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My Asperger’s And OCD (The Harsh Reality) · Aspergers & Autism Podcast [The Aspie World] AuDHD

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  We will, my name is Dan. I have autism ADHD OCD and
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  I recorded this video already today and it just broke my SD
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  So I want to talk about Asperger's and OCD because
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  there's this, there's a comorbid condition of pages and all CD
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  how they have a kind of relationship if you will, but I
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  want to talk about the differences.
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  But then I want to talk about how, you know, Asperger's
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  affects me and how OCD affects me, but more importantly, how
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  OCD actually impact my life in a particular way.
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  So it's very simple like this. So if we look at Asperger
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  syndrome, oh, and by the way, guys, if you Want to leave any
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  Let's go on the video. So Asperger syndrome, you might
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  be thinking, well, people on the autism spectrum, do things and
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  obsessive-compulsive ritual kind of routine way.
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  Anyway, right? And you're absolutely correct,
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  but there is a big difference between those kind of routines
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  that come under the condition of autism or Asperger's Syndrome,
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  you know, and all the CD. As a standalone condition of the
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  autism spectrum, condition versus, you know,
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  obsessive-compulsive disorder. Now, when you have Asperger
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  syndrome or Autism Spectrum Disorder which is now formally
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  called you basically have this ability to do things in a
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  certain way that you feel compelled to do because you like
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  doing them. So getting up the same way, you
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  have routines in place, all through your day, you have the
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  same thing for lunch yet. Like I love wearing these types
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  of t-shirts, my clothes, I love having the same shoes which are
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  shoes, which is amazing, right? Having the ability to have
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  things the same in a routine. Which is kind of like a
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  compulsion is nice. I get enjoyment out of those
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  things. And those things make me feel
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  comfort. Me feel safe.
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  We feel like things are familiar, but when you look at
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  OCD OCD makes me compelled to do things because I'm scared.
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  I have fear have A worried that something bad is going to
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  happen. Like if I don't do things in a
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  certain way something bad is going to happen.
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  Now this is the interesting thing about OCD.
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  I don't mind people knowing that I like to wear the same clothes
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  every single day like if I like to have the same thing for
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  breakfast and if I want to eat the same meal, three days in a
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  row or forever actually, then I don't mind people knowing that
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  there's nothing wrong with the fact that I want to eat like
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  vegetables every single day. You know, there's nothing wrong
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  with those things. But in terms of like But OCD I
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  hide my own CDs. Like some of the things I do are
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  hide it because I feel insecure about them.
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  I don't want those things. I don't want to live a life
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  where I'm having to do these things.
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  Like, for instance, when we live in a house before this one,
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  there was a towel and it in the bathroom, right?
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  And I have to like flip it around certain way to put it
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  back on the rack with when I finish within certain amount of
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  times, you guys get the idea and my girlfriend cottoned onto
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  this. So she cut the tag off the towel
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  so that the hand towels that went on to the onto the rack
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  where the idiot. I couldn't tell the difference
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  and so that was her way of kind of trying to control the
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  situation and weirdly enough, the character control the
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  situation and now obviously just fizzled off Into Obscurity and I
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  have thought about it ever again, which is weird, right?
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  But when I try to stop having an OCD compulsion like like
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  touching wood or top of my head and touching word, a couple
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  months out, I have to do things in three.
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  So it like that one, two, three, and one, two, three, and then do
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  that whole cycle three times by doing those things.
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  I feel like I'm saving something or whatever.
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  And it's Kind of makes no sense, right?
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  And it makes me feel kind of like whoa before I had OCD
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  before, but now that like I had therapy in the whole city for it
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  was. Okay.
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  And I understand it was a, it was a, it was never like this
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  bad, but now I also do is I can times worse, why?
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  Why is mostly ten times worse? I don't know.
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  I think it may be down to the fact that like, when you, when
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  more stress comes into my life, the morrow CDs kind of rise in
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  the creep up and I have more and more of them and they will
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  expand as well. So like, like I'll do my hands,
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  a certain amount of times. I'll do it three times and it
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  becomes like six times. It becomes 12 times and then I
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  get sometimes you get stuck in a cycle where you doing something
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  and you thinking if I did this, right, if I look at my hands in
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  the same routine, right? In it.
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  And then your stresses you out on the whirring, the fear and
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  guilt of where you like, is this going to cause kind of crazy
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  effect if I don't do it, right? And then you have this horrible
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  like looking over you, you know, and I've never talked to anybody
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  but I don't talk to my girlfriend about it.
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  Don't talk to my therapist about it.
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  I should talk to my therapist about it, which I'm going to try
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  and bring it up and maybe I'll talk about in another video.
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  But like, It's just those things.
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  It's like, wow, you know, it's really eye-opening because I did
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  a video with Maxie the ask me. Who's another guy who's starting
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  out kind of doing awesome YouTube video Thunder.
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  He interviewed me for his channel because he's doing some
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  stuff because it's like, the whole lockdown stuff and that
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  was just like, to me. It was really eye opening party
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  has OCD as well. He had some like management and
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  some medication and he must overcome it.
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  But having that kind of Relativity, like, knowing that
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  what he's going through like, oh yeah.
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  Wow. You know, why?
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  I had that? I did that.
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  I do those things. It's kind of like, whoa, shocked
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  me and really made me think about it.
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  Maybe I should open up my girlfriend about it first but
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  I'm just scared, you know, of like why you know, I do these
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  things. I don't know.
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  It just makes you feel embarrassed.
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  Yeah. She's it's not on their behalf,
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  not with girlfriends. Just me.
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  I like I feel embarrassed, like, you know, that I have to do all
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  these things and I take forever. It's OCD is a thing that makes
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  p. So late for everything in my
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  life. I'm like always late because I
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  have to do things and your rituals and certain way but I
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  don't want him anymore. I don't want it to on OCD.
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  I wanted to go so I'm gonna definitely Go speak with are
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  pissed about it. I don't think I can take any
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  more medication because I'm already on specific medication
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  for my autism and ADHD. And those are working really
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  well. And I don't know if they you
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  know, at a medication interview with it but the harsh reality of
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  Asperger's and do CD together is that it's a strain you know it's
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  a stress in my life I stressed because I'm like laughs I'm
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  going to go do this thing and I've got a do it in a certain
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  way and like with this whole covid thing, adds all The
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  necessary steps like I used to tap, when I close my garden gate
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  in matte light. Tap it like with my fingers, a
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  couple of times, at whilst the door was open the door to be
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  open in the house on top of the, get another coming.
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  But now, the gates made out like that, part of the gates made out
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  of metal. So I'm like freaking out
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  thinking, um, you know, if someone's walked past and touch
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  that. And now I have to go wash my
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  hands because the covid virus can live on the mat over 15
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  hours and then like it just every time I take the dog out
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  for a girl from hands in my hands and you get absolutely
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  wrecked like, washing them all the time.
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  And that's another thing I can wash my hands.
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  And then I'd be like, I want Three.
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  And then I do another one and I walked around, we going to bed
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  like my bedtime routine is ridiculous.
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  It's just for ever and has like silly things.
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  Like in it where I just I have to take a Praying Hands and act
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  like Taps, tough time, word into these things and say things in
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  my head certain amount of times and it just dresses me up.
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  Like, I just like had it up to here and like stress, though,
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  CD. So, if you have any tips to add
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  to this, if you have anything like that, you see Dan?
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  This might work, then. Let me know.
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  I'm actually all ears old time. It's one of those 30 and on also
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  to help me out and help other people that be super, super
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  awsome. But in terms of like, how do I
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  deal with OCD? I kind of just let it go.
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  I just, I just it just manifest and it does, it's a sustained
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  and I never really talked about it.
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  Like I've no, it's like the second video of ever done on OCD
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  on my channel. And yeah, it's a huge part of my
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  life and I want to maybe being more open about it.
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  Talking to you guys about is going to make me like way more
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  compelled. To seek your help with it, you
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  know, because it becomes this thing, you just it just takes
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  over in your life. Just happens that happens and
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  happens. But it does start to eat your
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  life like takes control of your life, and I don't want it to
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  control the life. We can all very strong-minded
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  like motivated person and I'm like, yeah, I want to kick my
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  goals and I want to prove to make my audience that I can do
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  this. And that's another thing like I
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  want to help you guys through things like this.
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  So but me sharing my story and maybe the therapy.
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  I'm getting a maybe the other stuff.
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  Maybe I'll help and maybe together we can make Make an
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  awesome kind of like OCD free world and stuff like that but
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  it's funny because a lot of people think OCD just means that
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  you wash your hands. Loads are you cleaned on the
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  surfaces in your house? And I mean maybe maybe that is
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  Bluff. Never really worried about how I
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  clean. My sofa is you know with occur
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  like a dipping test to see how clean it is the selfie and all
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  the cast of you see on TV. But I'm really worried about
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  something that my I do worry about like, how clean my kitchen
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  counters are but not as much as like, some people who say they
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  got what you do. But I don't know how Is, you
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  know, is that OCD? Is it different?
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  I don't know, right, I don't know much about OCD.
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  I just know about my OCD and how it starts to control my life and
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  I don't want it to take control my life.
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  So I'm starting today. This is it?
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