Latest / The Dr Louise Newson Podcast / 299 - Perimenopause and mental health in prison: Lisa’s story
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- 0:11Hello, I'm Doctor Louise Newson, I'm AGP and menopause specialist
- 0:15and I'm also the founder of the Newson Health Menopause and
- 0:18well-being Centre here in Stratford upon Avon.
- 0:21I'm also the founder of the Free Balance app.
- 0:26Each week on my podcast, join me and my special guests where we
- 0:29discuss all things perimenopause and menopause.
- 0:33We talk about the latest research bus myths on menopause.
- 0:36Symptoms and treatments. And often share moving and
- 0:40always inspirational personal stories.
- 0:44This podcast is brought to you by the Newsome Health Group,
- 0:47which has clinics across the UK dedicated to providing
- 0:50individualised perimenopause and menopause care for all women.
- 1:02So today on the podcast, I've got the most incredible person
- 1:06with the most amazing and very inspirational but also very sad
- 1:10and frustrating story with me today.
- 1:13So someone called Lisa who actually came to one of our
- 1:17events and shared her story. And my staff said, Oh my
- 1:21goodness me, you've got to talk to Lisa.
- 1:23And so I on a Saturday morning, I spoke to Lisa and said,
- 1:28please, can you come and Share your story on the podcast?
- 1:31It's going to be a hard listen, but it's a really important
- 1:35story, so welcome, Lisa. Hi, thank you Louise for having
- 1:39me today. So it's a long story, so we're
- 1:41going to try and keep it as brief as possible so we can get
- 1:44as much information out. So if you just don't mind just
- 1:46by starting Lisa, how old are you?
- 1:48I'm 54 now, nearly 55, OK. So we're similar ages and you've
- 1:53got, yes, two sons. I have 22 and 24.
- 1:58So tell me about things before it came to the bigger story, how
- 2:02your sort of health was and how you were and whether you knew
- 2:05much about the sort of perimenopause and menopause.
- 2:08I had sort of recent knowing my age, I had researched about the
- 2:12perimenopause and the menopause and obviously I just did
- 2:16actually visit the GP with my concerns that I might be around
- 2:21that age and was also struggling at the time.
- 2:23I'd just lost my mum and there was a couple of events going on
- 2:27in the background, but I visited the GP twice.
- 2:30One was five months before what's happened in this incident
- 2:35and I did request HRT. Then six weeks before my
- 2:40incident of what the story is about today, I did visit the GP
- 2:44once again and it was just put down.
- 2:45I would just say I was struggling and they took me off
- 2:48the contraceptive pill and still wouldn't put me on HRTI just had
- 2:53a lot of brain fog. I was the one who did the
- 2:56research first around my age and they just totally overlooked it
- 3:00and put me on antidepressants. So for low mood.
- 3:05And as we know, the role of hormones, in fact all our
- 3:08hormones for estrogen, testosterone and progesterone
- 3:11can have really beneficial effects in our brain.
- 3:13And the more we'd look at symptoms, the more we understand
- 3:17that obviously hot flashes and sweats can occur.
- 3:19But the commonest symptoms affecting people that we hear in
- 3:23the clinic we see on the Balance app, where we've had thousands
- 3:26of people reporting their symptom, is a brain fog, the
- 3:29anxiety, the low mood, the memory problems, that poor
- 3:32sleep. And we know that for many women,
- 3:35it's really important. Yeah.
- 3:38And, you know, our hormones work as neurotransmitters, and they
- 3:41can affect all sorts of pathways.
- 3:43And antidepressants can help, of course, with people who are
- 3:46clinically depressed. And they help serotonin levels
- 3:49mainly. They can help in other ways, but
- 3:52also estrogen and testosterone can help serotonin levels, but
- 3:55they also help dopamine, and they also help various parts of
- 3:59our brain to light up. So we're more likely to
- 4:02remember, more likely to have pleasure, more likely to sleep,
- 4:06just feel connected with life and our thoughts and our actions
- 4:10as well, Yes. So then what happened?
- 4:13You explained it quite well. You do feel quite disconnected.
- 4:16You feel like you know you're not being heard.
- 4:19So six weeks prior to what happened was I did go to the GP
- 4:25and obviously covered on struggling not aware myself.
- 4:28And two weeks before Christmas my son became I'll and I just
- 4:33had this extreme anxiety off the scale.
- 4:36I cannot explain. And I've always been a bit of a
- 4:38natural warrior, but I just knew this was something I was just
- 4:41living in daily fear of everything and my mind was
- 4:45overthinking. I started to work in palliative
- 4:48care, which was extremely distressing seeing the sights
- 4:51that I was seeing. So I was putting it down to
- 4:54events in life, but I was just so emotional, couldn't stop
- 4:57crying and total brain fog. You just feel like you're in a
- 5:01constant hangover state. You can't explain it to anyone
- 5:04and you just feel completely different out of sorts, you
- 5:08know? So then what happened?
- 5:10So in between Christmas and New Year something's just clicked.
- 5:14I don't know what happened as beat myself up every day, how
- 5:18I've got to this point. But suddenly I was researching
- 5:22about my son's illness and then there was some searches down in
- 5:26Google on the next rows down about peaceful way out and
- 5:30little didn't know. I had sort of started with
- 5:33suicidal thoughts, not wanting to die or anything or but I just
- 5:37couldn't see just got ended up in the darkest place that I can
- 5:43imagine just thinking it was offence and you feel different
- 5:48and you just want the anxiety to end.
- 5:50And I think it's this irrational fear.
- 5:53Every day I could feel myself, my mental health declining.
- 5:57I was looking after everybody and that's work and at home.
- 6:01But what I didn't realise was my own mental health was declining
- 6:04and just trying to cope. But I've just felt incredibly
- 6:09disconnected in fear of everything.
- 6:12So I just couldn't see a way out of everything.
- 6:16And then the suicidal thoughts started to occur and then I
- 6:21actually contemplated suicide but I couldn't leave the boys
- 6:27behind and I knew my son was struggling at the time.
- 6:30Two weeks before Christmas I could feel myself declining even
- 6:34more with my son was poorly. So this overthinking just
- 6:39happened even more. I was going into bed
- 6:40overthinking and just really intrusive suicidal thoughts
- 6:45which I've never had. I couldn't see a way out for all
- 6:48of us. I actually thought I was
- 6:49protecting us all with this rational thoughts process that
- 6:53has never been like this at all. And I did actually try to take
- 6:58my own life and my two boys. And that's I'm totally
- 7:01mortified, ashamed, horrified. I ended up getting arrested and
- 7:07ended up in prison for almost three years.
- 7:12And it wasn't until I ended up in prison, I didn't even know
- 7:15then. And all I was doing was beating
- 7:17myself up every day wondering how have I got to this point.
- 7:20I'm in total Shock, Trauma, disbelief.
- 7:24And it was only when I started to see the TV in prison and ever
- 7:29so coincidentally, the timing of Davina McCall starting to raise
- 7:33awareness, it all started to click into place.
- 7:36And I thought, Oh my goodness, you know, this is exactly how I
- 7:39felt of all the other ladies. I had books sent into prison.
- 7:43Everyone's saying it sounds like you've on the menopause.
- 7:46I had no resources to research any of this in prison.
- 7:50So I had books sent in. And this is when I started to
- 7:53realize the symptoms that other ladies and mainly celebrities
- 7:57were talking about were exactly the same feelings out on that
- 8:01hand. And it was just that turning
- 8:03point. And then I found out the ages of
- 8:0650, around this age is the highest rate of suicide in
- 8:09women. And I just crying when I read
- 8:11that. And I thought, I'm in prison.
- 8:13Nobody's listening to me. Yeah, I mean, there's one thing
- 8:15about the psychological impact of the menopause is something
- 8:18else thinking about suicidal thoughts or feeling very like
- 8:22you will do want to end your life.
- 8:23And I didn't realise how common it was until I exposed myself to
- 8:26so many patients and so many women.
- 8:28And also when I did psychiatry many years ago, I never was
- 8:33taught that any of these feelings could be related to
- 8:35hormones. And it's only because giving
- 8:38hormones back to people and seeing the transformational
- 8:40difference to their brains, to their thoughts, to their
- 8:43intrusive thoughts, their dark thoughts, knowing it's not just
- 8:46a placebo, it's actually having a really important physiological
- 8:51effect in people's brains. So you were in prison.
- 8:55And I know in prison it can be very hard to access the right
- 8:58medical house, but you managed to see a doctor, didn't you, in
- 9:02prison? I did, yes.
- 9:04And they prescribed your HRT, didn't they?
- 9:06What happened? Yes they did.
- 9:08I was prescribed HRT eventually, and within not even two weeks,
- 9:12it was just like a switch turning on and I'm in the worst
- 9:16environment, the worst situation, not knowing what
- 9:18someone's going to receive as a sentence.
- 9:21But all of a sudden I had this urge to fight.
- 9:23I had more energy, less brain fog.
- 9:26I still wasn't sleeping in prison because it's so difficult
- 9:29to sleep. You're sharing rooms, there's no
- 9:30privacy. But all of a sudden I just had
- 9:33this massive determination that I wanted to live, I wanted to
- 9:36fight, but I was still suffering in silence.
- 9:39I was invisible. Nobody would understand.
- 9:42I was trying to convince, you know, my solicitor, barrister,
- 9:47all male solicitor, male judge, male barrister.
- 9:50And it was brought up in the I had to have a psychological
- 9:54assessment for the case and even they had mentioned menopause,
- 9:59but this was not mentioned in court.
- 10:02So did you have your sentence reduced at all?
- 10:04Only because they said to me if I pled guilty, they would
- 10:09consider less time and I would know I'd find out sooner.
- 10:12And to be honest, this state was in, I was in such shock.
- 10:15They said I could go to trial, but I'm just knew I wasn't up to
- 10:19that. So I did go down the route of
- 10:22pleading guilty. I was completely honest when I
- 10:24did get arrested, that just, and I thought I was protecting us
- 10:27all. And you know, I didn't feel
- 10:30right at all. But none of this was taken into
- 10:33consideration. I was actually initially told it
- 10:36was an 8 year sentence, then it was down to five years, four
- 10:40months due to the guilty plea. But even then I was absolutely
- 10:46devastated. I was hoping I might get care in
- 10:49the community that people might realise that it was a menopausal
- 10:53and hormonal issue, which in turn also goes to the mental
- 10:58health side that's been brought on or exacerbated by the
- 11:02menopause. It's the fact it's the
- 11:04perimenopause as well as the fact you don't because you're
- 11:08still having periods. You think you're not on the
- 11:10menopause? Yeah, absolutely.
- 11:12And and you were in more than one prison as well, weren't you?
- 11:14Yes, Yeah. So you just transferred 5
- 11:17minutes notice. Stars.
- 11:18So one minute I'm in one prison in Cheshire, then I'm given 5
- 11:22minutes notice. You go into another prison in
- 11:25Staffordshire. Then I did open prison for four
- 11:28months in York. I came out of prison and had to
- 11:31go to a female hostel and I had to do that for three months
- 11:35whether I wanted to or not in Liverpool, nowhere near home
- 11:38again. And just the mental, it is the
- 11:40worst environment and the way you treat it is the worst
- 11:44treatment for any kind of mental health, menopause.
- 11:47And it's just, you cannot, you just feel invisible.
- 11:50It feels so archaic in this day and age as well.
- 11:55It's quite something I've as some people listening and you
- 11:58know, I'd worked in style prison and women's prison many years
- 12:02ago actually in 2000. I did a week's.
- 12:05Work and I've still got my notes there from when I used to admit
- 12:10people that came in. But the stories women told me
- 12:13and it was very different. I've watched.
- 12:15I love Louis Theroux and I've watched a lot of his
- 12:17documentaries about prisons, but it's been in male prisons and
- 12:20male prisons are very different. The crimes that they commit are
- 12:23very different. The way that they've lived their
- 12:25lives have been quite different. Whereas the women who I met, and
- 12:29I'm sure you met a lot, were quite, almost naive, very
- 12:32vulnerable, lots of mental health issues.
- 12:36And also a lot of them had been abused in the past and felt they
- 12:39deserved the life that they lived.
- 12:41They couldn't see a way out. And the more work I've done now
- 12:45about mental health and hormones, the more I've read not
- 12:49just about perimenopause but also about PMSPMDD.
- 12:54Women are more likely to commit a crime in the days before their
- 12:57periods, and that's because our hormone levels are lowest then.
- 13:01And someone called Catriona Dalton wrote about this many,
- 13:04many years ago. She actually was a incredible
- 13:06doctor that no one listened to. And she went to my old school as
- 13:09well. Sadly, she's died now, but she
- 13:12writes about going to trials, listening to women and knowing
- 13:16that it was related to their hormones.
- 13:18And everyone just thought she was being ridiculous.
- 13:20And she was ridiculed, really. And she wrote some amazing
- 13:24academic papers about this, but people just still laughed about
- 13:29her. And she was giving not just
- 13:31estrogen, but quite high doses of progesterone, especially to
- 13:34women with PMS and PMDD with transformational results.
- 13:38But again, people didn't like it.
- 13:40They didn't like what she was doing.
- 13:42But it's all there, actually. And we also know that if people,
- 13:46you know, are addicted to certain drugs, especially Class
- 13:49A drugs, more likely to switch off their ovaries, more likely
- 13:51to have lower hormone levels. A lot of these people have very
- 13:55poor diets. If they don't eat well, then
- 13:58again, their periods are likely to go off if they've got sort of
- 14:01just a chronic illness. And also a lot of the
- 14:03antidepressants and some of the antipsychotic medication that
- 14:07are often prescribed for the mental health issues will switch
- 14:10off our own hormones. And so I'm sure most women in
- 14:14prison will have some hormonal issue which is not being
- 14:18addressed at all. And I'm so keen to try and help
- 14:22educate people. But also a lot of people that
- 14:25work in prisons will be of menopausal age, as they are in
- 14:29other areas of work. And the people that work in
- 14:32prison, it's a hard, really hard job.
- 14:35It's a relentless job. They're trying to do the best
- 14:38they can with very limited resources, with people in very
- 14:41difficult situations as well. And so to be perimenopausal or
- 14:46hormonal or menopausal when you work in a prison.
- 14:51It's. Very difficult, but they're a
- 14:53forgotten group of people actually.
- 14:56And most of the time and as you say, you know, you put you away,
- 15:01that's it. But you're very eloquent, the
- 15:03way you talk. You're not someone who's ever
- 15:06committed a crime in the past. You know, you love your
- 15:09children. It's very irrational what you
- 15:11did. And I feel that it's really sad
- 15:14that so many systems had let you down.
- 15:17But I not been able to think what's the reason?
- 15:20Was there something else? And I know since you've come out
- 15:24of prison, you've had your HRT optimized a bit more.
- 15:28So you've got on the right dose and type of estrogen, you've on
- 15:32some testosterone and your brain is feeling different to how it
- 15:35was before, isn't it? Totally.
- 15:38I mean, I was pleased I didn't have a choice of which HRT I
- 15:41went on in prison, obviously. So I was put on a basic, you
- 15:45know, treatments, but there was still a massive difference.
- 15:48And it was that realization to me as well that you just can't
- 15:52explain it to be honest. You know, when I was put on the
- 15:55HRT, you cannot explain to anyone how the clarity start
- 15:58feeling. The brain fog has gone, but it's
- 16:00this intrusive thoughts have gone and the anxiety has gone.
- 16:05And I'm in the worst, most intimidating situation and the
- 16:09worst hell on earth situation. And then when I came to consult
- 16:14your clinic and was placed on the latest treatment again as a
- 16:20massive improvement again, I'm now sleeping better, just full
- 16:24of energy, just back to my normal probably self how I was
- 16:27probably a good four years ago, even before prison.
- 16:31You don't realize the decline that you're going under due to
- 16:35lack of estrogen and, and how it does.
- 16:37You don't even know your own body.
- 16:39And it's frightening, really can't be frightening, how I look
- 16:43back. Yeah, absolutely.
- 16:45And I think the problem is we've all spoken about the menopause
- 16:48related to periods and so everyone is fixated on periods.
- 16:52And when I was working with NHS England, their national
- 16:55menopause programme, somebody who was leading it said to me,
- 16:58we've spent hours discussing about periods, whether it should
- 17:02be, are they changing in frequency or are they changing
- 17:06in pattern or are they changing in the amount of bleeding?
- 17:10And I said, but do you know what?
- 17:11It doesn't really matter. And he said, well actually
- 17:15you're telling me that women don't know about their periods
- 17:17enough, so how do they know about their symptoms?
- 17:20I said because a lot of us have a period, it comes and goes.
- 17:23We don't mark it in our Diaries, we're not bothered about it.
- 17:26But what we are bothered about is the way our brains work, the
- 17:29way our bodies work, the way we're changing.
- 17:32So we need to get away from just thinking about periods.
- 17:34Women should not be defined about their periods, and a lot
- 17:37of women don't have periods or they might have unnatural
- 17:40periods if they're on contraception.
- 17:42So what we should really be thinking about is about our
- 17:45hormones and the roles that they have in our bodies, regardless
- 17:49of when our ovaries actually finally stop working as in the
- 17:52menopause. So it's that sort of decline and
- 17:55change before. And we know with suicide rates,
- 17:58actually, they increase around 7 times in women in their late
- 18:0140s. And there's a lot to make us
- 18:04believe that actually it's worse in the perimenopause or it's
- 18:07worse when hormone levels are changing because our brains like
- 18:11homeostasis, they like everything the same.
- 18:14So that's why, you know, our bodies are better if we sleep
- 18:16the same, if we eat at the same time, if we don't abuse our
- 18:21brains, as in if we, you know, drink alcohol, we feel dreadful
- 18:25the next morning because our brain doesn't like any sort of
- 18:28metabolic change occurring in our body.
- 18:31But we know in the perimenopause, our hormone
- 18:33levels fluctuate. They go up and they go down
- 18:35quite quickly sometimes. And so that change can really
- 18:40trigger a lot. So a lot of people once they're
- 18:42menopausal and they've got very low levels and they last
- 18:45forever, very low actually, their mental health might be
- 18:48affected, but not to the way that you're describing as you
- 18:51were before. And so we're, as you know, we're
- 18:54funding APHD student from Liverpool looking into suicide
- 18:57prevention in the perimenopause and menopause.
- 18:59And she's been interviewing quite a few of our patients
- 19:02actually, and really getting to understand more because we need
- 19:06to have ways of being more aware, not just as healthcare
- 19:10professionals, but actually for women and their families and
- 19:14friends to understand so we can recognise it in others as well.
- 19:18That's right, it affects everybody surrounding yourself
- 19:21mean right you said. I didn't even have problems with
- 19:24my periods ever. So I only went to the doctors
- 19:27thinking I'm around the same age.
- 19:28And even when I researched it on the Internet at the time, there
- 19:31was nothing about suicidal thoughts.
- 19:33You just see the physical symptoms online at the time.
- 19:37But it only seems now since I've, I've come out of prison
- 19:40and I've started to do my own research that now due to lovely,
- 19:43thankfully people like yourself and other celebrities at the
- 19:47moment, raising the awareness. I think the research is now
- 19:50coming out more. So I'm going, you know,
- 19:53informing women about the mental health side.
- 19:55But I still think you don't realise until you're going
- 19:58through it how important hormones are.
- 20:01Yeah. You just feel this way.
- 20:02You feel totally disconnected. Yeah.
- 20:05And so many people, including myself, it's not until we've got
- 20:08our hormones, rebalance the right dose and type for us that
- 20:11we look back and think, goodness, no wonder things are
- 20:14so. Hard or and then you stop trying
- 20:16to tie everything in the gun. Yes.
- 20:18And obviously, you know, you've got a son that was poorly,
- 20:21you've had things going on and you always you always what
- 20:24people contributed to other reasons.
- 20:26I say, well, I'm going to feel like that because I've had a
- 20:28difficult time or because of this or because of that.
- 20:31But actually we're all bad as women, we're not all, but lots
- 20:35of us are that we don't reflect and internalise ourself.
- 20:38And I think the other message is if we don't get the right
- 20:42healthcare advice, treatment from the first healthcare
- 20:45professional we see, it's really important to try.
- 20:48And it's difficult, I understand, to be the best
- 20:52advocate. So you can go back and ask.
- 20:54And, you know, I think that's the same with any treatment.
- 20:57You know, if you refuse the treatment that you think is
- 20:59right for you, it's OK to say, could you just give me a reason
- 21:03why you're refusing it? Can you just tell me why I can't
- 21:07have XY and Z? And that's not just for HRT,
- 21:09that's for anything. You know, if I had an infection
- 21:13on my arm and the doctor said you can't have antibiotics and I
- 21:17thought I needed them, I would like to challenge that in a
- 21:20nice, positive way. And that's the same, I think,
- 21:22with HRT and also testosterone. You know, we need to be thinking
- 21:26as women, why aren't we allowed all right, hormones back.
- 21:29Well, you do trust the doctors too much.
- 21:32You do trust that they know what they're talking about and you
- 21:34are putting your life in their hands.
- 21:36And this is how you know I took them advice.
- 21:39And but I do, I know now if I'd have been put on HRT before
- 21:44this, and no, I would not have ended up in this situation for
- 21:49definite. And if that's what's so
- 21:51obsessing, this could have all been so prevented.
- 21:54It's not just myself who's suffered, my whole family, my
- 21:57friends, they said it's so out of character, you know, I was so
- 22:00bubbly and caring, absolutely dosed on my boys, did everything
- 22:04for them. They said they felt like mum had
- 22:07died when I'd gone into prison and you know, they've had three
- 22:10years of not being able to see me.
- 22:12We also went into COVID lockdown when I was in prison, so some
- 22:16double lockdown, couldn't see any friends or family and then
- 22:19caught COVID in prison as well. So I thought I'm going to die in
- 22:22prison. It was terrifying.
- 22:24I'm not an aggressive person and you're put in with a lot of very
- 22:28aggressive women, unfortunately. And you know, with really very
- 22:33serious crimes, you know, mine was as well.
- 22:36But it's just you just cannot get your head around.
- 22:39How am I in this situation so horrific?
- 22:42Well, obviously it's horrendous and I can't, and I don't think
- 22:47many people listening can really, really imagine what
- 22:49you've been through, Lisa. But what I'm incredibly grateful
- 22:52for is that you've been strong enough and brave enough to Share
- 22:56your story. And what I don't want to do in
- 22:58this podcast is say that every perimenopausal woman is going to
- 23:02think about committing a crime or end up in prison.
- 23:05Of course not. But there are women who are not
- 23:07being listened to. Exactly.
- 23:09Who? We should be thinking more about
- 23:11how to help people in different ways and also how to address
- 23:16this inequality of care in prisons and to improve education
- 23:20about hormones in prisons. As well, No, it's often I think
- 23:23it's also the NHS as well though, because really they
- 23:26should have picked up that it wasn't the usual.
- 23:28And I know it's a unique, terrible, have a fit crime, but
- 23:31really, you know, I think maybe I should have had hospital care
- 23:35at the time or trying to get to the root of what has sent
- 23:38somebody to this extent when, you know, there was no thought
- 23:41gone into it at all. You just suddenly, you know,
- 23:44you're just sent to prison. And I think there's so snowed
- 23:46under these health practices that there's not the correct
- 23:49process. They're either in place to
- 23:51distinguish, you know, whether somebody should be having care
- 23:56in the community or hospital care or whether they should go
- 24:00to prison. There's no distinction at all.
- 24:02So. There's a lot we need to do, a
- 24:03lot we need to change and I really hope us all working
- 24:06together can hopefully make a difference.
- 24:09But before we end, Lisa, I'd really like to just ask you 3
- 24:12take home tips. So really three things that you
- 24:14think me, you, us, people listening could do to help the
- 24:19community of people in prisons, including those working in
- 24:23prisons. What three things do you think
- 24:25would make the biggest difference?
- 24:26More information for definitely more awareness people, not just
- 24:30going off the awareness side of hot flushes.
- 24:34You know, I think there's so many women suffering in silence,
- 24:37not knowing, and you'd feel like you're going mad.
- 24:40You really do. They need to be more explicit
- 24:43with that information. I think also that doesn't need
- 24:46to be a lot more research of looking at someone's age in
- 24:51relation to how they're feeling and not just taking like you
- 24:55said, the 1st answer from the doctor.
- 24:58If they're saying you know you're fine or you know you
- 25:00don't need HRT, try and get a second opinion and fight for it.
- 25:05I was too soft. Again, just research it yourself
- 25:09more to be honest. I think a massive point was for
- 25:13me, a turning point was Davina Mccall's Sets, Myths and
- 25:17Menopause documentary that was totally, this isn't the other
- 25:21reason I thought, Oh my God, this is what's happened to me.
- 25:23And she's stated everything in the documentary how women aren't
- 25:27getting diagnosed, they're not being treated.
- 25:30So there's a lot we need to do. We need to educate people, we
- 25:34need to allow people to be advocates of themselves, and we
- 25:38really need to just learn and talk and share.
- 25:41And it's been brilliant having you today and I'm again, really,
- 25:45really grateful for your time. Fine.
- 25:46Thank you. It's OK, I'm doing it to save,
- 25:50but they're women's lives because it's only when I came
- 25:52out of prison that I realised and I started to have the
- 25:55resources, the Internet and everything to do my own research
- 25:58and realise how many women have committed suicide.
- 26:01And it's about raising awareness.
- 26:03If I can save one or two lives, it is horrific.
- 26:07I'm totally mortified having to share the story.
- 26:09I'm so ashamed. But I do realise now I have.
- 26:12It helps to know it was what the cause was, was down to hormones.
- 26:17I've been treated on the correct medication.
- 26:18If I can help other women now, that would be worthwhile, you
- 26:22know, going forward. And I am here to help raise
- 26:25awareness now and work with people.
- 26:28You're the first person I've shared this story with because I
- 26:31trust you so much and you're you're the only one who really
- 26:34understands apart from Davina McCaul on a such documentary.
- 26:38And I can't thank you enough for all the but you're doing.
- 26:41Thanks, Lisa. So thank you.
- 26:48You can find out more about Newson Health Group by visiting
- 26:51www.newsonhealth.co.uk and you can download the free Balance
- 26:58app on the App Store. Or Google Play.