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- Ted Thao: Hey, I'm Ted Thao This is Internal Insights. I'm a licensed professional counselor, which means I spend most of my weeks listening closely to people work through the hardest parts of being alive. This podcast is where I take what I'm hearing without any names or identifying details and open it up into a conversation for anyone willing to think a little harder about themselves and the world around them. Have you ever caught yourself in an argument, replaying it later, and thinking, wait, how did I end up being the one who got hurt in that story again? Or maybe you know someone who always seemed to be losing in every disagreement, no matter who they are talking to. It's easy to slap a label on it and call it playing the victim. But what's actually happening underneath is a lot more interesting. And a lot more human than the label gives credit for. Let's start with what people usually mean when they are saying someone playing the victim. Usually it looks like this: something goes wrong, and instead of owning a part in it, the person frames themselves as the one who was wronged. They get defensive fast, or their feelings get hurt, or some happens in the conversation about accountability that turns into a conversation about how misunderstood they are. And from the outside, it can feel manipulative. Like they're dodging blame on purpose. Here's the thing though. Most of the time, that is not the strategy someone comes up consciously. It's the nervous system doing what it's learned to do a long time ago. If you grew up in a home where being wrong meant being punished, or showing vulnerability was the only thing that got you comfort or attention, your brain wired itself around that. Feeling like the victim and reacting from a place Kept you safe once. Maybe you got out of trouble. Maybe it got someone to finally pay attention to you. Your mind filled that away as a solution, and solutions are hard to let go of even when they stop working. Think of it like a smoke detector that got triggered constantly during a fire years ago. Even now, in the kitchen, when there's no smoke at all. The detector might still go off at the slightest hint of heat. It's not lying to you. It's not trying to manipulate the room. It just learned a long time ago, that going off early was safer than waiting to find out if the fire was real. That's what's happening for a lot of people whose default to feeling wronged. Their alarm system has learned that framing things as I'm the one being hurt here kept them protected. Whether that meant avoiding punishment, getting needs met, or simply not having to sit with the discomfort of being at fault. And there can be some real benefits to it, at least in the short term. It draws sympathy. It can end an argument pretty fast. It can make someone else feel guilty enough to back off. But over time, that same pattern tends to push people away because the people around them start to feel like nothing is ever a two way conversation. Like there's no room to disagree without becoming the villain. Which brings up something people bring to me pretty often. Someone will ask me, Why do I always feel like I'm the victim in my relationships? Like it happens over and over with different people in different situations and I cannot figure out why they are always the ones who ends up getting hurt. Here's what I usually tell them. If this is a pattern across relationships, it is rarely about the other person actually mistreating you every single time. It is more likely that your nervous system has a well worn patch, it defaults to when conflict shows up. A path built a long time ago, probably for a good reason. That does not make the pain feel any less than Just means that the lens you're looking through might be older than the relationship you're looking at. The work is not proving you are wrong to feel hurt. It is getting curious about what particular reaction was built and slowly giving yourself other ways to respond when this conflict shows up. So if any of this sounded familiar either to yourself or someone you love, try to hold it a little bit more gently than the phrase playing the victim usually allows. It's not a character flaw, it is a protective habit that outlived the situation it was built for, and habits, even old ones, can be updated once you know they're there. That's where I'll leave it for today. You don't have to agree with everything I said, but I'd invite you to sit with it a little longer before you move on to whatever is next. I'm Ted Thao this has been Internal Insights. And if you want to learn more about my work, you can find me at internal insights therapy dot com. Take care, and I'll talk to you next time.