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Unexpected Truths Through DNA Tests with Judy Ben-Asher · Groove with Portia

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Welcome to Group Porsche, the podcast that uncovers the hidden treasures within grief.
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I'm your host, Porsche of the Producer, and I'm inviting you to join
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me on a transformative journey where we would exchange laughter, of course, the
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best medicine of them all, reflect on cherished memories, remember that time that
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the little boy grabbed my hand instead of his mother's at the amusement park yikes,
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And of course, discover gratitude while navigating one of life's hardest challenges,
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loss. So get ready to grow with me, Porsche the Producer, let's
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dive in. Hey listeners, welcome back to another episode of Group Porsche.
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greatest of Grew with Porsche. So before we begin, I'm just grateful.
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My heart is just full of gratitude today, Like it's just what I call
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made. That cup runs over a type of thing. But today, guys,
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we are joined by a special guest. We are joined by an intuitive
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truth seeker who was on a mission to what I call create a community around
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healing. While combining two of her passions, health and film. You guys
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might have seen her on Oprah and also MPR because her message is truly inspirational
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and full of healing. So welcome founder of Truth Seeker Wellness, Miss Judy
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Benasha. How are you doing today, Judy? I'm so good. I'm
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so grateful to be with you, you and me Bo. Judy. You
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know, I remember when we first met. I felt like there was just
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a divine connection. And you know, I know it took us a little
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bit of time to get this schedule, but you know, everything happens at
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the right time. So Judy, for our audience who are tuning it,
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I always start off these conversations with gratitude. What are you grateful for today?
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I am grateful that I've had so many people pass so that I can
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learn the lessons that I may have missed if I was sort of taking life
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for granted, if that makes any sense. So I'm I'm grateful to be
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excited to be alive every day and I'm working progress, believe me, but
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I'm just excited to be here duty I can feel that. You know,
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it may sound tadboo to our society to express gratitude right for our loved ones,
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our friends who have made their transition or graduation from this physical plane,
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to say that we're grateful for the life and legacy and the lessons that we've
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taken from them and that we incorporate into our own life. Right, we're
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continuing to honor them. We're continuing to show people that yes, this person
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did exist physically, right, and even though they're no longer here, there's
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still a part of them with us no matter what. And I well,
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I'm sensitive to energy, and I feel like they're with us whenever we're thinking
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about them anyway. And I feel like your mom and my mom brought us
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together on purpose. So yeah, makes me happy. Didn't know you,
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Oh Judy, Julie, go make me cry. So it's so interesting for
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our audience who was standing in before me and Judy began this conversation. I
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have to share with all of you that I took mister Fletcher out my doggie
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for p o'clock and there was two monarchs playing in the front yard, big
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ones, I mean the size of my hand, and it just brought so
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much comfort to my mom and your mom. Yeah, you know, they
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always say like butterflies are angels sent from heaven or kind of like that bridge
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between our physical world and where our loved ones have gone. So it,
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Judy, this is just truly confirmation that you know, we are amongst you
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know, our loved ones in a different form, right. And I think
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if we learn to embrace that life quote unquote after transition is different than I
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think that our grieving process may not be so tumultuous. And Judy, you
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know, I really want to dive in because I mean, we your journey,
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your story of grief is very unique, but not as unique as what
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people may think. You know, both of us are entrepreneurs, right,
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And one of the things that I'm always curious about considering that we go through
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so many transitions as entrepreneurs, right from moving to a different state or even
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embarking on a new community of support. So, Judy, far our audience,
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how are you navigating the grief that comes with being an entrepreneur? So,
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I mean I've lost my mom and my dad and a sister and a
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brother. So just in my immediate family there's four right, along with grandparents
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and ancestors and all that thing. And you know, friends, dear friends,
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people I've worked with lost a lot of people as as we all do,
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right, and it affects me as an entrepreneur because I feel like every
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time I process something, I have to share about it. It's just sort
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of the way I'm built. If I learn about a vegetable and I'm in
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a grocery store, I can't help myself. I have to talk about it
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to somebody. My husband's always like, can we please use grocery shop and
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not talk to anybody? And it's just not how I'm wired. And luckily
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I met him when I was ten years old. Otherwise, you know,
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he would have smacked me. Because I just love. I love. If
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I know something, I want to I want to share it, you know.
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And so after my mom passed, I was doing, you know,
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testing around my health, and the more I learned about her illness, she
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had a varying answer. More I was learning about her illness, the more
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I wanted to share. And my background is in holistic healthcare since nineteen ninety
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as a professional and then also film and television professionally since nineteen ninety four.
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So I wanted to bring my worlds together into a documentary about healing, and
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so I started my film called Truth Seeker. And you know, we always
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get what we wish for, even if we're not conscious that we're wishing for
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it. So my name is truth Seeker. And so I did a bunch
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of testing to see if I had her health history. And what I found
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out was through a DNA test that she was my mom, but my dad
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wasn't my dad, and she had already passed, so I couldn't speak with
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her about it. And it's been a fascinating journey. And so now the
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film Truth a Seeker really makes a lot of sense to me. And and
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because I want to share with people I know what I went through, I'm
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calling identity level trauma. I totally lost my identity because my DNA test didn't
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tell me who I was, It told me who I wasn't. And I'm
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now fifty four, but I found out when I was fifty and it shook
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my whole world. It really did. It was a journey finding out who
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my biological dad was and turned out to be someone I knew until I was
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eight years old. So I knew him from zero to eight and I loved
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him like a father, which is funny. Family friend. This is a
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very common thing going on right now. I know, according to MIT TECH,
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when I went through it in twenty nineteen, twenty six million people had
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a DNA discovery through a DNA test and that's a lot of people, and
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it's a lot of identity level trauma. So now I'm doing a docuseriies not
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just a documentary culture seeker, and I'm partnered with the surgeon, the seventeenth
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Surgeon General the United States, doctor Richard Carmona, and he's talking about the
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science and I'm talking about the healing aspect. And I'm also coming from a
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place of I know nothing. I mean, I've worked in all his stic
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healthcare since nineteen nineties, so I have degrees in things, but you know,
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we live and learn, and so I'm coming from a perspective of I
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don't know everything. But if I don't know it and I want to know
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it, I'm going to find someone who does and then have them talk to
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you about it. So we're also starting a podcast of the same name,
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hopefully airing so soon, and it'll be on healing, so for people who
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haven't done a DNA test and gone through that, but they just have a
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healing journey they're going through, it still could be a good fit for you.
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But yeah, so I'm as an entreprene nor the deaths that I've gone
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through and the crisis life crisises, I guess that I've gone through, if
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that's a whole word, has led me to where I am now, which
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was, you know, I decided to tell my story, and telling my
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story meant that some of my family weren't going to speak to me again.
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And I was grieving the loss of my mom already, and then I found
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to who my biological dad was and he had passed already. So I've never
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been able to talk to either of them about the truth. And my family
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members that may or may know something aren't talking and they're not talking to me,
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and especially since I'm talking about it publicly. And but the day I
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decided I wanted to talk about it, I got an email from Oprah's team
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from Oprah Daily asking me to speak with them about forgiveness. So I got
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a chance to talk to Oprah about forgiveness on this topic, and and it's
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been a ride, that's for sure. Yeah, Judy, you know first
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and foremost what I'm picking up right now. And it's funny because we before
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we started our conversation, you pulled an angel card around forgiveness, right,
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and let's be realistic when we're grieving, right, you're grieving obviously the fact
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that you can't ask your mom the question of how come this was hidden for
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me, that the person who I thought was my dad is not. Once
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I discovered who my dad is, I can't ask him anything. And now
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my family, who has known in a sense about this all this time.
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I'm fifty something years old, I'm half a century years old, just now
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discovering that my whole identity has taken a whole new turn. It's like you've
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been flipped upside down and Judy far our audience, Right, how do you
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forgive not only just yourself, but also the individuals your mom, your dad,
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and your family for them not being able to support you in the way
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that you needed them. Well, you know, the truth is, everybody's
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doing the best that they can with the tools that they have. Right,
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So I don't feel a need to forgive anybody because I feel like they're just
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doing what they can to sustain life or people that have gone through life already.
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And I wish I could show you, guys, this card because the
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Angel card I pulled is forgiveness and understanding. That's what it says. And
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oh, here it is. And I'm using a background because I just moved,
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so you can't really see it, but it's forgiveness and understanding and portion.
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I literally pulled a card right before she introduced me today, So I
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guess that's the topic forgiveness and understanding. When it comes to my mom,
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we were really really close and I talked to her every day all day and
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Porsche knows this, you know. I believe that the other side is like
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paper thin. And when I feel her, or smell her, or just
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think of her, or that song comes on the radio, I know she's
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with me. I know she is. And sometimes I'll laugh, sometimes i'll
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cry. I'll usually cry, but you know, it's different every single time.
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And what I know about my mom is that she led a heartfelt life.
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She did the best that she could and and I was I'm fifty four,
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right, so I was created in sixty eight. I came out in
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sixty nine, but I was created in sixty eight, and there was just
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a different way of life for some, not for all, back then,
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and I can't it's not for me to judge her relationships, you know,
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it's not my relationship. And my mom and dad that raised me chose each
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other every day for fifty seven years, fifty eight years they were married,
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and I'm not even that old, so I can't. You know, being
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in any relationship every day is a choice, and so I don't begrudge any
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of her decisions. And my dad is still alive, that raised me ninety
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two, and we talk about this and he'll never tell me the full story,
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and that's okay. That's for his protection and it's his choice, and
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I respect that, and I respect my mom and her choices, and I
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am grateful to be alive. So for the people who don't want me to
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talk, that's okay for them. I'm still gonna do it because I don't
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want to have any shame for being born. I don't want to have any
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shame for a second of my life. I am here and this has happened.
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And I've done a few things wrong in my lifetime, oh my goodness,
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you know what I mean. But this is not one of them.
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I did not This is not this. I am a product of someone else's
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decision, you know, And I don't want to be a victim of that
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of circumstance. I want to be empowered. And so my work in the
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world now is to help other people be empowered by their life. And it's
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messy and it's okay, and we feel a lot of things and that's okay,
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but we just, you know, we need to be kind to each
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other and we need to be good to ourselves. And it's spreaky, kind
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of weird the way I think about it. But when my mom was sick
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and in the hospital, there was a doctor for every organ. And I'm
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not sure how many of you out there have had a cancer journey in the
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family, but there's a doctor that comes in and talks about every organ.
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So it really made me think, you know, my liver didn't kill my
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mom, So why am I hurting my liver over eating, you know,
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or you know, having too many nachos or reason's pieces like, my liver
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didn't do anything, So why am I harming my liver? And the name
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of grief, you know, and the name of treat or whatever we want
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to call it, escape some people say it's a it's a you know,
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you get a treat for being at the end of the week, especially as
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an entrepreneur, like I got through my thing. I can have some cupcakes
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or I can have and for me, and I now think about all of
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my organs and what my thoughts are doing to them and what my food is
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doing to them, and and it's all kind of just nutrition. And so
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I am on a d healing journey right now. Because I did beat up
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my liver. I think we've all, you know, grief. You know
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I'm somebody to Judy. It's weird because once my mom made her transition,
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I found myself in a sense not having an appetite. Uh yeah, I
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didn't have that. I was well. I'm proud of myself for I'm getting
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back on what I call the steady train, where I gave myself a pat
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on the back last week for actually having three home cooked meals breakfast, lunch,
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and dinner. I'm proud of you for that. I'm happy for you
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for that. It's good. It's good for you. I mean, we
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need to eat for me. I just wasn't eating for my health. I
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was eating for my feelings and it didn't work. It made me much sicker.
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And I'm not trying to get in the ground that fast. You know,
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I want to. I want to be here and I'm grateful for being
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here, and you know, I need to. I needed to align my
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mission with my physical intentions, if that makes sense, as I have a
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hot flash. Well, Judie, I love how you brought that up.
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Kind of being in the right church in the right pew instead of being in
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the right church just several pews all the way back. You know, I
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think a lot of us need what I call that accountability, that reminder of,
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hey, make sure that what we're putting out into the world is in
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alignment with what we're actually doing. Yeah, alignment for me is a big
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deal. And as somebody who also has taught you know, mindset and manifestation
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since two eleven, I was feeling very out of alignment with my mission.
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And before I started working with DNA and people who've gone through these things and
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identity level trauma and every group that has identity level trauma, I just didn't
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feel like I was I was true to my word, you know. And
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then I realized that a lot of it became habit, you know, and
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and hurting myself on purpose, but it was a habit. It was so
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unconscious you know. So I'm working on all the layers with you know,
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all the all my spiritual practices, but I'm also doing EMDR and tapping and
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so working with a therapist and working with coaches and people like me because I
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don't have all the answers. I just but I want to find those people
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and then share them share their wisdom with everyone. So yeah, that's my
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mission now, and I love that, Judy, And for our audience,
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duty who is tuning in if they're interested in connecting with you and learning more
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about your work. Is there a social media handle or a website you can
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share with us today? Yeah, I am on Instagram. It's at Judy
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Banasher and I can give you the links portions so you can put it on
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there. And the website is Truthseeker Wellness dot com excellent, and I'll give
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you all of that. Yeah, because I love talking to people and I
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love meeting people. So I'd love to, you know, answer anything I
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can. If anybody has a comment or question, I would love to talk
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to you. Appreciate Judy. You know what's coming up for me right now
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is obviously you're focused on seeking the truth and finding the truth and uncovering the
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truth and considering that a part of your journey was so heavily rooted in not
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truthfulness, right in a lie. What would you say, was that nudge
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to you to seek the truth instead of continue to stay under the veil of
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that lie. Well, I mean, so I got dub truth seeker before
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I figured this out, because I've always been I know, thanks Universe,
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I really would thank you. I have always been that person that wanted to
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uncover every mystery I could. I've always just been very, very curious.
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And my glasses are flogging up because of my hot flash. Pardon me,
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that's just live and and so I just always wanted to understand the truth.
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And when you find out that you're personally the family secret and you've been lied
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to every minute since birth, you know, it takes it takes a toll.
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It takes a minute just to find your footing again. And when I
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was a kid, I never felt right. I always felt like an outsider
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in my house. I didn't look like anyone in my house. My oldest
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brother's blonde, blue eyed, my oldest sister's red hair and blue eyes,
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and my sister and others. Yeah, my brother. So I had a
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redhead and a blonde, blue eyed, and my brother brown hair and blue
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eyes, and I have black hair and green eyes, or I did before
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I started to gray, which is happening now. But you know, I
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yeah, So I just always felt like an outsider and an intruder. Even
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in my house, I never fit in. I never felt right, I
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never felt like. I always felt like I had to chase love. And
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I would make up stories about myself when I was little to try and fit
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into everyone else's narrative. So I was this person who grew up lying to
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try and find my way, Like I just wanted people to like me.
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So I was trying to be who they needed me to be, you know.
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And and so this whole thing coming so full circle. And when I
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recognized that about myself and stopped lying, you know, you grow up.
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You have to allow yourself to grow up and not be who we always thought
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we were, you know. So now I'm very comfortable in my own skin.
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It's my skin, you know. So I'm very comfortable as who I
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am and don't need to make that up. And and so it was really
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like a huge meaning in the words truth seeker, and and it was two
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of the heads of pretty large book company, a publishing company that dubbed me
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truth seekers. So I heard them and I listened, and I was like,
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okay, because I am really so curious what truth is and and how
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to live in that peacefully, because it doesn't always feel good when you find
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the truth. It doesn't feel good to have to go on a healing journey.
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It doesn't, you know, it's uncomfortable. And now I'm just getting
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very comfortable with discomfort, if that makes it any sense at all. Oh,
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yeah, I'm embracing the uncomfortable with a comfortable hook. Yeah in a
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nutshell. And I mean, Judy, when I think about just the journey
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you've been on right to discover that this identity that you thought that you had,
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yeah, really is not it. And then the universe kind of implanting
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this, Hey, you're going to be a truth seeker, not realizing you're
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gonna be playing inspect her gadget in your own life, like right, and
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you know, and then having the gift of speaking to Oprah about this.
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And it wasn't only because she is who she is. It's when I met
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her, she had just lost her father. It was a couple of days
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after her father passed, and it was a really big gift to just be
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in the presence of someone grieving, and and she was in the room with
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her her dad when he passed. I was in the room with my mom,
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So we had talked about that, and I felt so connected to this
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human and and all of the idea of icons and celebrity and whatever else there,
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you know, that stilliness is it was just human to human. And
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then I found out that she had had a DNA journey at DNA discovery of
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her own. She had two sisters named Patricia, and she found her oldest
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sister, Patricia, you know, later in life. And it was beautiful
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to just recognize that I am not alone, you know, and how important
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that was for me to feel like, oh, this even happened to Oprah.
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You know, It's not about money or race or religion or country of
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origin. It's human. And and if me talking to her help me the
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way it did that, I want to talk to millions of people. I
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just want to talk to as many people is a humanly can that have gone
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through this discomfort and pain because we're not alone and community is everything. And
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I feel so strongly about loneliness, you know, as as a big piece
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of grief. Right, it feels very lonely. But when you start talking
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to people, you realize they've gone through it too, and it doesn't make
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you happy, but it makes you feel like, Okay, I'm not it's
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not just me, and they're surviving, and so I can survive this.
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I can get through it, because there are days with grief that you feel
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like this will never end and it's not a wave, it's a roller coaster
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and I'm stuck on it forever. And it's not true. It's not true.
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It's a moment and it's awful. But no one is alone on this
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planet. We're all here together. So really a beautiful thing that you're doing
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in the world. I think, thank you, Judy. You know,
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it's funny how you've been coined the truth seeker. And I remember I was
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sharing with my mom before she made a transition, how wanted to go back
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to school to become a mental health therapist to work with people in grief.
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Well, it just seemed, Judy, that every time I wanted to apply
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to school, apply to school, it just wasn't the right time, wasn't
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the right time. And then of course here cubs grew a Porsche my mom
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Max are transition and then I do a whole series around grief. You know.
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It's so it's similar to your jarity. Right, you've been kind of
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coined the truth seeker. Now I've been kind of coined like how you know,
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helping people find the hidden gift. Yeah, well you're a truth seeker
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too, And all your listeners are truth seekers or they wouldn't be here.
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You know, it's not just me. I mean that's what they named me.
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That's what my docum series will be about, and podcasts and stuff.
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But we're not alone in any of this. You know, it's global,
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one hundred percent, Especially with grief. I think there tends to be so
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much isolation that happens because of the way society has as ingrained what grief is.
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Well, we've been taught to stay quiet, especially as women, right,
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don't if you're upset and a man sees you upset, it's because you're
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just you're a woman. It's not because you're a person in pain. That's
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the old story, right, and most of us don't feel like that anymore.
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But I think it's so important for people in grief to feel it and
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and if that means you're in a supermarket and they played that damn song that
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you and your mom used to play in the car every single time and you
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burst into tears, that's perfect. That's fine, it's what happens. And
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you're You're perfect, Judy. Oh my goodness, that has happened to me
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so many times. I remember last year being the first Christmas without my mom.
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Yeah, and I was in the grocery store. I'm trying to hold
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my tea bag because I know and I remember hearing the song I miss You
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more than words. And I'm literally standing over by where I'm getting eggs,
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almond milk, coconut, and I mind, you know, it's it's cold
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as a morgue over there in the grocery store. I've got on like ninety
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layers of clothes, and I'm trying to fight back the tears, fight back
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the sweat because I'm in the store right so I can relate to it.
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But you know, I gotta admit, though, crying has been so amazing
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through my grief journey, just letting it go. I think we undervalue the
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benefits of shedding tears. I feel so much lighter out to be graphic.
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When I have those good ugly cries where the snot is so thick, I
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can literally wrap a lasso around my car and tow it type of thing.
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Right, But the big ugly cry is there for a reason. You're able
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to cry like that because your body needs it. And and that goes back
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to the organ conversation. Your liver has to process the feeling, and so
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to your kidneys, and so do all your organs. And when we don't
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allow to process those feelings, we get sick. And that doesn't help the
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person who's already passed. That only makes it harder on them. Right,
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So if we want to consider other people around us, I say lean into
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every big ugly cry and rage and you know, to not hurt another person.
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But if you feel rage when you're upset, that's just as important as
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feeling tears and and all of that. You can scream into a pillow,
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you can go to the mountains and and scream and yell, or go to
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a you know, workout. Classic For me, boxing, I did a
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kickboxing class. Oh my god, that felt so good. It was so
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cathartic for me to kick something because I am a pacifist on so many levels,
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and it felt really good to just let that rage piece of me come
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out. I didn't know how pissed off I was until I started doing that.
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And there's no one way, right, there's something for everybody, but
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for me, it was that kind of yeah. And I was in the
30:33
gym once and I looked over and I saw this, you know, like
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arobic class, and they were doing this really specific dance move that was my
30:41
mom's token thing on the floor and I burst into tears at the gym and
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I just sat there staring at these people, bawling my head off, walked
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outside, got it kind of together, but I let myself cry and went
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back in and finished my workout. And it's just it is what it is,
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and if people judge it, that's not about us, that's about them,
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hundred percent judy. And I'm I'm the same when I used to be
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that person where I'm like, I gotta hold my tears so I go to
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the car. Nope, sometimes they just start and I just remove myself from
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the room or situation again, get myself together. But I allow myself to
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feel, and I think that's kind of what we're really getting at is that
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essence of giving ourselves permission to feel all the emotions right instead of stifling our
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grief, allow it, embrace it right, embrace it like a hug the
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discomfort, the comfortable hug to the discomfort, and then allowing ourselves to fully
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feel it, yeah, and not evade it like we don't have to push
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it away. We've been We've been told for a lifetime that you know,
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you shouldn't be upset, you shouldn't show any emotion. People don't want to
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hear it, you know. And and the truth is, if we're around
32:00
people and we're saying, I'm in so much pain right now, can I
32:04
talk to you about this? Or can I have a hug? And they
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say no, that's perfect for them. But those are not the people we
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should be around right now. Right. I'm not in judgment of those people.
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Everyone has to protect themselves the best way they can. Not everyone is
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capable in that moment of giving right, But there are plenty of people who
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will, and strangers that show up and just love on you, and giving
32:30
them the opportunity to do that is huge. So you just never know,
32:36
you know, if you're sitting on a rock having a good cry. Somebody
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may walk up and just sit next to you and that's like the coolest thing
32:44
ever. Oh I've got a story for that, Judy. I several years
32:47
ago, I was outside, I lived out of state, and I was
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literally bawling my eyes out on my lunch break in front of my car.
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I was so upset. And I can't even tell you, Judy, what
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this man looks like. To this day. All I remember is he came
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and put his arm around me and said, I don't know what's going on
33:06
in your life, but I'm going to pray for you. He prayed for
33:08
me and walked away. I don't even know what he looked like. Just
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sweetest can be. So you're one hundred percent right. We just need to
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allow, be open to when people are willing and wanting to support us as
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we're going through our grieving moments. Yes, allowing, though, is the
33:27
key. Allowing. We have to allow, and that for me, with
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manifestation and teaching manifestation, that's one of the biggest pieces is that we want
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all these things, but we don't always allow it to happen, and it's
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like an energy block, you know. And and when the universe sends you
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somebody who's going to care for you and take care of you through this,
33:49
even though you can't explain it to them, even if they don't really get
33:52
it, but they're kind to you and they want to support you if you
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can allow it. It's everything, and it also has an impact, you
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know, an impact and effect on them that's so beautiful and there's a ripple
34:07
effect of goodness that comes from that. And it's just from feeling your feelings
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one hundred percent. One hundred percent. We've got to learn to allow ourselves
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to feel and then when the emotions do take over, don't stifle them.
34:22
And then to what's your point duty about manifestation? Right, we may not
34:27
be able to see the whole yellow brick road map in front of us,
34:31
but just going with the flow, you know, taking action steps every single
34:36
day and just allowing the path to just form organically organically. Guys, Judy,
34:45
you know, first and foremost again, I'm so grateful for you coming
34:47
on and sharing with our listeners so much of your wisdom and your roadmap to
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healing from this life of kind of somewhat deception to now pivot to a moment
35:00
of truth. Yeah, dude, we're gonna be wrapping up here soon.
35:04
And for our audience who is tuning in if again, if they want to
35:07
connect with you, can you share your social media and website again for us,
35:12
Yes, so on all social media, I'm I'm Judy ben Asher.
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And then if you want to find my website, it's truth Seeker Wellness dot
35:23
com. Truthseeker Wellness dot com. And and I would just love to talk
35:30
to everybody. So I want to talk to everybody. But you know,
35:35
I just think that anyone listening is here for a reason, whether they believe
35:38
in universe or source or God or every We all have our different names for
35:44
things and feelings about things, and no judgment on any of it, you
35:49
know from I know Porscha and I. So you don't have to believe in
35:53
my beliefs, you know, reading angel cards and things to connect with me.
35:58
I'm happy to talk to you and just be a source for you.
36:02
That's that's what I have to offer in the world, and it makes me
36:07
so happy, you know, sort of healing for people. You're more than
36:14
that, you're a healer, You're you know, just a true inspiration of
36:17
how our adverse circumstances can indeed be converted to an opportunity if we're open to
36:25
seeing it and open to answering that call instead of putting it down. Well,
36:31
and that's what you're doing with this podcast, which is beautiful. And
36:35
I have so much respect for you and what you're doing in the world.
36:37
And both of us went through a thing, and now we're trying to help
36:42
other people going through a thing. And that's the best that we can do.
36:45
Right, It's just show up. So even if it's messy, even
36:49
if we don't have all the answers, you and I are people that show
36:52
up, and and I love that about you, and I'm so grateful to
36:54
know you. I think it's just really important what you're doing. Thank you
37:00
so much. Duty just hearing that is just a true testament to all the
37:04
work that I've been doing these last couple of years. And you know,
37:07
to want to help more people to get to where I am, or make
37:12
peace with what I call the often taboo noss around grief. Yeah, it's
37:19
as if you know feelings are a bad thing, and they aren't. We're
37:23
not all the same person, we don't know, we don't all have to
37:28
pretend to be happy all the time we're allowed to feel bad, you know,
37:31
it's just feeling bad in a community you know, of love and a
37:37
judgment free community space like this is everything, and I think it's really just
37:42
urgent and important. And that's why I have I have two groups, one
37:46
for DNA people that have gone through identity level trauma and another group for people
37:52
that want to manifest and do mindset work, just to have a community space
37:57
for people where they're loved on for whatever they think, you know. And
38:01
so I think the more listeners that you can get, the better because you're
38:07
just doing such beautiful things in the world. Thank you, Thank you Judy
38:10
so much, well everybody that was your truth seeker herself, miss Judy ben
38:17
Asher that you heard from. And that concludes another episode of Grew of Porsche,
38:22
Season number two. Thanks for listening to everybody, Peace and Hair Grease.
38:28
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