Why Do I Still Attack Myself So Hard Even After All the Growth Work?

Your Effin’ Love Story · Nov 4, 2026 · 17m

Even after a lot of self-inquiry, growth, and expansion, a small mistake can still drop me straight into my own ass.

That’s what this episode is about.

I was doing a delivery. The guy had two little kids, both excited. I missed a two-liter of Starry on the order. In the moment I felt like I had just fucked up their lunch because I wasn’t attentive enough. I told him I’d come back with a cold one, but the self-attack was already deep. That same energy spilled out and I snapped at Sharon. Then came the guilt for speaking to her that way.

I’ve done enough internal work that I sometimes think…