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General Hospital, Lifetime queen, "The New Hollywood" and Mindful Living - Andrea Bogart · Mommywood

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  Mom. Hey, I'm your host, Emily Bolt.
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  I'm an actor, teacher, and a new mom.
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  Once I became pregnant, I went on a hunt for answers to all my
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  questions about being a working actor.
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  Mom. And what did I find?
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  Practically nothing. So here I am asking all the
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  questions to try to figure out how people do it.
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  How are mothers balancing and not balancing parenthood in this
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  crazy industry? Join me and my amazing guest as
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  we take a real look into the lives of working moms in the
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  entertainment industry. On this episode of Mommywood,
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  I'm chatting with Andrea Bogart, who, if you can believe it, is
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  just as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside.
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  Which is saying a lot, because she is freaking stunning.
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  She is such a lovely, lovely, sweet, sweet woman and it was
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  such a pleasure getting to chat with her.
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  Her beauty on the inside is definitely also a testament to
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  not only being from the Midwest, not to the Midwest ladies out
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  there, but also the amount of focus that she puts on
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  mindfulness and self improvement.
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  And it was so cool to hear all about how much yoga and
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  mindfulness has really impacted all areas of her life.
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  We also talk about her having kids later in her life.
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  She didn't have her first kid until after she was 40.
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  We also talk about how she moved to Sonoma with her husband and
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  how now with being in Sonoma and having two children, she's had
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  some of the greatest success in her career and had and is doing
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  the best self tapes that she's done.
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  So it's really cool to hear that, you know, once you just
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  start living your life, then career can really put itself in
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  place. It's really refreshing to hear
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  that and makes me very hopeful for the future.
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  But yes, it was so, so wonderful talking with Andrea.
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  She is like I said, just lovely. The beauty on the outside, it
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  was very interesting talking to her about this because you know,
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  she has to dance her body that she was given, that she has,
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  that she works for. But it was definitely
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  interesting hearing the other side of that because of course
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  so many of us are strive to have this beautiful body.
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  But it was so eye opening to hear the other side of that
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  where it's just as hurtful to hear someone say you're too thin
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  as opposed to too fat. It's very similar.
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  And also having casting directors tell you you're too
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  pretty to be that funny, which is just insane.
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  But you know, man, the grass is always greener.
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  So it was definitely eye opening to hear the other side of that.
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  So please, please enjoy this episode of Mommywood with Andrea
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  Voghart. Thank you so much.
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  I know it is. Our time is precious as as moms,
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  so I appreciate you taking your time.
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  Of course. So you have two beautiful
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  daughters. How old are they and what are
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  their names? So my first little girl is Emery
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  and she is about to turn 6. She'll be 6 in July, and then my
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  second is Audrey, and she's turning to the end of this
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  month. Oh wow.
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  Oh my God. And thank you, Yeah, their joy
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  girls. Do you have girls as well?
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  Please tell me I have one girl. She'll be a year next month.
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  OK, yeah, she'll she's 11 months tomorrow, tomorrow.
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  So yeah, you're really in it still, too.
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  You're like, you're in it. Yeah, but I have two older
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  sisters too. So the the sisterhood and the
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  just feminine energy. Well, I just love it.
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  But we'll see if we have #2, if it's a girl or a boy, if we even
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  have that. But she was amazing.
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  I will tell you. I'll chime in.
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  She was amazing. Yeah.
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  A lot of fun. You get like a built in friend,
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  right? Totally.
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  And and you know, I grew up with just one older brother and he
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  had four daughters. So I know, you know for the
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  longest time I was just this aunt right to these four amazing
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  nieces who I just couldn't get enough of.
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  And I always kind of joke with my brother.
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  I'm like, that's what you get for you know being so honorary
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  to me. You had four girls, 4 girls
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  yourself. But yeah, there's there's
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  nothing speeder. I never really saw the sister
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  love and interaction until I had, you know, my nieces coming
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  about and really seeing that bond with them and.
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  Yeah, when I ended up having 2 girls, I just thought, gosh,
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  this is just gonna be so scrumptious, you know?
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  Yeah, and they're such good ages.
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  So they're four years apart about.
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  Yeah. And that's such a good age, cuz
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  the older one can hopefully kind of like help a little.
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  But then when they're older especially, they'll still be
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  close in age. Cuz I have my sisters are two
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  and six years older and now it's like we're all the same age.
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  That's so good to hear. Yeah.
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  Because, you know, that wasn't really our plan per se.
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  Just because Eric, my husband, Eric and I met later in life.
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  And we're so fortunate to have neither of us had children
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  previously. Neither of us have been married
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  and. You know, so I feel really,
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  really fortunate. Both of us do.
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  I think that we got to come into this with all this newness,
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  right? And and we just figured we
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  should try to have them as quickly as possible because we
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  were older and so Emery happened really fast, naturally and then.
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  After Emory, I mean we struggled for like 2 1/2, three years.
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  We just, I would get pregnant, but I would have miscarriages.
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  So after that we we visited IVF and that's a whole another
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  journey in itself. And that's why I kind of ended
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  up doing the prenatal yoga flows because I felt like I had this,
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  like I had two experiences, right?
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  I had one where a very natural easy birth and then the second
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  one that was a real challenge and.
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  And you know, anyone who goes through IDF, they know that that
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  process is, it's long and it's a struggle and it can be really,
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  it can really be draining on the relationship and on you.
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  And I think Eric and I continued, we pinch ourselves a
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  lot because we feel, you know, it was during COVID.
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  The embryo had to sit on ice for an extra long time because they
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  shut down all the procedures. So there was a lot that went
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  into little Audrey making it into this world.
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  But we're so lucky. And I was also, you know, not to
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  go totally on a different topic, but I was a little.
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  I was a little like, no, if I'm supposed to have kids, it will
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  just happen. And I didn't know that I should
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  use the assistance of science to help, you know, navigate that.
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  But I mean, I've never been more grateful for those, for those
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  opportunities and that science is here to really support women
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  in fertility. Because I think we we've all
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  kind of known now there's more fertility issues now than we've
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  ever been aware of. And I'm just so grateful.
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  You know, I have a dear friend who at 47 gave birth to her baby
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  boy. It's healthy and amazing and.
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  Through the help of IBS. So I I'm really a believer in
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  that process too and just I hope that I give women hope who are
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  older. Because my first was born, you
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  know I was 40 and my second two hours before I turned 45.
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  So. So Audrey and I almost share a
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  birthday too which is pretty fun.
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  Yeah. So anyway, there's a little bit
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  of like. How the babies came about,
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  right. It's it's such a journey and
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  everyone's everyone's journey is so unique and such a beautiful
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  story. And you know yeah and it's nice
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  that you've had like you said both sides of the coin where
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  you're like. So I'm sure you can relate to a
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  lot of different people's stories because you have both
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  sides of that. Well, Speaking of having
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  children later in life was because I feel like especially
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  as actors there's all this like we've For me, I feel like it's
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  like, will you push back? And you push back and you're
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  like, well, I want my career to be this way or, you know,
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  meeting the person and just everything lining up.
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  And I feel like it's so hard to, you know, make those decisions
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  where you're like, okay, I want to start a family, but what was
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  it for you making that decision to start a family?
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  You know, to take it back a bit, like I I was in a long
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  relationship earlier in my mid 20s to very early 30s for a long
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  time and in that relationship. You know, I just, I figured he
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  was it like we've been together for so long, like he was the one
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  we were going to have kids and get married and and all of it
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  within our both thriving sort of acting careers.
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  But then, you know, you realize it's not just your life, it's
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  someone else's life too. It's someone else's choice.
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  And I could really see an honor in my partner at that time that
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  he just needed so much more personally as an actor before he
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  could really even be comfortable talking about those things.
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  And as that became more evident. You know I just became more I
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  think accepting that like this is okay, like I can really love
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  you and I think you can love me, but we can honor that.
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  Like this is not we're not going to it's not going to end well if
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  we keep on this path. You know.
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  And I and I do get to an age or this pressured feeling of.
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  You know, well, I'm so scared that like maybe I will have a
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  hard time having kids, kids or or those kind of things, right?
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  So career wise at that time. So when him and I ended, that
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  was my like 32 ish. I had a lot of success around
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  that age as well too. I was on General Hospital for
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  almost a year and a half and so the things were booming and
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  there wasn't a real I was teaching dance to children.
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  That was really fulfilling for me.
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  I had my 4 little nieces. There was some part of me that
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  was sort of accepting that. Well, now I'm also starting
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  over, right? As far as I'm a woman who's 32
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  and I'm now going to be like who, you know, is you start to
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  think about your age more as relationship than I think
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  anything else at that point. Because I was never about, oh, I
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  just want to have kids. I just want to have kids.
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  I was like, I want to find a human who wants to have that
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  with me. In a very joyful and loving and
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  excited, enthusiastic way. And I did not want to bring kids
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  into this world unless I had that and that foundation right.
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  So I think career wise like you know, now to Fast forward.
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  I I started I I got certified to teach yoga in 2011.
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  That became a very healing practice for me that transformed
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  my life. If I was to be very honest, my
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  just from heartache to, you know, trouble with other
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  situations, family at home, things like that, it really
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  helped me. It really empowered me and got
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  me feeling pretty comfortable with myself again, which was
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  great and I really needed that. And so the career went in ebbs
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  and flows. It was like I was on the soap
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  opera. I couldn't believe that I'd like
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  turned 2 episodes into 100 and something and it was just this
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  biggest gift I'd ever been given as an actor.
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  And then you know other things were coming in and when I when
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  my time ended on the soap as I was killed off when all you know
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  the soap started combining to what like 1-1 soap per network
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  and things just got decluttered right?
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  I thought the door was just going to be pounding and like
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  people were going to be, you know, oh, we'll just put Andrea
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  on this soap now or I had, you know, I'd gone in for days of
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  Our Lives so much, all these different things.
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  You're you're sort of, you know, I gained a lot of confidence and
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  I really thought I would just scoot on to the next thing.
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  Well, it got really quiet, you know, And in that same time zone
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  is when. I was taking these amazing yoga
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  classes through Matthew Ralston at Yoga Hop and then Andrea
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  Markham with You Studio and I just fell in love with yoga and
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  what it was doing for my life so that those two teachers really
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  inspired me to get certified. And then I have another friend,
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  Jake Frere and Joe Komar. Just I started collectively
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  meeting amazing yogis. Who inspired me to get certified
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  And because I've been teaching dance it felt like a very
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  seamless transition. I was already very confident
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  teaching a room you know and so then the acting career and the
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  Wellness career start like Oh my gosh, this is.
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  I really love this. I really love showing up for
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  classes. I really love seeing these
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  people like come together time after time and I'm feeling like
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  their energy change and seeing their whatever it is getting
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  stronger in their bodies and. And then my private yoga
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  clientele really started to build.
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  And so I was, you know, cranking out yoga practices really early
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  in the morning and then keeping my afternoons as largely open as
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  I could for auditions. And then evenings I would go
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  back to a little bit of yoga. So it was very busy and as I I
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  know really busy and truly a heart like struggle because I
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  was thinking. OKI didn't.
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  I knew that if I started to get jaded in this business of acting
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  that, like I started getting really angry driving to
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  auditions. I was just tired of the process
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  a little bit, you know? And I mean, gosh, it's changed
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  so much now. But it it's it's just, I did
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  start to get grumpy. Let's call it grumpy.
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  I was like, I'm not having fun. Yeah, I'm not having fun doing
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  this. And yet yoga was so fulfilling.
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  It was like. Sure.
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  I drive to a client's house. That's a sure thing.
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  Like, I'm getting paid. This person's going to benefit.
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  I'm benefiting. This is awesome, you know?
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  And so really, I think what happened in that process was
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  booking jobs, juggling, juggling, yoga.
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  Things did start to brew in a more positive, very wonderful
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  way. And I also joined the new
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  Hollywood by Co founder Brianna Brown, who's now Brianna Brown
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  Keen. And so in 2014, there was a very
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  good trifecta of things happening.
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  Wellness, I was still auditioning and the Wellness was
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  really helping me not be so grumpy about the acting jobs,
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  you know, and and then joining this women's amazing, you know,
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  philanthropy group that was all about support and rising higher,
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  shining brighter and giving back.
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  And those three elements like those changed me as well, you
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  know, and I just started to see. That a there was more beyond
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  just acting that could be really fulfilling and feel purposeful
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  and passion. Like I had a ton of passion
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  teaching and and I booked this little job at the end of 2014, a
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  print job and that's where I met Mr. Eric Alness, my now husband
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  and father of two kids. Super random print job.
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  Eric's an amazing photographer, like, world renowned.
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  And his producer that day had said, you know, you should
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  probably follow him on social media, like you're going to want
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  to see this picture. And I was like, yeah, yeah,
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  yeah, whatever. I never get to see print jobs,
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  you know, That's like if they show up somewhere, right?
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  So. Cut to I did start following
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  them on social media and he was following me and I sort of knew
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  but didn't. And anyway, cut to it was six
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  months later that I get an Instagram, you know, direct
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  message. And I I booked a Nike commercial
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  and I was going to be in San Francisco shooting it and I
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  didn't even know. But that's where he lived.
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  So he reached out and said, you're going to be in my city,
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  can I take you out, you know, for something?
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  And I was like. Yes, and this is only important
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  to the careers question, but I'll get back to you is because
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  this is where this big shift happened, right?
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  I need a Scandinavian photographer who's traveling the
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  world and doing amazing and. Wants to Take Me Out on a date
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  and as soon as we went on our first date it was just it was
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  magic. It was like we were so aligned.
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  We were so open. We were both really wanted the
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  same things in life. And then Eric was just in a
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  position where I said I'm not leaving LA yet.
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  I'm not like I if I if I'm out of my city I'm not earning an
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  income. So I need to be in my city and I
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  need to like continue do what I'm doing.
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  I really love what I'm doing right now and and he was just
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  amazing and he made it work. He would come down to LA on and
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  off. For two years, you know and live
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  with me and my little apartment in Beverly Hills and you know
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  and then we would meet in different pockets of the world
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  just to to try to lay this really good foundation for our
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  relationship. And so you know the big question
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  that you asked about like career and was there a decision making.
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  I think it's it was truly kids mat like so many things aligned
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  for me at once. It was like I was still booking
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  jobs. And enough to be, you know,
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  happy and making money. But I also was.
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  I was not. I was definitely leaning a bit
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  more into mindfulness and Wellness.
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  I was feeling more fulfilled from that and I was feeling
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  like. I'd been there for 17 years, you
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  know, and I danced and I I, you know, if I had to write down on
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  paper all my jobs, never in a million years would I ever say I
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  I could have done any of that. I mean, I came from a dance
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  background, you know, And so I never was one to like, I didn't
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  want to be super famous. I didn't want to deal with
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  paparazzi. So I was kind of like riding a
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  nice wave of comfort, you know, of where I was.
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  Not that I wouldn't have loved to be like honest at calm, being
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  funny, really showing what I feel like where my heart really
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  is. I would not have taken that
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  away. Don't get me wrong.
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  But what at my point is I wasn't so die hard that I couldn't see
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  beyond it and other things that I wanted in life.
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  And at that point, you know, now I'm teetering in on 3536.
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  I'm really excited to meet Mr. Right.
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  You know, I'm really excited to meet the partner that I could
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  share my life with. And and it all just happened.
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  Is so beautifully and organically and wonderfully with
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  him that it was kind of, I won't say easy because it was a big
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  transition. You know, I was pregnant.
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  I was. And.
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  And oddly enough, when I was four months pregnant, I got the
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  first offer I'd had in a very long time to do one of these
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  Lifetime movies, a Lifetime thriller.
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  And I was so scared that I didn't even want to tell them I
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  was pregnant because I was afraid I wouldn't get the job.
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  I didn't until it was like Day 10, and they were about to do a
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  stunt where this woman had to, like, jump on top of me on my
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  stomach, the only person I had told, yeah.
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  And so then I came clean and I was like, so we're just going to
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  be really safe today because I'm actually.
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  And they were like, what? You know, how did you not tell
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  us? But anyway, cut to now we're
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  allowed to tell that we're pregnant, right, ladies?
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  And we are a lot more. But, you know, so so to really
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  sorry, a very long winded answer for you.
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  But I think that it's always important to kind of give the
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  pieces of the journey to help clarify like why I didn't just
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  throw my acting career away. And it's really amazing that
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  Eric has been such an incredible supporter of that career and
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  even since I've stepped out of Hollywood and moved up to
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  Sonoma, CA, where I now live, and did that in 2017.
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  I have been offered more movies for a lifetime than I was when I
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  was there, you know, and and that's been such a a fun
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  blessing to keep me like just dabbling in what I love.
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  I got you know and then now that things have shifted so heavily
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  into self tapes, it's like you still get opportunities.
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  It's this huge blessing you can take from anywhere, you know and
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  luckily I still have a great handful of friends down in LA
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  that I can work as a local hire if I need to and and those sort
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  of things. So, you know, when you make this
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  shift into motherhood, I think it is so profound and truly, so
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  many things do kind of have to align for you and your partner
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  to feel like, can we do this, Can we bring kids into the world
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  responsibly? And we see a lot of that done,
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  you know, whimsically or not thoughtfully.
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  And then, you know, we have troubled kids, right?
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  And so I just wanted to try to do the best setup scenario I
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  could. And I feel like it's just been
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  such a an amazing ride. You know.
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  But I feel also too like I know women we teeter on this age
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  right. And and even though we do have
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  the support of science that support is incredibly expensive
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  and it it's just not even doable for so many people you know.
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  And and that is that's also like hurts my heart you know as a
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  Mama where it's like man you know I wish there's so many
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  things I wish we could with our healthcare and just make much
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  more much more feasible for the world you know, that we live in.
• 21:45
  But yeah, I think it's just there's no one recipe, right?
• 21:49
  It really has to be all about like where you are, where your
• 21:52
  heart is and what you're thriving to achieve.
• 21:54
  And I just felt like I had done far more as an actor than I had
• 21:59
  really set out to do. And and that maybe sounds
• 22:02
  whatever it said, never been more than like a B level.
• 22:06
  But like I said, there was a lot of contentment from all of those
• 22:09
  jobs that I did do. There was also some jobs that
• 22:11
  were not fulfilling and that really rubbed me wrong and
• 22:15
  started to make me feel like saddened by me not getting to do
• 22:20
  what I really wanted to do and being typecast or being put in
• 22:23
  this box. You know, a little bit of, you
• 22:27
  know, whatever it was sexy roles, you know, stuff that just
• 22:30
  having a dancer background, a dancer body, it's like, you
• 22:33
  know, let's see what we can, can we get her in a bikini?
• 22:35
  Can we, You know what can we get her?
• 22:37
  So, you know you struggle with those kind of things too.
• 22:39
  And and I think that there was a definitely a few experiences
• 22:42
  that made me hit a little bit of a roadblock where I was like I
• 22:45
  can leave this behind and I can move forward doing Wellness and
• 22:48
  mindfulness because it's so great, you know?
• 22:51
  Yeah. Yeah, well, Speaking of you
• 22:53
  having a dancer background, because I know you went to
• 22:56
  Missouri. State or Southwest Missouri?
• 22:59
  State of Did Were you a dance major?
• 23:05
  I was a dance minor. Okay.
• 23:07
  And then what made you had you always wanted to act or what was
• 23:12
  that shift for you coming to LA? And like where did how did you?
• 23:21
  Get out here. What's what's where did it all
• 23:23
  start? Yeah, because that's a.
• 23:26
  Big move and I know that your family's in Missouri too like
• 23:31
  mine and it's a it's it takes some guts to come out here from
• 23:36
  and I don't think your family is in the business.
• 23:40
  So it's it's a big like they might not understand either.
• 23:46
  So what did that look like for you at the beginning?
• 23:50
  You know, I think just having a long career in dance, that
• 23:53
  started my mom put me in dance when I was three and then dance
• 23:56
  till 18. And every year, you know, that I
• 23:57
  was like 12 onward. It just became what else can I
• 24:00
  do, mom? Can I do tap?
• 24:01
  Can I do jazz? Can I compete?
• 24:02
  Can I tumble? Can I, you know, do sports Afro?
• 24:04
  I did everything I could possibly do, I feel.
• 24:06
  And luckily enough, you know, when I, you know, was headed to
• 24:10
  college, I was, I auditioned for the Sugar Bear dance team which
• 24:14
  was at Missouri State University Southwest Missouri at the time
• 24:18
  and and was accepted on the dance team before it was even
• 24:21
  accepted into the university academically.
• 24:24
  So, which was very interesting. They said, yes you can come and
• 24:27
  try out, but we still have to see what your A/C, T scores end
• 24:30
  up. And this is kind of a funny
• 24:31
  story because I don't test well, never have.
• 24:33
  And I had to end up getting letters of recommendation from
• 24:38
  my school like sports. My gosh, I'm going to blink on
• 24:42
  his name right now. Doctor Barrow was his name, but
• 24:44
  he wrote me this amazing letter of recommendation of why he
• 24:47
  thought I would be an asset to the university.
• 24:50
  And then I had to write a letter to the Dean of Missouri State
• 24:53
  University as to why I didn't feel that those ATC scores
• 24:56
  reflected how successful I would be in the future as I did as I
• 25:01
  graduated with like a 3.8 and had a very great, you know, long
• 25:06
  three years on the Sugar Bear squad.
• 25:08
  And my final year I didn't do Sugar Bears, which was wild
• 25:11
  because we were so you wanted to go on spring break.
• 25:14
  We didn't want to have to go on one of the sports teams and
• 25:17
  dance. We were like, we want to go on
• 25:19
  spring break as our senior year of college, which is so silly.
• 25:22
  But I ended up help coaching that year and then I coached
• 25:24
  over at Kickapoo High School on the dance team.
• 25:26
  So the the trajectory of like dance that long sort of
• 25:30
  disciplined life of being a dancer and then and and I minor
• 25:35
  than dance just simply because I was taking several dance classes
• 25:38
  at the time and I majored in mass media with a little bit of
• 25:42
  broadcast journalism emphasis. That's what I was thinking.
• 25:44
  Oh, I think I'm going to be a reporter or a journalist or
• 25:47
  something like that. Just finding that those all
• 25:49
  those elements have come into play as an actor and as a
• 25:52
  writer. Now you know.
• 25:54
  Such a great voice for it. Thank you.
• 25:57
  Thank you. So the transition from there, my
• 26:02
  sophomore year of college being at Missouri State, I got a show
• 26:05
  in Chicago and I was dancing for a special event show for Disney.
• 26:08
  Also, I had the first professional job I ever had was
• 26:11
  dancing for Disney when I was 17 and I did a show at the Fox
• 26:14
  Theater in Saint Louis and was traveled out to California to
• 26:17
  learn the show. And it was when Buena Vista was
• 26:20
  doing these sort of big opening premieres for a new movie that
• 26:24
  was coming out and they would like do these stage live stage
• 26:27
  shows and major cities to help promote the movie coming out.
• 26:30
  And those kind of got me in the Disney World, which I had never
• 26:34
  been in before either. So I moved to Evanston, Chicago
• 26:40
  for a summer and did a show in Chicago.
• 26:42
  And when I did that show, a lot of those Disney dancers who I
• 26:45
  danced with in that show said you should audition to go to
• 26:48
  Tokyo Disneyland. It's an amazing gig and they pay
• 26:52
  really well and they only take like 20 American performers and
• 26:56
  you should do it. So anyway, I started auditioning
• 26:59
  sophomore year, got you know, auditions, senior.
• 27:01
  And then finally on my senior year is when I actually got
• 27:03
  offered the contract and they offered me a contract for a face
• 27:08
  character role, though like Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty,
• 27:11
  Evil, Snow Queen, like the actor tracks instead of the dancer
• 27:14
  role. And I was mortified.
• 27:16
  I was like, no, I'm I'm a dancer.
• 27:18
  I danced my whole life like I dance.
• 27:20
  I don't like, I'm not going to wave in a parade and do that.
• 27:23
  But to my dance teacher saying Andrea Bogart and she was like
• 27:26
  my hero. OK, so I I trusted everything
• 27:29
  Kathy told me to do Kathy Blattel and she said, Andrea, I
• 27:32
  I feel that this is going to be the best experience of your life
• 27:35
  and it's like not a time to turn something like this down.
• 27:37
  And she goes, I guarantee all the other characters are going
• 27:40
  to be dancers as well. And you guys can like host your
• 27:42
  own dance classes and you can do, you can do that and that's
• 27:45
  what we did. They were all dancers.
• 27:46
  They all wanted to dance. We rented studio space, We would
• 27:49
  teach each other classes. It was like having master
• 27:51
  classes with amazing dancers. It was awesome.
• 27:54
  So that is what led me really, my mom and dad, amazing support
• 27:58
  system at home. Said after Japan was kind of
• 28:02
  coming to an end. That was an 8 month contract.
• 28:03
  They said, you know mom or Andrea, you're not going to come
• 28:07
  back here. And I was like I well, I could
• 28:10
  go dance in Branson or Kathy was interested in maybe having
• 28:13
  partnership in the dance studio. I could possibly do that.
• 28:16
  And then I had a friend who I met in one of my other shows
• 28:19
  when I was 17, Mark Swanhart. And he wanted to move to LA too
• 28:22
  or New York. So we like we're communicating
• 28:25
  you know while I was in Japan saying OK we're going to do this
• 28:27
  we're going to move to New York, LA and cut to he ends up booking
• 28:31
  like the Chicago Fosse tour or something.
• 28:34
  So he can't go with me now. So now I'm like the lone wolf
• 28:36
  going Oh my God, am I going to do this am I going to do this go
• 28:39
  to LA on my own. And my parents just gave me that
• 28:42
  total support and confidence that I could.
• 28:45
  And you know, yeah, you know too.
• 28:47
  It's a big move to leave your roots.
• 28:49
  What your your, your entire family, all of it, you know.
• 28:53
  And yeah, I did the long car ride out, you know, caravander
• 28:58
  for a couple of days and finally landed.
• 29:01
  Lived in North Hollywood for my first year with an amazing
• 29:03
  singer dancer who really took me under her wing, Terra Bonilla.
• 29:07
  And she, she helped me, like, get dance gigs right away and
• 29:10
  get, you know, help me get an agent.
• 29:12
  And she also told me you should jump in this acting class.
• 29:15
  This woman really loves dancers. Bobby Shaw, Chance and I started
• 29:18
  with her. And and then it all just was
• 29:21
  like a tumbleweed. So yeah, huge support system at
• 29:23
  home. I always say, like mom and dad,
• 29:25
  you guys never, like, asked me to come home.
• 29:26
  Most kids, parents, like, ask them to come home and they're
• 29:28
  like, no, no, no, you you're supposed to be out there.
• 29:31
  You're supposed to be doing something good, you know, so.
• 29:34
  Yeah, that's. I asked my parents the same
• 29:37
  question. So we got It's always important
• 29:40
  to have blindly supportive, right?
• 29:46
  I mean, I don't know how they do it.
• 29:48
  So good on them for all that support.
• 29:53
  Like, I don't know. Yeah, where I'd be without that.
• 29:57
  So then flash forward a long time to moving from.
• 30:05
  LA to Sonoma, were you? Because that was before Emory.
• 30:12
  Correct. He was born in Sonoma.
• 30:14
  So I I moved here, yeah. Yep.
• 30:16
  So she we moved here in 2017, literally a month before she was
• 30:20
  born. Oh, so like, right.
• 30:22
  Oh my gosh what a big move. While you're not pregnant, what
• 30:26
  did how did you choose Sonoma? And I know like before you had
• 30:31
  said. I'm not ready to leave LA.
• 30:35
  So what did what? Where did that shift come in?
• 30:40
  A couple of different interesting things.
• 30:42
  So Eric, as he had as we met just before we met, he had
• 30:47
  actually invested in property in Sonoma as sort of a little city
• 30:51
  escape for himself because he lived in San Francisco and
• 30:54
  traveled the world. But he really was looking for
• 30:56
  more of a quiet place to retreat to when he was home as well.
• 31:00
  And so he bought these two little lots of land that were
• 31:03
  these old little cottages separated by a Creek bed and and
• 31:08
  started renovations on one of them, you know, to possibly live
• 31:12
  in and stay and it was just going to do one at a time and
• 31:14
  yadda yadda. And so when we met that was one
• 31:18
  of the places that he would say like hey, do you want to come up
• 31:21
  to Sonoma for the weekend? And we would stay in this little
• 31:23
  rundown cottage that was not renovated yet, but we would bike
• 31:28
  along this road called Thorns Ferry Road.
• 31:30
  And it was this beautiful loop that, I mean, we literally just
• 31:34
  fell in love, like, you know, biking around wine country.
• 31:36
  And and so I had never been here before.
• 31:40
  I had only been to San Francisco once or twice.
• 31:43
  Maybe I'd done some work in Oakland.
• 31:45
  And then I had never been up to this area at all.
• 31:49
  I was like, I was thought it was Sedona.
• 31:51
  I'm like, wait, what? Arizona?
• 31:52
  Where are we? You know?
• 31:54
  And, you know, and I just fell in love.
• 31:57
  It's so beautiful here. It's so tranquil.
• 32:00
  There is a lot of peace and you're just surrounded by nature
• 32:03
  and a lot of beautiful things, you know, and and so I think
• 32:07
  that was very captivating, yet also very quiet.
• 32:10
  So I was like, oh, I don't really know what I, you know
• 32:13
  what that would be like. I find it.
• 32:14
  And I also wasn't sure if it was more of like a retirement
• 32:17
  community, like more older. This is where you come to like
• 32:19
  retire or and you know and tour and be a tourist.
• 32:23
  But so when Eric and I did like back and forth two years, I more
• 32:30
  or less you know we both started falling in love with Sonoma and
• 32:34
  as we sort of decided that potentially we wanted to get
• 32:37
  married and have children, we both.
• 32:40
  Eric grew up in a small town in Trondheim, Norway and you know
• 32:44
  out on land and quieter and I grew up you know 20 acres of
• 32:49
  land mom and dad little house on a lot of land and gravel road to
• 32:53
  learn to ride my bike. So there was definitely both of
• 32:55
  us had this yearning for a quieter slower pace to raise
• 32:59
  children in and you know and I think it was kind of interesting
• 33:05
  we went home for Christmas to my family and as we over those two
• 33:10
  years we also flipped one of the the buildings and started Airbnb
• 33:14
  in it. So and it became really
• 33:16
  successful. Eric has incredible style,
• 33:18
  beautiful Scandinavian, very clean aesthetic and.
• 33:21
  So yeah, I've seen pictures there.
• 33:23
  You. Gorgeous.
• 33:25
  They're gorgeous and so Oh my gosh now I've learned so much
• 33:28
  from him about that you know that world and and we made a
• 33:32
  family business out of it. So and at that stage like there
• 33:35
  wasn't much I was doing to help facilitate it along at all.
• 33:39
  Obviously we weren't married. It wasn't mine.
• 33:41
  It wasn't it wasn't something that I felt like I was a part of
• 33:43
  yet. But as we, you know, he was
• 33:45
  definitely including me and choices and you know, you know,
• 33:49
  design choices and color palettes and things like that.
• 33:51
  So I started to get a little bit like curious and interested of
• 33:55
  how I could be supportive and help in this Ave. as well.
• 33:57
  And so my brother, actually, when we went home for Christmas,
• 34:01
  he was the one who just like sat me down and was like, listen
• 34:03
  here, sister, you know, And my brother just, he gave me a
• 34:08
  little bit of his two cents about how he's like, look, you
• 34:11
  love to teach. You can do that anywhere.
• 34:13
  You can build your yoga practice anywhere.
• 34:15
  And he said, and you've done so much with acting.
• 34:18
  You know, maybe like that ship has sailed, you know.
• 34:21
  And you know, he was trying to like read me the, the, like, I
• 34:25
  think you're done acting, sister, you know, kind of.
• 34:28
  And and then, you know, we looked at some houses in LA and
• 34:33
  we weren't really falling in love with anything in an area
• 34:35
  that we wanted to be. And, and I think it all just
• 34:39
  started to make more sense where I was like, well, if maybe I
• 34:42
  could be a facilitator and helping manage the Airbnb
• 34:45
  business, you know, and help you out while you're still so busy
• 34:48
  doing photography, I can build my yoga business, you know,
• 34:51
  anywhere really. And he said if my team is
• 34:54
  willing to keep me here in LA, maybe I can still put myself on
• 34:57
  tape for certain things. Or I can just come back down if
• 35:00
  there's a really a great guest star recurring or something or a
• 35:03
  series regular, like I can just come down and, you know, see
• 35:05
  what happens, right. We can just kind of do both
• 35:07
  worlds and that was really what what hit it like after
• 35:10
  Christmas. And then we talked to his family
• 35:12
  a bit about it too and just we're taking inventory of
• 35:15
  opinions. But we ultimately knew we had to
• 35:16
  make the decision, you know, and and that just became really
• 35:20
  clear that we both were, you know, it was hard, like again,
• 35:24
  still hard. But I also know myself and my
• 35:27
  nature of being like a chameleon to.
• 35:30
  I love meeting people. I'm a social creature.
• 35:33
  I've gone much more introverted, I think, since I've gotten
• 35:35
  older, but I still very much love building community.
• 35:39
  I love connecting people. I love being connected to
• 35:42
  people. So I knew that I would thrive,
• 35:45
  you know, wherever hopefully I was put, because I would make
• 35:49
  that choice for myself, you know?
• 35:50
  And, yeah, and it's just been, I mean, truly a blessing to be
• 35:55
  here and to still get to work and act and put myself on tape
• 35:59
  and audition and Eric and I, if I get an offer for a Lifetime
• 36:02
  movie or something, we talk about, you know, expense versus
• 36:06
  what I'm going to make. Where is it childcare?
• 36:09
  Does it all make sense and we just work it out?
• 36:11
  If it's, if I read it and I'm like, I really think this would
• 36:14
  be fun to do. Eric's like, let's make it work,
• 36:17
  you know? So I I feel really grateful for
• 36:21
  that. Yeah, yeah.
• 36:23
  Do you think that because like I think you said you started
• 36:28
  getting more work later on, like either once you moved or just
• 36:36
  later on, Do you think that's because you kind of let that go,
• 36:44
  like held it less, maybe less precious or?
• 36:49
  Or has becoming a mother helped you inform your acting?
• 36:54
  Or just how is your. Yeah.
• 36:58
  How is your acting like? Do you think that those two.
• 37:02
  Yeah for sure I do. I I think that a journey into
• 37:06
  motherhood. And you know for two years prior
• 37:08
  to motherhood I was writing A blog Inspirational addict and
• 37:12
  now it's called Andrew Bogart, Mindful Living.
• 37:14
  But and it's really not a blog because I don't write, but I
• 37:20
  will. But, you know, those two years
• 37:23
  of writing and things like that were really to help me propel
• 37:27
  myself into a better place. And because certain things were
• 37:30
  working really well, I felt a huge calling to share them.
• 37:34
  So that was part of that. And then, you know, yeah, it's
• 37:38
  like, so those dynamics of like writing and reading about things
• 37:42
  that were helping support my wellbeing and then sharing them
• 37:45
  and then also journeying into motherhood, I mean, all of that
• 37:49
  changes. Like, you know, you're, I mean,
• 37:52
  you know, it's like your relationship now to things
• 37:54
  happening to other children in the world is far different than
• 37:58
  when you didn't have your own kids.
• 38:00
  You know, it's much more emotional.
• 38:02
  There's much more empathy. I, you know, it's very difficult
• 38:05
  for me to actually hold the tears back at times when there
• 38:08
  are horrible things going on in the world with other, you know,
• 38:11
  families and children. And so that combined with Eric's
• 38:18
  support and you know, there's there's, we all know, you know,
• 38:24
  when you're financially stressed or when you're just like as an
• 38:27
  actor, you make a big chunk of money.
• 38:29
  I've done really well. I'd saved a lot of money from
• 38:33
  General Hospital and then just from consistently doing yoga and
• 38:36
  stuff that sort of evolves you as well, right.
• 38:39
  There's not a desperation for the job.
• 38:43
  And then and then I mean so much has shifted with me now.
• 38:46
  I mean, my manager and agent are like, you do the best, tape self
• 38:49
  tapes like you're acting is so not even just so much better as
• 38:55
  much as you just hit every beat that you're supposed to.
• 38:58
  Like it's all on point right now.
• 39:00
  And so I can for sure say when you have the comfort of knowing
• 39:07
  that you don't have to take this job, that you can take this job
• 39:11
  if you get it, you can make choices for yourself.
• 39:13
  That makes sense. I think that just the financial
• 39:17
  support of what I have in my marriage and in my life now has
• 39:22
  I would be lying if I didn't say that impact my what I exude as
• 39:27
  far as desperation or you know if I need this job kind of
• 39:31
  thing. And so that that again is
• 39:34
  something like I'm I do not take for granted and I think Eric a
• 39:38
  lot for giving me this sort of this underlying confidence of
• 39:43
  being able to harness my craft more and not worry.
• 39:47
  You know and I think people are capable of doing that without
• 39:52
  this, but it's all about the way we talk to ourselves you know
• 39:55
  and the things we tell ourselves.
• 39:56
  So there's, you know, I I want to say oh, I can give this
• 39:59
  credit, but it's also a a test to I think.
• 40:03
  Me really diving into mindfulness and and developing a
• 40:06
  meditation practice and a strong yoga practice and really a loved
• 40:10
  like I just love and obsessed with growth mindset material.
• 40:14
  So a lot of that has all been a great recipe for me to give
• 40:18
  myself more confidence and also sort of the sense of like, no,
• 40:22
  I've been acting for a really long time now.
• 40:24
  I don't have to take that job. You know it it's like that.
• 40:27
  And there is I found there's a lot of power and no and
• 40:31
  establishing rates for yourself. And so yes that's it's been a
• 40:36
  beautiful dichotomy of like this recipe of comfort with marriage
• 40:40
  and financial stability and having children that also are
• 40:45
  much more of a priority now. You know, then it's like they're
• 40:48
  your everything. And so, you know, even the end
• 40:51
  of last year it was offered two movies and I never get offers
• 40:56
  back-to-back. And it was really a struggle
• 40:59
  whether I was going to do it or not because I was away from my
• 41:02
  kids and it was the first time. And Audrey's still quite little
• 41:05
  and I did not traumatize her in any way.
• 41:09
  And you know, I talked to a psychotherapist about it and
• 41:10
  she's like, this will not create trauma.
• 41:12
  This will create stress and emotional like little bit of
• 41:15
  jarring maybe you know where she will wonder where you are and
• 41:18
  when you're coming back, even once you're back, if you're
• 41:21
  going to be gone for a long time.
• 41:23
  And I saw a bit of that for sure.
• 41:25
  But for the most part, I mean, Eric would send me videos and
• 41:28
  she would just run around the house and make Mama, Mama, Mama
• 41:30
  see me on FaceTime, hug and kiss the phone, and then she'd be
• 41:33
  fine. A little more aware.
• 41:33
  You know, I think Emery actually had a harder time because Emery
• 41:37
  and I, you know, we have such an emotional bond too.
• 41:39
  And she's used to her Mama, snuggles and I think you know,
• 41:42
  so you know it's being a little. A little more aware.
• 41:47
  It's up. Yeah.
• 41:49
  Yeah. So get ready, Mama.
• 41:50
  It's coming for you. Yeah, for sure.
• 41:55
  What did, what did the conversation look like for you
• 41:59
  telling your reps both that you were that you were pregnant and
• 42:07
  that you were moving to Sonoma where they supportive of, I mean
• 42:13
  I think you said you're still with them.
• 42:15
  So seems like they were supportive of both of those
• 42:18
  decisions. Yeah, really supportive.
• 42:21
  I think my manager, you know I've been with him for a long
• 42:23
  time and we started as friends and then became you know
• 42:27
  partners and working together. And I think he was definitely a
• 42:30
  little hurt to see that I was going to go.
• 42:32
  You know that I was leaving and uprooting and and probably
• 42:37
  wasn't sure how much I would work, you know and obviously at
• 42:40
  the time I was pregnant too. But man, so much support from my
• 42:44
  team really. And like you say I mean just to
• 42:47
  now cut to I've been gone since 2017 and to still have them
• 42:51
  represent me and still you know go through the work of
• 42:55
  submitting me for things and and you know me, you know I do work
• 43:01
  really hard to get myself on tape.
• 43:02
  And I mean as soon as Audrey was born I it was almost it might
• 43:05
  have been a part of like my postpartum healing where I was.
• 43:09
  I was like yes, I'm ready. And I was just auditioning and
• 43:11
  putting myself on tape so soon and I was kind of like OK wait,
• 43:15
  let's digest this. Am I going to, am I going to
• 43:17
  accept this job if I get it, You know, and and I wanted to be
• 43:21
  very careful of that because I don't also want to waste casting
• 43:24
  directors times, you know, I have such a respect for what
• 43:26
  they do. So yeah, it was just a it was
• 43:31
  definitely, you know, the conversation was very much like
• 43:35
  I'm pregnant. I'm madly in love.
• 43:38
  You know, I'm going to we're we're talking about staying here
• 43:42
  not quite sure what we're going to do yet but you know, through
• 43:45
  pregnancy of course. And then I got that offer for
• 43:47
  the movie. So they were all kind of still
• 43:49
  excited about me doing something while I was pregnant.
• 43:54
  You know, and then and then yeah, I think the move, you
• 43:57
  know, the transition was okay. Well, you got to the
• 44:01
  conversation really becomes about what are you willing to do
• 44:04
  still, you know what what is going to make sense Like am I
• 44:08
  still going to put you out for a series regular that works in
• 44:12
  Atlanta or the show shoots in Vancouver or the show shoots
• 44:16
  back here in LA? Are you going to be willing to
• 44:18
  uproot your life? My first couple years, that was
• 44:20
  a big no. I said absolutely not.
• 44:23
  I am here. I will do recurring guest stars.
• 44:26
  I would love to do film if we have any great films, you know,
• 44:29
  things like that. But I I'm not.
• 44:31
  We just bought a house. I'm in like a dream house.
• 44:34
  I don't. I don't want to uproot and move
• 44:36
  anywhere with a small baby. And then now the struggle is a
• 44:39
  little bit because I got my girl in a great school, you know, and
• 44:42
  she's going to be in first grade next year and she's had an
• 44:46
  amazing kinder year. And I think about how I grew up
• 44:49
  going from K through, you know, high school with my same people.
• 44:56
  I got my best friend Andrea from 2 years old.
• 44:58
  Our dads work together. We went to our school our whole
• 45:01
  lives together, My best friend Tammy and Jill.
• 45:03
  You know, it's like you create these friendships when you are,
• 45:06
  when you have the luxury of being at a school system your
• 45:08
  whole life. But I also now I, I think
• 45:11
  there's a credible value in traveling with your kids.
• 45:14
  I think homeschooling is pretty amazing.
• 45:16
  Cheers to all the Mamas who endure that.
• 45:18
  Because I, I, I don't think I have it in me, but I think it's
• 45:21
  incredible for the moms who are doing that and dads and, you
• 45:25
  know, caretakers, all of you. And it's.
• 45:28
  Yeah. So it's yeah, it's been a it's
• 45:33
  been A and they still are just so supportive.
• 45:35
  So it's, you know, like I just auditioned for a series regular
• 45:38
  a couple months ago and we had a smallish pilot season and my
• 45:42
  husband it it kind of we just have conversations a lot.
• 45:44
  So anytime something comes my way, I read it.
• 45:47
  I take a look at it. I tell my husband about it.
• 45:49
  I say if there's people attached to it, what network it is, what
• 45:52
  the money could look like and then we just make a decision do
• 45:55
  am I going to audition or not, you know.
• 45:56
  And so we just kind of take it on a case by case basis now but,
• 46:01
  and I have an agent up here in in the city in San Francisco,
• 46:04
  I'm with Stars Agency and I just a little plug for them.
• 46:07
  I I, I did some motion capture work when I was down in Lai did
• 46:12
  like a David Fincher commercial for Nike where they turned my
• 46:15
  one body into like an entire cheerleading squad.
• 46:17
  So I have a little bit of motion capture under my belt.
• 46:20
  Yeah. And I moved up here and there's
• 46:22
  this amazing 2K sports studios like huge sound stages where
• 46:27
  they're turning all of these basketball teams into video
• 46:30
  games. So I oddly enough, I have gotten
• 46:34
  in with them and they're I work, you know, this year I've worked
• 46:37
  about 15 days. It's like a couple days a month.
• 46:39
  It's very easy. It's 30 minutes from my house.
• 46:42
  It's a beautiful drive. It's a sad job.
• 46:44
  I am working with the most delightful, fun people and that
• 46:49
  has been, I like, I cannot say how grateful I am enough because
• 46:53
  that has been, that has been a really sweet little gig to have,
• 46:56
  you know, on the side here up here.
• 46:58
  And it's motion capture. I'm very physical person, so
• 47:00
  it's fun for me. It's fun to fun to do it.
• 47:03
  So it's been a great little interesting gig too.
• 47:05
  Yeah, that sounds awesome. Well, that's definitely a
• 47:09
  testament to to your acting ability of how supportive and
• 47:15
  like your agents were or your reps were saying like that
• 47:18
  you're. Tapes are better than they've
• 47:21
  ever been. But Speaking of being a physical
• 47:25
  person, how was that whole transition for you becoming
• 47:31
  pregnant and then afterwards since since like you said, I
• 47:37
  mean I guess that's difference with age too, but like like you
• 47:42
  said, well you have a dancer body and the things that they
• 47:47
  were. You know, pigeonholing you into,
• 47:50
  Did that have any stress for you or or was the mindfulness just a
• 48:02
  whole able to take care of that for you as well?
• 48:07
  You know, that is a practice and it's a daily practice for me.
• 48:10
  I mean, right now I'm working on just being, like calmer in the
• 48:14
  state of needing to rush, you know, like getting my little
• 48:17
  girl ready for school in the morning.
• 48:18
  I don't want to have this frantic, hysterical.
• 48:21
  You got to go. You got to brush your teeth.
• 48:22
  You got to get your shoes on. But she was like a snail, my
• 48:25
  little bean. So it's hard not to, but I'm
• 48:28
  just, I'm working. So the the, the ritual of
• 48:32
  constantly being in practice with myself and my, you know, my
• 48:37
  character flaws or the things that I'm not really applauding
• 48:40
  for is it is a daily practice. It truly is, you know, and I
• 48:45
  think when it comes to my physicality, I, you know, I
• 48:48
  think Giselle said this once where she's like I have a high
• 48:50
  metabolism, you know, But it there is, there is something to
• 48:54
  that where I I definitely was blessed with a high metabolism
• 48:57
  and an ability to burn calories fairly easily.
• 49:02
  And like it or not, you know, the same with someone telling
• 49:06
  me, oh, I look so skinny. Isn't is the same sort of
• 49:09
  degrading feeling that someone gets from feeling like they're
• 49:12
  too heavy, you know? So there there's definitely
• 49:14
  been, if anything, there's usually been a struggle with me
• 49:17
  of trying to keep a healthy weight, look for myself.
• 49:20
  So, and I breastfeed. I'm still breastfeeding my
• 49:24
  child. I'm like 2 years old.
• 49:26
  We're done. But breastfeeding really has, I
• 49:30
  think, been something that has supported weight loss for me, to
• 49:34
  the point where I have to work to put weight on, and I also
• 49:37
  struggled with supply a lot. I can't believe that I'm still
• 49:40
  breastfeeding her, but but I was never able to solely breastfeed
• 49:44
  her both girls, because I didn't have it.
• 49:46
  I wasn't producing enough. My body didn't quite do that.
• 49:49
  But, you know, so when it came to the sort of like physicality
• 49:53
  and body image and all that kind of stuff, I mean, I personally
• 49:58
  loved being pregnant. I loved it.
• 50:00
  I mean, and I was very fortunate that I had to really like good
• 50:05
  pregnancies. I wasn't sick.
• 50:06
  I had very little nausea. You know the end of like with
• 50:12
  Audrey, I gained so much more weight faster.
• 50:15
  So even though I in total I only gained like 2 or I think maybe
• 50:20
  £5 more than I did with Emory, I gained the weight a lot quicker
• 50:24
  so I was. Like, I know what's happening
• 50:27
  exactly. And so that was really shocking
• 50:29
  for me because I'm like, oh, I'm not going to be able to like,
• 50:32
  hide this as long And my ankles got, I got like, I was just
• 50:36
  retaining so much water in my legs.
• 50:38
  I mean, even my husband and I, we joke about it like the butt
• 50:42
  that I had, because I've never had a like a, you know, a
• 50:46
  healthy looking big butt. So my my bum, wow.
• 50:52
  I was like, I want to tone this while it's this size so I can
• 50:55
  try to keep it a little bit. I mean, we just, we had such
• 50:58
  good laughs about it and we still do.
• 51:00
  But the butt fell right back off.
• 51:02
  I'm still struggling to, like, try to have a butt.
• 51:06
  But, you know, it's I I think when it comes to that there, you
• 51:10
  know, our female bodies, oh, my gosh, they go through so much
• 51:13
  through pregnancy. And, you know, not to make it
• 51:16
  all sound like it was just a walk in the park for me because
• 51:18
  it wasn't. And there was moments where I
• 51:20
  was just crying and I was so like, Oh my gosh, I'm just so
• 51:23
  ready for this baby to be out, you know?
• 51:26
  And I was five days overdue with Audrey.
• 51:28
  My endocrinologist was like, okay you.
• 51:31
  I don't want to scare you but she's like you should not go
• 51:35
  overdue when you're past 45 or you know or you're in late 40,
• 51:39
  mid 40s and you're and you're an IVF.
• 51:43
  And I, she's like, please go to the hospital and have that baby
• 51:45
  today. What?
• 51:47
  Yeah. And I wanted to try to have her
• 51:49
  natural, which is also crazy, you know, but I did which is the
• 51:52
  the bananas. But it's I didn't with Emory,
• 51:57
  but with Audrey, I wasn't. And I wasn't even, like,
• 51:59
  determined. I went in with, like, a very
• 52:00
  open plan of, like, this is what I would like to do, but I will.
• 52:04
  I will do what needs to be done, you know?
• 52:07
  And I just was fortunate that her divine timing really came in
• 52:10
  my favor when I was, like, hitting my breaking point and,
• 52:12
  like, called for the anesthesiologist for an
• 52:15
  epidural. They were like, oh, no, she's
• 52:17
  coming right now. So I was like, great, Thank you,
• 52:19
  Audrey. But, you know, it is a struggle.
• 52:23
  And that my heart goes out to. I have some amazing women that
• 52:26
  even here in Snowmen. Then there's an app called
• 52:28
  Mothership Rising that really supports this postpartum
• 52:31
  journey. And more and more I'm seeing
• 52:34
  women circles coming together and you know yoga retreats or
• 52:38
  just mindful retreats geared towards moms who we do we we
• 52:44
  there's a lot of struggle within the body image the what our
• 52:48
  bodies go through and the hormones.
• 52:50
  I mean I think the hormones are sort of the biggest challenge
• 52:53
  right is to is to figure out and we don't really know what
• 52:55
  they're going to do you know so it's can be out of control.
• 52:59
  And I just found that, you know, my recipe, I have a lot of
• 53:02
  little rituals that I do and things that I stay really
• 53:05
  connected to when it comes to healthy food And and making sure
• 53:08
  I move my body daily doesn't always, you know, have to mean a
• 53:12
  peloton ride or a crazy yoga practice.
• 53:15
  I mean it's very minimal. It's like me just walking my
• 53:17
  daughter for a walk. But I make sure I try to move
• 53:19
  daily. And you know, the pressures that
• 53:21
  come along with that are I think usually the pressure that we put
• 53:25
  on ourselves. And so, you know it's about
• 53:28
  working to peel those layers back and realize how you can get
• 53:33
  to that place of self love and and be accepting of like what
• 53:36
  your body's going through. And it's so easy to sometimes to
• 53:40
  just look down at the human that you're nurturing and that you're
• 53:42
  taking care of and that you birthed and and remind yourself
• 53:45
  like this was a big deal. This was a big deal for my body,
• 53:50
  you know and you know, as far as being luckily as I was
• 53:55
  transitioning kind of into yoga and Wellness and I feel like the
• 54:01
  roles started to shift a bit for me too.
• 54:03
  And and just with age, naturally, I was getting more of
• 54:05
  the suburban mom roles, you know, versus this, you know,
• 54:11
  whatever role I used to sort of pigeon, you know, felt like I
• 54:14
  was pigeonholed into. And that's been fun for the
• 54:17
  lifetime. I mean it there's that's
• 54:19
  probably been more fun for me than anything.
• 54:21
  This like normal suburban mom who's like, you know, had some
• 54:25
  tragedy happen and now she's being stalked and she's going to
• 54:28
  try to end it well, You know, I said, like last couple years
• 54:33
  I've been putting out into the universe like how badly I just
• 54:35
  want to do Christmas movies. And like every director I work
• 54:38
  with, I'm like guys. You see how happy I am?
• 54:41
  Like, I'm ready to do some fun stuff.
• 54:44
  Yeah, give me some, like, sprinkle Christmas cookies and
• 54:47
  let's do this. Yes.
• 54:49
  Yes, completely. So, you know, the pressures, I
• 54:52
  think of a lot of that stuff have really been supported
• 54:56
  through just mindfulness, you know, and growth mindset and
• 54:59
  staying really curious about who I am and how I operate.
• 55:03
  And, you know, when I'm not feeling so good, like how can I
• 55:06
  segue this into, well, let's figure out what's going to make
• 55:09
  me feel better. And, you know, yeah, my poor
• 55:12
  husband, if you asked him and he's got to listen to me a lot,
• 55:14
  you know, but that's another big thing that I've worked on a lot.
• 55:19
  It's like, does that need to be verbalized?
• 55:22
  No, I can. I can just write that down in a
• 55:25
  journal, but thank you for asking that.
• 55:29
  That's a good question. To share about because we all go
• 55:33
  through that stuff, you know? Yeah, it's it's hard.
• 55:36
  It's a big transition. And so many people, you know,
• 55:40
  talk about how after birth and they feel like they don't know
• 55:46
  that. They don't know the body that
• 55:48
  they're in anymore. And luckily I didn't go through
• 55:52
  any of that. I mean.
• 55:55
  Some of my shorts don't fit anymore, but besides that, I
• 55:58
  feel still. I I still feel at home in my
• 56:01
  body. Not necessarily always
• 56:03
  comfortable in my home, but but it's my home regardless.
• 56:08
  So it's nice that you have the yoga and your mindfulness of
• 56:13
  being able to move your body and feel good in your body.
• 56:20
  I lost. I totally lost what I was just
• 56:23
  going to Sorry no no no not because of you will blame mom
• 56:31
  but is your is your husband like Obviously he's supportive and
• 56:38
  understanding of this you're mindful and your yoga and is he
• 56:46
  on a similar similar. Track with you on that or is he
• 56:52
  more of a you're like, hey. Let's let's make sure we're.
• 56:59
  Doing this or whatever, you know when we first met he was he had
• 57:03
  been a yoga practitioner so he had already done a lot of yoga
• 57:06
  on his own. He worked for a photographer for
• 57:09
  years in his younger, earlier apprentice, you know, years up
• 57:12
  and coming as a photographer and and he was a Yogi so he was as
• 57:16
  his assistant like drug to yoga classes sometimes with him,
• 57:20
  which I thought was amazing. So you know, we did a lot of
• 57:24
  yoga together when we first met and I would give him yoga
• 57:27
  privates a lot, you know, it's just it was super fun.
• 57:31
  And then here I would just say in the last year like since
• 57:34
  Audrey's been born, it's been harder for him to get to my
• 57:38
  class. He used to always come to my
• 57:39
  Friday morning class and he still dabbles in, you know here
• 57:42
  and there. As far as growth mindset, Eric
• 57:45
  is a super growth mindset person and we we, we share a lot of
• 57:49
  podcasts that we love. We share a lot of books that we
• 57:51
  both have gotten something out of.
• 57:54
  We're both very much on a path of staying curious about who we
• 57:57
  are curious about our relationship and about moving
• 58:01
  forward, you know, and in a good way and that I mean I know how
• 58:05
  hard that is to get aligned and we're not always In Sync.
• 58:10
  You know, there, there there's for sure like moments where you
• 58:13
  know, we talk a good talk about all the things we want to do and
• 58:17
  we both, we both try to support each other in execution.
• 58:21
  Because I think when you do have two small kids, you know, again,
• 58:25
  it's very easy to lose sight of what you said you were going to
• 58:28
  do that day. And suddenly, you know, the day
• 58:30
  has shifted. And so you know, I think the
• 58:33
  biggest thing we found too is just to stay open.
• 58:36
  You know, we have to. We, you know, our Airbnb
• 58:39
  business is it's one of the top Airbnb's if you search in the
• 58:43
  county of Sonoma and even in California.
• 58:45
  And so we we have Eric is amazing at customer service and
• 58:50
  you know he's getting me on board to be sometimes it's he
• 58:55
  handles things better than I would you know but but I'm
• 58:59
  learning too like this is an amazing business that he was so
• 59:02
  wise to invest and sort of create and now we've done it
• 59:05
  together and we're managing it together.
• 59:07
  And so there's a lot that goes into having to pivot very
• 59:12
  quickly when we have things arrive.
• 59:15
  And and sometimes I think what sacrifices the most is our
• 59:19
  selfcare, like we it's the thing that gets shifted to the back
• 59:22
  burner the quickest, you know. So it's a, it's a bit of a
• 59:26
  juggle, right, of like figuring out how to stay in tune.
• 59:29
  And you're like, no, today's the day like I have to run.
• 59:31
  Like I need to run today. And he knows too.
• 59:33
  Like, I'm pretty vocal about if I'm like I need to sit and take
• 59:38
  a yoga class or like I need to meditate today.
• 59:40
  And I haven't even myself gone into a yoga studio and taken a
• 59:44
  class for myself in a long time. You know, I have my mentor in LA
• 59:49
  who I mentioned earlier, Andrea Markham, she's thank God she
• 59:52
  pivoted it online and she does retreats all over the world.
• 59:55
  So I just do, I do her classes online when I can and and I
• 59:59
  would, I'm like jonesing, drooling, salivating over the
• 1:00:02
  idea of going on a retreat with her again one year, you know.
• 1:00:05
  But it's yes. So we're very.
• 1:00:07
  I think that's why we initially fell in love too, is because we
• 1:00:09
  were very aligned with like. Both mindset and mindfulness.
• 1:00:13
  And Eric has definitely taken a bit of a turn into real estate
• 1:00:16
  right now. He's, he's loves listening to a
• 1:00:19
  couple of podcasts that not only are about education, educating
• 1:00:23
  us in real estate, but also just current events and like the
• 1:00:26
  economy and what's happening right now.
• 1:00:28
  There's a lot, a lot, a lot going on that could deeply
• 1:00:32
  impact you know all of us and our investments and our
• 1:00:35
  businesses and things like that. So but yes, we are very
• 1:00:39
  likeminded in those avenues and we we raise our children.
• 1:00:42
  You know, we we say gratitudes before our dinner and there's
• 1:00:46
  things that we are very much aligned for that feels really,
• 1:00:48
  really good. And when we're not really on the
• 1:00:51
  same page typically like I will sit us down and we just we try
• 1:00:55
  to get there you know and and so it's good.
• 1:00:58
  But yeah I mean it would be I wish I was a runner because I
• 1:01:02
  used to run a ton and then I decided that's terrible for my
• 1:01:05
  knees and ankles and I can't do it anymore.
• 1:01:07
  But Eric loves to run. So when he when I, you know when
• 1:01:10
  he really loves to get a workout and he'll just, he takes off and
• 1:01:13
  go, go, goes for a run. But yeah, I've been, I've been
• 1:01:16
  on them. I've been like, hey, I kind of
• 1:01:17
  miss you know miss having you in yoga class.
• 1:01:19
  You know I plant little. I plant little seeds.
• 1:01:25
  Yeah. Yeah.
• 1:01:27
  Of oh, I was going to ask how do you manage?
• 1:01:30
  How do you yourself continue to find the passion and the
• 1:01:37
  creativity even to do the self tapes?
• 1:01:42
  Because obviously. You, like, you said, you're
• 1:01:48
  like, you're able to, you have other things that will take care
• 1:01:55
  of you, like emotionally, physically, financially.
• 1:01:58
  So how are you able to keep that passion, like when you get an
• 1:02:06
  audition? Because I know sometimes I'll
• 1:02:07
  get an audition and I'm like. I have to do this audition,
• 1:02:12
  which is never a good right to have right so.
• 1:02:18
  I guess. Is it mostly?
• 1:02:20
  Yeah. How do you find that?
• 1:02:22
  Is it? What is it?
• 1:02:25
  Right. So maybe there's a an element,
• 1:02:29
  Because this is a great question too that I haven't thought
• 1:02:31
  about. I used to love being an acting
• 1:02:34
  class. I loved it.
• 1:02:35
  I really enjoyed it and I would be in class as much as I could
• 1:02:40
  possibly afford, truly. And I think I because because
• 1:02:44
  not only are you obviously practicing your crap, but you
• 1:02:47
  are learning by watching everybody else, you know.
• 1:02:49
  It's just like watching a great series, you know, or something.
• 1:02:52
  You learn a lot. And I think that most of the
• 1:02:56
  roles that have come my way lately, just it's like I I get
• 1:03:00
  so excited to play, you know, whether it's something really
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  close to who I am or someone pretty far stretched from who I
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  am. I go, Oh my gosh, like I got
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  this, you know. And I I think they just get
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  excited about that dynamic of playing still, partially
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  probably because I'm not in an acting class the way I used to
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  always love to be. And that was the playground,
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  right. And Sarah Jessica Parker, I
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  recently saw something she said on the SAG AFTRA app, The Fund,
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  you know, on Instagram. And I really love hearing what a
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  lot of those successful actors have to say about what kept them
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  going and what why they keep doing it.
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  And I remember her saying that every audition is truly a step
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  closer to a job. And it's also an opportunity to
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  just play, you know? And I think earlier in my
• 1:03:56
  career, I was so nervous. You know, there was a lot of
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  nervous energy of not being sure of myself, not really knowing
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  who I was. Who am I?
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  What roles am I trying to get? What roles am I going to get?
• 1:04:10
  You know what? I always, if you ask my best
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  friend Andrea, she was like, you're going to be on Saturday
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  Night Live. You're like Gilda Radner.
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  It's so crazy that the crap that you do, you know.
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  And I always thought I was going to be on a sitcom or do
• 1:04:23
  something really funny. But that is not really.
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  I I got a couple of sitcoms and I remember one casting director,
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  God, I could, I wish I could remember who it was.
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  She lowered her little glasses and she goes, my, you sure are
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  funny. And I was like and she goes
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  really, truly, I have not had a very pretty girl come in and be
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  this funny in a very long time. And I thought and she goes, but
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  you're too pretty, so don't try to ride that funny horse.
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  And I was like. Oh, no, I might job.
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  Yeah, that's interesting. There's always, man, there's
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  always other, you know, things we don't know.
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  Like, you know, if if we knew now, like if we knew then what
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  we know now, right? Like, you know, I love for some,
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  for some, you know, reasons, social media can be a great
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  tool. I love, hate it, right.
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  But it can be a great tool. And so for things like that,
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  when I look at the SAG AFTRA and I, I look at, you know, these
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  actors and telling their stories about how they got to where they
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  are or what kept them going or those things.
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  And I do allow myself to feel inspired by that because you you
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  see, and I worked on the other side of things for a minute too.
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  I worked in production on the movie Moneyball.
• 1:05:39
  I was like the baseball coordinator's assistant, and I
• 1:05:42
  saw how quickly the director made a decision about who was
• 1:05:47
  going to play the picture for the Oakland A's.
• 1:05:50
  And it had. He wasn't looking reviewing his
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  resume, and he wasn't looking at, like all of his credits and
• 1:05:56
  you know, where this kid was from or anything.
• 1:05:58
  It was like this kid just had a better hook on his throat and
• 1:06:04
  the kid who got it ended up being like way less of an actor
• 1:06:08
  was going to GoPro and had an injury and was like a you know,
• 1:06:11
  minor League Baseball player. So and then here this kid that
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  was up against him and I saw that kids resume and I thought
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  that kids heart is going to be broken today.
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  But I saw so clearly how it comes down to so little that has
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  to do with you sometimes. You know it's your hair color,
• 1:06:29
  the color of your skin, the your eye shape your if you remind
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  them of somebody, you know, we've heard this now but we
• 1:06:34
  didn't hear this two decades ago or a decade ago.
• 1:06:37
  We there wasn't these open conversations as much in on
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  social media where all of it's being thrown in your face.
• 1:06:43
  It'd be like, Oh, well, I probably just didn't get it
• 1:06:45
  because I was like 5 foot seven and they needed 5 foot 2.
• 1:06:49
  You just, you beat yourself to a pulp because you're not good
• 1:06:52
  enough. You're not good enough, you're
• 1:06:53
  not good enough, you know, And that is probably, I think the
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  single best thing I've learned, you know, about being an actor.
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  It's like, if I'm going to give my best and do my best, that is
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  all I can absolutely do. Everything else is not in my
• 1:07:10
  hands. So the only time I would really
• 1:07:13
  feel disappointed, I feel in the, you know, when I would go
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  for auditions in LA and there was plenty where I didn't feel
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  like I worked hard enough on the audition.
• 1:07:20
  I did not get off book, I didn't prepare myself fully and that
• 1:07:25
  obviously you walk in the room and there's a different air
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  about you. You're not as you know, you're
• 1:07:29
  not as confident all of those things.
• 1:07:31
  So, you know, and that avenue, I would just tell everybody, man,
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  do your homework and just like know it inside and out.
• 1:07:39
  So you can just play and just have fun and do your very best
• 1:07:43
  because that is all we can do, you know.
• 1:07:46
  And when you're not doing your best, then you can be hard on
• 1:07:48
  yourself, you know, be hard on yourself and you should, you
• 1:07:50
  know, and you should. And there's if I could turn back
• 1:07:52
  time, Oh my gosh, There are so many, so many opportunities
• 1:07:56
  where I was like why didn't I study more for that?
• 1:07:58
  Why didn't I get off the book? Why didn't I just prepare, you
• 1:08:01
  know, 5 more minutes? But I think too, there's there's
• 1:08:04
  such a struggle in the business where you realize you get in the
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  room and sometimes you feel like you're not even worthy of
• 1:08:10
  getting in the room. Like, you know, your manager had
• 1:08:12
  to beg to get you through that door and you just know you don't
• 1:08:15
  have a chance. And so you walk in with this
• 1:08:18
  deflated feeling of like, and sometimes you're treated that
• 1:08:21
  way in the room, too, and you know it.
• 1:08:23
  You can feel it and it just sucks the wind out of you, you
• 1:08:26
  know? And then there's times you walk
• 1:08:27
  in, you feel so welcome, so honored, so like, that person is
• 1:08:31
  cheering for you, you know? And that feels amazing.
• 1:08:33
  So it's just such a tricky business, isn't it?
• 1:08:36
  So many, so many like highs and lows and you know, and just,
• 1:08:42
  yeah, highs and lows, really. Well, hopefully you're able to,
• 1:08:47
  because I know as moms we're just as hard on ourselves as we
• 1:08:50
  are as actors. So I mean.
• 1:08:55
  We have to be, like you said, kinder to ourselves as actors.
• 1:09:00
  But then to have that same mentality as mothers as well, to
• 1:09:05
  be like, because the mom guilts and just the idea that we're
• 1:09:09
  supposed to feel mom guilt, it's like just that you're there,
• 1:09:17
  you're doing your best. As long as you're doing your
• 1:09:20
  best, these little ladies are going to be, oh, my God, yeah.
• 1:09:27
  And even when you're not your best, you know, being willing to
• 1:09:30
  say, like, I'm not my best self today, tell your kids, like,
• 1:09:33
  there's, I've learned so much value in being able to look at
• 1:09:36
  my little girl and say, hey, I raised my voice there and I that
• 1:09:40
  is not what I meant to do. You know, you didn't deserve
• 1:09:42
  that. Or I'm so sorry that I told you
• 1:09:45
  you were going to get to do that and we didn't get to, you know,
• 1:09:48
  it's like, you know, treat your humans the way I mean, I see
• 1:09:52
  this to Eric a lot. Like if we actually treated each
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  other sometimes a little bit more, like we're trying to teach
• 1:09:57
  our, treat our kids, we probably communicate better, you know,
• 1:10:02
  because it's like we're all, you know, we are.
• 1:10:05
  Yeah. And we have to just be so
• 1:10:07
  graceful with ourselves. You know, I think at the end of
• 1:10:09
  the day it's there's so much pressure out there.
• 1:10:11
  And I I say, you know, if you can't use social media or your
• 1:10:15
  devices or things like that as means to inspire you, then get
• 1:10:20
  rid of it. You know, get rid of it.
• 1:10:22
  If there's stuff that you just, you know, taking the life out of
• 1:10:24
  you, comparing yourself, making yourself feel less than, do not
• 1:10:28
  look at it. Do not, do not be a part of it.
• 1:10:31
  You know it is. I just finished reading this
• 1:10:34
  book. Change Your Paradigm, Change
• 1:10:36
  Your Life by Bob Proctor, 85 year old, very wise man.
• 1:10:40
  And I learn I I get so many amazing resources by being in
• 1:10:45
  the new Hollywood which is also Brianna's created this
• 1:10:48
  incredible guide book called Manifesting Your Mission and
• 1:10:52
  we're doing a retreat together this weekend in Sonoma.
• 1:10:55
  I'm so excited on Saturday, and Brianna's coming up for it, and
• 1:10:58
  she's going to share a lot of that wisdom that I've been
• 1:11:01
  benefiting from since 2015 since I joined the group.
• 1:11:04
  And that's another tool, you know, that really helps me as a
• 1:11:08
  mom. Stay creative stay excited stay
• 1:11:12
  focused on things that I want to create and do and and and I
• 1:11:18
  value it so much because as a Mama it's so easy to like Oh my
• 1:11:23
  gosh I have like now that my kids are both in activities I I
• 1:11:26
  forget to even like a lot time that I'm driving back and forth
• 1:11:29
  from those things. And that is time that I'm not
• 1:11:32
  actually going to be writing today or that's time that I
• 1:11:33
  won't actually be able to get on the peloton or whatever it is
• 1:11:36
  you know. But it's it's become just a
• 1:11:39
  really valuable tool for me to use as well as I've made the
• 1:11:42
  shift into motherhood to take my year condense it month by month
• 1:11:47
  by month down into the weeks down into the days.
• 1:11:49
  And I mean, everything is in my calendar and it's if it's not in
• 1:11:53
  the calendar, like Brianna says, it won't get done.
• 1:11:55
  So. So it's been a really useful
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  tool though, you know, to help keep me on track and like you
• 1:12:01
  say, you know, confident and giving yourself grace And you
• 1:12:05
  know, at the end of each month I do a thing where it's like I I
• 1:12:08
  write down what my kids met moments were, what my hurdles
• 1:12:11
  were, what my obstacles, my blessings.
• 1:12:13
  And you start to see the repetition and writing that
• 1:12:15
  stuff is good. And that's what brings me back
• 1:12:17
  to the Bob Proctor material. He's so much about repetition
• 1:12:23
  and about, you know, as we learn lines, like we study them over
• 1:12:26
  and over again. Right.
• 1:12:27
  Right. Well, what kind of things are we
• 1:12:28
  telling ourselves daily? You know, what kind of things
• 1:12:31
  are we feeding our brain? We have to reprogram ourselves a
• 1:12:33
  lot because someone said something to us once that really
• 1:12:38
  hurt. And we hear that over and over
• 1:12:40
  again. We'll get that out of the way
• 1:12:42
  and replace it with something new that you believe in.
• 1:12:45
  You know, I mean, I've been writing 10 gratitudes a day
• 1:12:47
  since January and writing them. And Brianna had told me one of
• 1:12:51
  our coach and she said, look, if you can't write it just at least
• 1:12:54
  like go through while you're brushing your teeth.
• 1:12:55
  And I'm like, no, it almost feels odd now If I don't write
• 1:12:58
  them, I love writing them. And and then I write one phrase
• 1:13:02
  down. It's just like a seed that I'm
• 1:13:04
  trying to plant for myself. It's like a an affirmation.
• 1:13:07
  And I'm just becoming such a good believer in that kind of
• 1:13:12
  work, you know, really planting the repetition of who you want
• 1:13:16
  to be. Who do you want to show up?
• 1:13:17
  Like, I'm a late person. I can't stand that I'm a late
• 1:13:20
  person, but you know what I am? I am an early person.
• 1:13:23
  I'm telling myself I'm an early person.
• 1:13:25
  And Bob Proctor even says every person should take an acting
• 1:13:28
  class at some point because if you can't be what you're trying
• 1:13:32
  to be, you better start telling yourself you are so that it it
• 1:13:36
  it you evolve into it, you know. And so I I'm just, I love his
• 1:13:41
  material and I read the book three times in a row.
• 1:13:43
  There's some really good stuff. And Doctor Amon too, Daniel Amon
• 1:13:47
  with there's a book called You Happier, which I have found to
• 1:13:49
  be incredibly profound. But a lot of this comes from
• 1:13:52
  Brianna's work that she does and shares these incredible tools
• 1:13:55
  and resources. And I'm just a grateful man
• 1:13:58
  because they're helping me, helping me all through the life.
• 1:14:03
  Well then I guess that would be your answer for my last
• 1:14:07
  question, unless you have something in addition of what
• 1:14:11
  has been your your lifesaver at the moment.
• 1:14:15
  Oh my gosh. I would probably say just the
• 1:14:23
  Yeah, I mean, it truly gets my family.
• 1:14:26
  I mean, they are my lifesaver, You know, all it takes is really
• 1:14:30
  getting present and grounded with my family to know that
• 1:14:35
  everything is okay. You know, there's so many tools
• 1:14:39
  and other things I can access as resources to help me.
• 1:14:42
  But the end of the day, when I am like, at dinner and sitting
• 1:14:45
  around the table and I have my 1 1/2 year old folding her little
• 1:14:48
  hands to remind us that we're about to do gratitudes before we
• 1:14:51
  eat. I know that I'm doing something
• 1:14:53
  right, you know, and my husband and as a partnership, we're
• 1:14:56
  collectively doing something right.
• 1:14:59
  And and I can just, you know, it.
• 1:15:02
  It really does change. Like, if you can sit in
• 1:15:04
  gratitude, it will shift your energy immediately.
• 1:15:08
  You know, and I mean, Bobby, it's Bob Proctor.
• 1:15:11
  He's like he says, you know, if you're angry at someone, send
• 1:15:14
  them good energy because it does you no good to have the bad
• 1:15:17
  energy about them. And it's right.
• 1:15:19
  So, you know, it's it's all stuff we know.
• 1:15:22
  We know it. It's about execution and
• 1:15:25
  repeating and doing these things because they serve us well over
• 1:15:28
  and over again. So yeah, my lifesaver is truly
• 1:15:30
  getting grounded and present with my family and and mostly
• 1:15:34
  gratitude just feeling what I'm so grateful for.
• 1:15:37
  Yeah. Yeah, that's amazing.
• 1:15:41
  Well, I love seeing your, your girls and your beautiful life
• 1:15:48
  from, I mean through Instagram as a positive thing.
• 1:15:52
  It is so nice to to see everything and I'm glad you're
• 1:15:56
  doing so well and I appreciate. You talking with me and and
• 1:16:02
  being on the podcast, it's it's been so great talking to you.
• 1:16:06
  I know. Like I said, mom, time is very
• 1:16:09
  precious. So I appreciate it so much.
• 1:16:12
  Of course. Oh my gosh.
• 1:16:13
  And congratulations on your podcast and bringing light to
• 1:16:17
  this, this energy of, like moms who are doing a lot.
• 1:16:21
  You know, it's a beautiful space that you're holding for for us
• 1:16:24
  Mamas. So thank you for creating it and
• 1:16:26
  I hope you enjoy it. And I hope you know, it brings
• 1:16:28
  you great, great love and peace and all of those things too, you
• 1:16:31
  know, because we're all in this together, girl.
• 1:16:34
  We are. We are, Yeah.
• 1:16:36
  And thank you. I feel honored that you asked me
• 1:16:38
  to be on. I know we talked about it, I
• 1:16:40
  think, before Audrey was born. And now it's like a year, you
• 1:16:43
  know, two later and she's here and got to do it and share a
• 1:16:46
  little bit more. So thank you.
• 1:16:48
  Thank you so much. And I wish you and your little
• 1:16:50
  baby girl so well too. And that's our episode.
• 1:16:54
  Thank you so much to my guest and a special thank you to my
• 1:16:58
  producer Cecilia Trip with Laurel Canyon Creative and thank
• 1:17:04
  you to Edith Mudge for our theme music.
• 1:17:07
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• 1:17:13
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• 1:17:25
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• 1:17:27
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