12
  telling
• 21:12
  myself
• 21:13
  my
• 21:13
  own
• 21:13
  truth.
• 21:13
  So,
• 21:14
  like,
• 21:14
  I
• 21:14
  have
• 21:14
  a
• 21:14
  really
• 21:15
  beautiful
• 21:16
  way
• 21:16
  of,
• 21:17
  like,
• 21:17
  cutting
• 21:17
  through
• 21:18
  all
• 21:18
  of
• 21:19
  the
• 21:19
  bull
• 21:20
  and,
• 21:20
  like,
• 21:20
  getting
• 21:21
  to
• 21:21
  the
• 21:21
  heart
• 21:22
  of
• 21:22
  it.
• 21:22
  Like,
• 21:23
  the
• 21:23
  reason
• 21:23
  why
• 21:23
  I
• 21:23
  was
• 21:24
  able
• 21:24
  to
• 21:24
  see
• 21:24
  that
• 21:24
  I
• 21:25
  was
• 21:25
  the
• 21:25
  problem
• 21:25
  is
• 21:25
  because
• 21:26
  I
• 21:26
  was
• 21:26
  the
• 21:26
  problem.
• 21:28
  Most
• 21:28
  people
• 21:29
  think
• 21:29
  that
• 21:30
  it's
• 21:30
  their
• 21:30
  circumstances,
• 21:31
  and
• 21:32
  they
• 21:32
  think
• 21:32
  that
• 21:32
  it's
• 21:33
  outside
• 21:33
  of
• 21:33
  them.
• 21:33
  And
• 21:34
  when
• 21:34
  you
• 21:35
  can
• 21:35
  own
• 21:35
  your
• 21:36
  own
• 21:37
  healing
• 21:38
  and
• 21:39
  change
• 21:39
  your
• 21:39
  internal
• 21:40
  systems,
• 21:41
  like,
• 21:42
  that
• 21:42
  brings
• 21:43
  all
• 21:43
  the
• 21:43
  power
• 21:43
  back.
• 21:44
  That's.
• 21:45
  That
• 21:45
  is.
• 21:45
  I
• 21:45
  was
• 21:46
  just
• 21:46
  going
• 21:46
  to
• 21:46
  say
• 21:46
  that
• 21:46
  is,
• 21:47
  like,
• 21:47
  probably
• 21:47
  the
• 21:47
  most
• 21:47
  powerful
• 21:48
  feeling
• 21:48
  to
• 21:49
  know
• 21:49
  that
• 21:49
  you
• 21:50
  can
• 21:50
  actually
• 21:50
  change
• 21:51
  all
• 21:51
  of
• 21:51
  it
• 21:51
  because
• 21:52
  it's
• 21:52
  all
• 21:52
  in
• 21:52
  you.
• 21:53
  Right?
• 21:54
  You
• 21:54
  don't
• 21:54
  have
• 21:54
  to
• 21:54
  be
• 21:54
  dominated
• 21:55
  by
• 21:55
  other
• 21:55
  people
• 21:56
  and
• 21:56
  what
• 21:56
  they
• 21:56
  think,
• 21:57
  how
• 21:57
  they
• 21:57
  act
• 21:57
  and
• 21:58
  what
• 21:58
  they
• 21:58
  say.
• 21:59
  You
• 21:59
  can
• 22:00
  just
• 22:00
  internally
• 22:00
  set
• 22:01
  boundaries
• 22:01
  for
• 22:01
  yourself.
• 22:02
  I
• 22:02
  mean,
• 22:03
  the
• 22:03
  healing
• 22:03
  is.
• 22:04
  Is.
• 22:04
  Is.
• 22:04
  Is
• 22:05
  when
• 22:05
  you
• 22:05
  get
• 22:05
  on
• 22:05
  this
• 22:05
  path
• 22:06
  and
• 22:06
  you
• 22:06
  realize
• 22:06
  that
• 22:06
  the
• 22:07
  power
• 22:07
  is
• 22:07
  all
• 22:07
  within
• 22:07
  you.
• 22:08
  Like,
• 22:09
  the
• 22:09
  amount
• 22:10
  of
• 22:10
  freedom
• 22:10
  that
• 22:10
  you
• 22:11
  have
• 22:11
  from
• 22:12
  people,
• 22:12
  places,
• 22:13
  and
• 22:13
  things
• 22:13
  is
• 22:14
  truly
• 22:14
  just
• 22:14
  remarkable.
• 22:15
  And
• 22:15
  so
• 22:16
  I.
• 22:16
  I
• 22:16
  was
• 22:17
  like,
• 22:17
  I'm
• 22:17
  going
• 22:17
  to
• 22:17
  do
• 22:17
  a
• 22:18
  challenge.
• 22:18
  I'm
• 22:18
  going
• 22:18
  to
• 22:18
  show
• 22:19
  up
• 22:19
  on
• 22:19
  Instagram
• 22:20
  every
• 22:20
  single
• 22:20
  day
• 22:21
  for
• 22:21
  the
• 22:22
  next
• 22:22
  30
• 22:22
  days
• 22:23
  and
• 22:23
  just
• 22:23
  start
• 22:23
  telling
• 22:24
  the
• 22:24
  truth.
• 22:24
  I'm
• 22:25
  going
• 22:25
  to
• 22:25
  start
• 22:25
  telling
• 22:25
  people
• 22:26
  the
• 22:26
  things
• 22:26
  that
• 22:27
  have
• 22:27
  worked
• 22:28
  for
• 22:28
  me.
• 22:28
  And
• 22:29
  the
• 22:29
  thought
• 22:29
  of
• 22:29
  that
• 22:30
  made
• 22:30
  me
• 22:30
  want
• 22:30
  to
• 22:30
  crawl
• 22:31
  out
• 22:31
  of
• 22:31
  my
• 22:31
  skin.
• 22:32
  Totally.
• 22:32
  I
• 22:32
  know
• 22:33
  exactly
• 22:33
  what
• 22:33
  you're
• 22:33
  talking
• 22:34
  about.
• 22:34
  Yes.
• 22:35
  Like,
• 22:35
  people
• 22:35
  are
• 22:35
  going
• 22:35
  to
• 22:35
  think
• 22:36
  I'm
• 22:36
  insane.
• 22:36
  Yeah.
• 22:37
  Like,
• 22:37
  I'm
• 22:38
  gonna
• 22:38
  commit
• 22:38
  social
• 22:38
  suicide
• 22:39
  again.
• 22:41
  Everybody
• 22:42
  in
• 22:42
  my
• 22:42
  circle
• 22:43
  right
• 22:43
  now
• 22:43
  loves
• 22:44
  me.
• 22:44
  I'm
• 22:44
  quiet
• 22:45
  and
• 22:45
  I'm
• 22:45
  like.
• 22:45
  And
• 22:46
  I'm.
• 22:46
  And.
• 22:46
  And
• 22:46
  they,
• 22:46
  you
• 22:47
  know,
• 22:47
  and.
• 22:47
  But
• 22:47
  I
• 22:47
  didn't
• 22:48
  even
• 22:48
  know
• 22:48
  I
• 22:48
  was
• 22:48
  living
• 22:48
  in
• 22:49
  this
• 22:49
  box
• 22:49
  again.
• 22:50
  It
• 22:50
  was
• 22:50
  like,
• 22:51
  I.
• 22:51
  I
• 22:52
  had
• 22:52
  this
• 22:52
  thing
• 22:53
  that
• 22:53
  needed
• 22:53
  to
• 22:54
  come
• 22:54
  out
• 22:54
  of
• 22:54
  me.
• 22:55
  I
• 22:56
  had
• 22:56
  this
• 22:56
  wisdom,
• 22:56
  this
• 22:57
  truth
• 22:57
  that
• 22:57
  I
• 22:57
  wanted
• 22:58
  to
• 22:58
  share
• 22:58
  with
• 22:58
  people.
• 23:00
  I
• 23:00
  was
• 23:00
  already
• 23:00
  sharing
• 23:01
  in
• 23:01
  other
• 23:01
  circles
• 23:02
  and,
• 23:02
  like,
• 23:03
  helping
• 23:03
  people.
• 23:03
  And
• 23:03
  I
• 23:04
  was
• 23:04
  like,
• 23:04
  I
• 23:04
  just.
• 23:04
  I
• 23:04
  just
• 23:04
  want
• 23:05
  to,
• 23:05
  like,
• 23:05
  out
• 23:05
  myself.
• 23:07
  And,
• 23:07
  like,
• 23:07
  what
• 23:07
  better
• 23:08
  way
• 23:08
  than
• 23:08
  to
• 23:08
  out
• 23:08
  myself
• 23:09
  on
• 23:10
  a
• 23:10
  platform
• 23:10
  with
• 23:11
  billions
• 23:12
  of
• 23:12
  Course
• 23:14
  people
• 23:14
  are
• 23:14
  watching
• 23:15
  me,
• 23:15
  but.
• 23:16
  But
• 23:16
  my
• 23:17
  whole
• 23:17
  entire
• 23:17
  circle
• 23:18
  was
• 23:18
  watching.
• 23:18
  Yeah.
• 23:18
  You
• 23:19
  know
• 23:19
  what
• 23:19
  I
• 23:19
  mean?
• 23:19
  Yeah.
• 23:20
  I'm
• 23:21
  just
• 23:21
  gonna
• 23:21
  do
• 23:21
  it.
• 23:22
  And
• 23:22
  my
• 23:23
  husband,
• 23:23
  all
• 23:24
  of
• 23:24
  my
• 23:24
  close
• 23:24
  friends,
• 23:25
  everybody.
• 23:26
  Everybody
• 23:27
  judged
• 23:27
  me.
• 23:28
  Everybody.
• 23:29
  Really?
• 23:30
  Are
• 23:30
  you
• 23:31
  doing,
• 23:32
  like.
• 23:33
  But
• 23:33
  I
• 23:33
  was
• 23:33
  just
• 23:33
  like.
• 23:34
  And
• 23:34
  once
• 23:34
  I
• 23:35
  started,
• 23:36
  once
• 23:36
  I
• 23:37
  accomplished
• 23:37
  that
• 23:37
  30
• 23:38
  days,
• 23:38
  and
• 23:38
  I
• 23:38
  was
• 23:38
  just
• 23:38
  like,
• 23:39
  I'm
• 23:39
  gonna
• 23:39
  do
• 23:39
  every
• 23:39
  day.
• 23:40
  And
• 23:40
  it
• 23:40
  ignited
• 23:41
  a
• 23:42
  fire
• 23:42
  in
• 23:42
  me
• 23:44
  that
• 23:44
  ignited
• 23:45
  this
• 23:45
  fire
• 23:45
  of.
• 23:46
  Of,
• 23:46
  like.
• 23:46
  It's
• 23:47
  this,
• 23:47
  like,
• 23:47
  midlife.
• 23:48
  It's
• 23:48
  like,
• 23:49
  who
• 23:49
  are
• 23:49
  you
• 23:49
  gonna
• 23:49
  be,
• 23:50
  Rachel?
• 23:51
  Who
• 23:52
  are
• 23:52
  you
• 23:52
  gonna
• 23:52
  be
• 23:52
  this
• 23:53
  next
• 23:53
  half
• 23:53
  of
• 23:53
  your
• 23:54
  life?
• 23:54
  Are
• 23:54
  you
• 23:55
  gonna
• 23:55
  be
• 23:55
  what
• 23:55
  everybody
• 23:56
  else
• 23:56
  wants
• 23:56
  you
• 23:56
  to
• 23:56
  be?
• 23:57
  Are
• 23:57
  you
• 23:58
  going
• 23:58
  to
• 23:58
  be
• 23:58
  you?
• 24:00
  Yeah.
• 24:01
  My
• 24:01
  gosh.
• 24:01
  And
• 24:02
  I
• 24:02
  just
• 24:02
  don't
• 24:03
  care
• 24:03
  anymore.
• 24:04
  People
• 24:05
  think
• 24:05
  I'm
• 24:06
  just
• 24:06
  going
• 24:06
  to
• 24:06
  be
• 24:06
  me
• 24:06
  because
• 24:07
  I
• 24:07
  deserve
• 24:07
  to
• 24:07
  be
• 24:08
  me,
• 24:08
  and
• 24:09
  I
• 24:09
  deserve
• 24:09
  to
• 24:09
  live
• 24:10
  free
• 24:10
  inside
• 24:11
  my
• 24:11
  own
• 24:11
  body,
• 24:11
  inside
• 24:12
  my
• 24:12
  own
• 24:12
  life.
• 24:13
  And
• 24:13
  if
• 24:13
  my
• 24:13
  intention
• 24:14
  is
• 24:14
  goodness,
• 24:15
  which
• 24:15
  it
• 24:15
  is
• 24:15
  always,
• 24:16
  and
• 24:17
  my
• 24:17
  intention
• 24:17
  is
• 24:17
  to
• 24:18
  be
• 24:18
  in
• 24:18
  service
• 24:18
  to
• 24:18
  the
• 24:19
  world
• 24:19
  and
• 24:19
  to
• 24:19
  health,
• 24:21
  then
• 24:21
  I'm
• 24:21
  going
• 24:21
  to
• 24:21
  use
• 24:22
  my
• 24:22
  voice.
• 24:23
  And
• 24:23
  it's
• 24:23
  been
• 24:23
  the
• 24:23
  most
• 24:24
  liberating
• 24:25
  thing
• 24:25
  I've
• 24:25
  ever
• 24:26
  done.
• 24:27
  So
• 24:27
  what
• 24:27
  would
• 24:27
  you
• 24:27
  say
• 24:28
  to
• 24:28
  the
• 24:28
  women
• 24:28
  that
• 24:29
  are
• 24:29
  listening,
• 24:29
  that
• 24:29
  are
• 24:29
  afraid
• 24:30
  to
• 24:30
  take
• 24:30
  that
• 24:30
  first
• 24:31
  step?
• 24:31
  I
• 24:31
  would
• 24:31
  say,
• 24:32
  find
• 24:32
  somebody
• 24:33
  who
• 24:33
  can
• 24:33
  help
• 24:33
  you
• 24:34
  find
• 24:34
  what's
• 24:35
  blocking
• 24:35
  you.
• 24:35
  So
• 24:36
  all
• 24:36
  the
• 24:36
  work
• 24:36
  I
• 24:37
  had
• 24:37
  done
• 24:37
  to
• 24:37
  get
• 24:37
  to
• 24:38
  that
• 24:38
  point,
• 24:39
  all
• 24:39
  of
• 24:39
  the
• 24:40
  belief
• 24:40
  systems,
• 24:41
  all
• 24:41
  of
• 24:41
  the
• 24:41
  questions,
• 24:42
  like,
• 24:42
  the
• 24:42
  Byron.
• 24:43
  I
• 24:43
  don't
• 24:43
  know
• 24:43
  if
• 24:43
  you're
• 24:43
  familiar
• 24:44
  with
• 24:44
  Byron.
• 24:44
  Katie,
• 24:44
  yes.
• 24:45
  She's
• 24:45
  also.
• 24:46
  You
• 24:46
  can
• 24:46
  just
• 24:46
  buy
• 24:47
  her
• 24:47
  book.
• 24:47
  It's
• 24:47
  free.
• 24:48
  And
• 24:49
  the
• 24:49
  question,
• 24:49
  is
• 24:50
  it
• 24:50
  true?
• 24:50
  Like,
• 24:50
  is
• 24:51
  it
• 24:51
  true
• 24:52
  that
• 24:52
  I.
• 24:53
  That
• 24:53
  I.
• 24:53
  That
• 24:53
  I
• 24:54
  shouldn't
• 24:54
  show
• 24:54
  up
• 24:54
  on
• 24:54
  Instagram?
• 24:55
  Is
• 24:55
  it
• 24:55
  true
• 24:55
  that
• 24:56
  I
• 24:56
  can't
• 24:56
  use
• 24:56
  my
• 24:56
  voice?
• 24:57
  Is
• 24:57
  it
• 24:57
  true
• 24:57
  that
• 24:58
  I'm
• 24:58
  not
• 24:58
  good
• 24:58
  enough?
• 24:58
  Is
• 24:59
  it
• 24:59
  true?
• 24:59
  Like,
• 25:00
  all
• 25:00
  of
• 25:00
  these.
• 25:00
  I
• 25:01
  started
• 25:01
  asking
• 25:01
  myself
• 25:02
  really
• 25:02
  important
• 25:03
  questions.
• 25:04
  Who
• 25:04
  would
• 25:05
  I
• 25:05
  be
• 25:05
  without
• 25:05
  the
• 25:06
  thought
• 25:06
  that
• 25:06
  I'm
• 25:07
  not
• 25:07
  enough?
• 25:07
  Who
• 25:08
  would
• 25:08
  I
• 25:08
  be
• 25:08
  without
• 25:08
  the
• 25:09
  thought
• 25:09
  that
• 25:09
  I
• 25:09
  can't
• 25:10
  do
• 25:10
  what
• 25:10
  Jessica's
• 25:11
  doing?
• 25:12
  Who
• 25:12
  would
• 25:13
  I
• 25:13
  be
• 25:13
  without
• 25:13
  the
• 25:14
  thought?
• 25:14
  Like,
• 25:15
  so
• 25:15
  these
• 25:15
  are
• 25:15
  the
• 25:15
  types
• 25:16
  of
• 25:16
  questions
• 25:16
  that
• 25:16
  I
• 25:17
  now
• 25:17
  help
• 25:17
  women,
• 25:18
  like,
• 25:18
  really
• 25:18
  uncover.
• 25:19
  And
• 25:19
  there's
• 25:19
  so
• 25:19
  much
• 25:20
  to
• 25:20
  uncover.
• 25:20
  And
• 25:20
  so
• 25:20
  when
• 25:21
  you
• 25:21
  start
• 25:22
  unraveling
• 25:24
  belief
• 25:24
  systems
• 25:24
  and
• 25:25
  these
• 25:25
  ideas
• 25:25
  that
• 25:25
  you've
• 25:26
  acquired
• 25:26
  throughout
• 25:27
  your
• 25:27
  entire
• 25:27
  life,
• 25:29
  and
• 25:29
  you
• 25:30
  start
• 25:30
  taking
• 25:30
  power
• 25:31
  over
• 25:31
  them,
• 25:31
  and
• 25:32
  you
• 25:32
  start
• 25:32
  saying,
• 25:32
  you
• 25:32
  know
• 25:33
  what?
• 25:33
  I
• 25:33
  would
• 25:34
  be?
• 25:35
  I
• 25:35
  would
• 25:35
  be
• 25:35
  more
• 25:35
  me
• 25:36
  without
• 25:37
  that
• 25:37
  limiting
• 25:38
  belief.
• 25:40
  And
• 25:40
  then
• 25:40
  you
• 25:40
  start
• 25:41
  to
• 25:41
  believe
• 25:41
  it
• 25:42
  because
• 25:42
  it's
• 25:42
  true.
• 25:44
  And
• 25:44
  then
• 25:44
  all
• 25:44
  of
• 25:44
  a
• 25:44
  sudden,
• 25:45
  you're
• 25:45
  not
• 25:45
  so
• 25:46
  afraid,
• 25:46
  and
• 25:46
  you
• 25:46
  don't
• 25:47
  feel
• 25:47
  stuck,
• 25:48
  and
• 25:49
  you're
• 25:49
  willing
• 25:49
  to
• 25:49
  do
• 25:50
  the
• 25:50
  thing
• 25:50
  that
• 25:50
  you're
• 25:51
  afraid
• 25:51
  of.
• 25:52
  Do
• 25:52
  you
• 25:52
  think
• 25:52
  that
• 25:52
  people
• 25:53
  are
• 25:53
  afraid
• 25:53
  to
• 25:53
  find
• 25:53
  out
• 25:54
  who
• 25:54
  they
• 25:54
  are?
• 25:54
  Really?
• 25:55
  I
• 25:55
  think
• 25:55
  sometimes,
• 25:56
  yeah,
• 25:56
  I
• 25:57
  think
• 25:57
  they
• 25:57
  are.
• 25:58
  And
• 25:58
  not
• 25:58
  everybody's
• 25:59
  ready
• 26:00
  work
• 26:01
  when
• 26:01
  we're
• 26:01
  ready
• 26:01
  to
• 26:01
  come
• 26:01
  to
• 26:02
  the
• 26:02
  work.
• 26:02
  But
• 26:02
  yes,
• 26:02
  I
• 26:03
  do
• 26:03
  think
• 26:03
  people
• 26:03
  are
• 26:04
  afraid
• 26:06
  to
• 26:06
  uncover
• 26:07
  the
• 26:07
  work.
• 26:07
  But
• 26:08
  because.
• 26:08
  Because
• 26:08
  the
• 26:09
  nervous
• 26:09
  system,
• 26:09
  by
• 26:10
  the
• 26:10
  way,
• 26:10
  Roxy,
• 26:10
  the
• 26:11
  nervous
• 26:11
  system
• 26:11
  wants
• 26:12
  the
• 26:12
  familiar
• 26:13
  because
• 26:13
  that's
• 26:14
  what
• 26:14
  it's
• 26:14
  designed
• 26:14
  to
• 26:14
  do.
• 26:15
  It's
• 26:15
  designed
• 26:15
  to
• 26:16
  keep
• 26:16
  you
• 26:16
  safe.
• 26:17
  And
• 26:17
  the
• 26:17
  familiar
• 26:18
  is
• 26:19
  the
• 26:19
  safety
• 26:19
  of
• 26:20
  keeping
• 26:20
  that
• 26:21
  belief
• 26:21
  system
• 26:22
  from
• 26:22
  when
• 26:22
  I
• 26:22
  was
• 26:22
  six
• 26:22
  years
• 26:23
  old,
• 26:24
  like,
• 26:24
  order
• 26:25
  for
• 26:25
  me,
• 26:25
  in
• 26:26
  order
• 26:26
  for
• 26:26
  my
• 26:26
  dad
• 26:27
  to
• 26:27
  come
• 26:27
  back.
• 26:28
  Six
• 26:29
  years
• 26:29
  old,
• 26:29
  he
• 26:29
  left
• 26:30
  and
• 26:30
  he
• 26:30
  came
• 26:30
  back.
• 26:31
  In
• 26:31
  order
• 26:31
  for
• 26:31
  him
• 26:31
  to
• 26:31
  come
• 26:31
  back,
• 26:32
  I
• 26:32
  have
• 26:32
  to
• 26:32
  be
• 26:33
  perfect.
• 26:34
  I
• 26:34
  have
• 26:34
  to
• 26:34
  like,
• 26:34
  be
• 26:35
  what
• 26:35
  everybody
• 26:35
  wants
• 26:36
  me
• 26:36
  to
• 26:36
  be.
• 26:36
  I
• 26:37
  can't
• 26:37
  have
• 26:37
  an
• 26:37
  emotion.
• 26:38
  I
• 26:38
  can't
• 26:39
  say
• 26:39
  what
• 26:39
  I
• 26:39
  want.
• 26:39
  I'm
• 26:40
  just
• 26:40
  going
• 26:40
  to
• 26:40
  be
• 26:40
  a
• 26:40
  good
• 26:40
  little
• 26:41
  girl.
• 26:42
  So
• 26:42
  that
• 26:42
  belief
• 26:43
  system
• 26:43
  from
• 26:44
  6
• 26:44
  years
• 26:44
  old
• 26:45
  kept
• 26:45
  me
• 26:45
  safe
• 26:47
  while
• 26:47
  I
• 26:47
  was
• 26:47
  42
• 26:48
  years
• 26:48
  old.
• 26:50
  And
• 26:51
  then
• 26:51
  at
• 26:51
  42
• 26:51
  years
• 26:52
  old,
• 26:52
  I
• 26:52
  said,
• 26:52
  you
• 26:52
  know
• 26:52
  what?
• 26:53
  I
• 26:53
  get
• 26:53
  to
• 26:54
  parent
• 26:54
  that
• 26:54
  6
• 26:55
  year
• 26:55
  old.
• 26:55
  I
• 26:55
  get
• 26:55
  to
• 26:55
  tell
• 26:56
  her,
• 26:56
  you
• 26:56
  know
• 26:56
  what,
• 26:57
  you
• 26:57
  get
• 26:57
  to
• 26:57
  be
• 26:58
  whoever
• 26:58
  you
• 26:58
  want
• 26:58
  to
• 26:59
  be.
• 27:00
  You
• 27:00
  get
• 27:00
  to
• 27:01
  say
• 27:01
  whatever
• 27:01
  you
• 27:01
  want
• 27:02
  to
• 27:02
  say
• 27:02
  because
• 27:03
  I'm
• 27:03
  holding
• 27:03
  place
• 27:03
  for
• 27:04
  you.
• 27:04
  And
• 27:04
  it's
• 27:05
  not
• 27:05
  my
• 27:05
  dad's
• 27:05
  fault
• 27:05
  that
• 27:06
  I
• 27:06
  made
• 27:06
  that
• 27:06
  I
• 27:06
  made
• 27:07
  that
• 27:07
  pact.
• 27:07
  My
• 27:08
  dad
• 27:08
  gave
• 27:08
  me
• 27:09
  the
• 27:09
  safety
• 27:10
  as
• 27:10
  a
• 27:10
  little
• 27:11
  girl
• 27:11
  and
• 27:11
  he
• 27:12
  came
• 27:12
  back.
• 27:12
  And
• 27:12
  parents
• 27:13
  have
• 27:13
  their
• 27:13
  own
• 27:13
  stuff.
• 27:13
  So
• 27:13
  I
• 27:14
  don't
• 27:14
  blame
• 27:14
  anything
• 27:14
  on
• 27:15
  my
• 27:15
  past,
• 27:16
  but
• 27:16
  I.
• 27:17
  But
• 27:17
  I
• 27:17
  get
• 27:17
  to
• 27:17
  take
• 27:17
  charge
• 27:18
  of
• 27:18
  my
• 27:18
  healing.
• 27:18
  And
• 27:19
  so
• 27:19
  healing
• 27:20
  those
• 27:20
  things
• 27:20
  and
• 27:20
  being
• 27:21
  willing
• 27:21
  to
• 27:21
  look
• 27:21
  at
• 27:21
  them
• 27:22
  is
• 27:23
  where
• 27:23
  that
• 27:24
  safety
• 27:24
  comes
• 27:24
  from.
• 27:24
  So
• 27:24
  not
• 27:25
  everybody's
• 27:25
  ready.
• 27:25
  Their
• 27:26
  nervous
• 27:26
  systems
• 27:26
  aren't
• 27:26
  ready
• 27:27
  for
• 27:27
  the
• 27:27
  unfamiliar.
• 27:28
  The
• 27:28
  unfamiliar
• 27:28
  is
• 27:29
  doing
• 27:29
  the
• 27:29
  thing.
• 27:30
  Launch
• 27:31
  Instagram.
• 27:32
  But
• 27:32
  this,
• 27:33
  when
• 27:33
  you
• 27:33
  realize
• 27:34
  that
• 27:34
  you're
• 27:35
  living
• 27:35
  like
• 27:35
  a
• 27:35
  six
• 27:35
  year
• 27:36
  old,
• 27:36
  it's
• 27:37
  rewire
• 27:37
  your
• 27:38
  brain.
• 27:38
  Your
• 27:38
  brain
• 27:38
  goes,
• 27:39
  oh
• 27:39
  my
• 27:39
  God.
• 27:40
  It's
• 27:40
  actually
• 27:40
  safer
• 27:41
  to
• 27:42
  do
• 27:42
  the
• 27:42
  thing
• 27:42
  on
• 27:42
  Instagram
• 27:43
  than
• 27:43
  it
• 27:43
  is
• 27:44
  to
• 27:44
  be
• 27:45
  afraid
• 27:46
  to
• 27:47
  not
• 27:47
  be
• 27:47
  myself.
• 27:49
  Does
• 27:49
  that
• 27:49
  make
• 27:49
  sense?
• 27:50
  It's
• 27:50
  like
• 27:50
  this,
• 27:50
  like
• 27:50
  whole
• 27:51
  thing
• 27:51
  happens
• 27:52
  where
• 27:52
  you're
• 27:52
  like,
• 27:52
  oh
• 27:52
  my
• 27:52
  God,
• 27:53
  I
• 27:53
  don't
• 27:53
  have
• 27:54
  to
• 27:54
  be,
• 27:54
  I
• 27:54
  don't
• 27:54
  have
• 27:54
  to
• 27:54
  be
• 27:54
  a
• 27:55
  6
• 27:55
  year
• 27:55
  old
• 27:55
  anymore.
• 27:55
  I
• 27:55
  can
• 27:56
  be
• 27:56
  a
• 27:56
  46
• 27:56
  year
• 27:57
  old.
• 27:59
  That's
• 27:59
  absolutely
• 28:00
  true.
• 28:00
  And
• 28:00
  I
• 28:00
  feel
• 28:01
  like
• 28:01
  that's
• 28:02
  one
• 28:02
  that,
• 28:02
  that
• 28:03
  is
• 28:03
  something
• 28:03
  that
• 28:03
  I
• 28:04
  think
• 28:04
  we
• 28:04
  need
• 28:04
  to
• 28:04
  like
• 28:04
  repeat
• 28:05
  over
• 28:05
  and
• 28:05
  over,
• 28:05
  especially
• 28:06
  midlife,
• 28:06
  is
• 28:07
  that
• 28:07
  we
• 28:07
  are,
• 28:08
  we
• 28:08
  have
• 28:08
  neuroplasticity.
• 28:09
  Like,
• 28:09
  we
• 28:10
  can
• 28:10
  change
• 28:11
  our
• 28:11
  brains.
• 28:12
  Like
• 28:12
  we're
• 28:12
  not.
• 28:13
  There's.
• 28:13
  It's
• 28:13
  not
• 28:14
  too
• 28:14
  late.
• 28:14
  We're
• 28:14
  not
• 28:14
  too
• 28:15
  old.
• 28:15
  Like,
• 28:16
  there
• 28:16
  is,
• 28:16
  there
• 28:17
  is
• 28:17
  a
• 28:17
  way
• 28:17
  to
• 28:18
  live
• 28:18
  differently
• 28:19
  now.
• 28:19
  But
• 28:20
  I
• 28:20
  do
• 28:20
  think
• 28:20
  that
• 28:20
  people
• 28:21
  are
• 28:21
  scared,
• 28:22
  you
• 28:22
  know,
• 28:22
  I.
• 28:23
  Right.
• 28:23
  I
• 28:23
  mean,
• 28:24
  they're
• 28:24
  just.
• 28:25
  It's
• 28:25
  hard.
• 28:25
  It
• 28:26
  feels
• 28:26
  overwhelming
• 28:26
  too.
• 28:27
  The,
• 28:28
  you
• 28:29
  know,
• 28:29
  the
• 28:29
  beautiful
• 28:29
  thing
• 28:29
  about
• 28:30
  Instagram
• 28:31
  and
• 28:31
  the
• 28:31
  Internet
• 28:31
  and
• 28:32
  TikTok
• 28:32
  and,
• 28:33
  and
• 28:33
  is
• 28:33
  that
• 28:33
  there's
• 28:34
  so
• 28:34
  much
• 28:34
  access
• 28:35
  now
• 28:35
  to
• 28:35
  the
• 28:35
  truth,
• 28:36
  which
• 28:36
  is
• 28:36
  neuroplasticity.
• 28:37
  We
• 28:37
  have
• 28:37
  so
• 28:37
  much.
• 28:38
  And
• 28:38
  more
• 28:39
  and
• 28:39
  more
• 28:39
  people
• 28:39
  are
• 28:39
  talking
• 28:40
  about
• 28:40
  it.
• 28:40
  Like
• 28:41
  I
• 28:41
  was
• 28:41
  talking
• 28:41
  about
• 28:42
  vibration
• 28:42
  and
• 28:42
  frequency
• 28:43
  20
• 28:43
  years
• 28:43
  ago
• 28:43
  and
• 28:44
  like
• 28:44
  physical
• 28:44
  vibration
• 28:45
  and
• 28:45
  frequency.
• 28:45
  And
• 28:46
  now
• 28:46
  I'm
• 28:46
  talking
• 28:46
  about
• 28:46
  it
• 28:47
  internally.
• 28:48
  And
• 28:48
  of
• 28:48
  course,
• 28:48
  this
• 28:48
  is
• 28:48
  what
• 28:49
  I
• 28:49
  do
• 28:49
  for
• 28:49
  a
• 28:49
  living,
• 28:50
  you
• 28:50
  know,
• 28:50
  of
• 28:50
  course
• 28:50
  vibration
• 28:51
  has
• 28:51
  been
• 28:51
  a
• 28:51
  part
• 28:51
  of
• 28:52
  my
• 28:52
  life
• 28:52
  since
• 28:53
  I
• 28:53
  was
• 28:53
  26
• 28:54
  years
• 28:54
  old.
• 28:56
  Now
• 28:56
  it's
• 28:56
  like
• 28:56
  a
• 28:57
  different
• 28:57
  vibration.
• 28:57
  Like
• 28:58
  I'm
• 28:58
  still
• 28:58
  doing
• 28:58
  my,
• 28:59
  my
• 28:59
  workouts
• 28:59
  and
• 28:59
  I
• 28:59
  love
• 29:00
  them
• 29:00
  and
• 29:00
  play
• 29:00
  fits
• 29:01
  incredible.
• 29:02
  But
• 29:02
  now
• 29:02
  it's.
• 29:03
  Now
• 29:03
  it's
• 29:03
  about
• 29:03
  like
• 29:03
  neuroplasticity
• 29:04
  and
• 29:05
  teaching
• 29:05
  people
• 29:06
  how
• 29:06
  to
• 29:07
  create
• 29:07
  a
• 29:07
  different
• 29:08
  thought.
• 29:08
  A
• 29:08
  different
• 29:09
  thought
• 29:09
  pattern.
• 29:10
  Yes.
• 29:10
  And
• 29:10
  to.
• 29:11
  And
• 29:11
  to
• 29:11
  live
• 29:12
  with
• 29:13
  peace
• 29:14
  and
• 29:14
  freedom.
• 29:16
  Like,
• 29:16
  it's
• 29:16
  incredible.
• 29:18
  It's
• 29:18
  incredible.
• 29:18
  Life
• 29:19
  can
• 29:19
  be
• 29:19
  so
• 29:19
  much
• 29:20
  greater,
• 29:20
  you
• 29:20
  know,
• 29:21
  it
• 29:21
  really
• 29:21
  can.
• 29:21
  And
• 29:22
  what
• 29:23
  does,
• 29:23
  what,
• 29:24
  what
• 29:24
  do
• 29:24
  you
• 29:24
  feel
• 29:25
  like
• 29:25
  now?
• 29:25
  Like,
• 29:26
  what
• 29:26
  does
• 29:26
  your
• 29:26
  day
• 29:26
  to
• 29:26
  day
• 29:27
  feel
• 29:27
  like
• 29:27
  now,
• 29:27
  you
• 29:28
  know,
• 29:28
  now
• 29:28
  that
• 29:28
  you're
• 29:28
  in
• 29:29
  this,
• 29:29
  like,
• 29:29
  different
• 29:30
  space
• 29:30
  than
• 29:30
  you
• 29:30
  were
• 29:31
  a
• 29:31
  few
• 29:31
  years
• 29:31
  back?
• 29:32
  What
• 29:32
  does
• 29:32
  that
• 29:32
  feel
• 29:32
  like
• 29:33
  for
• 29:33
  you?
• 29:33
  How
• 29:33
  does
• 29:33
  your
• 29:34
  nervous
• 29:34
  system
• 29:34
  feel?
• 29:34
  Like,
• 29:35
  how
• 29:35
  does
• 29:35
  your
• 29:35
  brain
• 29:36
  feel
• 29:36
  like,
• 29:36
  all
• 29:36
  of
• 29:36
  it,
• 29:37
  you
• 29:37
  know?
• 29:38
  I
• 29:38
  feel
• 29:38
  really
• 29:38
  good.
• 29:40
  Life
• 29:40
  is
• 29:41
  life.
• 29:41
  So
• 29:41
  life
• 29:41
  is
• 29:42
  going
• 29:42
  to
• 29:42
  hand
• 29:42
  me
• 29:43
  life.
• 29:44
  And
• 29:46
  when
• 29:47
  those
• 29:47
  moments
• 29:47
  come
• 29:48
  up,
• 29:48
  I
• 29:48
  just
• 29:48
  feel
• 29:48
  like
• 29:49
  I
• 29:49
  have
• 29:49
  the
• 29:49
  tools
• 29:51
  and
• 29:51
  it's
• 29:51
  interesting
• 29:52
  to
• 29:52
  me
• 29:54
  to.
• 29:55
  It's
• 29:55
  just
• 29:55
  like
• 29:55
  I
• 29:55
  remember
• 29:56
  when
• 29:56
  I
• 29:57
  was
• 29:57
  like
• 29:57
  training
• 29:58
  my
• 29:58
  nervous
• 29:58
  system
• 29:59
  that
• 29:59
  like
• 29:59
  everything
• 29:59
  works
• 30:00
  out
• 30:00
  for
• 30:00
  me.
• 30:01
  Like
• 30:01
  I
• 30:01
  was
• 30:01
  doing
• 30:01
  the
• 30:01
  tapping,
• 30:02
  I
• 30:02
  was
• 30:02
  like
• 30:03
  training
• 30:03
  my
• 30:04
  body,
• 30:04
  like
• 30:04
  over
• 30:05
  and
• 30:05
  over
• 30:05
  and
• 30:05
  over
• 30:05
  again.
• 30:06
  Like,
• 30:06
  show
• 30:06
  me
• 30:07
  how
• 30:07
  good
• 30:07
  it
• 30:07
  can
• 30:07
  get.
• 30:08
  Like
• 30:08
  all
• 30:08
  these
• 30:09
  little
• 30:09
  tips
• 30:09
  and
• 30:09
  tricks
• 30:10
  that
• 30:10
  like,
• 30:10
  we
• 30:10
  think
• 30:10
  are
• 30:11
  woo,
• 30:11
  but
• 30:11
  really
• 30:12
  are
• 30:12
  not
• 30:12
  woo.
• 30:13
  They're
• 30:13
  like
• 30:14
  troll
• 30:14
  to
• 30:14
  training,
• 30:15
  retraining
• 30:16
  the
• 30:16
  body,
• 30:16
  retraining
• 30:17
  the
• 30:17
  mind.
• 30:18
  And
• 30:18
  it's
• 30:19
  like,
• 30:19
  I
• 30:19
  know
• 30:19
  I,
• 30:19
  I
• 30:19
  just
• 30:20
  know
• 30:20
  it.
• 30:20
  Like
• 30:20
  everything
• 30:21
  works
• 30:21
  out.
• 30:23
  Always,
• 30:24
  always,
• 30:25
  all
• 30:25
  when
• 30:25
  I'm
• 30:26
  moving
• 30:26
  through
• 30:26
  something.
• 30:26
  But,
• 30:27
  like,
• 30:27
  it
• 30:27
  works
• 30:27
  out
• 30:27
  better
• 30:28
  than
• 30:28
  I
• 30:28
  ever
• 30:28
  thought
• 30:29
  it
• 30:29
  would
• 30:31
  and
• 30:31
  I
• 30:32
  know
• 30:32
  it
• 30:33
  now.
• 30:33
  And
• 30:33
  so
• 30:34
  how
• 30:34
  do
• 30:34
  I,
• 30:34
  I
• 30:35
  go
• 30:35
  to
• 30:35
  bed
• 30:35
  and
• 30:35
  I.
• 30:36
  And
• 30:36
  I
• 30:36
  like
• 30:36
  review
• 30:37
  my
• 30:37
  day
• 30:37
  and
• 30:38
  I'm
• 30:38
  grateful
• 30:38
  for,
• 30:40
  I'm
• 30:41
  grateful
• 30:41
  for
• 30:41
  how
• 30:41
  I
• 30:41
  showed
• 30:42
  up.
• 30:42
  Whether
• 30:43
  I,
• 30:43
  whether
• 30:44
  or
• 30:44
  not
• 30:44
  it
• 30:44
  was
• 30:44
  like
• 30:44
  a
• 30:45
  perfect
• 30:45
  day,
• 30:45
  which
• 30:45
  is
• 30:45
  never
• 30:46
  a
• 30:46
  perfect
• 30:46
  day
• 30:46
  or
• 30:46
  not.
• 30:47
  I'm
• 30:47
  grateful
• 30:47
  for
• 30:47
  how
• 30:47
  I
• 30:48
  show
• 30:48
  up.
• 30:49
  And
• 30:49
  my
• 30:50
  relationships
• 30:50
  look
• 30:51
  incredible.
• 30:51
  My
• 30:52
  relationship
• 30:52
  with
• 30:52
  my
• 30:53
  husband
• 30:53
  is
• 30:53
  better
• 30:54
  than
• 30:54
  it's
• 30:54
  ever
• 30:54
  been.
• 30:55
  And
• 30:55
  we
• 30:55
  have
• 30:55
  hard
• 30:56
  stuff,
• 30:56
  but
• 30:56
  it's
• 30:56
  like
• 30:56
  we
• 30:57
  were
• 30:57
  committed
• 30:58
  to
• 30:59
  this
• 31:00
  partnership.
• 31:00
  And
• 31:01
  I
• 31:01
  love
• 31:01
  being
• 31:02
  my
• 31:02
  kid's
• 31:02
  mom.
• 31:02
  And
• 31:03
  I
• 31:03
  have
• 31:03
  incredible
• 31:04
  friendships
• 31:04
  and
• 31:04
  beautiful
• 31:05
  friendships
• 31:05
  and
• 31:06
  new
• 31:06
  friendships
• 31:06
  that
• 31:06
  are
• 31:07
  coming
• 31:07
  in.
• 31:07
  And
• 31:08
  I
• 31:08
  have
• 31:09
  this
• 31:09
  newfound
• 31:10
  love
• 31:10
  for
• 31:10
  my
• 31:10
  own
• 31:11
  business,
• 31:12
  my
• 31:13
  own.
• 31:13
  My
• 31:13
  own
• 31:14
  plate
• 31:14
  fit
• 31:15
  business
• 31:15
  that
• 31:15
  I've
• 31:15
  been
• 31:15
  now
• 31:16
  running
• 31:16
  for
• 31:16
  20
• 31:16
  something
• 31:17
  years.
• 31:17
  Like
• 31:18
  a
• 31:18
  long
• 31:19
  time
• 31:19
  to
• 31:19
  be
• 31:19
  doing
• 31:20
  one
• 31:20
  thing.
• 31:20
  And
• 31:21
  so
• 31:22
  is
• 31:22
  my
• 31:22
  nervous
• 31:23
  system.
• 31:23
  Does
• 31:23
  it
• 31:23
  go
• 31:23
  out
• 31:24
  and
• 31:24
  get
• 31:25
  heightened
• 31:25
  and
• 31:25
  do
• 31:26
  I
• 31:26
  get
• 31:26
  in
• 31:26
  fight
• 31:26
  or
• 31:26
  flight?
• 31:27
  Sometimes,
• 31:27
  yes.
• 31:27
  So
• 31:28
  that's
• 31:28
  what
• 31:28
  the
• 31:28
  nervous
• 31:28
  system
• 31:29
  is
• 31:29
  designed
• 31:29
  to
• 31:29
  do.
• 31:30
  But
• 31:30
  I
• 31:30
  know
• 31:30
  how
• 31:30
  to
• 31:30
  come
• 31:30
  back.
• 31:31
  Absolutely.
• 31:32
  When
• 31:33
  life
• 31:33
  is
• 31:33
  lifing
• 31:34
  hard,
• 31:35
  what.
• 31:36
  What
• 31:36
  are
• 31:37
  like
• 31:37
  some
• 31:37
  of
• 31:37
  the
• 31:37
  tips
• 31:38
  and
• 31:38
  tricks
• 31:38
  that
• 31:38
  you
• 31:38
  use
• 31:39
  to
• 31:39
  just
• 31:39
  kind
• 31:39
  of
• 31:39
  like,
• 31:40
  bring
• 31:40
  it
• 31:40
  back
• 31:41
  down?
• 31:42
  Yeah.
• 31:43
  So
• 31:43
  life
• 31:43
  was
• 31:43
  lifeing
• 31:44
  hard.
• 31:44
  The
• 31:44
  last
• 31:44
  four
• 31:45
  weeks.
• 31:45
  I
• 31:45
  probably
• 31:45
  went
• 31:46
  through
• 31:46
  one
• 31:46
  of
• 31:46
  the
• 31:46
  most
• 31:48
  transformative.
• 31:50
  I'm
• 31:50
  not
• 31:50
  ready
• 31:50
  to
• 31:51
  fully
• 31:51
  talk
• 31:51
  about
• 31:51
  exactly
• 31:52
  what
• 31:52
  happened
• 31:52
  yet
• 31:53
  because
• 31:53
  it's
• 31:53
  still.
• 31:55
  It's
• 31:55
  still
• 31:55
  in
• 31:55
  process.
• 31:56
  But
• 31:56
  I
• 31:56
  went
• 31:56
  through
• 31:56
  one
• 31:57
  of
• 31:57
  the
• 31:57
  most
• 31:57
  transformative
• 31:58
  months,
• 31:59
  maybe
• 31:59
  five
• 31:59
  weeks
• 32:00
  of
• 32:00
  my
• 32:00
  life.
• 32:01
  And
• 32:01
  what
• 32:01
  I
• 32:01
  do
• 32:02
  when
• 32:02
  things.
• 32:02
  When
• 32:02
  life.
• 32:03
  Life's
• 32:03
  like,
• 32:04
  that
• 32:05
  is,
• 32:05
  I
• 32:06
  kind
• 32:06
  of
• 32:07
  just
• 32:07
  go
• 32:07
  a
• 32:07
  little
• 32:08
  more
• 32:08
  inward.
• 32:09
  I
• 32:10
  add
• 32:12
  a
• 32:12
  longer
• 32:12
  meditation
• 32:13
  in
• 32:13
  the
• 32:13
  morning,
• 32:14
  more
• 32:14
  movement.
• 32:17
  I
• 32:17
  connect
• 32:18
  with
• 32:18
  somebody
• 32:18
  I
• 32:18
  really,
• 32:19
  really
• 32:19
  trust
• 32:19
  that
• 32:19
  I
• 32:19
  can
• 32:20
  talk
• 32:20
  to
• 32:20
  on
• 32:20
  a
• 32:20
  consistent
• 32:21
  basis
• 32:22
  that
• 32:22
  I
• 32:22
  can
• 32:23
  really
• 32:23
  tell
• 32:23
  my
• 32:23
  truth
• 32:24
  to.
• 32:24
  That
• 32:24
  doesn't
• 32:24
  let
• 32:24
  me
• 32:25
  unravel.
• 32:26
  That
• 32:26
  can
• 32:27
  bring
• 32:27
  me
• 32:27
  back
• 32:28
  into
• 32:29
  homeostasis.
• 32:30
  Literally,
• 32:31
  like,
• 32:31
  can
• 32:31
  say,
• 32:31
  like,
• 32:31
  this
• 32:32
  is
• 32:32
  the
• 32:32
  truth
• 32:32
  about
• 32:32
  what's
• 32:33
  happening.
• 32:34
  And
• 32:35
  I
• 32:35
  use
• 32:35
  breath.
• 32:36
  And
• 32:36
  then
• 32:37
  I.
• 32:37
  I
• 32:37
  mean,
• 32:37
  I
• 32:37
  literally
• 32:38
  go
• 32:38
  back
• 32:38
  to
• 32:38
  the
• 32:39
  ritual.
• 32:39
  Like
• 32:39
  I
• 32:39
  have
• 32:39
  a
• 32:40
  ritual
• 32:40
  every
• 32:40
  single
• 32:41
  day.
• 32:41
  Ritual.
• 32:43
  Everyone's
• 32:44
  like,
• 32:44
  you're
• 32:44
  very
• 32:44
  dedicated.
• 32:45
  Like,
• 32:45
  you're
• 32:46
  committed.
• 32:47
  I'm
• 32:47
  committed
• 32:48
  to
• 32:48
  a
• 32:48
  ritual
• 32:48
  because
• 32:48
  it
• 32:49
  may.
• 32:49
  It.
• 32:49
  It
• 32:49
  creates
• 32:50
  safety
• 32:50
  for
• 32:51
  me.
• 32:51
  So
• 32:52
  the
• 32:52
  ritual
• 32:52
  in
• 32:53
  the
• 32:53
  morning
• 32:53
  just
• 32:53
  gets
• 32:54
  a
• 32:54
  little
• 32:54
  longer.
• 32:54
  The
• 32:55
  ritual
• 32:56
  gets
• 32:56
  a
• 32:56
  little
• 32:56
  longer
• 32:58
  when
• 32:58
  I'm
• 32:58
  going
• 32:58
  through
• 32:59
  the
• 32:59
  lifeness
• 32:59
  and
• 33:00
  I'm
• 33:00
  not
• 33:01
  telling
• 33:01
  everybody
• 33:02
  my
• 33:02
  life
• 33:02
  at
• 33:03
  that
• 33:03
  moment.
• 33:04
  I'm
• 33:05
  keeping
• 33:05
  it
• 33:05
  safe
• 33:06
  in
• 33:06
  a
• 33:06
  container
• 33:07
  so
• 33:08
  that
• 33:09
  it
• 33:10
  feels
• 33:10
  safe
• 33:10
  enough
• 33:10
  to
• 33:10
  get
• 33:11
  through.
• 33:13
  And
• 33:13
  I
• 33:13
  gather
• 33:13
  my
• 33:14
  team
• 33:15
  in
• 33:15
  the
• 33:15
  moments.
• 33:16
  I
• 33:17
  have
• 33:17
  a
• 33:17
  team
• 33:17
  of
• 33:17
  women
• 33:18
  around
• 33:18
  me
• 33:18
  and
• 33:19
  my
• 33:19
  husband
• 33:20
  that
• 33:21
  can
• 33:21
  really
• 33:21
  support
• 33:22
  me
• 33:23
  in.
• 33:24
  In
• 33:24
  writing
• 33:25
  out
• 33:25
  the
• 33:25
  truth
• 33:26
  of.
• 33:26
  Of
• 33:26
  what's.
• 33:26
  What's
• 33:27
  going
• 33:27
  on.
• 33:27
  And
• 33:28
  so
• 33:28
  that's
• 33:28
  how
• 33:29
  I
• 33:29
  get
• 33:29
  through
• 33:29
  the
• 33:29
  hard
• 33:30
  moments.
• 33:31
  But
• 33:31
  I
• 33:31
  also
• 33:32
  remember
• 33:33
  to
• 33:33
  Live
• 33:33
  through
• 33:33
  them,
• 33:34
  to
• 33:34
  feel
• 33:34
  them,
• 33:35
  to,
• 33:35
  like,
• 33:35
  experience
• 33:36
  them,
• 33:36
  and,
• 33:36
  like,
• 33:37
  remind
• 33:37
  myself,
• 33:38
  like
• 33:38
  I
• 33:38
  said
• 33:38
  earlier,
• 33:39
  truthfully,
• 33:40
  that
• 33:40
  I
• 33:40
  know
• 33:40
  everything
• 33:41
  works
• 33:41
  out
• 33:42
  all
• 33:42
  the
• 33:42
  time,
• 33:43
  and
• 33:43
  I
• 33:44
  don't
• 33:44
  allow
• 33:44
  it
• 33:44
  to
• 33:44
  take
• 33:45
  me
• 33:45
  down.
• 33:47
  And
• 33:47
  like,
• 33:48
  you're
• 33:48
  saying
• 33:48
  to
• 33:48
  feel
• 33:49
  these
• 33:49
  feelings,
• 33:50
  to
• 33:50
  not
• 33:50
  numb
• 33:50
  them,
• 33:51
  you
• 33:51
  know,
• 33:51
  because
• 33:51
  I
• 33:51
  think
• 33:52
  it's
• 33:52
  easy
• 33:52
  to
• 33:53
  open
• 33:53
  a
• 33:53
  bottle
• 33:54
  of
• 33:54
  wine
• 33:54
  at
• 33:54
  the
• 33:54
  end
• 33:54
  of
• 33:55
  the
• 33:55
  day
• 33:55
  and
• 33:55
  kind
• 33:55
  of,
• 33:55
  like,
• 33:56
  zone
• 33:56
  out.
• 33:56
  And
• 33:57
  believe
• 33:57
  me,
• 33:57
  I
• 33:57
  mean,
• 33:58
  I
• 33:58
  do
• 33:58
  it
• 33:58
  too,
• 33:58
  sometimes.
• 33:59
  So
• 33:59
  I'm
• 33:59
  not
• 33:59
  saying
• 33:59
  it's.
• 34:00
  It's
• 34:00
  right
• 34:00
  or
• 34:01
  wrong,
• 34:01
  but
• 34:01
  I'm
• 34:01
  just
• 34:01
  saying,
• 34:02
  like,
• 34:02
  for
• 34:02
  me,
• 34:02
  too,
• 34:03
  you
• 34:03
  know,
• 34:04
  I
• 34:04
  pulled
• 34:04
  back
• 34:04
  on
• 34:05
  drinking
• 34:05
  quite
• 34:05
  a
• 34:06
  bit,
• 34:06
  like,
• 34:06
  especially
• 34:07
  in
• 34:07
  the
• 34:07
  last
• 34:07
  couple
• 34:08
  years,
• 34:08
  just.
• 34:08
  And
• 34:08
  also
• 34:09
  too.
• 34:09
  Just,
• 34:09
  you
• 34:10
  know,
• 34:10
  it
• 34:10
  kind
• 34:10
  of
• 34:10
  doesn't
• 34:11
  feel
• 34:11
  good
• 34:12
  in
• 34:12
  my
• 34:12
  body
• 34:12
  as
• 34:12
  much.
• 34:13
  Right.
• 34:13
  Like,
• 34:13
  the
• 34:13
  midlife,
• 34:14
  all
• 34:14
  the
• 34:14
  biological
• 34:15
  changes
• 34:16
  that
• 34:16
  are
• 34:16
  happening,
• 34:17
  your
• 34:17
  body,
• 34:17
  it's
• 34:18
  just
• 34:18
  harder
• 34:18
  to
• 34:18
  process
• 34:19
  now
• 34:19
  than
• 34:20
  it
• 34:20
  ever
• 34:20
  has
• 34:20
  been.
• 34:21
  So,
• 34:22
  you
• 34:22
  know,
• 34:22
  I
• 34:22
  do
• 34:22
  feel
• 34:23
  the
• 34:23
  difference,
• 34:24
  too,
• 34:24
  when
• 34:24
  I
• 34:24
  pull
• 34:25
  back
• 34:25
  and,
• 34:25
  you
• 34:26
  know,
• 34:27
  have
• 34:27
  the
• 34:27
  clarity
• 34:27
  and,
• 34:28
  like,
• 34:28
  you
• 34:28
  know,
• 34:29
  being
• 34:29
  able
• 34:29
  to
• 34:29
  kind
• 34:30
  of
• 34:30
  face
• 34:30
  the
• 34:30
  day
• 34:31
  in
• 34:31
  a.
• 34:31
  In
• 34:31
  a
• 34:31
  better
• 34:32
  mindset,
• 34:33
  you
• 34:34
  know,
• 34:34
  it
• 34:34
  makes
• 34:34
  such
• 34:34
  a
• 34:34
  difference.
• 34:35
  It
• 34:35
  really
• 34:36
  does.
• 34:36
  Right?
• 34:37
  A
• 34:37
  clarity
• 34:37
  of
• 34:38
  mind
• 34:38
  from
• 34:38
  not
• 34:38
  drinking.
• 34:39
  Oh,
• 34:40
  yeah.
• 34:40
  Is.
• 34:42
  Is
• 34:42
  honestly,
• 34:42
  it's.
• 34:43
  It's
• 34:43
  just
• 34:43
  like.
• 34:43
  It's
• 34:43
  like.
• 34:44
  It's
• 34:44
  like
• 34:44
  longevity.
• 34:45
  It
• 34:45
  is
• 34:45
  like,
• 34:46
  people
• 34:46
  are
• 34:46
  like,
• 34:47
  miss
• 34:47
  it.
• 34:47
  And
• 34:48
  I'm
• 34:48
  like,
• 34:48
  yes.
• 34:48
  For
• 34:48
  a
• 34:48
  split
• 34:49
  second,
• 34:50
  like,
• 34:50
  that
• 34:50
  first,
• 34:51
  everybody's
• 34:51
  at
• 34:51
  the
• 34:52
  table
• 34:52
  and
• 34:52
  they're
• 34:52
  getting
• 34:52
  the
• 34:53
  drinks,
• 34:53
  and
• 34:53
  we're,
• 34:53
  like,
• 34:53
  on
• 34:54
  vacation.
• 34:54
  And
• 34:54
  I'm
• 34:55
  like.
• 34:55
  In
• 34:55
  the
• 34:55
  first
• 34:55
  second,
• 34:56
  I'm
• 34:56
  like,
• 34:56
  yes.
• 34:56
  And
• 34:56
  then
• 34:57
  I'm
• 34:57
  like,
• 34:57
  honestly,
• 34:58
  I.
• 34:58
  I
• 34:58
  can
• 34:59
  have
• 35:00
  so
• 35:00
  much
• 35:00
  fun
• 35:00
  without
• 35:01
  it.
• 35:03
  Like,
• 35:03
  I
• 35:03
  can
• 35:03
  be
• 35:04
  just
• 35:04
  as
• 35:04
  alive
• 35:05
  without
• 35:05
  it.
• 35:05
  And
• 35:06
  the
• 35:07
  benefits
• 35:07
  for
• 35:07
  me
• 35:08
  of
• 35:08
  the
• 35:08
  clarity
• 35:09
  of,
• 35:09
  like,
• 35:10
  of
• 35:10
  being
• 35:10
  able
• 35:10
  to
• 35:11
  handle
• 35:11
  life
• 35:12
  now,
• 35:13
  it's
• 35:13
  just,
• 35:13
  like,
• 35:13
  it
• 35:13
  far
• 35:14
  outweighs
• 35:14
  the
• 35:14
  desire
• 35:15
  for
• 35:15
  any
• 35:16
  sort
• 35:16
  of
• 35:16
  drink
• 35:16
  for
• 35:17
  me.
• 35:17
  So,
• 35:17
  yes,
• 35:17
  I
• 35:18
  am
• 35:18
  just
• 35:18
  going
• 35:18
  to
• 35:18
  second
• 35:19
  that.
• 35:19
  You
• 35:20
  know,
• 35:20
  having
• 35:20
  the
• 35:20
  distance
• 35:21
  from
• 35:21
  that
• 35:21
  and
• 35:21
  being
• 35:22
  able
• 35:22
  to,
• 35:22
  like,
• 35:23
  to
• 35:23
  not
• 35:23
  have
• 35:23
  that
• 35:24
  cloud,
• 35:25
  really,
• 35:25
  more.
• 35:26
  More
• 35:26
  healing
• 35:26
  space
• 35:27
  in
• 35:27
  the
• 35:27
  body.
• 35:28
  Was
• 35:28
  this
• 35:29
  judgment
• 35:29
  if
• 35:29
  people
• 35:29
  drink
• 35:30
  or
• 35:30
  not?
• 35:30
  Either.
• 35:30
  It's
• 35:30
  just,
• 35:31
  for
• 35:31
  me,
• 35:32
  it's.
• 35:32
  It's
• 35:32
  been
• 35:33
  a
• 35:33
  gift.
• 35:33
  Yeah,
• 35:34
  absolutely.
• 35:35
  And
• 35:36
  when
• 35:36
  you
• 35:36
  were
• 35:36
  going
• 35:36
  into
• 35:37
  it,
• 35:37
  was
• 35:37
  it
• 35:37
  something
• 35:37
  where
• 35:38
  you
• 35:38
  were
• 35:38
  saying,
• 35:38
  okay,
• 35:39
  I'm
• 35:39
  never
• 35:39
  going
• 35:39
  to
• 35:39
  drink
• 35:39
  again,
• 35:39
  or
• 35:40
  were
• 35:40
  you
• 35:40
  taking
• 35:40
  it
• 35:40
  kind
• 35:41
  of,
• 35:41
  you
• 35:41
  know,
• 35:42
  day
• 35:42
  by
• 35:42
  day,
• 35:42
  week
• 35:43
  by
• 35:43
  week,
• 35:43
  kind
• 35:43
  of
• 35:44
  seeing
• 35:44
  how
• 35:44
  you
• 35:44
  feel
• 35:44
  about
• 35:45
  it,
• 35:45
  or,
• 35:45
  like,
• 35:46
  was
• 35:46
  it
• 35:46
  just
• 35:46
  an
• 35:46
  absolute
• 35:47
  decision
• 35:47
  for
• 35:47
  you?
• 35:49
  So,
• 35:49
  for
• 35:49
  me,
• 35:50
  I.
• 35:52
  I
• 35:52
  was
• 35:52
  sober
• 35:53
  for
• 35:53
  nine
• 35:53
  years,
• 35:55
  and
• 35:55
  then
• 35:55
  I
• 35:55
  decided
• 35:56
  to
• 35:56
  go
• 35:56
  back
• 35:56
  to
• 35:56
  drinking
• 35:57
  and
• 35:57
  for
• 35:57
  seven
• 35:58
  years
• 35:58
  when
• 35:59
  I
• 35:59
  was
• 35:59
  building
• 35:59
  the
• 35:59
  studios,
• 36:00
  I
• 36:00
  decided
• 36:00
  to
• 36:00
  go
• 36:00
  back
• 36:01
  and
• 36:02
  drinking
• 36:03
  for
• 36:03
  me
• 36:03
  is
• 36:03
  just
• 36:04
  as.
• 36:04
  I
• 36:04
  highly
• 36:05
  allergic.
• 36:05
  Like,
• 36:06
  I
• 36:06
  break
• 36:06
  out
• 36:06
  reds.
• 36:07
  Like
• 36:07
  my
• 36:07
  body
• 36:08
  is
• 36:08
  physically
• 36:08
  allergic.
• 36:09
  And
• 36:10
  it
• 36:10
  was
• 36:10
  the
• 36:10
  thing
• 36:11
  that
• 36:11
  I
• 36:11
  didn't
• 36:12
  want
• 36:13
  to
• 36:13
  not
• 36:13
  do.
• 36:14
  So
• 36:15
  everybody
• 36:16
  has
• 36:16
  this
• 36:17
  thing.
• 36:17
  I
• 36:17
  find
• 36:18
  that
• 36:18
  they're
• 36:18
  like,
• 36:19
  I'm
• 36:19
  just
• 36:19
  never.
• 36:20
  I
• 36:20
  just,
• 36:20
  I
• 36:20
  don't
• 36:20
  want
• 36:21
  to
• 36:21
  give
• 36:21
  that
• 36:21
  thing
• 36:21
  up
• 36:23
  because
• 36:23
  it's
• 36:23
  like
• 36:23
  this,
• 36:24
  like,
• 36:24
  safety
• 36:24
  net.
• 36:24
  And
• 36:25
  so
• 36:26
  it
• 36:26
  wasn't
• 36:27
  like
• 36:27
  a
• 36:27
  I'm
• 36:27
  just
• 36:27
  not
• 36:28
  going
• 36:28
  to
• 36:28
  drink
• 36:28
  forever
• 36:29
  thing.
• 36:29
  It
• 36:29
  was,
• 36:29
  it
• 36:30
  was
• 36:30
  that
• 36:30
  I
• 36:30
  had
• 36:30
  come
• 36:31
  to
• 36:31
  completion
• 36:32
  with
• 36:32
  a
• 36:33
  substance,
• 36:34
  a
• 36:34
  thing,
• 36:35
  whether
• 36:35
  it's
• 36:36
  food
• 36:36
  or
• 36:36
  drinking
• 36:37
  or,
• 36:37
  or
• 36:38
  relationships,
• 36:39
  like
• 36:39
  whatever
• 36:39
  it
• 36:40
  is.
• 36:40
  Right.
• 36:40
  For
• 36:41
  me,
• 36:41
  it
• 36:41
  was
• 36:41
  like
• 36:41
  I
• 36:42
  had
• 36:42
  just
• 36:42
  come
• 36:42
  to
• 36:42
  completion
• 36:43
  with
• 36:44
  something
• 36:44
  that
• 36:45
  didn't
• 36:45
  work
• 36:45
  in
• 36:45
  my
• 36:46
  life,
• 36:47
  that
• 36:47
  I
• 36:47
  wanted
• 36:48
  to
• 36:48
  work
• 36:48
  but
• 36:48
  didn't
• 36:49
  work.
• 36:50
  And
• 36:50
  so
• 36:50
  I
• 36:51
  was
• 36:51
  just
• 36:51
  like,
• 36:51
  I'm
• 36:51
  just
• 36:52
  going
• 36:52
  to
• 36:52
  do
• 36:52
  this.
• 36:54
  I'm
• 36:54
  just
• 36:54
  going
• 36:54
  to
• 36:54
  try
• 36:54
  this
• 36:55
  out.
• 36:55
  It
• 36:55
  was
• 36:55
  like,
• 36:55
  it
• 36:55
  was
• 36:55
  like
• 36:56
  the
• 36:56
  30
• 36:56
  day
• 36:56
  thing.
• 36:56
  I'm
• 36:56
  going
• 36:56
  to
• 36:57
  try
• 36:57
  this
• 36:57
  out
• 36:57
  for
• 36:57
  30
• 36:58
  days.
• 36:58
  I'm
• 36:59
  going
• 36:59
  to
• 36:59
  tell
• 36:59
  you
• 36:59
  how
• 36:59
  I
• 36:59
  feel.
• 36:59
  And
• 36:59
  then
• 37:00
  30
• 37:00
  days
• 37:00
  happened
• 37:00
  and
• 37:01
  I'm
• 37:01
  like,
• 37:01
  I'm
• 37:01
  going
• 37:01
  to
• 37:01
  try
• 37:01
  it
• 37:01
  out
• 37:02
  for
• 37:02
  90
• 37:02
  days.
• 37:03
  And
• 37:03
  I
• 37:03
  tried
• 37:03
  it
• 37:03
  out
• 37:03
  for
• 37:04
  90
• 37:04
  days.
• 37:04
  And
• 37:04
  then
• 37:04
  I
• 37:05
  was
• 37:05
  like,
• 37:05
  okay,
• 37:05
  I'm
• 37:06
  going
• 37:06
  to
• 37:06
  give
• 37:06
  myself
• 37:06
  one
• 37:07
  year.
• 37:07
  And
• 37:08
  if
• 37:08
  I
• 37:08
  want
• 37:08
  to
• 37:08
  drink
• 37:09
  again
• 37:09
  in
• 37:09
  one
• 37:09
  year
• 37:10
  and
• 37:10
  my
• 37:11
  life
• 37:11
  doesn't
• 37:11
  look
• 37:11
  any
• 37:12
  different
• 37:12
  and
• 37:12
  I
• 37:13
  don't
• 37:13
  feel
• 37:13
  better,
• 37:14
  then
• 37:14
  I'm
• 37:14
  going
• 37:14
  to
• 37:14
  drink
• 37:14
  again.
• 37:15
  The
• 37:16
  commitment
• 37:16
  to
• 37:16
  myself
• 37:17
  is,
• 37:17
  is
• 37:18
  a.
• 37:18
  It's
• 37:18
  kind
• 37:18
  of
• 37:19
  intense.
• 37:19
  Like
• 37:19
  when
• 37:19
  I
• 37:19
  said
• 37:20
  I'm
• 37:20
  an
• 37:20
  intense
• 37:20
  person,
• 37:21
  like,
• 37:21
  I
• 37:21
  just,
• 37:22
  I
• 37:22
  just,
• 37:22
  I'm
• 37:23
  here
• 37:23
  for
• 37:23
  life.
• 37:25
  What
• 37:25
  I
• 37:25
  mean,
• 37:25
  like,
• 37:26
  I
• 37:26
  want
• 37:26
  to
• 37:26
  experience
• 37:27
  it
• 37:28
  and
• 37:28
  I
• 37:28
  just
• 37:29
  do
• 37:29
  the
• 37:29
  thing
• 37:30
  that
• 37:31
  I
• 37:31
  know
• 37:31
  I
• 37:31
  need
• 37:31
  to
• 37:32
  do
• 37:32
  always.
• 37:33
  Like,
• 37:33
  my.
• 37:33
  I
• 37:34
  just
• 37:34
  feel
• 37:34
  like
• 37:34
  I'm
• 37:34
  like
• 37:34
  being
• 37:35
  led
• 37:35
  by
• 37:35
  like
• 37:36
  this,
• 37:36
  like,
• 37:37
  like
• 37:37
  my
• 37:37
  heart
• 37:38
  leads
• 37:38
  me
• 37:38
  right
• 37:39
  where
• 37:39
  it
• 37:39
  needs
• 37:39
  to
• 37:39
  go.
• 37:40
  And
• 37:40
  sometimes
• 37:40
  it's
• 37:41
  really
• 37:41
  hard
• 37:41
  to
• 37:41
  make
• 37:42
  those
• 37:42
  decisions.
• 37:42
  Sibin.
• 37:43
  It
• 37:44
  is.
• 37:44
  Well.
• 37:45
  And
• 37:45
  a
• 37:45
  lot
• 37:45
  of
• 37:45
  women
• 37:45
  feel
• 37:46
  guilty
• 37:46
  too,
• 37:47
  right?
• 37:48
  Yeah.
• 37:49
  Yeah.
• 37:50
  You
• 37:51
  know,
• 37:51
  taking
• 37:52
  the
• 37:52
  time
• 37:52
  to
• 37:52
  really,
• 37:52
  like,
• 37:53
  look
• 37:53
  inwards,
• 37:54
  focus
• 37:54
  on
• 37:54
  themselves.
• 37:55
  You
• 37:55
  know,
• 37:55
  they
• 37:55
  feel
• 37:56
  like
• 37:56
  they
• 37:56
  should
• 37:56
  be
• 37:57
  taking
• 37:57
  care
• 37:57
  of
• 37:57
  every
• 37:58
  other
• 37:58
  person
• 37:58
  in
• 37:58
  their
• 37:59
  life.
• 37:59
  And
• 37:59
  it's
• 37:59
  like,
• 38:00
  no,
• 38:00
  this
• 38:01
  is
• 38:01
  like,
• 38:01
  especially
• 38:02
  midlife,
• 38:02
  this
• 38:02
  is
• 38:03
  your
• 38:03
  time.
• 38:03
  Like,
• 38:04
  do
• 38:04
  it,
• 38:04
  like
• 38:05
  really
• 38:05
  live
• 38:06
  for
• 38:06
  yourself,
• 38:07
  you
• 38:07
  know?
• 38:08
  Yeah.
• 38:08
  And
• 38:09
  find
• 38:09
  out
• 38:09
  what
• 38:09
  that
• 38:09
  thing
• 38:09
  is.
• 38:11
  Yeah.
• 38:12
  I
• 38:12
  posted
• 38:12
  this
• 38:13
  thing
• 38:13
  today
• 38:13
  on
• 38:14
  Instagram
• 38:15
  about
• 38:15
  being
• 38:16
  over
• 38:17
  the.
• 38:18
  The
• 38:18
  like
• 38:19
  exhausted.
• 38:19
  Like,
• 38:20
  I'm,
• 38:20
  I'm
• 38:20
  over
• 38:20
  being
• 38:21
  the
• 38:21
  exact.
• 38:21
  It's
• 38:21
  like
• 38:21
  I'm
• 38:21
  not
• 38:22
  being
• 38:22
  Exhausted.
• 38:22
  I'm
• 38:22
  not,
• 38:23
  I'm
• 38:23
  not
• 38:23
  in
• 38:23
  that
• 38:23
  era
• 38:23
  where
• 38:24
  I'm
• 38:24
  like,
• 38:24
  talking
• 38:24
  about
• 38:25
  being
• 38:25
  exhausted
• 38:25
  and
• 38:26
  how
• 38:26
  overwhelmed
• 38:26
  I
• 38:27
  am
• 38:27
  and,
• 38:27
  and
• 38:28
  my
• 38:28
  body
• 38:28
  changes
• 38:28
  and
• 38:29
  hormonally
• 38:29
  and
• 38:29
  like,
• 38:30
  all
• 38:30
  of
• 38:30
  it.
• 38:30
  I'm
• 38:30
  just,
• 38:31
  I'm.
• 38:31
  I'm
• 38:31
  here
• 38:32
  to
• 38:32
  like,
• 38:32
  live
• 38:32
  a
• 38:32
  good
• 38:33
  life,
• 38:34
  know
• 38:34
  that
• 38:34
  I
• 38:34
  have,
• 38:35
  that
• 38:35
  there's
• 38:35
  solutions
• 38:35
  out
• 38:36
  there
• 38:36
  for
• 38:36
  all
• 38:36
  of
• 38:36
  this.
• 38:37
  And
• 38:38
  it's
• 38:38
  really
• 38:38
  our
• 38:39
  job.
• 38:39
  And
• 38:40
  so
• 38:40
  this
• 38:40
  is
• 38:40
  where,
• 38:40
  like,
• 38:40
  the
• 38:41
  truth
• 38:41
  comes
• 38:41
  in.
• 38:41
  Like,
• 38:42
  everyone's
• 38:42
  like,
• 38:42
  well,
• 38:42
  how
• 38:43
  do
• 38:43
  I
• 38:43
  do
• 38:43
  it?
• 38:43
  I'm
• 38:44
  like,
• 38:44
  you
• 38:44
  just
• 38:45
  have
• 38:45
  to
• 38:45
  do
• 38:45
  it.
• 38:46
  Like
• 38:47
  the
• 38:47
  truth.
• 38:47
  You
• 38:47
  just
• 38:47
  have
• 38:47
  to
• 38:48
  be
• 38:48
  willing
• 38:48
  to
• 38:49
  do
• 38:49
  the
• 38:49
  thing
• 38:49
  in,
• 38:50
  or
• 38:50
  in
• 38:50
  order
• 38:50
  to,
• 38:51
  to,
• 38:51
  to
• 38:51
  be
• 38:52
  happy.
• 38:52
  So,
• 38:53
  like,
• 38:53
  if
• 38:53
  you,
• 38:54
  if
• 38:54
  you're
• 38:54
  not
• 38:54
  miserable.
• 38:55
  Yeah.
• 38:55
  If
• 38:56
  you're
• 38:56
  not
• 38:56
  miserable
• 38:56
  enough,
• 38:57
  then
• 38:57
  you're
• 38:57
  going
• 38:57
  to
• 38:57
  stay
• 38:57
  doing
• 38:58
  the
• 38:58
  same
• 38:58
  thing.
• 38:59
  And
• 38:59
  sometimes
• 39:00
  the
• 39:01
  divorce
• 39:01
  has
• 39:01
  to
• 39:01
  happen.
• 39:02
  Sometimes,
• 39:03
  like,
• 39:04
  something
• 39:04
  catastrophic
• 39:05
  has
• 39:05
  to
• 39:05
  happen,
• 39:06
  like
• 39:06
  Covid
• 39:07
  or
• 39:08
  my
• 39:08
  business,
• 39:09
  like,
• 39:09
  complete.
• 39:09
  I
• 39:09
  had
• 39:10
  five
• 39:10
  studios.
• 39:10
  I
• 39:10
  like,
• 39:11
  literally,
• 39:11
  like,
• 39:12
  had
• 39:12
  to
• 39:12
  close
• 39:12
  four
• 39:13
  of
• 39:13
  them.
• 39:13
  I
• 39:13
  mean,
• 39:13
  just
• 39:14
  whatever
• 39:14
  needs
• 39:14
  to
• 39:15
  happen
• 39:15
  is
• 39:15
  going
• 39:15
  to
• 39:15
  happen
• 39:16
  in
• 39:16
  order
• 39:16
  to
• 39:17
  wake
• 39:17
  you
• 39:17
  up.
• 39:19
  Like
• 39:19
  Joe
• 39:19
  Dispenza
• 39:20
  says,
• 39:20
  which
• 39:21
  I
• 39:21
  love
• 39:21
  what
• 39:22
  he
• 39:22
  says.
• 39:22
  It's
• 39:23
  just
• 39:23
  like,
• 39:24
  it
• 39:24
  doesn't
• 39:24
  need
• 39:25
  to
• 39:25
  be
• 39:25
  that
• 39:25
  way.
• 39:27
  You
• 39:27
  could
• 39:27
  just,
• 39:27
  you
• 39:28
  could
• 39:28
  just
• 39:28
  change
• 39:28
  it
• 39:28
  before
• 39:29
  it
• 39:29
  all
• 39:29
  falls
• 39:30
  apart,
• 39:30
  you
• 39:31
  know?
• 39:31
  And
• 39:31
  I,
• 39:32
  I
• 39:32
  think
• 39:32
  that
• 39:33
  morning
• 39:33
  when
• 39:33
  I
• 39:33
  woke
• 39:33
  up
• 39:34
  between
• 39:34
  my
• 39:34
  kids,
• 39:34
  I
• 39:35
  was
• 39:35
  just
• 39:35
  like,
• 39:35
  I
• 39:35
  want
• 39:35
  to
• 39:36
  save
• 39:36
  this
• 39:36
  life.
• 39:37
  Like,
• 39:38
  I
• 39:39
  knew
• 39:39
  that
• 39:39
  the
• 39:39
  life
• 39:39
  that
• 39:40
  I
• 39:40
  had
• 39:40
  was
• 39:41
  a
• 39:41
  really,
• 39:41
  really
• 39:41
  good
• 39:42
  one.
• 39:42
  And
• 39:42
  I
• 39:42
  knew
• 39:43
  I
• 39:43
  had
• 39:43
  a
• 39:43
  really
• 39:43
  good
• 39:43
  guy
• 39:44
  who
• 39:45
  loved
• 39:45
  me.
• 39:45
  And
• 39:46
  I
• 39:46
  also
• 39:46
  knew
• 39:47
  that
• 39:47
  I
• 39:47
  wanted
• 39:47
  to
• 39:47
  be
• 39:47
  a
• 39:47
  better
• 39:48
  mother.
• 39:49
  And
• 39:49
  I
• 39:50
  was
• 39:50
  just
• 39:50
  like,
• 39:51
  I,
• 39:51
  I
• 39:52
  can,
• 39:52
  I
• 39:52
  can
• 39:52
  do
• 39:53
  this.
• 39:54
  Like,
• 39:54
  I
• 39:54
  can
• 39:54
  get
• 39:55
  better.
• 39:55
  And
• 39:56
  what
• 39:56
  was
• 39:56
  the
• 39:56
  kids
• 39:57
  reaction?
• 39:57
  Like,
• 39:57
  how
• 39:58
  did
• 39:58
  they,
• 39:58
  you
• 39:58
  know,
• 39:59
  perceive
• 39:59
  this
• 39:59
  change
• 40:00
  and,
• 40:01
  you
• 40:01
  know,
• 40:01
  how
• 40:01
  did
• 40:01
  it
• 40:02
  affect
• 40:02
  them
• 40:02
  and,
• 40:03
  and
• 40:03
  how
• 40:03
  do
• 40:03
  you
• 40:03
  teach
• 40:04
  them
• 40:04
  too,
• 40:04
  about
• 40:05
  this?
• 40:06
  You
• 40:07
  know,
• 40:07
  I
• 40:07
  went
• 40:07
  to
• 40:09
  one
• 40:09
  of
• 40:09
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• 40:09
  Judas
• 40:10
  Benza
• 40:10
  retreats.
• 40:10
  I
• 40:10
  went
• 40:10
  on
• 40:11
  was
• 40:11
  with
• 40:11
  70
• 40:11
  people.
• 40:12
  And
• 40:13
  it
• 40:13
  was
• 40:13
  amazing
• 40:13
  because
• 40:14
  we
• 40:14
  all
• 40:14
  got
• 40:14
  to
• 40:14
  ask
• 40:14
  questions.
• 40:15
  And
• 40:15
  so
• 40:15
  one
• 40:16
  of
• 40:16
  my
• 40:16
  questions
• 40:16
  was,
• 40:16
  you
• 40:17
  know,
• 40:17
  when
• 40:17
  you
• 40:18
  decide
• 40:18
  to
• 40:18
  make
• 40:18
  a
• 40:19
  change
• 40:19
  in
• 40:19
  your
• 40:19
  life,
• 40:19
  what.
• 40:20
  How
• 40:20
  did
• 40:20
  your
• 40:20
  kids
• 40:20
  perceive
• 40:21
  you?
• 40:22
  And
• 40:22
  he
• 40:22
  said,
• 40:23
  you
• 40:23
  know
• 40:23
  what
• 40:23
  I
• 40:23
  say
• 40:23
  to
• 40:23
  my
• 40:24
  kids
• 40:24
  when
• 40:24
  I'm
• 40:24
  about
• 40:24
  to
• 40:25
  make
• 40:25
  a
• 40:25
  change?
• 40:25
  And
• 40:25
  I
• 40:26
  said,
• 40:26
  daddy's
• 40:26
  gonna
• 40:26
  change.
• 40:27
  Daddy's
• 40:28
  making
• 40:28
  a
• 40:28
  change.
• 40:28
  Watch
• 40:29
  me.
• 40:30
  That's
• 40:31
  what
• 40:31
  I
• 40:31
  told
• 40:31
  my
• 40:31
  kids
• 40:33
  throughout
• 40:33
  this
• 40:34
  process.
• 40:34
  Like,
• 40:34
  mommy's
• 40:35
  changing.
• 40:35
  Mommy's
• 40:36
  going
• 40:36
  through
• 40:36
  something.
• 40:37
  Mommy's
• 40:37
  making
• 40:37
  a
• 40:38
  big
• 40:38
  move.
• 40:39
  Watch
• 40:39
  me
• 40:39
  change.
• 40:41
  And
• 40:41
  then
• 40:41
  just
• 40:42
  leave
• 40:42
  it
• 40:42
  at
• 40:42
  that.
• 40:43
  Because
• 40:43
  my
• 40:44
  internal
• 40:45
  energy
• 40:45
  change,
• 40:45
  my
• 40:46
  frequency
• 40:46
  shift,
• 40:47
  my
• 40:47
  Vibrational
• 40:48
  shift
• 40:49
  affects
• 40:50
  everybody
• 40:50
  and
• 40:51
  they
• 40:51
  feel
• 40:51
  it.
• 40:52
  And
• 40:52
  so
• 40:52
  when
• 40:53
  I'm
• 40:53
  good,
• 40:53
  they're
• 40:54
  good.
• 40:54
  When
• 40:54
  I'm
• 40:55
  good,
• 40:55
  he's
• 40:55
  good.
• 40:56
  Women
• 40:56
  are
• 40:57
  so
• 40:57
  powerful,
• 40:58
  and
• 40:58
  people
• 40:59
  will.
• 40:59
  People
• 41:00
  can
• 41:00
  at
• 41:00
  me
• 41:00
  as
• 41:00
  much
• 41:01
  as
• 41:01
  they
• 41:01
  want,
• 41:01
  but
• 41:01
  we
• 41:02
  hold
• 41:02
  the
• 41:03
  infrastructure
• 41:03
  of
• 41:04
  our
• 41:04
  home.
• 41:05
  And
• 41:05
  as
• 41:05
  much
• 41:05
  as
• 41:06
  you
• 41:06
  don't
• 41:06
  want
• 41:06
  that
• 41:06
  power,
• 41:07
  like,
• 41:07
  I.
• 41:08
  It's
• 41:08
  just
• 41:08
  like,
• 41:08
  it's
• 41:08
  very
• 41:09
  apparent
• 41:09
  to
• 41:09
  me,
• 41:10
  like,
• 41:10
  I
• 41:10
  dictate
• 41:11
  the
• 41:11
  energy
• 41:12
  of
• 41:12
  the
• 41:12
  home.
• 41:12
  And
• 41:13
  so
• 41:13
  it's
• 41:13
  my
• 41:13
  job
• 41:14
  as
• 41:14
  a
• 41:14
  woman
• 41:14
  to
• 41:15
  like,
• 41:15
  to
• 41:15
  own
• 41:16
  that.
• 41:16
  And
• 41:16
  it's
• 41:16
  very
• 41:16
  powerful
• 41:17
  to
• 41:17
  own
• 41:17
  it,
• 41:18
  to
• 41:18
  get
• 41:19
  right
• 41:19
  before.
• 41:20
  Before
• 41:20
  I
• 41:20
  need
• 41:20
  to.
• 41:21
  And
• 41:21
  even
• 41:21
  if
• 41:21
  I'm
• 41:21
  not
• 41:22
  right,
• 41:22
  I
• 41:22
  can
• 41:23
  then
• 41:23
  at
• 41:23
  least
• 41:23
  take
• 41:23
  responsibility
• 41:24
  for
• 41:24
  it
• 41:24
  and
• 41:25
  teach
• 41:25
  them
• 41:25
  that,
• 41:25
  like,
• 41:26
  mommies
• 41:26
  have
• 41:26
  bad
• 41:27
  days
• 41:27
  and
• 41:28
  mommies
• 41:28
  and
• 41:28
  daddies,
• 41:29
  sometimes
• 41:29
  they
• 41:29
  don't
• 41:29
  get
• 41:29
  along,
• 41:31
  but
• 41:31
  we
• 41:31
  can
• 41:31
  apologize
• 41:32
  and
• 41:32
  come
• 41:32
  back
• 41:33
  together.
• 41:33
  Oh,
• 41:34
  absolutely.
• 41:34
  A
• 41:35
  perfectionism
• 41:36
  is.
• 41:36
  Is
• 41:37
  such
• 41:37
  a
• 41:37
  great
• 41:37
  conversation
• 41:38
  with
• 41:38
  kids,
• 41:38
  too.
• 41:39
  Yeah.
• 41:39
  How
• 41:39
  do
• 41:39
  we.
• 41:40
  So
• 41:40
  how
• 41:40
  do
• 41:40
  we
• 41:41
  set
• 41:41
  them
• 41:41
  up
• 41:41
  for
• 41:41
  success?
• 41:42
  Like,
• 41:42
  what
• 41:43
  are
• 41:43
  some
• 41:43
  great
• 41:43
  tips
• 41:44
  for
• 41:44
  them?
• 41:45
  Just
• 41:45
  showing
• 41:45
  them
• 41:46
  that,
• 41:46
  like,
• 41:46
  being
• 41:46
  a
• 41:47
  human
• 41:47
  being,
• 41:47
  that
• 41:48
  I'm
• 41:48
  a
• 41:48
  human
• 41:48
  being.
• 41:49
  Like,
• 41:49
  the
• 41:49
  other
• 41:50
  day,
• 41:50
  we're
• 41:50
  on
• 41:50
  our
• 41:50
  way
• 41:50
  to
• 41:50
  school
• 41:51
  and
• 41:51
  they're
• 41:51
  fighting
• 41:52
  the
• 41:52
  back.
• 41:52
  And
• 41:53
  I
• 41:53
  was
• 41:53
  going
• 41:53
  through
• 41:53
  this
• 41:54
  month,
• 41:54
  right?
• 41:54
  And
• 41:54
  I
• 41:55
  just
• 41:55
  said.
• 41:55
  I
• 41:55
  looked
• 41:56
  back
• 41:56
  and
• 41:56
  I
• 41:56
  said,
• 41:56
  guys,
• 41:57
  mommy
• 41:58
  is
• 41:58
  going
• 41:58
  through
• 41:58
  something
• 41:59
  really
• 41:59
  hard
• 41:59
  right
• 41:59
  now,
• 42:00
  and
• 42:01
  I
• 42:01
  would
• 42:01
  really
• 42:01
  appreciate
• 42:02
  it
• 42:02
  if
• 42:02
  you
• 42:02
  guys
• 42:03
  could
• 42:03
  just
• 42:03
  not
• 42:03
  bicker
• 42:04
  and
• 42:05
  help
• 42:05
  support
• 42:05
  me,
• 42:06
  because
• 42:06
  sometimes
• 42:07
  it's
• 42:07
  helpful
• 42:08
  for
• 42:08
  us
• 42:08
  to
• 42:08
  all
• 42:08
  to
• 42:09
  support
• 42:09
  each
• 42:09
  other.
• 42:10
  And
• 42:10
  they
• 42:10
  were
• 42:10
  like.
• 42:11
  I
• 42:11
  said,
• 42:11
  do
• 42:11
  you
• 42:11
  think
• 42:11
  you
• 42:12
  could
• 42:12
  help
• 42:12
  me
• 42:12
  with
• 42:12
  that?
• 42:13
  And
• 42:13
  they
• 42:13
  were
• 42:13
  like,
• 42:14
  yeah,
• 42:15
  because
• 42:15
  I
• 42:15
  want
• 42:16
  them
• 42:16
  to
• 42:16
  know
• 42:17
  that
• 42:18
  we
• 42:18
  all
• 42:18
  go
• 42:18
  through
• 42:18
  hard
• 42:19
  things
• 42:20
  and
• 42:20
  that
• 42:20
  it's
• 42:21
  not
• 42:21
  all
• 42:21
  supposed
• 42:21
  to
• 42:22
  be
• 42:22
  perfect
• 42:22
  and
• 42:22
  you're
• 42:23
  not
• 42:23
  going
• 42:23
  to
• 42:23
  have
• 42:23
  a
• 42:23
  regulated
• 42:24
  nervous
• 42:24
  system
• 42:24
  all
• 42:24
  the
• 42:25
  time
• 42:25
  and
• 42:26
  that
• 42:26
  people
• 42:27
  to
• 42:27
  help
• 42:27
  us
• 42:28
  and
• 42:28
  that
• 42:28
  we
• 42:28
  can
• 42:28
  ask
• 42:29
  for
• 42:29
  what
• 42:29
  we
• 42:29
  want.
• 42:30
  They
• 42:30
  were
• 42:30
  like,
• 42:31
  are
• 42:31
  you
• 42:31
  okay?
• 42:31
  I'm
• 42:32
  like,
• 42:32
  mommy
• 42:32
  is
• 42:32
  totally
• 42:33
  okay,
• 42:33
  and
• 42:33
  if
• 42:33
  she
• 42:33
  wasn't
• 42:34
  okay,
• 42:34
  I
• 42:34
  would
• 42:34
  let
• 42:34
  you
• 42:35
  know,
• 42:35
  but
• 42:36
  I
• 42:36
  just
• 42:36
  need
• 42:36
  your
• 42:36
  help
• 42:36
  right
• 42:37
  now.
• 42:38
  And
• 42:38
  like,
• 42:38
  these
• 42:38
  are
• 42:38
  the
• 42:39
  things.
• 42:39
  These
• 42:39
  are
• 42:39
  the
• 42:39
  ways,
• 42:40
  you
• 42:40
  know?
• 42:40
  And
• 42:40
  then.
• 42:41
  Yeah.
• 42:42
  And
• 42:42
  there's
• 42:42
  so
• 42:42
  much.
• 42:42
  And
• 42:43
  I.
• 42:43
  So
• 42:43
  much
• 42:43
  I
• 42:43
  can
• 42:43
  go
• 42:44
  into
• 42:44
  parenting
• 42:44
  and
• 42:44
  how.
• 42:45
  How
• 42:45
  poorly
• 42:46
  I
• 42:46
  do
• 42:46
  it
• 42:46
  and
• 42:46
  how
• 42:47
  great
• 42:47
  I
• 42:47
  am
• 42:47
  at,
• 42:48
  like,
• 42:48
  learning
• 42:48
  how
• 42:48
  to
• 42:48
  be
• 42:49
  a
• 42:49
  better
• 42:49
  mother.
• 42:49
  But
• 42:50
  I.
• 42:51
  My
• 42:51
  relationship
• 42:51
  with
• 42:52
  my
• 42:52
  kids
• 42:52
  are
• 42:52
  really
• 42:52
  good
• 42:53
  today.
• 42:54
  To
• 42:54
  show
• 42:54
  them
• 42:54
  who
• 42:54
  you
• 42:55
  are,
• 42:55
  truly.
• 42:56
  I
• 42:56
  mean,
• 42:56
  like,
• 42:57
  good,
• 42:57
  bad,
• 42:57
  and
• 42:57
  the
• 42:57
  ugly,
• 42:58
  you
• 42:58
  know,
• 42:58
  it's.
• 42:58
  It's.
• 42:59
  I
• 42:59
  think
• 42:59
  it's
• 42:59
  really
• 43:00
  important
• 43:00
  to
• 43:00
  kind
• 43:01
  of,
• 43:01
  you
• 43:01
  know,
• 43:01
  set
• 43:01
  them
• 43:01
  on
• 43:02
  that
• 43:02
  path
• 43:02
  so
• 43:02
  they
• 43:02
  Know,
• 43:03
  because
• 43:03
  I
• 43:04
  think
• 43:04
  for
• 43:04
  me
• 43:04
  too,
• 43:04
  that's
• 43:05
  one
• 43:05
  of
• 43:05
  the
• 43:05
  hardest
• 43:05
  things
• 43:06
  with
• 43:06
  my
• 43:06
  daughter.
• 43:06
  She's
• 43:07
  11
• 43:08
  and
• 43:08
  you
• 43:08
  know,
• 43:08
  she's
• 43:09
  kind
• 43:09
  of
• 43:09
  getting
• 43:09
  into
• 43:09
  this
• 43:10
  phase
• 43:10
  where,
• 43:11
  you
• 43:11
  know,
• 43:11
  real
• 43:11
  life
• 43:12
  is
• 43:12
  happening.
• 43:12
  It's
• 43:12
  middle
• 43:13
  school
• 43:13
  now.
• 43:13
  It's
• 43:14
  not
• 43:14
  like,
• 43:14
  you
• 43:14
  know,
• 43:15
  elementary
• 43:15
  when
• 43:16
  they're
• 43:16
  really
• 43:16
  young
• 43:17
  and
• 43:17
  like,
• 43:17
  you
• 43:17
  know,
• 43:18
  things
• 43:18
  are
• 43:18
  a
• 43:18
  little
• 43:18
  bit
• 43:18
  more
• 43:19
  delicate
• 43:19
  like
• 43:20
  now.
• 43:20
  It's,
• 43:20
  they're
• 43:21
  being
• 43:21
  exposed
• 43:21
  to
• 43:21
  the
• 43:22
  real
• 43:22
  world
• 43:22
  now
• 43:23
  in
• 43:23
  so
• 43:23
  many
• 43:23
  different
• 43:24
  ways
• 43:24
  and
• 43:25
  things
• 43:25
  don't
• 43:26
  always
• 43:26
  happen
• 43:26
  the
• 43:27
  way
• 43:27
  that
• 43:27
  they
• 43:27
  want
• 43:27
  them
• 43:28
  to.
• 43:28
  So
• 43:28
  I
• 43:29
  think
• 43:29
  it
• 43:29
  is,
• 43:29
  there
• 43:30
  is
• 43:30
  really
• 43:30
  a
• 43:30
  lot
• 43:31
  of
• 43:31
  value
• 43:32
  in
• 43:32
  showing
• 43:32
  them
• 43:33
  all
• 43:33
  sides
• 43:34
  of
• 43:34
  you,
• 43:34
  you
• 43:34
  know,
• 43:35
  as
• 43:35
  a
• 43:35
  parent.
• 43:36
  Right?
• 43:37
  Yeah.
• 43:38
  Yes.
• 43:38
  Right.
• 43:39
  I
• 43:39
  mean,
• 43:39
  I
• 43:39
  like,
• 43:39
  I,
• 43:40
  I,
• 43:40
  I.
• 43:41
  Do
• 43:41
  Mel
• 43:42
  Robbins
• 43:42
  book.
• 43:43
  Let,
• 43:43
  Let
• 43:43
  them.
• 43:44
  Yes.
• 43:45
  What
• 43:45
  do
• 43:45
  you
• 43:45
  think
• 43:46
  about
• 43:46
  that
• 43:46
  book?
• 43:46
  Do
• 43:46
  you
• 43:46
  like
• 43:47
  it?
• 43:47
  Well,
• 43:48
  I
• 43:48
  just,
• 43:48
  I,
• 43:49
  I,
• 43:49
  I,
• 43:50
  I,
• 43:50
  I
• 43:50
  like
• 43:50
  it.
• 43:50
  I
• 43:51
  like
• 43:51
  pieces
• 43:51
  of
• 43:51
  it.
• 43:51
  I
• 43:52
  think
• 43:52
  it's,
• 43:52
  I
• 43:52
  think
• 43:52
  it's
• 43:52
  an
• 43:52
  interesting
• 43:53
  book
• 43:53
  and
• 43:53
  I
• 43:53
  like
• 43:53
  her.
• 43:55
  The
• 43:55
  principles
• 43:55
  are
• 43:55
  really
• 43:56
  from
• 43:56
  Al
• 43:56
  Anon.
• 43:57
  Oh,
• 43:58
  interesting.
• 43:59
  The
• 44:00
  Al
• 44:00
  Anon
• 44:00
  principles
• 44:01
  are
• 44:01
  literally
• 44:01
  a
• 44:02
  way
• 44:02
  to
• 44:03
  not
• 44:03
  meddle
• 44:04
  and
• 44:04
  literally
• 44:05
  give
• 44:05
  our
• 44:05
  kids
• 44:05
  their
• 44:06
  own
• 44:06
  experience.
• 44:07
  It's
• 44:07
  a
• 44:07
  way
• 44:07
  to
• 44:08
  give
• 44:08
  human
• 44:08
  beings.
• 44:09
  It's
• 44:09
  a
• 44:09
  way
• 44:09
  to
• 44:09
  say,
• 44:09
  you
• 44:09
  know
• 44:10
  what,
• 44:10
  it's
• 44:10
  not
• 44:10
  mine.
• 44:12
  Fix
• 44:12
  yourself.
• 44:13
  And
• 44:14
  it
• 44:14
  has
• 44:14
  nothing
• 44:14
  to
• 44:15
  do
• 44:15
  with
• 44:15
  anybody
• 44:15
  else.
• 44:16
  And
• 44:16
  so
• 44:16
  it's
• 44:17
  a
• 44:17
  beautiful
• 44:17
  that,
• 44:17
  that
• 44:18
  those
• 44:19
  principles
• 44:19
  are
• 44:20
  truly
• 44:21
  a
• 44:21
  remarkable
• 44:21
  way
• 44:22
  to
• 44:22
  parent.
• 44:23
  It's
• 44:23
  really
• 44:23
  like,
• 44:24
  it's,
• 44:24
  it's
• 44:24
  really
• 44:24
  hard
• 44:25
  to
• 44:25
  be
• 44:25
  a
• 44:25
  mother.
• 44:26
  It's
• 44:27
  hard
• 44:27
  to
• 44:27
  be
• 44:27
  a
• 44:27
  mother.
• 44:27
  You
• 44:28
  want
• 44:28
  to
• 44:28
  fix
• 44:28
  it
• 44:28
  for
• 44:29
  them,
• 44:30
  want
• 44:30
  to
• 44:30
  make
• 44:30
  it
• 44:31
  safe
• 44:31
  for
• 44:31
  them.
• 44:31
  And,
• 44:32
  and
• 44:32
  that's
• 44:33
  not
• 44:33
  our
• 44:33
  job.
• 44:34
  That's,
• 44:35
  that's
• 44:35
  the
• 44:35
  hardest
• 44:35
  lesson
• 44:36
  to
• 44:36
  learn.
• 44:37
  I
• 44:37
  feel
• 44:37
  like
• 44:37
  as
• 44:37
  a
• 44:37
  parent,
• 44:38
  really,.
• 44:38
  There's
• 44:38
  so
• 44:39
  much
• 44:39
  grief
• 44:39
  in
• 44:39
  that
• 44:41
  much
• 44:41
  grief
• 44:41
  and
• 44:42
  going
• 44:42
  like,
• 44:42
  okay,
• 44:43
  you
• 44:43
  just
• 44:43
  have
• 44:43
  your
• 44:43
  own
• 44:44
  experience.
• 44:45
  As
• 44:46
  hard
• 44:46
  as
• 44:46
  it
• 44:46
  is,
• 44:47
  when
• 44:47
  they're
• 44:47
  going
• 44:48
  through
• 44:48
  something
• 44:48
  hard,
• 44:49
  you
• 44:49
  just
• 44:49
  want.
• 44:50
  To
• 44:50
  save
• 44:50
  them
• 44:50
  from
• 44:50
  the
• 44:50
  pain
• 44:51
  you
• 44:51
  do.
• 44:52
  Right.
• 44:53
  But
• 44:53
  like
• 44:53
  all
• 44:53
  the
• 44:54
  pain,
• 44:54
  same
• 44:54
  to
• 44:55
  me.
• 44:57
  That's
• 44:57
  right.
• 44:58
  I'm
• 44:59
  like,
• 45:00
  if
• 45:00
  I
• 45:00
  got
• 45:00
  to
• 45:01
  here
• 45:01
  and
• 45:01
  I
• 45:01
  am
• 45:01
  who
• 45:02
  I
• 45:02
  am
• 45:02
  today
• 45:02
  because
• 45:02
  of
• 45:03
  all
• 45:03
  the
• 45:03
  hard
• 45:03
  things
• 45:04
  that
• 45:04
  I've
• 45:04
  been
• 45:04
  through
• 45:04
  and
• 45:04
  all
• 45:05
  the
• 45:05
  good
• 45:05
  things
• 45:05
  I've
• 45:05
  been
• 45:06
  through,
• 45:06
  like
• 45:07
  they
• 45:07
  deserve
• 45:08
  that
• 45:08
  experience.
• 45:10
  Is
• 45:10
  there
• 45:10
  anything
• 45:10
  you
• 45:11
  regret?
• 45:13
  Is
• 45:13
  there
• 45:13
  anything
• 45:13
  I
• 45:13
  regret?
• 45:14
  I
• 45:14
  think
• 45:15
  I
• 45:15
  regret
• 45:15
  one
• 45:15
  thing.
• 45:16
  What's
• 45:16
  that?
• 45:18
  I
• 45:18
  regret
• 45:19
  quitting
• 45:20
  my.
• 45:21
  I,
• 45:21
  I
• 45:22
  quit
• 45:23
  playing
• 45:23
  water
• 45:23
  polo
• 45:24
  in
• 45:24
  college.
• 45:25
  Oh,
• 45:26
  really?
• 45:27
  I
• 45:28
  had
• 45:28
  a
• 45:28
  full
• 45:28
  ride
• 45:28
  scholarship
• 45:29
  to
• 45:29
  a
• 45:29
  Division
• 45:29
  1
• 45:30
  school
• 45:30
  and
• 45:31
  I
• 45:32
  just,
• 45:32
  I
• 45:32
  don't
• 45:32
  know.
• 45:33
  I
• 45:33
  mean,
• 45:33
  but
• 45:33
  then,
• 45:34
  no,
• 45:34
  I
• 45:34
  mean
• 45:34
  it
• 45:34
  was
• 45:34
  all
• 45:34
  part
• 45:35
  of
• 45:35
  the
• 45:35
  experience.
• 45:35
  But
• 45:35
  I
• 45:35
  think
• 45:36
  that's
• 45:36
  something
• 45:36
  I
• 45:36
  regret.
• 45:37
  I
• 45:37
  think
• 45:37
  I
• 45:37
  wish
• 45:37
  I
• 45:37
  would
• 45:37
  have
• 45:38
  stayed,
• 45:38
  stayed
• 45:38
  committed
• 45:39
  to
• 45:39
  that
• 45:39
  because
• 45:40
  it
• 45:40
  was
• 45:41
  an
• 45:41
  incredible
• 45:41
  sport
• 45:42
  and
• 45:42
  I,
• 45:42
  I
• 45:42
  would
• 45:42
  have
• 45:42
  loved
• 45:43
  to
• 45:43
  have
• 45:43
  seen
• 45:43
  where
• 45:43
  I
• 45:43
  would
• 45:44
  have
• 45:44
  gone
• 45:44
  because
• 45:44
  I
• 45:44
  quit
• 45:45
  my,
• 45:45
  my
• 45:45
  junior
• 45:46
  year.
• 45:46
  I
• 45:46
  would
• 45:46
  have
• 45:46
  loved
• 45:47
  to
• 45:47
  have
• 45:47
  played
• 45:47
  two
• 45:47
  more
• 45:47
  years.
• 45:48
  But
• 45:48
  there's
• 45:49
  not
• 45:49
  really
• 45:49
  anything
• 45:49
  I
• 45:49
  regret.
• 45:50
  There
• 45:51
  isn't.
• 45:51
  I
• 45:51
  mean,
• 45:52
  there's
• 45:52
  some
• 45:52
  things
• 45:53
  that
• 45:53
  I
• 45:53
  wish
• 45:53
  I
• 45:53
  hadn't
• 45:54
  done,
• 45:54
  but
• 45:55
  all
• 45:55
  of
• 45:55
  that
• 45:55
  has
• 45:56
  taught
• 45:56
  me,
• 45:58
  it
• 45:58
  taught
• 45:58
  me
• 45:58
  so
• 45:59
  much,
• 46:00
  you
• 46:00
  know,
• 46:00
  the
• 46:01
  imperfectionism
• 46:02
  of
• 46:02
  who
• 46:02
  I
• 46:02
  am
• 46:03
  and
• 46:04
  the
• 46:04
  real,
• 46:05
  like,
• 46:05
  forgiveness
• 46:07
  that
• 46:07
  I've
• 46:07
  like,
• 46:08
  learned
• 46:08
  to
• 46:08
  cultivate
• 46:09
  within
• 46:09
  myself
• 46:10
  for
• 46:10
  my,
• 46:10
  for
• 46:10
  my
• 46:11
  own
• 46:11
  self.
• 46:11
  Like,
• 46:12
  it's
• 46:12
  like
• 46:12
  I
• 46:12
  just
• 46:12
  had
• 46:12
  to
• 46:12
  learn
• 46:13
  to
• 46:13
  forgive
• 46:13
  myself
• 46:14
  on
• 46:14
  a
• 46:14
  really
• 46:14
  deep
• 46:14
  level
• 46:15
  because
• 46:16
  I'm
• 46:16
  just
• 46:16
  a
• 46:16
  human
• 46:17
  being
• 46:17
  on
• 46:17
  this
• 46:17
  experience
• 46:18
  like
• 46:18
  everybody
• 46:19
  else
• 46:19
  is.
• 46:20
  You
• 46:20
  know,
• 46:20
  living
• 46:20
  life
• 46:21
  and
• 46:21
  doing
• 46:21
  it
• 46:21
  really,
• 46:22
  really
• 46:22
  imperfectly
• 46:23
  is
• 46:24
  okay.
• 46:25
  Yeah,
• 46:25
  it's,
• 46:26
  it's
• 46:26
  totally
• 46:27
  okay.
• 46:27
  And
• 46:27
  I
• 46:27
  think
• 46:28
  that
• 46:28
  is
• 46:28
  the
• 46:28
  most
• 46:28
  important
• 46:28
  person
• 46:29
  you
• 46:29
  can
• 46:29
  forgive
• 46:30
  is
• 46:30
  yourself.
• 46:31
  You
• 46:31
  know,
• 46:31
  before
• 46:32
  you
• 46:32
  can
• 46:32
  forgive
• 46:33
  anyone
• 46:33
  else.
• 46:34
  Right.
• 46:35
  You've
• 46:35
  got
• 46:35
  to
• 46:36
  just
• 46:36
  be
• 46:36
  okay,
• 46:37
  like,
• 46:37
  and
• 46:37
  just
• 46:38
  love
• 46:39
  yourself,
• 46:39
  forgive
• 46:39
  yourself.
• 46:40
  Like,
• 46:41
  that's
• 46:41
  the
• 46:41
  way
• 46:41
  that
• 46:42
  you're
• 46:42
  going
• 46:42
  to
• 46:42
  be
• 46:42
  a
• 46:42
  fuller
• 46:43
  person,
• 46:43
  you
• 46:43
  know,
• 46:44
  Be
• 46:44
  able
• 46:44
  to
• 46:44
  experience
• 46:45
  that
• 46:45
  love
• 46:45
  and
• 46:46
  everything
• 46:46
  that,
• 46:47
  that
• 46:47
  everybody
• 46:48
  deserves,
• 46:49
  right?
• 46:50
  Yes.
• 46:50
  Yeah,
• 46:51
  I
• 46:51
  think
• 46:52
  so.
• 46:52
  So
• 46:52
  you
• 46:53
  mentioned
• 46:53
  that
• 46:53
  you
• 46:53
  also
• 46:53
  did
• 46:54
  an
• 46:54
  ayahuasca
• 46:54
  journey.
• 46:56
  How?
• 46:57
  I've
• 46:57
  done
• 46:57
  many
• 46:57
  plant
• 46:58
  journeys.
• 46:58
  Okay.
• 46:59
  So
• 47:00
  in
• 47:01
  my
• 47:01
  life
• 47:01
  I'm
• 47:01
  not
• 47:01
  doing
• 47:01
  it
• 47:02
  anymore,
• 47:02
  but
• 47:02
  I,
• 47:03
  I,
• 47:03
  I
• 47:04
  am
• 47:04
  a
• 47:04
  big
• 47:04
  advocate
• 47:05
  for
• 47:05
  self
• 47:05
  psychedelics.
• 47:06
  I
• 47:06
  think
• 47:07
  not
• 47:07
  everybody
• 47:08
  should
• 47:08
  do
• 47:08
  them,
• 47:09
  but
• 47:10
  if
• 47:11
  it's
• 47:11
  right
• 47:11
  for
• 47:12
  you
• 47:13
  and
• 47:13
  done
• 47:14
  in
• 47:14
  the
• 47:14
  right
• 47:14
  setting,
• 47:15
  be
• 47:16
  very
• 47:16
  healing.
• 47:17
  It
• 47:17
  was
• 47:17
  very
• 47:17
  healing
• 47:18
  for
• 47:18
  me.
• 47:20
  And
• 47:21
  yeah,
• 47:22
  it
• 47:22
  was,
• 47:22
  it
• 47:22
  was,
• 47:22
  it
• 47:23
  was
• 47:23
  very
• 47:23
  healing
• 47:23
  and
• 47:24
  very
• 47:24
  eye
• 47:24
  opening,
• 47:25
  so.
• 47:26
  Showed
• 47:26
  things
• 47:27
  that
• 47:27
  I
• 47:27
  like,
• 47:28
  I,
• 47:28
  I,
• 47:29
  I
• 47:29
  couldn't
• 47:30
  look
• 47:30
  at,
• 47:30
  but
• 47:31
  I
• 47:31
  was
• 47:32
  in
• 47:32
  the
• 47:32
  experience
• 47:34
  to
• 47:34
  looking
• 47:34
  at
• 47:34
  them.
• 47:34
  Have
• 47:35
  you
• 47:35
  done
• 47:35
  it?
• 47:35
  No,
• 47:36
  but
• 47:36
  I've
• 47:36
  always
• 47:36
  been
• 47:36
  curious
• 47:37
  about
• 47:37
  it.
• 47:38
  You
• 47:38
  know,
• 47:38
  I've
• 47:38
  always
• 47:38
  been
• 47:39
  like,
• 47:40
  it's
• 47:40
  always
• 47:40
  piqued
• 47:41
  my
• 47:41
  interest.
• 47:41
  I,
• 47:42
  I'm,
• 47:42
  I,
• 47:42
  I
• 47:42
  will
• 47:42
  be
• 47:43
  honest.
• 47:43
  Like,
• 47:43
  a
• 47:43
  little
• 47:44
  part
• 47:44
  of
• 47:44
  me
• 47:44
  I
• 47:45
  think
• 47:45
  is
• 47:45
  afraid
• 47:46
  for
• 47:46
  what
• 47:46
  it
• 47:46
  might
• 47:47
  bring
• 47:47
  up,
• 47:48
  you
• 47:48
  know,
• 47:49
  and.
• 47:50
  Right.
• 47:50
  So
• 47:50
  I
• 47:50
  think
• 47:51
  like,
• 47:51
  it's
• 47:51
  kind
• 47:51
  of
• 47:52
  like
• 47:52
  one
• 47:52
  of
• 47:52
  those
• 47:52
  things
• 47:52
  where
• 47:53
  I'm
• 47:53
  like,
• 47:53
  it's
• 47:54
  always
• 47:54
  like
• 47:55
  in
• 47:55
  the
• 47:55
  back
• 47:55
  of
• 47:55
  my
• 47:55
  mind,
• 47:56
  you
• 47:56
  know,
• 47:56
  I'm
• 47:56
  always
• 47:56
  thinking,
• 47:57
  oh,
• 47:57
  it
• 47:57
  could
• 47:57
  be
• 47:57
  really
• 47:57
  cool
• 47:58
  just
• 47:58
  to
• 47:58
  like
• 47:58
  have
• 47:59
  that
• 47:59
  release
• 48:00
  and
• 48:00
  really
• 48:01
  dig
• 48:01
  in
• 48:01
  deep
• 48:02
  and
• 48:02
  find
• 48:02
  out
• 48:02
  what,
• 48:03
  you
• 48:03
  know,
• 48:03
  what
• 48:04
  is
• 48:04
  back
• 48:04
  there.
• 48:04
  Because
• 48:05
  there
• 48:05
  are
• 48:05
  things
• 48:05
  that
• 48:06
  I've
• 48:06
  heard
• 48:06
  that
• 48:06
  come
• 48:07
  out
• 48:07
  that
• 48:07
  you
• 48:07
  didn't
• 48:08
  even
• 48:08
  realize
• 48:08
  were
• 48:08
  back
• 48:09
  there.
• 48:09
  Right.
• 48:09
  I
• 48:09
  mean,
• 48:09
  there's
• 48:10
  things
• 48:10
  that
• 48:10
  are
• 48:11
  suppressed,
• 48:12
  and
• 48:14
  I
• 48:14
  know
• 48:14
  I'm
• 48:15
  just
• 48:15
  like.
• 48:16
  It
• 48:16
  seems
• 48:16
  heavy,
• 48:17
  but
• 48:17
  maybe
• 48:17
  it's
• 48:17
  actually
• 48:18
  lightning.
• 48:19
  Once
• 48:19
  you
• 48:19
  do
• 48:19
  it.
• 48:20
  I
• 48:20
  mean,
• 48:20
  it
• 48:20
  will
• 48:20
  bring
• 48:21
  up
• 48:21
  to
• 48:21
  the
• 48:22
  surface
• 48:22
  for.
• 48:23
  I'll
• 48:23
  just
• 48:23
  speak
• 48:23
  to
• 48:23
  my
• 48:24
  own
• 48:24
  experience.
• 48:24
  It
• 48:25
  brought
• 48:25
  to
• 48:25
  the
• 48:25
  surface
• 48:26
  things
• 48:27
  that
• 48:27
  I
• 48:27
  really
• 48:27
  needed
• 48:28
  to
• 48:28
  see.
• 48:28
  And
• 48:29
  it
• 48:29
  was
• 48:29
  like
• 48:29
  a
• 48:29
  magnifying
• 48:30
  glass.
• 48:30
  It
• 48:31
  was
• 48:31
  like
• 48:31
  this
• 48:31
  magnifying
• 48:32
  glass
• 48:32
  to
• 48:33
  parts
• 48:34
  of
• 48:34
  my
• 48:34
  life
• 48:35
  and
• 48:35
  ways
• 48:35
  that
• 48:35
  I
• 48:35
  was
• 48:36
  living
• 48:36
  that
• 48:37
  were
• 48:37
  really
• 48:37
  in
• 48:39
  disservice
• 48:40
  to
• 48:40
  me
• 48:40
  and
• 48:40
  to
• 48:40
  others.
• 48:42
  And
• 48:43
  I.
• 48:43
  It's
• 48:44
  like.
• 48:44
  It's
• 48:44
  almost
• 48:44
  like
• 48:44
  I
• 48:44
  couldn't
• 48:45
  look
• 48:45
  at
• 48:45
  it,
• 48:45
  but
• 48:45
  I,
• 48:46
  like,
• 48:46
  had
• 48:46
  to,
• 48:46
  because
• 48:47
  it
• 48:47
  was
• 48:47
  there.
• 48:48
  And
• 48:49
  the
• 48:49
  more
• 48:49
  I
• 48:49
  looked
• 48:50
  at
• 48:50
  it,
• 48:50
  the
• 48:50
  more
• 48:50
  I
• 48:50
  understood
• 48:51
  it,
• 48:51
  the
• 48:51
  more
• 48:51
  I
• 48:51
  had
• 48:52
  to
• 48:52
  surrender
• 48:52
  it.
• 48:52
  Like,
• 48:53
  it
• 48:53
  was,
• 48:53
  like,
• 48:53
  this
• 48:53
  whole
• 48:53
  beautiful
• 48:54
  process.
• 48:55
  And
• 48:55
  that's
• 48:56
  how
• 48:56
  it's
• 48:56
  always
• 48:56
  been
• 48:56
  with
• 48:56
  the
• 48:57
  plant
• 48:57
  journeys
• 48:57
  that
• 48:57
  I've
• 48:58
  been.
• 48:58
  That
• 48:58
  I've
• 48:59
  been
• 48:59
  on.
• 48:59
  It's
• 48:59
  just
• 49:00
  a
• 49:00
  deeper
• 49:00
  surrender.
• 49:01
  And.
• 49:01
  And
• 49:02
  then
• 49:02
  there.
• 49:02
  There's
• 49:03
  been
• 49:03
  journeys
• 49:03
  where
• 49:03
  I
• 49:03
  have
• 49:04
  been
• 49:04
  gifted,
• 49:04
  like.
• 49:05
  Like
• 49:05
  this,
• 49:06
  like,
• 49:06
  incredible
• 49:06
  connection
• 49:07
  to,
• 49:07
  you
• 49:08
  know,
• 49:08
  consciousness
• 49:09
  and
• 49:10
  the
• 49:11
  idea
• 49:11
  that
• 49:11
  I
• 49:11
  have
• 49:12
  wisdom
• 49:12
  to
• 49:12
  share.
• 49:13
  And
• 49:14
  it's
• 49:14
  been
• 49:14
  a
• 49:14
  beautiful
• 49:15
  tool
• 49:15
  for
• 49:15
  me.
• 49:16
  And
• 49:16
  I
• 49:16
  know
• 49:16
  it's
• 49:17
  not
• 49:17
  for
• 49:17
  everybody,
• 49:17
  but
• 49:19
  I
• 49:19
  just
• 49:19
  think
• 49:19
  you
• 49:19
  need
• 49:20
  to
• 49:20
  be
• 49:20
  ready
• 49:21
  and
• 49:22
  not.
• 49:22
  I
• 49:22
  don't
• 49:22
  think
• 49:22
  it's
• 49:23
  for
• 49:23
  everybody.
• 49:24
  That's.
• 49:24
  That's
• 49:24
  my
• 49:25
  opinion.
• 49:25
  I
• 49:25
  don't
• 49:26
  think
• 49:26
  it's
• 49:26
  for
• 49:26
  everybody.
• 49:27
  But
• 49:27
  I
• 49:27
  do
• 49:27
  think
• 49:28
  that
• 49:28
  there
• 49:28
  are
• 49:28
  incredible
• 49:29
  healing
• 49:29
  properties
• 49:30
  to
• 49:30
  it.
• 49:30
  And
• 49:31
  if
• 49:31
  you
• 49:31
  are
• 49:31
  afraid,
• 49:32
  it's
• 49:32
  your
• 49:32
  soul's.
• 49:34
  It's
• 49:34
  your
• 49:34
  soul's
• 49:34
  acknowledgment
• 49:35
  of
• 49:36
  the
• 49:36
  medicine.
• 49:37
  So
• 49:37
  every
• 49:37
  time
• 49:38
  I
• 49:38
  say
• 49:38
  yes
• 49:39
  to
• 49:39
  a
• 49:39
  plant
• 49:39
  medicine
• 49:40
  journey,
• 49:40
  I'm
• 49:41
  always
• 49:41
  afraid,.
• 49:42
  Really,
• 49:43
  even
• 49:43
  after
• 49:44
  doing
• 49:44
  it,
• 49:45
  because
• 49:45
  your.
• 49:46
  Soul
• 49:46
  knows
• 49:46
  where
• 49:46
  it's
• 49:46
  going.
• 49:48
  There
• 49:49
  is,
• 49:49
  like,
• 49:49
  a
• 49:49
  surrender
• 49:50
  of
• 49:50
  control.
• 49:52
  Surrender
• 49:52
  control.
• 49:53
  And
• 49:53
  we're
• 49:53
  all.
• 49:54
  We
• 49:54
  all
• 49:54
  have
• 49:54
  this
• 49:55
  illusion
• 49:55
  that
• 49:55
  we're
• 49:55
  controlling
• 49:56
  everything,
• 49:57
  and
• 49:57
  we're
• 49:57
  really
• 49:58
  not.
• 49:58
  Because
• 49:58
  life
• 49:59
  can
• 49:59
  change
• 49:59
  like
• 49:59
  that.
• 49:59
  We
• 50:00
  all
• 50:00
  know
• 50:00
  that.
• 50:00
  We've
• 50:01
  heard
• 50:01
  the
• 50:01
  stories.
• 50:01
  We've
• 50:02
  probably
• 50:02
  experienced
• 50:03
  it
• 50:03
  in
• 50:03
  our
• 50:03
  life.
• 50:03
  Like,
• 50:04
  one
• 50:04
  day
• 50:04
  it's
• 50:04
  this
• 50:04
  way,
• 50:05
  and
• 50:05
  the
• 50:05
  next
• 50:05
  day
• 50:05
  it's
• 50:05
  that
• 50:06
  way,
• 50:06
  and
• 50:07
  great
• 50:08
  train
• 50:08
  hits
• 50:08
  you,
• 50:08
  and
• 50:08
  you're
• 50:08
  like,
• 50:09
  wow.
• 50:09
  Like,
• 50:09
  that.
• 50:09
  That
• 50:10
  came
• 50:10
  out
• 50:10
  of
• 50:10
  nowhere.
• 50:12
  The
• 50:13
  illusion
• 50:13
  of
• 50:13
  control
• 50:14
  is
• 50:14
  gone
• 50:15
  in
• 50:15
  the
• 50:16
  journey
• 50:16
  for
• 50:16
  me.
• 50:17
  And
• 50:17
  so
• 50:17
  it's
• 50:17
  been
• 50:17
  a
• 50:18
  beautiful
• 50:18
  healing
• 50:19
  tool
• 50:19
  for
• 50:20
  me.
• 50:20
  And
• 50:21
  there's
• 50:21
  integration.
• 50:23
  And
• 50:23
  so
• 50:24
  I
• 50:24
  think
• 50:24
  the
• 50:24
  world
• 50:25
  of
• 50:25
  plant
• 50:26
  medicine
• 50:27
  has
• 50:27
  also
• 50:27
  gotten
• 50:28
  a
• 50:28
  little
• 50:28
  crazy.
• 50:29
  So
• 50:29
  everybody's
• 50:30
  in
• 50:30
  it
• 50:30
  and
• 50:31
  doing
• 50:31
  it,
• 50:31
  and
• 50:32
  I
• 50:32
  think
• 50:32
  it's
• 50:32
  important
• 50:33
  to
• 50:33
  know
• 50:33
  who
• 50:33
  you're
• 50:34
  sitting
• 50:34
  with.
• 50:35
  I
• 50:35
  would
• 50:35
  go
• 50:36
  sit
• 50:36
  with
• 50:36
  somebody
• 50:36
  who.
• 50:37
  This
• 50:37
  is
• 50:37
  what
• 50:37
  they
• 50:38
  do.
• 50:38
  And
• 50:39
  it's
• 50:39
  part
• 50:39
  of
• 50:39
  their
• 50:39
  tribe,
• 50:40
  not
• 50:40
  somebody
• 50:41
  in
• 50:41
  Topanga.
• 50:42
  You
• 50:42
  know,
• 50:42
  Like,
• 50:43
  I
• 50:43
  think
• 50:43
  it's
• 50:43
  important
• 50:44
  that
• 50:44
  they
• 50:45
  have
• 50:45
  roots
• 50:45
  to
• 50:46
  like,
• 50:46
  you
• 50:46
  know,
• 50:47
  to.
• 50:48
  To.
• 50:48
  To
• 50:48
  the
• 50:49
  medicine.
• 50:49
  Okay.
• 50:50
  And
• 50:51
  typically
• 50:51
  it.
• 50:51
  It's
• 50:52
  usually
• 50:52
  somewhere
• 50:52
  like
• 50:53
  in
• 50:53
  a.
• 50:53
  For,
• 50:53
  like
• 50:53
  you
• 50:54
  would
• 50:54
  go.
• 50:55
  Right,
• 50:55
  right.
• 50:57
  Or.
• 50:57
  Yeah,
• 50:58
  somewhere
• 50:58
  like
• 50:58
  that.
• 50:59
  And
• 51:00
  that
• 51:00
  you
• 51:00
  have
• 51:01
  the
• 51:01
  tools
• 51:02
  to
• 51:02
  integrate
• 51:02
  when
• 51:02
  you
• 51:03
  get
• 51:03
  back.
• 51:03
  And
• 51:04
  so
• 51:04
  what
• 51:04
  happens
• 51:05
  in
• 51:05
  some
• 51:05
  of
• 51:05
  these
• 51:05
  journeys
• 51:06
  is
• 51:06
  you
• 51:06
  get
• 51:06
  blown
• 51:07
  open.
• 51:08
  You
• 51:09
  see
• 51:09
  something
• 51:09
  that
• 51:09
  you
• 51:10
  didn't
• 51:10
  know
• 51:10
  you
• 51:10
  were
• 51:10
  going
• 51:10
  to
• 51:11
  see,
• 51:11
  and
• 51:12
  then
• 51:12
  people
• 51:12
  come
• 51:12
  back
• 51:13
  and
• 51:13
  they
• 51:13
  don't
• 51:13
  know
• 51:13
  what
• 51:13
  to
• 51:13
  do
• 51:13
  with
• 51:14
  it,
• 51:14
  and
• 51:15
  it.
• 51:15
  Just
• 51:15
  kind
• 51:15
  of
• 51:16
  festers.
• 51:16
  It
• 51:17
  kind
• 51:17
  of
• 51:17
  sits
• 51:17
  there.
• 51:18
  Like,
• 51:18
  if
• 51:18
  you
• 51:18
  don't,
• 51:19
  people
• 51:19
  come
• 51:20
  back.
• 51:20
  And
• 51:20
  like,
• 51:20
  spiral,
• 51:21
  you
• 51:21
  know,
• 51:21
  and
• 51:22
  so
• 51:22
  the
• 51:22
  integration
• 51:23
  is
• 51:23
  really
• 51:23
  important.
• 51:24
  And
• 51:24
  I
• 51:25
  think
• 51:26
  sometimes
• 51:26
  people
• 51:26
  come
• 51:27
  back
• 51:27
  and
• 51:27
  they're
• 51:27
  so
• 51:28
  blown
• 51:28
  open
• 51:28
  that
• 51:28
  they
• 51:28
  think
• 51:29
  they
• 51:29
  just
• 51:29
  need
• 51:29
  to
• 51:29
  go
• 51:29
  back
• 51:29
  in.
• 51:31
  And
• 51:31
  so
• 51:31
  there's.
• 51:32
  I
• 51:32
  just.
• 51:32
  I
• 51:32
  mean,
• 51:32
  I
• 51:33
  have
• 51:33
  so
• 51:33
  many
• 51:33
  opinions
• 51:33
  about
• 51:34
  this,
• 51:34
  but
• 51:35
  I
• 51:35
  just
• 51:35
  think
• 51:35
  it's
• 51:36
  a.
• 51:36
  It's
• 51:36
  a
• 51:36
  delicate
• 51:36
  dance,
• 51:37
  and
• 51:38
  if
• 51:38
  you
• 51:38
  found
• 51:39
  your
• 51:39
  way
• 51:39
  there,
• 51:39
  just
• 51:39
  make
• 51:40
  sure
• 51:40
  you're
• 51:40
  with
• 51:40
  the
• 51:40
  right
• 51:40
  people.
• 51:41
  And
• 51:41
  I.
• 51:42
  I
• 51:42
  believe
• 51:42
  in
• 51:42
  the
• 51:42
  healing
• 51:43
  properties
• 51:43
  of
• 51:43
  psychedelics.
• 51:44
  I
• 51:44
  think
• 51:44
  it's
• 51:45
  a
• 51:45
  beautiful
• 51:45
  tool
• 51:46
  and
• 51:46
  it
• 51:46
  will
• 51:46
  be
• 51:46
  interesting
• 51:47
  to
• 51:47
  see
• 51:47
  what
• 51:47
  happens
• 51:48
  as
• 51:48
  it
• 51:48
  unfolds,
• 51:49
  because
• 51:49
  more
• 51:50
  and
• 51:50
  more
• 51:50
  is
• 51:50
  coming
• 51:50
  out
• 51:51
  on
• 51:51
  it
• 51:51
  and
• 51:51
  how
• 51:52
  much
• 51:52
  it
• 51:52
  can
• 51:52
  really
• 51:52
  help
• 51:53
  people.
• 51:53
  Yeah,
• 51:54
  for
• 51:54
  sure.
• 51:54
  I
• 51:54
  mean,
• 51:55
  I've
• 51:55
  heard
• 51:55
  so
• 51:55
  many.
• 51:56
  I
• 51:56
  mean,
• 51:56
  a
• 51:56
  lot
• 51:56
  of
• 51:57
  positive
• 51:57
  about
• 51:57
  it.
• 51:58
  Friends
• 51:58
  that
• 51:59
  have
• 51:59
  been
• 51:59
  on
• 51:59
  it
• 51:59
  and
• 51:59
  everything,
• 52:00
  you
• 52:00
  know,
• 52:00
  and
• 52:00
  had
• 52:00
  some
• 52:00
  great
• 52:01
  things.
• 52:01
  I
• 52:01
  also
• 52:01
  wonder
• 52:02
  too.
• 52:02
  I'm
• 52:02
  like,
• 52:02
  is
• 52:02
  it
• 52:02
  a
• 52:03
  good
• 52:03
  idea
• 52:03
  to
• 52:03
  go
• 52:03
  with
• 52:03
  your
• 52:03
  husband
• 52:04
  on
• 52:04
  one
• 52:04
  of
• 52:04
  those
• 52:05
  retreats?
• 52:07
  I
• 52:08
  haven't
• 52:08
  been
• 52:09
  with
• 52:09
  my.
• 52:09
  I've
• 52:10
  sat
• 52:10
  with
• 52:10
  him
• 52:10
  in
• 52:10
  some
• 52:10
  ceremony,
• 52:11
  but
• 52:11
  I
• 52:12
  usually
• 52:12
  go
• 52:12
  first.
• 52:13
  Okay.
• 52:13
  And
• 52:13
  then
• 52:14
  I'm
• 52:14
  like,
• 52:14
  you
• 52:14
  should
• 52:14
  go
• 52:15
  after.
• 52:16
  Yes,
• 52:16
  yes.
• 52:16
  I
• 52:17
  know.
• 52:17
  It
• 52:17
  could
• 52:17
  be
• 52:17
  very
• 52:18
  intense.
• 52:18
  Maybe
• 52:19
  with
• 52:19
  your
• 52:19
  partner
• 52:20
  there,
• 52:20
  you
• 52:20
  know.
• 52:21
  Yeah.
• 52:22
  I
• 52:22
  mean,
• 52:22
  probably
• 52:23
  great
• 52:23
  too,
• 52:23
  but,
• 52:24
  like,
• 52:24
  my
• 52:24
  first
• 52:24
  one,
• 52:24
  not
• 52:25
  with
• 52:25
  him.
• 52:25
  Okay.
• 52:26
  Okay.
• 52:26
  Yeah.
• 52:26
  You're
• 52:27
  like,
• 52:27
  I'm
• 52:27
  gonna
• 52:27
  try
• 52:27
  this
• 52:28
  one
• 52:28
  first.
• 52:30
  Oh,
• 52:31
  my
• 52:31
  gosh.
• 52:31
  That's
• 52:31
  so
• 52:31
  exciting.
• 52:31
  So
• 52:32
  what's
• 52:32
  next
• 52:32
  for
• 52:32
  plate
• 52:33
  fit?
• 52:33
  What
• 52:33
  do
• 52:33
  you
• 52:33
  have
• 52:34
  coming
• 52:34
  down
• 52:34
  the
• 52:34
  pipeline?
• 52:37
  So
• 52:37
  Playfit
• 52:37
  is.
• 52:39
  I
• 52:39
  was
• 52:39
  actually
• 52:39
  going
• 52:39
  to
• 52:40
  close
• 52:40
  it
• 52:40
  all
• 52:40
  together
• 52:41
  in
• 52:41
  December.
• 52:42
  Okay.
• 52:43
  I
• 52:43
  had,
• 52:43
  like,
• 52:44
  come
• 52:44
  to
• 52:44
  the
• 52:44
  end
• 52:45
  and
• 52:45
  I
• 52:45
  didn't
• 52:46
  have
• 52:46
  a
• 52:46
  lease.
• 52:47
  I
• 52:47
  had
• 52:47
  to
• 52:47
  renegotiate
• 52:48
  my
• 52:48
  lease.
• 52:49
  And
• 52:50
  I
• 52:50
  just
• 52:50
  was
• 52:50
  like,
• 52:51
  you
• 52:51
  know
• 52:51
  what?
• 52:51
  I
• 52:51
  think
• 52:51
  it's
• 52:52
  run
• 52:52
  its
• 52:52
  20
• 52:53
  year
• 52:53
  cycle.
• 52:53
  Like,
• 52:53
  I
• 52:54
  think
• 52:54
  I'M
• 52:54
  ready
• 52:54
  to,
• 52:54
  like,
• 52:55
  step
• 52:55
  into
• 52:55
  this
• 52:55
  next
• 52:56
  phase
• 52:56
  of
• 52:56
  my
• 52:56
  life,
• 52:58
  you
• 52:58
  know,
• 52:58
  work
• 52:59
  with
• 52:59
  women
• 52:59
  and,
• 53:00
  you
• 53:00
  know,
• 53:00
  and
• 53:01
  coach
• 53:01
  and
• 53:01
  speak
• 53:02
  and
• 53:02
  mentor
• 53:03
  and
• 53:03
  all
• 53:03
  the
• 53:03
  things
• 53:03
  that
• 53:03
  I've
• 53:03
  been
• 53:04
  doing.
• 53:04
  And
• 53:05
  so
• 53:05
  I
• 53:05
  sent
• 53:05
  an
• 53:05
  email
• 53:06
  to
• 53:06
  my
• 53:06
  community,
• 53:07
  and
• 53:07
  I
• 53:07
  said,
• 53:07
  I'm
• 53:08
  closing
• 53:08
  the
• 53:08
  doors.
• 53:09
  And
• 53:09
  the
• 53:09
  community
• 53:10
  was
• 53:10
  like,
• 53:10
  you're
• 53:10
  not
• 53:10
  closing
• 53:11
  the
• 53:11
  doors.
• 53:12
  They're
• 53:12
  like,
• 53:12
  no,
• 53:13
  no,
• 53:13
  no,
• 53:13
  I
• 53:14
  don't
• 53:14
  have
• 53:14
  a
• 53:14
  lease.
• 53:14
  And
• 53:14
  they
• 53:15
  were
• 53:15
  like,
• 53:15
  okay,
• 53:15
  well,
• 53:15
  what
• 53:15
  would
• 53:16
  it
• 53:16
  take?
• 53:16
  So
• 53:17
  there
• 53:17
  was
• 53:17
  a
• 53:17
  group
• 53:17
  of,
• 53:17
  like,
• 53:18
  30
• 53:18
  women
• 53:18
  who.
• 53:19
  Who
• 53:20
  called
• 53:20
  me,
• 53:20
  and
• 53:21
  they
• 53:21
  were
• 53:21
  like,
• 53:21
  what
• 53:21
  would
• 53:21
  it
• 53:22
  take
• 53:22
  to
• 53:22
  keep
• 53:22
  Plate
• 53:22
  Fit
• 53:23
  open?
• 53:23
  And
• 53:23
  I
• 53:23
  was
• 53:23
  like,
• 53:23
  guys,
• 53:24
  I've
• 53:24
  already
• 53:24
  had
• 53:24
  the
• 53:24
  conversation
• 53:25
  with
• 53:25
  the
• 53:25
  landlord.
• 53:26
  It's
• 53:26
  closing.
• 53:27
  And
• 53:27
  they
• 53:27
  were
• 53:27
  like,
• 53:27
  okay,
• 53:27
  hypothetically,
• 53:28
  what
• 53:28
  would
• 53:28
  it
• 53:28
  take?
• 53:30
  And
• 53:30
  so
• 53:30
  I
• 53:30
  did
• 53:30
  the
• 53:31
  hypothetically.
• 53:31
  I
• 53:32
  said,
• 53:32
  hypothetically,
• 53:33
  it
• 53:33
  would
• 53:33
  take
• 53:34
  this.
• 53:34
  And
• 53:34
  I
• 53:35
  made
• 53:35
  the
• 53:35
  list
• 53:35
  of
• 53:35
  everything
• 53:36
  that
• 53:36
  needed
• 53:36
  to
• 53:36
  happen
• 53:36
  in
• 53:37
  order
• 53:37
  for
• 53:37
  it
• 53:37
  to
• 53:37
  stay
• 53:38
  open.
• 53:38
  Everybody
• 53:39
  needed
• 53:39
  to
• 53:39
  pay
• 53:40
  way
• 53:40
  more
• 53:40
  money
• 53:40
  than
• 53:40
  they
• 53:41
  were
• 53:41
  paying
• 53:41
  for
• 53:41
  the
• 53:41
  last,
• 53:42
  you
• 53:42
  know,
• 53:42
  10
• 53:42
  years.
• 53:42
  I
• 53:43
  had
• 53:43
  not
• 53:43
  raised
• 53:43
  my
• 53:43
  prices
• 53:44
  in
• 53:44
  10
• 53:44
  years,
• 53:45
  and
• 53:45
  I
• 53:45
  needed
• 53:46
  new
• 53:46
  trainers,
• 53:46
  and
• 53:46
  I
• 53:47
  needed
• 53:47
  this.
• 53:47
  I
• 53:47
  needed
• 53:48
  the
• 53:48
  up
• 53:48
  upgrade.
• 53:48
  I
• 53:49
  just,
• 53:49
  like,
• 53:49
  listed
• 53:49
  all
• 53:50
  the
• 53:50
  stuff
• 53:50
  into,
• 53:50
  like,
• 53:51
  air.
• 53:51
  Like,
• 53:51
  this
• 53:52
  is
• 53:52
  what
• 53:52
  I
• 53:52
  want.
• 53:53
  And
• 53:53
  I
• 53:53
  had
• 53:53
  zero
• 53:54
  attachment
• 53:54
  to
• 53:54
  it
• 53:54
  because
• 53:55
  I
• 53:55
  was
• 53:55
  already
• 53:55
  done.
• 53:56
  I
• 53:56
  had
• 53:56
  already
• 53:56
  surrendered
• 53:57
  it.
• 53:57
  I
• 53:57
  had
• 53:57
  grieved
• 53:57
  it.
• 53:57
  I
• 53:58
  let
• 53:58
  it
• 53:58
  go.
• 53:59
  I.
• 53:59
  I
• 54:00
  sat
• 54:00
  in
• 54:00
  a
• 54:00
  circle.
• 54:00
  I.
• 54:01
  Anyways,
• 54:01
  I
• 54:01
  had
• 54:01
  done
• 54:01
  all
• 54:02
  the
• 54:02
  work
• 54:02
  around
• 54:02
  it,
• 54:03
  and
• 54:03
  so
• 54:04
  I
• 54:04
  was
• 54:04
  unattached.
• 54:07
  And
• 54:07
  they
• 54:07
  were
• 54:07
  like,
• 54:07
  okay,
• 54:08
  great,
• 54:08
  let's
• 54:08
  make
• 54:08
  it
• 54:08
  happen.
• 54:09
  Give
• 54:09
  us
• 54:09
  30
• 54:09
  days.
• 54:11
  And
• 54:12
  PlateFit
• 54:12
  is
• 54:13
  now
• 54:13
  having,
• 54:13
  like,
• 54:13
  a
• 54:14
  revival,
• 54:15
  and
• 54:16
  the
• 54:16
  classes
• 54:16
  are
• 54:17
  now
• 54:17
  packed
• 54:18
  again.
• 54:18
  I
• 54:18
  don't
• 54:19
  have
• 54:19
  my
• 54:19
  Covid
• 54:20
  story
• 54:20
  anymore
• 54:21
  because
• 54:21
  I
• 54:22
  surrendered
• 54:22
  that
• 54:22
  Covid
• 54:23
  story.
• 54:23
  When
• 54:23
  I
• 54:23
  was
• 54:23
  closing
• 54:24
  the
• 54:24
  studio,
• 54:24
  I
• 54:25
  was
• 54:25
  like,
• 54:25
  I'm
• 54:25
  no
• 54:25
  longer
• 54:26
  going
• 54:26
  to
• 54:27
  live
• 54:27
  in
• 54:27
  fear
• 54:27
  about
• 54:28
  meeting
• 54:28
  Rent.
• 54:29
  Like,
• 54:29
  my.
• 54:30
  My
• 54:30
  life
• 54:30
  feels
• 54:31
  so
• 54:31
  expanded
• 54:32
  in
• 54:32
  so
• 54:33
  many
• 54:33
  areas,
• 54:33
  and
• 54:34
  in
• 54:34
  my
• 54:34
  business,
• 54:34
  it
• 54:35
  felt
• 54:35
  contracted
• 54:36
  because
• 54:36
  I
• 54:36
  was,
• 54:37
  like,
• 54:37
  just
• 54:37
  making
• 54:38
  rent,
• 54:38
  and
• 54:39
  I
• 54:39
  just
• 54:39
  didn't
• 54:39
  want
• 54:39
  to
• 54:39
  live
• 54:40
  like
• 54:40
  that
• 54:40
  anymore,
• 54:40
  and
• 54:41
  I
• 54:41
  didn't
• 54:41
  need
• 54:41
  to.
• 54:42
  Like,
• 54:42
  I
• 54:43
  wasn't
• 54:43
  making
• 54:43
  any
• 54:43
  income,
• 54:44
  so
• 54:44
  I
• 54:44
  was
• 54:44
  like,
• 54:44
  why
• 54:44
  would
• 54:44
  I
• 54:44
  keep
• 54:45
  this
• 54:45
  thing
• 54:45
  open?
• 54:45
  That's
• 54:46
  not
• 54:47
  making
• 54:47
  me
• 54:47
  feel
• 54:48
  good.
• 54:49
  And
• 54:49
  so
• 54:50
  it's
• 54:50
  interesting
• 54:51
  now.
• 54:51
  It's
• 54:51
  making
• 54:52
  me
• 54:52
  feel
• 54:52
  good.
• 54:52
  It's
• 54:52
  fun.
• 54:52
  It's
• 54:53
  fun
• 54:53
  to
• 54:53
  regrow.
• 54:54
  It's
• 54:54
  fun
• 54:54
  to
• 54:54
  get
• 54:54
  new
• 54:54
  people.
• 54:55
  It's
• 54:55
  fun.
• 54:55
  And
• 54:55
  I
• 54:55
  have
• 54:56
  this,
• 54:56
  like,
• 54:56
  incredible
• 54:57
  new
• 54:57
  trainer,
• 54:57
  and
• 54:58
  he's,
• 54:58
  like,
• 54:59
  helping
• 54:59
  me.
• 54:59
  And
• 55:00
  it's
• 55:00
  just.
• 55:00
  It's
• 55:01
  been.
• 55:01
  It's
• 55:01
  been
• 55:01
  a
• 55:01
  really
• 55:02
  incredible
• 55:03
  first
• 55:03
  few
• 55:04
  months
• 55:04
  of
• 55:04
  the
• 55:04
  year.
• 55:05
  Wow.
• 55:05
  Isn't
• 55:06
  that
• 55:06
  Powerful.
• 55:06
  Like
• 55:07
  you
• 55:07
  just
• 55:07
  saying
• 55:07
  that.
• 55:09
  Right.
• 55:09
  And
• 55:10
  things
• 55:10
  change.
• 55:11
  Like,
• 55:11
  things
• 55:12
  really
• 55:12
  changed
• 55:13
  for
• 55:13
  you.
• 55:13
  Like,
• 55:14
  that's
• 55:14
  amazing.
• 55:15
  Yeah.
• 55:16
  It's
• 55:16
  like
• 55:16
  you
• 55:16
  stay
• 55:16
  open,
• 55:17
  you
• 55:17
  stay
• 55:18
  unattached
• 55:19
  and
• 55:19
  with
• 55:19
  curiosity
• 55:20
  about
• 55:20
  what
• 55:20
  my
• 55:21
  life
• 55:21
  could
• 55:21
  be
• 55:21
  without
• 55:22
  it.
• 55:22
  And
• 55:22
  all
• 55:23
  of
• 55:23
  a
• 55:23
  sudden
• 55:23
  it's
• 55:23
  with
• 55:23
  it.
• 55:24
  And
• 55:24
  then
• 55:24
  my
• 55:24
  coaching
• 55:25
  program
• 55:25
  is
• 55:25
  also
• 55:25
  growing
• 55:26
  inside
• 55:26
  of
• 55:26
  it.
• 55:27
  And
• 55:28
  I
• 55:28
  spend
• 55:28
  this,
• 55:28
  like,
• 55:29
  really
• 55:30
  beautiful
• 55:30
  beginning
• 55:31
  of
• 55:31
  the
• 55:32
  new
• 55:32
  year.
• 55:32
  But
• 55:32
  also,
• 55:33
  you
• 55:33
  know,
• 55:33
  the
• 55:33
  fire
• 55:33
  horse,
• 55:34
  all
• 55:34
  of
• 55:34
  it
• 55:34
  just
• 55:35
  like
• 55:35
  really
• 55:35
  fast,
• 55:36
  everything
• 55:36
  is
• 55:36
  in
• 55:37
  forward
• 55:38
  motion.
• 55:39
  I
• 55:39
  think
• 55:39
  the
• 55:39
  Snake
• 55:40
  year
• 55:40
  was
• 55:40
  easier
• 55:40
  for
• 55:41
  me.
• 55:42
  Right.
• 55:43
  Like
• 55:44
  a
• 55:44
  year
• 55:44
  of
• 55:44
  the
• 55:44
  horse.
• 55:45
  I'm
• 55:45
  like,
• 55:45
  oh,
• 55:45
  my
• 55:45
  God,
• 55:45
  this
• 55:46
  horse
• 55:46
  is
• 55:46
  nuts.
• 55:47
  Yes.
• 55:48
  Running
• 55:49
  at
• 55:49
  the
• 55:50
  speed
• 55:50
  of
• 55:50
  light
• 55:51
  and
• 55:51
  it
• 55:51
  happening
• 55:52
  so
• 55:52
  fast.
• 55:53
  And
• 55:53
  I'm.
• 55:53
  I'm
• 55:53
  here
• 55:53
  for
• 55:54
  it.
• 55:54
  I'm
• 55:54
  on
• 55:54
  board.
• 55:54
  But
• 55:56
  yeah,
• 55:56
  so
• 55:57
  Playfit
• 55:57
  is
• 55:57
  having
• 55:57
  a
• 55:58
  revival
• 55:58
  and
• 55:58
  I.
• 55:58
  And
• 55:59
  I
• 55:59
  still
• 55:59
  don't
• 55:59
  have
• 55:59
  a
• 56:00
  lease.
• 56:00
  I'm
• 56:00
  months
• 56:01
  right
• 56:01
  now,
• 56:02
  and
• 56:02
  I
• 56:03
  don't
• 56:03
  know
• 56:03
  where
• 56:04
  it
• 56:04
  will
• 56:04
  go
• 56:04
  or
• 56:05
  if
• 56:05
  it
• 56:05
  will
• 56:05
  continue
• 56:05
  to
• 56:06
  go.
• 56:06
  I
• 56:06
  hope
• 56:06
  it
• 56:07
  does.
• 56:07
  It
• 56:07
  seems
• 56:08
  like
• 56:08
  it
• 56:08
  will.
• 56:09
  And
• 56:10
  so
• 56:10
  we'll
• 56:10
  see
• 56:11
  what
• 56:11
  happens,
• 56:11
  you
• 56:12
  know,
• 56:12
  we'll
• 56:13
  see
• 56:13
  what
• 56:13
  happens.
• 56:13
  I'm
• 56:13
  in
• 56:13
  the
• 56:13
  middle
• 56:13
  of
• 56:14
  redeveloping
• 56:14
  my
• 56:14
  website
• 56:15
  and
• 56:16
  I'm
• 56:16
  taking
• 56:17
  classes
• 56:17
  every
• 56:18
  single
• 56:18
  day.
• 56:19
  We've
• 56:19
  restructured
• 56:20
  the
• 56:20
  workout
• 56:21
  in
• 56:21
  a
• 56:21
  way
• 56:21
  that
• 56:21
  feels
• 56:22
  good
• 56:22
  for
• 56:22
  my
• 56:22
  body.
• 56:23
  Now.
• 56:24
  I
• 56:24
  realized
• 56:24
  that
• 56:25
  when
• 56:25
  I
• 56:25
  started
• 56:25
  it,
• 56:26
  I
• 56:26
  was,
• 56:26
  you
• 56:27
  know,
• 56:27
  I
• 56:28
  was
• 56:28
  34
• 56:29
  years
• 56:29
  old
• 56:30
  and
• 56:30
  in
• 56:30
  a
• 56:31
  different
• 56:31
  era
• 56:31
  in
• 56:32
  my
• 56:32
  life.
• 56:33
  And
• 56:33
  the
• 56:34
  workout
• 56:34
  looks
• 56:35
  different
• 56:35
  for
• 56:35
  a
• 56:35
  34
• 56:36
  year
• 56:36
  old
• 56:36
  than
• 56:36
  it
• 56:36
  does
• 56:36
  for
• 56:37
  a
• 56:37
  46
• 56:37
  year
• 56:37
  old.
• 56:38
  So
• 56:38
  my
• 56:39
  ideal
• 56:39
  client
• 56:40
  is
• 56:40
  me.
• 56:40
  We
• 56:41
  are
• 56:41
  focused
• 56:41
  on,
• 56:41
  like,
• 56:42
  strength
• 56:42
  and
• 56:43
  bones
• 56:43
  and
• 56:44
  lifting
• 56:44
  and
• 56:45
  slower
• 56:45
  movements,
• 56:46
  functional
• 56:46
  movements,
• 56:47
  making
• 56:47
  sure
• 56:48
  our
• 56:48
  core
• 56:48
  is
• 56:48
  strong
• 56:49
  and
• 56:50
  really
• 56:50
  getting
• 56:50
  right
• 56:51
  vibrationally
• 56:52
  on
• 56:52
  the
• 56:52
  inside.
• 56:52
  And
• 56:53
  so
• 56:53
  the
• 56:53
  workout,
• 56:54
  the
• 56:54
  vibe,
• 56:55
  everything
• 56:55
  about
• 56:55
  the
• 56:56
  studio
• 56:56
  feels
• 56:56
  more
• 56:57
  aligned
• 56:57
  with
• 56:58
  me
• 56:58
  authentically.
• 57:00
  And
• 57:00
  so
• 57:00
  it'll
• 57:00
  be
• 57:01
  interesting
• 57:01
  to
• 57:01
  see
• 57:01
  where
• 57:01
  it
• 57:01
  goes.
• 57:02
  Yeah,
• 57:02
  definitely.
• 57:03
  And
• 57:03
  I
• 57:03
  think,
• 57:03
  like
• 57:04
  you're
• 57:04
  saying
• 57:04
  for
• 57:04
  midlife
• 57:05
  women,
• 57:05
  it
• 57:06
  is
• 57:06
  a
• 57:06
  great
• 57:06
  workout.
• 57:07
  You
• 57:07
  know,
• 57:07
  it
• 57:07
  kind
• 57:07
  of
• 57:07
  hits
• 57:08
  all
• 57:08
  those
• 57:08
  target
• 57:09
  areas,
• 57:10
  you
• 57:10
  know,
• 57:10
  with
• 57:11
  the
• 57:11
  bone
• 57:11
  strength
• 57:12
  and
• 57:12
  just,
• 57:12
  you
• 57:12
  know,
• 57:13
  all
• 57:13
  the
• 57:13
  great
• 57:13
  things.
• 57:13
  The
• 57:14
  draining
• 57:14
  the
• 57:14
  lymph
• 57:14
  nodes.
• 57:15
  I
• 57:15
  mean,
• 57:16
  there's
• 57:16
  a
• 57:16
  lot
• 57:16
  of
• 57:16
  benefit.
• 57:18
  It
• 57:18
  is
• 57:18
  like,
• 57:18
  it
• 57:19
  is
• 57:19
  essential
• 57:20
  for
• 57:20
  women
• 57:21
  midlife.
• 57:21
  It's
• 57:21
  actually
• 57:22
  essential
• 57:22
  for
• 57:22
  women
• 57:22
  in
• 57:23
  their
• 57:23
  30s
• 57:24
  because
• 57:24
  that's
• 57:25
  for
• 57:25
  bones.
• 57:26
  Like,
• 57:26
  it's.
• 57:26
  It's
• 57:26
  essential.
• 57:27
  I'm
• 57:27
  just
• 57:27
  gonna
• 57:28
  say
• 57:28
  it.
• 57:28
  I've
• 57:28
  been
• 57:28
  doing
• 57:28
  it
• 57:29
  for
• 57:29
  a
• 57:29
  long
• 57:29
  time.
• 57:30
  Like,
• 57:30
  everybody
• 57:31
  should
• 57:31
  be
• 57:31
  doing
• 57:31
  vibration
• 57:34
  in
• 57:34
  some
• 57:34
  capacity.
• 57:35
  It
• 57:35
  is
• 57:35
  so
• 57:35
  good
• 57:35
  for
• 57:36
  your
• 57:36
  bones.
• 57:37
  And
• 57:37
  past
• 57:38
  the
• 57:38
  age
• 57:38
  of
• 57:38
  60,
• 57:39
  your
• 57:39
  bone
• 57:39
  health
• 57:40
  is
• 57:40
  an
• 57:40
  indicator
• 57:41
  of
• 57:41
  how
• 57:41
  long
• 57:41
  you're
• 57:41
  going
• 57:42
  to
• 57:42
  live.
• 57:42
  Yeah.
• 57:43
  And
• 57:43
  that
• 57:44
  is
• 57:44
  coming
• 57:44
  up
• 57:45
  soon
• 57:45
  for
• 57:45
  a
• 57:45
  lot
• 57:45
  of
• 57:45
  people.
• 57:46
  You
• 57:46
  know,
• 57:46
  I
• 57:46
  mean
• 57:46
  that's.
• 57:47
  Or
• 57:47
  if
• 57:47
  they're
• 57:47
  already
• 57:48
  there,
• 57:48
  you
• 57:48
  know,
• 57:48
  I
• 57:48
  mean
• 57:49
  that's
• 57:49
  not.
• 57:49
  I
• 57:50
  think,
• 57:50
  we
• 57:50
  think
• 57:50
  things
• 57:51
  happen
• 57:51
  in
• 57:51
  the
• 57:51
  future
• 57:52
  and
• 57:52
  it's
• 57:52
  like
• 57:52
  a
• 57:52
  long
• 57:53
  way
• 57:53
  away,
• 57:53
  but
• 57:53
  that
• 57:53
  is
• 57:54
  not,
• 57:54
  that's
• 57:54
  not
• 57:55
  far.
• 57:55
  So
• 57:56
  blank.
• 57:56
  Your
• 57:57
  kids
• 57:57
  are
• 57:57
  11
• 57:57
  and
• 57:58
  10
• 57:58
  and
• 57:58
  nine
• 57:59
  and
• 57:59
  you're
• 57:59
  like,
• 58:02
  how
• 58:02
  am
• 58:02
  I
• 58:02
  46?
• 58:04
  Totally.
• 58:06
  And
• 58:06
  here
• 58:06
  we
• 58:07
  are.
• 58:08
  Oh,
• 58:09
  but
• 58:09
  I'm
• 58:09
  46.
• 58:10
  This
• 58:10
  is
• 58:10
  wild.
• 58:11
  My
• 58:11
  husband
• 58:11
  turned
• 58:11
  50
• 58:12
  and
• 58:12
  we're
• 58:12
  like,
• 58:12
  what,
• 58:14
  what,
• 58:15
  how
• 58:15
  are
• 58:15
  you
• 58:15
  50?
• 58:16
  Right.
• 58:16
  Because
• 58:17
  inside
• 58:17
  you
• 58:18
  probably
• 58:18
  like
• 58:18
  for
• 58:19
  me,
• 58:19
  I
• 58:19
  feel
• 58:19
  like
• 58:20
  that
• 58:20
  same
• 58:21
  25
• 58:21
  year
• 58:22
  old,
• 58:22
  you
• 58:22
  know,
• 58:22
  like
• 58:22
  on
• 58:23
  the
• 58:23
  inside,
• 58:23
  you
• 58:23
  know,
• 58:23
  it's,
• 58:24
  it's,
• 58:24
  you
• 58:24
  know,
• 58:25
  Wiser.
• 58:25
  Much
• 58:26
  wiser.
• 58:26
  Right,
• 58:27
  exactly,
• 58:29
  exactly.
• 58:29
  The
• 58:29
  body
• 58:30
  is
• 58:30
  letting
• 58:30
  me
• 58:30
  know
• 58:31
  that
• 58:31
  in
• 58:31
  fact
• 58:31
  I
• 58:31
  am
• 58:32
  not
• 58:32
  25,.
• 58:34
  But
• 58:34
  my
• 58:35
  body
• 58:35
  better
• 58:36
  and
• 58:36
  stronger
• 58:36
  than
• 58:36
  it's
• 58:37
  ever
• 58:37
  been
• 58:37
  though.
• 58:37
  And
• 58:37
  I
• 58:38
  think
• 58:38
  it's
• 58:39
  like,
• 58:39
  I
• 58:39
  really
• 58:40
  feel,
• 58:41
  I
• 58:41
  feel
• 58:41
  physically
• 58:43
  amazing.
• 58:44
  So
• 58:44
  what
• 58:44
  do
• 58:45
  you
• 58:45
  recommend
• 58:45
  for
• 58:45
  women
• 58:46
  at
• 58:46
  home
• 58:46
  that
• 58:47
  want.
• 58:48
  Maybe
• 58:48
  they
• 58:48
  don't
• 58:48
  have
• 58:48
  a
• 58:48
  plate
• 58:49
  fit
• 58:49
  in
• 58:49
  their
• 58:50
  town
• 58:50
  or
• 58:51
  wherever
• 58:51
  they.
• 58:51
  I
• 58:51
  went
• 58:52
  on
• 58:52
  Amazon,
• 58:52
  so
• 58:53
  there's
• 58:53
  these
• 58:53
  Amazon
• 58:54
  plates.
• 58:54
  They
• 58:54
  are
• 58:55
  not
• 58:55
  the
• 58:55
  power
• 58:55
  plates
• 58:56
  that
• 58:56
  I
• 58:56
  use
• 58:56
  at
• 58:56
  the
• 58:56
  studio,
• 58:57
  but
• 58:57
  they
• 58:57
  are,
• 58:58
  they're
• 58:58
  great.
• 58:59
  There's
• 58:59
  a
• 58:59
  Life
• 59:00
  Pro,
• 59:00
  one
• 59:02
  I
• 59:02
  can
• 59:02
  send
• 59:02
  you,
• 59:02
  you
• 59:03
  can
• 59:03
  link
• 59:03
  it
• 59:03
  if
• 59:04
  you
• 59:04
  want
• 59:05
  that.
• 59:05
  I
• 59:05
  recommend
• 59:06
  for
• 59:06
  people
• 59:06
  that
• 59:07
  want
• 59:07
  to
• 59:07
  do
• 59:07
  it
• 59:07
  at
• 59:07
  home
• 59:08
  and
• 59:08
  you
• 59:08
  can
• 59:08
  just
• 59:08
  stand
• 59:09
  on
• 59:09
  it
• 59:09
  at
• 59:09
  home
• 59:09
  and
• 59:10
  it's
• 59:10
  really
• 59:10
  good
• 59:10
  for.
• 59:10
  You
• 59:10
  can
• 59:11
  stand
• 59:11
  on
• 59:11
  it
• 59:11
  every
• 59:11
  day
• 59:11
  for
• 59:12
  like
• 59:12
  five
• 59:12
  minutes.
• 59:13
  First
• 59:13
  of
• 59:13
  all,
• 59:13
  it
• 59:13
  feels
• 59:14
  good
• 59:14
  on
• 59:14
  the
• 59:14
  body.
• 59:15
  It's
• 59:15
  going
• 59:15
  to
• 59:15
  like
• 59:15
  release
• 59:15
  tension
• 59:16
  and
• 59:16
  flesh.
• 59:17
  The
• 59:17
  lymphatic
• 59:17
  system,
• 59:18
  which
• 59:18
  is
• 59:18
  really
• 59:19
  good
• 59:19
  for
• 59:19
  your
• 59:19
  bones.
• 59:20
  Yeah,
• 59:20
  that's
• 59:20
  really
• 59:21
  just
• 59:21
  huge.
• 59:22
  They're
• 59:22
  like,
• 59:22
  they're
• 59:23
  anywhere
• 59:23
  from
• 59:23
  99
• 59:24
  to
• 59:24
  200
• 59:24
  bucks.
• 59:25
  Okay.
• 59:26
  So
• 59:26
  that's
• 59:26
  really
• 59:26
  affordable.
• 59:27
  I
• 59:27
  mean,
• 59:27
  for
• 59:28
  a
• 59:28
  piece
• 59:28
  of,
• 59:29
  you
• 59:29
  know,
• 59:29
  exercise
• 59:30
  equipment.
• 59:30
  That's
• 59:31
  really
• 59:31
  good.
• 59:32
  So
• 59:32
  that's
• 59:32
  a
• 59:32
  good
• 59:33
  thing.
• 59:33
  Good
• 59:33
  tip
• 59:33
  for
• 59:34
  people
• 59:34
  to
• 59:34
  do
• 59:35
  for
• 59:35
  the
• 59:35
  outside
• 59:37
  of
• 59:37
  their
• 59:37
  bodies
• 59:37
  and,
• 59:38
  but
• 59:38
  also
• 59:38
  some
• 59:38
  of
• 59:38
  the
• 59:39
  inside.
• 59:39
  But
• 59:39
  what
• 59:39
  do
• 59:39
  you
• 59:39
  recommend
• 59:40
  for
• 59:40
  women
• 59:40
  at
• 59:40
  home
• 59:42
  as
• 59:42
  far
• 59:42
  as
• 59:42
  like
• 59:42
  finding
• 59:43
  their
• 59:43
  truth
• 59:43
  and
• 59:44
  you
• 59:44
  know,
• 59:45
  going
• 59:45
  on
• 59:45
  that
• 59:45
  journey.
• 59:46
  Like,
• 59:46
  what
• 59:46
  are
• 59:46
  the
• 59:47
  steps
• 59:47
  that
• 59:47
  they
• 59:47
  should
• 59:47
  be
• 59:48
  taking
• 59:48
  now
• 59:48
  to
• 59:49
  really
• 59:49
  make
• 59:49
  a
• 59:49
  change?
• 59:50
  I
• 59:50
  would
• 59:50
  say
• 59:51
  what
• 59:51
  I
• 59:51
  always
• 59:51
  say.
• 59:51
  And
• 59:52
  this
• 59:52
  can
• 59:52
  be
• 59:52
  controversial
• 59:53
  too
• 59:53
  for
• 59:53
  people.
• 59:54
  It's
• 59:54
  like,
• 59:54
  good.
• 59:55
  Your
• 59:55
  morning
• 59:56
  practice
• 59:56
  is
• 59:57
  a
• 59:57
  non
• 59:57
  negotiable
• 59:58
  and
• 59:58
  people
• 59:58
  will
• 59:59
  say,
• 59:59
  I
• 59:59
  don't
• 59:59
  have
• 59:59
  time.
• 1:00:00
  I'm
• 1:00:01
  like,
• 1:00:01
  okay,
• 1:00:01
  well
• 1:00:01
  then
• 1:00:01
  you're
• 1:00:02
  not
• 1:00:02
  this.
• 1:00:02
  Then
• 1:00:02
  you're
• 1:00:03
  not
• 1:00:03
  Ready.
• 1:00:04
  So
• 1:00:04
  if
• 1:00:04
  you
• 1:00:04
  don't
• 1:00:05
  have
• 1:00:05
  one
• 1:00:06
  minute
• 1:00:07
  every
• 1:00:07
  single
• 1:00:07
  morning,
• 1:00:08
  then.
• 1:00:09
  Then
• 1:00:09
  you're
• 1:00:09
  not
• 1:00:10
  ready
• 1:00:10
  to.
• 1:00:10
  To
• 1:00:11
  go
• 1:00:11
  on
• 1:00:11
  the
• 1:00:11
  journey.
• 1:00:12
  But
• 1:00:12
  if
• 1:00:12
  you
• 1:00:12
  have
• 1:00:12
  the
• 1:00:12
  minute
• 1:00:13
  and
• 1:00:13
  you
• 1:00:13
  start
• 1:00:14
  with
• 1:00:14
  a
• 1:00:14
  minute,
• 1:00:14
  and
• 1:00:15
  then
• 1:00:15
  you're
• 1:00:15
  ready
• 1:00:15
  to.
• 1:00:16
  And
• 1:00:16
  then
• 1:00:16
  you
• 1:00:16
  increase
• 1:00:16
  it
• 1:00:17
  every
• 1:00:17
  single
• 1:00:17
  morning
• 1:00:17
  to
• 1:00:18
  create
• 1:00:18
  a
• 1:00:18
  ritual,
• 1:00:18
  to
• 1:00:19
  create
• 1:00:19
  a
• 1:00:19
  practice
• 1:00:20
  to
• 1:00:20
  bring
• 1:00:20
  in
• 1:00:20
  the
• 1:00:20
  light.
• 1:00:21
  I
• 1:00:21
  tell
• 1:00:21
  people
• 1:00:23
  that
• 1:00:23
  some
• 1:00:23
  people
• 1:00:23
  are
• 1:00:24
  just,
• 1:00:24
  like,
• 1:00:24
  they're
• 1:00:24
  in
• 1:00:24
  mom
• 1:00:25
  mode,
• 1:00:25
  or
• 1:00:25
  they
• 1:00:25
  just
• 1:00:26
  had
• 1:00:26
  a
• 1:00:26
  baby,
• 1:00:26
  or
• 1:00:27
  they
• 1:00:27
  just.
• 1:00:28
  They
• 1:00:28
  just
• 1:00:28
  have
• 1:00:28
  so
• 1:00:28
  much
• 1:00:28
  going
• 1:00:29
  on.
• 1:00:29
  And
• 1:00:29
  I'm
• 1:00:29
  like,
• 1:00:30
  you
• 1:00:30
  can
• 1:00:30
  get
• 1:00:30
  up
• 1:00:31
  in
• 1:00:31
  the
• 1:00:31
  morning
• 1:00:32
  without
• 1:00:32
  checking
• 1:00:33
  your
• 1:00:33
  phone,
• 1:00:33
  walk
• 1:00:34
  downstairs
• 1:00:34
  and
• 1:00:35
  light
• 1:00:35
  a
• 1:00:35
  candle.
• 1:00:36
  That's
• 1:00:37
  where
• 1:00:37
  it
• 1:00:37
  starts.
• 1:00:38
  That.
• 1:00:39
  That
• 1:00:39
  acknowledgement
• 1:00:40
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• 1:00:40
  you
• 1:00:41
  matter
• 1:00:42
  opens
• 1:00:42
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• 1:00:43
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• 1:00:44
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• 1:00:44
  body
• 1:00:44
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• 1:00:44
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• 1:00:45
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• 1:00:45
  heart
• 1:00:45
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• 1:00:46
  in
• 1:00:46
  your
• 1:00:46
  mind
• 1:00:47
  to
• 1:00:47
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• 1:00:47
  something
• 1:00:47
  different.
• 1:00:49
  And
• 1:00:49
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• 1:00:49
  where
• 1:00:49
  you
• 1:00:50
  start,
• 1:00:50
  like,
• 1:00:51
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• 1:00:51
  simple
• 1:00:52
  little
• 1:00:52
  thing,
• 1:00:52
  and
• 1:00:52
  then
• 1:00:52
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• 1:00:53
  like,
• 1:00:53
  oh,
• 1:00:53
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• 1:00:54
  actually
• 1:00:54
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• 1:00:54
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• 1:00:55
  good.
• 1:00:55
  And
• 1:00:56
  that
• 1:00:56
  acknowledgement
• 1:00:57
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• 1:00:57
  you
• 1:00:57
  matter
• 1:00:58
  more
• 1:00:58
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• 1:00:58
  anybody
• 1:00:59
  else.
• 1:01:00
  And
• 1:01:00
  that's
• 1:01:00
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• 1:01:00
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• 1:01:02
  I
• 1:01:02
  matter
• 1:01:03
  more
• 1:01:04
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• 1:01:04
  anyone
• 1:01:04
  else.
• 1:01:04
  If
• 1:01:04
  I
• 1:01:05
  am
• 1:01:05
  not
• 1:01:05
  right,
• 1:01:06
  then
• 1:01:06
  no
• 1:01:06
  one
• 1:01:06
  else
• 1:01:07
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• 1:01:07
  right.
• 1:01:08
  And
• 1:01:08
  so
• 1:01:08
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• 1:01:08
  acknowledgement
• 1:01:09
  that.
• 1:01:09
  That
• 1:01:09
  I
• 1:01:10
  am
• 1:01:10
  and
• 1:01:10
  I
• 1:01:11
  am
• 1:01:11
  so
• 1:01:11
  worthy
• 1:01:12
  every
• 1:01:12
  single
• 1:01:13
  morning
• 1:01:14
  for.
• 1:01:14
  For.
• 1:01:14
  For
• 1:01:14
  me,
• 1:01:15
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• 1:01:15
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• 1:01:16
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• 1:01:16
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• 1:01:16
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• 1:01:16
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• 1:01:17
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• 1:01:17
  hour.
• 1:01:18
  That's
• 1:01:18
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• 1:01:18
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• 1:01:18
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• 1:01:19
  a
• 1:01:19
  practice
• 1:01:19
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• 1:01:19
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• 1:01:19
  long
• 1:01:20
  time.
• 1:01:20
  But
• 1:01:20
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• 1:01:20
  matter
• 1:01:21
  that
• 1:01:21
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• 1:01:22
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• 1:01:23
  That
• 1:01:23
  I
• 1:01:23
  make
• 1:01:23
  that
• 1:01:24
  space
• 1:01:24
  for
• 1:01:24
  myself.
• 1:01:25
  And
• 1:01:26
  my
• 1:01:26
  ritual
• 1:01:27
  is
• 1:01:27
  sometimes
• 1:01:28
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• 1:01:28
  same,
• 1:01:28
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• 1:01:28
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• 1:01:29
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• 1:01:29
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• 1:01:29
  it
• 1:01:29
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• 1:01:29
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• 1:01:30
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• 1:01:30
  It's
• 1:01:30
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• 1:01:31
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• 1:01:31
  candle,
• 1:01:31
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• 1:01:31
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• 1:01:32
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• 1:01:32
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• 1:01:33
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• 1:01:33
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• 1:01:33
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• 1:01:34
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• 1:01:34
  an
• 1:01:34
  eye
• 1:01:34
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• 1:01:35
  It's
• 1:01:35
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• 1:01:35
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• 1:01:36
  It's
• 1:01:36
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• 1:01:37
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• 1:01:37
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• 1:01:37
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• 1:01:37
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• 1:01:37
  Joe
• 1:01:38
  Dispenza
• 1:01:39
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• 1:01:40
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• 1:01:40
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• 1:01:41
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• 1:01:41
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• 1:01:42
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• 1:01:42
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• 1:01:43
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• 1:01:43
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• 1:01:44
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• 1:01:45
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• 1:01:45
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• 1:01:45
  am
• 1:01:46
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• 1:01:46
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• 1:01:46
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• 1:01:47
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• 1:01:47
  thoughts,
• 1:01:48
  and
• 1:01:48
  that
• 1:01:48
  I
• 1:01:49
  get
• 1:01:49
  to
• 1:01:49
  dictate
• 1:01:50
  my
• 1:01:50
  thoughts.
• 1:01:51
  So
• 1:01:51
  I
• 1:01:51
  am
• 1:01:52
  the
• 1:01:52
  decider
• 1:01:52
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• 1:01:52
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• 1:01:53
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• 1:01:53
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• 1:01:53
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• 1:01:53
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• 1:01:53
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• 1:01:54
  I
• 1:01:54
  get
• 1:01:54
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• 1:01:54
  tell
• 1:01:54
  myself
• 1:01:55
  not
• 1:01:55
  to
• 1:01:55
  think.
• 1:01:55
  And
• 1:01:56
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• 1:01:56
  commitment
• 1:01:57
  to
• 1:01:57
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• 1:01:58
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• 1:01:58
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• 1:01:58
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• 1:01:58
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• 1:01:59
  show,
• 1:02:00
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• 1:02:00
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• 1:02:01
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• 1:02:01
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• 1:02:01
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• 1:02:01
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• 1:02:02
  enough
• 1:02:02
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• 1:02:02
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• 1:02:02
  in
• 1:02:02
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• 1:02:03
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• 1:02:04
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• 1:02:04
  me
• 1:02:04
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• 1:02:04
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• 1:02:05
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• 1:02:05
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• 1:02:06
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• 1:02:06
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• 1:02:06
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• 1:02:06
  me,
• 1:02:07
  show
• 1:02:07
  up
• 1:02:07
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• 1:02:07
  the
• 1:02:07
  world.
• 1:02:07
  It
• 1:02:08
  allows
• 1:02:08
  me
• 1:02:08
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• 1:02:08
  have
• 1:02:08
  joy.
• 1:02:09
  It
• 1:02:09
  allows
• 1:02:10
  me
• 1:02:10
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• 1:02:10
  have
• 1:02:10
  peace.
• 1:02:11
  And
• 1:02:11
  so.
• 1:02:12
  And
• 1:02:12
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• 1:02:13
  maybe
• 1:02:13
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• 1:02:13
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• 1:02:14
  for
• 1:02:14
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• 1:02:14
  in
• 1:02:14
  the
• 1:02:15
  morning.
• 1:02:15
  Like,
• 1:02:15
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• 1:02:16
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• 1:02:16
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• 1:02:16
  rituals
• 1:02:17
  that
• 1:02:17
  people.
• 1:02:17
  Sometimes
• 1:02:18
  it
• 1:02:18
  is.
• 1:02:18
  For
• 1:02:18
  me,
• 1:02:18
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• 1:02:18
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• 1:02:19
  a
• 1:02:19
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• 1:02:19
  bit.
• 1:02:19
  I
• 1:02:19
  was
• 1:02:19
  dancing
• 1:02:20
  this
• 1:02:20
  last
• 1:02:20
  week
• 1:02:20
  in
• 1:02:20
  my
• 1:02:21
  meditation.
• 1:02:21
  But
• 1:02:22
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• 1:02:22
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• 1:02:22
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• 1:02:23
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• 1:02:23
  commitment
• 1:02:23
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• 1:02:24
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• 1:02:24
  space
• 1:02:24
  for
• 1:02:24
  yourself
• 1:02:25
  in
• 1:02:25
  the
• 1:02:25
  morning.
• 1:02:25
  And
• 1:02:26
  then
• 1:02:27
  the
• 1:02:27
  next
• 1:02:27
  step
• 1:02:27
  comes.
• 1:02:28
  Absolutely.
• 1:02:29
  And
• 1:02:29
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• 1:02:29
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• 1:02:30
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• 1:02:30
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• 1:02:30
  want
• 1:02:30
  everyone
• 1:02:30
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• 1:02:31
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• 1:02:31
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• 1:02:31
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• 1:02:31
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• 1:02:31
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• 1:02:32
  like,
• 1:02:32
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• 1:02:33
  are
• 1:02:33
  worth
• 1:02:33
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• 1:02:33
  You
• 1:02:33
  are
• 1:02:34
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• 1:02:34
  it.
• 1:02:34
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• 1:02:34
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• 1:02:34
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• 1:02:34
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• 1:02:35
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• 1:02:35
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• 1:02:35
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• 1:02:35
  that
• 1:02:35
  take,
• 1:02:36
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• 1:02:36
  time
• 1:02:36
  commitment,
• 1:02:37
  it's.
• 1:02:37
  It's.
• 1:02:38
  It's
• 1:02:38
  so
• 1:02:38
  incredibly
• 1:02:39
  important.
• 1:02:40
  So
• 1:02:40
  it's
• 1:02:41
  like,
• 1:02:41
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• 1:02:41
  the
• 1:02:41
  great.
• 1:02:41
  I
• 1:02:42
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• 1:02:42
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• 1:02:42
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• 1:02:42
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• 1:02:43
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• 1:02:43
  greatest
• 1:02:43
  journey
• 1:02:44
  you
• 1:02:44
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• 1:02:44
  ever
• 1:02:44
  take
• 1:02:45
  is
• 1:02:45
  the
• 1:02:45
  journey
• 1:02:45
  back
• 1:02:46
  from
• 1:02:47
  here
• 1:02:47
  to
• 1:02:47
  here.
• 1:02:49
  It's
• 1:02:49
  the
• 1:02:49
  greatest
• 1:02:50
  journey
• 1:02:50
  I've
• 1:02:50
  ever
• 1:02:50
  taken.
• 1:02:52
  And
• 1:02:52
  I
• 1:02:52
  have
• 1:02:52
  a
• 1:02:53
  lot
• 1:02:53
  of
• 1:02:53
  great
• 1:02:53
  journeys.
• 1:02:53
  My
• 1:02:54
  kids
• 1:02:54
  are
• 1:02:54
  incredible
• 1:02:55
  journeys.
• 1:02:55
  My
• 1:02:55
  husband's
• 1:02:56
  an
• 1:02:56
  incredible
• 1:02:56
  journey.
• 1:02:57
  My
• 1:02:57
  business
• 1:02:57
  has
• 1:02:57
  been
• 1:02:57
  an
• 1:02:57
  incredible
• 1:02:58
  journey.
• 1:02:59
  But
• 1:02:59
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• 1:02:59
  most
• 1:03:00
  incredible
• 1:03:00
  journey
• 1:03:00
  I've
• 1:03:01
  ever
• 1:03:01
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• 1:03:01
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• 1:03:01
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• 1:03:02
  Is
• 1:03:02
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• 1:03:02
  journey
• 1:03:03
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• 1:03:04
  into,
• 1:03:05
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• 1:03:05
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• 1:03:06
  The
• 1:03:06
  authentic
• 1:03:06
  human
• 1:03:07
  being
• 1:03:07
  that
• 1:03:07
  I
• 1:03:07
  am.
• 1:03:08
  The
• 1:03:08
  journey
• 1:03:08
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• 1:03:08
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• 1:03:09
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• 1:03:09
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• 1:03:09
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• 1:03:09
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• 1:03:11
  The
• 1:03:12
  journey
• 1:03:12
  back
• 1:03:12
  truly
• 1:03:13
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• 1:03:13
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• 1:03:14
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• 1:03:14
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• 1:03:14
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• 1:03:14
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• 1:03:15
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• 1:03:15
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• 1:03:15
  deeply
• 1:03:16
  in
• 1:03:16
  love
• 1:03:16
  with
• 1:03:17
  the
• 1:03:17
  woman
• 1:03:17
  that
• 1:03:17
  I
• 1:03:17
  am.
• 1:03:19
  That
• 1:03:19
  journey
• 1:03:20
  is
• 1:03:20
  the
• 1:03:20
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• 1:03:20
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• 1:03:21
  taking.
• 1:03:22
  It
• 1:03:23
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• 1:03:23
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• 1:03:24
  to
• 1:03:24
  take
• 1:03:24
  that
• 1:03:24
  one
• 1:03:25
  because
• 1:03:26
  that
• 1:03:26
  will
• 1:03:27
  change
• 1:03:27
  your
• 1:03:27
  life.
• 1:03:29
  That
• 1:03:29
  will
• 1:03:29
  give
• 1:03:29
  you
• 1:03:29
  whatever
• 1:03:30
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• 1:03:30
  is
• 1:03:30
  you
• 1:03:30
  want
• 1:03:31
  in
• 1:03:31
  your
• 1:03:31
  life
• 1:03:32
  right
• 1:03:32
  now.
• 1:03:32
  Whatever
• 1:03:32
  it
• 1:03:33
  is
• 1:03:33
  that
• 1:03:33
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• 1:03:33
  desire.
• 1:03:34
  That
• 1:03:34
  is
• 1:03:35
  where
• 1:03:35
  you
• 1:03:35
  start.
• 1:03:37
  Because
• 1:03:37
  nothing
• 1:03:37
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• 1:03:37
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• 1:03:38
  last
• 1:03:38
  unless
• 1:03:38
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• 1:03:39
  do
• 1:03:39
  that
• 1:03:39
  first.
• 1:03:40
  Yeah,
• 1:03:41
  that's
• 1:03:41
  absolutely
• 1:03:42
  true.
• 1:03:42
  And
• 1:03:42
  you
• 1:03:42
  affect
• 1:03:43
  everybody
• 1:03:43
  else
• 1:03:44
  once
• 1:03:44
  you
• 1:03:45
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• 1:03:45
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• 1:03:45
  journey.
• 1:03:46
  All
• 1:03:46
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• 1:03:46
  people
• 1:03:46
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• 1:03:46
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• 1:03:46
  around
• 1:03:47
  you
• 1:03:47
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• 1:03:47
  you
• 1:03:47
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• 1:03:47
  you
• 1:03:48
  know,
• 1:03:48
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• 1:03:48
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• 1:03:48
  are
• 1:03:49
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• 1:03:49
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• 1:03:49
  you,
• 1:03:49
  once
• 1:03:50
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• 1:03:50
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• 1:03:50
  that,
• 1:03:50
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• 1:03:51
  affects
• 1:03:51
  them.
• 1:03:52
  Yeah.
• 1:03:52
  And
• 1:03:53
  honestly,
• 1:03:53
  truthfully,
• 1:03:54
  like,
• 1:03:54
  I
• 1:03:54
  think
• 1:03:55
  joy
• 1:03:55
  and
• 1:03:56
  peace
• 1:03:57
  is
• 1:03:57
  like.
• 1:03:58
  It's
• 1:03:58
  like,
• 1:03:59
  it's.
• 1:03:59
  It's
• 1:03:59
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• 1:04:00
  physical
• 1:04:00
  healing
• 1:04:00
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• 1:04:01
  the
• 1:04:01
  body.
• 1:04:01
  The
• 1:04:02
  less
• 1:04:02
  you
• 1:04:02
  need
• 1:04:02
  others
• 1:04:02
  to
• 1:04:03
  change,
• 1:04:03
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• 1:04:03
  less
• 1:04:03
  stressed
• 1:04:04
  you
• 1:04:04
  are,
• 1:04:04
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• 1:04:04
  less
• 1:04:05
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• 1:04:05
  you
• 1:04:05
  are,
• 1:04:05
  the
• 1:04:05
  less
• 1:04:06
  resentful
• 1:04:06
  you
• 1:04:06
  are.
• 1:04:07
  You.
• 1:04:07
  You
• 1:04:08
  literally
• 1:04:08
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• 1:04:10
  upgrade
• 1:04:10
  your
• 1:04:10
  body
• 1:04:11
  100%.
• 1:04:13
  But
• 1:04:13
  like,
• 1:04:14
  I've.
• 1:04:14
  I
• 1:04:14
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• 1:04:15
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• 1:04:15
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• 1:04:15
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• 1:04:15
  retreat.
• 1:04:15
  I
• 1:04:16
  take
• 1:04:16
  a
• 1:04:16
  picture
• 1:04:16
  of
• 1:04:16
  myself
• 1:04:17
  before
• 1:04:17
  and
• 1:04:17
  then
• 1:04:18
  I
• 1:04:18
  take
• 1:04:18
  picture
• 1:04:18
  of
• 1:04:18
  myself
• 1:04:19
  after
• 1:04:19
  and
• 1:04:19
  I
• 1:04:19
  think
• 1:04:20
  I
• 1:04:20
  age
• 1:04:20
  backwards.
• 1:04:21
  Wow.
• 1:04:21
  So
• 1:04:21
  you
• 1:04:22
  just
• 1:04:22
  are
• 1:04:22
  so
• 1:04:22
  much
• 1:04:23
  more
• 1:04:24
  alive
• 1:04:24
  and
• 1:04:24
  refreshed
• 1:04:25
  and
• 1:04:26
  healthy.
• 1:04:26
  You're
• 1:04:27
  letting
• 1:04:27
  go
• 1:04:27
  of
• 1:04:27
  all
• 1:04:28
  this.
• 1:04:28
  So
• 1:04:28
  the
• 1:04:28
  breath
• 1:04:29
  work,
• 1:04:29
  you
• 1:04:29
  said,
• 1:04:29
  like,
• 1:04:29
  there's
• 1:04:30
  this
• 1:04:30
  like
• 1:04:30
  breath
• 1:04:30
  work.
• 1:04:30
  It's
• 1:04:31
  like
• 1:04:31
  the
• 1:04:31
  energy
• 1:04:31
  is.
• 1:04:31
  It's
• 1:04:32
  stuck
• 1:04:32
  energy
• 1:04:32
  in
• 1:04:33
  the
• 1:04:33
  body.
• 1:04:35
  So
• 1:04:35
  resentment
• 1:04:36
  and
• 1:04:36
  fear
• 1:04:37
  and
• 1:04:37
  anger
• 1:04:37
  and
• 1:04:38
  all
• 1:04:38
  of
• 1:04:38
  that
• 1:04:38
  is
• 1:04:38
  stored
• 1:04:39
  somewhere.
• 1:04:40
  It's
• 1:04:40
  an
• 1:04:40
  energy.
• 1:04:40
  It's
• 1:04:41
  an
• 1:04:41
  actual
• 1:04:41
  energy.
• 1:04:42
  It's
• 1:04:42
  a
• 1:04:42
  frequency
• 1:04:42
  that
• 1:04:43
  you
• 1:04:43
  connect
• 1:04:43
  to
• 1:04:44
  and
• 1:04:44
  that
• 1:04:44
  sport
• 1:04:44
  in
• 1:04:45
  your
• 1:04:45
  body
• 1:04:45
  somewhere.
• 1:04:45
  You
• 1:04:46
  store
• 1:04:46
  that
• 1:04:46
  long
• 1:04:46
  enough,
• 1:04:46
  it
• 1:04:47
  becomes
• 1:04:47
  dis
• 1:04:47
  ease
• 1:04:48
  like
• 1:04:48
  a
• 1:04:48
  disease
• 1:04:49
  in
• 1:04:49
  your
• 1:04:49
  body.
• 1:04:50
  And
• 1:04:50
  that
• 1:04:50
  dis
• 1:04:51
  ease
• 1:04:52
  shows
• 1:04:52
  up
• 1:04:53
  in
• 1:04:54
  aches
• 1:04:55
  and
• 1:04:55
  pains
• 1:04:55
  and
• 1:04:56
  cancer
• 1:04:56
  and
• 1:04:57
  brain,
• 1:04:58
  whatever,
• 1:05:01
  wrinkly
• 1:05:01
  skin,
• 1:05:02
  all
• 1:05:02
  of
• 1:05:02
  it.
• 1:05:02
  I
• 1:05:02
  mean,
• 1:05:02
  all
• 1:05:03
  of
• 1:05:03
  that.
• 1:05:03
  I
• 1:05:03
  mean,
• 1:05:03
  this
• 1:05:03
  is
• 1:05:04
  like
• 1:05:04
  now
• 1:05:04
  science.
• 1:05:04
  Like,
• 1:05:05
  it's
• 1:05:05
  like
• 1:05:06
  science.
• 1:05:07
  And
• 1:05:08
  so
• 1:05:08
  you
• 1:05:08
  get
• 1:05:08
  yourself
• 1:05:09
  right
• 1:05:09
  on
• 1:05:09
  the
• 1:05:09
  inside,
• 1:05:10
  you
• 1:05:10
  start
• 1:05:10
  to
• 1:05:10
  feel.
• 1:05:11
  Feel
• 1:05:11
  physically
• 1:05:11
  better.
• 1:05:13
  You're
• 1:05:13
  more
• 1:05:14
  free,
• 1:05:14
  your
• 1:05:14
  body
• 1:05:15
  feels
• 1:05:15
  better.
• 1:05:16
  Less
• 1:05:16
  ailments,
• 1:05:17
  less
• 1:05:17
  aches
• 1:05:18
  and
• 1:05:18
  pains.
• 1:05:19
  Yeah.
• 1:05:19
  I
• 1:05:20
  mean,
• 1:05:20
  it's.
• 1:05:20
  And
• 1:05:21
  who
• 1:05:21
  doesn't
• 1:05:21
  want
• 1:05:21
  to
• 1:05:21
  feel
• 1:05:22
  better?
• 1:05:22
  Especially
• 1:05:22
  now,
• 1:05:23
  you
• 1:05:23
  know,
• 1:05:23
  it's
• 1:05:23
  like
• 1:05:24
  that's
• 1:05:24
  what
• 1:05:24
  we're
• 1:05:25
  striving
• 1:05:25
  for
• 1:05:25
  in
• 1:05:26
  so
• 1:05:26
  many
• 1:05:26
  ways.
• 1:05:27
  Our
• 1:05:27
  talk
• 1:05:27
  has
• 1:05:28
  been
• 1:05:28
  so
• 1:05:28
  enlightening.
• 1:05:29
  Just
• 1:05:29
  amazing,
• 1:05:30
  all
• 1:05:30
  the
• 1:05:30
  work
• 1:05:31
  you've
• 1:05:31
  done.
• 1:05:31
  I
• 1:05:31
  love
• 1:05:31
  that
• 1:05:32
  you've
• 1:05:32
  had
• 1:05:32
  this
• 1:05:32
  whole
• 1:05:33
  sort
• 1:05:33
  of
• 1:05:33
  business
• 1:05:34
  perspective,
• 1:05:34
  and
• 1:05:35
  now
• 1:05:35
  you're
• 1:05:35
  shifting
• 1:05:36
  into
• 1:05:37
  doing
• 1:05:37
  these
• 1:05:37
  amazing
• 1:05:38
  circles
• 1:05:38
  and.
• 1:05:39
  And
• 1:05:39
  all
• 1:05:39
  that
• 1:05:39
  good
• 1:05:40
  stuff.
• 1:05:40
  So
• 1:05:40
  tell
• 1:05:40
  people
• 1:05:41
  where
• 1:05:41
  they
• 1:05:41
  can
• 1:05:41
  find
• 1:05:42
  you.
• 1:05:42
  You
• 1:05:42
  can
• 1:05:43
  find
• 1:05:43
  me
• 1:05:43
  on
• 1:05:43
  Instagram,
• 1:05:44
  and
• 1:05:44
  that's
• 1:05:44
  where
• 1:05:44
  you
• 1:05:45
  reach
• 1:05:45
  me
• 1:05:45
  in
• 1:05:45
  terms
• 1:05:45
  of,
• 1:05:46
  like,
• 1:05:46
  circling
• 1:05:46
  and
• 1:05:47
  mentorship
• 1:05:48
  and
• 1:05:48
  all
• 1:05:48
  of
• 1:05:48
  that.
• 1:05:49
  It's
• 1:05:49
  on
• 1:05:49
  my
• 1:05:49
  stand
• 1:05:49
  store.
• 1:05:50
  It's
• 1:05:50
  in
• 1:05:50
  the
• 1:05:50
  link
• 1:05:50
  in
• 1:05:50
  the
• 1:05:51
  bio.
• 1:05:51
  If
• 1:05:51
  you
• 1:05:52
  want
• 1:05:52
  to
• 1:05:52
  come
• 1:05:52
  to
• 1:05:52
  Plate
• 1:05:52
  Fit,
• 1:05:53
  I'm
• 1:05:53
  there
• 1:05:53
  every
• 1:05:54
  single
• 1:05:54
  day.
• 1:05:55
  And
• 1:05:56
  the
• 1:05:56
  workout,
• 1:05:56
  so
• 1:05:56
  that's
• 1:05:57
  at
• 1:05:57
  Fleet
• 1:05:57
  Fit.
• 1:05:58
  Or
• 1:05:58
  you
• 1:05:58
  can
• 1:05:58
  also
• 1:05:58
  reach
• 1:05:58
  Plate
• 1:05:59
  Fit
• 1:05:59
  from
• 1:05:59
  my
• 1:05:59
  link
• 1:05:59
  in
• 1:06:00
  my
• 1:06:00
  bio
• 1:06:00
  as
• 1:06:00
  well.
• 1:06:01
  Yes.
• 1:06:01
  It's
• 1:06:01
  such
• 1:06:01
  a
• 1:06:02
  great
• 1:06:02
  workout
• 1:06:02
  and
• 1:06:03
  it's
• 1:06:03
  so
• 1:06:03
  challenging
• 1:06:04
  in
• 1:06:04
  the
• 1:06:04
  best
• 1:06:04
  way.
• 1:06:05
  Yes.
• 1:06:05
  It's
• 1:06:06
  so
• 1:06:06
  good.
• 1:06:06
  It's
• 1:06:07
  so
• 1:06:07
  good.
• 1:06:07
  Yeah,
• 1:06:08
  you're
• 1:06:08
  in
• 1:06:08
  and
• 1:06:08
  out.
• 1:06:08
  What?
• 1:06:08
  It's
• 1:06:09
  like
• 1:06:09
  27
• 1:06:10
  minutes
• 1:06:10
  or
• 1:06:10
  something,
• 1:06:11
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• 1:06:11
  if
• 1:06:11
  I
• 1:06:11
  remember
• 1:06:12
  correct.
• 1:06:12
  Yes.
• 1:06:12
  I
• 1:06:12
  was
• 1:06:13
  like,
• 1:06:13
  I
• 1:06:13
  can
• 1:06:14
  do
• 1:06:14
  this.
• 1:06:14
  Like
• 1:06:14
  27
• 1:06:15
  minutes
• 1:06:15
  I
• 1:06:15
  can
• 1:06:16
  do.
• 1:06:16
  You
• 1:06:16
  know,
• 1:06:17
  that's
• 1:06:17
  great.
• 1:06:18
  That's
• 1:06:18
  great.
• 1:06:19
  Well,
• 1:06:19
  best
• 1:06:19
  of
• 1:06:20
  luck
• 1:06:20
  with
• 1:06:20
  everything.
• 1:06:21
  I
• 1:06:21
  mean,
• 1:06:21
  you're.
• 1:06:22
  Sounds
• 1:06:23
  like
• 1:06:23
  you
• 1:06:23
  got
• 1:06:23
  a
• 1:06:23
  lot
• 1:06:23
  of
• 1:06:24
  exciting
• 1:06:24
  stuff
• 1:06:25
  happening,
• 1:06:25
  so
• 1:06:26
  it'll
• 1:06:26
  be
• 1:06:26
  fun
• 1:06:27
  to
• 1:06:27
  watch
• 1:06:27
  you.
• 1:06:28
  Thank
• 1:06:29
  you.
• 1:06:29
  It's
• 1:06:29
  so
• 1:06:29
  nice
• 1:06:29
  to
• 1:06:30
  meet
• 1:06:30
  you.
• 1:06:30
  And
• 1:06:30
  please
• 1:06:30
  come
• 1:06:30
  see
• 1:06:31
  me.
• 1:06:31
  You
• 1:06:31
  come
• 1:06:31
  back.
• 1:06:32
  Oh,
• 1:06:32
  I
• 1:06:32
  would
• 1:06:32
  love
• 1:06:32
  to.
• 1:06:33
  I
• 1:06:33
  would
• 1:06:33
  love
• 1:06:33
  to.
• 1:06:34
  I.
• 1:06:34
  I
• 1:06:34
  would
• 1:06:35
  love
• 1:06:35
  to
• 1:06:35
  come
• 1:06:35
  back.
• 1:06:35
  I
• 1:06:36
  love
• 1:06:36
  that,
• 1:06:36
  that
• 1:06:37
  workout.
• 1:06:38
  So
• 1:06:38
  you
• 1:06:38
  can
• 1:06:38
  count
• 1:06:38
  me
• 1:06:39
  in
• 1:06:39
  for
• 1:06:39
  sure.
• 1:06:40
  Great,
• 1:06:40
  right?
• 1:06:40
  Can't
• 1:06:41
  wait.
• 1:06:41
  Yay.
• 1:06:42
  And
• 1:06:42
  for
• 1:06:42
  everyone
• 1:06:43
  listening,
• 1:06:43
  please
• 1:06:44
  follow,
• 1:06:44
  subscribe,
• 1:06:45
  like,
• 1:06:46
  comment
• 1:06:46
  wherever
• 1:06:46
  you
• 1:06:47
  get
• 1:06:47
  your
• 1:06:47
  podcasts
• 1:06:48
  so
• 1:06:48
  we
• 1:06:48
  can
• 1:06:48
  bring
• 1:06:48
  a
• 1:06:49
  more
• 1:06:49
  amazing
• 1:06:49
  conversations
• 1:06:50
  like
• 1:06:50
  this.
• 1:06:51
  Thank
• 1:06:51
  you
• 1:06:52
  so
• 1:06:52
  much,
• 1:06:52
  Rachel.
• 1:06:52
  It
• 1:06:53
  was
• 1:06:53
  been
• 1:06:53
  a
• 1:06:53
  pleasure.
• 1:06:54
  Thank
• 1:06:55
  you,
• 1:06:55
  Rox.
• 1:06:55
  Thank
• 1:06:55
  you.
• 1:06:56
  If
• 1:06:56
  something
• 1:06:56
  in
• 1:06:56
  this
• 1:06:57
  conversation
• 1:06:57
  stayed
• 1:06:58
  with
• 1:06:58
  you,
• 1:06:59
  that's
• 1:06:59
  usually
• 1:06:59
  a
• 1:06:59
  sign
• 1:07:00
  it's
• 1:07:00
  worth
• 1:07:00
  paying
• 1:07:01
  attention
• 1:07:01
  to,
• 1:07:02
  because
• 1:07:02
  midlife
• 1:07:02
  has
• 1:07:03
  a
• 1:07:03
  way
• 1:07:03
  of
• 1:07:03
  pulling
• 1:07:03
  things
• 1:07:04
  to
• 1:07:04
  the
• 1:07:04
  surface.
• 1:07:05
  What's
• 1:07:06
  working,
• 1:07:06
  what
• 1:07:06
  isn't,
• 1:07:07
  and
• 1:07:07
  where
• 1:07:08
  you
• 1:07:08
  might
• 1:07:08
  be
• 1:07:08
  out
• 1:07:08
  of
• 1:07:08
  alignment
• 1:07:09
  with
• 1:07:09
  the
• 1:07:09
  life
• 1:07:10
  you're
• 1:07:10
  actually
• 1:07:11
  living.
• 1:07:12
  And
• 1:07:12
  the
• 1:07:12
  shift
• 1:07:12
  doesn't
• 1:07:13
  come
• 1:07:13
  from
• 1:07:13
  doing
• 1:07:14
  more.
• 1:07:14
  It
• 1:07:15
  comes
• 1:07:15
  from
• 1:07:15
  getting
• 1:07:16
  more
• 1:07:16
  honest.
• 1:07:17
  If
• 1:07:17
  you've
• 1:07:18
  enjoyed
• 1:07:18
  this
• 1:07:19
  episode,
• 1:07:20
  follow
• 1:07:20
  the
• 1:07:20
  show,
• 1:07:21
  leave
• 1:07:21
  a
• 1:07:21
  review
• 1:07:22
  and
• 1:07:22
  share
• 1:07:22
  it
• 1:07:22
  with
• 1:07:23
  a
• 1:07:23
  friend
• 1:07:23
  who
• 1:07:23
  might
• 1:07:24
  need
• 1:07:24
  to
• 1:07:24
  hear
• 1:07:24
  it.
• 1:07:25
  And
• 1:07:25
  as
• 1:07:25
  always,
• 1:07:26
  whether
• 1:07:26
  you're
• 1:07:27
  questioning
• 1:07:27
  things,
• 1:07:28
  making
• 1:07:28
  changes,
• 1:07:29
  or
• 1:07:30
  just
• 1:07:30
  starting
• 1:07:30
  to
• 1:07:31
  see
• 1:07:31
  things
• 1:07:31
  more
• 1:07:32
  clearly.
• 1:07:32
  You're
• 1:07:33
  not
• 1:07:33
  behind
• 1:07:34
  and
• 1:07:34
  you're
• 1:07:34
  not
• 1:07:35
  alone.
• 1:07:35
  You're
• 1:07:36
  evolving,
• 1:07:37
  and
• 1:07:38
  that's
• 1:07:38
  iconic.