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THE DISCLAIMER: Self Sabotage · The Hauraki Big Show

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  Speaker 1: For all you med bastards loving the Big Show podcast
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  Speaker 1: Get Up Even Closer on Instagram, YouTube, and tik tok
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  Speaker 1: for dogging for.
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  Speaker 2: To seven every weekday on Radioconda.
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  Speaker 1: Get a feeler.
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  Speaker 3: Hell now you're talking mills ha ha.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, good stuff.
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  Speaker 4: I think that's the new opener right there.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I think so that's how we do it. Yeah, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: that's how we.
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  Speaker 3: Do how we gain team good day.
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  Speaker 5: Good daily good man, I'm gonna I was just yeah,
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  Speaker 5: I'm bloody good. Actually that's good, good old good old
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  Speaker 5: life there, indy stuff. Yes, I bet exercise and that
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  Speaker 5: always makes you feel good, keysy, it does. Kids going good,
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  Speaker 5: missus is going good. You know what they say, happy family,
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  Speaker 5: happie mokey happy. Yeah, that's what they say.
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  Speaker 2: Do you do what I do? And I'm not as
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  Speaker 2: bad as I used to be. I used to be.
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  Speaker 3: I used to be really really bad.
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  Speaker 2: On everything's all cheep, the beds coming around the corner, Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: where's hang on?
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  Speaker 6: Yes?
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  Speaker 3: Where is the hang on?
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  Speaker 4: This is right annoying.
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  Speaker 2: And I mean like chronically my brain would go searching
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  Speaker 2: for a terrible thing.
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  Speaker 4: So that's that is literally turning a went into a
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  Speaker 4: loss isn't it like everything's great? Yes, and you're like, okay,
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  Speaker 4: what the.
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  Speaker 7: Fun You're like, yeah, that's yeah, there's.
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  Speaker 1: My sweet spot.
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  Speaker 3: I'm back in familiar territory.
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  Speaker 4: So it's like your brain doesn't like being happy, Yes, doesn't.
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  Speaker 1: That's exactly what it is.
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  Speaker 4: That's annoying.
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  Speaker 1: Waiting for the other shoe to drop, Yes.
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  Speaker 4: The other boot, speaking of haven't seen those boots in
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  Speaker 4: a while, just saying.
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  Speaker 1: I wore them this morning? Yeah, bullshit?
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  Speaker 4: What when did that still happening? Does it still happen?
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  Speaker 2: It happens occasionally, but nowhere near like.
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  Speaker 1: It because everything's always terrible to worry about that.
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  Speaker 2: Yea, true, it's that thing of But no, I'll tell
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  Speaker 2: you what it is, being more present in this moment now,
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  Speaker 2: not worrying about the future and not worrying about the past,
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  Speaker 2: just going, I.
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  Speaker 3: I'm just now what a lovely day it is.
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  Speaker 2: And also I think it's an aging thing, which I
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  Speaker 2: don't really give a fuck. Yeah, And that's not as
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  Speaker 2: negative as it sounds.
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  Speaker 1: It's not like it.
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  Speaker 3: But it's just like I don't worry about it, but.
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  Speaker 2: You also do worry about it occasionally, but nowhere near
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  Speaker 2: to the extent that I used to.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I was shocking.
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  Speaker 8: That's true. That's true, even start from the side of
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  Speaker 8: the show.
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  Speaker 4: Yes, yeah, yeah, yeah, you're worried at the start of
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  Speaker 4: the show, Big Warrior.
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  Speaker 2: I used to have massive anxiety doing radio in the
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  Speaker 2: early days of Drive.
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  Speaker 4: I can imagine.
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  Speaker 1: But even even when we started, Yes, yeah, I did.
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  Speaker 3: But that was for various reasons.
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  Speaker 4: But it's because old Keesy wasn't, you know, pulling his weight.
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  Speaker 1: Thank you. I was sitting there just pushing his buttons.
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  Speaker 1: Wouldn't speak out.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah that's right. Old Keys would just sit there silently.
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  Speaker 4: But I remember you remember you used to twist the
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  Speaker 4: screen off the little mounting bracket there, Yes, that screen's gone.
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  Speaker 4: I used to lean over and turn the computer screen around.
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  Speaker 3: That was when I was in a full blind panic attack.
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  Speaker 1: Wow.
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  Speaker 4: Yes, fucking hell's amazing. I'm going to get better at
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  Speaker 4: being prison because one thing I've noticed is things go
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  Speaker 4: way too fucking quickly. Yeah you know what I mean.
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  Speaker 4: It's like, oh, yeah, I'm excited for the piewards boom
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  Speaker 4: two am steamed.
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  Speaker 1: K yeahs brothel, creeping.
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  Speaker 4: Brothel, thank you, Mogi think this is on YouTube? Pugs, Yeah, sweet.
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  Speaker 1: Man, absolutely deep. Yeah, and K Roads such a what's
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  Speaker 1: a dark place.
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  Speaker 2: It's dark place, it can be, It's it's great.
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  Speaker 1: I love K I spent very little time.
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  Speaker 4: It's a delicious place.
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  Speaker 3: So I am on a Wednesday morning.
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  Speaker 8: Then I would say seriously, when we were, me.
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  Speaker 4: And Pugs are at their bar and it was the
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  Speaker 4: two winners who were great, and then everyone had gone
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  Speaker 4: home except for us four and there was just like
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  Speaker 4: a middle aged businessman who would have been I reckon
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  Speaker 4: it would have been fifty something, right, uh. And he
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  Speaker 4: was just hammered singing back to back to back karaoke
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  Speaker 4: songs really badly, how good I love it? And he
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  Speaker 4: did free Bird. It was up there, hammered by himself,
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  Speaker 4: just and I was just like, this is that what
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  Speaker 4: affected it into me being like you know what I'm going?
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, there's you because it's just us and that guy.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, do you want to be.
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  Speaker 1: With that guy?
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  Speaker 6: The guy?
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, yes, I wonder if he had a bag on him.
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  Speaker 7: Wouldn't know, Maggie, No, I don't even know. I'm more
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  Speaker 7: ask me that I'm.
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  Speaker 3: More intrigued by how he felt when he woke up.
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  Speaker 1: The business man, Yes, run of the mill. Yeah, just
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  Speaker 1: another day in paradise.
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  Speaker 3: Where's Where's where's the wallet? Where's the fun?
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  Speaker 4: Where's the whole?
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  Speaker 1: Archy Big Show? Week days from four on Radio Hurdarchy.
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  Speaker 6: You know how good the Hadarky Big Show podcaster is.
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  Speaker 6: You are more beg you get it. You're gonna get
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  Speaker 6: around the live radio show to seven weight days on
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  Speaker 6: Radio Hidarchy and I had Radio You're born nice?
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  Speaker 4: Remember the ha Warchy Big Show podcast?
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  Speaker 2: Oh my god, that was the anxiety. I've never talked
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  Speaker 2: to you about it, and I probably won't. The worst
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  Speaker 2: anxiety dream I've ever had.
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  Speaker 1: Oh great, last when last week? And that was my fault.
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  Speaker 4: That's what I got them in trouble with that reel
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  Speaker 4: and it triggered the worst anxiety drew of your life.
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  Speaker 4: But I'm so sorry.
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  Speaker 3: No, but that I've had, I've had worse. It was
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  Speaker 3: a shark, ye.
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  Speaker 8: Now looking back in the seat, because you've had other
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  Speaker 8: ones before, which you know, some of the favorite stories
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  Speaker 8: of all time we talk about.
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  Speaker 2: They were more funny for you.
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  Speaker 1: You were just devestated that you.
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  Speaker 3: Woke up that was that was a shark of that
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  Speaker 3: one that you were a feering.
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  Speaker 4: Was anything related to that?
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  Speaker 1: No?
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  Speaker 4: No, okay, So no.
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  Speaker 2: It was actually a scenario that's kind of a coude
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  Speaker 2: in my life before.
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  Speaker 4: I can't believe I triggered this.
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  Speaker 2: And but much worse because I've never had anxiety like
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  Speaker 2: I have anxiety dreams relatively often, not as much as.
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  Speaker 1: They used to do.
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  Speaker 4: I used to like tangle the sheets up with you.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, just turned them into ropes. But this one kept
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  Speaker 2: building on itself. It kept getting worse, like it started
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  Speaker 2: off really bad and got worse and worse, and.
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  Speaker 8: Word were would be an example of one which is
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  Speaker 8: not this unnecessarily well.
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  Speaker 3: I can tell you this one.
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  Speaker 1: This one, I'll put my feet up.
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  Speaker 2: I had a dream, right, and in my dream I
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  Speaker 2: woke up and I was devastatingly hungover, like wrecked yourself down. Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: and I mean wrecked, I mean nauseous, headache, sweating, panic attack,
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  Speaker 2: heart palpitations. And in my mind and the dream, I
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  Speaker 2: was like, I meant to be doing something today.
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  Speaker 4: And then I went getting a hot pot.
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  Speaker 2: Oh fuck, I'm filming, Oh my god, I'm filming.
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  Speaker 3: And it was five scenes.
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  Speaker 4: Of broken wood or something.
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  Speaker 3: No, it wasn't that specific, and and I hadn't.
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  Speaker 4: Lie and I was at skilled assembly and I was naked,
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  Speaker 4: and I'd.
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  Speaker 2: Learned no and I mean devastatingly hungover, and I knew
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  Speaker 2: I'd learned no lines, and then the dream it was, fuck,
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  Speaker 2: I haven't told the boss at.
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  Speaker 1: Radio that I'm filming another one, and so.
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  Speaker 2: That added to it, and I went, oh, my god,
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  Speaker 2: I haven't told them that I'm filming O my god.
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  Speaker 2: And then in my dream I remembered that I was
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  Speaker 2: also filming for the next four days after this day
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  Speaker 2: with another project that I also hadn't learned any of
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  Speaker 2: the lines or told Radio that I was filming them,
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  Speaker 2: and that I was filming not only the one that
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  Speaker 2: I was filming today, I was also filming that the
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  Speaker 2: next day as well as this other project.
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  Speaker 3: And I hadn't told any of them that I double boped,
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  Speaker 3: I double bocked.
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  Speaker 2: And so I was filming two different projects on the
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  Speaker 2: same day, none of which I Radio, none of which
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  Speaker 2: I'd learned, and Radio, which I hadn't told that I
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  Speaker 2: was filming.
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  Speaker 1: And I was like beyond hungover. I was ill.
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  Speaker 3: With me waking up and sweaty and going, oh my god.
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  Speaker 1: So the bright side, nobody has hired you for anything.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, on the bright side, I wasn't any of those things.
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  Speaker 2: And I've had a similar which I've told you about
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  Speaker 2: a similar scenario to that, but it was.
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  Speaker 4: Bad and I triggered that.
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  Speaker 3: No, it was no, no, no.
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  Speaker 4: But like I like to think of myself as someone
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  Speaker 4: who helps Jose out, you know what I mean. You
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  Speaker 4: know that I like to think that I'm a guy
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  Speaker 4: who wants on top for j and I'm something I
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  Speaker 4: did obviously added to anxiety in your hair.
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  Speaker 6: I know.
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  Speaker 3: I think there was a couple of other things going
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  Speaker 3: on as well.
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  Speaker 2: Right, well, yes, Maggie had to go at me, you know,
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  Speaker 2: but just on the periphery. But it was just a
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  Speaker 2: fucking doozy one of those ones where you wake up
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  Speaker 2: and it's with you all day.
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  Speaker 3: You just can't you just can't shake it.
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  Speaker 1: It's just, oh god, jeez. So I just is there
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  Speaker 1: where you came in here and the horror of the movie.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, Actually Toddy was saying, you haven't put in
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  Speaker 4: for leave next week and you do have to work.
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  Speaker 1: This is what I'm talking about. I've reached Tess, helping
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  Speaker 1: you out again, making you feel good.
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  Speaker 2: I've reached that part of my life where I don't
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  Speaker 2: give a fuck you know what I mean. I'm going
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  Speaker 2: on holiday, yeah, get on some sushi film.
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  Speaker 3: I'm no, we're going to have an interview in four minutes.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I know. That's why I've got to go now
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  Speaker 1: so I can do the interview.
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  Speaker 4: It's a good shout I had us in the Big
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  Speaker 4: Show Full or seven Weekdays Radio Hodkey, Sorry about that, Jau.
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  Speaker 3: That's all good, mate,