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July 10 - Peace Through Humility · The Daily Ripples Podcast

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  And I got Paris with me today and today is July 10th.
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  Peace through humility.
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  The stone.
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  Peace grows when I take responsibility for my part and release the rest.
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  Ripple one practical.
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  Today when something disturbs me, I will pause and look inward before reaching outward.
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  I will ask where I may have been impatient, fearful, or self-centered.
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  Owning my part brings clarity and keeps me from escalating the situation.
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  Ripple 2 Spiritual
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  The Father meets me in honesty.
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  Jesus teaches me to live without defensiveness.
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  The Holy Spirit reveals what is true in me and gives me the grace to release it.
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  As I surrender my defects, even if the situation does not change, something in me does.
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  That is where peace begins.
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  And I was reading this and thinking about it, and I talk about this a little bit, man, because it says in the practical, I will pause and look inward.
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  Well, yeah, I think about page 55 of the big book, and it says in there, it says, he was there.
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  He was as much as a fact as we were.
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  We found the great reality deep down within us.
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  In the last analysis, it is only there that he may be found.
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  It was so with us.
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  So when I think about what I face inward, and that's where God is.
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  And so God's inward, and I got all these things that are deep down within.
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  On page 64, the big book that says,
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  First we searched out the flaws in our makeup, which caused our failure.
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  Being convinced that self manifested in various ways was what had defeated us, we considered it common manifestation.
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  And what are the common manifestations?
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  Well, I would think it would be self-centeredness, hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity.
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  I think those are the common manifestations.
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  Maybe I'm wrong, but that's just where I'm sitting at today, and that's my truth for today.
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  But so if I got all this stuff down within me and God's down within me and I face inward, well, maybe inwards the resentments I carry towards other people or the grudge list, right?
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  Resentment is such a strong word.
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  And, you know, I think, you know, when I look at it more than death, you know, it's just one of the worms.
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  And it says grudge lists also, but on page 145, maybe the stuff that's within me is the greatest, what is it?
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  What does it say, 145?
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  It says the greatest enemies of us alcoholics are resentment, jealousy, envy, frustration, and fear.
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  So maybe those things are the things, instead of using this big word like resentment,
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  I can look at those words and maybe have a better understanding of what I'm really looking at.
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  Because maybe I'm just envious.
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  Maybe I have been envious of everybody for every different thing.
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  And you maybe have heard me talk about this, but, you know, so I was adopted, right?
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  And I use this thing in my head.
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  And I talk about this a lot because it's an important representation of why I believe I was born with this illness.
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  Because I was adopted and my birth parents were alcoholics.
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  Well, I mean, you know, I just have records, but I know that my birth mother drank every day I was in it.
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  And that's why I came out with some webtoes, Paris.
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  Anyways, but, you know, so I grew up in this family that were nice people, loving people.
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  And so even though I grew up in this nice and loving home, I mean, I still, when I drank, I drank.
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  So that spiritual malady, I believe, you know, and you know, I could be wrong.
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  Someone could point me in a different direction one day.
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  But I was born into this.
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  I was going to be an alcoholic regardless of what my upbringing and conditions were.
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  My conditions were only for you.
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  I used my conditions as a reason, and a reason I held on to for a long time.
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  But, you know, so when I go into this grudge list and I put this stuff down, I put my fears
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  down, that's me facing it inwardly, the sex things, right?
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  And I thought the sex things were more on the sense of what I did, you know, and I was
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  like, oh, I can do this sex thing good. I can do this inventory good. But man, it was really how
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  I treated people of the opposite sex. And it wasn't good. And it wasn't, you know, it was very selfish
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  and self-centeredness. But when I go inwardly and look at that, for some reason, it's like,
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  it's just like this, reaching inward before reaching outward. And, you know, because I wanted my,
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  you know, go back to page 52, right?
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  And that was my perception.
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  And so we had to ask ourselves why we shouldn't apply to our human problems
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  the same way it is to change our point of view.
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  So maybe it's been my point of view and not my human problems the whole time.
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  What do you think, buddy?
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  Man, you know, I'm looking at the start.
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  I want to say peace grows when I take responsibility for my part and release the rest.
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  See, the peace don't come until I start to grow.
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  And what did growth look like to me?
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  And I'm not talking about getting taller or getting bigger or getting big-headed,
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  because I could do that easily.
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  Were you taller?
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  Yeah, I think I have got taller with my knees, you know what I mean?
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  Like, I don't know.
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  I think they put some itches in me when I did my surgery.
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  But, you know, man, I started to look at it,
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  and I was looking at page 84.
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  It talks about we vigorously commenced this way of living.
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  As we cleaned up the past, we have entered the world of the spirit.
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  And this function is to grow as an understanding and effectiveness.
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  So, you know, when I...
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  Instead, when we vigorously commit this way to the past, you know,
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  that's a part of cleaning up that it talks about.
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  When I take responsibility, you were talking about the grudge list
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  or putting all this down on paper.
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  See, that's the responsibility part of me cleaning it up.
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  Now I have to release it.
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  And how do I release it?
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  By talking with it.
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  you know, asking God to release these character defects.
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  And then it says on this practical part, you know,
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  I will ask where I may be being impatient, fearful, self-centered.
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  You know, I just read that on page 84,
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  and it took me back to 77 where we was talking about.
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  But this is not the end of itself.
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  Our real purpose is to fit ourselves to be maximum service to God
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  and the people about us.
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  See, we talk about this selfish program a lot.
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  You know, this is not a selfish program.
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  It's also about, you know, about, I want to say it's about, you know, helping others, which is, which is this is, you know, because we help a lot of people.
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  Look, we're on a podcast, we're doing this work, and a lot of people is probably listening.
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  And, you know, so, but this is the part of the process.
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  It's just a progress of growing, of growth.
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  You know, even when it comes to owning my part brings clarity and it keeps me from escalating.
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  You know, a situation, and that also goes to on page 85.
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  See, I like this morning on awakening and when we retire at night.
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  I like reading this in the morning times.
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  I read this in the morning because, you know, if I get on the morning meditation zone,
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  sometimes I'm not perfect.
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  I miss a couple of them.
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  But, you know what I'm saying?
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  And I read this on another episode.
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  I said, if we have clearly followed directions.
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  See, I have to be that person that's to listen and continue to grow.
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  Because I know myself, I can't do this alone.
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  I have to have other people help me.
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  I have you, Corey.
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  I have Pastor Mike.
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  You know, I have anybody that I can call out or reach to if I need some advice, need some direction, you know, also with God, you know, you know, and God worked through other people.
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  When we go to these AAMs or rooms of recovery, as we say, you know, I believe like someone in there is, you know, will say something to you and you catch on to it.
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  That's the God given within us.
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  That's still fellowshipping under the roof of recovery.
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  So when we do that, you know, that's why I like to listen to those things.
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  And I like to go there to me because it says, you know, working with others.
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  It was talks about the, I mean, not working with others, but a vision for you.
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  You know, back on page, what page was that?
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  Go to page 153.
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  It said, the practical answer is that since these things have happened among us, they can happen with you.
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  Should you wish them above all else and be willing?
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  Let go that willing word again.
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  I like that willing word, you know, because willing is the number one thing that we have to do in this program is be willing.
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  I can't work with another person if they're not willing to want to work.
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  If they're not willing to take these steps, what am I going to waste my time for to work with them?
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  You know what I mean?
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  And it's almost like, you know, I'm not trying to pressure nobody to get recovered.
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  You know, see, this is part of the work right here is what we have to be willing to do this.
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  I am a lot of people, you know, I want to talk about nobody else, but there's a lot of things and a lot of people that, oh, I just want to get through this program.
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  I just don't want to feel no drug screens.
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  But what are you going to do after this?
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  What is your life going to look like after this?
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  See, I have been in the shoes before where my life has been like, okay, oh, you know, something traumatic can happen.
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  And it can lead you back to where you started from.
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  And do I want to take those back steps?
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  No, I want to continue to live this life for recovery.
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  But yeah, that's all I got.
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  What you got on there?
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  Well, I was thinking about what you were talking about and, you know, listening to you, man, and thinking about, like, you know, what my life used to look like, what my life looks like today.
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  Kind of been a part of your life in both senses, and, you know, it's really cool to watch this and to watch these things happen.
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  You know, it says on page that same page you're on, on page 153 in the chapter,
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  working with others, you gather an idea of how we approach the eight others to health.
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  And how we approach them is this, man.
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  It gives me exactly how to do this.
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  And I sent you this picture the other night.
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  And, you know, in this book, there's 89 musts and there's 91 nevers.
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  So, you know, there's, you know, exact instructions, precise instructions, how to do this, that there's a bunch of musts and nevers.
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  And, you know, in the spiritual, it says, the Holy Spirit reveals what is true in me and gives me the grace to release it.
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  You know, what is true in me today is this, is that my life has been revolutionarily changed in a place that is indescribable.
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  You know, the best way for me to describe it is probably through my story.
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  And, you know, it's a good thing this is a short podcast because I can go on for a little while, man.
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  You know, because what I used to be like was, man, you saw what I used to be like.
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  There was nothing that wasn't just about me.
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  And what I'm about today is, you know, little glimpses of hope and, you know,
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  faith that my life isn't just about me, it's about others.
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  But what also, like, kind of hit me in this was today when something disturbs me, I'll pause.
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  So on, you know, I think it's important on page 84, you know, it kind of tells me what to do.
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  And then it gives me some things, and I talk about this a lot, but it's, I find it important.
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  Because on page 85, it says, every day is a day we must, must is a big word, carry the vision of God's will into all our activities.
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  So maybe I need to ask God, what's his vision for my day?
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  So on 86, there's an awakening.
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  So that's when I start.
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  There's a little bit when we retire, but I think on awakening is probably the most important thing of my day.
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  We consider our plans for the day.
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  And maybe those plans are what, you know, maybe was what I looked at when I retired.
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  Was I resentful, selfish, dishonest, or afraid?
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  And do I need to make an amends to somebody?
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  Because that might be my plans.
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  But then you go to 87, you talked about this not too long ago.
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  As we go through the day, we pause when agitated or doubtful.
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  and ask for the right thought or action.
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  And so maybe the right thought or action is over here on page 84.
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  And it says when these crop up, right?
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  So it's telling me all through my day how to act, how to pray, how to be, and what to do exactly.
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  There's nothing like that it leaves out.
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  And that's the thing about it is when I call someone like my sponsor,
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  man, like I've not gotten too much from my sponsor rather than,
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  hey, why don't you go flip to this page?
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  Why don't you go look at this?
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  Because, you know, when I look at my old theory or gadget,
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  which didn't work for something new, which does,
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  you know, and that's on page 52 if you needed a reference, Paris.
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  But, you know, when I look at the theory or gadget,
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  which does work, and that's this book, and that's not subjective.
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  What's subjective is how I've been in my whole life.
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  What's objective is this book and these exact things and these musts and these nevers and
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  these ways to be and a practical way to live.
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  A practical guide or, you know, a design for living as you must.
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  And that design of living has nothing to do with me.
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  It has everything to do with how I help you.
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  And this stuff of getting busy and thinking about me and that's, you know, where peace begins,
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  man.
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  I'll tell you, it was a crazy thing.
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  I might have said this on here.
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  I don't, man.
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  But I went to the, I go to this treatment center every fourth Monday of the month.
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  And my buddy that, you know, runs that treatment center, man,
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  he actually double, he accidentally double scheduled me and another dude to go tall.
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  So I drove all, I drove 30 minutes out of my way.
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  I was all pissed off because this other dude showed up.
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  So I'm leaving there.
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  I'm like, man, I finally come to this one place.
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  Like as I'm leaving, I'm like, maybe that dude needed to go talk instead of me.
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  Because, you know, on page 15 of this big book, like you were talking about earlier, it tells me, it says,
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  many times I've gone to my old hospital in despair.
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  On talking to a man there, I'll be amazingly lifted up and set on my feet.
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  It is a design for living that works in rough going and good going too.
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  I think they left that part out.
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  You know, when I was leaving, you know, after I got almost home, I got a phone call from a dude.
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  And that dude was crying.
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  And he said, Corey, I think I figured this out, man.
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  And he was in joy, man, in tears because he had helped this old lady do something.
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  And he had that little glimpse.
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  But I'll tell you, man, that's crazy because that dude is locked up in a state hospital today.
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  Probably never get enough.
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  Yeah, man, you talked about, man, you know that.
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  Hold on a second.
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  these little glimpses of God, right?
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  No.
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  You know, these things that I can't see the pictures of that God can, though.
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  Because nobody can explain a supreme being, right?
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  Yeah.
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  But that dude has touched people's lives that may be affected down the road,
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  and that's all we're doing.
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  And I was in a meditation one day.
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  Uh-huh.
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  And I had this meditation that, you know, this God,
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  I mean, I have all these things that happen in meditations.
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  but as I was walking along this long diving board
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  and man like you know eventually I jumped off the diving board
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  what's your jump in?
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  it was like this million
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  million mile thing of anyways but while I was falling
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  I had this thing of all these different people
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  that I have affected in my life and good and bad
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  and it was interesting you know because you can relate that to the Bible
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  when, you know, Jesus asked, what's his name to walk on the water, right? And that's all we're
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  asking people to do is to abandon yourself to God and the people around me, not to surrender to some
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  little problem, to do this work. And the work is just helping and getting out of me and helping you.
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  And when I affect others in that way, it can completely aid them to help. Or I can take from
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  too, right? I think I had that option
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  today to hurt. But
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  anyways, that's just what I was thinking.
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  Yeah, when you're talking, when you reference
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  it, when Jesus told him to walk on
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  the water, the reason he sunk because
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  he didn't trust. He didn't
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  have that faith in him.
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  You was talking about
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  before I cut you off, and you ended up
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  cutting me back off. We were talking
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  about that on Step 10, when you
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  were talking about retiring or
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  waking up in the morning. I'm going to
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  read something out of the
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  12 on step 20 said the quick inventory is aimed at our daily ups and downs especially those where
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  people or new events throw us off balance and tempt us to make mistakes you know man it's been
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  a lot of times when i do this work today that i'll be like hey i don't see no progress you know but
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  continually daily every day doing this work i get to do i get to sense a new presence of god within
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  me, myself, you know, helping others, reading the book every night with someone else.
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  You know, that's something that I had to get out of my own comfort zone to do that work.
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  And, you know, in a vision for you, it says, uh, the cling to the thought that is on page
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  124 in the big book.
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  Cling to the thought that in God's hands, the dark past is our greatest possession you have,
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  the key to life and happiness for others.
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  That's in the chapter, the family afterwards, Paris.
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  Yeah, that's fine.
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  What do I say?
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  Visual for you?
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  Well, okay.
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  Thank you for your question.
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  With it, you can avert death and misery for them.
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  You know, see, I'm not good at this work.
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  You know what I mean?
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  Once you say, you don't have to be the sharpest tool in the shed, but I'm in the shed.
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  You know what I mean?
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  So that's the point about it.
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  You know, when you're doing this work and when you're working with another person or, you know, trying to get that.
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  I want to say, you know, that peace in life.
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  Because that's what the main topic is, the peace of the humility.
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  You know, and to get that peace today, to be able to sit with myself and know that, man, my past have really brought me to where I'm at today.
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  You know, because we can always be like, man, I done so much stuff, man.
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  I did all this.
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  How can I live today?
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  But if you think about it, God put you there for a reason.
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  He wanted you to learn.
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  He wanted you to continue to grow.
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  See, if you was a bad person, God would ask you out this earth.
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  He had done it in the Bible.
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  And look in the biblical.
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  If you look at it, God will teach people a way that he knew in the future he would do some harm.
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  So he'll take you away before you can do that harm.
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  But now he puts you in a place where, okay, he's teaching you humility.
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  He's teaching you how to be humble, respect your others, you know, and help someone.
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  So we're good people to that.
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  We might not have been good.
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  We was good people being too.
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  We was harming ourselves.
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  I mean, we was harming people too.
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  I ain't going to say what I mean, but not just, you know, not in a way of like, you know.
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  It's difficult to say today because, I mean, everybody has a bottom.
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  But everybody's bottoms are different.
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  And when I look at it that way, like it says, a spiritual part is as I surrender my defense.
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  You know, when I surrender myself, you know, allow God to come into my life, allow him to do the things that I couldn't do for myself.
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  Man, you know, it's a sense of freedom and it's a sense of peace.
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  You know, Philippians 4.4 says, rejoice in the Lord always.
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  I will say it again.
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  Rejoice.
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  Let your gentleness be evident to all.
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  It says, let your gentleness be evident to all.
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  The Lord is near.
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  Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, be in prayer and petition.
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  And so when I'm in prayer, man, and I think, you know, that's the idea.
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  Because if my life looks like I'm in prayer and petition all day, man, I'm in so much more
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  place of being useful to God and the people around me.
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  With thanksgiving, present your request to God and the peace of God, not the peace of
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  me, but the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and
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  your minds in Christ Jesus.
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  And, you know, I think that's important, man, because, like, you know, today, you know, in
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  one of my books, and I talk about this, but it's on page 87 in one of my books I have.
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  It says, if God was your girlfriend, would God be jealous?
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  And, uh, but think about that. Cause like, am I sitting, you know, and that's the most like, cause I, you know, man, I know you probably dated some women. I have too. And like how much time and effort am I putting in to that woman when there's usually just a couple reasons I'm wanting that woman. It's not just cause she's smart.
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  No.
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  Oh, and that's, you know, that's selfish.
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  Very selfish.
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  But how much time and effort I'm putting into that,
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  when I put it into God, and I can say this in my household,
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  that the only reason in my home,
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  because it tells me on page 19 where I practice self,
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  is my home occupations and affairs, right?
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  But the central reason that that home is intact today
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  is because God is the central fact of our house.
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  And if it wasn't, man, there was a prayer and petition going on
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  Thanksgiving being going on in that house for where our lives are today.
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  Because you know where our life used to be.
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  And it wasn't in Thanksgiving.
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  It wasn't in prayer or petition.
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  It was petitioning of bags and prayer and of more things of that nature, man.
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  Yeah.
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  And so, but like you had said, my greatest defect and my house's greatest defect has become our greatest asset.
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  And that's through God.
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  But what were you about to say?
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  Now, I was looking at Psalms 51, you know, chapter 51, verse 10.
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  It says, create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
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  You know, there's just something that's, you know, when I relate or reference, I ain't going to say relate.
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  When I referenced from the big book, I call the Numbers, to, you know, the Bible, there's a lot of references.
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  You know, it's a lot.
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  It's like, you know, peace doesn't begin when everyone else changes.
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  You know, peace begins when I'm willing to do my own part.
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  Right.
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  You know, and when I notice that, you know, when I practice, or not when I practice, when I do these steps work, when I do these principles daily, you know, that peace of freedom, it also, it's almost like riding a motorcycle.
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  You know what I mean?
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  With me, you know, I love my motorcycles.
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  You know, I not had an injury, and I still want to get on.
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  Because unless you ride the motorcycle, you don't know that piece of freedom that you have in the body.
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  But, you know, that's just another topic.
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  But we're going to go ahead and end with the prayer.
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  Hold on a second.
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  But you know where peace begins, buddy?
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  It begins with this, the prayer.
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  Father God, help me see my part clearly today.
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  Through your Holy Spirit, reveal what needs to change in me and give me the humility to release it.
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  shape my heart to the example of Jesus,
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  and lead me into peace and serenity.
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  Amen.
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  that.