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Dip Baby Dip (Featuring Brianca Hardy) · Jess Ask

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episode. All we've been doing it all big. I mean, I just
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women like she does this all the time. Song. I was just trying
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to see you know what I'm saying. So I was just trying to sing,
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Yeah, y'all, what's up? It's your girl, Jessica. And
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do y'all know this girl right here? Y'all do, especially if y'all was
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watching last season? She was on last season? Who is she? She
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is her? Her right here? Miss Bree, Uncle Hardy. I am
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super excited calling brief a short n callin Brief. First of all, let
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me tell you that bag is bagging. What are you differrom grandma not Grandma's?
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Can you gonna get that bad? Can you go get the bag,
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and I tell a story, and I don't know if the Saint's gonna like
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this. What wait? Weak Grandma got this from the casino. You wait,
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wait, wait on, oh my got this from the casino. Grandma
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is a face member wakef wakery. Grandma faithful and so Grandmama because she goes
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there so much, faithful safely. She bade you, I guess certain rewards.
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So I went over our house one day. She had four different red
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purses lined up, different sizes. She said, pick one, grand baby,
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So I think this one the most unique one. First, Grandma,
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it's cute. At least she went in something. She leaves out win created.
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That's the words about don't wherever you go, you better with us because
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the casino Baptist Church you how to leave with something. But it's cute,
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though, thank you, Grandma, you did, will you did? Will
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Grandma, we don't we can leave it right here. Yeah, we don't
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say we don't care, period free. Thank you so much for coming back,
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thank you for having me. I'm glad to be back. Listen,
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do you see that? It's listen. It's the beautiful elevation, it's the
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powerful color, it's all of it. Okay, I'm here from ye.
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I love this time that year, but you'll profit again. Listen, look
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what happened. I got it. What happened in less than a year.
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So let's work for somebody. Guy. I could do a whole lot of
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three six a fire. I told Desire said the other day, Well,
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I said, not the other day. This is a revelation of the day
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because I forgot. I asked for it, I told. I told Desire,
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I said, Lord, if you want me to continue to be excellent
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as this, or you want me to be seen or all this extra stuff,
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you have to send me. I don't. I can't do this by
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someone like I know what to do, but you have to send me Hell
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and the phenomenal woman of God like asking questions, just prime surveying. Um.
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We end up having a conversation. I was like, oh, yeah,
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I don't mind, because you know she's shout out to deser Ray Danielle
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if you need some photos, imagery, branding, ideas and also uh production
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for your shows, because we learned to change our words other day. Not
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just the podcast. This is a showy. This is a showy, so
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she can help you out with your shows. You know what I'm saying.
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This is all you know, product produced by the deser ate Danielle. So
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she hicked me up and was like, um, asking me questions about how
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podcasting and what they look like. And because I had the information, this
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is so good because I've been ended and doing it myself, I had good
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feedback for her for what she was trying to do. And she was like,
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well, um, I got a proposition for you. And I was
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like, well, proposition, prop it up, drop it up, okay,
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And to be honest, it was so you know, I am I'm
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like, Gil, Gil, Gil, this is I know. I asked
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for help, Lord, but I didn't know I was getting this right.
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And so we're purpose partnering and so this is a blessing for you to be
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able to see it like you were all girl. We was on account,
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specifically at the house in the house on the couch with the camera doing what
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they want to do. Like y'all can go look at YouTube. The evidence
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is on a YouTube page, snapping off with a more bothering you. I
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think it's beautiful though it's we can say look what God can do in less
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than a year. But also it's God looking at you what you can do
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in less than a year as well. You know, you desire to strive
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an excellence. Even if we were still at home on accouch, you were
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still striving an excellence. And so God's like, oh my God, send
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help in the community. This is community. Is there is community? So
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yeah, that's good. Well for the people that I just joined us this
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season, I want you to introduce yours soil. Hello everyone again. I'm
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Brianka. Everyone calls me breathe. I am an inner healing life coach.
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I help women heal from um trauma and relationships. I help them find their
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identity. And I do this by doing um seeking, going to the root
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of mother and father rooms. That's just a little about me. I have
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a lot of other things, but now we don't. She's an author.
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Let's let's know, let's let's why are we Why are we gonna believe it?
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All right? It just made it, quiz it don't matter. I
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don't care about that, Okay, author, YouTube, all that type of
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fun stuff. Yes, so she's a I'm gonna say she's a creative Okay.
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I knew she wasn't she doesn't consider Why don't you consider yourself a creative?
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I don't know, because I dance, but so she did, you
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haven't. I haven't seen you dance in a minute. So I just somewhere.
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This just yesterday. So yeah, I'm getting back into the Sometimes you
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don't even where you just because I don't know when I'm sing sing in my
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shower. Everybody. People just need a sabbath. Yeah, but you've been
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saying you were sabbath in for minute. Since you're back, now, welcome
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back, Welcome back, y'all a lot of laughter. Take us seriously,
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Please, we're gonna help. Okay, So since just said that she's an
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inner healing life coach and what Okay, So really I won't say real quickly,
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but I want to kind of touch on that because, um, it's
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interesting with me being in school what I'm learning about the stages of human development.
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I'm in a human development class right now, and I think it's absolutely
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amazing. And one of the theories that we learned is called Ericson's theory,
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where it's the psychological eight stages of psychological development, and it's just interesting at
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each stage and one of the things I actually just submitted as an assignment was
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that we had to like observe two people in two different stages, who's different
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stages, And um, I did it on my while I was known the
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Saint Louis or whatever. So I got to spend some more time than probably
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I would have normally done with just observing somebody at them all. And so
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one of one of the things that one of my videos that I had to
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watch talked about the different styles of parenting, right, So I think it's
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uh, if I'm not mistake, I don't want to go through all that,
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but I know author authoritative is the best one, right. So and
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so that one doesn't you know it set they set boundaries that are opening communication.
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They kind of develop their their present their present parents, right. And
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so in the discussion, the therapist was talking about how customer, I'm not
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customers, clients come seeking them to fix their children, not understanding that their
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children are reflection of their parental styles, right, And so I was able
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to write, I was like, I really believe that each stage depends upon
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the parenting, right. And so it's interesting I'll find the interest even the
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knowledge of little knowledge. I know that you have in your program, Like
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how does that connect with you? What does that strike up for you?
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And what does that look like that process look like to the inner healing.
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Yeah, so it's like you're mentioning, it all connects to the route.
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So I tell the people that I work with, like, we're gonna go
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back to the route when because a lot of times people don't want to go
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back and deal with the trauma. But I let them know we take a
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homely spirit with us. So we're going back to the route, but we're
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not staying there. We're progressing out of the rout. But it's so important
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to know how was your upbringing? What did you hear? What did you
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not hear? Right, that's another important peace. I think people think that
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it's us the experiences that you had, but it's also a lack of experience,
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so that dad didn't come or that mom wasn't there. It's those lack
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of experiences that also shape who you are. Right, And so if you're
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lacking in this particular experience, then you're gonna try to find it, which
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I'd like to say I'll connected to relationships. You're gonna try to find that
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lack of experience, you're gonna try to find it and discover it in relationships.
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And so it's so important because I mean, where people God has designed
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us to desire and be connected to one another in all different forms, and
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so this relationship, our parents are the first form of a God image.
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And so they're what they say, how even they picture the world to us
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is how we They give us a paintbrush, and we painted according to the
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colors that they give in front of us. So they shape it all and
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it's so important to get that process of the root. What happened on mom's
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side? I even like to go with the bloodline patterns that you see on
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mom's side. What the blood line patterns that you see on father's side?
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Okay, now combined, now what do you see within yourself? Oh?
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I really see that I'm more like my mom than I realize, more like
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my dad than I would like to give credit. And then you begin to
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go back into that. Okay, well, how does God see that?
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And how does God see the parents? Right? Because another another thing is
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we don't want to give our parents grace. Oh we gotta give them grace.
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We gotta get the parents grace right, So we don't want to do
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that. But that's another thing, which is why forgiveness is such an important
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piece of it. We have to have the spirit and the fruit of long
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suffering to suffer with our parents. Long. Listen, I'm recently discovering about
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that gift, the fruit love. I thought I knew all that, but
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apparently this night one really slipped in. Oh, I have a long suffering.
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So it's very important to getting the person to find their identity, to
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heal and find true love and to be a better person in Christ, true
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love, mind and true love. Let's talk about it. Oh yeah,
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because you're trauma, you're gonna find false love and it's gonna look like the
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real thing. Can I tell you how many times I thought that he was
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the one? Can we say? Can we wrote a whole song? He
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was the one us a whole ballot? Oh, he was the one.
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Bring it back right exactly Listen, Like it's so powerful that what you're saying
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is because we try to make it, we dress it up because we don't
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see clearly. See inner healing provides some better vision or clearer vision, and
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so when we don't go through the process, then we have a tanted understanding
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of not just who other people are, but who we are exactly a soul
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that's perfectly said powerful and you you mean you begetting folks out, y'all.
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Okay, I'm real dramatic, but that's if it was an image for what
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you do. It would be like if you don't see me on the podcast,
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because I know if you of y'all here and I'm taking my right arm
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and I'm stretching it and snatching it back because that's like I feel like I'm
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in a snatching season. Can we can we go down? Let's gonna go
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down. I'm gonna snatching like the Lord then took me about the nick you
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know, it took me about them and said, girl, what you're doing?
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What? What are you doing? What? What? What is it?
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Like? Like it did them focusing them guarding that God's exactly thinking about
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what is it? Who told who told you you was gonna do that?
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Who told you just gonna go down there? Like? Because that this ain't
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it? SNATCHA how is that snatch feeling? Girl? Like? When when
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I ain't lying, coulpose be like, what's wrong with you? I am
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choking, I am suffocating, I am dying he's getting me back his path.
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Cricket place is straight. They don't realize you were a part of the
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cricket. So he got he gotta take you just a crickets me off.
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Okay, that's what that's what he said. He said. But now it
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gives you a new name. Hallelujah. Its like he got you in your
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new set. Hallelujah. Can't can you you? Can you put some oil
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on what you just said? Yeah? Can we not go through what another
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year? Who want to? Nobody? Like, let's just call a spade
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a spade, even with us being in ministry, Like people act like we
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just want to go through this stuff and want to expect who wants to.
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I'm just gonna pass those that wanted. They really don't know what they're asking
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for. Like Jesus said, yes, anything, listen and you can take
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it to any any any spade of life, Like your entrepreneurial skill is giving
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you towards the inner healing right. And so it was like, oh,
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I want to be a life coach. I want to be a healing coach.
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Tell them, folks, what do we have to go through? Listen?
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You don't understand I when I first started the process of being an inner
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healing coach. I had two different profits come to me and they were like,
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you need to make sure that you're praying before you start a session and
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after a session. They didn't even know what type of calls I was getting.
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They didn't even know how the clientele was going. But I was hearing
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some Trump month and I'm thinking, Okay, I'll be able to handle it.
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But God was making sure you're Yes, I've assigned you to this,
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but you still got to make sure your gates covered because you're taking on all
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of this. And so that's the part of the mantle, which whatever place
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that God sends you to, you also that mantle is there to cover you.
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And I was going into the battlefield in a lot of moments when I
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first started uncovered. Yes that's not pretty, so yeah guy. And the
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way God did it, he made it sure even though it was the beginning.
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He made sure to let people tell me, I mean quick. So
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he was like, you don't know what you're doing without praying and making sure
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you pray over the people know, but I want you to pray over yourself
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before and after like a closing of a portal, because you're literally going in
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and doing surgery. And so when they go und surgery, they washing their
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hands before and washing their hands after. That's such a girl. That's such
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a tangible like before they do surgery they clean their hands, and even the
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having the gloves on, yes, even having the covering, even having the
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knowledge, even having the language. I said, I I'll wash my hands.
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It is. It goes back to what we saw about Desiree uh pastor
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Sarah J. Roberts. What was that sermon title? Mm hmm. It's
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not the power to uh stop because that's her dad. He did it the
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one recently when her wig came out. I haven't seen, so I didn't
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even know. So we're doing um we're currently still fastened from social media and
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stuff like that, so I didn't know. Somebody mentioned a wig coming up.
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I didn't know. But she still looked good without the widows clitch like
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how you how you beat? And you still find without with you old socking
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camp and jailbraid song. It's it's it's it's given for me. You get
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what I'm saying. But I watched it because you know, we got to
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speak listen to one voice during the time, and so her ended up being
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like kind of a mother father daughter saying but mostly her and everything was spot
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on. So I listened to it and she was talking about closing people off
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and you you she was talking about the body, how the body respunds and
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you love that book. Ye, yeah, So I still read that.
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So all that on me. So it's not it's not you. We needed
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an example. The person was an example, y'all. I expected any anyway.
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She was talking to basically about the concept that that concept of that book
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and not knowing that she was. She didn't reference or anything like that,
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and so the Holy Spirit was just showing her, um, how the body
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once we released up out of body or our body's trying to tell us something
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right. And so she was like, sometimes you gotta girl, I cannot
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deal with your stuff right now. I can't talk to you today. My
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body's telling me something. I can't take on what you got going on.
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I gotta cover me. I gotta do everything, And sometimes we don't.
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We think that we're weak for doing that, but we're really. That's so
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like no, no is a healthy word. Yes, it's so healthy and
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what your comeuse y'all, But in it you have to build yourself up to
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be able to say that, to be able to say, hey, I'm
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noticing some things in me that I need to I can't pour right now.
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I really need to be poured into. That was probably the most friend thing
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you said to me this year. Oh my gosh. So so we won't
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we have an insiders. Uh, I'm gonna let you tell a story.
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I know you tell it. I just remember it because I'm gonna start like
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at the air. I remember texting it, okay, and I'm trying to
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crack okay, all right. So, um, I was experiencing some family
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emergencies this um this year, earlier this year, and I was just tired,
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like I was just um, I just didn't have it in me,
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Like I didn't like said the body wasn't body in okay, And um,
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I'm used to being the one she was going through. You know, she
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was going through some changes as will, and so I'm not used to being
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the one that's not available. I think that's a good words. Uh,
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that's unavailable. And I wasn't intentionally trying to be unavailable, but I was.
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I have been like just me. And it's like if people think I've
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probably talked of folks all the time, and don't and don't I my phone
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be dry like real talk unless and unless we ministering and doing some other stuff
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or whatever. Phone be dry, you know, um dry thing normal like
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it has been the reaching recent years. And so I felt bad because um
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breathe. I felt like I wasn't showing up for her. And she freed
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me by saying every basically saying that this might not be the season for me
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to show up for anybody, that itself for me, right, I had
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to show up for me. And when I say, when she gave me
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those words, because we're like this, suth, it's like this, we
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we like that. But my friend, my sister released me from the responsibility
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of being available. And I think that's such a powerful thing to give somebody.
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When their response it's the same. Oh, I know. I was
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talking about them Jake's but they've been they own it, Okay. So Pastor
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Jakes was talking, well, Bishop Jakes was talking about the mote, the
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manner, and the method, and I got stuck on the method. I'm
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taking it with me, And basically he was talking about how Joshua's method had
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to change from being a fighter to a leader. So good. I'm gonna
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send you that. But just how you allowed, you gave me permission to
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change my method in the season, Like, what was what was that like
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for you? Even going through your process? And I know we normally as
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somebody people that are confiding in each other, being there for each other.
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How has that been for you to to release that? I think just be
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not being selfish and being like I've been in that seat before where people pull
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on you and You're like, I ain't got nothing to give, I don't
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have anything to give, and sometimes people just continue to pull and they know
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what you're going through. So when you've been in that seat, I was
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thinking I wouldn't dare ask po Pole give me, give me, give me,
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give me, knowing what you're experiencing. Absolutely not. And I think
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social media kind of pulls up this narrative of if my friend no, no,
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no, and I'm like, that's that's not healthy. That's not healthy
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because if you're in that situation, you wouldn't want to always be pulled and
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tell I if God created the world and say it on a seven day I'm
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arrest Why why are we not? Why we why are we pulling on friends
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and get little bit more, no res be poured into what is arresting process
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look like? Though, Oh I had to relearn that, but I think
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it may be different in different seasons, but it's for me right now.
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Resting processes resting in the promises of God, just being like one point one
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water. God gets an increase, And when God is telling you to rest,
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he's like, take your hands off, I'm ready to increase, and
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I'm an increase in my time speed. So you may be looking at the
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clock like Lord you He's like, it's my increase. How I choose to
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increase it, so that resting is resting in his increase, however fast or
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slowly goes. I love how you saying that. That's that's a right what
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you got right? Uh, that's kind of like where I am you know
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what I'm saying, Like I know I heard him say rest right, but
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my logical thinking was like, oh, physical, like even in the physical
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thing. So I struggle with that. But then like he was really saying,
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wrist in me knowing that I'm gonna I'm gonna do what I'm gonna do
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in my timing. And so it's the timing part I think that is a
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struggle for me now, because you know when you can see, when you
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see physically, like your current boundaries, your current situations, it's like,
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Okay, I know what you said, but I'm really struggling here a little
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bit with this natural thing. Right, So I've just been praying for the
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wisdom in the weights. Yeah, and what as you're speaking, it just
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made me think about, like God he really values rest. He really does.
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There is no reason that he didn't have to do. He got he
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didn't have to rest on the seventh Day, but he chose to. And
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then one of the first things that he told the Israelites when they got in
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the wilderness was about when it provided a manner about rest. Furthermore, in
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the New Testament, he talks about I think it's called the feast of the
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Sabbath or there's a whole time of celebration and festivity all about resting. Like
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that's how serious God thinks about resting. And so it's he to me,
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that's another area of faith walk when he's like, when you rest in me,
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I can see wonders in your faith. Yes it's gonna challenge you,
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Yes it's gonna push you. But that's where I like you to be you
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know what I mean. So it's resting. It's a challenge. It can
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be a challenge, especially when you're like this's are a saying that type of
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person that's like okay, lord, because I'm not a person too, it
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like okay, well, what's how long I hit the risk? Yeah,
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because some in some senses, being still resting is equivalent to laziness for people.
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Some people, and I think it's we don't probably have the no one
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trained you on how to be still. That's just kind of yeah, no
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one trained you on how to not do. Everybody this society, like the
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culture, especially social media, like that's go go go. You don't plan,
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if you don't do, if you guess it'll do this you sh up,
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'm resting up. Shut up the spirit of shout of that's coming on
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in my goodness, Like I don't even understand. I don't even have where.
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It's interesting. It's like sometimes we don't even have language for the season
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that we're in. It's like, oh, this is my rest season or
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this is my rest day. Like people don't even do that on a regular
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like the Sabbath. It's a it's a commendment in that Bible because you get
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a little bit both Bible sins than me. Okay, so what the Sabbath?
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What they tell you about the sad to the rest on the side,
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but to not do anything but until worship him, just to worship him like
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and we'll be doing stuth like. And I know that. I know,
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um, Bishop Moody has a he ministered at one point and basically talking about
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the Sabbath and everybody might have a different Sabbath and so that who that's so
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legalistic to think it's only on one day. But anyway, we're not gonna
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tap into this because if we can, we can go there, we can
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go because she knows. Yes, So the Sabbath he talked about the Sabbath
28:06
being you know, the holiday and just not choosing that day and set it,
28:11
setting those boundaries, setting those boundaries enough to just say, hey,
28:17
everybody knows that, Like everybody know not to call my coach during her prayer
28:22
time because she's praying every Thursday. She's praying out that's not a Sabbath.
28:26
But we know the boundary. I know that the boundary is I probably don't
28:32
even talk to home Thursdays because I know that that she is going forth to
28:36
the nations, and so I try to keep myself in that, in that
28:41
ram of space and its fear right that So so when people learn, I
28:45
feel like when people learn how to have boundaries, which you don't really learn
28:49
boundaries if you don't have your own, Like one thing I love about you,
28:56
though you're gonna boundary, don't listen like talks of people talk to the
29:00
people like me because we know whole opposite on it. I'm too, I'm
29:07
probably a little bit too flexible and baby she nope, I'm not doing it.
29:11
So okay, it's now this is a good going back to the parenting
29:15
style or my parenting or not the parenting style. But how I the attachment
29:22
theory. So my style of attachment is dismissive. So it's easy, easier
29:29
for me to be nonchalant and to kind of push it away. And because
29:33
that's how I handled problems as an adolescent, so it's a little bit easier,
29:41
uh huh, because I'm dismissive. So but out of that, right,
29:45
because that's my lunch of pad, that really is my lunch of bad.
29:48
But out of that, it's having these boundaries put in them in place
29:52
and I always say this. People are going to test your boundaries, and
29:56
sometimes they're not doing it in a malicious way. It's just it's human nature
30:00
for us to test boundaries. You said it which I hold on to it
30:03
is that God has boundaries and Satan tests boundaries. We see what again?
30:07
But everybody tests boundaries. But it's just it's sometimes it's something that doesn't happen
30:14
overnight. You're gonna have to continue to right, they step on that boundary,
30:18
I let it slide. I try again tomorrow. And sometimes you don't
30:22
know a boundary until something happens to you exactly. You're like, I don't
30:26
know about that exactly. So this is a good question. I like this
30:29
question. Y'all gonna like this question. Um, how do you identify a
30:33
boundary versus a wall? Oh? That's so good because we make we sometimes
30:41
because of our trauma, we call it a boundary when it's really this trauma
30:47
wall. That's it's it's our coping mechanism. Like and if I say that
30:51
my boundary is not to allow, um, certain you, now I can
30:57
say I won't allow another woman to get close to me because bla blas ain't
31:02
right, because I have trusted sue or anything like that, right, And
31:04
I'm saying that's a boundary. No, that's my trauma speaking, and this
31:08
is a culting mechanism, right, and so then I build up this wall.
31:12
So that's such a good question because you have to realize what voice is
31:17
speaking. Is it my heel voice, because only the heel voice is gonna
31:19
have boundaries, But your trauma voice, that's gonna be some walls. That
31:26
is so, so we were dealing with two voices. This girl, I
31:30
wouldn't even plan on talking about that. This is good trauma voice, heel
31:47
voice. So to make it elementary for people that desire to speak in a
31:53
heal manner, how do you test what? How do you test it?
31:57
Yeah? So, um, a lot of times the trauma voice is speaking
32:01
out of a place that you were once heart of. So if I was
32:06
hurt in a romantic relationship and I say that I'll never love again in that
32:09
way, go back to that route that trauma is speaking. Right. Anytime
32:15
you look at that and say, am I making this boundary or wall?
32:19
And is it being done out of an out moment or is it being done
32:23
out of I finally overcame it, right, and I know this is so
32:28
it's knowing is this being said, and my saying this is my making this
32:32
vow? Am I making this inner vow out of a place that I was
32:37
once heard of? So even with you saying that, how do you know
32:40
that you're not known? M That's a good question because I think my thought
32:49
process is like, I'm scared, I have fears with myself and like,
32:52
okay, once i'm once, I'm done with a situation because you know I'm
32:55
the person. Yep. One thing that's a that's a good point because I
33:00
was talking about dismissive, but once you get to that level, you will
33:04
be that dismissive kind of like me. Yeah, you're like, oh I
33:08
give a chance, chance, Oh here's another, Oh here's another. You
33:14
want one more like chance at the Chandler chance. And then when when I
33:19
get to the final e on a chance on the last chance numb. Yeah,
33:27
I don't know if I'm healed from it or just ain't so mad that
33:30
I even gave you another e. So I think that that that's a good
33:34
point. I think when you know you're rather numb or healed, if you
33:38
just go go bypassing and not deal with what was being unpacked. Well why
33:45
did I give that many chances? Well? Why did it? And then
33:46
your result is Okay, I'm just done. And that brings up that numbness
33:51
and you don't go to the root of it, then it probably is just
33:54
numbness and not healness. But if you process through that, dealt with what
33:59
was going on with that you felt the need to give that many chances,
34:01
then you can say, Okay, you just said a good word. You
34:08
just said this is what I heard from. Even with that that, it's
34:14
knowing or understanding if it's healing or trauma is knowing your process. Have you
34:20
been processed? If you didn't been processed, then your voice is it's a
34:24
little traumatic, a little traumatical if you've been processed or even processing. Because
34:30
even now, like um, I share with with y'all that I'm going through
34:35
doctor Nicky program, he I even found myself I was like, oh yeah,
34:40
this this happened to Like, no, I choose to believe like I'm
34:45
sounding like my my coach. Well the at least a portion of the heal
34:52
version. So you know, I didn't even act like it's not a you
34:55
know, not revolving, but a continuous you know what I'm saying, And
35:00
so even being able to open up about that is a heal person because I
35:06
yeah, And that's another thing you said, continuous that I want people to
35:09
know that even as I sit here as in a healing life coach, even
35:14
as you're going to school for to be a therapist, all of this,
35:17
we gotta we're still healing. Scripture says we go from glory to glory.
35:22
Listen, God means to say we're gonna go heal to heal. There's always
35:25
another level of healing that God wants me at that reveals a ladder glory.
35:30
This is a perfect segue to um, so y'all, like she said,
35:35
she out on YouTube, shout out to bri Unca Hardy is it's what's your
35:39
bri Unca Hardy life with life for Bunca the woman God get done. And
35:45
she'd been ministering okay, and like my going, my nick be choked sometimes,
35:50
but this one, oh, this was so good. Um, you
35:52
were speaking what's his name? Naming? Yes, naming, And I'm gonna
35:55
let her elaborate on that. But y'all listen, Okay, let's start with
36:00
the story and then I'm gonna say why that was a perfect set way,
36:04
because the continuation of a thing is necessary. Yeah, right, And so
36:08
tell him about naming, all right. So the story of naming is it's
36:12
this gentile who has leprosy and naming is actually high ranking in his land,
36:19
which is in Syria. And so he has this handmaid, and this handmaid
36:25
who's from Israel, she's like, oh, I wish my master would get
36:29
some healing, Like I wish that he would be healing his leprosy. Well,
36:31
Naming goes to his keen and he's like, hey, there's a prophet
36:35
so called profit in this land of Israel that can heal leprosy. Can't I
36:39
go? And the King's like, of course, let me send you a
36:42
letter. Go send a letter. Long story short. They find prophet Elijah
36:45
and he's like, here's the steps name in Well, actually Elijah doesn't even
36:50
come. He send his servant and he's like, tell him to dip in
36:53
the Jordan river seven times and then he'll be made hole. And when Nayman
36:58
first heard that naming, like we got better rivers back home. The Jordan
37:02
isn't because historically the Jordan was a very unclean like, look, it looked
37:07
unclean, but it wasn't. It looked like a very nasty river. And
37:10
Naming was like, oh, we got clean and water back home. And
37:15
his servant came to him, was like, if you, if you this
37:17
problem would have told you to do something more, you would have did it,
37:21
like how easy it's to dip? Or he did and he was healed.
37:23
So that was the quick version. Where can they find it? It?
37:27
What the scripture? Oh? Um, let's see that was. That
37:32
was a quick version. And so it was three things that while she looking
37:36
at up three things that I heard that Naming went through. First somebody,
37:39
somebody came into agreement with his healing. Right, so somebody agreed with his
37:44
healing. He said, hey, this is what you need to do.
37:45
And he actually listened to the instructions. Right, He was like, oh,
37:47
I take that suggestion and I'll go with it. You don't know everything.
37:52
Come on, but you don't know everything. Just because you don't know
37:55
everything, that's where you don't know everything. So advis advisement is good,
38:00
right, And so we have to be aware because being aware don't take healing
38:05
not certain certain certain awareness, like you need to just pay attention pay attention
38:09
with folks telling you. If they're saying, hey, maybe you might not
38:13
need to eat port, or maybe you're not. You got heart disease.
38:16
Maybe your lessons to change your diary you might need. If you keep hearing
38:22
that, you might want to put that mc balance. But just past.
38:30
But the first thing he had to do was listening to somebody. And it
38:32
was a handmaid, right, So somebody that was not of his ranking.
38:36
Right. It was just wisdom, wisdom, wisdom where it comes from the
38:39
poeman or a rich man. It comes, it comes, it's come on,
38:42
right. And so that's the first thing I heard. And then the
38:45
second thing I heard is that he had to go yeah, yea. The
38:50
second thing I heard is that Naming had to get up not only hear the
38:53
instructions, but act on the instructions. Okay. The third day I had
39:01
I heard was that he had to perform performed duties that he didn't necessarily feel
39:10
like doing for his healing. He had to he had to be like presented
39:17
in a in a this is so good. He had to be naked.
39:21
He had to really be naked, and it's beautiful. And I'll just tell
39:25
him what The second Kings chapter five. It was in the King. So
39:29
I had heard you say that I ain't want to be lying, right,
39:32
just talking about lying lying folks, they'd be they'd be lying, they'd be
39:38
lying. I'm not saying to do not a scripture. I'm not gonna allowing
39:43
the script I might a lie about some other stories, but I'm not allowing
39:49
me. So it came from the Second Kings, the fifth chapter. So
39:53
if you want to learn about name, and you might want to go to
39:55
second thing, the filth chapter, but the one the part I want you
40:00
to like, and you can talk free, free, free, free.
40:05
So the part I got excited about the most is when you went in on
40:09
the fact that he was unwilling to do something above him, such as dipping
40:16
in the water. Yes, like, let's talk about why it was significant
40:23
for him to dip. Yeah. So it was the process that this prophet,
40:30
I mean, think about it. You're going to this doctor. We're
40:35
gonna call the prophet a doctor. You're going too this doctor, this world
40:37
renowned doctor. And you get there and you say, well, how you
40:43
did it? I thought you're gonna do something different. And one of the
40:45
things that it said was Nayman said, I'm not going in the Jordan because
40:51
what I thought that this prophet was going to do was come out, wave
40:53
his hand over my body and then healed the disease. But he didn't do
40:58
that. And so Nayman was set with the method that God chose to heal
41:02
him by. And so it was so important for him to go through that
41:08
process and thank God Name and had a community around him that encourage him.
41:14
That like how that he went to his leader and was like, hey,
41:16
leader, listen, you really need to do that. It's something so simple.
41:21
I know you don't want to do it, but I really believe this
41:22
prophet right. And it was because of that process. And you think about
41:25
it, dipping seven times Name and had to take some time in that water,
41:30
dipping seven times. Just imagine going to the point and you're dipping seven
41:32
You're gonna get a little tired, you may get Listen, it takes work
41:37
to get the method and name and thought I was gonna come easy, and
41:40
sometimes God's process and then the beautiful thing is seven is completion. It means
41:45
represent restoration. So God is trying to get you to get the fullness of
41:50
the thing, but you just want a quick wave of the hand. No,
41:52
I'm a process through that's so, that's so good. The waving of
42:01
the hand versus the dep thing. It's yeah, because the waving of the
42:07
hand that means you're doing it somebody else is doing But the differing that means
42:10
I gotta do it. You're responsible. You said you wanted to be healed,
42:17
but that means I gotta do it. We talked about the other day
42:23
the power and the imagery. Mean, when God says I made you in
42:28
the image, we limit that to facial features, we memit that to the
42:30
good things, we limit that to all this stuff. But the attributes of
42:35
God is our image too. So when we say God, you're powerful,
42:37
we're saying we're Our imagery is powerful. So how powerful is it that God
42:42
saying, hey, I want you to activate your power. Come on,
42:47
I want you to activate your power and deal. Yeah. And one thing
42:53
that I'm learning is that I guess even more is that God will do a
42:59
certain and process just so he could grab more people to witness to Because if
43:05
he hadn't did it like name and wanted just the wavement of the hand naming,
43:08
probably would not have given his life to God. But because he had
43:14
to dip seven times and you see, Okay, now I'm coming up.
43:19
I just did this last seventh dip and I'm up and I see the skin.
43:22
Now I truly believe that this God is real. And so now I'm
43:25
devoting my life to this God and imagine the people around him that he's pulling
43:31
in just from that experience, Like we know, naming was the one that
43:35
would go into this altar and worship this false god. And he that's so
43:38
good. He's now worshiping the God of you dare. Yeah, that is
43:45
so good. The purpose in the purpose. Who purpose like that? I
43:55
can just see God gonna just process me through that on the way home.
44:00
The purpose on the purpose, because if we really talk about it, like
44:05
from what being a black one, let's just call the space play. I
44:07
even know I got, we got, We locked though, all of us,
44:10
all of that we locked. Shout out to the lock girls. Um,
44:16
even though I'm locked up, I still don't. I'm not trying to
44:19
get my hair with there's seen any things. I don't. I want to
44:22
keep drying. I want to keep you know, I'm really not trying to
44:25
get Who's to say that he was along at the river. Listen, who's
44:30
to say that he wasn't exposed? Did he bring a change of clothes?
44:32
He hadn't one. I'm walking hill, but drip drip, drip drip,
44:37
dripped hill in the nasty walls. You know what I'm saying. And oh,
44:45
something you said earlier that he was like, but I got water at
44:49
home. I got rivers at home. Why this river? And it's so
44:52
interesting, um to even think about having to go to another place. So
45:00
going to the unfamiliar to behold, to be made whole. Wow, like
45:06
people, we are afraid of the unfamiliar, unfamiliar territory, right, and
45:14
we gained the most in that, like I've enjoyed now. You know,
45:17
in Pensacola, I hated it. Who chi, we had to We had
45:23
to kombay y'all for Pensacola. With Pensacola when he so the Lord saw fit
45:29
for me to go to the gull y'all. I crack up every time just
45:32
to talk about Pensacola because while she was there, like she said, but
45:37
when we would go back and I had the opportunity like on my spot there
45:45
was my spot after I levet. Because the relationships that you know I was
45:50
introduced to enhanced after I left. Yeah, so it was a blessing.
45:55
And what were you going to say? But Montgommer, you know, has
45:59
been a place of healing. Um as I would use the word preservation intentionally.
46:07
Um, it's definitely gonna uh. I don't say it's thumping ground,
46:15
but a training ground, That's what I'm saying. And so I am not
46:17
the woman I was when I entered my God, who I am not the
46:25
woman? It basically think about that word. I think you um and maybe
46:30
a little bit before the transition your word was inaugural, Yes, like stepping
46:32
into the office. First of all, y'all see her remember my words?
46:37
So do you. I was a couple of year, a couple of years
46:40
ago. I forgot about that one myself. Listen, I almost forgot that
46:46
Jordan was mine between both of you. Remember remember it? Remember It's so
46:53
it's like what sparked my ear every time I heard the Jordan River, the
46:58
Jordan River, the Jordan River. And this The research that I've done on
47:00
the things that I've heard is that it's this nasty place, but it's nasty
47:06
because has have to go in with it. When you come out you.
47:09
It's left there. It's it's when you go through the Jordan River. It's
47:15
left there like you're dipping. He didn't leave with the same he didn't leave
47:20
with the lepracy. He dipped and dipped out without the leprosy. That's so
47:23
good, like when you go through the Jordan. And I thought, I
47:28
really, let me just be transparent moment when I heard a Jordan year and
47:30
the way the lawyer gave me his word, y'all know, Michael Jordan's twenty
47:36
three. Like I was like, okay, okay, let's get it.
47:38
Let's get it. God, it's my Jordan, this is my cross ober.
47:44
Yeah, we're definitely crossing over. He Yeah, you thought you thought
47:54
like real like definition was not it was. I thought it was one thing.
47:59
But God, I was like, no, I said, I meant
48:00
what I said about this year year of Jordan. It's a necessary process,
48:05
and so you gotta come out this year. Dealt, My God, you
48:10
gotta come out of this year dealt. I just felt the Holy Spirit on
48:14
that one. And so if I don't get in the water, I don't
48:17
get to come I don't get to come out or get over to the where
48:22
God is saying the Promised land. You gotta do it all seven times,
48:25
all of it, because what if he went out on the sixth you want
48:30
to got the healing, tell us he wouldn't have got the healing because at
48:31
the end of the day, the instructions were the instructions and some sometimes we
48:37
can admits that because we instruct ourselves. Oh yeah, like we were like,
48:43
oh god, but I thought I heard you say I didn't say that,
48:46
But did you read the first thing that the teachers teacher is to do.
48:52
Put your name on the paper and read the instru Someone wasn't even put
48:58
out let's talk about the babies. Y'all didn't even put your name on the
49:00
paper, so we know, y'all are y'all just start answering questions. Can't
49:06
get credit and can't get you You can't get credited because your name ain't on
49:09
it. Then because you didn't read the instructions, you don't know what is
49:15
required of you. You're probably doing more than what these are required. And
49:19
so you wrong because you did more. Come on, now you wrong because
49:24
you decide to do be extra and it wasn't required. It wasn't it wasn't
49:29
required, but it was required for him to deal. And so what keeps
49:31
people from dipping? Oh, because it's so easy to not dip. It's
49:38
so easy to not dip. But what about what they say? They want
49:43
the healing? But this goes back to what we were saying earlier. We
49:46
say we want these things, but we don't know, Like we want the
49:50
final masterpiece, but we don't know what it takes to cultivate that right.
49:54
And so it's so much easier to be to say, Okay, well I
49:59
thought I want, but I don't want that process. Lord, that takes
50:01
too much work. How everybody gonna think about me when I go back to
50:05
my hometown. I'm dripping wet? How is everybody gonna think about me?
50:07
And now I may be ashamed of my story. I may be ashamed that
50:13
yeah, because let's say like this, maybe naming back home and saying,
50:15
oh, yeah, when I get there, I'll know the prophet just gonna
50:17
wave his hand. I told people my testimony before the testimony actually happened,
50:22
and so now I got to share this story that it didn't happen how I
50:25
thought it would happened, That God humbled me, that I had to dip
50:30
seven times that not only that the profit didn't come out to see me.
50:34
The profit I went to the prophet that I got a recommendation letter to go
50:37
see. He didn't even come out for me. I had a servant to
50:39
come out for me to give them instructions. That's a whole process, and
50:44
sometimes we don't like to tell the story of how we overcame so good.
50:50
Yeah, so a lot of that is just so many components. But ultimately
50:55
we can wrap it all back up into this word again, the process.
50:59
We don't want to go through the process because the process is not easy.
51:02
I mean, we can sit here right here and let y'all know that the
51:05
process is not easy. Okay, this is an ad about the process.
51:10
Listen, please do not invest in believing that it's easy, because it's it's
51:17
not. It's not, but it's worth it. It's worth it. It's
51:22
so rewarding because this is you're talking to somethbody. And then we got to
51:27
think about that there are multiple different processes. Oh yeah, like we talked
51:31
about d process. Yeah, you you dial seven times on there now something
51:37
else that you gotta deal seven times times on. And so I even think
51:39
about, um, the person that is currently. Okay. First of all,
51:45
Naming made a decision to get in the water. Then he had to
51:47
make a decision to consistently deal. So talk to the person that's in the
51:52
case. Speak to the person that's in the water. Okay, I didn't
51:57
dial the first time. Okay, who all? Right? To go back
52:00
again? I'm scared to hold my breath. There's a lot for me hard.
52:02
Let me dip dip again. And it's just this anxiety level of Okay,
52:07
how much more can I take to get to where I want to be?
52:10
Can you speak to that's so good? Pulling up the script here made
52:14
me think about Revelations twenty two twelve, and it says, and behold,
52:17
I come quickly, and my reward is with me to give every man according
52:23
as his work shall be. I'm gonna keep going thirteen. I am Alpha
52:28
and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last.
52:32
So in order to get to that quick reward that God is coming with,
52:37
he says that he's already the alpha and Omega. But what he felt to
52:40
say, which it doesn't need to be said, but what he failed to
52:43
say is not only I'm an alpha to mega, but I'm also in the
52:45
in between, right, And so if you're in between, you're on that
52:50
third dip, you're on that fourth dip, and you're like, Lord,
52:52
I don't know how much more I can take. Let all that go to
52:57
God. Be transparent, be honest with God. Like Lord, I am
53:00
tired here. I have been waiting for this promise for so long. You
53:04
send encouraging word after encouraging word after an encouraging word, and I have heard
53:07
this so much that now I'm beginning to load the encouraging words. Now,
53:12
I don't want to hear another profited word because it just reminds me that I'm
53:15
still in the place. I'm still it with dealing with this leprosy. I'm
53:20
still unhealed, I'm still unfulfilled. But taking all of that to God,
53:25
understanding that God says that he will. He wants this patience to do its
53:30
perfect work. And if you abort the process, not only are you missing
53:36
the reward that's coming, but you're missing the fullness of the perfect work.
53:39
There's a fullness of time that comes right seven, once again representing completion and
53:45
restoration. If you stop at three four, anything but load the seven,
53:49
you're aborting the mission, and you're not fulfilling the fullness of time. So
53:52
good, right, and so with that you have to give that to God.
53:58
Lord. I am tired here, I'm restless here, I'm fatigued here,
54:01
I hope has gotten deferred here. Take it all to God and allow
54:06
him to minister to you. He's gonna do that in a unique way.
54:09
Right. You may not feel after that prayer, you may not feel like
54:13
he didn't did it already then, but allow God to process you through.
54:17
But you have to continue to give it over to God. A lot of
54:21
times when we get in our process, I know for me their time.
54:24
Even to the place I'm at, even at the level i'm at at all
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this, there's still moments where I get to a place in God where I'm
54:30
like, Lord, I'm tired and I do not feel like fighting. It's
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in those moments where I'm so transparent and say I am weak. He said,
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I was waiting for you. I was waiting for you to say that,
54:40
because when you run out of yourself, come on, when you come
54:44
to the end of yourself, then that allows me to truly be as my
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word says, when you're weak, I'm strong. But if you're still trying
54:50
to be strong in your own right. You're never gonna have room for me.
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So even though you're fatigue, I say, dip again, come on,
54:58
hurt, dip again. Don't know what God is doing? Dip again.
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Come on, He told you to go this way, but this way
55:05
seems like it has more heals than the other way. Dip again. Continue
55:08
to go and you will get that reward. And God says, just like
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the story about the lost son, the prodigal son, how he runs.
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God says in Revelation twenty two, I've run with you quickly, and come
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on, He's not leaving to get out. He says, my reward is
55:22
with me. So not only is the Savior coming, but the Savior is
55:24
coming with the reward. God is saying that once you get out of this
55:28
river, you're not coming empty I'm not coming empty handed. Come on,
55:30
you're gonna have a full healing. You're gonna be healed or less leprosy.
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You're gonna have a testimony, and there is much reward coming with that.
55:37
Continue to dip, dip again. That's that made me think of a song
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deal Babory dial listen, Dip baby baby deal Okay, like that's what I
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that's the song I heard and the same Yeah, no religious spirit, I
55:59
said, baby, deal, that's what Lloyd's selling us. Deal baby,
56:02
deal, because that we are his baby. Yes, it's like you're confiding
56:07
me. Deal baby. Come on, deal baby. Wow, that's you
56:12
just don't know how free that is. It says that got baby, I'm
56:15
with you. Dealt baby, I'm here for you. Dealt baby, I
56:16
won't take to dealt baby. Like who that that that will that some people
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think where you're the naming didn't deal alone. He looked like he was dipping
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alone. Even thank you all the spirit. This is so good. Even
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in the story where where Jesus goes and he he goes in the water um
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he's baptized by John the Baptist, it says that when he dialed he came
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up and that like the spirit, the spirit of God was upon him.
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And that's when God says, this is my son and whom I'm will pleased.
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Even Jesus, come on, even the one that saved us had to
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deal. Come on now, woman of God. And so if we are
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unsure about the power and the deal, then like, but Jesus did it.
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So now naming has done. This is Old Testament, right, So
57:15
naming is a representation of what's necessary for the for for what's to come.
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Because I know it probably didn't get tom. This is against against him over
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for me. But he remembered that moment of transformation. So if anything were
57:30
to happened, or any anything were to happened after the leprosy because he lives
57:36
with the leprosy for a while he lived. That was a disease that was
57:38
not incurable. Right, just like I said, was incurable. I feel
57:44
the whole listen, just like our Sam was incurable. But Jesus deal for
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he did he went through process for it. He didn't. He didn't just
57:52
die. People just put him on the cross and meeting Jesus, you're on
57:54
the cross. No, he was more then what's on the cross. He
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literally lived his life. Come on, I don't know what I don't I
58:01
don't know what's coming over me right now. But he literally limed his life
58:06
in the way they says, hey, I'm processing myself. I'm processing myself
58:10
so that you can understand that your process is worth it. Come on for
58:15
the greater good, hallelujah. And so when you dip you dipped in my
58:19
name, you dipped with the Father. And when you come up, my
58:22
God, I don't know why I'm here, but I'm here for a reason.
58:25
When you come up, my God is waiting to say, here's my
58:29
son, here's my daughter, and in him who in her? I am
58:34
well pleased. Yeah, oh my God, hold on, I gotta calm
58:37
down, my goodness, because this ain't it. I just went. I
58:40
just went to end wall. I just came to church. Y'all so blooding
58:45
my pastors. My pastors don't know how to not be in the glory.
58:50
Okay, who wait, Okay, you start talking the God to God.
58:59
But that's goods. Listen, listen. I'm sorry. This's a whole interview
59:13
and I know I just got well, it's not Yeah, it's I don't
59:16
know what it is. And I don't know what this is at this point,
59:22
but it's something. It's something. It's something about and I love breathe
59:27
because I ain't done this with anybody else. I don't. I get it's
59:31
hurt. It's certain people that you just get when you have any dialogues with
59:35
and you talk about the Word of God like ignites your fire. But we
59:37
do this in the car. We do, we do hitting the wheel and
59:42
everything like this is normal. And so when you have somebody that just brings
59:46
brings that out of you and y'all poor, oh yeah girl, this either
59:50
you need that what you say, community, right, y'all? Fun fact
59:54
that I didn't. I was trying to. I didn't know what I was,
59:58
um, and it was interesting, like if y'all watched the first video
1:00:01
and even if he've been on my page, we had we had several interviews
1:00:06
or podcast shows. Let's just say that together and if y'all paid attention to
1:00:12
our story. We went to school together, which college, and um,
1:00:15
they say that I was the one. They say that hours you know,
1:00:20
just you know, they knew that Justic gonna being a word or Justico did
1:00:23
just just gotta lest ship with God, right like they knew that. But
1:00:29
when we graduated college, this one was the one that received her calling and
1:00:36
just start I mean shooting like straight shoot, straight shooter. Like so when
1:00:45
I m I didn't even know any of this about me, Like I was
1:00:49
just going through life like Okay, I can just read the word and I
1:00:52
can do this and I can do this, and this one was like he
1:00:53
was like I keep calling this one because that's what bread. She stopped me
1:00:59
and my tracks like it was like, okay, okay, my gift is
1:01:02
activating. Now I'm going to use it on my my community. O,
1:01:05
my girl, that's so power. My gift is activated. Now I get
1:01:10
to use it on my community now and not necessarily use it and not as
1:01:14
even a controlling way, because she wasn't controlling. She just wouldn't been up
1:01:16
going to be apologetic about who she was coming to be. So if you
1:01:20
either you was gonna get with it, there's that boundary, or you're gonna
1:01:22
getten. And so I don't know. I was so watch this. This
1:01:27
is the This is the power of servitude, y'all. This is the power
1:01:30
of serving. I served her in the in her being obedience to God.
1:01:36
She know she has a minute she called dancing in the rain, which is
1:01:38
just so beautiful, and she does his women's to come for a brunch.
1:01:43
And when she first did it, I wasn't able to you know, Tim,
1:01:46
But after that, I was like, Okay. The first one,
1:01:50
I was like, I was a serve team. I was so I worked
1:01:55
my friend. I was a DJ. I took is financed team I'm talking
1:02:04
about one event, y'all. This was on one the tick of the day,
1:02:07
Like she was, y'all were laughing, but listen what strong beginnings.
1:02:19
That small beginning, but strong beginnings. That was strong. But as I
1:02:22
served, she was one like probably the first voice I heard to tell me
1:02:30
what God was doing with me right, And I didn't really have a title
1:02:36
order. I didn't understand what was going on. And I had called her
1:02:38
for something totally different one day. And I'm never gonna forget this conversation because
1:02:43
I was like, it was about the relationship. Y'all ain't gonna say,
1:02:45
gonna say it was about relationship, and I was crying about the relationship.
1:02:49
She was like, Okay, I've been waiting on God to give me permission
1:02:52
to talk to you about this. So I'm like, could listen that why
1:02:54
I talk to you about? Did He really permit you to do this?
1:02:58
Like? What open door did you get? But she got the open door
1:03:00
and she talked to me about, you know, my calling, Like she
1:03:04
talked to me about that that I had more to offer, and so I'm
1:03:07
gonta give you your flowers real quick, sis, because if that moment,
1:03:13
what people don't realize is moments matter. When you're disobedient in a moment,
1:03:19
it contradicts or conflicts with the moment of the nown right. And so that
1:03:22
moment was pivotal for even just Ask. I wouldn't have just ass, I
1:03:29
wouldn't naturally to vote it the just as Smith like that. But that came.
1:03:35
Watch this. This came from my friend. So I want to plug
1:03:37
in something. I read it this morning and I just was boohoo. I
1:03:42
don't know why I was boohoo, but I feel like I need to release
1:03:45
it now. So this is not just for you, but those that get
1:03:47
to this point. I believe that God's gonna tap in. So there reading.
1:03:51
I was reading Amos um this is chapter seven, and I want to
1:04:00
so Amos chapter seven, and so this was Amos. He came to the
1:04:05
Israel and he was giving harsh words that God had given them. And they
1:04:09
responded and they said, go away, you prophet. We don't want to
1:04:13
hear that. Go away prophet. Amos responded and said verse fourteen. But
1:04:16
Amos replied, I'm not a professional prophet. I was never trained to be
1:04:20
one. I'm just a shepherd, and I take care of sycamore fig trees.
1:04:25
But the Lord called me away from the flock and told me go and
1:04:29
propheeside to my people in Israel. So I say that to say, there
1:04:32
are some I'm speaking to you, there's some out there that you're like,
1:04:36
God, I'm not do you say he said I'm not. Amos said,
1:04:39
I'm not a professional prophet meeting. I didn't have a training. I didn't
1:04:43
go to it. He said, I'm not a son of a prophet meeting.
1:04:45
I didn't go to the school of the prophets. He's like, I'm
1:04:46
none of that. But these people called him a prophet, and Amos didn't
1:04:49
even realize he was dead. Listen, and there are some of y'all that
1:04:54
God, Heaven, Heaven. This is for those that know that Heaven has
1:04:58
already said it. Heaven said that God says you are a prophet. Okay,
1:05:01
I'm speaking specifically to the prophets. Okay, God says you are a
1:05:04
prophet. And you're looking at yourself and you're saying, but I don't have
1:05:09
the training. You're saying that I don't have the skills. I don't I
1:05:14
didn't go to the schools. You're saying all this different stuff and Amos.
1:05:16
He ordered himself down so much. He said, I'm just a shepherd that
1:05:19
takes care of the sick of board trees. And so God is saying,
1:05:23
I know you're the one in the sales team. I know you're you're the
1:05:27
teacher. I know you're the counsel. I know you're the therapist. I
1:05:30
know you're all this different stuff, he says. But God says that indeed,
1:05:33
you are my prophet. God did not say Amos to just go.
1:05:39
Amos just said, God just told me the prophetside. Know, Amos,
1:05:41
God told the prophet to local prophet side. So I was wondering why I
1:05:45
was boolo crying this morn because baby, I begin to pray for those that
1:05:48
you are. Not only you don't want to be called prophet, but you're
1:05:53
afraid to be called prophet. I was boohoo crying this morning. And so
1:05:57
I was like, well, I need to do a video, but this
1:05:59
is I gotta do what you look like that? Yeah, who sick a
1:06:12
man? God will make full of things. God would make full circles.
1:06:15
Okay, see this thing about stuff having on this side of the camera.
1:06:25
Wh Smith, Okay, all right, yeah, um, so that's me.
1:06:39
I'm I'm gonna call a spade a spade. Um, Am I gonna
1:06:43
calling myself thick? No, I mean, ain't missing it either, but
1:06:47
I believe it's gonna happen over time. Yeah, so heard it. I've
1:06:55
heard it several times in the last thirty days since we've been fastening. Several
1:06:59
times. Coach Coach did it last year and I was like, oooh no,
1:07:03
why you want to do that? Like, why you why you want
1:07:05
to put that on the screen like just called me. I had to come
1:07:10
in agreement with minister you know that, like minister um And I'm like and
1:07:17
then I got I think, oh this, this is so transparent. So
1:07:23
um, I think I got okay with it. When Mike pastor Mike Todd
1:07:29
had the series of you are a minister, everybody a minister or something like
1:07:31
that, it went something like that and he basically said where we all I
1:07:35
managed. I said, okay, I can get down with that. And
1:07:38
I remember I accepted the minister title. Then I was like, okay,
1:07:43
everybody's minister. It made it a little bit more. I was like,
1:07:47
okay, okay, I can do that. I can do that. Then
1:07:51
it was like as soon as I selt that boom. That's when coach did
1:07:56
the She gave me the list of people that were going to be praying and
1:08:03
they said minister this and Minister dead. Profit is justicau Smith And I was
1:08:09
like, I called her immediately. I called this this must be for somebody
1:08:15
that we I know it is, but I called coaching meeting. I was
1:08:19
like, hey, did you make a mistake. M h find a happy
1:08:25
place? Oh, because I'm trying to craft, I do this now find
1:08:31
my happy place. Um. I was like, you made a mistake,
1:08:38
and she was like, no, never mind you I respected under my coach,
1:08:42
so I didn't challenge her. Let it be. We get to this
1:08:46
year and you know Profeta cun is coming up. No shame, no shamus
1:08:53
plug. I'm so so excited about Prophetic cun four point of the church conference.
1:08:57
By the time you can get this, you might have a few a
1:09:00
couple of weeks to get the tickets, but that's not as shame as pook.
1:09:02
Go be there, okay, um, But now we roll back around
1:09:10
again and we're in the efforts of getting things done when this we're fasting Apostle
1:09:15
Travis Apostle Travis jennings he UM's prophet signed to her. Prophet signed to Desiree
1:09:26
about finances. I I just say, I'm agreeing with her word immediately skips
1:09:33
over people that are in a middle and a lot of people in between us
1:09:40
and come to me and he said, YouTube then starts, you know,
1:09:45
releasing the word of a prophet, not only a prophet, but evangelism,
1:09:53
because I've had questions about that. It was like, God, what did
1:09:54
the event? Was a word come in because I knew about the evangelism.
1:09:59
Oh, that's always than me. I'm confident in the evangelism that profit.
1:10:05
Okay, so we get that word now in the past two weeks since we've
1:10:11
been getting ready for profit to cood. These are coaches, friends, these
1:10:15
are her, these are her. This is a circle and so I'm reaching
1:10:19
out to them on behalf of the ministry. And one responded to me prophetess
1:10:29
exclamation part and I'm just like, okay, then say nothing. I spoke
1:10:34
to one yesterday. I spoke to one of them yesterday and they were doing
1:10:42
they're doing something operationally and had to have a list. My name is on
1:10:46
this list, and I told her that somebody else wasn't I said, hey,
1:10:54
you can put minister in front of her name, because we like you
1:10:56
gotta call it what its, you gotta honor what it is, and we
1:10:58
believe that. And so she responded, she said, oh, that was
1:11:02
an accident. She said also she was like, it shouldn't it be propheties
1:11:08
propheties instead of minister. And before I could even respond, she sent me
1:11:14
the updated one with my name, and so I called, I make phone
1:11:18
calls, like, let's let's talk. Let me make this phone call real
1:11:23
quick. Man. You didn't even give me a chance to answer, she
1:11:27
said, but didn't we established this last year. I'm sorry, but then
1:11:31
we established this last year and so I'm not even gonna lied to call play
1:11:35
play. I'm probably running from that, like, um, it's a lot
1:11:42
because it is a responsibility. Yeah, it's a responsibility, but just so's
1:11:49
his time and it's just and and it had to be said here because there
1:11:55
are more that are watching. I didn't know why. I was like,
1:11:59
Lord, I'm I'm praying for these people y'all that don't that are afraid to
1:12:03
accept the tip and anything is y'all not you don't have a problem with going
1:12:08
to prophet side. You don't have a problem with being obedient. To think
1:12:11
about Amos. Amos he said, I'm just here because God told me the
1:12:15
prophetside here, like, I'm just being obedient to God. And so y'all,
1:12:17
it's not an issue of being obedient. It's the issue of bearing the
1:12:23
title. I know, for me with the Minister title, I didn't want
1:12:27
the title because knowing the responsibility that came with the title, knowing that a
1:12:30
lifestyle had to come up in order to have the title right. And so
1:12:33
some of that can be there. But listen, at the end of the
1:12:38
day, it was the people who did not want to hear the word that
1:12:41
told Amos he was a prophet. God will allow your enemies sometimes to confirm
1:12:45
where you are. They just gave me to listen. So, God,
1:12:49
this is a word not only to my sister, but to those that are
1:12:53
watching that you know this bears witness like your baby leap when I begin to
1:12:57
read that scripture Amos seven thirteen fourteen. Listen, God, you may not
1:13:01
consider yourself a professional prophet, you may not consider yourself a trained prophet,
1:13:06
But what does Heaven say? Drop Mike, That's it. What does Heaven
1:13:11
say? What does Heaven say, God says, and when he makes a
1:13:15
word, when he's established it, who can revoke it? Revoke it?
1:13:18
So if he says that, my son, my daughter, you are a
1:13:20
prophet, who can revoke it? Not even the ones that don't want to
1:13:26
hear the harsh word can revoke it. They actually, they gonna call you
1:13:30
something that you're afraid to call yourself. And it is so, it is
1:13:35
so, it is what it is. It is what it is. Oh
1:13:41
my gosh. So what I'm hearing is that you shall pray for those people.
1:13:48
Amen, Amen, Father God, in the name of Jesus, Lord,
1:13:53
I just thank you for every prophet that you have identified. Lord,
1:13:59
and Lord, I thank you for every prophet that you have identified. Lord.
1:14:00
We call them up to you now in the name of Jesus. We
1:14:03
thank you Lord, that even though they look to themselves and they're looking at
1:14:06
their past, they're looking at their history, they're looking at what they feel
1:14:10
like they don't have. They're looking at to others and say, oh,
1:14:13
but they're are professional. They are the trained when they went to school of
1:14:16
the prophets this and school of the prophet that. But God, you have
1:14:18
put these sons and daughters through a holy Spirit school God, and you are
1:14:24
the great teacher. Lord. Everyone's process may be different. But Lord,
1:14:28
I thank you Lord that now that those that just like Amos, they are
1:14:31
afraid to call themselves a prophet. Lord, I just decree and declare in
1:14:35
the name of Jesus that they won't be able to be a jonah. They
1:14:40
won't be able to run from the call. They won't be able to run
1:14:42
from the mission and along from Hallelujah. Because I hear God saying that there
1:14:45
is a reward that comes with the title. You're trying to avoid the title,
1:14:49
but there's a reward that comes with the title, even when you bear
1:14:53
the title. I heard one lady say it like this. She said,
1:14:56
a title is not everything, but a title is everything. And God is
1:14:59
saying that a title is not everything, but this title is everything. Hallelujah.
1:15:03
And so even as you all begin to embrace and accept in the timing
1:15:08
of God, hallelujah, we're not pushing people out before their timeless And don't
1:15:13
go before God. Go with God. Only latch onto this word if you
1:15:16
know that this is for you, and God will confirm. But those that
1:15:20
know that this is for God for you in the timing. I decree and
1:15:25
declare in the name of Jesus that you're bearing this mantle with all of its
1:15:30
weight. I decree and declare that what you feel like you lack, that
1:15:32
God is just going to begin to pour into you. Remember if if God
1:15:36
sends you to a book, that's a part of the training. You guys,
1:15:40
don't don't limit yourself to think you got to pay a fee. Come
1:15:44
on, somebody for a title that God has already established. God says,
1:15:48
and it is so over what I have established. So I just decree and
1:15:53
declare the name of Jesus that the amosists are rising up and taking the title
1:15:59
Jesus name a man, man so good he is. Even while you were
1:16:03
praying, and this is I heard like assault myself hesitating on the title of
1:16:09
branch manager. And you know, it's been a year since I became a
1:16:13
branch manager. And Greg actually you know, spoke on the pot and we
1:16:20
got to talk about that. We got to talk about how hesitant I was
1:16:24
on even in the fears that were resided and being in that. And so
1:16:29
I don't even think that prayer even if okay, the profit title doesn't resonate
1:16:33
with you. We talk about ministry and marketplace. This is a place of
1:16:38
ministry and marketplace. This is a a safe space for creators and entrepreneurs.
1:16:44
But that's just a that's a portion of you to see of what she's talking
1:16:48
about is what you embody, no matter what you decide to do. So
1:16:53
no matter if you are behind the camera like Desiree, or inner healing like
1:16:57
Breathe, or even still in corporate America like me, you know, your
1:17:02
gift still goes with you and it still makes room. And so the titles
1:17:06
that we are afraid of from what I hear, what Breeze is praying,
1:17:10
is that they're calling you that already. Your response is just what's waiting.
1:17:15
Your response is what's pending, and so we just gotta respond to it.
1:17:19
You gotta respond to it. I'm getting full. Yeah, yeah, I
1:17:29
don't really have any more words. What's making you full right now? Just
1:17:36
how God is so intentional. He's so intentional that Amos is a book that
1:17:44
any one has none chapters. I could have read that all in one day,
1:17:45
but he chose for me to split it up just so on this day
1:17:50
I started in chapter seven that talks about that, and he had to me
1:17:54
to stop what I was doing to pray. And then I was like,
1:17:57
Lord, I got to do a video. And then I felt once I
1:18:00
wrote it down and jown a little, I felt like, oh, maybe
1:18:01
I don't have to do a video. But then when you said that,
1:18:03
I said, I knew that God was saying, it's now that you need.
1:18:06
This is the video. It's not you doing the video, it's you
1:18:10
speaking to someone who identifies with it. And there are people in watching who
1:18:14
identify with you. That's why you're called to them, right, this is
1:18:16
a nation they identify in the same way. And so just God, it's
1:18:21
just just to how God is like, I need this to get out to
1:18:26
my people that are afraid to have the title. It's time to rise up,
1:18:30
y'all. It's time to rise up. So before we start crying,
1:18:34
right, Oh, this has been great. I thank you for your support.
1:18:42
Um, it always is great. Yeah, I knew one of me.
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It's gonna be late because I need to do the show up. But
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man, there's a way gonna be worn out by the time I bring everybody
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I want to bring. It's just it's just oh man, So if you
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had one thing to leave with the people. Um, what is what is
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that? I think just a reminder of what you said earlier. So I'm
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gonna piggyback actually on something that you said is to continue to dip, continue
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to don't abort that process. Stay in the race. The race is not
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given to the swift, but the one that endures. So I speak a
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blessing over you that indeed you shall endure. Amen, thank you, say
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y'all. We're gonna cut the camera off and I don't know what's about to
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hand, So I hope y'all praying on the other end, whatever happened is
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just going to be residue of the next season. Um, she might grace
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some prisons. Basically, I don't know, but y'all didn't warned me out.
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I'm done. I'm done, So we love you to appreciate you.
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