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meet_kisha_johnson_mcrae 3-24-25 · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: K ladies and gentleman, May I have your attention please.
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  Speaker 1: The show starts in tell eight seven six Hi all
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  Speaker 1: three two FN go.
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  Speaker 2: Oh well, well, well, welcome, welcome, welcome. I want to
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  Speaker 2: welcome you guys too, another episode of Upcoast and Personal
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  Speaker 2: with Angela on behalf of Aspiring Off This magazine and
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  Speaker 2: The Crew Podcast. I want to thank you guys for
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  Speaker 2: joining us on today.
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  Speaker 3: I hear so it going.
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  Speaker 2: I don't know what that is. I never heard that before,
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  Speaker 2: but y'all know technology, and y'all know what we did
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  Speaker 2: with on a daily basis. For those that do support
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  Speaker 2: us know what we deal with. So I want to
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  Speaker 2: encourage you guys, So go ahead and share this with
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  Speaker 2: someone in your circle of influence and hopefully even they
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  Speaker 2: would get this together because they are really doing a number.
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  Speaker 2: I'm telling you. I don't know if you guys can
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  Speaker 2: hear this, but it's a lot of static in the background.
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  Speaker 2: But we're gonna try to move forward. We're gonna try
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  Speaker 2: to move forward, y'all know me. I'd like to make
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  Speaker 2: sure that I'm representing my guests the best that I can.
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  Speaker 2: So I want to make sure that you guys, So
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  Speaker 2: those that are listening if you would please let me
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  Speaker 2: know if it's clear to you, because I don't want
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  Speaker 2: to bring my guests on and y'all can't hear her,
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  Speaker 2: So can y'all hear me? Okay, just say put yes
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  Speaker 2: in the comment if you can hear me. Let me
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  Speaker 2: get on my other device really quick, because I want
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  Speaker 2: to make sure clear when I bring my guests up,
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  Speaker 2: I want to make sure we are loud and clear.
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  Speaker 2: So y'all give me a second. Y'all know, I'm gonna
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  Speaker 2: work this out. Let me see what's going on here. Okay,
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  Speaker 2: it's clear, so I'm gonna bring her own up, y'all.
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  Speaker 2: I had to check, so I had to get on
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  Speaker 2: my other device, and I had to make sure. So
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  Speaker 2: I'm gonna bring my special guests up tonight. We have
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  Speaker 2: another amazing author. Not only is she a woman that's
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  Speaker 2: representing international women's history one, but she is also an author, y'all,
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  Speaker 2: So we're gonna she's a part of the one hundred
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  Speaker 2: Our Movements. So tonight we really gonna get a chance
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  Speaker 2: to dive in and find out about miss Keisha Johnson
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  Speaker 2: mick Ray. So I'm gonna bring her up and allow
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  Speaker 2: her the opportunity to introduce herself. So let me bring
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  Speaker 2: her up, get her in the studio. All right, all right,
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  Speaker 2: all right. I don't know what's going on with this
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  Speaker 2: technology tonight, but you know what, we don't stop. We
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  Speaker 2: don't stop.
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  Speaker 3: Hey, how are you?
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  Speaker 2: It was like I didn't want you to come in
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  Speaker 2: the studio.
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  Speaker 3: Was a liar. We ain't claiming him tonight, not at all,
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  Speaker 3: not at all.
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  Speaker 2: He was just being a little messed. But they know,
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  Speaker 2: we don't stop. We keep pressing, and we keep pressing.
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  Speaker 2: That's what we do. So hello, how are you?
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  Speaker 3: I am also a wonderful thank you so much for
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  Speaker 3: this opportunity of sharing this time with you. I really
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  Speaker 3: really appreciate you, appreciate you actually in all that you do.
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  Speaker 3: I just want to say to you from my heart
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  Speaker 3: to yours that I am so I am very very
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  Speaker 3: grateful to First of go to the Lord, my Lord
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  Speaker 3: Jesus Christ above for the opportunities that you you you
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  Speaker 3: persevere and give others right and give up yourself. But
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  Speaker 3: I want to I also thank him for you singing
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  Speaker 3: yes and obeying right, being obedient to the call that's
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  Speaker 3: on your life. Because Queen Angela, you definitely have a calling.
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  Speaker 3: You had you on my mind today and I was
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  Speaker 3: just saying to myself and I actually I was talking
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  Speaker 3: to my mother about you today and I said, I
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  Speaker 3: don't know how she do what she do. I said, Ma,
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  Speaker 3: if you follow her, how does she do all these
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  Speaker 3: things by herself? And I had to realize that ain't
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  Speaker 3: nothing but God. So that is definitely your gift. This
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  Speaker 3: is definitely your calling that you're operating in. You know
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  Speaker 3: what I'm saying. So you definitely you're definitely on the
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  Speaker 3: throne right there there, right there with God. You know,
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  Speaker 3: He's definitely pushing you and give you the strength to
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  Speaker 3: do everything that you do. And I from my heart,
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  Speaker 3: like I said to yours, I appreciate you for that.
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  Speaker 3: I really do.
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  Speaker 2: Amen. Amen, Amen, And I thank you for that because
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  Speaker 2: it is nothing but God. And I often tell people,
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  Speaker 2: you know, I do not work unto man. I work
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  Speaker 2: unto the Lord. So therefore I have no expectations from
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  Speaker 2: man because I know that it comes from above. So
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  Speaker 2: that's why I do what I do. And that's how
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  Speaker 2: I'm able to do what I do because I know
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  Speaker 2: it's not by my strength because who am I? You know,
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  Speaker 2: I have no power I couldn't do this, so I
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  Speaker 2: know that it is He that operates within me. So yeah,
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  Speaker 2: I'm grateful, and I'm grateful that He allowed me to
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  Speaker 2: be in the midst of great people that make it
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  Speaker 2: so easy, that make it seem so easy.
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  Speaker 3: So it's all Him, it is, it is and I
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  Speaker 3: And I also want to say to you that you know,
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  Speaker 3: like the word tellers, you know many a call, but
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  Speaker 3: few are chosen. And I'm gonna tell you may be
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  Speaker 3: operating your calling, but you was chosen for this. So
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  Speaker 3: that's why you do what you do. And that's why
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  Speaker 3: you're able to do what you do by his unchanging hands,
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  Speaker 3: you know, because he's holding order you. I tell you
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  Speaker 3: because like I said, I look at what you do
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  Speaker 3: woo And I said Lord, And I said, b she
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  Speaker 3: doesn't have anybody operating this with her but the Lord himself.
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  Speaker 3: She don't have a bunch of assistants and workers and
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  Speaker 3: this and this and that. She may get some help
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  Speaker 3: here and there, but I do know you do this
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  Speaker 3: with your own hands, you know, you know, so you're
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  Speaker 3: definitely operating in the Lord's calling and being chosen to
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  Speaker 3: do what you need to do on this earth. And
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  Speaker 3: walking in your purpose. I mean, that's that's all I
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  Speaker 3: can say.
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  Speaker 2: Man, that's how I want to get them. And I
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  Speaker 2: wanted to be an outlet so that others can, you know,
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  Speaker 2: share his goodness. You know. It's it's with me. It's
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  Speaker 2: all about him, you know. And when I first started
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  Speaker 2: doing all of this, I used to tell people. When
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  Speaker 2: I first started a LAC and people used to come
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  Speaker 2: online on whatever I was doing, and they would say,
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  Speaker 2: ask me questions or whatever. It was always it's more
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  Speaker 2: than books. It's not about books. And God just begin
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  Speaker 2: to show me that because when I started going live
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  Speaker 2: and started doing live, it just like I would have
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  Speaker 2: an outline of questions that I was gonna ask people,
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  Speaker 2: and He would just change everything. So that's why I
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  Speaker 2: stopped with the questions. I stopped with having to sending
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  Speaker 2: people questions because they'll have their mindset to answer these questions.
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  Speaker 2: And then God's gonna take me a whole nother direction.
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  Speaker 3: Like he it's like, just.
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  Speaker 2: Listen to them, He tell me, just listen to them.
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  Speaker 2: Here they have to say, and I'm gonna give you
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  Speaker 2: what to stay back so you don't have to have
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  Speaker 2: the questions. He said, It's about relationship. It's about having conversations.
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  Speaker 2: So it's about us having a conversation. We get to
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  Speaker 2: know each other and we have those conversations. So I
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  Speaker 2: want to make people comfortable. I want people to feel like,
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  Speaker 2: you know, they they're at home with a friend, a sister,
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  Speaker 2: somebody that they can relate to. So that that's how
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  Speaker 2: I got here. And I thank you for that because
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  Speaker 2: sometimes we need we we we need that confirmation, right,
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  Speaker 2: and that was just confirmation on today. You know, God
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  Speaker 2: just he'll send you a reminder, He'll he'll send you
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  Speaker 2: someone to remind you of that that you already know
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  Speaker 2: that He's placed in you. But sometimes we allow all
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  Speaker 2: flesh to rise up and then sometimes we just need
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  Speaker 2: you know that that that that spirit man to come
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  Speaker 2: in and say, hey, connect with Joe, spirit man and
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  Speaker 2: connect with you, and then it goes down because sometimes
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  Speaker 2: you know, you wonder if what you're doing, if it's
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  Speaker 2: making a difference it, do it really matter? Do do
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  Speaker 2: people really care? You know, it is not funny that
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  Speaker 2: you say that, because even on the end of last week,
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  Speaker 2: I was even I was having second thoughts about the
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  Speaker 2: one hundred out the movement. I was really wondering you know, God,
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  Speaker 2: is this really what you want me to do? Because
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  Speaker 2: it's not. It's like the more I try to pour,
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  Speaker 2: it's like nobody is. Nobody is grabbing what I'm giving,
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  Speaker 2: just like it's valuable stuff, stuff that can help you,
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  Speaker 2: stuff that you know, and and it's free. I'm not
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  Speaker 2: charging you for it. And it's just like people just
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  Speaker 2: looking at it and it's just being looked at and
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  Speaker 2: nobody is utilizing it, right, and it just hurts my
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  Speaker 2: It's sad. I'm not going to say it hurts my heart.
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  Speaker 2: It saddens my heart that you present this right there
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  Speaker 2: in front of them and they won't take advantage of.
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  Speaker 3: It like you have it.
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  Speaker 2: It's right here, Just step out and do it. Like
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  Speaker 2: I'm not gonna tell you something that I haven't done, right,
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  Speaker 2: Like I'm trying to give you things that work for
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  Speaker 2: some of us that we know work, you know. Right now,
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  Speaker 2: I'm using stuff that I just learned this class. I
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  Speaker 2: just got my NBA, So I'm trying to utilize some
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  Speaker 2: of these things that I've learned over these last two
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  Speaker 2: years of trying to get this this degree. So I
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  Speaker 2: feel like if they say on paper that I know
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  Speaker 2: what I'm doing. Then let me help you.
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  Speaker 3: Right, that's right, let me help you.
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  Speaker 2: I graduated soon.
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  Speaker 3: Cool?
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  Speaker 2: Yeah again, but enough about me, that's all right. You
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  Speaker 2: So you are someone I think we've been knowing each
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  Speaker 2: other about a year, yes, maybe a little over a year,
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  Speaker 2: and you are someone that need to be writing. I'm like,
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  Speaker 2: she needs to be writing, she needs to be getting
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  Speaker 2: that stuff out. But you have, you have, you have
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  Speaker 2: written in some of my collaboration projects. So you have
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  Speaker 2: been getting it out. But it's time.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, you're right, You're right. And God, I've gotten those confirmations,
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  Speaker 3: even from my bishop. You know, he didn't know exactly
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  Speaker 3: what was going on, but it was He told me
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  Speaker 3: it was time to move forward. You know, people tell
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  Speaker 3: me it's God is telling me move move for it.
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  Speaker 3: And you know sometime we we Christmas. What does that mean?
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  Speaker 3: It's simple, I know what's going on in my life.
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  Speaker 3: I know what I need to be doing, and it's
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  Speaker 3: just God needs to be pushing for it. Because God
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  Speaker 3: is not going to give me and give me these gifts.
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  Speaker 3: He's not gonna put me through the trials and tribulations
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  Speaker 3: and have me overcome them to a degree to where
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  Speaker 3: I can't help nobody else and me feel like I'm
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  Speaker 3: less than or that I can't help that person. When
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  Speaker 3: I had to realize that, you know, me being chosen
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  Speaker 3: to do what I do is because God saw it
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  Speaker 3: in me. You know. God wouldn't have put it in me.
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  Speaker 3: God wouldn't have chosen me if he didn't think that
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  Speaker 3: I can handle it. He's not gonna have me go
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  Speaker 3: out there and put things out there or speak or share,
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  Speaker 3: you know, my testimonies and look like a fool, you
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  Speaker 3: know what I mean. I had to, you know, but
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  Speaker 3: this is sometimes how the enemy, you know, works, And
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  Speaker 3: I had to, you know, and I'm still fighting. I
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  Speaker 3: could be authentic. I'm still fighting through that because I
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  Speaker 3: do feel that it is a true calling all my life,
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  Speaker 3: that saying does not want to come the past, and
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  Speaker 3: just having these opportunities, I had to realize, like, these
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  Speaker 3: opportunities are opportunities for you to help somebody else. You
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  Speaker 3: cannot do for other people, and you cannot share by
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  Speaker 3: holding it in. It's not for me. That's what I
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  Speaker 3: had to realize, that what I do, and even what
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  Speaker 3: you do, it's not for us.
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  Speaker 2: We wasn't put on.
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  Speaker 3: Here for the purpose to serve for us we was
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  Speaker 3: put on there. You know, I do nobody no service.
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  Speaker 3: I do them with disservice by not sharing my life,
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  Speaker 3: sharing my testimony, sharing my brand, sharing what I do
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  Speaker 3: with other people when I know that they can practically
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  Speaker 3: and perhaps save somebody's life. I'm actually I feel that
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  Speaker 3: I'm I had to keep this in my mind, that
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  Speaker 3: I'm helping someone else commit emotional and spiritually suicide by
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  Speaker 3: not sharing what God has given me, because what I
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  Speaker 3: have could save some what I say tonight, or what
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  Speaker 3: I have said, or what somebody has read. If I
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  Speaker 3: don't put it out there, how they're gonna read it
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  Speaker 3: in order to have their life changed and experienced transformation
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  Speaker 3: exactly exactly.
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  Speaker 2: And I remember us having a conversation and you was
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  Speaker 2: telling me how you suffer with lupus and how when
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  Speaker 2: you went to the doctor, they there was no evidence,
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  Speaker 2: like they if the doctor said, if he did not
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  Speaker 2: know you had lucas, he would not have believed that
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  Speaker 2: you suffered from lucas, you know. And I'm just like,
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  Speaker 2: I'm just I'm like, you know, people need to hear that.
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  Speaker 2: People need to hear that, because I know plenty of
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  Speaker 2: people that suffer with lupis matter. In fact, my niece
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  Speaker 2: suffered with lucas. And I know people that suffer with lupus,
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  Speaker 2: and some of them they they have doubts. They they
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  Speaker 2: they they listen to all the things that the doctor saying.
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  Speaker 2: They as different things. Like my niece, she she just
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  Speaker 2: she and she won't try. And and and I me
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  Speaker 2: and my me and my sister, we get so aggravated
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  Speaker 2: sometimes because like I want her to get up. My
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  Speaker 2: kniece has gained so much weight and weight go up
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  Speaker 2: and down, all the different medications or whatever. And I
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  Speaker 2: to me, every time I see her, I just I
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  Speaker 2: feel like she's just in so much pain. And it
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  Speaker 2: just hurts me because she's hurting and I see her hurt,
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  Speaker 2: and whenever I talk to her, it's her her son
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  Speaker 2: with he he said, Mama's not feeling good today. She's
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  Speaker 2: laying down. It's always she's laying down, you know. And
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  Speaker 2: she's like, I'm trying to help take care of mama today,
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  Speaker 2: you know. And I'm like, wow, that's not uh me
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  Speaker 2: a child should have to live. I'm definitely waiting for
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  Speaker 2: that book to come out, because you're gonna bless a
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  Speaker 2: lot of people when you share about you know, when
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  Speaker 2: you share about your condition, when you share about you know,
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  Speaker 2: how you're living with lupas and how you're still able
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  Speaker 2: to get out and do all of the stuff that
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  Speaker 2: you're doing. And you know, and I tell people, and
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  Speaker 2: it's a lot of us that we don't look like
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  Speaker 2: what we go through. We don't look like what we've
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  Speaker 2: been through. We don't look like none of that stuff.
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  Speaker 2: But I tell people all the time, you know, it
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  Speaker 2: took all of that to make us look like what
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  Speaker 2: we look like though.
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  Speaker 3: That's right, that's right. The struggle, the pain, you know,
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  Speaker 3: and a lot of times, you know, I was diagnosed.
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  Speaker 3: I'm fifty four now. I was diagnosed with lupus a
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  Speaker 3: year after my daughter was born. So just imagine that
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  Speaker 3: year after my daughter born. Here it is, I'm told
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  Speaker 3: I have lupus. And first of all, when I was
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  Speaker 3: told and diagnosed, you know, a whole year after I
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  Speaker 3: suffered the way I did with the pain, because I
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  Speaker 3: was like a walking they just couldn't understand what was
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  Speaker 3: wrong with me. You know, I would blow up in
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  Speaker 3: the face. Mine would happen more in the face, and
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  Speaker 3: it was more physical with the chronic pain. They just
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  Speaker 3: could not understand what was wrong with me, and I
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  Speaker 3: was diagnosed with through a rash they call the butterfly rash.
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  Speaker 3: It was a rash that would happen around the nose
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  Speaker 3: and it was in the shape of a like a butterfly,
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  Speaker 3: and they took a piece of it. My grandmother, maternal grandmother,
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  Speaker 3: is diagnosed with it, and also my aunt. You know,
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  Speaker 3: neither one of them is with us at this time,
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  Speaker 3: but I'm the one standing with it right now. And
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  Speaker 3: the fact that I could, you know, I like to
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  Speaker 3: show people. I like to show my family that loopis
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  Speaker 3: is not me. I don't have to I have to diagnosis,
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  Speaker 3: but it doesn't define who I am. But at the beginning,
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  Speaker 3: it wasn't always like that, and me feeling and me
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  Speaker 3: knowing that at the beginning when I was diagnosed, I
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  Speaker 3: was a hot mess.
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  Speaker 2: I was.
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  Speaker 3: I was emotionally destroyed, overwhelmed because I had a one
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  Speaker 3: year old to raise, and the fact that the doctor
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  Speaker 3: at that time, nineteen ninety nineteen ninety one, they didn't
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  Speaker 3: know pretty much how to deal with loops, what to
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  Speaker 3: do to smack us with some print the zone and
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  Speaker 3: that was it. You know, That's probably why maybe your
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  Speaker 3: niece is blowing up, you know, and gaining the weight
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  Speaker 3: on and off, because that's what happened with me. When
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  Speaker 3: I get on it, I would blow up. Then when
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  Speaker 3: I get off, I'm losing, you know. So it was
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  Speaker 3: an emotional trauma when my body with life me raising mentally,
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  Speaker 3: you know, I've been off. I was on fourteen medications
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  Speaker 3: at one time, between LOOPIS and mental health. And I
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  Speaker 3: believe all this had to do with me thinking that
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  Speaker 3: LOOPIS was going to be the rest of my life
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  Speaker 3: and I had to live my life through LOOPIS. So
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  Speaker 3: the pain I felt every day, I had to look
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  Speaker 3: forward to that pain. That's how I was living. And
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  Speaker 3: just imagine having a doctor come in the room to
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  Speaker 3: tell you the diagnosis and he said to me that, yeah,
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  Speaker 3: you have LOOPIS. He told that to me like he
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  Speaker 3: was telling me that, you know, maybe I had a cold.
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  Speaker 3: He said, yeah, you diagnosed with lupis. And I just
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  Speaker 3: want to let you know that the Loopis lifespan is
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  Speaker 3: ten years. So I had to I had to internalize that,
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  Speaker 3: and I had to realize why so many years I
• 21:11
  Speaker 3: felt that I was gonna die, I was gonna be
• 21:14
  Speaker 3: taken from this earth from LOOPIS. At age forty. I
• 21:18
  Speaker 3: didn't realize that until maybe a few years ago, of
• 21:20
  Speaker 3: what was internalized the way he told me what he
• 21:25
  Speaker 3: told me, you had no reason to say to me,
• 21:28
  Speaker 3: You had no reason to even give me that information, period.
• 21:31
  Speaker 3: And I internalized that, and I lived a lot of
• 21:34
  Speaker 3: my life thinking I was gonna die at forty. So
• 21:37
  Speaker 3: just just imagine, just imagine. And I had a one
• 21:42
  Speaker 3: year old to raise. My daughter was one year old,
• 21:44
  Speaker 3: you know when I diagnosed. And at seven, you know,
• 21:48
  Speaker 3: my daughter was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis. At the time,
• 21:51
  Speaker 3: they call it juvenile rheumatory arthritis. So now here I
• 21:56
  Speaker 3: am battling loopis. But at the same time I had
• 21:59
  Speaker 3: to suppressed put that on the backbone burner, because I
• 22:02
  Speaker 3: had to raise a child that I had to watch
• 22:04
  Speaker 3: go through adult medication and chronic pain that I could
• 22:08
  Speaker 3: do nothing about. I always had my my spirituality, but
• 22:14
  Speaker 3: I was operating in the lawd like that at that age.
• 22:17
  Speaker 3: I just took from my mother's and you know, the
• 22:21
  Speaker 3: people in my family that were you know, saved, and
• 22:26
  Speaker 3: you know I had I went on with. I went
• 22:29
  Speaker 3: on them, I went on with they perceived God to
• 22:32
  Speaker 3: be So that kept me you know, strengthened, and I
• 22:35
  Speaker 3: know I was prayed over, so I was able to
• 22:38
  Speaker 3: kind of overcome those challenges. But just imagine, this is
• 22:42
  Speaker 3: why I think I'm so passionate about the caregivers, the parents,
• 22:49
  Speaker 3: you know who who are sick themselves to chronic illness,
• 22:52
  Speaker 3: going through the chronic illness, and also at the same
• 22:54
  Speaker 3: time raising another child with chronic illness all meant to challenges.
• 23:01
  Speaker 3: You know, my daughter was a miracle baby. I always
• 23:04
  Speaker 3: call it that she was a miracle baby because I
• 23:06
  Speaker 3: said that I have day by men and doctors, I
• 23:09
  Speaker 3: shouldn't have had no baby while I was suffering with lupis,
• 23:13
  Speaker 3: but I wasn't diagnosed until after I had her. So
• 23:16
  Speaker 3: what happened was I already had the loopis was operating
• 23:19
  Speaker 3: in my body, but once I had her, the struggle
• 23:22
  Speaker 3: of that and the different things that I went through
• 23:24
  Speaker 3: and my body changing. Actually you know, it showed up,
• 23:29
  Speaker 3: you know as the loopist and then it and then
• 23:33
  Speaker 3: ten years later the same thing with my son. I
• 23:36
  Speaker 3: had to suppress the loopis again. And mind you, I'm
• 23:38
  Speaker 3: still on all these medications. I'm still going through the pain.
• 23:41
  Speaker 3: I'm still going through. I had to raise my son
• 23:44
  Speaker 3: who was diagnosed when he was seven. I said, I
• 23:46
  Speaker 3: don't know what it is. Lord, God, you have me
• 23:48
  Speaker 3: with the Sevens, with ADHD. You know, later to find
• 23:52
  Speaker 3: out that I suffered for the simples you know as well.
• 23:55
  Speaker 2: So this is why you.
• 23:56
  Speaker 3: Know I find in my lifetime. I had to sit
• 24:00
  Speaker 3: back and say, well, okay, Lord, what am I to
• 24:02
  Speaker 3: do with all of this? You know, what did you
• 24:05
  Speaker 3: do for me? I had to sit back and say,
• 24:07
  Speaker 3: the Lord saved me from a lot of emotional distress.
• 24:10
  Speaker 3: You know, he healed me a lot emotionally, you know,
• 24:14
  Speaker 3: because I could. I felt like I was going to
• 24:18
  Speaker 3: lose my mind, but I did not, you know, suicidal idiation.
• 24:23
  Speaker 3: You know, I can look back on all of that.
• 24:26
  Speaker 3: You know. I'm also I guess you would call it
• 24:30
  Speaker 3: a sexual assault survivor. You know, I experienced that for
• 24:34
  Speaker 3: somebody I trusted. So all of this and here I
• 24:39
  Speaker 3: am today and a lot of it, Like you said, Angela,
• 24:44
  Speaker 3: people don't know. And it's like, God, is why you're
• 24:47
  Speaker 3: not telling this story? You know why you're not telling
• 24:51
  Speaker 3: these stories? Right? These are all a part of you
• 24:54
  Speaker 3: that people could use. Because I allow people to tell
• 24:56
  Speaker 3: me that it's too much. It's a lot. You can't
• 25:02
  Speaker 3: talk about all that. You got to stick to one thing.
• 25:05
  Speaker 3: So I got stuck in that. I think that's what
• 25:08
  Speaker 3: it was too. It's like, Okay, what do I talk about?
• 25:11
  Speaker 3: I talk about all of that?
• 25:13
  Speaker 2: Yeah, you talk about all of that because all of
• 25:15
  Speaker 2: that is you like, you know, people wonder why I
• 25:19
  Speaker 2: never wrote a memoir because it's so much. If in
• 25:28
  Speaker 2: these one hundred I tell people, if you want a memoir,
• 25:31
  Speaker 2: go pick up some of these one hundred and thirty
• 25:33
  Speaker 2: one pieces of work I got out here. You can
• 25:35
  Speaker 2: find out a little bit about me and every piece
• 25:38
  Speaker 2: of it because it's a piece of me and all
• 25:40
  Speaker 2: of them. So you learn bits and pieces here and there.
• 25:44
  Speaker 2: But along the way, you get a story of who
• 25:47
  Speaker 2: I am. So it's never too much. You can put
• 25:50
  Speaker 2: it all over the place, you can put it in.
• 25:53
  Speaker 2: It's so many different formats, so many different ways. But
• 25:57
  Speaker 2: you have a journey that so many people need and
• 26:02
  Speaker 2: want to hear. We often have that. Don't nobody want
• 26:06
  Speaker 2: to hear that? That that made them EMPs wanted, Yeah,
• 26:11
  Speaker 2: that be them. Imps wanted to tap into what they know.
• 26:14
  Speaker 2: God is already placed on the inside of it. But
• 26:16
  Speaker 2: They can't stop that because he's gonna continue to place you.
• 26:21
  Speaker 2: He gonna bring you if you if you want to
• 26:24
  Speaker 2: to to to deny it. He gonna put you in
• 26:27
  Speaker 2: the presence of people that's gonna pull it about you,
• 26:31
  Speaker 2: and you're gonna be forced. Like my friend, my my,
• 26:35
  Speaker 2: my prayer best Snaria in her for five years, we're
• 26:40
  Speaker 2: gonna do that book. We're gonna do that book. So
• 26:41
  Speaker 2: she designed that she was gonna do the book in January.
• 26:46
  Speaker 2: We had a release party last weekend.
• 26:49
  Speaker 3: Okay, okay, yeah, I think I saw it on social media.
• 26:53
  Speaker 3: That was beautiful.
• 26:54
  Speaker 2: Yes, So it took it took him innute, but it
• 26:57
  Speaker 2: took her five years. But when when God spoke to
• 27:01
  Speaker 2: her and told her now it's time, did she move?
• 27:05
  Speaker 3: She moved Yep. She moved yep.
• 27:07
  Speaker 2: And it didn't take long. It didn't take long.
• 27:10
  Speaker 3: Once you get that fire back, Once the Lord you
• 27:14
  Speaker 3: realizing that he really you get that fireback, it's no
• 27:18
  Speaker 3: stopping because you know, to tell everybody the truth here.
• 27:22
  Speaker 3: I had wrote a book in twenty it was twenty fourteen.
• 27:27
  Speaker 3: I wrote a book called Life After Diagnosis. And when
• 27:32
  Speaker 3: I wrote that book, I was still struggling a lot,
• 27:35
  Speaker 3: but I knew I overcame a lot when it came
• 27:37
  Speaker 3: to loopis with some things that I could tell people
• 27:40
  Speaker 3: how to cope. At that time, I was more into, like,
• 27:43
  Speaker 3: let me help people cope while they have lupers. Let
• 27:47
  Speaker 3: me let me give them that hope in that way,
• 27:49
  Speaker 3: because there's a lot of people with lupis and with
• 27:52
  Speaker 3: these mental challenges they just don't know how to cope.
• 27:54
  Speaker 3: They just think they have to just stay in, you know,
• 27:58
  Speaker 3: the rim of the disease or the mental challenge, and
• 28:01
  Speaker 3: that's all they know. So I said, let me write
• 28:04
  Speaker 3: what actually helped me cope so I could live, so
• 28:08
  Speaker 3: I could take care of my kids, so I could
• 28:10
  Speaker 3: do what Keisha wants to do. And what happened was
• 28:13
  Speaker 3: being at I was at the time. I was struggling
• 28:16
  Speaker 3: a lot with the ADHD, so I had no direction
• 28:21
  Speaker 3: at all. I was I wasn't following the way to
• 28:24
  Speaker 3: do it, the way the Lord was telling me to
• 28:26
  Speaker 3: do it, and I just wrote. I did write. Everything
• 28:30
  Speaker 3: was for me. I wrote everything, but I had I
• 28:36
  Speaker 3: had someone publish it for me. And I think like
• 28:38
  Speaker 3: at that time, you know you want to be Sometimes
• 28:40
  Speaker 3: some people want to do multiple things and that's fine,
• 28:43
  Speaker 3: but you really, we really need to find that somebody
• 28:45
  Speaker 3: that's perfected in these certain areas in order for things
• 28:48
  Speaker 3: to be a success. And the book just didn't work
• 28:52
  Speaker 3: out well at all when it was uploaded on It
• 28:55
  Speaker 3: was uploaded on Amazon and everything, and the Lord said
• 28:58
  Speaker 3: to me, Keisha, once I got one kind of ify review,
• 29:03
  Speaker 3: the Lord said, Keisha, download your book. I said, you know,
• 29:06
  Speaker 3: it's a good idea. Let me go. Let me go
• 29:09
  Speaker 3: it audio. What is it? Audio? Audio, audible? Let me
• 29:12
  Speaker 3: download my book from Amazon, girl, I download that book.
• 29:17
  Speaker 3: And you know how a book that has a message,
• 29:21
  Speaker 3: even if there's grammical errors, people could just overlook that
• 29:24
  Speaker 3: because the message is so strong. There was no way
• 29:27
  Speaker 3: those grammical errors and different things was going to be overlooked.
• 29:31
  Speaker 3: Because I didn't know what soft editing was. I didn't
• 29:33
  Speaker 3: edit it. I didn't write like that. So someone did
• 29:37
  Speaker 3: a soft edit it wasn't really a full edit of
• 29:41
  Speaker 3: my book, and I let them, you know, put it up.
• 29:44
  Speaker 3: So I kind of got stuck from there. I was devastated.
• 29:50
  Speaker 3: I was worried about I was doomed before anybody even
• 29:54
  Speaker 3: know who knew who I was because of the book.
• 29:57
  Speaker 3: The book is not a you know, and I just
• 29:59
  Speaker 3: read visited it a couple of weeks ago. I said,
• 30:01
  Speaker 3: I still have this book. And I said to myself,
• 30:04
  Speaker 3: I said, okay, Lord, I'm ADHD emotional wellness. I'm loopis.
• 30:09
  Speaker 2: Where do you want?
• 30:10
  Speaker 3: What do you want? What do you need? What do
• 30:12
  Speaker 3: I need to share?
• 30:13
  Speaker 2: You know?
• 30:14
  Speaker 3: And and he let me know. You know, you operated
• 30:17
  Speaker 3: where I need I'm operating and where I need to
• 30:19
  Speaker 3: operate in. But I do need you to let people
• 30:23
  Speaker 3: know how you overcame what you came and your loopis journey.
• 30:28
  Speaker 3: Because every group Angela did I get in It's depressing.
• 30:33
  Speaker 3: It's no hope in these groups because everyone has loopis
• 30:37
  Speaker 3: and that's what they focus on because some people are
• 30:40
  Speaker 3: going through so much but they don't have anyone pouring
• 30:42
  Speaker 3: into them on a positive note. So I said, that's me,
• 30:48
  Speaker 3: that's that's that's me. God, you're telling me that's me.
• 30:52
  Speaker 3: So I can't let twenty fourteen, you know what he
• 30:57
  Speaker 3: saved me from in twenty fourteen keep me from what
• 31:00
  Speaker 3: he needs me to do now?
• 31:03
  Speaker 2: Right, Wow, that's hard and and and and and that's
• 31:10
  Speaker 2: often the case when you go in these groups, especially
• 31:13
  Speaker 2: when you go in groups where everybody have similar or
• 31:17
  Speaker 2: the same conditions, you know, instead of us trying to
• 31:21
  Speaker 2: pour into each other to lift each other up, it's
• 31:24
  Speaker 2: just like we're trying to get a pity party, Like
• 31:26
  Speaker 2: we just trying to have that. We just want everybody
• 31:29
  Speaker 2: feeling sorry for I don't want nobody feels absolutely because
• 31:34
  Speaker 2: I tell you, people don't know. They don't know the
• 31:37
  Speaker 2: struggles of sciatica, they don't know the struggles of PTSD,
• 31:41
  Speaker 2: they don't knows of and everybody have it in their
• 31:44
  Speaker 2: own different ways. But you see me on here, You
• 31:48
  Speaker 2: see me. I have all kinds of things that I
• 31:52
  Speaker 2: use when I'm not online. I got a massage, I
• 31:59
  Speaker 2: got two different heating pads. I got a super large
• 32:03
  Speaker 2: one that fits across my big old pillow, and then
• 32:08
  Speaker 2: I got a little small one that sometimes I just
• 32:10
  Speaker 2: need to just be able to slide it up under
• 32:12
  Speaker 2: my be able to put it in the back in
• 32:15
  Speaker 2: my back, up under my shirt sometime. So you know,
• 32:18
  Speaker 2: people don't know what we go through, but yet we
• 32:21
  Speaker 2: we show up and we try to be intentional about
• 32:25
  Speaker 2: those things because being intentional. And I did a lesson
• 32:27
  Speaker 2: this morning about the power of being intentional and understanding
• 32:32
  Speaker 2: that when you are intentional about that thing, God would
• 32:35
  Speaker 2: open up those doors. When I was on my bed
• 32:38
  Speaker 2: of affliction, I was like, Okay, Lord, I don't want
• 32:42
  Speaker 2: to do this. There's something I got to be. That's
• 32:45
  Speaker 2: gotta be something. That's got to be something. So when
• 32:49
  Speaker 2: he raised me up off my bed of affliction, I
• 32:53
  Speaker 2: begin I came back to Facebook and I started just
• 32:57
  Speaker 2: going live. And I didn't know what I was doing.
• 33:02
  Speaker 2: I was just going to live every day, just talking
• 33:04
  Speaker 2: to people. And I said, well, you know what, start
• 33:07
  Speaker 2: interviewing people. So I just started interviewing people. Didn't didn't
• 33:12
  Speaker 2: know nothing about nothing, just started interview on people. And
• 33:15
  Speaker 2: then guy saw me. I went on another person's podcasts
• 33:23
  Speaker 2: and I went on on that Friday. That Monday, they
• 33:27
  Speaker 2: was calling me asking me if I want to do
• 33:29
  Speaker 2: me a host? Wow, ha, been over there five years.
• 33:33
  Speaker 2: I celebrate five years. Next next month, I celebrate five years.
• 33:39
  Speaker 2: It's something about them fives too. Yeah, it's something about
• 33:44
  Speaker 2: them fives too, because I'm gonna be fifty.
• 33:47
  Speaker 3: Yeah, okay, okay.
• 33:50
  Speaker 2: And then I celebrate my five years over there on
• 33:55
  Speaker 2: over there on one network, and then we celebrate. We
• 34:00
  Speaker 2: celebrated five years for the prayer the prayer line in Parawe,
• 34:07
  Speaker 2: I still I can hear you.
• 34:09
  Speaker 3: Can you hear me? Because I don't know if something happened.
• 34:15
  Speaker 4: Uh well, we could see you see how the enemy
• 34:28
  Speaker 4: be working. See she was helping some folks y'all with
• 34:34
  Speaker 4: this with her testimony. She was helping some people, some
• 34:37
  Speaker 4: people that was going through and the enemy we still
• 34:39
  Speaker 4: can hear you, but we can't see you. And it
• 34:46
  Speaker 4: had to come in and mess with her phone. But
• 34:50
  Speaker 4: she'll be back on. She'll be back on. When she
• 34:55
  Speaker 4: come back on, we will breathe.
• 34:59
  Speaker 2: Can you hear me? Yeah?
• 35:00
  Speaker 3: I can hear okay, uh okay.
• 35:06
  Speaker 2: So yes, I tell enemy be busy. But sister Cheryl's
• 35:12
  Speaker 2: sister Cheryl is one of our prayer warriors that's in
• 35:16
  Speaker 2: the on the prayer line mornings. She also has Sloopers.
• 35:21
  Speaker 2: She's a loopers. She's she's had cancer. She's a two
• 35:29
  Speaker 2: years in remission from cancer. And then they diagnosed her
• 35:33
  Speaker 2: with forty percent of her heart. Use of her heart.
• 35:40
  Speaker 2: We're going on with her heart, but we don't claim
• 35:42
  Speaker 2: none of that. And the last time she went to
• 35:44
  Speaker 2: the doctors, the the the loopers doctor, they told her
• 35:49
  Speaker 2: the people told her that they don't. They don't did
• 35:52
  Speaker 2: all that they can do for her. I said, you
• 35:54
  Speaker 2: know what, when when she told me that, I wanted
• 35:57
  Speaker 2: to tell her maybe that was a good thing. But
• 36:00
  Speaker 2: because they can't do nothing for you, no way, because
• 36:02
  Speaker 2: it's God gonna do it for you, just like he did.
• 36:05
  Speaker 2: I'm believing you know when you told me, when you
• 36:08
  Speaker 2: told me what happened to you? And I wan't I
• 36:11
  Speaker 2: tell you. I said, I know a lady, and I said,
• 36:13
  Speaker 2: I need you to tell her your story.
• 36:15
  Speaker 3: I see that's her, Yes.
• 36:18
  Speaker 2: That's her. She's listening, and it's her because I want
• 36:23
  Speaker 2: her to know that forget what them doctor said. You
• 36:27
  Speaker 2: know what them doctors got. You know what them doctors are.
• 36:29
  Speaker 2: Those doctors are licensed to practice. That they they got
• 36:33
  Speaker 2: a license to practice. I mean they'reticing on you. They
• 36:37
  Speaker 2: don't know for sure, and don't nobody to know for sure,
• 36:40
  Speaker 2: but him up there, he don't know because he created
• 36:43
  Speaker 2: all of us. And guess what, he can change anything
• 36:46
  Speaker 2: at the blank of an eye.
• 36:47
  Speaker 3: That's right and over there.
• 36:49
  Speaker 2: In Proverbs twenty one, one of them proverbs. Over there,
• 36:53
  Speaker 2: he's saying, and that the the rivers of water flows
• 36:57
  Speaker 2: and the King's saying he turn other where he wanted
• 36:59
  Speaker 2: to flow. The power lies in the king's answer. He
• 37:02
  Speaker 2: could turn the rivers.
• 37:03
  Speaker 3: Of water whichever way he can, So.
• 37:05
  Speaker 2: That mean he could turn anything around. And doctors can
• 37:07
  Speaker 2: give us all the diagnosis. They won't. They'll tell you
• 37:10
  Speaker 2: whatever they want. I'm telling you ain't that to nobody.
• 37:13
  Speaker 2: And I'm telling you I'm watching the lady right now
• 37:17
  Speaker 2: to find everything that the doctors done told her. If
• 37:21
  Speaker 2: she had to listen to the doctors, she wouldn't have
• 37:23
  Speaker 2: gone two years ago. If she had to listen to
• 37:28
  Speaker 2: them doctors, she would have been gone.
• 37:30
  Speaker 3: Jesus, M that's right.
• 37:34
  Speaker 2: That's like my prayer is that God would show people
• 37:37
  Speaker 2: how to naturally go to that word, to that word
• 37:43
  Speaker 2: and find that healing because it can be done as
• 37:46
  Speaker 2: a chiropractor. There's a guy in Texas. He's a chiropractor
• 37:50
  Speaker 2: and he he was going to school to be a
• 37:55
  Speaker 2: medical doctor. That's what he was going to school for.
• 37:58
  Speaker 2: And then midway he said, the Lord spoke to him
• 38:02
  Speaker 2: and was talking about natural stuff, and you changed with
• 38:06
  Speaker 2: the chiropracticed route. And he wrote a book he Fast
• 38:11
  Speaker 2: and Pray. He talked about fast and trying baby Chile
• 38:18
  Speaker 2: practice a doctor, he said, he shows you how you
• 38:20
  Speaker 2: can fast and pray and how you can put the
• 38:23
  Speaker 2: plate down and turns. I say one good thing I
• 38:28
  Speaker 2: can say and I can apply to all those people
• 38:31
  Speaker 2: that think I just really don't like Trump and I
• 38:33
  Speaker 2: hate Trump. Let me tell you I love what he
• 38:35
  Speaker 2: doing with this these pharmaceuticals. How he taking all that
• 38:38
  Speaker 2: these as something's gonna be able to run all of
• 38:40
  Speaker 2: them ass and stuff. Now Trump, I applied you for
• 38:43
  Speaker 2: that hats out so they can't flunt all their drugs
• 38:46
  Speaker 2: around here and they camera now do some more stuff,
• 38:49
  Speaker 2: do some more good stuff like that, and I got
• 38:51
  Speaker 2: I'm with you, But as long as you're doing that
• 38:54
  Speaker 2: foolish stuff, I can't. But I'm with him on that.
• 38:56
  Speaker 2: That that that is something that I ever. They are
• 39:01
  Speaker 2: the devil. It's nothing but pushing who can who can
• 39:07
  Speaker 2: push this? And who can push that? And and all
• 39:09
  Speaker 2: they doing is generic and this and this and and
• 39:12
  Speaker 2: getting all our money. When you go over to these
• 39:15
  Speaker 2: other places, you go all to these other places China,
• 39:18
  Speaker 2: all these people, these people they ain't sick and in
• 39:20
  Speaker 2: the hospital like that, and they got they get free
• 39:24
  Speaker 2: health care. Yeah, absolutely, you can give people free half care,
• 39:30
  Speaker 2: because why they don't be sick like that? Yes, yeah,
• 39:36
  Speaker 2: Why why we over here get sick? Why because they're
• 39:42
  Speaker 2: killing us? They with the springing in the air, all
• 39:44
  Speaker 2: the stuff they spread in the air. I watch them
• 39:47
  Speaker 2: every Day's first stuff in the air here. I watch
• 39:50
  Speaker 2: them every day, just the spree and the air. And
• 39:53
  Speaker 2: then when it rained, it just it don't even look
• 39:57
  Speaker 2: like rain. Like when it's snowing. We had a mac
• 39:59
  Speaker 2: that was on our port. When it's snow, I can
• 40:01
  Speaker 2: go out there right now and still see the residue
• 40:04
  Speaker 2: from when it snowed.
• 40:05
  Speaker 3: Back back then.
• 40:06
  Speaker 2: Y'all it's like plastics stuck in the in the in
• 40:09
  Speaker 2: the what's the names? It ain't snow. And then you
• 40:12
  Speaker 2: had people around here flaming up snow. How can you
• 40:15
  Speaker 2: flame up snow?
• 40:18
  Speaker 3: Right? So you can tell it's stuff chemicals?
• 40:23
  Speaker 2: And then you gotta think about and then if they said, oh,
• 40:27
  Speaker 2: people naturally growing stuff, they really not naturally growing stuff,
• 40:30
  Speaker 2: because if y'all putting chemicals in the air, then guess
• 40:34
  Speaker 2: what those chemicals gotta gotta go. It's like just like
• 40:37
  Speaker 2: all those aircraft that they them shove, them satellites that
• 40:41
  Speaker 2: they keep sitting up there. We're gonna hear soon that
• 40:45
  Speaker 2: there there's a whole bunch of falling stars. Stars falling
• 40:49
  Speaker 2: them ain't gonna be on following star. They're gonna be them.
• 40:51
  Speaker 2: They're gonna beat them. Satellites falling from that sky that
• 40:54
  Speaker 2: you don't put up there. It ain't winning got them.
• 40:57
  Speaker 2: And you put them up there, and you think they're
• 40:58
  Speaker 2: supposed to just stay there there forever. They got to
• 41:02
  Speaker 2: come back down and where they're gonna come, pull them
• 41:05
  Speaker 2: right on back down here.
• 41:08
  Speaker 3: I tell you, Lord, Lord help us. I tell you
• 41:12
  Speaker 3: that's why we have to be educated, and we definitely
• 41:15
  Speaker 3: have to know things for ourselves and stop depending on
• 41:20
  Speaker 3: what we're being told. We have to stop looking into
• 41:23
  Speaker 3: these things, reading and you know, so like you said,
• 41:26
  Speaker 3: you know, being in our word and and just knowing
• 41:28
  Speaker 3: more because otherwise we we we're not gonna make it.
• 41:33
  Speaker 3: A lot of us is not even gonna be here
• 41:35
  Speaker 3: next year if we continue not knowing. You know, we
• 41:39
  Speaker 3: gotta understand, especially with our bodies. And I you know,
• 41:42
  Speaker 3: I fall in short. You know of the glory too,
• 41:44
  Speaker 3: because you know I'm putting things in my body and
• 41:46
  Speaker 3: I knowing don't belong in there, but you know, you
• 41:49
  Speaker 3: live and you learn, and at the same time, I
• 41:51
  Speaker 3: have to understand that this is not my body. This
• 41:53
  Speaker 3: is God's temple and the way I operate in it.
• 41:56
  Speaker 3: You know, what I'm saying is what's gonna keep me
• 41:59
  Speaker 3: here longer and what's going to keep my body healthy.
• 42:03
  Speaker 3: So I'm more cognizant now, especially with loops and even
• 42:07
  Speaker 3: with different with the adhd our our meals play a
• 42:11
  Speaker 3: big part in all of it that we put in
• 42:15
  Speaker 3: our body, you know, And you know with loop is
• 42:19
  Speaker 3: it's it's just it's still a disease. That's it's it's
• 42:23
  Speaker 3: more understood now, but not you know, it's it's still
• 42:27
  Speaker 3: hard to in some ways diagnosed. But they used to
• 42:32
  Speaker 3: know a lot more than they did, like when I
• 42:34
  Speaker 3: was diagnosed, because my grandmother was diagnosed, Oh my god,
• 42:39
  Speaker 3: you know, years and years and years ago, when they
• 42:42
  Speaker 3: didn't even have a cure, they didn't have nothing. So
• 42:44
  Speaker 3: for me, my grandmother looked like she was burnt because
• 42:47
  Speaker 3: my grandmother had the loopers of the skin as well,
• 42:52
  Speaker 3: so it showed she had an outer showing, you know,
• 42:56
  Speaker 3: on her skin. So that's all I saw because that's
• 42:58
  Speaker 3: all I knew. So when I was diagnosed. What's the
• 43:02
  Speaker 3: first thing that devastated me. I'm going to look like
• 43:04
  Speaker 3: my grandmother, right. I didn't know anything about lupas. The
• 43:08
  Speaker 3: first time I ever heard of loopers was when I
• 43:09
  Speaker 3: saw my grandmother had it and she said, I have loopis.
• 43:12
  Speaker 3: Never knew what that was, you know, I was young,
• 43:15
  Speaker 3: you know, nineteen years old. I didn't dig in to
• 43:16
  Speaker 3: scene what that meant, or when I was younger watching
• 43:19
  Speaker 3: people look at her and frown their faces up at her.
• 43:22
  Speaker 3: She was a strong woman because that didn't phaze her,
• 43:25
  Speaker 3: you know, but at the same time it did me
• 43:28
  Speaker 3: because as a little kid and then grow up to
• 43:30
  Speaker 3: hear that I have that, I'm going to look like
• 43:33
  Speaker 3: my grandmother. But then come to realize she had the
• 43:37
  Speaker 3: loopis of the skin, you know, the loopers that I
• 43:41
  Speaker 3: was diagnosed with. It's called systemic loopis and that's more
• 43:45
  Speaker 3: internal that you know, it's the possibility that things more
• 43:49
  Speaker 3: internally go on and where the disease could hit my heart.
• 43:55
  Speaker 3: You know, your friend would notice to your heartshik organs
• 43:58
  Speaker 3: and different things like that. Because because it's the body
• 44:00
  Speaker 3: fighting itself, it's an autoimmune disease. That's what it's a
• 44:04
  Speaker 3: autoimmune disease, just like five of my alga. Auto immune.
• 44:07
  Speaker 3: Your body fighting itself, your body fighting your good stuff,
• 44:12
  Speaker 3: your good bacteria, your good tissues. It sells, you know,
• 44:15
  Speaker 3: and all of it is. All that the steroid is
• 44:18
  Speaker 3: doing is just calming down your immune system, which can
• 44:23
  Speaker 3: be a good thing, a blessing and a curse, because
• 44:26
  Speaker 3: what happens is when your immune system called down, it
• 44:29
  Speaker 3: causes you to be viable to catch everything else and
• 44:33
  Speaker 3: your body is not fighting it anymore. So what happens,
• 44:37
  Speaker 3: you know, you get these other diagnoses or other things
• 44:39
  Speaker 3: going on with you, and it hits you like fire,
• 44:42
  Speaker 3: you know. So you know, like you saying the story
• 44:46
  Speaker 3: about when I went to the doctor, Lord ha Mercy.
• 44:48
  Speaker 3: When I went to that doctor, he kept saying, men,
• 44:50
  Speaker 3: how long have you been coming to me? You know?
• 44:52
  Speaker 3: And God, since I was like nineteen something years old,
• 44:56
  Speaker 3: he said, how long are you be coming? He said,
• 44:57
  Speaker 3: he was diagnosed, He said, but you've been coming recently
• 45:01
  Speaker 3: and everything my ana, my blood work, things that should
• 45:05
  Speaker 3: be positive has been negative. And when he said that
• 45:09
  Speaker 3: to me, all I could do is praise God. And
• 45:11
  Speaker 3: I said, my mother said to me, the woman of
• 45:14
  Speaker 3: God she said, I ain't never believe you had it
• 45:16
  Speaker 3: in the first place, so that believe in her head,
• 45:19
  Speaker 3: you know, it stuck like she don't have it.
• 45:20
  Speaker 2: She just they just and I'm telling you, they tried
• 45:23
  Speaker 2: to give it to me, baby, They trying to give
• 45:25
  Speaker 2: it to me back. And whenever I refused to accept that,
• 45:29
  Speaker 2: you know, my mom passed away. My mom passed away
• 45:31
  Speaker 2: with complications from lupis in nineteen ninety one.
• 45:34
  Speaker 3: You see what I'm saying. And that's why it is yep.
• 45:37
  Speaker 2: And two thousand, two thousand and nine, I want to
• 45:44
  Speaker 2: say it was two thousand and nine. I had a
• 45:49
  Speaker 2: bad swelling in my foot. I couldn't even put my
• 45:52
  Speaker 2: foot on the ground. I couldnt walk, and it was
• 45:56
  Speaker 2: so it was so sore. And when I went to
• 45:58
  Speaker 2: the doctor, they asked me, here I twisted, had I sprung?
• 46:01
  Speaker 2: And had I done any thing like that? I told
• 46:03
  Speaker 2: him no, And they ran tests. They ran test and
• 46:06
  Speaker 2: they ran tests, and the doctor told me, he said,
• 46:08
  Speaker 2: the only thing that he could see is that my
• 46:11
  Speaker 2: immune system was fighting itself. That's the only thing.
• 46:15
  Speaker 3: Yeah, So that was that.
• 46:19
  Speaker 2: I don't even know what he did. I don't remember
• 46:21
  Speaker 2: what he did or what he did, but I know
• 46:26
  Speaker 2: I was okay, and they never nothing else. I know
• 46:30
  Speaker 2: I was not fina. I wasn't even thinking about asking
• 46:34
  Speaker 2: him to run no tests for lupis because I wasn't
• 46:36
  Speaker 2: gonna take that right because I knew that I knew
• 46:40
  Speaker 2: my mom had had with that. So I was like,
• 46:43
  Speaker 2: I know, I don't have nothing. You know, I've always
• 46:46
  Speaker 2: I was an athlete in my younger days, so I
• 46:50
  Speaker 2: played sports and stuff, so I've never been sick. I
• 46:53
  Speaker 2: never had my My blood pressure had always been one
• 46:57
  Speaker 2: twenty one eighteen with Haiti and all it was always
• 47:02
  Speaker 2: around the normal. Nothing was got out normal and had
• 47:07
  Speaker 2: that episode. And then now it seemed like when I
• 47:11
  Speaker 2: got shot, when I was in domestic violence and I
• 47:14
  Speaker 2: got shot, it seemed like that's when everything that it
• 47:20
  Speaker 2: wanted to start acting up. Nye Attica, I started having problems.
• 47:24
  Speaker 2: But I refuse to accept any of that stuff. I say,
• 47:27
  Speaker 2: you know what I say, When when it's warm out,
• 47:30
  Speaker 2: I get out there and I walk and I try
• 47:32
  Speaker 2: to keep active. I try to make sure I'm eating right.
• 47:37
  Speaker 2: A lot of stuff like we don't process food. It's
• 47:41
  Speaker 2: a lot you really should not be dairy products. We
• 47:45
  Speaker 2: should not be assuming dairy products. Their products are not
• 47:48
  Speaker 2: good for us. Their products will help. We'll call excess
• 47:54
  Speaker 2: fluid all of that. You know, my body is supposed
• 47:59
  Speaker 2: to have some, but it's not supposed to excess. When
• 48:03
  Speaker 2: we drank out that milk and that their product, then
• 48:06
  Speaker 2: your body begin to have excess more than it's supposed
• 48:10
  Speaker 2: to have. And then that is what causes a lot
• 48:13
  Speaker 2: of our disasement, which, like they have labeled diseases, they're
• 48:19
  Speaker 2: right there, disasements because it's causing you. It's causing you
• 48:25
  Speaker 2: to be in a place of being not at rest.
• 48:31
  Speaker 2: You're stress. So you just ease. So I keep telling people,
• 48:38
  Speaker 2: get you, get you a natural remedy. Yes, it's okay,
• 48:41
  Speaker 2: it's okay to to to come off. Come off. I said,
• 48:46
  Speaker 2: when summertime here again, I'm going on a I'm gonna
• 48:49
  Speaker 2: try to get back on my vegan watch because I
• 48:51
  Speaker 2: had I was doing good.
• 48:53
  Speaker 3: Yes, yes, I do good.
• 48:55
  Speaker 2: I I'll be doing good. But I sometimes I want
• 48:58
  Speaker 2: me a little chicken way. But I said, with seeing
• 49:04
  Speaker 2: all this stuff that I've been seeing here lately, honey,
• 49:06
  Speaker 2: he's I can I think I can do with that?
• 49:09
  Speaker 2: You give me a good salad honey, you put you
• 49:12
  Speaker 2: some mushrooms up in there, crewed up in there, Honey,
• 49:16
  Speaker 2: you get the chewing on that stuff. It tastes like
• 49:18
  Speaker 2: the mushrooms. Mushrooms. I'm telling you that that's the alternative
• 49:23
  Speaker 2: to a lot of the meat that you be wanting.
• 49:26
  Speaker 2: You can see them, and depending on what kind of
• 49:28
  Speaker 2: mushrooms you get to because you can get them big
• 49:30
  Speaker 2: old thick mushrooms, and you can cut them things like steaks,
• 49:33
  Speaker 2: and you can cut them right, all kind of stuff,
• 49:35
  Speaker 2: and you can see them little bucks to make.
• 49:38
  Speaker 3: I like to I like to consume natural things with
• 49:41
  Speaker 3: must because I don't eat mushrooms. But I can assume
• 49:45
  Speaker 3: the coffee. I can assume things with the mushrooms in
• 49:48
  Speaker 3: it because the mushroom, you know, certain mushroom has very
• 49:52
  Speaker 3: a huge amount of health properties, you know, and healing
• 49:56
  Speaker 3: properties in them. So you're right when you say much.
• 50:00
  Speaker 2: I used to not like them, but I learned to. Yes,
• 50:04
  Speaker 2: I learned to cut them up in my salad. And
• 50:08
  Speaker 2: that's I mean, well, I'm gonna try it. And I
• 50:11
  Speaker 2: never tried that, and I see, yeah, season, season everything else.
• 50:18
  Speaker 2: Yet my mushrooms be my meat. And then I have
• 50:24
  Speaker 2: I like to get me some I like cranberries or
• 50:26
  Speaker 2: either or either, and then I get like I like
• 50:31
  Speaker 2: sunflower seeds. And sometimes I may get some almonds or
• 50:36
  Speaker 2: either some walnuts. I like walnuts too, But I just
• 50:40
  Speaker 2: like different kind of dried fruits and stuff that I
• 50:46
  Speaker 2: can just stop in the salad. You know. Even I
• 50:49
  Speaker 2: even take some oranges every now and then and just
• 50:52
  Speaker 2: make me up. Yeah, just put me pillow orange and
• 50:55
  Speaker 2: just and just put me some and and that's my salad.
• 51:01
  Speaker 2: And it ain't got to be no. And that'll feel
• 51:03
  Speaker 2: me up. You give me some time I'm talking about.
• 51:05
  Speaker 2: You get me some some spinach and some that that
• 51:11
  Speaker 2: spring mix and spinach. Yes, and then I love I've
• 51:18
  Speaker 2: started eating broccoli raw. I'm not too fraid of it cooked.
• 51:23
  Speaker 2: If you lightly cook it where it still got a
• 51:26
  Speaker 2: crunch to it, I can eat that. But when it's south,
• 51:29
  Speaker 2: I don't like it when it's out.
• 51:30
  Speaker 3: And actually that's me because I eat the it gotta
• 51:34
  Speaker 3: be soft like a baby. But I gotta realize, we
• 51:36
  Speaker 3: gotta realize the more that's soft it is, it's not
• 51:39
  Speaker 3: doing anything for your body because you're taking ye.
• 51:46
  Speaker 2: So I've learned to eat that raw. I'm going to
• 51:49
  Speaker 2: eat coliflower wrong and I just put it a good salad,
• 51:54
  Speaker 2: cut it up in a salad salad and you can
• 51:57
  Speaker 2: eat it wrong. But if you can't eat it wrong,
• 52:01
  Speaker 2: I get the califlying rice. Use that sometimes the substitute
• 52:06
  Speaker 2: for regular.
• 52:06
  Speaker 3: Rice, okay, because that that.
• 52:11
  Speaker 2: White rice is not good for us.
• 52:13
  Speaker 3: No, it's not brown rice or black rice.
• 52:16
  Speaker 2: And it's hard to find black rice. Yes, I ain't
• 52:21
  Speaker 2: had a good time finding it, so brown rice. But yeah,
• 52:28
  Speaker 2: but I'm telling you, I'm gonna be looking forward to
• 52:31
  Speaker 2: hearing your journey and getting it out and sharing because,
• 52:36
  Speaker 2: like I said, people people don't want to hear it. Yeah,
• 52:39
  Speaker 2: And oftentimes we think that nobody wants to hear it,
• 52:43
  Speaker 2: and people will tell you, don't nobody want to hear that.
• 52:45
  Speaker 2: Don't number one day they ain't saying it because they
• 52:49
  Speaker 2: probably got something that they want to share and scared
• 52:52
  Speaker 2: to share. I don't know how to do it and
• 52:54
  Speaker 2: don't want you to yet that's normally what it is.
• 52:56
  Speaker 2: Because you you have you will have family members saying
• 52:59
  Speaker 2: why are you gonna about all that? Why are you
• 53:00
  Speaker 2: putting all that out there? Because somebody need to know,
• 53:03
  Speaker 2: because somebody needs to come out of what they're going
• 53:05
  Speaker 2: through because somebody somebody going through this too, because guess what,
• 53:09
  Speaker 2: everything that we go through we don't go through because
• 53:11
  Speaker 2: we're supposed to go through it for us, We're going
• 53:14
  Speaker 2: through it for somebody else. That's right, right, But we
• 53:17
  Speaker 2: got to know how to get through it so that
• 53:19
  Speaker 2: we're through it the people coming behind us. And he
• 53:22
  Speaker 2: know who can handle what? You know, who can handle it?
• 53:25
  Speaker 3: You do? He do? Yeah? You know. And the and
• 53:34
  Speaker 3: the blessing for me is, you know, I do have
• 53:36
  Speaker 3: a great support system. I do have, you know a
• 53:40
  Speaker 3: lot of cheerleaders, family members and close friends or who friends,
• 53:44
  Speaker 3: sisters that are like you know, as if my mother
• 53:46
  Speaker 3: birth them themselves. So my family is very supportive. You know,
• 53:49
  Speaker 3: it's always be like those outsiders who you hear them,
• 53:52
  Speaker 3: you know, people saying this and that. And you know,
• 53:54
  Speaker 3: I'm glad I am at a at a point in
• 53:58
  Speaker 3: my life where that doesn't matter to me. You know,
• 54:02
  Speaker 3: I think I'm my biggest critic, I'm my biggest fight,
• 54:04
  Speaker 3: I'm my biggest you don't set back, so it's me
• 54:09
  Speaker 3: versus me, me fighting myself, and I just have to
• 54:12
  Speaker 3: leave with what the Lord tells me. And then I
• 54:16
  Speaker 3: know I'll be I'll be okay, I'll be fine, and.
• 54:20
  Speaker 2: We just don't have to We're gonna have to get
• 54:22
  Speaker 2: in that mirror and we're gonna have to talk to herself.
• 54:24
  Speaker 2: That what I had to be done because I had
• 54:28
  Speaker 2: to get in that mirror and I had to tell himself, Hey, Angela,
• 54:31
  Speaker 2: you need to snap out of there. You need you
• 54:33
  Speaker 2: need to do this, you need to do that. And
• 54:35
  Speaker 2: I literally I had to get in that mirror and
• 54:37
  Speaker 2: look at myself, and that's myself. People may think I
• 54:42
  Speaker 2: was crazy for doing I had to do it. I
• 54:45
  Speaker 2: had to do it. And every day I would stick
• 54:48
  Speaker 2: post and it worked all my thing. I would have
• 54:51
  Speaker 2: posted all around my room and I'm talking about every
• 54:55
  Speaker 2: time I would just just say something, Okay, Angela, you
• 54:58
  Speaker 2: got to do this, you got to do that back
• 55:00
  Speaker 2: and I look at I think I still have my
• 55:02
  Speaker 2: vision more from when I first started doing a lot
• 55:06
  Speaker 2: of this stuff. And just to be able to look
• 55:08
  Speaker 2: and see the things that you have accomplished, like when
• 55:12
  Speaker 2: when when when you say right division and make it plain,
• 55:16
  Speaker 2: right division and make it plain because you write it.
• 55:19
  Speaker 2: When when you write it and make it plain, then
• 55:21
  Speaker 2: you can see you can see what, knowing that when
• 55:25
  Speaker 2: you write it it becomes it's like it get in
• 55:30
  Speaker 2: the atmosphere when you start writing it down with your emotions, emotions,
• 55:37
  Speaker 2: it's like it does that vibration does something. So then
• 55:40
  Speaker 2: just the fact that you put it down on that
• 55:44
  Speaker 2: that you got it out and you put.
• 55:46
  Speaker 3: It on paper.
• 55:48
  Speaker 2: Now somebody can see it. Somebody may run across and
• 55:51
  Speaker 2: somebody may see it and say ooh, and then you
• 55:54
  Speaker 2: might read it and it may resonate something else in you.
• 56:00
  Speaker 2: That's right, I'm telling you.
• 56:01
  Speaker 3: I think Angela'm gonna have to get with you on
• 56:03
  Speaker 3: there helping me, you know, because I know you you
• 56:07
  Speaker 3: help people you know, write their books and we'll published
• 56:11
  Speaker 3: the books. So I'm definitely we're definitely gonna get together
• 56:15
  Speaker 3: with me on that. So I'm definitely looking forward to that.
• 56:20
  Speaker 2: Yeah, we definitely. And and and not only that you
• 56:22
  Speaker 2: you you are part of the one movement. And there
• 56:27
  Speaker 2: are so many other individuals that that they got the
• 56:32
  Speaker 2: same gifts I got. They noticed ta I'm gonna tell
• 56:37
  Speaker 2: you who they are. You can't get me, you got.
• 56:40
  Speaker 2: Trida does publish and she's also a whole on the network. Okay,
• 56:46
  Speaker 2: she's a publisher. She she published and she's a coach,
• 56:51
  Speaker 2: so she you coach and then if you if you
• 56:54
  Speaker 2: need an editor, she do edits to you can do
• 56:57
  Speaker 2: it front. So I told her, I said, any time
• 57:00
  Speaker 2: I need it is I'm sending them over that to you,
• 57:02
  Speaker 2: because I'm right right, I don't do that. I'm sending
• 57:06
  Speaker 2: them to you. Once I send them to you, they yours.
• 57:13
  Speaker 2: It's in a whole nother story. That's a whole podcast.
• 57:16
  Speaker 2: That's a whole nother podcast, that's a whole I want
• 57:21
  Speaker 2: to hear from you because you are part of this
• 57:24
  Speaker 2: one hundred author movement. What are you expecting to gain
• 57:27
  Speaker 2: from the one hundred author movement?
• 57:30
  Speaker 3: Well, community, collaboration, connection, you know, those are those are
• 57:42
  Speaker 3: huge for me and and and and within myself, you know,
• 57:47
  Speaker 3: helping me to be more committed to the things that
• 57:50
  Speaker 3: I need to be doing. So I know within the
• 57:54
  Speaker 3: graps of all of these other authors, you know, I
• 58:00
  Speaker 3: can't there's no way for me to fail because the
• 58:03
  Speaker 3: support is there, The network is there, right, you know,
• 58:07
  Speaker 3: the people I need to know are there, you know,
• 58:10
  Speaker 3: and what I love about them because even though I'm
• 58:12
  Speaker 3: in the chat, I'm going to you know, make it
• 58:15
  Speaker 3: my business be more active in there because you know,
• 58:18
  Speaker 3: all of our words and all of our whatever we need,
• 58:24
  Speaker 3: whatever we have to add matters, you know. You always
• 58:27
  Speaker 3: say that, you know, So I know for a fact
• 58:31
  Speaker 3: that the people in there, we cheer, They cheer each
• 58:34
  Speaker 3: other on. You know, they throwing in opportunities, they're they're
• 58:37
  Speaker 3: they're showing up and giving people some things that they
• 58:41
  Speaker 3: can get involved in. And I'm saying to myself, wow,
• 58:44
  Speaker 3: like like look at this, Like I couldn't be and
• 58:47
  Speaker 3: the Lord can not have equip me to be with
• 58:51
  Speaker 3: a better bunch of people. And not only that, a
• 58:54
  Speaker 3: lot of them you know, of believers. So you know,
• 58:57
  Speaker 3: because I I you know, I I love to surround
• 59:01
  Speaker 3: myself around believer it because when I talk and when
• 59:03
  Speaker 3: I speak, I'm always gonna mention the Lord. So I
• 59:06
  Speaker 3: want people to be able to relate to that. But
• 59:08
  Speaker 3: wherever they are in life, I can see that they
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  Speaker 3: are very cheerful, cheerleaders. So I cannot want anything more.
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  Speaker 3: But you already have, We already have the respect for
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  Speaker 3: each other, because I couldnot want anything more but the
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  Speaker 3: collaboration connection, you know, with these people. So I look
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  Speaker 3: forward to that because I know with that alone where
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  Speaker 3: it's gonna lead every single one of us if if
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  Speaker 3: we tap in the way that we should.
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  Speaker 2: Amen, Amen, Amen, But we have to we have to
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  Speaker 2: do the work. To do the work, You have to
• 59:46
  Speaker 2: do the work. He is provided, He's gonna provide us
• 59:49
  Speaker 2: the outlet and the resources, but we have to do
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  Speaker 2: the work to them.
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  Speaker 3: You know, faith with that work is dead dead, Yes
• 59:56
  Speaker 3: it is.
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  Speaker 2: We can believe all day your day. Yeah, don't do
• 59:59
  Speaker 2: the work. It does not matter. It doesn't matter because
• 1:00:04
  Speaker 2: I'm telling you, just like I'm reminding people of my faith.
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  Speaker 3: I heard.
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  Speaker 2: I think it was one Needa Bottom. She gave this
• 1:00:15
  Speaker 2: scenario about a chair and being in a carry out.
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 2: She said, when when you were young, she said, your
• 1:00:21
  Speaker 2: mom put you in a carry out. She used to
• 1:00:23
  Speaker 2: seat you on the floor and rock you. He said,
• 1:00:26
  Speaker 2: when you got a little older, she moved you up
• 1:00:28
  Speaker 2: to the little the little red chair. You got to
• 1:00:32
  Speaker 2: sit in the little red chair. And then when you
• 1:00:34
  Speaker 2: got a little older, you you you got to move
• 1:00:37
  Speaker 2: on up to the high chair. You got to move
• 1:00:40
  Speaker 2: up and sit in the higher chair. Not quite at
• 1:00:43
  Speaker 2: the table yet, but you got And then when you
• 1:00:45
  Speaker 2: got old enough, you didn't need your mama to help
• 1:00:49
  Speaker 2: you no more. But you got able. You got up
• 1:00:52
  Speaker 2: and he was able to walk to the chair. Now,
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 2: did you question that chair to see if that chair
• 1:00:56
  Speaker 2: was gonna hold you know, you sat down because you
• 1:00:58
  Speaker 2: believed it was gonna hold youse. Every chair that your
• 1:01:00
  Speaker 2: mama had put you in.
• 1:01:02
  Speaker 3: That's right that it helped you.
• 1:01:04
  Speaker 2: So when you got when you got up and went
• 1:01:06
  Speaker 2: to that chair until it failed you, you was gonna
• 1:01:09
  Speaker 2: have faith in that chair. And see a lot of
• 1:01:12
  Speaker 2: us we don't have that faith.
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  Speaker 3: You know.
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  Speaker 2: We'll have faith in these bridges that we go across
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  Speaker 2: every day. We have say that that that bridge gonna
• 1:01:20
  Speaker 2: hold us when we go out there and go across it.
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  Speaker 2: We don't second gainst that bridge. We just get in
• 1:01:26
  Speaker 2: that car and we just go on. We just we
• 1:01:29
  Speaker 2: get on these airplanes. We don't have second thoughts about
• 1:01:33
  Speaker 2: getting on these airplanes, these trains, these buses. We get
• 1:01:37
  Speaker 2: on them and we believe that they're gonna do what
• 1:01:39
  Speaker 2: they're supposed to do. That's what they're supposed to do.
• 1:01:44
  Speaker 2: So we have enough belief believe in that. But we
• 1:01:48
  Speaker 2: don't have enough belief to believe in that. That's in us.
• 1:01:51
  Speaker 3: It's in us, the same man that exactly created this everything.
• 1:02:03
  Speaker 2: So if and you remember open Genesis to A seven,
• 1:02:07
  Speaker 2: he said he breathed that breath of.
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  Speaker 3: Life and life like yes, yeah, so I keep telling people,
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  Speaker 3: if he breed that birth of life into you, guess what, huh,
• 1:02:16
  Speaker 3: everything you needed is in you else, he.
• 1:02:19
  Speaker 2: Already depositing you. So while you out here searching for something,
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 2: just tap in.
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  Speaker 3: That's it. The treasure is already within us. That's right,
• 1:02:30
  Speaker 3: always there, so already there. Yeah, you're right, yeap, my
• 1:02:35
  Speaker 3: bishop to talk about that all the time. We already
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 3: have what we need. You know, it's in us. It's
• 1:02:40
  Speaker 3: in us, you know. It's it's just about activating it
• 1:02:43
  Speaker 3: and using what we have and stop worrying about and
• 1:02:47
  Speaker 3: searching for other things. And we have what we have
• 1:02:50
  Speaker 3: already right in front of us, in us. Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: Well, I want you before you leave, I want you
• 1:02:59
  Speaker 2: to tell tell individuals how they can support you and
• 1:03:03
  Speaker 2: how they can connect with you. And we want to
• 1:03:09
  Speaker 2: know what you're working on, what you got coming up,
• 1:03:11
  Speaker 2: what you got going on.
• 1:03:16
  Speaker 3: Okay, Well, for those of you who don't know, I'm
• 1:03:20
  Speaker 3: also a you know, I am also a certified life
• 1:03:23
  Speaker 3: coach and I'm also a loopist and ADHD and emotional
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 3: wellness advocate, right, so I operate in those realms, but
• 1:03:35
  Speaker 3: I focus this so people will know so when you
• 1:03:38
  Speaker 3: do join me and my inventions and different things, that
• 1:03:41
  Speaker 3: you'll understand what I'm actually doing. I mainly empower women
• 1:03:46
  Speaker 3: Christian women believers who are going through a crisis within
• 1:03:51
  Speaker 3: their illness disease like diagnosed with lupus, and at the
• 1:03:56
  Speaker 3: same time they're raising a child with a chronic illness
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 3: and navigate through those complexities, or a child with mental
• 1:04:04
  Speaker 3: illness or mental challenges. I like to empower them because
• 1:04:08
  Speaker 3: they're the moms, they are the caregivers. Because this is
• 1:04:10
  Speaker 3: where I was at so and overcame it, so I
• 1:04:13
  Speaker 3: know God had put me there, But I feel that
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 3: they suffer a lot. We're not understanding that the importance
• 1:04:19
  Speaker 3: of prioritizing their emotional wellness. We talk a lot about
• 1:04:24
  Speaker 3: mental health and this self doubt. It all runs together,
• 1:04:27
  Speaker 3: but your emotional healing, your emotions and stability is what
• 1:04:32
  Speaker 3: keeps your state of mind right. You know, we know
• 1:04:36
  Speaker 3: God is our mind regulator, right, but what are those
• 1:04:39
  Speaker 3: things you're supposed to be doing to prioritize you know,
• 1:04:41
  Speaker 3: many times I've suppressed my feelings. I suppressed my emotions
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 3: which also made me sick. These are things that the women,
• 1:04:47
  Speaker 3: especially in the black community, because we try to be
• 1:04:50
  Speaker 3: so strong. So I just want to empower women to
• 1:04:53
  Speaker 3: do better and to let them know the benefits of
• 1:04:56
  Speaker 3: emotional intelligence and how does this how this is a
• 1:04:59
  Speaker 3: part of who we need to be in order to
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 3: operate in the realm of our purpose and gain the
• 1:05:06
  Speaker 3: hope and the joy of life again. So I have
• 1:05:10
  Speaker 3: a YouTube channel. You can my YouTube channel, you can
• 1:05:15
  Speaker 3: you can find me at Keisha Johnson McCrae. That's mc
• 1:05:18
  Speaker 3: r ae. So Keisha's k I s a h Keisha
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  Speaker 3: Johnson McCrae. Just put that in YouTube and I'll come
• 1:05:25
  Speaker 3: up in YouTube and you'll see it'll say Lupus and
• 1:05:29
  Speaker 3: ADHD healing, emotional healing, God's Way. So you're seeing you'll
• 1:05:34
  Speaker 3: know that's me. So you can help support me by
• 1:05:37
  Speaker 3: subscribing and looking at the videos that are upload there. Also,
• 1:05:41
  Speaker 3: you can find me on Facebook. I do have Emotional
• 1:05:45
  Speaker 3: Empowerment group on Facebook. You can also look me up
• 1:05:50
  Speaker 3: at Keisha Johnson McCrae on Facebook. I'm sure we'll I
• 1:05:54
  Speaker 3: have it somewhere for you to find me. And if
• 1:05:56
  Speaker 3: you're if you're that woman that I'm talking to and
• 1:05:59
  Speaker 3: that I'm able to help and I'm able to support emotionally,
• 1:06:02
  Speaker 3: you'll be able to tap into my group. And right
• 1:06:06
  Speaker 3: now I'm right now, I'm focused a lot focused on
• 1:06:12
  Speaker 3: my YouTube channel because I want to start a podcast
• 1:06:15
  Speaker 3: there Queen Peaks Queen Speaking Life. That's Kate w E
• 1:06:20
  Speaker 3: and Queen Speaker Likes, which stands for Kingdom Women Embracing
• 1:06:24
  Speaker 3: Emotional Wellness. That's emotional newness. I'm sorry, that's a that's
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  Speaker 3: a word k w E and the Lord gave me
• 1:06:32
  Speaker 3: maybe about ten years ago and I'm just now kind
• 1:06:35
  Speaker 3: of bringing it into fruition. So that's something I'm working
• 1:06:39
  Speaker 3: on now, that podcast. Now you when you're join my channel,
• 1:06:43
  Speaker 3: you'll also see that that podcast is starting on there.
• 1:06:47
  Speaker 3: That's that's that's the start of it. That's the start
• 1:06:51
  Speaker 3: of it. And I'm just trying to just pursue what
• 1:06:56
  Speaker 3: God brings to my mind to do right but operating
• 1:07:00
  Speaker 3: in my in my lane at the same time. But
• 1:07:03
  Speaker 3: you could just google Keisha Johnson mccrad at because I
• 1:07:06
  Speaker 3: googled myself, so you could Google, and I'll come up
• 1:07:09
  Speaker 3: and you can follow me, follow me wherever you see fit.
• 1:07:12
  Speaker 3: You know, I am on Google, so I mean that's
• 1:07:15
  Speaker 3: that's pretty much where you can follow me at. But
• 1:07:18
  Speaker 3: I am also, like I said, when I work on
• 1:07:20
  Speaker 3: my book, you all have really give me inspiration to
• 1:07:23
  Speaker 3: do that. So I want to definitely be working on
• 1:07:27
  Speaker 3: my book at this time. So just look out for
• 1:07:31
  Speaker 3: Keisha Johnson mccraid. That's all I could say to you
• 1:07:34
  Speaker 3: guys right now, and just thank you again Quein Angela
• 1:07:37
  Speaker 3: for having me.
• 1:07:38
  Speaker 2: Well, we definitely gonna be looking out and we're definitely
• 1:07:41
  Speaker 2: gonna be sharing. Whatever you do, We're definitely gonna be sharing, y'all.
• 1:07:47
  Speaker 2: I'm done. I'm done with school, so just what, I
• 1:07:50
  Speaker 2: got plenty of time on my hands, So y'all see
• 1:07:52
  Speaker 2: a lot going on with everything that I got my
• 1:07:56
  Speaker 2: hands in. I'm about to get really really active. I'm
• 1:08:00
  Speaker 2: about to revamp some things. I'm about to do some things.
• 1:08:03
  Speaker 2: Were about to get out and visit some places. Our
• 1:08:07
  Speaker 2: first stop here for the AA L A C is
• 1:08:09
  Speaker 2: gonna be here in East Point, Georgia. On April the fifth,
• 1:08:13
  Speaker 2: we headed out to California. You're gonna stop in Texas.
• 1:08:17
  Speaker 2: We're gonna we're gonna get around. We're gonna make our
• 1:08:19
  Speaker 2: rounds to many states and cities that we can to
• 1:08:22
  Speaker 2: be a blessing to be able to share some all
• 1:08:25
  Speaker 2: these authors. So I'm telling everybody, if you are a
• 1:08:29
  Speaker 2: group leader, you you are, you are now on notice.
• 1:08:34
  Speaker 2: We're now on notice because live events. I definitely think
• 1:08:38
  Speaker 2: that we we should be having a live event for
• 1:08:42
  Speaker 2: all of us to come together at least every two months.
• 1:08:47
  Speaker 2: It's enough of us. It's forty seven of us inside
• 1:08:50
  Speaker 2: of the group right now. We we got no forty three.
• 1:08:54
  Speaker 2: I'm sorry, it's forty three of us inside of the
• 1:08:56
  Speaker 2: group right now, not include me, forty four including me, right,
• 1:09:00
  Speaker 2: But there's enough of us to be hosting virtual and
• 1:09:05
  Speaker 2: live events on a constant basis. And then it should
• 1:09:10
  Speaker 2: be no lack because it's too many of us. And
• 1:09:13
  Speaker 2: then it's we we got too many in the same area,
• 1:09:17
  Speaker 2: like we have, we have some we have it's about
• 1:09:20
  Speaker 2: four or five of y'all, six for y'all in New York,
• 1:09:22
  Speaker 2: in New York. Okay, yes you got Charlotte, you got LaToya, Okay,
• 1:09:37
  Speaker 2: you got Cherise Rolanda's nis I think. And then you
• 1:09:47
  Speaker 2: got who else is up there? I want to say six.
• 1:09:52
  Speaker 3: Of y'all, Well, I need to put that in the group.
• 1:09:55
  Speaker 3: We we definitely need to we definitely need to connect. Then, yeah, definitely, Okay,
• 1:10:02
  Speaker 3: I know New York you, Charlotte, Suri's Taya, and it's
• 1:10:12
  Speaker 3: somebody else.
• 1:10:12
  Speaker 2: I don't know who that six person is, but it's
• 1:10:14
  Speaker 2: six A, y'all it is. It's got to be six
• 1:10:19
  Speaker 2: A y I'm trying to see.
• 1:10:24
  Speaker 3: And also everybody. You can also reach me on on Facebook.
• 1:10:28
  Speaker 3: I also have an author page that I created author KEITHA.
• 1:10:32
  Speaker 3: Johnson McCrae, so you also can reach me there there.
• 1:10:35
  Speaker 3: My plans with that page is to have you experience
• 1:10:39
  Speaker 3: my poetry and how I write a lot of my poetry.
• 1:10:42
  Speaker 3: I had stopped writing that one time because I felt
• 1:10:45
  Speaker 3: my poet poems were too long. But the Lord let
• 1:10:48
  Speaker 3: me know. But that's the way he created me to write.
• 1:10:50
  Speaker 3: My poems tell a story. So more or less, when
• 1:10:54
  Speaker 3: I write, I'm telling a story. So you'll get to
• 1:10:57
  Speaker 3: experience a lot of my world there as well. So
• 1:11:01
  Speaker 3: my planning is definitely to do more on that page
• 1:11:03
  Speaker 3: as well.
• 1:11:05
  Speaker 2: And there is six I told you her name, Yes,
• 1:11:09
  Speaker 2: her name is so So Sophia Shepherd. Okay, I may
• 1:11:15
  Speaker 2: be saying her name wrong. She's in your group. You her.
• 1:11:19
  Speaker 2: It's three of y'all in your in your group. That's
• 1:11:21
  Speaker 2: from New York. Oh, with Charlotte, You, Charlotte and so Fauna.
• 1:11:30
  Speaker 2: I think her name is Sophony.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, she does.
• 1:11:35
  Speaker 2: She's a social worker, she does elderly, she does elderly,
• 1:11:40
  Speaker 2: and she's an author. I think she's yeah, but she's
• 1:11:44
  Speaker 2: in She's in New York. Yeah, we in New York,
• 1:11:48
  Speaker 2: and I think all of y'all may be in the
• 1:11:50
  Speaker 2: same area.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, Okaylyn Brooklyn, she said, Brooklyn. I'm in the Bronx
• 1:11:56
  Speaker 3: when Brooklyn is not far.
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  Speaker 2: I think.
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  Speaker 3: Me too.
• 1:12:01
  Speaker 2: I think I think Rolanda and what's the name? I
• 1:12:10
  Speaker 2: think they stay in Brooklyn if I'm.
• 1:12:11
  Speaker 3: Not okay, Okay, still close.
• 1:12:16
  Speaker 2: I don't know about the I don't I don't know
• 1:12:18
  Speaker 2: nothing about the Borrows. I just know it's close. I
• 1:12:25
  Speaker 2: just know. Look, I just know. I know it's five
• 1:12:27
  Speaker 2: of them. I don't know. And I'm ready to come
• 1:12:33
  Speaker 2: to New York as an adult. I've never been to
• 1:12:35
  Speaker 2: New York as an adult. I've been when I was younger.
• 1:12:39
  Speaker 2: I actually have a family that lived up in and
• 1:12:45
  Speaker 2: do they live out of the state.
• 1:12:47
  Speaker 3: Probably, yeah, upstate New York.
• 1:12:50
  Speaker 2: But because that's where my my other my dad's family,
• 1:12:55
  Speaker 2: that's where he was from.
• 1:12:56
  Speaker 3: They were okay, okay.
• 1:13:00
  Speaker 2: But yeah. But I thank you for stopping by and
• 1:13:02
  Speaker 2: sharing with us. I truly have enjoyed it. I thank you,
• 1:13:08
  Speaker 2: I truly do. Anytime you want to come by and
• 1:13:11
  Speaker 2: share any updates, anything you got going on, make sure
• 1:13:16
  Speaker 2: to let me know.
• 1:13:20
  Speaker 3: We got legacies to create here. You're helping us create legacies.
• 1:13:25
  Speaker 3: I got a grand baby, grand babies that I need
• 1:13:29
  Speaker 3: long before I'm when I'm gone, I need them to
• 1:13:31
  Speaker 3: see what Grammy has done.
• 1:13:34
  Speaker 2: And that's what we're supposed to do because we should
• 1:13:37
  Speaker 2: do greater works. They won't see those greater works if
• 1:13:40
  Speaker 2: we don't leave the evidence of those greater works. So
• 1:13:43
  Speaker 2: that's what we're here to do. Lead the evidence so
• 1:13:45
  Speaker 2: that people can have those blueprints so that they read work.
• 1:13:50
  Speaker 2: See people been saying our ancestor a lot of people
• 1:13:53
  Speaker 2: have been getting upset because they say they be getting
• 1:13:55
  Speaker 2: offended because people have been saying they not like their ancestors.
• 1:13:58
  Speaker 2: I'm not like my ancestors. You can get mad with
• 1:14:00
  Speaker 2: me if you want to, because my ancestors wanted they
• 1:14:03
  Speaker 2: wanted me to be better. They wanted me to be better,
• 1:14:06
  Speaker 2: and I want I want the next group to be better.
• 1:14:09
  Speaker 2: So they paid the way so that I can do
• 1:14:12
  Speaker 2: the things that I do. I don't discredit nothing that
• 1:14:14
  Speaker 2: they've done, don't downplay nothing that they've done, because they
• 1:14:17
  Speaker 2: had to do what they did in order for me
• 1:14:19
  Speaker 2: to be able to do what I'm doing. So now
• 1:14:21
  Speaker 2: I have to do what I'm doing so that they
• 1:14:23
  Speaker 2: can do what they.
• 1:14:24
  Speaker 3: Need to do.
• 1:14:25
  Speaker 2: Right, So I got to I gotta leave them something
• 1:14:29
  Speaker 2: I got. I got greater than those that came for me.
• 1:14:33
  Speaker 2: So we're breaking those generational cursing our newness. So thank you,
• 1:14:40
  Speaker 2: thank you, thank you tonight and sharing with us.
• 1:14:44
  Speaker 3: Thank you so much for having me.
• 1:14:46
  Speaker 2: Yes, ma'am. But I want to thank everybody for stopping
• 1:14:50
  Speaker 2: by and sharing before we leave. I want to give
• 1:14:53
  Speaker 2: this queen around of applage. Y'all know how we'd like
• 1:14:56
  Speaker 2: to show our.
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  Speaker 3: Thank you.
• 1:15:07
  Speaker 2: Thank you, thank you, thank you, and I hope you
• 1:15:09
  Speaker 2: have a great rest of your evening. Thank you for
• 1:15:12
  Speaker 2: the past, thank you for coming and sharing. Thank you
• 1:15:15
  Speaker 2: I hope you guys have been blessed by what you
• 1:15:18
  Speaker 2: have heard on tonight. I tell you I have truly, truly,
• 1:15:21
  Speaker 2: truly been blessed. Y'all. Please go over support the things
• 1:15:25
  Speaker 2: that she has going on. Stay connected to the one
• 1:15:28
  Speaker 2: hundred Author movement, because I guarantee you you will see
• 1:15:33
  Speaker 2: that book drop in twenty twenty five. So be on
• 1:15:37
  Speaker 2: the lookout because it's coming. Be my witness. I'm telling
• 1:15:40
  Speaker 2: you live in direct three twenty four, twenty five, it's
• 1:15:44
  Speaker 2: coming in twenty twenty five. Be on the lookout. Keisha Johnson,
• 1:15:49
  Speaker 2: Mick Ray. Good night, y'all. Y'all be blessed.