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Pain-Bytes · Giving Pain Purpose with Lyndsay Soprano

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  Speaker 1: Well it's Friday, my little VIP. Then pain has certainly
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  Speaker 1: been biting. If you have been following my stories the
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  Speaker 1: last few weeks, they have been brutal. I know, I'm sorry.
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  Speaker 1: I mean the entire month of May was a painful
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  Speaker 1: little bit, to say the least. I went from dancing,
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  Speaker 1: like dancing legitimately dancing at my wedding on March twentieth
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  Speaker 1: in Italy to almost entirely living in my wheelchair for
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  Speaker 1: the month of May. And I ended up in the
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  Speaker 1: emergency room last week because I was severely dehydrated and
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  Speaker 1: was like puking for forty eight hours straight, and like,
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  Speaker 1: how is that possible that you conpow this much when
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  Speaker 1: there's nothing left inside of you? And I was peoking
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  Speaker 1: so hard and so much that like my chest and
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  Speaker 1: my ribs hurt just talking about it right now, because
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  Speaker 1: I was so sore, and I was like in the
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  Speaker 1: other room and then I'm pushing myself in my wheelchair
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  Speaker 1: and I'm rolling as fast as I possibly can to
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  Speaker 1: get down to the bathroom so I don't throw up
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  Speaker 1: all myself. And there were a couple times where I
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  Speaker 1: didn't make it, and so I pooked all over myself,
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  Speaker 1: and so I ended up basically sobbing on the bathroom floor,
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  Speaker 1: sleeping on the bathroom floor, well, I mean not necessarily
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  Speaker 1: sleeping curled up in fetal position on a wet towel,
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  Speaker 1: by the way, that is covered in my own pea,
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  Speaker 1: because while I was hurling, I also was pooking so
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  Speaker 1: hard that my bladder also was like, well, we're just
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  Speaker 1: going to dehydrate you even where we're going to pee
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  Speaker 1: all over yourself. So this is this sexy joy of
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  Speaker 1: living in chronic pain here in my household for the
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  Speaker 1: month of May. And why did this all happen? You know?
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  Speaker 1: I mean I've been going back and looking at it.
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  Speaker 1: The list is long. It's one that I've been analyzing
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  Speaker 1: over the past couple of weeks because I officially like
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  Speaker 1: left my body on the sideline. I was doing really,
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  Speaker 1: really well, and then just when my sister passed away
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  Speaker 1: in August, things kind of took a dive for me
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  Speaker 1: and for a lot of different reasons. And as I'm
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  Speaker 1: creeping here looking at my calendar, going it's June. That's
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  Speaker 1: almost a year ago. Like, get your shit together, woman,
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  Speaker 1: and stop feeling sorry for yourself. And that's just kind
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  Speaker 1: of what had happened, and so I started taking care
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  Speaker 1: of everybody else again and everything else, and the list
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  Speaker 1: kept getting longer and I was never on it, and
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  Speaker 1: so this is what ended up happening. So over the
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  Speaker 1: past couple of weeks now, I've been putting up more boundaries,
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  Speaker 1: I have been putting up more rules. I've been doing
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  Speaker 1: a lot more nope and um yep and than I
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  Speaker 1: ever have actually, And my visit to the Eer was
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  Speaker 1: one that kind of just snapped me out of this
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  Speaker 1: weird pain funk that I was in where I was
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  Speaker 1: like sunk into this like very sad space of despair,
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  Speaker 1: and I just kind of wanted to let my body
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  Speaker 1: succumb to it and just say, you know, f it,
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  Speaker 1: this is what's happening, and this is just what's gonna
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  Speaker 1: kill me. So I'm just gonna end up dying Like
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  Speaker 1: that was where my head was at most of May, honestly,
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  Speaker 1: and it's so sad to say that out loud. And
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  Speaker 1: you know, I guess the last the all of the
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  Speaker 1: tears that I've been crying on stories, and you know,
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  Speaker 1: those are just a few times that you guys have seen.
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  Speaker 1: It's been a lot. My poor sweetie. So you know,
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  Speaker 1: I shook myself out of it and I pulled myself
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  Speaker 1: up again. And we all have this in us to do.
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  Speaker 1: We all saw on the bathroom floor figuratively or literally, right,
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  Speaker 1: we all have these moments of what the fuck have
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  Speaker 1: I been doing here? And we all have it in
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  Speaker 1: us to snap ourselves out of it. So it's time
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  Speaker 1: to snap out of it, my loves. If you need
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  Speaker 1: to snap out of something you are being ordered to do.
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  Speaker 1: So we are VIPs on the show after all, right,
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  Speaker 1: my listeners and myself and Pain to Bite It bites
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  Speaker 1: hardcore and may truly bit the big one, you know,
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  Speaker 1: hard So far, Jude is looking pretty damn bright, so
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  Speaker 1: I'm happy about that. And you know, part of this
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  Speaker 1: pain Bite part here today is you know, there was
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  Speaker 1: an episode that was dropped on May twenty seventh called
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  Speaker 1: Surviving the Suicidal Thoughts Storm with Jeannette Tashchin, who is
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  Speaker 1: a very good friend of mine who also suffers with CRPS,
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  Speaker 1: and we had a very opening, candid conversation about suicidal
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  Speaker 1: ideation and it's something that you should listen to. It
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  Speaker 1: kind of wraps up a lot of why May it
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  Speaker 1: was so challenging as well. So you know, wanting to
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  Speaker 1: die is not an easy conversation to have, and it's
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  Speaker 1: one that is not lightly had with Jeanette. So take
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  Speaker 1: a listen. If you haven't done that, no matter what,
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  Speaker 1: hang in there, guys. We got this. No matter what
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  Speaker 1: side of chronic pain you were on, whether you're a
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  Speaker 1: loved one like my sweetie, or you're the one suffering
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  Speaker 1: in the pain. It's painful for all of this, So
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  Speaker 1: just keep that in mind and snap out of it.
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  Speaker 1: Buckle up, babies, We've got this all right. That's it.
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  Speaker 1: That's it for today. So quick reminder. These little pain
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  Speaker 1: bites are designed to give my listeners, that's you, guys,
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  Speaker 1: more of a voice out in this world and get engaged.
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  Speaker 1: Little quick bites from the week, moments that rocked, wrecked you,
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  Speaker 1: revived you, the highs, the lows, the messy in the middle.
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  Speaker 1: I want it all. So send me your weekly wins,
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  Speaker 1: your pain issues, anything you want to talk about, trauma, chaos, joy,
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  Speaker 1: how about some joy. I'm into that. What's dragging you down,
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  Speaker 1: what's bringing you up? I want to hear it, even
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  Speaker 1: if it's just for a bite. You can fill out
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  Speaker 1: our form at the link in our bio on Insta
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  Speaker 1: at the Pain Game Podcast. I'm also putting it up
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  Speaker 1: on my website, just haven't gotten around to it, but
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  Speaker 1: I will. I want to hear from you, and I
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  Speaker 1: want to talk about you and for you, one bite
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  Speaker 1: at a time. So please follow the Pain Game Podcast
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  Speaker 1: wherever you digest your podcast content, we will be there.
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  Speaker 1: Visit us at the pain gamepodcast dot com, and follow
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  Speaker 1: us on all the socials. Thanks for listening to my
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  Speaker 1: little VIPs. Catch you on the other side.