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Episode #169: Coming Home to Ourselves: A Path to Inner Peace · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  I welcome to tea time with Amy and bad Good day, my friend,
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  Good day. How are you doing. I'm doing pretty good. I'm running
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  on a lack of sleep, but I'm okay. Other than that, doing
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  a lot of practice around well. I'm seeing the ones number one in most
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  frequence showing up quite frequently, which is a great reminder of being aware of
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  what I'm thinking about. And I feel like I'm on this new level of
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  awareness, so which is interesting because I mean being even because I've been practicing
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  being aware of my thoughts for a long time. But you know, they
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  still go all right, and I get distracted with discomfort and discord and all
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  that. And a few nights ago, I want to say, a Friday,
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  I wrote it down. But anyway, I was laying in bed and
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  it was like I was just going into sleep and my entire body vibrated.
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  I was like, okay, here we go, here we go. And
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  then I got disrupted with by a person, which was okay, and then
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  settled back in and it did it again. I'm like, now, when
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  when you had that, what do you notice any different location? Do you
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  notice if it starts from one area of the body to the next does it
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  start from top to bottom or do you like fill it from your heart area
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  and burst open? Like, what do you notice when that's happened. It
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  happened, I would say, like it's kind of started centrally and okay,
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  just like spread out. Awesome, it was really awesome. That's awesome.
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  I actually had that there was a night. Don't know what night it was,
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  though, and it'd be interesting to know if it was the same time
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  for him, But I didn't write it down. I was I was sitting
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  outside and I turned around and stood up, and all of a sudden,
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  I could see like waves of energy going through my body and then there was
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  like areas that were darker than other areas. But it's like it wasn't about
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  that. It was just about the waves of light passing through and it was
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  the weirdest thing ever. It was weird. It was weird because I don't
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  remember ever experiencing such a thing. But I almost wonder if that's not the
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  same time that you, you know, ride around the same time, just
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  because I recognize there's a lot of stuff going on energetically that kind of that
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  so many of us are having the same experience as if I was not having
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  a great day. I might talk to my kids and find out they weren't
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  having a great time, or if there's been difficulties sleeping. And I talked
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  to my other daughter that I normally talked to, but she was on vacation,
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  and then she's telling me the same thing, and it's like, huh,
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  it's interesting. It's interesting because it's like she even said, we're energetic,
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  energetically connected because just from the umbilical chord, right, I mean,
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  there was a there's always been that connection. They came in through this gateway
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  or of this doorway, which was my physical vessel for them in order for
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  them to come through. So it's I find it interesting that we have so
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  much things that are similar going on. With that being said, I have
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  a friend that recently found out that she had cancer or something along those lines,
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  and I won't go too far into it, but it wasn't about that,
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  And what it was about is the person hasn't told anybody, really,
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  And I understand that from a lot of ways because I was that person that
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  was independent and you know, a lot of times we're just trying to just
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  kind of process things in our own self before we share that information. But
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  keep in mind when we share that information with people that you know that are
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  going to send you streams of grade, send you prayer, send healing,
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  and get together and send healing. There's such a great thing to do for
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  others to do. That's like the angels all standing around and we were suffering
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  and not asking for help. It's the same thing because we got all these
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  people. We have all of our angels that are around us, and we
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  are so great when we come together and when we come into prayer period.
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  Because when we come into prayer, however that looks for you, we have
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  angels that come in and help strengthen that the energy of that prayer. Not
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  that we're weak, because if I read lots of different information and listen to
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  lots of different information from others perspectives, they say that we are as strong
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  and powerful as the arch angels. People that try you know that channel archangels
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  and higher entities. They say that we are We're not less than and we
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  have a I think a lot of times think that we are less than because
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  we're planetary based right now. So it's like there's just different different information to
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  come forward when we're ready to receive it. Well, it's interesting you bring
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  that up because cancer, Because I just watched this morning podcasts by Ed Milette
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  who had a guest of a lady who is a powerhouse and she's been diagnosed
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  with the cancer. And then so she's talking about her experience and her choices
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  and and how she's perceiving it and what she's doing with it and how she's
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  making changes and so um. But yeah, I you know, I totally
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  agree with when you have something going on, I'm that person. I'm I'm
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  still on the fence about it. Like, if I got a diagnosis about
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  something, would I share it right away? No? I wouldn't think I
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  would do. I don't think I would either. I would sit with it
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  and I would do my internal inventory and you know, tap into myself and
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  then begin sharing with people who I, like you just said, I know
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  who would support me in a loving way in um, like I would reach
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  out to you most likely and say, Okay, you gotta do there's processing
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  to do around this, and I'm I need other perspect active, right,
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  I need new eyes to see and help me navigate this journey. And so
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  finding people who are going to support you in that in that I'm going to
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  say emotional work because any discomfort, discord, disease that's in our bodies,
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  there's emotional stuff attached to it. And this lady talked about forgiveness was huge
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  for her, Like she realized she has this um a strange relationship with her
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  mom. She had a really tough upbringing, and her mom just wasn't capable,
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  based on her stuff, capable of being there to be a mom.
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  And they ended up in very abusive, you know, living arrangements. And
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  and she said she realized, through you know, being diagnosed and forgiveness becoming
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  part of her process, that she had never forgiven her mom. She'd never
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  done forgiveness process with her. And so it would you know, finding those
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  finding the people who are going to support you in a journey of healing,
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  because anything going on in the body is a healing process, which is emotional
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  right to me emotional attachment to it. So that requires a healing process.
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  So finding somebody who you can trust, who is going to emotionally support you
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  and help you navigate that those that journey to do the healing, the emotional
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  healing, that would probably be very beneficial. So yeah, and it's even
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  going through. That's what we talked about it a lot. But forgiveness of
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  self too, because we were in those situations and we perceive them from the
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  space that we're in, and as we grow, we can perceive themself differently.
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  You know, for instance, I could perceive that my mom could have
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  done things differently as the time when I was younger, I always thought that
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  she could have done things differently, and then I realized she did the best
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  that she could. There was she had, she she had the tools that
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  she had, and she did the best that she could with those tools,
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  right so at that time, so it's it's also forgiving too. It's it's
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  forgiving yourself because we carry so much of the stuff within in ourselves and it's
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  not to be it's not to punish ourselves and say, God, why did
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  I waste so much time being so pissed off of that person? I was
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  being so stupid, and you know, you can start insulting yourself and degrading
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  yourself, and it's like, it's not about all that stuff. It's forgiving
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  yourself because it did. You did the best you could because the tools that
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  was get that you received. Because we are a product of whatever our caretakers
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  were at the time. Honestly, whatever whoever our role models were, that's
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  what we picked up. And it wasn't because of the things they said or
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  did Whilst they said, it was a lot of stuff that they did.
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  And that's the thing that gets overlooked people. You know, they're always you
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  know, wanting their kids to do better than them, but they're not expecting
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  that of themselves, to do better than they did. And if we started
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  focusing more on ourselves instead of something outside of ourselves, we would actually benefit
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  greatly from it, and we would grow so much more because we're not playing
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  the blame game anymore. Yeah, I have a like just recently, I
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  have a I know a person who took some time to go visit her mother
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  and they haven't seen each other in a few years, and that's a very
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  difficult relationship as well. Both of them have control issues, both of them
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  not wanting to be controlled. So it's very very strong dynamics of headbutting in
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  that area. And the visiting time ended only after a few days because of
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  tension, and the daughter left very upset because of I don't know, you
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  know, I don't know the details, and I wouldn't share them anyway.
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  But the whole idea that they're they're I just think of rams, you know,
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  and they're button, they're horned, you know, and just going at
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  it and trying to win the herd or whatever they do. Um. And
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  so her comment to me was, I, UM, the next time I
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  see her will be at her funeral. And I was like, Wow,
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  it's that type of stuff where we can't we It takes them deep deep introspection
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  of of being able to reach to see through the eyes of love. Right
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  because if we if we understood our mom or parents, or that that adult
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  around us, us who was significant in our upbringing, that they have a
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  whole history of stuff plus generational stuff, right that like all the stuff,
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  and then you came into being, and then they took the time to or
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  didn't take the time to raise you and until you were able to leave home
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  and do your own thing. And we don't look at all that. The
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  only thing we look at is this is my parent, and this is what
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  they were supposed to do. They were supposed to love me, and they're
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  supposed to take care of me, and they're supposed to nurture me, and
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  they're supposed to support me, and they're supposed to do all these things.
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  They were supposed to keep you safe. It's kind of like the end of
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  story, right The job is to keep you safe. And even then we
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  can't, even as a parent, can't do that twenty four seven. You
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  could die in your sleep, you could go to the park and something happened,
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  you could go to a friend's house and something like to the best of
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  our as parents to keep you safe when you're a little, when you're younger,
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  because you're here for your own journey and that journey. I heard on
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  a Alex Ferrari's podcast with The Lady where she talked about purpose of life is
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  to find our way home. And when I was thinking about that, I
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  was like, to find our way home is to me, being in the
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  physical body as a human is to come back to our heart center, to
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  come back into that space of love, come back into that space of our
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  trueness of spirit and body, which is love. To me is love and
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  joy, and that we could come back to that, come back to home
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  in the physical body right here where we're at right now, and that's when
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  we're in that space of love, we wouldn't feel that discord, that the
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  anger and the resentments and all that, because there's more of an understanding of
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  everybody's crap, like we get it right, it's understanding she has her crap,
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  she has the other person has their crap, and now they're trying to
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  come together and have these expectations of each other, and there's only disappointments when
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  you were living in that space of love. I don't feel like that would
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  It wouldn't exist because you don't have expectations in love. It just is.
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  And the thing is the thing is that they're triggering each other, they're matching
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  each other in energy, they're pushing against each other, and that's the thing.
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  Then they come to this space and I don't know how to express enough
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  to people for them to understand when if we don't have to wait till someone
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  transitions, because now once they have this transition, either one of them titions,
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  the other one's going to be thrown off balance because they no longer have
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  that push. There's no longer something pushing against them. So it's all they
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  just fall. You fall to the floor because you have to pick yourself up
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  again. And it's I don't feel like it's necessary I feel like it if
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  we can get into that space of love it. That's like you were saying
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  earlier, that's getting into the self work, that's getting into the why has
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  this triggered me? Why am I having an emotional response to this? How
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  can I just love my mom? How can I just love her without any
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  expectations at all? Because this is the energy she's been putting out since that
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  she since this person was born, right while she was pregnant, she had
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  this energy. So it's always been so she's always probably wanted to rebel against
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  that energy, not necessarily her mom, just the energy itself, because she
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  has bigger things to do. But she's being distracted by focusing on that this
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  is the problem and that we're never going to have a good relationship, and
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  it'll it'll follow them around like that because it's you're constantly reminded of movies,
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  you know, everything that you pick up and watch. Well, yeah,
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  my mom's don't like that. Someone tries to come in and tell you about
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  a story, and and that's the thing. That's the other thing too.
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  We start hearing stories of our loved ones when they transition, and it's like
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  we didn't see that side of them when we never ask questions. And then
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  it's like you go through this remorsing reef because you the person that's now the
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  one that's lecture and this human experience. They're having to kind of grapple at
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  things, grasp ahold of whatever they can get a hold of that makes any
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  sort of sense at all, And it's an emotional mess that I don't think
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  it's even necessary because you can start doing the work here. You don't have
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  to wait till someone transitions. And I don't feel like when I say doing
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  the work, doing the work sounds like you got to do something. No,
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  it's finding that space of love. It's it's connecting up with the heart.
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  It's surrounding yourselves with people that are more uplifted and happy that kind of
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  help you to see a different view because you can't. That's like sitting in
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  a dark room all the time. And when you have when you're around people
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  that are uplifting, it's like opening up a door and fresh air comes in
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  and you've got these amazing spirits that are around you. There was an Alex
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  Ferrari maybe it was the same interview I don't even remember, but he was
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  talking to someone, and she said that when she had transitions, she had
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  seen all the spirits and she could see them just as beams of life,
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  basically with kind of an outline form of like a physical form. But she
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  says that now when she looks at everybody in the eyes, she sees there
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  this light, and I think we can all see that. And if we
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  put more energy and effort into seeing that from the space of the heart,
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  we would totally operate on a different platform altogether. We couldn't even be in
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  the same space at all. And then the understandings come. Communication is clearer,
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  it's easier, it's it's it's just a natural state. And and then
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  it's not even ham going to say anything at all. It's with a hug
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  or a touch, or a holding the hand, or just looking at him
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  and smiling at him. We just lose track of all that stuff. And
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  one of the things I say to people, if you do have good pictures
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  that you can look back at, remind yourself, because we get into these
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  stories in our minds that we tell our stills over and over and over again,
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  and we don't realize every time those stories come up, we start adding
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  a little bit more to a rechange something because we got something that's triggered with
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  inside of us. So we kind of feed that a little bit and you
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  go down the path that you're maybe not necessarily wanting to go down. And
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  it's not even in truth, it's it's an experience that's that's really gotten out
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  of controls, like a wildfire, and because that's that's how it can go.
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  It can just totally eat up everything and it's not even necessary. So
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  it's just really taking that time. Like you talked about earlier in in this
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  conversation, is you know, being in that space to receive this information,
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  being connected, being having this flow going through you, and then you start
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  receiving the energetics, you know what I mean. You start receiving the pulses,
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  you start receiving the vibrational frequencies within the body, you start receiving the
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  light, you start receiving the messages all the time, the communications. And
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  I find it interesting because even driving down the road yesterday you talked about bringing
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  awareness right and that your awareness is changing. I noticed this as well.
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  And then now I'm noticing when before I used to kind of just look around
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  all the time it's stuff, But now I'm actually stopped for a second.
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  And even while I'm driving, and I don't actually stop it, I kind
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  of glanced at something. I'm like, isn't that interesting that my eyes were
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  caught to there? And then I'll look and see what it was, and
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  then I'll be curious about what it was, and I keep driving along,
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  and then I'm curious. Right, I'm just driving along curious instead of driving
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  along. Well, I I have had a lot of moments lately. There's
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  been a lot of energies released, seeing in a lot of different stuff going
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  on. But I even noticed that this week. Even I even had left
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  the house yesterday because I was in a hurry. We had are what the
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  heck it called? Oh my gosh, it's for the house. I can't
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  even remember what it's called right now, but we had to go we had
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  to go down and exchange it. We just happened to call yesterday morning to
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  find out that this machine that we've been using that I can it's something simple,
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  but anyways, it helps to run the house. So it helps to
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  run air conditioner, a generator, and it helps to run all that stuff.
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  But if ours wasn't working, it kept shutting off and shutting off.
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  So we called yesterday and found out that there was a warranty on it.
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  I never buy warranties on it, and neither to Spreeman, but we just
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  happened to do it on this time, and because we bought it a year
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  and a half ago, so we all we gotta do is drive it down
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  and exchange it. And then I get back home and I'm like, so
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  that was my one trip. And then and I lived. You know,
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  it's a half about twenty five minutes out, you know, one way.
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  So then I had to drive back to town because I was going to go
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  to the gym and get my granddaughter and everything else. And then I had
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  to go pick up the battery because we forgot the battery that was on that
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  generator. That it's ours, we paid for it separately. So I pull
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  up, you know. So anyways, before I even leave there, I've
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  made myself a smoothie because I want to hurry even get there, go meet
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  my daughter, get to the gym, go pick up my granddaughter. I
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  get I'm driving down. I just made my smoothie through it in the seat
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  next to me. I'm driving and I look over and I see my smoothie
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  juice. The drink is like all over the seat. I'm like, what
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  the fuck? I put it around and I'm why, I like a bat
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  out of hell. Home I get here, Freeman helps me clean it up.
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  He comes and says a few things, and he says, which we
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  need these reminders because not always can we. My this little verse might be
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  right now, but it's it's the heat can bring stuff out, and that's
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  the way it's supposed to be. So where I come back here and he
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  says a few things, and he says, know that you were just safe
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  from an accent. You were just saved from this, and it's the truth.
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  It totally took away all that energy. And then I turned around and
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  drove back. Now I'm heading back to Harbor Freight to go pick up this
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  battery, and I'm walking up the thing and they come out to meet me
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  with it. They were so great over there, Honestly, they were wonderful,
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  wonderful people from the time, from the from the first time we got
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  there, from the whole transaction really so then you know, it was just
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  one of those things to kind of look at and then it's like I met
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  my daughter over We had a great workout. Had someone else that worked out
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  with the got my granddaughter Kate. I mean, like everything went perfectly,
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  but it's like sometimes we have an ideal in our mind that this is the
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  way it's supposed to go, and perfect was the smoothie is feeling on a
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  seat that was the perfect it was, there was nothing wrong with it.
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  But if I would have stayed in the space that I was in yesterday,
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  I would have been let that eat me up all day long. And then
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  my seat looks great. And I'm telling you, we're talking blueberry smoothie.
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  So it's not exactly your safest color for everything else, but it worked out.
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  It worked out. So it's still like all these processes that are going
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  on all the time, and then sometimes this is even like last week,
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  recognizing if you feel like this is just not my day, this is I'm
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  not on my game. I don't feel right. I'm fighting a lot of
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  stuff right now. It feels like I was dealing with a lot of stuff
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  and just to honor myself and be like, I can't, I can't do
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  it today. And it's not because there's anything wrong, it's just because that's
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  just the way it is. And it's honoring that space. But also I
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  got into a space where, well, no, I know that I'll feel
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  better and this is something that's good to do. Sure, sure it is.
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  And people can use it as a learning lesson or not use those learning
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  lessons. I really don't care. It was my experience and that's just the
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  way it is. But I have an awareness of it, and so I'm
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  washing it and I'm growing and I'm seeing what's going on, noticing different things.
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  It makes me ask questions and I recognize I'm getting too much of something
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  else that's creating more of this, and so it's just really kind of checking
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  in with yourself. It's easy, you know. We can start looking at
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  all the stuff online about things about your foods and all that stuff and get
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  it from pillform. And pillform is not always good if you look around when
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  you look at the back of a container and it says you're this is three
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  percent of your daily allowance, Why are we taking stuff like that? Honestly,
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  it's really taking a look at stuff and even try and I could use
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  black cohosh as an example. It's really great for females with her hormones and
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  all that stuff. But it's such a high number. It really a lot
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  of these things. Because we've got Welcome to the United States. More is
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  better, We've gotten into that space and more is not better. Actually more
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  is more of a problem. It's not creating balance, it's actually throwing you
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  out of balance a different direction, which can be very detrimental to your physical
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  body and your existence while you're here. Just different things. So there's just
• 23:18
  like all this information that kind of comes in all the time, and like
• 23:22
  I said, we think more is better here all the time. It's not.
• 23:26
  It's not more is not better from what from my experiences going from a
• 23:30
  big, huge house and then having the downside because we lost the house,
• 23:34
  and then my husband transitioning, and then going all the stuff that I thought
• 23:38
  was important in this space that I no longer it no longer had the importance
• 23:44
  anymore because it didn't matter. It didn't matter, none of it mattered anymore
• 23:48
  because it was just distractions in the first place. So it blows my mind.
• 23:53
  I don't expect everyone to be in the same place that I'm at.
• 23:56
  I really don't, because we've all had different experiences, and our experiences have
• 24:00
  led us down different paths. But this is where I'm at, and this
• 24:03
  is what feels right for me now that I'm noticing, and then this is
• 24:07
  the path that I'm going to go on. I'm going to continue asking myself
• 24:11
  questions about things. I'm going to continue having triggers, and I'm going to
• 24:14
  continue resolving those and moving forward. That's just part of the journey. It's
• 24:18
  not something to beat ourselves up about. It's not something to feel regret.
• 24:22
  It's no grief, no remorse, no any of us stuff. But it's
• 24:26
  to be Huh, that showed up? How can what is this all about?
• 24:30
  And then how can I show it better for myself? And how can
• 24:33
  I show it better for others? How can it? And it brings more
• 24:36
  of a desire? How can I just be in my heart space at all
• 24:38
  times? I know it's possible, but my old training doesn't show that.
• 24:44
  So this is all the process. Welcome to the show, right, Yeah,
• 24:49
  it's part of the journey. Yeah. I posted that video on social
• 24:56
  about judging, right, and I said, go judge, Go judge every
• 25:03
  person you come in contact with today. Go judge every person you see today,
• 25:07
  Go judge them. Do it and take your internal inventory. Why are
• 25:15
  you judging them. What is it that's triggering you? Good or bad?
• 25:21
  Right? You see the good? Somebody? Great? How is that showing
• 25:23
  up in you? You're getting pissed off? Great? Why is that showing
• 25:26
  up in you? Right? So I'm like, I'm encouraged everybody because we're
• 25:30
  like, don't judge, don't do this, No fucking go judge. You
• 25:33
  go judge everybody, and then look in the mirror, because that's what they're
• 25:40
  doing, right, They're mirroring you. And so you know, coming back
• 25:44
  to this dynamic between this mother and daughters pointing the blame. Well, because
• 25:52
  you're showing up like this, then this is why I'm the way I am.
• 25:55
  This is why I'm pissed off at the world. This is why I'm
• 25:56
  not feeling love. This is why and and no, it's because you're allowing
• 26:03
  it. So you're allowing you're allowing people to have the control, have the
• 26:08
  power. You're having these emotional discomforts in your body, your body's reacting having
• 26:15
  these physical sensations, discomforts. Then you're over the more the more, right,
• 26:23
  more supplements, more of this, more of that, which could be
• 26:29
  causing even more damage for not educated or listening to the body so it's like
• 26:37
  this whole package of stuff and we don't most people. I mean, there's
• 26:45
  more awareness around it, but most people don't take the time to look at
• 26:48
  all of it, like the whole package. And the whole package is mental,
• 26:52
  emotional, physical, spiritual, all of it. So I hear you.
• 27:00
  I love it. It's great. It's a journey, the journey,
• 27:07
  the journey because we're learning the whole time. We're learning the whole time,
• 27:15
  all the time, and even with a diagnosis. So this is something that
• 27:22
  popped into my head. You know, when I was listening to this podcasts
• 27:25
  about this lady who as diagnosed with cancer. She what came to my head
• 27:33
  is, you know Ed might Lets. This may not be his exact words,
• 27:37
  but his comment was to have a diagnosis is going to take your life.
• 27:45
  And I thought about that phrase for a second. It was like,
• 27:48
  a diagnosis that's going to take your life when so, you know, things
• 27:56
  like that start treat like questions start coming and it's like, Okay, we're
• 28:02
  not gonna be here forever, We're gonna transition back into spirit. This is
• 28:07
  the temporary. In fact, you know, Alex references it a lot like
• 28:11
  the matrix, Like this isn't the reality this is we're all in this simulation
• 28:18
  or how having these experiences Abraham Abraham Hicks as we can create our own reality,
• 28:25
  meaning we can we can I'm gonna use the word manipulate. We can
• 28:30
  manipulate the way we're perceiving our life to make it even better or even worse.
• 28:36
  I mean, you're neutral, Um, like, there's all these things
• 28:38
  that we can do, and and I'm thinking when we receive a diagnosis such
• 28:48
  as that, that's like, maybe this is the Maybe this is what I
• 28:56
  decided is how I'm going to go out. But because I chose this way,
• 29:00
  look at all these amazing things I'm going to do before I go,
• 29:04
  I'm going to teach. Because she's talking about already she's changed her her nutritional
• 29:10
  intake, She's changed the way she perceives her relationship. She's so much more
• 29:18
  present with people. And in the conversation she you know, she mentioned,
• 29:26
  um, and we've talked about it too, that we're not guaranteed this next
• 29:36
  the next moment. We don't know how long we're going to be here.
• 29:38
  She goes, you don't realize how much meaning there is behind that when you
• 29:42
  actually have a life threatening diagnosis. So yeah, so she's she's taken this
• 29:53
  experience and has made it an incredible tool to teach others. Right, I
• 30:03
  just I just witnessed a lady over her what like year and a half or
• 30:10
  so, she was diagnosed with cancer, and immediately her posts consisted. She
• 30:19
  shared her journey of the changes she was going through in her body, but
• 30:23
  she also there were way more posts of her enjoying life, being with friends
• 30:30
  and family, creating memories, laughing, doing all these amazing things. And
• 30:36
  this lady as well, on at My Left show she also saying, you
• 30:41
  know, all the material stuff, the big house, fancy car, all
• 30:45
  the money, like, there's not a meaning to the expensive clothes. There's
• 30:49
  not a meaning to that anymore. And but and I'm not gonna say but,
• 30:57
  and like you said, she's using this as an amazing teaching opportunity for
• 31:03
  whoever is going to listen. So, which is awesome because it doesn't matter
• 31:07
  how it turns out, right, because it's still an opportunity. She's still
• 31:11
  walking this path regardless of how she transitions, because we're all going to transition,
• 31:17
  right. And the thing though, that she's she she's been given you
• 31:22
  know, you guys some X amount of months to live whatever. So with
• 31:25
  that, she's like, Okay, well these are things I don't go do.
• 31:29
  Whereas the person who's murdered or in a car accident or like life is
• 31:34
  you know, as we know we're in physical form is done. They don't
• 31:37
  have that opportunity, but in actuality they did. They just didn't take the
• 31:44
  opportunity. And most people don't make a change or choose to make a change
• 31:49
  like she's she's um, she's got that a strange relationship with her mom.
• 31:56
  It took this experience of the medical diagnosis to do some healing with her mom
• 32:05
  when it didn't need to be that. It could have been done a long
• 32:08
  time ago. But because of the diagnosis, that's given her a different perspective
• 32:15
  and we can't know whose Yeah, we can have those different perspectives right now.
• 32:22
  Yeah, but it's almost like it's almost like cancer or something along those
• 32:25
  lines gives you permission to have that experience, you know what I mean.
• 32:30
  So it's not necessarily a bad thing. I have things that are going on
• 32:35
  withinside of me. I'm not going to go to the doctor's for a diagnosis.
• 32:38
  I'm just not that's it's not my nature. I know some people like
• 32:42
  to go to a doctors and stuff like that. I don't go to a
• 32:44
  doctor's I don't. I feel like my body can guide me if I so
• 32:50
  choose to listen. So that's kind of the route that I go. And
• 32:53
  I know that things will work out. And I also, you know,
• 32:55
  I've seen the side of it, like when you're saying at myles, basically
• 33:00
  saying it could be a sentence one way or the other, and it's an
• 33:02
  opportunity. So my mom chose, you know, when they gave when they
• 33:07
  told her that was it. I think she embraced that that was it,
• 33:12
  do you know what I mean? And in so many ways, probably healed
• 33:15
  herself in other ways because she just wasn't going to hold on to to speaks
• 33:17
  things anymore. She wasn't going to be irritated by these things anymore. A
• 33:22
  lot of different things. And she was a great example for anyone in my
• 33:27
  family because my sister I was there, my brother was there, all of
• 33:30
  our kids were there, our spouses were there, her husband was there when
• 33:37
  she transitioned. We were all there, all of us, which is a
• 33:39
  it's an amazing opportunity, but also being around her when she was going through
• 33:44
  this process, because she was so very thankful and grateful it had taken her
• 33:49
  tour. She couldn't get up and go do things anymore. But I think
• 33:52
  in a lot of ways, my feelings were that she kind of laid into
• 33:54
  that space and it was like, Okay, I'm ready to go. And
• 33:59
  that's the different And I think sometimes when they say that it's a sentence,
• 34:01
  it's not a sense, it's it's a perspective thing. It's however that person
• 34:05
  will receive that information. For me, maybe I would go sky diving.
• 34:08
  I don't freaking know, do you know what I mean? Because it gives
• 34:12
  you permission to be like, so what, you're going to fucking die anyways,
• 34:15
  why don't you just go have a good time already? Yeah. And
• 34:17
  it was one of the comments that I even made to Freeman last night,
• 34:20
  and I said, you know, I spent my first half of my life
• 34:22
  being serious about everything, but I'm not. I mean, I might find
• 34:28
  myself in these moments of serious, but I'm fucking laughing about a lot of
• 34:30
  stuff that's like probably people wouldn't be laughing about, but it is what it
• 34:35
  is. Like it I would rather be laughing about this stuff. Now like
• 34:37
  things are working out. We went. I went and bought a small unit
• 34:43
  window unit for b the cat's house last week because they were in that room
• 34:46
  of the house was up in the ninety two and it's like, I don't
• 34:50
  want to have animals that are, you know, stuck in those kind of
• 34:52
  spaces and not having enough air. So I got of that unit and it's
• 34:57
  kept it between seventy and eighty. So that's awesome. You know, do
• 35:00
  the generator here and we're trying to make you know, maintaining temperature. Of
• 35:05
  course, our temperatures have dropped down. And what am I doing when I
• 35:07
  go sit outside because I'm sitting outside every evening. I'm sitting in there and
• 35:09
  I'm like, thank you God, thank you so much for this cool breeze
• 35:13
  it's coming through. And every time I fill another breeze, I'm saying it
• 35:16
  over and over and over again because it's helping me get into their practice of
• 35:20
  appreciating what I'm appreciating right that moment instead of focusing on the things that weren't
• 35:23
  going right. So it's like really really focus on that and really noticing it.
• 35:29
  And lately the temperatures have dropped. We have gotten a little bit the
• 35:32
  temperatures have gotten a little bit more manageable, and then the evenings are getting
• 35:36
  down where it's a little bit cooler. You know, it's it's dropping below
• 35:38
  eighty six, so it can it gives my house a time because we're on
• 35:43
  solar, so we leads a house open at night, so we might have
• 35:46
  the living room, room area, kitchen and all that stuff might be at
• 35:50
  like eighty eight. You know, that's what we're our starting point. So
• 35:52
  you're turning on air to trying and get that pulled down. The stable or
• 35:55
  whatever is outside. So it's like it's it's there's a dam's there. But
• 36:00
  it's not just a dance with the equipment and everything else that there's a dance
• 36:04
  with stealth, and it's noticing if I have something on. I could be
• 36:08
  watching TikTok and I could be scrolling through some things and it'll start showing funny
• 36:13
  stuff. The temperature may not matter so much. I may not notice it
• 36:15
  so much for a couple of minutes, for a couple of seconds, and
• 36:19
  guess what, sometimes that's enough relief that with that being said, that kind
• 36:22
  of goes along with pain too. When we're having a lot of pain all
• 36:25
  the time, obviously you can't go in when you're in that space of pain.
• 36:29
  You can't just automatically. It's not easy to connect to spirit or it's
• 36:32
  not. You may feel like it's a little bit daunting. It's maybe not
• 36:37
  as easy to get into a better mood or anything like that. But that's
• 36:39
  fine. You just stop and breathe into what is right then. But when
• 36:44
  you have the opportunity and you do have a little bit of relief, it's
• 36:46
  celebrating that relief, even if it's only for a couple of seconds. It's
• 36:51
  just remembering to appreciate those times too. You know, we've been having this
• 36:58
  because you've been involved to this group. I've been having like minded people come
• 37:00
  together to have conversations, and I find it interesting as we're going. But
• 37:05
  at first, this is just a group for people to come together and have
• 37:08
  conversations. It's not to be controlled. It's not there's not anything about it
• 37:12
  that's that needs to be controlled. It's just people being themselves, sharing stories,
• 37:17
  perspectives. It's it's awesome, but at first I was like, oh
• 37:21
  gosh, what if what if someone What if someone gets offended by what somebody's
• 37:24
  saying. What if what if Oh my gosh, what if they what if
• 37:28
  this person comes in and they kind of rub each other the wrong way.
• 37:30
  I'm just using those examples. I have had some similar thoughts that have been
• 37:35
  kind of crossing through my mind, and it's like, this isn't for mine,
• 37:37
  this isn't for me to control. This just is. It just is
• 37:40
  because we're creating a safe space for people to communicate and have deeper conversations that
• 37:45
  we co create, and so we ripple out to the whole world and we
• 37:49
  start coming together and unifying. That's what this is all about. It's not
• 37:53
  to be controlled. It's not any of those things. But I recognize that
• 37:58
  still wanting to control some things because you know, wanting it to be perfect
• 38:00
  every time. Not controlling it makes it perfect because it gives everybody the opportunity
• 38:06
  to have it whenever their experience they need to have right now for their growth
• 38:09
  one hundred percent. So this, all this learning stuff is all. There's
• 38:14
  so much, all happening at one time all the time. Lately, it
• 38:16
  just seems like it's there's always stuff always and it's even for me. Was
• 38:22
  recognizing I was listening to somebody and recognizing, here, I do a disservice.
• 38:29
  This is my perspective by not doing meditation, because if by me coming
• 38:34
  into his alignment, by me coming into my space of my love, I
• 38:37
  can affect the whole world so differently from the space of not doing it.
• 38:42
  And it's like, why would you not do it? Why would you not
• 38:45
  honor that space? And it's because it can. It can heal the whole
• 38:47
  world. So it's it's just being in that space. It's recognizing so many
• 38:52
  things that we have so much more control over and not wanting to control the
• 38:57
  things that we think that we want to control because we don't controlling those experience
• 39:00
  doesn't allow us to have this growth. Yeah, I like that that phrase
• 39:06
  you said, breathe into what is It's like, so, if there's chaos
• 39:12
  going, breathe into it. If there's joy going, breathe into it.
• 39:15
  I like that. That was a great that it was a great phrase.
• 39:17
  I just wanted to share that my one of my mentors, she had a
• 39:28
  retreat and she had a lady there who was triggering almost everybody in attendance.
• 39:36
  And instead of she's similar rights, similar into not controlling this. I'm not
• 39:40
  going to tell this person that they're wrong or tell them to leave or anything
• 39:45
  like that. I'm going to use it as a teaching moment. So she
• 39:49
  had all the people being triggered take a look at why they were being triggered.
• 39:54
  Similar while I was saying a while ago about judging, she said,
• 40:00
  by the time that process, they had all moved through that process, and
• 40:04
  before the end of the retreat, everybody just loved this lady, like it
• 40:08
  was a great relationship. Everybody connected. No, And I was like,
• 40:15
  yeah, yeah, I mean, you can't control things like that. You
• 40:19
  just can't. And it's if I show up into a group and I'm getting
• 40:22
  triggered, Yeah, deep breathing because crazy's about to come out. But nope,
• 40:30
  God, breathe into it. Breathe into it. What is triggering me?
• 40:34
  Why is this person getting under my skin? Right? Why are they
• 40:37
  poking the bear? And take the opportunity now once I recognize what it is,
• 40:45
  now I'm not feeding into the energy of the discomfort. I'm feeding into
• 40:52
  the energy of forgiveness. And really that forgiveness is for myself for perceiving this
• 40:58
  person as whatever it is. I'm perceiving the mess and allowing that that process
• 41:05
  of the energy shift. Does it mean I now need to hang out with
• 41:09
  this person or I feel connected to this person. Though they showed up to
• 41:14
  do their thing, they showed up for me to take a look at what's
• 41:16
  going on inside me. That's why they showed up. Now, if there's
• 41:21
  a relationship that forms, great, If there's not, great doesn't matter.
• 41:24
  That wasn't the purpose. Purpose was there was something in me that was ready
• 41:30
  to be shifted and healed. I love it, and it's true, and
• 41:38
  we have the opportunities really all day long. Yeah, and still that's perfect,
• 41:44
  it really is. Yeah, we're just I'm just reminded we're just here
• 41:49
  for such a short amount of time. That's what I was just popped into
• 41:52
  my head. We're here, we're here for just a short amount of time.
• 41:55
  Yeah, even if we lived to four hundred years, we're still here
• 42:00
  for a short amount of time because that's just the timeframe. We still we're
• 42:05
  still having experiences on other levels or God, or you could say God's experiencing
• 42:09
  itself on other levels through us. And if it doesn't matter, like if
• 42:15
  you really think about the things we give our attention to Is it gonna matter
• 42:21
  in two weeks, No matter in two months, is gonna matter in two
• 42:24
  years, the matter in twenty years? Like the typically answers no, And
• 42:30
  then we come back to the moment. Why am I getting my attention to
• 42:32
  this and why is this such a big deal right now? Well, it's
• 42:37
  because something in my container is getting triggered, Something in my container is saying
• 42:43
  we need to give attention to this because I feel abandoned, I feel angry,
• 42:45
  I feel resentment, I feel guilt, I feel shame, I feel
• 42:49
  something, and that's what is coming up. And all of that is or
• 42:54
  those emotions are fear based. Well, if I want to come home to
• 42:59
  my south, if I want to come home to who I am, I
• 43:02
  want to be on a on a love path, so that healing inside me
• 43:07
  has to take place for me to come home to who I am in that
• 43:15
  space of love, because it because of healing, will just come anyways.
• 43:21
  It's just because it's just a natural. That's just natural, because there's not
• 43:24
  going to be disharmony. Where there's harmony, it's just a natural flow once
• 43:30
  you get into that space, and it's recognizing all that awesome people to do
• 43:39
  that, you utilize the people around you to do that. Yeah, it's
• 43:44
  true where you're at and there, and it's just distracting you from your journey.
• 43:49
  It's it's distracting you from you know what I mean. It's it's an
• 43:51
  opportunity to look at it instead of pushing against it. It's no different than
• 43:53
  that person that you're pushing against, right, your mom, not you,
• 43:58
  the relationship between the mom and the daughter. It's no different from that.
• 44:00
  There's always gonna be something that's going to push against them until they start recognizing.
• 44:04
  And in my belief, I feel like we've become once we become neutral
• 44:07
  about it. For me, if once I've become neutral about the heat,
• 44:10
  then it no longer has to teach me anything, do you know what I
• 44:14
  mean? Once I've become neutral about um massage, it no longer has anything
• 44:20
  to teach me. Then it's time for something new. That's just the whole
• 44:23
  thing with anything. If people want to push against religion, or they want
• 44:27
  to push against Gosh, anything, anything that you want to push against,
• 44:30
  when you realize that you don't need to push against it anymore, and then
• 44:34
  when you find yourself looking at thinking God I'm money. I don't even think
• 44:37
  about that stuff anymore. It doesn't even trigger me anymore. Or when when
• 44:40
  something happens in front of and you feel neutral about it's like and someone's saying
• 44:45
  to you, you're not going to say or do anything, and it's like,
• 44:47
  it's not mine, it's not my stuff. I've had a few of
• 44:52
  those moments where I've been able to stop and witness when when someone else has
• 44:55
  had their flare up or their reaction, and even if it was kind of
• 45:00
  directed or it felt like it was directed towards me, I recognize immediately it
• 45:04
  wasn't mine. It wasn't mine, so there was nothing for me. It's
• 45:07
  like, at that particular moment because the space where I was in, I
• 45:12
  knew that I could just send love to that person. And before I used
• 45:15
  to get irritated by I don't like, you know, the negativity. I
• 45:17
  don't like the negativity every everything like that and pushing it away all the time.
• 45:22
  And now what I might perceive as negativity, like all the stuff that's
• 45:25
  going on in the world. There's all kinds of stuff going on, there's
• 45:28
  whether happening and whatever. But as soon as I hear about it, it's
• 45:30
  just an opportunity for prayer or to send streams of grace or to send lots
• 45:35
  of love to a space because they're they're suffering from the waters or you know.
• 45:38
  It's it's not when you hear about it. It's not to trigger you
• 45:43
  and be like, oh fuck, the world's coming to an ind I'm saying
• 45:45
  F word a lot today. I don't usually do. I haven't been did
• 45:47
  that for a long time, but hello, this is that video today to
• 45:52
  fly. They're flying. But it's like going in through that whole process,
• 45:59
  and it's just regnizing we don't have to be attached to these things, we
• 46:01
  don't have to be tied down to these things. It's just becoming this neutral
• 46:05
  person in this in this space and recognizing, oh, okay, that's what
• 46:08
  it had to teach me. It's like war, that's what it has to
• 46:10
  teach you. Well, when you've coome neutral about it, it no longer
• 46:15
  has anything to serve for you. There's no purpose for it anymore. You're
• 46:19
  not pushing, you're not for or against it, So it doesn't have to
• 46:22
  be in your experience, which is easy to say, you know, for
• 46:27
  me because I'm not in that space. That's not my experience, right,
• 46:30
  so it's easy for me. But but before I would have given attention to
• 46:32
  something like that, and now I'm recognizing that it's there to serve the purpose
• 46:37
  to help teach somebody else, to help guide them with insight because we've already
• 46:42
  talked about things. We've talked about cancer, we've talked about different stuff,
• 46:45
  and it really a lot of that journey is to take us inside. Are
• 46:47
  you going to live through it? Maybe maybe not? Are you going to
• 46:52
  heal when you're go inside? Yes, you will heal. You'll heal on
• 46:55
  many levels, and it's not always going to be on the physical level because
• 47:00
  sometimes it means that it's tart time for your transition. And that's okay.
• 47:05
  Who's who are you loving in the meantime and who's loving you like? Who?
• 47:08
  Who are we sharing this beautiful love with when we could be sharing it
• 47:12
  with everybody. Something I just heard recently in on the business side is you
• 47:20
  know you're not you can't please everybody, and somebody you're gonna have quote unquote
• 47:25
  haters, right, people are gonna to bad talk to you. And the
• 47:30
  comment was, when you start having haters, you're being successful and you're triggering
• 47:38
  them in a way that they're gonna do with it. What they're gonna do,
• 47:43
  it doesn't matter. So here's the deal. It doesn't matter. Bev
• 47:45
  and I come here every week and we talk and we talk about things from
• 47:50
  our perspective. We talk about our healing, we talk about our emotions,
• 47:55
  right, we talk about all this stuff. Anybody can take any piece of
• 48:00
  content, not from us or anybody else and manipulate the words or perceive the
• 48:08
  words in a way that is going to be triggering to them. And then
• 48:14
  they're pushing the blame outward and saying because you said this, because you did
• 48:19
  this, because this is a sure way you're seeing that they're offended. Well,
• 48:27
  if if like Bev was saying, they were neutral to what we were
• 48:30
  saying and they were just maybe open to information and perspectives, it would be
• 48:36
  more of along the lines of, huh, I don't really agree with that,
• 48:39
  so okay, they're they're right to have that opinion, or oh,
• 48:44
  I really liked what they said about this, I'm going to take that and
• 48:47
  implement it, or don't have any emotion or feeling about anything they said,
• 48:52
  probably not going to listen to their podcast anymore all in any of it's great,
• 48:59
  Yes, doesn't matter, because anything that is said can always be manipulated
• 49:04
  in a way to offend somebody everything. And it's based on their history,
• 49:08
  it's based on generational programming, it's based on their emotional wounding. It's placed
• 49:15
  on the fact that they don't want to take any kind of responsibility of their
• 49:21
  internal turmoil, and they're putting the blame on the outside towards people who are
• 49:25
  triggering them, giving them the power and control. So there's so much around
• 49:31
  the dynamics of relationships, whether you know the people are actually spending time together
• 49:37
  or not, because every really every person we come in contact with is a
• 49:40
  relationship in some form. So keep that in mind that I'm gonna say haters.
• 49:49
  This is a very strong word, but the haters out there that are
• 49:52
  talking shit about you or making rude comments or trying to put you down,
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  or that's based on that's coming from their own wounding. I personally just had
• 50:04
  this experience in the past few days through email, and and I just simply
• 50:10
  stated the facts. This is what I did. Yes, I made a
• 50:14
  mistake, I had an off day. I'm here to help in any way.
• 50:19
  I can facts. There was no insinuations, there was no opinions,
• 50:28
  there's nothing. This is what happened. Here's where I'm at. Through the
• 50:34
  emails, though, I could feel the other persons insecurities, yes, and
• 50:39
  the energy of how they were perceiving the response right. And I was just
• 50:45
  like this because I had like, no, it was like what you're saying.
• 50:51
  I was neutral about It was just okay, this is this is what
• 50:52
  they read from what I sent out. Yes, they noticed the mistake.
• 50:59
  They were questioning me on something. So I just sent an email back with
• 51:01
  the facts and it was like I was neutral about it. There was nothing
• 51:06
  like well what eat me? Me? Me, me, me me,
• 51:07
  why you point the finger? Right? I was told to do this and
• 51:10
  there was none of that. I had no. It was total neutrality on
• 51:14
  my part. But the response is I could feel the insecurities and the well
• 51:22
  why is she getting away with it? You know? It's just like and
• 51:27
  I already knew right away because the email was the email I sent out went
• 51:31
  to multiple people. The email that came back was just to me, Okay,
• 51:37
  first of all, we're not going to play this game. I'm not
• 51:38
  going to do that. So when I responded, I responded with those multiple
• 51:44
  people on the email, so they everybody knows what's going on, and so
• 51:51
  recognizing that, like you're saying the neutrality, Like before, I would have
• 51:55
  been like, oh my god, what did I do? What did I
• 51:59
  say? How? Yeah, you're right, the whole stories. But that
• 52:01
  would be my insecurity, that would be my wounds coming up. That would
• 52:06
  be like, I'm not being accepted because I made a mistake. I wasn't
• 52:10
  about perfectionism. This person is. I've been around them for a while.
• 52:16
  They're about perfectionism. I'm I'm sorry. I'm not wearing that label no more.
• 52:22
  I've taken the I've taken the proud patch off. I'm like, no,
• 52:27
  I'm gonna be human. I'm gonna make a mistake. I'll own it.
• 52:31
  And that's that. There's no other conversation this. This is like people
• 52:36
  are allowed to make mistakes. It's okay. I don't perfect. I'm not
• 52:42
  gonna be perfect for me ever, So I'm definitely not gonna be perfect for
• 52:45
  you or anybody else in my life. Yeah, which I love because I
• 52:51
  just again is giving someone else the opportunity to realize. Oh oh, But
• 52:55
  then I think about this other person, and it's funny, it's healthy things
• 53:00
  come up and I don't know if it's true, but this person you're talking
• 53:02
  about was raised by a mother that was very much perfectionist. So immediately,
• 53:07
  but I don't know these people, but that's I'll tell you. It's there's
• 53:12
  a knowing. Yeah, so one hundred percent, so having expectations. So
• 53:16
  it's an opportunity for growth. Right when we're being trigger too, especially when
• 53:21
  someone says something, it's really what are our definitions to those words that were
• 53:24
  being triggered by? Because it wasn't the intention. If you because I do
• 53:29
  this, if you stop and you like you read something because I've done this,
• 53:31
  and what the hell like, what are you trying to come out?
• 53:36
  And then if you kind of set in with the person's energy, you realize,
• 53:39
  just like you said, you can feel what they were intending or what
• 53:43
  they meant, and sometimes what the way that you might have read. It's
• 53:46
  not you, but anybody you. We can perceive things a little bit differently
• 53:51
  just because of the definition that we attached to a word right or wrong.
• 53:55
  It's an emotion we attached to a word right or wrong until we become neutral
• 54:00
  in that space, and just realize it's just another magical word, and how
• 54:05
  you can change that word and put it practice, putting it in a definition
• 54:07
  or in a sentence that is positive where it feels good. Change it.
• 54:12
  So we have those opportunities. That neutrality is awesome and it really does help
• 54:15
  us to evolve forward because we're not holding onto anything. And it's so great
• 54:21
  when these people do have these they have these opportunities for them to grow and
• 54:25
  it's not even personal. Again, then it's coming from a space up.
• 54:30
  You come from your space of your heart. How do you want to respond
• 54:32
  to us? You come from the space of the heart, because the heart
• 54:35
  knows, spirit knows the best way to reach these people. And for them,
• 54:38
  it's almost like it as if it would kind of knock them off a
• 54:42
  little bit, you know what I mean, not not purposely like knock them
• 54:45
  down, but you're not. You're not going to be that push against them
• 54:47
  because they're expecting it push. They're putting a push out and they're expecting something
• 54:52
  back and it doesn't happen, So it deflates the whole thing there. It's
• 54:55
  there's no need to even carry on that part of the conversation and any for
• 55:00
  there than work with that, and it's based on it. Am I feeling
• 55:04
  insecure? Am I gonna step into that wounded place? No, because I've
• 55:10
  done enough work I've done. Do I get triggered, Yes I do.
• 55:15
  I'm saying I say it almost every week. Yes I do. Things happen
• 55:21
  and the and I take the time to do some self reflection, right,
• 55:25
  some inquiry, whereas I'm gonna just use the all the person with this email
• 55:32
  situation, the mother daughter's situation. Those people are not where they're at right
• 55:39
  now, are not in a space to take any responsibility for what's stirring up
• 55:45
  within them. Zero And so we don't have to put we don't have to
• 55:50
  poke the bear, we don't have to push it even any further. It's
• 55:52
  just to be right at that folk. I mean, I have these moments
• 55:55
  occasionally with certain clients that will come in and they might have something. They
• 55:59
  might be fine for their limitations or want to stay in that space, and
• 56:01
  that's fine. They can stay there. It's not for me to judge them
• 56:05
  and take them out of that space. I am here to help assist facilitate
• 56:12
  feeling better, having healings, being able to see the world with a different
• 56:17
  perspective. But when we're because I've been there, I'm not always willing.
• 56:22
  Sometimes I'm in this space where I'm not willing to be able to hear anything
• 56:24
  else right now. And that's okay. That's okay because I know that I
• 56:29
  won't be in that space for very long. I'll move past it. And
• 56:32
  I wanted to go back to when you're listening to someone like simply if you
• 56:36
  had a sent any email and it didn't imagine me, it might be like,
• 56:38
  well, that's weird that that doesn't make you know that that doesn't make
• 56:40
  any sense or whatever, and I would have neutral like let it go,
• 56:45
  or I might have say, hey, I'm not sure what does this mean?
• 56:46
  Or you know, I mean question or whatever, instead of trying to
• 56:53
  how is this email about? Just like just like you asking about when's the
• 56:58
  next meeting thing? And I'm like, well, I'm thinking that I put
• 57:00
  it on the counter, and then I then my mind sees it right.
• 57:02
  Spirit showed me that I only because I have two different colors. I use
• 57:06
  purple and I use orange orange just for a home and for a free min
• 57:08
  and for any other like hair appointments or anything like that. That's my stuff.
• 57:13
  And then I have the purple for that's we see, it's for the
• 57:15
  business, for the office, and it wasn't even on there. I had
• 57:19
  to I went back to the last two two dates and it's like neither one
• 57:22
  of them are on there in purple, so you would never even see it,
• 57:25
  like so it would never even show up that the date was even being
• 57:28
  occupied. So it was something that I had to recognize and see what's going
• 57:30
  on. That was one of the things. But it's again, I'll go
• 57:34
  back to the other with the other person. When you send it out that
• 57:37
  email or or someone scrolling or when you're listening to someone, can you either
• 57:42
  resonate with it or you don't, And if you don't, that's okay.
• 57:45
  And then sometimes when someone says something and it triggers something of me, I'll
• 57:49
  be like, instead of getting pissed off about it or irritated about or be
• 57:52
  like, I don't know if that's true, I'll ask myself is this true?
• 57:57
  Because I don't understand that space, and that is kind of what And
• 58:00
  then just by me asking is this true puts me into a neutral space and
• 58:04
  a lot of times it just kind of no answer. Is an answer,
• 58:07
  that's another that's just another answer. So I just kind of listen to what
• 58:10
  other people are saying. So it's this whole awareness thing, this whole journey
• 58:15
  thing, and it's and it's always ongoing. It's always happening, it's never
• 58:17
  turned off, and even when you're sleeping, you're still processing stuff and dreams
• 58:22
  and you're moving about. There's still things that are happening. So it's like,
• 58:25
  there's we have opportunities all the time for growth, and our spirit teams
• 58:30
  are trying to help us as much as will allow them. And then that
• 58:35
  goes to being said, when you have someone and they're in their space and
• 58:38
  they're not ready to receive that information, they're not going to be ready.
• 58:44
  They're not going to hear it from their own team. So it's like,
• 58:45
  don't beat yourselves up when you're out there and you can see the forest through
• 58:50
  the trees and the person next to you can't. It's okay. Just send
• 58:52
  them some love and light so they can sign their own way out. It's
• 58:55
  not for us to grab ahold of them and pull them through. It's for
• 58:59
  us to be there and shy that light so they can take the light and
• 59:00
  then realize I can walk with a slight and now I can go help somebody
• 59:05
  else. And also when you receive when you receive an email or a text,
• 59:15
  it matters what energy you're sitting in in the moment when you read it.
• 59:20
  Yes, right, if I'm depressed and I get an email saying you
• 59:23
  know, and I'm perceiving it as in an attack at me, I've done
• 59:31
  this before, and then being good spirits like feeling good and go back and
• 59:37
  read the same email, completely different message, and it's almost like your mind
• 59:43
  kind of ad lib some things, like when you're in a sad space,
• 59:45
  so who's that? Like? It says something and it's like, oh shit,
• 59:49
  And then if you go to respond from that space, the other person's
• 59:51
  like, what are you talking about? Right, because it was just our
• 59:54
  perspective during that particular moment, that's all that. It was whatever energy you
• 59:59
  were sitting in, like you were just saying, which is very well said.
• 1:00:02
  Yeah, So it matters. I mean when you're when you're watching a
• 1:00:06
  video, when you're listening to a podcast, when you're having a conversation,
• 1:00:08
  when you're doing a tax or an email, you where you're at in your
• 1:00:13
  own energy matters just it's true. It's true because I could even go back
• 1:00:23
  to the group get getting together, like having an attachment to an outcome,
• 1:00:28
  because I would tell you there was attachment to an outcome. Why because I
• 1:00:30
  don't want to do anything wrong, Because you don't want to be you know,
• 1:00:34
  you don't want to feel like you weren't accepted because you did something wrong
• 1:00:37
  by bringing everyone it's like, oh should I should have known better? And
• 1:00:39
  you're like, right, So, because I'm in a new territory, this
• 1:00:44
  is new territory for me to experience, to play with. And it's not
• 1:00:47
  a punishment, and it's not it's not trying to make me feel bad or
• 1:00:51
  anything like that. It's actually quite the opposite of it. It's it's highlighting
• 1:00:54
  things that I could change that takes me on the journey that I've been wanting
• 1:00:58
  to be on this whole time. It just facilitates it and I can visually
• 1:01:01
  see what's happening now instead of being stuck in the muck, being sad,
• 1:01:06
  reading an email, misinterpreting or putting interpretations in. It's seeing your words change,
• 1:01:12
  Like your mind will see a word and change the fricking word, and
• 1:01:15
  then you go back to read it later on when you're in a different space,
• 1:01:16
  like you were saying, and it's like, holy shit, how did
• 1:01:19
  I even see that before? Because I've caught on I've caught those I've got
• 1:01:22
  I've had those moments, so i know exactly what you're talking about, Shay,
• 1:01:25
  like close your eyes and shake your head. You're like what, and
• 1:01:29
  then like, oh, that's not what I heard at all. But so
• 1:01:34
  being in that space with everyone like that, and then I'm hearing from conversations
• 1:01:38
  out of the other people right, so here I am have my own little
• 1:01:42
  worries about little things, and then I'm like, gosh, maybe I'm not
• 1:01:44
  doing the right thing right because we second guess things. Our human gets in
• 1:01:46
  the way, our of our ego gets things. Maybe we're not doing something
• 1:01:51
  right, you know. And then I get feedback from people and it's like,
• 1:01:54
  well, fuck, I was in the same room, right, How
• 1:01:57
  can you you miss out on some of those things when you get stuck in
• 1:02:00
  your own shit, when you get stuck in your own controlling, fear based
• 1:02:04
  stuff. I'm not saying that it was all like that, but I'm using
• 1:02:07
  it as an example because it can be. It can be so extreme and
• 1:02:10
  you miss out on what everybody else was experiencing. It was great, right,
• 1:02:15
  and then you miss out on that because you're you're worried. Oh god,
• 1:02:17
  someone Opev said the apport again, She's gonna be judged. Opev said
• 1:02:22
  that she smokes pot once in a while. Well, I do it every
• 1:02:24
  day, but whatever, you know, I mean just just saying. But
• 1:02:28
  I'm just saying, I'm just gonna throw anything out there because I don't care.
• 1:02:30
  I don't don't ever put me on so much of a pedestal that you
• 1:02:34
  quit living your life and you think that I'm perfect. I'm not perfect.
• 1:02:37
  I am not perfect. I'm perfectly going through my own experiences as a BEV
• 1:02:42
  from my history. That's it. I am not perfect, and I don't
• 1:02:45
  even intend to be perfect. What I intend to do is be happier,
• 1:02:50
  to be more in a space of love, and to be more understanding and
• 1:02:52
  become more neutral about so many things because it's not my stuff, because I
• 1:02:58
  don't have to carry it. And then how can I be better for the
• 1:03:00
  world. That's how you're better for the world. When you start doing all
• 1:03:04
  these internal things you are I don't have to go out there and freaking crusade
• 1:03:07
  through the streets. I can do everything from right here in the space of
• 1:03:10
  my home, in the space of love, and I can send out that
• 1:03:15
  love to this whole world. I can send it out to the whole planetary
• 1:03:16
  system, to everything. It's a choice. Yeah, and I think too
• 1:03:23
  what that group is One of the things is is a sense that part of
• 1:03:30
  the practice is not taking responsibility for how people show up and said and how
• 1:03:37
  to receive it. Right, because that's old stuff that this is stuff from.
• 1:03:43
  This is stuff that I grew up in. Right, Oh, we
• 1:03:45
  can't invite such and such because they're going to have an issue. Oh fuck,
• 1:03:47
  we really screwed up because we invited this person, this person, and
• 1:03:51
  this person, and then you're calling then backtracking because I think we call contact
• 1:03:54
  everyone, Like listen, this person's going to be here. I'm just letting
• 1:03:58
  you know, heads up, Yeah, if you want to, will come.
• 1:04:00
  I would love to have you here. You know, this whole thing
• 1:04:02
  I'm trying to orchestrate everything. But that's the environment that I had came from.
• 1:04:05
  So that was in my experience. But guess what, because it wasn't
• 1:04:10
  my experience doesn't mean I have to carry it on any further. I don't
• 1:04:13
  have to carry it on for my kids to carry it on and my grandkids
• 1:04:15
  to carry it on. We can let it go right here. Well,
• 1:04:17
  even on Facebook when when you create an event, there's a section where it
• 1:04:29
  says show guests list, and I turn that off every single time, like,
• 1:04:34
  nope, not. People are gonna if they're attracted to the class and
• 1:04:40
  to me, they need to be there. And I'm on the same I'm
• 1:04:44
  on the same in the same boat with you. After I've gone through some
• 1:04:46
  of the processes in my mind, because it's again wanted to control things.
• 1:04:50
  Right. If everything's controlled, everything outside of you is good. Everything's good
• 1:04:56
  in mamma, that's all. But it doesn't have to be that way.
• 1:04:59
  Everything's always good withinside, it always is. And we don't have to be
• 1:05:03
  controlled by the outside experiences because whatever happens out here is not my control.
• 1:05:11
  And so if people are showing up, get triggered and have issues, that's
• 1:05:15
  not my business. As long as I remain neutral and not I did right.
• 1:05:19
  How am I showing up in the situation If it's affecting me, oh,
• 1:05:23
  I gotta do some work. It's not affecting me. I'm like is
• 1:05:26
  there bullshit, it's not mine, and then you get to have fun.
• 1:05:29
  That's what's on the other side of that. It's having fun. It's shows.
• 1:05:32
  It's just like you said, in that one group you had, you
• 1:05:34
  got the one person was triggering everybody. Thank you for trigger everybody because it
• 1:05:39
  was an opportunity for each person to go through this process and they no longer
• 1:05:43
  have any that's no to be come into a neutral place and not be triggered
• 1:05:46
  anymore. That's the that's the awesome part of the whole experience that we don't
• 1:05:50
  have to be because when when those things happen, it feels like something has
• 1:05:54
  control over you. It feels like this, oh God, here comes the
• 1:05:57
  anger again, or here comes something else gonna holds me over. And it
• 1:06:00
  doesn't have to be that way. It just doesn't have to be that way.
• 1:06:04
  And instead of so I just got to bring this up because it's just
• 1:06:09
  you know, dropped into me was two things. I could show up well
• 1:06:15
  before a class, whether online or in person, that I facilitate where I'm
• 1:06:21
  the teacher, knowing that nobody else knows who's showing up, not knowing any
• 1:06:29
  dynamics between other people. I could sit and worry. Right. Oh my
• 1:06:33
  gosh. I hope everybody gets along. I hope everybody has a great conversation.
• 1:06:36
  I hope everybody learns that. I hope I say the right things right
• 1:06:40
  all fear based fear is going to feed fear, not just into that class,
• 1:06:46
  exactly outward into the world. So now I'm feeding anything fear based because
• 1:06:53
  it's the energy of it where I sit back and go, Okay, we're
• 1:06:59
  gonna I'm gonna have this class. People are going to show up. There's
• 1:07:02
  gonna be healing, there's gonna be connection, there's going to be community,
• 1:07:05
  there's gonna be amazing things that are said and shared and um and collaboration,
• 1:07:15
  and it's going to be and it's just going to be an incredible experience,
• 1:07:17
  not only for the students but for me because I get to witness it.
• 1:07:21
  I got to be a part of it, because I you know, I'm
• 1:07:24
  gonna you know, shine my ego and say because I brought everybody together,
• 1:07:28
  which really I didn't. I just offered the space. So that's path of
• 1:07:32
  love. So it's when you're depending on the energy. If I'm in the
• 1:07:39
  energy of the fear, then yeah, people are going to show up and
• 1:07:42
  cause discord, and then I want to be like, what the hell is
• 1:07:45
  happening or if I'm on that space of love where it's because it's going to
• 1:07:49
  be an amazing experience and I'm so looking forward. You know, I love
• 1:07:53
  to teach, and so I've recognized that's something that's been come that's come to
• 1:07:58
  the surface for me that I gotta be in that space of teaching because it
• 1:08:02
  just lights me up and it's just going to be an incredible experience having these
• 1:08:10
  people come together for whatever reason supposed to blossom out of this. Then it's
• 1:08:16
  that's what it's going to be. So setting my energy of how do I
• 1:08:21
  want this experience to be from my perspective and that and that's exactly what I've
• 1:08:29
  been doing. And it also recognizing, um, that is exactly what's been
• 1:08:32
  happening. Yeah, without out of my control. It was out of my
• 1:08:36
  control, but I've been able to witness so much other stuff. So again
• 1:08:40
  it was like emotional triggers. It's we have these opportunities all the time.
• 1:08:44
  And then for me, this is an easy condensed I'm with people that I
• 1:08:48
  love, they love me, you know, they love each other and they're
• 1:08:53
  they're meeting other people that they can have conversations with so they don't feel like
• 1:08:56
  that they're alone, so that they don't so that they're so that the life
• 1:09:00
  comes into more of a harmony and balance because a lot of times we might
• 1:09:02
  go to work and it's in the space that we're going to work in.
• 1:09:05
  It's not really maybe ideal for a lot of people because there's a lot of
• 1:09:10
  stuff that's going on. You know, I could use courthouses as an example,
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  I could use jails as an example, just people being in those kind
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  of experiences and stuff like that, but it doesn't happen. It's perspective right,
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  even from in those spaces. But you when you're saying all that stuff,
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  this is where I know. This last week is where I have recognized
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  that that's totally how everything's going. It is divinely guided. It is out
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  of my control. I love that it's divinely guided. I love that every
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  single week that I do this once people just when I open up the space
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  for people just to show up, the people that show up that mean to
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  show up, are it's supposed to be there, you know what I mean.
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  It's part of the conversation because each one of those persons that were there
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  were a benefit by the persons that we're there. That's the way it is.
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  And then of course now we're benefit to everybody. It's just to be
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  in that space all the time. I would like to see people getting together
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  like this all the time, everywhere and just finding you know, recognizing,
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  oh that triggered me. Okay, this is a safe place I can I
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  have an opportunity for my growth. Or we can be triggered another ways too,
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  emotionally where we just feel such a deep connection with other people. So
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  when we say trigger doesn't mean that it's a bad thing. It doesn't have
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  to feel like a bad thing because it's not. We can be triggered into
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  so many different ways. Love can be triggered. And really, if we're
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  talking honestly about this, these triggers are guiding us back to level because we're
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  asking more questions because we're we're seeing beyond all those things. We're deciding we're
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  not going to carry that with us any longer. Yeah. And I and
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  the trigger of laughter, I mean that when I would too time do we
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  spend laughing and giggling? And that just felt amazing. So yeah, trigger.
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  Yeah, when I, when I or we say trigger, um,
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  it's not a negative connotation and by no means trigger trigger just means are you
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  being triggered negatively or are you being triggered and positively um, emotionally. So
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  yeah, thanks for pointing that out. Another gauge, right, that's just
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  another gauge for us to look at to show us exactly where we're at right
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  now, how we're feeling. Because back to the comment you made before,
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  if we're in the space of love and we're high flying vibe and stuff like
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  that, we're not affected by that stuff because we see it exactly as it
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  is. Yeah. Yeah, so good. Such a great conversation day.
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  It was a great conversation. I thank you. Thank him. This morning,
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  I'm like, I don't know what how are we gonna talk about?
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  But wasn't it? But I know spirit knows, because it's the more that
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  we're having these conversations and I'm having conversations with people, and the more that
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  I have the awareness in it, I realize how much information, like you
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  say, it's dropped in, how much communication that we're receiving all the time.
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  Just even as you were saying things like I'm I'm recognizing when you were
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  talking about the one person. I know that this behavior comes from mom and
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  Grandma, So Grandma's coming up now too. But I know this is this
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  is like this has been a long time. How you're seeing is how you're
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  perceived. How you're seeing is how you are. You know what I mean.
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  It's um, there's just different and I don't I don't know who you're
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  even talking about. We're just fine. But there's this there's an energy that
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  comes with it, and it's like, okay, and I don't have to
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  go I'm not saying it because I'm right or wrong. I'm just no,
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  I'm just picking up what I feel and what I'm seeing. I'm just picking
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  up I know it goes, it goes all the way up to Grandma.
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  It's not just, it's not just, but specifically those three right now,
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  and then there's such a healing that can happen from any one of those people
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  that are alive, whether in a physical body or a non physical body,
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  can change the whole dynamics of this. So amazing. Yeah, that's what's
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  amazing. Yeah I don't think you know this person, but yeah, there
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  you go. But that's what I want. I wanted to bring that out
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  because I think a lot of people are doing the same things. There's so
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  many things that we're receiving information all the time, all the time, all
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  of the time. I mean, I can't even express myself enough when I
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  say that we're experiencing it. And the more that we talk about we start
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  giving other people that awareness, and now they're starting to pay attention from a
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  different perspective, paying attention and having an awareness of what their thoughts are,
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  so that we if we know what our thoughts are, we know what's dropping
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  in Again, reminding people know your energy that way, when you go into
• 1:13:28
  another person's energy or when someone else comes into your space and that's now in
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  your energy, you recognize what's not yours. So you don't have to be
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  a match to that energy, but you could be loved for that energy.
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  Yeah, And if you want things to change, you have to change.
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  There's no could or maybe or no. You have to change. Be the
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  generational change, stop the cycle, stop perpetuating eating, generational wounding, and
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  do something different. That's on you. That's pointing at BEV, but that's
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  on you as the audience, just like us Amy and Bev. We have
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  to be the change. We have to do something different to heal the generational
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  wounds or ancestral wounds, or however you want to term it. So you
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  got to make a change. What you think about, how you're feeling,
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  how you're perceiving things, do your healing work, all of it. There's
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  a whole package that pertains to each individual on this planet, and then collectively
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  we affect each other. So and this has been a big year because it's
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  all introspection, it's all internal stuff. Now we're going in next year's an
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  eight year? Is that correct? Yea? And what does that mean?
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  Right off the top of your head? So infinity comes to mind because of
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  the eighth symbol. So yeah, like things are starting. Yeah, that's
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  where things come to fruition. So all the work that we're doing this year,
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  okay, because that makes sense. The nine is where we wrap things
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  up, We clear up things come you know, we got clear clean things
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  up so we can start the next one year, which is new Beginnings.
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  So and then even as I'm only bringing this up real quick, if someone
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  needs a HEROD, I guess, but even knowing that we're coming into September,
• 1:15:25
  which is also a nine, which we'll see a lot of completions,
• 1:15:29
  a lot of endings, which only means new beginnings for a lot of things.
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  And new beginnings are amazing if you're if you're going out there. Someone
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  made a comment to me the other day which was huge, because I'll be
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  leaving massage at some point after this year, and I know that it's like
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  just take take your walk out your front door and then go wherever spirit guide
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  you do, whatever spirit guide you that day, Like honestly, really to
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  look at that path and we get these nudges all the time, and it's
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  an awareness because your body's gonna take you where you need to go. And
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  if it takes you away from your home for two weeks and then next thing
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  you know, it guides you right back home. It was just part of
• 1:16:06
  the journey. And if we're always following life that way, it's more of
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  a journey of fun and interest in gosh, where am I going to go
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  next? Like, well, how exciting is this? Can this be?
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  Because I'm not attached to my truck anymore, I'm not attached to the things
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  I have, I'm not attached to all these things. How can your life
• 1:16:24
  look differently now, So I just want to kind of put that out there.
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  I know we're wrapping it up a couple of times, but these things
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  are popping in, so it's like just sharing it. Yeah, it's going
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  at me now. I'm just like, we could keep talking for another two
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  hours, I know, but I do have to download this so that does
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  take some time. And it's true, it's true. So thank you.
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  Yeah, so thanks everybody for hanging out with us, watching us live or
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  on the replay, and be sure to share us let other people know we're
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  here. We had these conversations every week and um, hopefully you get something
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  out of it that's beneficial. And whatever doesn't resonate doesn't resonate. It's not
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  gonna it's not gonna hurt our feelings. By no means no no, watch
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  it. Yeah, come back and watch it in a month or two and
• 1:17:16
  see if there's more the resonates. That's true. And again, where are
• 1:17:20
  you sitting at when you're going to sit down and watch it? Hey?
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  Yeah, all right, my friends, thanks for watching tea time with Amy
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  and Babel. See you next time. Okay, b