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Light In The Dark: Wish You Could Undo Something? · Unlocking The Paradigm Portal

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  Hey, it's Sarah. If your mind keeps trying to go
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  back in time tonight to a moment you wish you could redo, or a
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  choice that you wish you could take back, or words you wish you
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  could unsay, then this is for you.
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  You don't have to figure out how to make peace with it right now,
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  and you don't have to convince yourself everything happens for
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  a reason. You don't have to force closure,
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  so you can just sit here and listen and not be alone with it
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  for a few minutes. So hang out with me and imagine
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  that my voice is a small Lantern beside you, with just enough
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  light to take the edge off the dark.
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  Because regret is different from sadness.
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  So sadness it sits really heavy, but regret it paces and it keeps
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  trying to open the same door again.
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  Like if you replay it enough times, maybe something will
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  change and your brain runs like simulations and different
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  versions and different outcomes. If I had just done this
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  differently or if I hadn't said what I said or why didn't I say
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  what I meant to say? And the hardest part is knowing
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  that you can't go back. So your mind keeps circling it
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  like it doesn't know where else to go and it's searching for a
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  place to land. And if that's happening tonight,
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  you're not losing it. You're trying to process
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  something that doesn't have a clear ending.
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  And regret can turn into a kind of quiet self punishment.
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  Your brain starts building a case against you.
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  You should have known better. You shouldn't have trusted that
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  person. You shouldn't have stayed or you
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  shouldn't have left. And it starts to feel like the
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  only way to balance the scale is to keep hurting about it.
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  But hurting forever doesn't rewrite the past.
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  It just keeps you awake at night.
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  And you don't have to sentence yourself tonight.
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  You can set the case down for a few hours.
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  So right now, you are not in that moment.
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  You are here in your room, in your bed, in this exact version
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  of your life, the one that kept going.
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  So feel where your body is touching the surface under you.
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  Ground yourself in that feeling and notice something in the room
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  that you can see or you can hear and let your eyes rest somewhere
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  because your life didn't stop at that moment of regret, even if
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  part of your mind is still there.
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  You are here now and here. Nothing needs to be decided.
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  Nothing needs to be fixed and nothing needs to be relived.
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  So a gentle reminder that you don't have to solve your entire
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  past tonight, and you don't have to arrive at forgiveness, and
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  you don't have to understand why it happened and you don't have
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  to extract the lesson right now. Sometimes the kindest thing that
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  you can do for yourself is to stop pressing replay.
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  Not forever, but just for tonight.
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  Because you are allowed to rest. In fact, you deserve to rest.
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  Even if the story feels unfinished and you're allowed to
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  sleep. Even if your brain is still
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  holding questions. And you're allowed to exist
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  without punishing yourself. So if regret showed up tonight,
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  I'm really glad you didn't have to sit with it completely alone.
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  And you don't have to carry the whole past while you're trying
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  to rest. So for now, just breathe and let
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  the night hold you for a little while and I'll leave the Lantern
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  beside you so that it is right there when I come back.
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  Thank you for joining me tonight.
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  I really appreciate it.