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Why do narcissists think everyone is out to get them · The Mental Healness Podcast

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  What is going on beautiful people Welcome to another
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  episode of the narcissist Code. I'm your favorite self aware
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  narcissist Mr. Lee Hammock better known as mental illness
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  across all social media platforms.
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  This is the first time I see my face or hear my voice.
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  I'm a clinically diagnosed narcissist and I use my platform
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  people in the therapy like myself and also validate the
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  victim, survivors and thrivers of said disorder, said toxic
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  people said toxic traits today's episode is going to be about.
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  Why do narcissists think the world is out to get them?
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  Think everybody is out to get us them What?
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  But yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, Narcissistic people.
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  Why do we think the world is out to get us?
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  So first of all, a lot of narcissists are paranoid,
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  paranoid, super, super paranoid. Like I am one of them.
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  I'm a super. I'm a person who has
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  narcissistic personality disorder.
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  That is like then they're like mega paranoid of everything.
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  Like I think people ought to get me type stuff like that.
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  Not like the. To kidnap me or something like
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  that. But I think people are always
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  out to try to hurt me. I'm always on the defensive,
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  like a lot of other narcissists, and talks to people tend to be
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  like always on the defense. Y'all like always ready to play
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  defense. Like always ready to hurt you in
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  case you hurt me. Always ready to, you know, say
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  something mean, say something meaner back to you just in case
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  you say something mean to me. Just do.
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  Yeah, an eye for an eye for bigger, a bigger eye for an eye.
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  Like that type of stuff right there.
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  And it's because, like I said, it stems from paranoia.
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  So me personally, this is my personal feelings about
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  narcissist personality disorder. It just like this is my personal
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  feelings right here. Just like I don't, I think
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  narcissism at its core, NPD at its core.
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  It's just self just hyper self-defense, hyper self-defense
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  that is caused from trauma and neglect.
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  Some could be some hereditary stuff in there, but also just
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  like say it could, it could come from being just being super
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  megaspoiled and never having never ever having any boundary
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  set on you never being told what to do in situations like that.
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  So that could be a possibility of it as well.
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  So for me, I think narcissism is really just a hyper selfdefense
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  child. Like that's what that's how my
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  mind works on her. Like well, I think it's just
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  being defensive, being being damn near mega defensive so to
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  speak and what not. So that happens a lot of times
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  when you do it. When narcissist the people or we
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  get mega defense, we are always on the defense and things like
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  that because that's how our minds work, You know what I
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  mean? So, yeah, so you, Lee.
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  How we what we do about it. Hey, Lee, we understand the
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  paranoia. What do we do about it?
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  Yeah, there's not really money. I know you guys don't hate what
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  I say this, but, like, there's not really too much that you can
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  do to make a narcissist less paranoid, if you know what I
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  mean. Like, unless you're just being
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  able to reassure them that you're not going to hurt them,
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  then there's nothing you can do. And a lot of narcissists don't
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  believe you. Like you can tell the narcissist
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  the person. Hey, look, I'll never hurt you.
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  You can trust me, and we won't believe it.
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  We won't believe you. We don't trust you to.
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  We don't trust you with that right there.
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  That's why you see a lot of narcissistic people that keep a
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  lot of their vulnerabilities and a lot of their trauma to
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  themselves. Because we don't want you to
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  weaponize that against us. You know what I mean?
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  We want to hear your trauma. We want to hear your
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  vulnerabilities. We want to hear your shame.
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  So we can weaponize that against you.
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  But we don't want you. We don't want the same thing to
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  happen to us like we. Know how our minds work, right?
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  We if we are always ready to be on the defense, we think
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  everybody else is ready to be on the defense as well.
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  So that's why you see just even me out one of my paranoid
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  self-defense. One of my paranoid self-defense
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  mechanisms right now is that when I first meet somebody right
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  now I'm always thinking of ways to try to hurt to hurt them like
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  I was like this is just where my where my mind goes anyway.
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  I'm not going to I'm not I don't plan on using it.
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  It's just kind of like just in case just in case you say
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  something to me. I got something to hurt you.
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  You may just in case I don't intend on using it, but just I'm
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  going to put this in my little. I'm going to put this in my
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  mental, my mental storage locker, just in case you decide
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  to try to hurt me later on or something along those lines.
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  I I need to be able to protect myself.
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  Like it's kind of like taking an umbrella or raincoat with you.
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  It's kind of like it's kind of like I'd rather have it and not
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  need it than to need it and not have it.
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  I'd rather have my insults and my stuff.
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  That I can hurt your feelings with then and not use it then to
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  need it and don't have anything other than anger and rage and
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  shame. You see what I'm saying.
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  You get a lot of narcissist the people who deal with it that way
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  right there like we want to you know a lot of the anger the rage
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  and the shame that's how we process it.
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  We don't have anything else. We we don't have anything else
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  to defend ourselves with when the paranoia breaches or you
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  know we we when we you know we don't we don't have anything
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  else to. Hurt you with We don't have
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  anything. You get rage, you get shame.
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  You get the silent treatment, you get the you get ghost mode,
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  you get they they discard you, they break up with you, you get
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  something like that. They abandon you, they abandon
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  the kids, the family, whatever. That's what.
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  That's what happens sometimes. Y'all what?
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  They don't have anything else or they don't have anything else.
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  They use anger or rage or whatever, you know?
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  But yeah, it does stem from paranoia.
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  Y'all because like. Because y'all been following me
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  for a while. Y'all know this year I I this
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  year I took the I got another personality disorder evaluation
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  psych eval. So I took the MM PI2 and I also
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  took the PDQ4 test and they came back like, yeah, of course
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  narcissistic personality disorder.
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  But it also came back saying like super high on paranoia and
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  schizoid traits and I was like, oh schizoid And she started
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  asking my my therapist started asking me.
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  Does the TV send me messages or does the TV talk to me?
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  I do radio, do the radio talk to me and tell me to do specific
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  things. I was like, you asked me these
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  questions now, now I looked it up.
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  I was like this schizoid traits. That's what.
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  I'm not schizophrenic though. Y'all but the paranoia is super
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  high. But the paranoia stems from
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  anxiety. So I also have general anxiety
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  disorder as well. So I have narcissistic persidy
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  disorder along with general anxiety disorder as well.
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  So I have, you know, I have a cluster.
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  That cluster or whatever, what's going on mentally and it's like
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  I say yeah it is. It is really, it is really just
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  a it's just a mind. It's always, yeah, it's tough.
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  Y'all let me go and preface this.
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  I'm not trying to get you to feel sorry for the narcissistic
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  person in your life. But it is tough living life this
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  way. Like always taking people off to
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  get you like feeling like everybody's eyes are on you.
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  It's not just like when I say paranoia.
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  I think a lot of people think it's just like you doing we
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  doing this like we're super skittish and things like that.
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  The way paranoia presents itself, a narcissist is like
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  could be hyper confidence, hyper vigilance, you know, conspiracy
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  theory type stuff like this, sometimes conspiracy theory type
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  stuff. But like I don't want to appear
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  weak so I'm going to appear as hyper confident.
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  I don't want to appear like I'm scared that you're watching me
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  so I'm going to appear hyper confident or you know hyper
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  whatever it is you that you put the defense mechanisms like we
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  we externally we we protect ourselves with this external
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  shield. You know what I mean?
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  But internally, we are just damn near just bubbling over, you
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  know, Internally it's bubbling over.
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  Things are going, things are going on internally, What?
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  Like I said, it is a very unique process y'all to deal with.
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  And it's like I'm not trying to be trying to feel sorry for
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  narcissistic people. Y'all just wanted to bring you
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  some understanding of why the paranoia, Because like the the
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  anxiety causes the paranoia. According to my therapist like
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  you, the general anxiety part of my personal disorder causes me
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  to be hyper paranoid. It's just like.
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  I'm super. I'm always anxious.
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  Y'all it's just like I'm hyper vigilant that somebody's going
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  to attack me or something like that.
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  So not like I said, not physically attack, sometimes
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  physically, but even you know, it's not, it's not always a
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  physical attack. It could be an emotional attack,
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  a mental attack that's launched to me that I want to be prepared
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  for. So it's just in that space as
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  well. I'm, I'm trying to prepare for
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  all. I'm trying to prepare from all
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  angles, you know what I mean? I'm trying to prepare just in
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  case I need, I need this. Like I said, I'd rather have
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  these insults. In this weakness, in your
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  weaknesses and your trauma and not need not have to use them
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  then to need it. Like I need the insult right
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  now. I need, I need something to take
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  the power back for this. I need something to make me feel
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  like I'm in control, because that's where it comes from you.
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  That's why we store this stuff up, because we need to feel like
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  we're in control of things. Like I need something to make me
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  feel like I'm in control. So I don't If I don't have
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  anything, guess what. If I don't have anything to say
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  or do to you. There goes the threats.
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  Here comes the anger. Here comes the threats of
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  violence or rage or something along those lines.
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  Like this does happen quite a bit in that aspect of things
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  right there, you know. But like I said, at the end of
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  the day, it is part of the, it's part of the the the the kind of
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  paradigm of dealing with a narcissistic person.
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  You know, It's just part of what comes along with it.
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  And I hate telling people that just like, yeah, dog, this is,
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  this is what this is, what you get, what you do with nurses,
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  you know, But at the end of the day, you have to empower
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  yourself on this journey. Of dealing with toxic people.
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  Because if you don't empower yourself, they're going to take
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  the power from you. I can promise you that if you
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  don't empower yourself, they're going to take the power from
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  you. I promise you that.
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  I can promise you. Promise you, Promise you.
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  You know what I mean. But you get a lot of paranoid,
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  narcissistic people. You all, they're like, you just
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  have to be. You just have to be careful of
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  like, if you have to remain in a relationship with them, you have
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  to learn what triggers them. Learn what sets them off.
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  Learn what protects yourself. Learn what make learns what.
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  Learn what makes that person feel safe and kind and cuddly.
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  So whatever it is, you know, learn what makes that person not
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  feel like they're out. You're out to get them.
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  So you have to, you have to study this person.
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  I know people just like, well, that's a lot of work.
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  I know it's a lot of work, which is why, you know, sometimes,
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  like if you felt it's too much work, it might be time to, you
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  know, work on you. Or just put it that way, it
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  might be time for you to find. You know, a different, a
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  different venue, a different Ave. for for a relationship or
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  to be by yourself a little bit. Like I said, I'm not telling
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  everybody to leave their relationships.
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  I'm just saying this can be, this can get very, very into
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  extensive and dealing with a narcissistic person trying not
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  to trigger them because you know, we life doesn't just stop.
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  I'll say this right here, life just doesn't stop as an adult.
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  You don't just get traumatized as kids.
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  Adults can be traumatized too. So it's just like if we haven't
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  dealt with our childhood traumas, then adult traumas are
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  going to be just as bad. Y'all.
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  But it's just part of the dynamic y'all.
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  Part of the paradigm doing toxic narcissistic people.
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  Y'all. Anyways, y'all, I have a
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