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The World of Conscious Positive Thinking What Is Consciousness? Part 1 — Who Is Watching Your Thoughts? · Military Broadcast Radio | MBR Talk

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  At MB radio dot. It all good Monday Monday
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  morning. Wow, I feel like Jose on
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  motivated Monday. Here we go.
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  Welcome to the world of conscious positive thinking
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  right here on MB radio dot US. We're streaming on pretty much
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  every platform you can find and on that Channel you will find 2
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  cap TWOCPT, which means the world of conscious positive
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  thinking. I'm your host Mji.
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  Want to get something straight before we start, There's a lot
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  of questions when I say man and when I put those quotes in man,
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  that is MJ doesn't that's my slang for saying human humanity,
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  all of us right man. So it doesn't mean you me.
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  It doesn't mean the masculine. It means man, all right, who are
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  here today because we are starting a series.
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  We're starting another series. Oh my goodness, another series,
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  6666. This is a part of a six series
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  and it is what is consciousness? What is consciousness?
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  I just did the four part series of consciousness of humanities
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  and I was like, wait a minute, did we even discuss
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  consciousness, MJ? So I'm kind of going backwards,
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  I guess. What is consciousness?
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  And then I should have led into should.
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  Did I just say should I know? For all you listeners out there,
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  yes, she said should. Yes, I'm shouldn't all over
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  myself this morning. It's all good.
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  It's all good. So today is August the 17th,
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  2026. You know what that means?
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  I got to get our Angel numbers out.
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  We got to see what's going on here that is going on.
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  It is 0817260. My goodness, it results in a
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  six. It is an important time to
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  nurture yourself on all levels, eating healthy food, drinking
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  ample amounts of water and sleeping well.
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  We'll assist you in maintaining a healthy body.
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  Creating a peaceful ambiance will also nourish your soul.
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  The angels recommend bringing harmony to your environment with
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  beautiful flowers, musics and crystals.
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  Change your power. Word today is self appreciation.
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  Who out there is not appreciating themselves?
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  Today is your day. Self appreciation honor you
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  because there is nobody else in this world like you.
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  So self appreciation is our word today.
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  It also contains #72 God has hoped.
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  Your prayers and manifesting please and response to the
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  angels have been sent to say that they would like you to look
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  at the things that you are opposing in life.
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  The opposite side of attraction is opposition and sometimes the
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  very thing we are being guided to do to bring an extra
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  abundance in is the thing that we are opposing most.
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  It's time to reflect on the guidance you have been opposing
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  as this may be highlighting an abundance block baby.
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  Wow, that's really cool. Your number also contains the
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  number 17, which is the number of the day the angels call upon
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  you to tap into your God-given creative talents.
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  Allow the energy of being in the moment to allow your creative
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  juices to flow. Your creative essence will
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  resultingly bring about a creation of great beauty and
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  will be treasured by your family, local community, or even
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  the world at large. The angels are here to assist
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  you to create those gifts of the world.
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  We're going to put them in that tapestry of creation, baby.
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  That's what we're doing. The Angel number contains the
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  number 26. That is our year.
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  You hear it every week. I come on.
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  The angels know that you feel empowered when you feel
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  compassion for others. They now ask that you feel the
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  same compassion for yourself. It is very important that you
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  say no two requests that make you feel uneasy.
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  Trust these sensations in your body as these are your inner
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  compass. Angel number contains 81.
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  It's our last one here. The two key spiritual principles
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  of abundance are gratitude and self appreciation.
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  The angels remind you that it is paramount for you to feel good
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  about yourself, to feel good about who you are and the
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  contributions you bring to the world.
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  As you acknowledge yourself with appreciation, you allow the
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  doors of universal abundance to open for you.
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  Woo. It looks like it's all about
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  money, money, money. But then again, let's say MJ, is
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  it always about money? I don't think so.
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  Abundance can be anything. It could be joy, it could be
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  happiness, it could be life, it could be prosperity, it could be
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  caring, it could be a world of things, happiness, whatever it
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  is what I say at the end that you desire most of your
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  abundance, right? And you are able and rooted and
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  it is allowed because we're here to allow it.
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  And that's all we have to say about that.
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  So OK folks, we have a long show today, so I got to keep moving
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  along here. So here we go, here we go, here
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  we go. Now today we begin another
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  journey together. Another journey like our 4 is
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  going to be 6. For the last four weeks we have
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  been exploring the consciousness of humanity.
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  We went through entitlement, we went through anxiety, division,
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  awakening. We looked at patterns such as
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  conditioning, consistencies, events, reactions, healings,
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  balance, and while putting that series together, the wire.
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  That would be me. The wire.
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  Why, why? Why?
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  Mine started doing what it always does.
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  It goes down another rabbit hole because a trigger happened and
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  it gave me another question. Questions and questions, because
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  we just spent four weeks talking about the consciousness of
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  humanity and suddenly I thought, wait a minute, we didn't even
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  talk about consciousness. I already talked about that.
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  Why did I not think to talk about consciousness first before
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  consciousness of humanities? Well, we're going to use some of
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  the tools that we learned in four to help us get through to
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  Six to figure out what exactly is.
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  So we use this word constantly, right?
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  You hear it all the time. I made a conscious decision.
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  Well, did you? What was the consciousness about
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  it? He lost consciousness.
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  What does that mean? He's dead or he's just laying
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  there and not being able to think?
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  She was, she wasn't conscious of what she was doing.
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  Does that give a level of it's OK, huh.
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  We have a lot to talk about and then we are here we are and
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  there's more subconscious, unconscious, higher
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  consciousness, collective consciousness, conscious
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  awareness, expanded consciousness.
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  Science studies consciousness, psychology studies consciousness
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  and philosophers ponder for centuries about you got it.
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  Consciousness beer traditions really have explored for
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  thousands of years. They have and and it has been
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  evolving and becoming and now hold on strapoon folks, because
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  artificial intelligence has now walked into the conversations of
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  consciousness. What what, how can that be?
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  Is that true? What?
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  What? I know I'm saying the same
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  thing. So perhaps before we keep
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  talking about becoming more conscious, we need to talk about
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  what exactly are we becoming more a conscious and aware of?
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  Perhaps an even bigger question. Who is doing the becoming?
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  Wait, did I wait? Did I really just say that?
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  Why? What?
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  What do you mean? Who is doing the becoming?
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  There I am. See that the minute somebody
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  gave me that, I went down that rabbit hole so quick your head
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  spins because it just doesn't make sense, right?
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  Huh. Now I want everyone of you today
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  to get something out here with your phone, get a pencil, get a
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  paper, because you're going to have one of the chairs pulled up
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  in this discussion in this part. Because over these next six
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  weeks, we're doing something a little bit different.
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  And I'm not going to sit here and announce, oh, M JS figured
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  out consciousness at all levels of every single science.
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  And no, no, no, oh, MJ wishes she would stop with the Y.
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  She would stop with all these darn Nagget questions, right?
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  But no, after looking at how long humanity has been
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  questioning consciousness, I feel quite comfortable by saying
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  we're all still learning, we're all still trying, and we're all
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  still evolving. So everybody, everybody gets a
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  chair at this table. So science gets theirs chairs
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  because we're going to be looking at what researchers can
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  observe and measure way back to when they started being the
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  discoverer. And then we're going to go and
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  psychology's now going to get a chair and we're going to explore
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  how humanity attempted to understand the conscious to the
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  unconscious mind in the psychology.
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  And let me tell you, folks, psychology just is, and this is
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  not what do they call that? You know, this is not one of
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  those, oh, you gave it away kind of moments.
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  No, Psychology is probably one of the youngest chairs of
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  science. It only started in the late
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  1800s and it has been evolving almost, I want to say yearly
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  they change, right? Anyway, we're going to get there
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  because the psychology aspect goes hand in hand a lot with
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  philosophy. And the philosophers get their
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  chair as well because people are always pondering consciousness
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  long before technology and who do would even allow us to
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  observe the activity in a living brain.
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  So then we go into, of course, one of my fields, which is
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  spirituality. They get a chair because there's
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  just something that is so rewarding, asking questions into
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  the spirituality group and humanity has explored soul.
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  They have explored meditations, men have explored alternate
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  states. They do life force activations.
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  There are so many energies within the spiritual realm that
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  are coming in due to science and I love that.
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  So divine connection and consciousness for thousands of
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  years and eventually, Oh my goodness, I can't believe this.
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  But yes, we are going into AI and they get their chair folks.
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  I have done some studies with AI and I'm almost thinking I'm
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  talking to a human on the other end.
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  Remember, AI is programmed by a human.
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  So just keep that in, in, in the back because that table of
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  discussions going to get very interesting because I tend to
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  that is not the case. And I don't know which man
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  programmed you and I'm very deliberate that way.
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  You see me on my my show. Who does that?
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  Man, Man said that. Yeah.
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  Then I get my chair, right? Not because any of my
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  experiences prove what consciousness is.
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  It's because my chair represents nearly six decades of
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  experiences that have made me question, ponder, observe,
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  learn, and continuously, continuously asking why, what,
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  how, where. That's me.
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  That is fortunate or fortunate for me.
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  I love it because it furthers who I am.
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  It furthers my what man calls consciousness, right?
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  I have a further realm of becoming aware.
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  So now the most important chair we're going to pull up though is
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  you. We are going to have you pull up
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  your chair because we have a lot of things set for you today.
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  So grab that pencil, paper or grab your phone, whatever it is.
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  Because for this series, I don't need you to believe what I
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  believe. I want something much more
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  interesting for you. I want you to become aware of
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  what you believe and then ask yourself now why do I believe
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  that? OK.
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  Did I experience it? Was I taught it?
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  Did my parents teach it? Did religion teach me that?
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  Did the teachers in school teach me that?
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  Did science teach me that? Did society teach me that?
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  Did a painful event create it? Did a beautiful event create it?
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  Did fear create it? Or did love create it?
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  Or have I believed something for such a long time that I don't
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  even remember where that belief began?
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  Now ask yourself one more question.
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  Have I ever questioned it? Have you questioned it if you're
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  if you're authoritative people in your life, your mom, your dad
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  growing up as a kid, did you ever question them?
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  And if you did, what happened Wapa pow or the Chunkletta came
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  flying. How dare you question me.
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  I I'm just telling you the era I grew up, right?
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  Because that question becomes really, really, really, really
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  important now, especially trying to philosophy.
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  Where does conscious sit? So start right now.
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  I mean literally start right now.
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  Before Freud, before young, before neurosciences, before
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  spiritual philosophies, before AI.
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  Let's begin somewhere much, much, much, much simpler right
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  here, right now. OK, so wherever you are
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  listening to me or watching me, I want you to notice something.
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  Pick out anything. I don't care what it is.
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  It don't have to be on my screen.
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  It's something in your room, you know, maybe you don't.
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  Don't make it complicated. Just pick something.
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  It's it's quite it's a quite easy task.
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  OK, so maybe you hear a voice in the background.
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  Maybe you feel the chair underneath you.
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  Maybe you're driving and you see something.
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  Maybe you smell coffee. I don't know.
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  Maybe you smell cigarettes. Maybe you smell the rain.
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  Oh, I love the smell of the rain.
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  Or just maybe you're watching me on screen.
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  Maybe another thought is running through your mind while you're
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  listening to me. And maybe you're thinking, MJ,
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  where the hell are you going with this?
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  Right, 'cause that's, that's always, you know what is
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  happening now with this girl. OK, so whatever it is, you are
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  experiencing something. Now notice something even
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  stranger now that you're experiencing that because, you
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  know you're experiencing it because I just said observe it.
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  And that right there is where today's conversation begins.
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  You've experienced something that you have observed.
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  Yeah. And they're still going.
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  MJ. What?
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  Not only with this experience, with the awareness of it, I am
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  experiencing what a voice in the background.
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  Now if you, if I get really quiet, listen to my studio.
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  You hear that? Overwhelming.
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  I'm. I'm I'm aware of that noise.
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  I don't know what it is, but I'm aware of it.
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  Uh huh. OK, so awareness sounds really
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  simple, right? Oh, you just heard something?
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  Or you just saw something? Your awareness?
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  Nope, not for this wire. I'm I'm the wire girl.
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  Why am I experiencing this? Why am I hearing this?
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  Right I'm. Aware that I'm sitting right
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  here, I'm aware that I am talking to our beautiful
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  audience, and I'm aware of my body.
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  I'm aware of that sound. I'm aware that thoughts are
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  moving through me rapidly yet yet there are countless things
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  happening inside and around me right now that I am not actively
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  paying attention to. Think about yourself.
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  There are. Actively things going outside.
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  If you're in a house, there's things going on, then something
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  catches the attention and suddenly, like that fan I'm
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  listening to, I'm aware of it. So what changed?
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  Did that thing suddenly begin existing?
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  No, it's been there. My attention moved towards it.
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  Like your attention, because I said, what are you looking at?
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  What's the object? What are you listening to?
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  What are you smelling? You become aware.
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  Right. So no, no, nothing has changed.
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  What has changed is my attention that moved.
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  Does that make sense? OK, so think about a ticking
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  clock. OK, let's let's think about
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  that. Right?
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  So think about a clock ticking in A room I have when I go to my
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  mom's house, she has grandfather clocks.
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  She also has cuckoos and none of them are are working.
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  Now she has one thing that constantly ticks though, right?
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  Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick.
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  It's by seconds, right? All those little hand dial
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  clocks in the wall, tick, tick, tick that third hand tick tick
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  tick. They're ticking.
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  So now if you have something and you hear it, all of a sudden
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  because it becomes a part of you, you no longer hear the
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  tick. You don't even think about it.
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  And then all of a sudden somebody comes to your house and
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  they're like, Oh my gosh, that clock is loud.
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  And now you're like, oh, now you hear tick, tick, tick, tick.
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  But before it, this became a part of you of all that is you
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  understood it. It was white noise to you or it
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  was so far off the mind thinking it's just in the background.
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  So you don't you don't necessarily pay attention or
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  you're not aware of it anymore because it's just it's just
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  there. Does that make sense?
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  OK, good. So the clock didn't suddenly
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  just start to tick, right. So now if you did have a clock
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  that was, you know, hasn't worked for years on end and it
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  started ticking, you're like, oh, wait a minute right now that
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  would be an acute awareness, but a clock that always is ticking,
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  your awareness changes and awareness has fascinated me for
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  a long time. The actual thought process that
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  I used to have, I didn't know the word awareness.
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  I told you this story many times.
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  It wasn't until 2022-2023 when somebody, not somebody, my
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  beauty, one of my beautiful masters, said MJ.
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  Slow down, become aware and I really paused and thinking what
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  was she getting at? What?
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  What does she think I'm not aware of?
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  It wasn't really that it was a different attention to awareness
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  because awareness goes into consciousness.
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  You could be aware of something and not go into consciousness.
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  Just saying. So an awareness has fascinated
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  me for now that I dove in. You know, me, the wire and the
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  seer, I'm going to dive into that.
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  I'm going to ask more questions than the bucket can handle and
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  it'll just overflow because my first awareness that my
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  experience of reality might be different from someone else
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  being very young, I've experienced that.
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  I personally experienced that and it is that experience why
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  I'm going to tell my story. You're going to like today, I'm
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  going to tell you a lot of my stories why I am the person I am
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  today. So it was I was I was right
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  around six years old when I had my first experience that I I
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  could literally understand an apparition.
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  Now remember, at six, I'm not studying physics, metaphysics,
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  I'm not studying the language of energy waves and frequency
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  waves. I'm not studying consciousness
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  and psychology. I'm six.
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  I'm six years old, right? I'm certainly wasn't analyzing
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  dimensional theories either. I was a child.
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  An experience came before any man boxed explanation that they
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  want to throw me into. So here here's my story.
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  I used to have a playmate up where I lived.
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  My parents lived close to the state hospital grounds, like an
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  asylum. And this I'm going to take you
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  all the way back to early 70s like early 70s.
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  And the where the we call it the old farmhouse where that sits
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  there was like a little grass area and then it went into a
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  field and then it went into woods and down up under the
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  woods was a little Creek. OK Creek, Pennsylvania.
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  I get it. A ravine.
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  A ravine was down there now. At the time in that era, they
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  had farm up there, so that water was always running because it
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  was always the well waters that they were feeding their cattles
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  or the barns and doing everything else now.
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  We. Went down there with my little
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  playmate and we would walk that Creek and we had fun.
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  We were catching salamanders, hellbenders.
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  We would look for, you know, anything that we could find
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  underneath the rock crayfish. And it was just one of those
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  childhood I'm exploring. The water was only like maybe 4
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  inches deep. It wasn't enough to for us to
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  literally drowned. I mean, you could drowned in it,
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  but at that time our parents were a little bit.
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  More. Allowing for us to wander,
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  especially if we had a partner or a buddy.
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  And so my friend, him and I would go down to the Creek and
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  we would try to skip rocks. And of course it wouldn't skip
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  because these are like rippling rocks and, and they wouldn't
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  skip. But we would build like little,
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  little bridges, little forts. And onward.
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  There was 1 area that you would as you kept going up.
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  Ironically, this one area was the closest to the old farmhouse
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  where we would be playing either north of there or South of
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  there. But in this one little area
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  there was a delta and the Creek would come like it would circle.
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  And then that was a very deep thing.
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  But when we realized that we were playing too long and the
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  sun was starting to go down with knowing that was the cue.
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  Once the sun went behind the, we got to go.
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  You know, if we were there late during the day, we kind of only
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  spent two or three hours and we'd go back home.
• 27:23
  But at night, in the evenings, we knew we were not allowed.
• 27:26
  So we would have to go back home.
• 27:28
  Well, that little Delta area there was the deepest and
• 27:32
  sometimes it would be a minimum of probably 8 inches, you know.
• 27:38
  But if it was the the spring, it got pretty deep.
• 27:41
  And it was always in the spring with our Easter clothes.
• 27:44
  We always got in trouble because we're always ruining our
• 27:48
  clothes. And they were not play outside
• 27:50
  clothes, they were inside clothes.
• 27:52
  So we decided that instead of trying to cross that thicker,
• 27:55
  deeper area to get home quicker, we were going to build a bridge.
• 28:00
  So we kept getting all these like digging up all these bigger
• 28:04
  rocks 'cause it was a big flat area where the flat areas was
• 28:07
  straight up the mountain. There was nothing but rocks with
• 28:09
  these trees on each side. So it was like trees, rocks.
• 28:13
  And then all the way up on the top was the road going into the
• 28:16
  state hospital. And down here was this huge
• 28:19
  area, this little plateau that we used to have fun because you
• 28:22
  could sit there, listen to the Creek and it was kind of like a
• 28:25
  bigger area than trying to tiptoe getting on with the
• 28:28
  story. We were starting to dig in those
• 28:31
  areas. And I would bring home and I was
• 28:33
  like, oh, look at this cute rock I found.
• 28:34
  Look at, look at how it formed. Well, it wasn't how it formed.
• 28:38
  My, I was then being told that was not a rock.
• 28:41
  Where did I find that? And I go, it is a rock.
• 28:43
  And they're like, yes, it is a rock, but it, it's an Arrowhead.
• 28:48
  And the, the Susque Nook Indians were very prominent in my little
• 28:52
  town back in the day and not when I was alive.
• 28:56
  Let me just you know, you, you can do your own history about
• 28:59
  Susque Nook Indians. Anyway, so I would find these
• 29:02
  little things artifacts, I guess they were now called, but at
• 29:05
  six, I didn't know they were artifacts.
• 29:07
  They were just a funny looking rock, right.
• 29:09
  Look at this thing. So I would always be bringing
• 29:11
  stuff home and you know, of course my parents would explain
• 29:14
  what things were. So then we started finding
• 29:17
  bones. Well, I guess the first couple
• 29:18
  bones that we found, they were animals.
• 29:21
  You know, my brother would say that's you know, that's a
• 29:22
  raccoon or you know, Bah, Bah, Bah, Bah Bah.
• 29:25
  So, but we were still building this bridge.
• 29:29
  It probably took my friend and IA week to accomplish the deeper
• 29:34
  side to put the rocks and go over.
• 29:37
  You heard in my last one of my past stories that yeah, I found
• 29:41
  like the skull head and I was so young I didn't realize it was a
• 29:44
  human skull head. And of course, the school West
• 29:47
  friend W Deal took that skull head from me very quickly.
• 29:51
  They asked where I found it, yadda, yadda, yadda.
• 29:53
  I didn't realize. I just 'cause everything was
• 29:55
  animals. Everything was bones of animals,
• 29:57
  and I was finding crazy little rocks.
• 29:59
  So we built this. The very last thing was this
• 30:03
  huge. It was a big, it was a big, it
• 30:06
  was mud, sticks, twigs, rocks, clay.
• 30:10
  Everything molded together. And it was kind of, I mean, it
• 30:13
  was obviously there for a purpose now that I think about
• 30:17
  it. But at six, it was just this big
• 30:19
  rock stuck in the ground. And, and my playmate and I at
• 30:23
  six just trying to wiggle this thing and wiggle, wiggle,
• 30:25
  wiggle. And we found flatter rocks.
• 30:28
  We found, you know, really different ornate stones to lay
• 30:33
  across this Creek. As we laid the last one, my my
• 30:38
  friend, my playmate couldn't stand it.
• 30:40
  He wanted to go to cross there quick.
• 30:41
  So he goes, I have my play jeans on.
• 30:44
  I'll never forget. I have my play jeans on.
• 30:46
  You have good. I'm going to build the rocks.
• 30:48
  You know, loved at the time, right.
• 30:50
  So now I have this big rock and he jumped across.
• 30:53
  He squatted down. Now I'm squatting to try to grab
• 30:57
  the next series of rocks. So we have a little portion that
• 31:00
  we have to fill in. So as I go to reach down and
• 31:04
  he's now across squatting ready to so for me to hand it, I
• 31:09
  became aware of something. Literally standing behind him
• 31:12
  was this huge freaking Indian just standing there, standing
• 31:17
  there staring at me. I wasn't scared, but the energy
• 31:22
  I got was you're not to be playing here.
• 31:26
  That's that's kind of as a child, you know, when our
• 31:30
  neighbors kind of went and get out of my yard, they're staring
• 31:33
  at you. So I, I just kind of looked and
• 31:36
  I was like, OK, I got to go home and now I start walking.
• 31:40
  Not even the the quickest part because he was there.
• 31:44
  I start going home this way. Of course my playmate's like,
• 31:47
  we'll just come across. I go, I can't, I can't, we have
• 31:50
  to go, we have to go and I'm, and I'm running now I'm kind of
• 31:54
  get out of here. This is, we're not supposed to
• 31:55
  be here. And now I've been playing there
• 31:58
  for how long? And he's like, what are you
• 32:00
  doing? He's trying to like, stop, stop.
• 32:03
  What are you, where are you going?
• 32:04
  And he picks up and he and I go, I'm going home, I'm going back
• 32:08
  to the house. So he crosses up, he gets there
• 32:10
  because I had to go all the way back up and around and I get
• 32:13
  there, he goes, what's your problem?
• 32:14
  I go, did you see the Indian? And he said, what?
• 32:18
  I go the Indian, I don't think we're supposed to pay play
• 32:21
  there. He looks at me.
• 32:22
  He says, I didn't see no Indian. I go, well, he's there and I'm
• 32:28
  telling you, I don't know how you missed it 'cause he was
• 32:30
  right behind you. So my friend is, I mean, he's 6.
• 32:34
  He's he has no idea what I'm talking about.
• 32:38
  And I was like, I'm not going to go back to that delta area right
• 32:42
  now. I don't, I don't want to go back
• 32:43
  to that Delta area anyway. So I get back home and now of
• 32:48
  course, I'm, I'm full of mud and whatever, I come into the old
• 32:52
  farmhouse and my mom is standing at the kitchen cooking and my
• 32:55
  dad is coming up the cellar steps and they, everything would
• 32:58
  happen to be right there. As soon as I come in and I'm
• 33:01
  taking my coat off, I'm taking my shoes off.
• 33:03
  I'm, you know, I'm taking everything off that was muddy or
• 33:06
  dirty, hanging it up. And I happen to say, where do
• 33:09
  the Indians live? And my mom looks at me and my
• 33:13
  dad, who is coming up the steps. He goes, the Indians.
• 33:17
  I go, yeah. He's like, oh, they're out West.
• 33:21
  OK. And with that, I walked off the
• 33:26
  young MJ, the wire. OK, So now I'm going to talk
• 33:31
  about it. That was my very very very first
• 33:36
  as I know today, an apparition. The native people who were
• 33:41
  always by the crooks in Pennsylvania were called
• 33:43
  Susquinux. They no longer existed.
• 33:47
  Now how natural as a six year old was that experience?
• 33:56
  Think about that. I had no reason to believe in
• 34:01
  ghosts, believe in apparitions, believe in any of the man made
• 34:05
  labels. I'm 6.
• 34:08
  Heck, I was just barely in kindergarten.
• 34:13
  Like you can't make this stuff up.
• 34:16
  There's nowhere that could have been an an etiology that someone
• 34:21
  can explain that to me, period. So you heard the story.
• 34:29
  I don't know how you feel about that as a six year old and how
• 34:35
  that I experienced that as it wasn't as a fear.
• 34:39
  It was more of a you are not to be playing here.
• 34:42
  It was the look that they gave me to be stop doing whatever I
• 34:47
  was doing. Now here's here's the thing I
• 34:55
  experienced, and this is really important.
• 34:58
  At six years old, I experienced something first first and then
• 35:04
  later I want to figure out what the experience really meant to
• 35:09
  me. And then by around 12 years old,
• 35:11
  OK, now it keeps going. I asked my my other friend
• 35:17
  Nancy, God rest her soul, she's no longer with us.
• 35:19
  And I asked her, I said, do you see the color, the colorful
• 35:23
  clouds around people? And she looks over at me.
• 35:26
  We're a skateboarding down our 3.
• 35:28
  She looks at me and she goes, what?
• 35:30
  I go the color, the color. There's colored clouds around
• 35:33
  people. Do you see them?
• 35:35
  What I was describing that I was constantly perceiving the colors
• 35:39
  around people, now today perceived as man.
• 35:42
  Oh, their energetic auras. And again, first came my
• 35:48
  experience, then came a language, then came
• 35:53
  interpretation, and then came something else.
• 35:57
  Awareness of myself and relationships to everybody else.
• 36:01
  And this is where this is going. And I began to realize that
• 36:04
  other people may not have experienced what I was
• 36:07
  experiencing. And now another layer appeared.
• 36:13
  Do I talk about it? Will somebody understand?
• 36:17
  Will somebody think I'm just strange or they're going to put
• 36:20
  me in the asylum? Now remember, I'm I'm getting
• 36:23
  older and the era is the 70s. My father was a teacher and a
• 36:29
  major, major, major disciplinarian.
• 36:32
  My family was very boxed into the Christian religion.
• 36:38
  So the LSDS, the acids, the marijuana's, the hippie movement
• 36:43
  that was happening with the 60s and the 70s.
• 36:46
  Could you imagine me telling my family I see people and I have
• 36:51
  colors around them, I have to sit here?
• 36:57
  I think I've been bruised up and down from head to toe and put
• 37:00
  every drug test there was. And I feel that's how that would
• 37:06
  have happened. Those were cultural
• 37:08
  conversations surrounding a very unusual experience.
• 37:13
  And that wasn't my family's world.
• 37:15
  It really wasn't those hippie movements.
• 37:18
  So gradually I learned that there are experiences that
• 37:20
  society placed into categories what was normal, what was not
• 37:25
  normal, what was possible, what was impossible, what was
• 37:28
  spiritual, what was psychological, what was real,
• 37:30
  what was imaginary? Oh, she's playing with her
• 37:32
  imaginary friends. How many times you heard that?
• 37:36
  Look at your own children, grandchildren.
• 37:37
  Oh, they're playing with their friends.
• 37:39
  They're talking, right. Oh, they're talking to
• 37:40
  themselves. Oh, OK.
• 37:43
  And suddenly The Wire wants to know who created these
• 37:48
  categories? Who put me?
• 37:53
  From. Awareness to the perceptions,
• 37:55
  right? So now we move one layer deeper,
• 37:57
  something happens, I become aware, and then I perceived it.
• 38:02
  Yet perception isn't necessarily the perfect photograph of
• 38:08
  reality. Can you imagine perception?
• 38:12
  We bring ourselves to an event. We now have a memory.
• 38:16
  Now we have an emotion, now we have an attention, but our
• 38:20
  previous experiences were all by conditioned experiences.
• 38:25
  By whom you got it. Our expectations were by whom
• 38:29
  you got it, and our beliefs were by whom, man.
• 38:33
  Think about that argument. Two people participating in the
• 38:38
  exact same argument. Think about that, right?
• 38:42
  One of them walks away and says she attacked me.
• 38:45
  The other one walks away and says, I didn't attack anybody, I
• 38:48
  defended myself. Same event, 2 experiences.
• 38:53
  Why? OK, because now there's an
• 38:58
  event, then there's a perception, and then there's an
• 39:01
  interpretation. And those three are not
• 39:04
  automatically identical at all. There cannot be divorces, his
• 39:11
  truth, hers truth. And there's somewhere in the
• 39:13
  middle there's true truth, right perception, interpretation.
• 39:17
  This is flipping patterns 1st. I want you all right now to
• 39:23
  thinking about an event in your life.
• 39:26
  It doesn't have to be your biggest event.
• 39:28
  It's just something another person remembers differently
• 39:32
  than you remember it. And now ask yourself what
• 39:36
  actually happened there? What what really is going on?
• 39:41
  And then ask yourself, what, what did I just perceive?
• 39:48
  And then ask yourself again, what did I decide that it meant?
• 39:54
  Those answers right there may not be identical.
• 39:58
  And that is where we are heading, folks.
• 40:03
  So I got to take a break and we come back.
• 40:05
  We're going to go deeper into perceptions.
• 40:09
  We're going to talk about something philosophers call
• 40:11
  qualia. And you're going to participate
• 40:14
  in it. I hope you do anyway, not you.
• 40:17
  And we're going to discover that our minds apparently love filing
• 40:24
  cabinets. OK?
• 40:25
  And I'm going to tell you about my experience involving a true
• 40:31
  blue boy here. And I'm going to experience that
• 40:34
  made this seer, this wire ask whether seeing something and
• 40:39
  understanding why you're seeing it.
• 40:43
  And always the same thing. So stay with us because we're
• 40:48
  going to be right back. You are listening to MB Radio
• 40:52
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• 40:56
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• 41:00
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  We are back. We are back, We are back.
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  And that was Beaker. And let's see here, I'm trying
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  to read these comments. OK, we're good.
• 42:01
  Good morning. Good morning, everybody.
• 42:02
  Good morning. Good morning, Janet, Terry.
• 42:04
  Good morning, everybody. Thank you for tuning in.
• 42:07
  OK, welcome back. So before the break, we moved
• 42:11
  from awareness into perception. Now let's make the experience
• 42:17
  even more personal because two people may be looking at the
• 42:21
  same thing and still not have exactly the same internal
• 42:27
  experience. How can that be?
• 42:29
  Well, that brings us to one of the most beautiful, beautiful
• 42:33
  philosophy and words of of a philosophical discussion, and
• 42:37
  that is called qualia. Oh, don't panic.
• 42:40
  They're like, what the hell is that?
• 42:41
  And they're getting their phones out.
• 42:42
  I see y'all getting your phones out, digging the word out.
• 42:45
  I got your back, Jax. Qualia.
• 42:48
  It's the experience inside the experience.
• 42:50
  Think about the color red. OK, write it down.
• 42:55
  What popped into your brain the minute I said think about the
• 42:58
  color red, I hope you wrote it down.
• 43:02
  Because with that red, science can study light, they can study
• 43:09
  the eye, they can study this the nervous system, they can study
• 43:13
  the brain activity. But yet another piece exists,
• 43:19
  right? So when I said the word red,
• 43:21
  what popped in your head? What does red look like inside
• 43:28
  of your experience? Because maybe this side said
• 43:33
  Rose, maybe this side said blood, maybe this said Cherry,
• 43:39
  maybe this said Apple. It was your experience.
• 43:43
  What did you, you can you can write it down and tag me.
• 43:47
  Tell me what it is. Let's see how many, if you do,
• 43:49
  how many people wrote something different?
• 43:53
  What does red look like inside of your experience?
• 43:56
  Now think about that. Now I'm going to give you
• 43:58
  another one. Write it down.
• 44:02
  What pops in your head when I say think about chocolate?
• 44:09
  Now we can discuss the chemistry of it.
• 44:12
  We can study our taste receptors about it, we can study the smell
• 44:18
  of it, and we can study the neural processing.
• 44:22
  But what I cannot do is climb inside of your consciousness
• 44:26
  right now, your brain, your mind, and experienced your bite
• 44:30
  of chocolate, exactly how you experienced or exactly how it
• 44:33
  is. When I hear the word chocolate,
• 44:36
  I go straight to peanut butter. Chocolate peanut butter.
• 44:43
  But maybe you said Hershey bar Hershey kiss right?
• 44:46
  Or chocolate cake or chocolate muffin or yeah, you know, the
• 44:52
  Hershey's Chocolate Factory. I don't know.
• 44:54
  I don't, I don't know what, you know, went on through you.
• 44:59
  You can write it now. We're going to go even deeper.
• 45:04
  OK, here's the next one. Let's let's do a deeper mindset
• 45:08
  with Kwalia. Write it down.
• 45:12
  What do the next thing pop into when I say love?
• 45:22
  Was it God? Was it your spouse?
• 45:26
  Was it your children? Was it a flower?
• 45:29
  What do you love? What was your mind experiencing?
• 45:32
  Oh my goodness, we could go like crazy with us.
• 45:36
  Then the next one, write it down.
• 45:38
  Grief. I think of my dog, Dixie.
• 45:43
  That was. Grief.
• 45:46
  You know, some people think of people.
• 45:48
  Some people think of something that was broken, that was an
• 45:53
  heirloom, that was grief. Heartbreak.
• 45:56
  Well, I think of divorce. What do you think?
• 46:00
  Heartbreak. Write it down.
• 46:03
  Here's more joy. What's coming?
• 46:06
  Popping into your head? Pain.
• 46:09
  What's popping into your head? You can explain all of your
• 46:14
  experiences, one word man, and you have categorized that
• 46:21
  experience of conscious of those words.
• 46:25
  OK, so you can explain your experience.
• 46:29
  Another person could oh I could relate to it, but it's not their
• 46:33
  experience. This is why it didn't pop in
• 46:35
  their head first, right? Think about the teachers.
• 46:42
  Anytime you say A, what comes out of your mouth?
• 46:44
  A is for Apple. We're robots because we had
• 46:50
  flash cards to help us remember that we are classifying all of
• 46:54
  these and we're sticking them in your head because man told us to
• 46:59
  A it's for apple, apple, apple. Apple was red.
• 47:05
  Apple was delicious. Apple was a fruit.
• 47:07
  Apple was A. See all these categories.
• 47:10
  Man labeled them, put them in, stocked them in our brain and
• 47:14
  this is now our computers. Though they may have experienced
• 47:20
  something very familiar, yet you can't even become you to feel
• 47:24
  the exact depth of what you've experienced.
• 47:28
  I nobody can feel that depth. It is uniquely to you.
• 47:34
  That's why this wire questioner seer mine started thinking about
• 47:42
  memory and association. So our minds, they learn through
• 47:47
  consistency. We experience something
• 47:51
  repetitively. It's on a consistent basis.
• 47:54
  And we talked about this in our four part series, consistency,
• 48:00
  teaching consistency to children like broken records.
• 48:04
  Consistency is the flash cards 2 by 2 by 4 two by two by 4/2 by 2
• 48:08
  by 4, right. Flash card consistency,
• 48:11
  repetitiveness. So memory connects all of these
• 48:16
  pieces. Associations form categories
• 48:21
  form division forms. Red, blue, hot, cold, safe,
• 48:27
  dangerous, friend, stranger, male, female, known, unknown
• 48:31
  categories, dividing categories, separating categories, labeling.
• 48:39
  And then I just realized something and I have to laugh.
• 48:44
  Our own minds divide the categories information all day
• 48:49
  long. We're a man.
• 48:52
  We have been taught to label and categorize.
• 48:55
  Our mind already does it already does it.
• 49:00
  Our survival instincts demand it.
• 49:03
  And that is not by man. That was by creation, right?
• 49:10
  The man who comes and says, have you discovered the brain?
• 49:13
  No, you did not. You labeled it.
• 49:16
  You didn't. Discover.
• 49:17
  It. Creation made it.
• 49:21
  Where did they get the credit? The man I discovered.
• 49:25
  It's called the brain. Nope.
• 49:27
  You labeled it, you categorized it, you put it in a box and you
• 49:30
  divided it. That's what we do.
• 49:32
  We just spent an entire series discussing division.
• 49:35
  Do you see it? Division.
• 49:38
  And our minds are walking around with filling those filing
• 49:43
  cabinets. Some of the categorations helps
• 49:48
  us function on a daily basis. Absolutely.
• 49:52
  And eventually consistency can become so strong that we stop
• 49:56
  saying, this is what I perceived.
• 49:59
  That's sad right there. And because now we start saying,
• 50:05
  I know what that means. They're not even taking an iota
• 50:10
  to perceive it, to think about it.
• 50:12
  Nothing. It just exists.
• 50:15
  Like the clock ticking, tick, tick, tick.
• 50:19
  Like the fan. I don't need to perceive it.
• 50:24
  I already know what it means. Or do we?
• 50:28
  Let me tell you something, After 45 years of perceiving colors
• 50:32
  around people, I received one beautiful fat lesson here just
• 50:37
  recently and I had to change the scope.
• 50:39
  I had to go back and rewrite this whole.
• 50:41
  Part. One of what is consciousness,
• 50:45
  because for years, for years, I perceive colors around the
• 50:51
  abdomen of women who are pregnant started probably when I
• 50:55
  was about 1616 to 18. There was a girl in our class
• 51:01
  who was pregnant. I kept seeing every time you
• 51:05
  turn around, just kept seeing pink and pink and pink and pink,
• 51:08
  pink on her. And before I knew it, I was I
• 51:12
  was seeing these colors throughout the years in
• 51:16
  consistency. I developed association with
• 51:20
  what I was perceiving or what I was seeing.
• 51:23
  Blue masculine energy in the abdomen meant that they were
• 51:26
  having a boy. Pink energy around the around
• 51:30
  they were having a girl. So blue masculine energy, right?
• 51:37
  And man boxed it like I don't even remember the dates of when
• 51:42
  we decided as man that blue is going to be boy and pink was
• 51:46
  going to be girl. And they were the clothes that
• 51:48
  you're going to set out. And this is how it's going to
• 51:50
  be, right? We got put in a damn box again
• 51:53
  by man. For whatever reason that could
• 51:56
  have been I I don't know at the moment and I didn't research
• 51:59
  that quite yet. Or wear that.
• 52:02
  Because this is so fresh, this just, this particular thing just
• 52:06
  happened to me. So when I began seeing this
• 52:09
  incredible strong energy around a beautiful young woman close to
• 52:12
  my family, my mind recognized the pattern 45 years of it,
• 52:18
  right? I, I mean, I, I, I'm thinking
• 52:23
  with my experience, right when Dennis pulls a tooth, the first
• 52:27
  one's kind of oof, I hope this thing oof, right.
• 52:30
  Then the second one, then the third one.
• 52:32
  And then when they get to their hundred tooth, they're like, and
• 52:34
  they'll pull it out. That's kind of how it is.
• 52:39
  You, you get common, you get these consistencies moving on.
• 52:44
  And then my mind recognizes that pattern.
• 52:48
  Oh, OK. I even asked at the moment, you
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  know, in a realization I need to I need to tell the story and I
• 53:06
  think I'm going to stop here to tell the story before I get too
• 53:08
  farther. So my my friend's daughter two
• 53:12
  years ago, they had gotten married about 3 or 4 years ago
• 53:17
  and it was such a beautiful like I am very tied to this family
• 53:22
  Chinese red string, right? There's.
• 53:25
  Something with this family that evolves me and that I become
• 53:30
  with it. And right before I left, I asked
• 53:36
  if they were considering having children because she had blue
• 53:42
  all over her belly, Blue, blue, blue.
• 53:45
  And it was just in the abdomen. And her core color of aura
• 53:48
  before that even goes any further is not blue.
• 53:52
  They said, well, yeah, they had been thinking.
• 53:54
  And she goes, OMJI, just love this.
• 53:57
  That was the grandma who my first friend before the family
• 54:02
  association. So I tell her I keep thinking
• 54:05
  blue. Time passed.
• 54:06
  She was never pregnant. Time passed again.
• 54:10
  She was never pregnant. Two years passed.
• 54:17
  Now guess what? Now she's pregnant.
• 54:19
  And guess what I see. I still see Blue.
• 54:23
  Yeah. Strong blue.
• 54:25
  Masculine energy in the abdomen. It's right here.
• 54:28
  I mean, you cannot. There was no mistaken.
• 54:32
  My memory bank recognized something that I had experienced
• 54:36
  for decades. And my interpretation, she's
• 54:42
  having a baby and it's going to be a boy.
• 54:47
  I even asked my pendulum. Is it a good idea to to believe
• 54:51
  that this blue energy is masculine?
• 54:53
  Yes. Is a good idea for me to believe
• 54:56
  that this blue energy is a boy? Yes.
• 54:59
  OK. And working out.
• 55:02
  She watched me the questions. Everything's there.
• 55:05
  We're having a boy. I still see the blue now
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  Remember something. At this point I wasn't
• 55:12
  questioning the interpretation, I didn't question it.
• 55:18
  It was so consistent patterning, why would I question it?
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  40 something years of the same thing.
• 55:27
  I had decades of consistently sitting inside of my memory
• 55:32
  bank. Boy, girl, girl, girl, girl,
• 55:33
  girl, boy, girl, girl, girl, boy, boy, girl, boy.
• 55:37
  And it was always there. And then came the gender reveal
• 55:42
  and this is exactly what happened.
• 55:46
  I get a couple of pictures. They didn't say a word.
• 55:51
  None of the family said a word. All's I asked do you see the
• 55:56
  sky? I responded yes.
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  I'm sitting here crying, just tears are rolling down my face.
• 56:05
  Yes, and yes, I was so wrong. Funny, I still see blue on her
• 56:13
  and I see the stork in your sky. She answers back.
• 56:19
  Mji see an Angel perfect drawn in the sky, the side of the
• 56:27
  face, the eyes, the ears, the wings, the hair, all of it.
• 56:30
  I, I can't, I can't even Unsee it.
• 56:34
  It is so there. I don't see your stork.
• 56:38
  What? What?
• 56:44
  I didn't. Respond, she writes back.
• 56:48
  I feel maybe what you're seeing is male energy.
• 56:54
  OK, I sat there seeing the joy, the happiness, the IT was so
• 57:04
  inspired. I've never seen a gender reveal.
• 57:06
  So just full of beautiful energy.
• 57:13
  They had genetic testings done. They didn't even let anybody
• 57:18
  know that they were pregnant for almost 13 weeks, 14 weeks,
• 57:22
  because the genetic testings that had to be done and the
• 57:26
  genetics said it was a girl. The.
• 57:30
  Smoke out of the reveal was a girl.
• 57:35
  OK, now if anybody knows me, I needed to find out what in the
• 57:44
  world am I seeing? Seeing things and having a a
• 57:51
  perspective, an interpretation was an awareness for me.
• 57:59
  I wrote to them. Baby girl.
• 58:02
  We. Have such a beautiful red string
• 58:04
  still awaiting us. The seer is seeing something so
• 58:08
  deep. Major learning lesson of new
• 58:12
  gifts of awareness obviously have shifted of becoming and
• 58:17
  here's why. Grandma, you saw this beautiful
• 58:24
  sideward facing Angel. You gave birth to this beautiful
• 58:28
  baby girl and you also have another beautiful baby boy with
• 58:33
  you. Two children each protected by
• 58:38
  so much. Through my seer's eye, I only
• 58:42
  saw the perfect stork being delivered.
• 58:45
  I drew it out and she's like, Oh my God, I now see it.
• 58:49
  I see what you're saying, but I can't Unsee the Angel.
• 58:52
  In fact, I'm printing it out because it is so in my face and
• 58:56
  for so long I have seen this Incredible strong blue masculine
• 59:03
  energy surrounding this beautiful girl, even though blue
• 59:07
  is not her sole color, her sole core color.
• 59:11
  What is happening? I eventually asked my pendulum
• 59:15
  again. Is this blue energy masculine?
• 59:18
  Yes. Is this blue energy a boy?
• 59:20
  Yes. I kept getting yeses.
• 59:26
  Do you? Understand what I just did?
• 59:29
  I asked about the masculine energy that was surrounding the
• 59:33
  colored clouds if you were male. I didn't ask the fetus being
• 59:40
  born what it was. Do you see how my man's mind
• 59:46
  percepted something differently? And it's a girl.
• 59:52
  It's a girl, the gender revealed.
• 59:55
  Pink, pink, pink. This baby is a girl, and
• 1:00:00
  strangely, that didn't make me want to throw anything that I
• 1:00:04
  had ever perceived away. It made me ask a bigger
• 1:00:09
  question. Wait, what happened?
• 1:00:11
  What shifted? What's going on where?
• 1:00:14
  What is how? Right.
• 1:00:17
  That I had to dig in. Not because it hurt that I was
• 1:00:20
  wrong, it had to dig in because my consistency of my pattern was
• 1:00:25
  just demolished what I currently perceive and energy and incur
• 1:00:32
  and incorrectly interpret what the energy represented.
• 1:00:38
  That stork makes beautiful sense to me.
• 1:00:40
  And arrival, a new life coming into a family.
• 1:00:44
  The spiritual meaning of a stork centers on all the new
• 1:00:48
  beginnings, fertility, family devotion, the awakening.
• 1:00:53
  Widely viewed as a positive omen across global global traditions.
• 1:00:57
  Lots of them. The bird bridges the gap between
• 1:01:01
  creation, protection, and transformation to get it.
• 1:01:05
  But Grandma, the Angel face makes perfect sense to me now.
• 1:01:12
  It has protection, it has divine presence, and that little soul
• 1:01:17
  is surrounded by nothing but beauty and light.
• 1:01:21
  Yet what about the blue masculine energy?
• 1:01:25
  What happened with that? I can't get over that.
• 1:01:29
  I'm excited that we're all excited.
• 1:01:30
  We have we have a new little girl to play with.
• 1:01:33
  We are all excited because science, science, God love, man.
• 1:01:38
  Science told us it was a girl, right?
• 1:01:44
  Perhaps the blue was never saying to me, boy, even though
• 1:01:48
  40 plus years I'm boy, girl, boy.
• 1:01:50
  I was labeling them. Perhaps masculine energy was
• 1:01:56
  never describing the baby's physical gender, perhaps what I
• 1:02:00
  had been perceiving in a protective energy surrounding
• 1:02:03
  mom and this little girl. Strength, direction, protection,
• 1:02:07
  truth, and another energetic connection whose meaning hasn't
• 1:02:13
  even revealed itself yet. And then I kept thinking, Oh my
• 1:02:16
  God, blue energy, she's seeing an Angel.
• 1:02:18
  Oh my God, Saint Michael, Archangel Michael, St.
• 1:02:23
  Michael and the heavenly Army. They're blue.
• 1:02:26
  I associate with them so much being a veteran, I associate
• 1:02:30
  that then to find out that they do believe in Saint Michael,
• 1:02:34
  they do wrap in protection of Saint Michael.
• 1:02:38
  Could this be her masters, her angels, her her part of her team
• 1:02:42
  and exists with an extremely strong that I associated like
• 1:02:47
  Templars to be able to see the army.
• 1:02:49
  Could that have been plausible? And that is the lesson that I am
• 1:02:55
  taking from this and I believe strong connection between you
• 1:03:02
  and the baby, between her and I, with these strings of this
• 1:03:05
  family as a seer, as a wire, as a Reverend of Light, seeing
• 1:03:10
  something and understanding why am I being shown it are not
• 1:03:15
  always the same thing. I saw a stork.
• 1:03:19
  Grandma saw an Angel. I perceived the blue masculine
• 1:03:22
  energy. My pendulum answered yes to a
• 1:03:24
  boy. And this beautiful baby says
• 1:03:26
  surprise, I'm a girl. May Divine wasn't giving us a
• 1:03:31
  gender reveal at all. Maybe Divine was giving us a
• 1:03:35
  connection reveal. An Angel for protection, a stork
• 1:03:40
  for arrival, Blue masculine energy for something that we
• 1:03:43
  have yet to understand, Perhaps Saint Michael.
• 1:03:47
  And now the pieces are all coming together and a beautiful
• 1:03:50
  little girl is at the center of all of it, of this whole big
• 1:03:54
  mystery. So now I don't want, I don't
• 1:03:58
  want to force an answer on to the blue anymore.
• 1:04:01
  Not with her. I want to watch, I want to
• 1:04:04
  ponder, I want to ask questions. I want to start being aware.
• 1:04:10
  And. Perhaps when she arrives, or as
• 1:04:13
  this little personality and path begins to unfold, we'll finally
• 1:04:18
  look at one another and say, maybe that's what M JS seeing at
• 1:04:23
  the blue. Who knows?
• 1:04:25
  But until then, I've got to welcome this little baby girl
• 1:04:29
  and I'm going to say you have something for me.
• 1:04:33
  You changed my my perception, you changed my awareness, and
• 1:04:38
  you changed me to look deeper into life.
• 1:04:41
  And until that time, you haven't even arrived yet.
• 1:04:46
  And you've already already. How's this girl going?
• 1:04:51
  Why overwhelming joy? Lessons, events, trials and
• 1:04:56
  tribulations are wonderful and I rejoice.
• 1:05:01
  I don't necessarily have too many other ones where I was
• 1:05:06
  wrong. Sometimes I don't see it at all,
• 1:05:09
  which may mean there's no connection, no awareness, no
• 1:05:11
  nothing. I don't know.
• 1:05:12
  I don't even know why I see what I see.
• 1:05:15
  But now that baby out of the take, you know, take the baby
• 1:05:19
  out of the equestrian for the moment.
• 1:05:20
  Take Saint Michael out and take the stork out, and then take out
• 1:05:24
  the pendulum. Look at what happened inside of
• 1:05:28
  my consciousness. I perceived blue.
• 1:05:31
  That was my experience. Then my memory bank that was
• 1:05:35
  labeled right entered, 40 plus years of association entered as
• 1:05:41
  well, consistency of validations entered and my mind said blue
• 1:05:48
  means boy. That was my interpretation.
• 1:05:52
  And then that new information entered the event.
• 1:05:54
  No, I'm a girl. What?
• 1:05:57
  And suddenly consciousness gave me a choice, and I could defend
• 1:06:04
  an old interpretation simply because I had trusted it for
• 1:06:08
  decades. Or I could say, wait, what?
• 1:06:11
  Why? I don't think so.
• 1:06:14
  And then I could look again. That'd been pure ego, right?
• 1:06:16
  How am I going to tell science who is 99999 percent correct
• 1:06:23
  that that's a girl? I had to look again, and that is
• 1:06:28
  why the story belongs in this conversation today.
• 1:06:31
  And This is why I had to rewrite this whole thing.
• 1:06:33
  And that's why maybe you're going to take a little bit
• 1:06:35
  longer to get through it, because I didn't necessarily
• 1:06:38
  need to discard what I perceived.
• 1:06:41
  I needed to question what I had decided the perception meant.
• 1:06:47
  And that distinguish is enormous.
• 1:06:51
  So let's look at the questions. And then I discovered another
• 1:06:55
  layer. And look at what I actually
• 1:06:59
  asked my pendulum. I was perceiving masculine blue
• 1:07:03
  energy already. I already saw it.
• 1:07:05
  I there was nothing about girls. I asked whether the energy was a
• 1:07:10
  boy or male. I received a yes.
• 1:07:14
  I didn't ask the fetus, and that fetus is new energy of creation.
• 1:07:22
  I didn't ask it. I asked about what I was
• 1:07:25
  perceiving and then I supplied the interpretation.
• 1:07:27
  Think about that. How many people have had
• 1:07:30
  something for so long that you can't change the philosophy of
• 1:07:33
  it? I'm going to think of religions
• 1:07:35
  right now. Religions are we're going to be
• 1:07:39
  diminished. People were not going to church.
• 1:07:42
  Why? Because they refuse to
• 1:07:45
  understand higher concepts. Or was it that the religion
• 1:07:50
  based concepts of interpretation were so boxed that that's how it
• 1:07:57
  is? Nobody questions it, nobody
• 1:08:01
  stretches those parameters. So how often do we do this on
• 1:08:04
  everyday life? Not just me.
• 1:08:06
  Think about yourself. This is your time, this is for
• 1:08:09
  you. I just broke everything over.
• 1:08:13
  We asked the question, we receive information, and then
• 1:08:16
  unconsciously we use the information to answer another
• 1:08:19
  question entirely. There's the why.
• 1:08:26
  And then another awareness came. I would be, it would be easy for
• 1:08:29
  me to say, well, blue didn't mean boy, blue means Saint
• 1:08:34
  Michael. Well, wait, now I'm putting
• 1:08:36
  another perception, another label.
• 1:08:39
  Do I really know that? Well, I do know that man has
• 1:08:43
  perceived the different colors of the different angels.
• 1:08:47
  Has it been proven? No.
• 1:08:49
  Has it been consistent? Yes.
• 1:08:52
  Have multiple people see the same?
• 1:08:53
  Yes. You understand where this goes?
• 1:08:58
  So do I know that? No.
• 1:09:02
  I have an association with Archangel Michael and I have
• 1:09:06
  association with blue. That gives me another
• 1:09:09
  possibility of perception and interpretation, a spiritual
• 1:09:14
  pondering, another observation. It doesn't require me to
• 1:09:19
  immediately create another permanent box in my brain.
• 1:09:23
  Maybe protection, maybe masculine energy, maybe it was
• 1:09:28
  maybe something connected what I couldn't even understand as her
• 1:09:31
  spiritual team. And maybe something or something
• 1:09:35
  who meaning hasn't revealed itself yet.
• 1:09:39
  I don't know yet. And that's OK.
• 1:09:42
  I can watch, I can ponder, and I can become aware.
• 1:09:48
  I can allow more events to bring more information.
• 1:09:52
  Perhaps one day we'll say that's why MJ kept seeing blue.
• 1:09:55
  Who knows? And perhaps we won't.
• 1:09:59
  That. Possibility is there on that
• 1:10:01
  table too. We're not God, we're not
• 1:10:04
  creation. I perceive, I interpret, I ask
• 1:10:09
  questions, I make choices, and sometimes I miss something.
• 1:10:14
  And the awareness invites me now to look again for yet another
• 1:10:19
  learning, another event, and another purpose.
• 1:10:24
  So that beautiful little girl isn't even here yet, and she has
• 1:10:30
  already given this wire, this seer, the why, why, why, why,
• 1:10:34
  why. And as a seer, seeing something
• 1:10:36
  and understanding why I'm being shown it.
• 1:10:39
  Sometimes they're very confusing.
• 1:10:43
  For years I have been confused. Why am I seeing the things I see
• 1:10:49
  May not always be the same thing?
• 1:10:51
  Maybe my gift didn't just disappear, and maybe my
• 1:10:55
  understanding of the gift is evolving, and maybe
• 1:10:58
  consciousness grows when an old interpretation is no longer
• 1:11:04
  large enough for a new experience.
• 1:11:09
  Put yourself in my chair now. Forget about the blue.
• 1:11:13
  Forget about the baby. Forget about pendulums.
• 1:11:16
  Look at your own life. How many times have you done
• 1:11:20
  exactly the same thing? Something happened, you
• 1:11:22
  perceived it, memory recognized something familiar and your mind
• 1:11:26
  categorized it and you assigned meaning.
• 1:11:29
  And eventually you stop saying this is what I observed, and now
• 1:11:35
  you start saying this is what it means.
• 1:11:40
  Those are two different statements.
• 1:11:42
  Because you observed it, because it's been a pattern, it's been
• 1:11:44
  consistency. This is what it means and no
• 1:11:48
  room for evolving. So then you ask yourself, what
• 1:11:52
  do I actually know? How do we get out of this?
• 1:11:55
  This is what I this is how I got out of this baby.
• 1:11:57
  What do I actually know? What did I observe?
• 1:12:03
  What did I assume? What did I interpret?
• 1:12:07
  What came from memory? What came from conditioning of
• 1:12:11
  consistent patterns? What came from fear?
• 1:12:15
  What came from faith? And what am I still learning?
• 1:12:23
  So far, we've moved from awareness to perception to
• 1:12:28
  interpretation. When we come back, I want to
• 1:12:32
  move into something even more powerful.
• 1:12:36
  Our thought Because 28 years ago in Guatemala, I had three
• 1:12:42
  experiences through my thoughts that changed my relationship
• 1:12:46
  with my thought patterns, my words, my intentions and my
• 1:12:49
  responsibility. One involved a door, one
• 1:12:52
  involved a drink order, and one involved an engine 40 miles off
• 1:12:57
  shore. Stab to the heart, folks.
• 1:13:03
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• 1:13:05
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• 1:13:08
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• 1:13:19
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• 1:13:23
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• 1:13:27
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• 1:13:31
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• 1:13:35
  Tough. Times don't last, but tough
• 1:13:37
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• 1:13:43
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• 1:13:47
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• 1:14:22
  So here we go. Here we go.
• 1:14:24
  Here we go. Now let's go back to our to
• 1:14:28
  where we left off, and we were talking about our perceptions.
• 1:14:31
  We were talking about our belief systems.
• 1:14:35
  And now we're moving from perception into thought.
• 1:14:41
  A thought can happen completely inside of us.
• 1:14:45
  Nobody else hears it. Nobody else even knew that it
• 1:14:49
  occurred in a thought. They always say nobody can
• 1:14:55
  never. You can take away everything,
• 1:14:56
  but you can never take away my memory, Right?
• 1:14:58
  You can't take away my thoughts. So nobody else even knows what
• 1:15:04
  goes on up there unless you speak.
• 1:15:08
  Yeah. A thought can alter emotion, and
• 1:15:10
  a thought can change the body. And a thought can become a word.
• 1:15:14
  A word can become an action, and then the action can create that
• 1:15:18
  next event. This.
• 1:15:21
  Became very real for me while working with the big game
• 1:15:25
  fishing industry in Guatemala. Now I'm going to set the I'm
• 1:15:30
  going to set the tone a very poverty stricken third world
• 1:15:35
  country poverty even worse where the ample amounts of fishing
• 1:15:39
  were we do these lodges, the lodges that I build are in the
• 1:15:43
  higher ochelon. Normally it's it's the top tiers
• 1:15:47
  of money, major captains, contractors, hospitality teams,
• 1:15:53
  tourisms, sporting deadlines, masculine energy everywhere.
• 1:16:00
  Lord have mercy on my soul. I knew what I was getting into
• 1:16:04
  and it really didn't bother me 'cause I was very strong against
• 1:16:06
  men and I've always been strong against men.
• 1:16:10
  It was just in my, it's just part of who I am and in my
• 1:16:13
  demeanor. And yeah, that was OK.
• 1:16:19
  I, I'm just going to stop that there.
• 1:16:21
  So I want to get to the stories 'cause I, I'm seeing the times.
• 1:16:24
  So here we go, Guatemala. This major money guy wants to
• 1:16:29
  build this place. He went from Costa Rica, he went
• 1:16:32
  over here to now Guatemala and we're in Estapa.
• 1:16:35
  We are about 3 hours at this time because from where we were
• 1:16:41
  to the city, Guatemala City, where the flights came in, there
• 1:16:44
  was nothing. You, you had to just drive it
• 1:16:46
  and it was about 3 hours. And the roads weren't really
• 1:16:48
  good at the time. Now they they're really good
• 1:16:50
  now. But this was now, now we're
• 1:16:51
  talking late 90s. He wanted to have this last
• 1:16:58
  cabana done. And with the last cabana done,
• 1:17:01
  he would be able to utilize all four boats that he was bringing
• 1:17:06
  in and he bought. The contractor at the time got
• 1:17:09
  sick, severely sick, we with what we thought was malaria.
• 1:17:15
  But then complications arose to the point he had to go all the
• 1:17:18
  way back up in the city and his crew and his team had to stop
• 1:17:22
  because he was the one who paid them.
• 1:17:24
  Guatemala is very strict about paying people.
• 1:17:27
  And So what I did while I was down there, I had a room.
• 1:17:31
  It was about a 10 by 20 room. I had windows on each side.
• 1:17:34
  When you walked in the door, the door was always propped open,
• 1:17:37
  door never shut. And so I could see everything
• 1:17:41
  that was happening. I was there as a developer that
• 1:17:45
  he paid me to do both sides, the States and down there to get
• 1:17:49
  everything organized, to bring it all together with his design,
• 1:17:52
  his thoughts. And I was sat down there.
• 1:17:55
  I said let's get the landscape done, let's move, let's just
• 1:17:57
  keep moving to finish the project.
• 1:18:01
  I looked at the schedules from the states.
• 1:18:03
  The schedules didn't have anybody in in the cabanas that
• 1:18:07
  were not built. No harm, no foul.
• 1:18:09
  Never thought for a second to tell the owner you know about
• 1:18:13
  the cabana. One week prior to the very first
• 1:18:19
  start of the people coming into the other cabanas that were done
• 1:18:23
  in the landscape. I thought everything was great.
• 1:18:26
  He. Arrived and he was vicious.
• 1:18:30
  He was mad. I can't even tell you the
• 1:18:34
  exploratives that he used on air it.
• 1:18:38
  I was so word abused. It was worse than my Sergeant
• 1:18:46
  and basic training, let's just put it that way.
• 1:18:49
  And I had no idea why he was that angry.
• 1:18:55
  I like no matter what you said, he wouldn't accept it to the
• 1:18:59
  point my ability to balance was going.
• 1:19:04
  And if anybody knows me, that block on that shoulder when I
• 1:19:07
  was in my late 20s, man, I'm going to clobber you.
• 1:19:12
  I'll take you out. I will take that throat chakra
• 1:19:15
  right out. And it had everything.
• 1:19:18
  I was literally I was standing behind my desk as he came in 12
• 1:19:22
  feet and my chair was back and I had two like just kind of like
• 1:19:25
  this. I had two things at each side.
• 1:19:27
  So cutting in and out was not easy.
• 1:19:29
  Easy. I mean, you know, it takes some
• 1:19:31
  time to swiggle your hips and then get to the door, so and so
• 1:19:34
  forth. This man, he was so angry.
• 1:19:38
  He like when he turned around to walk out the door.
• 1:19:43
  I took this huge big deep breath and my I could feel my hands in
• 1:19:47
  the desk and I went. Like that?
• 1:19:50
  And I left to go with this huge and I sat and the door slammed.
• 1:19:57
  He. Flipped open that door and saw I
• 1:20:00
  was standing literally behind my desk and he just looked at me.
• 1:20:06
  Yeah, now I my face was. You can't even think that I did
• 1:20:14
  that you. Know.
• 1:20:16
  My thought, my thought was slam that door in his face.
• 1:20:21
  My thought was there. My anger was there.
• 1:20:23
  Everything in my mind was there. Did my thought physically slam
• 1:20:28
  that door? Some people say yes.
• 1:20:31
  Some people say no. It can never be established.
• 1:20:34
  I didn't slam the door. Did my thought do it?
• 1:20:37
  I don't know what matters. Today's conversation is what
• 1:20:42
  that experience did inside of me.
• 1:20:45
  It made my conscious of thought that I just had and something
• 1:20:51
  happened. Could that really happen?
• 1:20:55
  And then I looked backward into my own mind and asked what just
• 1:21:00
  happened? What did you just do?
• 1:21:06
  Where was my awareness and my thought and my observation and
• 1:21:09
  my questions all remembering that OK, I want to move to the
• 1:21:14
  second Guatemala. Here we go Now we we're on this
• 1:21:18
  now is probably a year, the year after and.
• 1:21:24
  The. State's office on high end
• 1:21:27
  tours. We get very personable with you.
• 1:21:30
  We want to know everything about you.
• 1:21:32
  Why? Because the receiving
• 1:21:34
  hospitality team gets this information and they make you
• 1:21:37
  feel like you're at home. Their drinks, their food,
• 1:21:41
  everything is there. OK, so back in my same little
• 1:21:46
  room, but now this room is no longer converted.
• 1:21:49
  Just as my office, it now has my bed in it.
• 1:21:51
  Where when I would come down, this is now my personal room.
• 1:21:55
  So now the door is properly closing and the windows now have
• 1:22:00
  curtains and now I kind of have privacy.
• 1:22:04
  This particular day they were in cleaning my room and they had
• 1:22:10
  the doors open in the windows and they and I was seeing this
• 1:22:13
  scuttering between the hospitality team and the lodge
• 1:22:16
  manager and you could just see they were arguing.
• 1:22:19
  Now, of course I have the schedule.
• 1:22:21
  I see inbound, I come in and I'm like, what's happening?
• 1:22:26
  Why are we? Why are we upset?
• 1:22:28
  Now remember most everybody there is masculine energy.
• 1:22:31
  So of course they have to fight. Who's going to win this
• 1:22:35
  argument? And I turn to the hospitality
• 1:22:40
  team and the owner starts talking.
• 1:22:44
  So of course I have to switch back.
• 1:22:45
  Look at look, not the owner, I'm sorry, the the lodge manager.
• 1:22:49
  And he says 30 minutes it arrives and we have nothing on
• 1:22:55
  this person. OK, but that was this.
• 1:22:58
  This same person was already on the rodge the registers for how
• 1:23:01
  long? OK did y'all?
• 1:23:04
  And no, we already called your team, your hospitality team.
• 1:23:07
  They don't have the information. And I looked puzzled.
• 1:23:11
  Now how did that happen? Human error.
• 1:23:13
  I get it. Hospitality team says miss MJ
• 1:23:19
  can. Can we?
• 1:23:20
  Just do like just now, just every day do a drink of the day,
• 1:23:25
  a specialty of the day. So when they come off the boats
• 1:23:28
  or whatever, they could try a different drink.
• 1:23:30
  I said, well yeah, that's good. I said, but give me a minute.
• 1:23:33
  And then of course the owner or the a hotel manager says that's
• 1:23:39
  a stupid idea. It'll give people the idea that
• 1:23:42
  that's what we do. That's not we do.
• 1:23:44
  And this Bah Bah Bah, we haven't done it like that.
• 1:23:46
  And you don't even know these people could have heard from
• 1:23:49
  somebody who they knew that's how this worked.
• 1:23:51
  And then he was higher end. So he really wanted Butler
• 1:23:55
  service, right? However, the hospitality team
• 1:23:57
  understood that we were bridging A5 high 4 fives.
• 1:24:01
  And he's like it's your call. I said give me a minute.
• 1:24:05
  He goes where are you going? I said I'm good.
• 1:24:07
  He goes, I already called your staff, I go it's OK, relax.
• 1:24:12
  And I walked away. I went into my little room and I
• 1:24:15
  did. I called and I said hey, she
• 1:24:19
  goes, I know. I said it's OK, tell me
• 1:24:23
  everything that we got in the folder on these people.
• 1:24:26
  What do they do for a living? Where do they live?
• 1:24:29
  How many people are coming? What it what are what is their
• 1:24:32
  occupy? Do we even have their
• 1:24:33
  occupations? Do we have anything that we know
• 1:24:36
  who if their friend, if they're a referral, how they referred?
• 1:24:39
  Because these were all questions that my team in the States was
• 1:24:43
  supposed to have. She told me a lot of it, how we
• 1:24:49
  got them, what it was at a show. So I go, OK, at a show.
• 1:24:52
  So I would have known them because I was always the one at
• 1:24:54
  the shows, trade shows. I said give me everything.
• 1:24:58
  And so she did. So I brought it, have it on my
• 1:25:02
  bed. I'm sitting there writing all
• 1:25:04
  these people's names down, what they did and what I would
• 1:25:07
  formulate my mind because man, boxes and categories, right,
• 1:25:13
  right. OK, so I was like, this could go
• 1:25:17
  either way as an architect, this could go either way as a
• 1:25:20
  dentist, this could go either way as a construction purpose.
• 1:25:23
  Like I, I just formulated. So I sat there, did my prayer,
• 1:25:29
  sat at the meditation, sat there for probably 10 minutes and all
• 1:25:35
  of a sudden I opened up my eyes and I walked out and I said I
• 1:25:41
  need 2 Modelo beers with limes in them.
• 1:25:45
  I need one gin and tonic, I need one rum and coke, and I need one
• 1:25:49
  Johnnie Walker on the rocks. They looked at me and they go,
• 1:25:54
  where the hell did you get that? And I just didn't answer them
• 1:25:58
  and they go, where did you get it?
• 1:25:59
  I go, just do it now. They're literally 10 minutes
• 1:26:04
  away. Hospitality manager goes Miss
• 1:26:07
  MJ, I go, Nope, just do it. I go, in fact, put it this way,
• 1:26:10
  to the hotel manager, to everybody.
• 1:26:12
  I go give me the serving tray with the drinks, Just go get me
• 1:26:16
  the drinks and give it to me. So I went and since I knew that
• 1:26:22
  somehow I had met them at the show to book them, I wanted to
• 1:26:25
  see exactly who these people were because I see thousands of
• 1:26:28
  people. I get the the van comes in, I
• 1:26:32
  have the drink tray and as they come off, each one of them are
• 1:26:36
  picking one. I didn't even hand them to them.
• 1:26:42
  They're picking it off my tray. I'm welcoming them, I'm talking
• 1:26:47
  to them. We later come in and she two of
• 1:26:51
  the drinks, my gin and tonic that I saw was not gin and
• 1:26:57
  tonic. It was gin and Sprite or 7UP.
• 1:27:01
  But they prefer that little sweetener to the gin.
• 1:27:05
  Easy mistake, right? I was like oh forgive me.
• 1:27:09
  And I looked at the stuff I said can you?
• 1:27:11
  But they go no, no, no, I'll drink it, I'll drink the gin and
• 1:27:13
  tonic, but can we just have it as And I said absolutely.
• 1:27:18
  Then the next one came and they said, you know, I love to drink
• 1:27:22
  coke out of states. He's like, but I really need a
• 1:27:25
  Diet Coke. I'm diabetic, OK?
• 1:27:29
  I didn't, I didn't see Diet Coke.
• 1:27:31
  I put regular Coke and the the Johnny Johnny Walker on.
• 1:27:37
  I gave him blue Johnny Walker and he's like, I like your
• 1:27:40
  taste. I like your shelfing of my
• 1:27:42
  Walker because he normally drinks black.
• 1:27:46
  And then I. Had the 2 beer guys, the two
• 1:27:50
  beer guys took their drinks and they're like, I'm a Corona guy,
• 1:27:55
  but this will work. You see how that worked out?
• 1:28:00
  That's amazing. This is an incredible thing.
• 1:28:08
  I asked Divine for assistance, I meditated, I took, I got the
• 1:28:11
  orders from them popping into my head.
• 1:28:14
  Where did that come from? I have faith, I have faith.
• 1:28:22
  I can't tell you I have faith, I have faith, I have faith.
• 1:28:25
  I have more faith than you can imagine.
• 1:28:29
  And I trusted it. And now the, the, the drinks,
• 1:28:35
  they largely matched and it's OK.
• 1:28:40
  So naturally my questions were, I don't know how I received
• 1:28:45
  that. I don't even know why I received
• 1:28:47
  it, but I am so thankful. But how did that happen?
• 1:28:52
  Where did that information come from?
• 1:28:54
  Who is above me? Do I have a bartender above me
• 1:28:57
  giving me drinks? You see that that that right
• 1:29:01
  there within my spiritual understanding, I experienced as
• 1:29:05
  divine guidance. They always say remain calm and
• 1:29:08
  chaos. If you ever watch that show,
• 1:29:14
  when all the troops were after him, he remained calm.
• 1:29:17
  In the chaos, he silenced, another person asked.
• 1:29:22
  That was intuition, that was intuitiveness, that was
• 1:29:25
  subconscious patterning, recognition.
• 1:29:28
  That was information that I had picked ups elsewhere, maybe at
• 1:29:31
  the show if I had a drink with them, or that was just
• 1:29:34
  coincidence. Coincidence.
• 1:29:36
  Now, if you know anything about me, I'll take all your other
• 1:29:38
  philosophies, but I'm not going to take coincidence ever.
• 1:29:42
  As is something else. All these questions, all these
• 1:29:46
  questions that I had had a chair at my table right now, because
• 1:29:50
  underneath all of them was another conscious.
• 1:29:54
  Mystery. How?
• 1:29:56
  Does. Information sometimes enter our
• 1:29:58
  awareness without us experiencing all the steps that
• 1:30:04
  produced it. That is fascinating to me.
• 1:30:10
  Fascinating. Now my last one here for
• 1:30:14
  thoughts at a captain. Now this goes to Guatemala but
• 1:30:18
  in a different facility, a different lodge.
• 1:30:20
  Now this comes later like it comes now 6 to 8 years later and
• 1:30:30
  I had this captain who is irate. Now in case you didn't know when
• 1:30:33
  you have seasonal fishing these captains fish non-stop.
• 1:30:38
  Maybe they have one day in between, but they can't do
• 1:30:41
  anything besides sleep. They make it that way because
• 1:30:44
  generally between May and October, they're doing nothing.
• 1:30:48
  It's their time. The only responsibility they
• 1:30:51
  have is make sure that that the boat works and to make sure that
• 1:30:54
  everything in their supplies and their equipment is maintenance
• 1:30:58
  during the offseason. And most of these captains, I'm
• 1:31:01
  not going to lie, they'll do it the minute their last charter
• 1:31:04
  exists and they'll get in line at the yard to get the boat
• 1:31:08
  done. So here we are.
• 1:31:11
  We are now in the season. It's February and this captain,
• 1:31:16
  he's tired. He's he's tired.
• 1:31:18
  And I get it because the elements of the ocean are takes
• 1:31:23
  a toll on these beautiful captains.
• 1:31:25
  And I get this point and I get they're really upset and they're
• 1:31:28
  really tired. This particular morning, he went
• 1:31:30
  out with some guests at night and had a very late night.
• 1:31:35
  So now not only is he tired, his choices of his tiredness we're
• 1:31:39
  not there. There was a lot of things that
• 1:31:42
  formulating for the business owner.
• 1:31:46
  I had to stand. I had to stand tall and firm and
• 1:31:50
  I said that it's going out. He goes, I can't take the boat.
• 1:31:52
  It's going because you don't understand.
• 1:31:54
  I go, I do understand. I understand you're tired.
• 1:31:55
  You don't want to go. The boat went out yesterday.
• 1:31:58
  Nothing was reported. Get in the boat and he again
• 1:32:02
  like the the owner of my first story with the door again the
• 1:32:06
  yells, the screams, the deformations, everything that
• 1:32:09
  you could have thought that somebody would have been that
• 1:32:12
  irate. And there I stood taking it,
• 1:32:14
  taking it. It got so heated and he got so
• 1:32:18
  angry. He goes, you know what he goes
• 1:32:22
  don't ever ask me for any help ever.
• 1:32:25
  And it with that I looked at him and I said you have a nice day,
• 1:32:29
  your customers are coming out of the lodge now and I really hope
• 1:32:34
  your motor doesn't fail. OK, that was not a sincereness.
• 1:32:40
  It was a sarcastic wanting something to happen.
• 1:32:45
  My anger, my resentment, every negative emotion you could have
• 1:32:50
  imagined on an unhealed MJ. OK, this hurt.
• 1:33:00
  They were four hours into their tour, 40 miles out in the middle
• 1:33:05
  of the Pacific Ocean and the engine stops.
• 1:33:10
  I get a mayday on the side band. It was somebody took a sword and
• 1:33:14
  stabbed my heart for even thinking what I was thinking.
• 1:33:21
  I called every rescue. The closest one was 30 miles
• 1:33:24
  away and they are adrift. A 30 foot boat is now adrift
• 1:33:30
  with nobody around. I cannot tell you.
• 1:33:37
  My. Words mechanically caused an
• 1:33:39
  engine to fail. Can't know that for sure people.
• 1:33:43
  It's like that's just, it's a coincidence MJ.
• 1:33:46
  You call it what you want. It's not about the actual
• 1:33:50
  physicalness of it. I intentionally sent a negative
• 1:33:53
  thought and negative words towards another human being and
• 1:33:59
  I had guests on board. There were eight people afloat
• 1:34:03
  that event. Changed.
• 1:34:06
  Me forever. Within my spiritual philosophies
• 1:34:10
  I learned thoughts matter, words matter, intention matters, free
• 1:34:16
  will matters. Because even before we debate
• 1:34:21
  what thought may or may not could affect outside, inside, or
• 1:34:26
  ourselves, look at what thought does inside of us when that
• 1:34:32
  thought happens. A thought can change an emotion
• 1:34:38
  very quickly. A thought can influence behavior
• 1:34:42
  very quickly. A thought can become different
• 1:34:46
  language very quickly. And language can become action,
• 1:34:50
  and action becomes an event, and another event then becomes
• 1:34:55
  another opportunity for awareness.
• 1:35:01
  The panic that I had within me to believe such ugliness and
• 1:35:09
  these poor people are afloat. It's the thought before any
• 1:35:15
  word. Have you ever had a nasty
• 1:35:18
  thought? Ask yourself and caught it
• 1:35:23
  before it even came out of your mouth and then revamped it and
• 1:35:25
  and changed it up knowing it was mean.
• 1:35:28
  It was inappropriate. Of course we all have.
• 1:35:31
  If you say no, you really need to think.
• 1:35:34
  Are your ego needs healed? Because we all do it.
• 1:35:39
  We all have thoughts. Yet look at what just happened.
• 1:35:42
  A thought appeared and then I became aware of that thought.
• 1:35:48
  And once awareness appeared, choice enters.
• 1:35:52
  Speak it, don't speak it, feed into it, question it, act on it,
• 1:36:00
  allow it to pass. And now I want to ask where did
• 1:36:05
  that choice happen and who made it?
• 1:36:12
  Keep that one. I really need you to keep that
• 1:36:14
  one. I need to go on another break.
• 1:36:16
  We talked about awareness, perception, thought.
• 1:36:19
  When we come back, I want to go somewhere even deeper now.
• 1:36:25
  Sleep, dreams, meditation, surgeries, near death
• 1:36:30
  experience, what I understand as astral travel, darkness, light
• 1:36:34
  and unconsciousness. And that strange moment when we
• 1:36:39
  become aware. I'm.
• 1:36:41
  Watching myself think, if that doesn't give the Y or C or MJ
• 1:36:48
  something to ponder, nothing does, right?
• 1:36:52
  I tell you folks, it's going to shock you.
• 1:36:56
  I'll be right back. You're listening to MB Radio dot
• 1:36:59
  US right here. This is my day, my time on the
• 1:37:04
  station, and it is the positive thinking.
• 1:37:06
  To cap, we call it the world of conscious positive thinking.
• 1:37:09
  We'll be right back, folks. Give me a second.
• 1:37:14
  Small. Steps.
• 1:37:15
  Still get you to big places. Keep paddling.
• 1:37:22
  Whenever things get rough or it feels like you're at the edge,
• 1:37:26
  remember this. Storms pass tough.
• 1:37:31
  Times don't last, but tough people do.
• 1:37:46
  The station where our veterans voices are heard MBR talk.
• 1:37:51
  Hey, thanks. For supporting our channel by
• 1:37:53
  watching and listening. OK.
• 1:38:04
  Here we go. Welcome back now.
• 1:38:07
  Now we're going to enter what we call the either the state of
• 1:38:10
  mind or the state of consciousness.
• 1:38:12
  OK, so right now we're awake. Eventually you're going to go to
• 1:38:17
  sleep. Maybe you dream, and maybe you
• 1:38:22
  remember that dream. Maybe you don't.
• 1:38:25
  People meditate. People undergo anesthesia.
• 1:38:29
  People report altered states of mind and throughout my own life
• 1:38:36
  I've experienced that spiritually understanding of
• 1:38:41
  astral travel and multidimensional travel.
• 1:38:45
  Didn't know it until I experienced it first.
• 1:38:48
  One of the most profound happening was during a surgery.
• 1:38:53
  Here's what happened during my surgery in 2009.
• 1:38:59
  I had double mastectomies done because of my own health issues.
• 1:39:05
  It was it was an extended surgery to not only remove the
• 1:39:09
  breasts, but they were going to put expanders in my breast as
• 1:39:12
  well so that the first part of the reconstruction was going to
• 1:39:15
  be finished. That led us to an 8 to 10 hour
• 1:39:18
  surgery. They said they couldn't.
• 1:39:20
  They normally go from 8:00 to 10:00 depending.
• 1:39:22
  OK, When I was there, I was happy.
• 1:39:26
  I was going in. I was singing, I was light.
• 1:39:29
  The people were very light. They asked about me.
• 1:39:32
  I said I have faith. Whatever's going to happen,
• 1:39:34
  happens. Bah Bah, Bah, Bah Bah.
• 1:39:35
  All the way down. So my experience was that I
• 1:39:43
  didn't remain confined into the operating room.
• 1:39:47
  Somehow when the mask was put on my face, I got this weird like
• 1:39:55
  whoosh and it went black and before I knew it I was standing
• 1:40:03
  above my body. I was looking at my body,
• 1:40:09
  nothing going on, nothing happening.
• 1:40:12
  And the next thing you know, I got whisked like ripped out.
• 1:40:18
  And I got to a place where I saw my mother, my sister-in-law at
• 1:40:23
  the time, and my husband. I couldn't figure out where they
• 1:40:27
  were. They were, they looked like they
• 1:40:30
  were eating and they looked and I can describe it, they had blue
• 1:40:33
  chairs that had a white thing. I could describe it.
• 1:40:36
  And they were they were talking about me, about my surgery.
• 1:40:39
  And of course I'm like, I'm OK, I'm OK.
• 1:40:41
  Told each of them I loved them. And next thing I know I got
• 1:40:43
  whipped out again. This time I got whipped out by
• 1:40:47
  an energy ray. This energy ray, this like
• 1:40:49
  purple green energy ray took me straight to my sister.
• 1:40:53
  And again I, I couldn't see the full area.
• 1:40:57
  All's I saw was this beautiful sweater knitted sweater.
• 1:41:01
  I saw like a wooden type of thing.
• 1:41:04
  Her hands were like this and she was sitting and I, I, I don't
• 1:41:08
  know where she was, but I described her and she was doing
• 1:41:13
  Reiki distance Reiki on me. That explained the purple and
• 1:41:18
  the green rice Reiki. Rainbow is distant Reiki.
• 1:41:22
  It's not rainbow. I found out it's purple and
• 1:41:25
  sometimes it's, it's green energies going healing energies.
• 1:41:29
  Well, by the time I went to grab and kiss her on the forehead,
• 1:41:32
  she stopped. She looked.
• 1:41:36
  She took a big old. Deep breath and she went back
• 1:41:38
  into prayer. I got whisked out of there and I
• 1:41:42
  went to this other area and I watched as my kids were in a
• 1:41:49
  back of a car asking about me. There they were in their school
• 1:41:56
  clothes, their school uniforms. I don't know which car they were
• 1:42:00
  in. I've never been to the car.
• 1:42:03
  And they sat and they asked. And when I heard the voice, I
• 1:42:07
  immediately recognized that they were with their dad.
• 1:42:12
  And he said that he had not heard.
• 1:42:16
  But we could definitely get, you know, a hold of Bobby.
• 1:42:19
  I wish my mom or somebody. And.
• 1:42:22
  Then they whisked me out of there and then they took me to
• 1:42:25
  meerkats. I was like meerkats.
• 1:42:28
  And as I came along, there was another person in my life who
• 1:42:34
  she might as well have been another daughter.
• 1:42:36
  She was very important in our life with the kids.
• 1:42:40
  And she worked at the zoo and she was in the meerkats.
• 1:42:43
  And the meerkats were just all over her because she was feeding
• 1:42:46
  them. And I guess she had already done
• 1:42:48
  their water. But I couldn't get to her to
• 1:42:52
  allow her to know I'm OK. And so the meerkats saw me, and
• 1:42:58
  the meerkats kind of went away from her.
• 1:42:59
  She turned around and she's like, the water flipped.
• 1:43:03
  And I started laughing because I did flip the water.
• 1:43:06
  I, I got help to get the meerkats to flip the water.
• 1:43:09
  So I'm telling her, I'm telling each and every one of my story
• 1:43:13
  to these people. And they're, they're like, Oh my
• 1:43:16
  God. How could you?
• 1:43:18
  Possibly have No, I have no idea yet.
• 1:43:23
  When I was at the meerkats, I got whisked right back, but it
• 1:43:29
  wasn't this dark space. I got whisked into this very
• 1:43:33
  thin air. And it.
• 1:43:37
  Was cobalt blue light and all's I saw when it came through was
• 1:43:45
  them taking two shock panels to me.
• 1:43:54
  The Angel. Or the person who was beside me
• 1:43:57
  wasn't no longer there. I wasn't scared.
• 1:44:01
  I felt comfortable. I felt like whatever is
• 1:44:09
  happening is happening through faith.
• 1:44:15
  But the air was very thin. But it wasn't uncomfortably
• 1:44:19
  thin. It was crisp.
• 1:44:21
  It was light. So my experience, I obviously
• 1:44:29
  didn't die. I'm here.
• 1:44:33
  So but my experience where I was did not remain confined to that
• 1:44:37
  operating room. During that experience.
• 1:44:40
  I travelled to so many people who were just sending prayers
• 1:44:43
  and healing energy toward me. There was a lot of of energy
• 1:44:46
  rays I experienced seeing those who were praying, those who who
• 1:44:50
  were holding energy, and those spiritually reaching me through
• 1:44:54
  their prayer, which was the physical body that was
• 1:44:57
  undergoing the surgery. For me, that wasn't a simple
• 1:45:02
  idea that I could create afterwards.
• 1:45:04
  There's no way it was part of the experience of itself.
• 1:45:10
  Whether people believe me or not, it doesn't matter because I
• 1:45:12
  validated the people I saw with what I did see with the
• 1:45:15
  descriptions. And during that same surgery, I
• 1:45:18
  also experienced the understanding as a near death
• 1:45:21
  experience by man's. Form of.
• 1:45:25
  What they suggest has happened, and something from that
• 1:45:31
  experience became extremely important to the philosophy that
• 1:45:34
  I'm carrying today. Darkness and then light.
• 1:45:39
  Darkness does not automatically mean evil.
• 1:45:43
  This is really important for me to share because people always
• 1:45:46
  pretend that the dark is evil, the dark is negative, the dark
• 1:45:48
  is lower vibration, the dark is the dark, the dark the dark and
• 1:45:50
  the dark. Even me.
• 1:45:53
  I was that. Person too.
• 1:45:55
  So humanity often associates darkness with something
• 1:45:57
  negative. I don't automatically experience
• 1:46:00
  darkness in that way. Think about it for yourself.
• 1:46:04
  The heart sits in darkness. The heart, it is protected by
• 1:46:09
  our rib cage, by our lungs, by muscles.
• 1:46:12
  It is so protected. A sea begins in darkness.
• 1:46:16
  It germinates in the dark. Meditation takes us inward in
• 1:46:22
  the dark. So many truths are discovered
• 1:46:26
  when we stop running away from the dark and just allow
• 1:46:31
  ourselves to just enter it. Just enter it.
• 1:46:38
  During the surgery experience, darkness moved always towards
• 1:46:42
  the light and that always stayed with me.
• 1:46:46
  Not darkness as punishment, not darkness as evil, not darkness
• 1:46:50
  as who Voodoo as always from darkness into light.
• 1:46:58
  So now put yourself in my chair. My physical body was undergoing
• 1:47:03
  surgery. My ordinary waking consciousness
• 1:47:07
  wasn't functioning the way it is at this moment.
• 1:47:11
  Think about it. You have no consciousness when
• 1:47:14
  you're asleep. Or do you?
• 1:47:16
  Yet. My experience contained an eye,
• 1:47:24
  an observer, an experiencer, what I understood as a traveler,
• 1:47:31
  and afterward I remember science going to get a chair.
• 1:47:36
  Here. Science can examine anesthesia,
• 1:47:39
  brain function, they can do their memory, they can do
• 1:47:42
  altered states, they could do near death reports.
• 1:47:45
  It's all out there. My spirituality also gets a
• 1:47:49
  chair because my understanding of the experience includes God,
• 1:47:53
  guardians, divine connection, and myself.
• 1:47:58
  I don't require everyone at the table to reach my conclusions.
• 1:48:04
  I'm asking something underneath all of it.
• 1:48:07
  Where was I during that experience?
• 1:48:12
  What changed? My body?
• 1:48:16
  My brain state? My perception?
• 1:48:20
  My state of consciousness? My relationship to
• 1:48:24
  consciousness, something I don't yet have language to describe.
• 1:48:32
  What? Wait, really?
• 1:48:38
  Now think about a dream. Have you ever had a dream that
• 1:48:41
  felt so completely real? While you're inside of that
• 1:48:45
  dream, you don't necessarily say this isn't real, this is a
• 1:48:50
  dream, it doesn't happen that way.
• 1:48:53
  You're experiencing it and then you awake and then another state
• 1:48:58
  of mind of consciousness says that was only a dream.
• 1:49:03
  So here's why the wire question. Which state of mind gets to
• 1:49:08
  decide what is real and what isn't real?
• 1:49:13
  You say it was a dream because you were in sleep.
• 1:49:17
  But if I could ask to travel and have near death experiences as a
• 1:49:20
  multi dimensional being, how is your dream not real?
• 1:49:25
  That's that question. Go down those rabbit holes
• 1:49:31
  because darkness into the unconsciousness.
• 1:49:38
  And this takes us to another kind of darkness.
• 1:49:40
  Not darkness outside for us. Not like it gets dark at night
• 1:49:44
  and our, you know, circadian rhythms.
• 1:49:46
  No no, no no, no. The areas within ourselves that
• 1:49:50
  we aren't consciously seeing. Patterns, conditioning, pain
• 1:49:57
  reactions, the unconsciousness. Because sometimes what is hidden
• 1:50:02
  in the darkness is inside of us, waiting to be seen.
• 1:50:09
  The. Unconsciousness in M JS
• 1:50:11
  philosophy well, psychology has developed different
• 1:50:15
  understandings of unconscious processing.
• 1:50:18
  Freud had his theories, Young expanded his theories and his
• 1:50:23
  conversations, and modern Psychology Today continues to
• 1:50:27
  evolve on all of those mappings. And we're going to go really
• 1:50:31
  much deeper into that next week in part too, because that is
• 1:50:35
  where the science comes in and to all these other modalities.
• 1:50:38
  But for today, I just want to explain how I experienced it
• 1:50:43
  through my philosophy. An event happened.
• 1:50:47
  It hurts. Maybe we don't understand it,
• 1:50:50
  maybe we don't completely heal it, maybe we bury it, and maybe
• 1:50:56
  we simply just keep moving. And then another event appears
• 1:51:00
  later, it touches in that same place, and suddenly boom, baby,
• 1:51:08
  a reaction. Sometimes the reaction feels
• 1:51:12
  much larger than the present event right Making a molehill
• 1:51:18
  out of an Anhill. And sometimes we even know this
• 1:51:23
  reaction is bigger than what just happened.
• 1:51:27
  I've experienced that too. Deep, deep heart pain, gut
• 1:51:31
  wrenching in motion, crying physically UN unconsolable,
• 1:51:36
  crying in my gut, physically, pain through my body and within
• 1:51:44
  my spiritual understanding. There are times when that depth
• 1:51:49
  signals to me that something much deeper is being brought to
• 1:51:54
  fruition. Sometimes I interpret those
• 1:51:57
  experience as past life lessons. Past life experiences, multiple
• 1:52:01
  lessons connecting together, multiple events.
• 1:52:05
  And when that happens, I the wire, the seer, I get loud.
• 1:52:11
  I go within, I want to know who is making me suffer like this.
• 1:52:18
  Why am I suffering like this? Instead of only asking why is
• 1:52:25
  this person doing this to me? Why is this person hurting me?
• 1:52:29
  I begin asking why is this affecting me this deeply?
• 1:52:36
  Why am I allowing this energy to get to me?
• 1:52:41
  That means there's a seed that I have not healed.
• 1:52:44
  That's a completely different question.
• 1:52:48
  And then I go inward, meditate, prayer, massaging.
• 1:52:52
  If I could get the right massage person to connect with my higher
• 1:52:56
  self like a Hioka and twist myself around.
• 1:53:00
  It's pleasing. It's important for me.
• 1:53:03
  Reiki observation. I start looking at patterns, the
• 1:53:07
  event, the lessons, the connections, and eventually
• 1:53:11
  something fascinating happens. At first I am the reaction.
• 1:53:18
  I'm hurting, I'm crying, I'm angry.
• 1:53:20
  The experience is awfully painful to the point of death
• 1:53:26
  painful. Then awareness enters and
• 1:53:30
  suddenly I can say, MJ, why is this affecting you this way?
• 1:53:35
  What is going on? And I wait.
• 1:53:39
  Something changed and now I'm not only experiencing that
• 1:53:43
  reaction, I'm observing myself having the reaction.
• 1:53:50
  There's our question again. Who is observing and who is
• 1:53:54
  watching? I have a thought, then I notice
• 1:53:59
  the thought. I have an emotion that I notice
• 1:54:02
  the emotion. My ego reacts and then I become
• 1:54:05
  aware that that ego is reacting. So the thought exists and the
• 1:54:12
  awareness of the thought exists. Are those the same thing?
• 1:54:18
  And if they are, then why does it feel as though we can observe
• 1:54:23
  ourselves thinking? And if they aren't, who is doing
• 1:54:30
  the observing? Who don't answer.
• 1:54:33
  That yet because we're almost there, because science needs to
• 1:54:37
  come in and get a chair, and before we finish today, science
• 1:54:41
  gets the chair. Consciousness remaining
• 1:54:44
  mysterious does not mean science knows nothing about it.
• 1:54:49
  Science has learned an awful lot about relationships among our
• 1:54:55
  brain activities, our perceptions, our attention, our
• 1:54:59
  memory, our wakefulness, our sleep anesthesias, and reported
• 1:55:06
  conscious experience. Researchers study the brain
• 1:55:11
  processes associated with conscious states.
• 1:55:15
  Scientists have proposed that competing theories attempting to
• 1:55:20
  explain how conscious information becomes available
• 1:55:24
  and integrated. Well, I'm going to go much
• 1:55:28
  deeper into this later in the series in the six parts here.
• 1:55:31
  But today, one enormous philosophical question remains.
• 1:55:36
  Why is there an experience happening at all?
• 1:55:41
  Science can study process associated with let's go back,
• 1:55:46
  seeing red, right? Why does that red feel like
• 1:55:50
  something? All I said was red, we're going
• 1:55:54
  back. We can study processes through
• 1:55:58
  pain, yet why is there a subjective experience of
• 1:56:03
  hurting? My pain tolerance is not
• 1:56:06
  somebody else's pain tolerance. I this week have gone through
• 1:56:10
  kidney stones. I didn't go to the hospital
• 1:56:13
  because I can control my pain. I understand it.
• 1:56:18
  Somebody else, they're laying on the floor kicking and screaming
• 1:56:21
  and telling me they're dying and they need a shot immediately and
• 1:56:24
  they need to get out of this. Pain happens, so when we can
• 1:56:33
  observe brain activity, then we experience.
• 1:56:36
  So here's another one is why is there a subjective experience of
• 1:56:42
  hurting and then we can observe the activity associated with the
• 1:56:45
  hurting that it's associated with love.
• 1:56:50
  Yet what explains the experience of being the one who loves?
• 1:56:58
  And now there is our mystery. Again, information is not
• 1:57:03
  automatically consciousness. I want to plant one seed before
• 1:57:09
  we go to final. A final break.
• 1:57:10
  And then I got to go because I know we're going to be over time
• 1:57:12
  here. Knowledge isn't automatically
• 1:57:16
  consciousness. Intelligence isn't automatically
• 1:57:20
  consciousness, and power isn't automatically consciousness.
• 1:57:25
  Humanity continues developing remarkable abilities.
• 1:57:29
  Genetics, prenatal testing, reproductive technologies,
• 1:57:35
  artificial intelligence. Every new ability gives us
• 1:57:39
  another question. Not only can we do it, but also
• 1:57:44
  what will we do with the ability to do it?
• 1:57:50
  Information gives possibilities, knowledge creates choices,
• 1:57:55
  choices carry responsibilities, and responsibility requires
• 1:58:00
  awareness. Remember that.
• 1:58:04
  Because when we reach the AI section of this six part series
• 1:58:08
  later, that table of discussion is going to get very
• 1:58:12
  interesting. I have just spent this entire
• 1:58:16
  show exploring awareness, perception, interpretation,
• 1:58:21
  thought, states of consciousness, the
• 1:58:24
  unconsciousness, science, spiritual experience, and the
• 1:58:28
  observer. When we come back, I have one
• 1:58:32
  final conscious experiment for everyone who accepted as being
• 1:58:38
  the audience today in that chair at the beginning of the show,
• 1:58:41
  whenever I said it's your turn and here's going to be The funny
• 1:58:45
  thing, you've already participated in it and you
• 1:58:49
  didn't even know what is MJ up to.
• 1:58:54
  You just didn't know you were participating.
• 1:58:57
  We're going to be right back, folks.
• 1:58:59
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  Welcome back. Did anybody ever notice anything
• 2:00:03
  different here? Anybody.
• 2:00:10
  I have been sitting here wearing sunglasses this entire show.
• 2:00:15
  I never told you why not once. Some of you noticed them
• 2:00:20
  immediately. I'm sure some of you probably
• 2:00:23
  thought why the heck is she wearing those sunglasses?
• 2:00:26
  Does she realize she's. I don't understand.
• 2:00:28
  Why is she wearing those? Some of you may have thought
• 2:00:31
  something was wrong with my eyes.
• 2:00:34
  Oh, she must have had eyes, something some of you might have
• 2:00:37
  thought, what's MJ up to now? And so you may have decided that
• 2:00:44
  it was just all part of the show.
• 2:00:47
  Some you have created your own entire theory while I was
• 2:00:51
  wearing these glasses. And some of you probably paid
• 2:00:53
  absolutely no attention to them whatsoever.
• 2:00:57
  And maybe you did notice them and then immediately went
• 2:01:00
  whatever moved on, that's their choice.
• 2:01:04
  And then that was the experiment.
• 2:01:10
  Let's separate what actually happened there.
• 2:01:12
  The event MJ wore sunglasses. That's it.
• 2:01:16
  That's all you actually knew. Everything else conjuring in
• 2:01:20
  your mind came from somewhere inside of you.
• 2:01:24
  You observed them. Maybe your attention moved
• 2:01:27
  toward them. Maybe you became aware of them.
• 2:01:31
  Maybe your memory searched for associations of why I was
• 2:01:34
  wearing them and then your mind generated all these
• 2:01:37
  possibilities. Oh, maybe she has a black eye.
• 2:01:39
  Oh, maybe she has pink eye. Oh, maybe she has an eye
• 2:01:41
  infection. Oh, maybe she had cataract surge
• 2:01:43
  and she had to put those glasses on.
• 2:01:44
  Oh, maybe the brights are too much and gives her a headache.
• 2:01:49
  Maybe you judged. Maybe you questioned, maybe you
• 2:01:53
  laughed. Maybe you've ignored it all
• 2:01:55
  together and maybe you turned 1 philosophy into a conclusion.
• 2:02:00
  What was that? MJ is wearing sunglasses
• 2:02:04
  Because. Because why?
• 2:02:06
  Because what? Why did you do that?
• 2:02:10
  I never told you, your mind just filled in the blanks, right?
• 2:02:15
  Because man categorized it. All these possibilities, your
• 2:02:21
  relationship to what you observed did.
• 2:02:25
  The event, the attention, the awareness, the perception, the
• 2:02:29
  memory, the association, the thought, the interpretation.
• 2:02:34
  Maybe judgement, maybe curiosity, maybe nothing.
• 2:02:38
  And then I removed them. Now observe yourself.
• 2:02:43
  Here's where that experiment becomes really interesting.
• 2:02:47
  Now that you know what I was doing, you can look backward and
• 2:02:51
  observe what your own mind did when you first saw.
• 2:02:56
  When I came on, I was wearing those glasses.
• 2:02:59
  Maybe you're thinking. I did wonder about those
• 2:03:01
  glasses. I knew she was doing something.
• 2:03:06
  Did you? You could not have.
• 2:03:09
  You could not have. I thought her eyes might have
• 2:03:13
  been bothering her. Well, maybe she didn't have
• 2:03:15
  enough sleep. I noticed them and I didn't
• 2:03:18
  care. I didn't even notice them.
• 2:03:21
  I've been waiting the entire show for this woman to explain
• 2:03:23
  those damn glasses, and I'm sure some of my texts are probably
• 2:03:28
  going off. Yeah, You have glasses on your
• 2:03:29
  glasses, right? And suddenly you are no longer
• 2:03:32
  only observing me. You are observing yourself.
• 2:03:36
  Having observed me. What?
• 2:03:41
  That's the lesson. Event perception interpretation.
• 2:03:46
  You had an event. MJ wore sunglasses on her studio
• 2:03:51
  day. You perceived the event, your
• 2:03:54
  mind may have interpreted the event, and now you're capable of
• 2:03:59
  looking backward and becoming aware of the interpretation of
• 2:04:03
  your own mind that what it was creating.
• 2:04:07
  Think about the the blue boy story.
• 2:04:10
  I perceive blue. My memory supplied meaning.
• 2:04:12
  I interpreted boy and then information arrived.
• 2:04:17
  The consciousness invited me to look at my own mind that I had
• 2:04:21
  done same pattern, different event.
• 2:04:26
  And now ask yourself, how many times do I do this every day?
• 2:04:32
  Making assumptions from consistent patterns of my
• 2:04:39
  awareness with a person, with a relationship, with a political
• 2:04:45
  idea, a spiritual belief, a family member, a stranger,
• 2:04:49
  myself. Something happens, I observed
• 2:04:52
  it, I interpret it, and somewhere along the way I forgot
• 2:04:57
  which part was the event and which part was my story about
• 2:05:02
  the event, his story, her story, and the truth.
• 2:05:07
  That's awareness. Back to my very first question.
• 2:05:13
  And now we have traveled all the way back to the beginning.
• 2:05:16
  I have a thought, then I become aware of that thought, I
• 2:05:20
  experience an emotion, and then I become aware of the emotion.
• 2:05:25
  I form an interpretation, and then I step backward and say,
• 2:05:31
  wait, that was my interpretation.
• 2:05:35
  So if I can observe my thought, question my thought, change my
• 2:05:40
  thought, laugh at my thought, or become aware of what my own mind
• 2:05:45
  just did, who is doing the observing?
• 2:05:51
  Now, our original question. If I am aware of my thoughts,
• 2:05:55
  who is observing my thought? Don't answer so quickly.
• 2:06:02
  Take it with you. Sit with it, meditate with it,
• 2:06:05
  pray with it, ponder it. Because perhaps the first step
• 2:06:08
  in studying consciousness isn't immediately finding the answers.
• 2:06:13
  Perhaps it begins with becoming aware enough to recognize the
• 2:06:18
  question. What did we do today?
• 2:06:23
  Today we began with awareness, then perception, then
• 2:06:28
  interpretation. We'd explored qualia, the
• 2:06:33
  personal experience of experience in itself.
• 2:06:36
  We watched the boy Blue become a beautiful little girl, and it
• 2:06:41
  gave this seer a much bigger why?
• 2:06:46
  We explained thought, we explained words, we explained
• 2:06:49
  intention. We traveled to Guatemala.
• 2:06:51
  We entered the dreams, We had surgeries, we had near death,
• 2:06:54
  darkness, light, the unconscious.
• 2:06:56
  We had science, whoo, spirituality, and finally a pair
• 2:06:59
  of sunglasses came off. And through all of that, folks,
• 2:07:04
  one pattern kept returning. Something happened, we
• 2:07:10
  experienced it, we perceived it, we interpreted it, and sometimes
• 2:07:14
  we became aware enough to observe what our own mind just
• 2:07:18
  did. That awareness creates an
• 2:07:21
  opening, An opening to question, an opening to understanding, and
• 2:07:25
  an opening to heal, and an opening to balance, and an
• 2:07:30
  opening to consciously affect what happens next.
• 2:07:36
  My. Philosophy My Event This brings
• 2:07:41
  me right back to the philosophy of the heart of the world of
• 2:07:44
  conscious positive thinking. Every event has a purpose.
• 2:07:49
  Every purpose invites awareness, Every awareness invites an
• 2:07:54
  understanding, and every understanding restores balance.
• 2:07:59
  Balance Consciousness transforms that next event, and transformed
• 2:08:05
  events become a life of conscious, positive thinking and
• 2:08:09
  service to others. Think about that now.
• 2:08:13
  Through everything that we have discussed today, the event
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  doesn't disappear. The experience isn't erased.
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  The lesson isn't pretending nothing happened.
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  The power is becoming aware enough to ask, what is this
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  event showing me? What did I perceive?
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  What did I interpret? What did my conditioning add?
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  What is my ego doing and what remains unhealed?
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  What needs understanding and what do I choose next?
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  One last thought from this wire today, nearly after six decades,
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  6 decades of experiences that I'll be bringing to light,
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  perhaps consciousness hasn't even given me absolute
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  certainty. What has it given me?
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  It gave me a lot of questions. Sometimes consistency creates
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  faith in what I already understand and something happens
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  that doesn't fit and consciousness seems to say MJ
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  look again. I don't see that as failure.
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  I see it as an invitation into another level of awareness.
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  I believe the gifts of awareness can arrive in layers.
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  Our higher consciousness is prepared to understand.
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  Then a shift occurs. An old interpretation no longer
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  completely fits and we become aware again.
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  Because I am not God, nor are you.
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  We perceive, we interpret, we make choices, and sometimes we
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  miss things. But we need to ask why?
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  What happened? Where, when did that happen?
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  And we learn again, We evolve, we become.
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  Perhaps consciousness isn't reaching some final place where
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  we know everything. Perhaps consciousness includes
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  becoming aware enough to recognize there is more here for
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  me to understand. And for this sear and this wire,
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  that's a beautiful place for me to be.
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  Next week, we're going back in time long before neurosciences
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  could observe activity in a living brain.
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  We're going back to man. Humanity was already attempting
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  to understand the invisible world within it, what it lived.
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  Freud. Young conscious, unconscious
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  ego, childhood conditioning archetypes.
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  Later, we'll be discussing thinkers such as Benjamin Spock
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  who would influence how generations understood children,
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  development and information of human of the human mind.
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  Talk about human collectiveness right there, right there.
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  Who says man can't change humanity?
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  Collectively, Dr. Benjamin Spock did just that.
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  We're going to ask what did they observe?
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  What did they theorize? What survived, what evolved,
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  what became, what's still evolving, and what did later
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  generations challenge? And naturally, what does MJ
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  myself ask why about all of it? Join me next Monday, folks.
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  What is consciousness? Part 2 of 6.
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  Man discovers the mind. And perhaps our question won't
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  be, did humanity finally discover the mind?
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  Perhaps it'll be, did man discover the mind?
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  Or did humanity discover another layer of the mystery of
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  creation? Until next week, watch your
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  thoughts, question your interpretations.
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  Become aware of the difference between what happened and what
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  my mind decided happened. That requires listening deeply.
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  And remember that every event has a purpose, and every purpose
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  invites awareness. And awareness invites
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  understanding. And understanding restores
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  balance. Balance conscious transforms
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  that next event, and transformed events become a life of
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  conscious positive thinking in service to others.
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  And as always, may Divine guide you and your needs, and may the
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  angels carry you home with grace, love, peace, joy,
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  happiness, and abundance of what it is that you desire most.
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  I am Mary Jo Gonzalez, known as MJ.
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  You're listening to the world of conscious positive thinking.
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  Thank you all so much for joining me at this table today.
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