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Will You Believe God or Not? | FT. Cortne Miller | EP65 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl, Jessica and Smith, and you already
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  Speaker 3: For another day. Hey, hey, I know we could be
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  Speaker 2: Wake up, everybody. Let's go up, get on the good foot,
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  Speaker 1: Chased the lean baby, do it again. That's that's that's it,
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  Speaker 1: What G said, you know I like to make songs
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  Speaker 1: on the just call me DJ, just just vibe. You
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  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying on the one, two threes and
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  Speaker 1: the fold A, B, C, D, E F G. You
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  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. You want to be like me?
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  Speaker 1: Like they're like a certain criteria that you need to
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  Speaker 1: be called the DJ. Do you meet those standards? I
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  Speaker 1: think I am the standard. Oh okay, okay, I mean
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  Speaker 1: you can find me at club. I have different the
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  Speaker 1: point of okay, Yeah, I DJ y'all gotta give me
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  Speaker 1: a name though, because I feel like, don't do it,
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  Speaker 1: don't the courage, but you like this desil ray doesn't
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  Speaker 1: doesn't rain, doesn't rain, doesn't right? I mean you did
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  Speaker 1: do one thing right, Oh I did that? That's I
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  Speaker 1: did right?
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  Speaker 2: How about you?
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  Speaker 1: You switched to yourself when I do your song? We're good.
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  Speaker 1: Let's go, Welcome to just that's part looking at the camera.
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  Speaker 1: But you, Jessica, so it's not working. That's what you're
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  Speaker 1: trying to tell me. It's working. Let's go. That's alread.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not moving forward until you switch yourself. Thank you,
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  Speaker 1: You're welcome. This is I'm sorry. We got a guess
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  Speaker 1: and she acting up.
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  Speaker 2: She's acting.
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  Speaker 1: Well, y'all, I guess she acted out of y'all. It's
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  Speaker 1: another it's another one. It's another one, y'all. Welcome back
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  Speaker 1: to just As, the podcast where we create a safe
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  Speaker 1: space for influencers to decompress, have fun, and guess what
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  Speaker 1: just yes, yes, indeed, yes, indeed listen. I'm really excited
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  Speaker 1: about who we have today because I feel like I'm
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  Speaker 1: about to learn something. What about you that Arne? Yes,
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  Speaker 1: I think the Lord is bringing some intellect and I'm
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  Speaker 1: gonna pull on my notepack. I wish i'd want to
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  Speaker 1: put my notebook up, because I did. But at least
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  Speaker 1: we get to record this because I'm probably gonna take
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  Speaker 1: notes when I watch it again. Listen, this young lady
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  Speaker 1: is d lady, young, vibrant, holy ghost field. Let's let's
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  Speaker 1: not let's not forget about that. But money, money, money,
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  Speaker 1: miney mine. You talk about things sauce baby, that's come on.
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  Speaker 1: I mean, she's she came into don't smelling like money,
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  Speaker 1: looking like money, acting. I mean, it's just it's just
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  Speaker 1: it's the embodiment. But I love how she keeps God first,
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  Speaker 1: like at the end of the day, because she's like,
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  Speaker 1: I wouldn't have this where I am without the Lord.
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  Speaker 1: And so she is a wife, she is an entrepreneur.
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  Speaker 1: She is also a podcaster, so she's creative, and so
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  Speaker 1: I'm really excited. We we kind of go bite, We
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  Speaker 1: kind of go bite, and we might talk about that
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  Speaker 1: a little bit. But I have another, none other than
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  Speaker 1: Courtney Miller in the building. What's up? Look at her,
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  Speaker 1: give them a little glance at them earrings. Shout out
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  Speaker 1: to girls. You said, you said, who alive? Oh man?
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  Speaker 1: Those are so and it's almost it looks like the
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  Speaker 1: what we used to do as a little girl when
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  Speaker 1: we put the bees together.
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  Speaker 2: Yes, that's exactly how.
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  Speaker 1: You have to give you ato now the big ey rings.
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  Speaker 1: I'm trying to glide into the fashion team because I'm
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  Speaker 1: a little basic. As you can see, you look like
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  Speaker 1: I mean with my fashion, I'm still learning now those
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  Speaker 1: Jeanes be freak. How you feeling this?
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  Speaker 2: Man? I am good that look that intro, Lisa, We're
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  Speaker 2: about to make it run?
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  Speaker 1: What's the girl to introduce you a lot of times?
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  Speaker 1: Put that on repleat.
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  Speaker 2: That's gonna be my my music. I'm excited to be here.
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  Speaker 2: Thank you for having me, and I'm excited about this episode.
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  Speaker 2: I'm excited about this episode too because I really love
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  Speaker 2: that the fact that God does things in his timing,
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  Speaker 2: because just I've know. So let's let's give you a backstory.
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  Speaker 2: So I've known Coordney. Uh.
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  Speaker 1: We met in college the University of Alabama.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, fact check me on me.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, road tide baby, all right. Anyway, so we met
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  Speaker 1: and we met under an organization called the Afro American Gods.
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  Speaker 1: Required she danced for him his instruments of praise right,
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  Speaker 1: and so we weren't just like cool or whatever, but
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  Speaker 1: we knew who we like. That's that's fam like, that's
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  Speaker 1: how we treated each other in this organization. So it
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  Speaker 1: wasn't a lot of drama on my end, Like I
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  Speaker 1: don't know if I'm lying or not, but on whatever, Look,
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  Speaker 1: you know, I think i'd be fine to out Courtny.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm like, I can't be saying that. I gotta
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  Speaker 1: say it for myself. Yeah that I was like, I
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  Speaker 1: don't know nothing about drama. So it was just a
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  Speaker 1: free a free organization. Like we shout out to sell.
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  Speaker 1: She kept us in check and she's still keeping folks
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  Speaker 1: in chick, so shout out to her. But baby, First
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  Speaker 1: of all, when Courtney used to be dancing, okay, every
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  Speaker 1: we should have called him a demon, slaves Cardon was
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  Speaker 1: outside coming for the folks, folks with two coming folks nixt.
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  Speaker 1: So I shouldn't be surprised from what I saw there
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  Speaker 1: until what I'm seeing now, Like I just I don't know.
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  Speaker 1: I think I'm amazed. I think I'm amazed because to me,
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  Speaker 1: you say like very quiet and you very reserved, but
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  Speaker 1: now the light that you're in now I'm kind of
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  Speaker 1: like I'm scared. Yeah, I'm scared. Are you surprised at you?
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  Speaker 2: I think it's kind of always been in me. So
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  Speaker 2: I of course grew up in church, but it wasn't
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  Speaker 2: until I literally had to go through some things on
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  Speaker 2: my own in college that made me kind of realize, hey,
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  Speaker 2: court Andy, like you know, you got to have this
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  Speaker 2: relationship on your own, like coming from well, I'm from Bestment.
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  Speaker 2: Originally they're going to Birmingham and then my mom got
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  Speaker 2: married and I ended up going to Birmingham City School.
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  Speaker 2: So she was like, hey, you ain't going to Hoofman,
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  Speaker 2: but you end up putting me the school. You put
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  Speaker 2: me in one too much better from you know. So
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  Speaker 2: I kind of got to a point where like life
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  Speaker 2: was about to happen, Like I didn't know how I
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  Speaker 2: was going to college. I didn't know how, you know,
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  Speaker 2: things were going to kind of plan out. My family
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  Speaker 2: to have you know, a lot they what they could,
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  Speaker 2: so I really had to, you know, go to the
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  Speaker 2: source about exactly what it was that I was supposed
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  Speaker 2: to be doing. You know. Of course, at that age,
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  Speaker 2: you know you kind of think you know what you're
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  Speaker 2: going to do, but all of the time that's not
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  Speaker 2: necessarily how your life is going to plan out for
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  Speaker 2: me now I don't even use that degree. But back
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  Speaker 2: to your question, it doesn't surprise me because I always
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  Speaker 2: knew that there was something bigger in me. But when
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  Speaker 2: I tapped into, like really really tapped into knowing God
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  Speaker 2: for me, like, my life changed. So having the Afros
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  Speaker 2: there to help kind of mold me, you know, that
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  Speaker 2: was really the life changer for real. The fact that
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  Speaker 2: there is a whole gospel choir in college at eighteen
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  Speaker 2: nineteen years old, we're going on these conferences. I'm seeing
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  Speaker 2: so many other kids, you know, really around the nation
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  Speaker 2: that we're competing with, and they love God too, you know.
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  Speaker 2: So it didn't really surprise me for real, because it's
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  Speaker 2: you know, when it's in you, it's in you, you know,
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  Speaker 2: it just takes something to bring it out.
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  Speaker 1: I love I love that you said like it was
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  Speaker 1: always in you to exude who you are now, like
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  Speaker 1: to exemplify who you are now because and I'll be honest,
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  Speaker 1: like even when we were in gospel choir, you know,
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  Speaker 1: I don't know if you noticed about me or not,
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  Speaker 1: but I'm PK. Yeah, I'm a PK. You've been in
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  Speaker 1: PK for a long time, and so all I knew
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  Speaker 1: was church. All I knew was that I needed to
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  Speaker 1: get in something and I felt like I needed a
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  Speaker 1: release and Afros was that release for me.
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  Speaker 2: And it was just fun.
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  Speaker 1: I still like friends with people now, and I believe you,
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  Speaker 1: like I still talk to KC, you know, Philip and
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  Speaker 1: our best friends on this got I see all the
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  Speaker 1: all time on Facebook and stuff like that. So it's
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  Speaker 1: just a it was a great healthy community. But I
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  Speaker 1: have to be honest and say that I don't I
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  Speaker 1: don't know. I think it it kept me from going
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  Speaker 1: too far off, Like I think God used that as
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  Speaker 1: a safety net for us, and some of the things
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  Speaker 1: that we even did along, I'm like, wow, we could
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  Speaker 1: have done that or we could have did this, So
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  Speaker 1: we were doing that, Like wow, God you really kept
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  Speaker 1: at a safe place for us, and so I'm grateful
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  Speaker 1: that he does that. So you talked about an encounter,
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  Speaker 1: Let's go let's go deeper into that, like everybody has
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  Speaker 1: an encounter, Like I'm still trying to go about that.
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  Speaker 1: Back down my line and say, okay, well which one
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  Speaker 1: was that was considered the encounter? You know how holy
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  Speaker 1: people like.
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  Speaker 2: I can't stand Like.
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  Speaker 1: I was like, can we just not get too supernatural
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  Speaker 1: about it? Like it's some some some people story like that.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not giving me wrong, but let's what it was
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  Speaker 1: your encounter that just said, Okay, God, I gotta pivot,
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  Speaker 1: I gotta I gotta make this turn. Oh.
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  Speaker 2: I got a lot of them, but I think for me,
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  Speaker 2: the main one was getting ready, So preparing for college.
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  Speaker 2: My mama always say, hey, be careful, idea, you don't
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  Speaker 2: want to She would always say, you don't want to
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  Speaker 2: bring nothing back that you can't get rid of. She
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  Speaker 2: always say, child, that sounds like like you. So I'm
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  Speaker 2: over here. I like, okay, you know that, Like of course,
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  Speaker 2: anything can happen to anybody, but they're like, that can't
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  Speaker 2: happen to me, Like I got this something.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, So I found.
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  Speaker 2: Myself and it wasn't anything I couldn't get rid of.
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  Speaker 2: But I did end up finding myself in a place
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  Speaker 2: where I got caught up with someone that I knew
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  Speaker 2: I shouldn't have been with, and he brought me something back.
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  Speaker 2: And when I say that, like when people talk about
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  Speaker 2: like depression, that was like my first depression or depressive episode.
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  Speaker 2: I literally didn't eat. I had got down to ninety
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  Speaker 2: nine pounds at nineteen years old. What ninety nine pounds?
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  Speaker 2: I look back now on pictures and my neck like
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  Speaker 2: I can literally look at and just see like everything
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  Speaker 2: like like now it's you know, it's full. I gotta look.
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  Speaker 2: I mean, I ain't too big, but I gotta love
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  Speaker 2: you don't get you know, I can really see. I
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  Speaker 2: could really see how my body was changing. Hair was
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  Speaker 2: falling out. I wasn't eating, and it really wasn't because
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  Speaker 2: of just the fact that I ended up contracting something.
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  Speaker 2: It was the fact that that was the main thing
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  Speaker 2: my mom was telling me, and I couldn't even call
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  Speaker 2: her and tell her, you know, what was going on.
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  Speaker 2: So I'm dealing with it bout myself. So I felt
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  Speaker 2: like I was dealing with it about myself. So I
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  Speaker 2: remember one day I ended up almost fainting in the shower,
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  Speaker 2: end up going to the student health center. Never forget.
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  Speaker 2: And it was in that time when like my blood
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  Speaker 2: count was low. It was like I was like literally spiral,
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  Speaker 2: like what is happening to my body? And I really
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  Speaker 2: got to a point where I'm just like Okay, God,
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  Speaker 2: like what am I doing here? Like is this time
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  Speaker 2: for me to go home, Like, did I upset you? Like, like,
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  Speaker 2: I know I'm doing stuff that I'm really supposed to
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  Speaker 2: be doing, but you know, hey, I done heard about
• 11:42
  Speaker 2: grace all my life where it's the grace, you know,
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  Speaker 2: So I got you up.
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  Speaker 1: You can't run past that because that's probably one of
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  Speaker 1: the really statements that people don't admit, you know what
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  Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like, Yo, I know God, Yeah, I got
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  Speaker 1: a relationship with God. Yeah, I'm talking to God. Did
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  Speaker 1: everybody get grace with me?
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  Speaker 2: Yeah? What do I do when I don't see it?
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  Speaker 2: When I'm praying for people and they're getting healed and
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  Speaker 2: I'm praying for healing and I ain't seen it? So
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  Speaker 2: you know, so I got to a point where I'm literally, God,
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  Speaker 2: you got to talk to me, like I really need
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  Speaker 2: you here. So I kind of just really started honing
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  Speaker 2: there really more on the f ROS. And you know,
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  Speaker 2: it wasn't even like we had certain church services and
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  Speaker 2: things like that, but it was just more of like
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  Speaker 2: the community and just being around people and you know
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  Speaker 2: that they're going through things the same way that you are.
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  Speaker 2: So that was really the biggest thing for me to say, Okay, God,
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  Speaker 2: if you help me here if you get like, just
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  Speaker 2: give me my nine back, just giving my peace back.
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  Speaker 2: You know, I wasn't eating. I was litle to cry
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  Speaker 2: and every that's not me. I'm going in the shower.
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  Speaker 2: I'm standing in the shower like like with my knees
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  Speaker 2: to my chest, you know, like, what's what's happening here? Yeah?
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  Speaker 2: So I think for me, like and it was, thank God,
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  Speaker 2: it was something that you know, it was clear. You know,
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  Speaker 2: I've never had anything again, but I think it was
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  Speaker 2: just a wake up call where first of all, like
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  Speaker 2: I said in the beginning, I knew I want supposed
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  Speaker 2: to be messing with them anyway. So the fact that
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  Speaker 2: you know who I've called you, you know who I've
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  Speaker 2: called you to be, and you playing like you planning
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  Speaker 2: on my name now, Like that's why I feel like
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  Speaker 2: God's telling me you're planning my name now, You're planning
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  Speaker 2: on my name. So you know, sometimes we have to
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  Speaker 2: go through things for God to give us a wake
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  Speaker 2: up call, give us a little self check. You know,
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  Speaker 2: you know you know who I've called you? Do you
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  Speaker 2: know who I've called you? Go back to your word
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  Speaker 2: and really see you know, hey, what what do I say?
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  Speaker 2: About you, and that's really the stepping stone to get
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  Speaker 2: in to where I am.
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  Speaker 1: Now you you you're talking real good. Look does a
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  Speaker 1: ray she talking real good? Because it even goes back
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  Speaker 1: to what you just said about the grace? Hey, get god,
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  Speaker 1: where a grace is. My response to you is that
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  Speaker 1: I've graced you for a different level. Why are you
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  Speaker 1: going back and even with the with the pigs? Why
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  Speaker 1: are you going back and back to the vomit? Like
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  Speaker 1: you're better than what you see that. Don't get ooh,
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  Speaker 1: this is so good because I give you access to
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  Speaker 1: be around the darkness does not mean you go dark.
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  Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I was like, listen, I told you, I
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  Speaker 2: told you you.
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  Speaker 1: Was talking good. You're helping me out right now. And
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  Speaker 1: so in the fact that I love how you got
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  Speaker 1: into relationship because your shirts say black, married and wealthy,
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  Speaker 1: and we're gonna get into that because you black, you married,
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  Speaker 1: and you wealthy. So so, going from us point of
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  Speaker 1: your nineteen years old, you're fooling around with people that
• 14:33
  Speaker 1: you know you don't supposed to be fooling around with.
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  Speaker 1: How do you get to be happily married? What does
• 14:40
  Speaker 1: that gap look like? Because I ain't gonna lie I
• 14:44
  Speaker 1: admire what I'm seeing. I really, I really admire and
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  Speaker 1: it's okay, I'm about to tell myself. So I watched
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  Speaker 1: the What's that? What's that? What was that show? What
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  Speaker 1: was on own? Yes, and I watched it, and I
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  Speaker 1: watched the man. I was like, oh, she a fro
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  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like, Okay, that's going on.
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  Speaker 1: And I had seen when you got engaged. I was like, whoa,
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  Speaker 1: she's on TV. Like I gotta I just got excited
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  Speaker 1: and I really want you try to be noticed. I
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  Speaker 1: was just like I was already watching the shows. I
• 15:12
  Speaker 1: was like, oh, I gotta watch I gotta watch her show.
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  Speaker 1: And that was interesting.
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  Speaker 2: Let's just get for to say the least.
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  Speaker 1: So, but it wasn't real.
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  Speaker 2: I won't say that it's fake. Okay, it's not scripted,
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  Speaker 2: but they take different clips to make it seem a
• 15:29
  Speaker 2: certain way. So how we're sitting here right now on
• 15:32
  Speaker 2: this topic, yeah, and just say later on down the
• 15:36
  Speaker 2: show we started talking about something else, they can pull
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  Speaker 2: a clip from right here and put it at the
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  Speaker 2: end of the show like we're like we're mad at
• 15:42
  Speaker 2: each other, like right now we're laughing and talking right
• 15:44
  Speaker 2: right Because baby.
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  Speaker 1: They made they made it seem like you are mad. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: Like it scared me. I was like, and I was like, oh,
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  Speaker 1: they gonna get married, like and I was, I mean,
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  Speaker 1: I knew that you end up getting married because our
• 16:00
  Speaker 1: mutual friends. They was like, oh we're going to court
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  Speaker 1: waya blah blah. But that made me nervous. So I
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  Speaker 1: was glad to see.
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  Speaker 2: And I be okay with being a villain. You know,
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  Speaker 2: it is what it is.
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  Speaker 1: How do you How are you okay with being a villain,
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  Speaker 1: because I just I don't think I get settled with that.
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  Speaker 1: Like I'm like, no, I want everybody. I guess it's people.
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  Speaker 1: Please everybody who else said don't talk to me. You
• 16:18
  Speaker 1: can read me from my risk.
• 16:22
  Speaker 2: One thing about me, and I think a lot of
• 16:23
  Speaker 2: people that know me, I understand don't care what people
• 16:26
  Speaker 2: say anymore anymore and anymore, Yeah, I definitely don't care
• 16:30
  Speaker 2: what people say anymore. And I feel that it took
• 16:32
  Speaker 2: it definitely took some time to get here. But when
• 16:35
  Speaker 2: you know who you are, when you know your heart,
• 16:37
  Speaker 2: your integrity speaks for you. So it doesn't matter what
• 16:40
  Speaker 2: this person says. When I have people that know for
• 16:44
  Speaker 2: a fact, how I've treated them how I act on
• 16:47
  Speaker 2: the regular, you know, because people will trying to you know,
• 16:51
  Speaker 2: not necessarily knowing who you are, but they'll try to
• 16:54
  Speaker 2: just put together like, oh, well she looked like this,
• 16:56
  Speaker 2: so she looks like that. Like you said, I look reserved.
• 17:00
  Speaker 2: I mean, you know.
• 17:06
  Speaker 1: Her husband over here. It's like, no, fam, no, no,
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  Speaker 1: try again.
• 17:11
  Speaker 2: You know what, people are trying to kind of base
• 17:13
  Speaker 2: who you are based off of how they feel or
• 17:16
  Speaker 2: how they look at themselves and how they feel about themselves.
• 17:19
  Speaker 2: And I had to get to a point where I
• 17:22
  Speaker 2: understood how you feel about me don't have nothing to
• 17:26
  Speaker 2: do with me. It has all the things to do
• 17:29
  Speaker 2: with you, especially if you're holding on to something, you
• 17:32
  Speaker 2: have a problem or think I've said something a certain way,
• 17:35
  Speaker 2: talk about it, because I can't reach your mind. I
• 17:38
  Speaker 2: don't know exactly you know what I've done. And I
• 17:41
  Speaker 2: tell I tell people all the time. Baby, tell me
• 17:43
  Speaker 2: what's going on, so I can apologize and we can
• 17:44
  Speaker 2: move on, so I can, like, I don't mind saying
• 17:48
  Speaker 2: I'm sorry. I don't mind saying that was my fault,
• 17:51
  Speaker 2: that was my baby. I don't mind saying it because ultimately,
• 17:54
  Speaker 2: in my heart, I ain't mean it. Now, some stuff
• 17:56
  Speaker 2: I mean and I'm gonna stand on it, you know.
• 17:58
  Speaker 2: But more than likely, you know, I'm not just out here,
• 18:02
  Speaker 2: especially people that I love. I'm not out here intentionally
• 18:04
  Speaker 2: hurting you, intentionally trying to be this certain person. So
• 18:07
  Speaker 2: I honestly just let my interior to speak for me.
• 18:09
  Speaker 2: People that have have never met me, people that have
• 18:11
  Speaker 2: met me, you know, they can speak on who I am.
• 18:15
  Speaker 2: And I know who I am. I know who guy
• 18:17
  Speaker 2: has called me to be, and I know that that
• 18:19
  Speaker 2: I'm trying to be the line. I'm not perfect, you know.
• 18:22
  Speaker 2: I don't always say stuff the right way I spoke,
• 18:25
  Speaker 2: and I will apologize for that. But I have gone
• 18:27
  Speaker 2: to a point when I really know that I stand
• 18:30
  Speaker 2: on integrity. I stand on making sure that I teach,
• 18:32
  Speaker 2: I treat people right. I stand on making sure that
• 18:35
  Speaker 2: you know I'm in good literally and good standing with
• 18:39
  Speaker 2: people like I remember when he and I first met,
• 18:42
  Speaker 2: Jake us to tell me all the time, them is
• 18:43
  Speaker 2: your friends, like you're more of a friend of them
• 18:45
  Speaker 2: than they are to you. And because of my love
• 18:49
  Speaker 2: for people, because I like when I when when when
• 18:51
  Speaker 2: I'm with you, I'm with you. You know when you're
• 18:54
  Speaker 2: my friend. I can consider you a friend like you
• 18:57
  Speaker 2: can have anything. You know, so when you love people
• 19:01
  Speaker 2: like that, you really developed just this and it's not
• 19:04
  Speaker 2: I don't care, it's just I know that's not me.
• 19:08
  Speaker 2: So I'm not going to allow you to just paint
• 19:10
  Speaker 2: me to be this person. And if you do that,
• 19:12
  Speaker 2: ain't got nothing to do with me. I'm okay, I'm
• 19:14
  Speaker 2: still stantinos on who Courtney is, you know.
• 19:17
  Speaker 1: I think that's so amazing. I'm fnna be transparent with you.
• 19:21
  Speaker 1: So I have this thing where I can't really say
• 19:25
  Speaker 1: it anymore. But I used to be like, I don't
• 19:27
  Speaker 1: do women. You know what I'm saying, mom trauma or
• 19:31
  Speaker 1: whatever you want to call it, heartbreak, all this stuff
• 19:33
  Speaker 1: like that. And I trusted me and way more than women.
• 19:35
  Speaker 1: I would want to be around men all the time,
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: whether you know platonic or not, you know what I'm saying,
• 19:41
  Speaker 1: And like women like you of your stature would intimidate
• 19:44
  Speaker 1: me because you were so sure about yourself. I had
• 19:47
  Speaker 1: to get to a understanding of it intimidated me because
• 19:51
  Speaker 1: you were sure and I wasn't. So when you say, yeah,
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: it has everything to do with the opposite person. If
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: you really we're really honest about ourselves and looking at
• 19:59
  Speaker 1: a woman, a woman, you know what I'm saying, like,
• 20:02
  Speaker 1: and it's being sure and then having what you have
• 20:06
  Speaker 1: if we're honest, like you're married. For me, I'm not
• 20:11
  Speaker 1: in your household. I'm not in your day to day
• 20:12
  Speaker 1: to day, but I'm looking at you and I'm looking
• 20:14
  Speaker 1: at you know, your nine to five sayings and how
• 20:17
  Speaker 1: you're motivating people to entrepreneurship, Like I'm looking at all
• 20:20
  Speaker 1: of this and I'm like, dang, she got it. Even
• 20:24
  Speaker 1: now like as the I guess more confident version of myself,
• 20:29
  Speaker 1: I'm like, dang, she got it. And so I think
• 20:33
  Speaker 1: it's I think we have to first of all, be
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: honest like I was with you, just say you know,
• 20:38
  Speaker 1: this is security that I have about me, and you
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: remind me of that insecurity and just be okay with
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: you remind me of insecurity because you might be able
• 20:47
  Speaker 1: to teach me how to come out of that, because
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: I don't know if you had that relationship with insecurity
• 20:51
  Speaker 1: like that. You know what I'm saying, And so what
• 20:54
  Speaker 1: has made you so sure of who you are? Having
• 20:58
  Speaker 1: people tell me?
• 20:59
  Speaker 2: Try to tell me who I So when I started
• 21:01
  Speaker 2: I am mentoring in ministry back in twenty sixteen. God
• 21:04
  Speaker 2: gave me that in a dream, and basically we just
• 21:08
  Speaker 2: teach women women I call it lip, how to love themselves,
• 21:12
  Speaker 2: how to be inspired, just on how to well, well,
• 21:19
  Speaker 2: I know you said you don't click. I'm sorry, I'm
• 21:21
  Speaker 2: trying to.
• 21:21
  Speaker 1: Know you by girl, we look will listen. So we
• 21:24
  Speaker 1: saw the intro and probably none of that is probably
• 21:26
  Speaker 1: gonna be cut out.
• 21:26
  Speaker 2: So yeah, the intro we get all right, but it's
• 21:29
  Speaker 2: how to love themselves, own their power, and then how
• 21:32
  Speaker 2: to basically walk in their power. So I was going
• 21:35
  Speaker 2: around speaking to kids, young girls, telling them, you know,
• 21:40
  Speaker 2: it's okay to be who God called you to be.
• 21:42
  Speaker 2: It's okay, you know, to be different and be okay with,
• 21:46
  Speaker 2: you know, not liking the same thing same things that
• 21:49
  Speaker 2: other people like, being okay with being a person in
• 21:51
  Speaker 2: your family, you know, to be the like, be the
• 21:54
  Speaker 2: first in your family for certain things, because you know,
• 21:56
  Speaker 2: of course we can get clouded with not seeing other
• 22:00
  Speaker 2: people in our family do certain things and we feel
• 22:02
  Speaker 2: like we can't. So I was so headstrong on showing
• 22:05
  Speaker 2: girls this and just really just hounting in on how
• 22:09
  Speaker 2: self esteem just really understanding like literally, who are you?
• 22:14
  Speaker 2: Who do you want to be? Who do you say
• 22:16
  Speaker 2: you are? Because so many people would try to tear
• 22:17
  Speaker 2: you down with that. And I used to model. I
• 22:20
  Speaker 2: don't know if you remember seeing those, but I remember, yeah.
• 22:23
  Speaker 2: So I used to take all different This was like
• 22:25
  Speaker 2: nineteen to like maybe twenty three, and I used to
• 22:29
  Speaker 2: take all these different kind of pictures, the music videos,
• 22:31
  Speaker 2: all kind of stuff. And I remember this lady wrote
• 22:33
  Speaker 2: me one day and she was like, Hey, I love
• 22:35
  Speaker 2: what you're doing with I am mentoring in ministry. I
• 22:37
  Speaker 2: want to sew you know, I want to you know,
• 22:40
  Speaker 2: help you with the girls like pase. Then she said,
• 22:43
  Speaker 2: well she wrote me back literally maybe fifteen minutes later
• 22:47
  Speaker 2: and was like, well, I take that back. If you're
• 22:50
  Speaker 2: going to be helping girls, you can't be taking these
• 22:52
  Speaker 2: kind of pictures. What kind of what are you are
• 22:54
  Speaker 2: you saying? To them? What kind of like how are
• 22:57
  Speaker 2: you being a role model to them with these type
• 22:59
  Speaker 2: of pictures? And at that time, you know, now, at
• 23:04
  Speaker 2: this age, I really I wouldn't do that, but back
• 23:07
  Speaker 2: then it was really more so of showing girls what's possible,
• 23:11
  Speaker 2: and you're not even though like I'm still not the picture,
• 23:14
  Speaker 2: you know, showing them like you can take you can
• 23:16
  Speaker 2: be tasteful. You can take the pictures that you want
• 23:18
  Speaker 2: to take, but at the same time, make sure that
• 23:22
  Speaker 2: you're not doing it for others. This is what you
• 23:24
  Speaker 2: love like I love like at the end of the day,
• 23:26
  Speaker 2: I love my body. I love me if I take
• 23:28
  Speaker 2: these pictures because I love it and I'm okay with it.
• 23:31
  Speaker 2: And I remember when Jed and I first met. The
• 23:34
  Speaker 2: first question my family asked them, Hey, you okay, we're
• 23:36
  Speaker 2: taking it like they couldn't wait to get him to
• 23:38
  Speaker 2: the table, the dinner table. You okay, we'bout taking no
• 23:40
  Speaker 2: pictures and we laugh about it to this day. But
• 23:42
  Speaker 2: he was just like like, yeah, it's just it's just pictures.
• 23:46
  Speaker 2: And I had like that said something to me because
• 23:49
  Speaker 2: it's like, Okay, there are people who look at you
• 23:53
  Speaker 2: for you. There are people who see you for who
• 23:56
  Speaker 2: you are and not necessarily off of what you what
• 24:00
  Speaker 2: you do, because you know, we're in a society. Of
• 24:02
  Speaker 2: course people do based off based what you do, off
• 24:05
  Speaker 2: of who you are, but that's not always the case.
• 24:07
  Speaker 2: Like if you look at actors and actresses. We look
• 24:10
  Speaker 2: at these shows and we see the person out. We
• 24:13
  Speaker 2: calling them the character that they are in the movie,
• 24:15
  Speaker 2: you know, but that's their job, that's not necessarily who
• 24:18
  Speaker 2: they are. And I think I had to be able
• 24:21
  Speaker 2: to decipher the two, be able to know the difference
• 24:25
  Speaker 2: between who Courtney is and what these pictures are representing,
• 24:29
  Speaker 2: and who Courtney is and what Courtney can can tell
• 24:32
  Speaker 2: these young girls, you know. So for me, it just
• 24:35
  Speaker 2: got to a point where, you know, I know who
• 24:38
  Speaker 2: you all have said that I who you all have said.
• 24:40
  Speaker 2: I am who you all have said.
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: I'm not.
• 24:43
  Speaker 2: Let me get in here and see who God says
• 24:45
  Speaker 2: I am. Like I had some long conversations with Okay, God,
• 24:47
  Speaker 2: you finna have to have to pay this thing out
• 24:50
  Speaker 2: for me all together. But we get to a point
• 24:52
  Speaker 2: that like we don't hear God talk, but it's in
• 24:54
  Speaker 2: his word already that is so good. His word has
• 24:58
  Speaker 2: already told me that he calls me head and not
• 25:00
  Speaker 2: to tell He has already told me like you are
• 25:03
  Speaker 2: above every like you have authority over everything on the earth.
• 25:07
  Speaker 2: So if I know these, regardless of what any person
• 25:10
  Speaker 2: that come to me say, I have authority over that thing.
• 25:14
  Speaker 2: And I think that's really what gets me to a
• 25:17
  Speaker 2: point of you know, like I'm made in God's image,
• 25:22
  Speaker 2: So if he gave me the dream, if he gave
• 25:24
  Speaker 2: me the idea, and of course, you know, I do
• 25:26
  Speaker 2: believe that we kind of can you know, sway a
• 25:29
  Speaker 2: little bit on our own thinking, of course, but ultimately
• 25:33
  Speaker 2: because I care the spirit with me, and I like,
• 25:37
  Speaker 2: I know my past is talking about seeking now like
• 25:39
  Speaker 2: I seek his ways, I seek you know, his direction.
• 25:43
  Speaker 2: Then at this point like I'm I'm I'm going to
• 25:47
  Speaker 2: path that he said, like everything that I did, rather
• 25:50
  Speaker 2: it was the pictures, rather it was you know, contracting,
• 25:54
  Speaker 2: the SCD, whatever it was, it was all designed for
• 25:58
  Speaker 2: me to get here where I am now, So who
• 26:00
  Speaker 2: are you to come in here and tell me because
• 26:02
  Speaker 2: you met me on a bad day, or because you
• 26:04
  Speaker 2: know you feel that I should do something a different way?
• 26:07
  Speaker 2: Who are you to tell me who I am?
• 26:09
  Speaker 1: Yeah? What you just said just kind of like resonated
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: with me a lot, because I've been singeing stuff too.
• 26:15
  Speaker 1: What's her name, Coco, Coco Jones, Coke. I think that's
• 26:18
  Speaker 1: the lady Nigger. Yeah, it's them by vocals something by
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: y'all gonna be so mad, Get out, y'all, righteous living
• 26:30
  Speaker 1: y'all know, I'll know that song. But her beautiful young lady.
• 26:34
  Speaker 1: And I was watching an interview that she did when
• 26:38
  Speaker 1: was talking about how she hears Holy Spirit and and
• 26:42
  Speaker 1: she was just like saying that, you know, she doesn't
• 26:44
  Speaker 1: make decisions without God, but because everybody put her as
• 26:49
  Speaker 1: a tagline, especially with this song about hands on the body,
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, She's singing that and it's like,
• 26:54
  Speaker 1: but I still go with God, you know what I'm saying.
• 26:57
  Speaker 1: She was talking. Basically, the conversation was like they were
• 26:59
  Speaker 1: trying to get her to wear some very provocative clothes
• 27:02
  Speaker 1: and she wasn't really comfortable, but she said, I don't
• 27:04
  Speaker 1: know if I can say something, So she went to
• 27:06
  Speaker 1: God about it and literally it worked out. She didn't
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: even tell them that she was uncomfortable. She went back
• 27:10
  Speaker 1: to God. And so I think, in this in this
• 27:13
  Speaker 1: space where I feel like I feel like people like
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: limit God on what he can do and what he
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: can use, talk about it and it's like, you're basically
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: saying that whatever I did, I still glorify God. How
• 27:26
  Speaker 1: do you how do like? I don't think people can
• 27:28
  Speaker 1: really grasp that concept because it's like it don't look
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: like God. But what does God look like?
• 27:32
  Speaker 2: Right?
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: Right? Like? What does God what?
• 27:35
  Speaker 2: You have to also think about how we put God
• 27:39
  Speaker 2: in a box because we want him to answer the
• 27:42
  Speaker 2: way that we want him to answer. So when we
• 27:44
  Speaker 2: pray about things, when we ask him, you know, for
• 27:48
  Speaker 2: whatever it is that we're needing at the time, we
• 27:52
  Speaker 2: want him to show up the way that we want
• 27:54
  Speaker 2: him to. We want him to tell us to pull
• 27:56
  Speaker 2: up in the drive through, grab this number three, get
• 27:59
  Speaker 2: this this person drinking right here. He's not going to
• 28:01
  Speaker 2: do it. He's every time. It's not going to be
• 28:04
  Speaker 2: like that. And we will miss God if we want
• 28:07
  Speaker 2: him to show up in a certain way or look
• 28:09
  Speaker 2: a certain way. So just because someone sings, you know,
• 28:14
  Speaker 2: R and B music, doesn't mean that they didn't hear God.
• 28:17
  Speaker 2: Just because someone does something that doesn't look like you
• 28:20
  Speaker 2: feel it should look doesn't mean that it doesn't it's
• 28:24
  Speaker 2: not god like for me. I yes, I went to college.
• 28:27
  Speaker 2: I do not use my college degree. And what was
• 28:29
  Speaker 2: your degree in health science? So originally I was going
• 28:32
  Speaker 2: to pharmacy school. So I got a bachelor's in general
• 28:38
  Speaker 2: health science with a concentration in uh pre pharmacy and
• 28:41
  Speaker 2: I did all of my pre ricks to get me
• 28:43
  Speaker 2: ready for a pharmacy school, but it didn't take me
• 28:46
  Speaker 2: long to realize that I was not going to school
• 28:50
  Speaker 2: out of here. You know, it ain't take me too
• 28:53
  Speaker 2: long to realize it. But I've always been creative, and
• 28:58
  Speaker 2: now that I with my government job. That's why I
• 29:02
  Speaker 2: always call myself the nine to five drop out. Like
• 29:05
  Speaker 2: I if I ask, like literally, I ask God, Lord,
• 29:09
  Speaker 2: please make it away. Well, I will never have to
• 29:11
  Speaker 2: go back to another person's job. Now, don't get me wrong,
• 29:13
  Speaker 2: I don't think anything is wrong with anyone working a
• 29:16
  Speaker 2: nine to five. However, that's not for me. But people
• 29:20
  Speaker 2: look at it like, well, it's one way to make money. Yeah,
• 29:24
  Speaker 2: it's one like when when people start praying and asking
• 29:27
  Speaker 2: God to bless them and give them money or whatever.
• 29:31
  Speaker 2: You think it's gonna come by get a second job,
• 29:33
  Speaker 2: or you think it's gonna come by you know, getting
• 29:36
  Speaker 2: a new position. It doesn't always come like that. God,
• 29:38
  Speaker 2: may you may have a talent that looks like that,
• 29:42
  Speaker 2: something you can bless people with, or you can create
• 29:45
  Speaker 2: something with your hands and create and make more money
• 29:47
  Speaker 2: that way. But I know we're gonna get it to
• 29:50
  Speaker 2: that but get into that. You know, what I'm saying
• 29:55
  Speaker 2: is a lot of people look at it like you
• 29:58
  Speaker 2: have to do things one type of in order to
• 30:00
  Speaker 2: please God, or you have to do things one type
• 30:03
  Speaker 2: of way in order for it to look like is
• 30:05
  Speaker 2: God Like. I'm more let me see how to say this,
• 30:10
  Speaker 2: because you know, I'm more focused on being like God
• 30:17
  Speaker 2: and looking like God. People can look you can look holy.
• 30:23
  Speaker 2: Then that goes back to you know, making sure that
• 30:25
  Speaker 2: you don't wear these certain kind of clothes and take them.
• 30:28
  Speaker 2: But when your heart ness and you ain't loving people
• 30:30
  Speaker 2: what that means? So what does it matter to look
• 30:36
  Speaker 2: the part but your heart not be the part? Which
• 30:39
  Speaker 2: is what He's concerned about. Anyway, He don't even care
• 30:43
  Speaker 2: about all that stuff. He tells us to love people,
• 30:46
  Speaker 2: love him, and love people.
• 30:48
  Speaker 1: That's what he said. And I think we quickly forget
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: that because real talk. Why are we surprised that it's
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: so many Kingdom minded people or Christians that's doing so well?
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: Why are we surprised about that? I had to check
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: myself by that. I'm like, oh my god, they believe
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: in God, Oh my gosh, they go to church.
• 31:07
  Speaker 2: Oh my God. I'm like, well, one because we're so
• 31:10
  Speaker 2: used to people, we're so used to seeing Christians not yeah,
• 31:16
  Speaker 2: not looked apart, not have so. Jed and I have
• 31:19
  Speaker 2: a conversation all the time, and I might get in
• 31:22
  Speaker 2: trouble for saying this, but I'm gonna see it because
• 31:23
  Speaker 2: that's how I feel. I believe people that do not
• 31:31
  Speaker 2: believe in God believe more than we do. No, you're
• 31:38
  Speaker 2: you're so they know the principles, the principles. They know
• 31:42
  Speaker 2: the Word more than a lot of us. They know
• 31:45
  Speaker 2: the Prince, and they follow the principles. And because you're
• 31:48
  Speaker 2: following the principles, they're seeing the fruits.
• 31:50
  Speaker 1: It don't require you to be a Christian for the principles.
• 31:53
  Speaker 2: It doesn't. He came for the like, the just and
• 31:56
  Speaker 2: the unjust. He came for everybody, not just because we
• 32:00
  Speaker 2: we say out our mouth that we declare one. Became
• 32:04
  Speaker 2: all of us. It's the principle that matters. So that's
• 32:09
  Speaker 2: why we get and I love I should anytime I
• 32:13
  Speaker 2: see somebody, especially that that love God. You know, I'm
• 32:17
  Speaker 2: proud to see that fruit. I'm proud to see that.
• 32:20
  Speaker 2: You know, you're okay. Because so many people are are
• 32:24
  Speaker 2: just so against having more. Why do you have to
• 32:29
  Speaker 2: call it? Why do you have to say you know
• 32:31
  Speaker 2: it's from the devil or it's they love the money.
• 32:35
  Speaker 2: It's the root of all evil. Baby. We need we
• 32:38
  Speaker 2: need it, We need it what I want to do,
• 32:41
  Speaker 2: for what I need to do, for what I want
• 32:43
  Speaker 2: to do for those around me, for what I want
• 32:45
  Speaker 2: to build. But I ain't gonna get it just from praying.
• 32:48
  Speaker 2: I need some sources.
• 32:51
  Speaker 1: Listen, I'm sorry, No, you know you're talking really really
• 32:56
  Speaker 1: well because the thing, the thing about it is the
• 32:59
  Speaker 1: reason why. And this even segue into what you help
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: people do. From my understanding, you help people get gain
• 33:06
  Speaker 1: the confidence to use their creativity and executing it right
• 33:09
  Speaker 1: and make money off what they're doing. I can feel
• 33:12
  Speaker 1: you on that. Come on, come on in you good.
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: Oh yep, it's it's live and listen. We do we
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: do this all the time. But what you said is
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: so profound because this is what irritates me. Well, when
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: I hear people get mad about preachers and pastors thriving,
• 33:35
  Speaker 1: that's crazy. But why do you want your leader to
• 33:38
  Speaker 1: be broke? Why would why would I want a leader
• 33:42
  Speaker 1: that ain't ever you talking about prosperity and God can
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: do a healing it, but he ain't healed your finances.
• 33:47
  Speaker 2: Come on, why why am I listening to you?
• 33:50
  Speaker 1: So now I can But we're talking about we're talking
• 33:55
  Speaker 1: about we're talking about being living righteous and living kingdom,
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: but you living by choice and you mad at your
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: pastor because he's actually exit or he or she is
• 34:06
  Speaker 1: actually executing the word and the will of God, like
• 34:08
  Speaker 1: I can't really. I was like, Lord, do we really
• 34:10
  Speaker 1: have prosperity teachers or do they just teach a portion
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: of the word or heavily a portion? And I think
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: we needed that because so many times were just like, oh,
• 34:18
  Speaker 1: the Lord's gonna save me and they gonna pay this bill. No,
• 34:21
  Speaker 1: he's gonna give you strategy like we I'm in this
• 34:24
  Speaker 1: season now, he's gonna give you strategies and he's gonna
• 34:27
  Speaker 1: give you gifts and talents to execute in a form
• 34:29
  Speaker 1: of a seed so you can grow so that you
• 34:32
  Speaker 1: can build upon.
• 34:35
  Speaker 2: And the watch.
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: She does not even just gained the money, the wealth,
• 34:38
  Speaker 1: all that stuff like, but gained the wisdom so you
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: can teach it. That's legacy. Yes, that's legacy. So I
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: don't understand it. So let's let's get into how you Okay,
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: so you you you went from for I don't want
• 34:49
  Speaker 1: to do this job to now I want to want
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: to be creative or whatever. Was there a transitional point
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: or did you give God a time stand? Like?
• 34:56
  Speaker 2: What is that?
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: What does that part of your story look like?
• 34:58
  Speaker 2: Yes, so I sold a whole bunch of stuff, let's
• 35:01
  Speaker 2: just say. But in twenty eighteen I started im Fit
• 35:05
  Speaker 2: and it was I am Faith and training and basically
• 35:10
  Speaker 2: God gave me the idea from everything that we deal with,
• 35:14
  Speaker 2: we go through, we experience, is a battleground to train
• 35:18
  Speaker 2: your faith. Literally everything that we do and with my ministries,
• 35:26
  Speaker 2: I never really wanted to make money from them, you know,
• 35:30
  Speaker 2: and it could have been just a mindset thing for me.
• 35:33
  Speaker 2: But I was selling athletic war and so the im
• 35:38
  Speaker 2: Fit athletes were off. That went together and I ended
• 35:40
  Speaker 2: up closing that business one because I can speak to
• 35:47
  Speaker 2: people and connect with people without having to necessarily use
• 35:52
  Speaker 2: that to sell them. Like we see so many of
• 35:54
  Speaker 2: these Christian brands popping up. And I'm not saying all
• 35:57
  Speaker 2: of them, you know, are using God's you know, for profit,
• 36:01
  Speaker 2: but there are quite a lot, you know. So I
• 36:04
  Speaker 2: was like, I don't have to do that in order
• 36:06
  Speaker 2: to reach artists, in order to minister to people, I
• 36:08
  Speaker 2: don't have to do that. So and then it also
• 36:11
  Speaker 2: wasn't as lucrative as I wanted it to be as well.
• 36:15
  Speaker 2: So I was like, okay, I still can do what
• 36:17
  Speaker 2: I'm what I'm doing now without the clothing piece and
• 36:19
  Speaker 2: clothing it's just it's a whole lot. It just take
• 36:21
  Speaker 2: a whole nother.
• 36:23
  Speaker 1: Just a lot.
• 36:24
  Speaker 2: So I was like, Okay, we're going to go ahead
• 36:26
  Speaker 2: and close that one. But I knew it would always
• 36:29
  Speaker 2: it was. I still wanted to be entrepreneur. Even when
• 36:31
  Speaker 2: I was in school. I would have my mom at
• 36:33
  Speaker 2: Sam's buying power Raids and Big Texas so I can
• 36:36
  Speaker 2: sell them to the kids at school.
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: So you always got to the money.
• 36:40
  Speaker 2: I've always been an entrepreneur. So I end up closing
• 36:45
  Speaker 2: that business, and I ended up birthing Creative Kids Jewry.
• 36:49
  Speaker 2: And what Creative Kids jurry is we just teach children
• 36:52
  Speaker 2: to be you, you know, to be like I sell
• 36:54
  Speaker 2: all custom jewelry, so I teach kids to or the
• 36:58
  Speaker 2: brand message is to be you and to own who
• 37:02
  Speaker 2: you are and your differences and your uniqueness through creating jewelry.
• 37:06
  Speaker 2: That looks like you, so whatever. Like I get little
• 37:09
  Speaker 2: girls all the time. They don't like pink and purple.
• 37:11
  Speaker 2: They like blue and greens and blacks, you know, and
• 37:14
  Speaker 2: things like that. So it feels so good to be
• 37:16
  Speaker 2: able to create jewelry for them where they can express
• 37:19
  Speaker 2: themselves how they see fit and not how the world
• 37:22
  Speaker 2: tells you because you're a girl, you are pink. No,
• 37:25
  Speaker 2: I'm a girl, but I wear what I want to
• 37:26
  Speaker 2: wear because I like it. So I ended up seeing
• 37:31
  Speaker 2: this video about drop shipping, and I remember telling Git.
• 37:36
  Speaker 2: I was like, hey, I can't do this at work anymore.
• 37:38
  Speaker 2: Like I'm at a point now where you know, it's
• 37:42
  Speaker 2: getting like real bad mentally. You know, I contemplated suicide.
• 37:46
  Speaker 2: I have just bought a gun, and I never forget
• 37:50
  Speaker 2: it was literally sit on the side of the bed
• 37:52
  Speaker 2: and one day like I would get really really like
• 37:55
  Speaker 2: have really bad panic attacks. Yeah, right before I go
• 37:58
  Speaker 2: to bed, just thinking out the next day. And I
• 38:02
  Speaker 2: had a hard monitor for about a week since I
• 38:04
  Speaker 2: was having experiencing heart palpitations. So I was just trying
• 38:07
  Speaker 2: to figure out, you know, what is going on. So
• 38:09
  Speaker 2: of course my dactor is saying anxiety, You're anxious I
• 38:11
  Speaker 2: can give you medicine. No, I don't want medicine. I
• 38:13
  Speaker 2: already know what the problem is, you know, But I'll
• 38:16
  Speaker 2: never forget hearing a voice literally in my head. You
• 38:20
  Speaker 2: didn't buy that gun for protection, You bought it for you.
• 38:23
  Speaker 2: I will never never forget it. So I mean, you
• 38:27
  Speaker 2: got to think about it. I'm already like I'm just
• 38:28
  Speaker 2: working the pay bills like it's a never anenter cycle
• 38:31
  Speaker 2: at this point, you know, I know God got something
• 38:34
  Speaker 2: better for me. But I've literally been praying, praying, praying.
• 38:37
  Speaker 2: Nothing has changed. I have like this stack of prayers
• 38:41
  Speaker 2: that I would literally pray, and if you just started following,
• 38:43
  Speaker 2: but if anybody that followed me, like years ago when
• 38:46
  Speaker 2: I was working, I would literally write a prayer out
• 38:49
  Speaker 2: every day and put it on, put it in like
• 38:52
  Speaker 2: this little stack of like index cards, and you know,
• 38:55
  Speaker 2: just just asking God, like God, I know you hear me,
• 38:58
  Speaker 2: like like what's happening? What we're doing here?
• 39:00
  Speaker 1: Yeah?
• 39:01
  Speaker 2: And I ended up going so one day random Lejit
• 39:06
  Speaker 2: just asked me he would always do check ins, you know.
• 39:09
  Speaker 2: One day he was intentional, like real intentional, like hey
• 39:12
  Speaker 2: you good, like what's going on? And I would just
• 39:15
  Speaker 2: be like I'm good, you know, you know, it's cool.
• 39:18
  Speaker 2: But I ended up just telling him, you know what
• 39:20
  Speaker 2: I had been experiencing, and he said, no, like you
• 39:24
  Speaker 2: can quit today, Like you can you can quit now.
• 39:26
  Speaker 1: So I was like, well, you know, we.
• 39:28
  Speaker 2: Had just kind of moved in. It was middle of
• 39:30
  Speaker 2: the pandemic, first of all. First of all, it's the
• 39:32
  Speaker 2: middle of the pandemic. Quitting a good job and there,
• 39:37
  Speaker 2: and we had just bought a house. Yeah, a y'all
• 39:41
  Speaker 2: married at this point, we're married. This was twenty twenty one, twenty.
• 39:44
  Speaker 2: So I started working there in twenty eighteen, twenty seventeen,
• 39:50
  Speaker 2: twenty eighteen. Yeah, and I stayed about three and a
• 39:53
  Speaker 2: half years. And you know, he's kind of he didn't
• 39:57
  Speaker 2: like his job at the time, but then he had
• 39:59
  Speaker 2: been and kind of praying about becoming a firefighter and everything.
• 40:03
  Speaker 2: So we were waiting for the tests to come through.
• 40:06
  Speaker 2: Here took the test a couple of times. So it's
• 40:08
  Speaker 2: just a lot that's kind of going through my mind
• 40:10
  Speaker 2: right now, Like, you know, if I let this, y'all go,
• 40:13
  Speaker 2: what we're gonna do. Hey, let's think about it. So
• 40:17
  Speaker 2: he was like the next day, I was like, I'm
• 40:20
  Speaker 2: thinking about it. I think I'm gonna go part time. First,
• 40:23
  Speaker 2: first of all, gud had already told me it was
• 40:24
  Speaker 2: time to go. First God told me it was time
• 40:27
  Speaker 2: to go, and then when he confirmed it. So of course,
• 40:32
  Speaker 2: anybody I had worked since I was sixteen years old. Yeah,
• 40:35
  Speaker 2: so anybody that's kind of thinking about what they can do,
• 40:41
  Speaker 2: they're like, no, I can't let this y'all go.
• 40:43
  Speaker 1: So I was.
• 40:44
  Speaker 2: I was disobedient, and I don't repent for it now,
• 40:46
  Speaker 2: but I was a oubet ain't going part time. That
• 40:49
  Speaker 2: definitely didn't make sense because now I'm making lists they
• 40:51
  Speaker 2: could more and they still taking out everything out of
• 40:54
  Speaker 2: my check. I'm like, this definitely is not it. So
• 41:00
  Speaker 2: I don't know how long I worked at part time.
• 41:02
  Speaker 2: It wasn't long at all before I ended up just
• 41:04
  Speaker 2: giving that two weeks notice. And by this time I
• 41:09
  Speaker 2: was already had I already had the kids business going,
• 41:12
  Speaker 2: but I really wasn't spending a lot of time on
• 41:13
  Speaker 2: it because I mean, let's just be honest, when you're
• 41:16
  Speaker 2: working a job, it's hard to put so much time
• 41:20
  Speaker 2: into your business as well. So I quit and I'm
• 41:23
  Speaker 2: doing instacart girl crying every day, crying it I'm like,
• 41:28
  Speaker 2: I know you told me, you said to Lee like
• 41:31
  Speaker 2: it was time to go. Like I literally I prayed
• 41:33
  Speaker 2: about that thing. I did an exitues fast, exit fast,
• 41:36
  Speaker 2: but I did all of it because I'm like Lord, like,
• 41:39
  Speaker 2: first of all, ain't nobody in my family ever not worked,
• 41:43
  Speaker 2: So yeah, it's gonna work out, you know. I'm like,
• 41:47
  Speaker 2: we're gonna have just one income. J didn't even graduated
• 41:51
  Speaker 2: Fire Academy yet, like cause they you know, the money
• 41:54
  Speaker 2: don't started coming in fro river real until you out
• 41:56
  Speaker 2: of school. So it's a lot happening here. So I'm
• 41:59
  Speaker 2: doing instacar leter when I say I'm crying like I'm
• 42:02
  Speaker 2: bowling like a baby, do you hear me? Like I'm
• 42:04
  Speaker 2: getting heaving to get these water? This carrot is water.
• 42:07
  Speaker 1: That's dollful. It's a lot because I did it. I
• 42:11
  Speaker 1: didn't do instacart. I did with a ship a girl.
• 42:14
  Speaker 1: I quit that real quick. I said, you know it's
• 42:17
  Speaker 1: not for me, but I couldn't. I couldn't quit because
• 42:19
  Speaker 1: I knew, you know, I still had to do something
• 42:23
  Speaker 1: like okay, am I just gonna sit here and just
• 42:28
  Speaker 1: you know, like that goes back to we're asking God
• 42:30
  Speaker 1: to do something for us, but what are we giving back?
• 42:33
  Speaker 1: So at the same time, I'm like, God, you this
• 42:36
  Speaker 1: is what you told me. I know, I know this
• 42:38
  Speaker 1: is what you said, because you know, I've done all
• 42:41
  Speaker 1: the things. I've listened, I've even tried not to, and
• 42:44
  Speaker 1: I'm still hearing. I'm still feeling this tug.
• 42:48
  Speaker 2: So we I don't know how long I ascar it
• 42:54
  Speaker 2: wasn't for too long, maybe a couple it was about
• 42:57
  Speaker 2: a couple of months. Well, no, it's had a couple months. Yeah.
• 43:01
  Speaker 2: So after that, I ended up getting my first client
• 43:06
  Speaker 2: because I was doing brand strategy originally, and I learned
• 43:10
  Speaker 2: real quickly they doing things and strategizing other people businesses
• 43:16
  Speaker 2: for them instead of teaching them how to do it
• 43:19
  Speaker 2: will burn you out real fast.
• 43:21
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 43:21
  Speaker 2: So I'm really good in Canva. I'm really good at,
• 43:25
  Speaker 2: you know, helping people set up their systems and things
• 43:27
  Speaker 2: like that. But they were paying me to, like at
• 43:31
  Speaker 2: that time, I was a social media manager that they
• 43:32
  Speaker 2: were paying me to literally do all the things for
• 43:36
  Speaker 2: that business. But I was burnt out because now when
• 43:38
  Speaker 2: I had the time for my own business, So I
• 43:41
  Speaker 2: had to literally go back to the drawing boards with
• 43:43
  Speaker 2: that for sure, Like Okay, guy, you've been told me
• 43:48
  Speaker 2: that you know, I'm good with connecting with people, with
• 43:52
  Speaker 2: helping people understand who they are, But is it in
• 43:54
  Speaker 2: this capacity that you want me to do it?
• 43:56
  Speaker 1: That's so good?
• 43:57
  Speaker 2: So I kind of put that on pause for a little.
• 44:00
  Speaker 2: And by this time my business is growing. We went
• 44:03
  Speaker 2: from about twenty seven thousand and one one year to
• 44:09
  Speaker 2: one hundred and twenty six thousand the next year. WHOA.
• 44:11
  Speaker 2: When I say God literally breathed on creative kids, Jory
• 44:16
  Speaker 2: is insane. And I honestly believe that it was because
• 44:21
  Speaker 2: I trust I literally like I trust God for real,
• 44:24
  Speaker 2: Like this, ain't this not play? Like when I tell
• 44:27
  Speaker 2: people about like trying to level up their their minds
• 44:31
  Speaker 2: and their money, like helping you level up mentally and financially,
• 44:34
  Speaker 2: Like this this real life. And just to see when
• 44:38
  Speaker 2: you really, for one, trust God to trust what He's
• 44:42
  Speaker 2: put inside of you, and three you do the work
• 44:45
  Speaker 2: like you can't help but to really see the fruit
• 44:49
  Speaker 2: of what you've put in. Because at the end of
• 44:52
  Speaker 2: the day, and one reason that I love my pastor
• 44:55
  Speaker 2: so much because she she really I.
• 44:56
  Speaker 1: Love you love her, we know we love I love her.
• 45:01
  Speaker 2: Listen, she really ignites something you know in us, you know,
• 45:05
  Speaker 2: to help like to help literally catapull Us to where
• 45:08
  Speaker 2: we're going. Yeah, and when she say, you know that
• 45:14
  Speaker 2: everything in the earth is voice activated, Bay, but that
• 45:16
  Speaker 2: thing you do something to me, everything in the earth
• 45:21
  Speaker 2: is voice activated. So the moment that I speak it
• 45:23
  Speaker 2: and I speak to this thing like I got to
• 45:25
  Speaker 2: see it, I got to I have to see you
• 45:27
  Speaker 2: come come to fruition. So it was a lot kind
• 45:32
  Speaker 2: of leading up to this point, but now I'm in
• 45:36
  Speaker 2: a groove now where I understand. First, I've had a
• 45:39
  Speaker 2: business since twenty eighteen, so I've learned and kind of
• 45:45
  Speaker 2: invested in so many courses and just different things. And
• 45:48
  Speaker 2: then just from trial and error, you know, I don't
• 45:50
  Speaker 2: have anyone that I can go to and ask how
• 45:52
  Speaker 2: did you do this? Or you know kind of go
• 45:54
  Speaker 2: sit sit next to them and just kind of like
• 45:56
  Speaker 2: everything I've done, like, I've invested in it and I've
• 45:59
  Speaker 2: learned it, and I've for the longest Google and YouTube
• 46:03
  Speaker 2: was my bfls you hear me was my bf el's
• 46:07
  Speaker 2: And I even now, no, I still like he'll ask
• 46:09
  Speaker 2: me something, hold on, let me google it, like literally,
• 46:12
  Speaker 2: but it's just being resourceful with what you have, like
• 46:15
  Speaker 2: God has given you this mind, Like listen, it's nothing
• 46:19
  Speaker 2: that you know you really can't create and you can't do.
• 46:23
  Speaker 2: So that's really where I am now. So now I'm
• 46:25
  Speaker 2: kind of getting back to the point where I can
• 46:27
  Speaker 2: help people with their businesses. But I don't have to
• 46:29
  Speaker 2: be so hands on. I can teach you how to
• 46:32
  Speaker 2: do it. I can teach you, you know, the steps,
• 46:34
  Speaker 2: and more so, how to shift your mindset around how
• 46:42
  Speaker 2: your business should look because people want to just automatically
• 46:45
  Speaker 2: go to step five. You want to automatically go to
• 46:47
  Speaker 2: making the money, but you're or running the Facebook ads,
• 46:51
  Speaker 2: but you're forgetting to set up the system, set up
• 46:55
  Speaker 2: the emails, customer service first, love people first, love your product,
• 46:59
  Speaker 2: but leaving your product first, you know, people don't really
• 47:02
  Speaker 2: they want to skip those steps. So I'm gonna stop talking.
• 47:05
  Speaker 1: That's no, don't stop. I feel like, no, what you
• 47:08
  Speaker 1: don't know is that I needed that, Like I've become
• 47:11
  Speaker 1: Soldier's quick story. So I'm in the season where God
• 47:14
  Speaker 1: told me to leave my job and not knowing that
• 47:17
  Speaker 1: he was gonna give me a rim and the Bush experience.
• 47:19
  Speaker 1: But I left. I submitted, you know, by what I
• 47:23
  Speaker 1: was attempting to submit my two weeks or month notice,
• 47:27
  Speaker 1: I was giving them thirty days and the grace of God.
• 47:29
  Speaker 1: Like you got to treat like you said, you got
• 47:31
  Speaker 1: to treat people well like And I did well at
• 47:33
  Speaker 1: my job like I was at a job, and I
• 47:34
  Speaker 1: told I knew God at some point God had let
• 47:37
  Speaker 1: me know that that particular company would be the last
• 47:41
  Speaker 1: company I worked for, Right, so I knew that this
• 47:44
  Speaker 1: was gonna be the end. I just didn't know it
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: was gonna be now. So in the midst of me
• 47:48
  Speaker 1: going through with you know, finding out about Tabitha Brown
• 47:51
  Speaker 1: all the stuff like that, God telling me to leave
• 47:53
  Speaker 1: my job. What this ain't I'm not getting paid for
• 47:56
  Speaker 1: this and I might have gotten another one thousand following
• 48:00
  Speaker 1: because of this opportunity, but that ain't gonna do God,
• 48:03
  Speaker 1: What is this? Like I am at that point because
• 48:06
  Speaker 1: you know, in sales, you know, when sales are selling,
• 48:08
  Speaker 1: they good, but when they're not selling, you ain't making
• 48:11
  Speaker 1: no money. You know what I'm saying. I was in
• 48:14
  Speaker 1: a not making no money situation with the sales at
• 48:17
  Speaker 1: that point. And so fast forward, God, I'm still with
• 48:19
  Speaker 1: the same company, but I demoted you know what I'm saying,
• 48:23
  Speaker 1: But really I promote it because I'm able to put
• 48:26
  Speaker 1: more energy into the podcast or whatever. Really I didn't.
• 48:29
  Speaker 1: I never knew that I would be doing this. You
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I just went with God. Like really,
• 48:33
  Speaker 1: just going with God is the answer that supposed to be,
• 48:37
  Speaker 1: Like what am I supposed to do? Go with God?
• 48:39
  Speaker 1: I want to find my person's purpose. Go with God.
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: I never would have thought that this would be something
• 48:43
  Speaker 1: I would be doing because, if I'm quite honest, I
• 48:46
  Speaker 1: didn't appreciate my voice. I didn't really like how I sound.
• 48:50
  Speaker 1: I feel like I sound like a man still to
• 48:51
  Speaker 1: this day. But it don't matter because guess what I
• 48:53
  Speaker 1: was sounding like a man by table the brown, So
• 48:56
  Speaker 1: it don't matter. So you know, this is really being
• 49:00
  Speaker 1: building my confidence. And even what you just said was
• 49:02
  Speaker 1: like sometimes I think of like, Okay, I gotta make money,
• 49:04
  Speaker 1: or I want to be able to, you know, do
• 49:06
  Speaker 1: stuff for desirae, or I just I work myself up
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: so much to the point where it's like embracing now
• 49:14
  Speaker 1: because eventually what you're doing, the practice that you're making,
• 49:17
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna be able to teach. That's what I'm hearing
• 49:19
  Speaker 1: you saying like you had to do it for yourself,
• 49:21
  Speaker 1: you had to go through trial era and now you're
• 49:24
  Speaker 1: not taking on the burden of a doer, but the
• 49:27
  Speaker 1: exposure of a teacher. And teachers get paid. We think
• 49:30
  Speaker 1: about teacher in one form, but that's really an office
• 49:35
  Speaker 1: of the five fold if we really think about that,
• 49:37
  Speaker 1: and what we have in the five fold is really
• 49:39
  Speaker 1: an extension that we're supposed to be a representation in earth.
• 49:42
  Speaker 1: Like I got all of it from what you just said.
• 49:46
  Speaker 1: It is so good, No, I think, you.
• 49:49
  Speaker 2: Know, I tell people all the time like I'm not
• 49:51
  Speaker 2: going to tell you to leave your job, but I
• 49:53
  Speaker 2: do because I've been there, and I know the notion
• 49:56
  Speaker 2: to leave, and I know that the feeling you know
• 49:59
  Speaker 2: of my time here has expired. And the thing is
• 50:04
  Speaker 2: when the season is dead or the ground is dead,
• 50:07
  Speaker 2: nothing it's gonna come out of it. But we eats
• 50:10
  Speaker 2: and roots, you know, And a lot of times you
• 50:13
  Speaker 2: can look at it like you know, well roots still grow, Yeah,
• 50:17
  Speaker 2: but dead roots ain't gonna give you nothing that you
• 50:19
  Speaker 2: can use. It not gonna give you good fruit, you know.
• 50:22
  Speaker 2: So I think if if you've gone to a point
• 50:25
  Speaker 2: where you know God is literally telling you, you know,
• 50:28
  Speaker 2: for us it was literally getting out of our own heads.
• 50:32
  Speaker 2: When I tell you, when I quit, we literally did
• 50:36
  Speaker 2: way more than what we were doing with the job.
• 50:40
  Speaker 2: So it kind of makes me feel like like's my
• 50:43
  Speaker 2: overflow held up because I was just obedient. So if
• 50:47
  Speaker 2: God has told you to do something, until you do
• 50:51
  Speaker 2: that thing, you're not gonna live. First of all, you're
• 50:56
  Speaker 2: not gonna live freely, and you're not gonna live holy
• 50:58
  Speaker 2: because you're always gonna be a piece of what He
• 51:02
  Speaker 2: has for you instead of all of it. The Bible says,
• 51:06
  Speaker 2: see seek ye first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness,
• 51:09
  Speaker 2: and all these things to be added, not a piece,
• 51:14
  Speaker 2: not a little bit, not some all. And I can
• 51:18
  Speaker 2: talk about it. And if people always tell me, you know,
• 51:20
  Speaker 2: will it's easy for you you all don't have kids,
• 51:23
  Speaker 2: It ain't easy. Even though we don't have kids, it
• 51:25
  Speaker 2: still was hard because one baby going from one income
• 51:29
  Speaker 2: to two income, two incomes to one income. It's a stress,
• 51:32
  Speaker 2: I'm sure on anybody.
• 51:34
  Speaker 1: You know.
• 51:34
  Speaker 2: But when you really trust God, you believe God for real.
• 51:37
  Speaker 2: Like I have a friend that I never forget. She
• 51:39
  Speaker 2: would tell me that, like said Christmas, they would like
• 51:43
  Speaker 2: pay people's mortgages and their car notes. And she said,
• 51:47
  Speaker 2: it's no way I'm going to pay somebody a car note,
• 51:49
  Speaker 2: and God let my car get repossisted. So that goes
• 51:52
  Speaker 2: back to what you do for others. God will make
• 51:55
  Speaker 2: happen for you. And it took a while to get there.
• 51:57
  Speaker 2: But when we you know, when we sit and look
• 51:59
  Speaker 2: at it now, it's like, bro guy has literally blown
• 52:03
  Speaker 2: our minds in the middle of a pandemic, when people
• 52:06
  Speaker 2: are literally losing jobs, you know, and they want to work.
• 52:10
  Speaker 2: And it's not necessarily that I just don't want to work.
• 52:13
  Speaker 2: I've never had a dream job. Even when I was
• 52:16
  Speaker 2: going to be a pharmacy pharmacist. I was going because
• 52:20
  Speaker 2: I wanted to be the pharmacist that ran my own pharmacy.
• 52:25
  Speaker 2: Like it was always going back to entrepreneurship some kind
• 52:28
  Speaker 2: of way.
• 52:29
  Speaker 1: You just didn't know. I didn't know.
• 52:30
  Speaker 2: I didn't. Yeah, So it's literally like, Okay, I know
• 52:33
  Speaker 2: it's here, it's planet already, but I don't know how
• 52:36
  Speaker 2: to how we and the fruit gonna form and how
• 52:38
  Speaker 2: the fruit gonna look. But I know that it's there
• 52:41
  Speaker 2: and it's already planning here for it to sprout. So
• 52:43
  Speaker 2: I would just say to you girl, listening, until you
• 52:46
  Speaker 2: do what God said do, You're gonna always get half,
• 52:51
  Speaker 2: you know what.
• 52:52
  Speaker 1: Some don't don't talk about it my camera, Dad, It died,
• 52:54
  Speaker 1: Bear died. This isn't changed. Okay, So but what was
• 52:57
  Speaker 1: coming up? Don't believe me like that. No, I'm she
• 53:00
  Speaker 1: just came for my neck. I'm looking for you. She
• 53:02
  Speaker 1: just came. She just came for my neck. Did what's
• 53:06
  Speaker 1: coming up? Is the story I'm paraphrasing because I can't
• 53:08
  Speaker 1: remember barbatim, but it's the story of Elijah. I think
• 53:14
  Speaker 1: when God made provision for him and with the raven
• 53:18
  Speaker 1: like when when you know, we had to the brook,
• 53:20
  Speaker 1: the brook, and then he was literally providing for him
• 53:23
  Speaker 1: with the ravens, right, which is a dirty bird, you
• 53:25
  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But then when the brook dried up,
• 53:28
  Speaker 1: he could have stayed there, and he could he could
• 53:30
  Speaker 1: have stayed there, right, But God had already made the
• 53:33
  Speaker 1: next set of provisions for him. He already had the
• 53:35
  Speaker 1: lady prepared to take care of him. But he had
• 53:38
  Speaker 1: to make the decision to go with God and follow
• 53:41
  Speaker 1: him again. Follow the story, you know what I'm saying.
• 53:43
  Speaker 1: That's what came up because I was like, yeah, because
• 53:44
  Speaker 1: when the graces up, the graces is gone, it's gone.
• 53:49
  Speaker 1: You came for my neck, but she did, Like, but
• 53:53
  Speaker 1: she did. She did it eloquently.
• 53:55
  Speaker 2: But she ain't wrong though.
• 53:56
  Speaker 1: And the thing about it is, even in this season,
• 54:02
  Speaker 1: I'm learning that entrepreneurship really brings you closer to God. Bro, Like, man,
• 54:13
  Speaker 1: the experiences that I'm having. Now, I'm like, Bro, how
• 54:17
  Speaker 1: my roof need to be fixed? After I'm making I mean,
• 54:21
  Speaker 1: I'm making the money you was making as an entrepreneur.
• 54:24
  Speaker 1: I'm making that at the job I Didne bought my
• 54:27
  Speaker 1: house as a single woman. I didnet bought my car
• 54:29
  Speaker 1: as a single woman with the income that I was making.
• 54:32
  Speaker 1: And now I'm like, God, I you know this thing,
• 54:37
  Speaker 1: the math and matheing on this, but we're gonna we're
• 54:39
  Speaker 1: gonna figure this out. You know what I'm saying. I got.
• 54:41
  Speaker 1: I ain't got no choice but to have faith. I
• 54:43
  Speaker 1: told the ruth for people, I said, you ain't gonna
• 54:46
  Speaker 1: have no problem with my insurance company, and i'mna be able.
• 54:48
  Speaker 2: To pay you.
• 54:49
  Speaker 1: I don't know how, but it's gonna happen. And it's happening. Right, like,
• 54:54
  Speaker 1: and so you when you say, like, when I give
• 54:56
  Speaker 1: God half, He responds with, that's why people get when
• 55:02
  Speaker 1: people say something about tithing or whatever. I know that
• 55:05
  Speaker 1: for a fact, I didne grown up with that, but I.
• 55:08
  Speaker 2: Love let me.
• 55:09
  Speaker 1: Let me not miss this point. And I'm milana playing
• 55:11
  Speaker 1: here the point that you're making about I didn't see it,
• 55:15
  Speaker 1: but I knew I had to do it. Sometimes we
• 55:18
  Speaker 1: use the excuse of oh, my family didn't do it
• 55:21
  Speaker 1: or this and that, and so you said you use
• 55:25
  Speaker 1: the resources to get to where you are. I think
• 55:30
  Speaker 1: that's I think that's a pinpoint of where we miss
• 55:32
  Speaker 1: and why fear is festered in there has that? But
• 55:36
  Speaker 1: has there ever been a moment to where you can
• 55:38
  Speaker 1: recall age like fear almost took you out in your
• 55:41
  Speaker 1: entrepreneurial role, and how did you translate that and to
• 55:44
  Speaker 1: giving that to.
• 55:45
  Speaker 2: God all the time? Like I think a lot of
• 55:49
  Speaker 2: times we can be just so super spiritual. Fear is
• 55:52
  Speaker 2: a real thing. Yeah, fear is a real thing. But
• 55:56
  Speaker 2: it's the fact is when you don't cast down fear
• 56:00
  Speaker 2: when it becomes a problem. That's because we're human and
• 56:04
  Speaker 2: sometimes our humanity will trump our spirituality. Sometimes being human
• 56:11
  Speaker 2: will trump even what we know God said, because we're
• 56:14
  Speaker 2: human first, and of course you know we're supposed to think,
• 56:17
  Speaker 2: you know, we don't suppose to think Cardinal Carnelie sometimes,
• 56:20
  Speaker 2: But when I be when I see these bills and
• 56:24
  Speaker 2: then I see that region's account, that the federal account,
• 56:30
  Speaker 2: what we're doing, what are we doing? So that's that's
• 56:33
  Speaker 2: that's real life. But I also think that when you
• 56:35
  Speaker 2: get to a point where you understand that fear doesn't win,
• 56:39
  Speaker 2: and I have to do it anyway, because if you
• 56:42
  Speaker 2: sit here and you don't, you don't kick down the
• 56:44
  Speaker 2: door of fear, you will never know what's on the
• 56:46
  Speaker 2: other side of that door until you get there. So
• 56:49
  Speaker 2: I think for me when it came to or when
• 56:51
  Speaker 2: it currently comes to my entrepreneur journey, I don't necessarily
• 57:00
  Speaker 2: for me, it's more so of making sure that I'm
• 57:03
  Speaker 2: gonna stay where I am and not go back. So
• 57:05
  Speaker 2: you know, when you start, when you hit your first
• 57:07
  Speaker 2: one one thousand dollars a month, you know you ain't
• 57:10
  Speaker 2: trying to go back to make a two under dollars
• 57:11
  Speaker 2: a month. When you make ten thousand, you ain't trying
• 57:13
  Speaker 2: to go back five thousand. You know, yeah, So a
• 57:15
  Speaker 2: lot of times I started looking at Okay, what what
• 57:18
  Speaker 2: would my life look like if I don't continue to
• 57:23
  Speaker 2: stay there? You know, And I think it's not necessarily
• 57:26
  Speaker 2: a point of if God can't do it. It's a
• 57:30
  Speaker 2: point of if we believe sometimes that we deserve it,
• 57:36
  Speaker 2: if we believe that. It just just a point of
• 57:42
  Speaker 2: if we even just believe that it will happen. Not
• 57:44
  Speaker 2: of God to do it, but if we get the
• 57:46
  Speaker 2: babble tells us if you ask a thing and you
• 57:49
  Speaker 2: believe it shall be so, not just asking for it
• 57:52
  Speaker 2: and just going on about from her from the prayer,
• 57:55
  Speaker 2: but asking that thing and literally believing that God has
• 57:58
  Speaker 2: already like that has has gotten me over fear plenty
• 58:02
  Speaker 2: of times. And also was it was it David that said, God,
• 58:06
  Speaker 2: I believe will help my unbelief.
• 58:08
  Speaker 1: It was a man in the New Testament? Uh, by
• 58:13
  Speaker 1: the son right, He's like, I know you can do it.
• 58:15
  Speaker 1: I know you can do it.
• 58:17
  Speaker 2: I my unbelief. So that's I'm sorry. I don't know
• 58:19
  Speaker 2: who's about to say, go ahead and google that, but
• 58:21
  Speaker 2: look on, I don't know who said, but I remember Rid, Yes,
• 58:24
  Speaker 2: And you know, that's a point of like God God
• 58:29
  Speaker 2: made you. God know exactly who you are, how you're
• 58:32
  Speaker 2: going to ask, how you're going to receive what he
• 58:36
  Speaker 2: does and what he doesn't do. He already know you're
• 58:38
  Speaker 2: gonna be scared. So trying to cover up things from
• 58:43
  Speaker 2: God makes makes fear more prevalent in your life because
• 58:50
  Speaker 2: you're trying to cover it up instead of just giving
• 58:53
  Speaker 2: it to him. God, I'm scared. I believe you can
• 58:56
  Speaker 2: do it, but I honestly don't know if you are God,
• 58:59
  Speaker 2: like I have real life talks, like a real talk,
• 59:03
  Speaker 2: like I believe that you can do it, and I
• 59:06
  Speaker 2: apologize for down you, but give me peace in this moment,
• 59:09
  Speaker 2: show me a sign. We left for a little bit.
• 59:13
  Speaker 2: So j had had like one hundred jobs. He had
• 59:18
  Speaker 2: like a hundred jobs. This is like we was waiting
• 59:20
  Speaker 2: for him to get his call back for a firefighter
• 59:24
  Speaker 2: and he was just he you know, just clean. Because
• 59:27
  Speaker 2: we're dreamers, we're creative, so it's just hard for us
• 59:30
  Speaker 2: to just settle in just one thing. No one guy
• 59:32
  Speaker 2: has given us something bigger, so he had got disappointment
• 59:37
  Speaker 2: or this interview for pest control, I think it was
• 59:41
  Speaker 2: Cook's pest control and they want you to cut your
• 59:44
  Speaker 2: hair off, right, So I already knew that he was
• 59:46
  Speaker 2: going to have to cut all his hair off when
• 59:47
  Speaker 2: he became an actual firefighter. But I'm like, we're gonna
• 59:50
  Speaker 2: do that for your extual career. We didn't even just
• 59:52
  Speaker 2: do that for no cot control that youbace. I deal
• 59:57
  Speaker 2: with that for your career, but a job that you
• 59:59
  Speaker 2: probab gonna quit this, We're not gonna do this. So
• 1:00:02
  Speaker 2: I told you I believe God for real. Right, So
• 1:00:04
  Speaker 2: that night, I'm like, okay, we're gonna be like, get
• 1:00:07
  Speaker 2: in and ask God to send us a sign if
• 1:00:10
  Speaker 2: it's meant for you to get this job. Right. So
• 1:00:16
  Speaker 2: I knew we had to be specific. I be specific
• 1:00:18
  Speaker 2: with my prayers. I be specific when it's time to
• 1:00:21
  Speaker 2: you know, like when i'm really declaring something and putting
• 1:00:24
  Speaker 2: a like I really need the man, I don't have him. Like,
• 1:00:28
  Speaker 2: I'm real specific what I mean. So I said, okay, God,
• 1:00:32
  Speaker 2: funny that we love it out of time. I said, okay,
• 1:00:34
  Speaker 2: so we never saw bugs in our house, right, So
• 1:00:36
  Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, well he going to the record cooks
• 1:00:37
  Speaker 2: past control. I'm ask God for a roach to come
• 1:00:39
  Speaker 2: back here if you have that girl. No, no, and
• 1:00:44
  Speaker 2: if you know me, you know if I when I said,
• 1:00:47
  Speaker 2: I hate bugs like they are Yeah, anyway, back to
• 1:00:51
  Speaker 2: the store. So I literally prayed that night and I said, God,
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 2: if this is like, if this is job you have
• 1:00:56
  Speaker 2: for him, like and I honestly believe that that God
• 1:00:59
  Speaker 2: meets our he like he know I was serious. We
• 1:01:02
  Speaker 2: love now, but I was so serious at that time.
• 1:01:05
  Speaker 2: If you, if this is a job for you have
• 1:01:07
  Speaker 2: for him, you know, allow a roach to come back
• 1:01:10
  Speaker 2: here between now and in the morning, and safe to say,
• 1:01:14
  Speaker 2: we ain't never see no roach, so he ain't go
• 1:01:16
  Speaker 2: to the job. But saying all of that, with saying
• 1:01:19
  Speaker 2: all of that to say, when you really go to God,
• 1:01:23
  Speaker 2: and I know, like I mean, I'm not getting but
• 1:01:26
  Speaker 2: I believe that your word is for me. So if
• 1:01:28
  Speaker 2: you if this happened back then you're the same guy now,
• 1:01:30
  Speaker 2: so I can pray that again. So that's when you
• 1:01:33
  Speaker 2: kind of start just putting a demand on God. Will
• 1:01:36
  Speaker 2: like God, you know my heart, you already know him
• 1:01:38
  Speaker 2: to be scared. You you know that like this is
• 1:01:40
  Speaker 2: a fear of mine. Helped me with that, and forgive
• 1:01:44
  Speaker 2: me for any time that I've doubted you. I mean entrepreneurship,
• 1:01:48
  Speaker 2: you're going to be scared. I'm sorry, y'all just got
• 1:01:50
  Speaker 2: braced it. So I'm probably but welcome to the club,
• 1:01:57
  Speaker 2: all right, I got my speed the way. With entrepreneurship,
• 1:02:02
  Speaker 2: you're gonna be afraid because, first of especially like no
• 1:02:06
  Speaker 2: one in my family has ever had for one a
• 1:02:10
  Speaker 2: legitimate business to no one in my family has ever
• 1:02:14
  Speaker 2: gone to a point where, you know, they have even
• 1:02:18
  Speaker 2: been able just to walk away from a job period,
• 1:02:20
  Speaker 2: not even just go be an entrepreneur, but to stand
• 1:02:22
  Speaker 2: up and just say that enough is enough. My mom
• 1:02:25
  Speaker 2: waited till she was probably forty seven, forty eight, and
• 1:02:29
  Speaker 2: she had been at a job for almost twenty three
• 1:02:31
  Speaker 2: years and walked off that job. It took her forever
• 1:02:35
  Speaker 2: to do that. But you you weren't value there. You know,
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 2: this wasn't this wasn't what God had for you probably
• 1:02:40
  Speaker 2: had you there for a season, yeah, for then, But
• 1:02:43
  Speaker 2: now this is now. So I think you know, anything
• 1:02:48
  Speaker 2: new is gonna be a fear. It's gonna cause fear.
• 1:02:52
  Speaker 2: And I always I'll never forget. I saw mem years
• 1:02:55
  Speaker 2: ago and I literally carried with me like I said it,
• 1:02:59
  Speaker 2: you can all always trust an unknown future to a
• 1:03:02
  Speaker 2: known guy. But that's how we dealing with fear. Baby,
• 1:03:07
  Speaker 2: do it a fraid, but do it.
• 1:03:11
  Speaker 1: That's what That's what said, Joshua. Be bold and courageous.
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 1: Courage don't mean you're not there. Courage means doing it
• 1:03:18
  Speaker 1: in the face of fear. Yeah, it does.
• 1:03:21
  Speaker 2: And that's when you see what you made of Because
• 1:03:23
  Speaker 2: if it's always easy the piece of cake, you know,
• 1:03:27
  Speaker 2: I mean, what character are you building there?
• 1:03:29
  Speaker 1: That's so good?
• 1:03:30
  Speaker 2: But when you get to a point and you're you
• 1:03:32
  Speaker 2: know that you I'm working through fear, I'm working through heartache,
• 1:03:35
  Speaker 2: I'm working through negative bank accounts. Like God, you got
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 2: to bless this.
• 1:03:43
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm gonna go into worship right now because
• 1:03:46
  Speaker 1: what you just like, I'm working through this, like it
• 1:03:51
  Speaker 1: keeps coming up, Like ya though I walk through the
• 1:03:53
  Speaker 1: valley of shelve of death. I fear no evil about
• 1:03:56
  Speaker 1: art with me. Yes, And when we we we say
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 1: that like it's just like a like on a cereal
• 1:04:03
  Speaker 1: box or something. You know what I'm saying.
• 1:04:04
  Speaker 2: But no, like I am.
• 1:04:06
  Speaker 1: When you say that, I see that, it's like I'm
• 1:04:10
  Speaker 1: working through the unpaid bills, I'm working through the bad credit. Yeah. Hello,
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 1: I'm working through, you know, not knowing what tomorrow brings,
• 1:04:18
  Speaker 1: but I know who knows what tomorrow brings, and I
• 1:04:21
  Speaker 1: don't know. I'm just kind of like amazed at this
• 1:04:23
  Speaker 1: conversation because this is not what I wanted to talk about.
• 1:04:26
  Speaker 1: I was like I wanted I wanted to be nosy
• 1:04:27
  Speaker 1: about you know how happy you are, like girl, you
• 1:04:31
  Speaker 1: have it like you have brought your man up every time,
• 1:04:34
  Speaker 1: every example, and I just love that. So I want
• 1:04:36
  Speaker 1: to be knowsed about certain things that God is, like,
• 1:04:38
  Speaker 1: we got to bring you back and we have to
• 1:04:40
  Speaker 1: let the man of God come because the Lord didn't
• 1:04:43
  Speaker 1: want to talk about they today. He wanted to come
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 1: for my neck on this entrepreneurship. And I know if
• 1:04:47
  Speaker 1: he coming from my nick, he comes for y'all Nick.
• 1:04:49
  Speaker 1: That's right. Yeah, first of all, did you find this scription?
• 1:04:52
  Speaker 3: Did?
• 1:04:53
  Speaker 1: So? It's been so good, like for real. It's the
• 1:04:58
  Speaker 1: story of when you know Jesus and his homeboys, they
• 1:05:01
  Speaker 1: was walking through they was doing all the things, they
• 1:05:03
  Speaker 1: was doing the miracles, right, So it's a guy who
• 1:05:06
  Speaker 1: was who brought his son to the disciples who had
• 1:05:09
  Speaker 1: a spirit and they couldn't they couldn't cast a spirit out.
• 1:05:11
  Speaker 1: So when he's talking to Jesus, this is Mark nine
• 1:05:17
  Speaker 1: and Mark nine and twenty let's go around twenty two, right,
• 1:05:22
  Speaker 1: So it says this is NLT right. It says the
• 1:05:27
  Speaker 1: spirit often throws him into the fire or into water,
• 1:05:30
  Speaker 1: trying to kill him. Have mercy on us and help
• 1:05:33
  Speaker 1: us if you can. What do you mean? So this
• 1:05:36
  Speaker 1: is red letter, you know, red lettle means this is Jesus.
• 1:05:38
  Speaker 1: Jesus said, what you mean if I can? Jesus said,
• 1:05:42
  Speaker 1: anything is possible if a person believes. The Father instantly
• 1:05:47
  Speaker 1: cried out, I do believe. But helped me overcome my unbelief.
• 1:05:52
  Speaker 1: So as I was just sitting there listening as we're
• 1:05:53
  Speaker 1: talking about like entrepreneurship and just thinking about my own
• 1:05:57
  Speaker 1: entrepreneurial journey. It's like a lot of things that people
• 1:06:02
  Speaker 1: were coming to Jesus about this point, like they's either
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  Speaker 1: they saw it or they knew somebody that had had,
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  Speaker 1: you know, an encounter. Right, So it's like, I know
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  Speaker 1: it's possible. One if I can look back in my
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  Speaker 1: own life, you know, about the things that God God
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  Speaker 1: has brought me through, I know it's possible. But sometimes
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  Speaker 1: when we come into different situations and circumstances, because you know,
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  Speaker 1: with every every level, there's a new there's a new testing,
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  Speaker 1: there's a new trial, right, and the higher you go,
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  Speaker 1: the bigger they become. And so it's like you're coming
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  Speaker 1: up against this thing, you know, where you decide where
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  Speaker 1: you're deciding to try entrepreneurship or you know, try something new,
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  Speaker 1: and this fear rises up, right, the fear rises up
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  Speaker 1: and you're like, Lord, I know you can, but because
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  Speaker 1: I've struck. Because my thing is I felt like I've
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  Speaker 1: worked so hard for everything right, Like like I've really
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  Speaker 1: had to work so hard for everything. But the truth
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  Speaker 1: of the matter is I was working in my own
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  Speaker 1: strength and God to do it right. So now as
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  Speaker 1: I'm coming into these different seasons, in these different testings,
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  Speaker 1: the fear is there one now because I don't want
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  Speaker 1: to get it wrong. But I'm like, Lord, I know
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  Speaker 1: you can do it. I know I know you can,
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  Speaker 1: But there's that that fear is allowing me. It's trying
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  Speaker 1: to allow me not to believe. And if we're just
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  Speaker 1: honest with God, like he already knows, if we're just
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  Speaker 1: honest with him, like you said, Corney, be honest with
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  Speaker 1: him and leave it at his feet, and the courage
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  Speaker 1: is to continue to move forward because who knows what's
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  Speaker 1: waiting on the other side, But we won't know until
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  Speaker 1: we make that step to cross over, until we decide.
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  Speaker 1: Till we decide. When we decide, decide, it means to
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  Speaker 1: cut off something like you can't have both and sometimes
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  Speaker 1: we won't. Okay, God, you make this entrepreneur thing happen
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  Speaker 1: while I do my job. If God ain't graced you
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  Speaker 1: for that, you can't because it's no way to be
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  Speaker 1: as creative as we are in His room. Like that's all.
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  Speaker 1: It's so beautiful How God just said it up like that,
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  Speaker 1: Like we're all creators in His room. We go through
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  Speaker 1: different create in different ways, but our foundation is the same.
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  Speaker 1: Is that as a creator you don't know? Like, thank you,
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  Speaker 1: Holy Spirit. Oh my God. So I'm getting this picture
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  Speaker 1: of the start of creation and how God took day
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  Speaker 1: by day by day to create when he could have
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  Speaker 1: made everything in an instant. So what if God took
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  Speaker 1: his time to do something that he could have done
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  Speaker 1: rackulessly in a moment. What do you mean? What do
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  Speaker 1: we look like trying to create the inversion of ourselves
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  Speaker 1: or the inversion of the thing in a day. So
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  Speaker 1: that should be in our encouragement to say, Okay, God
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  Speaker 1: gave me a role map. Yeah he did it in
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  Speaker 1: seven days, but it might take his seven days, might
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  Speaker 1: be my seven months, seven years. I just got to
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  Speaker 1: brace myself for the time because it's gonna be created and.
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  Speaker 2: Enjoy the journey.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 2: We be so ready for, you know, the goal, to
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  Speaker 2: reach the goal, that we forget the progress that it
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  Speaker 2: took to get there. Yeah, because the progress is what
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  Speaker 2: is going to build you. That's gonna build character, that's
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  Speaker 2: going to build your faith. At the end of the day,
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  Speaker 2: if you go into a problem, or if you go
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  Speaker 2: into a situation or a season, if you go into
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  Speaker 2: a new season and you come out of that season
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  Speaker 2: and your faith is the same, you didn't pass the tests.
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  Speaker 1: Man.
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  Speaker 2: Everything that we go through, I think I said that
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  Speaker 2: earlier with I am Fit. Everything that we go through
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  Speaker 2: is literally a battle field to train our faith. And
• 1:09:41
  Speaker 2: I had a friend to tell me that she think
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  Speaker 2: I have the gift of faith. And I don't call
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  Speaker 2: it any of it. I don't really know. But one
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  Speaker 2: thing that can't nobody tell me is that God can't
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  Speaker 2: do something. And I get a lot of questions, how
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  Speaker 2: do you hear God? And how do you know what
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  Speaker 2: your purpose is? And what do you do when God
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  Speaker 2: doesn't do it? And the simplest question after I cry
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  Speaker 2: is believe God again? Believe believed again?
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  Speaker 1: Oh oh that's a ray. Hold up, wait, wait, wait,
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  Speaker 1: hold up, wait, did y'all hear what the woman of
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  Speaker 1: God just said? She said, after I'm done crying, after
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  Speaker 1: I feel all the human emotions, after I go through
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  Speaker 1: all these experiences of the transition and feel like I'm
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  Speaker 1: let down, I choose to believe God again. Well, Courtney, Courtney,
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  Speaker 1: I'm about to tell you something. You just messed up
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  Speaker 1: my flow because normally I asks people do they have
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  Speaker 1: a final thought?
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  Speaker 2: That is.
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  Speaker 1: Courtney, Oh my gosh, Like I'm not normally speeches like
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  Speaker 1: this normal. I have something to say. I don't got
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  Speaker 1: none to say. That's what you got something to say?
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  Speaker 1: Do y'all got something to say? Courtney? If you did
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  Speaker 1: nothing else today, I don't care if now one person
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  Speaker 1: watched this. You came from me like real talk, like
• 1:11:27
  Speaker 1: I ain't gonna lie. I didn't even know I needed
• 1:11:29
  Speaker 1: this juice, Like it's been so good, like free freedom
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  Speaker 1: for real, and just knowing you and seeing you from
• 1:11:40
  Speaker 1: the outside or whatever. Now getting to talk to you, man,
• 1:11:42
  Speaker 1: like it hit different. So for those of you that
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  Speaker 1: are on this entrepreneur journey that know that don't have
• 1:11:49
  Speaker 1: a name for what y'all doing yet, like go through
• 1:11:51
  Speaker 1: the process, man, because you are of evidence, as I
• 1:11:56
  Speaker 1: like to say it, because David saying you the social proof,
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  Speaker 1: like for real. And so man, this has been a
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  Speaker 1: very confirming and encouraging conversation. I just want to thank you.
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  Speaker 1: See's like, man, thank you.
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  Speaker 2: Listen.
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  Speaker 1: You have to come back.
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  Speaker 2: Listen, we have to get you on the I would
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  Speaker 2: love that.
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  Speaker 1: I'm always interviewing, but rarely. I just did my first
• 1:12:19
  Speaker 1: interview not too long ago. But yeah, I would love that.
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  Speaker 2: But it's on the other side, it is. It is different.
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  Speaker 1: I'll be nervous. I don't know what they gonna ask me,
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  Speaker 1: but Lord, have your way listen. I'm definitely you're definitely
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  Speaker 1: coming back. We might we might have you know, we might,
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  Speaker 1: we might invite him to the day what but no,
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  Speaker 1: most definitely, and I look forward to just seeing your evolution.
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  Speaker 1: You've evolving from this, and so this has been very
• 1:12:46
  Speaker 1: encouraging y'all. Desiree yeah, I don't. I don't have any stuff.
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• 1:13:01
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  Speaker 1: blown right now. I know y'all's mind is blown. So
• 1:13:07
  Speaker 1: I hope you guys are encouraged. Remember until next week,
• 1:13:10
  Speaker 1: Remember life almost forgot could be much more simple if
• 1:13:16
  Speaker 1: you just ask. See y'all next week. Thank you for
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  Speaker 4: Smith. I know I won't see you back until next week,
• 1:13:37
  Speaker 4: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always
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  Speaker 4: say thank God for one another day.
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  Speaker 3: Hey, I know we could be another way. Thank pray,
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  Speaker 3: thank God for another day. Hey, Hey, I'm just thankful
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  Speaker 3: for another day. He another day, oh, another day wise,
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  Speaker 3: another day to get it right, another day to rise up,
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  Speaker 3: another day living another day we loved ones. I always
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  Speaker 3: remember hold it down for a ball one yep