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Episode 11 - You Minding Your Own Business: when it comes to doing what’s best for you. · You Minding Your Own Business

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  Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, everybody. Welcome to Tell Like It Is radio
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  Speaker 1: podcast and my podcast on sprinkt dot com. You Minding
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  Speaker 1: your Own Business, I'm your host. Y'all know who I
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  Speaker 1: I know we go live, but tonight I'm not going live.
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  Speaker 1: This is pre recorded. But a little about me. I'm
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  Speaker 1: a certified recovered life coach. It's all about helping people
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  Speaker 1: on their paths, their journeys and their purpose do a
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  Speaker 1: new and better you do self discovery. And if you're
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  Speaker 1: some things as far as you know, questions, you may
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  Speaker 1: have advice, you may have want to do one on
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  Speaker 1: me at ash dot m a r I A M
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  Speaker 1: A zero one at gmail dot com. That's as Sacha
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  Speaker 1: dot m A r I A M A zero one
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  Speaker 1: at gmail dot com. I welcome y'all to this podcast. Now,
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  Speaker 1: this particular episode of you minding your own business, it's
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  Speaker 1: pretty much self explanatory, but we gonna go a little
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  Speaker 1: further you minding your own business when it come to
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  Speaker 1: focusing on yourself. Okay, I'm going to go here because
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  Speaker 1: my whole entire life has been about everybody else except myself.
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  Speaker 1: And now that I'm getting older, and now that I'm
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  Speaker 1: going through medical issues, which hasn't exactly been fun for
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  Speaker 1: me the past few years. It's not fun going through
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  Speaker 1: chronic pain because of an accident and multiple slips and falls.
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  Speaker 1: It's not easy going through these journeys. And I had
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  Speaker 1: an epiphany all day to day because I felt horrible
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  Speaker 1: all day to day, all literally day to day, I
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  Speaker 1: felt horrible, I was in pain, I was miserable. I
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  Speaker 1: was trying to get through the day, and I felt
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  Speaker 1: horrible until this afternoon. I was with a friend of
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  Speaker 1: mine and he was taking me to go get my medication,
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  Speaker 1: and I just felt absolutely horrible today. And so I
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  Speaker 1: came to a couple of realizations of things that I
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  Speaker 1: have to really focus on. And we're gonna talk about
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  Speaker 1: that now. When God put you into isolation and God
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  Speaker 1: pulled you away from the world, that doesn't mean just
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  Speaker 1: the world in real life. It also means social media.
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  Speaker 1: And I had to come to that realization today because
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  Speaker 1: I've been saying that I'm not gonna do a lot
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  Speaker 1: of strolling. I'm just gonna focus on some courses and
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  Speaker 1: focus on you know, listening to the YICL, you know,
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  Speaker 1: trial and things like that. That is what I'm focus on,
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  Speaker 1: I said, because I learned a lot from this. But
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  Speaker 1: I noticed that every morning I get up and I
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  Speaker 1: start strolling. Now, the good thing is, I didn't just
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  Speaker 1: automatically pick up my phone this morning. I did check
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  Speaker 1: my emails this morning, so I didn't just go and
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  Speaker 1: grab my phone and go straight to social media and
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  Speaker 1: just started strolling. So I am proud of myself for that.
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  Speaker 1: But I also realized that at the end of the
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  Speaker 1: day I was listening to one of them. I did
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  Speaker 1: end up listening to my courses in the afternoon, So
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  Speaker 1: I ended up listening to my courses and I learned
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  Speaker 1: some in one of my courses when it came to
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  Speaker 1: basically helping people, and he said that when it comes
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  Speaker 1: down to you know, going on social media or you know,
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  Speaker 1: being a psychologist or being a therapist, being a counselor,
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  Speaker 1: it's not about telling somebody what to do. It's not
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  Speaker 1: about giving unsolicited advice. It's about really just making a suggestion,
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  Speaker 1: guiding people. And when I thought about it, I said,
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  Speaker 1: you know what, that's a good point, because it was like,
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  Speaker 1: if people really want your advice, they'll ask for it.
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  Speaker 1: If people really want to hear what you got to say,
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  Speaker 1: then they'll click on it. And if they don't, then
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  Speaker 1: it's okay if they don't. So I decided, I said,
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  Speaker 1: you know what, I am going about this all the
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  Speaker 1: way wrong. So I came to the realization that it
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  Speaker 1: took me back to all the people who I helped.
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  Speaker 1: It took me back in my personal life when I
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  Speaker 1: was trying to make sure everybody was good, making sure
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  Speaker 1: all the men that I allegedly needed, which I found
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  Speaker 1: out I never dated in the first place. So let's
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  Speaker 1: go there for a minute. A lot of time tis
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  Speaker 1: the signals are there, okay, And I'm gonna be as
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  Speaker 1: real and candid as I can be. There are gonna
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  Speaker 1: be people in this world that's gonna be alone. They're
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  Speaker 1: gonna be people in this world that's not gonna have
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  Speaker 1: a man and never get married. And they will be
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  Speaker 1: women that will be the exact same. And I'm tired
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  Speaker 1: of y'all lying about that. If you base it on
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  Speaker 1: society standards, it's gonna be some people that's gonna be
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  Speaker 1: alone the rest of their life. There just is. And
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  Speaker 1: the reason why that's gonna be the case because of
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  Speaker 1: society standards and being that society and society standards, it's
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  Speaker 1: gonna be like that. That's exactly the reason why. So
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  Speaker 1: when you got people that don't want to see you
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  Speaker 1: when and they don't want to see you where you
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  Speaker 1: need to be. When you got people that are constantly
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  Speaker 1: asking you to do something, and you, without question, you're
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  Speaker 1: willing to do it, but when it come to you,
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  Speaker 1: that's not the same result that you're gonna get. So
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  Speaker 1: when you are minding your business and you're in your cocoon,
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  Speaker 1: as I like to call it, and you're healing from
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  Speaker 1: all of your trauma, but and all the things you've
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  Speaker 1: been through. But that ain't the only thing. You got
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  Speaker 1: to do with recovery and go deeper than that. Now
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  Speaker 1: I've learned with everything, there's twelve steps everything. Everything in
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  Speaker 1: life is twelve steps. Twelve steps of love, twelve steps
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  Speaker 1: of happiness, twelve steps of making friends. There's twelve steps
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  Speaker 1: of everything. Twelve everything is twelve. Okay. Now there's two
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  Speaker 1: hundred and fifty six different ways of doing things based
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  Speaker 1: upon the Bible. Okay, now here's the thing that I
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  Speaker 1: learned in this journey that I'm on currently. Now, I've
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  Speaker 1: been trying to get back to working out. I'm serious,
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  Speaker 1: I've been trying, but it's painful and I gotta get
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  Speaker 1: past the pain. Yesterday I did stretches, and I did
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  Speaker 1: pretty good stretches. Was even now when I get back,
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  Speaker 1: when I get on that ground, I'm I have a
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  Speaker 1: hard time trying to get up because, like I said,
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  Speaker 1: I have you know, arthritis, and I have injuries, so
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  Speaker 1: you know, and I have scoliosis. So that don't help either,
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  Speaker 1: So I'm gonna be moving moving body parts. Then I
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  Speaker 1: ain't moved in a long long time. But am I
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  Speaker 1: gonna have to get through the pain. Absolutely. So today
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  Speaker 1: I was in pain all day. I felt horrible all day.
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  Speaker 1: I went to bed early and I felt horrible. And
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  Speaker 1: then I realized why I feel horrible. I feel horrible
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  Speaker 1: because Number One, I need to take break, meaning that
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  Speaker 1: I'm talking about strolling. I'm not talking about me going
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  Speaker 1: live or doing my podcast because I ain't got to
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  Speaker 1: look at nothing. I can just sit here and close
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  Speaker 1: my eyes and do my podcasts. And now I have
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  Speaker 1: to look at anything until it's time for me to
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  Speaker 1: end it. Now, I'm learning now to listen more and
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  Speaker 1: giving my eyes a break, because I think listening is
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  Speaker 1: better than sight in some instances, like for example, if
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  Speaker 1: I'm at home and I don't feel like looking at
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  Speaker 1: something on television, I used to close my eyes and
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  Speaker 1: just sit there and listen to it. I don't have
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  Speaker 1: to look at it. Now. I watch Love Is Blind today,
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  Speaker 1: the European one, the UK one, and three out of
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  Speaker 1: three got married. Now the three that I knew gonna
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  Speaker 1: get married got married. The three that I knew was
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  Speaker 1: not gonna get married. Didn't get married. For six of them, now,
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  Speaker 1: out two of them I understood. Now one of them
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  Speaker 1: I knew was gonna say nothing because he wanted a
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  Speaker 1: whole nother female. Okay, he didn't really want He wanted
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  Speaker 1: her at first until he found out number one that
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  Speaker 1: she was a makeup artist. She was beneath him anyway.
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  Speaker 1: He's somebody that family, family, got money, and they would
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  Speaker 1: have never accepted him with her because they come from
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  Speaker 1: two different cultures. He tried to use, well, our our
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  Speaker 1: you know, our cultures don't mix. Well, then why didn't
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  Speaker 1: you tell her that when you was talking to old
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  Speaker 1: girl that happened to be Caucasian just like you. No,
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  Speaker 1: you gonna run your butt right over there to that girl,
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  Speaker 1: that Caucasian girl, and you gonna get with her because
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  Speaker 1: she's gonna be everything on paper that you want, because
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  Speaker 1: that's exactly what's getting ready happen. Now. As for Allie
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  Speaker 1: and Demi, they broke up, but they said they're gonna
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  Speaker 1: be together even after that. And I mean, I'm got
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  Speaker 1: mad at Demy because I think what it was was
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  Speaker 1: Demi came to the realization. I think she went back
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  Speaker 1: and watched the show, and I think she watched the
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  Speaker 1: way he acted towards her in the beginning, and I
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  Speaker 1: think she learned to love herself. And even though he
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  Speaker 1: does have feelings for her. We gonna see at the
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  Speaker 1: reunion how that's gonna play out, because I would like
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  Speaker 1: to know if they're still together. Something tells me they're
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  Speaker 1: not still together, but they are good for them now.
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  Speaker 1: As for the other last couple, Catherine and I forgot
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  Speaker 1: his name, Catherine Lord, I forgot the boy's name. Got
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  Speaker 1: the guy's name anyway, she said yes, he said no.
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  Speaker 1: I thought she was gonna say no. She ended up
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  Speaker 1: saying no because of this win in there and got
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  Speaker 1: in his head saying that they don't have that the
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  Speaker 1: fact that they feel like she's gonna be bougie and
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  Speaker 1: feel like that she's gonna be about going out and
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  Speaker 1: stuff like that. He's more of a homebody. You could
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  Speaker 1: have had that conversation before all of this has happened.
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  Speaker 1: If y'all had all of these doubts, you should have
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  Speaker 1: said some prior to the wedding day, because that girl
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  Speaker 1: is not going back. And what we'll see in the reunion,
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  Speaker 1: what's gonna happen. But do I think Catherine and old
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  Speaker 1: Boy are gonna be together? Nope, I certainly don't. But
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  Speaker 1: this is what I mean when I say it. Mind's
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  Speaker 1: my business. Now, at the end of the day, we
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  Speaker 1: gonna see how everything play out at the reunion, because
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  Speaker 1: I'm hoping they gonna have reunion, because I wants to
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  Speaker 1: see who together and who ain't. Not because I'm nosy,
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  Speaker 1: because I learned something now. I watched all of these couples,
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  Speaker 1: every single last one of them. The three that I
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  Speaker 1: knew were gonna get married, I knew because from the
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  Speaker 1: moment they met, I said, Okay, these these these two,
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  Speaker 1: these these couples here are gonna be the ones that's
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  Speaker 1: gonna end up making it to the end. Now, even
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  Speaker 1: though they had some rough patches, I knew they were
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  Speaker 1: gonna make it through because I could tell there was
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  Speaker 1: real love there. The other three couples I knew. Now
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  Speaker 1: one of them, I was like, well, maybe they might
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  Speaker 1: make it. But when she started becoming insecure, when she
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  Speaker 1: started because he said that he cheated one time, she
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  Speaker 1: couldn't let it go, and the way she treated him,
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  Speaker 1: I knew that eventually that was gonna batfire. On her.
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  Speaker 1: I knew it was gonna backfire, so I said, Okay,
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  Speaker 1: she gonna be the one that's gonna end up saying no.
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  Speaker 1: But it ended up being him because her fit like
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  Speaker 1: his family said, you know the way she's treated you,
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  Speaker 1: and I'm very sure of that family saw everything that
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  Speaker 1: went down, so I'm very sure they saw it all
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  Speaker 1: and was like, nah, uh uh, you don't need to
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  Speaker 1: marry her because the way she's treated you over some
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  Speaker 1: of the most minor things. I understand why he said no,
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  Speaker 1: but he said he still want to be with her.
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  Speaker 1: But because of the fact he told her no, he
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  Speaker 1: embarrassed her on National TV. She ain't going back to him.
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  Speaker 1: She is not gonna take him back. I promise you
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  Speaker 1: she ain't. You embarrassed that girl on National TV. She
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  Speaker 1: ain't taken you back. So again, what I learned from
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  Speaker 1: each one of these situations, I learned something from every
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  Speaker 1: single one of them, so I can break it down
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  Speaker 1: what I learned from it. But what I can say
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  Speaker 1: is this what I don't like about these shows. The
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  Speaker 1: people that can actually get relationships, the ones that can
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  Speaker 1: actually get people to approach them, do not need to
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  Speaker 1: be on these shows. You need to have people on
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  Speaker 1: these shows that really cannot get a man, that really
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  Speaker 1: have the hardest time finding a man. I'm serious, I
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  Speaker 1: mean seriously, you need to have women that really don't
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  Speaker 1: even get attention at all, don't even get asked on
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  Speaker 1: dates at all. There really needs to be a show
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  Speaker 1: about women that just cannot get a man in any capacity,
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  Speaker 1: whether it be because of their disability, whether it be
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  Speaker 1: because of their looks, whether it be because of their weight,
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  Speaker 1: whether it be because of their medical issues, whether it
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  Speaker 1: be because they're single mother, regardless of what the reason is,
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  Speaker 1: I feel as though those women should be the ones
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  Speaker 1: that actually should be on Love is Blind. I think
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  Speaker 1: Love is Blind should be completely different than what it
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  Speaker 1: actually is. I think what is should be is this here.
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  Speaker 1: I think it should be you put people on there
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  Speaker 1: that really are good people, kind hearted people, but they
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  Speaker 1: might be unattractive for whatever reason. Now this is my idea.
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  Speaker 1: I feel as though they should do something where they're
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  Speaker 1: getting to know these people. But why they're getting to
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  Speaker 1: know these people. They're actually getting treatment for their stuff,
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  Speaker 1: They're actually going to the gym, working out and actually
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  Speaker 1: losing weight, so they gonna think that the person they're
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  Speaker 1: dating is gonna be unattractive. But here's the kicker to
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  Speaker 1: it all. This person is actually gonna lose the weight.
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  Speaker 1: This person is actually going to get help with their
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  Speaker 1: with their issues, and you we're gonna see if these
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  Speaker 1: people are really gonna stay with them for who they
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  Speaker 1: are while they're on these journeys, or whether or not
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  Speaker 1: they're gonna walk away from this person at the end.
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  Speaker 1: So I words is this person is gonna be you know,
• 16:38
  Speaker 1: getting to know somebody in the pods. So they're having
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  Speaker 1: these conversations and the pods. But while they're having these
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  Speaker 1: conversations in the pods, each person has a separate issue,
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  Speaker 1: whether it's ezema, whether it's glasses, whether they're a nerd,
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  Speaker 1: regardless of what they are, and you transform these people
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  Speaker 1: into very I wouldn't say attractive people, but their inner
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  Speaker 1: beauty matches their out of beauty. So now you gotta
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  Speaker 1: see whether these people are really going to really get
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  Speaker 1: to know them and really see their transformation, or they're
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  Speaker 1: gonna walk away. So they're now seeing the person and
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  Speaker 1: the person is unattractive, but they have no idea that
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  Speaker 1: this person is actually trying to lose weight or can't
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  Speaker 1: lose weight. For whatever medical reason that it is. So
• 17:39
  Speaker 1: they find out this person has let's say they're in
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  Speaker 1: a wheelchair for example, or let's just say they have
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  Speaker 1: autism for example. So can you be with someone that
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  Speaker 1: has autism? Can you be with somebody that basically is
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  Speaker 1: not perfect? A lot of people can't. They just can't.
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  Speaker 1: So I think it needs new shows more like that,
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  Speaker 1: so to where people that have a hard time getting
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  Speaker 1: a man or getting a woman can actually kind of
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  Speaker 1: make them. So they gonna look and see the person
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  Speaker 1: not knowing they're they're going through a journey of their own.
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  Speaker 1: So now after the pods, they have to decide are
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  Speaker 1: they going to accept the person for who they are?
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  Speaker 1: Are they gonna walk away from the person not understanding
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  Speaker 1: the person looks completely different than what they think they
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  Speaker 1: look like. So now if they say no, they still
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  Speaker 1: get to meet the person. So they get to meet
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  Speaker 1: the person, and then they see the person and they
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  Speaker 1: see they look completely different than what they thought they
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  Speaker 1: thought they looked like. They find out this man actually
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  Speaker 1: is a multi millionaire. They find out this other person,
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  Speaker 1: you know, it's doing very well for themselves. So now
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  Speaker 1: you just gave a man that's worth twenty billion dollars
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  Speaker 1: because you're judging him on what he looked like. So
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  Speaker 1: now the funny thing about it is you gonna have
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  Speaker 1: some people on their crime because the whole time they've
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  Speaker 1: been thinking, they've been talking to somebody that's unattractive. The
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  Speaker 1: whole time, they're talking to somebody that is basically going
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  Speaker 1: through a whole transformation, not because they're trying to get
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  Speaker 1: a man, but because they want to be healthy. So
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  Speaker 1: these are people that really are trying to lose weight
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  Speaker 1: but can't lose weight for specific reasons. So we're showing
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  Speaker 1: their journey of them going to the doctor, We're showing
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  Speaker 1: them going to the gym, and they're working out, and
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  Speaker 1: they're all working out together. And what's gonna be even
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  Speaker 1: more at the kicker to it that some of the
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  Speaker 1: people may actually fall in love with each other. The
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  Speaker 1: ones that actually become attractive may actually fall in love
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  Speaker 1: with each other and may not care about the other person.
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  Speaker 1: So there's gonna be some twists and turns. But that's
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  Speaker 1: just what I would do. But this is what I mean.
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  Speaker 1: Anybody can lose weight, that's not even remotely the issue.
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  Speaker 1: Anybody can you know, figure out about ezema or if
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  Speaker 1: they have pigment issues or autism. You know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 1: But the fact that y'all sit up here and y'all
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  Speaker 1: keep telling people, oh, if you lose weight, you get them.
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  Speaker 1: We ain't doing that because y'all gonna stop lying. You're
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  Speaker 1: gonna stop lying to people. At this point, it is
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  Speaker 1: time for people to start being honest. If a person
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  Speaker 1: got to lose weight just to get a spouse, I'd
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  Speaker 1: rather still be over weight, absolutely not. If I'm gonna
• 21:00
  Speaker 1: lose weight, it's gonna be for health reasons, and health
• 21:04
  Speaker 1: reasons only. Point blame period. You're like, I'm not losing
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: weight for a man, even though I'm going on a cruise.
• 21:13
  Speaker 1: I'm not losing weight for a man. I'm losing weight
• 21:15
  Speaker 1: for myself. But in this journey of weight walls, if
• 21:20
  Speaker 1: y'all think it's easy to lose weight, you have lost
• 21:22
  Speaker 1: your mind. If you think it's easy to do that,
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: losing weight is hard. It is especially if you have
• 21:29
  Speaker 1: chronic pain. It is hard because then because then what
• 21:33
  Speaker 1: you got to figure out is what's causing your inflammation.
• 21:38
  Speaker 1: Now I'm about to start this thing where I eat
• 21:42
  Speaker 1: only meat and vegetables. Now it's gonna be hard. I
• 21:48
  Speaker 1: ain't gonna lie because I got soups and stuff that
• 21:52
  Speaker 1: have protein in them. And I'm about to start cooking
• 21:55
  Speaker 1: more because I'm about to stop going out to eat
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: for a while, and I ben do it good. Oh
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: this week I cooked all this week, I cooked, I
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: mean nuggets, I had soup. No, I had some burritos
• 22:11
  Speaker 1: and mans all and I had you know, So this
• 22:16
  Speaker 1: this diet that I'm doing is consisting of me going
• 22:24
  Speaker 1: to the store and getting like vegetables in the can
• 22:30
  Speaker 1: that have absolutely no salt, no salt in the mid
• 22:33
  Speaker 1: all fresh vegetables. I'm trying to find me a farmer's market.
• 22:38
  Speaker 1: If I find one, it's a wrap because I ain't
• 22:41
  Speaker 1: going to the grocery stoomo. I'm going to farmers markets.
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: I'm going to the butcher anyway. So what I'm gonna
• 22:47
  Speaker 1: do is every week, I'm gonna, you know, get food
• 22:52
  Speaker 1: for like a week. Because I notice now, even with
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: milk that basically essentially last long, it don't milk is
• 23:01
  Speaker 1: not even the same as it used to be because
• 23:04
  Speaker 1: it's now I had bought milk last week and already
• 23:06
  Speaker 1: it's already no good. So I have to find a
• 23:09
  Speaker 1: milk that's gonna be like almond milk, or I can't
• 23:12
  Speaker 1: even eat. I can't do my almond milk and loads
• 23:14
  Speaker 1: and nuts. So I gotta figure out what milk can
• 23:19
  Speaker 1: I actually do. I try to do zero percent milk, honestly,
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: that's what I try to do. But I'm gona try
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: to do my smoothie with water. But smooth but protein
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: shakes ain't the same without milk. They're just not They're
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: not the same without milk. I don't care. I mean,
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: you can do it with you can do it with water,
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: but it just ain't the same without milk. And I
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: got some cereal that I bought that I'm about to eat,
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: So this weekend I'll probably get some milk, some no
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: percent milk, or either some oat milk. But I realized
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: that the way everything is right now, and everything keeps
• 24:01
  Speaker 1: going back, what the world can we eat? At this point?
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: Every time I turn around, they're recalling on something, whether
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: it's cucumbers. I'm like, you gotta recall on vegetables. I'm like, then,
• 24:15
  Speaker 1: what the world are we gonna be able to eat?
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: And then the other day I got cucumbers that ended
• 24:19
  Speaker 1: up being labbed cucumbers. I'm like, then, what are we
• 24:23
  Speaker 1: gonna be able to eat at this point? So I'm
• 24:28
  Speaker 1: starting to do this thing where I don't eat past
• 24:32
  Speaker 1: six o'clock, well seventh the latest, and I'm trying to
• 24:36
  Speaker 1: stop because it is kind of hard when you first
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: do it because you're used to snacking, like I'm used
• 24:43
  Speaker 1: to snacking around this time of night, but I ain't
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: even doing it though I have been doing a good job.
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: Well I can't say that because I had don't Rito's
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: late last night. So now I'm getting there. But then
• 24:56
  Speaker 1: something I'm sticking with, and then not only that, I've
• 25:01
  Speaker 1: been taking this stuff for my kidneys and my my
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: kidneys and my liver too, so I've been trying to
• 25:11
  Speaker 1: heal that. So I'm trying to find a pesticide, uh
• 25:18
  Speaker 1: medication for parasites, not fantasites, parasites where it doesn't have
• 25:23
  Speaker 1: the almond in it, the wal the I forgot black
• 25:26
  Speaker 1: walnuts in it, cause I can't use that, So I
• 25:31
  Speaker 1: have to find something to cure the parasites. I tried
• 25:34
  Speaker 1: a fifteen minute cleanse and I'm gonna LERKX to it,
• 25:37
  Speaker 1: so it doesn't work for me. But I do go
• 25:41
  Speaker 1: to the ears, nose, and throat doctor next month, which
• 25:45
  Speaker 1: I can't wait to go cause I already know I'm
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: gonna be miserable honestly, because they gonna stick some dominoes
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: to my throat and check everything to see what they
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: can find. They're also gonna have to probably stick them
• 25:56
  Speaker 1: down my ears. I'm just gonna be miserable across the board.
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: I'm just gonna be purity miserable. So at the end
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: of the day, like I said, a lot of people
• 26:08
  Speaker 1: think that it's about putting everybody else for yourself. No
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: it's not. Let me explain this now. Jesus when Jesus
• 26:19
  Speaker 1: was born and Jesus had this calling, Okay, the one
• 26:24
  Speaker 1: thing that Jesus did not do, and I paid attention
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: to this, Jesus helped people, but not by doing what
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: they were supposed to be doing. He assisted people, okay.
• 26:38
  Speaker 1: And I learned that with God, that's what God does.
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: God can only assist you, Okay. God can't make you
• 26:46
  Speaker 1: do nothing. Devil can't make you do nothing. You gotta
• 26:49
  Speaker 1: choose which one. As far as whichever one you choose
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: to listen to. So what I learned is now and
• 26:57
  Speaker 1: I realized why I became a life coach. At that second.
• 27:00
  Speaker 1: I said, it's not about me helping people. It's about
• 27:05
  Speaker 1: me assisting people. So I got to go about this
• 27:09
  Speaker 1: a completely different way. So I said, you know what,
• 27:13
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna assist people, but they gonna do it themselves.
• 27:17
  Speaker 1: And that's what I mean. And for a lot of
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: us that are people pleasers, we're the one actually doing
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: it for them. So in other words, we're enabling them.
• 27:28
  Speaker 1: So I realized that, no, that's not what I'm gonna do.
• 27:32
  Speaker 1: It's just like when Jesus when it came to healing people.
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: That woman that touched his cloak, she wasn't supposed touch
• 27:39
  Speaker 1: his cloth. But guess what, Jesus get mad about it.
• 27:43
  Speaker 1: But he helped her. But it wasn't an attention, but
• 27:47
  Speaker 1: he still helped her. But when you think about the
• 27:50
  Speaker 1: word help, you think that you have to actually be
• 27:54
  Speaker 1: the one to do it. You got to be the
• 27:56
  Speaker 1: one that actually pay somebody bills. You gotta be the
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: one to ask, you know, do whatever it is they're
• 28:02
  Speaker 1: asking you to do. No, homeboy, I'm supposed to assist you.
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: That's it. I'm supposed to assist you. I am not
• 28:11
  Speaker 1: supposed to pay your rent and I don't live there.
• 28:14
  Speaker 1: I am not supposed to put nothing in my name
• 28:17
  Speaker 1: that I ain't drying. So I've learned from these experiences
• 28:25
  Speaker 1: that unless the person does for me what I do
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: for them, unless they're gonna pay me back my money,
• 28:33
  Speaker 1: the answer is nothing. Now. Can I take my money
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: and help the homeless, yep. Can I take my money
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: and build a business to help people far as employment, yep,
• 28:44
  Speaker 1: I can do all of that, But when they come
• 28:47
  Speaker 1: to personal Nope, mm hmm, absolutely not. So it is
• 28:54
  Speaker 1: fifty to fifty for me because I am not taking
• 28:58
  Speaker 1: care of kids all by myself, and I laid down
• 29:00
  Speaker 1: and had these kids by myself. Absolutely not. I am
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: not paying these bills by myself. Nope. We're going fifty
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: to fifty because we gonna have a work life balance.
• 29:10
  Speaker 1: I'm not having my husband out there working and he's
• 29:13
  Speaker 1: working himself to the point that he loses life before me.
• 29:15
  Speaker 1: Absolutely not. I want my husband here as long as
• 29:20
  Speaker 1: he can be here. So that means that basically we
• 29:24
  Speaker 1: both have to work, then we both gonna be working.
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: I'll just be working from home, He'll be working wherever
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: he's working at Now, once I build my business, then
• 29:31
  Speaker 1: I retire my husband. That's how that going. I retire
• 29:35
  Speaker 1: my husband. So when you say you mind your own business,
• 29:39
  Speaker 1: that is actly what that means. Just because I'm at
• 29:43
  Speaker 1: home does not mean I can't work. Just because I'm
• 29:45
  Speaker 1: at home doesn't mean I can't start a business. So
• 29:49
  Speaker 1: I don't know why y'all think that because a woman's
• 29:51
  Speaker 1: at home, then she can't start a business, she can't
• 29:54
  Speaker 1: start a brand. I don't even know why men are
• 29:56
  Speaker 1: intimidated by that. So my old thing is, if I
• 30:00
  Speaker 1: can live out my dream and my husband is gonna
• 30:03
  Speaker 1: help me make my dream and reality, why am I not?
• 30:08
  Speaker 1: So that's the thing, y'all giving up everything for people
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: that will never give it up for you. Y'all up
• 30:16
  Speaker 1: here giving up everything with people that's never gonna give
• 30:19
  Speaker 1: you what you give them. And that's why God said
• 30:22
  Speaker 1: you don't mess with a non believer, because a believer
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: is never gonna leave you out there like that. A
• 30:30
  Speaker 1: believer is gonna be like, look, we both gonna fulfill
• 30:33
  Speaker 1: our dreams, and whoever is the one that makes it first,
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: you're gonna bring the other one wills. It's just like
• 30:39
  Speaker 1: with Moses after what happened when he went away and
• 30:43
  Speaker 1: they were worshiping all them gods, and he came back
• 30:46
  Speaker 1: with the Ten Commandments, and they had spent forty years
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: out now, but he made sure they were good. And
• 30:52
  Speaker 1: that's my point. There are people that can sit there
• 30:56
  Speaker 1: all day and tell you what you need to do,
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: but that don't mean that you're gonna do it. You
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: gonna do whatever it is that you wanna do, and
• 31:03
  Speaker 1: however it is that you choose to do it. So
• 31:08
  Speaker 1: I'm not gonna sit up here and tell nobody what
• 31:12
  Speaker 1: you need to do. But my question is, why do
• 31:16
  Speaker 1: you want to do it now? I can only assist you.
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: That's the only thing I do. This is your journey,
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: not mine now, and I own this journey with you. Yep.
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: If you somebody on the weight loss Jenner, we can
• 31:27
  Speaker 1: do it together because I'm on it too. So if
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: it if it just so happens that we both on
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: the same journey, we can do it together. We can
• 31:36
  Speaker 1: do this journey right together, and we can assist each other.
• 31:41
  Speaker 1: So at the end of the day, there will be
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: some there will be times that I have clients and
• 31:45
  Speaker 1: we both on the same journey. We can help each
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: other out, cause again I'm going through this journey with you.
• 31:53
  Speaker 1: I'm walking right along with you on this journey, but
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: I'm not being pulled down with you. Differ. I'm gonna
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: go there with you. I'm gonna cry with you, but
• 32:04
  Speaker 1: I'm just not gonna be affected and impacted by it.
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: But I will be there with you through it. So again,
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: you gotta know when to walk, when to say, Nope,
• 32:17
  Speaker 1: I'm not getting involved in that. They ain't got nothing
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: to do with me. Whatever you got going on negative
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: is not something I'm even trying to get involved in.
• 32:28
  Speaker 1: So again, a lot of y'all up here getting involved
• 32:31
  Speaker 1: in stuff that ain't got nothing to do with you.
• 32:34
  Speaker 1: And then when everything fall apart, then all of a sudden,
• 32:37
  Speaker 1: you wanna blame everybody else. Now you wanna talk. Now,
• 32:40
  Speaker 1: you wanna tell the police everything you done did. Now
• 32:43
  Speaker 1: you wanna sit there and say, this is my confession.
• 32:47
  Speaker 1: So now you wanna confess. Now you wanna say, oh,
• 32:50
  Speaker 1: I ain't had nothing to do with it. It was
• 32:52
  Speaker 1: sach and sad. I was just there, But you was
• 32:55
  Speaker 1: there when that girl got sexey insulted. You mean tell
• 32:58
  Speaker 1: me you don't think you're not going to jail. You was,
• 33:00
  Speaker 1: and you could have stopped the situation, and you chose
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: to let it continue. Nope, you mean to tell me
• 33:05
  Speaker 1: you unerliwed your child, and you left your child for days,
• 33:08
  Speaker 1: and now you're gonna say, well my child and God
• 33:10
  Speaker 1: forgive me. Oh my God. People kill me when they
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: say that. They were like, well, God forgave me. You
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: mean the fact that you committed blasphemy, sweetheart? I mean
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: people understand some him. God can forgive anybody, okay, But
• 33:36
  Speaker 1: at the same time, even God can get tired of you.
• 33:41
  Speaker 1: Even God can get tired of you cause God can
• 33:43
  Speaker 1: keep telling you over and over again, leave this person alone,
• 33:46
  Speaker 1: Stop staying with this person. Do not stay with this person.
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: When they put their hands on you, leave immediately. No,
• 33:51
  Speaker 1: you continue going back. What are you going back from?
• 33:55
  Speaker 1: Why are you going back from? Going back for what
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: he ain't gonna change. Seeing a video day of a girl,
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: a NFL player put his hands on a girl, he
• 34:07
  Speaker 1: begging her not to say nothing because he don't want
• 34:10
  Speaker 1: to lose his career. It's viral now that man pushed
• 34:13
  Speaker 1: that girl right smack in the face. Is she gonna leave?
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: Probably not? Probably not so not a police gonna get involved.
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: So all I'm saying to y'all is I know you
• 34:33
  Speaker 1: love people. I know you like people. I know you
• 34:37
  Speaker 1: wanna be in a relationship with people. But it ain't
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: worth it if I'm the person doing everything and I
• 34:42
  Speaker 1: ain't getting nothing out of it. So let me explain
• 34:45
  Speaker 1: what I mean when I say fifty to fifty evenly yoked.
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: I'm sorry. I'm not a build of bear. I'm not
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: a build a doll. I'm not a seat feeling. I'm
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: not a captain saber hole, and I certainly am not
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: of people pleaser. At this point, I've done that my
• 34:59
  Speaker 1: whole in time life, and I refuse to do it
• 35:01
  Speaker 1: again no more. Okay, Now, since being in isolation, when
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: God pulled me away from all the people that have
• 35:09
  Speaker 1: wronged me. Before I got involved in a sex cult situation,
• 35:13
  Speaker 1: I had just went through this situation personally, I came
• 35:19
  Speaker 1: to a lot of realizations long before the sex coat.
• 35:25
  Speaker 1: So when God says come as you are, That's why
• 35:28
  Speaker 1: I come as I am. Because God says to come
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: as you are, no makeup, no fake care, come as
• 35:33
  Speaker 1: you are, Okay, So I'm coming as I am. It
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: was not about me being cute in that situation because
• 35:42
  Speaker 1: I didn't feel cute. I was sick. I'm still going
• 35:44
  Speaker 1: through it right now. I'm still going through throat issues
• 35:49
  Speaker 1: right now. So at the end of the day, you
• 35:53
  Speaker 1: don't know what somebody is dealing with and what they're
• 35:55
  Speaker 1: going through. But the fact it was the assumptions. For me,
• 35:59
  Speaker 1: it was our all of these things. Now, I'm like,
• 36:01
  Speaker 1: when did I do all this stuff? Again? When was
• 36:05
  Speaker 1: I all of this? I'm like, Jesus, I ain't, no,
• 36:07
  Speaker 1: my life is that interesting. They made my life interesting
• 36:10
  Speaker 1: in what it actually was. So what I want people
• 36:17
  Speaker 1: to understand is I get it. I really really do.
• 36:23
  Speaker 1: I understand. I really do. But at the end of
• 36:27
  Speaker 1: the day, I am I'm a grown woman. I just
• 36:29
  Speaker 1: don't got time for this nonsense. I yop, I got
• 36:32
  Speaker 1: called for it. I'm too grown. I'm asking an adult.
• 36:38
  Speaker 1: If you ain't picked up on that by now, I'm
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: actually an adult. I mean, I take all my responsibilities.
• 36:45
  Speaker 1: I made sure my bills are paid, I made sure
• 36:47
  Speaker 1: my son is good. I don't know what you're talking about, honey.
• 36:51
  Speaker 1: I can't never not be an adult. I can't be
• 36:55
  Speaker 1: an adult if nobody takes care of me said, how
• 36:57
  Speaker 1: in the world can I be an adult If I'm sick,
• 36:59
  Speaker 1: I gotta take care of me or so, But yet
• 37:02
  Speaker 1: everybody else wants me to take care of them. Everybody
• 37:06
  Speaker 1: wants me to be jumping when they say hi, Hi.
• 37:10
  Speaker 1: And at one time I used to be there. So now,
• 37:13
  Speaker 1: being in this cocoon, my phone does not ring, Nobody
• 37:17
  Speaker 1: calls me and they do only accept my mama and
• 37:20
  Speaker 1: everybody else called me when they want something. So, like
• 37:25
  Speaker 1: I said, did you really think God was gonna send
• 37:28
  Speaker 1: somebody in this situation that wasn't gonna be like me?
• 37:34
  Speaker 1: Do you not understand why God sent me in the
• 37:36
  Speaker 1: situation in the first place. I'm geting to tell you.
• 37:40
  Speaker 1: God knew that I would be preparing for this. God
• 37:45
  Speaker 1: knew that I could handle this situation. God knew that
• 37:51
  Speaker 1: I was gonna be going through what I went through,
• 37:53
  Speaker 1: and God prepped me for it. He prepped me for it.
• 37:59
  Speaker 1: Was it he He's going through it? No, and my
• 38:03
  Speaker 1: better person for it, yep, and my going through the
• 38:07
  Speaker 1: aftermath of it. Absolutely, absolutely I am. But at the
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: end of the day, like I said, what I've learned
• 38:18
  Speaker 1: in this situation and the one thing about a sabbatical.
• 38:24
  Speaker 1: It is a up and uphill battle because when I
• 38:29
  Speaker 1: tell you, letting go of things that you've been doing
• 38:33
  Speaker 1: for a long period of time is the hardest thing
• 38:37
  Speaker 1: to do. When I tell you, trying something new is
• 38:41
  Speaker 1: not as easy as y'all think it is, cause it ain't.
• 38:45
  Speaker 1: Being uncomfortable is not easy, cause it ain't realizing that
• 38:50
  Speaker 1: nobody was ever your friend and nobody ever loved you
• 38:53
  Speaker 1: in the first place. As a hard pedal swallow except
• 38:56
  Speaker 1: your parents is a hard pedal swallow. When I tell you, you
• 39:02
  Speaker 1: feel purety empty and you feel like, oh my god,
• 39:05
  Speaker 1: I wasted all of these years and all these people
• 39:08
  Speaker 1: that weren't worth me. When I tell you your break break down, honey,
• 39:12
  Speaker 1: you break break down. Brian Carry said it best when
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: she said it, break break down, honey. When I tell
• 39:21
  Speaker 1: you the pain, the hurt that your twelve s systems
• 39:28
  Speaker 1: in the body, honey, how it's been impacted, you have
• 39:32
  Speaker 1: no idea. So now that I know all of this,
• 39:37
  Speaker 1: and now that I'm getting an understanding of all of this,
• 39:42
  Speaker 1: which I wish i'da got when I was younger, now
• 39:45
  Speaker 1: I'm like absolutely not no. So now I'm like, okay,
• 39:51
  Speaker 1: let me do this differently. Let me instead of instead
• 39:55
  Speaker 1: of me trying to give advice, just make a suggestion.
• 40:00
  Speaker 1: Just use my story as a way of helping people
• 40:04
  Speaker 1: every day, talking about my good days, my bad days,
• 40:07
  Speaker 1: you know, people seeing me exercise, people seeing me in
• 40:11
  Speaker 1: the kitchen, seeing me trying to figure things out. Now,
• 40:15
  Speaker 1: if you gonna show it, show it off, if you
• 40:18
  Speaker 1: gonna show it, show everything. Don't just get up here
• 40:21
  Speaker 1: because now you healed. Now you wanna get on here
• 40:23
  Speaker 1: and tell everybody else how to heal. Uh huh. Don't
• 40:25
  Speaker 1: work the way. Everybody heals differently, everybody going through the
• 40:29
  Speaker 1: same thing, but in multiple different passes depending on where
• 40:32
  Speaker 1: you at in dimensions. Kay, where you hit the twelfth dimension.
• 40:37
  Speaker 1: It ain't no looking back, ain't no going back, and
• 40:39
  Speaker 1: I ain't going at it. I don't care what you do.
• 40:42
  Speaker 1: I'm not coming back to a third dimension. It just
• 40:44
  Speaker 1: ain't gonna happen. And I'm sorry. It just ain't. So
• 40:47
  Speaker 1: when I look at it, when I think about the
• 40:49
  Speaker 1: story of a lot, I think about not looking back
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: at any aspect whatsoever. But I realize I have been looking,
• 40:57
  Speaker 1: I have been going back, cause I'm doing the same thing.
• 41:00
  Speaker 1: I shouldn't be doing in the first place. So I
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: thank God I've come to those realizations. I realized a
• 41:08
  Speaker 1: lot of things that I wish to God I never did,
• 41:12
  Speaker 1: but I can't go back and change them. But I
• 41:14
  Speaker 1: promise you it ain't gonna happen again. It's not happening again.
• 41:20
  Speaker 1: I'm giving it to God. I'm giving myself completely to God.
• 41:26
  Speaker 1: And that's it. So yeah, I'm a little I'm a
• 41:29
  Speaker 1: little very simple, boring life. And whatever it is a
• 41:33
  Speaker 1: God wants to bring in my life, I'm all for.
• 41:35
  Speaker 1: I reviewed negativities and it back when it came. I
• 41:38
  Speaker 1: am giving God all my pain on my hurt and
• 41:41
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna do exactly what God is telling me to
• 41:44
  Speaker 1: do to find my purpose and my path and my
• 41:47
  Speaker 1: journey to a new and bettered person. And God is like, look,
• 41:50
  Speaker 1: this is how we're gonna do this. You're gonna do
• 41:52
  Speaker 1: your life coaching best upon my standards, not society standards.
• 41:57
  Speaker 1: My standards, we gonna forget about society standards when it
• 42:01
  Speaker 1: comes to recovery. We go through things based upon mind standards.
• 42:06
  Speaker 1: So that's what I'm learning right now. I am learning
• 42:09
  Speaker 1: God's standards or how to recover and how to heat.
• 42:12
  Speaker 1: I'm learning God's start. I'm learning God's standards. When they
• 42:15
  Speaker 1: come to walking away for situations it ain't gonna serve
• 42:17
  Speaker 1: me a purpose. I'm on God's standing. I'm on God's purpose.
• 42:21
  Speaker 1: When they come down to somebody saying, oh, you want
• 42:24
  Speaker 1: to have sex, absolutely not. I'm not married. I'm not
• 42:26
  Speaker 1: having sex. Nope, nope, So you're not gonna nope, nope.
• 42:34
  Speaker 1: As soon as you tell me. If i even hear
• 42:36
  Speaker 1: the word, I'm not anything when I'm not, okay, cool,
• 42:43
  Speaker 1: that's all you gotta say, uh huh cool. Anybody got
• 42:47
  Speaker 1: something negative? Stay, I'm looking. The only thing I'm saying
• 42:50
  Speaker 1: to you, gonna pray for you. You not gonna get
• 42:53
  Speaker 1: the reaction you won't from me. If anything, I'm gonna
• 42:56
  Speaker 1: laugh at you and keep on going all the thing
• 42:59
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna say. You know, you know what, I'm gonna
• 43:01
  Speaker 1: pray for you, because you know what, I ain't even
• 43:03
  Speaker 1: got time finished. You have a good day. I am
• 43:06
  Speaker 1: not entertaining negative people at all at this point. I'm
• 43:09
  Speaker 1: just not mm hmm, nope, absolutely none. Am I am
• 43:17
  Speaker 1: I repeating twenty eighteen No mm hmm. When I say
• 43:25
  Speaker 1: I'm not looking back. I mean necessarily, I'm not looking back.
• 43:29
  Speaker 1: I am looking forward to the present, in the future.
• 43:32
  Speaker 1: I got a book. I gotta book to write and
• 43:34
  Speaker 1: courses do. And that's exactly what I plan to do
• 43:38
  Speaker 1: this weekend. This weekend is gonna be a rest period.
• 43:45
  Speaker 1: The weekend it since I can't drive right now, it's
• 43:48
  Speaker 1: gonna be a rest period. I'm gonna rest. I'm gonna
• 43:51
  Speaker 1: get some sleep. I'm gonna go outside, go for a walk,
• 43:54
  Speaker 1: and I'm going to get my exercise in, even though
• 43:57
  Speaker 1: i might be in pain. But that's all right, because
• 44:00
  Speaker 1: that's the way it starts. You are going to be
• 44:02
  Speaker 1: in pain. So, like I said, for those of y'all
• 44:05
  Speaker 1: who keep thinking you gotta work, you gotta walk ten
• 44:08
  Speaker 1: thousand miles, No you don't. My suggestion is just walk
• 44:13
  Speaker 1: until you start hurting. When you start working hurting, you
• 44:17
  Speaker 1: turn around, stop for a second, and then you stop.
• 44:21
  Speaker 1: If you feel like you can't make it, walk back,
• 44:25
  Speaker 1: walk yourself back, go inside and do just do steps.
• 44:32
  Speaker 1: Find you a stretch of exercise, find you a step
• 44:34
  Speaker 1: in exercise, find something where you ain't gotta get on
• 44:37
  Speaker 1: the ground. So let me, let me, let me give you.
• 44:39
  Speaker 1: The best advice I can give you my own, my
• 44:41
  Speaker 1: own from frying of pain. If you cannot get down
• 44:45
  Speaker 1: that ground, don't start exercises with the ground. Don't even
• 44:48
  Speaker 1: do it. What you need to do is get your
• 44:51
  Speaker 1: your legs, your legs and that part of your body
• 44:55
  Speaker 1: on down ready for that. So when you get on
• 44:57
  Speaker 1: the floor, it's gonna be easier for you to be
• 45:00
  Speaker 1: able to be on that flow. But if you somebody
• 45:03
  Speaker 1: like me, the once you get down you can't get
• 45:05
  Speaker 1: back up, don't even do it. Don't you do it.
• 45:09
  Speaker 1: Don't even waste your time getting down that flow and
• 45:11
  Speaker 1: doing the exercise because you ain't gonna be able to
• 45:13
  Speaker 1: do it. Don't even do it. The best thing to
• 45:16
  Speaker 1: do is start with a treadmill, start with a bike,
• 45:24
  Speaker 1: start with you know, the little the little canoe thing,
• 45:28
  Speaker 1: start with stuff like muscle stuff, get you some weights
• 45:32
  Speaker 1: and just start. You know. But again, you gonna need
• 45:36
  Speaker 1: enough protein. God good. That's why people say, well, why
• 45:42
  Speaker 1: you don't why you don't work out in the morning,
• 45:43
  Speaker 1: because you're gonna eat That's why unless you ain't gonna
• 45:48
  Speaker 1: eat nothing for a couple of hours, meaning that let's say,
• 45:52
  Speaker 1: for example, you may you may decide to get a
• 45:56
  Speaker 1: protein shape and you decide to eat to that before
• 46:00
  Speaker 1: you go to gym. Are you going to be hungry?
• 46:04
  Speaker 1: Yes you are. That's unrealistic. But it may say no
• 46:15
  Speaker 1: there it is. So all I'm saying to y'all is
• 46:23
  Speaker 1: you're worrying about the wrong things. It don't matter. Do
• 46:27
  Speaker 1: what works for you. Don't worry about everybody else in
• 46:30
  Speaker 1: what they got going on. Don't worry about what everybody
• 46:33
  Speaker 1: else is doing. Focus on yourself. That's all thing you
• 46:35
  Speaker 1: need to focus on. And if the other person don't
• 46:38
  Speaker 1: want to focus on you, I'm sorry, I gotta go.
• 46:41
  Speaker 1: I'm leaving on the midnight trans Georgia. So again, if
• 46:46
  Speaker 1: God didn't bring that person, don't bring them to your world.
• 46:51
  Speaker 1: Don't even do it. Leave them where they at. Your
• 46:56
  Speaker 1: blessings is your blessings, and you need to enjoy your blessings.
• 47:00
  Speaker 1: You cannot employ. You cannot enjoy your blessings with everybody
• 47:03
  Speaker 1: else around you, which is why God pulls you from
• 47:06
  Speaker 1: the world so you can basically enjoy the fruits of
• 47:10
  Speaker 1: your labor. So when God starts giving you large sums
• 47:13
  Speaker 1: of money, you're now giving back. So now what you're
• 47:17
  Speaker 1: doing is you're now building community centers. You're now building
• 47:22
  Speaker 1: things is actually literally gonna help people that what you
• 47:26
  Speaker 1: gonna do, You gonna build community centers where where kids
• 47:32
  Speaker 1: can go after school and be able to not have
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: to pay nothing. We're maybe fifty dollars every two weeks.
• 47:40
  Speaker 1: They get food, they get at they get after school programs,
• 47:44
  Speaker 1: they get all that stuff, and all they gotta do
• 47:47
  Speaker 1: is pay a monthly fee and it ain't that expensive.
• 47:52
  Speaker 1: And that monthly fee covers every single thing that's in
• 47:55
  Speaker 1: there that they choose to do, whether it's gymnastics, whether
• 48:00
  Speaker 1: it's whatever, and getting it as a nonprofit, because a
• 48:05
  Speaker 1: nonprofit are people still get paid, but they get paid
• 48:09
  Speaker 1: a sex a set income. But if we end up
• 48:12
  Speaker 1: expanding it, then it'd be something different. So what I'm
• 48:18
  Speaker 1: saying to y'all is when God puts you in isolation,
• 48:23
  Speaker 1: there's a reason God puts you there. And what I
• 48:26
  Speaker 1: learned is you gotta click off everything, social media, all
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: of it, and you need to sit down. And that's
• 48:34
  Speaker 1: something I'm getting ready to start doing. That's why every
• 48:36
  Speaker 1: Sunday I sit down and I read the Bible, or
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: if I listen to Transformation Church, for example, I might
• 48:45
  Speaker 1: listen today They wends Tuesday, Monday, and Wednesday night prayer session.
• 48:51
  Speaker 1: So again, so I can learn how to read the Bible.
• 48:57
  Speaker 1: So again, my life may be boring, but at least
• 49:02
  Speaker 1: my least I'm covered. So again, once I get to
• 49:06
  Speaker 1: that place where I give my life a completely God,
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: which I have, and the Holy Spirit comes in me,
• 49:14
  Speaker 1: you best believe I'm just gonna have a dull born life.
• 49:17
  Speaker 1: I am not going out here for no excitement. I
• 49:19
  Speaker 1: don't wote no excitement. So let me tell you what
• 49:22
  Speaker 1: happens when you go into this nice cocoons And why
• 49:26
  Speaker 1: talk about this? Because when you are by yourself and
• 49:29
  Speaker 1: I'm tired of y'all lie in time, you gotta have people,
• 49:33
  Speaker 1: No I no, I don't. No, I don't because when
• 49:35
  Speaker 1: I have you around me, they didn't appreciate me. And
• 49:38
  Speaker 1: a few friends I do got. I like keeping them
• 49:41
  Speaker 1: at a distance. You want to know why, because when
• 49:43
  Speaker 1: I went through what I went through and that sex coat,
• 49:46
  Speaker 1: what exactly did people do? Call my friends and family?
• 49:49
  Speaker 1: This is why I keep everybody at the distance. See
• 49:54
  Speaker 1: that what I'm saying. They thought I was everybody else.
• 49:56
  Speaker 1: They thought my parents were gonna be able to spell. Y'all,
• 49:58
  Speaker 1: don't go ahead on somewher. Do you not know? I
• 50:01
  Speaker 1: don't bring nobody involved in my situation. Do you know
• 50:05
  Speaker 1: I love people enough not to bring them and nothing
• 50:08
  Speaker 1: that has nothing to do with me negative? Do you
• 50:11
  Speaker 1: know There's so many things I've never told my parents.
• 50:14
  Speaker 1: Even to this day, I never speak on it. Am
• 50:19
  Speaker 1: I dealing with the damage of it physically? Absolutely? You
• 50:23
  Speaker 1: want to know why God put me in isolation? God,
• 50:25
  Speaker 1: I put me in an isolation because of the damage
• 50:29
  Speaker 1: physically that I was dealing with, because when I couldn't
• 50:32
  Speaker 1: walk them two times I couldn't walk, then had emergency
• 50:36
  Speaker 1: god bladder surgeries and had to have a hysterectomy and
• 50:39
  Speaker 1: to hernia surgeries and I and I told her I
• 50:43
  Speaker 1: gotta go back because they said they found a polyot
• 50:46
  Speaker 1: in my stomach. They got rid of it, but if
• 50:49
  Speaker 1: there's damage, they may have to give me an antibiotic.
• 50:53
  Speaker 1: I gotta get some blood drawn. So I'm living with
• 50:57
  Speaker 1: this situation, and yet I'm in pain every day all
• 51:02
  Speaker 1: day every day. Now, I have good days. I have
• 51:05
  Speaker 1: good days with some days, you know, if I move
• 51:08
  Speaker 1: around a little bit. But this is what happens when
• 51:11
  Speaker 1: you're not allowed to work out. So this is actually
• 51:15
  Speaker 1: because I didn't have no information of what was wrong.
• 51:19
  Speaker 1: So now all of these things that are affecting me
• 51:21
  Speaker 1: now are things that could have been here a long
• 51:24
  Speaker 1: time ago, but because I had doctors that couldn't tell
• 51:27
  Speaker 1: me what was wrong, because I didn't have insurance. Now
• 51:32
  Speaker 1: I'm paying for it, trust me. So now you know
• 51:36
  Speaker 1: what the God is like, I want you to just
• 51:39
  Speaker 1: sit still for a minute. But what I need you
• 51:43
  Speaker 1: to do. I need you to get off social media.
• 51:47
  Speaker 1: I need you to stop strolling. And that's been the
• 51:52
  Speaker 1: hardest thing for me to do because it's the only
• 51:54
  Speaker 1: connection I have to the world. And God is like, nope,
• 51:57
  Speaker 1: I want you to stop. And today I realized why
• 52:03
  Speaker 1: my eyes were feeling weird Today. Y'all don't understand the
• 52:07
  Speaker 1: damage y'all being on your phones and looking on the
• 52:09
  Speaker 1: phones due to you to your vision. I gotta go
• 52:13
  Speaker 1: for an eye appointment anyway, so I gotta get that
• 52:16
  Speaker 1: done too. But y'all have no idea the damage that
• 52:21
  Speaker 1: you do to your body. You really don't that you
• 52:26
  Speaker 1: cannot be in front of a screen all day. And
• 52:29
  Speaker 1: this is part of the reason I started my own business.
• 52:31
  Speaker 1: Because of this reason, I'm tired of looking at a
• 52:36
  Speaker 1: screen all day. I really am, because I would like
• 52:42
  Speaker 1: to get up and not even look at TV when
• 52:45
  Speaker 1: I first wake up. I would like to just get up,
• 52:49
  Speaker 1: go make breakfast, listen to some music, and go to sleep.
• 52:54
  Speaker 1: Go listen, listen to listen to my prayers at night
• 52:57
  Speaker 1: before I go to bed. Y'all keep thinking that godly
• 53:01
  Speaker 1: people boring, that godly people are ugly. Look, let me
• 53:05
  Speaker 1: tell you something. I'd rather be a godly person to
• 53:08
  Speaker 1: be ugly than be an attractive person and be demonic.
• 53:12
  Speaker 1: I'd rather be a woman as a modest than a
• 53:14
  Speaker 1: woman as a Jezebel. Let's be clear, I am giving
• 53:23
  Speaker 1: my throats a break because now it's hurting again. I
• 53:29
  Speaker 1: was doing so well the past few months, and now
• 53:33
  Speaker 1: this sudden it's hurting again. I ain't know why, and
• 53:36
  Speaker 1: our rebute negativity and send it back on what it
• 53:39
  Speaker 1: came for. It doesn't belong here. The one thing about
• 53:43
  Speaker 1: demonic experience is it's gonna hit you where it hurts.
• 53:50
  Speaker 1: So now I say, you know what, instead of me
• 53:52
  Speaker 1: getting on social media, I'm gonna sit down and write
• 53:55
  Speaker 1: a book instead. Why Because I need to be an
• 53:58
  Speaker 1: authority on what it is that I'm talking about. And
• 54:04
  Speaker 1: I've learned that that's the way I need to go because,
• 54:08
  Speaker 1: like I said, God has been telling me sit down
• 54:10
  Speaker 1: and write a book. And then when I saw something
• 54:14
  Speaker 1: about silence, I said, there it is right there. I
• 54:17
  Speaker 1: always always look at things in threes when I am not.
• 54:20
  Speaker 1: I see something three times and one day I'm like, Okay,
• 54:23
  Speaker 1: I got it. I got it. But don't get me wrong.
• 54:28
  Speaker 1: I'm still gonna do my morning inspirations and I'm still
• 54:32
  Speaker 1: gonna do my podcast. I just ain't strolling the more.
• 54:35
  Speaker 1: That's it. Now. If I do, it'll probably be if
• 54:40
  Speaker 1: I watch Country Wayne, if I watched like, there's these
• 54:44
  Speaker 1: dogs that I watch, so I might ask just go
• 54:48
  Speaker 1: to the page and just watch them and that be it.
• 54:51
  Speaker 1: But as far as me just strolling, strolling, strolling, stroll,
• 54:54
  Speaker 1: I ain't doing it. If I'm strolling, I'm strolling for
• 54:57
  Speaker 1: something specific. So if I decide to watch you know,
• 55:01
  Speaker 1: the two the three dogs that I've watched them gross
• 55:06
  Speaker 1: since they were little. Me watching these three Caucasian babies
• 55:12
  Speaker 1: that are just so adorably cute, Well there's four of
• 55:15
  Speaker 1: them now, so there's like, no, sorry, there's five of them.
• 55:19
  Speaker 1: So there's like there's like four families and their babies,
• 55:23
  Speaker 1: and I have watched them since they were babies, and
• 55:26
  Speaker 1: I have watched these babies grow up and now they're
• 55:30
  Speaker 1: walking and some of them are a little bit older.
• 55:33
  Speaker 1: But I've been watching these kids since they were a
• 55:35
  Speaker 1: year old. Some of them have been watching since they
• 55:38
  Speaker 1: were born. But they are so cute now I watch them,
• 55:44
  Speaker 1: but that's because I might have taken it. I might
• 55:46
  Speaker 1: take an hour and say, you know what, let me
• 55:47
  Speaker 1: go ahead and go through each one of their videos,
• 55:50
  Speaker 1: check their videos, and that'll be the end of it.
• 55:53
  Speaker 1: That be it, that'll be all. So it's not that
• 55:58
  Speaker 1: I have to completely stop strolling, it's just the fact
• 56:03
  Speaker 1: just strolling, just to be strolling. That part I gotta
• 56:06
  Speaker 1: stop completely. So at the end of it, like say,
• 56:09
  Speaker 1: at the end of the night, I say, okay, let
• 56:12
  Speaker 1: me see what they posted, or if it just so
• 56:16
  Speaker 1: happens that I happened to see it, and I say, okay,
• 56:21
  Speaker 1: let me go see the puppies. Cause there's these puppies
• 56:26
  Speaker 1: that I watch and oh my god, they are so cute.
• 56:29
  Speaker 1: But they're not having no more puppies. So I watched
• 56:33
  Speaker 1: when she was pregnant for when she had the babies.
• 56:37
  Speaker 1: And now the puppies got great homes and that's the
• 56:40
  Speaker 1: last of the litter because she ended up making it
• 56:43
  Speaker 1: so they can't have no more babies. So they they
• 56:45
  Speaker 1: not having no more puppies. She says she ain't doing it.
• 56:48
  Speaker 1: She says, she already got you know, one one litter
• 56:51
  Speaker 1: and then you know the bab the the dog didn't
• 56:54
  Speaker 1: wanna feed the puppies. The the the the mother didn't
• 56:58
  Speaker 1: wanna feed the puppies. She tried be like nope. So
• 57:01
  Speaker 1: that's why she said she ain't doing it, because she
• 57:03
  Speaker 1: said absolutely not in my going through this again. And
• 57:06
  Speaker 1: I'm not mad at her, especially considering the dog. The
• 57:09
  Speaker 1: fact that the dog is not gonna feed the puppies.
• 57:12
  Speaker 1: I don't blame. I don't blame at all. I ain't
• 57:15
  Speaker 1: even mad at a Ford. But again, like I said,
• 57:19
  Speaker 1: if God says, okay, you can go and you can
• 57:22
  Speaker 1: stroll for a little bit. But I have a set
• 57:25
  Speaker 1: time that I said, okay, maybe an hour. I might
• 57:28
  Speaker 1: go and look at everything at the end of the
• 57:31
  Speaker 1: night and look at all these videos and then go
• 57:33
  Speaker 1: to bit so for the for the majority of the day.
• 57:37
  Speaker 1: I may not. God says for now, i'musa say no.
• 57:41
  Speaker 1: Then I have to respect that and just say okay, no.
• 57:45
  Speaker 1: So I need y'all to understand that when it comes
• 57:47
  Speaker 1: down to these things, they're important. So when God tell
• 57:51
  Speaker 1: you know, just say no. It shouldn't even be a
• 57:54
  Speaker 1: question about that. It shouldn't even be a doubt in
• 57:58
  Speaker 1: your mind when God says no, God say no. When
• 58:02
  Speaker 1: God give you standards, you hold on to them standards.
• 58:05
  Speaker 1: I'm not lowering my standards for you. No, I'm not
• 58:08
  Speaker 1: going down for you. Absolutely not. Am I gonna do that.
• 58:14
  Speaker 1: It's just like with Chantale chante and you, me and he,
• 58:21
  Speaker 1: You me and he, Well it gonna do baby now,
• 58:29
  Speaker 1: except this you, me and he. So now that's two chanteys.
• 58:38
  Speaker 1: One is a girl that his sister has known for
• 58:41
  Speaker 1: a while and they almost got together. And then there's
• 58:44
  Speaker 1: the one that is it's fiance. If you ain't been
• 58:46
  Speaker 1: watching Love It first, I mean Love and lock Up,
• 58:50
  Speaker 1: you might want to watch it because Love and lock Up,
• 58:56
  Speaker 1: Love and lock Up and now today Fiance is the
• 59:00
  Speaker 1: prime example of why I say that you gotta be
• 59:08
  Speaker 1: very very mindful. Now it ain't nothing wrong with finding
• 59:11
  Speaker 1: the level broad because I've been watching couples that have
• 59:14
  Speaker 1: went abroad and they still together and they happy and
• 59:18
  Speaker 1: they have a great life. So I'm not saying that
• 59:21
  Speaker 1: because I saw this one girl from Africa. She's dating
• 59:24
  Speaker 1: somebody that's German and they've been together for a while
• 59:28
  Speaker 1: and she finally moved over there, and she said that
• 59:31
  Speaker 1: she was lonely and she didn't know nobody and she
• 59:34
  Speaker 1: was homesick. And I get it. I get it because
• 59:37
  Speaker 1: when you move all the way to another country to
• 59:40
  Speaker 1: be with somebody and then your your home is like
• 59:43
  Speaker 1: so far away, it is only natural you're gonna be homesick.
• 59:48
  Speaker 1: But now that she's built this community on social media,
• 59:52
  Speaker 1: she's not, you know, lonely no more. Plus she's meeting
• 59:55
  Speaker 1: people now that she's going out and the bout, and
• 59:57
  Speaker 1: then not only that, she's now a full time, you know,
• 1:00:05
  Speaker 1: content creator. So, like I said, would I like to
• 1:00:09
  Speaker 1: have my channel where I'm getting endorsements and getting syndicated. Absolutely,
• 1:00:15
  Speaker 1: I would love that, But I gotta do it the
• 1:00:18
  Speaker 1: right way, and that means a lot of stuff that
• 1:00:22
  Speaker 1: I want to talk about. I can't no more. I
• 1:00:26
  Speaker 1: can't no mo unless I talk about it from a
• 1:00:30
  Speaker 1: real way, but I get it. I astutely get it.
• 1:00:41
  Speaker 1: So all I'm saying, y'all, is there come a time
• 1:00:48
  Speaker 1: where God is like, look, you've been doing all of this,
• 1:00:53
  Speaker 1: and you're going through all of this and it's time
• 1:00:57
  Speaker 1: to stop. So if you're not gonna stop, make it stop.
• 1:01:00
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna shut you down. And every since God has
• 1:01:05
  Speaker 1: shut me down, I get it because God shut me
• 1:01:09
  Speaker 1: down to show me that I can't continue to be superwoman.
• 1:01:16
  Speaker 1: I was superwoman. I was one of these people that
• 1:01:19
  Speaker 1: take people where they wanted to go, and I did
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  Speaker 1: all this stuff with people, and not once did I
• 1:01:24
  Speaker 1: focus on myself. Everything I got I gave to somebody
• 1:01:28
  Speaker 1: else because I didn't think I deserved it. God is like, no,
• 1:01:32
  Speaker 1: I'm not letting you continue going through this. I'm gonna
• 1:01:34
  Speaker 1: pull you. But honey, you're gonna be going through some
• 1:01:37
  Speaker 1: stuff medically. And sure enough, ain't lying. When I got sick.
• 1:01:42
  Speaker 1: Where was everybody at? When I had emergency gall blad
• 1:01:44
  Speaker 1: of surgeon? Where was everybody at? I get sick, I
• 1:01:47
  Speaker 1: ain't got nobody to take care of me. I don't
• 1:01:50
  Speaker 1: I either have to go to the hospital or I
• 1:01:55
  Speaker 1: gotta go to urgent care or my doctor. Say to y'all,
• 1:02:01
  Speaker 1: and you don't know what somebody is dealing with. You
• 1:02:04
  Speaker 1: don't know what somebody going through. You don't know none
• 1:02:07
  Speaker 1: that you don't know, somebody got got to deal with.
• 1:02:13
  Speaker 1: So for some of y'all be like, well, you don't
• 1:02:15
  Speaker 1: never go nowhere because God put me at the house.
• 1:02:21
  Speaker 1: So I am taking this time cause I get it now.
• 1:02:26
  Speaker 1: I get what God is telling me. And that's why
• 1:02:28
  Speaker 1: you have these sabbaticals, because the sabbaticals are the greatest
• 1:02:32
  Speaker 1: teachers you could ever have because they gonna teach you
• 1:02:34
  Speaker 1: so much. So now I'm figuring out what is right
• 1:02:38
  Speaker 1: and what is wrong as far as knowledge and information
• 1:02:42
  Speaker 1: that I got. So now I'm deprogramming myself of everything
• 1:02:46
  Speaker 1: and newly programming the things that God want me to learn,
• 1:02:51
  Speaker 1: and then I'm sharing them with jump. That's all I'm doing.
• 1:02:53
  Speaker 1: I'm sharing with y'all without learning on these sabbaticals. And
• 1:02:56
  Speaker 1: today was one of them. Today was Look, you can't
• 1:03:01
  Speaker 1: keep sitting in front of that, in front of a TV.
• 1:03:04
  Speaker 1: You can't keep sitting in front of computers. You're going
• 1:03:07
  Speaker 1: I gotta have to give your eyes some a break.
• 1:03:10
  Speaker 1: You're gonna have to start going outside. Man. I went
• 1:03:13
  Speaker 1: outside and went for a walk. It felt horrible cause
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 1: I felt like a vampire because I've been in the
• 1:03:17
  Speaker 1: house for so long. Okay, I was doing good when
• 1:03:22
  Speaker 1: it came to driving, and it ended up happening again.
• 1:03:25
  Speaker 1: And here we are now. I'm not saying I can't drive.
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 1: I'm not saying that I probably can drive, But like
• 1:03:32
  Speaker 1: I said, I'm gonna have to try tomorrow. I'm gonna
• 1:03:36
  Speaker 1: try to drive a little bit tomorrow. So I'm just
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 1: telling y'all like this here, it's easier said than done.
• 1:03:46
  Speaker 1: It really is. If y'all think these journeys are easy,
• 1:03:50
  Speaker 1: they're not because doing stuff that's uncomfortable, doing things you
• 1:03:54
  Speaker 1: ain't never done, befo. If you don't think that's not
• 1:03:57
  Speaker 1: scary and it's not uncomfortable, then you have no I
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 1: did what I was speaking of, Okay, you have no idea.
• 1:04:06
  Speaker 1: So all I'm saying to y'all is you're worrying about
• 1:04:08
  Speaker 1: the wrong things that don't matter. If you find the
• 1:04:12
  Speaker 1: right person, okay, cool. If you don't, oh will, but
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 1: everything begins and ends with that person. So I said,
• 1:04:28
  Speaker 1: I ain't got time for none of this nonsense, I know. So,
• 1:04:31
  Speaker 1: like I said, I'm going to enjoy it, just just sabbatical.
• 1:04:37
  Speaker 1: I'm going to get my throat or break. I'm gonna
• 1:04:39
  Speaker 1: sit my butt down and I'm going to do my
• 1:04:42
  Speaker 1: videos for my podcast for thirty minutes and that's gonna
• 1:04:46
  Speaker 1: be it. Maybe forty five. That's what I've been doing lately.
• 1:04:50
  Speaker 1: Some of them may run over that, and that's why
• 1:04:53
  Speaker 1: I have them the way I have them, in the
• 1:04:55
  Speaker 1: schedule that I have them. So I'm gonna do them
• 1:04:58
  Speaker 1: exactly as schedule. Now. During the week I may have
• 1:05:03
  Speaker 1: to do them at six o'clock, but during the weekends
• 1:05:05
  Speaker 1: I can do them, you know, between the times that
• 1:05:09
  Speaker 1: I need to do. So I'm trying to get to
• 1:05:12
  Speaker 1: a place where i can go to bed, get up,
• 1:05:15
  Speaker 1: start my day, go outside, go for a walk, and
• 1:05:19
  Speaker 1: come back in. You know, I don't eat nothing until
• 1:05:22
  Speaker 1: twelve because no man. Weekends, I don't eat two eleventh,
• 1:05:24
  Speaker 1: th Ory twelve o'clock anyway, But during the week I
• 1:05:27
  Speaker 1: may lick. I might eat a little bit earlier than that. So,
• 1:05:32
  Speaker 1: like I said, you gotta find what works for you.
• 1:05:36
  Speaker 1: If you're someone that's pestarian, then pestarian works for you.
• 1:05:40
  Speaker 1: If it's someone that's vegan, then it works for you.
• 1:05:43
  Speaker 1: But y'all need to understand everything that come. Each one
• 1:05:45
  Speaker 1: of them's gonna always be something, So sometimes you may
• 1:05:49
  Speaker 1: have to do a couple of You may have to
• 1:05:52
  Speaker 1: be a pestarian and eat and do keto. So, like
• 1:05:56
  Speaker 1: I said, again, it is not people us the reason
• 1:06:00
  Speaker 1: they're overweight. It is the society is the reason why
• 1:06:03
  Speaker 1: people overweight. We're the only country that still has a
• 1:06:07
  Speaker 1: bunch of chemicals that we will not get rid of
• 1:06:10
  Speaker 1: in food. We're the only ones that have all of
• 1:06:13
  Speaker 1: these things wrong, and yet nobody's doing nothing about it.
• 1:06:21
  Speaker 1: So I'm a little lost on that one. So, like
• 1:06:25
  Speaker 1: I said, at the end of the day, I'm gonna
• 1:06:27
  Speaker 1: sit still, and I'm gonna get up tomorrow and I'm
• 1:06:33
  Speaker 1: gonna get up and say good morning, God, good morning, jeez,
• 1:06:35
  Speaker 1: do my morning prayers. I'm gonna sit down and do
• 1:06:38
  Speaker 1: my work that i need to do, and then I'm
• 1:06:42
  Speaker 1: going to enjoy the rest of get off, go for
• 1:06:46
  Speaker 1: a short walk because I'm just starting back walking again.
• 1:06:49
  Speaker 1: So i'ma I'm gonna do a short walk. I'mna try
• 1:06:52
  Speaker 1: to get my friend and get my stepper and my
• 1:06:55
  Speaker 1: treadmill together so I can start using them. I got
• 1:06:58
  Speaker 1: a scale over there. I'm also going to start documentaring
• 1:07:02
  Speaker 1: in a notebook as far as my journey in six months,
• 1:07:06
  Speaker 1: cause by January I want to lose about forty pounds,
• 1:07:11
  Speaker 1: so it starts. It starts tomorrow. So now that I
• 1:07:18
  Speaker 1: because God will bring your answers right smack to you.
• 1:07:22
  Speaker 1: And that's what God did today. God brought me my
• 1:07:24
  Speaker 1: answers today. I was looming with my friend on the
• 1:07:26
  Speaker 1: phone and it came and I came to some resolutions.
• 1:07:31
  Speaker 1: So I know what some things are that's going on.
• 1:07:33
  Speaker 1: Some of them are infections. Some of them stuff's not
• 1:07:36
  Speaker 1: circulating where it's supposed to be. So that tells me
• 1:07:39
  Speaker 1: I need to get up and work out a little
• 1:07:41
  Speaker 1: bit more. It tells me that in the morning I
• 1:07:45
  Speaker 1: need to start doing stretches before I start my day.
• 1:07:51
  Speaker 1: That I need to stay away from sugar, which I've
• 1:07:53
  Speaker 1: been doing pretty good with except with coffee. So but
• 1:07:58
  Speaker 1: I have the call that it's not really click every
• 1:08:03
  Speaker 1: once in a while. I'm not saying there's nothing wrong
• 1:08:06
  Speaker 1: with having something every once in a while, but you
• 1:08:08
  Speaker 1: need to be the one to make it. I found
• 1:08:12
  Speaker 1: other sugars that you can use that are better than
• 1:08:14
  Speaker 1: the ones in the stove. So, like I said, I
• 1:08:20
  Speaker 1: pretty much got it all situated. I just gotta write
• 1:08:22
  Speaker 1: everything down. But it works for me. May I work
• 1:08:26
  Speaker 1: for everybody else, But for some of y'all, it might
• 1:08:28
  Speaker 1: work for you. All I'm saying is, don't start this
• 1:08:33
  Speaker 1: journey thinking that weight loss is easy, because it ain't.
• 1:08:40
  Speaker 1: It's hard. It's a lot of work to go into it.
• 1:08:55
  Speaker 1: So all I'm saying is mind your own business forocus
• 1:09:00
  Speaker 1: on yourself, focus on your health, focus on your wellness,
• 1:09:03
  Speaker 1: focus on you until you get where you need to be.
• 1:09:07
  Speaker 1: And then when God puts you out in the world,
• 1:09:10
  Speaker 1: this is when everything's gonna be funny to you because
• 1:09:12
  Speaker 1: when you come back, nobody's gonna be able to recognize you.
• 1:09:15
  Speaker 1: They gonna be so used to you double old version
• 1:09:17
  Speaker 1: of you. When they finally see a new version of you,
• 1:09:19
  Speaker 1: they're gonna be, oh, my gosh, you look completely different.
• 1:09:22
  Speaker 1: Mh you sure do. So there is a method to
• 1:09:27
  Speaker 1: my madness because I do things deliberately. I do things
• 1:09:31
  Speaker 1: to see how things are. If I gotta, if I
• 1:09:33
  Speaker 1: gotta dress a certain way, just get attention. I don't
• 1:09:36
  Speaker 1: want it. I don't. So all I'm saying to y'all
• 1:09:44
  Speaker 1: is you don't know what the circumstance is. You don't, so,
• 1:10:01
  Speaker 1: like I said, when God pull you in a direction,
• 1:10:05
  Speaker 1: please stop fighting. When God tell you, don't worry about it.
• 1:10:08
  Speaker 1: Everything that's meant to you vent for you. I'm gonna
• 1:10:11
  Speaker 1: bring it to you. Then i'm'a sit back and wait
• 1:10:13
  Speaker 1: and be patient. I'm'a say it still through this storm,
• 1:10:16
  Speaker 1: and while I'm going through what I'm going through, I
• 1:10:18
  Speaker 1: probably will make some great people. But it ain't gonna
• 1:10:22
  Speaker 1: be nobody I'm looking for. Definitely not. So, like I said,
• 1:10:39
  Speaker 1: I got me a mindful of a lot of things.
• 1:10:42
  Speaker 1: When God says move, you move. When God says sys
• 1:10:45
  Speaker 1: still sits still. When God says, look, i'm'a cover you
• 1:10:48
  Speaker 1: from everything, but I don't want you going out because
• 1:10:53
  Speaker 1: you gonna end up making the wrong choices. But what
• 1:10:55
  Speaker 1: if people don't understand there? The devil also hears your
• 1:10:58
  Speaker 1: prayers too, and devil will make you believe that what
• 1:11:02
  Speaker 1: you prayed for is what it is, but it's not
• 1:11:06
  Speaker 1: because what you thought it was gonna be it wasn't.
• 1:11:18
  Speaker 1: So that's how I look at a choice like this.
• 1:11:22
  Speaker 1: When I deal with my clients, it's about making sure
• 1:11:25
  Speaker 1: they understand that this is their journey. I'm just a
• 1:11:28
  Speaker 1: loan for the ride. I'm the one that's just setting you.
• 1:11:31
  Speaker 1: Setting goals so you'll be able to let go to
• 1:11:33
  Speaker 1: pass and move forward. Is not about going backwards. It's
• 1:11:37
  Speaker 1: about moving forward. And that's why today I'm glad I
• 1:11:40
  Speaker 1: kind of went through what I went through, because if
• 1:11:42
  Speaker 1: I went and went through what I went through, I
• 1:11:44
  Speaker 1: would have came to these realizations. And that's the point.
• 1:11:47
  Speaker 1: Sometimes God has been telling me for a while what
• 1:11:49
  Speaker 1: you need to do, and you don't wanna listen. Now
• 1:11:51
  Speaker 1: you need to listen. You ain't got no choice to maam.
• 1:11:54
  Speaker 1: That's all I'm saying. Everything will work it self out
• 1:11:59
  Speaker 1: in time, but I'm not worried about growing people at
• 1:12:03
  Speaker 1: this point. Only the people that wanna be helped are
• 1:12:06
  Speaker 1: the people that I will deal with. The ones that don't,
• 1:12:08
  Speaker 1: you can stay right where you at, continue dealing with
• 1:12:11
  Speaker 1: what you're dealing with. It's just like with Beyonce when
• 1:12:13
  Speaker 1: it comes Sacred and what's going on with her situation
• 1:12:16
  Speaker 1: and the fact that all people want her to do
• 1:12:17
  Speaker 1: is sit there and do music. They don't want her
• 1:12:19
  Speaker 1: to do nothing else. That's because they broke. They ain't
• 1:12:23
  Speaker 1: got no money, just like Nikki Bnah, same thing. So
• 1:12:31
  Speaker 1: I'm a little lost on that. So with that being said,
• 1:12:43
  Speaker 1: I think that's it for me. But I just wanted
• 1:12:46
  Speaker 1: to come over here and just tell y'all sometimes justiter
• 1:12:50
  Speaker 1: even though it ain't fun, even though you wish you
• 1:12:52
  Speaker 1: can drive. But here the thing I'm g I'm kind
• 1:12:56
  Speaker 1: of glad this all happened because now I have a
• 1:12:58
  Speaker 1: Now I have a fool appreciation of driving. I have
• 1:13:03
  Speaker 1: a full appreciation of so many things that I didn't
• 1:13:08
  Speaker 1: appreciate the foe. And I promise if I am able
• 1:13:11
  Speaker 1: to drive again, I'm putting my phone down and I'm
• 1:13:15
  Speaker 1: just gonna get in the car and I'm just gonna drive.
• 1:13:19
  Speaker 1: That's all I want to do. All I want to
• 1:13:21
  Speaker 1: do is get healthy and drive. That's it. That's all
• 1:13:25
  Speaker 1: that's all I want to do is get healthy and drive.
• 1:13:31
  Speaker 1: That's it. Is that gonna be easy? No, But it
• 1:13:39
  Speaker 1: is what it is though self. That's what I mean.
• 1:13:43
  Speaker 1: Y'all keep thinking is being boring. No, it's about you. Healing, recovery,
• 1:13:49
  Speaker 1: is you're by yourself, but you got to have the
• 1:13:52
  Speaker 1: right people in place to help you. So you're not
• 1:13:55
  Speaker 1: really alone. You just gotta find that. You just gotta
• 1:13:57
  Speaker 1: meet the people. Now I'm about to say, fine, no
• 1:14:00
  Speaker 1: number one, you ain't looking for anything. Whatever it's meant
• 1:14:03
  Speaker 1: for you will find you. That's the way I look
• 1:14:09
  Speaker 1: at that. So I'm gonna getting ready to go to
• 1:14:12
  Speaker 1: bed and get some rest cause i gotta get up
• 1:14:16
  Speaker 1: early in the morning and I'm gonna get my throat
• 1:14:19
  Speaker 1: to rest and rest my throat and pray before I
• 1:14:23
  Speaker 1: go to bed, and pray in the morning when I
• 1:14:24
  Speaker 1: wake up. So now I finally have figured it out.
• 1:14:28
  Speaker 1: It took me a little bit, but I figured it out.
• 1:14:32
  Speaker 1: So now there's some things I gotta change because my
• 1:14:34
  Speaker 1: whole world is. I know it's gonna be different and
• 1:14:36
  Speaker 1: it's not gonna be boring. That's gonna be fun. But
• 1:14:40
  Speaker 1: like I said, both of us gotta change. So anyway, said,
• 1:15:00
  Speaker 1: I'm going to bed.
• 1:15:01
  Speaker 2: I'm sorry.
• 1:15:02
  Speaker 1: So, like I said, there's nothing wrong with sitting still,
• 1:15:04
  Speaker 1: there's nothing wrong with not being perfect. It's nothing wrong
• 1:15:06
  Speaker 1: with just saying, you know what, Even though I don't
• 1:15:09
  Speaker 1: like being in these four walls, that's why. That's why
• 1:15:10
  Speaker 1: I'm about to start walking. That's exactly why I'm about
• 1:15:14
  Speaker 1: to start walking, because again, I get some sunlight, I
• 1:15:17
  Speaker 1: getta be outside, I can listen to music. I get it,
• 1:15:20
  Speaker 1: just vibe and that's it. That's all. So who knows
• 1:15:25
  Speaker 1: my body may get better from all of this. So
• 1:15:39
  Speaker 1: so with that being said, I'm about to get up
• 1:15:42
  Speaker 1: and give it a bit. But what I will leave
• 1:15:44
  Speaker 1: is this just because I'm in a cocoon, just because
• 1:15:47
  Speaker 1: I'm in a hibernation, that's not mean I don't know
• 1:15:49
  Speaker 1: what's going on out in the world. I'm just tuning
• 1:15:52
  Speaker 1: it out. I'm focusing on healing right now, and that's
• 1:15:56
  Speaker 1: exactly what I intend to do starting tomorrow. It's gonna
• 1:15:59
  Speaker 1: be healing. That's it. That's the only thing I'm focusing on.
• 1:16:03
  Speaker 1: Losing weight, get my throat better, getting everything, and working
• 1:16:09
  Speaker 1: on my health. I'm not worried about a man, I'm
• 1:16:11
  Speaker 1: not worried about a friends, I'm not worried about nothing.
• 1:16:12
  Speaker 1: I'm just worried about my health. And the people that
• 1:16:15
  Speaker 1: God will introduce me will be the people that will
• 1:16:16
  Speaker 1: help me in that journey. So if a person's not
• 1:16:20
  Speaker 1: helping me, in that journey, then we don't need to
• 1:16:22
  Speaker 1: deal with each other at all periods. I'm not looking
• 1:16:27
  Speaker 1: for nothing. I'm not expecting anything. Whatever it is meant
• 1:16:31
  Speaker 1: for me, God will bring it plain lank period. I
• 1:16:34
  Speaker 1: don't have to go look for it, and I'm not
• 1:16:37
  Speaker 1: going to go look for it. So I just want
• 1:16:41
  Speaker 1: people to understand that y'all focusing on everybody else's business.
• 1:16:47
  Speaker 1: You're focusing on these demonic spirits. And let me say
• 1:16:49
  Speaker 1: this to everybody in that sector, y'all allowed a demon
• 1:16:54
  Speaker 1: to come in there and basically turn all of y'all
• 1:17:00
  Speaker 1: into negative people. It wasn't y'all, it was just that demon.
• 1:17:05
  Speaker 1: Y'all allowed that demon that was own mister bishop On y'all,
• 1:17:11
  Speaker 1: I'm the only one that did not. The problem is
• 1:17:14
  Speaker 1: I'm dealing with the aftermath of it. I am. Is
• 1:17:19
  Speaker 1: this journey gonna be easy? No, it's not, but it's
• 1:17:23
  Speaker 1: gonna be worth it in the end when I see
• 1:17:26
  Speaker 1: the results. So I have to put the phone down,
• 1:17:31
  Speaker 1: I have to change my diet, I gotta change all
• 1:17:34
  Speaker 1: of it. But that's the whole point of going through
• 1:17:36
  Speaker 1: this journey, is to figure out what works for me
• 1:17:39
  Speaker 1: and what doesn't and now that I know, it's gonna
• 1:17:42
  Speaker 1: have to be a keto diet, it's gonna have to
• 1:17:44
  Speaker 1: be meet some vegetables, it's gonna have to be working out,
• 1:17:48
  Speaker 1: it's gonna be happening to go for a walk. And
• 1:17:50
  Speaker 1: even though I'm in pain, I'm still gonna have to
• 1:17:52
  Speaker 1: do it. Like today, I was in pain, but guess
• 1:17:55
  Speaker 1: what I did it. I was in a lot of pain.
• 1:17:59
  Speaker 1: But guess I got through it. Why because God was
• 1:18:04
  Speaker 1: with me every step of the way. So again, my
• 1:18:08
  Speaker 1: faith in God does not wavering for nobody. It just ain't.
• 1:18:13
  Speaker 1: My happiness begins with me and me alone. I'm not
• 1:18:16
  Speaker 1: bringing nobody else in my chaos. So at the end
• 1:18:19
  Speaker 1: of the day, that means I gotta put my phone
• 1:18:21
  Speaker 1: down and not pick it up as soon as I
• 1:18:23
  Speaker 1: get off some as I wake up in the morning,
• 1:18:25
  Speaker 1: check my emails, go listen to my classes, listen to
• 1:18:28
  Speaker 1: my courses. Anything that's gonna help me with my health
• 1:18:30
  Speaker 1: and wellness or help me in my business. That is
• 1:18:34
  Speaker 1: all I'm focused on. Because I procrastinate with my business
• 1:18:37
  Speaker 1: because I'm focusing on social media. And that's what a
• 1:18:39
  Speaker 1: lot of us are doing. Because you're worrying about somebody else,
• 1:18:41
  Speaker 1: some celebrity. You could be a celebrity right now if
• 1:18:44
  Speaker 1: you weren't focused on all these other people. If y'all
• 1:18:48
  Speaker 1: won't worried about everybody else, you probably be in a
• 1:18:51
  Speaker 1: different place. Stop worrying about everybody else, and focus on yourself,
• 1:19:00
  Speaker 1: point blank period. Focus on you. God has seen that
• 1:19:09
  Speaker 1: you have helped people. God has seen what you have
• 1:19:13
  Speaker 1: done to make people happy. Now, God is like, nope,
• 1:19:16
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna stop you right here. You ain't gotta do
• 1:19:20
  Speaker 1: none of that no more. You've already proven you are
• 1:19:22
  Speaker 1: a child of God. You have proven that no matter
• 1:19:25
  Speaker 1: what somebody puts you through, you don't retaliate. You just
• 1:19:29
  Speaker 1: keep on pushing. But now I need you to heal.
• 1:19:32
  Speaker 1: I need you to heal. Can't do that if I'm
• 1:19:36
  Speaker 1: constantly messing up my eyes, I can't do that. If
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  Speaker 1: I'm not focused on building a business and building a brand,
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  Speaker 1: I can't do that. If the only thing I'm doing
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  Speaker 1: is trying to make something work that just isn't working,
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  Speaker 1: doesn't mean I can't do it. It just means I have
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  Speaker 1: to cut down on it. Cause God is like, this
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  Speaker 1: ain't the way I want you to do it. I
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  Speaker 1: want you to do it some way different and that's okay.
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  Speaker 1: So again y'all worry about the wrong things. It don't
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  Speaker 1: matter not to me. So again I'm focused on healing.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm tuning all of this out and I'm about
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  Speaker 1: getting a meditation. I'm about to learn how to meditate.
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  Speaker 1: I do it every night for I little bed. I
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  Speaker 1: meditate when i'm sleep because that's when I'm the most
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  Speaker 1: relaxed when i'm sleep. So I'm gonna continue to do
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  Speaker 1: my podcast. I'm gonna continue to do where I don't
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  Speaker 1: have to look at anything and just do my podcast.
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  Speaker 1: That's it. And eventually when God says, you know what,
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  Speaker 1: I want you to start going on social media to day.
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  Speaker 1: But that's because God want me to. So that people
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  Speaker 1: said I'm not the bed I'm sleeping. Let's say it.
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  Speaker 1: It's nothing about being perfect. Let's say all this stuff
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  Speaker 1: ain't number to lose. You ain't number a bunch of lies.
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  Speaker 1: It ain't numb but John A forty four and I
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  Speaker 1: ain't got time for it this one.
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  Speaker 2: Mhm.
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  Speaker 1: So there you go. So that's what I figured out today.
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  Speaker 1: That is my spiritual sabbatical for today. I've learned my
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  Speaker 1: health comes first, and everything else centers around that. If
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  Speaker 1: you ain't tryna be help with my health, then please
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  Speaker 1: don't bother me, if you ain't tryna do right by me,
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  Speaker 1: and please stay away from me. I have worked on
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  Speaker 1: myself mentally, psychologically and spiritually. Now I am working on
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  Speaker 1: myself physically, and that is gonna be the hardest journey
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  Speaker 1: of all. But I'm up for the challenge because I
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  Speaker 1: wanna get better, I really do. And anything that's gonna
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  Speaker 1: cause problems, I'm deafinitely staying away from it. And number
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  Speaker 1: one is the kids thing. So like I said, I'm
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  Speaker 1: not worried about none of this negativity at this point.
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  Speaker 1: I just wanna heal, and that's what my focus is,
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  Speaker 1: finding ways to heal, doing more holistic treatments. Who knows.
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  Speaker 1: I might come up with some products. Seriously, I think
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  Speaker 1: about getting doctor Savi's healing book of how to heal
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  Speaker 1: yourself with certain things. I'm about to think about getting
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  Speaker 1: that booth from tip Top, cause you ain't gonna find
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  Speaker 1: it nowhere. So again, I might decide to take a
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  Speaker 1: trip to go to doctor Save's thing just to get
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  Speaker 1: some s just to go get some healing. Who knows.
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  Speaker 2: So so With.
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  Speaker 1: That being said, I appreciate y'all for joining me for
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  Speaker 1: this episode. I love y'all and I appreciate y'all if
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  Speaker 1: you can taking time to listen to this podcast. That
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  Speaker 1: means a lot to me. This podcast is very portional
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  Speaker 1: Everyoniz's one of these podcasts I do on spriaker dot com.
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  Speaker 1: It's very personal to me. It's my version of recovery.
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  Speaker 1: It's my version of healing. It's my version of being
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  Speaker 1: a life coach. It's my version of the different types
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  Speaker 1: of recovery that there is. But you can't do 'em
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  Speaker 1: all at one time. You gotta do 'em one at
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  Speaker 1: a time. I'm at the last phase, which is my
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  Speaker 1: which is my physical health. And because I wouldn't be
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  Speaker 1: mentally prepared for this if I w was it mentally healthy,
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  Speaker 1: I am very much mentally healthy. I'm just not physically healthy.
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  Speaker 1: I'm emotionally healthy. I am all of that, and right
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  Speaker 1: now I'm relinquishing all the negativity. Lord, matter of fact,
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  Speaker 1: I'm my prayer now, a heavenly father, I'm first of all,
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  Speaker 1: and thank you for creating this world. I thank you
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  Speaker 1: for everything that you have given me in this world.
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  Speaker 1: And He's fifty years of living. I thank you, my child,
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  Speaker 1: my parents, and everybody who loved me. I thank you
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  Speaker 1: for every situation You've got me through, and you've guided
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  Speaker 1: me through through the assistance of Jesus guide assisting me
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  Speaker 1: through your guidance. I thank Jesus for everything that he's
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  Speaker 1: done in the exemption that he accepted what a godly
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  Speaker 1: person is supposed to be. Even though we don't have
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  Speaker 1: the abilities that Jesus does, but we still can have
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  Speaker 1: the same heart and the same spirit as Jesus does.
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  Speaker 1: Jesus satirist, does his life for us, and he gave
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  Speaker 1: up everything for us and resurrected from the dead after
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  Speaker 1: being in cruse sified by a bunch of people that
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  Speaker 1: did not believe that he was the Missiah. He is
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  Speaker 1: the example in how as golly people were supposed to be,
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  Speaker 1: and as godly people, we will be crucified. As godly people,
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  Speaker 1: we will have to repent, and as golly people we
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  Speaker 1: were we were. We were resurrects from any negative person
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  Speaker 1: in any negative situation as a different person. We are
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  Speaker 1: not supposed to rise from negativity and repent and learn
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  Speaker 1: and grow and evolve and still be the same person.
• 1:26:34
  Speaker 1: I've learned so much through this spiritual spittal. May you
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  Speaker 1: guide me on this healing process, letting me know what
• 1:26:41
  Speaker 1: I should and should not eat. And you've already started,
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  Speaker 1: because today you pretty much made me feel bad. Well,
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  Speaker 1: you didn't make me feel bad, but by me feeling bad,
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  Speaker 1: I came to the realization these are things I don't
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  Speaker 1: need to mess with. So I thank you for that.
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  Speaker 1: I thank you for letting me know through how my
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  Speaker 1: body reacts, what I'm I'm supposed to eat, and what
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  Speaker 1: I'm not supposed to eat, what I'm supposed to do,
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  Speaker 1: and what I'm not supposed to do, and how I'm
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  Speaker 1: supposed to be because my mind, my body, and my
• 1:27:09
  Speaker 1: spirit and emotions have to come together. So God, I'm
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  Speaker 1: asking you to help me through this journey of this
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  Speaker 1: weight loss journey, this health journey, and everything else on journey.
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  Speaker 1: Help me heal my throat, help me heal my back,
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  Speaker 1: let me heal, help me heal from arthritis, help me
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  Speaker 1: heal from chridct pain and its information and swelling. And
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  Speaker 1: may I get through this journey on the other side
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  Speaker 1: a new and better person who's lost a lot of weight.
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  Speaker 1: But I'm doing it the right way, May you help
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  Speaker 1: me one day find love and find happiness and whatever
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  Speaker 1: it is you feel that it's meant for me, you
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  Speaker 1: are gonna bring to me because you are the one
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  Speaker 1: that gets to choose who my husband is. You get
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  Speaker 1: to help me choose as far as the paths that
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  Speaker 1: I go on and who I choose to be with
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  Speaker 1: and who I choose to be around. That is based
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  Speaker 1: upon your guidance, based upon Jesus assisting me, and Jesus name. Amen,
• 1:28:02
  Speaker 1: there you go. That's what I'm starting to do every
• 1:28:06
  Speaker 1: night prayers. So I'm going to go to bed because
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  Speaker 1: it's some sleep. So I just want to come on
• 1:28:13
  Speaker 1: here and just say to y'all change that only goes
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  Speaker 1: with growth. It's also understanding. It's also healing. It is
• 1:28:21
  Speaker 1: also recovery. There's a whole lot to this. It's not
• 1:28:24
  Speaker 1: just twelve it's not just thirty, thirty, sixty ninety days.
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  Speaker 1: It don't work like that. It don't Recovery does not
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  Speaker 1: work like that at all. Recovery is a lifetime because
• 1:28:36
  Speaker 1: as long as you're in this world and negativity, you're
• 1:28:39
  Speaker 1: gonna always deal with something you have to recover from.
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  Speaker 1: And that's just the way that's just it on that
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  Speaker 1: even though it may not happy happen immediately, but doesn't
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  Speaker 1: mean it's not gonna happen. So the end of the day,
• 1:28:51
  Speaker 1: I praise God's name every day. And that's why I
• 1:28:54
  Speaker 1: made these podcasts, because these podcasts are basically regardless of
• 1:28:59
  Speaker 1: what happened, there's a higher power that is leading us
• 1:29:03
  Speaker 1: for the problem is we're going against everything that is
• 1:29:05
  Speaker 1: the higher power just to be a demonic world and
• 1:29:10
  Speaker 1: be a part of society's standards. And I'm sorry, I
• 1:29:12
  Speaker 1: want some parts of it. So with that being said,
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  Speaker 1: I appreciate y'all, I love y'all. Thank y'all for joining
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  Speaker 1: me for this episode, and we will talk next time.
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  Speaker 1: Bye guys. Oh and don't forget to hit the licenscribed
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