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STOP STIMMING NOW! · Aspergers & Autism Podcast [The Aspie World] AuDHD

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  Okay guys, so I thought I'd do like a sit-down conversation
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  because like there's been a lot going on and I haven't really
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  spoke about it. Like I never spoke about it.
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  So I decided that I would maybe speak about right now because
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  there's a lot going on on well, how's it going on and and and
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  the only way I can explain what the feeling feels like as if
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  somebody's told you to stop spinning imagine your stimming
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  imagine you're doing something you're stimming or you're like
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  self-soothing you're doing something right?
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  And then somebody says you stop them and kind of thing ever
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  again. You know, it's Tim anymore.
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  Stop it right now and that's it and they stop they hold your
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  hands down or whatever and they stop your ability to stem that
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  is kind of like the experience that I am currently experiencing
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  right now. So I was working with a major
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  television production company for a major national TV show
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  here in the United Kingdom that is currently about two are
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  tomorrow and it's either When you guys watching this, but
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  basically it's happening tomorrow.
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  And yeah, I was I was contacted by the by the company and then
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  we went through all the motions and then I was cast for the show
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  and I was all the way ready bags packed to do the show did
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  everything filmed everything from the adverts for the channel
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  everything and then all of a sudden they say, oh no, the
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  channel doesn't want you anymore the kind of just cut me off
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  instantly. Now, I believe that they did
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  this because they didn't want someone with us video.
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  Syndrome on the show because you got remember like TV shows and
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  casting companies are two different people.
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  So the Caster's go out and find the people and they feel like
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  they believe in those people most people going to do the
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  right job. And then the TV channel the
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  Channel network of the people who then actually decide if
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  that's what they want to represent their channel on
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  television. So I'm legally bound I can't
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  tell you what the show was what the channel was but it's major
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  is product. It's huge its major, but that
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  being said, this is the experience I had they basically
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  Fill me up said oh, yeah, you're not going on the show anymore.
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  Even though they said to me you're definitely going on the
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  show pack your bags get everything ready.
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  And I did that, you know get everything ready for a pet
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  everything for the show and then all of a sudden they say, hey,
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  you're not in the show. So how does that make me feel
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  man? That made me feel like I was
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  like super just not appreciative that I was undervalued and then
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  I realized that there was like discriminatory.
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  Like they don't want to see desperate is on television.
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  They don't autism represented in a certain way on.
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  Television and and that kind of blows man.
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  It just it's horrible. It's a horrible feeling.
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  I just been feeling like absolute rubbish for like an
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  entire week. So it was almost a week since I
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  found out like that. I'm not doing the show and the
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  show airs like tomorrow today. And yeah, I just it just just
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  freaks me out man freaks me out and I felt the lowest I've ever
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  felt in my life. I got to be honest with you
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  guys. I like I'm really like a
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  happy-go-lucky person. I'm a suit.
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  I'm super pumped all the time. I'm always like Yeah, I'm gonna
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  nail this is gonna be awesome and I'm really positive all the
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  time usually but with this specific one, I just feel let
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  down. I feel like I let myself down
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  right? I feel like I was doing all this
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  stuff and then I let myself down because like I love myself
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  three-part process and I believe that it was going to happen and
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  everyone told me that was gonna happen and it didn't and it was
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  difficult. It's difficult to deal with how
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  do I comprehend that, you know my routine would that I thought
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  I was I was going to do Like my how I planned my plan.
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  Drift away just like somebody saying don't ever see him ever
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  again. It's like it's crazy man.
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  It's created literally is crazy. It's like the crazy thing I've
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  ever experienced in my life. I think like it's probably the
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  most crazy thing I've ever experienced in my life.
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  Like I kind of explained, you know, the huge huge huge Channel
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  huge program just like but the obvious said I made some really
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  good friends with the production company in the casting directors
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  and things like that and they're all really cool and they love me
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  and they want to work them in some capacity.
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  So it's not all bad I guess so as I continue to buy new clothes
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  for myself. I am asking myself this you
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  know, how do I value myself? Where do I put myself in?
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  Am I good enough to represent autism on National Television.
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  Am I good enough? So Chi this torch?
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  Oh my goodness. Do all these things.
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  I don't know. I feel like I was I feel like
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  that's what I'm in mind was that I feel like I could do those
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  things. The proof is in the pudding.
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  You got to be able to prove yourself.
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  You got to be able to be the person who can do those things
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  right right now. I have been able to do that, but
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  I believe I can do that and that will happen.
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  I just got off some Faith man. I got some Faith myself, right?
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  You gotta flee you gotta stop beliefs up Faith and off.
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  This video isn't like I'm sorry for you guys.
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  See I got bags under my eyes. I'm losing like sleep and stuff
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  like that. But I'm sorry this video is a
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  bit like dull and you guys like one is done on about this is
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  terrible. You did like a making tea
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  montage and that's about it. But like yeah crazy.
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  That's my mind's been up but I mean not all bad.
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  I mean I made a course I'm selling a course right now,
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  which is pretty awesome actually the few different courses.
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  And one is like how to turn your autism traits into super powers.
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  And other one is that turning your obsessions into a career.
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  Another one is the social interaction interaction
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  blueprint like how to socialize at what the bear principles
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  socializing the other stuff. I've designed to help you guys.
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  I'm going to be for sale on my site very very soon and I'll
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  link below, you know, you can go to coping secrets.com right now
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  and you can buy my company Secrets course, which is the the
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  for one I did and I've seen the livestream I did talking about
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  it. But yeah, so dope but yeah, it's
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  it's a crazy world.